#so basically what im getting from this is that you cant send me asks without me responding with neverending paragraphs

[russetfoxfur]

had the worst idea ever

💫star-of-the-show reblogged badassplum . . .

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hey guys can we talk about the way the starromantics are appropriating the moonromantic flag? ive seen way too many ppl be just. chill with it??? saying mistfog like """"oh well the moon and stars are basically the same things"""" like babes have yall never looked up at the sky. those two things are Very Much Not The Same!!!!!

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the flags literally aren't? anything the same??? are you still using the moonro flag by stagefright-stardust. that guy was outed as a dischanger you know

🔮the-universe-leads

Wow! a clueless entitled vaugardian who without any proof decides that any astros are dischangers! stars could we just stop with the bigotry. anyways you're blinding wrong Look At This Fog:

like literally the starro flag is just two less stripes than the moonro flag. could yall not stick a moon or star onto one of them to show the difference

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Good Change, astros are annoying. We get it! You're all hopelessly infatuated with the night sky! You know alllll the little lights up there because you studied soooooo hard to get an A+ on the test!!! Leave the rest of us alone!

🔮the-universe-leads

my brother in stardust This Is Basic Knowledge

🔮the-universe-leads

like if this were me trying to get you to name the stars in the sky then yea id see how thats absurd but like???? how do ppl live like this?????

starsaboveearthbelow-deactivated

op i feel your pain :[ EDIT I KNOW ITS ASTRONOMY STOP CORRECTING ME

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Whats the difference between an astromantic and an islander /genuine

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islanders are people from that Unnamed Island (you know the one, don't think about it). because its an island. this is most people. now scholars speculate that the Unnamed Island was really weird about stars. astromantics are people who feel like their romantic life is tied up with the island/stars. honestly im just a tranny dyke so i cant tell you what thats like

🔮the-universe-leads

so firstly YEAH! yeah i wish astro trauma was more talked about in the astro community! like calling stagefright a dischanger or just hating on astros. anyway obviously stagefright's not a dischanger but apparently like most astros she was taking refuge in vaugarde. However due to recent circumstances relating to a certain monarch,

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as a starro i think youre stupid. they literally have a difference of two stripes!!! i bet youre not even a real astro. to my starro followers: you all are so valid and dont allow petty infighters like op to divide us astros!

🍤plates-to-heaven

well actually while youre right about the infighting thing yall do need a better flag than the standard one stagefright made. i drew this in like less than a minute (forgive the messiness i edited this at 2AM my time)

💎jewel8gem6

that looks blinding awful. are you astrophobic or something thats such a joke. blocking you

🍤plates-to-heaven

these are crabbing sketches??? not the real thing??? i know this is piss-on-the-poor website but come on

💎 jewel8gem6

Haha. what a fool you are to think me poor of reading comprehension skills. I am far above a blinded fool like you. Do you know what its like, being astromantic? every day people send me asks on anon yelling at me about my ugly white NATURAL hair, and you're just as bad as them. this is a disgrace to the astromantic community. you say in your bio that you are supportive of all astros but are you really? when you can create such mistfog as pictured above??? if you do not delete those pictures off your blog i will sneak into your house and suck off all your teeth one by one so you cannot speak your awful opinions aloud. i will tell the universe to kill your family and curse you with immortality so you can watch and suffer as horribly as i did laying my eyes upon these """""flags""""". wither and waste in the agony of your own unfulfilling and insignificant life, worthless vaugardian. be blinded forever idiot >:/

🔮the-universe-leads

i feel like this post is kind of getting off track could we talk about the flags again. plates' flags looked kinda cool and weren't cheap copies of each other

💎jewel8gem6

you SUPPORT this fool? you SUPPORT plates, who ruins the delicate harmony of astromantic spaces through xyr tasteless insults and mockeries??? how dare you calm yourself an astro op. TRUE astros must walk through fire in order to find any happiness in their perpetual incompletion. for example, i have been persecuted by ka buan officials for my sexuality, nearly slain by vaugardian defenders, and then forced to flee to mwudu in order to survive the king. fools such as you are the reasons we haven't found the island yet. a kiddie like you needs to go back to potty training if you think plates has any credibility whatsoever. go burn up in the atmosphere and let not a soul tell where you lie

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Anyone in this thread eat crab

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Official Astromantic Post!

🔮the-universe-leads

i made this two blinding months ago and forgot about it are you seriously like. a vaugardian

👩🏿‍❤️‍👨🏼 mirafrin4ever Follow

EW AN ASTRO!!! go back to the ocean you mooneyed crabs. don't you crabbing weirdos know not to infest holy everchanging sites like tumblr with your weird stupid sky obsession. lol

🔮the-universe-leads

Saviorshipper. blocked

🍤plates-of-heaven

savior shipper, bolcked

💎jewel8gem6

Ew, saviorshipper. blocked

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wow i cant believe ive found the original! ive only seen this in screenshots! and its only four months old!!!

🔮the-universe-leads

someone wish me out of existence already

#wow only six months old lol? this post is a mess. thx for putting this on my dash mira #poor op #islander talk #moot talk #longpost #shitpost #< i hope

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💫 star-of-the-show-2 . . .

@.star-of-the-show tutorial for you stardust! i want you sososo bad

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[taintedcigs]

— morning routine (modern!s.h. x reader)

pairing: modern!steve harrington x fem!reader

summary: basically, that scene in greys anatomy where meredith snores and keeps waking up derek but instead of them it's reader who just moved in with steve. (and robin duh) idk how to explain it but i tried to give it a spin idk if i succeeded. this is just FLUFFY AND cheesy. and tbh its only modern!steve cuz i added one (1) stupid twilight joke. SUE ME OK!!!!

warnings: just pure fluff. domestic!steve. tooth-rottingly sweet. cheesy af. some kissing. does snoring count idk. steve is an adorable idiot. also makes a dirty joke bc he is immature (and so am i.) kissing. idk. allude to smut but nothing described at all. not proof-read ignore all mistakes cuz i wrote this mess in like 20 mins and cant read it back cuz i cant do it without criticizng everything so im just gonna post okkkkiii bye hope u guys enjoy it (wc: 1.3k+)

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It hadn't been that long since you’d settled into Steve and Robin’s place. You’d initially been nervous about it, about whether everything would work out or not.

But soon enough, things were already starting to fall into place—especially in the mornings.

A perfect routine.

The illuminating rays of sunshine would seep through the cracks in the blinds, glowing the cozy room you and Steve now called yours. And the overwhelming aroma of the coffee Robin always brewed too early, signaling to you that it was time to wake up.

You stirred slightly, mind slowly drifting out of the haze of sleep until you noticed something—rather someone in your periphery.

Eyes fluttering open, you squinted against the soft light, and you were instantly met with Steve’s warm gaze at you, his head propped on one hand as he lay beside you.

“Steve! What the hell?” you exclaimed, groggily shoving his shoulder with a laugh. “Are you watching me sleep, you creep?”

Steve’s lips curled into a lazy, boyish grin, one that you couldn’t resist smiling back at. “Mmhmm,” he murmured, not even bothering to deny it.

“What are you? Edward Cullen?” you teased.

That earns a good chuckle out of him, eyes crinkling at the corners before he mumbles out a “Mornin', honey.”

He leans down to press a soft kiss to your velvety lips before pulling back to gawk at you again, cheeks dimpling adorably.

A giggle bubbles up from your chest as you swat at him, though your heart squeezes.

The most dreamy.

“How did you wake up before the alarm?” you ask, voice still thick with sleep.

Steve shrugs, grin never faltering. “I’m a light sleeper.”

“Something woke you up?”

When he doesn't answer, “What?” you press, brows furrowing.

He chuckles, shaking his head. “’S no big deal,” he assures, brushing a strand of hair from your face. “It’s just that...” He pauses, biting his lip to hold back a grin.

“You just... snore.... a little bit.” He squints, pinching his thumb and forefinger together.

You shot upright in bed. “What? I do not!” you protest.

“Yes, you do,” Steve says, grin widening as he clearly enjoys your reaction.

“Nuh-uh!”

“Uh-huh!” he counters back.

“Honestly, it’s adorable that such a tiny person can make such a big sound.”

You gasp, “Jerk!” Swatting at him when he leans in for a kiss. He laughs, dodging your swipe, smile as infuriating as it was endearing.

“You know what’s not adorable?” you shot back. “Those little twitches you do every night!”

Steve blinks, protesting quickly. “I don't do that!”

“Yes you do!” you exclaimed, poking a finger into his chest playfully. “You’re like a human earthquake. It’s scary, Harrington!”

He lets out a dramatic gasp, clutching his chest. And before you can say another word, Steve pounces, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you into his hold. Fingers tickling your sides mercilessly, sending you into fits of laughter as you squirm to escape.

“Stop it! Steve!” you manage to get out between giggles, your attempts to push him away weak from how hard you were laughing.

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Determined to make it up to him, you wore one of those nasal strips every night, for the following week. Convinced it was solving the problem.

Until you wake up, suddenly, and way before your alarm.

And even way before Robin's coffee. To find Steve's spot empty next to you.

Rubbing the sleep from your eyes, you slip out of bed, padding down the hall, curiosity tugging at you.

And of course, there he is, sprawled across the couch. Legs awkwardly dangling over the edge, one arm thrown over his eyes.

Idiot. You could feel a gentle warmth spreading all over your body.

This absolutely selfless, adorable idiot.

“You have got to be kidding me,” your exclaiming voice startles him awake, making him groan groggily.

“You slept on the couch?” You ask, guilt bubbling in your chest. 

Steve hums sleepily, clearly not awake enough to form a coherent response.

“All night?” That poor boy. 

He murmurs something incomprehensible, eyes squeezing shut like he could will himself back to sleep.

“Are those stupid strips not working?” You asked frustratedly, and Steve was quick to shook his head, the motion muffled by his pillow. 

You let out a sigh, narrowing your gaze at him, “If my snoring was always this bad, what the hell were you doing all those other nights?”

Before Steve can answer, Robin emerges from her room, hair a tangled mess and expression groggy. “He usually sleeps on the couch,” she hums, slowly slipping past you to the bathroom. “Sets an alarm and sneaks back into bed before you wake up.”

You blink, processing her words as your head slowly turns toward Steve. He’s sitting up now, looking thoroughly sheepish.

“I didn’t want to hurt your feelings,” he says softly, tone so endearing that it tugs violently at your heartstrings.

And that’s the thing about Steve, isn’t it? 

Always putting you first. Always thinking of you. 

You stare at him for a moment, dramatic theatrics melt into something warmer. A smile tugs at your lips, growing wider until you can’t contain it anymore. Walking over to the couch, you kneel beside him as he looks up at you innocently.

Without a word, you throw your arms around him as you begin to smother his face with kisses, one after another, until he was laughing too.

“You’re ridiculous,” you mutter between kisses, voice filled with affection. “Sweet, but so goddamn ridiculous.”

Steve grins, hands sliding down to hold your waist comfortably. “You know I’d do anythin' for my girl,” he replies, tone thick with sleep and laced with that infamous Harrington charm that makes your heart flutter.

“But, I swear, Harrington,” you warn, pulling back just enough to meet his warm gaze, “if you ever sleep on this couch again, I’m tying you to the bed.”

His brows shot up, a playful smirk tugging at his lips. “Oh! I’ve always wanted to try that one!” he teases.

You scoff playfully before adding, “And I’m getting you earplugs!”

Before you can say anything else, Steve suddenly tugs you closer, pulling you onto the couch with him. “C’mere,” he murmurs, voice low and tender. Plush lips pressing kisses all over your face—forehead, cheeks, lips, the tip of your nose—as he rambles sweet nothings in between, each one making your heart swell a little more.

“I love you,” he whispers, words melting into your skin like a promise. 

You can’t help but giggle softly, threading your fingers through his messy hair, “Love you more, you idiot.” 

Steve grins, fingers brushing off a stray strand of hair away from your face. “So…” He trails off, tone turning sly, brows arching in anticipation, “...about that tying up thing?”

You smirk, rolling off of him as you rise to your feet. He doesn’t let his gaze leave yours, chest rising with a sharp breath as he watches your figure. 

Without a word, you saunter out of the living room, hips swaying just enough to leave him frozen in place, staring after you like a statue.

At the doorway, you glance over your shoulder to meet his dumbfounded expression. “Well,” you hum with a sly grin, “are you coming or not?”

His jaw practically drops. “C’mon, pretty boy,” you tease, tone dropping into a sultry hum that makes his eyes darken. “You’ve been really, really bad, and the punishment isn’t gonna be pretty.”

His breath catches, utterly frozen. Then, as if the exhaustion he’d been feeling moments ago has been completely erased, he springs from the couch with a groan. “God, you’re fucking perfect, you know that, right?” he mutters, all with awe and hunger as he reaches you.

Before you can react, he sweeps you up into his arms with an eagerness that makes you squeal. “Steve!” you gasp, laughing as he rushes you toward the bedroom like a man on mission.

Finally, the perfect morning routine. 

[saintobio]

Hi saint! God you have no idea how much I wanted to go home after seeing you updated. You’re basically the only one with notifs on bc I cant, CANT, miss an update from my fave fic of all time (fears for my life bc you said it doesnt get better til chapter 14)

Anyway, this is not really a theory, but im curious as to what transpired between mc and toru the morning after their confrontation. Why did gojo leave? Did they fight? Did mc force him to leave to go to akemi to lessen her feelings of guilt?

Anyway, why do i have a feeling that akemi could, COULD, be 🤰? bc if my memory is correct, I recalled one scene where they woohooed with akemi saying she wanted no protection on? And since i do work on a medical field, it is possible for cramps when implantation happens (mc will have the heart attack of her lifetime istg). Although it could also be bc of her condition bc it wasnt really really explicitly stated in one chapter they woohooed without protection on (my memory is foggy bc i never reread chapters where they woohooed. I feel mc’s pain 🥲🥲) but why do i also have a feeling mc could be pregnant too

👁️👄👁️ bc they did have sachiro after woohooing in the first few chapters of SN (theyre both so fertile skdhjssk). Also, I feel like mc’s heart condition is coming back :((( after chapter 10 where she was pounding her heart to stop the pain, I can only imagine her angina waiting in the corner ;((

There’s only a few remaining chapters left (💔) but theres still so much drama and tension left unresolved (Gem still doesnt know they 👉🏽👌🏽) I thank you from the bottom of my heart that you continuously grace us with your writing. There are only a few fics that really made me feel the pain and surely your writing will always be at the top of a godtier list when it comes to giving heavy angst (i can only hope they have a HEA and have a new kid bc i really wanna see satoru redeem himself as a father 🥲🥲) I will surely miss this series when it ends and I will surely reread this when I am feeling the blues and just want to cry. Your brain and hands work wonders and I hope people here would also learn that waiting for the next update is definitely worth it (please stop pressuring her for new updates :(( saint gives her entire heart writing this. The wait is so so worth it).

And before this ends I would like to ask mc and satoru what are their current thoughts are after their 😏 hot steamy confrontation (I WAS SO HAPPY THEY FCKED TBH) no pressure if they wont answer hehe. Thank you for giving us SN and SY, Saint! I will look forward to future fics from you. Sending you much love and I hope and pray that you get all your heart’s desire 💛💛💛💛

hello loveee!! those are really good questions and thank you so much for ur kind words 🥹 i recognize ur blog bc you’ve been a longtime reader of mine, so happy to still see u here <3 anyway, your theories:

1. the morning after, gojo and yn are already having an emotional exchange (kinda) thats why yn was already crying when akemi caught them!

2. what i can only say is akemi’s pelvic pain situation is there for a specific reason :)

3. their families (gen, momjo, etc) will be back soon, it’s total chaos

4. while doing it? they’re definitely going crazy for each other. next morning is all guilt !!

[drdemonprince]

reallyyy nervous to send this cause i rarely ever send asks and even more nervous that you dont see this but hi. I stumbled across your post regarding the hatred people feel for children that stuck out to me because of the points you made of that dislike stemming from being forced into a care taking role so i decided to go thru your blog and saw the entire discourse surrounding age gaps and predatory vs loser behavior and im not here to argue but i need guidance ig? Im older now but at the time I was 17 and this guy i had been friends with who came onto me when i was 15 and he was 18-19 we ended up....dating ig? Idk we never met face to face and could only interact online but i was (and still am) a queer person having a hard time accepting their sexuality and often went back and forth between being a lesbian and being bisexual because dating men brought less shame than dating women so it was easier. Anyways one thing i should point is that i jokingly said i expected a dick pic from him cause he sent me a photo that can only be viewed once and immediately after he sent one even tho i clarified after he sent the picture that it was no an invitation for a dick pic... anyways i still (foolishly ik) pursued some type of romantic relationship with this 22 year old guy at 17. One thing you should know he idolizes Scott Pilgrim (famously known 24 yr old dating a 17 yr old) and i questioned if he was using me as a means of living out his idols life which he denied ofc) anyways im sending this ask basically to figure out was I....groomed? Is he a predator? I mean 17 is not legally an adult where im from but you can basically go to college, get a job and start providing for yourself even before you hit 18 but i at most just went college cause yk doing all of that felt stressful for me. We had similar interests which was the talking point between us but idk i still felt like I was highly immature at 17. Idk i just need clarification. I cant really go to any adult in my life about this cause im queer and i dont want them to find out really so ig im coming to you to help figure out if i should give this guy who has come back into my life after i thoroughly cut him off out of guilt for cutting him off and him claiming he was "worried about me" and felt suicidal without me around another chance? If you end up not answering thats ok! I am just springing my problems onto you a total stranger but tumblr is supposed to be about finding community with other queers right? And i could really use a fellow queer elder especially one with such views on what counts as entering adulthood and whether adults can mix with those who arent "real adults" without it being inherently predatory or a means to groom. Thanks! (Btw i was having a convo on this with my friend and we both agreed a 24 year old dating a 17 year old is weird but im curious to hear your views on it even if i dont agree cause im open to hearing diff views. This isnt bait i promise i just wanna know was i unknowingly groomed or preyed upon because i thought i was too smart to ever have that happen to me lol.)

I think what is most important is to look to your own feelings and experience.

People always want there to be hard and fast rules about what is and is not acceptable behavior in all situations, because then if a person crossed that line with them, they "get" to have been affected by the experience, and deserve to say they are traumatized and to get support. I don't think that is a useful way of going about it. I think that your own feelings and how the relationship affected you is more than enough information to go on, and if you need support following this relationship, then you need support!

What stands out to me is that this guy made suicide threats to bait you back into speaking with him. That's highly manipulative, frightening stuff. And that's just the tip of the iceburg to me, as a person who was not there and did not live your experience -- if this guy was pulling shit like that to try and get under your skin, it's likely he was doing a lot of things to manipulate and guilt you. And that's very concerning to me. I wasn't there, I won't say that all relationships with an age gap of this size are *inherently* abusive in all situations, but that really doesn't matter, what matters is your experience of this particular man and how he made you feel. And it sure doesn't sound like he made you feel supported, safe, cared for as a full person with a variety of qualities, respected in your boundaries, encouraged to grow, or anything else positive. I bet that if you look back there were a variety of problems with how he treated you, perhaps that you weren't able to recognize as inappropriate at the time (and this is of course part of why age gaps are the data point people look at -- people with less life experience are easier to mistreat in these ways).

You can label your own experience in whatever ways serve you. But more than the label, I think what matters is affirming your own experience and perception of things, and seeking support in whatever ways that you want it!

[opiumsturn]

WRONG PERSON.

C.STURNIOLO / / y/n-pink // chris-orange // NSFW!!

In which Chris send a certain pic to the wrong person..

Heyy its naz! -This is my first story! - 18+

will be taking requests-link at the end!

I was at my best friend's house which was the triplets.

I'm closer to Nick than I am to Matt and Chris.

At the moment, we were watching Outer Banks. Chris sat on a different couch from Nick and me, while Matt was on another couch as well. Nick and I were sitting on the same couch, with my legs crossed over Nick's legs. We had just finished the second episode when Chris got up to go to the bathroom.

"Hold up, I'm going to the bathroom," Chris says, looking down at his phone as he walks past me and Nick towards the bathroom.

not even 2 minutes later my phone buzzes. It's a notification from Snapchat that read..

"New snap from Chrisss 🫶"

I open the snap to see a dick, Chris's dick.

I was shocked for a second until my phone started blowing up

CHRISSS🫶-

SHIT NNONO NO Y/N THAT WASGT MEANT FOR U STOP FUCK IM SORYY SHITTT

ME-

calm down dont apologize its a nice dick.

CHRISSS🫶-

upstairs my room now.

I squeeze my legs to ease the tension between them and get up.

"I'm gonna go to bed now guys ill see yall tomorrow," I say not wanting anytime to see Chris and what his dick would do to me.

I go upstairs to Chris' room seeing he was already in there.

"Shit" Chris huffs out.

He gets up and without another word, he grabs my waist pulling me in for a kiss. his tongue sliding on my lips for an entrance which I give.

he slid his tongue down my throat with his hands roaming all over my body somehow he unstrapped my bra and started sliding his hand to my shirt pulling away

"you sure ma?" he asks. shit that fucking name had me weak to my fucking knees.

"yes, Chris. please" I huff barely managing to control myself.

"Please what mamas? use your words baby. "

"please fuck me chris." i say barely above a whisper.

not even finishing my sentence Chris grabs my ass and lifts me onto him dropping me on the bed un-clothing me. he takes my bra off my shirt,and my pants leaving me in only my white laced panties while he takes his clothes off above me revealing his 8 inch hard cock leaking pre-cum.

i sit up grabbing Chris' shoulder.

"chris sit down" i tell him. he grabs me rotating our postion so im now on top of him. i move lower down taking his 8 Inchs in my hand moving my hand ever so gentley before kissing the tip and licking his slit.

"mmpgh fuck." Chris huffs

with that i take all of him in me at once deep throating him all moaning on his cock sending vibrations all on his body

"mmph mamas your..so.ff..ffcuking good oh ugh right there ma dont stop." chris moans out barely being able to contain hisself.

i bob my head up and down his dick before he starts up again.

"Ma..ma Im gonna..Cum ugh dont stop mm" he groans

I pick up my pace and not even a few more movements he fills my throat and i swallow him all pulling out the while strips of cum following.

"ugh that was amazing ma holy shit" chris huffs. without wasting time he picks me up so hes now above me

he basically rips my panties off and throws them somewhere in the room teasing my folds.

"so wet for me ma" he says taking his two finger rubbing circles up and down my folds teasing me to my max

"Chris pl..please stop teasing i..cant please"

"Okay mamas" he says shoving his finger in me stretching me out. only the two finger he put in me sent me to let out the most pornographic moan loud enough matt and nick could have heard us.

"mamas be quiet we wouldnt want matt and nick to hear now would we?" he asks slowing his pace. i couldnt even manage to spit words out noding my head and biting my lip.

"good girl" he says going back to his pace

he starts to move his fingers at an unreal pace adding a thrid finger sending me near my climax.

"CHRIS MMPH" i moan loudly "im gonn..a CU..m" i spit out

"Not yet ma i wanna fuck you senseless" he says pullin his fingers out putting them in his mouth.

"mm ma you taste so good mmph" he says taking hand hand speading my legs open teasing my enterance with his tip rubbing up and down.

"chris please." i mumble

"please what mamas" he says knowing hwat hes doing to me.

"please fuck me chris" i moan out and with that chris slowly enters into my pussy groaning

"augh" chris groans "your so tight ma holy fuck." he mumbles

"faster chris" i say barely managing my words out.

Chris starts to move faster and faster to the point where hes moving at an animalistic pace. at this point im a moaning mess trying so hard to be quiet.

chris' thrust grow quicker somehow making me reach my climax

"augh im so close mamas cum with me" he says

"yes..chris" i say reaching my climax holding in til chris tells me too cum'

After a few more thrusts chris ques for me to cum

"now ma cum now." and with out any ferther we both came on eachother our warm white liquids oozing on eachother.

"holy fuck ma your amazing" chris says flopping next to me

"what are we now chris?" i ask

"your mine."

[snowthedemonfox]

I like your alien AU and I wanted to ask what the story is behind it and when the rest of the character designs are coming

awww thank u!!! i cant take full credit, a lot of these base ideas come from the bunnydoll server, so shoutouts to them for being epic

as for the story, i haven't written anything out completely yet, but the basics are:

there's this company in charge of space travel and research so they send out teams to investigate newly discovered planets and such

pomni, zooble, ragatha, and kinger are one of these teams, with pomni being the newest. they needed a new team leader and the higher ups at the company chose to throw pomni in there. she hates it and just wants to go home

caine is the ship's AI. he can control pretty much anything. think glados from portal except a lot more silly and also no murder. there are some things that he can't do without permission from whoever's in charge (aka pomni) but other than that he can do mostly whatever he wants

so this team is sent to investigate new planet that was discovered and yep this is the place where all the silly aliens are

gangle is the reason both she and jax accidentally got caught. thanks gangle. but once everyone realises the aliens are actually sentient theyre like "oh shit our bad sorry you can leave" but gangle doesnt wanna leave! because the rest of the team seems cool and she doesn't have anything else to do with her time

jax only stays because he figures he can get some extra info from whoever these space guys are. eventually he'll start to get along with them

pomni does not care about any of the above, she just wants this mission over and done with. so when she's out doing the work by herself that's when she finds gummi injured and brings him back to the ship WITHOUT TELLING ANYONE so he can recover

really there's not much of a storyline yet just a bunch of different events that i have in my mind but if you guys got questions i can answer anything

as for who will be next? idk, i havent decided yet. im still working on figuring out kinger, ragatha, and caine's full designs but maybe the next 2 will be caine and bubble. again i have no idea all i know is that bubble looks like this

right now the closest ive got for the other three are those lil icons on the info cards. im a pretty slow artist sometimes so idk how long itll take for me to finish the next 2. sorry chat

[oskarcore]

MY INTRODUCTION!! :D

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; i have no clue how to use tumblr so plz bare with me 💔

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; MAIN STUFF!!

; I go by Oskar/Jasper/Danny/Dexi (I PERFER OSKAR, BUT YOU MAY CALL ME BY MY OTHER NAMES)

; he/they

; trans ftm, pansexual, & catgender :0

; minor,,

; if ya wanna be friends, add me on discord! user is: zombipupzz (no age range!! Anyone welcome :3)

; I'm American and Filipino

; taken, (8/1/24)

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; FANDOMS I'M IN

Andy's Apple Farm, Baldi's Basics, Omori, Undertale, Deltarune, Cuphead, Kirby, Bendy In The Ink Machine, Billie Bust Up, Don't Hug Me I'm Scared, Law Of Talos, Endzone, Sonic, Mario, Spooky Month, SMG4, South Park, Eddsworld, Pizza Tower, The Amazing Digital Circus, Bugbo, Regretevator, Evade, Jim's Computer, Pocoyo, KinitoPET, Ramshackle, Teach The Cat, Chezzkids Archive, Madness Combat, Animator VS Animation/Animation VS Minecraft, Captain Underpants, Lucky Star, Sprunki, Fancy Pants Adventure, Pajama Sam, and Dandy’s World (?)

; fandoms I'm currently hyperfixated on: Law Of Talos/Endzone, SMG4, AVA/AVM, Sprunki, Fancy Pants Adventure, Dandy's World, Regretevator, & Phighting (this may change. Like, a lot :'D)

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; ALL MY SOCIALS!! (well, most of them)

; discord: oskarpupzz

; roblox: katcoine

; vrchat: oskarpupzz

; tiktok: oskarzsleepy

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; WHAT TO EXPECT WHEN WE BECOME FRIENDS

; im really shy at first, but once i get comfortable ill get really hyper

; i send a lot of gifs

; i use emojis/emoticons a lot!!

; i WILL beg to play roblox

; once we're close friends i will wanna call/sleep call, i will also send voice messages!! >:3

; ill start yapping about my hyperfixations

; i get attached very very quickly :'3

; my way of laughing is HELP/HELP ME, LMAO/LMFAO/LOL, or IM CRYING/IM SOBBING

; i cant ask simple questions without getting embarrassed D: (for example, wanna call or play roblox)

; I call all of my friends silly or goofy :3 and I also call my friends dawg, blud, bud, buddy, pal, goober, buster

; i say random things from my clipboard or just idk say random words :3 its funny (to me idk)

; im rlly sensitive and overthink too much 😓

; i use tonetags!! (/j, /srs, /nsrs, /nm, /hj)

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; RANDOM STUFFS

; i like listening to video game osts

; fav youtubers are: YuB, SMG4, Peter Knetter, Denis (Denisdaily), Flamingo, Laughability, Polarcub, SpaceHamster, StanleyMOV, Redshell, etc

; my time zone is PST (Pacific Standard Time)

; i pull all nighters a lot

; i LOVE cats!!

; my triggers are g0r3, jumpscares

; i hate SOME bugs, not all tho :'3

; i'm a multishipper!!

; thx for reading!! i feel like i added too much stuff on this 😭😭🙏🙏

[waitlexist]

uhm 🫵🫵🫵

How does your OC customize Ramshackle, if they do at all? How do they cope with the state it's in when they first arrive?

How many times do you think your OC ends up in the infirmary? Besides canon, can you tell us about a time they've gone in?

What's your OC's best memory since coming to NRC?

THANK YOU FOR SENDING IN AN ASK MILQ MWAH MWAH MWAH

(not my art, I can’t remember who I saved this from RAAAGH PUT WATER MARKS ON YOUR WORKS PLEASE)

I REALLY WANTED TO MAKE DOODLES TO RESPOND TO THIS BUT EVERYTHING I DREW I HATE… so, sorry for the late response…. im also sick but yeag

- How does your OC customize Ramshackle, if they do at all? How do they cope with the state it's in when they first arrive?

Luna’s really not surprised when she gets to Ramshackle— in her world, free housing consisted of the streets! This is an upgrade. She’s lived in worse places. She does take free time to clean it up, and once she learns the transmutation magic necessary, she patches up any holes!

She uses her glamour magic to make it pretty, really. Luna’s a cheapskate! And she managed a glamour on herself for ten years straight, so this isn’t much to her magic pool. She WOULD make it very druid/fairycore (think maybe Druid’s grove in BG3) but she doesn’t want to take away from the Ramshackle charm, so Luna basically just gives it a glow up! Basically, Book 6 glow up, except it’s an illusion. Though she can’t control the vines and ivy growing on the outside… they flock to her 🤧

She does design her own room, which I’ll probably make a sims build out of at some point…

- How many times do you think your OC ends up in the infirmary? Besides canon, can you tell us about a time they’ve gone in?

THIS IS KIND OF CANON BUT NOT REALLY. You know that time. In book 5 where Rook shoots an arrow with a note to tell Adeuce they got into the SDC group? I imagine the arrowhead was made of iron and Luna has an allergic reaction. NOT SUPER INTENSE BECAUSE SHE DIDNT ACTUALLY TOUCH IT BUT IT WHIZZED BY HER FACE AND LIKE. SHES A FUCKING FAIRY OF COURSE SHE CANT DO IRON.

Her reaction to iron varies based on what I feel like writing, so sometimes it’s A. burns B. sick C. PAIN(this is only from having pure iron internally, I.e., stab wounds. also, very, very deadly.).

sometimes she gets too excited when good food is placed in front of her and accidentally grabs iron cutlery, resulting in more sicky icky. She’s also quite sensitive to poisons, so if she doesn’t follow lab safety ya girl gets got. Whenever I draw her lab wear she will likely be GEARED TF UP.

OTHERWISE. Luna probably gets into fights monthly. people at NRC CANNOT keep their mouths shut!

“Excuse me, did you just call him a weasel?”, “Pray tell, do repeat what you just said about the Heartslabyul Housewarden?”, “it’s not Ashengrotto’s fault you’re not competent enough to get good grades without his help.”

^ hoe +

- What’s your OCs best memory since coming to NRC?

everything. + everything is an improvement from her old world.

THIS IS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO ANSWER…

It could be the moment she realizes she doesn’t have to wear a mask of normalcy anymore. It could be the Unbirthday party in Book One. It could be the Spelldrive game in Book Two. It could be Book six when she and gang defeat a titan. It could be her own dream in book seven. Maybe when she realizes she’s in love, maybe when she realizes she is loved and that she has a family in this world. I’m really not sure— I’ll have to finish writing her story to answer it!

(it’s when she discovers and learns how to use a sewing machine)

[songmingisthighs]

finished catching up to project jekyll & hyde. all i’ve gotta say is, imagine a bystander witnessing knives and doc fighting, then woo and yeo take over, then they’re suddenly hugging it out. i think i would freak if i saw that irl lmao. also, yn is too smarttt. i love how she caught on red being in control of hj’s body at that time. she knows them too well it seems, and im also happy she’s still on high alert afterwards; so to say, she’s not really doubting herself. i am scared though for whatever doc has planned. i can see he got a few other of the members’ alters to join him, or so i think. i get the strange feeling that red is helping doc by observing the doctor’s notes more than being “fascinated.” anywho, cant wait for more chapters!

warning ? mini rant… ???

i also saw the ask you answered about taking more responsibility. i want you to put yourself first! i know that you will, but i want to reassure you that it is okay for you to do that!

readers, understand that smt is human before anything! always be patient. not just with/for her but for any other writer that you may also keep up with.

with that said, take your time with the updates! i know i and others say we can’t wait, but we def can! and i’d be happy to.

I MISS WRITING FOR PROJECT JEKYLL AND HYDE i have such plans for that but as you know, writing actual long chapters is hard for me to do atm but i'm trying to better myself and make time for it so i can write for pyp too :") tbh i have this whole cheateez plan going on in my head and it's different forms of cheating basically ?? and i tailored it to each members so here's to hoping i can commit to that before i commit myself to a mental institution

and for the part about my personal life

T H A T I S S O S W E E T O F Y O U T O S A Y 🥺🥺

i can't talk about other people but for me, i feel IMMENSE guilt when i can't commit time or fall off schedule in updates just bc i can't handle my life. and the guilt often makes it hard for me to come back bc in the back of my mind it's always like "people forgot about you, it doesn't matter if you return" and i'm so glad you and the others proved me wrong EVERY SINGLE TIME

i saw creators leaving tumblr and they blame it on toxic community and pressure from rude readers and i totally get where they came from so i'm glad that's not the case for me. if you knew me from the beginning, you know i've been through my fair share of community drama so i stay away from that because i don't want the negativity to affect my craft. writing is me putting my inner self for everyone to see and i love sharing it with you guys so truly, i'm glad of the support and attention you guys have given me 🫶🫶

and ngl i don't mind you guys telling me you guys can't wait for the next update bc it gives me motivation to return and like actually come back here to update no matter what. what i don't appreciate is anons just sending me "when's the next update for ××?" like girl do we know each other ?? i hate it when my mom just drop a question like that without preface and without considering my state, what makes you think i'd appreciate it coming from a ghost ???

and btw my mom tried convincing me i don't have asthma YET AGAIN as i was hacking out my lungs in front of her and the look she gave me was like "cut the crap, i know you're making shit up" meanwhile she was there at the doctor's like 2 years ago when i had a bad case of asthma and she tried to gaslight the DOCTOR when he said i'm like seconds away from a full blown asthma attack, she was like "yeah but she doesn't have asthma" "no maam, she doesn't have an asthma ATTACK, Y E T" "yeah but that doesn't mean she has asthma, right?" and the doctor just looked at me, sighed, and continued talking to ME with my mom trying to talk over me about MY condition and MY feeling and MY experience. she thinks i want to live life as if i have an oxygen debt or smth. god forbid i'm ACTUALLY ill from overexertion like did i fake my fever ?? did i stuff tissue into my lungs to prevent me from breathing correctly ?? did i walk around like a zombie just to put up a show and not because my head's killing me ????

sorry for ranting but this shit really creams my corn

[not-jiraikasa-kun]

im not sure trying to find out my identity is a good idea, but maybe that's just because I'm less shy behind this anon

But thank you for wanting to get to know me, I've said that before but I'm truly so grateful. I honestly thought I'd never have the courage to start a conversation with you but now I'm here

You can try to figure out who i am if you want.. and honestly you'll probably get it someday. That's just how a god's perception works, after all!! It catches things mortals cant!!!

Im sorry you're beloved left. I can say that I won't. I'm too obsessed for that, even the thought of me leaving you makes me sick, I can't imagine trying to live without hearing how your day is going or maybe checking your blog or sending an ask like this

-🪶

Well, surely I can try! We can start basic first. What are you interests? Games. Shows. All that. Personally, I like five nights at freddy’s and bungo stray dogs atm! That is subject to change tho… perhaps you have a favourite character? I’m my own favourite ofc!!

It’s always about taking that first step! The first step starts everything. All you need to do is keep walking from there. And no worries, I’m here to be ur aid :33

Hahaha. You overestimate me. I am the Prince of Longing, not riddles. Expect me to take about say… a few months? Flops over pitifully…..

And it’s okay quill! I think I’m not as affected by the loss as I once was! And perhaps, if you get closer, you can put your words to the test?

[goobie-goo]

for the assorted multiverses, i just have harry potter (mom showed me when i was young hhhh i dont interact w it anymore bc loss of interest and uhm. *stares at jk rowling* eugh) and avatar: the last airbender (its the best ever /j)

the only thing i have written down for HP lore-wise is literally “HATES DUMBLEDORE” i mean. you do you. i did a house test for him bc i was bored— he got ravenclaw. not even surprised -> im a ravenclaw. his patronous is a nebelung cat which is funny bc my childhood cat was a nebelung (i have photos if you wanna see) (theyre from 2017 im so glad i have them still)

for ATLA:

THERE WAS AN ATLA PICREW AND IT WAS COOL OKAY? AAABJDNSNJS

dallas to aang & zuko, talking about ozai: you need me to kill that guy for you? 👀 /ref

“i’m gonna say that he’s probably an outlier bc of the world-hopper thing. something like an avatar but not? aang and the others are still the avatar, dallas isn’t considered an avatar. he can control all elements but isn’t an avatar bc he isn’t a reincarnation. the only reason he can bend all 4 is bc of his otherworldly status.” <- dallas also is a part of The Family aka is OP as FUCK! he has powers from that before he came to ATLA’s universe but he only bends the 4 elements and then the sub-types of bending styles (metal bending, blood bending, healing, lava bending, etc.) of the ATLA universe so no one gets suspicious.

cant add anything about Korra bc i havent watched it. im too attached to aang :[

thats really the only 2 assorted universes i have solid, written lore for. hermitcraft is dallas healing, nothing written yet— no ideas. i dont dare of bringing dallas into the DSMP. no way. that would only send him into a relapse. oh right! uhh i did think of some genshin ideas but its not in my notes… its in disc though lemme grab it-

THE FOLLOWING IS COPIED N PASTED!! (was talking about dsmp to a friend that doesnt know dsmp)

had a vivid reminder of one scene from an animatic (i think??) off dsmp wilbur asking (read: demanding) philza to kill him

and i literally forgot it was dsmp— i was just thinking of a crazed face and that person desperately asking another to ruin them through with a sword, while in a bout of insanity and mental breakdown. said sword is held by the other person (the one being asked to kill) and the insane one is basically pressing it into their own neck as they yell and scream to ‘just kill me!’

and i was like. hm. i cant remeber what thats from.

and i open my photo folders and scroll titles and then see dsmp related ones and go OH MY GOD ITS THE C!WILBUR DEATH—

anyways the reason i bright this up is bc i got the random vision of the scene i saw,,,

but w dallas during a breakdown of his. ***(AU bc i would not do anything to this extent)***

like oh my god imagine being the person on the other side of the sword???

i’m thinking genshin maybe. and rn, venti bc dallas and venti are like— BESTIES.

and imagine???

dallas is like: just kill me— *kinda crazy wide eyes and smile but yk also small bit of tears. not a lot,,

venti: *literally in tears* no— no!? dallas, i’m not doing that?!

dallas: this world is better off without me! besides, it’s not like i *won’t* come back!! you could push me off a cliff and break every bone in my goddamn body and *i’d be fine!!!*

venti: no, you wouldn’t be fine!? what the fuck?! im not going to *kill* you!||

or whatever idk i’m not good with writing mentally unstable characters in that way.

(btw venti doesn’t kill dallas, just wraps him up in a hug until the episode passes or whatever while venti cries. dallas apologizes for saying that, even though they both know he wasn’t in the right state of mind bc he still kinda traumatized venti. they tend to walk on eggshells when it comes to dallas’ suicidal tendencies after that— jumping into fights, taking blows for others, no self-preservation, etc.)

anywayssss :p

I WAS GOING THROUGH CHATS TO FIND MORE DALLAS MORE. GOOD NEWS. I DID FIND MORE AHHAAH

was finding music for dallas spotify playlist and got sad over lore again. and then nesquik (their nickname) started grilling me over how okd dallas is ehe

first two speak for themselves i think? the last ome was on the topic of dying and then brought up how The Eyes cannot die. (aether is the name of the male MC)

anywho-

DALLAS LORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

poor gyu :(((((( hes just a little silly!!!!! just needs a big ol hug!!!!!!!!

[elevenbear]

WOE! 🌸, 🎨, 🪶, 🦋, ASK GAME KARMA AND GENUINE CURIOSITY BE UPON YE! - anomegasblog

🌸 . Scents that you like or dislike?

this is a hard one! i looove flower scents but also feel like theyre not me so i feel bad expressing my love for them because its not MY scent but gosh i love it. I dislike most herb scents but i like sage!

🎨 . What's your favorite miscecanis activity to do? (ex: scenting, nesting, defining verse specific terms, etc)

i love nesting! I sleep on a bottom bunk (with nothing above me but boxes for storage purposes) with curtains on it so its very enclosed. I'd show photos but my bed is VERY identifying and im terrified people i know will find me. But my whole bed is stuffies/blankets/pillows. a soft paradise i can just burrow into

maybe omega specific but i just wanna mention it, i have a weighted bear stuffie that i treat like my baby so i like hanging out with her

🪶 . If you nest, what are things you like to have or include in your nest?

oops i already half answered this so ill just go into detail. Most of my bed is lined with those baby mesh bumper things designed to stop toddlers from falling out of bed which keeps everything inside. I've got curtains (which are velvety,, fancy feeling) which block out most light when i want it to. i dont sleep underneath blankets most of the time because my room is very warm and having bed curtains makes my bed VERY warm compared to the rest of my room. I will sleep with a thin fluffy blanket when its super cold tho.

towards the "head" of the bed, ive got a circle made from a few blankets that i sleep within, i p much always sleep in fetal position (always have) but usually i can stretch out over the blanket wall just fine if i want to. that little ring is basically the only part of my bed that's not covered with stuffies or pillows or blankets.

I have led string lights going through the "roof" (the bottom of the upper bunk) so i can light up within without having my room light on.

i keep anything hard or breakable out of the nest so i can just flop into it at any time. (if anyone wants suggestions on what kinds of plushies suit nests really well, the large ikea plushies..omg...i have 2 of the big bear and 3 blahaj...theyre very nest-approved)

my parents say my nest is a mess of "unorganised stuffed animals and an unmade bed" but i look at it and wonder how i slept like this for 6 years before realising i might not be entirely normal

🦋 . Any specific misces habits / urges you have?

nesting, if you couldnt tell is a big one for me. but also i think im a pretty average omega?

baby fever hits HARD. im actually an assistant preschool teacher which makes it worse sometimes (cue the "freaks like you are teaching our kids??" i got when i said i was a therian on main) but i LOVE the company of children, and id love to be a father. I was raised in a very big home full of babies so i know the gross and annoying parts of it very well.

as ive mentioned, my weighted daughter...i bought her when i was visiting family. she's a kmart weighted bear she was like 20 bucks. There's also a sloth but obviously i wanted the bear LOL. i might get a second one if i go back to visit and they have them again. She's over a foot long and weighs around 1.25kg. I like her a lot. her name is penelope

i cant sleep without her, she's my baby and my cub. because she's full of beads she also gets very warm when i hold her which is nice

so i assume i get the "strongly parental omega" urge

SORRY THIS IS SO LONG . i appreciate you sending this!!! i started yapping oops

[cmncisspnandmore]

I just need to tell you about this amazing little writer,@cordeliawhohung.

I stumbled across this account by total accident okay? Like 100% had no intention of reading the fanfictions she wrote for. I had only ever heard of Call Of Duty from my husbands late night gaming escapades. But yet, i took a chance, I googled "Simon Riley" and was like "oh okay, bet, military man who wears a skull mask. Lets give it a try," So i did.

I read her fanfiction series called Soft Spot, with basically ZERO context. I googled more in the hour it took me to read her work than ive ever googled in my life. But i was NOT dissapointed. Did i have to reread scenes to figure out who was talking because i was clueless on their names? yes. Did it discourage me one bit? no.

BECAUSE. this girls writing is something else. it captivates you, throws you right into being the main character which is EXACTLY what you're looking for when you read these things. Without fail Core had me hooked. So i did the thing that most anyone does, I left a little ask/message for her. Explaining how this piece of UNPAID, UNOWED work left me on the edge of my seat. How the wrods jumped off the page to try to become reality. Because thats what they did.

And this percious little bean, offered to message me about the characters, to help me understand the things i didnt. She not only eagerly, but kindly informed me of the beautiful characters of Call of Duty Modern Warefare 2, but she also showed me how beautiful her very soul is.

She became one of those people i wanted to talk to all the time. (I probably annoy her with how much i message her, and Core i am sorry, but i cant help it.) We started talking more regularly, and in the few weeks we have been talking, i've come to consider her one of my friends.

Although we dont get to talk a lot, due to her work, time differences and life just being hard. ANY time i see her username pop up in my notifications im thrilled.

I could go on for hours about her, i should. Because there are so many amaizng things i could say about her.

Her writing is next level, if we could all legally publish fanfiction without the whole legal rights thing, Core's story "Soft Spot" would be a best seller. I firmly believe that she would be NYC Best Selling Author her first year. Her way of writing hooks you from the first few words. I honestly get a little jealous of how well she writes, but she was quick to tell me that if we all wrote the same then the world would be boring. Which is true.

So to conclude this post. If you havent, check her out. send her an ask, and get to know the amazing person who runs @cordeliawhohung. You won't regret it.

Also be kind to your fanfiction writers, they do this without pay. For YOUR entertainment. Reblog, like, share, interact with them. They write 100+k fics because they love the same characters as you. They write the works that some people need, that they crave, all on their own time. Be appreciatve and understanding when they do upload and when they can't. They're humans too. Be kind to them. Dont demand things from them.

Core, i appreciate you. I care for you. I will agressively love you from hundreds of miles away. Take care of you, take whatever time you need. And NEVER apologize to anyone for feelings like you aren't doing enough. Because just being you, babes, thats enough.

[youremyheaven]

i'm a different anon but girl, i'm so sorry that happened to you. i had the same first time experience as you and i wholeheartedly agree w/ your advice. don't sleep w someone just to not be a virgin bc being one isn't even a bad thing & it's infinitely better than having to heal from such an intimate form of assault especially when it's the only sexual experience you know. personally i'm still healing from it & it seems like it will just last forever. if you don't mind me asking since i know it's a sensitive topic, is there anything in particular that has helped you heal? i'm sending you a lot of warmth & love ❤️🫂

hi love<3

thank you, i appreciate it <3 and im sending u the same love and healing✨

in some ways i am still healing from that experience even though it was almost a decade ago. more than the memory of it, its the physical and emotional repercussions it had on me that were challenging to navigate, for a long time after that i thought i was asexual, lost my libido, lost touch with my femininity and compounded by many other abusive experiences made me avoid the mirror entirely.

for me what truly changed my whole life was yoga and meditation. specifically yin yoga, women carry a lot of tension in their hips and practicing yin yoga (there are many yin yoga, hip release flow type guided videos on YT if you search for them!!) helped my body feel so loose and fluid and relaxed?? i didnt know how stressed my muscles were until i realized what true relaxation felt like. i remember those initial days of practice, i felt such a profound emotional release as well, like a weight was leaving my chest. relearning sensuality, feeling comfortable in embodying it and reframing sex and my perspective towards it has been a slow journey and some of it is easier than others. but i am doing sooo much better than i was before. meditation also really helped me feel more safe and comfortable in my body and not feel like i had to always be on the lookout for danger or assess other people's intentions. keep in mind, these are not things you can expect overnight changes from. you have to be patient and disciplined and just do it without any expectation. eventually it gets easier. also it keeps you more in tune with your body and intuition and helps with knowing what situations or people to avoid.

i have also been practicing tantric meditation and it has also helped me immensely but i think you should approach tantra after you've reached a point of healing and peace bc tantra can awaken some powerful energies and it can be a lot to handle.

taking care of myself has also helped me. its so funny how when i was struggling with my ed, body dysmorphia and numerous other issues, i did nothing to make myself feel good bc i didnt think i deserved it but by doing things (it can be as simple as applying lotion after a shower, whatever self care habits that make you feel good about yourself!!) that make me feel good, i feel good??? its like those people who say 'omg im so lazy i cant do the dishes' but the truth is you feel lazy bc you havent done the dishes so if you do the dishes you wont feel lazy. i hope this weird analogy makes sense lol. basically do things that feel good and you will feel good, it sounds really basic and almost stupid but i feel like most people wait until they've "earned" it or are "worthy" but the truth is doing it is what will make you feel like you deserve it, if u catch my drift.

anywaaayyys thats all, <333

[fatuismooches]

Hello smooches, its been a while since i popped up here. Been busy with school since i missed like a whole semester bcs i was hospitalized 💀 now i have to catch up with everything.. (pls send help-) anyway, I hope u and the others are doing well 🙏💞

Also, i want to share a very messy Capitano brainrot or a very random thought that have been plaguing my mind for the past few weeks 💀 and its about him having separation anxiety (or fear of losing someone he loves), especially towards *cough* fragile!reader *cough*

I know it is VERY ooc of him, but to me just the thought of someone like him having that just tug a string in my heart 😔

Just think about it, that man must have been through a LOT before he became known as the strongest individual in teyvat and being feared by many people, even being called a monster bcs of how strong he is when he is on the battlefield. Even how bloody his hands are, there's still "someone" (cough reader cough) who really cares/loves him, accept whoever he is and makes him happy. But suddenly that person fell sick and their health keeps deteriorating everyday while he doesn't know what to do to make his sick lover better? (Sure, he can protect reader from any harm. But, can he protect them from getting unknown disease?) Don't mind me, i'll just lie down here and cry-

Also i have this scenario in my head, like the way he walked so fast as soon as he finally touches the front door of their shared home when he came back from expedition just to find reader. He NEEDS to see them with his own eyes, even though all of his subordinates and their house attendants already told him that reader is fine on the letter he recieved everytime he asks how's the condition of his sick lover.

The moment he sees reader, weakly trying to walk towards him to welcome him, he just basically grabbing onto them and hugged them and they can hear tiny quiet aborted breaths coming from under his.. Helmet(?), mumbling breathy words that sound jumbled together but due to their proximity they can vaguely make out a 'it's okay, they're here, they're still here.. and alive.. and not gone..' Reader, after hearing that and seeing him like this for the first time, it really made their heart squeeze painfully and hugged him tighter

Again i'm so sorry if this doesn't make any sense, i really need to get it out of my head ASAP but i also tried to make it as not messy as possible 😭😭 anyways, i really hope that u have an amazing day smooches! 🙏🛐💞

(It seems that everyone already completed Fontaine really fast, and then there's me who barely have time to play and missed some events in 3.8 too 😭 æügh- rip primogems 😔 also, Neuvillette.. the temptation of wanting to pull for him is too strong after seeing his drip marketing 😩)

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🥝 ANON!!! OH MY GOD I MISSED U SM. I WAS WORRIED BUT IM SO GLAD YOU’RE OKAY. Ahh that sounds really stressful I hope you’re making sure to rest and take breaks too :( *hugs you* But I am doing well, thank you 💞💞

But OUH. YOU RETURNED WITH SOME HEART-BREAKING DIDNT YOU 😭. Noooo the way you described his past makes me so sad :( Yes, there are a lot of people who respect him, but of course there will always be people scared of him. His great reputation won’t stop rumors from floating around, but he’s come to accept that. Especially when he has someone as lovely and kind as you, who shows their love without a moment’s hesitation, what other people think doesn’t really matter. Really, he’s come to value your opinion so much, he always takes what you say seriously even when it’s so obvious you’re joking.

OUCHHH I CANT EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS. He’s so used to fighting things, things that have a physical form of course. That’s how he can protect you. But what can he do when sickness has no form? What use is he when he can’t cut through what’s ailing you with his sword? His hands are made for battle and killing but there is nothing he can kill that would make you better. 

Well now you’ve got me thinking about that too 😭 When he walks in he doesn’t even acknowledge his staff, just walks straight to your room to make sure you’re okay. I feel like the Fatui soldiers in his squad have grown to the point where they try to get everything done as soon as possible just so their captain can have even just a moment more of time to spend with you.

He would get so worried just seeing you out of bed, his heart rate would spike for a second and quickly support you and get you back to bed. But first he would just hold you tight, enough so that he can hear your heartbeat, feel your warmth and pulse, and know that you’re still truly here with him. He just needs to know you’re alive, he often finds his hands near your chest and wrist, to feel you breathe in and out. It’s really comforting to Capitano considering how he deals with death every day. After those few words he lets out, you know he didn’t mean for you to hear them, but now you have and you’ll do your best to reassure him. Just guide his big hand to your heart and let him feel the beat of your heart, how as long as he’s by your side you’ll swear to keep it beating for him :(

THANK YOU FOR THIS 🥝 ANON I’ve been missing Capitano a lot and your brain rots with him never fail 😫For the sake of my heart fragile reader got better thank you very much <3 And don’t worry about Fontaine or Genshin in general! It’s not going away and you should focus on yourself and your life first :) But when you do play I promise you’ll have a great time, Fontaine is very pretty and relaxing :) (Yes… join me in pulling for Neuvillette >:)))

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Hi cas, its talkitive mom anon. (I think thats what it was)

This ask doesnt really have that much to do with my other ask but i thought it would be helpful, so i dont have to expalin it all again.

Basically, i dont know if my parents are that bad or not. A lot of my friends tell me that my parents are bad and i always say something along the lines of "im fine, my parents are great really, dont worry about it, im not in a bad situation".

What made me send in this ask is that i had a conversation with my friend today and we were talking about our futures and how moving a lot affected our perspectives of where we want to live. She brought up that when i move back to the states she doesnt want me to 'self sabotage' by living close to my parents. It made it sound like my parents are really bad but idk if they are. I think i talk about them negatively bc im frustrated but igim frustrated at them a lot? She also asked how looking for a therapist was going (my mom wanted me to get one and i told her that i was warming up to the idea bc my mom was gonna force me anyway) i told her that i dont think its gonna happen anymore bc i think my mom decided im fine enough and that i dont need one anymore? She hasnt brought it up since we talked about it like a month and a half ago. And me and my mom have barely been able to have one conversation without arguing.

Tbh for a while now ive just felt like im a horrible child. And that im just ungrateful and i should be nicer and more positive about things. I just feel like a horrible person. I feel like i need to fix myself so that my parents like me more bc its my fault isnt it? I talked to my brother and he cant think of many times that my parents made him feel the way i do. So its either bc he never complains about my parents or bc hes just the better child. My parents have also been fighting more and it stresses me out. Im just so tired of screaming matches one second and the next my mom and dad acting like everything is normal and we all suddenly like eachother again. My mom has been telling me to stop crying a lot lately also. And i feel like she right. I overreact too much and thats probably the reason that i even think that my parents might be bad.

Anyway this has become more of a vent than a question. Sorry for ranting. Do you think im the problem though?

Hi hon! I definitely don't thin you're the problem <3

Listen, I don't know your parents but based on what you've told me, they definitely have their own issues. That doesn't make them HORRIBLE, but that means they're human and they make mistakes. I think when you're in the middle of a situation like you are, it's harder to see when people you love are making decisions that could be hurtful. If your friend is concerned, she could be right!

If it was me, I would go to a therapist. Therapists are awesome for sorting out healthy from unhealthy. Tell them about the dynamic in your family and ask them their opinion. They're professionals and they can get background that I can't. They can also help you identify where you parents have been wrong and where you may have been wrong in different situations. Plus, therapy is good for everyone.

Sending love!