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cabin 10 gives every new camper a pair of headphones thats very bedazzled or in some way fits their vibe and a playlist that also matches their vibe

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I just had a flashback to this genius idea i had a year ago (actually from a tumblr post that i no longer know the whereabouts of)

So good things come in 3 right And we already have 2 skating animes for the queers (sk8 and yuri on ice) I present: Sapphic roller skating anime

THINK ABOUT IT THOUGH LESBIAN ROLLER SKATE WAITRESS ANIME??? not really waitress actually, more like epic fast food on wheels its like a funny take on the disasters at a fast food place yk

the reki-like main character would be like this fresh into college tired girl whos always been into cooking but got rejected from every cooking-related job except this one so now shes stuck flipping burgers even though shes genuinely an epic cook

and the langa-like side character/queerbaited love interest who steals the show would be some bored-and-boring average girl who just wanted a side job and could probably burn water there is a found family

i thought of this idea when the once-a-month fundraising cafe my class would do was wayyy more chaotic and called it [my school]'s cafe on wheels thankfully our cafe goes a little better now but similar energy <3

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not on nijiblr nearly as much as nijitwt but i fully support any lost fan who is just going through it

im a kyomie through and through im about to get orphaned in a week

so any fan whos feeling absolute shit from whats going on right now my blog (and twt if you find it) are safe spaces <3

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ok ok so i never finished watching naruto right- i watched a chunk of the first season a few years ago when i was sick as shit so i now associate the show with the feeling of sickness

thats not the point of the post tho

i kind of want to be into naruto so i can be a narusasu shipper

bc face it we all know sasuke and sakura got together from compulsory heterosexuality

also in my heart sakura is a bisexual bc in the same way that my bi friends do she likes the literal coolest women on the planet (ino) and the worst men on the planet (sasuke)

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yall

what the fuck is this aesthetic called

where its literally just a severely mentally ill little guy

suicide boy, rebzyyx crazy for you cover art, sunny from omori, and vent art in general all come to mind

i dont know what it is man but thats literally how i look irl give or take that theyre all always pale as fuck- they give me such gender envy and its literally how i look being spit back at me

yk??? the black hair, white t-shirt, excessive bandages, themes of sh, short skinny bitches

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was thinking a bit on how i somehow attached to drew tanaka this fucking hard during my less than 2 day long PJO fixation (to clarify ive had a pjo hypfix before this is just the witch coming back from the dead)

its 2 things

1- HOLY SHIT A JAPANESE PERSON IN POPULAR WESTERN MEDIA LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO- no because im fully japanese both my parents are japanese and i struggled with that a lot being born and raised in america (yes american point and laugh) you dont understand how happy japanese people in western media make me drew is such a little silly to me i love her- it makes me wonder if she thinks a lot about her ethnicity and culture in her pursuit of beauty. how often does drew ponder how to do her eyeliner to not well up in her eyelid creases? does she think about how she tans, or how she sweats all her makeup off, or how she runs a bit cold? does she have a short internalized racism era like i did because i think she would- as a character so involved in ideas of what it truly means to be beautiful? drew is the type of person TO ME who looks at her classmates wearing shorts in the snow and goes "euuugh white people"

2- drews character arc has a lot to do with conventional beauty. i have to preface that her canon depiction is borderline misogynistic, however the focus she has on her looks and conventional attractiveness during majority of canon reaches out to how i acted as a wee lad and how my sister acted like a wee little toddle?????? it doesssss- drew to me is just my sister coming into my room at maybe 9 years old asking if she would be prettier with blonde hair, sparkly blue eyeshadow, and a thinner yet curvier frame. drew to me is myself in elementary thinking if i looked older id be taken more seriously. drew to me would have a wonderful character arc where she slowly becomes more beautiful the more she lets herself be beautiful.

so yes i am throwing my entire family's long term trauma onto a silly side character whose main canon purpose was to be a foil to a quirky not like other girls main character

yes i am

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just found out that hinakawa canonically gets 2-3 hours of sleep per night and i think him being my new favorite character was assigned to me from the lord

anyways stan psychopass

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my i7 ships so far!!! (i am a multi shipper = i am an en fan and content is few and far between)

gakuyama (old mfs slay) listen gaku is a legitimate kid of a loveless marriage while yamato is an illegitimate kid of an affair- they both relate and parallel each other in their rich celebrity trauma its so cool /r or /p i wanna see them bond also matching clothes??? hello???

yukimomo (my mom likes yukibanri its so jarring to talk abt this w/ her??? im sorry i have mommy issues i didnt expect to fix them through re:vale shipping) there's just something so slay about the relationship theyve built yk??? also they literally do a married couple gag pls

also update theyre actually married now ashdhsjsks

haruka, iori, and tamaki in any combination romantic or platonic (i accidentally kin haruka and now im dying) supposedly its popular in jp but not in en but HIGH SCHOOLER TRIO HELLO i just think theyre idiots (dumb, dumb, secretly also dumb) and haruka is just my soul in an idol

By any combination means haruka/tamaki, haruka/iori, tamaki/iori, or haruka/tamaki/iori are all very cool I also like any of those platonically i legit just want them to hang out thats literally it

gaku/tsumugi basic ship but listen- gaku and tsumugi are THE HETS THAT THE GAYS ROOT FOR like mari and hero or elle and tao theyre just that iconic (disclaimer i am in fact one of them queers) actually no not het i think theyre both queer to some degree and bond over it i thought theyd infuriate me but theyre genuinely cute

rikutouma idk where this ship came from but it slapped me and i dont hate it (thatswhatshesaid-) i dont love physical intimacy in general but if yall think touma leads & riku follows YOU ARE MISSING OUT not even in a sussy way btw even with XOXOs riku initiates & touma gay paniks

p.s. I LOVE TUMBLR WTF- what i need a whole ass thread for on twitter i can shove into one post on tumblr- tumblr my love i will sing the praises

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No joke the reason i am in the genshin hole today is because i found a xingyun fanart get reposted on r/bisexualteens

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Ah tumblr fyp

"wholesome bsd headcanons"

"GENSHIN WOMEN FUCK YOU"

"picture of a toilet that says hey beautiful or some shit on it"

"EVERYTHING IS CANADA"

"actually really bad shit that people should be more aware of"

"A PICTURE OF LIKE 12 SHIRTLESS DUDES HANGING OUT TAGGED 'VINTAGE MEN' AND NOTHING ELSE"

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chuuyas height never ceases to surprise me

like

mans is 160 centimeters. thats like my height. hes like 22.

at 15 hes 10 cm shorter than i was at 15

im the shortest person in my entire friend group i havent grown in lord knows how long people call me the most out of pocket shit about it

AND IM 100% JAPANESE TOO ITS NOT LIKE IM TALLER BECAUSE I DRINK MILK OR BECAUSE IM WHITE OR SOMETHING

160 is seventh grader height chuuya what the hell

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fuck it im posting art

this is going to be the cover image to one of my upcoming playlists!! i know the hands are fucked up but thats because i am a beginner artist trying my best- you can see the sketch lines pls

i draw traditional + edit on the stupid samsung phone gallery photo editor

check my spotify in my pinned post if youre interested in the playlist fam

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IM CRYING/j HELP

IM TRYING TO EDIT HOW MY TUMBLR BLOG LOOKS AND THE POSTS ARE SO BRIGHT AGAINST THE BACKGROUND I WANT LIKE MINT GREEN POSTS BUT I SWEAR TO GOD GRAY WILL DO PLS WHY ARE THEY WHITE

THAT SOUNDS WRONG BUT LIKE WHY ARE THEY WHITE I NEED TO KNOW

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So i had a grand and whimsical vision

its incredibly simple yet detailed

CYBERCLOWNS

in a cyberpunk universe, dystopian world, all techwear and struggles and genuinely the coolest shit ever (please check out my edgy cyberpunk dystopia playlist for the vibe maybe (⁠๑⁠•⁠﹏⁠•⁠))

Theres a silly little guy whos really interested in the clown/jesters of the (in-universe) past.

And the fashion style of this idea is this SICK fusion of clowncore loud patterns, colors, accessories, and makeup with the functional, technological, and really fucking hot vibe of cyberpunk.

Ive been so obsessed with this idea for the past like 4 days now and i dont know where to look for inspo bc clowns and cyberpunk are my two hyperfixations that i never thought to combine

UNTIL NOW

Im going feral

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HOLY FUCK AM I ACTUALLY BISEXUAL

me after laying down on my bed for 3 hours from extreme fatigue (slayers) scrolling through and inhaling every chuuya post on tumblr

DO I WANT TO BECOME HIM, HUG HIM, OR KICK HIM IN THE BALLS I CANT TELL

maybe im not a lesbian???? maybe im just bi with an extreme female preference (read: all women and chuuya nakahara from bungou stray dogs)

HOLY SHIT

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my tumblr dashboard rn is the craziest shit because itll go from "emotional neglect" "the writers strike" "south park" "my one mutual" so on so forth

i keep getting sasunaru or narusasu in my dashboard because i posted about them once

i am in the middle of my TWICE hyperfixation and league of legends hyperfixation (what an insane combination leave me alone) yet i have yet to see a single post about either in my dashboard

what is happening

if i wake up tomorrow and i find a random post of straight up pornography on my dashboard i swear to the christ's shit