#pseriouslyparanoid

[schizophreniah]

life stressors are a huge contributing factor in psychotic and or symptom breaks in general. life stressors include

death of a family member or close loved one

moving into a new home

sickness illness injury

divorce

incarceration

leaving or being fired/laid off from a job

unemployment

abuse and or DV

money deficiency

those are just some of the examples that life can throw at you causing immense stress and triggering psychotic symptoms and even mood disturbances as well. it’s very important to know your triggers so once and or if the psychosis comes back there’s a safety plan in place for you and or a loved one.

it’s believed that 70% of those with sz spectrum disorders are likely to have a second psychotic disorder relapse within 5-7 years.

so in a sense it is imperative those who happen to have or suspect to have sz or related disorders have a safety plan with triggers stated and warning signs of when and how and why a psychotic episode could occur.

[troubledpastels]

Long ish update for the last 6 months

It's now 5-6 months since I started on clozapine and I'm not kidding when I say it saved my life. I'm able to socialise and get out from my flat and do more normal stuff. My psychosis is gone, I stil have some symptoms but not in the slightest as it used to be. I have a relationship with my dad, which my psychosis absolutely ruined by making me belive he was a spy sent from the cops. We are able to laugh about it now but it still hurts a bit. I mourned my dad who I thought was dead for over a year. Its bittersweet that I now know what's real but it hurts when I think about how much time I have wasted being scared and angry and just lost in my own world. I also got my permanent disability, so I don't have to stress over money. I'm also trying a new type of therapy that works really well on psychosis/schizophrenia patients, I'm a bit nervous but it'll hopefully work well.

If you told me 8 months ago how I've been doing since my med change I would not have believed it. It hurts to think about how scared and lost/disconnected I was from the real world. Schizophrenia almost made me end my life. I'm so extremely thankful for the people around me in my team who believed in me and sat with me while I ranted about my delusions and more.

I'm not saying everything magically changed just because of the clozapine, I worked a lot and still do to fight my symptoms. But the medication made it so much easier.

I still get to live in my home with 24/7 staff and both them and my therapy team agrees that I can stay as long as I need, which is a relief.

I know it's not rainbow and roses and I'll probably struggle with this illness for years to come, but right now I'm able to deal with it and enjoy life again

[redrum-district]

Even taking my meds doesn't make the delusions go away, so what's the point.

[friendlybutnot]

i’m completely sick and tired of psychosis and paranoid thinking being made into a fucking joke. people on tiktok thinking it’s somehow funny to trigger people’s paranoia when they mention struggling with it. “i’m living in your walls” and “sending a SWAT team to you” jokes were being made at a creator who directly expressed that they have paranoia and comments like that were triggering it. i am livid. i am pissed. we are not a joke. we are not there for you to mock at our expense and suffering.

[vagfullaweed]

If you make fun of schizo spec/psychosis spec people's delusions you're a giant piece of shit. If you do it to the same person multiple times, you're an abuser

[doctxrdoctxr]

[dissociyboi]

I would like to stop feeling like I’m infested with bugs please

[ellaspeaks]

I'm having a really rough day in regards to my psychosis :( today is going to be a self care day

If any other schizo-spec or psychosis-spec people are reading this, you are more than your bad days

You deserve proper care and to be taken seriously

Take a moment to do something for yourself, even if it's just a kind word

[schizocassandraoftroy]

I really feel for psychotic people and people with ppd in online schooling where they’re not allowed to turn their cameras off. You’re not a bad person for having paranoia triggered. I hope you get listened to and accommodated soon

[amurder-ofcrows]

tw: schizoaffective psychotic episode, mentions of unreality, paranoid thoughts

hi friends i need some help

as i’m sure some of you know (maybe not if you’re newer to my blog) but i have schizoaffective disorder. i’m currently going through a psychotic episode. my antipsychotics work enough that i know what’s going on, but i’m progressively getting worse.

i’m hallucinating a lot. i’m hearing demonic voices growling and scratching on my walls. i feel bugs moving under my skin and i can almost see them moving underneath my skin. i keep seeing people walk around me out of the corner of my eyes when i’m alone or there’s no space for people to walk.

i’m having delusions and paranoia too. i’m terrified of people being out to get me. i have a belief that there’s cameras everywhere and that i’m in a simulation and the reason that i’m not feeling well is because the controllers of the simulation are controlling my mind. i don’t feel like i’m truly alone. i’m starting to slip away from reality and i’m starting to think i’m not sick, but this is how reality is.

i don’t want to be hospitalized. i’ve had a traumatic experience with going to the hospital for psychosis, and i really don’t want to go through that again. i’ve contacted my psychiatrist and im waiting for a response from her but idk what to do until then

how do y’all cope? i have my parents with me, but they keep asking how to help and i don’t know how to answer. i don’t know how to calm down or minimize the feelings of paranoia and fear. i just need advice

[schizophreniah]

hi everyone just wanted to give an update. changing medications within the next two weeks goodbye abilify! hello sweet sweet geodon. anyways i also found out that i never had just “disordered eating” i had full blown anorexia? not sure what to do with that information but i probably should’ve known. anyways

[troubledpastels]

One thing that really freaks me out is how other people can notice I'm struggling without them knowing because they've seen inside my head, like I dont understand it.

[enby-onceler]

psychotics see a random string of numbers and be like ¿? is this a prophecy ?¿ a secret message perhaps ¿? surely something important ?¿

[rec-flies-away]

[schizophrenicfordpinesmoved]

Having psychosis is like *is right about 1 (one) paranoid guess* "I'm a prophet"

[transmascbruno]

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Paranoid Schizophrenia

PTSD

ASD

Avoidant personality disorder

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