#shuu ramblings and stuff

[shuuenka]

Twilight Arbiter AU notes / haino au

->very loose inspiration by canon

->character deaths; reincarnation;

->long post, includes some doodles and drawings;

ramblings and doodles under read more

On one mission deep into desert Cyno actually lost his life, but was brought back to life by Hermanubis spirit. They made a deal, that Cyno will live (he had great will to survive), he will gain Hermanubis powers, but in exchange after he dies he will serve as *Twilight Arbiter*, guide for the souls going into afterlife. Cyno agreed. 

After getting back to life his eyes turned red and hair white. When he got back to the Aaru capital, by general court and populace he is considered scary and weird. The order of silence is aware of Hermanubis presence now, but Cyno never spilled about his death. He has terrible scar on the neck that killed him, he hides it under usual black choker. (another au, another dead Cyno)

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Cyno and Alhaitham at firsts don't get along to well. They would be passive aggressively butting heads, but somehow find common language as they believe most of the politicians in the court are idiots while the king himself doesn't listen to good advices. Additionally there's pending corruption of the land and catastrophe pending, which others don't take too seriously. 

Somehow they end up investigating the corruption of the land together.

*

Of course they fall in love along the way, as this was meant to be. Because who else is there.

But Cyno is resisting feelings, because he considers himself to be dead man walking. Doesn't know when death will take him, and why would he give Alhaitham any hopes and then break his heart. So it's better to not cross that line.

Nevertheless, the line is crossed, because of course it is. Because the world does fall apart and there's so little time to stop the corruption. 

* 

And then things fall apart so quickly. Deshret dies. The country gets ripper apart by corruption and monsters.

And then Alhaitham finds the way, because he always does. But the price is bloody, messy and his to pay. Going into heart of the corruption and allowing himself to be taken over.

*

And so, you see, he dies. And Cyno can't do anything about it, what was done is done. He couldn't stop him.

Alhaitham's soul took over the corruption, Hermanubis explains. His soul to the core is corrupted

And so Cyno begs for a way out, to save Alhaitham's soul someway, somehow. He will do anything. To allow Alhaitham to pass over to afterlife and then cycle of reincarnation.

Another deal is made. Because there is a way, though it is not easy, nor quick nor painless.

*

Because Alhaitham's soul gets thrown into cycle of rebirth and death. Every life, and hundreds of these await him will slowly heal allow for cleaning of th corruption. But it's for Cyno to bring his soul back again and again, and then soak they soul in the waters of the underworld rivers. Repeat, repeat, repeat the cycle. And bit by bit, Cyno too, will be forgetting all of what is Alhaitham. Of the man he used to be, his words and quirks. But Alhaitham's soul will be clean again. 

Alhaitham lives his lives, not always as human. Never remembering the past, or rather his original life. Yet plagued by nightmares of the horrors and pain in his chest.

By the last cycle Cyno only knows that he will be one day taking Alhaitham's soul to the underworld. As any other soul. 

Nobody could predict, that this time around Alhaitham could actually see him. No humans can actually see Cyno. He only appears as the death takes over; clad in the robes made of twilight, splitting the sky. 

So how could Alhaitham see him? It just happened. And Alhaitham is unrelenting, he is curious, he's a researcher. He wishes to know the guide from the underworld himself after witnessing him over and over. 

And like magnets, yet again they meet and orbit around each other. 

And then he remembers. He remembers it all, back to the beginning, back to thousands years before, back to all the lives he lived. He remembers it all, but he now knows Cyno does not. And he can only wonder why, Cyno can't tell him. Here they are strangers; not even existing on the same path. Because one day he will die, and who knows of Cyno? Will he continue his neverending duty? He seemed content when they spoke.

But Alhaitham is selfish, terribly selfish. And he can't stand that once again they will be separated, he might even fight the god of the underworld for it. 

So on his own he embarks to the underworld, to meet the god himself. 

Hermanubis is welcoming him. Inviting. To sit and speak. Afterall, Alhaitham is one who stopped origin of corruption and is in a way frequent visitor to the underworld. 

And what is there to hide at this point? The deal he made with Cyno is revealed. 

How Cyno decided to always bring Alhaitham back, to cleanse his soul in return for his memories. No matter how long and how painful.

And then, Hermanubis asks. What will Alhaitham do now? 

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I haven't decided yet how it ends.

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(I was drawing this, listening to florence and the machine and this AU was just writing itself in my head)

Mini playlist (I'll most likely be adding on)

+'which witch // florecne and the machine (a theme song if you will)

+forgotten love // aurora

+love story // indila

[cielospeaks]

tbh dog guides is basically the precursor to golden week (also as of today happy 17 yr anniversary to dog guides!) which just makes me lol

dog guides: great dogs au

dog guides: kin no sehai (monty x kin no shuu)

dog guides: the museogers (scooter x idolgers)

dog guides: escape the san dimas jail (rocky x escape the ri-o verse)

[tg-pilled]

My review of the Tokyo Ghoul live action movie!

First off, I won't be reviewing based off the CGI, props, etc. I don't know enough about practical effects or that area to make any proper judgement regarding it.

Secondly, this is my opinion. In no way am I trying to make fun of the actors, CGI, storymakers, etc. I just have autism and will be commenting about what I did and did not like about the live action.

Here is what I LOVED:

The casting was perfect in my opinion. I was pretty much like "yeah wow that's the character if they were real" for every single character

The acting was pretty good! I wasn't expecting it to be as satisfying as it ended up being.

THE FIGHT BETWEEN AMON AND KANEKI AT THE END WAS SO GOOD 🙏 THEY ATE, DEVOURED, AND LEFT NO CRUMBS

Touka and Mado's fight was so well done! It was the perfect balance of emotion and action! I love that they didn't back down from Mado being batshit crazy and that they didn't make him hesitant to kill anyone! It felt like they stayed really true to the characters in that aspect!

THE RELIGIOUS IMAGERY??? OMFG I LOVED IT SOSO MUCH!! When Kaneki pierces Amon and leaves him looking like he's been crucified??? Wow. Amazing, stunning, never been done before. Mado calling Touka a sinner??? Amazing, stunning, never been done before.

Renji, Touka, Kaneki, and Hinami walking through the creek made me tear up omfg they are FAMILY.

What I Liked/Appreciated for What It Was:

The storyline was decent. I know they have to set it up and stuff but I REALLY wish we could have seen the final arcs, Jason, Shuu, etc. I am also biased because those are my favourites to analyze BUT I also understand that it's a movie that is trying to fit a large amount of content into a small amount of time.

I felt like Kaneki's character growth/development was rushed BUT towards the end where he's laughing over Amon's body and then sees himself in the puddle, WOW what a scene. Even still Kaneki's development was rushed but it felt like they were wanting a second movie.

The ending was. Okay enough. I wish Hide and Kaneki had seen each other again but like. I'm insane about their relationship anyways. AND THE WAY KANEKI LOOKS AT THE CHAIR. It was very good I appreciated the throwback and it came full circle.

What I Did Not Like At All:

Okay this isn't even the movie's fault but it being rated NC-17 makes no sense to me. I felt like it barely showed anything and it should've just been rated R. It is definitely an atypical horror movie but it is still horror.

Nishiki felt extremely cast aside. If they hadn't included that scene at all, nothing would have changed. They didn't make him as compelling as he was in the manga (again, it's a live action so I can't expect much) but he was very much a forgettable aspect of the movie despite him looking so babygirl.

I miss the talk that Hinami and her mom had before she died. It felt so short and wasn't well done in my opinion.

It felt bound to the anime (which we all know is better if you have read the manga and can actually understand wtf is going on) which is not an inherently bad thing but there should definitely have been more explanation for the character motives.

Anyways thank you for reading if you made it this far into my ramble and autistic rant. Thank you to my wonderful moot for getting me the link to the movie 🙏

[gunkbaby]

Top 5 books ^_^

Horrendous bookish rambling ahead! Also fair warning some of the stuff I read has a tw.

Annihilation by Jeff Vandermeer - I love this book. The whole SR series. Altered my brain chemistry. It’s a biological cosmic horror written in the most wonderful way. I have so much love in my heart for the protagonist - it was reading a book from my own perspective, I related to her so badly. I felt so seen by her. She’s second to Shuu for me. I love Jeff Vandermeer, I think he’s a truly a remarkably underrated artist especially in the horror genre. There was a film made of the book, but whilst both the book and the film deal with the same theme and have the same premise, they are different stories with different characters. Both worth looking into.

by Chandler Morrison - a very raw depiction of eating disorders. I was genuinely shocked to see this was written by a cis man, because it was such a raw, real showcase of what having an eating disorder is like. All the ugly parts, the genuine horror of it as a concept. It is the best representation of eating disorders I’ve yet to read. It pains me to not have this in print. I have Dead Inside by Chandler Morrison too, which I also really liked - but TW it’s a satirical extreme horror novel and there’s lots of gross stuff in it. But thighgap is very dear to me. Obviously huge TW if you check this one out. <3

Tender Is The Flesh by Augustina Bazterrica - Tokyo Ghouls fans might like this! Maybe. This is about a dystopian world where a ‘disease’ has spread to most of the animals of the world, crucially farm animals, which ultimately leads to the farming and breeding of the only safe meat left - human.. The protagonist is someone that basically manages several of the farms/factories (i can’t exactly remember), and he is gifted one of the farmed humans, which he keeps as a pet. It’s a very twisted novel, and so full of depth and moral questioning - all the characters in this book have great depth, and I really enjoy that. It’s never written as a simple ‘thing bad’, and I really find that valuable, especially these days. A lot of people pass this book off as vegan propaganda (very interesting take it u read certain parts of the book btw), and I’m not going to say the take is invalid, but I do think it is quite a reductive, surface-level analysis of the book. Really worth sinking ur teeth into. :)

Earthlings by Sayaka Murata - either this one or Convience Store Woman are excellent novels. Murata is one of my favourite authors. I have all three of her current releases. Earthlings is really hard to explain, but just bc the material is sensitive - tw for CSA and i guess incest? There’s cannibalism but we’re tg fans im not tagging that lmao. This book very much deals with childhood trauma and its effects, sadly very relatable. It’s a painful read, but I found it so dreadfully validating. Sayaka Murata as an author does that. One thing to note about Murata, is that she really does write about neurodivergence and asexuality in a very interesting way, I think especially for a Japanese author. Convience Store Woman is also wonderful, again dealing with neurodivergence, asexuality, being aromantic, and living a happy ‘unsuccessful’ life that the general world deems disappointing. Convience Store Woman is probably a better started than Earthlings, though I love them both. I highly rate her as an author.

The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoyevsky - Okay, so it’s Dostoyevsky, i don’t need to explain why it’s good. This is one of the more underrated of his works, I feel. I love Dostoyevsky generally as an author, I like Crime & Punishment, Notes From Underground is on my tbr, so is Demons, I’ve read parts of The Brothers Karamazov , but this book specifically is very beautiful to me. I feel like sometimes people understate the optimism that can be found in works by authors like Dostoyevsky, and this book is paramount to that optimism. My God, do I need to reread it.

Sorry 4 rambling! Some other books I like a lot are Watership Down, Battle Royale, Fifteen Dogs, Social Creature, and Hot Milk. I like too many books to list, my god! This is why Goodreads is a godsend! I’m planning on making a Tokyo Ghoul reading list at some point, maybe!

[to-mourn-a-mourning-dove]

call me arrow, he/him. i played hatoful boyfriend and it altered my brain chemistry permanently. i am OBSESSED with birds.

spoilers are NOT tagged on this blog. proceed with caution.

i ship stuff like hitori/nageki, sakuya/yuuya, ryuuji/shuu, shuu/nageki, and hitori/kazuaki (original). i will ship anything and everything! PLEASE block me if ur not comfy with that. it will make both our internet experiences better.

non-suspicious link here so that tumblr shadow bans this post!!!!

tag system under the cut

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content warnings

#incest — for incestuous pairings like sakuya/yuuya & nageki/hitori

#age gap — for pairings between a child & adult like nageki/shuu

#gore — umbrella tag for gore, including tiny things like blood & death

#cannibalism — this will include humans eating birds and vice versa

#whump — torture, abusive relationships, any sort of harmful relationship between characters

main characters

#hiyoko tosaka

#ryouta kawara

#sakuya shirogane

#nageki fujishiro

#yuuya sakazaki

#shuu iwamine

#okosan

#anghel higure

#hitori uzune

#kazuaki-kun — the original kazuaki (link breaks on mobile)

#kazuaki nanaki — posts for both or either of them

side characters

#azami koshiba

#ryuuji kawara

#tohri nishikikouji

#leone jb

#miru and kaku

#albert alain alkan

alter egos

#professor nanaki — hitori, but blonde

#the king — kazuaki in his villain arc

#kageki - shadow nageki/the guy haunting hitori

#souma isa — shuu, but with shorter hair

#the king au — characters who are NOT kazuaki dressed as/playing the role of the king

#absolute zero — designs from absolute zero

content

#thoughts — general tag for original posts with thoughts, rambles, theories, etc

#writing — my fanfiction & snippets of what i'm working on

#art — any fanart i make (currently nonexistent)

#shitpost — non-hatoful shitposts i reblog to claim as a character

#birds — real-life birds tagged as characters

#reblog — usually for reblogging other's fanart

#moas — reblogs/reposts of moa's art

#damus — reblogs/reposts of damurushi's art

#good post — someone else's analysis of a character that i really like

ships

my ship tags are REALLLYY inconsistent, the only ones that im good about taggings are #quail boyfriends and #fantailcest, everything else is either untagged or tagged weird

[suginami-division]

ARB Birthday Special: Maki Umemoto

~ January 17th ~

“You should never let your fears prevent you from doing what you know is right.”

Login Lines:

“When does something’s destiny finally come to fruition? Is the plant complete when it flowers? When it goes to seed? When it goes to seed? When the seeds sprout? When everything turns into compost? It’s a quote I read recently, that has been plaguing me now that my anniversary of birth has dawned.”

“Why, I never expected to receive a gift from you this year. Thank you, my dear friend.”

Voice Lines:

“I’ve been reading a book on an American’s perspective on wabi-sabi recently. Although its casually combined into Japanese belief today, it’s origins were less light-hearted as we see it today… Sorry, I’m rambling. I’m just trying to say, I hope this year, I can incorporate this concept to view my aging in a more beautiful, if not remorseful perspective.”

“Students from my classes somehow remembered my birthday and went further than the usual words of goodwill this year. Seeing the entire chalkboard covered in drawings and words was… Touching, to say the least. It pained me that I had to erase it for the my morning lecture. But alas, their education is what they came and paid for.”

“Well well well… My baby brother has gathered up something for me, has he? No, I wouldn’t dare judge your gift. Probably. Enough of your bickering, let me open this up and see for myself.”

“Hmph, a book I see. Didn’t expect you to even bother walking into a place like that, much less for me… Alright, alright, I’ll quit picking on you. This is definitely an interesting pick. This is from a monk that’s been supporting some movements, correct? Hm? Oh, I’m not sure if this is good yet. I’ll let you know, Ryuko. In the meantime, thank you. I appreciate the gesture.”

“Detective. No need to be nervous, step up. Let me see what you have there. I promise, I won’t bite.”

“My, a wagashi assortment box? And such beautifully crafted ones as well… Thank you, detective. This is a lot… Too much in fact, so why don’t you sit down and try some with me? I’d invite your sisters here too but, you know how I feel about them.”

Ryuko Lines:

“Shut it with that condescending tone and just take it. Already know you’re gonna fucking judge the hell out of my pickings… Hey, I heard that! Fucking… Quit idling around and open it already!”

“Yeah, a book. What did you expect? Hey, I’m not illiterate you asshole! Don’t tell me to calm down when you’re the one fucking picking on me- Hah? Yeah, at least that's what I know about it. I overheard a bunch of my coworkers talk about it all hush hush in the break room. Figured since you have that habit of supporting this sort of stuff, you’d get a kick out of reading it. What? You don’t like it? Oh, that makes sense… Yeah, save your thanks for when you finish it. Just enjoy the rest of your day, alright?”

Shuu Lines:

“Maki? S-Sorry! Here, it’s not much, but please take this!”

“Mhm… I got gifted some as reward for a job so I thought I could buy some for you. You’re welcome. Yeah, I might have went a little overboard with buying the box, but hey, sweets are yummy, right? H-Huh? Oh, you want to share with me? O-Okay! Thank you teach~!”

[donuts4evry1]

Considering how poor Iwamine's hygeine prolly is (y'know, with all the experiments and stuff), you'd think he'd smell either like strong BO or some kind of body spray (like Axe or somethin)

[hikikomorriis]

I'm sorry I haven't been posting as often as I would like to! I just haven't been as active due to recently starting school again and trying to work on stuff for that. I also haven't been having any random bursts of inspiration as well which also plays into that. Just know that I'm still here and you're still welcome to message me, and hey! I might even start requests just for fun to see if I can find more inspiration!

Thank you for your time and please stay safe, hydrate and to wash your hands and wear a mask!!

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers Do-S Kyuuketsu CD Vol. 6: Sakamaki Shuu

Original title: ドS吸血CD・逆巻シュウ

Source: Diabolik Lovers Do-S Kyuuketsu CD Vol. 6 Sakamaki Shuu

Audio: Here

Seiyuu: Toriumi Kousuke

Translator’s note: This CD traumatized me even more than Laito’s did, to be honest. > < While Laito’s might have been worse when it comes to manipulation and mentally breaking the MC, there’s some really disgusting and gore-y stuff in this CD. Even though it’s only sound, it still made me squirm and even feel somewhat sick to my stomach. I was also surprised by how much Shuu talks. He goes on those mini rambles where he just trash talks the MC with that sharp tongue of his. I think this might have been the one I found the most difficult to translate out of all of the boys. ;;

You are walking outside.

*Drip drip*

It suddenly starts raining.

[0:14] “Hm...? Ahー I thought that woman seemed familiar, but it’s you, huh? See you.”

Shuu tries to walk away but you stop him.

[0:27] “...What? I’m at the good part of the song right now. See?”

*Rustle*

He lets you listen.

[0:39] “Get it? So don’t bother me. See you.”

You tug onto his sleeve again.

“ーー Ugh. What!? I have no business with you, and even if you wanted something from me, I’m not in the mood to listen. You’re annoying so get out of my sight already.” 

You insist.

[0:56] “Haah...So that’s not enough to scare you off, huh? What a pain...What do you want? Why not tell me at least? I bet it’s some trivial matter anyway.”

You explain.

[1:14] “Umbrella? Mine?...Haah...Can’t you tell by looking? If I had one on me, I would be using it already. Are you a retard?”

You frown. 

[1:26] “So, if I told you I had one, you would have asked me to let you underneath as well, right? ...Heh. Don’t you understand that’s unthinkable? If I have to walk back home sharing an umbrella with you, I’d much rather get soaked instead.”

[1:40] “In short, whether I have an umbrella or not, you’d still end up walking home in the rain.”

You nod.

[1:48] “...If you understand, then let go of my arm.”

*Rustle*

“Haah...You totally ruined my Brahms. I missed out on listening to my favorite verse!”

You offer to look for a place to hide from the rain. 

[2:01] “Eh? Find shelter from the rain? Who cares about that...I’m already wet anyway. Rather than wasting my time outside just standing around, I’d much rather hurry home so I can nap.”

[2:19] “And above all, I’m not interested in having a casual chat with you under the eaves. There’s nothing I have to tell you, nor am I in the mood to adjust to your level and participate in a useless conversation. Even something like solving elementary-level math drills would be less boring than that. Haah...Haven’t you had enough already? Hurry up and get away from me. You’re too persistentーー!!” 

Shuu pushes you away.

*Thud* 

[2:47] “Aah-aah...Because you held me up, I got even more soaked. ...Well, not that I give a damn...So, why don’t you go waste your time sheltering from the rain before going home? Bye bye.”

[3:02] “Don’t bother me again, okay?”

The rain gets heaver.

“Uwah...Cold...What’s with this downpour? It’s to the point where even just walking’s a pain now...”

[3:18] “Hm? Hah?”

Shuu’s earphons start bugging out.

*Tap tap*

[3:24] “...Did they break? Hey!! Can you hear this properly? The earphones.”

*Rustle*

He lets you listen to a bit of music before you shake your head. 

[3:40] “Hm? You can’t? Hm... Guess it’s not my ears which are the problem then.”

*Rustle*

[3:52] “This sucks...I liked these earphones too, how will you make up for it? They broke because you kept me busy with your bullshit while standing in the rain, right? Which is why this is all your fault.”

You lower your head. 

[4:07] “It seriosuly pisses me off...”

You feel bad.

“What? Are you in tears or something? ...Haah...Honestly, I don’t care about you anymore. I hate bothersome people. I’ve been telling you this whole time, but could you get out of my sight? Crying women are the number one pain in the ass.”

[4:32] “You want to shelter from the rain together? You’re still spouting that nonsense? We’re both soaked to the bone by now, right? I don’t understand the point in finding shelter still.”

[4:49] “Hah? Then let’s run home? ...Heh. Be my guest, but don’t involve me. Whether you walk or run, you’ll still get wet. In that case, I’d go for the easier option.”

Shuu takes a step forward but you stop him once again.

[5:07] “You can just run by yourself, right? Just leave me alone.”

[5:14] “You really are annoying...”

You tug onto his sleeve again.

[5:19] “Whaー!? You heard me, didn’t you!? Let go! You’ll stretch out my clothes and I already told you I’m not running...!”

You continue to pull onto his arm.

[5:26] “Oi...Ah! ...You really are a pest, aren’t you? I’m about to snap for...real!!”

He pushes you away.

*Thud*

*Splash*

[5:43] “Hah! You klutz. You didn’t have to dive straight into a puddle. I bet you’re soaked all the way down to your underwear now. Serves you right.”

[5:53] “Don’t bother, no need to stand back up. Honestly, crawling on the ground like that suits you much better.”

He turns towards you.

[6:03] “See...?”

Shuu steps on your hand. 

“Hm? What? Ah, my foot? Hm. I’m stepping on your hand but...So what?”

[6:19] “...Heh. You want me to step down harder? Like this?”

He increases the strength on your hand.

[6:26] “Hahaha. It hurts? ...I see. But my earphones broke because of you, so you can endure this much, right? Besides, I’m pissed off because you kept on tugging onto my hand.”

*Splash*

[6:40] “Ah-aah~ If only I had a pair of those spiked shoes like Ayato does. Honestly, with leather shoes like this, it barely feels like I’m doing any damage. I bet this kind of pain is barely satisfying (1) for you either?”

He steps down harder again.

[7:00] “Aah...The rain got worse, huh? ...Right. I don’t have any time to waste on this. The earphones are one thing, but if my MP3 player breaks as well, I’d be in trouble. Hah.”

[7:17] “But I guess that is exactly what you’re aiming for? After all, that would mean you’d get punished in a way which makes having your hand stepped on seem like child’s play.”

You flinch. 

[7:28] “Well, it’d be a pain for me so I wouldn’t do anything. Ah, right. I guess I could tell my younger brothers they can torture you to death as they please. If I feel like it, I’d be so kind to watch.”

[7:46] “Those guys are obsessive as hell though, so I feel like I’d just get bored halfway through and fall asleep.” 

Shuu yawns.

[8:00] “Just mentioning the word made me sleepy...Guess I’ll go home.”

He turns around. 

[8:07] “Well then, this time it’s bye bye for real. ...Make sure to wipe yourself dry in the hallway when you get home. I doubt you want to listen to Reiji’s lenghty lectures, do you? I won’t do it for you, so make sure to do it yourself.”

He starts walking away. 

[8:26] “Haah...My clothes feel kind of heavy from all of the water...Walking home is such a drag...I’m tired...So guess I’ll just find a random spot to nap. The benches in the park are...too far away so...Haah...Guess I’ll just sleep by the side of the road.”

You suddenly run up to him.

*Rustle*

[8:51] “...!? Wha...!?”

You grab hold of his arm and start running.

“Haah...!? What’s your problem...!? Even though I told you to let go, why are you running and dragging me along...!? Do you never learn!? Haah...haah, haah...”

The two of you continue running. 

[9:11] “...Fuck this!”

*TIMESKIP*

You arrive at the manor.

[9:24] “Haah, haah...haah...”

[9:34] “I don’t get this at all...Why did we have to dash at full speed? Haah...Did you not hear that I felt sluggish?”

You tell him he shouldn’t sleep just anywhere.

[9:44] “Haah? I’d catch a cold if I slept by the side of the road? Worst case scenario I’d freeze to death? Heh...Who cares? You meddle with other people’s business too much. What’s your problem? What are you trying to be? (2)”

You apologize.

[10:00] “Even if I rot away by the side of the road, it’s none of your business, is it? Whether it’s by freezing to death, getting run over or heck, even a stroke. (3) The way you push your own hypocricy upon others like that honestly makes me gag. Can you get out of my sight already?

Shuu turns around. 

[10:18] “I’m seriously exhausted...There’s nothing I hate more than running...It tires me out...Haah...Gosh...”

You tear up.

[10:31] “What? Why do you look like you’re about to cry? Could you cut that out? It pisses me off. Haah...Just whatever. Dealing with you is too much of a hassle. Move, you’re in the way.”

He pushes you aside.

*Thud*

[10:49] “I’m returning to my room. ...Pwaah...Nn...I really am sleepy...Guess I’ll go for a nap...”

You quickly run up to him.

[11:01] “...What? Why are you still following me? I really wish you’d leave me alone already.”

You ask to come with him. 

[11:11] “You want to watch over me as I get changed first? Haah!? Were you always that type of woman? Aah...Did Laito influence you or something? That guy would definitely teach someone such crap. ...Hm? No? Then what!?”

You explain yourself.

[11:34] “You’re worried I’ll fall asleep in my current attire? ...I see. That’s surprisingly sharp of you. I definitely plan to just hit the hay like this. I mean, it’s a pain after all. So what!?”

Shuu enters his room.

[11:56] “Pwaah...I’ve reached my limit...Sleepy...”

He plops down on the bed.

*Rustle* 

[12:06] “Haah...Nothing like a soft bed...I don’t want to do anything...”

You watch over him with a frown. 

[12:14] “How long do you intend to stay by my side like that? I’m gonna sleep so hurry up and get out.”

You continue to just stand there.

[12:24] “Why have you gone quiet? Listening to you speak is a pain but having you give me the silent treatment like that is equally annoying. When you’re standing right there, it distracts me.”

You insist he changes clothes first.

[12:36] “Change of clothes? Who cares about that. Once I fall asleep, I’ll no longer be bothered by these soaked clothes.”

[12:45] “Why not try sleeping like that as well, you might actually like it? Just give it a try. If I die because my body cools off, that might not even be all too bad. Freezing to death is a rather peaceful way to meet your end after all...”

You jump into bed with him, wrapping your arms around Shuu.

*Thud*

*Rustle*

[13:05] “Haah...What? I’d appreciate it if you didn’t suddenly cling onto me like that. It makes the wet clothes stick to my skin, it’s annoying.”

[13:19] “Hah...I never said I want to die or anything...I was just speaking hypothetically. Why are you giving me that compassionate look? It really makes me sick...Do you want to die that badly?”

You shake your head.

[13:40] “...There is one thing that bothers me. I’m wondering how much energy it would take to snap the pale neck right in front of me. Will you solve that problem for me?”

Shuu wraps one hand around your throat.

[14:01] “Hah...It really is slender...I can squeeze it shut with just one hand.”

He increases his grip as you start to struggle.

*Rustle rustle* 

[14:11] “Does it hurt? Can you still breathe? Whatcha think? Still not on the brink of death?”

*Thud*

[14:21] “Hm...? So it really is suffocating after all, huh? I wonder what it feels like? Is it somewhat of a different sensation from simple pain...? Hm...”

[14:34] “No clue. I’ve never had someone strangle me after all.”

*Rustle rustle* 

[14:42] “Why do you make such a fuss? ...You want to live? You never want to just go with the flow and see what happens? You rather fight back, huh? ...Heh. Even though resisting only tires you out.”

*Rustle*

[15:05] “Aah...I’m exhausted as well. Seems like strangling someone is rather tiresome.”

You ask him to change into fresh clothes again. 

[15:15] “Hm? A change of clothes? ...Didn’t I already tell you earlier that I won’t?”

You insist.

[15:24] “If it bothers you that much, you can just change my clothes as you wish. I’m gonna nap. ...Good night.”

Shuu closes his eyes and tries to sleep. Meanwhile you get off the bed and walk over to the wardrobe, taking a peek inside to grab a fresh change of clothes before returning to the bed.

[15:57] “Nn...What? Stop making so much noise...”

[16:05] “What are you doing? Why are you taking out my clothes without permission? Are you seriously trying to get me to change?”

You nod.

[16:19] “Hm...So you’re serious, huh? Hahaha...I think you should learn when to stop meddling with people’s affairs though. Oh well, be my guest. You want to strip me, right?”

*Rustle*

[16:34] “Take off my cardigan...And then...You’ll take off my shirt as well, right?”

You unbutton his shirt. 

[16:46] “Heh...What’s the matter? Your hands are shaking. Don’t tell me you’ve gotten embarrassed at this point? Even though you’re doing it with that obedient look on your face...”

[16:58] “If not, you wouldn’t have come to me to unbutton my shirt in the first place, would you?”

[17:06] “You’ll take off the bottoms as well, I assume? Heh...I don’t really care but a woman fumbling with a guy’s belt just screams ‘slut’, don’t you think?”

You flinch, removing your hands. 

[17:23] “What’s the matter? Your hands have stopped?  I thought you were gonna change my clothes? Like this it’s even colder, you know?”

[17:33] “Don’t tell me...You actually got embarrassed?”

[17:40] “...Where are you going? You’re really gonna leave me here like this? My body has totally cooled down from your half-hearted attempt at changing my clothes. I can’t sleep when it’s this chilly, take responsiblity!”

You ask him how.

[17:58] “...’How’, you ask? Haha...I have to teach you that as well or you don’t know? Direct skin contact (4) is the best method to warm up a chilled body, right? You should strip down and come here.”

You are shocked by his bold statement.

[18:16] “You’re not gonna take off my clothes first and then say you can’t strip yourself, will you? Come on, hurry up. I’m telling you to strip.”

You slowly start to take off your clothes.

[18:27] “Huh? Why are your cheeks bright red just from untying your ribbon? I don’t need that kind of act. Women who behave all shy and embarrassed are such a pain in the ass, it turns me off.”

[18:40] “If your behavior just now wasn’t an act but for real, I’d like to kindly ask you to never show your face to me again. Avoiding troublesome people at all costs is part of my nature, you see.”

You start unbuttoning your shirt.

[18:52] “Heh. Is the fact you’ve started taking off your clothes your way of telling me you want to be by my side?”

You deny it.

[19:00] “Hm...Oh well, I don’t really care. Shall I test just how far I can push you? Come on, warm me up. Come here and leap into my arms...~ It’s cold so hurry up...!”

You cuddle up to him on the bed.

*Rustle*

[19:21] “Hm...You’re not very warm. You’re equally soaked all over and your cold hair sticks to me as well. Also you’re hugging me way too tightly.”

You lessen your grip a little. 

[19:36] “Is this part of your act pretending to be inexperienced with this kind of stuff? I told you I hate that kinda crap so cut it out.”

[19:44] “Hah...That being said...You may not have any boobs, but the overall balance of your body is not that bad. Your chest is non-existent though. I guess the most noteworthy feature would be...your legs? Second place goes to the curve of your hips.”

[20:03] “You sure have the perfect lower half for a man-eater, huh?”

You try and cover up in embarrassment.

[20:08] “Why are you hiding your legs? I’m bored because you’re clinging onto me, so at least let me choose what to look at. Haah...Actually, take off your skirt as well. I’m sure the soaked fabric is cold and it ruins the overall appearance as well.”

*Rustle rustle* 

[20:26] “Wah...Why are you crawling underneath the covers? I thought I said to show them, not to hide.”

*Rustle*

[20:36] “Oi...!! Haah...”

[20:40] “Haah...What a pain...You’re so stubborn...If you like the blanket that much, why not stay cooped up like that? However, as long as you’re wrapped up in the blanket...That means you can’t move your arms and legs no matter what I do to you.”

Shuu moves on top of you.

*Thud*

[21:02] “Heh...Bet you didn’t expect I’d crawl on top of you, huh? I wasn’t really planning on doing anything either. ...But teasing you like this is kind of enjoyable for some reason, you see? Even though there should be absolutely nothing 'fun’ about crawling on top of a woman with zero sex appeal wrapped up in a blanket burrito.”

*Rustle*

[21:26] “That being said...It’s cold. You took away both my clothes and blanket, so I might actually catch a cold. My fingertips are cold as ice. They’re so chilled, it hurts. It’s your fault, right? Hurry up and warm me up! Come on!”

You frown, asking what to do.

[21:49] “...How? You’re asking questions without thinking beforehand again, aren’t you? Even with your limbs retrained, you still have your mouth, don’t you? You could just carefully lick my fingers to warm them up.”

You flinch, shaking your head.

[22:05] “Come on, open your mouth. I wonder how many you can handle? One? ...Heh. Of course not. At least try your best to fit two...Come on!”

Shuu thrusts his fingers inside your mouth.

[22:23] “Why are you getting all red just from having my fingers pushed in your mouth? Don’t just stiffen up and actually lick them. Wrap your tongue around them.”

[22:34] “Heh...Exactly, just like that...Nice, keep going like that...Mm...They’ve warmed up a little. Even though the outside of your body is this chilled, the inside’s still really hot, huh?”

[22:54] “Don’t you think the temperature gap between us is a little much?”

You protest.

[23:00] “Heh. Why is that the part where you talk back? ...Do you want to check whether I’m speaking the truth or not? Hahaha...I don’t mind though.”

[23:11] “Between the fingers or the tongue, tell me which one you prefer to use for our comparison.”

You remain quiet.

[23:17] “Hm...The silent treatment, huh? Well, I don’t really care. Then you won’t complain if I do as I please, huh?”

[23:28] “Mm...”

Shuu kisses you.

[23:37] “...Haah...Why do you stiffen up again? I’m pretty sure you won’t be able to tell whether my tongue is cold or not if you don’t stick out your own. Come on...One more try. Mmm...”

*Smooch*

“Nn...”

*Smooch*

[24:00] “Hahaha...I can hear your heartbeat accelerating. I’m not sure if you’re embarrassed or aroused but it’s thumping really loudly. What’s causing it?”

[24:14] “Because I’m riding on top of you? Or because I made you lick my fingers? ...Or maybe because you found out that the inside of my mouth is cold? Which one is it?”

You avert your gaze. 

[24:30] “Don’t look away. Answer while looking me straight in the eyes.

You whisper a response. 

[24:36] “Can’t hear you. What? ...Don’t make me listen to it over and over, it’s a drag...”

You answer.

[24:45] “All of them? ...Heh. Thank you for your way-too-predictable, boring answer. Because of it I totally lost interest. I’ll move out of the way so give up already. Just leave. I wasted my time on this crap, now it’s not just my fingers but my whole body’s that’s cooled down.”

[25:10] “Haah...The sheets got wet as well...At this rate it might soak all the way to the mattress. Should I get a new bed? Going to the store would be a drag so I’ll just order one online.”

You suggest taking a bath to warm up.

[25:26] “Haah? Run a bath? Aah...To warm up my body? ...Like I’ve said a million times already, I’m tired and don’t want to do anything...! Taking a bath takes quite a bit of energy, right? ...If I take one right now, I might not freeze to death, but die from exhaustion instead...I’m tired after all...”

Shuu rolls over onto this other side.

[25:55] “For one, why are you that nosy? You can just leave me be, right? Do you want me to strangle you again? Are you a pervert?”

[26:09] “Or what? I doubt this is the case but...Are you just randomly making up excuses to talk to me because you like me and want my attention?”

You flush bright red.

[26:22] “Hah...No way. That’s wrong, right? ...Say, did you know?  When I’m spot on, you go silent. When embarrassed, you go silent. When you want the other person to lead the conversation or are thinking of a come-back, you go silent. These are all bad habits of yours.”

You deny it. 

[26:42] “Either way it boils down to the same thing, right? You’ve got a soft spot for me. Not sure why though. Say, why? My looks? (5) Money? Intelligence? (6) Most chicks approach me based on those three factors. ...Aahー But in your case, there is one other possibility.”

[27:11] “You might just want to get devoured by me.”

You flinch.

[27:17] “From my point of view, that’s a pretty perverted reason, you know? ...You like having your blood sucked, don’t you?  The act itself feels good, doesn’t it? And on top of that you feel like you’re being needed.”

[27:34] “There’s a bunch of women like you out there. The type that relies on a kind of maternal love between herself and the guy. They can’t like a guy unless they feel wanted. They want the guy to be completely reliant on them. Therefore they don’t mind even if the guy treats them harshly.” 

You shake your head.

[27:54] “You’re that kind of woman, aren’t you? Otherwise you’d have absolutely no reason to stick with someone who on top of being a Vampire, also strangles your neck.”

Shuu turns his head to you.

[28:05] “I hate to break it to you, but I don’t give a damn about you. You aren’t necessary to me at all, nor do I plan on ever relying on you. I do think your blood is delicious, but even if that were to disappear, I wouldn’t feel troubled in the slightest. ...So I doubt we’ll ever be in a relationship of mutual dependence like the one you are seek after.”

[28:30] “If you get that, could you just leave already? Having to deal with someone barking up the wrong tree is nothing but a pain in the ass. ...I’m sleepy so I’m gonna nap. You really are grinding my gears...”

He rolls over onto his other side, but you still don’t move away.

[28:50] “Haah...Were you listening to what I said? Or were you not able to grasp the meaning behind what I said? Why are you just standing there frozen to the spot?”

You slowly speak up.

[29:04] “What?”

You try and explain yourself. 

[29:08] “Hah. You’re not gonna say some lame shit like ‘Even so, you want to remain by your side’, right?”

You nod.

[29:20] “Haah...I see. You’re serious, huh? Hm...What a pain...”

[29:33] “So basically you want to become mine? Hah!”

You shake your head. 

[29:41] “Ah, that’s not it, huh? You’re only worried about me? Heh...’Thank you’ for your ear-rotting hypocricy. It pisses me off so don’t ever say that again. ...Whatever. If that’s your intention, I’ll just use you as I please. Try your best to give me some interesting reactions so I don’t grow bored of you.”

[30:08] “For starters, have this.”

He pulls out a knife.

“I’ll give it to you, so draw some blood.”

*Cling*

You seem confused.

[30:14] “...What do you mean? You can tell by looking, right? It’s a knife. I want you to use that to make yourself bleed, don’t you get it?”

You flinch.

[30:25] “I mean, you’re worried that if I fall asleep like this, I’ll get sick, right? That’s why you keep on whining in my ear about getting changed or taking a bath...But you know there’s other methods as well, don’t you?”

You ask if he means your blood.

[30:44] “Exactly...You should just let me have your blood. If you do that, I’ll be in tip-top shape again, right? ...Like I said, I want you to draw blood by yourself!”

You frown.

[31:02] “Honestly, I don’t mind just falling asleep like this, but you just seem so fixated on making me feel better. All you need to do is tempt me with the scent of your blood and put me in the right mood, right?”

[31:17] “You couldn’t even think of something so obvious? ...Aah! Seeing you get all depressed is annoying so spare me that crap. Just hurry up and pick up the knife already. Quickly!”

You pick up the knife.

[31:36] “Where are you gonna cut? The neck? ...Hmm, sounds good to me. Then come closer. Might as well show me from up close. The sight of you slitting your own throat with a knife might be kinda interesting.”

[31:57] “One wrong movement and you’ll end up taking your own life but rest assured, I won’t let a single drop of your blood go to waste. Besides, wouldn’t a pervert such as yourself get excited knowing their final moment is being closely observed? 

You shake your head.

[32:13] “You won’t? Bummer, how boring. ...So, how much longer? Your face’s white as a sheet, but you’re not gonna tell me you’re hesitating from fear, right? Being pierced by fangs is no big deal but a knife gives you cold feet? Heh.”

[32:34] “Pretty sure both are equally life-threatening though...”

You still hesitate. 

[32:40] “Come on, hurry up, waiting is a drag as well.”

[32:49] “Why don’t you just keep up that attitude all the time? I mean, there’s five other guys out there who are more than willing to suck your blood and give you a taste of pleasure.”

[33:01] “Don’t you think they’d suck you much more gently than me?”

You close your eyes in fear.

[33:09] “Heh, you’re scared, huh? Interesting...I want to see more of that expression. But I’m also seriously fed up with waiting so make it quick. If you won’t hurry up, then get out.”

You slit your throat.

*Drip*

[33:28] “Heh. You actually cut yourself. ...So, how did it feel? The pain from your skin being pierced through is different from it being slit open, right? Also, a half-baked attempt at cutting your throat would only make it even more painful. ...Heh, your eyes are red. Go ahead. Cry if you want.”

You try and hold back the tears.

[33:53] “I want to see you in agony. You are annoying to deal with, but your expression twisted in pain positively turns me on. But the pain isn’t quite intense enough, is it? I doubt a shallow wound like that one can’t satisfy you.”

You deny it.

[34:12] “Hurt yourself more. Rather than just sliding the knife across, you should thrust it right in. You can do that if you imagine it’s my fangs instead, right?”

You refuse. 

[34:23] “Hah...You’re scared?  Hm...Then why don’t you try spreading open the wound with your fingers? Easy enough, right?”

[34:34] “You won’t give me no as an answer, right? You want to have your blood sucked by me after all. You have to encite me a little more, otherwise you have absolutely no reason to be here.”

[34:45] “Come on, hurry up...Before I lose interest, that is.”

*Drip drip*

[34:56] “Exactly, just like that...What a lovely fragrance, it’s the scent of your sweet blood. It just keeps dribbling down...Does it hurt?”

You nod. 

[35:09] “Heh, I see. Seems like I really can’t resist your blood after all. ...I’m totally in the mood right now. Even though I wasn’t the slightest bit interested just a few seconds ago. Haha...”

[35:28] “Right now I’m thirsty beyond belief. I want to dig my tongue into the wound, piercing my fangs inside and ravish you whole. ...Come on, lie down on the bed again. It’s a pain so don’t speak a word. Hurry up.”

You lie down. 

*Rustle*

[35:49] “I’ll actually move for you...You better be grateful. 

*Rustle rustle*

[35:56] “...Haah...I can’t hold back...Come on, it’s time for your reward.”

[36:10] “Mmh...”

He laps up the blood.

*Smooch*

“Your blood’s so sweet and rich...My whole body’s tingling...Mmh...Ah...”

Shuu continues drinking your blood.

[36:25] “Haha...The wound looks terrible because you ripped it open with your fingers. That only tempts me even further...I wonder if it’ll leave a nasty scar? Mmh...”

[36:48] “Your blood’s even hotter than the inside of your mouth. Mmh...Ah... While I’m sucking it like this, it keeps on rising in temperature...Mm...”

[37:04] “I’ll spread open the wound even more, okay? See?”

He sinks in his fangs as you scream.

[37:14] “Haha...Does it hurt? Nice. Makes me want to hurt you even more. ...It really turns me on. Mmh...”

You writhe around in pain.

[37:28] “The pain makes you feel alive, right? I think that’s why I like seeing you in pain like this. When looking at your face twisted in agony, I feel just the slightest spark of life amidst this endless, boring flow of time.”

[37:50] “One of your fellow humans said something similar, right? ー ‘Life is pain’, that is. I really felt touched when I heard those words for the first time. I was surprised that even amongst humans, there’s at least some who say something decent.”

You disagree.

[38:11] “Well...I’m not expecting that from you. All you need to do is cry out from the pain I inflict upon you. If you do, I can at least get a laugh out of it, realizing that ‘being alive’ is something so miserable like this.”

You start throwing punches at his chest. 

*Thud thud*

[38:32] “Hahaha...Why are you hitting my body? Are you upset?”

You suddenly go quiet.

[38:41] “Ah, the silent treatment again. So I was right, huh?”

You puff out your cheeks. 

[38:50] “Why are you angry? You wanted to do something for me, right? So you should just scream out in pain like an idiot. Come on...Like this!”

Shuu bites you again. 

[39:09] “Hahaha...What a scream. I thought it wouldn’t hurt as much if I caught you by surprise, but that was a nice reaction. Mm...”

[39:25] “I wonder why? The more you’re in pain, the sweeter your blood becomes. The tip of my tongue’s tingling, craving for more of your taste. Mmh...”

*Rustle rustle*

[39:45] “Come on, turn over.”

You roll over onto your stomach.

[39:52] “I’m not satisfied yet. Give me more blood. Scream out more in pain. Mmhー!!”

Shuu bites you strongly. 

[40:03] “Fufu...Ahahaha! Exactly! Tell me it hurts...!  Beg for me to suck you more...! Mmh...”

[40:20] “Heh...Say, does it feel good? The tears are streaming down your face, but between pain and pleasure, should I tell you which is winning?

He leans in, whispering in your ear.

[40:37] “...It’s pleasure, isn’t it? The joy from pleasing me, the joy from being sought after by me, the joy from being dominated by me. You’re a masochist in heart and soul, so everything I do automatically connects to pleasure.”

[40:55] “You really are disgusting, huh? I bet you’re the type who would say ‘with pleasure’ when someone tells them to drop dead. You’re messed up.”

You deny his words. 

[41:08] “Hm? I’m wrong? Hahaha...I don’t think so. You just don’t know anything about yourself.”

[41:20] “Haah...Being able to see your face is better after all. Come on, turn this way.”

He flips you over again.

*Rustle rustle* 

[41:29] “For example, if I asked you to suck your blood while strangling you, you’d allow it, wouldn’t you? Like this...”

He squeezes your throat.

*Rustle rustle*

[41:47] “Mmh...Mm...”

[41:53] “See? It  got even sweeter. It’s painful and suffocating yet it feels good, doesn’t it? You just love watching me happily indulge in your blood, don’t you? As long as you get to see this scenery, you wouldn’t even mind dying, am I right?”

Your face flushed bright red in embarrassment. 

[42:17] “Heh. Pervert~ Mm...”

He laps up the blood from the wound.

[42:24] “Ah...Too much blood is coming out because I applied pressure. It keeps on oozing out.”

*Drip drip* 

[42:31] “Want me to suck you more? If you insist, I don’t mind. If you scream that you want me to suck your blood from the bottom of your heart, I’d be willing to make an effort.”

[42:49] “What will you do?”

You weakly beg.

[42:53] “Hah... That’s not it, is it? You have to really put your heart and soul into it. Did you really think I’d act upon those make-believe words?”

[43:05] “If you show me even the slightest hint of displeasure, I won’t do anything. ...I’m saying that if you admit you’re turned on from the pain and beg me for it, I’ll consider it.”

You go quiet. 

[43:25] “Heh...Cat got your tongue again? You don’t want to voice it out loud? Or do you simply prefer to be forced by me instead? Where did that feisty side of you who kept on insist I had to change clothes or whatever disappear to, huh?”

[43:47] “Say...Which one is the real you? The annoying one who forced me to run in the rain? Or the perverse one who is currently being pinned down by me, growing aroused?”

You try and break free from his grip. 

*Rustle rustle*

[44:03] “I...Let’s see...I prefer the one with the sweeter blood. Mm...”

*Smooch*

[44:16] “And? You’re gonna continue to be that persistent?”

You nod. 

[44:23] “Hah! I see. ...In that case, I don’t need you anymore. You can just freeze here by yourself. I’m gonna go sleep over at your room instead. See you.”

Shuu tries to get up from the bed but you try and stop him. 

[44:38] “Did you just ask me to wait...? Why? I’m no longer interested in you, you see. If you stay there like that, you might just get lucky and someone else eager to suck your blood will notice you.”

You insist that he stays. 

[45:00] “Haha...Why are you stopping me? Do you want me to suck from you that badly? In that case, try and voice it out loud. Tell me that I’m the only one for you. Come on, say it.”

You tell him. 

[45:19] “Hahaha...See? You can do it if you try. Do you finally understand? You might be completely dependent on me, but I can cut ties with you at literally any second. If you don’t want that to happen, you have no other choice but to do your best.”

He takes a seat on the bed again.

[45:42] “Come on, I’ll suck you. ...Aah, quite a lot of blood has gone to waste. Mm...”

*Sluuuurp*

[45:57] “Not sweet enough...You have to dislike it more...”

Shuu bites you once more.

*Rustle rustle* 

[46:09] “Heh...Exactly...Cry out and try enduring the pain...Make me feel exactly what it’s like to burst with life and energy...Mmh...”

[46:25] “I don’t really know what it feels like to be ‘alive’ after all...If you’ll let me experience it instead...Mmh...It might cure my boredom just a little...”

[46:43] “Where do you want me to suck from next? ...Tell me yourself. Plea for it. You’re the one who’s begging to be sucked after all. So it only makes sense for you to say it, right?”

You randomly pick a place. 

[47:01] “Hm...The collarbone, huh? So cliched. But it’s right by the bone, isn’t it? Don’t you think it’ll hurt when I bite down? Well...I assume you just mindlessly blurted out ‘collarbone’.”

You realize your mistake. 

[47:26] “What a fool...Mm...”

He bites your collarbone.

[47:33] “See? It hurts, doesn’t it? I’m biting all the way down to the bone after all. However, the blood here is sweet as well.”

*Rustle rustle* 

[47:48] “On top of that...I get to see your face twist in pain, it’s nice. ...Right, I’ll suck from the other side too. You asked for it after all. It’s a drag but I’ll do you a favor. Moving to a completely different place (7) would be a pain too after all.”

Shuu bites down again. 

*Rustle*

[48:23] “Why are you trying to fight back a little? ...Ah, just cut it out. It’s a drag. You should just shut up and let me suck your blood...”

He continues sucking your blood. 

[48:42] “Aah...Come on. Your blood’s getting more and more rich too...Mm...The more you struggle, the more you please me...Doesn’t make you happy? So...show me more of that expression.”

[49:11] “Haah...But I guess a neck covered in bite marks would displease you even more, huh? I’ll suck from your nape again.”

*Rustle*

[49:28] “Mm...Nn...”

*Smooch*

“But I can’t seem to stop either...I must look like a fool...Getting all desperate, sucking your blood while practically naked...Haha...”

[49:50] “This is all your fault. And it’s also what you wished for. You’re well aware of that too, aren’t you?”

You turn your head away.

[50:04] “You want to drive me mad, don’t you? Which is why you should just submit your body to the pain I bestow upon you. If you do that...”

Shuu shifts closer.

[50:17] “I don’t mind doting on you just a little...So come on, cry out in pain and desparation more. Haahn...”

*Rustle*

*THUD*

ーー THE END ーー

Translation notes

(1) The term なまむるい or ‘nama-nurui’ means ‘lukewarm’, but it is also used to imply that you aren’t quite satisfied with something. In English this is sometimes the case as well, for example ‘a lukewarm reaction’. 

(2) 何気取り or ‘nani kidori’ literally means ‘which role are you trying to take (in regards to me)?’. I assume this is similar to how in English one may say ‘Are you my mom or something?’ when someone is being too meddlesome. 

(3) Shuu uses the term 腹上死 or ‘fukujoushi’ here which is something I had never heard of before but apparently it refers to death occurring during sexual intercourse. I’m not quite sure how this fit in the context, so I just translated it as ‘stroke’ because ‘fukujoushi’ is often connected with cardiac arrest or strokes which spontaenously happen during sex. 

(4) He says 人肌 or ‘hito-hada’ in Japanese which literally means ‘the skin of a person’. 

(5) 顔 or ‘kao’ which means face is also often used to more generally refer to someone’s (good) looks in general.

(6) Similarly to the face = looks generalization, the word 頭 or ‘atama’ which means head, commonly refers to someone’s intelligence as well. For example, ‘smart’ in Japanese is 頭がいい or ‘atama ga ii’ which literally means ‘your head is good’. 

(7) Literally he says 大幅移動 or ‘oohaba idou’ which means a ‘large-distance movement’. 

[theeggistheworld]

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[tsukiyamavalentine]

Long rambling abt Shuu, dealing with stress & sharing personal things (idk what this is sorry)

Block tags : #lopey personal to not see stuff like this lmao

Idc if it’s weird or sad af, but imagining Shuu in the same room with me, telling me to calm down or holding my hand, even just telling me it’ll be okay - it’s really saved me.

He’s basically a part of my conscience. Like I’ll look at a situation and ask myself what I want to do, what the best thing to do is, when to take action, and lastly ; if Shuu was in this situation, what I tell him?

It’s really helped me. I struggle with consistent journaling and stuff, but I find that if I frame the journal as a letter or note to Shuu, it’s way easier to deal with what I’m feeling. It adds clarity, I guess.

Or sometimes I can imagine sitting with him and he asks me what I feel, and I can tell him, and the way he could respond could be by telling me what to do or I can imagine him hugging me or whatever.

I know it’s all in my head, that I’m just talking to a part of myself, and that this is a result of constant cosmic loneliness, trauma, and mental illness, but it really helps me.

I guess what I’m trying to say, is that I think it’s good for me to do this. It really helps me organise my thoughts and prevents me from being overly hard on myself.

I haven’t called myself stupid or worthless in months, because each time I’ve wanted to, I’ve stopped and asked : would I say this to Shuu if he had done what I have?

And it’s always a no.

It’s no secret that we are unnecessarily hard on ourselves, and I think looking at our actions as if someone else (someone we love) had done them can prevent that. There came a point where I realised that I deserved to treat myself with the softness and love I treat Shuu with.

Ik this is a weird post, and that I’ve shared lots of personal things lately. (U can block tags if u want).

The reason I share so much abt myself is bc I’ve never had anyone close to me to do this with, and I think it’s important to share some of these things with others. I think sharing it also helps me maintain a positive and healthy attitude, and I trust my followers not to respond to this by mocking me or trivualising my struggles.

I think, in order for us to become good people with healthy habits, we have to share some of these personal parts of ourselves, no matter how ridiculous or stupid we may think they are.

Of course, lots of people aren’t comfortable doing this, and they don’t need to be. Hearing the experiences of others can be just as helpful. As someone who’s more than open to sharing these parts of myself, I think it’s important for me to do so.

I’ve had people try and tell me to not do this, or that I’m attention-seeking for sharing parts of myself that are vulnerable. I’m not here to say I’m not attention-seeking - I most certainly am. I am basically a human peacock.

However, sharing parts of me is not for attention. It’s ultimately to offer others - but mostly myself - some peace of mind. I’m not going to share things I’m not comfortable with, that’s why I don’t or delete it very quickly.

Recently, I’ve sort of taken a new approach to what I share, or maybe just my attitude towards myself has changed. I realised that I was not loving myself and treating myself with kindness. I realised that I was associated with people who did not love, care, or have respect for me. And I realised that my fears of being more alone, more isolated, and my fears of pain was holding me back, and ultimately, causing more pain.

And making the decisions to remove those things that held me back has made a huge change for me.

I’m hurting, a lot, and I can say that I’m not okay at all. I’m angry. I’m upset. I’m confused. But there’s a difference to it now.

There is a feeling of hope in the background. I accept my emotions, I feel them, I examine them and I try to understand them. I’m not always happy with them, and I don’t always think they are justified, but they are valid and I should feel them anyway.

I have realised, lately, that I was not living with as much peace and love as I wanted. I’m not there yet, and I know that learning to do so will be a hard and long journey, but I can say that I believe I am on the right path.

I have no idea what this was. An expression of something, I suppose. Sometimes I begin writing things and I just can’t stop. I hope there was something of value in this, even if it is just the sappy jabber of a squishy human with an imaginary cannibal by their side.

TLDR: imaginary friends are cool. talk to ppl about you. ur feelings are valid. there is no peace without love.

(Reminder: block tag : # lopey personal to not see stuff like this)

[codenamethebird]

Ok here is part 2 (part 1 here). 

Rest of this au here.

Explanation under cut because I know I ramble and this post is already long, also some major bnha manga overhaul arc spoilers but if you have read this it might be a little too late for that.

Ok this took both a really long time and a short time. How I managed this I have no idea. Anyways ok, so explanation time because this might be confusing. Nageki/Eri is kidnapped and experimented on by Shuu overhaul in an attempt to destroy quirks. Nageki tries to commit suicide via fire like the game so it would completely destroy his body and Shuu can’t use him anymore to hurt people. He succeeds but in this au Shuu has overhaul’s quirk which can reconstruct stuff including people within a time frame, so Shuu arrived within that time frame to revive Nageki. Nageki of course is not exactly happy about that because he is basically shoved right back into hell. Then I reveal the reason for all this is the promise Shuu made to Ryuuji, that he would grant a wish of Ryouta’s. This time instead of deciding to commit genocide for like a 9? year old wanting people not to hurt each other he decides to go the slightly less murdery route of destroying all quirks. (Side note: Nageki is not like 4 years older than Hiyoko is this au, he is the year younger that Hiyoko thinks he is at beginning of the game, it just makes things less complicated. Also he gets kidnapped by Shuu when he is a lot younger maybe 9 idk somewhere around that).

Also the Hatoful House incident went down quite a bit different in this au. Instead of human extremists it was the Muscular equivalent super villain of this au who just decided to murder a bunch of children for fun. Hiyoko’s parents were a pro-hero team and they died protecting the hatoful kids (Hiyoko also is basically Kouta but that isn’t the 2nd person she is crossovered with, now I guess she is three people from bnha, that is the issue with the fact that bnha has so many characters and hatoful has like less that 20. I will reveal Hiyoko’s other crossover when I do the rescue Eri/Nageki comic I will do eventually). I’m not sure but I think Nageki ends up rewinding the villain to non-existence but I’m not sure. So yeah Ryouta watches all this and is like why do people hurt people with their quirks and Shuu in his messed up mind is like, oh yes he wants me to end all quirks I’m a genius.   

Yeah if there are any questions about this comic or the rest of this au ask me because I have spent way to much time thinking about this au.   

[gunkbaby]

Questionable late night ramble about having crushes and love (or something idk its late and i have Thoughts)

I feel so weird simping for irl people that have played Shuu. I don’t really crush on irl people (don’t laugh I’m mentally ill)

I always worry that I’m doing something wrong / creating a parasocial relationship if I save photos or simp for the irl actors lol, i don’t wanna be creepy. I feel like having crushes on irl people is not something I’m ‘allowed’ to do. I feel so inhuman most of the time, something like that feels almost illegal.

When I was a kid I never had any crushes either, (maybe jason from friday 13th was my first, and i was at least 11 by then) but everyone around me always acted like I had crushes and was just being secretive about it, and they’d laugh and embarrass me. I’d start crying, but they always maintained I was secretive, trying to hide my crushes and stuff..?

I used to crush on animated characters though, like that’s always been my thing. I used to think I was really weird though, because no one else I knew did that. Like I said, I felt so inhuman, even back then. I really think I was born on the wrong planet, maybe I’m an alien, or maybe this is hell.

Anyway. I thought I would get more normal now that I’m older, but I feel like I’ve just gotten weirder. Maybe the reason why being attracted to actual real humans feels so criminal is because of how I was treated growing up, or maybe I just hate myself that much. Who’s to say anymore.

I want to be attracted to irl people, but real men are so…🫤 and women are also kind of 🫤

I have never met another enby, so i cant tell, but in my experience, most irl people tend to hate me on site. I doubt I will ever find anyone who will love me, let alone be attracted to me. I don’t like that. I really wanna be loved. I hate being alone, but that’s all my life is. I hate it. I feel like an alien in the worst way possible

[mythicamagic]

omg I never really paid attention to shuyui cause Idk I always thought he was kind a cold towards her and stuff but holy shiiiit that post... I never knew Shu could be like that! I can't believe their relationship is so sweet and it's CANON unlike my other ship for shu (which I don't really ship anymore cause it doesn't even compare to this... in the end it's just friendship anyway) THANK YOU FOR WRITING THAT POST!

To be fair anon, at first I didn’t really pay Shuu or Shuyui attention for that same reason, but reading the game translations for him really helped shed light on why people are drawn to him and the ship. Imo they’re a very ‘quiet love’ sort of pair. What I mean by that, is that they’re a couple that don’t state words of affection openly all the time and are very comfortable during silences together. They have a natural bond and chemistry that go beyond the high adrenaline of more action orientated ships and this compatibility makes them have an understated but affectionate relationship once a lot of development has happened. 

But credit goes to the op of the post for writing the original. I just piggybacked off the post to ramble XD

[dollyshious]

[@forsakenoathkeeper​ inspired me to put together a little host club headcanon thingy. We bounced some ideas back and forth and this masterpiece is what we came up with.]

Shuu The Apathetic Prince Type • Hates his father for forcing him into this job. • Supposed to be in charge, but Reiji does all the work. • Doesn’t have to try, clients are naturally attracted to him. • Doesn't express much interest in his client's ramblings, but actually remembers the important details of his regulars. • His favorite clients are the ones that let him nap on their lap during meetings. • Rumor has it that he’s a talented violinist, some clients have even tried to pester him into playing, but he refuses to acknowledge them. • Is usually laying down during meetings, which never ceases to annoy Reiji.

Reiji The Lucid Gentleman Type • Is the one that has to keep everyone in order. • Regularly has to get the building repaired for damage caused by his brothers roughhousing.   • Exquisite chef, clients always rave about his phenomenal culinary skills.   • He isn’t afraid to correct the poor manners and etiquette of his clients. • Yet, he’s very good about making sure all clients are satisfied. • His regulars appreciate him for his great service.   • Will do dance lessons with his clients. there is no one he can't teach.

Ayato The Proud Delinquent Type • Is very competitive when it comes to clients. • He’s always trying to impress them by doing cool tricks (cool to him at least). • Secretly, super jealous of Subaru’s high clientele. • A lot of his clients like to mother him. • He likes to arrange clients according to their cup-size. • Ironically, his favorites tend to be flat chested, coincidence? I think not. • Loves it when his clients are genuinely engaged in his interests.

Kanato The Haughty Shota Type • Only accepts clients that have quality taste in sweets and understand the respect Teddy deserves. • Doesn’t mind having less clientele, he likes to say it’s because he only wants worthwhile clients, but it’s actually because large groups overwhelm him. • Gets really offended if one of his clients switches to another host. • Usually, isn’t one to give advice freely, but if buttered up enough, Teddy might. • Often refers to his clients as his dolls. • Tends to dote more on his regulars, especially ones that share their orders with him. • Sometimes he likes to amaze his clients by performing magic tricks.

Laito The Sexual Deviant Type • Enjoys his job a little WAY too much. • Probably the most unprofessional. • Isn’t above meeting his clients outside of work, much to Reiji's dismay. • Yet, he doesn’t get attached. • Underhandedly, tries to steal his brother’s clients. • Is really good at taking care of clients with unique needs. • Has a natural talent for knowing each and every girl's favorite massage location, which he'll gladly do for them.

Subaru The Aggressive Tsundere Type • Out of all of his brother, he gets the most clients. • Just like Shuu, he doesn’t have to try. • Clients love to call him cute just to see his flustered reaction. • Many of them will give him cutesy nicknames, which he loathes. • Has a bad habit of breaking stuff, sometimes accidental, sometimes not. • Often gets scolded by Reiji for his swearing, but he doesn’t give a f— • Floral arrangements! Aside from Shuu and Reiji, nobody knows that he has been designing all the centerpieces for the tables.  

[dixbolik-lovers]

What If their S/O wants them to talk about their past and stuff because they belive It's better to just let It all out? (I hope my english Is ok)

Admin Mawile: (,,꒪꒫꒪,,)

Shuu:

-He’s already actively trying to ignore every bit of his past, and talking about it is the last thing he wants to do. To begin with, he’ll only mention it if you’re extremely close to him, and even then, he doesn’t like bringing up until you’re so important to him it can’t be kept squashed down for any longer. 

Reiji:

-His past is a bitter, shameful thing, and the last thing he wants is for you to know what kind of pitiful child he was. You should see him as nothing but superior, and he’s not going to jeopardize that by letting you know every horrible thing that happened to him. 

Ayato:

-He’ll rant about “that woman” often enough, but it’s difficult to piece together any real information out of his ramblings. Ayato hates to admit to any weakness, and he, unfortunately, sees his time as a child as nothing but one big nightmare of being absolutely pathetic. 

Kanato:

-While he’s definitely one to complain to you about every little thing that bothers him, his past is something you’ll only hear about in confusing, tearful excerpts. It’s highly unlikely that he’ll genuinely open up, and the most you’ll really know is what you can make out from his worse fits. 

Laito:

-He might pretend to open up to you about his past, but the real details will remain safely hidden. It’s dangerous to let you know just how vulnerable he can be, and telling you anything true about how things used to be isn’t going to happen until you’re immensely close to him. 

Subaru:

-He’s well aware of how filthy and horrible he is, but that doesn’t mean you have to know it all just yet. If your companionship really matters to him, he’s afraid of scaring you off or making you hate him, or worse, letting out something much too vulnerable to take back. 

Ruki:

-He hates admitting to weakness of any kind, and letting you know how pathetic he used to be is unthinkable. You should never know that he was once no better than the livestock you are, and the mere thought of going into detail about his past make him feel worryingly nauseous. 

Kou:

-His past is an absolute nightmare, and the sooner he can push every bit of it out of his mind, the better. He’ll tell you about what happened to him, yes, but only with the kind of total emotional detachment that comes from blocking out every bit of feeling he has for the matter. 

Yuuma:

-He wouldn’t mind telling you… if he actually knew much of anything. Compared to how many memories are probably missing, the orphanage is just a short, awful burst that isn’t too hard to go over. The real problem is what he’s forgotten, and what might be hiding out of reach in his mind. 

Azusa:

-He’ll happily tell you everything he can remember, all while acting like nearly every awful event was perfectly okay. Aside from how his brothers had to suffer, he’s mostly come to terms with the loneliness he went through, and has no problems with letting you know every gruesome detail. 

Carla:

-He detests anyone seeing him as anything but perfect, and his miserable childhood is exactly the kind of thing he wants to keep quiet about. He was an absolutely pathetic child, and you’re the last person he ever wants to know that. You won’t be hearing a word about his past. 

Shin:

-He’s only willing to tell you the parts that don’t make him look bad, and everything else is going to be staying carefully buried where no one will ever remember. There’s no way you’ll get to know about the more pathetic moments of his past, and he’d do just about anything to keep it that way.