#so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn

[13eyond13]

love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world

[bonesandthebees]

Okay, so I expected like maybe 20% of that chapter, and the rest completely got me off-guard. But it’s so good. I had so much fun reading that. Also, I’m letting you know I will nerd out over the linguistics because it was mentioned in the fix for the first time. Also, they have a festival? Mind telling me more cuz it sounds really cool. What do they celebrate? Just the king? Or the end of the windy season? Or both?

-🌲

HA im so glad i managed to take you by surprise with most of that chapter. soooo hyped to hear your analysis, especially nerding out about the linguistics. I was so excited to finally get to throw a bit of that in the fic itself properly for the first time

yes they do have a festival, Vindrūl is one of the biggest holidays on Eldingvegr because it's meant to celebrate the end of the windy season! the festival isn't actually tied to the king, but the last king (tommy's father) died during the windy season because of the winds, so obviously people weren't very into the idea of celebrating that year.

I'm actually going to have wilbur talk about it a bit more next chapter, but I'll tell you the fun facts rn anyway. bit of a sneak peek i guess lol

Vindrūl is celebrated with lots of dancing, sending off flying lanterns into the sky since the winds have stabilized, lots of feasting on traditional foods and sweets (dagrbrað was mentioned in the chapter. it's a type of sweet, cake-like bread that's sprinkled with lots of sugar. it's very delicious, and traditionally only made for very special holidays on Eldingvegr), and later in the evening lots of drinking gets added to the mix too. it's one of the most cheerful holidays on Eldingvegr, and a childhood favorite of many. it's also one of the only holidays they have that's not specific to some historical event or the like, so there's a much more relaxed attitude regarding who can participate. if you were on Eldingvegr during the windy season, you're part of the Vindrūl celebrations. the festival is for anyone who made it through the season, even if they're only just visiting Eldingvegr and not a native to the planet

(this is also why it was probably Wilbur's favorite holiday growing up. not even the rudest servants would be annoyed at him or niki for joining in, because they had gotten through the windy season just like everyone else)

I'll probably repeat a lot of this next chapter so enjoy this preview :D

[fatuifucker]

I plan on writing a full Childe character analysis on his birthday but since I'm writing a Childe x character fic rn, here's what I think of his character (warning: very long and wordy and keep in mind this is prior to me reading other people's analysis of him and going really further in depth. ofc this would have spoilers of Childe's story quest, his backstory and the Liyue archon quest):

Childe is actually a really simple character that I think a lot of people overcomplicate. He is really straightforward and to be honest, even if he was trained to be somewhat cunning in the Fatui, he's actually very simple even when he's being manipulative. Whenever he has problems, his first instinct is usually to fight through it (eg: Childe's story quest when he had to deal with debt collecting, he immediately tried to fight them before Teucer saw him and he had to verbally maneuver through the situation. When he had to do the whole speech in front of the new Fatui recruits, he realised using the metaphor of toys wouldn't work so he immediately challenged the recruits to a fight).

His straightforwardness is the reason why he is deemed to be so strange among the harbingers. The harbingers don't like using force and prefer to work behind the scenes while Childe is bold and confident. He is very direct not just in combat but also in his interactions. Mf also almost revealed his true identity to Xinyan until we interupted him and he also immediately introduced himself as a Fatui harbinger to us in our first meeting. The only time he isn't is when his missions absolute require him to be secretive (which is why he had to give us half-truths about his agenda in the Liyue archon quest) and when he has to protect Teucer who he believes shouldn't be involved in the dark life he lives. He really isn't that manipulative or sly at all.

He revels in being in the "fucked up" side of the world. He is part of the harbingers, he enjoys the thrill of battle and that thrill is his core motivation and drive to live and experience life. He is an ambitious warrior through and through who thrives in the battlefield and willingly gave himself as a weapon to the Tsaritsa because he enjoys it. He wants to "conquer the world" because he enjoys challenges as he sees them as thrilling. It's very similar to Jabami Yumeko from Kakegurui. They both enjoy the thrill (of gambling and fighting respectively) and live for it. They don't care if they get hurt or if it may lead to their death because the thrill is what makes it fun. Even so, I don't think he enjoys being deceived and used given how offended he is by Signora and Zhongli lol.

I think Childe was traumatised by the abyss but in an interesting way, especially since in one of his voicelines he said he wants to return to the abyss and fight the monster that he was once afraid of. It's more like he saw some dark and fucked up shit in the abyss, his master trained him to toughen up and then slowly as he lived there he began to learn how to survive and thrive in that kind of environment. Think about it like you were stranded on a deserted island. Obviously most people would be terrified right? But then you meet someone who live there and taught you how to survive. With no rescue in sight, you became stronger and stronger to survive and by the time you manage to return back home, the experience has altered your personality. For some people the experience may be severely traumatising but for others, it's more like an "it was a learning moment and I'm ready to face the challenge if it happens again". If he ever returns to the abyss, he wouldn't be afraid because he knows he is stronger than before. But do I think he may possibly have some nightmares that he was back as a child, helpless and alone in the abyss, unable to protect himself? Yeah, likely. I feel like although he is proud of who he has become, he knows that a child shouldn't have to see what he saw which is why he is protective over Teucer.

That's one part of him. Childe is also a family man who knows how to clean, cook and he loves his family very much. He is also kind — mf willingly allowed Zhongli to use him as a walking wallet lol — and even though he tried to drown Liyue, he was reluctant about it because he didn't want to involve innocent people into it but was forced to because of the Tsaritsa's orders. As kinda fucked up he is, he is a sweetheart perfect future husband as well.

Little Ajax got his wish to become a protagonist of his own story. And now, he marches into the world with that typical shonen protagonist goal of becoming stronger and stronger to one day be on top of the world.

[sapphic-sasuke]

i just binged ur meta and this one on danzo is where i hoped the story would go after the pain arc when i first watched shippuden...

hope u don’t mind if i ramble here...i think naruto as a series kind of tried to have its cake and eat it too? like we get these hard moral conundrums (pain asking naruto what he thinks will bring peace) and also these cookie cutter talk-no-jutsu moments about conquering hAtReD which is so frustrating...it just had so much potential (guess that’s why i’m still bitter about it so many years after i first watched it lol) and whenever the main cast is presented with ideological conflict it’s just half-assedly resolved (hyuuga subplot grr)

out of curiousity, do u have any thoughts on how the shinobi system could actually be reformed? I haven’t read boruto but from the small bit i’ve absorbed through tumblr, naruto’s way didn’t work out at all. and what do you think of nagato’s magic nuke idea? whenever i think back to naruto now somehow nagato seems like the most reasonable dude, magic nukes are at least a bit more realistic than whatever madara and obito’s plan was.

okay one more thing do you have any fic recs for a sasuke who actually goes on to start revolution? and the system gets criticised and broken down? i’m forever salty that the vague arc that was forming where suigetsu and sasuke were wandering to different orochimaru bases and freeing the experiments didn’t lead to something more concrete. (i hope i’m remembering this right, it’s been like six years since i watched that part so >_<)

(sorry if this is choppy and disjointed, goddamn tumblr crashed just when i was gonna send the ask so i tried to reconstruct it from memory ugh)

((i was gonna end it here but i stumbled upon an itachi appreciation post rn so naturally i have to get a rant out of my system...people really try to glorify child soldier itachi committing genocide on his own family on the orders of his corrupt military dictator leaders lol. btw what is ur itachi characterisation? we see so little of him that’s not an “act” or from sasuke’s eyes, getting a handle on him is so hard.))

damn this ask got long...sorry for spamming ur inbox 🥺 have a good day!

hello! and thank you! im happy my danzo analysis was one you enjoyed

i completely agree that there were wonderful points in naruto that were simply discarded for no viable reason and with the potential it had? crazy honestly same here i think it's why i love the show so much because the potential it had to properly address these issues was there and we almost got that through sasuke but then he was "corrected" by naruto and the main cast. the conflict is so half-assed, and it makes me think... why bring up these issues that mirror real life (genocide, slavery etc) but then.. not ever properly resolve it?

nagato's one does seem the most reasonable tbh although if i were to look at canon options, id lean towards sasuke's goal. i think the revolutionary ideas were made very violent and "extreme" on purpose to have clear villains in place. i dont think an actual revolution by sasuke would be so... i do think that the shinobi system cant be reformed, only destroyed. reforming means compromising with the same shinobi who were keeping the system in place eg the kages etc. naruto is resolved by saying if we all fight against hatred things will be okay but that doesnt address how the "hatred" is getting intensified by the system itself that promotes violence for the sake of your village and for economic gain.

fics for sasuke starting a revolution are... very hard to find. i have some good anti konoha ones that are sasuke centric like this and this . i think the second one is building up to a revolution and its really good. as for my chosen characterisation of itachi. well if we are thinking canon wise, i have a oneshot where its mostly in itachi's pov hejfadsjdj if youre curious that fic is how i see itachi. not canon wise i have some chosen characterisations of itachi that i find very fun like this

(i feel you. i hate seeing people glorify itachi's actions. you're free to like him, even i do, but the moment you begin to try and defend genocide, torturing your own brother and all that disturbing jingoism is where i draw the line. itachi being used as a political pawn for the elders is an explanation, not a defence. he still decided to do it.)

and dont be sorry i love receiving asks :)))) have a nice day <333

[katyobsesses]

I've decided to do that fic ask thing that's been floating around even though I haven't been tagged <3

how many works do you have on AO3?

22... apparently? three of those are fic book covers though.

what’s your total AO3 word count?

139,883 words

how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

On AO3? 3. In general? 4 or 5 i think? I currently write for Glee and Marvel on my AO3 (there's also one Yuri On Ice fic) and I've previously written (and published) for Harry Potter on FF.Net. I do also have a few outlines/ideas for Merlin fics floating around my google docs but I've never posted any, and I used to write Twilight fics back in the day.

what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Ain't No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) Book Cover with 222 kudos (Marvel published 2016) --A book cover for a popular Stucky fic

A Punch In The Face with 101 kudos (Marvel published 2014) --A Young Avengers drabble of sorts, Teddy/Billy meet cute

Express Your Love with 81 kudos (Marvel published 2014) --I cannot remember what this is, I think it's Stony? Something about Tony never saying 'I Love You' to steve but instead showing his love through actions?

In A Previous Life with 77 kudos (Marvel published 2014) --A drabble of sorts. Billy and Tommy talk to Wanda about their life with her before they were reincarnated.

Putting a Punching Bag in the Workshop was Tony's Best Idea Ever with 64 kudos (Marvel published 2014) --Basically what it says on the tin. Stony. Tony is distracted by Steve's arse as he boxes.

Annoyingly these are all fics I'm not that proud of, but they're older so the kudos amounts make sense i guess 🙄 the next most Kudos'd is one I am proud of though - “You took EVERYTHING from me.” with 58 Kudos (2019) - Basically a little oneshot of what I thought could have happened in the 5 years everyone was dusted and how I thought they might have introduced Billy and Tommy into the MCU, it was going to create a whole 'verse but then we got confirmation on things like Kate Bishop and Cassie Lang and Spiderman Far From Home came out and I dropped the ideas. But I still like this fic.

do you respond to comments, why or why not?

most of the time, yes, though sometimes I leave them sitting for too long and then feel awkward about replying to them and i don't (*cough* most of my comments on WTNY(ibwfy) *cough*)

what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

probably In Paris With You which I'd forgotten about until scrolling through my fics! I wrote this, orginally, way back in like... 2011 based on a poem of the same name that got stuck in my head as i studied it for my English GCSE. but it's been updated and changed like 3 times since then.

Also my fic As long as I'm here as I am, so are you is rather angsty. Basically Kurt is listening to Ben Platt's album Sing to Me Instead and one song reminds him of Finn. (because it reminded me of them)

do you write crossovers? if so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I've never written a crossover, though I think I once toyed around with some sort of Harry Potter crossover that never made the light of day, I can't remember what it was with though... maybe Merlin?

have you ever received hate on a fic?

not on AO3! But I did have someone call my OC in One More New Direction a Mary Sue on FF.net which wasn't nice, and someone else said they hated my characterisation of Mercedes in a chapter which was weird because Mercedes wasn't even in the chapter it was just my OC talking about her and her impression of her.

do you write smut? if so what kind?

I've tried, multiple times, in my 10+ years of fic writing, but i just can't do it. Maybe it's because I'm Asexual? it just always feels weird even after I've read smut as, like, revision. I feel like a lot of the characters are, like, ace by proxy because i don't know how to write characters being motivated by sex.

have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope! Not that I know of anyway

have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope!

have you ever co-written a fic before?

not that I remember? I vaguely remember being a Beta for someone like 10 years ago though.

what’s your all time favourite ship?

I honestly don't know! I've definately written mostly Klaine, but I'm such a multishipper that I have no clue. I'm really loving writing Hevans rn mostly because we are lacking Hevans content which is criminal. actually, fun fact, my fic Welcome To New York (it's been waiting for you) was originally going to be Klaine, but as i was writing the outline I fell back into the Hevans hole and decided to switch it up. I'm glad i did because it would have gotten nowhere as a Klaine fic!

what’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

If i don't think I'll finish something I don't post it. I have a graveyard of fics half drafted.

what are your writing strengths?

I honestly don't know. I like writing dialogue and I know I'm good at portraying something with a small amount of words but you'll have to ask my readers 😊 (in fact, if you've read my stuff please let me know what you think my strengths are! I'm honestly curious!)

what are your writing weaknesses?

I'm terrible at stretching a scene into something bigger if it warrents it. Like i said I'm good at portraying something with few words but sometimes I feel like that throws the pacing off. I use a lot of paragraphs because of that, to make the reader pause and reflect until the next line or to show that the character is pausing and reflecting. idk man. I also hate writing dates, which is annoying because WYNY(ibwfy) is mostly dates. I've been on one in my life and it was shit so i have no idea how to write one lol.

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I think that, unless you don't want the reader to know what is being said or the words used are obvious in context, that you should write it in english EG: --"Merci!" Kurt said.-- is fine but if you want to write something longer I would do something like --"hello my name is Kurt Hummel and I love scarfs" Kurt said in french-- or something, it depends on the context.

Actually, going back to In Paris With You. Kurt is french in that, and it's from Blaine's POV so when Kurt speaks french it's in french with Blaine translating what he can in the narration. He's not meant to be able to understand Kurt perfectly, so the audience doesn't either. But if I was writing, say, Kurt and Sebastian talking to each other in French from Kurt's POV I'd write it in english so that audience can also understand that Kurt understands.

(does that make sense?)

what was the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter. definately Harry Potter! It was how i got into fanfiction, and how i got into glee <3 JKR is a horrible person, but her books - and especially the fandom surrounding them - mean a lot to me.

what’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

I have no idea. I'm really liking my Love and Friendship series right now, and I love One More New Direction because it got me through - is getting me through - this crazy couple of years. so probably them? I also really love (that makes you) The Scarlet Witch which is kind of like a character analysis of Wanda that I wrote after watching WandaVision.

[liyuesbian]

hahsddsf the headcanons are only in my head for now. I do write for another fandom but i wanna read more character backstories and lore before writing anything here (although I will eventually muster up the energy to actually write down a hand study for liyue). hopefully one day I will post things! so many characters are underrated and have nothing about them written except in ships 😔 (side note: does genshin fandom like headcanons lol? most of the writing I see in the character tags are either full fledged fics or x reader, since I think a lot of the char backstories are fleshed out enough that there isn't that much room for headcanons)

update on twitter: I think I fixed it lmao but yeah, the "x liked ___" really bothers me hsdjfsd I don't follow a lot of people because of it rip. going on twitter made me realize how customizable tumblr actually is shdfsd

!! two days until kokomi; the suspense is strong... imagine her and idk gorou playing chess in resistance downtime, and all the sangonomiya soldiers expect gorou's dog instincts would make him more competitive, but really gorou is the one doing it for fun; kokomi is the pretty grandmaster who plans her strategy to the T and is fiercely competitive (you are getting me on morally gray kokomi hype train and i'm here for it. she gives me the uwu pretty girl vibes but can and will kill you. there's nothing that a college au kokomi won't do to be top of her class, but that doesn't mean she can't look good while doing it)

manifesting ei and kokomi parallels, they really feel like two sides of the same coin huh

ahhh a hand study of liyue would be so so cool to read! will be awaiting any other hcs you create too :p

before i say my thoughts, i just wanna say that i am by no means a popular blog so not sure if i have the grounds to do an analysis on the genshin tumblr community from my small pool of posts haha. anyways, my musician!au (not a hc but ig they're similar enough ? since they're also not x reader ?) did pretty well for non x reader content imo, especially since i hadn't posted a lot before them and they were part of my first few written works. the inazuma one got quite a few notes but only bc it was posted during the big inazuma update. and yeah... most genshin headcanons on here are x reader stuff.. hmm your reasoning about the characters alr having so much detail to them makes sense but ig visibility of the post will depend on the kind of headcanons, how you write them, and your no. of followers as well? (also, presentation. i've learnt that presentation on tumblr does a world of good lol) i'm trying to think of my other fandoms in comparison to genshin's with hcs but i think they're abt the same tho i can't rly rmbr.. i haven't been invested in the general fanfic/writing space in so long until this blog so it might be a bit wack to compare it to stuff from 2016/17

yay! that's good to hear :))

!!! ahh ik !!! i can't wait! (will u be rolling for her?) AAH YES YES THAT SCENE IS PERFECT OMFG! HAHAH i am rooting for evil mastermind kokomi 🧠🧠 i don't usually do character story quests right off the bat but for our pink-haired war strategist, i might do it as soon as it drops

..........mystic... i think u're a genius. college!au kokomi?? i'm thinking of an x reader for this rn and it may follow smth along the lines of this manhwa - not sure if you've read/know it - called cheese in the trap! kokomi as the male lead who gave off a bad impression at the start etc. and secretly plans things to help his crush out (lowkey kinda creepy) AHHH BRAINROT. i haven't read it in years tho so i never finished reading it but this could be a thing 🤔

[storybookprincess]

So, I was just reading 1 of your metas: The 1 abt Gon & his behavior (Which was good, even if I don't completely w/ everything in it. Here is an excerpt from it: "(killua, in contrast, is fine taking the short & easy path as long as he & gon get to go together, but killua’s motivations are a different post for a different day)." So I just wanted to ask, if u will ever do that other post abt Killua's motives & stuff (I love reading Killua & Gon metas. Like on their morality & motives)? Ask 1/2.

So yeah, I would if you did that post/meta someday! I love Metas/Analysis (I am craving more!), esp. for HxH, & 2 of my favorite boys ever; Killua & Gon. Also wanted to ask, in that excerpt I put w/ my 1st ask. But u said that Killua was also willing to fight it it met him & Gon passing & moving on to the next phase. I thought in the manga; Killua kept silent, so his thoughts/motives were more ambiguous, but maybe it was in the anime too? It was still prob. in character tho either way. Ask 2/2.

awwww thank you for sending these!!!!  first, to answer your question, i haven’t read the manga, but yes, in the 2011 anime, killua explicitly says he’s fine taking the short & easy path provided he & gon are two of the people who get to take it.

as to whether i’ll write a meta about killua’s motives/morality in the future, my answer at this moment in time is probably not.  i've made some recent-ish changes/adjustments to how i interact with fandom in general based on whether certain behaviors or activities were enriching my experience or detracting from it.  and at least for me right now, making posts where i’m trying to argue a certain side/position within fandom aren’t really a positive experience.  i like making small observations & connections, like here, or writing goofy & lighthearted stuff like this, or writing fun & cute headcanons, or giving advice to people, and of course i LOVE writing fic, but posting anything that will likely invite argument in a public setting isn’t my personal cup of tea at this point in time.  there are plenty of people for whom that is fun & productive & enriching & that’s fabulous & they do awesome at it & i think they bring a lot of amazing perspectives to the fandom.  it’s just not where i’m finding the most enjoyment rn, if that makes sense, so i’m not really in the mood to create that sort of content.

i apologize if anything about this answer is disjointed or convoluted or just generally strange--i am massively sleep deprived at the moment & have been dealing with some pretty intense vertigo all evening, so my brain is extremely extremely fried & i hope you can excuse anything about this that might sound weird. xo

[sanchoyo]

hi there!! i've talked to you a couple times but just wanted to ask if you have any tips or pointers for making a fic if it's not too much trouble! i'm writing a shigarak/reader fic and it's my first time writing a fic, and i'm just worried it won't be good or interesting or that i won't write him well :( hope you're staying well, i know working rn is so tough so i hope you're taking time for yourself ❤ and if you ever need someone to talk to i can drop you a message if that's ok!

aww hi again then! I’m so glad to hear you’re writing your first fic omg! I’m so honored you’d ask ME for tips bc uh,, I am no expert or anything. I will do my best and tell you my personal Things I Do though!! I hope some of these help you! (also thank you <333 I’ve been trying to talk to my friends/family about how tough its been so I think I’m in a good enough place rn, but you can always chat with me!! :D) 

1. If you’re worried it won’t be ‘good’ or ‘interesting’ remember those things are TOTALLY SUBJECTIVE.  When I started writing, I didn’t even plan to post it!! I started writing bc I needed something to do when I was stressed and I thought it would be fun... it was for me! You should do the same! Write about what you enjoy, scenarios you think you’d like, tropes you like, even if it’s corny (I LOVE tropes and really cheesy drama/romance!!!) if you wanna write super mundane coffee shop aus, or the most out there, wacky au..space pirates ghost hunter babysitter detective drama romcom at at once,, there’ll be an audience for it. I thought literally no one would care abt wh because it was rampant with ocs and minor charas. and then i thought the same abt cl because I’m using More ocs, extremely minor charas/movie characters. Guess What. ppl are still reading! and im still having fun! :D

I’m aware some people don’t like it, but thats with everything you do! There’ll always be people who don’t like things you do so it’s important to just make sure you like it and people who also do like what you’re doing will come and let you know naturally! I promise there’ll be other people who like it! and if you’re worried it might be something thats been done before..may I refer you to the ‘two cakes’ comic... :)

 (also if you’re posting to ao3 there’s a comment moderation option- feel free to turn it on! I have it on so anytime I’ve gotten hate comments I just delete them w/out approving or replying jksfdhask I promise there’s been a good bit of people who had Nasty Things To Say its the internet and people can be rude but the best thing is just ignoring them.) 

2. you said you might not write him well but thats also subjective? tbh everyone interprets characters differently. A lot of ppl say I write him,, very soft or cuter than in canon (which. could very much also be me writing in a Self Indulgent way, thru a softer lens bc thats how I Want To See Things hahaha)  I wish I could give tips, but..hhm just maybe read through canon and decide what parts of him you liked and note his speech patterns (those skills u might have been taught in high school lit analysis will come in handy, the perks of using them now is that you aren’t being graded. nice) also using google docs or pinterest help (I know, ppl hate on it and it does have rampant art theft but. making mood boards with quotes and aesthetics you wanna go for in a fic? VERY fun and useful) 

Good luck!!! like I said you can always hit me up if you need someone to bounce ideas off of (or if you wanna let me know when you post it!! I’d love to read it!!!) hope these helped!!! I’m sure it’ll be great <3

[kaedekayano]

okay! finally, my last live blog post of the night. It is 2.16am right now, so forgive me if my thoughts are a bit incoherent. Also on mobile, so no readmore

[edit the morning after] readmored bc i love yall nd im on my laptop now

a couple comments on the fandom ao3 - the proportion of dazai/chuuya fics is honestly astonishing. I’m sure they have more interaction than this in the manga, but karmagisa has roughly the same, if not lesser (I think? Been some time since I checked the AC AO3 relationship rankings, because all it does is make me sad over the lack of f/f, but that’s smth I’m working on fixing personally) proportions. And Karma and Nagisa get way more screen time together and much more detail on their relationship. idk man, whatever floats your boat and if it’s popular, it’s popular. I’m really into it too

I mean, I also like dazai/kunikida a lot too and it was my first ship for this show, but kunikida hasn’t had as much time to shine this season - many of the characters haven’t, but dazai, ever the eternal puppet master and one of the central focuses, usually gets a lot. I certainly don’t mind, he is the favorite son.

still don’t understand why akutagawa/Atsushi is such a thing, but ofc the end of s2 is hinting at redemption of a sorts for akutagawa and he’s getting better, and I’m sure that’s shown even more in the manga. tbh akutagawa is such an incredibly self-destructive, volatile, poor-tempered guy that while that’s a ship I could get behind, it would require a ton of work, and that’s work I’d prefer the show to be doing instead me headcanoning my way into things making sense (looks at the rarepairs I have cobbled together out of headcanon and far-reaching analysis. it’s work, yall). Development. It would be good. for now, I definitely love lucy/Atsushi - I think they’d be good for each other, and she’s got a skewed moral compass too, but she seems a little more amenable to changing that.

okay! fandom comments over.

Steinbeck/lovecraft is a cute friendship, even if I can’t stop thinking the phrase “tentacle porn,” over and over, in my head. I hate it a whole lot. I’m so done with myself tbh, too many tentacle jokes in AC fandom RIP. Lovecraft is really cool, he’s such a mystery but I think that’s a good narrative choice that the writers made, and I love that monster aesthetic even though I have never once in my life read any of Lovecraft’s works.

Ranpo is really fascinating as always. I’m not entirely sure of his thought processes, but I understand where he’s going with the, “but then I’d be normal.” (Paraphrasing because I don’t remember the exact words.) because - and I suspected this was the reason from the start - if he isn’t gifted, then his abilities are only human, can make mistakes and be fallible and he’d be held responsible for it. I get that. It’s hard. I sympathise with him. And I continue to love his closed-eyes smiling expression and his spiky hair, the hair is just cool. Also, poe/ranpo seems cute.

I was going to say I have no words for how much i adored the double black episode, but I’m writing a whole lot of words now, so I guess that’s a lie. I really adored it. I love ships that are all rivalry and hatred and an unwilling magnetism that attracts them to each other (okay yall could already tell but shush). I will probably rewatch the episode soon. And probably write a couple snippets of fic, but won’t really do anything until later because I have a lot of other writing to attend to ah the moment. But oh my God, Dark Era Dazai (still can’t believe Chuuya was his partner and didn’t appear even once in the Dark Era episodes!) and his partner fucking shit up and insulting each other and terrifying all their enemies and making fun of each other all the time, barely able to tolerate each other but inexplicably tied together. I love it, okay. I want to write so much about it.

Francis was never a character I liked, but he at least amused me sometimes, so props to anything that can make me laugh or smile.

Akutagawa is a mess.

I wanted to write more, but it’s now 2:31 and I desperately need to sleep. So a few quicker points than what I’ve been typing up until now -

Atsushi playing big brother / mentor to Kyouka gives me life

I am a fucking baby I felt so many overwhelming emotions when Dazai walked over to Akutagawa and said, “you’ve become strong.” (Not paraphrased!) I’m so - oh my god.

Akutagawa try to gain some semblance of mental stability. Maybe read a self help book, take an anger management class. thx, love u bb

Kyouka is so precious and important to me

Steinbeck is terrible but he has the Affably Evil trope and I’m a sucker for the affably evil trope. I’m a sucker for the affably even-normally-not-associated-with-affability trope

“I haven’t left my house in four years. I want to sleep.” Same, Lovecraft, same

Where did Q go. Is he okay. He’s a nasty piece of work but I still feel concerned for him

The five executives give me life. Technically I know three rn, but yeah. (Did anyone ever replace Dazai and who were they?)

I continue to love Chuuya’s hair. And his hat. And his terrible temper

Also, Chuuya and Dazai were partners but did anyone else have a partner? Was it because of Chuuya’s Corruption ability and Dazai being able to neutralize it was the reason they were paired?

Atsushi is precious. Deserves good things.

Omg the Poe episode I forgot how much I loved the unreliable narrator trope in fiction. Mainly because the reasons for the narrator being unreliable turned out to be shitty and cliche most of the time but I still love it.

The detectives are precious and adorable. All of them. The party at the end was so great my heart was like!!!!! :D

Good night everyone

[fartandsoul]

im about to reblog a lot of doubt posts because im in a State rn. and this whole post is about doubt and shit so if you’re optimistic about johnlock in tfp don’t read on. if you’re doubting and want to doubt together, send me an ask or a message :)

after tld i think it’s safe for me personally to give up hope for johnlock altogether. i’d rather have no hope and be pleasantly surprised than have some hope left and have it dashed. plus im finding it hard to even muster hope after that episode. like johnlock has barely been foreshadowed at all this season, the casuals would not see it coming, and they still have to tie up euros and the fuckery of tst/tld. there’s very little room/time for anything johnlock

maybe mofftiss were telling the truth when they said john and sherlock would never get together on their show. maybe we’ve been queerbaited this whole time. maybe all our theories and readings of the show really are wrong. maybe we’ve been reaching. 

i think we should be right based on what the narrative has told us. i think it makes the most sense to give us canon johnlock in the end. but that doesnt mean the writers are gonna do that, and in the end it’s out of our control. we should be right but i dont think we are.

this season has disappointed me so far. the writing seems different. the johnlock is...not really there? the only thing i really love is sherlock’s characterization. he’s even more vulnerable and amazing than we thought after s3. but it seems to me that all of tfp is gonna be about the holmes family and sherlock’s past, finding out what happened with euros, maybe if we’re lucky an explanation of tst. the only hope i can see for johnlock is if sherlock comes to terms with his past and then realizes john loves him back. that’s the only way in my view. i think it could still happen in s5 depending on what goes down next week. i’ll decide whether i want to hold out hope for that after i see tfp. 

i have a lot of feelings about it already but mostly im just sad. im sad in advance for everyone on my dash who was so excited to see representation. im sad for everyone who put so much time into this show only to be possibly queerbaited. im sad that sherlock and john probably wont get this one thing. im sad for everyone who has so much hope right now and might be crushed next week. im sad for what my dash is probably going to look like after tfp -- all of us disappointed, destroyed, consoling each other. im sad for the people who will laugh at us and say we were wrong all along. 

i love this fandom. i love how we throw ourselves into this show and put so much work into our theories and metas and character analysis. i love how much we love our boys (and everyone else too). i love how this show showed a lot of people who they are. i love how people made friends through it. i love how smart we are and how we predicted so much of tab. i love how funny we are. this fandom is like no other i’ve ever been in. no other fandom would analyze every second of a 37 second trailer. i remember when we got the footage of sherlock seeing john in the restaurant right before s3 and we all flipped out. the fandom makes the show even better, it’s what makes so much of this fun. im going to be so sad if we get disappointed in the end.

im sad for myself too. this show got me through a lot and maybe i shouldnt have used it to get me through those things but either way i have such a connection to it. i remember falling in love with these characters and their relationships. its been almost four years with this show. all my other obsessions are over pretty fast but sherlock keeps coming back. theres something special about it. and im so sad to see that possibly going away next week. 

it’s like a constant. of course i care about other things more -- God, my family, my friends, my majors. but sherlock is one of the things i love, one of the things i adore thinking about, analyzing, imagining, expanding on, screaming about. it’s my go-to fandom. my go-to show. i’ve invested countless hours reading meta, watching episodes, reading fic, writing fic, writing meta, and just being excited about a show this amazing. and if they ruin it this season it seems like it’s all going to be wasted. i know scenes and lines so well, by heart even, i know these characters so well. like old friends. and all my time and energy and emotional investment could just be for nothing. 

and i cant really talk about it. most of my friends dont get it, a lot of them dont know about tjlc because i didnt want them to laugh at me if we were wrong. it looks like an obsession with “just a tv show” because it is lol but it is important to me as well. and i can already picture next week. my dash basically in a sad group hug while my friends text me “wow what a great episode!!” and i’ll be in mourning. like really. i will be mourning this show and my love for it. 

sherlock really ruins other media for you. it’s so well-crafted, has so many layers that nothing else really measures up. the characters are so beautifully portrayed that you cant really find anyone else who you love this much. and i wanted to see their love in the end, i wanted to see them happy and together.

i think i’m supposed to learn something from this. dont place this much of your life in a tv show, maybe. trust in God and make Him the focus instead. but it certainly does hurt a lot to learn the lesson. i thought i already went through this with hamilton, and that one hurt. i was absolutely dysfunctional for a week after that. but maybe i didnt really learn from it. it feels like this show is grated onto my heart and it’s being ripped out. 

or maybe we’ll get johnlock. maybe this is the “darkest before the dawn” (i almost typed darkest before the john lmao). a lot of people are really optimistic but it seems like a stretch to me. we are set up for it, if we’re talking about their emotional obstacles, but i really think the “i love you” will be for euros and not for john. maybe s5. if it’s a 5 act play we can hold out hope. maybe.

what sucks is that it’s such a beautiful love story if they went through with it. sherlock literally comes back from the dead for john (twice), what’s more romantic than that? them teaching each other to love and that it’s okay to be broken. it’s so gorgeous. i don’t want that taken away.

i hate being a bit superstitious about this. like by writing this i feel like i’ve destroyed the possibility. i want to say im hopeless but i feel like that means it wont happen. i want to say it won’t happen but i feel like that’s setting it in stone. it’s dumb because they’ve got it all filmed and i really couldn’t change anything but here we are lol.

this got really long, longer than i wanted it to, but i needed to let this all out. i won’t fully give up hope until after tfp, and i’m going to keep reblogging tjlc theories and metas with the hope that they’ll come true. but right now i’m pretty pessimistic. i’d love to be proven wrong. #LetsHopeWereWrong2k17