#sirius black is NOT a fucking twink

[swatchitt]

beating the 'sirius is a twink' allegations

new watermark because im insecure

[peachesfuzz]

Average siblings interactions: Sirius Black and Regulus Black edition 

*Regulus walks in*

Sirius: what the fuck are you doing here with that fuckass Bob

*Sirius having his third mental breakdown of the week*

Regulus: Have you considered killing yourself

*Regulus drowning*

Sirius: okayyy Jeff Buckley realness

Sirius shows his fit to Regulus: do you like it?

Regulus: Idgaf if you gay GET A STYLIST

Regulus : I think I’m going to join a cult

Sirius: do you know how hard it is to be related to a fucking loser

Regulus storms into Sirius’ room who’s blasting Björk: turn that busted gay shit off

*Regulus dies*

Sirius: Twink down!

*Regulus mumbling to himself on the floor writing the same thing over and over again*

Remus looking at Regulus: what the fuck is this kid doing

Sirius: he’s creating the most advanced strap technology to date

Regulus: what is wrong with me

Sirius : raggedy hips, poor digestion, dehydration, ashtray, trapped under some dark lord’s foreskin

[elysianymph]

🔥 anything about sirius because i am being a little hater towards some characterisations too

i've already talked your ears off about this on discord but i'm happy to talk to about it again bc i fucking HATE new sirius black with a burning passion. i hate him as much as i love my sirius black that marauderstok can pry from my cold dead hands bc i'm not letting him go. i don't know when it happened and why but marauders fans are particularly persistent on taking away any interesting traits sirius had and leaving behind a whimpering pathetic twink that cries when someone looks at him the wrong way. sirius has been scrubbed clean of any morally grey traits he might've had (he's not allowed to care for his family (unless it's regulus) or long for them bc they are bad, he's not allowed to have any prejudices even though he was literally raised with pureblood mentality and taught he was superior to everyone else from the day he was born, he's not allowed to be an asshole bc he's not like his family guys!! and when he is an asshole it's always used to victimize the character he's being an asshole to and sirius is painted as the villain with mommy issues that can only be fixed by getting dicked down apparently)

i cannot stress this enough: LET THIS MAN BE A COMPLEX CHARACTER!! and no, giving him mental illnesses that miraculously disappear when he gets together with remus and making him attempt to kill himself post prank because he feels bad is NOT making him complex! you're just weird. you're just romanticizing mental illnesses and i can't believe you don't see anything wrong with it. giving him bipolar to justify his actions is?? not??? representation??? it's offensive to people who actually have to deal with these issues in their day to day lives and yet here you are using something that will impact their life forever as a plot device for your uwu sadboy mlm fanfic.

and that's what new sirius boils down to. he's a plot device, an accessory to everyone else's story that's never given much depth other than "oh his mom used the cruciatus on him and now he's traumatized". no hate to jegulus but hate to specific jegulus fics that turn sirius into an overdramatic caricature of his former self for the sake of drama and angst.

also, some of these wolfstar shippers... wtf are you guys on?? idk when and why (that's a lie i do but i'm not gonna say it) remus became sirius black in a werewolf costume but here we are. oh sirius was cool and effortlessly smart and handsome and girls wanted him? well guess what? snatches all of those character traits and throws them onto remus they're his character traits now. ignore how it doesn't make any sense for the werewolf child who was isolated from the rest of the world to be a smooth talking alpha casanova who plays basketball actually. while we're at it, ignore how unrealistic it is for a boy who was raised in a family that believed they were superior to everyone else based on blood status, who was raised to be the perfect heir and checked off all the traits needed to be one to be insecure?? and unsure of himself?? and stupid??? and a loser??? i don't understand what the point of flipping the wolfstar dynamic was when you're left with a shallow copy of the original but ok. you do you ig.

to summarize, my sirius is cool and effortlessly smart and egotistical and a complete asshole who thinks he's the best thing ever. is it an act to cover up how damaged he thinks he is because of his family? possibly. but i also fully believe sirius thought he was a god amongst men and everyone should be glad to be in his presence. he talked down to other people because he considered himself smarter, he rolled his eyes when students asked stupid questions and made fun of them when they got an answer wrong. he's a teenage boy let him be a dick with no excuses.

(also i find it funny when people write about sirius getting into a fight with james or remus and crying because they said something mean. as if sirius wouldn't throw hands the moment someone started criticizing him. he's toxic and that's what makes him interesting. that's his purpose! characters exist to make stories interesting, to start drama, not to be your moral guide on how to act. stories become so much more fun once you let go of the need to make every character a good person. also liking a character doesn't equal liking them as a person. i love sirius but i would hate his guts irl)

[waxingrunes]

your art is the most realistic art i have seen this fandom spit out i really wish you would make remus shorter and stop making oc’s

This is why I lose enthusiasm for you cunts.

Sick of defending a fucking drawing, a fictional character. Sick of the same agendas in this online world where Remus has to be this fucking wet mop of a man who has one singular personality trope of being obsessed with Sirius Black and wouldn’t say boo to a goose. Have you met real men? You ever interacted with your average Joe, who is a bit shy, bit awkward, bit of a weirdo but he doesn’t have to come with a pre installed stutter and helpless heart eyes and no other arsenal but a goo goo gaga state of mind for his love interest. You lot are unhealthily obsessed. Daily, fucking, bullshit, daily headcanons, daily this, daily that.

My Remus and Sirius are never going to change. What’s insane is the amount of ‘heteronormative’ claims I see attached to this debacle of height and size. I know a man, who is exceptionally tall, built, has had a boyfriend, and topped him the entire way through the relationship. He did not enjoy bottoming, and yet is a bisexual individual, nothing ‘stereotypical’ homosexual about him or his appearance whatsoever. In fact, he’s very much a Remus variant in my eyes; he is softly natured, introverted, and selective socially and STILL A STONY TOP. Real life, real person, not curated from a thread you found on Twitter and have swallowed up whole.

What happened to coming into a fandom space, making something and going, “that’s hot”. When did it become a space to make sure every representation was ticked, to make sure one character isn’t too this or too that. I’m not here to read the same stories or see the same art 100 times over. I fell in love with these two men and have since had a very solid image of them in my head and create art based off of those ideas. I don’t feel pressured to make sure I give my Remus certain soft traits to justify making him look the way I do. I don’t feel the need to advertise Sirius being this massively charismatic guy just to give him a personality because otherwise you might think he doesn’t have one, because of the slightly more feminine light I draw him in (which is misogynistic you dumb fucks). Just because, I draw my Remus tall and a buffed out lank, does not make him an ultra turbo Alpha. Just because I draw my Sirius smaller, does not mean he is a helpless twink. But here’s the secret nobody’s telling you— even if I did draw them like that, even if those were my holy canons and preferences for these boys, that’s okay. I’m here to create things that make me go, “fuck yeah that’s hot”, “hell yeah I want to see Sirius get pulverised by Remus and no I don’t want to see Remus get pulverised by Sirius and no I don’t feel the need to defend that”, “yeah I prefer tough love over easy love”, “absolutely love it when one of them is a dick to the other and there’s heaps of toxic tension, or maybe they’re both like that and they’re both sarcastic pricks that have to work it out”. I’m never going to adhere to the obsession of character moulds you lot have created.

Sick of this space being turned into a political pansy parade. It’s alright if you want to draw this gay couple with any features you want, hyper masculine, hyper feminine, somewhere in the middle, trans, prefer one of them topping, prefer them to be asexual, prefer them to be toxic and have grit (that’s my trope), or just want easy fluff. And it’s also alright if you’re just in fandom because you’re a bit perverted (like me) and wanted to explore that in a couple you found super fucking hot. Don’t let people use the word fetishise, don’t let people use the word heteronormative, don’t let people bamboozle you with big words and reams of bullet points to incite shame, don’t let people box you in, just keep watching the porn, keep consuming the porn, keep avoiding the shit you want to avoid, and enjoy what you want without shame.

[acewitch-writes]

James. Sirius. Remus with a small dick. TELL ME MORE (crawling out the depths from our discord bc everyone needs to know about this)

YES BESTIE I AM HERE TO SERVE

OKAY PICTURE IT:

Sirius and James share everything, so of course they're gonna share Remus, right? And I'm so sick of the fandom obsession with sub sissy waif-boy Sirius with his micro-peen and dom daddy Remus with his monster dong, it's completely overdone and I am craving variety.

So I'm pushing the twink Remus agenda to combat the fetishized werewolf monster cock narrative the fandom has for Remus. I've been envisioning a potential smutfic in which hung James and Sirius DP Remus, and the whole time they are just gushing about his adorable little cock. And Remus loves it, it's literally his wildest dream come true to be wedged between Sirius Black and James Potter while they dote on him and shower him in endless praise (and a touch of degradation for optimum kinky potential)

Also, since "top" and "bottom" are not lifelong roles assigned based on dick size and height in mlm ships, small dick Remus def gets to top Sirius at least once. And Sirius really cares about bolstering Remus' confidence because the poor dude is just so lacking in it, so he puts on the performance of a lifetime and makes him feel like a fucking God. Remus is so pleased with himself afterwards and he struts around with a rare spring in his step for weeks. (And Sirius will never admit to him that it was actually a little underwhelming)

[stargazingtranquility]

In sixth year some dickbag made Marlene cry because he started calling her “Manlene” (she’s buff af okay? Between quidditch and overall being a badass she’s got muscles and there is nothing not feminine about being able to bench twinks) so the marauders retaliate by wearing skirts around Hogwarts.

Sirius starts it, unbothered as he struts into the great hall in a skirt. James joins soon after, winning the Gryffindor vs Ravenclaw quidditch game while wearing a skirt. Remus and Peter don’t even let it become a “thing” when they are randomly seen in Hogwarts buying skirts for any boy that wants it.

Pretty soon the other houses are getting in on it. Hufflepuff head boy even starts a fucking business for the younger years who can’t go to hogsmeade and buy some or they don’t know how to transfigure their own clothes into skirts. Ravenclaw posts dress code around the castle when one teacher starts trying to give the boys detention for being “out of uniform” (fuck you, it doesn’t say skirts are strictly for female presenting student).

When fifth years, Regulus Black, Evan Rosier, and Barty Crouch Jr are all seen trailing behind Pandora and Dorcas in the most daring skirts yet, because they’re mini, Sirius takes that as a fucking challenge.

[thebibutterflyao3]

Twink Sirius Black vs Bear Sirius Black

TLDR: Do whatever you want, there’s so much variation in canon that you can justify just about anything. Personally, I make everyone gay, neurodivergent, and ethnically diverse, so…

I find the debate surrounding the presentation of fictional characters in fan fiction both fascinating and amusing. Especially when the original media has both a written and visual canon that don’t agree with each other. If the author can’t be bothered to stick to one script, why should we?

In the HP universe, the movies aged up several of the adult characters by about 15-20 years! I know that no one asked for my opinion, but I’m a Virgo and honestly can’t help myself.

Sirius: The tall, strapping early 30s Sirius Black of the books who Harry describes an obscene number of times as hot is a melodramatic mid-40s man who is 5’8,” slim, wears velvet and fur jackets with all of the accessories, and is objectively mid (don’t hate me, but it’s true) in the movies.

Remus: No mention of height, attractiveness, or even scars(!), but he is described as tired, prematurely aging, and as having light brown hair in the books. The movies gave us a 6’2,” lanky, late 30s, scarred Remus in cardigans and oversized/ill-fitting suits.

Regulus: In the books, Harry’s view of Regulus is that (at 16) he looks a lot like his brother, but is smaller, thinner, and attractive, but not as hot as Sirius. In the movies, he’s portrayed in one image as tall, athletic, and rather plain.

James: In the books, he’s described (as a teenager) as tall and thin, with black messy hair, glasses, and looks nearly exactly like Harry. In the movies, he’s 5’8,” has a stocky build, has neat, medium brown hair, looks nothing like Harry, and is portrayed as a 21 year old by a 44 year old actor.

***I would also like to note that JKR made her “good characters” predominantly skinny, heteronormative, and attractive, but “bad characters” predominantly overweight and comically unattractive, while also making 80-90% of her characters white.*** So, she can fuck right off.

[finedinereception]

Why is Sirius on your brain SO much?

Explain in Mario terms

make my brain go -flag pole noise-

haha okay but actually here we go. this is disorganized and more me vomiting my thoughts out and making you look at him but yknow.

the black hole server: the most soul sucking and messed up place to live since america

thanks for the insightful commentary, buddy

so sirius lives the life of the average True Gamer, in a dark hole full of anime figurines and merchandise or whatever. he likes adding to that collection and then fucking around with it because bloodsport really never died to him. who cares what ign had to say.

unfortunately, like all gamers, his home is not hospitable to most life.

weaker em beings apparently “enervate and die” within the server. thats delightfully fucked up, and honestly, a vast empty, dark, cold space that sucks the life out of pretty much everything around it and is only truly habitable to one lifeform is an insanely cool idea that i always love.

uh…. roche limit????

obviously, with such an unfriendly gamer den, sirius himself does not get a lot of company.

we’ll come back to this next section.

but basically the black hole server is a really cool idea and location that really serves to emphasize what an outside-context issue sirius is. he feels very “other” in this world, in part thanks to where hes made his home.

with friends like these, who needs mega man?

sirius has some… interesting ideas about what is good and reasonable for people. or what constitutes a healthy platonic relationship. actually just relationships in general.

i think its interesting he jumped straight to this with mega man, when he also harbored apollo flame, who was pretty damn open about his intentions to eventually usurp and subjugate sirius

WHICH SIRIUS WAS AWARE OF BTW

apollo flame! oh, you, always on about taking over the universe!

this is weird to say, with what we know about sirius in general and his personality (which we’ll be getting to soon) but… theres this pervasive sense that he views the Rs as a mix between pawns and, like, his perverse version of “friends”

the use of “our” here is interesting, along with the implication that sirius shares more information with them than he actually needs to

and the fact that sirius has the tendency to start talking to himself in the middle of a conversation…

and the fact that he enforces a friendly relationship between those who dont get along…

theres just a weird sense of sirius “playing” with dynamics, and while its certainly useful to him, its easy to imagine a hint of curiousity in there. the exploration of one of the only things that cant be taken by force.

of course you have blue skin and pronouns

look at him. look at him. hes based on a squid. hes got that squid drip. i think sirius would be into deep sea life. im choosing to view this as an in-character choice. he likes squid now, okay?

also. he canonically sparkles. LOOK AT HIM. LOOK AT THIS SPARKLING SQUID TWINK. GOD. HE MAKES ME INSANE.

i also dont know where else to mention this, but hey what was up with mu metal. is he tied to mu. what was that about lmao. bro got pica.

he has 97 mental illnesses and is banned from most public spaces

he is so fucking stupid😭

the main, and final, thing i want to bring up is his extreme case of blue and orange morality. because being rude is worse than destroying a planet to him.

from here on out ill be using direct quotes since i actually have access to these and writing and ive hit image limit. what can i say theres so much i want you to look at.

Sirius: ... I don't need that rude EM being for my collection. 

and

Sirius: I was hoping to enjoy watching everyone on the planet panic for a bit... But I suppose destroying it outright would be fun too. 

back to back is an interesting display of standards. but id go further and argue that… sirius doesnt really act with malice.

MegaMan: Peoples lives... Planets... They aren't toys for you to play with. Have you even considered the pain you are putting all those people down there though? Sirius: Everything here will cease to exist. A black hole has no need for such things as emotions. You should... be happy. You will live forever within the darkness. You will be mine. MegaMan: I wouldn't call that living! I'd rather not exist! Sirius: ...I see. Do you think that you might change your mind? Stopping you without causing you any injury would be a bit of a nuisance to me. It will be hard for us to play together with you injured.

and you could argue that this is an attempt at persuasion… except that sirius doesnt really need that. hes pretty confident in his ability to win a fight, so id argue this is genuinely just how he thinks. his fascination with destroying things is processed not with malicious intent but the same perverse curiosity that drives a child to pour water on an ant hill.

mean spirited? yeah, but its all in good fun to him.

hes the living version of all those jokes about a person who never talks to other people or goes outside or anything. hes had his own little bubble to develop the most deranged moral compass and interal narrative of all time.

tl;dr - ITS HARD TO NOT THINK ABOUT HIM A LOT

[mentallyadinonugget]

I’m not a really creative person and don’t have a definitive art style, but I’m decent at drawing stuff. So I take inspo from fanarts on Pinterest. Last night I saw a pin of Sirius and Remus and decided to draw it, I haven’t added my own touches in it yet because I keep noticing how much sirius looks like a girl in EACH and almost every wolfstar fanart I’ve seen till now.

Words can’t describe how much I hate when ppl portray Sirius black as a weak twink.

And this is how it turned out.

Idk if I should continue working on it because it’s lowkey really uncomfortable because I didn’t get it completely right.

I’m aware that some ppl like to think Sirius is trans or genderfluid, I respect that and I agree that Sirius black is feminine but he PART TAKES in doing all of that (he paints his nails, he wears gowns and dresses, and he doesn’t care about toxic masculinity) but Sirius is still a man acc to my headcanon

if someone has some masc Sirius refs can you pls send that to me I REALLY wanna draw stuff with variety

also how the fuck do I fix his face it looks like that carrington guy on Instagram 😭

SIRIUS SERVES CUNT!!!! BUT IN A QUEER WAY!!!

HE PLAYED QUIDDITCH AND WORKED OUT DAILY AND GOT IN FIGHTS WITH ANYONE WHO MADE FUN OF HIS LOVED ONES PLS STOP POTRAYING HIM AS A DRAMATIC TWINK OH MY GOD (ok i take it back he’s v dramatic but he’s not THAT twinky)

[pinklume]

I’m just gonna say it twink Sirius Black fucking sucks

[motherfuckingmaneater]

1 + 6 for your choose violence meme please. also i agree so hard about your thoughts on Sirius... I find it so fucking cringe when people make him some edgy twink boy who blushes and scrunches his jumper sleeves up and has dirty painted nails like no STOP insulting my husband.

choose violence ask game.

the character everyone gets wrong.

Bellatrix Lestrange. She. Is. Not. Insane. Absolutely nowhere in the book does it say she's insane or not of sound mind. Harry perceives her to be as 'mad as her Master' because she is obsessively loyal to Voldemort, but she is always absolutely of sound mind. That is one of the most interesting things about her; she doesn't go mad after Azkaban? HOW? People should be speculating on that rather than making her out to be fucking crazy. Dipshits.

Sirius Black. I am so sick of fanon interpretation. He's tall and intimidating and hot as fuck, he's masculine, arrogant and dark. He's haughty as hell and has to unlearn that but never really does. He's not a good guy - not until he learns to be.

Narcissa Malfoy. No, she's not abused and the soft little flower who got married off and sent home. I have expressly said this before and I will say this again. She's not an angel, she's a pureblood supremacist with very very pureblood views. Please see this post for a full breakdown.

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

Tomione shippers are fucking 🤡's. End of.

Dramione aren't as bad but can be really fucking annoying sometimes depending person to person. I've met no dramione shippers here on tumblr I find annoying however. Drarry will always be my preference for non-canon ships for Draco.

Tomarry is a pairing i'm really enjoying reading for the toxicity levels and the adventures but the fans can be waaaayyyyy too much sometimes and some of them are so damn annoying with how OOC they make Tom just to fit into the subtext of the enemies to lovers genre.

[twinkpoll]

we don't support terfs in this household but draco malfoy is a twink

I'm hesitant to include any HP characters, tbh. Just because she's gone fully off the fucking deep end into defending fucking Nazis. So there might be a blanket ban on HP characters.

Also, weirdly enough, the only two noms I've gotten are Sirius Black and James Potter.

I would have thought Remus, myself.

[titstraction]

ok ok i'm sorry i didn't give you a chance to be a hater before. maybe this will be better... what's your opinion on fancasts? just in general, but also in terms of the popular ones (idek what the prevalent ones are except for timmy as regulus, but i know there are a few people tend to gravitate to for r/s as well..)

hahah but i loved to wax poetic about delicious food still <3

i wanna preface this by saying that once i was looking at andrew kung’s photography and i saw the Most beautiful man in the world and i thought This Is Sirius Black. hes name is Jullian Culas and i edited photos from his instagram for a moodboard from my fanfic ‘blue’ and i follow him to this day and am always awestruck by his beauty and headcanon him as sirius a little sometimes. i was also into tripp when goyp was big and it was a whole thing. (and i get ben barnes as dorian gray)

and i think sirius fancasts works for me because i write him as the Most beautiful man and hes always super attractive, outstandingly pretty etc in my fic which is also popular fanon. so its plausible that he looks like a celebrity/model.

when it comes to remus though - hes just a regular guy. hes ugly-hot. he has a fucked up nose and scars on his face. he uses 3-in-1 shampoo. ive written him with a disability. even with art, i think remus is harder to visually Get right - and no celebrities/models look like that. same with fat lily, fat lily is so dear to me but there are not a lot of celebrities/models that are fat red heads. celebrity/model beauty can be very restrictive and even boring, and i think its better and more sexy for characters to be ‘normal’, have pimples, scars, body fat, disabilities etc than to look like celebrities. i think gay fanfiction is at its best a little transgressive, and fancasts that enforce unrealistic beauty standards can be quite detrimental to than end (unless your character is the Most beautiful man)

theres also the question of flexibility, like i enjoy trying new things, personality wise and looks wise, in each different work (like sometimes remus is a twink and sometimes hes scary looking) and how do you do that with a strict fancast? my characters in my head as i write are Vague Shapes and Concepts and i dont think i could write remus if i imagined him as Andrew Garfield.

plus, Andrew Garfield’s too much of a Person everyone knows about Actor Spiderman Emma Stone’s boyfriend once Network gay for me to just… fit a whole remus lore in him.

as for timmy - my mom has a big fat crush on Timothee Chalamet and as such i can not imagine him as regulus black. thats my mom’s sugar baby thank you very much.

[cowboylikelils]

Hey! If you're not too overwhelmed, could I request a ⛄ - snowman please?

I'm 5'4 (very embarrassing as a man lol) and I would dress punk. I have long hair and would wear make up because fuck gender roles. I enjoy reading classics, The Odyssey is probably one of my favourites. I collect vinyls and listen to them daily. I'm a huge fan of Green Day, The Undertones, Queen, Nirvana, ABBA and Black Sabbath. I bake my own bread. I love theatre. I guess I'm pretty much just a punk twink lol

𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 !

youre prob one of the coolest ppl ever ( i mean it lmao)

he would make fun of your height 😭

sirius would make you do his hair/makeup all the time

he would try to read classic books all the time to impress you but ended up quitting

dance sessions with him with the Queen's music in the background

note: im not sure what fandom you requested for but i did marauders era bcz everyone requested for it ;) if you didnt want the marauders, inbox me again!

[fruitcoops]

If you're still taking requests, could you do one where someone is making Remus really uncomfortable and someone from the team helps him out? (Preferably Sirius, Leo, Logan, James, or Dumo but everything you do is so good so it really doen't matter 😂❣)

Yep! Please take a look at the TW below before reading, since there are parts of this that are a bit intense. SW credit goes to @lumosinlove!

Combined with protective Sirius and Leo/ Loops friendship!

TW for a super creepy guy, unwanted handholding, unwanted flirting/ not taking no for an answer, innuendo, moderate panic attack, and alcohol

The folding chair next to Remus creaked as a tall man in a perfectly-tailored suit sat down hard in it. He was clearly a drink or two past tipsy, and something in Remus’ throat itched at the way the man’s eyes flickered across his chest and arms. “You’re Lupin, right? The new Lion?”

Remus set his drink down. “That’s me.”

“Stan Martin, nice to meet you.” Stan held his hand out and Remus shook it; his palm was clammy, and he held on just a second too long. Remus was the first to pull away after he felt a light squeeze from wrinkled fingers.

“Pleasure’s mine,” Remus said with a polite smile. Sirius was nowhere in sight, and everyone else was occupied in their own conversations. He swallowed hard. “Do you own a team?”

“Nah, I just fund ‘em,” Stan snorted. “Too much work otherwise, not enough time for play, if you know what I mean.”

Remus forced a laugh. “Right, yeah, totally. Are you involved with the Lions? I’m a bit new to the whole administration thing.”

“Even after being a PT for so long?” Stand gave him an incredulous look, but beneath it there was a shadow Remus didn’t like.

“Yep. I was pretty contained to my tape pallets and charts.” Joke it off, Lupin.

A hand, heavy from alcohol and lack of inhibitions, fell on Remus’ forearm with a few clumsy pats before settling on his wrist. Stan looked directly into his eyes. “If you ever need someone to, ah, show you the ropes, give me a call.”

Remus cleared his throat and tried to pull his arm away, but the hand didn’t budge. “I don’t think that will be necessary, but thank you for the offer.”

“No, really. The NHL is a complicated world. I’d be more than happy to take some of that weight off your shoulders.” Stan leaned closer and Remus tensed as his eyes roved his face. “Your freckles are much more striking in real life, Lupin.”

“Please let go of my arm, Mr. Martin.”

“Call me Stan.”

“Let go of me, Martin.”

An awful little grin spread over his thin lips. “You’re a spitfire, aren’t you? Too much for Captain Solitude, I bet.”

He jerked his head to the side of the room, where Remus saw Sirius making polite conversation with a woman in a long dress. A spike of fury bubbled up. “Are you talking about my fiancé?”

“Easy, tiger, I’m just saying—” He hiccupped and Remus tried to pull away, but Stan’s grip tightened by a fraction. “—I’m just saying, you could do better with someone who knows how to handle you.”

“I can handle myself just fine. If you don’t stop talking shit about my fiancé, I’ll—”

“What? You’ll do what?” Stan leered at him and Remus paused to shove down his nausea. “You know, you were much prettier before you tried to be like the rest of these jocks.”

“I’m leaving now.”

“I’m just being honest,” Stan huffed, never releasing Remus’ arm from his hold. Remus could feel his shoulders starting to shake. “You’ve got those cute little cheekbones. Very delicate, like—almost feminine. Those training regimens they put you on ruined it, in my opinion. Look, Lupin, when you get tired of tall, dark, and boring over there, gimme a call and you can be pretty aga—”

“What’s going on over here?” a falsely bright voice cut in. The chair on Remus’ other side clicked at its joints as Leo sat down, looking between them with icy eyes. “Am I missing out on all the fun?”

“Hey, Knutty,” Remus managed, wincing as his voice cracked. Stan leaned back in his chair and Remus quickly yanked his arm away, tangling his fingers together.

“Lupin and I were just having a chat,” Stan said, glancing back down at Remus’ lap until he tucked his hands under his thighs. “Nothing big and important.”

Leo’s knee pressed against his own. “Sirius was looking for you a minute ago.”

Stan’s jaw tightened. “What, we can’t finish our conversation?”

“No.” Remus channeled all his roiling discomfort and the urge to knock the creep’s teeth in as he stood up. “No, this conversation has been done for a while. Have a nice night, Mr. Martin.”

Leo’s arm was steady across his shoulders as they walked away; Remus’ vision tunneled, sparkling black at the sides. “Are you gonna be alright?” Leo asked under his breath, his accent soothing. Remus nodded. “You’re shaking, Re.”

“No, I’m not.” He grabbed a plastic cup of water off a nearby tray and nearly sloshed it all over himself. “Jesus fucking—”

“Re.” He could feel his teeth starting to chatter and sweat rolled down the too-tight collar of his shirt. Leo’s hand closed loosely around his own and took the cup. “C’mon.”

“Sirius was looking for me,” he protested as Leo led him down a side hall.

Leo shrugged. “Probably.”

“…he didn’t talk to you.”

“Nope.”

“You came to get me anyway.”

“Yep.”

The clog in Remus’ chest grew and he nearly tripped over his own feet. “Thanks, Knutty.”

A sharp puff of air cooled his burning face. “I’m sorry I didn’t get there sooner.”

“I tried to leave.” The words tangled around his tongue as Leo pushed open the bathroom door and led him to the sinks, dampening some paper towels. “I—fuck, Leo, I’m stronger than him but he was holding my arm so tight and I was so fucking freaked.”

“Easy, Re.” Leo sounded like he was trying to calm a spooked horse.

The towels were a balm in Remus’ hands and on his face as he pressed them over his mouth to muffle the wheezing noises. “I’d rather be called a slur to my face than have that happen again.”

The gentle circles on his back stopped for a second. “Do you want to talk about it?”

He shook his head. “I don’t—no. I just wanna go home.”

“Deep breaths.” Leo handed him a new towel to blow his nose, then pulled his phone out.

“Has anyone told you that you’re a kickass friend?”

A weak smile pulled at the corners of his mouth, but his face was still troubled. “Once or twice.”

Remus’ lungs were tight with a mix of fear and disgust; he felt a little like he wanted to throw up, and while Leo’s hand on his back was an anchor to the world, the rest of him screamed ‘don’t touch me’.

Barely two minutes later, the bathroom door swung open. “Honey? What happened?”

“Holy shit,” Remus managed as gray eyes swam into his field of view. Sirius. Sirius meant safety. Reality zoomed back at double speed and the dam broke—tears poured down his cheeks as his whole body began to shake again. “Holy shit.”

Sirius shushed him softly, pulling him close with a kiss to the top of his head. “D’accord, mon loup, je t’ai.”

“I love you,” Remus sobbed. The fabric of Sirius’ suit was probably wrinkling under his tight grip, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. “I love you so much for exactly who you are, okay? Don’t ever doubt that.”

“I know.” Confusion edged his voice, but he kept it low and gentle. Remus loved him for it, wildly. The door creaked as Leo left, and then there was silence.

He finally pulled his face out of Sirius’ chest, kissing his jaw, cheek, and lips before resting his forehead in the curve of his neck. “Thank you.”

Sirius’ hands eased through the curls above his ears as he cupped Remus’ face in his hands. “What happened, Re?”

Remus shook his head as revulsion rose again. “There was this creep and he wouldn’t let me go. Said some shitty stuff.”

“He was homophobic?” An angry furrow appeared between Sirius’ brows.

“I wish.” Stan’s words rang in his ears and made his mouth bitter with shame. Remus closed his eyes. He didn’t want to see Sirius’ face during his confession. “He, uh—he propositioned me. Kind of.”

“He what?”

“I didn’t catch on until he already had my arm.” Remus sniffled, pressing the heel of his hand below his eye to stem the tears. “He followed it up with some bullshit about you, and then some bullshit about me, and just wouldn’t shut up. I just froze. I’m sorry.”

“You have nothing to be sorry for, mon amour.” Sirius’ touch was so gentle on him, warm and broad compared to the crushing discomfort of Stan Martin. His hands were heavy, but they let Remus move however he liked.

“I love you,” Remus said again.

“I love you, too. Are you ready to go home?”

“I need a minute.” He rubbed his face against the soft lapels of Sirius’ jacket, desperate for comfort around the guilt wedged in his chest; his next words spilled out before he could choke them down again. “You still like me, right?”

“I love you so much—”

“That’s not what I’m talking about. You—am I still nice to look at? Now that I’m not, y’know, pretty and kinda twink-y.” There was a long stretch of silence. “Is that a yes?”

“Sorry, I had to take a second and stop myself from putting that fucking idiot through a table.” Sirius took a step back and met Remus’ eyes, fixing him with a hard look. “First of all, I love everything about you, and you will always be the most beautiful man on earth. Second, your muscles are the hottest goddamn thing I’ve ever seen. Third, you’ve never been—what word did you use?”

“Twink-y. It’s like…delicate. Femme. Etcetera, etcetera.”

More anger sparked in Sirius’ eyes. “Yeah, and you’ve never been delicate. You are the strongest person I know, Re. Whatever he said to you, it wasn’t true.”

“Can we go home now?”

“Absolutely.”

The ballroom was still crowded with high-end management and people Remus never wanted to see again when they finally left the bathroom; thankfully, the throngs of sparkles and dark suits made it easy for them to slip away with minimal human interaction. Stan Martin was over by the water cups, dabbing uselessly at a large wine stain across the front of his crisp white shirt—Remus saw Leo watching him like a hawk with a suspiciously empty wineglass in his hand and internally vowed to give him the biggest hug of his life at the next practice.

Remus slowed down to take in the fresh nighttime air, holding Sirius’ hand tight in his own as they crossed the parking lot. He paused at the passenger door and tugged him in for a slow kiss. “I love you,” he mumbled, breathing in the scent of his shampoo and cologne.

Sirius’ arms wrapped around him and Remus melted into the hug. He felt him trembling slightly, and he was pretty sure it wasn’t from the chilly breeze. “You are the best part of my life, Re,” he whispered, his voice thick. “The best part, no matter what. I’m so sorry for what happened tonight.”

“It wasn’t your fault.”

“It wasn’t yours, either.” Sirius kissed the top of his forehead once before giving him a squeeze and going to the other side of the car. “I’m sure Hattie will agree with me once we’re home.”

Two hours, one hot shower, and thirty minutes of puppy cuddles later, Remus curled up against Sirius’ ribs and felt his chest rise and fall under his palm. “I love you,” he said quietly.

Sirius let out a slow breath and entwined their fingers, kissing the inside of his wrist. “Love you more.”

“Love you most.”

“Impossible.”

He could hear Sirius’ smile, even in the darkness of their bedroom, and fell asleep to the steady sound of his heartbeat.

[girlwithacrown]

My fav aesthetics according to my Wolfstar fanart

Blushing: if there is no blush it’s not my art

Sirius wearing eye liner: okay this is me projecting, it’s not the smudged on the bottom eyeline either - this man needs his wings okay?!

Almost kisses: the tenderness! There is nothing I love more than the foreshadowíng of an amazing kiss and so almost kisses all the way! 

Jackets: the amount of jackets I have drawn for them - oh my! Might have something to do with my extensive love for outerwear in general

Eye sex: sometimes i feel like my art takes on a twilight movie level of stares

Touching: *not my mum actually calling me out on this on a family zoom call* 

#greensweaterremus: i don’t make the rules okay? I just love this colour on this man and I deeply believe that while Sirius wouldn’t be caught dead wearing the snake’s colour, Remus actually enjoys it very much. Also I never met a straight person whos fav colour is green *sorry tik tok references take up my life* 

The nerd beauty: I’m in constant battle with myself to make Remus look like a friendly neighborhood nerd werewolf.

Sex on legs: I’m in constant battle with myself to make Sirius the most stunning and best looking man - just exactly like he should be.

Remus saying fuck: still my fav thing to draw.

Sirius wearing pink shirts: It’s hard to have a colour scheme for a man whose personality is based on him wearing black, so a little pop of colour is what he needs

Earrings: Sirius wearing dangly earrings is my fav thing and I won’t stop

Sidenote: Goth twink bitch - I draw way to little of Regulus ^^

Strong raised eyebrows: the joy it gives me to draw someone with a raised eyebrow is beyond belief

Backgrounds - who is she? 

Patterns: as a (not-so-)anonymous pattern blocker irl I’m guilty of being obsessed

The bigger the nose …. get your mind out of the gutter

Wonky perspective: it tells you a lot about my irl depth perception