#osdd stuff

[purely-angelix]

Our friend knows about our system and he has always been extremely interested in the concept, as well as finding any way to support us.

He plays DND. And a few days ago, he comes to me and says "wanna see my new character"? Guys I cried. Genuinely. He made the most accurate and humanizing character that has DID.

The character has the host, a protector, and a persecutor. The persecutor gets a whole arc where he becomes less angry and heals. It's just. It's beautiful and it made me feel so seen and loved.

🌙

[anti-endo-blankie-fort]

Every alter in the system has a reason for being in the system, A reason they split, even if you don't know or feel like you don't, you are important and needed

[piratestent]

being a system is so funny because yea theres a fucking cat in my head

[hellstolgic]

eeping

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[swimswimcoded]

Magical girl with did who goes through 5 super long outfit change sequences mid fight every time she switches

[the-web-syndicate]

Before our awakening (aka before we realized we could be a system) we used to often say "we" or "us"

And I would always say it's because "Well my brain and myself are like separate entities" and I would say that because I'd have in depth discussions with "myself" and I'd entirely disagree with the other side at times, you would think all of that would have told me something 😭

And yet I continue to be the one in constant denial for various reasons, such is the life of a host 💀 /hj /lh

- Crimson 👻

[mental-illness-bingo]

Me: I have no amnesia, I must not be a system

Also me, while watching a video on DID: why are all these comments liked I've never seen this youtube is broken

[testiculartorsionlover]

opening the syscourse tags is weird. you either find the best takes or the worst takes imaginable. no in between. i find so many weird radqueer posts and i genuinely do not understand how or why you'd want to transition into certain disorders. like how tf do you transition into DID or BPD????

[luv-stars]

🩷⭐️ the other day, I was in the shower, and I remember being suddenly surprised and yelling, "whoa, what?! I can remember my childhood right now?!" and then today I do not know what I remembered, I just remembered remembering something...

[clutching-our-plurals]

Going to the Store: Suffering Edition

Having OSDD but specifically the experience of going to the store to get yourself a little treat and not knowing what you want because nine other people are trying to Jedi-mind-trick you into getting what they want.

[purely-angelix]

I'm crying over a fake advertisement for DID Barbie rn. This is.. not. Just not okay.

Steven Colbert.. just not freaking okay

[anti-endo-blankie-fort]

Just a remind you dont have to suffer 24/7 to be struggling or valid, you're allowed to have moments where you feel okay or even happy, it doesn't mean you aren't struggling, you're still just as valid

[corvid-canidae-art]

assorted alters x tma entities

[gor3sigil]

I have no one to talk to about it but

Okay so last week for 4-5 days I was:

Heavily dissociated

Thought the world would end and couldn't focus on shit because of it

Wanted to change my name to Vincent

Wanted to get bottom surgery + heavy bottom dysphoria I've never had before

Wanted to leave my partner and live alone as a recluse

… maybe I’m not OSDD free as my therapist thinks ? Because that sure as hell sounds like a switch.

[the-star-system-pals]

Being a system means sometimes hearing someone shout "Give me TEETH!" in an aggressive voice and you just have to sit there wondering what the FUCK IS GOING ON

[the-web-syndicate]

Something I find really neat (and sometimes really annoying) about being a system is the realization that a small part of why I've amassed so many hobbies is because I actually haven't

I used to hate painting until earlier this year, and suddenly, I loved it? Huh, silly

I sometimes hate a specific video game and then find myself playing it? Maybe I don't hate the video game I guess

I had a fashion hyper fixation that was so intense that I'd spend hours playing with outfits, and now I often grab the first thing I think works when I'm getting dressed. Except sometimes I still toil over the choice for way too long when I thought I didn’t care anymore? Okay, I guess it could be a special interest

I used to suddenly have a deep interest in Wicca to the point I thought I was recognizing a delusion even though it wasn't consistent, and that's not how any of my actual delusions have worked? Weird, I guess I just don't fully understand my likes

And then The Awakening (syscovery) and its like OHHHHHHHHH Jasper loves to paint!!! Kitt and Max love this video game!!! Serrai and Bix really care about our appearance!!! Hecate has a deep spiritual tie to nature, and I'm just science inclined!!!

And all of that is okay!! I love that we all have different hobbies, and I do my best to make sure we have access to them. I keep us stocked on painting supplies, I keep others favorite video games downloaded, I don't get rid of clothes that I personally wouldn't wear, I make sure Hecate has a way to journal about her spirituality, etc etc

I think it's really silly, and also really cool, as much as it can be annoying to want to do one thing and suddenly feel the urge to be doing something I don't personally find that interesting, or to realize that 90% of my likes and interests actually aren't mine /pf

And sometimes I share interests with others, which is both extra fun and extra confusing. Like when I suddenly have the urge to completely belt my heart out, is it still me, or is Zeph appearing? Or when I want to buy everything Spider-Man related, is that me, or is Parker nearby?

Anyway, this post doesn't really have a point, I just wanted to brain dump LMAO

.•°○-> Crimson