#phew! sorry if this was lengthy

[revpers]

deniz   can   aktas.   31.   cis   man.   he/him.   ┊┊   aldren   demirel,   better   known   as   agent   reaper   has   been   with   cerberus   corp   as   an   eo   since   2020   and   is   LEVEL   I.   CHILD   ABUSE   has   gifted   them   pain   inducement,   though   A   LACK   OF   CONCENTRATION   has   also   been   noted.   when   they   aren’t   protecting   the   tri-state   area,   they   are   fond   of   skulking   and   are   never   seen   without   A   PACK   OF   CIGARETTES.   civilians   think   they   are   pertinacious   &   insouciant,   but   some   of   the   other   agents   see   them   as   RECLUSIVE   &   TRUCULENT.   cerberus   corp   should   consider   the   fact   that   their   last   mission   status   was   successful   despite   almost   leaving   his   fellow   agents   to   die   when   giving   out   the   next   one.   ┊┊   nana.   she/her.   24.   est.

BASICS.

full  name.  aldren dain demirel . age.  thirty  one . abilities.  pain inducement . sexual  orientation.  heterosexual ,  heteroromantic . residence.  upper eastside . status.  single ,  unattached . languages  spoken.  english , spanish , turkish , korean . allegiance.  himself .

APPEARANCE. hair  color.  brown . eye  color.  brown . height.  six  foot  five . scars.  a  jagged  one  over  his  right  eye . style.  plain  &  simple  clothes ,  monochrome  colors .

MISCELLANEOUS. hogwarts  house.  slytherin . alignment.  chaotic  neutral . strengths.  resourceful ,  dauntless ,  loyal ( when earned ) ,  strategic .   weaknesses.  insouciant ,   recalcitrant ,   short  -  tempered ,   blasé . aesthetic.  the  unbreakable  resolve  of  naturally  stoic  features,  the  beautiful  yet  hauntingly  sad  playing  of  a  piano  in  the  dead  of  night, waking  up  in  a  pool  of  sweat  and  a  sore  throat . media  inspiration.  daemon  targaryen  (  fourth  wing  ) ,  simon  basset  (  bridgerton  ) ,  xaden  riorson  (  fourth wing  ) , alastor  moody  (  harry  potter  ),  rhysand  (  acotar  ) .

BIOGRAPHY.

a   jaded   man   who's   endured   more   than   he   should've   as   a   child   which   has   made   him   into   a   hermit.   coincidentally,   has   a   thing   for   hermit   crabs   and   keeps   a   tank   at   headquarters.

[blondeboyfriend]

𝐃𝐄𝐄𝐏 𝐂𝐔𝐓𝐒 (𝟏𝟖+)

𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐍𝐈

[ PAIRING ] Eren Yeager x reader [ SYNOPSIS ] Eren comes home after a rough night at the bar with Jean. Unable to see him in such a state you decide to tend to his wounds… among other things… I'm talking about his dick. [ WORD COUNT ] 1.8k [ CONTENT ] Modern AU, minor injuries, blood, marijuana, alcohol is mentioned, dubcon (Eren's high), biting, sadism, masochism, rough vaginal sex, no plot.

“So what exactly happened?” You asked as Eren trudged through the door of your apartment.

He hung his head, attempting to obscure his battered face. The lengthy sigh he let out filled the room with his exhaustion. You took a few steps closer to him while he dropped his keys on the floor. The metal colliding with the tile flooring destroyed any semblance of serenity once held in your home. You pulled him into a hug and he let out a pleased hum. His arms snaked around your waist and he held you close. The remnants of weed smoke and vetiver cologne filled your nose.

“Jean…” He said, tone dripping with subdued exasperation.

“What did he do?” You asked.

It was so hard to hide your desperate curiosity. You loved hearing about the inner workings of his social circle.

“He was mainlining adios motherfuckers all night.”

“What did he do? Black out and kick your ass?”

Eren chuckled. “You honestly think Jean could kick my ass?”

“Maybe. Jean does look like the kind of guy to hulk out when he drinks.”

“You’re breaking my heart.”

You rubbed his back, each pat radiating affection.

“I’m kidding. Jean could never kick your ass.”

“He could, but it’s fine.” Eren dropped his arms and released you from his grip. “Can I tell you about it while you clean me up?”

You were finally granted a full view of his face. His right cheek was a strawberry scrape and showed the beginnings of a bruise. His bottom lip was split. The blood exuded from the cut had dried, leaving behind a swatch of maroon. What stood out the most was the fresh blood dripping from his right nostril. You took him by the hand and led him into the bathroom. He sat down on the toilet and held his head in his hands, obscuring his face once more.

“Here,” you said, handing him a tissue.

He rolled it up and stuck it up his leaking nose.

“Thanks,” he mumbled, trying in vain to wriggle out of his pants.

You had little desire to see your beloved struggle. You kneeled before him and tugged at the jeans, peeling them off. A happy “phew” flew past his bloodied lip.

You grabbed all your first aid supplies and organized them on the ridge of the sink.

“Gimme the details.”

Eren sighed. “Jean decided to hit on every girl at the bar.”

You prepped a cotton ball with alcohol. “Every girl?”

“Maybe not every single girl, but he hit on every girl that had the shit luck of making eye contact with him.”

“Oh no. He was that guy.”

“Yeah,” he groaned. “The last one he bothered was with her boyfriend on a date. I tried to tell him! But he wouldn’t listen. He was convinced it was because I wanted to fuck her. I even brought you up!”

“Aww!”

Eren ignored your little remark.

“Fuck. And you know what,” he said, tone bristling with repressed rage. “I wasn’t gonna say anything because Jean was drunk and I don’t even care about what that horsefaced shitdick thinks. But fuck it! He thinks you’re too good for me! Did you know that?”

You swiped his cheek with the cotton pad. A little squeak crawled up Eren’s throat as the alcohol came into contact with his scrape.

“Sorry,” you said softly.”

He looked at you with sad, tired puppy dog eyes, red rimmed from the blunt he shared with Historia and Ymir earlier in the evening.

“‘s okay,’ he mumbled.

His posture grew rounder, softer. A chiropractor would likely have a shit fit had they seen such a shoulder slump but not you. No, even with the little info available you were able to surmise Eren’s immense need to decompress. Why pick on him about his posture when he was already battered and bruised?

You suppressed the urge to tease him and crawled into his lap, straddling him. His Grecian body radiated a pleasant warmth. It felt like home. You brushed a few locks of hair away from his face and gave him a quick peck on the forehead.

“I actually wasn’t aware of that. You know why?” You asked.

“Hm?”

“Because it’s not true. I’m definitely shitty enough to be with you.”

“You have such a way with words,” he groaned as you tended to him. “Anyway, the girl’s boyfriend was pissed to say the least and tried to drag Jean outside the bar by his collar. It all happened so fast I—ouch! If I had been a little quicker…” Eren’s voice trailed off.

His viridescent eyes were pinched shut as you dabbed his face with another cotton ball imbibed with alcohol. Your touch, while gentle, felt like hundreds of needles pricking the apple of his cheek. It was a pain you were familiar with. You tried to be gentle yet thorough. Though each muted moan and wince from Eren made your clit pulse.

“Did the guy fight Jean?”

“He tried. But I got in between them. I thought I talked everyone down but out of nowhere the boyfriend must have heard a sleeper word because he ran at me and punched me in the face twice. The last one sent me into the wall which is why my cheek is all scratched up.”

“What a loser. Did you hit him back?”

Eren half-smirked. “No. Too high for that shit. I was more concerned about not breaking my phone and getting home in one piece. When I saw an out, I took off running.”

“Nooooo. What about Jean?”

The brunette giggled. “Just kidding. I took his phone and got him a Lyft. I did have to push him inside it, but I’m sure everything worked out.”

You couldn’t help but think about Jean fighting his way out of the car in desperate search for unsuspecting women to hit on. You snickered at the thought. Eren placed his hands on the small of your back.

“What’re you laughin’ about?”

“Nothing,” you said, rocking your hips slightly.

His green gaze was penetrating. Even the haze of weed and head trauma couldn’t dull it. Eren’s desire took precedence over all. It was an unrelenting force. You stroked his uninjured cheek.

“Does it hurt? Does it ache at all?”

“Yeah, but I think I know what will make it feel better.”

You rolled your eyes. “And what exactly would that be?”

Eren pressed his semi hard cock against your clothed cunt. He rocked his hips a little, eyes fixed on you, awaiting your reaction. You put your hands on his shoulders and slowly dragged them down his chest, his muscles taut against your palms. You smirked, reciprocated the pressure he provided by grinding up against him.

You pressed your lips against his and sucked lightly on his swollen bottom lip. The metallic taste of blood linger on your tongue as Eren let out a pained groan. He pulled away, betrayal fell upon his face.

“Sorry,” you demurred. “I couldn’t help myself.”

“Alright, enough of that. Get up.”

You slid off of his body. He stood up and tossed you over his shoulder with a swiftness you didn’t think his stoned self was capable of. He carried you to the bedroom and tossed you onto the bed.

“Undress.”

You laid there, unmoving.

Eren sighed. “Undress… please?”

“‘kay.”

You eagerly stripped off your clothes and presented your naked body to him. He followed your lead and disrobed, leaving his clothes in a heap on the floor.

He crawled onto the bed, his ardor riddled gaze fixed on yours. His cock was tumescent, the tip pink and leaking precum. You longed to tongue the tip and savor the sweetness seeping out. He wrapped his hand around the length of his erection and stroked, leaving it slick and glistening.

You spread your legs and draped your arms over his shoulders and ran your hands down his muscled back, dragging your nails along the way. A pained groan fell from his lips. Your hands stopped on the apex of his ass and dug your fingertips into the delicate flesh.

“Too much?” You whispered in his ear.

“It’s fine,” he replied through a clenched jaw.

You gripped his cheeks harder as he slid his cock into your cunt. Eren’s hunger for pain embedded ecstasy into your existence. His hands roamed your body before one found its way to your swollen clit. His thumb encircled it, applying a hint of pressure as he drove his cock further inside you.

The muscles of Eren’s ass tightened as he bottomed out, his balls slapping up against your writhing body. Your fingers dug deeper into his skin, relishing in every groan that grew from the depths of his throat.

“Does it hurt?”

“Ye—yeah it does.”

“Good,” you growled. “That’s what I want to hear.”

You nipped at his neck and ran your tongue along the length of it. The piquant taste of his sweat dancing across your tastebuds. You wanted to lick him clean, get rid of all the sweat, blood, and stress that afflicted his evening. Eren deserved to be worshiped after the fuckery he waded through… Though he’d have to suffer a bit more.

“Shit!” He cried out as you proceeded to bite him.

Your eyes held an impish glint as he pushed your face away from him. He held you down by the shoulders and thrust into you like you were nothing more than a nameless hole. You missed having his thumb pressing on your clit, but this was nothing to complain about. You were on the verge of coming undone regardless.

“‘Ren—fuck—I’m close.”

Eren was silent, too focused on his cock touching your cervix to respond. You cupped his face in your hands and kissed him gently. He welcomed the tenderness even if it took him by surprise. His hips skipped a beat and a trickle of cum entered your cunt. It felt as if the warmth was traveling through your veins, engulfing every inch of your body. Your breathing labored and you struggled to articulate your needs. You wanted to tell Eren how good his cock felt inside you, how happy you were that he was okay, and how badly you wanted to suck on his split lip.

You cried out his name as he pounded his cock into you, the tip now slamming into your cervix. Your body quivered under the weight of his and you felt as if you were ascending.

Eren held you close as your orgasm peaked, whispering the sweetest of words within your ears.

“That feel good, baby? You deserve it after taking such good care of me.”

“E—even though I made you blee—”

A breathy moan interrupted your sentence much to Eren’s enjoyment. He laughed and pulled his cock out, jerking off and aiming his tip at your stomach. He shut his eyes tight as a stream of pearlescent cum coated your skin. He hopped off the bed and grabbed the shirt he had been wearing previously. He wiped away his mess and gazed lovingly at you.

“I could use a shower. Join me?”

“Y—”

He cut you off. “You don’t have a choice.”

“Why ask me then?”

“... Due diligence?”

“I—I don’t think that’s what that means but… alright.”

[kidstemplatte]

one step more

summary: terzo catches his daughter sneaking out of the house.

it is stated that violetta has a mother (presumably reader). more notes at the end. i hope you enjoy <3

“One step at a time, Violetta.” The drunken teenage girl thought to herself, walking down the dark hallway to your section of the abbey. The hall had never felt this long before. Sure, she complained like a bitch every time she left something in the commons after just getting comfortable in bed, having to walk through the lengthy corridor in her pajamas to retrieve it, but it was never this bad. With every step she took, it seemed as if the corridor seemed to stretch just one step more.

She inched down the hall, her jet-black hair dirty and tangled, the makeup she spent hours perfecting beginning to melt away, her platform boots in hand. Those stupid fucking boots. So cute but so damn inconvenient. She almost bust her face open twice on the walk home, drunkenly stumbling on the sidewalk before taking them off. She knew it was stupid, sneaking out to go to concerts and parties instead of studying or spending time with her family. But recently, she hadn’t been feeling like herself. She couldn’t explain it, she just felt… off. And if taking a few too many shots and jumping around to the sound of ear-splitting screams with a bunch of strangers let her forget about it for a moment, she was willing to do so.

She blinked, and she made it to the entrance. A large black door containing elaborate engravings around the frame and the name “Emeritus” carved on the top stood before her. Slowly and carefully, she turned the door knob and pushed gently. Damn it, this door was old and creaky. If anyone asked what the noise was about in the morning, she would just say she left her headphones in the commons, which was a common occurrence. She opened her phone to check the time. 1:56 am.

She tiptoed her way in, turned around, shut the door slowly until she heard the satisfying click, and let go. Setting her boots down by the door, she inhaled deeply and let out a sigh of relief.

Phew.

“How was the party, Violetta?”

And as she lifted her gaze from the floor, there sat her father, Terzo, in the large recliner by the fire, swirling a glass of wine in his hand.

Shit.

Violetta stood by the door dumbfounded , painted lips agape yet not able to produce any words.

“And the one before that?”

The silence was deafening. The only thing audible was the repetitive ticking of the grandfather clock, typically gone unnoticed during the day.

“And the one before that?” he continued.

He took an extended sip from the glass, pretending to wait for a response, knowing damn well he wasn’t going to get one.

“There was even one on a Tuesday. Who goes to the club on a Tuesday?” he remarked.

Like this man hadn’t been to the club on a Tuesday.

“I’m sorry.” was all she managed to get out, staring at a singular spot on the carpet rather than into his eyes, trying to maintain her balance.

“Sit.” He said, gesturing to the couch across from him.

Violetta dragged herself over to the couch, putting a concerning amount of thought into each step. While she sat down, Terzo placed the glass onto the coffee table as she attempted not to look at it. She’d rather stare into her father’s disappointed eyes than look at any kind of alcohol right now. Just the thought of it made her stomach churn.

“Are you drunk?” Terzo asked, leaning forward, his tone eerily indistinguishable.

“Uh…”

He raised an eyebrow.

“Yeah.”

There was no point in trying to hide it.

“Violetta…” her father said, rubbing his face with his hands.

He then started rambling, going off on what was presumably some sort of lecture about sneaking out. But as he kept talking, he kept getting quieter, and everything else got louder. A sickly feeling in her stomach began to grow, and a dull ache in her head was becoming more and more noticeable.

“Give me one moment.” Terzo said, standing up and exiting the room.

Fuck, he was gonna tell Mom.

Violetta shut her eyes, focusing on her breathing as the fatigue grew by the second with each tick of the clock. Her body was heating up, a tingling feeling spreading throughout her body. She was so embarrassed, caught by her dad while she was shitfaced out of her mind. She wanted to go to bed and wake up and feel better, and pretend this was all a bad dream.

When she opened her eyes, she was not faced with her mother, rather than her father, kneeling in front of her, wiping off the smudged black and white paint on her face. She really was her father’s daughter.

Terzo looked down at his daughter’s face, his heart growing with each swipe of the makeup wipe, as more and more of her was revealed. It had been so long since he’d seen her. His daughter. After he was done taking off her makeup, he tossed the wipe on the table.

The walls were spinning. Her stomach was churning. Her head was pounding.

“I think I’m gonna-“

Terzo quickly grabbed a large plastic bowl he had set on the table, previously gone unnoticed, and handed it to his daughter.

Just as the discomfort reached its climax, she retched into the bowl, emptying the contents of her stomach. When she was finally done, she set the bowl on the side of the table.

Much better.

“Better?” Terzo asked, sitting beside Violetta on the couch.

“Yeah.” She said, shooting him a weary thumbs up. Her headache was fading away, her stomach settled, and her body began to cool down.

“Good.” he replied.

And just moments after she felt the relief from the physical pain, another pain started to settle in: emotional pain. She didn’t know why it happened. It just did. Her chest started to ache, her throat tightened up, and her vision started to blur with tears.

“Are you mad at me?” she squeaked timidly, voice cracking.

“No.” he replied.

“You promise?”

“I promise.” he confirmed with a brief nod.

“Being a parent is weird, even after all this time. Of course when I see you leaving the house and partying I at first want to get upset. You know, I did the same things when I was your age. Worse. I was a party animal. Maybe ‘was’ is not the proper word. But I settled down after we had you. But nobody ever talked to me about it. I was scolded before I even understood the consequences of what I was doing. So I want to ask, how are you doing?”

“I don’t know.” she replied, somewhat honestly.

The tears welling up finally escaped her eyes, uncontrollably streaming down her face as she let out soft gasps and hiccups.

“Oh, la mia stellina, do not cry… It’s okay.” He reassured her, wrapping his arms around her and holding her tightly.

It had been so long since they had hugged like this, since they had had a moment, just the two of them together. “I’m sorry it has taken me this long to check in on you.” He said as the two pulled away from their embrace.

“No, it’s okay, I’m sorry I’ve been sneaking out.” Violetta apologized, wiping tears from her eyes.

“Maybe we are both sorry. That’s okay.” He reassured her.

“Yeah.” She sniffed.

“I mean, honestly, it’s not all because I’m feeling weird. Going out is… fun.” She admitted.

“Trust me, I know. You are a teenager. You will go out and do teenage things. I cannot stop that. You are growing up. But I also want to make sure you’re being safe. That is my greatest concern. No taking anything from strangers, no walking alone at night, you know. You know this. You are smart, Violetta. That is why this is worrying me that something else is going on.”

“I’ve just been feeling weird. Different. I don’t know if depressed is the right word-“

“You have not been thinking of hurting yourself, have you?” Terzo interrupted, his facial expression morphing into one of panic as he collected both her hands in his.

“No.” she replied.

“You promise?” He said, voice dropping into a low whisper.

“Yes.”

“You promise me?”

“Yes, Papa. I promise.” she reiterated, looking into his eyes.

Papa.

He missed that word.

“Okay.”

“I don’t know, I just don’t really feel like myself. Just different. Like I’m watching my life go by and I’m just… inside my body.” she explained.

“Violetta, you can tell me these things. I am always here for you. I want to be a part of your life. I have no idea what an ideal father looks like. But I try my hardest to be one. I miss talking to you. The longest conversations we have are when we’re arguing. I do not want it to be this way. But that is how it has become.”

A looming silence spread throughout the room, leaving nothing but the faint sound of ticking until Terzo let in a shaky breath.

“Tell me, Violetta, what can I do to change this?”

And in a newly adopted, weaker tone, Terzo muttered,

“What can I do to be a part of your life again?”

“You will always be a part of my life, Papa. Even if you aren’t always with me. You don’t have to do anything else. This is all I needed. A reminder.” She reassured him.

“I will always do more. Take the extra mile. Even just one step more. Always for you.” Terzo professed.

“Thank you, Papa. I love you.”

“I love you too, Violetta. La mia stellina.” He said, pulling her in and holding her tightly.

“Tomorrow we can go for a car ride and listen to music, like we used to? Sound good?” he asked as the two pulled away from each other.

“Only if you let me have the aux.”

“An ox? That’s an odd pet, no?”

“No, Papa, like the- the aux cord.” She explained through laughter, mimicking plugging in the cord.

“Oh. I see. Sure, you can have the aux.” Terzo laughed, waving his hand.

“Oh, and now that we’re being open with each other, can you please tell me about the time you showed up drunk to mass and started freestyle rapping?”

“The time I- how?”

“Mom told me about it.”

Per l’amor del cielo.

☪︎ ִ ࣪𖤐 𐦍 ☾𖤓

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!

this one was so fun and challenging to write but so worth it!!! i’m obsessed with their relationship. 😭

i really hope you enjoyed!!

more violetta content is coming soon!! and maybe another child as well 🤭

❤️, alice

[dxngosstuff]

Does the Moonlight Shine On Paris? (viii) | Finale

Idol!Yoon Jeonghan x Idol!f!Reader

1k words ; cw : none I m.list tags: friends to lovers; fluff; minor angst; idol au; elements of slowburn; second male lead scoups;

Yoon Jeonghan realizes a few things about you after sharing a drink with you in Paris.

It was around 2:00 AM when you finished practicing the choreography for your upcoming comeback. Your schedule is about to get even more hectic since the preparations for it have just begun. Usually, you'd be home earlier than this but you really wanted to get the choreo down. The other dancers have already left before you and you insisted on staying. Hence, the reason why you were alone in the studio now.

Suddenly, your phone started to ringing while you were getting ready to leave. ‘Who would call me at 2 in the morning?’ You thought to yourself.

Joy immediately replaced your confusion and your eyes lit up when you saw the caller's name on the screen. But, you wondered why Jeonghan was calling because he would usually text first before anything else to make sure you were available.

“Hey! What's up? Why are you still awake?” You answered gleefully.

“…”

You raised your eyebrow at the silence that was coming from the other side of the line. Thinking maybe he must've accidentally dialed your number.

Eager to get some sort of response from him you asked, "Uh, Hannie. Are you there?"

"Mhm..." He finally answered.

"Phew. I thought you got kidnapped or something. What's going on?" You laughed.

Your ears were once again met with silence before he answered. "Nothing… I just wanted to hear your voice. I love your laugh, by the way. Wish I could hear it in person right now." His voice sounded groggy and some words sounded slurred. From the sound of it, you guessed that he was probably drinking.

"Did you drink?" You inquired.

He replied slowly with noticeable pauses in his phrases, as if thinking carefully about what he was going to say, "Yeah... A little bit... With Seungcheol. He found out about us… But it's all good… I'll explain to you tomorrow when I'm feeling sober.”

You gulped, worrying about how the whole situation turned out. "So, you guys didn’t fight or anything?"

"Heh... we didn’t so don’t worry. I can take you out on all the dates that I can now." He smiled then took a deep breath before he continued.

"Y/N... I'll never make you cry or feel neglected or pushed aside. If you ever feel unsure of what we have, I'll give you all the assurance you need. Heck, l'd even run to you right now if it was the fastest way to get to you. All you have to do is ask, my princess."

All of a sudden he sounded sober. It was like his thoughts were laid bare in front of you. You were a firm believer that drunk words are sober thoughts. And here he was saying all of his heart’s contents out loud. He did tell you that he liked you after your little movie date but this is more than you expected from him. It made you feel warm and fuzzy, similar to the feeling you felt when you first kissed him

"I'm sorry, Y/N. I didn't mean to let it all out... But I just wanted you to know how I feel about you." He continued.

"Thank you, Hannie. I… appreciate it and I really like you. You know that, right?" You bit your lip anticipating his response. You couldn’t come up with more words because of how your mind went blank over the affection you were receiving but God knows, if you could just give him a big warm hug right now, you most definitely would.

“Ahh… I like you too. A lot. I just want you to know that I’m ready to take the risk with you. Anywhere. Anytime.”

‘God. I must like Jeonghan more than I thought.’ You tried to cover your face with your hand that was unoccupied by the phone. The blood was now rushing to your face and all the way to your ears. And you were sure that if anyone was in the room right now, you’d never hear the end of it.

Your conversation was lengthy but filled with endearment. His drunk ramblings would stay in your mind for the days on end and whether he would remember it all tomorrow or not was not an issue to you as his drunk thoughts would now become the secrets that you would keep close to your heart.

—

3 months later

“Hannie!”

You open the door for your boyfriend. It’s been three months since you and Jeonghan started dating and you’ve never been happier. Tonight, you were having dinner together with the meal that you cooked for the both of you.

“I missed you so much.” He wrapped his arms around your waist while you gave him a hug above the shoulders. You gave each other the tightest squeeze you could.

He gave you a peck on the lips, still not letting go. “I missed you, too.” You answered.

You had just finished your promotions and it was his idea to celebrate it at your apartment so that you could rest a bit yet spend time together.

“Come on, the food’s gonna get cold.” The hug was broken off and you grabbed his hand instead to lead him to the dining table. He fixed the chair for you to sit on before getting to the seat in front of you.

In the time you’ve been dating, Jeonghan has been nothing but a gentleman to you. You’ve seen sides to him that you wouldn’t have seen if it weren’t for your girlfriend privileges. Yes, he would tease you sometimes but it was nothing you couldn’t handle. But mind you, you had a couple of incidents you could tease him on as well. Like how it turned out that he was crushing on you for years or how he would drunk call you and be all mushy. Although Jeonghan would never be ashamed about how he loves you, he would sometimes cringe at the things he would say, thinking it was so out-of-character of him to say those things. But nonetheless, you were the only one that could bring that side of him out.

After shortly rummaging through his bag beside him, he pulled out a long box. “Here it is. I think it would go wonderful with the steak tonight.”

“Oh my…” You looked at the familiar packaging in your boyfriend’s hand. “Is that what I think it is?”

“Yep. It’s the same brand of wine we had in Paris. I bought it when Dino and I went back to Paris for a schedule.” He smiled at you before handing you the wine bottle.

Memories of that night flooded you as you remembered how you and Jeonghan shared your thoughts with each other. “This is kinda making me feel emotional for some reason.” The rush of emotions was evident in your tone.

Jeonghan sat in front of you again after getting the cork screw from your kitchen drawer. At this point, he has been in your house multiple times to the point where he now knows where everything is. It was his second home after all.

“Say… If we didn’t share a bottle of wine that night would we be here right now?” You wondered while still staring at it in your hands.

“I’m not quite sure about that myself. But I am sure about one thing.” He took your hand.

“What is that?”

He then kissed your hand and said, “I would’ve still found a way to be with you, regardless.”

You smiled at him and put the bottle down, putting all your focus on him. “Oh, Hannie. I love you so so much.”

“I love you too, my princess.”

The moment made you realize how thankful you were that you shared some wine with him that night. Oh, how glad it made you feel that you went out of your hotel room that night instead of watching some random series on Netflix to fight your jet lag. If it weren’t for that, you wouldn’t have realized how amazing it was to love and be loved by the man in front of you.

‘Please, may he be the last man I’ll ever love.’ You thought to yourself as you casually thank Paris for the magic it brought to the two of you.

-END-

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author’s note: thank you so so much for everybody’s support! this series has officially come to an end! (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀) i initially had it planned as a oneshot due to the chokehold that PFW jeonghan had on me but i’m glad that it was able to make it to 8 chapters. i’m planning to post an athlete!seungcheol oneshot soon so i can at least use my 2+ years of training in jiu-jitsu. lmao.

[galaxywarp]

Hey Blue ;v; I just have something that I need to get off my chest, I need to tell somebody, so I hope it’s okay if I tell you: I have a problem with weed. As in, I need to stop using it. I’m thinking of, like, giving my stash to my friends so I can’t use it as easily. I need to tell my counsellor. But I’m scared. I need help. (Btw it’s not like it’s illegal here, it’s legal where I am. I’m scared because I’ve never dealt with something like this before)

Also, I have a question about your sobriety tracker (bc I use it too, just not for substance use) : when do you start tracking? From the last moment you put the drug in your body, or the first moment you sobered up from it/weren’t high?

And… I’m not weak for having a problem with weed, am I? Just bc like. It’s not a hard drug or anything, it feels kind of stupid to have this happen 😭

(Ugh I need to just say it. I’m addicted to it. Thankfully I don’t have much opportunity to use it, but I use it every chance I get, and I just broke one of my own rules that serves as a restriction)

Hi friend. Thanks for reaching out. I’m glad you’re on the step of your recovery where you can acknowledge you have a problem. That’s a really rough step

Especially because of the weird mixed signals and attitudes around weed addiction. I understand where you’re coming from.

And if it helps, this is me, a certified tweaker who used to OD on fentanyl regularly: your weed addiction is still real and still serious and you still deserve support.

Addiction is addiction when it’s hurting you. It sounds like you’ve come to acknowledge that weed is hurting you but even though it is, you’re struggling to stop.

You’re not doing it because it’s fun. You’re doing it because you feel like you need it and going without it is painful. I’ve felt that way about numerous drugs in my lifetime, and weed is definitely one of them. I would smoke myself so numb for months or years on end and it was absolutely miserable.

Im sorry you’re going through this. I have hope you’ll be able to overcome this. Im glad you shared this with me and I hope you can share it with others too.

If you do decide to quit, I know there’s a lot of stuff trying to claim that weed has no withdrawal symptoms. I don’t think that’s true. From lengthy personal experience I really don’t think that’s true. Heroin and meth were soooo much more extreme, don’t get me wrong. It’s apples to oranges — it can’t be compared

But when I stopped smoking pot I felt achy and agitated and bored and restless and upset and don’t let anyone, including yourself, invalidate that you feel shitty. It’s gonna feel bad for a bit and you have every right to own that. Don’t deny yourself some days of lying around whining and snacking and trying to distract yourself.

The good news is, after 2-3 weeks, you’ll start feeling better in a way you probably haven’t felt since you started smoking 24/7

If you need someone to vent to during that time, my askbox is open

Phew! That’s a lot. For your last question: my exact sobriety dates in my trackers are actually ….very loose

The short answer is that my memory of those times is very distorted because of, y know , drugs

The longer answer includes that I picked my dates as dates when I made a conscious decision that I wanted to quit.

My fentanyl date: September 27, 2019

I came home from a camping trip with my family. Because I was in the woods sleeping in a tent with them all weekend, I couldn’t bring my drugs. And I was gonna be in withdrawal

But I had saved a few suboxone from my last detox clinic and I used them over the weekend to keep the pain manageable (suboxone is used for opiate withdrawal so I had been prescribed it off and on for years)

When I got home I still had a small bag left of fentanyl.

I decided….i wasn’t going to buy anymore

And over the next few days I used what was left, all the way down to desperately licking the bag and smoking burnt tin foil, trying to wean myself so my withdrawal symptoms weren’t as bad

And then I ran out. And I stopped. And now im 4 years clean from it

Very similar story with my meth date: April 1st 2023

I still had a little bit of meth left but that was the day I said I didn’t want to get anymore. And when it was gone, it was gone. And now it’s been over a year

[misc-obeyme]

🪿anon here Hey hello! I thought I put in another ask before the one you replied to, but I think tumblr ate it somewhere between you and me. So sorry about the confusion, you didn't miss me at all. Your reply was lovely and I loved reading about your headcanons, especially how Mammon would totally biff people with his wings. Ask game time tho! 🦈 What is the character you have the hardest time writing? And as a bonus, if you're up for it: 💛 What's an impactful lesson you've learned about writing? I'm a fellow (and often struggling) writer and I love hearing what other people have to share, especially in the fandom space. Honks and hisses! 🪿

Ahhh okay, that explains it! Tumblr has been known to eat asks on occasion! Phew, I'm glad I didn't miss you! I'll go ahead and add your emoji to the list now!! Ah, I'm glad you liked my reply too I felt bad that it was so lengthy lol.

🦈 What is the character you have the hardest time writing?

Siiiiigh it's Levi. I'm much better with him now than I used to be, but I really struggled with him for a long time. His anxiety really reminded me of myself irl, so I had a hard time separating the anxiety of his character from my own. And this was an issue for me because it messed with my characterization of him.

I also struggle with Mammon sometimes. This is because I think the fandom's version of him and the canon version of him are different. So my brain is always flip flopping between them when doing his characterization. And I was so worried about writing him OOC that I would just kinda... not write for him much at all? But then I kinda reconciled it by deciding I was going to write my version of him and just own it! LOL.

💛 What's an impactful lesson you've learned about writing?

Ohh an interesting question! I would say the understanding that there is no "right" way to write a story. You get to decide what works for you. Even if a lot of other writers swear by doing this one thing, you only need to do it if it actually helps you. Otherwise, chuck it!

Specifically to fandom things, though, I would also add that having fun is the most important thing. How other people react to your writing is not an indication of how good it is. Things like how active a fandom is, how popular a ship is (if you're writing a ship), how many people are looking for this specific genre (e.g. fluff, angst, etc), all of that is going to impact how people react to what you wrote. You might have written the most exquisite novel length fic ever, but if it's about something not a lot of people are interested in, you might get only a handful of comments/reblogs/likes etc.

So the important thing to focus on for fanfic is how you feel about writing it. Write things you enjoy, write for yourself. You're spending a lot of time and effort and energy on that story. Make sure it's one that you're proud of, no matter how people respond to it.

I'm writing Arsenios's story and it's been such an amazing experience. I absolutely love it and I'm throwing my whole heart & soul into it. But OC stuff rarely has the same engagement as canon. So when I finally start posting it, I won't be surprised if it doesn't do very well, especially compared to some of my other stuff.

But the thing is, it won't matter. I'm writing that story because I love it, because it's fun, because it makes me happy. So how well it does or doesn't do won't impact the experience I got out of writing it.

OOF sorry to ramble so much, but I hope that makes some sense! I just think people get too hung up on numbers and things (myself included lol) when really that's not the thing that matters most!

Ahaha but I could write about writing all day... I guess it's my special interest. :)

Anyway, thank you for asking!

Fanfic Writer Ask Game

[iloveyoucountdown]

ahem

❤️‍🩹an announcement!❤️‍🩹

this is kinda lengthy so its all under cut lol there’s a poll too

phew. i love you’s finally out, huh? it feels like yesterday when her door came out and i started this account lmao

first of all, i’m pretty sure i flooded some tags, and i am so sorry about that lmao

now that the blog has fulfilled its purpose, we’re not gonna need it anymore. or well that’s what you think

i’m planning on repurposing the blog into another mappi gimmick! in a month or so i’m gonna be getting a mappi keychain and i plan on taking her with me whenever i go out! i’ll also draw mappi chibis for anything digital

in short, the account might become a “mappi in random places she shouldn’t be” blog! unless you don’t want this to be repurposed, i understand.

that aside, thank you all so much for keeping up with this blog! i’ve had so much fun drawing or making memes to count down the days remaining until ily!

now let’s give mappi some rest! she’s tired after doing all that for 10 days straight ❤️‍🩹

(theres a bit more after this image btw)

while you’re here, you can also check out my main blog, thefunnykaboom! i’m multi fandom though and possibly unhinged? so be aware ✌️

i’ll still be answering any questions that come along to this blog as well!

alright, that’s all! until we meet again!! 👋👋

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

[hiddenbeks]

#7 from general and #2 from story (from the tav meme) for khaless please!

yayyyyy thank you jasper!!

bg3 companion!tav asks

putting this under a cut bc it got super lengthy!! sorry abt that hgfhfg

general #7: do they have their own personal quest that spans the course of the game? can it take different branching paths depending on the choices the player character makes?

yesss tho i'm still trying to figure it out! her story is strongly tied to menzoberranzan and drow political intrigue and since you don't go anywhere near menzoberranzan and only encounter a handful of drow in-game it's been hard to figure out how to tie her into the game's plot but anyway-

some backstory first!! basically her house fell from grace several generations ago when one member (khaless' silver dragon ancestor disguised as a drow) was revealed to be an undercover servant of eilistraee. the rest of the members quickly disposed of her to avoid the whole house being destroyed. but their reputation took a hit and ever since they've been a minor noble house struggling to survive. enter khaless, an ambitious young visionary who wants to restore house dhalmar to its former glory! she was viewed with suspicion growing up because her draconic powers and scales were a nasty reminder of the house's past. but she proves herself a cunning and ruthless and kinda fanatical worshipper of lolth and advances quickly despite it all.

khaless becomes a priestess in house dhalmar and wipes several houses out of the way and grows house dhalmar's influence. she starts to believe she is unstoppable and thinks it's a great idea to accept house baenre's offer of alliance, not realizing the baenres' plan is to betray her and destroy house dhalmar before they become an actual problem. khaless survives and flees into the underdark! she is discovered injured by a group of silverhair knights and she spends some time with them after recovering and initially thinks they are stupid and weak but it's the first time she encounters drow with a different way of life and maybe it.. leaves an impression...

anyway the knights are killed by some assassins looking for khaless. rip. she flees to the surface and gets abducted by the mind flayers and this is where we finally get to her quest phew!!

when you encounter khaless she is at a crossroads; on one hand she believes she deserves vengeance and power after everything she's been through. on the other she is becoming disillusioned with lolthite society and very deep down just wants to live without having to constantly look over her shoulder, plotting to betray others before they get to betray her.

you can either convince her to return to menzoberranzan for revenge and to continue her elimination of houses until she reaches the top as she believes she should. or you can guide her down a gentler path and help her find new purpose outside of the cycles of violence she grew up in. tbh i think returning to menzoberranzan would be the sexier and more satisfying ending but maybe that's solely because i haven't come up with an equally satisfying "good" ending yet. idk. the ones i have cooked up don't have a catharsis factor similar to the menzo ending but maybe that's like the point... sometimes there is no catharsis and sometimes a happy ending is not an epic one... you just have to move on or whatev. although coming to terms with her past and choosing to leave it behind and live for herself can be cathartic i guess?

ALSO one important thing in khaless' questline is her ancestry being at odds with her upbringing and her being conflicted about having the blood of a silver dragon who served the goddess she was raised to hate and said blood also giving her the powers that have helped her survive throughout her life. so that's one more thing to deal with lol. in her non-menzo ending khaless would fully embrace her draconic ancestry! and maybe she finds out that her ancestor is only Allegedly dead and goes on a journey to try and find her to learn more about her powers and heritage from her.

story specific #2: how do they advise the player character on raphael?

she would say something like "i hope you're not foolish enough to take this cambion at his word. that being said i think we should take full advantage of his powers and knowledge. perhaps we could even trick him into serving us..." basically find out what exactly raphael wants and what exactly he is offering and use that to the party's benefit. kinda similar to gale's advice iirc? khaless is always looking for opportunities to take advantage of more powerful people in order to get ahead. unfortunately she also tends to get in way over her head and have it all backfire on her. it's almost as if she and her 10 wis learned nothing from her disastrous alliance with the baenres,

btw speaking of gale. khaless is kinda similar to him with how ambitious she is and this drives her mad. she is Not like this nerdy ass wizard he is so lame she would've shoved him into a locker in her youth she is nothing like him she is nooooooootttt (she is)

[pavelmintyukov]

Hi! I just loved the set you did of shazam it was amazing the purple was just ahhhhhhh I was wondering if u had tutorial on how you did each gif in the set?

aw thank you anon, i really appreciate it!! 💜

akdjkdjkkaj i'm not the best at explaining things but i made a tutorial on how to make the gifs after the cut :) please note that this entails basic gif-making knowledge and general understanding of photoshop and use of its tools.

if you have any other questions, please let me know!

gif #1 & 3

the first and third gifs are done using similar processes in which i mostly utilized selective color and added warped text.

first, create your gif and adjust its settings to your liking.

for me, i first sharpened the gif. then i added some adjustment layers like brightness/contrast, curves, etc (and doing my best without whitewashing the character) since the lighting of scene i used for this gif was pretty dim. 

add a selective color layer

modify the selective color settings by choosing to alter the neutral colors in the drop down menu. then you can tinker around by selecting other colors to adjust or playing around with the levels of cyan, magenta, yellow, and black to make the gif more of a color that you desire. 

because i wanted mine to look purple, here’s what i adjusted: 

now the gif is purple! but you can see that darla also has a purple tint to her, and we want to remove that. to do so, make sure you’re still on the selective color layer and now click on the brush tool.

make sure you’re on the selective color layer mask thumbnail and your brush tool has black set as the foreground color.

with the brush tool, use it to essentially erase/paint over the areas where you want to remove the purple tint created from the selective color layer. you can also adjust brush settings; i used a softer brush to make the distinction between darla and the purple background more subtle. 

and voila! part one of making a gif with a purple background is complete

now you’re going to add text. for my text, i mainly used this tutorial explained under gif #3.

so you’re going to add new text layer and type in whatever you want with your desired size and color. then, you’re going to click the “fx” icon at the bottom of the layers panel and select blending options. 

like the tutorial states, set blend mode: difference, color overlay blend mode: color, and gradient overlay blend mode: multiply. i also added a drop shadow to make the text more apparent.

then i’m going to warp text by right clicking the text layer and selecting warp text or you can click the warp text icon at the top. 

i chose the flag style and adjusted the bend of the text to my desire. you can also play around with horizontal/vertical distortion if you like.

finally to create the white outline of the text, right click the text layer and click duplicate layer so you have two of same text layers.

click the “fx” at the bottom again to get to blending options.

check stroke, set the size to 1px, and the color as white. turn off the other text layer effects (color overlay, gradient overlay, etc.) by unchecking them.

finally, in the layers panel, set fill to 0% and move the white text outline over your original text and you’re done!

for my third gif in this gifset, it’s basically the same steps of creating the gif > adjusting settings > selective color layer > using the brush tool erasing areas where you don’t want the color tint.

then i implemented the same text process and settings. the only difference is how i warped for the text.

for the third gif, the warped the first line of text using the shell upper setting and the second line of text with shell lower. adjust the bend to your liking. then i would edit > free transform the text layers to move them to their respective corners of the gif. the white stroke layers are done using the same process.

there you go! that’s how you make gif #1 & 3 :)

gif #2 & 5

these gifs are little trickier to make, but some of the coloring steps are pretty much done the same as for gifs #1 & 3!

first, i downloaded these templates from @thlaugraphics. i’ll demonstrate using the diagonal template. i then resized it to the desired dimensions i want for my gif. then i went to timeline > create frame animation > convert to video timeline to ensure that the gifs can move when put in the template.

next, have your two gifs prepared. make sure they are the same frame length!

then input your respective gifs to the template’s different parts where it says “torn paper pic here” or “background pic here”. the creator of the template provided this super helpful tutorial that i used! (also make sure that when the .psb file opens in another tab and you input your gif, that you continue to convert it to frame animation/video on your timeline.)

(i’m using two of the same gifs in this example bc i’m lazy lol)

now you have your two of gifs placed into the template, and it’s time for the coloring effects.

for my second gif in this gifset, i used the same process as gif #1 and #3 in which i utilized selective color.

so, add a new selective color layer. adjust the colors to your liking. as i did previously, i modified the neutral colors to it gif looks more purple. 

then, like we did for gif #1 and 3, we can erase the parts of the gif that we don’t want to be covered in the purple tint. making sure you’re still on the selective color layer mask thumbnail, click on brush tool.

set the foreground color as black and then use the brush to essentially erase your desired parts of the gif, or in this case, the purple tint on darla. 

and that’s how you make gif #2!

for gif #5, i used gradient layer to make the purple vignette look, which doesn’t require the selective color layer. with your original two gifs in the template, go to layer > new fill layer > gradient. click ok.

open the gradient fill window. adjust the style to radial. check the reverse box. change the gradient color to your liking (i chose purple in this case). then adjust the scale according to how much of the gradient you want to border your gif (i did around 230%).

and there you have it! that’s how you make gif #5.

gif #4

the fourth gif is pretty simple to make. first, have your gif ready and fix its adjustment layer settings to your liking. i added mainly the brightness settings for this one. 

then, create a new layer and change it to “color”.

next, click the gradient tool in your tool bar. change the gradient colors to your liking at the top left. apply the gradient across and over your gif.

you can also reduce the opacity of this layer if it looks too vibrant/harsh for your taste. 

finally, it’s time to add the text. add a new text layer and type whatever you’d like. 

then click “fx” at the bottom of the layers panel to access blending options. 

check the drop shadow option and the stroke option. set the stroke to 1px and the color to white.

finally, set the fill to 0% and that’s how you create the text!

if you want to create the check boxes like i did, click on the rounded rectangle tool in the toolbar and draw the boxes beside the text. add check marks through text layers and by typing/pasting them in as emoticons.

and you’re pretty much done! 

gif #6

ok for sixth gif, the beginning steps are basically the same as gif #1 & 3′s in which i used the same adjustment settings, selective color, and masking/erasing process.

after that, click the rounded rectangle tool in your toolbar and draw a border around your gif. i set my border size to 5px in this.

next, click on that shape layer and then the “fx” at the bottom of the layers panel to access blending options.

check gradient overlay and make sure blend mode is set at “normal”. 

modify the gradient colors and angle to your liking. 

afterwards, add your text through new text layers and enter whatever text you want. click on the “fx” for blending options again.

check drop shadow and gradient overlay, and just like the rectangle tool, you can edit the text’s gradient colors and angle to whatever you’d like.

then, move the text to top and bottom of your rectangle borders. 

finally, go back and click on the rounded rectangle layer. then at the bottom of the layers panel, click on the layer mask icon. make sure you’re now on the layer mask thumbnail!

similarly to how you would use the brush tool to erase parts of the selective color layer, do the same for this rounded rectangle layer. 

use the brush tool, make sure the foreground color is set at black, and erase parts of the rounded rectangle border where the text lies.

and you’re done!!

and that’s pretty much it! i apologize if anything confuses you lmaoo

[alena-draws]

Do you have a print shop of any kind, by the way?

I don't, but if you are interested in having something printed, it's no problem to ask and we can work out the prices and stuff! (Normally I print my stuff at my university's place, but our print bureau is currently closed atm due to semester break, so I will need to get to another good copy shop, which could just take 2-3 days longer) But anyway, feel free to ask me, I'd tell you the price I have in mind, you can tell me if that works for you, and even if not we can surely work something out :) (Also thank you so much for your interest! That makes me really really happy <3 I never really thought about opening prints yet because I make mainly fanart and am not quite sure if there are regulations or such, though it's propably only Disney that is so adamant about their copyrights when it comes to fanart).

Another note, I live in Germany so shipping to the US will always have to be added on top of the prices, which should be about 4$ for a DINA4 sized print.

[stagandsteer]

Do you think Richard is still in Dallas with Froy or do you think he has headed back to Scotland to spend the holidays with his family?

I think he will stay in Dallas and they’ll continue what they’re doing, in their home or combining with Froy’s mom’s home for Christmas. travel is extremely ill-advised right now and travel to the UK and within the tiers of UK regions is extremely convoluted and restricted. he would have to quarantine alone before seeing his family...I just don’t think so.

in case it’s not clear from the various times I’ve answered questions like this: NO ONE SHOULD BE TRAVELING ANYWHERE FOR THE HOLIDAYS. you can do whatever mental gymnastics you want to try to justify how somehow your family is different or special or exempt from all of this, but you will be wrong and put you and all your family members in peril by insisting on traveling and gathering in person.

now I will go work on my Texas Christmas moodboard pt. 2, thanks for letting me vent. 🎄🎄🎄

[superkixx]

Hi. Sorry to bother you with this. I know it's been a while since you posted about Speaking Out. But I'm worried, because even though some have been dealt with, Velveteen Dream, Jordan Devlin, Trent Seven, Joe Coffey, Travis Banks, Wolfgang, Justin Roberts, and Darby Allin, and probably many others are still running around free. And it's making me feel uncomfortable to watch wrestling, because I have to see them. Promotions promised to take this serious and they haven't.

No worries 💕 I left off with the intention of doing an eighth update but there was just nothing new to report. News wise, everything kinda got overshadowed by the WWE Covid situation.

I’m not an avid viewer of American wrestling but I’ve gotta say, I was really shocked to see Justin Roberts still ring announcing for AEW last week... I think in Darby’s situation, nothing will happen. From a business perspective, with his incident being a domestic ordeal, I just think they’ll see it as “well he’s good for business and he’s not a threat to the fans”. That tends to be how domestic abuse incidents go down in wrestling, unfortunately.

WWE has a lot on their plate right now what with every one of their staff having Covid-19 but I hope they don’t think they can get away with not addressing these wrestlers. I remember 3 weeks ago there was a report that WWE was looking to clean up their roster but we’re yet to really see any of that. I personally think that (if they’ve got any sense) NXT UK will go under in the coming weeks/months. The ratings weren’t outstanding anyway and their roster is full of sex offenders so if they’ve got any sense they’ll chop it.

It’s completely understandable that you’re uncomfortable watching these promotions. Wrestling is something that is meant purely for joy and entertainment and if you’re not getting that from what you’re currently watching then you don’t have to force yourself through it. I still think it would be disappointing to let certain promotions/wrestlers ruin something you used to enjoy, especially when there is so many alternatives to those bigger two (remember, bigger isn’t always better).

Just off the top of my head, here are some alternatives you might wanna try:

IMPACT Wrestling - (They seemed to handle the #SpeakingOut allegations pretty quickly and dropped any wrestlers involved. I’m not sure where you’re from, anon, but I know it airs on TV in both the US and the UK so this is a pretty accessible one.)

NJPW - (My personal favourite, they do have Will Ospreay but there’s so many other great wrestlers there, it’s pretty easy to just brush him aside and enjoy the others. It’s a lot more physical and martial arts influenced than the big American promotions so don’t be shocked if someone gets injured.)

STARD✪M - (Another one of my favourites, it’s an all women’s joshi promotion so again, it’s quite a bit more physical and harder hitting than the American promotions.)

GCW - (These are an independent promotion, the types of matches and shows vary quite a bit, they don’t have one particular style so I find it’s quite a good one when you’re looking for something new.)

PWG - (Another indie promotion. They tend to get a lot of top wrestlers from all over the world eg. Bandido, Jeff Cobb, Jake Atlas, Shingo Takagi and so on. Especially for their Battle Of Los Angeles tournament.)

NOAH - (I’ve personally not seen a lot of NOAH but they seem to be doing pretty well for themselves again.)

DDT - (Where a lot of Japanese promotions opt for the mma/strong style, DDT is a lot more light-hearted and silly.)

CMLL - (Is literally the longest living wrestling promotion ever. They’re a lucha libre company but they have ties with NJPW and ROH as well.)

Now, I know you’re not gonna want to just dive right into a new paid subscription at random so here’s some places you can watch these shows for free:

All Wrestling - (I recommend only using this site if you have adblocker and an anti virus installed just because of the third-party advertising. You can find NJPW, PWG, NOAH, IMPACT and more all on here for free.)

Bilibili - (This is a Chinese video sharing site but you can just search any show in the search bar eg. DDT or GCW and chances are you’ll find entire shows uploaded there for free. This is a really good site for when you just wanna try something new and fall into a little wrestling rabbit hole.)

Joshi City - (They have loads and loads of joshi wrestling matches uploaded through private DailyMotion links and if you’re not sure where to start, they have their personal recommended matches highlighted to make your decision a little easier.)

Rutube/RealHero - (This is a Russian video sharing site and user RealHero has tons of Japanese wrestling matches up for people to watch. I also find that Rutube in general has quite a lot of wrestling content.)

FiteTV - (Fite for the majority is paid content but they do have a fair bit of free content on there too.)

These are just a few that I could think of in the moment. I hope this was helpful, feel free to message me anytime if you have anymore questions ❤️

[kramzo]

So that was 2018.

Well, well, well. What can I say? This year has been both productive and unproductive. I’ve had months of great inspiration and months that have just been... eh. Some are pretty self-explanatory in why there haven’t been any uploads (like the blow of dealing with loss and grief), and some reflect what I’ve been obsessing over the most at the time (and let’s be real here, most of my obsessions never fade, they only become little time bombs, ready to explode again at whatever that might trigger a “relapse” into The Obsession again).

In terms of activity, I’ll say I’ve done better than previous years. I pursued and got back into a lot of traditional art this year; both painting and coloring with colored pencils alike. I haven’t managed to upload all of it, some of it is still on the backburner (like my forever-fallen-behind Inktobers *cough*) but my goal is uploading the rest of my Inktobers, and some art that has stayed hidden among tons of files on my computer and in various piles of paper and sketchbook in my home, sometime during January - March.

I’ve also managed to get a healthier look on my art and the creative process (much thanks to the “Finished, not perfect”- way of thinking, that I highly recommend others to try out as well).

Overall, like most artists will say, I could’ve made more art, BUT whereas I feel like there could’ve been more art, I’ve managed to evolve in my mindset instead, which in itself is both progress and success. Some progress has been more internal than external, a lot of mental hurdles has been overcome, and now I hope to continue onward my various goals and succeed with all of them:

I’ll do my darnest to get better at...

... Uploading art more frequently. ... Finish more art pieces, goddamnit. ... Showing even more of my original stuff and not hide stuff away because it’s not finished or “good enough”. Just realize that uploading is good enough and better than not doing it at all. ... Work on my social media activity (both on tumblr, instagram and twitter).

Which leads me to another thing:

Since tumblr has become scared of genitalia, and my artwork will probably feature more naked ladies, gentlemen, non-binary babes and creatures alike, I’ll upload more of that stuff on my twitter, and slowly I’ll probably become more active there than on here, since I’m not all that OK with tumblr’s new policies. HOWEVER, that doesn’t mean the end of my tumblr. I’ll still be here, just that there’ll be more art at my twitter that tumblr wouldn’t allow on their website.

Onward to 2019! 

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Hello! A question about the Madrigal triplets ocs, which of the madrigal grandkids do they get along with the best and the worst?

Its finally time to finish off the cousin questions! Sorry these took so long ! 😭😭😭

Phew! Heres all the other asks about the cousins! I just compiled them all here 😙 hopefully this lengthy post answers all the cousin questions

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@whumpster-fire Making this a new thread because @putuponpercy is working on her own interpretation of Coppernob so I don't want to spam her own thread/research with my hc's.

I am delighted by what he's shared with us, though, coz Nobby would have relished this role, omg. This had to be some of the best entertainment he had in the birdcage era!

Coppernob: Ah, so you need me to punish young Johnny.

Clerk: No need. Just relax.

Coppernob: Rub salt in the wound. Make his life a living hell for a day.

Clerk: Not really? You just get a good rub down and polish, enjoy.

Coppernob: Got it. Activate Troll Grandpa™ mode.

Clerk: NO.

Coppernob: Glad to be of service.

If y'all give me examples of appropriate Fireman Misdemeanors I may well start writing some bits at once. This must have been great. Asking the fireman what he did to get put on this duty. Then asking him to repeat it five times, louder each time ("Sorry, hearing's not what it used to be. Speak up, son!") Giving lengthy lectures on the basics of railway safety and how an engine steams. Criticizing the poor lad's technique, hair, accent, and life decisions. But, like, cheerily. (He doesn't really care, he's just being as much a nuisance as he can.) Back-in-my-day tangents. Insisting on a certain bit being done again and again "properly" and never being satisfied. "Phew, gets a bit hot in here, doesn't it? The trick is to never think about how hot it is." *proceeds to recall the highest temperatures of the past six decades, with degree and date* Heartily telling passing porters and passengers (third-class, of course) what the fireman did. Oh my god, when workmen were waiting around to catch their train. Most engines have an instinct to work a crowd and Nobby is a real showman. Watching "THE COPPERNOB" roast your mate for his screw-up in front of a whole train load of people must have been epic.

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(this is likely going to be suupeer lengthy,so my apologies in advance)Hello,What's up?Hope everything's just fine!Ya know since the new chapter seems to be focusing on demeter presumably(I haven't read it nor am I giving half a quick bother since I don't have the heart to watch her be berated and bashed by overstretched , mutant blue felonious gru)I thought I'd come here and discuss a thing in regards to the fandom and her that's been pushing my buttons for quite some time! From the very beginning of demeter's character introduction , fans would compare demeter to mother gothel and would be associating their characters with one another , and let me tell you something!It bothers the hell out of me,to this very day! Like...Don't get me wrong!I'm not going to pretend demeter hasn't made mistakes in regards to parenting persephone, and one thing she did have in common with gothel, was that she lied to her daughter about her identity(the whole fertility goddess jazz),that along with her keeping persephone sheltered, (though not nearly as much as mother gothel). and that IS something that she should be held accountable for!but...MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN GOD !!!DO YOU KNOW WHAT PERSON YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT MOTHER GOTHEL???you're talking about the woman that's outwardly been neglectful/ dismissive of her biological daughter cassandra, abandoned her,kidnapped another child for the sole purpose of leeching off said child's ability in order to keep herself young and beautiful again,NEVER genuinely felt love and affection towards her and NEVER let her have ANY connections to the outside world ,to the point that she was thrilled to touch grass!(this sounds kind of funny when you look at it through the modern definition of the phrase lol)Demeter always genuinely adored persephone with all her heart and always wanted to have a companion. Furthermore, given how the gods have constantly exploited young women within the comic's canon,it makes sense that she would be a bit more on the paranoid/protective side (not justifiable,but understandable nonetheless) to avoid her only child to be mistreated by a cruel,unjust system . Also, persephone wasn't COMPLETELY STRIPPED OUT OF COMMUNICATION WITH THE OUTSIDE WORLD,I'm tired of fans acting like flower nymphs, hermes and hecate weren't there to keep her company and given that scene where a younger kore is at a party with hera,I'd assume they still kept in touch with olympus to some extent.Overall, though similar in a few ways to gothel,demeter is ultimately a much more complex, sympathetic and loving character than she is.Hell,if demeter should be compared to any maternal figures in mainstream modern animated media , it should be alma from encanto and also ming lee from turning red, all of these women had noble, sympathetic intentions and loved their families dearly , all of them unintentionally ailienized their families and put quite a lot of pressure and expectations on them and also, all of these women had to deal with generational trauma!But nooo! Demeter is a selfish, narcissistic bitch that deserves to be mocked and get her s**t kicked in !

Phew, Sorry this was super long!I'd love to hear your thoughts about it, and if you wanted to respond, take your time for answering it as much as you want !

Goodbye🌸🌺👋🏻👋🏻

hi hi! everything’s pretty good, and I don’t mind long responses! they’re fun to read! but I once again agree with all of your points. I’ve seen dozens of comments get mad at Demeter because they think she’s going to use Persephone as an item, honestly if anyones going to use Persephone as an item it’s going to be Hades. he’s only ever wanted a wife because his brothers had one, which is why he wanted to pressure Minthe into marrying him even though she told him multiple times how she didn’t want to. I feel like Persephone is only supposed to be there to prove something, she’s only there as an accessory so that Hades won’t be alone and he can be more like his brothers, that’s what their relationship is giving. I just don’t understand why people would think that anyways, when has Demeter ever used Persephone as an item? she clearly loves Persephone and wants the best for her, which is why she wanted her to go to Olympus to study. not flirt around with Hades to the point that she basically dropped out of school, like honestly everyone was just fine with that? leaving all of your ambitions and your friends behind just for someone you met a few weeks ago? Demeter was just supposed sit around and let it happen? genuinely if any one of those fans had a daughter and they were in that situation they would’ve never wanted her to be with him. also, i’m glad you brought up the communication thing because Demeter did not completely isolate Persephone from everyone, we know that she had dozens of nymphs for company and other gods (like hermes, hecate, and artemis) as company as well so it’s not like she was locked up in some island with no one, she wanted to branch out and do her own thing which is fine but Demeter has seen first hand just how predatory and exploitive the kings can be. that’s literally the main reason why she didn’t want to be in Olympus like honestly think about it. I’ve been commenting in so many comment sections that are just filled with people taking Hades’ side and saying how she deserved it and good on him and it’s just filling me with so much unbridled rage because these people are not understanding that Hades is the one who deserved it, he treats all of his staff like absolute shit and he’s never once apologized for it. why is everything he does “hot”? that’s so stupid if you really idolize a person so terrible that you’re willing to embarrass yourself on his behalf I think it’s time for you to do some real self reflection and figure out why you enjoy him being an asshole so much. I’m so sick of this whole “guy was asshole till he meets girl, girl changes guy but only asshole to everyone else”, it’s the dumbest and most toxic trope ever. take it from me, as someone who’s friends with a girl whose boyfriend literally insulted and discriminated me and my friends to point that we had to confront them both just for her to tell us that he’s changed and he’s not like that, it will indeed chase people away from you. no one wants to be around a person who’s a jerk only because you’re not the person they’re with, like we learned this in kindergarten use the damn golden rule because in the long run you’re only going to isolate your loved one and keep their friends at bay if you continue to just be an absolute dickhead towards everyone. there’s so many people who project when it comes to Demeter, they say things like Demeter abused Persephone and how she’s just such a terrible character all while stanning literally all the actual problematic characters. stop being delusional and a hypocrite those are two very bad combinations, pick one. and the mother gothel comparison, well you’ve said everything I was going to say and I agree that Demeter is a very sympathetic motherly figure, she’s raised hundreds maybe even thousands of nymphs so everyone saying she isn’t a good mother is absolutely invalid because she’s basically the mother of the land, she provides love shelter and care for everyone even guests (as seen with Hades’ bitch ass when he decided to get wasted in the mortal realm) while they’re in her care.