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And so I told her with all the force of my genius the secret. God’s great secret that generations of Masons had sought but I alone had composed: that the key to eternal life was not in preserving the body but in severing the very soul.
#she was soooo crazy for this shit.#my art#art#procreate#franz liszt#frederic chopin#Decompositions in A Major#if you all don’t read this book NOW i’ll lose my shit
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tumblr shows me thumbnails of the spop related tags and... my god. it's either c//a being sexualized or CATRA on her own being sexualized. you guys know they are teenagers and one of them is supposedly a woman of color being treated like an animal, RIGHT?
#i post#anti stans#i am not showing the thumbnails bc they're disgusting imo#imagine you're a little kid and you want to see spop content#and then you see this shit#lmao ppl forget there are literal kids in this fandom#also i'm not like. against furries or anything#but like i always say#catra is a teenager#and latina women are soooo objectified and animalized it's crazy#and yet stans will call you racist for not liking catra or for disagreeing that she's latina#istg#ranting#ranting in tags#ask to tag
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oh i'm gonna be so annoying about this album..... i even took notes while listening to this just now...
#first of all supernova i'm gonna be so annoying abt that song i can feel it in my bones the instrumental is crazy the vocal layering is#making me ascend to the sky fr i LOOOOVEEE this sound for them and i can't wait to hear it in full!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#next set the tone actually a great sound for an aespa beside structurally it reminds me of the savage bsides like i'll make you cry or even#iconic but yeah she's soooo aespa to me and i love it too#then mine instantly put it as one of my favorites already bc LISTENNNNNNN darkspa i love you so much i love this salty&sweet darker prettie#and sluttier sister and s&s was already all of that omfg#next licorice the BASSSSS are we hearing her??????? INSANE and again aespa and their heavenly vocal layering i just can't i'm foaming at th#mouth as i'm typing this i'm so serious#okay to the fun songs bahama is gonna be my feel good summer beach vibe jam i already know it and if better thing wouldve gotten an album#she wouldve been on there. perfect summer sound#long chat too she sounds really cute maybe not as memorable to be as bahama or even live my life but DAMN i love a good upbeat track#prologue feels like a little interlude to me and the BABY IM A WEIRDO :D I KNOW ! was so silly sdjfksjfdf plsssss but a cute sound overall#live my life TURN THAT SHIT UPPPPPPPPPP the most cheery track and i'm strapped in to listen to it until i die. also an eri track to me#melody ahhh my reve daughters ik they would be proud of this song it's sounds very beautiful already#much more up my alley than their previous ballads ngl#in conclusion i'm gonna be the most annoying person on the dash once all these songs are revealed to the public and#i am already sosososososososo in love with this album what the FACK#000
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i dont wanna do it but we do have 2 find an ideal aster its suuuch a wide range n when u jst google aster theyre PURPLE? crazy. i will not let this toddler have an identity crisis
#bloodletting#its been soooo long n shits changed but she did used to eant to go by kali#(short for kaleidoscope ehe)#anywayyy hate 2 ask but 4 her do yall think of asters as orange bc we do bc of her and shes goin a bit crazy#like no baby u dont need 2 b renamed its a big genus (had to look up if it was that or family)
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having a crush makes me feel like such a freak this has to stop...
#i keep thinking abt some guy that works in this different department of this store i work at and hes soooo attractive it makes me feel crazy#i know like nothing about him because we spoke once after running into e/o months ago but i cant stop thinking about him its fucked up!!!!#yesterday my coworker was telling me that he was staring over in our direction while walking the other way#and he was looking so hard he almost ran into one of the check lanes and i somehow saw none of this#but my coworker was like 'he was totally staring at you' like be so serious rn you cant just tell me this shit#i was smiling like an IDIOT after that and he totally might not give a fuck about me whatsoever!#but hes super nice and has a great voice and i need to know what hes like and all of his interests and his life story.... in a normal. way.#he also might have a gf bc a diff coworker of mine saw him out shopping with some girl though it could have been a friend or wtvr#but then this OTHER coworker whos actually worked with him closely was saying shes pretty sure hes gay so what the truth here??#anyway
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summer is going to be so hard for me because like if i wear long sleeves and long pants all summer my mom is going to get suspicious but it's not even going to be because i'm self harming it's going to be because i'm not at a point where i can allow my body to be seen in summer clothes
#like i AM self harming yeah but it's not even going to be the reason i can't wear short sleeves which makes me SOOOO bitter.#my dysmorphia was actually so much better for a really long time and then it got sooooo bad again all at once#and it's going to be CRAZY compounded when i go back home#because of course there's my mother who makes me hate my body more than anyone i have ever known but also ****** who ljke. does not care if#i have an ed and has proven historically that she will say whatever she wants about peoples bodies.#sorry i literally promised i would stop posting shit like this i am just feeling genuinely ill right now.#cw ed#tw sh#sorry i dont remember what tags i typically use for this stuff guys i am feeling. INSANE right now. i should smoke#hello world
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#she's crazy? yeah#am i still gonna smash the shit out of her? hell yeah#it says smash not date soooo#she wouldnt want me because im not koichi but i would try to shoot my shot#yukako yamagishi#yamagishi yukako#diamond is unbreakable#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#jjba diamond is unbreakable#jjba diu#jjba#smash or pass
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yeah that thread was cringe but this is SO weird literally jumping at the chance to call lesbians sexual harassers and rapists youre a 40 year old bisexual man with a tumblr worry about that
#soooo many ppl in the notes who aren't lesbians like so hype to dunk on every lesbian bc one person made a dumb tweet#the irony is I also hate the moralising of sex like u can be a bad person n good in bed or vice versa#the tweet sucked but u have no way of knowing if she gives good head based on that lol I just think it's hypocritical#there's no objectively bad sex anyway like. assuming her partner is a similar weirdo who probably loves it#goofy all around#I'm assuming the original op is a lesbian but it really is crazy how whenever a lesbian makes a post complaining abt some shit among other#lesbians everyone gets soooo hype to use it as an opportunity to own the dykes
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Oh so Shauna is DEFINITELY in love with Jackie ok
#because the way she is consuming her is so destructive-toxic-love coded holy shit#like i had a fewling beofre but now im like SHAUNA WERE YOU FUCKING JEFF BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO FEEL CLOSER TO JACKIE???#IS THAT IT OMG???#shes soooo crazy hehehehehe🥰#also not to be nuerodivergent but THE LOCKED TOMB PARALELLS#EATING YOUR DEAD LOVER HALLUCINATING THEM AND ASBSORBING THEIR SOUL AAAAAAAAGGAG#yellowjackets
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to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?
#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened#i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close#and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way#i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao#now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest#and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell#i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop#but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again#i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier#it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men#and i find myself unable to connect with anyone…#i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed#i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it#i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly.#i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad#i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so#i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized…#when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was#like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u#i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function.#plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized#how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone…#i went thru all that for nothing…#and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why#brain vomit
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youre all so right, i should quit my job and move states
#ive literally been saying this for 3 years when will i stop lying#the fact that if things had worked out the way i wanted them to workout last june i would be living in nyc rn#the crazy part is that i know my ex and i wouldve broken up still#like i was dealing with a lot and was projecting my own insecurities and shit from other relationships#but she was doing the exact same#and i can recognize now we were so wrong for each other#and i know i talk about her soooo much but i promise im over her#im just not over the breakup and the fact that she continued reahcing out for months#until i replied and she stopped#like you stupid bitch i loved you so much and now youre blocked on spotify#anyway these are the saturday musings as i work on updating my resume to have a job applications sunday
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May the heavens forever bless Thea from Barnes & Noble her name's not Thea but to protect her privacy and to protect my identity if she somehow happens to see this her name will be Thea for going above and beyond to secure a Hongjoong version of the new ATEEZ digipacks. May your faves never disband and may you always pull your biases' photocards.
#I have such phonecall anxiety but I toughed it out for ateez#I called 5 maybe 6 different barnes & nobles one of them twice on accident#dude on the phone was probably like#ok can this crazy kpop stan stop calling#THAT was embarassing#then I finally called my destined location#this dude picked up and had no idea what I was talking about but looked it up anyway#and when he said it was in stock I was like but its the digipack version not the regular album right?#homie was like ohhh ok now I see that one with this man with a black sweater and blue hair#and im like oh no#pics of these were soooo hard to find and I was like ok the only member w/ sorta blue hair rn is Mingi so is it Mingi?#homeboy didnt know cuz names aren't on the album nor on the website apparently and after a long while he was like ok#my coworker next to me is rapidly typing away imma hand u off to her since she knows a lot more about this stuff#she was brilliant not an atiny but definitely a kpop stan who was scrolling thru twitter with me on the phone to find out which member#she was like 90% sure it was Hongjoong but I was like wait but the cruella hair?? why are y'all saying it's blue#then she pulled some real queen shit & was like ok imma text u a pic of the album & lemme know if its who u want & what do u know#it was Hongjoong after all & his hair looked blue cuz of the weird lighting of the photoshoot & homegirl was able to put it on hold for me#hate to give this story a sad ending but her efforts were alas in vain as the next day my whole family & likely I as well have covid😐#soooo I will not be able to pick up that digipack nor can they ship it to me but thank u Thea for ur hard work it will never be forgotten😭#ateez#hongjoong#barnes & noble#personal
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Swear to god if I was actually a proper reddit user I’d be posting the stupidest AITA posts
#so my friend rang me asking if i could print something out. mind you i got her message saying that and i was responding and she literally#didn’t even give me one minute to answer. so i answer the phone already annoyed because it’s like.. where the hell is the fire#i’m trying to eat my tea here and you make me leap out of my seat to answer the landline because you can’t wait 30 seconds for a reply. why#so i answer the phone and she sounds like she’s been crying so i’m like ‘god what’s this thing she needs me to print… a ransom note??’#why was it a template for a gingerbread house. so i’m like ‘yes of course i’ll print it. are you okay though’ she says she has an upper#respiratory infection. i’m like ‘that’s fucked up. i’ll print your thing but are you sure you should be cooking for people’#she’s like ‘thank you so so much ellen i’m so sorry for putting you out; i’ll pay you’ and like. here’s where i will freely admit that i was#being a dick. but i have told her a million times before to STOP offering me money for random stupid favours like printing literally one (1)#document for her or giving her kid a bag of crisps to keep her quiet or something. it drives me crazy when she does this because it makes me#feel like she’s trying to imply that i’m that much of a frugal penny pincher that i’m going to sit here and calculate how much a piece of#paper and a millilitre of ink costs me and charge for that miniscule sum. or like i view our friendship as transactional or something#which could not be further from the truth. like bitch i’d give you a kidney no questions asked. stop offering me money to print your shit#and she’s soooo apologetic over it too; she’s like apologising for being alive. and the self flagellating bullshit drives me CRAZY#like it does not cause me any trouble whatsoever to open one singular application on my phone and click two buttons. my printer is plugged#in 24-7 because that’s how it tells HP when it’s out of ink and to send more. a service i pay 99p a month for mind you. i don’t notice#i don’t care. most of the time i make my granddad buy my printer paper because he shows up here unannounced asking me to print dozens#of flyers from his club and doesn’t otherwise offer payment so i’m like ‘well can you buy some paper since i now have none’#so what i said to her was ‘if you offer me money one more time i’m never printing anything for you again’ which i think bamboozled her#i was like ‘i’m printing it now. pick it up whenever you want just don’t offer money’ she’s like ‘but i was just thinking—‘#‘DON’T FUCKING THINK’ yeah that was an overreaction possibly. but i was just like. i don’t want to hear your justification for why you want#to give me 5p or something for printing your stupid gingerbread house template. don’t tell me it. i disagree with it#if you want to pay for your shit to be printed that fucking badly you can go to the library#so anyway she messaged me saying ‘i’m not coming over because i don’t want to argue’ i didn’t reply but i was literally just sitting there#thinking… we don’t have to argue. i’ve told you my terms. just don’t offer me money for stupid little favours and you won’t hear an argument#from me. that’s all#i honestly feel like she’s just offering me money because she knows it makes me mad. she loves annoying me. well she’s succeeded#AITA? yes but also for the love of godddd will you just LISTEN to me. if it’s a joke it’s not fucking funny at this point it’s just annoying#personal#rant
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there’s something so insanely vindicating and grounding abt complaining abt the genshin skin tone stuff to someone irl, showing them what passes as supposed “brown/darker skin” representation in the eyes of idiots, and that person squinting at the character for a long time and then dubiously going “they’re not even that dark…”
#x#it really puts it into perspective LMFAOOOO like these anime style games aren’t shit 😭😭😭#like u know intellectually none of these r actual characters with dark skin. but it’s Something else to have that confirmed by someone not#involved at ALL like YES i’m not fucking crazy we’re settling for DUST at the moment 😭#like i was saying to harry how cyno is like. maybe the only one confirmed to Not be the same pale as all the other characters#and he was like ‘the jackal dude? he’s got white skin’ LIKE YES. I FUCKING KNOW. but when all the others r literal ghosts a shade of#difference in tan is apparently enough to drive racist genshin fans rabid#AND I ALSO SHOWED IANSAN TO HIM to be like ‘she’s like. actually brown. kinda’ n he was SOOOO unimpressed LMFAOOOOO#harry: that’s a pretty pale brown. 💀#me going insane: I KNOWNI FUCKING KNOW DO U UNDERSTAND WHAT WE’RE DEALING W HERE NOW. WHEN THIS IS THE EXTENT OF THE SKIN TONES 😭😭😭#i literally said to harry imagine someone looking at u as a character and calling u brown for not being ghost white n he LAUGHED IN#DISBELIEF BC… YEAH……#gi posting
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no bc the svteenies were insane for debuting with a mini that includes adore u and 20 in it
#special mention to shada too she’s a classic for a reason#adore u on the other hand....... the guitar riff.... the whole composition actually... THE VOCALS#very unique color to them#she GAVE#ANYWAY#20’s still one of the vocal u songs im so fond of#dont love the rest of the songs there BUT it was a product of its time i cant find fault in that#their discography is SOOOO good tbh#obviously there r gonna be some snoozers i havent seen any artist without em but over all???? holy fucking shit#im laying eggs#im so so in awe of these men#and im so glad circumstances allowed them this much creative freedom#lich rally have not liked a group this much in so many aspects but what can i do we’re literally talking about seventeen here#wish i got into them sooner though icb i’ve known abt them since their 17tv days but only got into them in 2020#also stopped my kpop era in 2014-15ish so i also wasnt there for their debut </3#but yeah </3 love these men so much i have SOOO much to say abt them today my brain feels like it has rock pops from all the crazy things-#-happening inside as i think abt this group#feel extra insane today so im super chatty and making sm gifs NFNDJDJ SORRY i havent been like this on here in a while#and u hopefully wont see me like this again any time soon 😋#y.txt
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now that ive gotten hired on somewhere my mother has changed her nagging from you need to find a job to you need start a side hustle. girl im too busy finding joy in the little things for dat. what having a business degree does to a mf
#jus kiddinggg im just waiting for me to get in the groove at starbies + get on meds and then im opening comms for real this time#but god shes soooo capital poisoned its crazy like girl i know shits gonna hit the fan soon but can we RELAX. PLEASE
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