#please click for better quality as always !!! 😭😭😭

[sunnysssol]

What suzie think about tony the alien?

Well actually (☝🤓), Tony doesn't really exist in Assistantverse! But if they met, I imagined it'd be something like this. Suzie's very intrigued by the interstellar, but seeing an actual alien might raise so many questions in her head that she'd get a bit overwhelmed. They wonder how Tony got here, how's he breathing? Is Earth affecting him in any bad way at all? Suzie needs to sit down, they need to think about this...

Here's a bonus :P

"Hey, explain that! Give me a reason I'll believe without reasonable doubt!" "That's really, really not the point and I would say that 'God this situation is waaay above my pay-grade' but God, isn't it always with you..??"

[yunamaocaro]

🇯🇵 12 year old mao asada ♡ triple axel attempt at the mini exhibition at the 2002 NHK trophy

[xullian]

Its finally DONE!!

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Ok so first excuse the bad anatomy and overall artstyle these are all (except for the passive night one) from somwhere 1-2 years old. Most of them come from incorrect-undertale-quotes on instagram or someone else from somewhere else, some of them i was just being funny and awsome as always. Inks design will be next! ..maybe. Ink or error idk yet

Anyway i really need everyone to look at error. Hes so silly. Close ups and transcript under cut.

Ink: Z is just N but sideways.

Error: Stop it.

Ink: Zo.

Ink: I wanna change the world!

Dream: For the better?

Ink: uhhh-

Ink: Im a Creative person!

Nightmare: And what have you created?

Ink: Problems.

Passive Nightmare: I didnt do it!

Dream, crying: Then why are you laughing.?

Passive Nightmare: Cause whoever did is a fuckin genius.

Error: I hate you with every inch of my body.

Fresh: No offence brah-

Fresh: But that aint a lot of inches

Paperjam, Error: Thats disgusting.

Paperjam, Error: ...

Error: JINX-

Paperjam: Dont do that.

"Gotta film in a hour, we fucked up 🍃😭😝🥳💯"

Dust <- brought weed

Ink <- rolled blunts

Killer <- smoked everything

Cross <- hit it wrong

Ink belongs to comyet

Error belongs to loverofpiggies

Fresh belongs to loverofpiggies

Paperjam belongs to 7goodangel

Dream belongs to jokublog

Nightmare belongs to jokublog

Cross belongs to jakie

Dust belongs to ask-dusttale

Killer belongs to rahafwabas

[serendipity-by-chance]

because of that one post i wanna talk about things in sw fics that instantly make me click out lol. im not naming any but yeah. like okay i may not always click out cause some of them are cool so yeah

1. when they make anakin too pathetic lol. like not the funny kind but weird pathetic💀💀 anakin was a smart guy lol. like dumb in a funny way but anakin was good with strategy. he was open and honest too. when those qualities of him are taken is that even anakin?

2. when the jedi council know about anidala. like guys that’s not possible. please. the thousands of years of rules wont change cause of 1 guy. be so serious. anakin isnt that important to the jedi council. just make him leave the order😭😭 he’d be happier without being there.

3. undermining padme. need some people to read her novels to know how determined padme was to create a better world. she was a fighter till the end. her dying is more than just anakin. everything she ever believed in was shattered. some of u dont get her the way i do.

4. okay this might be funnily weird but when satine isnt mentioned!! lol. like it can have other obi wan ships but when obi was centric thing happens and he talks about love and all but doesnt mention satine? mind u thats the woman he was willing to leave the order for😭😭 stop acting like disney who like to pretend padme never existed. yall do the same with satine.

5. i love time travel fics but some of them having characters that instantly blurt out the truth instead of pausing and thinking what will happen if i do this.

6. LAST AND MOST IMPORTANT. when yall take one side with the parents. istg. leia is breha and bail’s kid and she is also anakin and padme’s. anakin and padme were created based off of luke and leia😭😭 you can’t change the similarities between them because it EXISTS FOR A REASON. but also you dont get to ignore bail and breha’s hand in raising leia. if leia was left to be raised by vader she’d be twisted into sth evil. leia’s goodness and righteousness and sense of justice, all of which she inherited from padme and anakin, was ALSO taught by bail and breha. they taught her to be a good person. someone who fights for justice and freedom. leia is all of their legacy. please stop picking sides it’s gross. anakin and padme didnt have a choice when it came to parenting leia because one was dead and the other thought leia was dead but they loved her from the moment they knew they would have a child. anakin was even convinced it would be a girl and he was so excited. to not acknowledge that is insulting really. and also, it was bail and breha who raised her and loved her. she was their child. their pride. to not acknowledge everything leia is BECAUSE of them is also insulting. i need fic writers to do better

[kazuichikazuichi]

DESTROY HIM!!! KICK HIS SILLY LIL ASS!!!!!!

based on a stock image lol😭 (under the cut) also please click the photo for better quality!! tumblr always makes my art blurry these days unless you tap on it idk why, sorry

here's the stock photo! it made me giggle so i had to post it too lol, when i saw it i just thought WOW that is definitely the survivors and kaz is definitely the one on the floor

r.i.p kaz😞 got bullied too hard

[fireopal-tash]

Me! Ready for Winter! ❄️🧣

Click the image for better quality UwU

Hi, everyone!

Can't say my name in real life, but I sure can call myself a fake name. You all know me by Fire Opal tash, or just Fire or Opal!

I know, I know, not exactly the best "meet the artist" 🎨 but it'll have to do haha

*** Any questions for me about me and what I do (but no requests), please, write it here! It would be so much easier for me ^w^

Anyway, I guess it's time to say what I like/don't like, etc, right? 🤔

Well...

What I like ✅

🧡 COLOR: Orange, Red, Yellow and Black!

🐯 ANIMALS: Tigers, Snakes and Dragons! xP

🎬 SHOWS/MOVIES: Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, Leverage, Bones, Criminal Minds, Doctor Who, House, A Nightmare On Elm Street, Pokémon, Detective Conan, etc!

🎵 MUSIC: Anything that isn't heavy metal, to be honest ^w^' I just feel like it's more noise than music (sorry for those who do like it)

🍦 FOOD: Pizza, Chocolate, Ice-cream xP

💐 FLOWERS: Poppies (red ones), Sunflower, Roses, forget me not, etc

🍁 SEASON: Autumn and Winter UwU

♐ ZODIAC SIGN: I'm Sagittarius! (for those interested!)

What I don't like ❌

🐜 Ants 😫

💥 Bullies/Violence 😤

🥦 Vegetables and Fish (sorry not sorry)

💄 Wearing makeup

🏙️ I don't like going out that much... The outside world and the people drain me 😭

💭 I hate don't being able to remember...

🧟‍♂️ Zombie movies/TV shows. I find them repetitive and boring 😅

Now... What else?

▫️I'm from Spain! 🇪🇸

▫️I won't say my age cause I don't trust anyone ;3

▫️I'm blonde, as the drawing indicates xP

▫️I usually prefer to wear comfy outfits, mostly in blacks. Although... I do prefer jeans over any type of pants. And always with black shoes!

▫️I have two dogs. One is a Shiba Inu, called Uzzi; and the other is White Westie, called Uri

▫️I'm both a writer and an artist, but mostly an artist!

▫️Favourite Ship? Stevinel all the way! But that doesn't mean I don't like others, of course!

-> I like Ruby x Sapphire, Amethyst x Pearl, Peridot x Lapis, Connie x Steven, Greg x Rose. You know, the usual xD

-> But I also like Jasper x Peridot, Jasper x Pearl, Jasper x Lapis, Garnet x Pearl x Amethyst, Pearl x Bismuth, Pearl x Peridot, Pearl x Lapis, Pearl x Rose, Spinel x Volleyball/Pink Pearl... Etcetera.

And that's only from Steven Universe!

From Gravity Falls I like:

-> Bill x Dipper (I was a kid, what can I say xD)

-> Dipper x Pacifica

-> Mabel x Pacifica (really like this one)

From Doctor Who:

-> Rose x Doctor (any of them) FOREVER!

-> Jack x flirting xD

From Harry Potter:

-> Harry Potter x Tom/Voldemort (again, I was a kid xD)

-> Ron x Hermione

-> Ginny x Harry (not much tho, sorry)

-> Remus x Sirius

-> Remus x Tonks (not much)

From anything Mario:

-> Luigi x Bowser

-> Daisy x Luigi

-> Mario x Peach

I think I know what I like in a ship... Human x not human (joke no joke!) 😮

And many, many others. I'm quite okay with most ships, although there's for sure some that I wouldn't be able to like at all.

Anyway, that's all for now! Ciao ciao! 👋🏻👋🏻

[stevebabey]

You don't have to answer this I'm just gonna bitch in your inbox about the x reader post you made because I felt this in my bones.

Like you really can't go in the tag for quality stuff lately. Everything is about sex. I'm not a prude. I read occasionally stuff, but omg, not everything has to be like this. Sometimes stories begin hopeful, but they end the same way. I'm just sick of it because it's all there is. And because it's so oversaturated, "normal" fics don't stand a chance because people don't click on that anymore. So yeah, as a creator, if I wanna get attention for my work, of course, I will produce stuff that people will read.

Also what you said about minors, how are they supposed to interact with fics if everything is porn.

In general, people are sooo fixated on "spicy" content. On tiktok, all people read is smut, or they can't handle other stuff. Literally, smut destroyed their brains. How is it any different than guys having a porn addiction?

Also, the tumblr tagging and searching functions are shit. I wanna find new fics from like 2020 or 2021 (before s4 bc I miss those vibes). When you go to the popular tag thing, the earliest you get is 2022. Like tumblr needs to fix that, so content from years ago can still be found. People also need to start tagging accordingly. It's such a pain.

Again sorry for the rant.

HOHOHOHOHO NO APOLOGIES NEEDED NONNIE i love having a bitch and being on my hater shit and i think more people than you might think agree with all of this + its a whole buncha opinions under the cut u have been warned

to some degree to decrease in quality fics will be due to the lull between seasons which always happens- some of the fantastic writers move onto other obsessions for the mean time and truly, i can't fault them for that.

but yet somehow i know it's more than just that - a smut piece will get more attention and notes regardless of the quality of the fic. it's so tough to complain about cos like sigh its all free writing produced by someone so to moan and bitch about stuff getting more attention than others is like. not very nice and being hypercritical but also

not everyone wants to read smut!! and its fuckin everywhere!! wouldn't it be darling if there could simply be a tag that was smut free but noooooo every post gets tagged with as many fuckin things as possible for 'reach' which is the stupidest fucking thing i've ever heard before

and ur absolutely right, because of it fics with no smut get drowned before they get a chance to get noticed. and sorry to say it, but its very rarely that i've read a fluff piece and been like ah, that seemed like it was just thrown together like no its always crafted to some degree- but i cannot say the same for smut in the least. again, often u can mentally sub in different characters and the fic still works which to me = bad writing (if its a steve fic i shouldn't be able to slot in eddie and have it work? ok cos then its not a STEVE fic its just a porn fantasy which is like fine but GOD this is a whole nother can of worms but if u just write smut and then cycle thru joe keery characters its like half a step from writing rpf cos its obvious u just think he's a hot guy and not so much into his characters 😭 maybe im being autistic levels of protective over my lil guy but i also think im right lmao)

and ough trying to write for an audience is so hard, its a vicious cycle of: wants to produce content ppl will read and interact with -> doesn't enjoy writing it as much -> writing isn't as good as u know it could be -> if it flops for whatever reason u feel like asshole. anon babey please dear god write the ideas you want to <3 i can promise you they will be 100x better than trying to cater to an invisible audience ! ppl follow you for your writing !!! and feel free to tag me!!!! i always want to read good steve x reader fics!!! (i just can't be assed hunting them down half the time)

the minors thing is just. god its - i remember hearing the phrase 'virgins write the best smut' and it was when i was 14 and now im like god don't say that they write like porn cos they have fuck all idea what they're talking about. i read so much fanfic when i was 12 years old and what u said is so true, it just used to sneak up in stories and ruin things. its the internet tho so its impossible to truly moderate

omg ur tiktok comment so fucking true babe. when smut is prioritized over plot, u can tell and so many of the booktok rec's they have are just that. there are ways to write smut and have it still be a story. there's also ways to write pwp and still craft it and yet, u dont see that often. also what happened to being excited when two bitches hold HANDS??? AND KISS FOR THE FIRST TIME?? it's appalling the way they thirst for that content but write their captions like "and they have s3x!!! and f@&k in the bathroom hehehe" like what. its such sanitized and shit content honestly

god ur so right i hadn't even thought about hunting down old fics - and it would make such a difference if you could do that because otherwise SO much weighs on when u post it and if it shows in tags and yada yada

this is so much omg u don't have to read all that but genuinely the reason i started writing more steddie and less x reader is the difference in reception and general support. i dont feel like i'm competing against my mutuals, but more like we're here to just hoot and hollar at each other and unless u have a tight knit group of friends on here, u don't get that on x reader fics ://

[elivanto]

Gurl, how'd you make your gifs so crisp and clean?! Tell me your secret pretty please!

do you have a specific gifset in mind? because sometimes i use different methods depending on what i’m making gifs of (e.g. animation vs. live action).

but here’s a few things that always help:

1) the most important thing: good quality of the source material, i.e. at least 1080p. sadly youtube compresses even 1080p which makes the quality worse so it’s always my last resort to get stuff from youtube. (looking @ you, kenobi trailer 😔) here’s a good post on t*rrenting

2) use mpv player and make caps instead of importing video frames to layers. here’s a good tutorial on how to do that. i used to only make png caps because the quality’s better but i’ve switched to jpeg because i don’t have the patience to wait ages for the layers to load in photoshop anymore LMAO

3) coloring is sooo important. i can’t give you a magical solution here because i think everyone should find their own style but one thing i almost always do at the end is selective color > black > increase black. that makes the dark spaces less pixel-y and the gif looks less washed out.

4) you can change the opacity on filters. on my old gifs—and it always makes me cringe—the sharpening looks terrible because it’s just too much. you can right click on the smart sharpen filter > edit smart filter blending options, and play around with the opacity a little until it looks nice n smooth

5) if you do have gifs that look pixelated, try adding a ‘surface blur’ smart filter. that’s saved my ass so many times giffing star wars resistance. works best on animation but i’ve used it for live action before. i use these settings and lower the opacity as needed:

(i have no idea what settings are ‘normal’ for the surface blur filter but this works for me lmao)

6) save settings. i mostly use adaptive for the color reduction algorithm and pattern for the dither algorithm. i’d recommend not using diffusion unless you can’t avoid it 😭

but really it depends on the individual gif what looks best. (also: ‘matte: none’ removes that annoying small border around gifs)

and you can check out my ps things tag for other helpful posts about everything photoshop!

[thejustmaiden]

Happy Hogosha Friday!! 🎉 @hogoshamaruweek-2021

Hey y'all!! So today's prompt is "Family." 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦

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The transcription for the Japanese word above is "erabareta kazoku," which means "chosen family." Personally, I think "found family" has a nicer ring to it so I decided to go with that. Btw, shoutout to @emeraldnavypotato for their translation assistance and Japanese expertise! 🥰

For my edit, I wanted to make it clear that all the characters this image is comprised of came from different backgrounds (literally!), which is why I not-so-subtly cropped them the way I did. Then what I wanted to do next was bring them all together into one picture in a way that I hope appears natural and familial. Because they may not have started their journeys out together, but somewhere along the way their paths became one and they formed a bond resembling that of a family. 😍😭

Growing up and watching Inuyasha starting around age 12-13, I had always been a sucker for the wholesome little family Sesshomaru had built over the course of the series. It brought me such a deep sense of comfort and never failed to warm my heart, and I'll be damned if Sunrise ruins that for me now. So whatever it takes, please never stop spreading that love for Papamaru's character and let's instead celebrate the true canon qualities we all know and cherish him for. 💞

Story time: I've decided this picture takes place the day of Rin's birthday, which coincidentally enough falls on the day before Halloween. Kagome brought her some bunny ears from back home to wear and they both made the jack-o-lantern you see here. Not seen here are the bags and bags full of candy to last them weeks. Kagura and Kohaku are dueling it out for fun while Sesshomaru looks on. No telling who he's rooting for either so don't even attempt to guess. Meanwhile, Jaken is by his side per usual and is following along too. After all, Sesshomaru did promise that if he made it his #1 priority to keep Rin as happy as can be on her special day that he'd give him two days off from babysitting. Hence the over-the-top cheering and heart-shaped balloons. Whereas A-Un is just chilling for now, but he may or may not also be feeling compelled to obliterate the possessed pumpkin with the fire eyes. 👀 Of course that would be only after everyone's gone inside to enjoy some chocolate birthday cake courtesy of Kagome's mom. As for Inuyasha, he's brooding in the corner trying to understand why there isn't such a thing as birthday ramen. 😂

[palimpsessed]

I posted 4,475 times in 2021

178 posts created (4%)

4297 posts reblogged (96%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 24.1 posts.

I added 5,390 tags in 2021

#simon snow - 1066 posts

#baz pitch - 1013 posts

#tyrannus basilton grimm pitch - 1008 posts

#snowbaz - 734 posts

#awtwb spoilers - 534 posts

#coc 2021 - 223 posts

#wings and tail - 220 posts

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#coc2020 - 190 posts

#fic rec - 182 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#there is such pressure in the narrative of being queer i feel that places so much importance on labels and it’s nice to see a different take

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

@carryon-countdown 2021, Day 17: Decorating

🎵Don we now our gay apparel🎵

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218 notes • Posted 2021-12-12 16:18:29 GMT

#4

Thinking about Simon biting Baz, on his neck, over his old bite, and Baz asking Simon to be gentle. And how this mirrors Simon wanting to embrace Baz’s vampirism, and Baz resisting. And Simon wanting Baz to bite and drink from him and Baz refusing.

And how Simon biting Baz must have been particularly hard for Baz to sort through because of the way it inextricably ties to his vampirism and the monstrousness he struggles with so much.

Thinking about Simon trying to talk to Penelope in WS about coddling him, and Baz’s tentative touches, and Simon not wanting to feel like Baz thinks he’s going to break. And wanting to be touched harder and trying to touch Baz harder.

Thinking about how Simon was treating Baz the way he thought he wanted because of his own experience, and Baz treating Simon the way he thought he wanted because of his own experience.

Thinking about them asking each other for what they really want and need and finally being able to be intimate.

Thinking about Baz trying to decide if he wants Simon to stop being gentle or never stop. Thinking about Baz trying to figure out his relationship to his monstrosity and Simon’s relationship to Baz’s monstrosity.

Thinking about wanting to consume and wanting to be consumed.

340 notes • Posted 2021-07-08 16:11:15 GMT

#3

Ebb, CO:

Agatha, AWTWB:

Someone finally brought the nannies home. 😭

410 notes • Posted 2021-10-19 18:14:57 GMT

#2

He hides his face in my T-shirt. “It’s too much for me.”

I set the violin on the floor by the bed, then rest my hand over his on the hilt of the sword. He lets go. For a moment, I wonder if I’ll be able to lift it, but I can. I set it by the bed, too.

Simon crawls half into my lap, burrowing his face into my chest.

I lay my cheek on top of his head and hold him behind his ears.

“It would be too much for anyone,” I say.

—Chapter 91, Any Way the Wind Blows

@rainbowrowell thank you for this wonderful series and these characters that mean so much to me. It was such an absolute joy getting to see them get to this point together! ❤️❤️❤️

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552 notes • Posted 2021-08-07 17:39:07 GMT

#1

Hey. You post a lot of great stuff about Carry On. Can you talk about the biting in AWTWB. The Baz/Simon scenes.Trying to wrap my head around it to understand why Simon did that. Why he bites Baz and keeps biting. Bites his fangs through his cheek. Is it because Simon wants to be bitten? That he wants Baz so much and Baz can't be harmed? I'm really trying to understand it but . . . what do you think?

Anon, thank you for this ask, and also for liking whatever I'm doing on my blog.

Can I talk about the biting? You bet I can!

Why does Simon bite Baz? Is it because he wants to be bitten? In a word, yes! But of course, there's a lot more to it than that. And this went off in another direction than I thought it would, so I hope you can stick with me on this journey! Under the cut because it’s a bit long.

There is a motif running throughout the trilogy of love being a consuming force. So much of Simon and Baz's identities are tied up in hunger very early on: Baz, as a vampire, constantly craving blood; Simon, as the Humdrum, constantly sucking up magic; both of them starved of love and intimacy. There's also a lot of fire imagery, going all the way back to when they first met, and fire is another consuming force.

Simon and Baz are obsessed with each other. The only thing they think about is each other. ("Trying not to think about you…S'like trying not to think about an elephant that's standing on my chest.") They are consumed and they want to consume, and, at least in Simon's case, they want to be consumed.

In WS, Simon reflects on misunderstanding his feelings for Baz prior to eighth year, and the way he does it has always stuck out to me: "I thought about him all the time. I missed him so much in the summer. (I thought I was just lonely. I thought I was hungry. I thought I was bored.)" The second item on that list is what catches my attention. Simon missed Baz and he thought he was hungry. I think it says a lot about how Simon's love for Baz feels if he mistakes it for actual hunger.

In the biting scene you mentioned, Simon says to Baz: "If it were me, if I were you…I'd drain you fuckin' dry, Baz, and it still wouldn't be enough." That's intense. And it's absolutely Simon. We know how much hunger he's capable of; his hunger was so potent, it became a whole other being! I've long maintained that his hunger for magic is a metaphor for his hunger for love. Because Simon is so full of love, and just utterly bereft of people to give it to, and once he has people to love, he doesn't know how to do it without also hurting them. He's never had good relationship modeling. (He thinks Baz should know he loves him because of how many things he's killed for him.—He thinks about teaching Baz how to break someone's neck like it's a fun couples' activity.—He gets turned on by killing things and watching Baz kill, too.—Date night is helping Baz hunt down rats.) Simon is a mess. He wants to love so badly, but he just doesn't know how to do it. ("Is this what people do?")

Simon loves Baz so much, he can't fathom ever getting enough of him. Ever being able to consume enough of him. He can't stop biting and smelling and grabbing because he wants more, more, more. He fits his teeth over Baz's old scars because he needs to claim him—make his own mark on Baz, possess him.

Part of this, as you said, is the fact that Baz is a vampire. Baz can take the roughness (which is not to say that he should just because he can). Simon's fixation on Baz's vampirism, which used to play out as paranoia, has changed into a desire to be bitten. Simon is thinking about Baz's vampirism, thinking about draining Baz dry if he were the vampire, and Baz, the human.

The other part of this is that Simon is unfettered, but really only in the aggressive, physical sense. He's long hidden his desires behind aggression without realizing that's what he was doing. (In CO: "I just want to run him down and knock him over and figure it all out." In AWTWB: "I wanted to jump on you, I didn't really think past that.") He doesn't know how to be unfettered in the vulnerable, emotional sense, and that's what keeps him from being able to be intimate with Baz. ("I don't know how, Baz…To get enough.")

Simon desperately wants to have sex with Baz. Which is what he's trying to do in the biting scene, but all of his desires are warring for control, and he can't sort out what he wants, and what he should be doing in that moment, with Baz.

What this is all leading me to may be a bit off topic, but I think it's all tied up in Simon's head.

Simon doesn't know how to be gentle.

His hunger and his desire for Baz have never been gentle. It's aggression, it's violence, it's possession; it's a forest fire, it's not a hidden waterfall.

Simon has never learned how to be at peace. In a recent interview with Vanity Fair, Rainbow said she made Simon "fight of flight"—literally, he has wings! There's a reason that Simon couldn't handle the inaction at the beginning of CO and before the events of WS. There's a reason that Penelope thought that they were "being lulled" because there was no war actively being waged. There's a reason Penelope tells us in WS: "Lesson learned: Relaxation is the most insidious humdrum." These are characters who are so traumatized by childhoods being foot soldiers in a war waged by the adults they trusted, they don't know how to live without fighting! They don't know how to live in peace.

We all have "I can touch you less gently, but I won't love you less kindly" burned into our eyeballs by now, but let's move earlier in that conversation to what sparks this: "What if I asked you to be less kind to me?" —What if I asked you to be less kind to me?— Simon doesn't feel comfortable with Baz's kindness or gentleness, because it "makes me feel like I'm being turned inside out. Like I need to get away." Let's sit with this for a bit. Baz's loving touches make Simon want to run because they're kind and gentle and he doesn't know what to do with kind and gentle. His mind isn't programmed for kind and gentle.

It makes complete sense that Simon would show Baz affection in a way that Simon understands, considering, as I said before, that he hasn't had anyone in his life to show him a healthy way to do this. What does Simon most want from Baz? Love. What does Simon understand love to be? Consumption. He wants roughness and aggression, he wants the inferno, because these are things he understands.

Simon wants Baz's teeth, so he gives Baz his teeth.

This is how Simon feels comfortable. I made this post while processing my feelings about AWTWB. It talks about Simon trying to love Baz the way he wants to be loved, and Baz trying to love Simon the way he wants to be loved. They want to give each other everything, but they haven't actually communicated their needs to one another, and that's what keeps them from being able to work through their problems. It isn't until they voice their needs that they're able to be intimate. This is what I'm really trying to get at here.

"Is this what people do?" Simon asks, over and over again. When Simon was in therapy, he learned a technique to break up "life into bites you can swallow". He tells us he's doing this again in AWTWB "because [the future] is too terrifying. Too uncertain. There are parts of it that are too bright." —There are parts of it that are too bright.— Simon doesn't know how to be happy. He doesn't know how to cope with happiness. "Is this what people do when they're in love? Do they just keep touching and talking? And then what? Like what is it all leading to? I don't mean sex, I mean… If I knew what I meant, it wouldn't be so frightening." When Simon is having all these overwhelming feelings about his future with Baz, they're on the Tube, and Simon sees a guy giving him and Baz "a dirty look". He interrupts his introspective on therapy to tell us that he wants the guy to cause trouble "because I would dearly love to punch something right now. That's a decision I could wrap my brain around." He can wrap his brain around punching someone, but not around a bright future with the man he loves.

Simon doesn't know how to be at peace. He doesn't know how to be in love. He doesn't know how to be happy. I think this is what we're seeing at play when he bites Baz. He wants something so badly, but he doesn't know what it is, can't articulate it, can't get at it. In a way, when he bites Baz, Simon is trying to ask for what he wants, without words, and without really knowing what it is that he does want.

He can't figure out how to let himself be happy and feel good while being happy. He can't stand gentleness, or softness. In his head, he can't give that to Baz, because he can't handle it himself.

So, yes, Simon bites Baz because he wants to be bitten. And he bites Baz because he knows Baz can handle it. And he bites Baz because there's an emptiness inside of him that he's still trying to fill, and he doesn't understand how to do that. Someday, he will fill it. He and Baz are going to figure that out together.

I hope this makes sense. With your indulgence, Anon, I'm going to tag in @theflyingpeach who is all around brilliant, and I know has their own thoughts about this scene (and demon Simon 👀👀👀) that I would like to see more of. 🥰

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Further reading on the relationship between consumption, food, and love compiled here.

691 notes • Posted 2021-07-19 03:05:10 GMT

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