#perhaps one day I will get there

[the-arigen]

On some level I'm always aware of the "your experiences are not universal" truth to things, especially in relation to my own experiences, but the projects I'm working on right now really drive that home again.

Like, I've always wanted to write a character of the "me with better hair" variety, a tall order, my hair is great but even when I first started writing I took one look at the thing that results from that and had a moment of "yeah, this character is fundamentally unbelievable and extremely difficult to write into anything. So I just won't."

And so basically all of my characters, especially the ones I wanted (other) people to relate to, were actually built almost entirely on what I was able to figure out about other peoples' experiences, filtered through my own lens and brought to the page explicitly for the purpose of whatever piece I'm working on with very little relation to me.

Erin and Ophelia are both breaks from that, each in their own unique way, and that's... kinda kicking my ass a little, actually. Both of them are a lot closer to me than I've ever gotten before (though in different ways) and I'm really finding that I don't have the words or tropes or ideas of other people to lean on anymore. No longer standing on shoulders, let alone those of giants.

How do I define Erin's tendency to trust people who care about her as being as dangerous as it is before the horrible results? How do I balance her willingness to do specific terrible things with her categorical refusal to make things get generally worse? What would people expect from a character whose actions technically do more good than they cause harm, but who only uses that judgement as go/no go on what she otherwise wants to do anyways?

The only place I can find analogues to Ophelia's extremely common, very present, and barely-distinguishable-from-real-life hallucinations are in Horror or from characters who can't take care of themselves, but she just experiences it as a part of her life- and not even a particularly (outwardly) consequential one, because she can essentially always pick out what's real fast enough to prevent her from visibly responding to something that isn't. Is there some set of words spoken or actions taken that gets across a heroic motivation that's just... "what else would I be doing?" as a genuine, confused question instead of any sort of moral statement?

I don't really think there's an answer there, really, though maybe that's for the best. It's not like this is going to stop me, it's just going to take ages to muddle through alternate wordings and styles to get what I want across instead of getting easy praise from hastily thrown-together piles of what people expect to see.

... I should sleep.

[vivenecii]

This (and previous) good omens study club theme, tartan and a movie still. I decided to choose one from Little Women, which I have yet to watch.

[catsafarithewriter]

v tired of coming out to ppl who are familiar and accepting of the aroace term, who then still turn around and say "yeah but you might still one day meet someone, right?" like I promise you most aspec ppl are aware it's an option, but it's still rude

I get you're trying to be supportive, but it still comes off as "don't worry, perhaps you're not really aroace/broken"

[nounaarts]

I seriously forget I have a tumblr when I’m really active on twitter most of the time! Sorry guys ..!

I did do a bunch of Trolls art over there so if you wanna see that you can go to my twitter @ nouna_arts . Note tho, I rambled bout Trolls. A LOT

But I will show some of my recents here! (I did a lot more)

JUST A BUNCH OF MY ART ⬇️⬇️

BUT THE BRAINROT HAS UNFORTUNATELY ROTTED AND NOW MY MIND IS ALL SONIC AGAIN. curse you sonic prime,…

Anyways here’s my sonic doodles :3

I couldn’t put anymore images. Damn .but you get it😭

[toxifoxx]

>random guy looking at my blog >likes a bunch of my art posts >reblogs post about how important reblogging art is >doesn't reblog any of my art

[sapphireluci]

Pov: you’re a Nightopian watching me run out of time on the roller coaster for the 377346th time in Stick Canyon

[mayhemspreadingguy]

Beautiful Nightmare 🖤

[front-facing-pokemon]

[encircledincolour]

charles 'abusive dad' rowland and niko 'dead dad' sasaki and monty 'evil mom' the crow and crystal 'absent parents' palace but WHAT. what about edwin's family huh. their absence from the narrative is suspicious

[notmoreflippingelves]

[kosmic-arts]

decided to revisit my old redesign of eraqus im happier with it now, but i still hate eraqus' colors; they are impossible to work with

[adeleine-everyday]

day 34

catching her up on past events

[royalarchivist]

Tazercraft and Richarlyson: [ Talking about the butterfly effect that led to Cellbit and Roier getting married ]

Richarlyson: The real cupid is pa Mike.

Pac: If Mike was unintentionally the reason why Richas died*, and that caused Roier and Cellbit to— Wait, you're saying I'm single because you died?! Oh what the hell. No, it's fine, that's fine, that's fine, it's fine, I stayed on the ground so that others could fly, it's fine.

Richarlyson: KKKKKKK Pa, you misunderstood me 0_0

[hawnks]

Enough dancing around it.

I need a loverboy. One who is insane though. Plans out in excruciating detail all the firsts (firsts dates first kisses first oral fem receiving), loves to gift roses and champagne, says I love you every ten minutes and always means it sincerely and with his whole heart. Takes everything incredibly seriously, cherishes every moment with his lover, would literally kill someone for hurting his little puppy and probably already has.

[bugmatics]

lethal pin design

[quirkle2]

[zombie au] when ur.when ur brotherturns into a z.when ur brother turns into a zombie and u spend the next several years of ur childhood braving the most fucked up shit ever so u can find a cure and it gets to the point where ur killing parts of urself just to pick up the pieces of ur brother with shaking, cut up hands and glue him back together but at that point ur just going to end up bringing him back to a world that's not worth living in