Seedling - An Ezra One Shot - Part 3 of the Helianthus Series 🌻
Helianthus Series Masterlist <- It's advisable to read the other parts first so you know what's happening with the story. 🌻
Summary: After a storm ravishes the sunflower field, Ezra senses that the tempest is far from over.
Pairing: Ezra x F!Reader (No name or physical description of reader in terms of ethnicity. It’s you, bub. However, Reader has hair and is pregnant.)
Word Count: 4.6k
Scoville Smut Rating: None, it's fluff. You're safe. Very smol 🤏🏻 mention of past sexual activities.
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Warnings/Triggers: There is mention of a particularly difficult birth, there is blood. I don't want to spoil this entirely for you, but please be assured that the baby is safe and well. This is an angsty part to the story and may be triggering for some.
NSFW. MINORS DNI! OVER 18’s ONLY. YOU ARE SOLELY RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT YOU READ.☝🏻Don’t come at me; you’ve been plenty warned.
I write for me, and I share with you. If this story isn't to your taste, that's fine. Just slip quietly out the back door. No need to make a fuss. It's just a work of fiction.
Author’s Note: You all know how I feel about Helianthus Ezra, I just love writing him. 😍 There's a final part after this and then the story will be wrapped. 😢🌻
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Part 1- Helianthus | Part 2- Silver
Ezra perambulates through the sunflower field, the verdant stalks towering above him, their heliotropic heads bowed from the onslaught of the recent tempest.
The storm had been particularly ferocious, its gales mercilessly disheveling the heath, leaving behind a landscape of botanical carnage.
The sunflower field became a battleground during the throes; a tumultuous sea of green and gold writhing and thrashing in the grip of the storm.
Lightning streaked across the sky in jagged bolts of white-hot energy, illuminating the darkness with its dazzling brilliance. Thunder rumbled and cracked in the distance, a deep, primal roar that reverberated through the very marrow of the earth.
As the storm battered against the small shack, Ezra had stood at the window, his reflection a pallid ghost and distorted by the rain streaking down the glass. The wind howled like a wounded beast outside, rattling the frail structure and threatening to tear it from its foundations.
You had slumbered, undisturbed in the bed, its fury unabated by the feeble attempts of the sunflowers to withstand its onslaught. In the dim, mirrored light, Ezra's features appeared haggard and worn, his jaw clenched in grim determination, watching as the rain fell in torrents, a deluge that turned the ground to mud and obscured all visibility in a swirling haze of mist and spray.
The wind howled like a banshee, tearing at anything in its path with a savage hunger that knew no bounds. And yet, amidst the chaos and destruction, there was a strange beauty to be found in the storm. The lightning sprites danced across the sky in intricate patterns, illuminating the darkness with its ephemeral light. The rain glistened like diamonds as it fell, casting prismatic reflections on the sodden earth below.
And that familiar sense of peace washed over Ezra’s clammy skin as it prickled, hairs standing tall from the static charge in the air.
He’d wanted to rouse you, to let you observe the spectacular show with him, but as he’d turned to glance at you over his stump, he couldn’t find it within him to disturb your dreams. Your sleeping form, swollen with the weight of late pregnancy, lay bare and naked for him to indulge upon the sight.
He’d rested his giant, calloused palm upon your stomach, feeling the gentle, restless flutter of his unborn child's movements beneath his gentle touch. A commonality he already shared with them, as they both couldn’t sleep through the storm, it appeared.
This morning, his singular arm operates with methodical precision, despite the growing ache in his shoulder blade, excising the damaged stalks and consigning them to a burgeoning pile, his mind anchored to the laborious task at hand.
The firmament overhead is a pallid, washed-out cerulean, the atmosphere stagnant and humid. The olfactory blend of petrichor and the saccharine fragrance of sunflowers permeates the air, invoking a sense of bucolic tranquillity that belies the previous tumult.
Pausing momentarily, Ezra swipes perspiration from his brow with the back of his hand and surveys the expanse of aureate petals oscillating gently in the tepid breeze. Despite the storm's desolation, the field retains a serene splendour that perpetually soothes his perturbed psyche.
To the untrained eye, the field might have seemed an impenetrable maze, a sprawling expanse of wild helianthus stretching endlessly in every direction. But to Ezra, it’s a familiar terrain, a landscape he’s come to know as intimately as he does your body.
Despite its chaotic appearance, Ezra knows every twist and turn of the sunflower moor, every hidden path and secret clearing amongst the barricade of thick stalks. He’s spent countless hours exploring its winding trails, mapping its contours in his mind until he can navigate its depths with his eyes closed.
The sunflowers crowd in around him, their broad leaves brushing against his arm and legs as he moves, their vibrant petals casting dappled shadows on the ground below. The air is thick with the heady scent of pollen and damp earth, the sounds of buzzing insects and rustling leaves create a busy symphony of life that accompanies him. The sunflowers whisper secrets to him as he passes, their gentle murmurs a comforting reassurance of his place in this untamed world.
Ezra moves with a purposeful gait through them, the stalks towering over him like silent protectors. His single arm works with practised efficiency, experience drawn upon from his prospecting years, cutting away the damaged stalks left in the wake of the storm. Each motion is deliberate, a testament to the countless hours he’s spent adapting to his physical limitations.
His face, weathered and etched with lines of experience and age, bears a look of quiet determination, his dark eyes reflecting both the intensity of his focus and the depth of his thoughts. Ezra pauses momentarily, wiping sweat from his brow with the back of his hand, revealing a rugged visage framed by a patchy beard that’s more practical than aesthetic.
His hair, imbued with that stark blonde sliver, slightly dishevelled from the wind and oil slick with perspiration, harbours streaks of gray, evidence of a life hard-lived.
As he surveys the field, he notes the storm’s aftermath: broken stalks, some bent and others entirely uprooted. He bends down, his movements fluid despite his handicap, and gathers a handful of them.
With an air of ingenuity, he sets about repurposing them. The sturdier stalks can be fashioned into rudimentary supports for the younger, weaker plants still standing, while the rest can be broken down for mulch to enrich the soil.
As he ties a bundle of stalks together, a task that takes him several attempts without any ambidextrous assistance, setting them aside for later use, a faint smile touches his cracked lips.
There’s a satisfaction in this work, a connection to the land and its cyclical nature.
Here, amidst the sunflowers and the solitude, Ezra finds a measure of peace, a fleeting but precious respite from the tumultuous life he's previously known. His eyes, ever watchful, scan the horizon, taking in the vast expanse of your new home together. It’s a harsh yet beautiful place, full of potential and promise.
"Well, my photosynthetic companions," he intones with a melodious lilt, "you've undoubtedly endured quite the maelstrom, haven't you? Yet, we shall prevail, as is our wont."
He straightens up, examining a particularly robust stalk that has survived the storm with only minor damage.
"Observe this stalwart exemplar," he continues to himself, a hint of admiration in his tone. "Resilient and unyielding - there's a certain poetry in this, isn't there? We are felled, we fracture, and yet we rise anew. Such is the ouroboros of life. Fascinating."
He moves to another section of the field, where younger plants have been knocked over by the storm.
"Fear not," he reassures them, his tone imbued with gentle authority around his Southern inflection. "I'll assist you in regaining your stature. A modicum of support is all that is required, friend."
As Ezra kneels to prop up a particularly fragile bloom, his knees sinking in the softening dirt, his expression softens.
"Ah, a nascent seedling," he says quietly.
Bending down, Ezra cradles the minute plant in his large hand, marvelling at its diminutive size and delicate beauty. The sunflower seedling seems impossibly small, its petals soft and delicate beneath his stubby fingers, its slender stalk barely thicker than a blade of grass.
And yet, despite its size, it radiates a quiet strength and resilience that takes his breath away. For a moment, Ezra simply kneels there, lost in the wonder of the tiny plant he holds in his hand.
He thinks about the journey that lies ahead for this fledgling, the challenges it will face as it grows and flourishes. And yet, despite the odds stacked against it, it refuses to yield, clinging tenaciously to life with a fierce determination that fills him with stunned awe.
Gently, Ezra strokes the delicate petals of the sunflower, his fingers tracing the intricate patterns etched into each velvety surface. With great care, Ezra plants the seedling back into the earth, tucking it gently into the soft soil and whispering words of encouragement as he does so.
“Reach for the sun with all your might, little one.”
He vows to watch over it, to safeguard it from harm and help it grow into the magnificent sunflower it’s destined to become.
In much the same way, Ezra feels a similar surge of emotion as he thinks about the impending arrival of his baby. Just as he's cradled the sunflower seedling in his hand, so too will he soon cradle his newborn child, marvelling too at its smallness and fragility, yet knowing that within it lays the potential for boundless strength and tenacity. He's certain of it.
His thoughts drift back to a time when his life had been anything but certain - a time when he roamed the interplanetary as a perplexing scoundrel, a thief, perhaps even an unabashed murderer, for his hands had certainly exhumed the flames of life. A prospector at best, but they’re a shadowy breed full of contempt and a desperation that makes them a threat to anyone they encounter, bewitched by the precious cabochons they seek.
It was a past he had long sought to leave behind, a malignant shadow that lingered at the cells of his consciousness, a constant reminder of the darkness that had once consumed him.
A man shackled by brazen greed and steely ambition. He thought only of himself, heedless of the pain and suffering he left in his wake, beguiled by a gluttonous lust for shiny things plucked from the living womb of the fauna.
He remembers feeling the intense scorch of the intransigent tightening in the upper chambers of his abdomen each time he drew a singular breath in; the gurgling rasp in the back of his throat latching and refusing to go down as he struggled to sit comfortably in the nav seat as the pod ascended from the Green.
The belts were crushing him, cutting into places that were already wide open and sodden, where they ought not to be wide open or sodden.
The rumbles of the pod shook him violently as his only hand gripped the rest in sheer grit and steadying desperation. Every movement ricocheted through him, growing roots inside his weeping core; splintering out into waves of itchy affliction that made him wish he was already dead so he would be out of that Kevva given misery.
He was a stubborn bastard, akin to wily rodents, and even when presented with the outstretched vice of death, he somehow refused to falter; turning the other cheek even if it was to his own detriment. He was destined to the mercy of Imuon's blade sliding into his sternum like butter.
But a young, blonde-headed smile reassured him from his watery peripherals that he was safe and homeward bound.
He rested, but only for a moment, closing his eyes once more to find himself back in the pod with Cee; the freighter advancing and welcoming them as they docked. They’d smiled at one another with pertinent relief and glistening pearly teeth, and that’s the last memory he has of her. That, and the permanent scars that litter his body.
There was a point of no return and Ezra was pretty convinced he’d crossed into that boundless territory on the precarious cusp of death. There was little else he could do then, but wait for that enveloping cradle to take him from this plain and plop him as a recharged, jellied embryo with an excusably limp, pink cock into the next.
It wasn't as disconcerting as he had imagined. Some harmonious frivolity to it, in fact.
Those final moments brought about some tranquil peace and everything felt lighter somehow. He was burdenless, entering this world with nothing and leaving with even less as he’d glanced at his missing limb between gluey eyelids.
He allows himself to indulge in the barbellate tingles that accompany the coldness of his memories as he feels them moving up from his feet.
Paused in mere seconds that hold plurry turns within them. Full rotations around many suns and yet all of them failed to dim, refusing to guide the way to convalesce in the ether.
He’d thought of Kevva in his last moments. An all encompassing entity that Ezra himself has never really understood, refraining from worshipping deities in a polytheistic world he orbits with primal irritation.
Kevva is not some omnipotent being controlling his every move or whim with a joystick, no. She’s a whore in the baths of Luxillion, drinking marsh fruit wine whilst the spend of his cock seeps pearls aplenty from her gaping hole.
Yes, that’s the last thing he’d see as he drifted off. A magnolious dream of sinking head first into her black hole cunt of honeyed delights from which he’d never resurface.
Ezra chuckles at the absurdity of it all now as he re-plants and digs. Broad shoulders rumbling as he guffaws.
Severely humbled by the loss of his arm, and almost the loss of his life, Ezra casts those historic threads of imitation gold all aside for you.
You’d seen past the auspicious facade he’d erected around himself, peeling back the layers of his snarky defences with a gentle touch and an understanding smile as you fought to salvage what was left of this wounded animal, baring its teeth and hackles at you.
It had taken a long time to tame him, the only star in his heel-face turn, but he’d allowed it. Softening under your every healing touch.
From the moment your eyes had met, Ezra knew that his life would never be quite the same. You’d shown him kindness when he least deserved it, offering him a second chance when all seemed lost.
As he stoops to lift another prostrate stalk, an inexplicable frisson courses through him, eliciting a visceral response that raises the fine hairs on his nape.
He remains motionless, the stalk slipping from his grasp, and stands still, listening.
A strange stillness settles over the field. The usual sounds of the sunflower field - the rustling of leaves, the chirping of insects - fades into an eerie silence.
It’s as if the very air holds its breath, waiting for some unseen event to unfold, akin to a calm before a storm.
And then, as if in response to some silent signal, the sunflowers begin to whisper.
Their voices are soft and melodic, a gentle susurrus that dances on the edge of his consciousness. Ezra can't make out the words, they don’t physically converse with him of course, but their meaning is unsettlingly clear.
There’s no sound, no cry for help, his name is not carried on the breeze with a banshee wail. But a deep, instinctual feeling surges through him - the baby is imminent.
Birdie...
Ezra's cardiac rhythm accelerates. His thoughts race to you, ensconced within the modest shack you’d both meticulously transformed into a comforting domicile as you nested. He’d anticipated this eventuality, had endeavoured to steel himself for it, but now that the moment has arrived, the enormity of his trepidations weigh heavily upon him.
Possessing but one arm, how can he possibly rise to the exigency of this moment? How can he aid you through a convoluted parturition when he struggles to perform even the basics of quotidian tasks with his remaining hand?
He should have made you leave this place with him to the birthing pools. Should’ve insisted upon it, even if it meant dragging you to the pod, kicking and screaming.
Shouldn't have allowed himself to be bewitched by the allure of your creature comforts and reassuring smile.
There was time, fuck there was plenty of time, but he’d let it all slip away. Watched as you whittled him down to nothing but a compliant chromosome giving you anything you wish.
With each stride, Ezra propels himself forward, his booted feet pounding against the earth in a frenzied rhythm. The golden sea of sunflowers blur past him, their vibrant petals a bokeh of flaxen.
His breath comes in sharp, ragged gasps, his chest heaving with exertion as he pushes himself to his limits.
Approaching the periphery of the field, stalks battering him in the face, the shack materialises before him, a humble yet resilient structure that's become your shared refuge in your life together.
Ezra breaks into a lopsided sprint, disregarding the pang of discomfort emanating from his truncated shoulder. His mind flits through the compendium of knowledge he’s amassed about childbirth, each fragment of information a cutting reminder of the impending task he’ll have to perform now, and yet it still seems flaccid.
Ezra's heart races as he bursts through the door of your home. The air inside is thick with tension, every corner of the small space illuminated in grey by the dim light outside.
His eyes dart around the room, searching desperately for any sign of you.
“Birdie!”
The erroneous cornucopia of groans that husk from you makes his skin stand on end as it echoes around the shack. And then he sees you, lying on the floor in the corner of the room, your face contorted in pain, your hands clutching at your swollen belly.
You look up at him as he rushes to you, your eyes wide with fear and exhaustion, your lips parting in a silent cry for help.
The room seems to spin around him, the walls closing in as if suffocating him with their oppressive weight.
He feels a surge of panic rising in his chest, threatening to overwhelm him with its intensity like nothing he's ever felt before. There isn't much that terrifies Ezra, he's hardly familiar with this emotion, and yet it paralyses him for a few seconds that feel like an eternity.
You look up at him, your eyes filled with fear and exhaustion, and he comes to you. Flocking to your side where he'll always belong.
"Ezra," you gasp, reaching out for him, fingers grasping like claws at his sweaty skin, "the baby's coming!"
“Look at me,” Ezra says, although, it’s more of a command. “I know, I’m here. I’m your steadfast bulwark, pet. Breathe, like we practised.” He assures.
“W-Where were you?” You suck in breaths like oxygen is running out of the room fast.
“Tending to the stalks, the storm has upturned the soil.”
“What… storm?”
He smiles, stroking a stray wisp of hair behind your ear. “You slept through it.”
As he takes your hand in his singular one, something shifts inside him - a primal instinct, a fierce determination to protect.
With a steady hand and a voice filled with reassurance, he whispers words of comfort to you, his touch gentle yet firm as he strokes your sweat-dampened brow.
And it goes silent for a moment, all except the sounds of him. Ezra reminds you through those quiet murmurs and twitches of his moustached lips that he’s here with you.
He leaves you momentarily and you pant through the watery vision of him gathering everything he needs and tossing it at your feet. The birthing book is there, his fingers slipping over the tatty, worn pages as he focuses.
You clutch his hand tightly, your knuckles white with the strain. "I can’t bear it," you gasp, your voice a plaintive plea for relief. “It hurts!”
“I won’t goad you about choosing not to seek refuge in the birthing pools…” He mutters with a frown.
“I can hear you, Ez!" You growl and he smirks. "We can go, we can! Oh Kevva! Ah shit!” You breathe.
"The time has passed, pet. You’re strong," Ezra assures you, his voice a soothing relief, "stronger than you know.”
As Ezra tenderly attends to you, perparing you for the birth, the heavy contractions making you grunt and scream, he can't shake the feeling that something’s amiss.
Your discomfort seems to intensify with each passing moment, your breaths laboured and shallow as you clutch at your swollen belly, your face contorted in agony.
He refers to the pages and the things that should be happening aren't happening.
Though he lacks the expertise of a medical professional, he trusts in his intuition fiercely, a primal instinct that whispers of danger lurking just beyond the veil of uncertainty, and his ears prick up to listen.
He parts your legs, inspecting you carefully as you writhe and contort.
"Pet," he murmurs, his voice a faintly soothing melody amidst the cacophony of your distress, "I suspect the babe may be in an unfavourable position. You haven’t dropped. Let me coax you both into a more propitious alignment."
With a gentle hand and a heart heavy with concern, Ezra guides you through a series of gentle movements, each one designed to encourage the wayward baby to turn.
He helps you try pelvic tilts, inversion techniques, and relaxation exercises, both your efforts a testament to the unwavering resolve in the face of adversity. But it doesn’t work, your incessant cries and grunts aren’t relieved and the pain intensifies.
And then, amidst the agony and despair, comes the blood - a crimson tide that stains the wooden boards beneath you, a harbinger of danger lurking just beyond the horizon.
Ezra feels that surge of terror rise within him again, threatening to engulf him in its suffocating embrace. There’s so much blood that it stuns him.
“Ezra!” You scream, bloodcurdling and shrill, and it snaps him out of it.
Ezra springs into action, his hand shaking as he fumbles for the meagre supplies at his disposal. He knows that time is of the essence, that every moment wasted brings you both closer to the brink of unthinkable disaster.
"I’m gonna need you to push now, each contraction brings us one step closer to meeting our little one."
“Something’s wrong, Ezra!” You groan, your eyes flitting closed. The emptiness in your voice makes his balls clench up.
“Oi - oi!” He gently taps your face as your eyes glaze over. "You stay with me!" He urges, his eyes blazing with determination.
Bloodied smears from his sticky fingers coat your chin like lacquer as he turns your face, squeezing, to focus on him.
"Breathe with me," he instructs, his voice a steady rhythm against the cacophony of your suffering. "In... and out... in... and out… Shit. C’mon, Birdie!" He yells.
“Ez-” You falter, your eyes close again as you whisper something he can’t quite catch.
Ezra's mind races with a brutal knowledge - he has to get the baby out as you can no longer push.
He tears through the pages in the book, finding the right section. The step-by-step images already haunting him.
"Forgive me, pet," he whispers, his voice heavy with regret as he leans in to press a tender kiss to your sweat-glistened forehead. "I promise to make this as quick and painless as possible."
Ezra reaches for a small knife, a tool he’d hoped never to use in such a manner. But now, with yours and the baby’s life hanging in the balance, he knows that he has no choice.
Positioning himself, Ezra takes a deep breath to steady his nerves.
“Kevva, guide me,” he croaks out to the ceiling.
With a swift, decisive motion, he carefully begins to cut through your flesh, his hand moving with practised precision, movements fueled by a desperate determination to save you both.
In the depths of his consciousness, he’s transported back to the Green Moon, the air thick with the scent of Aurelac and the promise of riches untold. With a sense of eager anticipation, he’d set out to extract a precious gem from his first blister, his hands steady and sure - when he'd had both of them.
But as he worked, a tremor of uncertainty had crept into his movements, faltering at a crucial moment. And in an instant, the gem had transformed into a sizzling mess of acid, searing his flesh with its toxic touch, and leaving behind a scar that would never fade over the hilt of his knuckles.
Now, as he struggles to deliver his child, Ezra feels the weight of that memory pressing down upon his face, suffocating him - a reminder of his past failures, his shortcomings laid bare for all to see. He couldn’t do it with two hands, how can he do this now with one?
His eyes flit up to your face, eyes closed and no movement, even though he knows this would be tortuous for you to endure. He’s thankful you can’t feel it, but the concern isn't lost on why that might be.
But soon the melodious chorus of his daughter's cries reverberate through the confines of the small shack, bringing him back to reality with a sonorous testament to her vitality and resilience.
As he beholds her delicate features, framed by wisps of dark hair and cherubic cheeks, Ezra feels an overwhelming surge of veneration wash over him - a dulia for the miracle of life, for the boundless depths of human love, for the inexorable march of time itself.
It winds him in the gut completely.
He can see it, he’s certain of it; an image beyond her so deftly branded into his retinas, but the wires running neurons and receptors in his brain are far too preoccupied to process it fully.
No, they’ll save that undulating horror for him to endure again later when another moment of coherence can slip in between the suffocating momentum of the grunts and screams of the wriggly life in his lap, before they furrow into the meat between his ribs to take up permanent residence.
He can feel it creep on the hairs on the back of his neck despite them being saturated from the heat now burning him up. Feels how his balls retreat hastily into his body to seek shelter from the harsh reality he's now bolstered in.
He can still feel his missing fingers, wiggle them even.
He knows it now, knows that every brush of death that licked so lewdly at him before, every time he bled out and inhaled the diaphanous spores leaking into his helmet to lay the foundations of a suffocating moss over his tissue paper lungs, was to get here.
Right to this moment.
"A seedling..." He whispers. He lays his daughter in his lap, cutting the cord that tethers her to you.
With each breath her pudgy, little face takes, she seems to breathe life into the very essence of his being, infusing his soul with a newfound sense of purpose and meaning.
And in that sacred communion between father and daughter, Ezra finds solace amidst the chaos of a fretful existence, a respite from the tumultuous currents of fate.
Shivering, yet drenched with sweat, and with a voice hushed, he whispers choked words of welcome to his daughter, each syllable a tender offering of devotion and his affection, for that's all he has to give.
"Welcome to the world, Niblet," he murmurs, his voice thick with emotion.
A small prick of a smile crooks at the side of his mouth ready to flourish into a full inveigle beam. "Oh, you are magnificent beyond measure.”
A tiny hand curls around his finger and his eyes are bloodshot and watery; gulping like a marine fish out of water on the blue planet he remembers as a child.
His throat is a cragged wasteland; parched and tight. He licks around his teeth, but his gums are a rough pastiche of pink, tasteless clay.
A few deep sighs lap around him and Ezra is back to facing his current mare’s nest, where he’s spent far too much time with his own thoughts, lost in an alternate reality of obscure sorrow and maudlin soliloquies, waiting for the veil to pull.
“Look, Birdie-"
But as he seeks to share in the moment of elation with you, his gaze flickers upward to meet your eyes, only to find them obscured by your closed lids still.
A cold shiver runs down Ezra's spine as he observes the unmoving of you, arms limp at your sides, blood pooling at your centre.
There’s no verbal response, and he can no longer feel his own body connected to the ground.
He places his daughter in a bundle of cloths on the floor at your side, every instinct in him telling him not to let her go. She needs the contact, she needs the warmth from him and love that he has threatening to overspill at any moment. It's too much. He can't do this.
He needs you. She needs you.
With his trembling hand, he reaches out to touch your cheek, his blood smeared fingers brushing against your cooling skin in a desperate bid for reassurance.
“B-Birdie?”
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