#she is literally my baby my sister my wife my bestie | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

asarajaa · 5 months

Note

Hi Sarah! Love you hcs could you do some hcs about bonten rindou who's trying to get attention from the reader but the reader is busy?? Thank you love!!!

Hello sweetheart! Tysm!

Ofc! Here you have it 🤗 🤗 🤗

My boy rindou needs to be more drawn, like I only found one GOOD pic of him in Bonten for the banner 😩😭

Warnings: fem!reader, fluff Words: 963 Disclaimer: English isn't my first language so I apologise for any mistakes or misunderstandings!

Rindou wanting attention hcs

₊˚ෆ Okay so one thing that I know is that Rindou is an attention seeker (just like his brother), don't ask me how I just know 🤷🏽‍♀️

₊˚ෆ He's the little brother after all, what else did you expect?

₊˚ෆ Plus, Ran doesn't help, really. Like I believe that Ran's Rindou's number one fan. I hc that when Rindou had a theater or smh like that at school Ran would be in the first line recording, clapping, screaming and just being Ran tbh.

₊˚ෆ At the start of your relationship with him he wouldn't show it, he's a 29 year old mafia man who is independant (his brother doesn't count), but as it progresses…

₊˚ෆ Look, when it comes to you, realistically, or he couldn't care less or he would lose his mind. Like he's a mafia man, I don't know what you expected.

₊˚ෆ If is the last option, the only Bonten member apart from him you'll know is his brother, no one else. This man is like a doberman, he'll protect you even if that's the last thing he'll do.

₊˚ෆ Ofc, Ran would do the same. You make his brother happy? He would protect you no matter what, just like Rindou would do it with his girl. There would be 4 persons in your marriage with Rindou; the two of you ofc and then Ran and his wife.

₊˚ෆ Because of this closeness, you and Ran's wife inevitably became friends, reaching the point of being like sisters who grew up together.

₊˚ෆ The only way for you to be Rindou's wife is if you knew him before everything. Here, the woman of the process was you and the woman to whom Rindou showed his teachings was also you. The same happens with Ran.

₊˚ෆ You'll meet each other in your high schooler years and stay with together since then, as the same happens with Rans wife, you girls practically grew up together.

₊˚ෆ When your husbands work, you would be going to Pilates class together, having brunches very frequently, planning playdates for your children (if you have them) and so on.

₊˚ෆ Basically you girls are maintained, at their insistence more than anything (because there is no way your husbands will let their wives do a single bit of work).

₊˚ෆ In this family of 4, visit each other was a tradition. Every Saturday, you went to each other's houses to have dinner.

₊˚ෆ Of course, when you see your bestie you forget about everything else. She's your bestie after all, you've got to tell each other tea when the spoon, the sugar and the cup weren't around. And if there's someone to blame, it's their fault.

₊˚ෆ Rindou didn't notice, just happy to see you happily talking with your best friend. He knows he is out very often, so he's glad you have someone to talk to.

₊˚ෆ But when the hours went by, and you're just talking with his brother and his wife, Rindou started to pout.

"What? You're seeing things, go check yourself for schizophrenia baby." he'll say every time you bring up the topic.

₊˚ෆ Rindou's an attention seeker and a semidirect one, like he'll give you a very direct hint about his feelings. He's a man, he's not ashamed about his feelings (to the most of them) and he's a "were not going to bed before we resolve our problem" type of guy.

₊˚ෆ He demonstrated this after a while.

You and Rans wife were happily talking in the living room, Ran doing some comments here and there but mostly of all you and her.

"–and the house must be clean! And that's literally what he told Asteria" she finished, leaning back to her husband’s arm again.

"No way!" you gasped in shock.

"I know, right? After all the things Asteria has done for him." she said letting out a sigh "He has the nerve to ask for more when she has done the impossible for him and for their family."

"Men these days." you denied with disappointment, getting supported by an assent and a 'yeah' for her part "Oh! How did I forget it? We have a present for you guys for your new pregnancy!" you revealed enthusiastic.

"Really? You guys didn't have to." said Ran.

"Nonsense, we gotta show our good wishes for the new future member." replied Rindou "It's in the car, we'll go for it, wait here." Rindou said standing up first, extending a hand to help you standing up.

As you guys were going to the garage, you felt a hand on your waist, pulling you closely to Rindous body.

"You know, you seem to enjoy the company of your best friend who you see almost every day more than the company of your husband, the one who is out very often." he said, giving you a squeeze on your waist while he took out the car keys with the other one.

"Ow, you want my attention? Is that what's going on?" you said teasing him, losing the warmth of his hand as he went to get the gift.

"Yes. I would be grateful, thank you." Rindou said directly, coming back with the gift (a very pretty baby cart that costed thousands) in his hands.

You chuckle as you were going to his side, hugging one of his arms and starting to tell him that it would be great to have another baby (or your first) so that It could be your best friends partner and thanks to that you could become family and- No, Rindou, our marriage is not enough, if our kids get married it would be like another different level.

Rindou, looking at you while you were daydreaming about some childhood best friend trope, wouldn't avoid the thought of-

Anything to see that smile in your face, my love.

₊˚ෆ Two month went by, and guess who's pregnant?

I love Rindou sm 😭💗

I hc that he would be very direct like he wouldn't have any drop of shame in his body.

omg it's currently 0:28 and I didn't make my masterlist yet 😩

Update: omg I’m so dumb, I just noticed that the request said that the reader was BUSY like doing smth and not having time 4 him like I didn’t finished reading the request– omg I’m so stupid 💀✋🏽

I’m so sorry, please send me a request saying if do you want me to change it or anything. I’m so sorry but it’s currently 1:57 and my brain is not braining 😭😭😭

So sorry baby :(

28/04/24

#tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #rindou haitani #rindou x reader #tokrev rindou #tr x reader #ran haitani #tokyo revengers ran #fanfiction #asarajas works (tokyo revengers)#asarajas works #i want to sleep #i'm so tired rn #please tell me you opn in the comments #fluff #tokyo revengers fluff #rindou headcanons #haitani brothers #haitani rindou x reader

109 notes · View notes

deadpool15 · 11 months

Text

Girl please

I'm walking around trying to gather all my shit. I can't ever find shit in this bitch. "Baby, if you can't come that absolutely fine. I just thought since you were in Korea, well, you know.." I turn around and stare at the phone. "Kirsten Dogen, you sit there and pass off a fake ass undertone with me again, and you are not getting those snacks you like when I pull up. Don't throw shade at me, young lady." I hear a bunch of laughs coming from the phone which I can't really identify, I guess those are the other girls she is doing the photoshoot with. Serves her right. I don't take the back talk. "Baby, really legal government names, that's how we gonna play it." She says with a pout on that God forsaken beautiful fucking face. But I realize to back down. "And did, what's your point."

"Also, your fav boots are in our closet, in my side, sweetie," When I heard those words, I turned around, and I almost got whiplash. "Why would MY boots be on your side, huh?" She stares at me sheepishly before trying to make it seem like someone is calling her, and quickly saying she had to go. I sit there in disbelief, "I know she did not just hang up on me. And proceeded to not answer my question at that. Girl literally just cut me off like I wasn't talking." After a while of absolute bullshit I finally decided to finish getting ready. It was pretty hot in Korea, so I went for some shorts and a crop. With my favorite boots, of course. I then decided to call up Yeonjun. Me and that man had been friends ever since his family decided to randomly pull up to California for a couple of years. I showed him around, and his mom used to joke about us being together. Then he came back to Korea and our parents thought it would be a good idea to send each other letters.

Our friendship has lasted for what felt like a lifetime, and I love that dude. Through Kirsten couldn't stand him. I felt like she had just never taken the time to give him a chance. Sure, Yeonjun was flirty sometimes, but that's just him as a person, and he knew when to back off. I would never hurt my wife, and sometimes, I felt like she didn't trust me. I mean, Yeonjun was literally my right hand at our wedding. Out there standing next to me prepared me for my life, cheering the loudest when we officially got married. It even got to the point where she shit talked him once and got angry at me. Like true enough, I love my wife, and I love my bestie, so I wanted them to get along. Hopefully, today works out. I had been signed to Hybe labels as an official choreographer, mainly working with newjeans because those are my girls, but I had worked with other groups as well. The public was quite familiar with me and our friendship, so it was never any dating rumors. Sure, people wanted us together, but that's their issue. I'm happily married.

Yeonjun had pulled up in his van. Opened the door before I hit him in the head. "Why are you always so aggressive all the time? There was literally no need for that hit, Cece." I just push him in the van before grabbing his face. Every time I go to America, I leave for a while. I had to take some other jobs that were literally amazing. Though when I come back, I always make it a habit of checking Yeonjun. Companies are known to starve their idols with fucked up so called diets and I refused to allow it to happen to my bestie. I mean, I almost beat a staff ass for suggesting my litter hyein needed to lose a couple of pounds. "You look good, just doing my family checks." He smiled at me, "I'm glad you care about my health so much, sis." We sat there in the car just catching up on all the shig we have missed in life. Before I told him we would be going to see Kirsten, he just smiled and said, "That's cool." Weridly enough he never had a issue with her, and never tried to say anything back when she insulted him stating she is your wife and you my little sister, I understand why she is jealous but I wouldn't disrespect you other half. My brother is just too amazing. Sometimes, I feel like he read that shit from a magazine.

We pulled up the building, seeing workers running around and losing their minds, trying to make sure everything was perfect. As I walked inside, I heard a scream typical, it what I get for being koreas number it boy with me. Yeonjun just smiles and embraces all the attention. He has also been a suckered for the spotlight. While he is doing that, I tell him I'll go in the back to find Kirsten. I walk away, thankfully, running into Funky Y and greeting her, of course. She is all smiles and asking me all these questions before I cut the conversation short and ask about Kristen. "She is in the back with makeup." I nod and thank her before making my way back there. Seeing her getting all dolled up dripped down in Calvin Klein for the shoot, "Well, look at you." Hearing my voice, she immediately turns around before jumping up to hug me. "Omg, you're finally here. I thought you were made at me about the boot thing. I just wore them at the beginning of the show, to like reveal us. So it technically wasn't that long." I brush her hair out of her face, taking a goof look at her. "I don't care that you wore them, I care that you hung up on me while we were still talking. Don't think I forgot about that. And there shall be punishments in order, baby." I smirk once I see her scared face before kissing her head, trying not to mess up her makeup.

"Guys, it took me forever to find you. It's like a lot of rooms in here. Hi, Kirsten. You look great. What's the shoot for?" Yeonjun asks while running in her out of breath, I turn and laugh at him before turning back to her and see her face. "It's Calvin Klein, pretty obvious to anyone with a brain." She states with a look of pure annoyance while staring at him. Then whispered in my ear why you had to bring him. I grip her arm as a warning, while yeonjun asks us if we want anything to drink, I tell him I'll have an apple juice before Kirsten says nothing from you. "OK, fucking stop it. I try my very best not to take sides because I care about both of you and want you to equally get along. But this shit ends now," I see her face try to turn into a pout before I squeeze her side, letting her know I'm not dealing with the fake shit. "No more animosity or any of that shit, got it." They both look at each other before Yeonjun randomly hugs us both. "I don't have a problem with you, Kirsten. If anything, I'm glad that my litter sister was able to find you, though I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you feel angry. I look over to her, stating it's her turn, and she sighs, "You didn't really do anything, it's just you two are so close, and I know you don't like her like that. But I told myself that if I hated you, it would be easier. Which is a really hard thing to do since you are so happy and bright. I was insecure, and I took it out of you, but then I realized you two are just like siblings, and I felt stupid and thought it was all in my head."

Yeonjun hugs us closer before saying he will give us a minute while patting Kirsten on the back. "Baby, your thoughts are never stupid, and if you feel so strongly, you come and talk to me. We are a team, and till death, do us part remember." She smiles while hugging me tighter and kissing all over my face. "It's ok, I'll try my best to make it up, Yeonjun, for all the shit I put him through. I know he is a nice guy." I just rock her from side to side while listening. "That's amazing, baby, and don't think I forgot about your punishment from earlier. You are in for it when we get home, baby." I tell her while gripping her ass.

Request by @kirsmyonlyone

#street woman fighter 2 #swf2 #street woman fighter x reader #Kristen Dogen #kristen dogen x reader

92 notes · View notes

bisexualfemalemess · 3 months

Text

BRIDGERTON SEASON 3 PART TWO SPOILERS

I needed to make a part two 🫣 Anyway that hand kiss was so cute was it not? *threatening stare if you dare to say otherwise* HAHHA He really hates portia so bad. AWWWWW him saying that he wants to see Cressida watch penelope in her triumph, he’s truly such a wife guy. LADY DANBURY IS A SHIPPER AND PENELOPE SUPPORTER MUCH LIKE VIOLET. MY LORD THAT GIRL IS TRULY SO LOVED. Agatha seems to have clocked violet’s and marcus’ tea. ELOISE I GET YOU BABY GIRL BUT PLEASE THE ULTIMATUM WAS SO UNNECESSARY. At least wait till the morning, my god. Now she’s gonna panic at her own engagement ball, my poor baby pen ;(aww not killmartin being so nervous that poor man. Violet hates portia so bad, it’s so funny how not one of the bridgertons likes anyone from that family other than my babygirl pen. Ooh toast time. Aww that speech was so cute 🥹🥹🥹🥹 the callback to their first meeting. Poor baby pen already looks so guilty and then eloise decides to swoop in with her fucking shady speech like girl i really do love you and get where you’re coming from but once again i ask you to read the fucking room because there’s a time and place for that shit and it’s not at her engagement ball to your fucking brother. Violet’s a queen for forcing her to save that speech and once again portia needs to leave her ulterior motives at the fucking door. Penelope really is not used to love from her mother she looks so uncomfortable when portia says shes proud like “ha. Yeah. Totally.” Kate saving the engagement ball or pregnant queen truly is working overtime this season. I just now this charades scene is gonna be chaotic asf and i’m here for it because we all know how competitive this bunch is from last season. Kate and Penelope are gonna be the cutest sister-in-laws i just know they’re gonna form an alliance in support of the loser malewife husbands. Anthony’s so fucking competitive and i commend kate for keeping her cool because the way she closed her eyes truly showed how tired she was of that man lmao. Man i can’t handle pen and eloise’s awkwardness just give me my besties back jfc like they’re so in sync, continuously getting each other’s words. ELOISE GUESSING FRIENDSHIP IN THAT TONE LIKE BITCH DONT GIVE HER THAT ATTITUDE AND JUST MAKE UP???? THAT BITCH LOOK SHE GAVE PENELOPE??? seriously they’re dragging this storyline out i need them back so soon. Creloise fighting :( how sad, oh, well, maybe peneloise can come back now. Kate is so welcoming to john she’s so queen. AWWW JOHN AND FRANCESCA ARE SO FUCKING CUTE. Not colin mentioning lady whistledown and everyone laughing put some respect on the queen’s name jfc she’s right next you. “Certainly any hope of marriage” AND THEN PENELOPE TURNS TO HIM LIKE STOP IT RN My baby’s having a full blown panic attack ;( Aww kanthony wanting to tell people they’re expecting a cute little scene for my kanthony heart 🥺🥺🥺 Not penelope having an actual full blown panic attack in colin’s study while everyone’s talking about whistledown in the next room. And colin following her but deciding not to bother her ;( like baby ‘tis not you she’s just going through something rn. It’s so eating away at her. My babies, colin’s so worried she doesn’t want to marry him when in fact she’s worried that everything’s gonna come crashing down at midnight. Not penelope literally being unable to breathe yet everyone else is still happily wrapped up in the party??? Like that girl is full on crumbling in her fiancé’s arms and you’re telling me no one’s noticed? Like i wanna be happy about kanthony telling the moms about the grandchild (i am who are we kidding) but penelope’s currently fighting for her life trying to not crumble. CRESSIDA FUCK OFF NOT THE KANTHONY COCK-BLOCK AND PENELOPE FAINTING MY POOR BABY. Now everyone’s crowding her. Truly so loved that girl

#bridgerton #polin #season three #peneloise #colin my wife bridgerton #colin bridgerton #fell first fell harder #francesca x john #peneleope featherington #eloise bridgerton #kate sharma #anthony bridgerton #kanthony #creloise #bridgerton spoilers

20 notes · View notes

urfavspic · 1 year

Text

I felt the random urge to write about Syzoth..i mean he’s fine..but if anyone reads this and wants smut..lemme knoww i’ll try and write it.

𝑾𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔: Pregnancy, Leading to Smut but no Smut

𝑷𝒍𝒐𝒕:𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑺𝒚𝒛𝒐𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒅, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒌𝒊𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒏'𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑺𝒚𝒛𝒐𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒂𝒓𝒚, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒌𝒊𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒉𝒊𝒎.

It was a quiet day in Outworld, you were sitting with Kitana and Mileena..you actually have no idea how you became friends with Mileena and Kitana..but here you are friends with them. “So what are you going to get Syzoth?” asked Kitana, as she smiled at you. you were sipping you’re tea as you tilted you’re head. “i have no idea..” you said, sighing deeply. “i wanna give him something.. special but i do not know what to give him.” you said, as you stated to think. “you and Syzoth have been married for how long? give that man a baby!” Mileena says, like it was obvious, you gave Mileena a look..you did not like kids..like at all..”oh! i’m sure it won’t be bad..” Kitana says, as she smiles at you. “hah..not bad? are you crazy?” you asked, as you looked at both of the sisters..like they were obviously crazy. “oh Y/n please give it a try..i’m sure you and Syzoth would make..great parents!” Kitana says, she was very confident in that fact that you and Syzoth could be wonderful parents. “agreed” Mlieena says as she smirks.

After a very weird conversation with your besties..you walked back home, and once you were home you were met with Syzoth..he smiled as he saw you walked through the door. “Y/n! you’re home!” he says, as he pulled you fully into the house as he closed the door, Syzoth seemed very excited? why? you have no clue. “and why are you so excited?” You asked, smiling, it was cute how excited he is. “because it’s our anniversary!!” he says, as he lets your hand go, and ran into the kitchen and grabbed a gift for you. he came back with a small box..he walked in front of you. and once you saw the gift..you felt a bit bad..you had nothing for him..but you had an idea. “this is for you my love.” he says.

he hands you the box, as he smiled happily at you, ever since he got with you..he’s been the happiest man in the world, you had made his life way better..ever since his last..wife and child died..he wanted to start over..and he got a chance and he met you. “oh? for me? thank you Sy..and i’m sorry i didn’t get you anything..but i do have something you might like..” You said. smiling as you opened the box. “no need to apologize..whatever your idea is i’m sure will be the besy gift..” Syzoth says. as he watches open the box. the box held a beautiful picture of you and Syzoth..Johnny totally showed him how to do this, but other then Johnny..the picture of you and Syzoth was the cutest. you kissed it as you placed it down smiling. “ugh it’s the cutest..you’re the cutest.” you said, as you pulled him into a tight ass hug. Syzoth smiled more at the faceted you liked his gift, he hugged back as he gave your neck a small kiss.

“now for my gift?” he asked, as he pulled back, as he placed his hand on your cheek..looking at you. “you..and me..children..” You said, as you smirked at him. what you just said totally didn’t surprise him..he literally looked at you..like you said something so surprising. “wait..you want kids?” he asked, as he tilt his head..i mean..he’s literally done he’s been wanting this for how long??? for so long. “yes..that’s what i just said..me and you..children..” you said. smirking..you were proud you said that..without getting embarrassed, but for Syzoth he’s..a bit embarrassed by the sudden request to have a kid..but again he’s been wanting one.

“then why are we wasting time?” he asked, as he smirked..all his embarrassment left his body..as he was filled with excitement. he gently pushed you down on the couch..who’s got time walking to the room? y’all already in the living so..why not fuck there? W I know, but anyways Syzoth is going straight into it. kissing you on the lips, you kissed back as you wrapped your arms around his neck. Pulling him closely as you kissed his lips..like you were actually hungry for this man lips. Syzoth already made plans on taking off your clothes..he was really excited to actually have a family with you..to have a family where he can protect. but Syzoth should probably take it slow..so he cupped your cheeks with one hand as his other hand..quickly took off your pants..as he did that he slowly pulled back from the kiss..as he tilt his head at you..as he bit his lips..he literally wanted to dip in..and just make you pregnant and that’s what he literally did..for the whole night literally.

—————————————————————

I hope this is good..for my (not) first fanfic, but this is my first time writing on Tumbler. but i hoped you enjoyed this😝👹

#mortal kombat #smut #reptile #syzoth #mk x reader #fanfics #Spotify

62 notes · View notes

pooonnyboooyyy · 9 days

Text

The outsiders OCs I created because I had nothing better to do with my life.

Ladybird Jane Curtis

• 16 going on 17

• Sodapop’s twin sister

• Nicknames are Bird, Birdie, doll and Lady (but only Dallas call’s her Lady)

• was President of her school’s drama club until she had to drop out to help support her family after their parents died

•Great liar, the only one who can tell if she’s lying is Dally

•Secretly dated a soc (Randy) but broke up with him the night of her parents funeral

•She’s often the gang’s alibi because of her gift for lying (she’s gotten Dallas out of jail more times than she can count)

•Her and Two-bit are platonic besties (they watch Disney and Micky Mouse together a lot)

•works at the local 24 hour dinner with Sandy (before ya know, she cheated)

• fiercely protective of Ponyboy (she had to practically become his mom)

•idolizes Marilyn Monroe and Clara Bow (she loves old Hollywood)

•Smokes and will put her cigarettes in her rolled up sleeves for easy access but hates the taste of alcohol

• She’s her mom’s twin

• Has a unrealized crush on Dallas (they often flirt with one another while Silvia and Dally are broken up but Darrel often puts a stop to it)

• “My only sister Ladybird runs up to us, she’s Sodapop’s twin and pretty much the female version of him, beautiful and always positive, she has bombshell blonde hair and mom’s kind eyes, always looking at you like they’re is no one else in the world that she rather be looking at, but now her eyes are looking at me with horror. She despises the sight of blood or me being hurt, she treats me like a damn baby who is always hurt”

Book description of Ladybird aka Ladybird from Pony’s perspective

• I got inspired by Daisy Buchanan for her character description and design

Kathrine “Kitty” Lorraine Lebeau-Curtis

•20

• Darrel’s then gf turned wife by the end of the story

• Has a mom who in the nicest terms is a drunken a hole who is literally insane

• She’s short because she was oftentimes malnourished as a child and would be locked in a room with no food for days on end as punishments

• From Montgomery, Alabama but moved to Tulsa when she was 10 when her baby sister (Margaret) was found de@d in the bathtub and her mother’s reputation was ruined.

• Grew up on the soc side of town and was practically a soc for many of her teenage years but always hated how socs treated greasers

•Sews all of her own clothes and will fix the gang’s clothes as well (and she’s great at it)

• “Patiently” waiting for her mother to kick the bucket so she can sell her house (it’s a soc house so it would go for a lot) so she can help her husband out with the bills more (Darrel insists that she doesn’t need to do that for him but she doesn’t listen) it probably won’t take much longer for her to pass because of the amount of drügs she’s taking

• Works as a seamstress

• Was cheer captain back in high school and was damn good at it (her team won several national titles under her leadership and she owns several championship rings)

• Originally dated Paul Holden (that’s how she met Darry) but he was a horrible boyfriend who would often beat on her and belittle her, Darrel was the one who stood up for her and treated her like she was a person and not some doll to be tossed around, that’s one of the reasons why she fell in love with Darry

• Paul hates Darrel for “taking her away from him” when Darry literally was the only one who treated her like a person

• Darrel doesn’t know why she stayed with him (but he isn’t complaining)

• The gang’s mom

• Doesn’t smoke or drink (she has trauma from her mother burning her with cigarettes)

• Becomes her high school’s cheer coach by the end of the story (Cherry and Marcia idolize her)

• Worries about Darrel a lot (she thinks he’s over working himself too much)

•literally the original Cherry Valance

• “Darry’s girlfriend, Kathrine “Kitty” Lebeau was behind Birdie, she’s pretty short with strawberry blonde hair and deep sea blue eyes and a scar just underneath her lip from a cheerleading accident when she was 13. She’s the complete opposite of Darry, and a ex soc no less, but I still like her she’s a good cook and a good person to talk to. I don’t get why she wastes her time with Darry, she has her pick of the crop but still picks Darry.”

Book description of Kitty/ Pony’s pov of her

Tell me what y’all think!

#the outsiders #the outsiders oc #sodapop curtis #darrel curtis #ponyboy curtis #dallas winston #two bit mathews #steve randle #stay gold ponyboy

12 notes · View notes

gretahayes · 2 years

Note

☕ + favourite dc heroes! drop your list bestie <33 and tell me why and what you think of them <3333

Okay SO this took me a while to write but in no particular order, and definitely non-exhaustive

Nightwing!!! He's my boy. Absolutely unhinged. So kind. Love him! Could on about him for hours

The Flash (SPECIFICALLY Wally’s Flash though, because look. LOOK. I love Barry. And he's an amazing Flash. You can tell he was created a while ago, is all I'm saying.) because like he's so fascinating and such a complex character. He fully believes in his capabilities and is an asshole about it sometimes because he believes he worked for the mantle and others (cough cough Kyle) were just handed it. He also believes Barry was a better Flash than him and he isn't doing the mantle justice. Like...he's such a dumbass but his life is as stable as a superhero's can be, with the job he loves and his lovely wife, twins, the unborn baby, a nice house, and a family he adores and adores him back. Disaster of a man.

Whatever alias Tim is going by at at given point. He's my little guy I love him <333

Literally anyone in YJ now that I'm thinking about it. They're all so blorbo shaped...dumb teenagers with the world on their shoulders

This sounds like such a fucking cop-out, but Robin. Everyone to ever wear the mantle in main continuity (IGNORING Carrie and Jarro. I dislike Jarro for very petty personal reasons that have nothing to do with his merit as a character and Carrie is just...there to me)

Wonder Woman! I love Diana, she's such a strong, brave, kind, and determined character and genuinely amazing. Nubia though 👀 I need to pick up one of her comics sometimes because she looks amazing and she's black like me?? Gotta check her out soon.

Tbh, Wonder Girl, Cassie and Donna both. Do they have much of a canon relationship? No idea. They're sisters to me though <3

Batgirl!! Esp the main three; Babs, Cass and Steph. I just feel they each made Batgirl their own and embodied the different aspects of it so well while keeping the core things the same; Kindness, Bravery, Resilience. (Though Babs growing into Oracle is just as important to me as Dick growing into Nightwing)

Starfire, she's kind and complex and sweet and brave and gorgeous and also completely down for murder at any given opportunity, which is iconic of her.

I would say Roy and most of his aliases, but like there's been so much stuff done to his character that I can't pin one down to say it's my favorite. Him being part of the fab five generation with little Lian is essential to me though

(ask game)

#asks #anon

45 notes · View notes

amberjazmyn · 2 months

Text

married life🫶

pairing : esteban ocon x fem!reader

summary : your insta feed but you're newly married to esteban ocon. insta posts between users estebanocon and ynocon

warnings : none, it's just pure fluff!

a/n : i love this idea so much so let's do it! and this is also my first ever estie bestie post! so now i have officially written for each of the drivers that i have said i'll write for in my masterlist!

f/c: flavy barla + other girls on pinterest

liked by ynocon, landonorris, maxverstappen1, pierregasly, lancestroll, mickschumacher and 11k others

estebanocon returning to the race track, honeymooning and new family member added to the family!

view all comments

ynocon baby is the cutest! love you estie <3

estebanocon ynocon isn't she just though? and i love you too bebe <3

landonorris still not posting any of your wedding pics? come on esteban! but, i can't lie, the puppy is adorable!

estebanocon landonorris we still haven't recieved them back yet! sorry lando, we're wanting the photos as well, it's not just you! and yes, the puppy is the sweetest, we absolutely love her!

maxverstappen1 i'm glad you and y.n had a lovely honeymoon and were able to get a puppy!

estebanocon maxverstappen1 thank you max, we truly did have an amazing honeymoon! the puppy was actually our wedding present from y.n's sisters!

pierregasly omg that puppy! please tell me you named it after me!

estebanocon pierregasly i know right! and i'm sorry to break your heart but, no pierre, we didn't name our dog after you! considering she's a girl lol

lancestroll now that is the cutest puppy ever among another set of sweet photos

estebanocon lancestroll thank you lance! she's our little baby! and of course we had to mix her in with the other two photos

mickschumacher oh that's a cute dog! bro, please tell me it's named after me!

estebanocon mickschumacher i'm sorry to do this to you mick but, just like i told pierre, the dog is a girl so she has not been named after either of you! but you can for sure be her uncle though!

estiebestie what breed of dog is that? it looks like the dog i used to have!

estebanocon estiebestie she's a maltipoo and, i love your username by the way ;)

danielricciardo glad to see you and the wife had an amazing honeymoon, esteban!

estebanocon danielricciardo thank you danny! it really was an amazing two weeks away. it was definitely needed after going back to racing after the wedding!

liked by estebanocon, ginaschumacher, kellypiquet, alexandrasaintmleux, lilyzneimer, lilymhe, maxverstappen, charlesleclerc and 12k others

ynocon meet husband and i's newest baby girl, baby! she's a little multipoo puppy and we're so excited to welcome her into the ocon family!

view all comments

estebanocon mama and papa love you so much, baby!

ynocon estebanocon and i love you too, papa ;)

ginaschumacher aw baby is such a cutie! i have to meet her!

ynocon ginaschumacher isn't she just and yes, baby needs to meet her aunty gina!

kellypiquet oh what a little darling she is!

ynocon kellypiquet she is such a darling! i'm literally in love with her and so is estie!

alexandrasaintmleux definitely need a leo and baby play date soon!

ynocon alexandrasaintmleux omg that would be the cutest thing in the world, i need this immediately!

lilyzneimer oh baby is just a sweetheart! my heart!

ynocon lilyzneimer literally me! i feel like i am experiencing the same love a parent has for their human child with baby!

lilymhe i'm in love with baby! i need baby hugs immediately!

ynocon lilymhe yes, yes and yes! this is happening right now! the front door is open and baby is awaiting to see her aunty lily m

maxverstappen1 sorry to mr ocon, your husband but you definitely take better photos of baby then he does! and baby is such a sweet little name for her as well!

ynocon maxverstappen1 haha thank you max! and i know right, both me and estie looked at baby and went, she just looks like her name would be baby

charlesleclerc oh i think i'm in love with baby!

ynocon charlesleclerc those were the exact words that came out of my mouth when the girls at the shelter brought her out to us!

estiebestie saw estie's post and straight underneath his is his wife's and baby is such a sweet little name!

ynocon estiebestie thank you hun! and i know estie's said this to you as well but we really love your username, it's very funny and creative!

liked by ynocon, maxverstappen1, pierregasly, danielricciardo, mickschumacher, landonorris, charlesleclerc and 13k others

estebanocon did you really believe us when i said we hadn't been sent our wedding pictures yet?

view all comments

ynocon this was so targeted at landonorris

estebanocon ynocon i said i was sorry, bebe!

maxverstappen1 these are gorgeous photos esteban!

estebanocon maxverstappen1 aren't they just max!

pierregasly still the best wedding me and kika have been too for ages!

estebanocon pierregasly thank you pierre! me and y.n were so glad that you and kika could make it

danielricciardo husband of the year! knowing to post his wife's photos before his own!

estebanocon danielricciardo i do try my best mate! thank you for the acknowledgement

mickschumacher honestly, i'm glad you took this long to post the photos esteban! these photos came back beautifully

estebanocon mickschumacher thank you mick! the entire gallery of photos are just divine and y.n can't wait to post her favourites either!

landonorris i cannot believe you gatekept these not just from me but from everyone else as well! i feel personally attacked and victimized!

estebanocon landonorris does sorry make it up to you?

charlesleclerc beautiful wedding and i'm glad to say i was apart of it

estebanocon charlesleclerc glad you loved it mate! it was fantastic having you be apart of it!

bestieestie was this post all too much for little lando norris?

landonorris bestieestie yes it was :(

liked by estebanocon, landonorris, lilymhe, francisca.cgomes, kellypiquet, alexandrasaintmleux and 13k others

ynocon three of my fave pics from the night of mr and mrs ocon!

view other comments

estebanocon i love you my beautiful wife!

ynocon estebanocon i love you more my dashing husband!

landonorris it's still all too much for little lando norris

ynocon landonorris here's a tissue

landonorris ynocon thanks, i appreciate you so much y.n <3

lilymhe my faves

ynocon lilymhe ur my fave <3

francisca.cgomes can we do this every weekend?

ynocon francisca.cgomes omg we so totally should!

kellypiquet love these photos and can't wait to see the rest!

ynocon kellypiquet thank you bebe and dw, i can't wait to show them! but i do promise they'll be coming shortly

alexandrasaintmleux absolutely heavenly!

ynocon alexandrasaintmleux you're heavenly alex!

bestieestie these are gorgeous photos y.n!

ynocon bestieestie thank you love!

liked by ynocon, lancestroll, oscarpiastri, bestieestie, landonorris and 14k others

estebanocon one year wedding anniversary date night, baby girl and flowers

view all comments

ynocon i love you my love. happy one year of our wedding!

estebanocon ynocon i love you too baby

lancestroll omg i just wanna hug baby so tightly! and also congrats on year one of marriage

estebanocon lancestroll literally y.n and i all the time and thank you lance

oscarpiastri do i have permission to meet baby? p.s. congrats on one year of marriage

estebanocon oscarpiastri of course you do oscar! baby is waiting patiently for uncle oscar! and thank you, it's been the best year for sure!

bestieestie where did you guys go for the date night for ur anniversary and who looked after baby?

estebanocon bestieestie we went to a little bar near the seine and lando did actually since we were all visiting france so he was happy to just take her with him to his hotel room whilst me and y.n went out for dinner

landonorris baby is the sweetest little puppy in the world! thank you for letting me babysit whilst you went on your one year wedding anniversry <3

estebanocon landonorris thank you again for babysitting her, lando! and no problems, she absolutely loves her uncle lando!

liked by estebanocon, landonorris, danielricciardo, francisca.cgomes, lilymhe, kellypiquet, maxverstappen1 and 14k others

ynocon a year of being mrs ocon. being your wife, esteban, is the greatest honour of my life and i never knew i could have the space in my heart and soul to ever love someone as much as i love you. and i hope our love continues to grow whether that involves having another fur baby sibling for baby or a human baby but no matter what life throws at us, i know we'll get through it together as a team and as a family. i love you so much esteban and getting to love you is the best thing i'll ever do <3

view all comments

estebanocon way to make me cry on our one year anniversary babe! but i love you too princess and getting to love you is the best thing i'll ever do!

ynocon estebanocon i love you too my love! and dw, i made myself cry making this post!

landonorris still can't believe its been a full year since you guys got married! but, what was that cheeky little cryptic message at the end about either giving baby a new fur sibling or human sibling?

ynocon landonorris estie and i can't either, lando, it still doesn't feel like it's been a year and, honestly, we don't know just yet but we're just keeping our options open since we know that baby is getting a little lonely so...

danielricciardo happy one year anniversary my dear! heidi and i send you and esteban our love

ynocon danielricciardo thank you so much danny! estie and i send love to you and heidi

francisca.cgomes and one year later we get an additional four wedding pics yay! congrats my darlings on one year!

ynocon francisca.cgomes yes you do baby girl! and thank you my love!

lilymhe alex and i send our love and congrats for you and estie's one year wedding anniversary!

ynocon lilymhe thank you lils! estie and i send you and alex love as well

kellypiquet one year on and still the wedding i talk about the most to people around me! happy one year to you and esteban, y.n <3

ynocon kellypiquet oh stop it kelly! and thank you so much

maxverstappen1 happy one year, y.n! these wedding photos still hold up after an entire year! love you guys

ynocon maxverstappen1 thank you max! and i know right, we totally made the right decision with getting two photographers and a videographer

heidiberger happy one year my love!

ynocon heidiberger thank you sweetheart!

estiebestie can't believe it's already been one year of you and estie being married! and these new photos are beautiful!

ynocon estiebestie thank you so much lovely!

fin

this was so much fun to write and i love that it was just so short, sweet and fluffy! but i do promise i'll start writing more for estie and the others that only have like one or two one-shots. i just like writing the sad ones for lando, max and charles and sometimes carlos for some reason!

#formula one #esteban ocon #fluff #no trigger warnings

2 notes · View notes

inthedayswhenlandswerefew · 5 months

Note

SCREAMING WTF at the top of my lungs. You’re insane and I love you. Aemond is gonna catch these hands, second eye GONE. Otto is a greasy slime ball in every fic, I want him DEAD. My jaw? CLENCHED. My pearls? CLUTCHED.

Mimi 😭 rest easy Queen. Enjoy your heavenly jacuzzi and gimlets.

This is just gonna turn into ranting. PROTECT THE WOMEN?!?!! Io is doing literally everything?!?! Mimi is gone! Helaena can’t deal with it, okay?? She’s just a baby. Alicent is trying literally her very best?? Ludwika is girlbossing and I’m so proud of her for that, I hope she gets her hands on more pills and kills Otto after he brings her mom to the states. Aemond too. Io could def get the country to forgive her for it.

Is Daeron okay?!?! Leave my little brother alone!!!!

Fosco is everything to me 😭 if anything happens to him I’m coming for you.

Just waiting for Io to swing on Aemond. I can’t wait, you better be rubbing your devious little hands together like a fly to make it happen.

I can’t even speak about Aegon or his children. Cosmo 😭😭😭 MOTHERLESS?! The next five chapters better be Aegon and Io and their kids moving to the reservation and living happily ever after, but you never let us have anything nice without ruining us first!

I stg if this doesn’t have a happy ending you’re paying my therapy bills Maggie!

Anyway I hate you and I can’t wait until next Sunday 😘

Save the women!!! Save Daeron!!! Save Fosco, the honorary wife!!!! Save poor drunk sad horny Aegon who just wants to be unemployed and spend all day every day hooking up with his 23-year-old sister-in-law 😭 He just wants to be her short king 24/7 😭😭

The number of readers who are inciting violence against Aemond is truly inspiring. He shows up and y'all are like:

"The next five chapters better be Aegon and Io and their kids moving to the reservation and living happily ever after" uhhhhhhhhh no comment whatsoever 😅😬😅😬 don't count on it, bestie 🫣

Also I think Mimi's kids will be okay, she interacted with them approximately twice in their entire lives, like orphaned geese they've imprinted on Fosco and they think he is their mother and father 😅😂

6 notes · View notes

meganwasbored · 2 years

Text

The Dragon Prince Thoughts Season 2 Episodes 5 and 6

(I thought I posted this a week ago but apparently I accidentally saved it in my drafts instead but better late than never)

I finally have the time to watch more I swear this was the most stressful week of my life

Episode 5

-“Breaking The Seal” L E T T E R ?

-I think I’ve been patient enough just open the dang letter before I lose my mind

-“I’ve done terrible things” shoot I forgot he said that is he talking about killing the dragon king or something related to that

-slightly confused about how these kingdoms work, are there multiple kingdoms within Katolis, or are these kings and queens from outside of Katolis

-“it seems I am a crown without an adult, and you are an adult without a crown” !!!!!!!!!

-BOOM GET HUMBLED

-ofc Viren had to make this all dramatic, literally just showing off at this point

-a NEW threat?? Haven’t y’all been at war for idek how many years?? How is any of this new??

-“there are reports of shadows in the clouds, dragons” MORE DRAGONS

-I take it back this room is boring, bring back the special effects

-I can’t tell if the others are scared of the elves or scared of whatever Viren just did

-I was confused why Ezran seems so chill about his father dying but then I remembered that he doesn’t even know, man this is gonna hurt

-“I won’t send my armies to face unknown danger over a two minute speech. I may be a child but apparently I’m the least impulsive of us all. Besides, I hardly call ‘we’ll do what everyone else says’ a decision.” GIRL

-I may as well quote absolutely everything Queen Aanya says because she’s my new hero

-“Sweet words can be more dangerous than hidden daggers”

-don’t mind me just crying over this flashback scene oh my gosh

-“I know you will stand by me through anything” Whoops actually he just stood there as you were murdered and is now trying to kill both your sons

-bruh even baby Ezran is a menace when it comes to jelly tarts

-“why do I deserve this? What did I do except being born with everything?” Harrow buddy you deserve the world

-Viren is a master manipulator and while it makes me wanna hurt him you gotta admit he knows how to get what he wants

-NO POOR BAIT JUST WANTS TO BE LOVED

-dude it looks like Viren actually cared about Harrow a lot what the heck happened to him

-Sarai is literally so awesome why do all the best characters die, this better not become a trend

-Obviously the titan isn’t actually dead idc how dead they think he looks they just went “oh he’s not moving so I’m gonna hammer a stake through him, what can go wrong?”

-Callum and Bait being besties is something I didn’t know I needed

-THE SEAL IS BROKEN I REPEAT THE SEAL IS BROKEN

-fire titan dude is pretty ugly like uglier than I thought he would be

-Venus fly trap looking head

Episode 6

-LETTER TIMEEEEEE

-why did they put this at the beginning I shouldn’t be crying this early in the episode

-they took the dragon egg MONTHS ago??? Did they say this before cause I thought it was like years ago, I’m so confused with this timeline

-IT JUST CUTS OFF???

-YALL BETTER NOT BE MAKING ME WAIT AGAIN TO HEAR TO REST OF THAT LETTER I SWEAR

-oh my gosh I’m freaking stupid this story is how his mom dies isn’t it

-“the injured must be left behind” right when past-Viren earns my respect again he says stupid stuff like that

-“you wouldn’t do this if it wasn’t your wife’s sister” well I don’t see a ring on your finger so how would you know

-“I ask you and your brother to reject history as a narrative of strength, and instead have faith that it can be a narrative of love”

-all these flashback scenes are so cute I just know I’m gonna rewatch the heck outta this episode

-“Rayla, that’s a funny name” it’s literally the most normal name out of every character we’ve met

-The boat guy (I forgot his name so I’m just gonna call him Boat Guy) encouraging Rayla to literally kill people is hilarious

-“I’ve never actually killed anyone”

“Maybe someday! Never give up on your

dreams!”

-“with the heavy heart of the titan, and the additional burden of carrying the wounded” I actually wanna punch him through the screen just the way he said that makes me so mad, like he’s bitter about Harrow not wanting to leave most of their soldiers there to die

-Zym steals my heart all over again every second he’s on screen

-“you can’t control where the river goes, there’s one thing you can know and control, yourself”

-“I want to talk to you about life and growing up and how sometimes there are changes you don’t expect” WAIT IS THAT THE THING CALUM SAID TO EZRAN I THINK THATS THE THING CALLIM SAID TO EZRAN

-“free yourself from the past, learn from it, understand it, then let it go” y’all don’t understand how much I needed to hear this rn

-I KNOW YOURE NOT TELLING THIS POOR GRIL WHAT HER MOTHERS WOULD HAVE WANTED TO GET HER VOTE YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT WHAT HER MOTHERS WOULD HAVE WANTED

-Viren throwing a baby tantrum the second someone tells him no is hilarious, the child in the room is more mature than he will ever be

-that fact that Harrow gave Callum the cube of all things makes it seem like he knew that Callum was gonna be a mage

-“extra-super-secret-bonus-secret” I love him so much we lost him way too soon

-DRAGON DRAGON DRAGON

#the dragon prince #the dragon prince thoughts #the dragon prince thoughts season 2 #the dragon prince season 2 #tdp #tdp thoughts #tdp thoughts season 2 #tdp season 2

12 notes · View notes

deliciouspirateangel · 2 years

Note

rachel, santana and tina for the bingo <3

Eeee thank you bestie!!! 💕

Rachel:

She’s literally everything 💞💞 I love her, I hate her, I want to fight her, I will kill anyone who touches her, she’s my wife, she’s my sister, she’s my daughter, she is me

Santana:

(But replace mommy issues w abuela issues) I also love her but she makes it hard for me sometimes lmao. Will also fight her but would kill someone (Finn or Brittany) for hurting her ♥️♥️

Tina:

She doesn’t have a mommy or daddy but baby she has Issues™️. I’m obsessed with her I love her more than anything she’s the bestest girl and angel of the world 🥰🥰

send me characters!

#glee #rachel berry #santana lopez #tina cohen chang #unhinged character bingo #asks #my thoughts #berryslopez #fandoms in bio etc

1 note · View note

lovecanyon · 3 years

Text

instagram blurb

faceclaim: maude apatow

harry styles x reader

(more of my work here)

liked by yourinstagram, zendaya and 14,518,770 others

harrystyles Happy birthday to the love of my life. I love you. -H xx

view all comments

harryfan3 HARRY POSTED HIS WIFE??!! WHAT

yourinstagram mwuah

(liked by harrystyles)

harryfan5 tell queen to put her instagram public 😩

gemmastyles no.

harryfan7 GEMMA—

felicathegoat happy birthday to the best girl in the world

harryfan6 Y/N IS SO PRETTY

harryfan4 this post means harry literally confirmed their relationship

harryfan9 they are literally married—

harryfan8 wishing i was y/n rn 😟

harris_reed HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAT MOM

harryfan12 just thinking about harry calling y/n the love of his life

liked by yourinstagram, harrystyles and 2,803,177 others

gemmastyles happy birthday to my beautiful sister! i thank you everyday for changing our lives for the better.

view all comments

harryfan10 OUR?!?

harryfan12 probably her, harry and anne

harryfan14 we need to thank homegirl for the albums

harryfan16 SHE IS SO STUNNING WTF

pillowpersonpp today is her day 😌

harryfan13 i love the fact that gemma called y/n her sister

harryfan15 we love y/n content

harryfan17 wait why is her account private??

harryfan19 harry said in an interview she wants her life private!!

florencepugh happy birthday to the coolest girl out there

liked by yourinstagram, harrystyles and 5,930,587 others

annetwist happy birthday darling! here is a picture i took of you and harry on your first date.

view all comments

harryfan20 “first date” STFU IM SOBBING

yourinstagram oh my god @harrystyles

harrystyles we look twelve

harryfan25 LMAOO I LOVE THEM

harryfan22 they look so young omg

gemmastyles i remember it like yesterday

harryfan21 GEMMA TELL US MORE

harryfan23 y/n has been dating harry that long???

harry_lambert high school sweethearts ❤️

harryfan24 THE FACT THAT THIS IS TRENDING ON TWITTER LMAO

harryfan26 fetus harry and fetus y/n <3

zendaya AWE THIS IS SO FUCKING CUTE

harryfan28 i’m living for the height difference

liked by yourinstagram, harrystyles and 10,603,179 others

taylorswift happy birthday to the girl that wrote half of 1989, reputation, folklore, evermore and red (taylor’s version)!!! you inspire me so much.

view all comments

harryfan29 BITCH WHAT

harryfan31 y/n is such an icon we don’t deserve her

yourinstagram ugh i love you

harryfan33 it’s so adorable that everyone loves y/n

harryfan30 she is so sweet i love her

phoebebridgers HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY ILY

harryfan32 taylor and y/n = besties forever

jackantonoff it’s national y/n l/n day. i repeat it’s national y/n l/n day.

harryfan34 THE BEST DUO EVER

harryfan36 y/n is such a musical genius

liked by harrystyles, gemmastyles and 890 others

yourinstagram a cat mom is now 26

view all comments

harrystyles love you baby

yourinstagram 😁

zendaya happy birthday y/nnnnnnn you are one of the coolest people i’ve ever met

alessandro_michele get more cats. please.

gemmastyles happy birthday icon

tomholland13 happy y/n day!!!

jefezoff your finally catching up to harry

hunterschafer it’s my favorite cat mom’s birthday

tchalamet happy legend day

taglist: @harrysmatcha @harryspinkpillow @helen-with-an-a @florencepughily @needyghosts @peterparkerbae @deadass1011 @toji-dabi-wife @fallonx @pilgrimharry13 @cherriesrae @alienorknight @valluvsu @drphilssoulmate @ivegotparticulartaste @ayeshathestyles @hazgoldenstyles @eiffelmezarry @tsukishimawhore @renatavieira @michellekstyles @ke-deidra @eleanordaisy @shawnsblue @academiaghosts @evanjh

#harry styles x reader #dad!harry #boyfriend!harry #ceo!harry #husband!harry #dilf!harry #harry styles fanfiction #harry styles writing #harry styles #harry styles au #harry styles x y/n #harry styles x you #harry styles fake social media #harry styles fake ig #harry styles fake instagram

1K notes · View notes

bisexualfemalemess · 3 months

Text

BRIDGERTON SEASON 3 PT 2 SPOILERS

Live reaction episode 5:

I’m a little disappointed that we didn’t get to see Penelope’s answer to colin’s proposal but in my head she just straight up faceplanted outta that carriage. On another note, colin constantly looking back at her to check on her is peak protective husband. Colin ‘my wife’ bridgerton indeed. Also Penelope’s so loved by his family and not him being willing to fight Eloise, his own sister, like hold your horses buddy. El baby she’s loved him since you guys were children. Both are honestly valid and i love them both so much, i just need my peneloise besties back right now. Like so expeditiously. Awww, colin checking up on pen. He’s truly already so far gone. I’M SORRY THE TREE???? What the actual fuck???? Lady tilley arnold needs to get the fuck off my screen. I’ve never read the books but booktok and twitter made me love sophie already, i need her. Not pen listening to her family reading LW Lmaoo she seems so smug about it. EY LADY DANBURY HAPPY ABOUT POLIN THEY’RE SO LOVED BY EVERYONE. KANTHONY MY BABIES. MY PARENTS ARE GONNA BE ACTUAL PARENTS STFU. Anthony’s so feral for her 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 aww hyacinth is so excited to tell them about polin’s new engagement my daughter fr. HYACINTH OMG IJBOL NOT HER SAYING GREGORY’S THE FAMILY PET I’MMA DIE. Eloise baby she did not use you, she loves you and you love her so make up bitches. Cressida is so gay for eloise no one can tell me otherwise. OH MY GOD NOT THE BOOK LINE ABOUT HIS LOVE BEING A THUNDERBOLT FROM THE SKY SOMEONE SEDATE ME (might need to make a part two and i’m only 10 minutes in) they’re not even married yet and Benedicts like “your wives” she’s always been a bridgerton for real. PORTIA I AM INDIFFERENT TOWARDS YOU BUT BACK OFF FROM MY GIRLY AND DON’T MAKE HER DOUBT HER RELATIONSHIP. COLINS SO HOT TELLING PORTIA OFF SOMEONE GET ME SOME HOLY WATER OR SOMETHING JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. HE’S BEEN WITH HER FOR LESS THAN 24 HOURS AND HE’S ALREADY THROWING AROUND THE L-WORD OH HE FELL SO HARD FOR HER IMMA THROW MYSELF IN FRONT OF A MOVING TRUCK. MIRROR SCENE OH MY GOD OH MY GOD ALRIGHT ITS HAPPENING ITS HAPPENING OH HIS SPEECH IMMA KILL MYSELF IM SO SERIOUS. THIS IS PERFECT OH MY GOD, NICOLA COUGHLAN IS A GODESS AND THEIR CHEMISTRY IS SO PALPABLE. “LIE DOWN” THAT WAS SO FUCKING HOT, COLIN BRIDGERTON CAN COMMAND ME AROUND ANY DAY. Sex scene, sex scene, sex scene….TO POV???? Oh, that’s such a beautiful song choice. This is literally so intimate, i feel like I’m intruding. Colin bridgerton is a canon consent man and as a woman i think that’s so sexy. That was the cutest sex scene of my life, cute, hot, awkward, everything a first time is supposed to be (i wouldn’t know🙊) KANTHONY SCENE. HES THE CUTEST ALL KISSING HER STOMACH. Newton and Anthony always beefing. Their so cute 😫😫😫. Awww John and Francesca are so cute as well. Awwww him asking about marriage 😖😖😖. VISCOUNTESS KATE IN ACTION MY BABY GIRL. She’s working overtime being pregnant, viscountess and giving eloise advice. She clocked peneloise’s tea. AWW Post-sex polin is the cutest with the book line too 🥹🥹🥹🥹 and the teasing!!! They’re truly so friends to lovers. NOT HER GETTING INTERRUPTED WHEN SHE WANTS TO TELL HIM SHE’S WHISTLEDOWN. FUCK ASS SERVANTS. Oh poor pen having to listen to her fiancé trash-talk her without knowing he’s taking about her, like i wouldn’t tell him i’m Whistledown either after this, bet. Also they literally have no sense of personal space and it’s too cute. Aww a colin and eloise talk. THEY WERE INSEPARABLE AND THEY NEED TO BE AGAIN SOON OR IMMA DO SOMETHING SO DRASTIC I SWEAR TO GOD. Peneloise as bestie sister-in-law’s is something that i need so bad it’s like not even funny anymore. Penelope’s sister need to leave her the fuck alone and portia needs to leave her ulterior motives at the door even penelope was like what the hell is going on. I don’t really mind will and alice plot honestly they’re just a cute married couple, much like polin will be. OH MY GOD NOT BENEDICT CALLING KATE SISTER IM DYING IM DECEASED. THAT FUCK ASS TOP HAH OH MY LORD. NOT COLIN CALLING PENELOPE HIS BRIDE TO BE 🫠

#bridgerton #polin #season three #fell first fell harder #colin x penelope #colin my wife bridgerton #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #kate sharma #anthony bridgerton #kanthony #creloise #peneloise #bridgerton spoilers #francesca x john #violet x marcus #is that a tag?#well i made it one i guess 🤷‍♀️

22 notes · View notes

georgiapeach30513 · 2 years

Text

Family Group Chat

Story is Having a Girl

🖤🖤🖤🖤

Story:

Chris: LOOK AT MY RAI MAN!

Az: Did you even read what the sign said?

Chris: My QB is so handsome 🥺

Beck: 🤦🏻‍♂�� you saw Raiden and that was all, huh?

Chris: Look at him! He’s PERFECT

Iris: Story OMG! Finally!

Papa: Does this mean you and Carter can quit jumping on the bed now?

Blade: STOP! Why do we always have to ask about their jumping on the bed life! That’s my baby sister!!

Kitten: Ran, did you stop, baby? Did we stop after Lucy?

Az: That’s a negative. Me and Icy were always driving Blade, Story, and Lucy to “get ice cream”.

Carter: this is the conversation we get when Story tells you we’re finally having a girl? We have to talk about jumping on the bed? She was conceived in a car! Ha! 1957 Chevy Belair. It wasn’t on a bed!

James: You’re having a girl! Wait...you gave me a ride in that car... Was this before or after you gave Story a ride?

Lucy: You finally fucked her correctly. I believe that Chris gave you some good pointers. So what does he get?

Carter: he gets to spend time with Raiden

Story: *leaves chat*

Carter: You scared my wife off Morningstar!

Lucy: She’s too sensitive. Go fuck her, she’ll feel better.

James: So since you’re having a girl, what do we smoke? It’s always been cigars.

Ransom: Why are we nonchalantly talking about their sex life?

Aster: You realize you’re the one that brought it up?

Ransom: They’re telling us what’s growing in her belly? They had sex to get it in there!

Lo: Apparently, he just did the chicken poop thing, in her fwont butt. Carter, you did all the work, huh?

Blade: Do not bring Squish into this! She doesn’t understand.

Iris: You should really teach her the word fertilizer. That way she knows it’s not a chicken poop thing in her mom’s front butt 😂

Beck: Where did she come up with front butt anyways?

Chris: Moon man...when was the last time you looked at your wife’s vagina?

Ransom: *leaves chat*

Kitten: *leaves chat*

Blade: *leaves chat*

Lucy: So now that all the prudes are gone. Beck...it literally looks like a butt, and it’s in the front. Front butt.

Beck: .... Wouldn’t muffin be easier for her to say?

James: Yeah, I guess pussy was taken. Could be like Carter and call it a pretty princess.

Chris: 😂😂

Beck: Do I wanna know?

Carter: She said I can’t call it that anymore

Az: It was weird. Call it a cunt. Or is that too dirty of talk for the Queen?

Carter: She dirty talks. Just to me

Az: Yes, Carter spank my hiney?

Chris: Spanking isn’t their thing

James: 🤔 how do you know?

Lucy: he guesses things like that.

Beck: Ooh, what is their thing?

Chris: He calls her vagina his pretty princess. He’s definitely into pussy worshipping. They’re into this King and Queen thing. They gotta have a throne. Is it your dick or your face that’s Story’s throne?

Carter: .... My face

James: 😂😂😂

Iris: This is too much

Chris: Clearly, they’re into breeding. So I’d say pregnancy sex is a big thing. Creampie. Carter works late nights, sometimes, so I’m guessing a bit of somnophilia. They’re definitely into role play. I saw you freaky two, and Carter was pretending to be Daddy-O’s bestie. I’m gonna say you love the little housewife thing. Your wife greets you at the door with a bourbon. Obviously car sex. Am I right?

James: Do me!

Iris: No!

Chris: You two are tough. You’ve been together since you were babies. Only been with each other. You’ve tried everything. James you have a kink for her ass. Your hands are always near or on Iris’s ass.

James: It’s true

Chris: I’m going to say anal is a big thing. Iris can be a bit of a go getter and a hot mess. You make sure to remind her that you can take care of her. She’s always in charge, but when she’s with you, you’re in charge. You have a bit of an anger issue, and are rough as fuck. She’s limber, so she can handle it.

Iris: I hate you.

Chris: Azzie and the moon man

Az: I did NOT ask for this

Chris: It’s no secret you two have sex everywhere. You don’t care where. A car, in your parents driveway. In front of a window when on vacation. Your tits would look great with a crescent moon framing one.

Az: I hate you

Beck: I told you Starlight!

Chris: you’re a well groomed woman, and that’s because Beck likes to feast on you. I’m guessing that you wake up to his face buried in your cunt. Aster likes her hair being pulled and her ass smacked. Beck also has a slight breeding kink because he loves the babes.

Beck: She does...and I do.

Az: Christopher Beck! Shut up!

Chris: Az, you like to think you’re in control all the time. But you love when Beck throws you down, flips you around, and controls you. Carter isn’t the only one hiding those thick arms and chiseled abs under his clothes. You fancy a ride on his abs?

Az: No

Beck: Lies! She does. She really does. Do Lo.

Chris: Seriously?

Lo: Please don’t.

Chris: I thought everyone knew Blade likes tying her up. That Shibari shit. Makes her nice and pretty. Rope I doubt is his thing for her. She’s precious. Not like the rest of his whores. He uses fine silk ribbon. He also has a thing for pearls. Has he pulled pearls out of you? Rubbed it on your clit.

Lo: Who are you?

Iris: Does that feel good?

Lo: very

James: Baby Doll, I’m going to get us some pearls

Chris: You two also have this weird relationship with Arleigh and Beau. It’s kinda weird how your kids are born around the same time. You into watching? Swapping?

Iris: THAT’S MY BROTHER

Chris: He’s gotta a dick. Anyways, you don’t have to answer

Beck: What about you big boy?

Chris: Lucy

James: that’s not a kink

Lucy: It is for him

Chris: her tits, her ass, her cunt, her piercings. The other is obvious, we have a size kink. I’m huge, she’s tiny. Lucy and I both have a pain kink. Hers is worse. Insertion. Rough sex. The usual

Lo: Carter don’t ask

Carter: what’s insertion?

Chris: find something to put up in that cunt that’s not your cock

Carter: no

James: Story has a mold of his cock, and he has one of her pussy.

Beck: No you do not!

Chris: I did not peg the Queen for double penetration

Iris: 👀

Aster: She’s not a prude after all!

Lucy: It wasn’t just the dildo

Carter: Morningstar! She’ll kill you

Lucy: He’s already told everybody

Iris: Harry? Am I the only one that hasn’t been with him?

Beck: Az hasn’t

Aster: Yeah, about that.... Icy, he saw your tits!

James: He saw me playing with her tits. It’s different. He knows Iris is my girl!

Chris: Well, this has been a fun sex talk. Carter, bring me my Rai man. I think your wife needs some comfort since we ruined her announcement.

James: We’ll take Z

Beck: Brookie please 🥺

Lo: Bring me my little boyfriend.

Az: Who’s getting Archie off his mama’s tit?

Carter: He loves his mama!

Az: When she had Raiden, he was too lost in telling her how pretty she was to notice there was another baby.

Iris: It’s adorable! Him and Poppy get along. So bring me Archie, but make sure to pick him up. He doesn’t do well a night away from hims mama.

Carter: Did everyone just volunteer to take a kid, so I can jump on the bed with my wife?

James: Yes, since you can’t fuck a baby in her. Just fuck her.

Carter: *leaves chat*

Beck: So predictable.

#desperate lives #desperate lives au #desperate verse #da au #dau #da au group chats #drysdale group chats

24 notes · View notes

saintobio · 3 years

Note

NOW THATS HOW YOU CLEAR A BITCH!!!

Can we please get a round of applause for mc in the chapter because she’s finally tired of the bullshit and so am I! Of course Gojo would not bring up the conversation that he said would happen why would Gojo talk about his feelings like an actual adult? Because he’s a child, next case!

He got bodyguards? BODYGUARDS??? IS HE DUMB??!?! Snooping around mc’s phone?? IS HE MENTAL??? He’s doing all of this and for what? It’s not helping him at all he has to know that. Pls tell me he knows that he’s still going about it the wrong way like no gojo, having your wife stalked and followed is not going to make her fall for you again. THINK GOJO, THINK!!!

@ gojo step mom:

Listen, there’s something about a man that like, idk would literally kill for mc makes my coochie go purr. I still don’t ship them but seeing him just being effortlessly devoted to the mc is just *chef kiss* especially in contrast to gojo who is struggling to even connect with his wife! But still, kinda sucks Toji knows about the step mom and fuckboyoa little plan they going on but hey, it is what it is. They’re rich, they’ll move on.

But anyways, Toji if you’re ever free and need someone to keep your lap warm I’m always available

It’s still loving how the mc isn’t holding back. I know it still hurts her in the long run that’s why I really wish she was in therapy. She’s carrying to much of this burden called a marriage and she has no one really to talk too and even if she think she does it still ends up in her getting hurt. She needs someone to talk too soon because I honestly think it won’t be the heart that kills her if her mind doesn’t get to her first. When she couldn’t look at her own reflection, my eyes got a little misty ngl that one really hurt because no one should feel that look about themselves. Especially from someone who’s suppose to love you.

What I fear that comes next: the mc next move. I’m sure the mc coming to that conclusion really sealed the deal on where she stands and what to do next. She knows that she has to leave, she can’t stay in this marriage, her heart and mind literally can’t take it but she’s not going to about it the right way. I feel like she might just disappear for awhile and I mean disappear with the help of maybe Toji. Private island maybe? Either way, I don’t think gojo is going to be seeing his wife at home.

What I also fear: the mc father and sister finding out everything. From the cheating, to the mental abuse(gojo did that and I stand by it) to the possible baby and now a heart disease, the same one that took his wife. Ouch! Shit can and will hit the fan. Their going to pull that merger ASAP, her dad might even sue(idk how they do it over there, they’re rich!) the sister is for sure black listed all parties involved and if they can’t be black listed then every time they go into a room they will that everyone is talking about them. (I heard socially outcasting the rich hurts more that losing money) gojo dad will definitely beat his ass for sure and s*ra, your days are numbered besties💗✨

Anyways, amazing writing and I can’t wait to see see shit hit the fan in the next chapter!

PLSSS this made my day!! those are good theories too. thank you for sending this <33 i’m happy to know that you enjoyed the last chapter :’)

#saintobio.asks #series: sincerely not #tw.pregnancy #tw.abuse

101 notes · View notes

goddessjynx · 3 years

Text

Any parent please answer?

Idk if anyone will see this, but right now I need just anyone to tell me I'm not crazy.

Am I a bad friend for wanting to hang out with my ex-bestie (eb for short) while she has her kids or she's busy and can't hang, so I offer to come over, to help watch, to help clean? Anything just to be there for her, why? Oh because she was on her third child, at this time I literally went over to her house to play dnd with her husband and brother and her sometimes. So I would try and say "hi" or talk, but instead we stayed doing something else or barely said hi. Ok, fine, hormones, got it. It got to the point of she wouldn't want to hang out with me for reasons she stopped telling me decent sounding excuses. Fine, That's fine, I have other friends who I can hang with or find other things to stay inside and not get out of the house to do. I don't need to leave the house, to get away from the suffocating inside the house with a mentally and verbally abusive, controlling husband. That's. Just. Fine.

So you know, time goes on. we find out that the reason she won't hang out with me, but will hang out with the other girl who she hates (Mind you the other chick literally broke into their house, tried to start drama all the time, and be hazardous to her already two children But who am I to judge about the person you rant to me about how you hate them so much?) But the other chick was also pregnant after divorcing her wife. It's honestly such a mess. So "anyways, I get excluded now because I "Don't understand what she's going through" or "I won't have the same experience" or I'm "not a good source of help" Lol, Okay? I still can't help? Be happy for you? Cool. So things go on, and just things have gotten worse on my end. I'm over here with such a mind debilitating baby fever, that I'm having to pull my car over watching children get off the school bus because I'm in such a crying fit that I can't breathe or see straight. So who the hell would I go to about what do I do? My Bestie right? (There's a reason we are eb rn) I tell her, well try, Idk how much she actually listened. But I tell her how I just can't think about anything else right now. I did everything right, and the world keeps slapping me back.

I own a 4 bedroom house. we have two cars, we even have decently everything working out in our favor, But all of a sudden, I'm not good enough for anyone. My own husband two months after getting married said he hasn't found me attractive for the last two years. THAnks. That's a real boost. This didn't start the fights, but that's a whole other set of rants. about a year before my eb got pregnant, around or right before July 4th, I strictly remember, I was in the walmart fucking bathroom. I had felt so sick the weeks beforehand. Like, My menstrual cycle hates me. She's savage af. Not to mention she likes to disappear randomly and appear with just cramps or a whole flood. I never know. But I remember calling my husband in a panic because I don't know what to do while I had to go to the bathroom so bad it hurt, and all I have is half dollar sized clots. Just something my medical brain, and senior year of AP biology says, "Fuck!" I have him figure something out because I'm really needing someone to just hold me in the bathroom I feel so sick to my stomach. I'm dizzy and all these symptoms I tell him to tell the doctor or whoever he calls.. So he calls, they say whatever to him. I don't either remember or he never told me what they said, (this is a normal of hiding information from me, A LOT) They said (What he told me) to just wipe things up and clean up then if it persists in the next 24 hours to go into the hospital. But I will have to see an ob-gyn.

So, Okay. Nothing bad. but they are in charge of everything along those lines. But those were including two words, that I now know were the two words this man didn't want to hear despite, DESPITE all the teasing and jokes about having kids with me when I was younger with him and literally just dating. That was because I had to see a family planning doctor. I was told by HIM that it was nothing, and we will be fine. I just blamed it on my cramps that are horrible and never put thought to it because I had believed that's what he was told. So that's a trauma my brain locked away until recently as I'm going through my divorce right now. But, I was thinking about how shortly after that, I got a call from my eb about how they were all waiting on me because I'm making us late for bringing stuff to the grill out and bonfire later. Fine, mask all the pain and keep fucking going. right?

She seemed genuinely not worried, saying it was probably just a bad cycle. She gets them all the time too. Its whatever. My now bestie's sister has gone through the same thing I described multiple times, enough that she looked at me and was like, "No, You possibly miscarried." even her mom went on about, "they should've never NEVER brushed that off like they did. If they cared then they would've made sure you were ok. My husband denied me from going to the doctor to see anything about it. Even after when I knew my hormones and emotions were just soooo off. But that's in my mind now, when before maybe around the same time my eb came out saying to all of us even her own husband one time saying she's been feeling crummy because she went in and she found out she had miscarried. It was so short after my stuff that she disregarded then took and made attention for herself that upset her own husband because she never told him until she told a bunch of us at a bar. I mean I felt bad for her, but Now thinking back, my gut says it was a ploy to make her husband to feel bad for her and to try for another one. Where as I'm over here waiting patiently because I jumped through Hoops to get where I'm at now.

My husband promised me children. Lots, its a fucking dream to be a mum. I care for everyone else, and their kids, why not have some kind of mini me to show of what I did. That I did good. That I can be useful to this world too. That I'm not just a lump of no good nothing to this world. But first, he needed a better paying job than a gas station.

Did that, he worked at a metal parts production place. But we then gave the fact that we still live in the apartment I got after moving out from high school. We rented a house. It worked, and it was nice. But now he needs a car, but he cant do that until he learns how to drive. 3 years older than me and I taught him how to drive. AND I helped him buy his first car, a truck. Oh but now, we still can't start a family. We are only renting. I have enough good credit that I could get a house alone, but I needed a higher pay. Bam with his income together we got a house.

Bam, I'm hit with baby fever and what not. NOW I get told, we aren't ready for anything like that yet, so wait two years. Alright, I'll wait. I can do that. We were going to go on trips together and do many things together and all of a sudden, the walmart thing happened, and it just got worse from there. It got to a point I got a job paying BETTER than him and I was the laughing stock to him and his buddies. THANKS. But I'm fine, everything is fine. The walmart thing was about two years after, so I mean, it was actually in the time frame and whatnot. Things just kept going on getting worse at home, I just kept listening. For reasons, I had to quit my high paying job, and then everything got absolutely horrible at home. Had to put everything I had control over money wise into his account for he worried it would take too long to find an new job and make money to suffice for bills. It was argument after argument, but I went to my eb explaining things, asking what the hell do I do? Her advice? To just do what he wants. The thing I had to quit about? She basically never cared about it. Everything just went on being a mess. I went on just letting people walk over me because that was the advice I was given.

I voiced my feelings that I have been following lies and how I feel hurt that I'm told dreams and having them be taken away. We never went on trips much. Instead we would buy a crap ton of ammo or new guns that I'm not allowed to use, yet I'm helping fund so you can get them, but when it was my own that I BOUGHT, all of a sudden, my things went missing and he would be out using and letting his buddies use my new guns and using up the ammo I had purchased on my own. I mean, fine, but let me at LEAST take yours out if you're going to use mine without asking. It got to be so annoying that we would be asked when we would get married or when we would have kids. He would be hugging me and smiling all cocky saying "Oh well we haven't stopped trying." every time. He would start that tell people this and I finally had enough. I stopped him and told him to put his money where his mouth was. He always said shit but never actually did it or acted on what he said. He would just lie to everyone. Tell people lies because it sounded nice. Best part? I had bought a ring for him. I proposed to him because he would joke about things like that. So I basically said, "bet" and did it. I have never received a damn ring! He wouldn't even want to look at them with me. Because they were expensive. Not all of them are. I don't care what price it is, but something to say, "Hey, I love you and Don't want the odd peeps at the bar to keep hitting on you so take this with you, its dangerous out there." (Shut up. I'm a nerd) But like.... I just would make notions about, I wanted a ring. He would beg me to pool together money and buy new guns, I mean I"m not against, but I would bring up that I will want a ring. Or even something else would be you know, amazing right now because I'm in a lost place wanting kids still and my eb just announced they were having their third. (which her own family was so upset about it that they ranted to me and my mom, her own brother said that its just another kid that they will end up taking care of instead of her so she can go to the bars again. Yep) So next we talked about getting a gun safe because, before we can have kids, we need to be SAFE. Ight, we bought it. Nice matte black 33 capacity, fire and water proof, best part the front had a reallly pretty engraved waving American flag imprinted on it. It was just so smooth. (Guess who has that right now btw) So oddly enough in the middle of me not being enough for my eb, My cycle kind of returned to being semi regular, and all of a sudden disappeared. Well that whole month beforehand we went from never wanting to touch me unless it was my birthday to every night he was angry after work and took it out on me instead. I mean, whatever. But when it came to me not feeling well, I told him.

Instantly it wasn't mine. I was fooling with other guys. Like instant psycho. His childhood friend came and moved up with us, she saw this for a good few months and had to move out because he was trying to control her as if she were a child. She told me that it was not right for him to be that way and that she will never talk to him for how he treated her. (which was exactly how he was always with me too) I'm not sure if he was trying to get my jealous because his bff was a girl? Idk we worked out like literally sisters. Sooo much in common and she told me, She believes he's never wanted kids. And she watched how I broke down after he told me he wanted nothing to do with me until I took a test. He DEMANDED that I took a test right away. If it was positive, it wasn't his until proven so. And if it was negative he would be fine. this was ridiculous. He wasn't at all happy or excited. Purely upset. I felt so shitty that after the test was negative I told him and he threatened about it happening again he was leaving back to Kansas. He threatened this every damn fight, it got to the point that I gave up, I said leave then. And instantly he shut up. I got him out of gangs, crime, jail, living on the street or with his mum, and being a maaajor drug addict. Yet I'M THE BAD PERSON.

Back to recently when my eb is getting closer to having her kid, I just go through finding out I'm not and my husband is freaking out at me, nonstop yelling at me that I'm not good enough and all this shit. Yes, lil ol me trying to keep the peace in the house is a cunt and a whore. Wow. Name calling, but hitting where it hurts? I told him before, how my mother in an argument said I would be a horrible mother. And that shit sticks. IT STICKS. So what does the smart ass pull out? He repeats it. He says he's glad I'm not pregnant because I'd be a horrible mother in the end.

That. That just kills a person. That kills dreams and the feeling of wanting to keep living. Who the FUCK says that to their partner? Am I wrong for thinking that's not right? Well my eb thought I was. I told her my feelings. How I don't want to be jealous of her, but I am. That she's more beautiful, she's always had guys hitting on her in school inviting her to do things and hang out, I was the nerd in whatever class that got invited only if it was mandatory. She will be having three kids and a loving husband that can never take his hands or eyes from her, where as I have to act like a clown to get my husband to look up from his damn phone. To say something nice. To

be acknowledged while in the house. I've left and came back the next morning because I hung out at my now besties house. He didn't say a word until I came home the next morning and he looked at me like "when the fuck did you leave" No care, no love. I was stuck being a burden. Anything I ever did around the house was in vain. Everything I helped with I got shoved away because I didn't do it right. EVERYTHING I did was not good enough. I would tell him this that is how I felt and he would deny it. One day, I caught him yelling at me saying that what I did wasn't ever good enough. Calle him out right away. Bitch... He tried to change the wording to go around what he said. I HEARD IT. it was so bad I had to have my bestie on the phone to listen to how he talked to me behind closed doors. Away from public view. HER MOM HEARD IT. Thought she was watching some kind of dramatic show, until she realized it was me on the phone. She's listened to so many calls its unheard of. There was a day, I had enough of it. (Ok A lot actually) but I grabbed my laptop and my charger and left the house. I sat in the park drawing on my laptop. Texted every person I could think of that I cared so deeply for that they would care for me back. I was in a dark ass place asking for Advice. My eb shrugged off what my husband was doing and scolded me for leaving. For sitting in a park drawing out my feelings instead of being with him because he's being dramatic to her husband upset that I started an argument. I didn't understand what I started when it was over me telling him not to throw the controller when he loses a COD game because that's how it breaks. Why he threw it? Because I distracted him by playing with my cat while he was playing the damn game and made him lose! yep. Exactly that. So I was yelled at to quit. So I did. I went back to my drawing and then with my headphones on I was humming to my music. It distracted him and he lost. So I flipped out because I can't do anything in my own house without being scolded for it. So I stormed off to the bedroom to draw some more. I'm upstairs and away from him. Didn't want to eat now I'm stressed and upset. So I didn't cook anything and now he's hungry and upset at me for not making food yet. YES. That's how it started and I again was the bad person in the story for safely removing myself from an environment where all my mind was telling me to do was dark things that hurt to say. To give up on everything I have worked for and all my dreams.

That was the last time I spoke to her for a while because everything started to be only about baby and about doing this for baby. Doing that for baby. But then she would never answer me back. I was done trying to fit time to hang out. To do something, I made new friends who didn't have kids and hung out more with them. It got horrible. the sound of a child crying made my stomach hurt. I had non stop dreams of the same thing happening. It was just awful. I looked it up and it was just meaning I had something and lost it. Whatever is missing in the dream what what I had lost.

In this dream I was dressed in all black, lace and long dress covering every inch of skin on my body. I had a hat with a veil and I was rocking a bundle in my arms in an old decrepit room with peeling paint and broken toys. It was a nursery. An old ruined nursery. I was rocking just a black blanket swaddled with a hole that emptied to the void. It gives me chills, I get this dream so much that me explaining just makes my skin crawl and my body ache. It hurts to think of but I just cannot understand it. Makes sense now that I looked into it.

But me going through all of this, I can't talk to my husband about my feelings because I'm too needy and being selfish for not taking his feelings into an account. That he's not ready that we are not ready and that I'm not ready because I'm going to be a horrible mom. Cool.

I have tried so much. I couldn't be around kids. It made me so sick and I jus would have to find somewhere to hide and cry for hours. I would cry myself to sleep. Never getting comfort by him because I'm throwing a pity party. I was so hurt. Still am. I'm broken hearted. Thinking that if I had a kid, at least I would have something that needed me and would love the care I gave and would love me back. I wanted to feel loved for how much I put out in the world. I wanted to have something to ground me to this world before I did something stupid. I was in such a dark place that I drove an hour to go see my bestie because I was scared that I was going to do it. That I was going to be the big disappointment he told me I would always be. Three months later, baby is here and I go back to playing dnd with my friends and its at their house. My husband is rubbing it in my face. He's holding baby and talking to baby and doing all these things making my mind break. He asks if I want to hold her. If i if iififififi NO.

I can't I cannot. I'm trying to be respectful. I missed out on other games because I had to hype myself up. I procrastinated because I didn't know how I would be or if I could handle it. I got to the point that my eb's husband told me that he doesn't want me playing anymore because I sent a text trying to apologize to my now eb that I feel so bad but I can't see her right now since seeing her kids just sends me into a panic attack and I can't stop thinking horrible things. So she takes that as I have a problem with HER kids and not just the KIDS situation. Doesn't hear me out. blames me for everything and has me banned from coming over. in which her husband says he doesn't want me over anymore. Which my rebuttal is because she's telling him only. But he said it was his choice. I don't know don't care. It just hurt that THATS the reason I got kicked out. Not because I was good, but that I couldn't handle their kids. And I would not pay attention by drawing the whole time. I was distracting myself because I'm trying to drown out the noises of cooing making my gut rot and my mouth dry. So by all means I'm selfish for wanting a dream that I was being promised for the last 6 years of physically being with my soon to be ex. I've know for actually 12 years. And that I drove 15 hours to bring you to me since you couldn't drive.

So I need to know from real parents, was I out of line for telling my eb that I had feelings and that them not being heard or just cast to the side hurt? Am I crazy for feeling that I've been robbed? For being upset when my husband comes home drunk and abuses me? For being hurt when I'm called all sorts of names and told I'm worthless by the man I should trust the most? Please. I need to know.

I know I'm ranting, but I need to get it out. I need to find some sort of something to figure out why I'm feeling this way, or why I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm fighting for the divorce since i haven't been to my owned house in the last 5 months since he changed the locks on me. I moved an hour away from my home and my family and still to this day, I hurt to hear or watch children around me. I'm happy, but inside something aches and just feels empty. Not to mention that I got told by people that know me that he's been caught buying condoms. We are still technically married, and he can't be doing those things right now. Am I jealous? Upset? Hurt? All of the above? It just sucks and I'm drowning in debt a bit trying to work my ass off to get where I want in life again since all of everything has been ripped from me. I'm trying. Please let me know if I'm crazy or out of line? I want to be heard. I'm going to start to save up. I have a plan for my 27th birthday. If it doesn't work in time for my 28th birthday, I'm not sure what else I can do but join the 27 club.

#send help #please reblog #mental health #parents #mother #father #moms #family #reblog #important #self care #self love #self help #self esteem #self healing #my story

66 notes · View notes