#or cos youve ignored them

[antisocialgaycat]

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[nikolais-eyepatch]

Hi I heard your requests are open and I certainly think your writing is quite fascinating^^ If you don't mind, can you write yan! ranpo hcs?? (can be sfw or nsfw)

hes so scary as a yandere-

Warnings: yandere, stalking, slight nsfw...not much!

okay starting off I think ranpo's actually the scariest to me...in blackmail atleast

he is the worlds greatest detective in world! but he's a yandere imagine how he would suddenly turn the tables-

imagine you work at the ada, whether your gifted or not

and ranpo cheerfully aproaches you with some sweets in hand as he starts bragging about his newst case- so easy to solve for him!

he ends up eating all of your praise and then he offers to feed you- he's really persistant too...

you hesitantly eat the chocolate from his hand as he uses his slightly covered thumb and puts it inside your mouth for you to lick

its as if he dosent realize that co workers dont do this or even friends...but he does know- how couldnt he?hes the greatest detective in the world! you just decide to ignore it since...hey hes sweet!

what you dont know is he excuses himself to the bathroom as he start licking the place where you licked...? ew creep. and the fact he's into this? ugh. (its giving siyun baek..)

but it comes to the point where...you feel so uncomfortable...

coming home and everythings fine! no sign of anybody there! except for the slightly crumpled blanket...but you must have done that! silly you!

hey what happend? why are all your friends suddenly hanging with out you...hey why isnt ranpo leaving you..?

hey...your favorite pair of panties...? oh nevermind you found them! hey..didn't you already check there though? huh...

how come everyone freezes when he's in the room...oh it must be since he's famous! and smart! thats overwhelming!

why are you suddenly smelling a strange comforting scent of vanilla? oh must be that one time ranpo visited your house with no warning to play a new game that he somehow figured out the plot fast...but hey he beat the level! so it must be from that right?

jesus why are you feeling watched...its scary...yet comforting..? no! that's creepy!

whys ranpo comforting you when suddenly you feel all helpless? he just...knows...please he knows since hes the greatest detective right? maybe not-

You wont cuddle with him because you want space? oh! he didn't realize you wanted him to reveal all the things youve never told anybody...he said your body language told everything to him...?

now you and ranpo sort of start doing lovey dovey stuff! its as if hes all delusional- your not even dating! but hey...just for a little while right? no more...right?

kisses for every case he solved, every sweet he ate, every small task you or him completed, every kiss for...everything! he's cute as he just starts blushing afterwords!

and it gets creepier- he starts getting all pouty and whiney! typical him but the threats he just said are scaring you

suddenly one day he tells you 'i cant wait till were married, huh!'...you guys just established a relationship without even knowing? its all fine though ^^

but hey if you're a good girl for him he'll let you off the hook sometimes! you get to hang out with your friends again...a bit shorter time but its fine since its ranpo! and if you equally show him affection and praise and love- he's the best!!

if you dont....hey it dosent take super deduction skills for your cute head to process it heh ♡!

[cupoftaae]

Growing Pains (KTH drabble)

Summary- You and Taehyung discover the struggles of parenthood as you take on the task of raising your 3 month old daughter, Kiyomi.

Warnings- mentions of postpartum struggles and attachment issues

word count- 1.6k

A/N- Hi guys! so after Ladybug got so much love I decided to make a another drabble to continue their storyline, this takes place months after their daughter is born. Hope you enjoy it!

Taehyung woke up to the sounds of crying. He sat up and looked over at his clock, it was 4:32am, and you werent in the bed.

Groaning, he pushed the covers back and began walking down the hall into his daughters room, finding you on the floor with her in your arms.

"Im sorry we woke you, go back to bed" you whisper, noticing the sudden appearance of your husband in the room. "are you guys alright?" he asked, ignoring your previous demand as he walked further in and sat next to you, eyes still sleepy from the abrupt awakening.

You sigh and gently rock the small baby in your arms as she wailed, becoming frustrated yourself. "she wont stop" you exhale, finally looking at taehyung. "maybe shes hungry?" he suggested, moving his hand to wipe away his baby's tears.

"She wont latch...so I dont think she is...I also changed her and put her in a lighter onesie incase she was too hot" you gesture to the new outfit on Kiyomi, of course taehyung smiled at the ladybug printed fabric.

"let me see her" he whispered, gently taking the frail 3 month old out of your arms. "Hi baby, you giving mommy a hard time again?" he kissed all over her face before pulling her against him, her tiny head resting on his shoulder as his hand rubbed her back.

"im so tired" your hands run over the front of your face, knowing you return to work tomorrow afternoon and not only would you be exhausted, you would be missing your baby.

Since Kiyomi was born, youve been home every single day making sure she was taken care of, of course Taehyung has been an excellent help as well, and you probably wouldnt have been able to do this without him, yet at the same time you couldnt express your fears of going back to work after maternity leave....you didnt want to let him down or make him feel like you didnt trust him. It wasnt ever about trust, it was about going hours and hours without being able to make sure your daughter was okay. What happens if she needs mommy? What happens if she starts to cry and he cant differentiate it from a hunger cry, dirty diaper cry, or a tired cry?

"go back to sleep, i'll take care of her" he yawned and stood up, one hand reaching down to help you to your feet.

"I cant sleep" you sigh, walking over to rearrange her crib and the blankets. "cant we just keep her in our room tonight? she can sleep in our bed" you finish.

Taehyung gently rocked her around as he paced the room, the small cries slowing down. "baby I thought we agreed its better for her to be in her own room, she is gonna be too dependant on us.....and why cant you sleep? you just said you were tired-"

"because I have a list of things I need to do Taehyung!" you turn around, "I have to pump because she didnt want to eat, and I need to make sure you have enough milk for tomorrow, plus extra just incase, and then I need to put my work clothes in the washer because I forgot, then dry them, and you know what?" you throw your hands up as you walked over and took your daughter "shes only 3 months old, theres no harm in having her in our bed, who cares! she wont even remember anyways" you scoff and walk out of the room.

You didnt mean to snap on him like that, in fact you felt bad as soon as you left her bedroom. Taehyung is a great dad and an even better husband, but you still found yourself unable to stay calm when the list of things piled on, you didnt know how everything was going to go tomorrow, and you were stressed.

"hey...Im sorry if I said anything to upset you" he whispered as he finally walked into your shared bedroom, his daughter now asleep on the comforter as you sat and tried to pump milk.

sighing, you turn to look at him. "I didnt mean to act like that...you didnt do anything wrong, im just on edge"

He slowly walked over and sat on the bed next to you, careful of the sleeping baby in front of him. "whats going on, sweetheart?"

You didnt respond right away, instead you shrugged and looked down at Kiyomi, feeling those stupid tears resurface to your eyes again. "talk to me angel..." he rubbed your back.

"I dont want to leave her" you spoke in a choked whisper, wiping your cheek quickly. "What do you mean?" he calmly responded.

"Work tomorrow, I dont want to go....I havent been away from her since she was born. Ive had 3 months but im not ready." you take a breath, gathering your thoughts. "I went to the supermarket yesterday to buy dinner by myself, and almost had a panic attack because I realized she wasnt with me"

"my love, its okay to feel like this you know?" he rubbed your back softly, his chest tightening upon hearing your struggles. "sounds like you might be experiencing some separation anxiety,"

"I wanna work from home" you protest, shaking your head. "I cant leave her, and Its not about you not being a good parent- because you are so good, probably better than me" you chuckle lightly, "I just need it for myself....I need to see her. I spent 9 months taking care of her, I knew where she was at all times, and now that shes actually here I get so worried something will happen"

"i know sweetheart, I know" his hand ran through your hair as you spoke, "If you really want to look for a job that allows you to work from home, i'll support you all the way, you know that....but I really think its important to go tomorrow at least, to tell them about whats going on"

You leaned against your husband, glad he was supporting you in such a vulnerable moment. "why cant I just call them tomorrow?" you sniffle

"because I think its good to just go in, the smaller steps you take, even if its just a day, will probably make things easier for you."

"mm....just tomorrow?" you look at him

"Just tomorrow, then you dont ever have to see that place if you dont want to, you can stay home and i'll pamper you both"

You giggled and shook your head, "no, I wanna work....just not outside the house"

"and I support that" he gently lifted your chin so he could kiss you.

You smiled and kissed him back, watching him carefully as you pulled away.

"You are so beautiful, I swear motherhood made you even more attractive than you already were" he grinned

you raised an eyebrow, looking down at yourself before looking at him, "are you kidding me? I have a suction cup attached to my tit right now, and my hair needs to be washed....dont even try to say I look good" you shook your head as you noticed the bottle was full, taking off the pump and pulling your shirt down as you crewed the cap on.

"Ah you dont see yourself how I see you, the fact you go through so much for our baby is what is beautiful to me, and just for the record, you could never shower again and i'd buy all the nose plugs in the world just so I could be near you and call you cute"

"shut uppppp" you whine and lean against the pillow, "thanks though....fatherhood looks good on you"

"now thank you, but we both can tell that its not physically" he laughed and stood, putting his hands on his belly. "sympathy weight" he patted his stomach, making you laugh.

"Hey, I didnt do that to you!" you retort

"Yes! you insisted that I eat with you every time you had a craving, and what did I do?"

"ate with me" you smile

"yeah, except you were eating and it went to the baby" he chuckled, "mine went to my stomach area"

"hey I think dad bods are sexy" you nudge him

he rolled his eyes jokingly and wrapped you in his embrace, both of you looking down at your finally sleeping daughter.

"next kid, you deal with those cravings alone" he teased, hand gently squeezing you closer.

You smiled brightly at his words, you couldnt handle another child right now, especially with your current mental state, but you knew in the next 3 years you would enjoy having a second baby.

"thats not gonna be for a while bubs, relax" you patted his thigh

"what if she gets lonely" he looks at you

"are you serious" you laugh, squishing his face "shes 3 months, plus she has us, and tannie. I promise she will be well entertained until we have another kid"

He huffed and slouched down, making you giggle.

He sat up and grabbed his phone, turning the video on as he began filming his sleeping baby. "I havent recorded anything in a bit, well thats a lie, I recorded her yesterday when I was playing airplane and she ended up puking on me"

Your giggles are heard off camera before he faces it towards you "Oh its funny huh?"

"shh, youre gonna wake her" you quickly cover the camera to hide yourself before he continues to ramble on about your baby. He's been doing this since that day you both found out you were expecting Kiyomi, and it still warms your heart to see a man so in love with his creation of life.

He was your rock, and she was your ladybug, and perhaps you would be okay after all.

[solivagantingrebel]

Fanfic writer questions!

How many works do you have on ao3?

8! But if we count my other account that I abandoned, 10.

What's your total ao3 word count?

So far, roughly 142k words.

What fandoms do you write for?

Mostly just COD fandom (exclusively Ghostsoap!)

Top five fics by kudos:

Leaving Your Heart On Fire - omegaverse smut amirite? (first attempt at smut fic too, which is, something!)

carry me in your teeth (with tender jaws of sympathy) - seal!soap x orca!ghost with hurt/comfort, biting and other shenanigans. honestly, i never thought people would like it that much since i hallucinated the plot & the first chapter within a day lmaoo.

Only Yours - another omegaverse smut! second one in the series, but whatever. wall sex galore tho <33

Sweetest Gift - lingerie & shibari & bdsm. need i say more

With The Softness Of Your Breath - what if hallmark movies were good, and ghoap? ALSO childhood friends and retired au + all the christmas goodness. this one is very deserved and i will literally kiss everyone who read this on the mouth for giving it a chance even tho i know first person pov isn't favoured in fandom spaces. i poured my heart into it, ty <3

Do you respond to comments?

I try my best to! Miss some sometimes because i'm too busy giggling and kicking my feet over the sheer amount of elation i feel whenever i get the notification.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Happy ending kind of guy, so none. Unless you count the letter. MCD 😔

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

CHRISTMAS FIC,, but all of them are going to be happy ending so we'll see!! my current longfics will take the rest of the year, or more, to end though, so who knows.

Do you get hate on fics?

No? But I did get a comment about how first person pov was something that a reader hated and they were looking forward to reading the fic with the tags & summary. Oh well, their loss.

Do you write smut?

ABSOLUTELY,,, i adore writing smut. right after fluff and angst, i have to say.

Craziest crossover:

None yet :(

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, not that I know of.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! I wouldn't mind it though.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No but Alex. i am looking at you with the softest, darkest brown eyes ever.

All time favourite ship?

GHOSTSOAP. but also capitaru and cami. if you know you know. i don't mind ghoap x reader too, but i swear they NEED to be fucking each other as well, no ghoap 'thinking' of each other as friends and nothing more. all of us are in love and fucking and that is final, or there is nothing.

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Beyond Life and Death,,, im so sorry my first attempt at a longfic but i really overestimated everything before i started writing it. Still hold it in my heart, since it was how I taught myself to write fanfics in general but it's a mess, honestly.

What are your writing strengths?

I. have no idea. I've been told I'm good at setting scene (emotional, erotic, angsty) so maybe that? Words also fly out of my mind at the speed of light whenever I am deeply dissecting a character's inner monologue, feelings and thought process AND ALSO TRAUMA, so that too.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I would say action if it were me from the past,, but I've gotten better at it. So, for now, plot, but I'm working on it!

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

HELL YEAH!!

First fandom you wrote in?

......JJK. You will not find that fic though.

Favourite fic you've written?

All of them are my babies don't make me choose 😭

I have no idea who has done this tag game and who hasn't. it was trending like months ago, so open tag for now! do feel free to yap about your fics and tag me if you, i'd love to know <3 (get some recs meself) ill tag a few but feel free to ignore me if youve already done it lmao @eiraeths @myriadblvck

[gettinshiggywithit]

!Dating Sukuna HeadCanons!

Scenario:-what would it be like to date ryumen sukuna?

Pairing:-sukuna x gn!reader{shell}

Genre:-fluff

Type:-headcanons

A/N:-i hopy you like this @shelly-stark-official! I tried:’)

Okay

SO

Sukuna is a little shit

But its fine cos so are you~

Honestly the fact that the kINg oF cUrSeS fell in love with your devious and scheming self was not a surprise

Especially not to yuuji(poor fella had to share all of sukunas thoughts abt you and while u and itadori were besties.sukuna wasnt um...thinkin of you in a um platonic way)

(Like at all)

So when buddy boi finally asked you out

And although it felt weird um datin someone who shared the same body as your best friend,you got used to it and yuuji learned not to be so awkward abt it too...

And the moment he suggested you play a (borderline sadistic) prank in yuuji,you paused for a sec before agreeing~

And the moment he suggested you play a (borderline sadistic) prank in yuuji,you paused for a sec before agreeing~

(You knew youd be able to use your quirk if something rly badd happened to him)

And lemme tell you ‘kuna fell even deeper in love~

Sometime you and him and yuuji go out for lunch and while yuuji is the one in control,sukuna opens up those lil mouths on yuujis palms and under his eye to talk to you.

You feed him fries and yuuji hates that the grease is getting on his face😭(ples apologise to our best boi 😔)

So many ppl were like legitimately scared of sukuna but to you he was just a little shit and honestly? I think yall’d be cutee together (i wanna be the ring bear! 🐻)

(I think ur dates would include LOTS of scheming but also bitchin,cos this man has THOUSANDS of yeaes worth of tea to spill and hearin abt ancient gossip is still funny as shit🙈)

Now a little on the powercouple dynamic~

I think that while yall would tease and joking insult eachother,if anyone else tried dishing out jabs in your respective directions the other wouldnt stand for it

Like if someone ELSE calls u idiotic,theyre begging for mercy in a second

And if anyone calls sukuna something insulting,you’re basically walkingg them upto deaths door urself

And if You ever mention how this means he cares abt you,he will in fact go into denial and completely invalidate your opinion on the subject

Furthermore if anyone ever speaks badly of the two of you as a couple (i.e. gossiping and such) yall would just completely ignore them

Like who cares if a barely succeeding apprentice sorcerer doesnt approve of your relationship?????

Yh thats right,no one!

And just to piss em off further,i think hed suddenly initiate a particularl Passionate kiss in front of the gossiper.

Suffice to say that shut em up,for better or worse

I dont really think sukuna would ever fully open up to anyone,not even his s/o.but every so often you do catch glimpses of who he is deep down.its usually blink-and-you-miss-it moments but youve caught some

He doesnt really carw about how open you are either but i think itd make him feel special if you are morw open and vulnerable with him.again,he rly doesn’t give a fuck but it just makes him feel a certain way,y’know?

please dont repost my work here as your own on any platform all rights belong to me except that of the characters used,their right belong to their respective owners.but these stories? mine.

feedback,likes,reblogs and comments are so very appreciated tbh :’)i hope you enjoyed and ill catch ya next time!

Comments & Reblogs w/ tags >>>>>>>>>>>likes please

Taglist open for anyone interested!

[luveline]

hi jade ! sry if im being rude !! u dont hv to answer it !! do you ever feel like people dont appreciate ur kindness?? youre the most amazing person ive known (online n otherwise) and youve inspired me to be the kindest version of myslef cos it doesnt hurt to be kind !! but i feel like people take it for granted ? very easily? i know its stupid to expccet something in return and im not usually doing it but does it ever bum you out when people dont reciprocate ?

omg no it’s okay lots to say you’re not rude at all

I guess I’m always disagreeing with myself cos like there’s lots of points but I’m not telling you you have to agree with me cos you don’t, but sometimes being kind and expecting something back isn’t kind at all, but at the same time there’s a bare minimum level of kindness that lots of people aren’t reaching either haha. It boggles me a bit for you to be inspired by me to be kind, because I know how selfish I can be and I know I could be better to the people around me, but I also know what you’re saying. It can be incredibly frustrating to be kind over and over and over again and someone just doesn’t notice or doesn’t really care very much! Definitely okay to feel frustrated and upset at those times! And you don’t actually have to be the number one morality all the time, you CAN expect kindness back in return, I think we all deserve it and so we should all be trying to give it to others. Some people do just suck, some people are less interested in us than we wish they were, some people have a lot going on behind the scenes, and unfairly that affects us (even though the latter scenario affects them too). So yeah I guess I do feel that way, but also know there are instances where I’ve done the same thing for sure, so ignorant to the way people have gone the extra mile for me that they’ve been upset and I just didn’t know.

[tooru-avispa007]

hold on you mentioned once in a post how diavalo and tooru are similar.. can i ask you how. youve got me so interested in hearing it id literally die to hear that.

Hi anon! Thank you for ask and your interest! <3

Well first of I want to clarify these are just superficial thoughts, so dont take most of these seriously, this is not a theory of a counterpart.

Part 5 and 8 spoilers btw

Imo they in canon have some similar traits (which makes me love them both) that I am going to talk about below:

-Double identity: This could be the most noticiable trait they share, Diavolo hides his true identity using Doppio for outside tasks, so the mafia never founds about him. Although Tooru, unlike him, only uses the Hospital Director as a facade to hide his intentions with the new Locacaca plant, among Yasuho & co, distorting about who was behind the control of the locacaca organization (although it ended up being too obvious for us). They both have power on their respective facade, Diavolo most of the time guides Doppio when he is struggling, but when there is some details that Doppio can overlook, he controls the body even if it is for a few short moment. And Tooru just can do it completely (except for controlling calamities) because Wonder of You, let's say, is "materialized" in the body of Satoru Akefu.

-They both lead a trafficking organization: Diavolo, as the mafia boss explain itself, and Tooru as the brain behind the Locacaca project. I personally think what Tooru is doing can directly count as "dangerous acts" but easier to ignore, he took it upon himself to bring the Locacaca fruit to Japan and discreetly sell it to rich people for a large sum of money, and even plan about selling it legally as a brand, after experiencing with humans and keeping as confidential most of the information. Both have their goal, Diavolo to become a supreme ruler of Italy through the power of his great mafia, and Tooru to restructure society in favor of his species and have recognition. And extra info, they both had traitors (la squadra members and Jobin respectely) which had a important role in the story.

-They were defeated by a sudden power up from the protagonists: Giorno was able to get the arrow and obtain requiem, ending up defining his victory against Diavolo. Now, however, I don't agree too much that the defeat of Wonder of You was only due to Josuke's Go Beyond, but also due to the important help of Paisley Park. Anyway, Josuke learned Go Beyond near the last moment, when the final battle already seemed defined by Toru's victory, I guess.

-Flashbacks with characters from previous parts: Polnareff began to investigate Diavolo about the arrows in Egypt, which ended in a fatal encounter between the two where Polnareff almost lost his life. He then went to Italy to continuing investigation and contact the Buccigang to talk about the Boss identity. Something very similar to Tooru and Lucy, Lucy was investigating about Locacaca with the little information there was, she went to Morioh to take a look at the Higashikata orchard, and after an almost mortal attack of a rock organism, she was able to see Tooru through a moment, who seemed to be planting one of the Locacaca plants. It is then explained that Lucy was able to return to America but never return to Japan again to continuing her investigation due to the start of the war and her subsequent death, I think that it is implied in a non-explicit way that this has happened as a result of a calamity, to keep Tooru safe from this investigation.

-Having an important bond with a character that is against them: Diavolo needed to kill Trish, his daughter, to be sure that his past is completely erased and no evidence remains. Trish didn't even know about this before and she ended up being saved by the Buccigang and then they finally decided to go defeat the Boss. Then there is Tooru who was Yasuho's ex and says that the memories he has with her are important. The relationship between Tooru and Yasuho is, for me, the true interaction between antagonist and protagonist, instead of the one Tooru has with Josuke, they almost didn't even interact directly.

These are for me the most similar traits excluding their personality and late presentation, which is something much more far-fetched and boring to read, hehe x) if someone have noticed another one or I miss something, be free to share it in comments I would enjoy to read them or correct what I wrote!

[nerves-nebula]

 This turtle au has made me think more about my childhood than I have in forever. (I know that’s very common but it’s too late at night in my timezone for me to think of a decent joke to make about it)

  Uh warning, complex (and probably not super relatable? I have an odd situation) feelings about parents ahead though I’m sure that’s just the usual drill for ya nowadays.

  Because like…there’s so much I relate to, but also feel like I shouldn’t. Because unlike Splinter, my parents did get better. They went to therapy, stopped hurting us, apologized for it all, and genuinely earned forgiveness by being there, caring, and listening and learning.…But it still happened, y’know? Like…they can be awesome now, but they also spent most of my childhood yelling and hitting and a bunch of other shit I’ve repressed. I've still got issues from it, and half my childhood is repressed memories while the other half is screaming at people. 

  And so I guess it’s weird trying to reconcile that. To have my fury co-exist with the fact that the people I’m mad at have grown into some of the most amazing people ever. Like I’m terrible for daring to still be mad…but then it hurts to know what the people I love are capable of, to see a proud smile all while knowing in the back of my mind that that person has physically harmed me, that they’ve given me a cold stare and smashed me into a wall with those same hands that are patting my back right now... And maybe they haven’t hurt me and my siblings in years, but…it happened and it fucking hurts still…

  IDK where I’m going with this any more, and I should probably (read: definitely) be sleeping, but I guess…well, thanks for sharing your AU. It’s uncomfortably relatable and yet somehow deeply cathartic. It’s made me think a lot about stuff I had been trying to repress, but in like, a good productive way I guess? I dunno. It hurts good. Probably gonna sleep now lol. Feel free to ignore this if you want, guess I just wanted to let you know that your AU helped me, all while being really pretty from an art standpoint…keep it up dude.

"it hurts good" hah. yeah. i get that.

sounds like youve got an ok situation goin on, for what it's worth im proud of your parents for getting better. and im happy for you. it's ok to still be mad or resent them for things did before, obviously. you might need some kinda therapy to work through or process shit but, like, there's nothing wrong with relating to this story. it's for you!

i mean, its for ME but it's also for you hahh.

[one-abuse-survivor]

hi i kinda need some advice on how to deal with everything but dw if its too much to help with

i live with my abusive parents, but despite them being very 'chill' the past year or so im still constantly on edge around them, my dad is practically nonexistent to me, i ignore him and have cut myself off from him emotionally, and im still pretty close to my mom as i kinda have to talk to her so often but she can get angry really quickly and want to hurt me so im constantly making sure my tone and wording are always correct and that can be exhausting in itself ngl lol. i work nights, im only slightly on edge around my coworkers as im still a little unsure of them but ik thats just 'fake news' and its just my anxiety talking. the issue is that, when i saw my boyfriend a few days ago, (i left the country and travelled alone), it was heaven. i felt safe 24/7, i got hugs, kisses and affection AND got to give that to him too and honestly, i was the happiest i think i have ever been in my life. i felt so free. then i had to go home, and once i saw my mom at the airport and getting in the car with her, it all crashed down and it was hell. ive only been home 3 days and ive only just managed to settle it down in my head lol its crazy. its just so opposite to being with him. my brain was just acting as though it had been shocked very hard and it was hard to just focus or be happy and i got suicidal pretty quick. i did start my period too, and i get bouts of depression whilst that happens so it really really did not help my situation at all and it sucked lol. i leaned on him a lot for support and it was so so hard to process and i just dont fully understand why. its so confusing as to why i practically had a breakdown when i got shoved back into that environment like i mean ik it makes sense like going from safe to unsafe very quickly can do that ig but i mean more like its just weirding me out a lot lol. i just cant believe i have been so on edge with my parents and how high my stress is all the time at home. id gotten very used to it, and ig a few days without it was enough to make my brain forget about it all. but idk. ik i need therapy or something like that lmao but i was wondering if you could help me understand it a little more and if youve gone through this before and like if i can get some advice on how to get through it a little more smoothly. my bf and i had a talk earlier and he wants me to try learn how to do all that by myself as it exhausts him when he has to help so much even though he wants to help as much as he can. i understand that fully and dont blame him at all for feeling that way, cos yk, hes my bf not my therapist so ik i can go to him for help but sometimes, like the past few days, hes not the best helper for that haha but im just struggling to know the steps i have to take to get to the self sufficient person we both want me to be lol. ik this is probably a lot, im sorry about it, but i hope your day is going the best it can go, thank you for helping us all out 💕

Hey, nonnie! Sorry for the late reply.

I'm sorry this happened and you had such a strong reaction to going back to an unsafe environment after feeling safe around your boyfriend. This used to happen to me too, and I can really relate to your experience.

When I was still living with my mother, my dad lived half a country away, and every year on summer and Christmas, I would travel alone to spend a few days/weeks with him and his wife. Being with them always felt like an oasis in a desert, and at the same time, it made me forget my mother's abuse. It was... Blissful, but also numb? I don't really know how to describe it. But, if I combine that with my experience with cutting out my mother for good, I can tell you that traumatised brains are experts at repressing all memories of the abuse the moment they feel safe so that you can keep on living without having to process all of it at once, which would paralyse you.

So then of course, going back to the unsafe abusive environment can be really distressing. It's like getting slapped in the face with all of the fear and horror that your brain had already locked away the first chance it got. When you're consistently feeling unsafe, you barely even notice it because your whole being is focused on surviving. But being able to lock that away in the back of your mind, only to have it shoved in your face again? It's absolutely going to mess up with your mind. It's how I felt every time I returned to my mother's house as well. And, in my experience, the longer you spend away from the abusive situation, the more your tolerance for abuse decreases, and the harder it hits you if you're exposed to it again.

I think just knowing that this is a thing that can happen can help you a lot. I'm assuming this was the first time you went through this, or at least the first time you noticed it. First times in any context can be tough, because you can't know what to expect. But, now that you already know this can happen, it won't take you by surprise, and that in itself might lessen the blow a bit.

And now that you know this can happen, you can also plan ahead so you have ways to ride the wave of emotions when it comes. Can you think of anything that helps you during bad trauma moments? Talking to friends, being outside your parents' house? Writing, reading, listening to music? Hiding in a safe-ish space? Personally, it used to help me to talk to friends and vent to my diary about the trauma back when I was in this situation, and also being away from home as much as possible.

I hope you can find things that help you! But I also want you to know that these trauma reactions probably won't go away for as long as you're living with your parents. Brains aren't wired for happiness—they're wired for survival, and it's not realistic to demand them to stop trying to help us survive. So please, be gentle with yourself if you continue having this (or any other) trauma reaction while you live with them. Being self-sufficient is a great long-term goal, but it's absolutely not worth punishing yourself for if you can't get there while you're still actively living in an unsafe environment.

I also want to say that I, too, went through still having trauma reactions around my abuser even after her abuse had "calmed down". I know it can sometimes feel like trauma reactions to being around our abusers aren't justified if their abuse isn't as bad as it used to be, or if we feel like it's stopped altogether. But, nonnie, they are. They're completely justified. Again, it's about survival. These people have shown they can hurt you, so the possibility of it happening again is always going to be there. And your brain isn't going to risk letting its guard down and being defenceless around them.

Hope some of this helps. Sending a big virtual hug ❤️

[gothtranshumanist]

The Strain of Switching

I have type 1 Bi-polar disorder. This is made only slightly worse by the current economy, as I recently was off my meds until i had enough cash to buy them aagin, but thats only becauae I'm more prone to a sharp low after taking them for a while.

The thing they don't really emphasize about the condition to you until you figure it out yourself is that the background thoughts we have normally during the lows are just rejecting the want or need to put in effort. Depression isnt just being sad, its being mentally exhausted to the point of not wanting to put in effort to how you feel or what needs doing. Its like 4-Dimensional apathy, but instead of not caring its that you dont mentally or emotionally feel like caring will add anything positive or is worth the effort.

The lows suck because they suck the life out of wanting to make art, wanting to write and wanting much anything beyond survival and basic instant gratification. But for all the sludge that being under the lows creates, being dragged along by the highs is much more dangerous.

Mania is harder to pin down without feeling it because usually its tied to a specific drive or obsession and rarely just occurs out of extreme conditions like Borderline Personality or Bi-Polar. The closest common association beyond drugs would be the blind joy you have about something as a kid, because like a kid you dont know any better about the things you shouldnt do or how overexertion and overindulgence can ruin things not juat for youself but for those around you. Its worse than that, because you both silence the noises that know those things but also dont see dangers in new choices given what youve learned already.

Its easy to hurt friends, lose vital money, ignore personal needs and burn out hard when the highs have you. With cognitive behavioral therapy and medication you can work around these bad symptoms but it takes time and work to get there. But when you're creating? It feels like nothing can stop you. Any insecurities evaporate and you can always go back and reread what you wrote if its not good. And these are things you can do without being manic, but its easier to not second guess or doubt yourself and especially easier than being depressed.

I write when I have something I feel I need out of my system, and sharing that something has become a bit harder and harder to do because I have deleted twelve different blogs in my lows and even more books and word docs than I can comfortably want to remember.

I will never be consistent, its not possible, medicated or otherwise. All I can do is force myself, for good or ill, to not delete this one this time regardless of my state of mind. I started this blog because I was off my medication and was manic, so I felt extremely confident in my ideas for The Plante Co-op and talking on necromancy and transhumanism.

If I'm low, I might not write. If I'm neutral, which means Im medicated, I'll be self-motivating to the best of my ability. If I am Manic, am in a high, I will be writing consistently but only as long as that high lasts.

I dont have a "following" given what the site says, but if you're interested in sharing your won experiences with writing/art and Bi-Polar I would love talk or just hear from you.

Would that I could, I'd install a switch on my head that can turn it on and off, but its so stressful to switch between the two uncontrollably already, so often, that Im not sure I wouldnt just flip it faster and make it worse.

[fictionkinfessions]

I kind of want to talk about my canon and have nowhere else to, soo-

The Big Three Kid rule was like. Highkey fuckin ignored. In my canon. Very highkey. My halfbrother (Danny) was cabin head of 3(I was co!!) and therefore the rest of camp alongside a few other counselors — Odie (HEY! YOU! YOUVE ASKED HERE BEFORE! /aff) was technically a lead but nobody acknowledged it since he was one of two hades kids, one of which stayed in the hermes cabin.

All this goes to say my brother deserves a fucking nap from dealing with Cyrus’ three am inventions and Odie’s bullshit and also me asking to share a bed because I had a nightmare and gods be damned if having my brother hold me doesn’t help. I honestly don’t really miss my mortal parents. They were kind of, how do I put this - Incredibly Shitty And Should Have Had CPS Called On Them.

I’m glad I found camp.

Anyway - To any other Poseidon kids, canon or not, I’m taking co-counselor position back - I’ll be your new big sister, if you need one.

-Harley “Ketch”-Windsor, a non canon daughter of poseidon (she/they/it) (pjo fictive / camp crossroads fictive. please tag for both!) #⛵️🌊

x

[zeinnit]

here we go again. got this out earlier than expected. part three of this fic. part two.

the still unnamed series, pls i need ideas.

pairings; technoblade x reader, philza x reader

warnings: hunger, death, possible gore, suicide, possible derealization, manipulation

its been around an hour since the winged being left.

you wanted to be respectful, you wanted to obey by what he had told you to do. but you were so hungry and your arm continued to ache. the growling of your stomach was the only noise inside the car. outside the car was a different story, however.

over the past year, you managed to get used to the screams of people. however, nothing could ever get you used to the current sobbing from outside.

you already knew what was happening to the poor man. it was an ability one of the bad lucks possessed. he could control you, manipulate you into believing something that wasnt true. hed make you think you were terminally ill or that everything was fake and no one was real.

eventually, his manipulation tactics would drive you to suicide. youve been lucky to avoid his ability for this long. you remember when you witnessed it in person.

after hours of walking, you had finally reached the place that all the others were talking about. a place where you could escape the luckies and mobs, a place that had a plan. there was an island on the east coast. it was known to be completely void of anything dangerous. the community there were very friendly. the place you were currently at held the only boats in the city and they were all set to take people to the island.

many other people were there, all extremely friendly. almost as if nothing had happened to the earth. you had gotten into some small talk with a few teenagers. two girls and three boys. they said, 'we were at school during the time,' the girls started. 'the boys were at football practice and we were in algebra.' she explains, 'we were doing a group assignment with another boy when we heard an announcement telling us to go on lockdown.' one of the boys spoke, 'we were rushed inside as soon as possible, but we werent fast enough. our quarterback was swept into the air by this purple mass. we all just started running.' the other girl continued, 'our teacher ended up abandoning us. we were scared and knew it wasnt safe, so we got up and fled the classroom.' a second boy starts, 'when we all met up in the hall, we just stuck together. weve never left each others side since.'

they asked, 'what about you?' you pushed yourself to remember all the details. it was around two pm when you heard the shrieking and saw all of those people running. you were chatting with a co-worker. you and her both made eye contact before going outside to check what was happening. it was a mess, all of the running people, the huge ravine, the beasts that looked like they crawled straight out of nightmare. you knew better than to stick around. you and your co-worker both. so you made a run for your truck. however, she got hurt. you didnt know exactly what happened, but she was unable to walk. she begged you to leave her. so you did, and you beat yourself up for it everyday. they knew your pain. the boy that the girls had been working with in algebra got pushed into a ravine while they were running out of the school.

then someone from the boat that had just left came struggling onto the dock from the water. he was on the brink of death and gave us a warning. 'the island.... it isnt safe,' he started. 'one of those monsters.... it knew somehow. it attacked the island with a few others..... theyre all dead.' he couldnt get anything else out before dying himself.

then a woman stood up, screaming. she held a baby in her arms before lifting them up high and slamming the poor thing to the ground. it had died immediately. she was screaming at us like a mad man, saying, 'it was a monster! were all monsters!! none of this is real, we need to escape!' others tried to get her to calm down, but she wouldnt listen. one of the teenage boys next to you pointed it out. her eyes were completely green. she had no irises or pupils. it was just green.

it happened so fast. she had pulled a glass shard out of her pocket and stabbed some poor lady with it. she just kept stabbing and stabbing. the poor womans face, it was horrid. her eyes had almost been pulled out by the glass, her nose was all bent wrong, but the worst part was that she was still alive. her screams were ear piercing and she was still flailing. eventually two men managed to pry her off the woman, but by then we all knew there was no saving her. the teenage girls were sobbing, one vomited. two of the boys were freaking out while the other just stared in horror.

the woman struggled until she got her arm free and then plunged the glass into her neck. everyone was panicking but all we could do was watch as she bleed out. the green faded from her eyes as they returned back to normal blue irises that were wide in horror, before they relaxed.

you werent given enough time to process the death before the site was attacked itself. you dont know what happened to those teens, but wherever they are, you pray theyre okay.

but onto the man outside. he was screaming at someone who you knew probably wasnt there. you were just gonna ignore it as you usually did until you heard a girls cries. she sounded so young, she sounded so terrified. you know you should leave it alone, but you wanted to help. you needed to help. so you popped the trunk and bolted towards the man. he looked to be in his late 40s, possibly late 50s. they were most likely father in daughter judging by their similar looks but that wasnt what mattered.

you rammed into the mans side as hard as you possibly could, most definitely making your arm worse in the process. he let go of the young girl and you immediately grabbed her and rushed under a car that was low to the ground. as you expected, he was unable to reach you. but he would figure a way. you knew he would.

the girl couldnt help but scream in terror as he continued to shove a sharp hunting knife closer and closer to the two of you. the other side of the car was blocked so all you could do was make sure you were closer to him than she was.

and then blood was spit all over you and the girl. the mans eyes were wide as they switched from the piercing green back to soft hazel. tears fell out of his eyes as he coughed up more blood. the knife fell out of his grasp and his body went slack. he stared at the girl and gave one last sad smile before his face relaxed. he was gone.

the girl stopped screaming and quietly sobbed in your grasp as this had all happened. his body was dragged away and a shadow was present over the mans corpse. you could make out some sort of hooves? they looked exactly like pigs feet. the being seemed to have brown pants and maybe some sort of cape on?

as you and the girl stayed quiet and still in hopes of avoiding attention from the beast, you saw another pair of animal typed feet. this time you recognized them.

you and the girl sat quiet and still as talons tapped against the cement.

[daydream-believin]

MERLIN’S APPRENTICE & MERLIN’S CHAMPION || trollhunters

warnings: swearing

a/n: if rott gave me anything it gave me this idea

I KNOW I SAID “JUICY” BUT REALLY THAT WAS JUST THE ANGST POTENTIAL,, THAT IM NOT INDULGING IN THIS POST IM SORRY LMAO

OKAY WHAT IM REALLY TALKING BOUT HERE IS A GOOD MERLIN/ARTHUR BUT IT ACTUALLY WORKS

no sorry i haven’t seen bbc merlin don’t come for me i’m ignorant

OKAY SO

we know douxie kept an eye on the human trollhunter and co

but douxie’s really having a hard time convincing himself he’s just doing his job

he’s actually enjoying this a little too much despite how boring staying in the shadows is

and he’s kinda worried?

so he’s got this bright idea: you know what would better help him keeps tabs? if he befriends this person

and so he does

fuck merlin’s shadows

sod the rules

ofc he’s very up front about knowing they’re the trollhunter and that he’s merlin’s apprentice

we wouldn’t want that to become a huge festering secret that eats douxie from the inside out until the inevitable reveal when merlin calls them both to help with the arcane order and they realize they’ve both been lying to each other’s faces for months/years and neither of them know if they could ever trust the other again, right? — phew *catches breath*

but before you know it, mr. casperan and mx. trollhunter are best friends

he’s basically the toby to your jim

and you’re very happy to have a best friend like douxie

he understands that monster hunting hustle

he’s the only person you can vent to and actually talk about what’s going on without sounding like a loon

and douxie likes being able to tell someone all his frustrations with merlin, since you’re also in that boat with him

you spar sometimes. it’s fun, but you’re very careful not to accidentally hurt your friend (he’s extremely careful not to hurt you or wound your ego by effortlessly wiping you out)

ofc, there’s the occasional, brushing of hands, faces a little too close together, accidentally winding up on top of one another, purposefully winding up on top of one another 👀 you know how sparring be

you and douxie are a duo. a duo who have become trollmarket’s resident troublemakers, to vendel’s exasperation

you guys tease each other a lot

you do a lot of stupid shit, cause hey, now you have magic armor and a magic sword and a magic best friend, did you think you wouldn’t get up to some shenanigans?

douxie is your impulse control and he’s not a very good one, as he’s just as bad

truthfully archie has the brain cell

and pranks? gods the pranks. you two are always either pranking each other or you’re teaming up to prank some other troll who said smth mean to you in the pub. vendel had to personally put a stop to it (read: chew you out)

doux thinks the world of you tho, you’re such a noble knight, and likes to tell people about how you’re a cinnamon roll, so innocent, so pure

and then they meet you and you directly contradict those statements

trollhunter: i’ve never done anything wrong in my life, ever

douxie: i know this and i love you

(spoiler: you’ve done lots and lots of wrong)

doux spends an awful lot of time slinking around trollmarket now, and he’s in the know for everything that’s happening

(no more being kept in the dark for this wizard apprentice)

and doux knows merlin won’t completely approve of this, but hey, it’s not like he’s helping and thus directly disobeying

really, he’s not helping you at all, it’s really fucking annoying

okay so mayyybe the occasional healing spell. you’ve got those puppy dog eyes he can’t say no to

but you understand his sense of duty, or whatever it is that drives a follower, technically being a follower of merlin yourself

you respect the old geezer (as you have not been turned into a half-troll yet) as a wise mythical figure, and as your best friend’s father

and what a perfect match you are for each other, champion and apprentice, mutually being screwed over by a guy you both think has all the answers

you and douxie help each other grow in your self-worths, that you two are more than the chances merlin has given to you

unfortunately, mortifyingly, you have caught feelings.

douxie has also caught feelings, and is saying nothing yep you have enough on your plate without him putting this on you so he’ll just quietly pine and suffer don’t mind him choking to death in the corner when you take off your helmet and throw back your hair

y’all’s problem really starts manifesting itself as protectiveness. you are really protective of your wizard and he is really protective of his knight

lots of things said that are Not What Friends Say but neither of you really want to be the one to point that out

lots and lots of i love yous that slowly get more and more serious until it’s not exactly platonic anymore

and it’s just really nice to have someone to get coffee (or your favored hot drink) with at four in the morning after a tussle with a troll

and that’s basically how you and douxie spend the bulk of trollhunters, just vibing

as much as you can vibe, with all the changelings and shit trying to murder you all the time

then merlin wakes up and shakes up your world

you are aware of your impending doom

you’re aware of it

merlin keeps looking you up and down like he’s mentally making up the measurements of your coffin

and tbh the idea of fighting gunmar freaks you tf out

and you’re supposed to win that fight?

gods

you’re preparing for your nightmares coming true soon

truthfully you knew your fucking job had a 100% mortality rate

you don’t want to die with regrets

so

you spill

you spill all the things you’d wanted to tell him and how much he means to you and that you couldn’t bear it if you were a goner before he knew

miraculously, douxie feels the same and tells you all the things he’d been holding back and and what you mean to him and how much he wants to protect you, that you’re gonna make it, if he had anything to say about it

and everything is perfect for one night

now you have a real reason to win

not that saving humanity isn’t a big responsibility on your shoulders and definitely A Reason

but knowing douxie’s waiting for you, for the life you’ll build together after this, the peace you’ll both have, it’s absolutely a big motivation to give your all and come out victorious and survive

hahaha loser you don’t know about the arcane order

and then merlin uses your microwave to cook a weird potion

you and merlin are alone in the house, but there’s no real mind games necessary. you may have grown past thinking he was a god, but in the end, you’re still a follower of merlin, and if merlin thinks this could give you an edge, well, who are you to question his methods

doesn’t mean you aren’t nervous as your master hands you the bottle

yet you don’t even hesitate to drown yourself in the black abyss of the tub

whatever it takes amirite?

and now you’re a half-troll

a sexy half-troll, if you do say so yourself

yeah, no ‘i’m a monster’ angst here, you’re loving the power-up

you’ve got to treat it like a cool new power-up or you will cry actually tbh i lied about the no-angst thing a new body is disorienting

your only real concern is douxie

not concerned for long tho, he sees you and the first thing out of his mouth is “nuclear!”

and he senses your concern, so he does go out of his way to assure you that boy, girl, enby, or half-troll, he loves you for your soul, darling

also again half-troll! you is hot as hell so he’s not really losing anything here 👀

he makes sure you know that too, not to let any insecurities fester

him raking his eyes up and down you gives the opposite effect of the dread merlin sent down your spine doing it

anyways,,,

doux helps out a lot more in the eternal night

like helps merlin re-defeat and re-seal morgana

he’ll do it again in few weeks but with a bigger role you know, this is practice

thank merlin for that edge YOU ARE THE LAST TROLLHUNTER YOU ARE VICTORIOUS YOUVE GOT GUNMARS HEAD IN YOUR HANDS HAHAHA

but now you’ve got to go to new jersey

douxie’s been instructed to stay in arcadia tho 🥺

it’s okay, you’ll see each other again soon

sooner than you realize

and until then you talk each other to sleep every night over the phone <3

merlins glad, actually. he’s glad hisirdoux found some solace. even if it is with the lamb he was raising for the slaughter. maybe things will go okay for them. the time map suggests it might be so

hisirdoux may have done things in a way he didn’t quite approve of, but that’s because he’s becoming his own wizard, and merlin is proud

[tomdiddlyumptious]

T.H| Mines

Summary: block your ex number please, just take the time to do it

Warnings: smut when you first read, i guess non con video recording...but its all good cuz ur x called

A/n: IM DEADASS ON A SMUT RAMPAGE DONT BE SUPRISED IF YOU SEE ANOTHER

And fr this picture is cringy as hell 🤦🏽‍♀️😭

“tommy!” you gasped, his hand coming to your hair and pulling it while he took you from behind. “like that? i know you do” he groaned, just getting started, he pounded into you, the clapping noises strong as your mouth hung open, both of your phones on the night stand but you could care less, he came down and whispered dirty things in your ear, pressing his chest against yours “like that, my fat cock spreading my pussy, thats right. my fucking pussy, i fucking own it, no one else can have it” he whispered, a whimper leaving your lips by his words as your face was stuffed in the pillow.

he reached up for your hands that where next to your head, holding them from behind as he fucked harder, a gasp leaving your lips as he hit your spot so quickly. he groaned and bit his lip, his lower stomach against your ass and he was enjoying that.. a little weird but okay. he laid his head down on your back, looking against the wall until something caught his eyes, your phone.

“whos texting you?” he asked, more of whispered because he was out of breath. “i dont- uh- i dont know” you moaned, he ignored it and started to slow down, sitting up and opening your ass checks before slapping one.

your phone vibrated repeaditly. “y/n its killing the fucking mood, who the fuck it it?” he asked again, you ignored him and grabbed your phone, clicking on the message and opening it, it was snapchat. tom watched from afar, moans still leaving your mouth as you clicked on the picture. 

“what the fuck?” tom said before you could react, grabbing the phone, more like snatching it away from you. “whos sending you dic pics y/n?” he ask softly, trying to hide the anger boiling up his skin. “i dont know” you said looking back at him, completly calm as he looked at the message under it “i know you missed this? kissy face?” he read it off, he looked at you and you looked...he didnt know, emotionless, like nothing was roaming through your mind. “give me my phone thomas” he looked at you crazy as you held your hand out, he hit your spot hard and a harsh moan left your lips.

“you wanna look at it? fuck that” that night you and tom tried to get new stuff for the room so a pair of leds couldnt hurt anyone, they were on red by the way, so yeah everything was going off the rails. he took your phone and open the camera, specifically video, he came close and bent down again. “you be a good slut and answer my questions, yeah?” he said more of an order than an ask but you agreed anyway.

he put his arm under yours, and pressed the red button, the clapping noises immeaditly heard as he took it slow. “smile to the camera” he said, showing your face and his in the background, both smiling childishly at the camera, he kissed your shoulder. “who owns you?” he asked as clear as day. “you, tommy” “whos pussy is this?” you whimpered as you answered, “yours, its all yours” “theres my good girl” he coed praising you softly. “whos fucking you” he bit the same spot. “you” “whats my name?” “t-tom”

he suddenly went faster, choking on your moan as your eyes rolled back. you whined as your hand came up to your mouth, biting your thumb. “no baby let em know whos pussy this is” he slapped your ass harshly and you cried, your eyes closing. “stop fucking texting my girl, youve obviously been replaced, next time you fucking try me theres gonna be problems” you let out high pitched moans and shouted out toms name, he smiled at the camera before stopping it.

he simply sent the video to him, no regrets or nothing, he didnt slow down either, while still giving you what you want the most he struggled to type out ‘if you ever want a personal sex tape just DM me’ he added the same emoji to throw back shade, you let out your whispers and begged him not to stop, his hand came around to swirl your clit and you arched your back, he bit small spots on your back while he waited for a response, only getting left on read he smiled, you clenched around his tightly and came and chuckled “my fucking pussy” he slapped your clit.

after that incident it was all good and happy, “we should become porn stars” you joked. he smiled as he looked over at you “nah.. id be jealous if someone else gets to see your tits” you smacked your lips and rolled your eyes and hit him while he laughed and held your hand.

[astrid-system]

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-this system has quite a few fictives but for the LOVE OF GOD;do NOT compare them to their source. most of our fictives prefer to not talk about their sourse or be compared to it. some dont mind,but a majority of them would prefer to not talk about source unless its something happy that they remember. dont get mad when they dont act like their source;theyre two diffrent people. we have a fictive that formed three years ago and he still gets upset when people talk about his source. dont do it,or you’ll be blocked.

-our host is a minor.he would rather not see nsfw on this account as that is where most of the trauma comes from. please dont ever send us nsfw at all or youll be blocked

-again,not every alter will be on here,hell even our co host might not cause xey have other things to worry about.if youre close feel free to ask to talk to one of the headmates if you know them. 

if youve made it this far and you choose to respect this,thank you! if you follow our dni you can follow us! messages are open,but depends on whos out. we will change our pfp and description to say whos fronting and if dms are ok. (dni below cut)

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[mlm-mod-taka]

Hey! I’d like to request some headcanons of taka and Kaito comforting their male s/o who really struggles with a lack of motivation to do everyday things and take care of himself.

Sorry if this is too hard or weird to write-

- ✨ anon :)

UNMOTIVATED S/O • taka, kaito x male reader

of course ✨ anon. i really hope youre okay, my dms are always open if you need someone to talk to. anyways, i hope you enjoy your hcs!

tws/cws: demotivation.

|| -> mod taka <3

at first, hes confused. he wonders why there are times when you dont shower for days, and have trouble just brushing your teeth. he would never comment about it, it just didnt click in his head. that was until he saw an article about demotivation while he was looking for something to write about for his english essay.

thought it was interesting and decided to make that the topic of his essay. reads countless amounts of writing about it, putting down notes and reading over it after a few hours of research.

thats when it hits him. "oh. this is what hes been going through." it takes a few minutes for it to kick in before he rushes to your dorm.

apologizes ( very loudly ) when you do open the door. he says he was ignorant and didnt know the trouble that youve been dealing with. if you dont comfort him then hes probably going to start crying out of guilt for even thinking of judging you before.

after he learns and educates himself on the matter, he immediately starts helping you with everything, hes practically living with you now.

he tries to help you with your demotivation, a way he does it is by offering doing tasks with you. you guys often take a bath together, because he wants to spend time with you and to start making it a daily thing to take care of yourself.

does laundry with you, cooks food with you, studies, does homework, play games, watches shows, he just does everything with you so that once youre on your own, it'll become a habit.

after he does start to stay at his dorm more, he'll message you throughout the day checking if youve eaten, taken a shower, brushed your teeth.

if you reply with a "no", then dont worry! he'll swing by later to help you do some self care. he understands that sometimes you just cant bring yourself to do it, so he'd never get mad at you for it.

if you reply with "yes" he'll respond with a smiling cat photo, and be smiling for the rest of the day, very obviously in a great mood. hes just very proud of you for taking care of yourself without him having to watch over you.

if there are days, or weeks where youre in a slump and just cant seem to get yourself out of bed, he'll immediately rush to your side to help you. will never get tired of comforting you or motivating you, its all worth it when he starts to see you take care of yourself again.

notices it fairly quickly, and asks you about it immediately. hes never seen someone in a state like yours, so hes curious. hes not judgemental or mean in anyway, just wants to know whats going on.

when you do explain to him that youre a very demotivated person, and that you have trouble doing "basic tasks" as other people would call it, he nods along. kaito doesnt really get what you mean at first, but it doesnt sound so good.

asks mikan about it. hes never really been demotivated, hes just had some lazy days and its clear to him that those are two different things, and just decides to ask someone who works in the medical field for some advice.

mikan doesnt really work in the mental help part of the medical field, but she knows a decent chunk of things from her fellow co workers, so she says everything she knows to kaito. after telling him, it seems like he understands what is happening a little more.

quickly thanks her before running ( and almost tripping in the process ) to wherever you are. he finally says that he somewhat gets what you told him, so hes gonna try to help you now.

he'll be one of those people that sends supportive memes alot. will send you those cats with the hearts around them and an "i love you" text somewhere in the photo.

is gonna call you every morning when he wakes up, encourages you to get up and get ready with him virtually. kaito does this so it makes you feel like you arent alone.

if youre too tired to get up, then he'll go into your room and practically carry you around while making you get ready. he'll brush your teeth for you, shower you, make breakfast for you etc. etc...

and it goes by very quickly. hes one of those people that are very charismatic and interesting to listen to, he'll start ranting about a random topic, and by the time he finishes it, youre all of a sudden fully dressed and ready to go to class! you swore you were in your pajamas a few seconds ago.

he'll do it digitally too, and it still works either way. you're walking around with your phone in your hand while kaito talks about the constellations, and all of a sudden youre done with everything you needed to do. how does he do it? who knows, but it helps you easily do things you had the biggest trouble doing before.

it eventually becomes a habit that you call each other every morning and night, and next thing you know youre taking care of yourself every day. hes like this pill that helps you become motivated more, its very interesting and convenient.

is just always ready to call you to help you do your tasks! really loves to talk to you, and loves to know that youre taking care of yourself, so hes super happy to help you just by talking about anything.