#please send me something nice

[fractalkiss]

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[boxwinebaddie]

— COULD IT BE????

U-UNCLE NIIINA!!!

IS. THAT.../YOU/? </3

tw for mild body horror, semi-graphic medical talk

*reaches my kenny girl hand up thru the dirt by my grave

& shoots the wink, finger gun, peace sign, wave combo*

HELLOOOO, MY LOVES! />o</ <333

( i'll make a bigger post later; swearsies. )

but where’s uncle nina?...Long Story Short?

i am seriously dreading having to go to the hospital for...the THIRD FUCKING TIME, so my diaHAGnosis hasn't been officially proven,

but trust me...juuuust trust me...

*is somewhere between a laugh, sigh, scream and cry*

i am about 95% sure....

tHAT A CHILD W/ NASTY DISGUSTIN GERM COVERED HANDS GAVE ME

A FUCKING PARASITE!???

wheeeew!~ yayayay! sAuR AwESomE!

i am...having So Much Fun! <3 xx

anyways, in case i croak, just wanted to pop in from the trenches to say a real quick, but quantifiably large and overtly resounding

THANK YOU to...

my rant park girls, ofc, for enduring my britney spears mentie bs in the chat, my psychosis and v obnoxious 'needs to be carried thru life' complaining/suffering on the reg ( i cried every single day for the past...almost week? because of how scared and sad i’ve been. ;-; )

anyone who sent me an in character/headcannon/plot question the past couple of days bc, other than the girlies, it was the only source of real joy and enrichment i have felt while being scared...for my life. thank...you. Seriously. like y'all still care abt my fic? wowza!! o/u/o

( regarding memes, soz, they might not super exciting, i’m only doing lil spef HC ones rn & got a lil hyperfixated on rae, so i am doing that one abt his height / fave fruit.

<333 my lovely emo fruit salad celebpretty boy. c: )

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY OF ALL, i just wanted to say thank you to ANYONE WHO EXPRESSED CONCERN ABOUT MY WELL BEING OR SAID THEY MISSED ME OR WERE WORRIED ABOUT ME!!!!

'cause haha!!! you were NOT wrong, concern was not misplaced at all! I HATE THIS SCARY NIGHTMARE FUEL CHILDREN CONTAGION! :(

istg, my face has swollen up shrunken down, been every color, the pressure in my ears and nose and face is so bad that i feel like i am i an airplane rn....in my bedroom, every er dr. told me i had a sunburn and was an idiot, like actually king, i am green not red! get a real job!

siiiiiiiiigh...i just...:c i’ve never felt weaker, more miserable, more afraid, more UGLY and more lost in my entire life...

but i am grateful to have been found by readers and human beings as lovely as yourselves. i miss you. i love you. i'll try to be in touch as much as i can, but it will be touch and go, my body is a body bag rn :/

thank you for fighting the good fight, my darlings. whatever you are going through, KEEP FUCKING GOING. this is not the end. you are so much stronger than things that want to make you weak.

( i'm not very good at practicing what i preach, but ngl, kinda sick, literally, but i have basically been my own emergency makeshift whumpshot this past week and it has been gNARLY. like i have been...very scared. lmao. i am...still scared, but i'm gonna be okay. )

ANYWAYS ALL THIS TO SAY:

from what hurts or harms you,

past, present and future....

I HOPE YOU HEAL.

-sickfic body horror whumple nina <3

[charles-leclerc-official]

do you think if ferrari can’t bring spare upgrades to Spain for both drivers, they will prioritize charles and give him the upgrades first? afaik they haven’t ever done that so not sure. but hopefully they are able to provide the parts for both charles and carlos

I am not sure. I think it really depends on if they can even get 2 floors done in time. If they do then there will likely be a conversation had. I could see them doing it. We haven't been at this point in recent years(to my memory) where Ferrari were both really pushing upgrades ahead of schedule and things being so tight on the field lining up with a race like this. So I am not sure what they will do.

If there are only 2 floors, I could see them upgrading one car. And if that happens I expect everyone to be mature about it regardless of which car they chose to upgrade. There are pros and cons to getting upgrades early, people assume it's always good(it often is) but it might mean needing to take a different approach in the race.

Ideally yes I want to see both cars upgraded and I think this is the main reason they are pushing(not the reason being some contract stipulation that may or may not exist) the fact remains that both cars being upgraded would be most valuable. In part because while the WDC is still a longer shot the WCC is up for grabs, we need both Charles and Carlos getting top points for that.

If they are set on upgrading both cars at the same time and cannot make it for Spain, I could see them upgrading at Austria, otherwise a lot of extra work and money will have gone to waste and the team cannot afford that either. I know people are assuming they will not upgrade during a sprint weekend, and they have made it clear they don't want to, but I think if pressed they very well might.

Would Charles get priority for upgrades(in this what if scenario) I believe so, there is no reason for the team to do differently. He's the one staying with the team, and more importantly he's currently higher in the WDC standings and when push comes to shove they give priority to that driver(I am well aware of the years this was an exception) but this has been the rule of operation well before Fred and Binotto. It also just makes most sense simply because it's investing more in the driver who is leading the team and is staying.

I am not trying to shade Carlos here, I am just stating a fact and following the logic that stems from it.

Please do not hunt me for sport

[rosylamb]

Hm .. and now for the real questions tonight ~ !! 🤍

♡ Pink sugar cookie or toasted marshmallow body lotion?

♡ ‘A Little Princess’ by Frances Hodgson Burnett or ‘Anne of Green Gables’ by L. M. Montgomery?

♡ Ballet bun or french braids?

♡ Aaaand of course — bunny grahams or cinnamon cake as my snack ???

Yes it’s silly, but I take my little nighttime rituals very seriously ok !! Why not though ?? Life is too short !!

I just want to be happy for small blessings and get excited over little things hehe c:

🧁 . ˚ * . ʚ 🤍 ɞ

🤍 . ˚🧸 ·̩͙ 🎀 . ˚ * . 🤍

[enchantedlandcoffee]

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[mellometal]

Hey, everyone. This isn't very easy for me to talk about, but I need to.

My beloved cat Genny passed away this morning. I was still at work when this happened. Thank god I was able to find coverage as quickly as I did. I'm so crushed right now, you have no idea. Genny got me through so much shit in the near fourteen years of our lives. That girl has been by my side since I was twelve, going on thirteen. We really got to be girls together. 😭

She was a great cat. I've had lots of cats throughout my life that were all special in their own ways, but my Genny was special. Genny got me through the rest of my school career, and my adulthood so far.

I'm forever grateful for the time I got to spend with her.

[forcebookish]

my rosacea (?) is flaring up i have a headache my period keeps threatening to come but won't grant me mercy from the pms my dream job rejected me my cat is sick i'm quitting caffeine i'm starting new meds

[altruistic-meme]

if you could... describe aftg in 5 words

oh this is not as easy a question to answer as it should be akfhsdkf bc like. i could describe its plot, or my thoughts on it as a fan, or how it makes me feel, or just make a joke, or or or and bc idk why you're asking it makes it harder :'))

but let's see...

plot: gay sports mafia found family.

fan: drama, familiarity, trauma, comedy, home

feelings: love, understanding, chaos, joy, comfort

joke: you know, i get it-

(as you can see, i couldn't pick which one to go with, so choose whichever 5 words you want lmao)

[bluespring864]

It’s perhaps people like you who drove the rafolearchive off this site. What does it matter if they posted Rafa’s positive words towards Nole? Most of Rafa’s words towards Novak are actually positive or neutral. I think maybe you have built some sort of evil caricature of Rafa in your head and that’s okay you do you but the thing about his conditioning I cannot let slide as someone who also deals with chronic pain. Sorry @bluespring864 for doing this on your page.

Oh boy. Yes, me, who routinely sent the rafolearchive (off-anon!) asks and left them comments under anon asks they got where someone was really mean in their inbox and reblogged a lot of their stuff with nice comments about Rafa and Nole must be the one who drove them off this site.

I don't know what you're reading into my words but I literally said the rafolearchive mostly reposted happier interactions between Rafa and Nole because most of us enjoy people getting along well. And in the "most of us" group I very much included myself. (I think someone else may have said something about the rafolearchive posting more of Rafa's positive interactions with Novak (which is true, but in this case please talk to them and not me? Oh, I just realised, is that why you're 'apologising' to me for "doing this on my page" because one of my mutuals doesn't have their inbox open? Wow, that's a new level of being an online troll. So I guess that other part wasn't directed at me either lol. Still ridiculous to accuse another user of (politely) speaking their mind. If you were interested in an honest discussion you could just have replied to that conversation on the other post you took offense to. But clearly you need to hide behind anonymity. Future anons from you will be deleted unless you manage to stay more polite towards me and my mutuals. And please don't use me as proxy for fighting with someone ever again, what a godawful move. By the way I am sorry to hear you're dealing with chronic pain. I know something about living with pain for long periods of time and I know how bitter it can make people, I've spoken about this before. Which is the main reason why I started answering this in good faith until I realised exactly what you were doing here.

[paleangels13]

Helloo, I still exist did anyone even notice I was mostly gone lol

Anyone interested in ehhh...slightly unhinged work-related talk?

No?

Well. Too bad

Anyone that knows me irl please ignore the tags – I'm embarrassed ✨🥰

[dennisboobs]

[killjoy-prince]

Ray's After Ending is so funny because for a good chunk of it, most of the RFA members are knocked out by V's sleeping gas (Saeran is immune, Saeyoung isn't present bc he was kidnapped by his agency under his father's orders and MC wakes up in like an hour) but the game has a call feature where you can call the characters and it would be a waste if you couldn't use it bc the characters were unavailable so instead they have other people pick up the call (Jumin's driver picks up Jumin's phone, Jumin's father picks up Zen's phone, Yoosung's friends and mom pick up Yoosung's phone and Jaehee's coworkers pick up Jaehee's phone) and we do get to learn about the characters from outsider's point of view but it's so funny to me that these people are visiting their loved ones and suddenly the phone rings and they decide to just. answer it. and start talking to this stranger they've never met

[rainbowsans]

ur valid to dislike what u dislike but lumping selfcest in w like... incest and underaged content is just kinda insulting to anybody who has been thru those things. couldn't imagine being an incest survivor and getting told ur selfcest ship (harmless, cannot be replicated irl in any way, is not incest) is equally as bad as, ykno, an irl traumatic experience u had. like if u think selfcest is problematic enough to be put in the same category as incest and the sexual exploitation of children, u need to consider how u express that and also maybe log off of tumblr for a while. say it makes u uncomfy n u avoid it, super fair, but the way u treat it is downright insulting to ppl who have gone thru actual real tangible trauma. selfcest isn't real- I can tell u have a stance on it by ur language but maybe reconsider, there's a reason the stance is unpopular

I was sexually assaulted when I was in elementary, I was molested by my cousins, twice. groped by my own uncles, when I was a CHILD.

insulting to people who’d gone through those things?

IVE BEEN THROUGH THOSE THINGS. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU.

also, also; here’s the thing.

that rule I have with Selfcest? is for MY personal boundary. I don’t LIKE it, I want people to be aware when they ask ME or come to ME that I prefer to stay away from it. people don’t read my rules so I have to remind them in the “nicest” way possible.

I’m not “insulting” anyone by having that rule, it makes me uncomfortable so I want to avoid it the best I can and I want people to be aware of it, in case they think about wanting to send me stuff involving it:

If people are “insulted” with me gently reminding people when I GET ASKED that “hey, I don’t like this thing so please remember that I won’t draw or do anything with it!” then that’s THEIR problem, not mine.

I am setting my damn boundaries and I won’t be told, again, that I’m the one that’s being MEAN or INSULTING for it.

This is my blog, my art, and I get to set down my rules and boundaries, that’s all.

I put it next to those things because it’s so normalized in the fandom, and whatever, I just want others to know that if they are expecting that stuff in my blog? it’s not there, nor is it welcomed. Period.

and guess what? IVE SAID COUNTLESS TIMES THAT I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH IT AND AVOUD IT, BLACKLIST IT, and guess what? I STILL have people keep pressuring and demanding that shit to the point where I see it constantly in my inbox.

I HAVE TO GUIDE THEM TO MY RULES, I’m not going to be a damn pushover, I’m not gonna feel like my rules are “mean”, they are there for ME to set boundaries and have a comfortable experience here or ANYONE who feels the same way.

GOD.

[awesamforehead]

🌼

-🎃

[the-one-who-lambs]

I'm going to be turning off anon asks for a while. I think I've blocked the anon from last night, but just for safety.

I'll try to get the first Risen/Fallen rewrite chapter up soon. I wanted to have it up today but I don't think that'll happen.

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Been awake for like an hour and already feeling super overwhelmed by everything ever. and I'm heading to work so that will be a super fun time, I love working while overwhelmed and feeling like I'm two seconds away from gling insane (/s)