sowwy 4 da lack of weezer posting, i am rlly into this guy and hes the only thing ive been thinking about so skip this post if y'all aren't that interested in my personal life;
ANYWAYS
since you're still here, lemme vent/delusionally ramble for a bit.
i really like this guy. like really like him. plus we get on rlly well, and i feel comfy talking to him, plus he even told me he's surprised nobody ever asked me out which was rlly sweet of him. plus he straight up told me 'yea if ur nice 2 me i'll prolly fall 4 u' so like.... i actually have hope this time. and honestly this is the first guy ive gotten pure giddy and giggly ab in ages, and thats rlly smth ! but im kinda afraid i might be taking it the wrong way and i dont rlly wanna ruin anything or come off as a creep (keep in mind there have been issues in the past where i misread social cues, caught feelings, only to kinda mess up the friendship dynamics and then get forced to backtrack).
i also feel very conscious of the fact that i am the only person out of that entire friend group that has never been in a relationship, and thus feel a bit anxious and unprepared.
im also kinda afraid of the whole coming off as delusional/a creep since ik hes also been talking to other ppl and bc of childhood issues i always feel like everyone else is a far nicer/better person than me and far more attractive than i am, esp if they're extroverted and socially competent and double esp if they're white. so basically i feel like i'd never be good enough for him to even be an option, despite (at least from what i gather, i am very bad with social cues and according to a geriatric neurologist would be on the spectrum if i was amab), him literally saying stuff that meant he could see me in more than a platonic light.
somehow at the same time, if he does like me i kinda have this perverse desire to be the one option. i don't just want him to settle for me, i want to be his first choice, i want him to be falling for me and pining after me as much as i'm pining after him. like... i want to be the only one.
and jeez i just rlly like this guy, i want to ask him out (or preferably for him to ask me out), i want to date him and buy him gifts, the whole shebang. i was going 2 write more but then i realised that might be getting way too personal, even for me. but yeah this is just a ramble, if you wanna offer advice(?) feel free to do so as well.
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Does anyone else read fics that have absolutely zero conflict? And itβs all just nice and sweet?? Because reality is just such a kick in the teeth?? No? Just me?
Like let me have my silly little guys and let them be in love with no trauma whatsoever, okay? Okay, great. Just let them be silly.
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Ebonix- Deji Locs
All credits goes to@ebonixsims! Original here!
Hair for For Teen β Elder Males
27.5K Poly
2048x texture
Under Hats, 1 channel
Fully recolorable rubber bands at the top and end of each loc
Texture: Ebonix
Custom Thumbnail
includes all LODS and is disabled for random
The rubber bands on the end of the hair cast weird shadows on the face in CAS but they're fine in game.
Larger Pics and color channel breakdown under the cut
tagging: @pis3update, @sssvitlanz, @kpccfinds
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Angst drawing is complete ;]
Based off Riddlers deteriorating mental health and the various painted mirrors in Arkham knight. Our poor boy is going through the ringer.
I just wanna give him a big hug or a warm blanket to comfort him, cause he needs it. (Itβs actually the first time I drawn a character against a mirror and Iβm really happy with it) :D
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Me: I have no fear π
βCharles might not get a good enough car in time for a proper title fight with Max before Max decides to retire from F1.β
Me: I have ONE fear π«
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