#so maybe i just didnt put enough effort into it idk

[yip-yip]

little panic in the tags

[longingforacultparty]

im leaving my rheift store job in a week

goodbye half off baby blankets

[luvfy0dor]

Hey, I’m kind of new to requests and stuff like that and idk if you take them. But, could you do like a Bsd x Child! Reader. Like, Nikolai as a dad or Fyodor when he finds out his child has a S/O? You obviously don’t have to. Btw, I love your stories! ☺️

“ You Have a What?! ♡⁠˖” BSD Men x Teen Child!Reader ੈ✩‧₊˚

╰┈➤ Fyodor Dostoevsky, Nikolai Gogol

Warnings; they/them for partner, maybe ooc

Description; Dad!Fyodor/Nikolai finding out their kid has a partner

A/n; Thank you!! I assumed that the reader would be a teenager/highschool age. This is really cute to think about- they're in a headcannons format but i hope they're acceptable ^^ !! ♡⁠˖

⑅ Fyodor Dostoevsky ⑅

• You never really had a conversation before about romance with your father, and therefore didnt know how he felt. You figured it'd be best to just avoid telling him about it because of stories from your friends about their dad's finding out and being upset, but your secret couldn't be safe forever

• As a matter of fact, he finds out pretty quickly. It only takes a few weeks for your phone screen lighting up with a notification to catch his attention.

• When he sees it's a name he doesn't recognize and it has a heart next to it, he'd call you back and ask you about it, and that's when you finally tell him about it.

• He wouldn't be upset, per say, but he feels like you'd definitely be better off without a partner for now. He'd also be a little off-put by your assumption that he'd be angry.

• Fyodor would encourage you to invite them over for dinner to get to know them better and deem them trustworthy enough, and if I were in their shoes, I would be shaking in my boots.

• He's so intimidating, he looks like his mood is permanently ruined, even if he finds the conversation pleasant. He asks all the regular questions- do you have a job yet, how are your grades in school, what about my kid do you like, etc etc.

• If Fyodor doesn't like them then he'll insist you drop them and refrain from seeing them outside of school (if they go to the same one)

• If he does like them, you're allowed to invite them over occasionally as long as he's home.

• "Keep the door open" type dad

⑅ Nikolai Gogol ⑅

• You probably told Nikolai yourself. He didn't seem like he'd be upset and was always the type of parent to encourage sociability and relationship forming- friendship or not.

• He, like Fyodor, would also invite your partner over for dinner to meet them and to get a feel for what they're like. He'd try to put on the tough guy demeanor, but ultimately he'd end up performing a silly trick or two

• That being said he still keeps a close eye on you and looks out for you. If he feels like your partner is shady, he's going to tell you.

• He tries to get on your partners good side, though. He cracks a couple harmless jokes, asks you to wish them a happy birthday or holiday on his behalf, stuff like that

• He'll give you advice, but only if it's asked for. If you don't want his input, that's fine. When you do tell him about how things are going with the two of you, he feels in the know and trusted.

• He warns you about dependency though, and tells you to keep yourself able to function without your partner around and to keep your grades up instead of putting all of your effort into a relationship. He wants you to remain and individual.

A/n; I have such a good idea for my next post guys like it's actually gonna be so cute istg, reqs will be back open in a couple weeks prolly

[yynumaki]

Happy Ever After

Sum: After you got horribly injured on a mission with a loose special grade curse, Geto reaches his breaking point

Tw: Angst

(idk if I should make a part 2 with the happy ending)

He was doing so well. Everything was starting to turn back to what it was back then; that was before the incident.

After the whole vessel thing, Geto wasn't the same as he was before; and not long after that incident with Toji, Haibaras life was taken from a mission him and Nanami went on. Depression was clawing its way inside of him, slowly destroying his faith in humanity day after day.

Thankfully though, you were there for him trying to be bright enough to guide him out of the darkness that was slowly consuming his mind.

You were his anchor, the only thing left that he was holding onto, hoping to pull him up and out of the darkness of the abyss that he'd fallen into.

"Its alright, its alright" you hushed, "I'm right here, just breath.."

He had another nightmare, another one where it wasn't only Haibara and Riko who passed, but everyone he holds dear to his heart. The image of a bloodied Gojo, Shoko, Nanami and Yaga was all running through his mind, though the worst part of it— was you.

A few moments before opening his eyes, his incubus was already right infront of him. Your eyes were lifeless as he stared through them, body covered in a sticky mess of your own blood, your skin slowly getting paler and paler as you lost more of it.

"I lost you" he whispered with a shaky breath, "Y— you were...."

His eyes were blood red from crying in his sleep, breathing heavy and body shaking.

"Im right here Suguru" you whispered trying to calm him as you cradled the broken man, "I'm right here next to you"

Feeling your warmth, he calmed. He closed his eyes and held you tighter, almost suffocating, but you didnt seem to care, knowing that he needed to know that you don't plan on going anywhere any time soon.

Months after that, everything was shattered. Every progress, every effort, as well as every last bit of hope he had left in humanity slipped right through him.

For as long as it took for him to progress, you were there. You were picking up the broken pieces and putting them all together one by one; it didn't matter if it cut you one too many times, you still stayed, and you still kept on going, not giving up on the man you truly loved, and he couldn't be more thankful.

He cherishes the moments he had with you, he held onto them and considered them as treasure more valuable than any amount of gold or gems, he couldn't think of any other reality where he hadn't met you, he didn't even want to think of that.

Instead, you both have already pictured your life together. On a small but comfortable home in the province where there were only minimal curses, barely even any, raising a child or two, and having a peaceful and normal life away from the jujutsu world when the time was right.

You both even convinced yourselves that you would be able to drag Shoko and Satoru along with you, considering that Shoko could easily work as a doctor with her technique, and well, Geto was sure that he'd be able to bribe Satoru with a few sweets and praises.

Geto said that maybe he could work as a detective someday since it seemed pretty interesting to him, and honestly, imagining that, you couldn't think of anything else to better fit him.

But since you both were still so young, and still lacked a bit of financial support, you promised eachother to keep on going with your position of employment until the time was right, and Geto had no problem in waiting since he knew he already found the right person.

When Shoko was suddenly called when the both of them had the day to themselves, something felt off with Geto. He had this deep feeling in his stomach that something was wrong, and he couldn't shake the fact that, that something could have involved you.

It was unusual since Shoko has Satoru's number muted except for the one for actual life or death emergencies which, surprisingly Gojo only uses for actual emergencies knowing the stakes in the jujutsu world, and Nanami only ever texts, preferring it to a call though barely even does so, so Yaga was the first one that came to mind when he saw Shoko answering the call with furrowed brows.

He knew you were about to come back from a mission today. He thought that it was something that he shouldn't have worried about since you've already requested Yaga to only put you through low grade curses, something you could handle with a blink of an eye to be able to ease Geto since he wasn't fully healed yet mentally.

He was the one who asked Shoko to accompany him to buy a gift for you; when asked what was the occasion by his short haired friend, he simply said that he didn't need a reason to treat you nothing less of a queen.

Upon paying for a bouquet of jasmines and tulips, as well as some spicy noodles you oh so loved, Shoko received the call.

With one look from Shoko, he knew.

He had never ran so fast in his life with one hand pulling his friend out the door of the shop. Geto quickly conjured up a curse to be able to get to the school as fast as possible.

When he entered the building where injured sorceres were usually brought to, he finally saw you; and when he did, he felt his worst nightmare come to a horrid reality.

Your uniform was much darker color, seeing that it was covered in your blood, eyes closed, and face scratched and bruised everywhere.

He hadn't even realised that he started screaming, calling for you. He didn't realise that Gojo already appeared behind him, and was told to pull him out of the room by Yaga for Shoko to be able to help you.

His ears started ringing, not understanding that Yaga was explaining to him how a special grade curse suddenly appeared there. He didn't care.

That was his breaking point.

Now he stood a few feet away from your crying and shaking form, you were on your knees, quietly begging for him to comeback to you knowing that he was still able to hear your words, the moon illuminating his form slowly walking away.

He informed you that he was leaving for good with a letter, which caused you to run to him before it was too late, without you knowing that it already was.

There was no point in begging anymore. It all fell out of his ears anyway, because in his mind, hes making this world safer for you, hes trying to secure the future you planned together, he was trying to protect you.

"One day my love" he said while walking away, "When we rid of these horrid monkeys, I'll come back to you, and we shall live the life we always dreamt about"

"You and I shall soon have our 'happy ever after'"

[sprixyn]

marble hornets band au... thoughts? suggestions? im kind of in love already. more thoughts below

ok first of all? no slenderman in this universe. its my au and i get to make my blorbos (somewhat) happy BUT the operator is still one of tims hallucinations that hes been having since he was a kid. tim writes songs to cope with his mental illness, he's done this his whole life but hes never shared any of them w anyone. skip to film school (maybe i should change their major to be music so it makes more sense that theyre all into it? unsure. anyways). alex has been looking to start a band but hasnt been putting a lot of effort into people searching cause hes focused on school. and one night — maybe on a dare, maybe because he's had a couple of drinks —  tim performs a song about the operator. everyones taken aback cause they didnt know the guy very well but they really like the song. alex goes woah ive been looking to start a band actually?? and kind of drags along everyone in the room to a first rehearsal it goes surprisingly well, everyone clicks and the music sounds great. since theyre all living in dorms and using the practice studio on campus theyre able to get together usually a few times a week, and they hang out outside of it too. they become really close friends. most of the songs are still tims old material but they write stuff together too. brian has some killer ideas and eventually they end up with enough material that matches in vibes to release their first album: "To The Ark". its a massive project, 38 songs.. YEAH THATS RIGHT each one is named after a totheark video. it also makes sense because tim 'wrote' a lot of them and brian the others. im a genius tell me im a genius. also maybe clips from it are the music videos for the songs? or clips from mh too i like the idea of that. idk its released in three parts (for the three seasons) and "Operator" (THE SONG TIM PLAYED FOR THEM FIRST BTW) becomes a radio hit out of nowhere. by this time theyre reaching graduation so its time to discuss the future of the band!! theres a big scene where theyre each thinking abt what they want for the future but they end up deciding they want to keep it together and see where it leads them :) so they go on tour together and are super successful and umm happily ever after. thats as far as ive thought LOL also theyre all gay and trans just like in canon <3/hj. so maybe theres love triangle stuff?? but i dont really have any fav pairing in this scenario since the dynamics are different.. idk give me ideas pleas. and if anyone drew them i would piss myself and cry OH ALSO I FORGOT TO MENTION all the alter ego things are like stage personas in this. i think thats probably apparent in the first image but yeah. they go on stage and introduce themselves as that and wear the masks for performances. idk why alex and jessica go without one maybe ill design them masks too but that feels weird

[valentine-writes]

The floor is lava Genshin impact characters version? C:

THE FLOOR'S LAVA!!!!

「 tws + notes: no tws, Only Silly, modern au?? idk becuz i can, reader is a funnee lil (gender neutral) guy,,, 」

↳ ft. diluc, itto, tartaglia, and venti

「 gn!reader, can be platonic or romantic <3 」

author's note: these are vv short simple and sweet!! i didnt have Too Many ideaz for this one but thought it was funnee /ᐠ. ᴗ.ᐟ\ !!! i dont write for genshin much anymore but WOOO!! here we go

this is a draft i dug up from the depths,,, sorry genshin impacters,,, i basically quit before sumeru </3 if any of these are ooc now becuz of some groundbreaking plot development which caused a character arc i don't know abt,, my bad (´∩｀。) !!! jus thought i'd post it becuz i giggled rereading this– anon im SO SORRY abt literal months passing while i let this rot in my drafts OUG MY GOODNESS. i literally cannot apologize enough ｡:ﾟ(;´∩`;)ﾟ:｡

"...what are you doing?" he asks, as he watches you scramble to a chair and stand atop it.

"no time to ask, the floor is lava!"

▸ DILUC just kinda. sighs. he'll watch you as you stand on the chair and insist that he's dead. there is no saving him. he puts up with your antics,,, but eventually instinctively participates in them. the next few times you call out to him, spontaneously announcing the floor is lava– he makes the effort to sit on the couch making sure his feet dont make contact with the floor. sometimes (AND VERY RARELY) will he climb on furniture. it's very funny watching as he calmly makes his way over to a chair or table and just kinda. gets on it. anything to amuse you.

▸ you and ITTO are too devoted to your silly game. he was the one who started it– and now, it's become a habit to play it at least once a day. but it's spontaneous. at any given moment you spend together, the both of you anxiously eye each other, wondering who'll make the announcement of the floor being lava first. you're competitive with each other that's for sure. maybe a little too much. you've learned to at least be in an area where the environment around has objects or structures you could feasibly step on or climb. itto doesn't seem to understand the extent of the sheer force he exerts in everything he does. the last game you played, itto had broken a chair by jumping on it aggressively. safe to say you won that round

▸ choosing to play this game with TARTAGLIA is accepting the fact that you're both going to play dirty. you are aware of the fact that he's very competitive– you just hadn't realized that it extended even to the smallest of games. attempting to knock each other off furniture is fair game with him– but you find he has a terribly sour attitude when it comes to losing. so much so, that he attempts to bring you down to the ground with him if he's not quick enough to get high ground. this is an east feat for the fatui harbinger– who is just. naturally strong. there is little to no effort in lifting you up and dragging you down to die in the lava with him.

▸ VENTI... is annoying.

(...and thats where this draft ends. tbh i think this is fitting.)

[ganondoodle]

sorry about that last rambling post, i didnt mean to sound like its worse than it may be, but i got no ... lense to view it through but my own, and the main reason i wrote it out anyway was bc i needed to get it out (even if posting it might be not the greatest idea) .. and bc it kinda showcases, i think, how my stories kinda write themselves, involuntarily in a way? its not like im not putting in any effort- but its like .. i cant STOP it always keeps going and even the dumbest idea stays in some form, its very hard to get everything in place bc theres so much going on all the while i am very slow at making anything, writing or drawing anything, especially anythign coherent is very hard bc not only do i get constantly distracted, i get distracted by my own thoughts suddendly skipping to a certain scene and me having to go throguh imagining in detail NO MATTER how many times i have done it before for the same scene that i already decided on how it goes, when theres a new idea it can take over my entire day bc i cant let go of it-

not trying to sound either like im the only that has that sort of problem, but i think its a big part as of why i start tso many projects without being able to finish them, or even start them bc i constantly have to fight my own thoughts from derailing into another daydream session, thinking of too much too fast than i can ever draw or even write about and not knowing what is worthwhile and what isnt (im telling you i have no idea what is good and what isnt, idk why but for all i know all things i do could be trash, or they all could be bad, maybe the one i thinnk is decent is actually worse than the things i deem not good enough and once i start to think no this isnt good enough i stop having fun making or thinking it bc im trying to do better

honestly its kind of impressive that i can get anything out at all, not to pat myself on the back there but even if i hate how long it takes me, considering how much im having to work just to start working on something at all, the fact that i could post stuff coherent enough for some people to understand AND LIKE is something i should be a little more proud of

[descendantofthesparrow]

What is so wrong with the Rise of Red?

mmmmmmmmm alot, its a clear cash grab, which hey its disney, it keep saying its a continuation from the main 3 movies yet its CLEARLY a soft reboot, it looks so cheap even though i know these fucks have some sort of budget to make it look good enough(the jewlrey, the designs in general, everthing looks plastic and fake unlike the main movies where the fakest thing was Ben's crown, i mean they made harry a REAL metal hook!!!! with little designs on it and everything!!), it just feels like it lacks the passion and effort the main 3 movie had, which even if d3 was a shit show-it FELT like lots of passion was put into it from all the actors and the set design and even just the little details of outfits and other stuff, rise of red jsut feels...cheap and theres some stuff that one of my actor friends(ifykyk) said about the casting stuff and other things that also soured the whole thing becuase they were awful and just-werent doing anything right.

it just feels like such an unessecary addition and i really wish they would just say ';'hey! this is a soft reboot!' and honestly THAT would make me complain less but they're trying to make it seem like its a direct continuation somehow even though Uma/china is the only returning cast and the plot feels lazy the costumes are lazy and the fact that they made it seem like dara renee was goign to be chloe at the annoucment thing last/two ish years ago and on the first insta post of it and then suddenly she wasnt chloe anymore and i feel like thats fucking weird as fuck becuase they instead casted a lighter skinned and skinner girl to play chloe and dara was recast/cast as Ursula's sister and im like....thats WEIRD

idk just from teh start d4 wasnt something the franchise needed, it ended with d3/the royal wedding, d3 was okay enough to be closure for the series and feels like an okay enough ending for the francise but they just keep milking it and milking it to the point where its just not fun anymore-rise of red doesnt look fun, we got no behind the scenes, not even from teh actors-unlike d3 where we got a WHOLE production for behind the scenes and just that alone makes me like d3 becuase it looked so fun to make! everyone had so much fun making it! and yet for rise of red-or pocketwatch as it was known-we didnt even know they finished/started filming until we got a random post saying it was a wrap??? like-no bts? no songs? no fun moments with the cast? no teasers?? nothing?????

idk i just-am not excited for this movie and i dont think im gonna watch it, maybe watch a few scenes on youtube and def listens to the songs and look at all the outfit designs, but im not interested in watching this shit show for...whenever it comes out, it just very much feels like not even the production was fun and if the production insnt fun, the movies not gonna be fun.

[qwesty-030]

hello ASP fandom

I’ve been lingering on the ASP tag for a while bc I wanted to find ppl that like the book as much as i do. I’ve seen all the beautiful fanart and whatnot. and I wanna thank yall bc I’ve been inspired to make my own post ✨! I too shall contribute to the ASP fandom too bc tumblr is the only place i can find an active asp fandom🧍

thank you and have a nice day

—

so uhm these are my designs for Finny and Gene. I drew these back when I started reading A Separate Peace in my high-school sophomore year. They’re pretty old drawings. At the time, I only drew these just to have some faces to put a name on (to help me visualize easier idk)

Well fast forward, my class finished reading ASP and I have been an ASP addict ever since.

okay im going to word vomit now

okay erm thought process of these designs:

Finny-

i tried to make him as book accurate at possible but ngl i actually i thought he was a red head before i looked up what he actually looked like. I genuinely wouldve believed he was a red head if i didnt looked it up (yes im referring to the ppl propagating redhead finny)

i gave him very sharp features and a somewhat messy hairstyle to symbolize his wild nature but also neat enough to get him by in school.

His shirt usually untucked or hastily put on. Most times he has his coat off or unbuttoned

he has some freckles and moles too YAY

Gene-

made him the most basic looking guy with the most basic features: black hair and brown eyes (okay ik his hair looks blue and u can barely see his brown eyed but i was limiting myself on colors GSSSYSHDHHSHA )

ofc i HAD to make him the complete opposite of Finny. His features are more squarish and rounder. because he always does random 90° angles out of nowhere

his hair is more neat and put together compared to Finny’s. It’s very structured to be square shaped. i like to think he uses a little bit of gel but it’s not a tight slickback. he lets his hair go loose bc he wants to follow Finny’s footsteps and be wild and free too 🤩🤩 yet he can’t help but follow the standard of having a neat slick hair and ofc follow school dresscode 🤷‍♀️

his fit is also more put together. he always makes sure his tie is neat and his coat is buttoned up most times

i gave him a mole :)

this was a fun one to make cuz he literally never describes himself in the book💀💀 i find that really interesting tho. perhaps it was on purpose so readers can relate to Gene more by emotion and not feel distanced by physical features

(yea i obviously put in a lot more thought into Gene’s design than Finny’s)

(i still love them both tho)

FUN FACTS YES THERE’S MORE:

honestly thought Finny was a latino and/or hispanic cuz of his tan skin. (im well aware white ppl can look tan and not be a hispanic but also hispanics and latinx could also look pale white i was lowkey a little ignorant back then 💀.) idk maybe he could have some hispanic blood 🤷‍♀️

do not mind the messiness and low quality, i did this in the dead of night on a note-taking app called Notability

that last note may sound absolutely unrelated BUT WAIT! I actually have a whole stock of ASP Notability doodles! More to come!! maybe…

if i feel like it…….

we’ll see

their hairstyles and clothing are based on actual 1940s styles :D it’s my favorite thing about their design especially their hair. it was fun researching and incorporating historical trends

the chair Gene is sitting on is supposed to be the Early American chair from Finny’s house! I did not put any effort into the chair whatsoever 😀

although i gave Finny short hair, I’ve come to see how good long hair Finny is

Yup that’s all for now. Thank you all who stopped by. It’s so nice meeting u guys!!

[foosybit]

Mayoi in PriPara Outfits Part 1

this is a suuuuuper long post cuz i did 2 drawings for about 20 outfits????? so here's the best ones so u dont miss anything by not actually going thru them all o7

but woooo !!! basically i've been on a long journey rewatching pripara very slowly so it's kinda seeping into my brain so i wanted to mess around with what outfits mayoi would go for if he went 2 pripara !! if u want a teal eyed version that also isnt split into parts, heres my pixiv post

last few things to say b4 i start, hello 3 pripara fans on my account, no boypara outfits cuz i didnt grow up with that (the last op i remember is the 6th one and i dont think im anywhere near that yet in my rewatch), honestly i have no clue if there's even proper boypara outfits??? i just know it exists idk anything about it, and if u see placeholders thats cuz i wanna keep the 3 image layout, thats the only reason why lol. and outfit descriptions will go below the art of the outfit. ok time 2 start !!!!!!

Petit Devi from Holic Trick Classic !! this was the first one I did back on.... Janurary 2nd lol. I have yet to see Mayoi in a bright pink but u know what, my executive decision says he deserves it. hi 3 pripara fans on my account again, i should also say most of these (like this one) will be from the arcade stuff cuz i just picked stuff i liked from the wiki's coord list

Sexy Girl from Holic Trick cuz Mayoi's the sexiest girl i know !! from now on all the coords will be from Holic Trick (an in-show brand) cuz 2bh w y'all i mostly just browsed Holic Trick for this whole series of drawings cuz im not going thru all those dam coords. although i've done 2 short skirts so far i do think mayoi'd like longer skirts more, but pripara likes short skirts more so so be it o7

Gothic Check !! the grey shirt and black jacket is kinda giving fs2 4star vibes so this would be the fs2 4star if enstars were cool (wore pripara outfits)

Modern Coffee Maid !! I was thinking of maybe changing the color but i liked the way the orange contrasts with the purple making it look kinda halloweeny :] I also have a personal bias towards brown i luv that color !! but ya if i had 2 say, he'd probably be a 3star if this were a set, kinda vaguely fits him but not enough to be under the spotlight imo

Classic Trump !! Sophy actually wears this in the show and i think it's so cute i wonder how the other alka members would style the vest in their own way (im 2 lazy 2 do that myself yawwnnn) in fact mayoi himself would probably prefer longer sleeves but u kno, stayed tru 2 the original n stuff, anyway say hello to bright pink again mayochan

Sparkling Jellyfish Sophy !! hi kanata hi fish wife hi nata hello nata hi nata whats up nata i love u nata

Nin'Nin Among the Water from Baby Monster !! when i saw this outfit i was chained to my tablet the demons were holding me hostage i had to make the ninja association wear it or i'd suffer a public execution

My Design Holic Trick !! back to holic trick for the rest again :] this is the one i posted on its own hehehehe it's still the one i put THE most effort into (which is why it's the only one i bothered to sign, still dont repost the rest tho please and thank u im just lazy) cuz man its a vibe its so good its one of my favs still i love stupid shorts and the puffy sleeves with the cropped vest and black and purple and the heart and bows and keys which are kinda all reasons i also like mayoi (heart in mayois vibe comes from his big heart muah) bless u mayoi i luv u

Night Navy !! mayoi loves to kill artists in cold blood with random intricate patterns (or maybe thats just an enstars thing in general) so i knew i had to give him this dress. gave him an undershirt cuz what if he gets cold :[

And that's it for this post !! I've now reached the image limit, so see ya in the next post !! (sorry foosybit followers for triple posting i didnt realize i drew so much)

[quiet-in-the-wild]

Last night I gave a very insightful dream that gave me a lot of answers.

This past couple weeks I’ve looking into corporate jobs- maybe something in project coordinating in a branding or marketing department (I have to figure it out still) - my wife was talking to me about it. I did project coordinating when I worked in 2 different museums. Loved it but didnt get paid nearly enough. (And I would have to clock out and work unpaid because it had to get done but they couldn’t have me working more than 39 hours- & the other was a massive project where I did everything that a whole team would do & it was an unpaid internship)

My issue is I’m so tired of being self employed. Learning reiki has been fun but once again I would have to be self employed & market myself in social media. And I don’t want that anymore.

Being an author again -I love writing but I would have to be self employed and basically be an influencer. That doesn’t mean I can’t write I just don’t want to have that pressure of this has to be amazing because I’m relying on it to be my financial future.

My illustration shop is great I love it & wont be shutting it down because it’s print on demand. But I don’t make enough to live on.

& peer support was so meaningful but it was so so much work marketing myself. And at the end of my busiest year I looked at how much I actually made & it was no where near compensating myself fairly for all the work I put in.

I had been looking at something like a student center in academia (but idk I feel unaligned with it. I have a ton of skills I’ve developed running 2 small businesses, having a MA & 2 BAs, having really prestigious past work experience. I know I would feel self defeating if I was just a receptionist somewhere. I know I want more for me.

Got a lot of feelings about working in corporate that I still have to sort through. A lot of questioning biases I have. But I know Im ready for something new and I know that I’ve been ready for stability, and being like actually compensated for my effort, skills & time.

[snifsnoof]

Hii how are you?<3

Do you mind if I ask you some any suggestions/ideas for something I might do in the future? This is a Mini-AU where Soap and Ghost have adopted two children, a little girl and a little boy (both are around 10-11 years old), however the little girl is obviously very scared to be at the house of two 'strangers' so I wanted to ask you...How Ghost and Soap are going to act on this, so how are they going to make her feel at home (The girl's name is Olivia and she's from Russia).

(I hope I write it well because English isn't my first language, and that I'm not bother you, I suffer from anxiety so it is a bit difficult for me to ask for anything.😅)

hii!! first of all, please dont be afraid to ask me anything! im happy to talk to you guys :DD

onto the question, i think i have some ideas:

soap: i personally see him as a very good cook, so maybe he'd try to warm up to her by making her some delicious treats (maybe cakes, cookies, and her favorite foods). he’d be a great dad too i’m sure, maybe a little chaotic at times but i think kids like that? i dont know, but he for sure would do a family game night or something where he pulls the family together to play some board games or something like that! (ghost thinks it’s stupid, but if the kids like it he’ll play along). then, i feel like he’d do a good job at being there for olivia, comforting her whenever she needs it but giving her enough space as to not scare her. he also loves play fighting!

ghost: he’d be just as unsure as the kids are at first, they both need warming up to each other but i think he has the potential to be a great dad! i feel like he really tries to be better than his dad was and if he ever fails he beats himself up for it but soap is there to tell him mistakes happen and that he’s fine. he’d be a good listener and he’d read the kids bedtime stories, stuff like that. olivia always falls asleep quickly, sometimes even in ghost's lap and it makes him feel very very proud. he’d have a bit of trouble expressing himself at times but he truly does love his kids, and he couldn’t be happier with his life. he’d also love to show the kids little tricks around the house for their futures (simple stuff like how to clean the dishes properly, laundry, etc.) he’d also be a great hugger i dont make the rules💪 ghost would definitely be that dad that just spoils their kids with toys and stuff so that’s nice!

bonus: i think it’d be sweet if soap and ghost tried to put some effort into learning some russian to make her feel more at home, and to help with the language barrier a bit. it’s very chaotic and often times the accents are VERY HEAVY so olivia ends up not understanding them anyways but she appreciates the sentiments😭

i hope this answered your question and gave you a little inspiration idk, this was really fun to think about so thank you for the prompt!!! i didnt proof read it so im really sorry if it makes no sense :'DD

(ps: your english is great! <33)

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butternut squash soup

recipe (more like a diary entry of how i made it lol) under the cut!! also warning this is not a quick recipe i started this whole process at like 2:30 and didnt finish the soup until abt 5:45 ish, didnt pull the bread out of the oven until abt 6:30. it was so worth it tho

Ok so basically i decided i wanted to make bread and butternut squash soup for dinner so i started by making the bread and followed this recipe. then while the dough was rising i started tackling the squash. i used a ~4.5 pound squash and started by cutting it in half and putting it in a bowl of water in the microwave for...idk six minutes each half? a bit more? just to make it softer. then i scraped out the guts and seeds (annoying and icky) and cut it into smaller pieces and peeled it with a carrot peeler. this takes a bit more effort than peeling carrots because the squash is hot and soft but also hard and weird and the skin is kinda thick. As i peeled each segment i cut them into smaller pieces and dropped them into a large pot on the stove to just kinda hang out on medium heat in a can of chicken stock, stirring each time i added more squash. i probs shouldve used vegetable broth but chicken stock is what i had so thats what i used.

once i added all of the squash (compost the skin btw!! i forgot to do that :/ ) into the pot, i squeezed a whole lemon into it. then i added like maybe five cloves of garlic cut into large pieces as well as some honey, cinnamon, cumin, lawrys seasoned salt, smoked paprika, lots of garlic powder and some cayenne pepper. stirred it again and then popped the lid on while i cut up two small onions. once i was done w the onions i rinsed out the bowl i originally microwaved them in and transferred the squash back into it.

i then put olive oil and a tiny bit of sesame oil (idk why) into the pan and let the onions fry up. to this i added: more cumin (fav spice ever <3), turmeric, herbs du provence (not sure what these are there just was a jar on the counter so i used it), and i also grated ginger into it. be careful not to let yr onions burn btw. Then once they looked like they had cooked down enough to fit into the bowl w the squash i put them in the bowl w the rest of the squash.

Next i made a béchamel sauce w coconut milk. i heated a can of coconut milk (obvs not the ACTUAL can i put it in a measuring cup and it came out to b abt 1 and 1/4 cups) in the microwave so it would be hot. then i put 2tablespoons of butter and 2tablespoons of flour in the pan. you gotta stir this constantly (its easiest if you use a whisk) so U dont accidentally make dumplings. once that starts getting thick and bubbling a little bit i added the coconut milk in increments, still whisking it the whole time. once that was done i lowered the heat so it wouldnt get curdled or dumplingy and added white pepper, sriracha sauce (first thing i saw when i opened the cabinet so i added it), more garlic powder and cumin bc i like those things a lot.

so then i finally added all the squash and onions back into the pot. i mixed it all in and then blended it w/ a handheld blender. if u dont have one u can just do all the squash ina food processor before adding it back to the pot and if you dont . Um try your luck with a potato masher i guess. EXCEPT i got scared while blending it on account of my pot was so wide and that meant the soup was just a BIT shallow. so i squoze a lime into it. that obviously wasn't enough and i added a bit more milk (cow milk, not coconut milk bc i didnt wanna open a whole nother can and i figured i had already put butter in it so who cares) and then blended it until it was smooth as i could make it. the blender pretty much made all the squash smooth but there were still unblended onions which personally i actually like.

then i finally tried it and it was soo fucking good oh my god.itwas so so worth it. i didnt use a recipe for this when i cook i just throw whatever into a pan and hope for the best but im writing it down bc i wanna make this again bc it was.very yummy.

anyway then i put a lid on the pot and let it hang out while i preheated the oven and baked the bread (which i also painted the crust w an eggwash and put a bit of salt on before sticking it in the oven) etc etc etc .

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i bet those saiyan stomach enzymes they got are monsters at digesting. like they could eat an animal bones and all but they dont (or do they??????)

anyways those saiyans eat so god damn much that indigestion and acid reflux have a higher vhance of killing them than fighting. No savoring or nuthing, they always eat like its gonna be their last meal lawl.....

I do think yamcha like. Occasionally cooks for them tho. Like as a treat. Like he won't do it often, but I think of him as the type of guy who cooks as a hobby IDK

(maybe vegeta savors his food slightly more than anyone else's IDK!!!!)

I believe this. This is believable

I want to see them eat bones... Chichi is standing at the oven making bone broth one day and Goki is hovering like "when is food time chichi?" and shes like "settle DOWN Goku-sa I'm only just now making the soup stock" and she turns around for a minute and when she returns the bones in the pot are just .. gone?

Future Trunks literlaly has acid reflux. A passionate truth of this blog.

They can eat anything & their bodies put so much WORK and Desperation into digesting that I do believe that it could kill them you're right .. if they only eat bones for example then they wont last long becasue the effort it takes to digest them is more than the returns the meal yields. Imagine eating so much that you die from exhaustion. The Saiyan digestion track is a precarious thing, like a clunky haphazard engine perhaps, always go go going.!! Like a hummingbird's cardiac system perhaps.

The only innate source of insecurity that you'll find in the tough and confident Saiyan is food insecurity .. all of their energy comes from food and they burn an awful lot doing what they love .. they have to eat so much all of the time. So much so that their bodies will digest anything. And sometimes that's scary and their stomachs get sad.

Vegeta didnt really care about Trunks to start but I can see that maybe what made him start to care was, for a reason that he could not make sense of, he began to grow so insecure on Trunks's behalf that he wasnt eating enough. There is literally all of the world's food and like 30 gourmet chefs at his disposal, but vegega was still hovering and telling Bulma "make sure hes eating enough..!" and Bulma would snap and go "Stop backseat parenting me, I know what I'm doing. And all the kid does is eat! He barely sleeps with how much he eats!" and Vegeta would be like "OK. But if he runs out of food for even 20 minutes then make sure he eats still. Feed him the furniture because it's better than nothing."

It's literally never enough.

I got another ask saying that the reason that Vegeta is so short is becasue he didnt eat enough in his formative years. I domt remmeber if I answered it or not but I didnt really agree with it but now I'm seeing the merit. I like the abysmal and acute insecurity that that would leave Vegeta with now that would lay dormant until there was a kid in his life for him to lay all his worries on. Very piquant stuff.

Bulma is like "I knew Son-kun when he was young I KNOW how Saiyans eat" but then she sees Vegeta eating bones with her son as a post-dessert appetizer and shes like ... k maybe there is an oddness here that I wasnt anticipating.

It gets to a point where Bulma feels like Vegeta is getting Trunks to eat TOO much. Trunks will be having fun doing an activity and dinner isnt until hours later amd Vegeta will enter the room and ask "you hungry?" and Ttunks ofc says "yes" so then they go get food and Bulma eventually is like "could you stop distracting him with food every time hes doing something else? He needs to develop his brain not just his stomach! Stop telling him he's hungry when hes fine!" and Vegeta is like "Saiyan children are always hungry. Always"

Like honestly the only time Bulma ever sees any real Emotion and Vulnerability on Vegetas face is the panic-stricken look he shoots her when she says that dinner isnt until 45 minutes.

Honestly like WHAT IF Vegeta didnt have enough to eat in his growth spurt years.. he and his men were having to hunt for themselves AND continuously grow stronger AND Vegeta specifically had to get stronger the most. Maybe Raditz got tall just becasue he wasnt as strong, more energy was allocated to height. But Vegeta had to beat Frieza one day. He had to make sure he was the strongest.

Amyway. If Bulma ever got this story out of him (the loose string that unties the knot being his devout over-empathy and anxiety regarding how much Trunks has to eat, and the way that it's causing him to Not Trust Bulma and shes damn sick of it) then she would say "ohmygod is THAT why you're so short?" and Vegeta would be so surprised that he would stop crying. Just cos he never really thought of it like that. But yeah that is why. And his body knows that it didnt eat enough to reach its full potential and it's forever sad about that.

Oh and not to mention what this would do to Trunks .. hes a healthy kid but Vegeta feels like hes living paycheck-to-paycheck with food so he tells him that hes too thin and needs to eat more. And that's gonna affect Trunks's body image and his relationship with food in a weird way. And hes gonna be all fucked up for it. All he does is eat. He both hates it and needs it as a habit.

Additionally hes gonna learn that if he wants to get out of doing something he can use "I'm hungry" as an excuse and Vegeta will defer to it every time. So now hes just learning about instant gratification and procrastination. Son of a bitch.

Sorry for rambling. I love an insecure Vegeta. I love eating bones. I believe this

OH YEAH and the Yamgeta thing. Lol. I said in the middle of an exceedingly long and rambly post recently that Vegeta does like to eat at Yamuchas cabin just becasue it's Real. Theres never enough but it's an honest meal like the campfire meals that Vegeta grew up with. And Vegeta will use Yamuchas woodstove and end up burning something but it's fun for him to get to cook again too.

Good post

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Sorry for another eating relating question omfg. But what is it like to live without an ed? Like do you ever consider the calories or anything when choosing something to eat?

no worries babe this question is completely fine and its totally understandable that ur wondering this.

i just dont think much about food. like dont get me wrong i love me some good food and i enjoy food ofc but i just dont give it much thought beyond that like food is only on my mind when i get hungry or maybe i see something that looks or smells rly good. like i just eat. i wake up and i eat breakfast bc i need the energy and thats just part of my routine. i almost never eat lunch bc im too busy during the day and that time of day is when my adhd meds are at its peak so i dont have much of an appetite right then so it just doesnt cross my mind, i get home and i eat dinner and thats the best meal of the day imo bc thats around the time my meds have worn off and i feel hungry and my appetite is normal again so i eat a pretty big dinner and enjoy it and then some time later at night i will eat a snack or something small (like a sandwich or some cereal or whatever or maybe i just want some chocolate or ice cream lol whatever im craving) just to make up for the skipped lunch and to make sure i get some more calories in so that i dont eat too little bc i just want my body and mind to function as well as possible and i wanna look after myself like i want to nourish my body at least somewhat properly bc why wouldnt i u know?

so yes i do very loosely somewhat keep track of my intake but i dont rly consider calories much. i just know the amount of calories a woman my height and age need daily in order to function and feel good and use it for reference i guess. kind of a pointer so i know im eating enough. this is just me tho like i know most ppl dont even need to make an effort to reach a certain daily intake like thats just something i started doing bc i noticed i have a tendency to forget to eat or not eat as much as i should if i dont monitor it at all and thats just not good for my health or my confidence (there was a period when i was depressed and neglected my health and just didnt put this tiny effort in and i dropped some weight and i just didnt feel as good about myself like i felt frail and childish and shapeless and kinda bony and idk i just felt so unsexy like thats just not for me and i dont want that to happen again so i im a bit more mindful and concious about it now)

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Drew some art of the progression of Lyra's feelings about Ioun

But it's like 11 PM and I should sleep so I'm gonna post the art and make barebones captions/context, go to bed, and might just remake the post if i wake up, look at it, and go "voci. voci...voci thats not enough buddy"

With that in mind!

This is when Ioun apologized to Lyra after they were resurrected (they died in the Zehir fight) and (in my mind) the start of Lyra having. A closer relationship with her, or seeing her as more than just. (Because we legally cannot call Ioun our boss) the person in charge, hense why it's labeled "beginning." Their thoughts in that moment are general feelings of appreciation, surprise, and relief. Debated putting warmth in there as well. Probably too soon. Maybe. Idk!

Transcript: Lyra's dialogue reads "Tough!" which is what they said to the goddess of prosperity trying to offer them deals. Description reads "Loyalty to Ioun after she apologized."

Ioun apologizing combined with Emily inviting Lyra to stay with her once all of this was over (AUUUUUUUGH) pulled Lyra out of their mortality crisis, hence the design change! They're wearing old (aka Elion's) earrings and actually put effort into styling their hair :)

Transcript of the bottom one: Nerd <3 "I love her" (Connotation: I just think Ioun's neat :) ) "I need to apologize to her if we fail"

Nerd refers to this being the time where Lyra starts researching and interacting with the library. "I just think she's neat" is a reference to that one Marge meme. Point being the "I love her" is a casual declaration with no deeper feelings attached. "I need to apologize to her if we fail" is referencing this:

Now a disclaimer on that: I wrote that months ago and while the og idea still holds in that I was planning on doing it, I would absolutely tweak the wording now. Also that's from my writing server so the wording is mostly for me. in terms of what "today" and "everyone else didnt follow orders" means I think that was the Tiamat fight? Timing indicates it's Tiamat. I do not know what "orders" past Voci is referencing. It might be the deals thing. ANYWAY!!

General summary for that point: Closer but still not quite friends. That being said Lyra's more cheery around Ioun and seeking out talking to her just cause.

Transcript: Lyra thinking to themself "God I love her she's so cool" Description reads "Whale convo, which is almost directly post Vecna" (So Lyra is thinking that as Ioun's talking to them) and then the bottom one starts with "After Ioun leaves and they're just thinking" Lyra's thought reads "...Oh." with the description "Means [I love her] in a different way than before"

Squish! :) Congrats lil guy! You love her and now you gotta hide your feelings so you don't pressure her because that'd be really fucked up of you! Yeah that includes your thoughts! Good luck suppressing those! (HE FAILS. HE SLIPS UP SO MUCH I'M DYING TO TAKE PROPER NOTES ABOUT THAT SHIT YOU HAVE NO IDEA)

"Voci why is the 4th heart in the scale grey instead of black in the top one" Uhhh I'm not sure. I think it has to do with Lyra not really knowing what their feelings are?? Like it's vague and then once they're actually reflecting on it, they realize it's something more than just thinking Ioun's neat. Btw it's not clear in this shitty photo but Lyra is blushing.

Transcript: Ioun saying "I do care, by the way." Lyra verbally keysmashing in response, which is cut off by the tiny tiny page. Description reads "right after the trial".

We had a trial where Emily was trying to make a case about the wording of the curse so we wouldn't have to kill her and only temporarily banish her (and Ioun. And possibly the Raven Queen. And anyone else who ascended) outside of reality. It was a really formal court though so everyone was in like. Proper boring formal wear and Lyra went the safe route of going in a suit yes I know that collar looks scribbly I was drawing in front of a campfire okay

I??? This is hard to describe, but by this point, Lyra's feelings are deeper, like they weren't...flustered by Ioun before, at least not to the same extent, and now they are, if that makes sense. I hesitate to say their feelings got? Deeper or more intense, because the timing makes this extremely fucky. And also feels like I'm in the danger zone in terms of possibly using aphobic wording. So I'm just gonna hold off for now.

And there's another art I drew of. The dream conversation where Ioun and Lyra ended up holding hands for an enTIRE FUCKING HOUR but it wasn't finished and I think? That moment kind of speaks for itself? So I'll just. Leave that there and sleep now gn <3

Again apologies if huge chunks of this don't make sense this is one of those moments where the hyperfixation is just Taking the God Damn Reins and I Have To Show People This