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I will never understand people who post tiktoks of them being mansplained to in the gym or someplace and they’re just nodding and smiling at the guy or being civil with him.. I’d end up being filmed by some bystander absolutely shrieking my head off as soon as the guy tells me I need to lose 50 pounds or that I’m doing the wrong workout
#if you approach me unsolicited in public to mansplain at me and try to tell me what to do the absolute best you can hope for#is that i’ll ignore you#absolute BEST CASE scenario is i look you up and down; go 🤢 and walk away#worst case scenario is i start screaming expletives and threaten you with a foreign object#i don’t get people!! this man is in your space being RUDE AS HELL. it’s open season!!#and you’re just sitting there going ‘oh really. great :)’#thinking he’s going to pick up on subtext and realise your smiles are not genuine and that you’re being sarcastic with him#i myself don’t do subtext very well so i always make sure no one has to guess how i feel about them#maybe i’m just too old for this shit but i’m not going to let someone insult me to my face and be polite about it#or maybe i just have anger issues. idk#the literal only time i’ve been civil when someone was being rude to me was when i worked in customer service and it was hard as fuck#you think i’m holding my shit together when i’m NOT on the clock? no#personal
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it’s so fucked up actually for your friends to be essentially shit talking you behind your back while also invalidating/not trying to understand your feelings and where they’re coming from
#fitz vacker#kotlc#like ik they’re kids and not all perfect#but it still hurts a lot??#especially when your friends literally call you like… a rage monster#but then to the point where if you show the slightest bit of emotion they’re like…#well everything’s perfect for you so you shouldn’t be feeling like that#like woah no shit this person who has no support or safe spaces to just… exist is exploding#people don’t do that for no reason#“anger issues” he can’t go to anyone for anything he’s literally stuck with himself and mr snuggles#maybe tiergan#cause he’s his telepathy mentor im assuming they started having talks abt stuff??#idk i want to believe he’s not completely isolated?#this isn’t worded very well it’s a thought that makes me feel sad
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The woobification of Gotham rogues needs to be studied
#theyre WHITE no studying needed actually#FYM 20 kills a year#‘as long as u stay outta the way you’ll be fine’ 😭#baby they get in ur way#i thought#well no think I AM dramatic about this and am self aware enough not to make it it’s own post#but my whole thing with like. vague background characters in fanon#Idk it’s so fascinating#like side character is there to side character but the way y’all write or talk about them#Idk it’s so ugh#like It’s not me feeling for the character ig it’s a who do u think u are thing#which like u think ur ur fave ur projecting on ur fave that’s why u woobify them so much#Uhm anyways#i promise I have thought behind that it’s just not that necessary to this convo#SPEAKING OF#baby Ivy ain’t gon spare u bc u grew a flower PLEASEEEEBFR#hq show and it’s consequences#‘the rogues only hate capitalism’ uhm no#and even if they did the issue is they take that anger out with civilians as collateral damage it’s a parallel for bruce and smth he needed#to grow from#not letting them die obvi but like more care and concern for the common person he’s always been kind deep deep deep inside but it was a#process for him to be like maybe it’ll scare this old lady if I crawl into her bedroom and ask about her mugger#that concerns he learns is as a result of the rogues not caring#istg there was like a short stories comic of this….#like snippets of henchmen and civilians living their regular lives then getting fucked yo#UP#anyways#maybe it was not the premise of the comic but like scattered throughout? was it Batman 🧍🏾♂️#ANYWAYS NOT THE POINT THE POINT IS#Im gonna hold ur hand when I say this but they don’t give a fuck about you ur civilian 4 to them
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re: "good girl" i think they say it once randomly as a joke and its just one of those things that gets him wayyy more than they expected it would. so now its their secret weapon and they use it very sparingly and every single time he gets super embarrassed about it but it works ill tell you what.
#HES MY PRINCESS IDEK.#i dont think it happens naturally all that much because theyre usually in the business of calling each other names and being mean#so i think this would just be a random night where theyre on top and just think it would be really funny. to yank on his leash and call him#a good girl after bullying him into doing something. and well i just think it would get him is all i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwww#i havr a lot of thoughts on the matter but i will stop for now#but the tldr is that with each other they tend to switch frequently and are always fighting#so i think itd take someone else being in the picture for hog to even realize how much he likes being a good boy :3#and i also dont think fish would be good at straightforward domming in the way he would want and they both know that#so its something he keeps between him and rat mostly. please dont ask me questions abt jrs sex life i have too many opinions on it#anyways. i think even tho fish knows theyd be bad at that they still feel left out so sometimes they go watch. they dont get anything out of#doing that theyre just sort of taking mental notes#all of this circles back to i think fish has always been the more sexually experienced of the two. and romantically.#i dont rlly think hog is a guy who dates i dont think hes ever been that and i dont think he made much time for hookups#(i think its cute if hes a virgin when they meet but 🤷 im not solid on it)#but i think for him hes just only ever fucked this one person and they do a LOT of stuff and it gets the job done so hes just never really#tried anything else. but. and again i have too many opinions on this but i think rat wouldnt be into their usual shteeze#i think hes a bit of a freak in his own way but the blood and weird anger issues is just not doing it for him most of the time#but i do think if given the opportunity he would LOVE to be The Boss for a little bit so i think he and hog can explore that together and it#will work out beautifully for them. this is great because i am not into strict d/s dynamics like that but i know in my heart that hoggy#would be. and i cant do that for him#again i think fish would be butthurt about this. mostly in a 'why didnt u tell me so we could try this :(' and he would go#'because you would suck at it and wouldnt like it' and they go oh. right. well im still mad#ANYWAYS. circling back. i think the good girl thing would be something fish knows that rat doesnt. and idk if theyd tell him or not#because i do think if they tell him he is using that for evil hog is going to be a good girl forever and ever. rat doesnt have the patience#to space it out the way fish does. which idk maybe thatd be good for hog he could work through some stuff...#but on the other hand i think its fun if they DONT tell him and just bust it out sometime when all 3 of them are doing the deed. or whatever#because again they mostly like how embarrassed he gets about it and i think he would be reallyyyy flustered by it#^ this is essentially part of my fantasy about spitroasting my beautiful wife until he cries just so everyone knows#idk i just think when he lets go of himself hed be a very cute and kind of needy subby bottom and i think hed be really easy to fluster#about it and i want it so bad
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fighting yowai....
#what must it be like to be 10 years old only child#and then suddenly you have a little sister that eberyine adores and fawns over#like i just kniw they spoilt totoko so bad (canon) and neglected fighting for it (my delusion)#he probabky tried to bully her and got heavily reprimended by his parents for it#probably would lead to him still being childish at 20... suddenly not getting attention anymore -> regression and acting out#maybe anger issues too. hence boxing#idk. i feel like he mustve grown upcresenting her to some degree#little girl who gets everything#i mean their parents did let him live at homr still at 20 but that seemed contingent on him inheriting the fish shop#idk. im hallucinating. im delusional. but man. what must their relationship have been like...#now that theyre both adults they can get along as equals. but oh.. the gaps from childhood they cant fill#considering their age difference i wonder if they even felt like family at a certain point....#tragedy of the spoilt girl and her forgotten brother....#the way it ruined theur lives (potentially) in different ways#sorry. im thinking too hard abt it im hallucinating. sorry#aughhh i love totoko as a study of a spoilt girl grown up though#the sextuplets and her both pampered as kids and never grew up#vs fighting at 20 who wanted to be an adult but didnt want to grow up.. now with child..#potentially reconnecting w parents for first time in years??#sorry. im thinking too much abt a character who showed up for 3 seconds. sorry#sorry i started relating the character w 1 manga appearance to my own personal familial dynamics and now im invested. sorry
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May I ask where the "bart absorbs the whole speedforce" happens? I've seen it referenced and it soulds like a really wild read.
Oh that's from Bart's short short short short run as the Flash.
I do not recommend reading it at all. It was hot garbage. Terrible writing, almost zero understanding of the characters and it just kinda spat in the face of the Flash as a concept.
The lore implications are neat but they don't go anywhere and they don't explore it at all. So yeah, I mostly just take the cool lore and forget literally everything else about the series.
#it was just bad. bart was depressed. his friends and family were all dead#cept Jay and Joan#and he didn't want to be a hero or have powers and he didn't even want to live in the twin cities#bart was also super out of character. or maybe he was in character? idk Bart had severe clinical depression basically the entire run#dude did not have a single emotion except sadness and anger. also half the time he was disassociating#uh. so yeah. its 13 or 12 issues because it was cancelled immediately because it sucked#and then they killed Bart at the end#so#just a bad serious in general#literally the only part i like about it is the extremely specific lore detail that Bart absorbed the entire speedforce#and became the speedforce#and was inherently connected to all the other speedsters cause they were all within him#dude flipped the fuck out over that and honestly thats fair. he just found out that he ate all the loved ones he was grieving
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HEY!
HEY YOU!
STAY SAFE!
EAT FOOD!
DRINK WATER!
LOOK AFTER YOUR FUCKING SELF!!!
BECAUSE THE WORLD IS SHIT AND YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!!
I DONT TOLERATE LOSING ANGELS!!
YOU FELL ONCE, I WONT LET YOU FUCKING FALL AGAIN!
CAPEESH??
#Aggressive love#Aggressive affection#Idk I just feel aggressive and loving at the same time#Do I have anger issues? Maybe
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three months until i get to go back to school. i can deal with three months.
#boink#it's been two weeks and it's already just so taxing#like school is stressful too but at least it's sort of self contained#at least i'm somewhat in control of things#i know i'm not really an adult yet#but the last two semesters of relative independence#well i appreciated being able to just do things#like being able to decide when to eat#going places without having to wait to get approval first#like obviously i had a rough school year#but at least the consequences and events were organic#like i could fuck up my classes without having to come home to people getting mad at me for arbitrary things#like my mom just got mad at me bc i knocked on the bathroom door to loud#i'm anxious atm bc the house fan is on and the noise stresses me out so maybe i did knock too loud idk#but anyway she comes into my room and starts freaking out about anger management issues#which yeah honestly true enough#but like. not about this?#i am just overstimulated fam#i wasn't angry and i didn't even interact with anyone before i got shit for wanting to close my door and calm down a little#so anyway#stuff like that#little decisions and motions and things#i just prefer being on my own ig
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#personal#i know logically like#im sad because i just lost a friendship that was important to me and i am grieving that loss#but i feel so stupid still being so sad about this#i feel childish for not having moved on already#even though logically it has barely been a Week since this blowup#but like she Did apologize (even though i desperately wish she hadnt yet bc i Needed to be angry to start the grieving process right -#-bc i really struggle to connect with my feelings and learned how to process them first through anger)#and like idk. maybe im just a childish asshole#it feels like this is all my fault even though i know logically thats NOT true#i keep having nightmares about all my loved ones flipping a switch the way she did#i keep having nightmares about not being good enough for anyone and feel so violently insecure about my role in ppls lives#and i WANT like. reassurance that ppl love me is the thing#but if they reference this issue or like i have to ask it just doesnt feel Righ5#and ive been putting the energy out into the world that i would like to receive sometime but ik i cant demand that either#i just.#feel so sad#i hate that this impacted me so much#like. im literally more upset about this than my dad's health issues#(though admittedly this hits a more deep rooted insecurity/fear/distress than my dad's issues do)
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I ❤️
IN-BETWEEN ARC EPISODES
#shanks!!!!!! always wonder what is wrong with him to be an emperor..... bc big mom is severely strong and powerful and insane since birth#kaido can't even kill himself so same thing. blackbeard has the end all be all of devil fruits and then shanks is just there.#something smells fishy#they spent all the budget on the musical now we are back with this animation ajdhak#well baby luffy cameo.... always thinking about luffy being a good swimmer.... the anchor t shirt is a foreshadowing ajdhskdjks#yasopp talking about his son.... WELL WHERE IS HE????#maybe shanks power is being an alcoholic..... who knows....#luffy calling shanks pathetic is so funny this kid has anger issues.... his powers reveal is so funny ajdkajak to this day....#i was gonna be pissed about the flashbacks but little luffy is too good#this is my fucked up theory about shanks is that he gives up his arm and his hat when luffy eats the fruit.... idk why yet ill figure it ou#lmao but HOW do you leave a kid with a devil fruit just there.... he must have known who his grandpa is or smth.... like garp muat have wen#after him for an explainatiom or smth#shanks doing two 180 spims before putting the hat on luffy... the pizzazz.... the drama.....#well what was i saying.... evil shanks or smth... hidden intentions idk.... why isnt shanks pirate king yet... suspicious....#MAKINO HAS A BABY... and back to ad breaks... another asexual reproduction specimen see.... i know i am right#REIJU GAVE LUFFY A RAID SUIT FOR SANJI AKDHAKDJKS#him wearing black clothes..... like shirt and everything....#sanji saying they already have franky to be weird akdhaks#NAMI KEPT ZEUS!!!!!!!!! FIRST SLAVE AND SANJI IS JEALOUS AKDHAKDHSKSJ 'I WAS THE FIRST SIMP!!'#but with part of her soul being away form big mom.... how.... she is coming back for that#luffy planned everytjing HAHAHAHHAHA oof bonneh on the sidelines of the paper... i know i know....#sanji realising his rep went up bc of germa ajsjahdj where is namis bounty??? and luffys????#back to the reverie.....SHIRAHOSHI IS GOING YEAAAAHHHH (bc luffy might call her weak again no other reason)#crocodile smiling at the paper... i see you#cavendish and barto spreading gossip ajdhak garp must be fuming!!!!#LUFFY IS THE FIFTH YONKOU??? ALREADY!!???? i said he has no territories....but maybe gyojin island counts#just saw a comment saying makinos child is shanks b plan in case luffy fails akdhaksjk#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 878
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i wont rb a big post abt fatphobia in medical situations bc. it makes me upset. but ill say that despite never bringing my weight up the past few times ive gone to my doctor (who im seeing for things like high blood pressure/heart rate and anxiety) shes mentioned me either gaining or losing weight and focusing on that. girl im at fucking stroke risk because of my blood pressure can you do something about that
#im on medication for both + there is. maybe stuff? abt weight and blood pressure. but bub is taller And skinnier than me and also has#blood pressure issues. just like me. and riz. and Our Dad. Maybe It's Genetic#idk. im not doing so hot today so i have to get this anger out somehow#k1.txt
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#truly i have too modes. so fucking busy i cant breathe. cant think without a muddled lag. feeling motion sick as i walk#a path ive walked a thousand times over. or not busy enough. without thr pressure i revert to a liquid state and spill across the floor#i cant seem to do anything. at least when im busy i cant feel how miserable i am. at least for a little while bc i have to focus#idk how to find a balance. it always seems to be all or nothing. outside my control but directed by my control#ugh. after the month ive had the misery's caught up with me. also i havent been sleeping enough#i felt horrible all day in the lab ans i was like. i mean maybe its low bloodsugar? but then when i went home i felt 1000 times better#which is. ya kno understandable but not great#idk i can just feel the anger leaking out from under my skin. ive made the system unlivable. now im suffocating on the echo of pain#and i feel bad bc it must b all over my face. bitterness simmering in my words#i met with my boss today for a delayed meeting of a delayed meeting and showed her some preliminary data. she was excited and asked what i#felt abt it. and i dont feel anything abt it. nothing. i dont care i dont care i dont care i dont fucking care#set my datasheets on fire. burn them to ash. i wouldnt feel anything#and im sure some of that sentiment came thru bc she later texted me to reiterate how cool the data is bc no ones done a study this#extensive ans i dont kno how to reply bc again i dont care. theres no breathing enthusiasm back. that dim light has been extinguished. i#look forward to never having to think abt it again.#whatever the more pressing issue is that i cant get my brain to function enough to save me from the other problems i have boiling over#just me sabotaging potential future happiness from where i sit unhappily in the present#annoying. ugh i need to sleep.#unrelated
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#can I just release my anger and frustrations out? lol#sooooo an argument happened bet me and my twin#am gonna fucking tell my side okay?#today i got another appointment with an ent#and sooooo I did what i can do with chores before I leave#and okay there was supposed to be someone whose coming here today to do laundry and she is late#and my twin asked me to call someone who knows the one who did the laundry and I DID#i was getting ready and all of a sudden my twin cursed me out and got angry with me#all of a sudden#I was so confused#then since i didnt know what she was mad about i just kept quiet and then she asked me what's the number of that someone who knows the#laundry girl..she said that to me in an angry tone..i told her I already called and she coulve asked me normally about it#but she is mad and suddenly called me paranoid and all that shit? and am like where is this coming from?#she thought that the laundry girl wont make it and since am leaving for quite some time she will be the one who will do laundry#and I told her if that's whats making you mad you dont have to do it..call mom and tell her if the laundry person isny gonna come she will#find smone else and she said no if I wont do it no one will and am like ?????? but i was so frustrated atp i was yelling back madly lol#and now i realized that maybe she was mad at me coz she is left with some household chores since am gone for a while? coz of my appointment#but she still mad at me though and I also am and I dont think i can ever ever talk to her again#like seriously i thought it was just the phone call but she has all other issues with me and i dont understanf#i feel so bad and am mad and idk am just crying rn#idk if am the one in the wrong#like seriously#this is so long but idk where to dump this shit
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"people are allowed to have a different opinion" okay and i still want them obliterated
#/nbh#just dumbasses on fucking tiktok#people are not ashamed to be fucking dumb anymore#they're brain dead and proud#maybe i have anger issues idk but maybe it's just a reaction to the worst takes u have ever seen
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hm, it appears i am still not over a silly annoyance from earlier today
#it really is silly#just me and a classmate have a difference in opinion over a character#ngl hers seems very black & white and imo takes away from the very core of the character but it’s fine it’s whatever#giving me ‘abuela should have been cut off from the madrigal family’ vibes and i don’t like it#that’s all#also! a character can do unforgivable things and be written to be dislikes le and STILL find redemption in them end of a story#he was not written to be LIKED but to be PITIED#our sympathy for his kids and the children he teaches us is still valid#our anger for his ‘tone deafness’ is valid but that should not mean that he’s irredeemable narrative-wise#idk#new friend told me i was very passionate about this topic in class and like yes i am bc family drama in stories are never black and white &#are written supper good or super badly#But I think this nivel hits the nail on family issues and maybe it’s bc I have messy family issues that I feel some kind of relation to it#So the classmate’s comment about how the character shouldn’t deserve sympathy got to me#also I’m very tired of that kind of opinion bc it feeds into the ‘just leave! cut off that toxic parent’ but sometimes you can’t and#sometimes you don’t want to bc you still love them and wish to keep some contact#but whatever it’s fine#late night talks with a potato#fluffy vents
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I just wanna say thank you for reblogging all the stuff spreading awareness of recent antisemitism that you have recently. You are the only person I follow who isn't jewish who I've seen do so at all (Unless I'm mistaken and you are jewish too). I know not everyone is aware of every single bad thing happening in the world at any moment, and don't think people HAVE to reboot about negative events or whatever, but how much you seem to care really warms my heart and reassures me we aren't alone (Unless, once again, I am mistaken and you are jewish)
👍but nah i'm not jewish, just pissed off
#doing the talking for this one IN the tags bc i would really rather be answering this privately lol#feels so weirdly like. performative. to say it out in the open but whatver#i just have so much. anger. abt this shit#every time i turn around and learn about some random history/culture event or fixture its like#'oh yeah and originally this got started to shit on jewish ppl' and its just like how is this so deeply fucking ingrained in everything#and like i'm black so. without trying to compare the two too directly for obvious reasons#i do in some ways understand the thing with the whole system being slanted against you like that#AGAIN not comparing 1:1 because the history of jews being scapegoated for everything ever and always getting the shit end of the stick#is like leagues apart and beyond stuff thats gone down w/ blacks' histories#but i get the infuriation and the sting of people just. not fucking caring or even NOTICING The Issues#to be clear i am unbelievably sheltered and ignorant about like every culture ever+ usually unmotivated to search things out on my own#so endless thanks to my jewish friends/mutuals for just bein themselves and passively keeping me like. informed.#abt basics for not being antisemitic and how to respect jewish culture#cause god knows im not gonna hear it out in everyday society or whatever#yeag. and anyway i also have personal beef#from being raised christian and having to get away from [gestures broadly at the whole of christian teachings]#and im like. you killed people for this? to do things this badly? you stomped out their culture and practices to bring THIS into the world?#literally fuck off and die nothing you taught me is even a fraction as... idk. rewarding? as the fragments ive seen of jewish culture#rewarding or like. hopeful or meaningful maybe. its hard to put an exact word to it but to speak it more directly-#i am Wildly Misanthropic but whenever i learn stuff about jewish culture im like.#you know if these sorts of ideals were more widespread i probably wouldn't hate humanity so much.#[i also feel this way abt native americans but thats a whole ass other thing.]#[similarly seeing people whose ideals i also value being consistently treated like shit tends to just fuel the misanthropy soooooo...]#its like these are the people who actually know how to live and this is what the greater populace thinks of them? lmao ok#[to be clear i live in the usa so you can imagine the kind of culture im Actually exposed to lolllll]#at any rate reblogging a post on social media really feels a negligble gesture but im glad it's appreciated nonetheless
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