#sometimes i just get overwhelmed with how much i adore bsd

[bethiewhimsy]

last episode of fourth season tomorrow. gonna explode. new chapter this weekend. gonna explode. apparently we’re gonna get some exciting bsd news. idk what it is but it’s gonna make me explode.

[locketsvault]

「 CUDDLING WITH BSD MEN PT 4/4 」

pairings: tecchou x reader ፥ jouno x reader ፥ tachihara x reader

tags: gender neutral reader, fluff, cuddling/phyiscal affection

warnings: talks of disabilities in jounos part

other parts: ada ᨒ port mafia ᨒ doa + the guild ᨒ the hunting dogs

a/n: tachiharas is short since I haven’t entirely figured him out, I hope that’s okay!

// tecchou suehiro ⌇˚.༄

⮑ He promised you to always take care of you and he means it.

⮑ He pulls you into a hug by grabbing the back of your head and leading you into his arms. Sometimes he will even tuck your face into his neck. Honestly you could melt into his arms, he’s just that comfortable and safe. Don’t think too hard on it though, we all know he’s muscular—.

⮑ He has designated cuddles based on your mood, I’m dead serious. He is very observant and came to the opinion cuddle positions are based on moods. He’s surprisingly not wrong. If you have aches he will hold you close which rubbing/massaging the area. He is the definition of attentive.

⮑ He doesn’t see the appeal of pda but he doesn’t mind it either. If you’re the type to do pda then okay, if not that’s also okay. As long as it’s not flashy pda in front of his co workers.

⮑ His cuddles never fail, he’s always comfortable no matter what. Honestly I’d like to compare him to a security blanket. I’d love to at least hug this man, at least once.

⮑ 10/10 cuddles, you always come first to him.

// jouno saigiku ⌇˚.༄

⮑ My poor baby with insane hypersensitivity. Good luck.

⮑ It’s canon that all of his senses are very heightened. I feel like too much touch could easily overwhelm him. He’s talked about being able to hear heartbeats and internal body movements. I think that being too close to someone can overwhelm him not just talking about him telling tecchou to stop breathing. If you did cuddle it cannot be in silence or he could get overwhelmed.

⮑ And I imagine touch is a similar amount of torture for him. He feels everything x10. Too much touch can be suffocating to him. I adore jouno and physical touch, I’d love to say he loves cuddles, but in all honesty as someone who has a normal amount of hyper sensitivity I genuinely think it could get too much for him.

⮑ When he can handle cuddling he’s always in control or the big spoon. He keeps the touching to a minimum usually, like holding hands. But if he notices you need more he will compromise and give it to you. Sometimes though he will give in and let you hold him instead. Though sadly it’s usually when he crashes badly.

⮑ It takes a while but he will adjust to being able to hold each other close, which is quite nice. However when he does get overwhelmed he can be a bit mean I’m sorry but it’s true.

⮑ 3/10, it’s rare and minimum or else he might lose it.

// tachihara michizo ⌇˚.༄

⮑ I don’t really see him as much of a cuddler, especially when he’s under cover.

⮑ I don’t think he dislikes cuddling or physical affection, don’t get me wrong. I just don’t think it’s his style. Unless you tell him you enjoy it and would like to do it, he doesn’t do it much. And when he does, he’s such a guy about it.

⮑ He’s always a big spoon, I don’t see him being comfortable being a little spoon. Also this is very strange to say but he can act like such a sibling when cuddling you. Except when you or he needs it, then he takes it serious and is surprisingly gentle.

⮑ He does not like pda, he doesn’t understand the appeal and just doesn’t like it. When he’s with the port mafia he’s got an image to uphold, being in a relationship or at the least being affectionate is a big no. And with how much he gets teased by the other hunting dogs I’d say he tries his best not to get caught. It doesn’t always work though.

⮑ 3/10 cuddles, when you get your cuddles lol.

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[sirhyst]

Edgar Allan Poe (bsd) fluff alphabet (U - Z)

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Unique – What’s an unusual thing about them that’s oddly charming?

He will randomly reach out to touch you. He doesn’t mean to make uncomfortable, even though the first time it probably surprised you, but sometimes he moves without thinking. He tries to control it, especially if he’s with strangers, but when he’s with you, he’ll randomly sigh and feel your arms or your clothing because it gives him comfort.

Variety – Do they prefer to keep things the same, or spice it up?

Poe generally dislikes sudden changes, but he’s willing to explore something new with you once in awhile. Take things slow with him because he becomes overwhelmed easily. If you find it difficult to except change, he’s willing to give a little push without frustrating you.

Wash – What’s it like taking a bath with them, or helping them wash up after a fight?

Poe adores taking bubble baths with you. He loves when you sit in front of him with his arms wrapped around you. Most of the time he likes to lay on you though. He loves it when you tell him stories about your week (even if you’ve told him the same story twice, he just wants to hear your voice). He’s especially happy when you listen to him ramble about his stories and a case he worked on with Ranpo.

XO – How do they show you affection? How much PDA are they willing to show?

Poe doesn’t like drawing attention to himself, so at first, he’s nervous when it comes to PDA. He mostly kisses your cheek or holds your hand tightly when in public. Sometimes he’s struck with confidence and kisses you. There was time he saw another couple sharing a romantic moment and felt compelled to pull you into a hug and kiss you.

Yearn – What do they do when they miss you?

He writes about it, obviously. As mentioned before, Poe feels emotions more intensely than others, and it can become overwhelming for him. Writing it out helps him to let out those feelings of missing you. Poe can also become very distracted depending on how badly he misses you. While trying write his book or taking Karl on a walk, his mind wanders back to you. Don’t be surprise if he calls/texts you unexpectedly.

Zzz – How do they act when they get sleepy? How is it sleeping in the same bed?

If Poe knows he’s getting sleepy, he desperately tries to hide it, even at the cost of his own health. Please drag him to bed because he will stay up for 48 hours or more working on his book, but he’ll regret it later. Poe is a heavy sleeper, and that’s mainly because he’s running on 1 hour of sleep. Poe also talks his sleep. There are times where it’s become concerning where it sounds like he’s fighting someone, but overall it’s the cutest thing. He tends to touch you a lot while sleeping—feeling your arms, wrapping his legs around yours, etc.

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This ends the fluff alphabet! Going to TRY to work on the NSFW alphabet next, it probably be done in the same format (3-5 letters at a time). I’m also thinking I need to do a master list at some point so my account is easier to navigate.

[fyodior]

hi flora. when I saw you were doing a matchup event I just had to participate. your writing and ideas are absolutely *chef’s kiss*. <3

so the name pam is fine. I’d like an NSFW matchup hehe. here’s some more info about me

I’m a full time student

my enneagram is a 4w3

my hair is wavy, red, and reaches to my chest. I have dark brown eyes, slightly tan skin, and I’m 5”2’.

people describe me as very calm and composed. I’m pretty quiet when first meeting someone and my voice is soft. but when with close friends, I tend to be bolder.

my hobbies include listening to music, reading, writing, watching movies, baking, and cooking. I’m a nature person; I love walking through the forest, the riverside, or gazing at stars. I also enjoy going on long drives and traveling around. I try to romanticize everything I can around me.

some NSFW info - I’d say I’m a switch leaning towards sub. sometimes I do enjoy being in control, but most of the times I want to be dominated. I wouldn’t really like inflicting/receiving too much pain though lol. light degradation/teasing is fine.

pam x atsushi

♡ FIRST OF ALL hello fellow 4w3. i serve you your husband atsushi :)

♡ the biggest thing that jumped out to me was how you love to romanticize life. life has not been . particularly kind to our poor boy atsushi so he tries to find joy in the smallest of things too. and he'll always point things out that he think you'd both find beautiful - the way the light peaks through the blinds in the morning, a dandelion growing in the crack of a sidewalk, every single dog that passes by. he actively searches for joy and wants to share it with u :")

♡ atsushi would definitely be your nature buddy <3 hikes would be fun with him but maybe would be slow, he'd get mesmerized by every pretty flower or tree or mushroom and you'd end up stopping every 30 seconds so he can stare in awe. but u dont mind bc he's adorable

♡ i was randomly imagining a cute nighttime "picnic", where maybe at the end of a hike the two of you find a clearing where the stars are really visible, so you throw down a blanket if you have one or atsushi's jacket bfdkljfdkjf and just stargaze while you munch on whatever snacks you have left. you have quiet moments where you lean your head on his shoulder and he wraps his arm around you as you watch the stars, but there will also be some really great conversations.

♡ your calm demeanor is the only thing that allowed atsushi to work up the courage to ask you out that first time, he was definitely all blushy and tripping over his words, but your presence was very reassuring and it went great :')

♡ he likes that he's taller than you fjlkdfjdj

♡ returning to enneagram ..... us 4w3's have the overwhelming desire to feel unique and special, and like we are our truest selves, and i think atsushi would be a very supportive partner of this personality type. he'd definitely give you the space to be whoever you wanted to be, and do his part to make you feel special. he absolutely cherishes you and sees you like you hung the goddamn moon so he will absolutely fulfill that need fkjdjfdkfdj

♡ nsfw time! atsushi is definitely your bsd man if you're looking to avoid pain in sex i feel like he is MUCH more about body worship and tender sex, telling you how beautiful you are and wanting to kiss every inch of your body. he doesn't want to hurt you

♡ he'd definitely let you take control from time to time, and very thoroughly enjoy it. pls that boy needs to be dommed so bad

♡ he will make you feel like the most special human on earth as you ride him, telling you how good you feel and how he doesn't deserve someone as perfect as you bfdjdkfjdd

♡ i hc atsushi to majorly be a giver. he's a people pleaser and wants to see others happy, so i can see him laying you down and gladly eating you out for as long as you want, just so he can hear you moan and whine bc that's what turns him on more than anything

♡ can i be the flower girl in your wedding. that is all thank u <3

[bittersweetmorality]

hi !! may i please get some cockwarming atsushi nakajima fic/drabble/hcs which ever you are most comfortable with writing!! there are not enough smut about him and i am dying of hornee („• ֊ •„)

HELLO I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE . i will pay you to send in more atsushi reqs </3 i beg </3 he’s my favorite from the show and i agree that his entire nsfw tag is so criminally dry :’)) ANYWAY IM GUNNA KISS U THANK YOU

also hi !! i back :p thank you for sticking around after my mini break ^_^ i love you and i'm so glad to be able to write for you !!! and i hope your day is amazing and i hope you enjoy these shameless self indulgent headcannons :pp

cockwarming with nakajima atsushi (+ drabble)

☾ genre: smut, 18+

☾ pairing: nakajima atusushi x gn!reader

☾ warnings: sub!atsushi, cockwarming lol, soft seggs, dom!sub dynamics, mentions of pet play but just a mention, mentions of a lot of other things ??, lots of pet names for atsushi :p, teasing, dacryphilia ??? sorta ?????? kinda ?????

☾ w/c: 890 words <3

☾ okay so first off, USE COCKWARMING AS PUNISHMENT

☾ he’s always been so sensitive, so being inside you without being able to move, you clenching down on him, teasing him, caressing his body...

☾ as much as you insist on calling it punishment, oh, he never thinks of it like that

☾ he adores it

☾ ofc you know that, but who are you to deny him that pleasure :p

☾ but telling him that if he came while you were punishing him with cockwarming, saying that it’ll be the last time he does for the rest of the week

☾ oh he loves that

☾ because he's a little bottom bitch <3 we love to see it

☾ ALSO!!!!

☾ always praise him.......... the WHOLE entire time

☾ tell him he’s doing so good for you, that he just has to hold on for a little bit longer, that he’s such a good boy, that he’ll get the reward he earned...

☾ usually he isn’t that vocal during sex, only small mewls and whimpers

☾ but when he’s being cockwarmed.... lord have mercy

☾ he’s so loud

☾ high pitched mewls, his voice breaking every time he attempts to whimper or moan or respond to you

☾ his eyes are always screwed shut, head thrown back against the pillow, hands gripping the sheets below him until his knuckles were white, and his mouth agape in a silent scream

☾ cockwarming is definitely one of his favorites, although not his #1

☾ (heehee his #1 is pet play and i won't take criticism he literally morphs into a tiger hello)

☾ but he never needs much convincing at all when you suggest it

☾ he's so game

☾ even if it’s during movie night with the two of you

☾ don’t hesitate to plop right down on his lap and get him all hot and bothered before suggesting

☾ although the can almost predict it at this point— the moment you shift in the seat next to him on the couch— oh boy...... he knows what’s coming

☾ he doesn’t really like cockwarming in the agency or in public at all

☾ he’s too scared of getting caught for that

☾ if kunikida saw that 😐. he’d die of embarrassment.

☾ or god forbid dazai

☾ he wouldn’t enjoy it overall,,,,, too terrified to even be aroused in that situation

☾ but anyway back to vocal atsushi

☾ because no one is really paying any attention to moving and being precise in said movements, he just likes you to look down at him and caress his cheek

☾ just paying attention on solely him

☾ obviously as a kid he wasn’t given any care... like at all

☾ and he’ll never admit it, but he adores it when you just look at him with eyes full of love

☾ it’s easy to show him a lot of care and attention at that point so

☾ SHOW HIM LOVE AND ATTENTION AND CARE. PLEASE.

☾ atsushi is not very dominant as it is, so he doesn't need any sort of physical restraints-- and honestly, i hc that he doesn't really like them

☾ but pin his wrists above or beside his head while addressing him... sheesh

☾ he'll listen to everything you command him to do

☾ he also cries sometimes during sex, whether it be the overwhelming emotions, or the sheer amount of pleasure he’s feeling

☾ or even just because of how much he loves you and how much he appreciates you loving him too

☾ so it’s very common for him to cry during cockwarming

☾ he also does NOT mind teasing-- he loves it

☾ when he isn't listening to you, give him a teasing roll of your hips

☾ i guarantee he will listen to you instantly <3

☾ now because i can't express how much he truly loves teasing with cockwarming in headcannon format, please enjoy this drabble <3

“how are you feeling, baby?” you coo, leaning down to gently stroke away a stray tear that fell across his cheek.

“s-so good...” he whimpered in response, but the way he shuddered and bit his lip showed the evidence of his restraint.

you took notice with a sly raise of your eyebrow, “so good, hm?”

“yes- i- hahhh...” he sighed and his eyes screwed shut with force when you rocked your hips, clenching around him tightly.

“then why can’t i hear you, daring?” you leaned down once again and nipped softly at his earlobe. you reveled in the way his body responded to your warm breath fanning on that sensitive skin.

oh, he was always so sensitive.

"baby, don't you know that good boys get their rewards, don't you?" whispered, and made sure you stayed adjacent to his ear.

"y-yes..."

"and what to bad boys get?"

he looked up at you, doe-eyed and completely undone, "a punishment..."

"that's right, angel, and what are you?"

"a good boy..."

you bit his ear again, harshly this time as you spoke, "whose good boy?"

"yours! only yours...!" he whimpered out, almost thrashing under you, but restrained himself upon remembering his instructions.

"that's right~" you croon, tantalizing tilt present, "and you're doing so good, baby. i always knew you were my good boy... only mine."

BSD masterlist <3

[along-came-atsushi]

Hellooooo! How do you think Dazatsu would happening ? I love this ship and even if that will never be canon… Well, we can dream, can't we ?

Hellooooo~ <3 Yeah I feel you. I love them, too, they are my OTP!

Me with my shipping glasses on: Dazatsu will definitely happen! How can it not? The signs are all THERE!

Me without my shipping glasses on: It will never happen. None of our gay ships will ever happen. And I know, you know, we all know the reason why. It’s all just fanservice and wishful thinking.

[Beware: Slight spoilers for the Hunting Dogs Arc!]

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If you’re asking me from a personal POV: I am an avid fan of slow build-up when it comes to romance and shipping. I headcanon for my personal canon that Dazai and Atsushi are not a couple yet. But they are in the phase were they figure out that they have feelings for each other.

I think that Dazai realizes this pretty fast, since he has a good perception of how other people think and is able to interpret their intentions correctly. Which means, that he is able to analyze Atsushi’s personality in a very short time and estimate for himself, if he would like him or not. Despite his outer clownish behaviour, he is amazed by Atsushi when he saved him, especially considering the dire situation Atsushi is in. There are some tiny things I absolutely adore, where you can read that Dazai at least thinks that Atsushi is adorable.

(”You SAVED ME from my attempted suicide no. 16527? How DARE you!? But also: Do you like to wine and dine with me?” And look at his smug smile here, damn.)

In the anime, when he asks Atsushi what he wants to eat and Atsushi answers that he only wants chazuke, Dazai blinks surprised and then giggles. And I just !!!! Man, that giggle is like a: “Haha, so cute! :3″ giggle.

(Bitch, why you’re giggling like a teenage girl? No one understands right now - Kunikida, probably)

During the investigation for the white tiger Dazai learns a little bit about Atsushi, realizes that he had a harsh past, that Atsushi himself thinks he’s not worth living. And that made a deep impression, because: “Damn there was a time where I thought so about myself and I’m still struggling with it :/” and “I. Need. To. Protect. This. Boy.”

Which then leads to his infamous: “I’m not into hugging men”, because: “Haha, nope, I am NOT going to develop SUCH feelings! v.v”  And oh boy, does it look like straight out of a shoujo romance in the anime, when Dazai captures Atsushi in his arms:

(The new ghibli movie looks great!)

And Atsushi on the other hand is like: “Wow, this person is so nice, yet so weird at the same time! :) And this is actually the first time someone is N I C E to me! Who is he? What is he thinking? Wow, he’s so cool and confident, I wish that was me!”

(That is a totally heterosexual way to see someone, Atsushi. And Dazai, what is that soft look in your eyes, huh?)

And then when Atsushi has his entrance exam and he is willing to sacrifice himself for the sake of others, Dazai is genuinely surprised. And not many people are able to surprise Dazai, because he’s a schemer and thinks so far ahead.

That for me marks the moment where Dazai thinks: “Oh God, HE’S the one! *_* I want THAT ONE!” and “But that also means he’s WILLING to sacrifice himself for others! D: I need to protect him at all costs!” followed by: “I must suppress my selfish feelings, for everything I ever wanted and that is worth pursuing will be lost the moment I obtain it!”

I imagine that Dazai is constantly torn between his romantic feelings for Atsushi, which he T R I E S to cast aside and suppress, and the fact that you just can’t disconnect from your feelings like that. In the end they often get the upper hand of him.

Which results in him showing his affection in little and subtle things like: fooling around with Atsushi, trying to spend as much time as possible with him, secretly protecting him without everyone’s knowledge, just be there for him (even if that portrait of a father chapter was horribly written in general), very very very slowly opening up and showing a little bit of his true inner turmoil. And over the time this all gets stronger and he tries to honestly flirt with him, all under the disguise of clownery.

(And oh boy, THAT particular scene in 55 Minutes wasn’t even subtle anymore. I almost choked on my water).

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I think Atsushi takes longer to realize his feelings for Dazai. He is overwhelmed that there are people who genuinely care about his well-being. So, in the beginning, I imagine that he sees Dazai as someone to look up to, since he never had someone like that back in the orphanage. But the more time he spends with Dazai the more he realizes that he can’t ignore certain things: He sometimes can’t sleep at night, he catches himself blushing for some reason, he is sometimes nervous and tries to impress Dazai.

Atsushi: Wow, Dazai is really cool! I am so grateful that he helped me and I’m so amazed by him!

Atsushi’s Brain: Nah, bro, you’re just gay.

Atsushi: Haha, that... isn’t true. I mean, it’s true that he’s... very good looking. But someone like Dazai would never fall for someone like me. Not even if I was a woman...

Atsushi’s Brain: Bro, that’s really just gay.

Atsushi: It isn’t!

Atsushi’s Brain: And what about THAT dream you had last night?

Atsushi: THAT WAS JUST A FEVER DREAM I WAS REALLY TIRED AND CONCERNED OKAY?!

And then they get forcefully separated, because Dazai needs to go to prison. But their thoughts of each other and mental connection never disappears. Dazai slowly replaces the headmaster in Atsushi’s mind:

(I mean even ANGO realizes that there’s SOMETHING going on in Atsushi’s head. AND ALSO can we talk about how there is a HEART on the present Dazai is sitting?! Coincidence? That may be the case of course. But I don’t think so. In this essay I will).

And Dazai legit asks AKUTAGAWA (!!!) to protect Atsushi: “Hey, I’ll be going to prison soon due to personal reasons :) Can you please look after my future husband while I’m gone? Oh, and don’t you dare hit on him! >:| I know you’re slowly falling in love with him, too! EVERYONE IS! The competition is getting tiresome!!!”

So... yeah XD

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I don’t think BSD’s storyline is even halfway through, and there are still a lot of things to come. There are so many possibilities what could happen, so I’m just getting along with the story as it is and patiently wait what will come next. For now, I hope that we’ll get a reunion hug between Dazai and Atsushi when he (finally) comes out of prison. Man, everyone of these characters could use a hug, tbh. I’m assuming when he comes back Atsushi may confront Dazai with some things (for example his treatment of Akutagawa in the past), and maybe Dazai will open up a little bit. But we don’t know.

Anyways, I’ve been in fandoms for many years now and have different OTPs, and never was I upset when my OTP did not become canon. I kinda always knew beforehand if there was a slight possibility or not, just rolled with it and enjoyed the ambiguous hints that were presented to us.

And of course, we can always dream and headcanon what we want. And then there is still the power of fanfics and fanarts ;D