#sometimes it hits me and wow am I still disappointed

[froggibus]

Omgg your work is so amazing QWQ can I have a Reaper x reader fic where she just blatantly flirts with him all the time and goes out of her way to touch him seductively (his thighs, mask) to rile him up? Maybe nsfw?

Put You In Your Place - Reaper

Pairing: Reaper x f! reader

Genre: smut/NSFW

Word count: 1.2k

Summary: tired of your constant teasing, Reaper decides to put you in your place

CW: rough sex, dom! reaper, face fucking, deepthroat, breath play, no prep, unprotected sex, degradation

possible dubcon!!! don't read if you're potentially triggered by the subject

wow ive gotten a lot of reaper requests lately lol. anyway i am going to tag this as dubcon just in case??? i don't really think it counts but better safe than sorry! enjoy <3

Your little crush on Reaper didn’t go unnoticed—and neither did the way you were always flirting with him.

It had started innocently enough. You’d compliment him when he did good, comfort him when he did bad. Sometimes he’d need more than just verbal comfort, though, so you’d give him the occasional pat on the shoulder.

But that soon evolved into something else. You would rub his shoulders, or place a hand on his abs. It was all in good fun, even when you got bolder with it. A touch on the thigh, a kiss on the cheek of his mask. Reyes didn’t seem to mind, and you loved flirting with him.

Reyes reaches a hand to help you up off of the ground, training finally over. You gladly take his help and let him tug you back to your feet. The muscles in his shoulder ripple as he does.

“Good job today, Reaper,” you smirk at the man, “loved that part where you were on top of me.”

The tips of his ears turn red at your words, and you smirk, unable to help yourself. You move your hand up his arm and to the centre of his chest, applying just the right amount of pressure.

He shivers under your touch, swallowing hard, “what’re you doing, l/n?”

“What do you mean?” You blink at him innocently, trailing your hand lower, “am I doing something?”

“Y/n,” he breathes, catching your wrist tightly in his hand, “stop.”

“Or what?”

He just shakes his head at you and drops your hand from his. Reaper turns his scarred back to you and stalks out of the training room, mumbling something about putting you in your place.

You can’t help but feel a little disappointed at that. Your crush on him only seemed to grow with each passing day, and there were only so many things you could do to catch his attention. Not that it mattered, considering he rebuffs every attempt you make.

You head back to your room with your hand hanging low, hoping a hot shower can wash away your sweat and dismay. You grab your towel and hit the showers, turning the tap all the way to the hot side. The water engulfs you, washing over your stiff muscles and sticky skin.

When you’re done in the shower, you head back into your room in only your towel. You like to sit around and dry before putting your clothes back on, anyways. Sitting naked in your bed, though, your mind only drifts to Reaper and his perfectly sculpted muscles.

You can perfectly picture how those muscles would look above you, flexing with every thrust of his fingers into your—

There’s a knock on the door, ruining your fantasy.

“Go away! I’m naked!” You shout.

You expect the sound of retreating footsteps, but you’re instead greeted with the door swinging open hard enough to dent the wall. Reyes stands in the doorframe, his figure so big he almost fills it out. He’s still in his training clothes—a white tank top and a pair of gray sweats. Your eyes can’t help but drift to the slight bulge in his pants.

You crawl back to the corner of your bed. “Dude, I’m naked!”

“Good,” he closes the door behind him and locks it. “That makes it easier on me.”

You raise an eyebrow, about to ask ‘easier to do what?’ when he’s suddenly pinning you to your bed. Your wrists are held in each one of his hands, pinned to the bed next to your head. 

“W-what are you doing?” 

He smirks. “I’m putting you in your place, like I should have done a long time ago.”

Before you know it, he’s pressing his lips to yours in a harsh kiss. It’s angry, aggressive, desperate. His tongue seeks out yours, forcing its way into your mouth. He tastes like smoke, his scent overtakes your senses.

“You want this, hm?” He pulls back and lets go of your wrists.

You nod eagerly beneath him, watching as he unties the drawstring of his pants and reveals his black boxers. The harsh contours of his cock against the fabric make you gulp.

He wastes no time in discarding his underwear, letting his cock spring free. It’s red and angry, not to mention rock hard. He moves forwards, knees on either side of your shoulders.

He presses the tip to your lips, and knowing what he wants you to do, you open your mouth and allow him entrance. He thrusts in immediately, not letting you ease into it. His cock is thick and fills your throat completely. Salty precum fills your mouth.

“You’re such a fucking tease,” he moans. “Always touching me and acting like a slut. You wanted this to happen, didn’t you?”

You can’t say anything with the way his cock is filling your mouth and restricting your oxygen, instead relying on nodding your head. He leaves his cock in your throat for a minute, waiting until tears dot your lashes before he pulls out.

You’re left gasping, your pussy wet and aching for his touch. He slaps your cheek with his shaft, rubbing the mix of your spit and his precum on your face. 

“Open up,” he commands, and you oblige.

He shoves his cock back into your mouth, the sheer size of his length making your jaw ache. Still, you hollow your cheeks and bob your head to meet each thrust he’s giving you. Once again, he holds his cock in your throat for a few seconds before pulling out and letting you breathe.

You expect him to put it back in, but instead, he goes straight for your pussy. He’s ripping off your towel before you register what’s happening, and lowering his mouth to your dripping core.

He licks your clit and laughs. “Fucking whore, already so wet for me. I guess you don’t need much time to prepare, hm?”

You cry out when he starts to rub the tip of his cock against your sensitive pussy lips, covering his whole length in your juices. He teases your entrance by pushing just his head in, before pulling out and slamming in his full length.

He’s thrusting into you furiously, splitting you in half on his cock. You whine and throw your head back. Reaper presses a hand over your mouth to keep you quiet while he destroys your pussy.

You dig your nails into his arms, desperate to have something to keep you grounded while he continues his onslaught. You’re getting close, though, and can’t help but reach a hand down to rub your clit. Reaper’s thrusts get sloppier, nearing his edge.

Just as he shoves as much of his cock into you as he can, your orgasm washes over you. You moan, squeezing his cock inside you. Reyes cums at almost the exact same time, pulling out and letting it splash onto your stomach.

Both of you are panting, Reyes hovering above you with wide eyes.

“I—wow,” is all you can say.

Reaper grins, glad he found a way to shut you up for once.

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[mildmayfoxe]

big fan of your romance novel complaint posts (love to see a fellow hater living it up) but i’m also curious if there are any you would recommend? not looking for anything in particular, just would love to hear your thoughts as someone else with nitpicky reading habits and a taste for trash

ok hello. i left you hanging for a FULL week and for that i am sorry but i wanted to be able to have some time to sit down and type out a real answer to which the short version is YES of course there are several that i have enjoyed!! my disclaimer is that i almost solely read gay romance so if you are looking for lesbian or even straight reccs i don't have much for you (although i will put a couple at the end anyway). hopefully something in this list is interesting to you or at least interesting to someone else! links are mostly to goodreads. break bc i'm gonna write too much

-kj charles is one of my fave authors in this genre bc they're all pretty reliable and there's a ton of them. they're all historical fiction and usually there's at least one murder- she's good at keeping a plot going while developing a romance. often supernatural or magical elements. sometimes cults! i've read almost all of the books she's written and have enjoyed them all

-charlie adhara wrote a really incredible werewolf series that i loved, the first of which is the wolf at the door. this is one of the only series i've read which keeps the emotional stakes up through the whole thing & kept me interested in a relationship after it was established bc sooo many series get boring the second the leads get together. i actually read the first book of the spin-off series (a pack of lies) first which is technically possible but i don't recommend bc i was like "wow they're really throwing me in here. i love it" and then i read the first series and i was like "oh i was supposed to know all this stuff." but i actually liked the dynamic between that couple better and i'm suffering every day because the next one still doesn't come out til 2025 and i read it in 2022. also worth noting that this (the original series) is cops-ajacent (~federal special agents~) and one of the characters is really prejudiced at the beginning & imo doesn't have enough character growth before it's waved away but if you can ignore that it's really good. mysteries! werewolves!

-speaking of werewolves (i could suggest several but i'll keep it to two) tj klune's wolfsong ends up at the top of a lot of gay werewolf novel lists (i'm keeping tabs) and there's a good reason. i enjoyed it a lot. made me kind of sad which is always a good sign to me. the writing voice was very fresh and novel at first but i did find it a little grating by the end so i've put off starting the second book in the series (it's also about a different couple which was disappointing) but i will get around to it. i enjoy tj klune in general although his recent stuff has a very different vibe than this and lightning struck heart is very 2015 in a bad way imo

-bone rider by j fally is a standalone that really delighted me. the russian mob? aliens? vaguely western? possession? throuple? it's got it all. very fun

-ok speaking of westerns there's this other series called magic & steam (yes it's steampunk. sorry. it's very silly) that starts with the engineer. a federal agent is sent to a town to apprehend a ~madman engineer~ except he runs into an infamous outlaw in the process. and the outlaw is really sexy. and probably why i enjoyed the series so much. the series also keeps them apart a lot in a way that i enjoy- i love when things take a long time. it's ongoing so this is another one that i keep checking for updates on

-i've read a lot of stuff by nr walker and they tend to be VERY hit or miss for me but one of my faves is evolved which is almost pure smut. it's about a sex robot that gains sentience. what more do i need to say. she also wrote a three-book series about an amnesiac that made me cry cry cry. and her cowboy (australian rancher) series is pretty ok. i could go through a list and tell you which novels of hers aren't worth it and which ones are good; i've read most of them

-salt magic skin magic by lee welch was a big surprise to me. cool magic, good folklore, fairies in there too. historical. big kj charles vibes which makes sense bc she edited it. welch also wrote a book called seducing the sorcerer which i had more mixed feelings about but had magic in it that i think about OFTEN (the horses)- that one's about an imposing sorcerer and a rundown groom cum handyman. and they're in their FORTIES!!! 🥳🥳🥳 (i love when books are not about 23 year olds)

-another one with a magic system i enjoyed was magician by kl noone. this was the first book i read by this author and i liked it but generally i find their books are too "nice" for me. i'm in the middle of one right now that i started months and months ago that i keep trying to go back to and it's sooo rough for me. but this one and the twelfth enchantment are pretty ok

-emily tesh wrote a duology of silver in the wood and drowned country that i loved because i am suuuuch a sucker for a wild man/green man story. really good. haunting! evocative! kj charles has a green man story too which was actually the first thing i read of hers (spectred isle)

-i complained about the monsterfucker book i was reading a while back but despite that i will also recommend the series it's from: lily mayne's monstrous, which starts with soul eater. are they messy? yes. are they repetitive? yes. are the monsters usually disappointingly humanoid? yes. are a lot of them about the military? also yes. so we're starting off on a bad foot. but the world building is interesting and there's LOTS of kinds of monsters and most of them were pretty fun. the one i just read (#7) was the worst one of the bunch though imo. and i have problems with #6. but 1 2 and 5 were good

-ok i should do a quickfire round. honeytrap: about two enemy agents during the cold war. put it off for a long time bc i didn't love that but it takes place over a VERY long period of time which is always interesting to me. zero at the bone: about a hitman who needs to protect a witness to a mob hit. really strong start but fell off a bit in the middle to the end imo.

-you'll notice a lot of these have subgenres of like fantasy historical supernatural etc but here's some regular contemporaries. a lot of these are about sad guys bc those are my favorite. best laid plans: hardware store owner helps a guy fix his house. in the middle of somewhere: same author actually. guy moves to small town to work at a college. mr jingle bells: this is a christmas one. bad title. fake dating. part of the reason i think i liked it so much is because i expected it to be awful but it was actually pretty good. good emotional stakes. published 2021 but feels very 2014. ignore that part. work for it: i rated this five stars but actually don't remember much what it was like. i think they were both really sad which i love. give me big emotions and i eat them right up with a spoon. i should read it again

-OK now i've got some straight & lesbian options. talia hibbert's brown sisters series is good and cute. she also wrote work for it, above. the unhoneymooners is the first real Romance Novel that i read and it really surprised me because i had fun! previously i had kind of written off romance novels as not for me but this kicked off a reading habit that is still going strong (primarily reading romance novels). i read this in 2020 so it might not be as good as i remember. as for lesbian options olivia waite has a series that i enjoyed that's also historical, and a friend of mine really enjoyed delilah green doesn't care (but i haven't read that one myself). and while not really romances i will always be a sarah waters fan: you may recognize her as the author of fingersmith, which is the novel park chan-wook's movie the handmaiden is based on. if you haven't seen the movie or read the book i recommend both. her books are very dramatic lesbian historical fiction; they don't always have happy endings but they're all very good

ok i think that's the end! regular disclaimer that romance is generally not a genre notable for Good Writing so a lot of these are just things i had fun with or just stuck out in my memory for having fun conceits etc. i can't guarantee that any of these are actually good, especially because this is a list solely based on my own taste and bad memory. would love to hear anybody's thoughts and/or if anybody has recommendations for ME!!! this post took me over three hours to write! crazy!

[akwolfgrl]

LFT PART 39

Luffy made his way back to the platform, he had gotten blown away earlier but he had a nice nap in the street and a free lunch with Zoro so it wasn't a big deal. Zoro even showed off his cool new swords and told him all about his date with Sanji. Luffy was happy they found each other. He didn't care about romance and sex but he knew that other people did, besides the happier Sanji was the better his food would taste. Luffy also liked seeing Zoro's soft smile when he talked about Sanji, they way the corners of his eyes crinkle with joy, it was a different smile from when he was about to fight or when he found something funny. It made Luffy happy when his nakama were happy.

It was time to climb up and stand where Roger had once stood. Luffy could use his devil fruit to get up there but he didn't want to. He wanted to climb up there unaided by his rubber body, after all gold roger didn't have a devil fruit. Luffy began to climb up the platform once again, this time he made it all the way to the top.

“Wow!” Luffy exclaimed standing on the top of the platform looking out at the people gathered there. “So this is what the King of the Pirates saw before he died!”

“Hey! Get down from there! That is the property of the world government!” A voice shouted below him a man with a megaphone was angry with him. “It's only to be used for executions! So get it done bef…” Luffy watched as a woman in a cloak and hat hit the megaphone guy with a spiked club.

“Oh don't be so uptight about rules Mr. Officer it's not healthy, and Luffy… I've been looking all over for you,” The woman stared up at him and he looked down at her in confusion. She was talking to him as if she knew him personally. “Now, now don't tell me that you've forgotten my face. I'm so disappointed.”

“Wow! She's gorgeous!”

“What a beauty!”

“She has to be the most beautiful woman ever, that's for sure!”

The crowd muttered and exclaimed.

“I don't know any pretty ladies like you,” Luffy told her, still not recognizing her, then again he was the best with faces sometimes. “Who are you?” Luffy asked not liking where this was going.

“Well I most certainly haven't forgotten about you, after all you were the first man to have ever hit my beautiful face.”

“What?! I hit your face?!” He usually remembered people he hit.

“Oh the way you handled me so ugly,” She sighed and placed her hand on her check. “Why did it left me breathless,” She turned to the crowd, her arms spread wide. “Tell me everyone who among these four seas is the most beautiful one of them all?”

“You are!” Everyone cried.

“Nah,” Luffy could easily list why his crew was far prettier, Zoro was pretty like a forest, green dark and mysterious. Nami was pretty like the monarch butterflies, orange free and bright. Usopp reminded Luffy of the pictures of museums in books that Minkao would show him, filled with stories. Sanji reminded Luffy of the lights that danced in the sky when it was cold and clear, the way he always seemed to be dancing around when he was fighting or cooking.

“Yes that's right! It is me! I am the most beautiful among these four seas and even in the Grand Line!” The crowd cheered, Luffy didn't get it. Why is it so important to be the most beautiful? “There is not a single man who wouldn't kneel before me! However I only love strong men, and I will have you be mine at long last Luffy,” And she was back to staring up at him with her hand back on her cheek.

“Shut up you're so annoying,” He grimaced and sneered at her, she was weirding him out, he belonged only to himself and maybe his crew. “Just who the hell are you?”

“You still don't recognize me!?” The woman sounded upset. But Luffy could only shrug, she must not have left an impression on him, that meant she wasn't important or interesting enough for him to care.

“Freeze! This is the police. You, young lady, are under arrest for assaulting a police officer! And you young man get down from there this instant!” More police officers came running. Luffy ignored them, he'd rather stay where he was.

“You actually think you can arrest me?”

“S sir I can't, she is too beautiful..”

“I don't care, do your job!”

Behind the police officers an explosion went off and a huge piece of the fountain headed straight towards the woman. People began to scream and run from the bomb that went off. What was even happening? Luffy was very confused and concerned he didn't want the random lady to get squashed by the fountain but there wasn't anything he could do. Luffy watched as the large chuck of the fountain slid right off her leaving not even a scratch on her, crashing into a building.

“My my that was rather dangerous don't cha think?” She spoke with her other hand resting on her check this time looking towards where the bomb exploded.

“What just happened?” Luffy asked, staring in shock at the woman below him. Another chuckling figure stepped out of the smoke and dust.

“My apologies but I figured with your smooth skin you would remain unharmed, my lovely lady Alvida,” A male voice spoke.

“Alvida? Where?” Luffy put his hand on his gourd and began to look around for the ugly fat lady.

“He's talking about me, idiot!” Luffy looked back at Alvida??? What had happened to the mean fat lady he punched? He hoped Koby was doing good and working hard to achieve his dream.

“Huh? I don't know somethings weird here,” He scratched his forehead, he didn't think it was possible to change your looks so drastically in such a short amount of time.

“Ah so you noticed,” Alvida? put her hand on her hip, her clock pulled back with the other hand. “Thanks to my devil fruit, the sube sube fruit, nothing can damage my beautiful skin anymore, but my freckles did disappear. Thank you for noticing.”

“Yah that's not what I meant,” He honestly couldn't tell from here if she had freckles nor did he care.

“Anyway, if you are to be my man then you still have to prove it, you must be able to defend the man that I've teamed up with, exclusively for the purpose of finding you.”

“Ever since that day where I was blasted away!” A familiar looking man and the cloak figured behind him there, their cloaks off dramatically. “I tenaciously fought my way back to my crew, all the while wishing for the day when I could kill you. And what an adventure it was! For I poor Buggy the Clown lacked most of my body, an adventure or merriment, hellish dangers, and new friendships! A most grand adventure for the little Buggy! After much per…wait why the hell am I telling all of this to you?”

“Hi Buggy, why are you here? I don't need to hear your life story, it's boring.”

“You're still the same cheeky brat!” Buggy yelled at him.

The rest of the Buggy pirates began to terrorize the town, everyone screaming and running. Before Luffy could do anything a large heavy thing of wood came crashing down on his neck, holes for his head arms locking him in place. The man who Zoro had fought sitting on top of it.

“Nicely done Kabaji!”

“What's going on? Let me out!” Luffy demands to try to wiggle his way out.

“It's been awhile, rubber brat, is Roronoa Zoro still around? I’d love a rematch.”

“Now it's time for the public execution! You should be grateful and honored to die in the same place as the pirate king you rubber brat!” Buggy laughed loudly. It grated Luffy's nerves.

[intermezzobysallyrooney]

i know this is a me problem but i cannot get super invested in challengers because i do not care about either of those men at all...josh o'connor used to be so special to me...and now...still cannot articulate why i find men so boring and/or offputting. used to feel like i was ~protesting too much~ iykwim but now...i don't know. the ratio of fandom's investment in men vs. women is so tiring but is def not going to change and there are reasons why that's true that i understand. but i just...ugh.

tennis at its peak to me was serena/caro/angie/maria/vika/venus/etc and all the contrasting and weird dynamics that were SO different from each other. you can add aga in there too. and it was interesting because of the expectations of how they were meant to act vs. how they did. and now i really dislike them both and am disappointed/angry about a lot of their views, but the chrissie/martina rivalry was so INSANE. like that documentary haunts me and the book about them is like...wow. and the men's versions just do not hit the same for me. like roger/rafa is so boring and i think if i had been paying attention during the peak of it, i'd be more interested in it? but it's so...blah. i think maria/serena tensions are insaaane and for so many reasons and i think it's partially understandable, partially a shame that their rivalry and careers get reduced to these very simplistic tropes that i think are deeply unfair to both of them. like people think maria is one thing and she really is not? and flattening her is shit for so many reasons...god. anyway. i don't know what my point is. i know that a WTA movie wouldn't hit the same way as challengers. and i know it's also just not a movie for me. because the whole ot3 never really works. writing the fic for it was like ok. do i care about him being pathetic? and the answer is no!

rafa/novak is actually kind of interesting to me ngl i miss that account....the history was like damn ok! rn i'm def more lenient of caring about ~shit people or i guess being interested. like obviously not the most vile people like zverev is just so horrible to me i cannot. and then there's more opinion based ones like rublev drives me bonkers because the babygirlism of him is disgusting to me and i think...whatever. this isn't my point. this was supposed to be a post about how i wish i could get invested in f1 but i cannot. the pathway of like...nba fandom (a select few, imo most steph/klay which was like...not really for me but now that they're seperated and watched the wnba game sitting apart...well i am interested!) to f1 fandom to the motorsports thing which i do NOT get is so baffling to me.

hockey is like...the one sport i know the most about and have loved for the longest period of time but i just...i am not built to be romantic about sports or like...oh my god these men hugged. wow. what does it MEAN. like i don't get any of it. i've tried reading the articles and the books and i just find it so embarrassing. and boring! and obvious? unless it gets turned into something that i do not really think exists but it sounds smart. i don't know. like team dynamics etc are so interesting to me but i also think they're so segmental. and contextual that i get sooo bored of like...the reading into it. and then i feel bad because people act like you should be murdered if you read into it with women. but i get that because women's sports already has so many existing relationships that it's not as fun to play pretend because it's a lot easier to forget about male athlete's rl partners etc than like...the fact that mpp is marrying laura stacey. like dartmouth's laura stacey. can you believe that? i still cannot tbh. i don't know! i have no point. sometimes i feel like i am hanging onto fandom and i really should not because i feel like such a drag. the new tennis rpf fics has actually been so good because it isn't boring m/m pairings with no tension. SORRY! but like damn...is this growth? idk. i don't even have anything to bring to the table rn...

also back to challengers the only positive emotion i've had about it in a while was comparing that trio to ben affleck/jlo/matt damon. now that is interesting.

it is baffling to me that qinwen/iga has been the pairing that's hit the most out of every wta pairing i've randomly decided to try. aryna/paula does not interest me at all i'm so sorry. the emma/qinwen was v good and i think the edge of it is what i like. too far but not really at all. unless you're like...rpf should be illegal. which i obviously don't feel that way but i def experience a lot of internal shame about it. i miss writing but i think the unfinished twu fic that will never become anything makes me not want to start writing anything that isn't a one shot that taps out by 10k for sure.

[bisexualshakespeare]

Twenty questions for fic writers

thanks for the tag @lowkeyed1!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 53 without my podfic only works

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 195,236

3. What fandoms do you write for? According to my front page, the fandoms I write the most for are Haven (7) Ted Lasso (6) Fandom - Fandom (6) Teen Wolf (5) Our Flag Means Death & Willow (4)

I'm fine with Haven being my number one but I'd like to bump Teen Wolf off there. My Willow fic will overtake it soon but I still need another fandom to push it off completely!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

A Wedding of Errors - Teen Wolf, Allison/Lydia, Rated T - Wedding Planner AU and my first (and only?) Big Bang fic! It had beautiful at and I still follow the artist though it looks like the post got deleted in a blog rebrand or something.

Not a Rebound - Supergirl, Winn/James, Rated E - Post season 2 episode 1 smut I wrote to make myself feel better after they nerfed Kara/James for no reason! (we know the reason 😑)

No Time Like the Present - Young Justice, Jamie/Bart, Rated G - Short little future fic of Bart having a panic attack and Jamie helping him out. First time I wrote something and was like wow that was like writing writing!

Uninvited - Elementary, Gen Sherlock & Watson - pod together project I had to ask for a co-writer to help pinch hit this for me because I was struggling. It was strange to co-write, especially with a stranger, but it was interesting and the podficcers seemed to have fun!

ShapeShift - Teen Wolf, Stiles/Danny, Rated T - AU based on a Bollywood movie I found on Netflix and became obsessed with called Pyaar Impossible. Also a pod together project!

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Sometimes. I like that ao3 has the unread comments on your front page, so I like to keep them there so I can see them and smile at them when I'm scrolling through the suggested marked for later stuff. If someone has commented multiple times, I'll usually thank them on the most recent one rather than replying to all of them. Of course if someone asks a question I'll answer. Otherwise it depends on my mood.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I was gonna say I try not to leave fics on too an angsty note but then I remembered Garder le Silence my Harry Potter pod together that's an episode of Potterwatch during book 7. It's pretty moody all the way through.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Probably A Wedding of Errors. It's the only fic with an epilogue so you actually have a little time after the couple gets together. Hmm should I write more epilogues? 🤔

8. Do you get hate on fics? I got an angry comment on Wedding saying it was a bad f/f fic because I spend too much time on the side m/m/m love triangle. Honestly that was something I was worried about and if the person had just been disappointed, I would've understood but they were just mean so fuck em.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? a little! increasingly more so last month lol some light d/s, with a lot of silliness and communication

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? nah I don't love the idea of crossovers. Usually I'd rather have a full AU

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? i don't think so?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes! Wedding was translated into Russian in 2015, two years after I wrote it and the translator made a little banner for it!

😭 it is so crazy to think someone thought about my fic so much they put it in another language! I am in awe of them. Umi no Iruka you can ask anything of me. You can throw me into battle like a pokemon. I am in your debt.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Just Uninvited!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? Bakugou Katsuki/Midoriya Izuku from My Hero Academia. I have never written a fic for them and I probably never will. It's a classic case of, if I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. 🥺

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? Hmm well I don't usually post anything unless I've finished it. I did start a series of fics for a glee rare pair but I am nOT going back to that. I have the last installment in my Winn gets fucked series like 90% done I literally just need them to fuck and I can post it. I have a couple Haven WIPs I probably won't go back to unless the hyperfixation comes back in a big way.

16. What are your writing strengths? Dialogue, calling back to things earlier in the fic, estimating the word count of a story, which I didn't think was a strength but lowkeyed said it was their weakness so i guess!

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Description of places blegh, coming up with events for people to do between plot points, describing how people move and gesture? I can see things so clearly in my head it's so hard to describe! it's like "and then they do the face they did in episode 6 where they were like hmnmm you know??" impossible! I should've become an artist!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I would love to if I knew the language well enough but unfortunately I'm english only. I've thrown in a few lines sparingly but I think there's definitely some cool stuff that can happen if it's used right by someone who understands the language well.

19. First fandom you wrote for? I think Jimmy Neutron? I got into fandom young lol

20. Favorite fic you've written? Whatever I'm currently working on is my favorite! I love creating so much and I'm ecstatic imagining all the scenarios and tweaking them over and over and living in their heads and surprising myself when I come up with things I didn't plan! So by that measure my favorite is my unpublished Cyrano inspired romcom but if we're going published, I of course have to go with Multivocal, my heart ❤️ or perhaps A Familiar Sound, my soul! ✨

Tagging @secrets-of-luftnarp @lawlessferalgay @lichfucker @caseycassidy

[stupidthoughtsinwriting]

I've decided to be nice and give a bit of what i have of Glimpse of Us, the second part of She used to be mine

to those anon's asking for the second part, here's something

‘Hi everybody’ you began, getting a hello in response from the crowd ‘Wow, thank you for the warm welcome and thank you Harvey for that unrealistic introduction’ you chuckled with the crowd, turning to Harvey who waved you off.

‘Now, taking something off of Harvey’s speech, I am made by no god or am one. Nor am I a siren from the Greek mythology. It did take some persuading to get me to do this and hopefully I don’t regret it.’ You laughed sheepishly.

‘I don’t normally sing on stage or in public really unless its karaoke with friends, which by the way is how I got tricked into doing this, so pardon me if I seem a bit nervous’ you smile shyly. Glancing back at Harvey, with a smile on his face, he nodded, pushing you to continue. Pulling out the rest of the confidence you still had stored, you turned back beaming at the crowd.

‘Now to not keep you waiting any longer, Paul if you will’ you gestured to the man on the piano and he nods before gliding his fingers along the keys, playing the start of the song. Letting out a breath, you closed your eyes, feeling the rhythm of the piano before singing the lyrics. Grabbing hold of the mic, you opened your eyes and began.

He'd take the world off my shoulders

If it was ever hard to move

He'd turn the rain to a rainbow

When I was living in the blue

You let your eyes flutter to a close as you gripped the mic firmly. Swaying your body occasionally to melody.

Why then if he is so perfect

Do I still wish that it was you?

Perfect don't mean that it's working

So what can I do? Ooh

Opening your eyes, you scanned the crowd, completely surprised by how the much you can see of the crowd seemed entranced.

When you’re out of sight

You saw you’re your friends in a booth over in the corner, the people entering the establishment.

In my mind

Then the bar where you found him, staring at you. You locked eyes with those beautiful ocean blue orbs that you love loved so much. Stumbling over your words, you nearly forgot about the song but once the piano keys hit the right note, your lips continued in autopilot.

Cause sometimes I look… in his eyes

And that's where I find

A glimpse of us

hopefully this wont be much of a disappointment to those who like SUTBM so much

now again i am a rubbish writer but how so many love She used to be mine is an enigma to me. Thank you all for the kind words and i'll keep working on the rubbish i manage to make

im tagging those who asked to be but please do tell if you want to be taken off😊

@evelynrosestuff @strangesweetheart @doodle-cat16 @nabiilahadid @evansmusk @noodle81937 @circe143 @yuu-chan-is-still-a-student12 @vesta-ro sorry if i missed anybody

and if you want to be tagged, just give me the say so

[ourladyofomega]

Before writing this final post of 2023, I was undecided of how good of a poker hand I’d end up with. ‘21 and ‘22 left no doubt what I finished with. This year, all the good and bad have scattered all over the place like chips spread across the roulette table - but we don’t usually play that game here, do we? No, we don’t. This year added on both the good and bad on top of the previous years before it - in even wider disparity.

So, where do we start?

The bad hit a little harder than it did last year. The customers were at their nastiest, competitive, and most egotistical. Having a verbally and emotionally abusive sales manager who saw fit to humiliate me in front of co-workers and literally yell at me for anything little reason he could didn’t help any. Fighting through under-staffing, wasted potential, not getting assistance when it really mattered, and making more mistakes and fuck-ups than ever made for a highly controversial final year at physical retail.

I pulled the plug on people I once considered “friends” who kept me on read when I asked for help, ghosted me during conversations, left me hanging all by myself as their comrades pretended I didn’t exist, and didn’t care about specific situations I had involving them. The spicy redheaded devil who played apologist for her closest friends - the same “friends” in the past who took me for everything they could and left a thick irreplaceable poison that’s still flowing in me. Or worse, unexpectedly running into former enablist co-workers, narcissistic managers, and manipulative college chads showing their obvious “oh-my-god!” faces and wanting to catch up with me. I told them to fuck right off forever - and never to speak to me again.

Luckily, I didn’t have as many hard pills to swallow like I used to. But, the sometimes unavoidable news of potentials’ long-suffering loneliness ending with exciting one-night stands, abrupt t.m.i., and their eye-opening bucket list to-do’s (that’d make Sasha Grey look like a straight-A honor student) made it a disappointing no-dice situation. Then, the deeper depressive spells of anxiety and hopelessness. The constant reminder of how rude, childish, and unnecessarily rude other people are around me. The change of plans, the blown calls of missing out on some holidays, or dropping the ball on attending some major shows (Alice Cooper headlining with Rob Zombie, Ministry, and Filter for one). The worst news came unexpectedly in late September when my sis- was dealt the Ace Of Spades and died in her sleep from complications of multiple sclerosis. I lost a major childhood component in her, and that visit to Bay Ridge will resonate with me for a long time.

Yes. This year’s losses were just more frequent and came at a slightly heavier cost. (Thankfully, not coming down to another personal devastation.) But, with every loss came with a win. And, wow, did these wins hit.

A brand new pinball arcade opened up in Patchogue to my total surprise, once again giving me a new portal in revisiting my Atari / Nintendo youth and forget my daily ills. It was there when I placed 3rd at their 4th of July tournament. The retro video arcade at the shopping center near me still offered a substantial modicum of hours-long fun until I was sick of it.

Though I lost my sister, I had some super essential moments with both of my families from Coney- and Staten Island respectively. I just celebrated an amazing Christmas over Italian foods, Secret Santas, gift-trades, and children screaming in eardrum-rattling unison; all ending with $100.00 cash-in-hand from my uncle, and a drive through the Belt Parkway and Brooklyn-Battery Tunnel to the train ride home to Penn Station. Fighting through the sluggish three-hour Friday rush-hour drive made getting to my cousin’s engagement party totally worth it; decorated with loud generic dee-jay standards, catching up under clear starry night skies, and having a near two-hour AM night-drive home over the Verrazzano Bridge and through the Brooklyn / Queens / Long Island Expressway.

I’ve attended some amazing shows in the past, but nothing would ever compare in experiencing Skinny Puppy’s final tours. I took no chances getting tickets and, holy Mother Mary, I made the right call. I would’ve never imagined meeting up with five other mutuals (some following me for years) in my hometown of New York City to witness industrial history. The best? Shaking hands with God Ministry’s Paul Barker himself; The Hero of All Heroes. He signed my copy of The Eternal Present as I almost died before him at the merch- table. I also attended Cold Waves XI and scratched Front Line Assembly off the must-see list, with visions of Hospital Productions’ 20th returning when I witnessed Orphx and Justin Broadrick a second time.

Then, my position. My final two months at my location were the toughest, meanest, and most unforgiving I’d ever put myself through. I endured so much that something had to be done because I knew I deserved better and didn’t want to live like this. So, I did a massive favor to myself. After 10 years with the company, I celebrated by getting an in-home position for virtual sales. I left all the massive amounts of stress behind and still stayed with the company while keeping my 401K, medical, and time-off in the process. Goodbye and good riddance to physical retail and the toxic undesirables that inhabit it…never to visit it again.

As an added bonus, I learned a lot more about myself and became the person I always wanted to be. I was fortunate in having the right people who changed it all and their inexplicable energy made me block those challenging persistent feelings of hollowness and despair. I taught myself to drop my guard, stop fearing the worst that could happen, and start putting my trust in people as nothing was at stake. That paid off in multitudes. I felt things I couldn’t before, because they allowed me to open up without persecuting or vilifying me for it.

I had more moments where I did great things for great people because they gave me nice ideas that were out-of-the-ordinary. Cakeday and Christmas boxes full of CDs, cassettes, and other fun stuff were exchanged which left two people wowed and many others in critical condition. Plenty of night-time phone calls were had about everything and nothing important at all, or the cries of concern that made me go all-in to help the other because there’s no taking chances. Most importantly: reciprocation, saying it right from the heart, a giving what people really want because you feel it and it’s the right thing to do.

**********

Now, what’s in the cards for next year?

I plan to revisit New York City more frequently. To start, I’m coming back to my childhood, and that all in Brooklyn. The Tokeneke, Bath Ave., Shore Road Park, Luna Park, and ultimately Borough Park where it all began. I’m even contemplating a mini-record store victory tour next year - all city. Long Island locales sit out this time as select Brooklyn and Manhattan stops better get ready for me and accept my hard-earned money. This would be Lina Romay-proportions of music porn if this happens.

As for everything else Omega, there’s no signs of slowing down as my radio show started Year 12. Its previous year had almost no bonus broadcasts from start to finish, but the current stockpile of artists and sounds across the board means I’m ready to unload when asked. The months-long process of digitizing my entire personal cassette dub library has finally been completed, which means I’ll have more time to dive into all my records, tapes, and discs that I purchased over the years that I've yet listened to, but now will.

Which reminds me:

Most of you know that I maintained a music -blr here: Ω+. I became an open-book and allowed my visitors, followers, mutuals, and even passers-by a peek into my personal life, listening, and purchasing habits. To this day, I still believe there’s no other extensive music blog like it here. It felt great posting sounds, artists, and releases no one else even thought or considered. I had so much fun with it and became one of the most exciting projects I ever done. Life-changing, even. Now, I no longer have the time or energy to keep up with sizeable, timely write-ups while staying on top of infinite music finds and dealing with Real-Life Syndrome.

I decided that it’s time to end it after 10 years of maintaining it.

However, I didn’t want to stop doing what still fascinates me. I stepped back, and realized that I can do it differently. I’m happy to say that I’m starting all over again and re-building it as Omega Remix (ΩRMX), a simpler, more stripped-down version of the original retaining the personal seasonal mixtapes, Omega WUSB playlists, best-of lists, personal posts, and more. No more numbered headers, no more aesthetic issues. It’ll be quicker and easier to do what keeps me going and in touch with anyone interested with what I’m listening to.

**********

I appreciate and thank (tremendously) everyone who joined up with me at a show, posted music finds, kept in touch, helped out, or did something nice for me this year. You know who you are. For any and all who liked, followed, and supported all things Omega, you’re also appreciated. Each and every one of you. Here's hoping we're still alive and dodge a massive authoritarian bullet by this year's end.

See you all in ‘24.

Winning hand: Aces full house over Deuces.

[bisexualnathanyoung]

Lust and Learning

Word Count: 2.4K

Warnings: rated M for masturbation and misfits

Nathan intrudes on a private moment. Nathan and Mel watch a nature documentary.

It was the first time I’d come home since Nathan had moved in that he wasn’t there. Granted, I usually got home around midnight, but once in a while I’d actually get a lunch shift. So I was home alone, and I knew exactly what I wanted to do.

I dropped my bag and headed to my bedroom. I changed out of my work clothes and into a loose tank top. And nothing else.

I opened the drawer at the bottom of my wardrobe and reached to the back to grab a dildo and a small bullet of a vibrator. I set the dildo next to me on the bed and put the vibrator to work on my clit. I tried to blank my mind, but I couldn’t stop the thought of a certain set of curls in between my thighs. I let out a gasp as I let my first orgasm run through me. I pushed my fingers inside me. Fucking hell, tiny fingers, ugh, never get the job done.

I grabbed the dildo, “hello, friend.” I pushed the head of it against my lips and closed my eyes. I imagined Nathan’s moans as I slid the dildo into my mouth. I liked him more than any guy I’d been with, and I hadn’t even had him yet. Is this wrong? Thinking of him like this? But somehow I figured he meant for me to hear him. At least sometimes. After particularly interesting conversations, he’s randomly decided it’s a great idea to conserve water during a shower wank?

I gagged as I let the end of the dildo hit my chin. I imagined him over me, fucking my mouth. His eyes squeezed tight, pulling at my hair. Moaning my name.

Ugh I’ve got to do this soon. But then if I suck him off he’s going to expect me to do more, and I don’t know if I want to do that yet. And then he’s gonna be disappointed in me and not want to be my friend anymore. Would you even call it friends? What the fuck am I even- focus, Albright, focus! You’re tryna have a wank, not a crisis.

I pulled the dildo out of my mouth and hit it against my clit a couple of times before pushing it inside me with a gasp.

He’s still not here… I let myself fully indulge in my fantasy. I imagined him on top of me, kissing me, holding me. Fucking me good. As if I even knew what that meant, I just wanted him inside me.

I moaned out as I fucked myself with one hand and rubbed my clit with the other. I thrusted my hips and moaned and gasped and whimpered.

“Oh, fuck me, yes, oh my god, oh fuck,” I moaned out loud while my eyes were shut tight, fully immersed in my fantasy.

“More, more, mmm, yeah,” I moaned to an imaginary Nathan as I fucked myself harder and faster.

I left my fantasy momentarily to grab the vibrator again before jumping back in, “I’m almost there, I’m almost there, fuck oh-

The door burst open, and I screamed.

“Who are you shagging in there?!” The very real Nathan yelled before widening his eyes to realize. Nope, just me. I kicked my legs up to try to cover myself and ended up following his eyes as his eyes followed the dildo as it fell out of me and into the floor. For about half a second, the only noise in the room was the vibrator that was now covered by blankets in the commotion.

He let out a breath as a smile never left his face, “that was… wow… I-”

“GET OUT,” I yelled back at him.

“And if I don’t?” He said as he leaned up against the doorway.

“I’ll fucking KILL YOU,” I yelled again.

“With what? Your electrical hands or your fire crotch?” He said and laughed at his own joke.

I grabbed my knife out of my bedside drawer and held it up.

“Jesus, alright, calm down,” he said and backed up before shutting the door.

I let out a breath and stared at the dildo in the middle of the floor. When am I going to find time to wash these? I found a pair of underwear and put it on and put away my… belongings.

“I got the Planet Earth box set from my mum’s” Nathan yelled from the living room, “but I don’t know if I’ll be able to focus on my polar bears after all that.”

I put on some shorts, took a piss, washed my hands, and stared at the mirror for an unusually long amount of time.

I sighed, walked into the living room, and saw a can of beer and a bag of haribo sitting up against a pillow on the pull-out couch.

“If you’re trying to bribe me, it’s not going to work!” I said as I plopped down.

“No, I bought those on the way home” he said from the kitchen and made his way into the connected room towards me, “anyway… so uh”

I crossed my arms, “what?!”

“Did you cum?” He asked, smirking at me.

I scowled.

“No?” he responded, “need help?” He thrusted his hips.

“I hate you,” I said, grabbed my haribo, and got up.

He lightly grabbed my arm as I passed him, “are you actually upset?”

“Yes! You completely invaded my privacy!” I pulled my arm away.

“Alright, alright! I’m sorry I saw your vagina,” he said.

“No, you’re not,” I said and narrowed my eyes.

“You’re absolutely right. I’m not,” he smirked.

I groaned.

“Not my fault you’ve got such a pretty pussy,” he said, and I felt my whole body go warm.

“Wanna make it even?” He continued, “I’ll get it out right now. No hesitation.” I all of a sudden was struck with the mental image of his cock in front of me, me on my knees… I took a shaky breath. And he laughed.

I shook my head, “you’re impossible.”

“I’m serious! I’m always walkin’ around here without any trousers on; it’s bound to pop out eventually. Mine as well get it over with, yeah?” He responded. Nonchalantly. Conversational tone. Like I didn’t want the floor to swallow me whole and never spit me out again.

“No!” I threw my arms up before dropping them back down. His eyes followed my tits as opposed to my arms.

“Fine,” he said, “make it a special occasion then. When you’re finally beggin’ to see my cock, I’ll make you wait three to five business days. I’ve got the image of your perfect pussy locked away for me to revisit whenever I like. I can wait until you’re ready for me.” It almost felt like there was a hint of sincerity behind his last few words, but I could have imagined it. He was hardly ever sincere. Everything was a joke to him.

I took a breath, “that’s not funny.”

“I’m not laughin’,” he said back.

I sat down on his bed/my sofa, “you just don’t seem like the waiting type.”

He sat down too, “what’s that supposed to mean?” No malice behind his voice.

“I don’t know. You don’t really talk about women very respectfully,” I said while picking at my nails.

“I’m plenty respectful! I’ve never… tried anything with you. And it’s not from lack of opportunity,” he said back.

I physically cringed, “is that the standard?”

“Around here?” He said, “yes.” He had a point.

I shrugged, “whatever. What were you expecting from bursting into my room like that?”

“Ideally?” He started, “you’d be bouncin’ reverse cowgirl on some poor bloke you’ve somehow picked up, and I’d get an eyeful of beautiful tits. Realistically? I thought I’d see some guy’s hairy arse and embarrass the shit out of you. But, ooooh,” he bit his lip, “what I got was much better. Disappointed you had a shirt on. The ginger pubes surprised me though.”

He lightly grabbed my hair and looked at it. “This doesn’t look red to me,” he said.

I narrowed my eyes at him, “fuck off.” He dropped my hair.

“Oh so you can get back to your wankin’? That door does have a lock on it, doesn’t it?” He smirked, “I think you wanted me to walk in.”

“No,” I said back, “I wasn’t thinking about the door. I was thinking about the fact that you were finally out of my damn house.”

He rolled his eyes, “God, who are you? My mother?”

“No, I actually want you here,” I smirked.

“I can’t tell if I’m supposed to be hurt or touched by that comment. Both? You like a bit of sadism, do ye?” He smiled at me.

“I repeat. Fuck. Off,” I said, but I couldn’t stop smiling at him, “can we just watch the fuckin’ series already?

“Fine fine fine,” he said and hit play, “scoot over I’m tryna fuckin’ see.”

The sofa had permanently been fashioned into its bed form since Nathan moved in. We were sitting off the side of it, so I threw my can of beer and bag of haribo and scooted up against the back of the couch. I didn’t notice the fact that Nathan didn’t end up sitting next to me in the moment.

I watched the telly as the earth was shown and the title card went by. It begins with telling us in so many words that there’s a fuckton more people than there was a hundred years ago, but there’s still places that hasn’t been touched by humanity.

“That’s my cock the last month and a half,” Nathan says from the kitchen in response to the whole not being touched by humanity thing.

I turned to face him from the couch, “the fuck are you doin’? I thought you were trying to see?”

He dropped a box of beer onto the couch/bed, “seen it before.” He also dropped half of the snacks in the house and two boxes of cigarettes into the bed.

“This seems a bit excessive for a Sunday afternoon,” I responded.

He finally climbs into the couch/bed, “I’m not playin’ fuckin’ barman today. I just walked half this estate twice and had to play happy families with Jeremy. I am not fuckin’ leaving this spot for the next few hours. Bat your pretty little eyelashes and call me love all you want, but you’re gettin’ your own shit today.”

He moved his arm to motion to all the shit he’s thrown next to me, “beers, snacks, fags. Done. If you want a spliff or an extra blanket or a glass of water, you can get it yourself or I’ll need to see some tits first.”

I shook my head, “dick. Will you at least shut up, so I can watch the damn thing?”

He focused on opening a package of peanuts while he spoke, “oh, you get to talk through things I haven’t seen, but I have to shut up? They’re penguins. It’s cold. That’s all he said… you want some nuts?” He held the package towards me.

“Not yours,” I responded.

“Oh,” he said softly.

I finally had a moment of peace and- “It’s March,” the telly said, “and light ret-

“My birthday’s in March,” Nathan said.

I ignored him.

20 minutes later

“Ah fuck, 20 species of bizarre birds?” Nathan said, “I guess that’s where you’re from then.”

I rolled my eyes at him, “no, that’s you. Look at ‘em. Look at the drama.”

“Are you callin’ me dramatic? That one looks like a banana,” the screen showed a few different birds, “do I look like a banana?”

“Do I?” I responded back to him.

“Whatever you were shovin’ in your twat earlier sure looked banana-like,” he responded with a laugh to himself. I shoved him.

“You’re gonna make me spill my drink,” he said, holding it out of the way.

“I’ll pour the whole thing down your shirt. I don’t give a fuck,” I joked.

“Oh, wet t-shirt contest?” He smirked. I pulled a pillow out from behind me and started beating him with it.

“Stop stop, look,” he said and pointed to the telly, “he’s dancin’, should I dance? Would that do it for you?”

I shook my head, “I’ve seen you dance. It’s-”

He was already getting up.

“Don’t Don’t.”

I could no longer see my television. All I saw was stupid Nathan, and some sort of display of outlandish hip and arm movements that I wouldn’t necessarily call dancing… I’d call it more… ah yes, being an idiot.

“Booooo,” I responded between laughs, throwing an empty beer can at him, “booooo.”

He sighed and collapsed back into the bed to look back at the tv, “ah, fuck, the bird’s gotten rejected too. Nothing pleases women these days.”

I let out another snort of a laugh. He turned around to face me, “oh? Look at that smile though. My impeccable charm! It’s pulling you in!” He mimed pulling a rope.

“You are so stupid,” I said with a smile never leaving my face, “I actually quite like some weird lookin’ birds. I thought they were pretty cute.”

“Hey, that’s what I told Barry and Curtis the day I first met you!” He snickered.

“About me? Or Kelly and Alisha?” I responded to the joke.

“Oooooo,” he said, dodging the question, “I’m gonna tell Kelly you said she’s weird lookin’ then she’s gonna kick your arse.”

I let out a laugh, “I’ll tell Kelly half the shit you’ve said to me, and she’ll kick your arse.”

“I doubt it,” he responded, “I think way worse than that, and she can hear them. At least I think she can. I dunno how all these powers work. I don’t even know if I got one.”

“Your little experiment with Barry not go well the other day then?” I asked. I knew his name was Simon, but I’d just went with it.

“No,” he responded, “I think I got a concussion.”

“That’s what I’m gonna do to you,” I said, pointing to the shark on the telly as it devoured its prey.

“Give me a concussion?” Nathan asked, not paying attention.

“Yes, but also bite you like a shark eating a seal,” I responded.

“Oh, you mean put me in your mouth?” He said with an eyebrow raise, “I’d quite like that actually… without the teeth though.”

I rolled my eyes, “you know, my powers are triggered by my emotions— maybe I should try to suffocate you, and we see what happens.”

He smiled, “yeah, suffocate me with your fanny while you put me in your mouth.”

I hope he wouldn’t notice that I’d decided to cross my legs after he said that… he did.

He glanced at me, winked, then went back to watching the tv as he stretched his arm across the back of the couch, “nature sure is interestin’.”

[murongsama]

Hmm just randomly swiping YT and see the latest controversies about blackpink, who are getting quite a lot of criticism for their new come back is like... Well, I can understand both sides.

I'm not blink, not even kpop fan either, just a retired old kpop fan who sometimes randomly listen to old playlist and randomly listen what is new and pleasing to my ears on Spotify.

Tbh, pink venom is good, I'm getting goosebumps to the blackpink chants in the intro. This is a good song, but also, I can understand why many people are disappointed. Because the wait... Is too long.

Seriously, if this song got released after a few months since their latest release, it will become one of their iconic songs (honestly I like their hit songs, forever young is really good in particular).

Unfortunately, the longer the wait the higher the expectation, and YG is unable to live up to it.

Imagine if BTS after releasing Butter, get a 2 years hiatus, only to release Permission to Dance later.

Oh damn... The disappointment would surely be huge. The scolding and angry criticism would be overwhelming, lol, no matter how PTD is actually quite an enjoyable song to listen to. However, because PTD got released just a few months after, even if some fans would still feel disappointed because it's not as WOW as Butter, we can still enjoy it because it's a good song after all, and the wait is not long.

A group got their new release flop is nothing new, really. When Twice first released their Scientist after I got so addicted to their Alcohol Free, I was also like, "eww, what the hell?" But because their release frequency is high, the wait is not long, hence the disappointment is not that apparent. Afterward, when Talk that Talk came out, I am back to life again.

Well, I'm not their fan, but I just really like listening to twice lately, since their songs are cheerful, it's pretty good company when you're stressed over work. Don't even know the lyrics, just humming along, lol.

But back again to blackpink. I think the reason why they got backlashed so much is not only due to the long wait and unsatisfactory product, but also because BP has that huge reputation and popularity. The higher the reputation, the higher the expectation. Consequently, when they failed to deliver satisfactory product, the higher the possibility of backlash become.

Everyone is eyeing blackpink. Everyone is scrutinizing blackpink. Because they bear the reputation of "worlds biggest GG".

Hey...but as an old retired kpop fan, I can only shrug.

Just let them be. For the fans, no matter how bad the album or how disappointed are you, just silently buy it, no need to defend so much if deep down in your heart you actually feel disappointed, lol.

And then, wait patiently for the next release, hoping they will give you a better song.

That's how old kpop fans are. For me, Even if TVXQ new songs are getting weirder day by day, lol, I swear I just want them to sing ballad and forget about dance pop songs seriously, but anyway, just buy them silently, hoping they will stop trying so hard to blend into the new culture and just go back to sing ballads, lol, because that is their area of expertise, and also what made fan like me actually like those guys so much until today.

Haha...

[mokkemusic]

So I’ve been watching Nana and yea ok I did watch it the first time up to a point. But if I’m honest with myself I did it for the wrong reasons. I watched it cause all the stuff was coming out. And everyone was saying how great it was and I saw it everywhere even if it was something that was making me emotional I wasn’t fully processing it the first time.

I just got up to again where Shoji was cheating on here and then the first Blast concert and the car ride with Junko and Kyosuke and then Nana agreeing to go with Hachi to the Trapnest concert and ok this time everything is really hitting me.

I think Nana for me is also a timing thing there’s a lot I didn’t want to understand. Little things. (I’m very detail oriented.) But sometimes those little things are really stirring and it’s things I don’t want to think about. There’s probably some things in here now I don’t want to think about seeing as I’m still back to being so early in the series but I really do love the characters and am ready to truly experience their stories. Whereas the first time I wasn’t there was this fog.. that didn’t leave me completely feeling like I could express myself and my thoughts. I think not having to talk about it this time on Twt except little moments helps too. I just feel like everyone has this clear cut way how they look at things and I well most of the time have this flawed logic so I was kinda holding back a lot but just being able to binge has really immersed me

That being said I’m so f angry at her friends most of the time

Look I’m sorry but I am so sick of everyone ragging on Hachi all the time I’m so sick of it. Like she’s too much she’s a burden.. she’s someone they always have to check on and make it sound when they speak about it like it’s draining. That her personality is draining HELLO she’s your friend! She’s your friend! You’re treating her like a chore and I know you don’t mean to because you do care about her but you are! And I admit everyone is flawed and they really don’t mean to they really do love her but then for once give her some credit put yourself in her shoes JEEEZ!

Hachi moving to Tokyo. “Well why? You have no plan you don’t know what you’re doing with your life. You just don’t want to be by yourself so you just think you’ll make it up as you go?? I get the concern for her future and it’s a big decision but she was gonna try to make it. She was. She was gonna get a job she was gonna try really hard and the fact that all of you were in Tokyo while she was there do you know how lonely she must have been? You can be concerned without constant criticism. Then she’s like ok I’ll have a roommate and will split the rent! Again it’s ok to be concerned about her (I’m not gonna say that every time cause no one is reading this but me and if you are these are my thoughts ok) but she can’t do anything right in your eyes can she? Aren’t you proud of your friend taking a step forward? You can’t have it both ways and then be like well no one ever told you that we thought you would just depend on shoji if you lived with him (cause he’s supposed to be her bf and you know support her or maybe just maybe have just a little patience that she just got to Tokyo and everting is really new for her rn) no you have to make her feel bad about being appreciative and cooking you dinner and cleaning your place and making her feel like your disappointed in her. So she goes and gets an apt and I get your concerned she’s moving in with a girl she barely knows (I don’t know how roommate situations work) but all any of her friends could say to her is “oh yup there goes nana always making these decisions like a child of what am I gonna do with you” instead of wow it’s really great your trying especially cause we didn’t make it subtle we were afraid you weren’t gonna make it on your own. Can you be concerned but at the same time be good friends?? Can you. Can you say you’re proud of her. She gets a job so that she can support herself and save up money cause she does have a problem with spending and just trying to live in the moment and then your all like well of course Shoji was feeling like you weren’t making time for him. When has Shoji ever shown he actually supported her selflessly when ? Cause it wasn’t in the anime I’ve been watching

Is Nana (Hachi) no she’s got a lot of flaws. And if you feel like characters shouldn’t have those kinda flaws. But I haven’t brought that up yet cause that’s not what my rant is about and I will I definitely will. Nanas flaws remind me of myself in someways. So it hits home. And trust me I know I have a lot of flaws they could fill 100 books for sure. But she’s trying! And idk maybe I just get too empathetic about these characters but it really bugs me it does

This is all just a tangent i didn’t really get into a lot of my thoughts but the one person who I felt treated Hachi as an equal (aside from the nickname that she was a puppy like the dog Hachi) was Nana. Because aside from ribbing her which is definitely ok with friends you can’t have a comfortable relationship if you can’t rib each other but she also was appreciative of her friendship (and I’m only what on episode 12) she’s expressed she was proud of her too there was balance. There is balance. Also me talking about this and wanting to see her 2 friends show that in the same way Nana does except for shoji like I do not care you are scum. (But I did kinda see a spoiler where Hachi and Shoji do meet again so for your sake I hope you’ve grown up a little and can admit you really didn’t know what you had and were greatfull for the relationship you did have at that time but idk will see)

Also again just my thoughts I’m on episode 12 but the way Hachi’s friends treat her sometimes… it gets to me it does.

[mysumeow]

Hello!! I've been a huge fan of your work for some time now, actually. I actually like your writing style because it's neat and somehow appealing to my eyes, from one writer to another! I'd like to try this matchup game and this is also my first time as well😭😭 I hope I'm doing this right. I'd like a genshin matchup please and thank you!!!

For appearance, I have long hair and I work out from time to time. I'm skinny with a slight curve!!! Working on that. I do dancing but never singing because many of the people I know express their distaste for my voice😭 Point is, I do exercise and dance a lot. (Im a girl btw!!! don't know where I should slip this in)

I'm not really smart, I consider myself to be quite dull but not at the same time. I have amazing grades and sometimes get into the top 5 but I get distracted too easily, especially the day before exams(somehow I still pass.) When I'm with the people I like, I get extremely comfortable no matter where the both of us are. There are multiple times where I almost got hit by a vehicle because of how carefree I am around my friends.

I'm a people person, talkative extrovert 100%!! I love people and everyone I meet, I wave at strangers who wave at me and I strike up a conversation whoever is next to me anywhere, anytime. There was this one time I talked to this cute mom outside of a mall because I was bored, I also remember getting scolded a LOT by my friends because why do I even talk to strangers willingly? I don't know. It's just who I am, really.

I have a strong distaste for shameless and loud people, I don't usually mind the most of them but when they are in front of me or during an important event where everyone is supposed to be quiet, my head just hurts. I also engage in gossip from time to time, but not those who bring people down. Just the sharing of opinions. I also don't like fish. a lot.

For my bigger flaws, I have a highly anxious avoidment attachment style and I apply it to everyone I meet. I am also very prone to overthinking and daydreaming, a day cannot pass without both of these happening. I'm not proud at ALL. All of this happened because of something that happened in the past, I constantly look for the same feeling the person gave me in everyone I meet, and feel disappointed when I don't find it at all. BUT I DONT LEAVE WHEN I DONT. I like people. But I'd like it better if they gave me the same warmth she did in the past.

Oh this is getting really long I gotta stop ramblingAAAHHH. So my hobbies are writing and gaming. I have great pride over what I write and I never doubt my plots. I also love animals except those that are taller than me(doesn't apply to dogs). I like eating. I eat four times a day and I don't even get breakfast.

OKAY I think that's all, sorry for the ramble!! 😭😭 Thank you for reading this, and wow this feels like a Twitter profile thread. Only thing missing is the More About Me ↓

. . . ꒰ MATCHUP II

A/N: A fellow writer!  Hahaha don’t worry anon, I like reading these submissions! Also, I think it’s the first time someone has described my writing like that, so it was a bit surprising for me :OOOOO  Thank you! <33

I match you with Kazuha! He finds it endearing how genuine you are and your knack of opening a conversation. Even as a wandering samurai, it’s few the amount of people he has met like you, and your friendly demeanor captures his heart with ease. When you ramble on about your day or anything you want to speak about with him, he looks at you with fondness. He pays attention to everything you say and remembers important details, without interrupting or feeling bored about hearing you speak.

He has a scarily excellent memory. He’ll ask you about how’s it going with the last story you were writing like, months ago—after you had spoken to him about it once…

He doesn’t scold you when you get distracted, instead opting for redirecting your attention or guiding you back into safety while keeping the conversation with you. If it’s a life-or-death situation, he’ll grab you by the arm and pull you away from the danger, while apologizing for taking such an abrupt decision but letting you know there was peril awaiting you.

Thanks to Kazuha’s patience and forgiving nature, he sees beauty in your amiability and in your whims. He does get extra vigilant when you get distracted or opts to choose safer routes within his means whenever the two of you are strolling around or traveling.

If you travel in the Crux Fleet, there’s plenty of gossip going around, even during your brief stay. Kazuha isn’t one for seeking gossip, but without putting any effort into it, they make their way into his knowledge. You’ll have lots of conversation with him.

Likewise, Kazuha likes to daydream. He enjoys the moments of silence too, and you’ll often find him daydreaming while looking at the sea or writing a haiku. He’ll recite it to you if he sees you’re curious about it.

Kazuha deals well with your attachment style. Even if your absence isn’t pleasant to him because he really enjoys your company, he’s understanding and won’t hold a grudge for it. He’ll wait for you to come back and welcome you.

Honorable mentions for this matchup: Thoma and Kaveh.

Very broad explanation: As long as you’re not causing any trouble to the Kamisato Clan, Thoma’s a people person too. Kaveh loves to talk. He’d match your energy when you want to chat with him.

[wildheadtendsherhair]

2023/02/02

Skin Picking

Havent been on here a while since ive been picking so little, its hard to remember to post! Ill take that as a partial win. But anyway, can you guess why im back? Yep, its day 0 again. And surprise surprise, my skin is bumpy and red again. When i was still on my streak, its amazing, i could use however much lotion i wanted and not breakout. It truly wasnt any products, it was just me touching my face all the time. I still got blackheads, but they were so hard to see because they werent red. I was disappointed to to figure out that acne pads arent enough to get rid of blackheads. I think i have to at least scratch off the top layer? I dont know. Grr! Honestly tho when blackheads arent angry i find i dont mind them much. Hardly at all, actually.

Hair

Great. Still so short! I still look like a fairy pixie, but sometimes by nightfall i just look like an oily unkempt person, and its not because of sebum. Just something about the uneven ends and the short length. Tempted to get it cut, but theres not really any good options? Cutting off and inch would probably dramatically decrease the frazzledness, but not comletely eliminate it, *and* it would be an inch shorter. I only have four inches! I wish i kept more track of how fast my hair grows. Ive heard half an inch is average. See heres the thing people dont think about when trimming hair—its inherently temporary. If you trim half an inch, thats one months worth of growth. By the end of the next month, you'll have grown another half inch. But, the growth will be uneven. So youre back to where youve started, right? No wonder it felt like i could not grow my hair out past a certain amount once my mom started making me get "the split ends cut off". Itll probably all be worth it when it gets long. Unkempt but cool & cute wild animal [insert pic of Power]. That said, i do wonder how long itd need to be to get the dorky but clean Queen's Gambit haircut…

Diet

Still doing Weight Watchers. I hecked up this week, ate under. Ended up binging last night. But it was the first time in a long while, so im proud of what ive accomplished. Silver lining, i mean. It was a very sucky experience being that full. Painful, even. But ive recovered! And im gonna be more liberal with my points earlier in the day. No point in being cautious if i can always eat 0-point foods at the end of the day, and it becomes an imperative to not if im regularly hitting the end of the day with spare points. It was a bit of a successful experiment, because i wanted to see if me eating under naturally would hurt me later, and, well… But im a little worried, because me eating whatever and "lots" this morning has only led to a normal breatfast of ten points. And ive been eating until about an hour ago, so i may not be hungry for a timely lunch. :( But i am feeling peckish for a sub, so maybe soon ill order one and not shy away from the sauce. My point target isnt a minimum, its a, well, *target*! Wow! What a riddle!

Mood

Ive been on edge this week, after a week of feeling phenomenally well. I blamed it on work, but, maybe it was my eating? Or its a factor? Hard to say. I do have quite a few things started that i havent finished, and i think those are hanging on my mind; go long enough and it become tiring but you forget why. Its a hypothesis. Other than that, its been a great week. Started a cool playthru with some friends (and its a japanese project too), checked out warhammer for the first time and had a blast, study group has been great, i got back into DDR, and might go with a cool girl this weekend, i drew for the first time in forever and it turned out great (oh man i love my apple pencil). Fruitful month, january was. I might just need to remind myself to and practice relaxing. Worked for my sleep!

[grac3lyn]

I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately. Mostly (probably) due to being jobless for 3 weeks now... it will be one month on the 12th. 

The first week of not working was great... the second, less so... the third bringing me here, desperate to avoid the black hole that is hopelessness and discouragement. 

If I am lucky, I get a few hours of sleep and, if I am luckier, I do not wake with the rising sun. I can’t say if this is a good thing entirely, though, because my dreams are unkind and especially lucid as of late. 

Last night, a memory resurfaced. I was almost 7 and living with my mom’s friend, Janet. I’m not sure how long it had been since my mom dropped me off there, but it must have been some time because this memory begins with me coming home from school. I was hungry but there was no food in the kitchen that I could find and I was too afraid to open the refrigerator without Janet’s permission... Janet was strict. She disciplined me like her own children - stripping me down into my underwear before spanking me, making me hold my hands out for her to hit with a switch, or smacking me across the face if I forgot my manners. I was scared of her. To make matters worse, her kids were mean to me too. They picked on me and teased me for crying. How could they have known how hard it was for me to be there? How could they understand how lonely and afraid I was? They’d never wanted for anything in their lives. They had both parents, a roof over their heads, and rooms to call their own... I, on the other hand, just existed in their space... all too aware of the burden they felt by my being there. How could I have felt anything other than sad? 

Too often, I thought of my parents, wondering if they ever thought of me too. Did they forget about me? Is that why mommy and daddy never call or come to see me? When could I go home? Where was home? I would cry for hours on end thinking this way. Sometimes I would wake myself in the middle of the night, overwhelmed by the feelings that came with what I know now to be abandonment. I wanted so badly just to be hugged... for someone to tell me that it would be okay or that I was safe or that things wouldn’t always be that way. But I knew comfort did not exist for me there, so I cried my heart out until finally I fell asleep. 

And then I woke up. And I began to sob. Chest tight and heaving. 

Looking back, I think I was in so much pain that hiding memories like this from even myself was the only way I could be strong. I also think this memory in particular marks the first time in my life I began truly believing I am all on my own; associating love with loss, pain, and disappointment. This is where I would lay the first stone in the fortress that surrounds my heart. 

It makes so much sense now that I think about it. I still question whether I know what it means to love or be in love to this day. Perhaps this why I push everyone away... Perhaps subconsciously I’ve been telling myself that it is too painful to be loved, that anyone who loves me is bound to also abandon me... 

Thus, does it follow, that I have not allowed myself to experience real, true love because of the misunderstanding I’ve had of it since I was 7 years old?.. 

Has it really taken me twenty years to understand that the absence of a person’s presence does not reflect an absence of their love? 

Wow. 

[aswebeg]

I see trees so green, red roses too

I see them bloom for me and you.

And I think to myself ...

DEAN WINCHESTER DESERVED BETTER

[qoeww]

Hello! Hope I'm not bothering you with anything but.

But can I request a Hc of the turtle brothers with a Dragon Mutant s/o who is actually their biological Mom.

Like one of brother's broke their weapon and asked splinter how to fix it and he just casually says "Your mother might know" and just walks away causing the brother's to be shock to have a mom, oh and when the turtles immediately try and look for their Mom they think she's a sweet old Mama turtle but she's actually a noble Dragon mutant living in hidden city who owns a mystic arts dojo.

Again I hope I'm not bothering you with this request and I hope you have a great day/night/afternoon.

TURTLE BROS WITH DRAGON MOM

Warning: Nothing

Character: Turtle Bros

Author: Hello anon, I am deeply sorry I wrote so late. I just slept while writing and boom Tumblr didn't save it (slayy... No not slayy-) so sorry I hope you like it <3

Brothers always had no problem following the rules

Like except this time and other 741 times

Everybody can make mistakes chill

They touched something that they shouldn't have and now the ground was full of shards

"Dad not gonna notice it, relax guys." But you could hear his voice was shaking

"Yes, he will. 91 percent of the time he noticed things he shouldn't have noticed."

"But we still have 9 percent huh?"

"Ok, ok we need a plan. We shouldn't make dad noti-"

"DAD I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU!"

"MIKEY!"

Raph quickly shuts Mikey's mouth

"Oh hey dad, Mikey was gonna tell... Uh-"

"Move on big one, I can't watch my favorite ad."

"Oh ok..?"

Leo steps forward, leans to Splinter

"Well, dad how can we fix something... Holy? Yeah, I guess kinda holy."

"Yeah and definitely we didn't do anything."

Raph hits Donnie's back of the head

"Auch- I didn't even say anything!"

Well, Splinter had enough, his boys don't let him watch ad marathon

So he just throws them to their mother

"Mom? You mean Big Mama?"

"No other one."

Other one. OTHER ONE?!

Everybody is screaming in chaos

Splinter writes your address and kicks them from home

Yeah, 9 percent chance happened and Splinter didn't notice anything

While they are walking to your home, bros trying to imagine how you look like

"She definitely looks like us! Maybe she knows how to make pizza too, April's mom knows it."

"Yeah, maybe she is an old lady like... This tall?"

"Or maybe she left us without saying anything."

Leo notices the mood of the conversation getting cold, so he just searches for something to break this mood

"Look guys! We are here!"

"Ok, who is gonna 'nock the door?"

"I vote for Raph."

"Me too."

"Me too."

"Damn it. I knew it." He starts smelling bad because of stress and doesn't want to meet his own mother smelling like a seafood

Raph tries to knock on the door but wow hah- he is so anxious so he literally punches it to the floor

"Wow, how strong man you are."

DRAGON?

RAPH

Ok, first of all he forgets how he embarrassed after seeing his own mom

At first he can't talk, he wants to but brain is refusing

He tries to explain who are them

Even if his brothers keep interrupting

He hugs you slowly, doesn't know where to put his hands

After some time he gets comfortable with you and comes to your place so often

Drinking tea after some lessons is his favorite way to spend time with you

Like he is angry at his brothers or he just wanna see you, he comes to drink tea

Sometimes he just sits and starts venting about how disappointment as a leader

You are here to rub his shell and tell it it's not the truth

Btw you are his new role model fighter

He is willing to take lessons after meeting you

He likes your hugs, he knows you are not like his family with no soft skin. So he can hug you how much he wants

This boy just loves his new mom

LEO

This guy is shaking because of excitement

He is the one who interrupts Raph the most among them

He is trying to act cool, and wanna show how he looks good to his mom

But he gets emotional very quickly

He'll push all your brothers and sit next to you

And tell you all the things you don't even need to know

After getting a real mom-son relationship he will talk about his feelings to you more than anyone

Because sometimes brothers and dad aren't the best choices to talk about "boring" things

Now it is time to show his favorite movie series to his mom

Well, the show causes blood spurting from your eye but after seeing how Leo is happy because he can share his interest with his parent, you decide not to talk

He will act like a child going to daycare and doesn't want to leave her mother

"Ok, ok you can go first. I have very very very serious things to talk about with mom. Not you Donnie."

And you two play UNO

DONNIE

He doesn't know what to feel

Like he is angry and happy at the same time

He just doesn't wanna hug you until why you didn't show up

His heart is broken like you were just sitting dojo for years and not searching for them

He didn't even know he had a mother

Well after learning your logical reason, he slowly starts talking about everything

You earned his trust and love

He just wanna show and make you understand how perfect he is

But after telling how cool he is, his eyes get wet

Well, at home nobody says something like that because they are used to it

"DID YOU HEAR THAT MICHEAL?"

After your praise he starts working more

He's not someone who likes physical affection anyway, but he really needs time to hug you.

Donnie likes when you watch him while working, yes it is kinda stressing but he feels proud

You come to his room and give him a fruit plate while he is working new invention

"Mom, I can't eat while working."

"No."

MIKEY

THİS İS SO SWEET

You look so sweet, he runs to you and hugs you

You didn't even remember him, who is that child??

But after remembering who were, your heart is quickly warming up to Mikey

He will not ask why you didn't show up, this is not the right time to ask

He will spend now the time he couldn't spend in other years

You two gonna hold hands and wander through all the side streets of the hidden city

Mikey gonna draw you so much, that you can hear the sound of his pencil rubbing against the paper next to you while meditating

The next day he sees his picture framed on the wall

His mother is so lovely and cool, why dad didn't talk about her?

Maybe you broke up not very friendly

He will here to fix that

FAMILY DINNER TIME!

Even Draxum is here

I hope that night ends well 🙏

[thedarkplume]

It's that most wonderful time of the year

...not October, sadly, but December. Christmas. A time for family and love and hope.

And for me, a time to share the absolute best stories I have had the pleasure of reading (and rereading) in 2021. With the state of the world in terms of race relations, the police now being a last resort if there is an emergency, the virus taking away so many of our loved ones, and the overall ugliness of people's hearts in general, I am so grateful for this site. There are so many days where I just don't have it in me to face the terrible realities happening outside of my door, and it is because of the authors here and the community as a whole that makes the days just a little more bearable.

This is my love letter to all of you!

@geminixevans ~ Liar Liar ~ Mafia!Steve Rogers

This is one of those rare instances where having a fake friend gives the ultimate payoff in the end! The first time I read Liar Liar I knew I had to have it as a part of this list. Not only is there a wonderful comeuppance ending and drool-worthy smut, but we have Steve speaking Italian. 😍

@slothspaghettiwrites ~ Big Ole Baby ~ Baby!Orc!Lee Bodecker

I cannot leave this story alone! I come back to it at least once a month. I love the world @slothspaghettiwrites has created with Orcs and the mythology surrounding them. Lee already has such a forceful, demanding personality as it is, but making him into an Orc and then having said Orc transformed into a baby Orc just makes me so happy! 😜

@giorno-plays-piano ~ Dating Rules ~ Skinny!Steve Rogers

Now this one holds a special place in my heart. You know how you can do everything right and in the end, everything still goes pear-shaped? Let me tell you, @giorno-plays-piano does not disappoint with this one. Skinny!Steve is such a sweetheart and when we get to see that wonderful personality go dark, well, it's an exciting ride for everyone. 😏

@sinner-as-saint ~ I'll Be Good (Uni AU) ~ Ransom Drysdale

It's not everyday that someone describes Hugh Ransom Drysdale as quiet, but it was one of the things that drew me to this story. Ransom is seemingly written as the polar opposite of canon, and by the end, you'll be wishing for second part.

@luxeavenger ~ Backstage Pass series ~ Rockstar!Bucky Barnes & Rockstar!Steve Rogers

I can't go on enough about how much this series has affected my life for the better. Even as I'm writing this entry, I'm rereading some of the chapters. Sometimes, I like to open my 1980s playlist and read it from the first chapter post to the last. Rock n' Roll will never die and Backstage Pass is its testament.

@boxofbonesfic ~ Unwrapped ~ Soft!Dark Andy Barber

Wow. Just wow. I initially had another story picked for this entry, but a few days before writing this, I read Unwrapped. Guys, if you have not read this story, do so IMMEDIATELY. I won' give away the details, but the author hailed this magnificent work as a dark Hallmark story. She, of course, hit the nail on the head!

@onsunnyside ~ What A World ~ Tarzan!Steve Rogers

Take the time to think about that. TARZAN STEVE ROGERS. I don't exactly remember how I came across this story. If I had to guess it might have been on @donutloverxo page because she always has the best recommendations. But as soon as I saw this, I knew I had to read it! Thinking about this beautiful man running around in nothing but a loincloth 🤤🤤🤤

@clints-lucky-arrow ~ sweetheart ~ Stalker!Steve Rogers

Another winner that had me following this author as soon as I finished reading! Sweetheart draws inspiration from both 'The Boy' and 'You'. If you've seen at least one of these, then you know that this is a terribly disturbing concept, but that's what makes this story so fun.

@honeyloverogers ~ dance in the dark ~ Ghost!Steve Rogers

This is a great read for a number of reasons. What sticks with me even now as I type this entry, it's the what if...? scenario of Steve NOT crashing into the ice. It's deeply bittersweet and the ghost aspect of it makes for the perfectly spooky and hot read!

@ghotifishreads ~ A Canary to Bring My Message Home ~ 1910s Coal Miner!Curtis Everett

I won't lie and say that I did not cackle thinking, this author created the perfect scene for us to imagine Curtis dirty, but for a very good reason! All jokes aside, though, I thoroughly enjoyed this story. Curtis is a sweetheart and his and the reader's relationship as well as the setting reads like a Danielle Steele novel with smut worthy of Lorelei James!

@autumnrose40 ~ Monster Town (series) ~ Naga!Ransom, Unseelie!Curtis, Werewolf!Jake, Incubus!Steve, Incubus!Bucky Vampire!Andy, Siren!Ari, Puppet Master!Jimmy, Hexxus!Robert, Dragon!Johnny & Pegasus Centaur!Colin

Imagine, if you will, going for a drive. Nowhere in particular. But you somehow veer off course of your original destination. You become stranded in a town filled with monsters whose sole desire is to breed you, control you, and quite possibly eat you. This is by far one of the best stories I've had the pleasure of reading! If you love monsters, stop over and check this story out. And if you don't, you will by the time you finish the first chapter!

@georgiapeach30513 ~ Desperate Affairs ~ Andy Barber & Ransom Drysdale

Sometimes, a story comes along and you already have the character picked that you're rooting for. The one you want to have the happy ending they deserve. Welp! This story was not like that. I felt the proverbial rug ripped out from under me at least three times. There are so many twists and turns in Desperate Affairs that I still feel shell-shocked.

@navybrat817 ~ Howling Commandos Tattoo AU (series) ~ Bucky Barnes & Steve Rogers

The site can teach you a lot about yourself. For instance, I realize I like tattoos and piercings. Largely, I discovered this through Navy's Howling Commandos Tattoo series. I thought it might just be a oneshot filled with Grade A flirting from two extremely gorgeous inked men, leading to an unforgettable threesome. But this has easily expanded into a miniseries of love, happiness, and profound friendships.

@cockslut-padalecki ~ Little White Lies ~ Dark!Catfish!Ransom Drysdale

Out of all the stories I've listed so far, this one feels the most personal to me. In my mind, every person who posts a story or even sends an ask or imagine to the inboxes of their favorite bloggers, is an aspiring author to an extent. So when I read Little White Lies, even knowing the premise beforehand, I felt the horrible betrayal of this reader. The way her deepest fantasy is used to manipulate her is so beautifully crafted that even when I felt like punching Ransom in the face, I knew that this would be a story that I would NEVER forget.

@the-iceni-bitch ~ Goddamn Prince Charming Looking DILF (series) ~ Single DILF Elementary School Teacher!Steve Rogers

Any story @the-iceni-bitch writes is worth its weight in gold. You literally cannot pick a bad story from her masterlist. But this one. This one just takes me to a whole other level. It's not just because Steve is a DILF, a teacher, and has a secret piercing that makes me just 🤤🤤🤤 it's the reader she crafts. Her readers are always strong, independent and confident in who they are. I'm still waiting for the day she will announce that she has a book coming out.

@syntheticavenger ~ New Rules (series) ~ King's Guard Steve Rogers

There are many interesting stories Synth has written, but New Rules is one of my favorites! The drama and the intrigue, the family secrets and jealousy! This is one of those stories that will leave you begging for more.

AND...honorable mention to one of her latest Turn the Tables featuring the one and only Dennis Baker!! I'm so serious guys, you have to read it!!! 🤗

@river-soul ~ A Different Kind of Love (series) ~ Alpha!Andy & Beta!Jake

Normally, I'm always a bit cautious about reading A/B/O stories because some of the Alphas can be really backward, abhorrent assholes. But in A Different Kind of Love, we get two men who are equally loving and devoted to their Omega. And the snapshots we get into their lives as a throuple including all of the hijinks Jake and the Reader cause makes me so happy!

P.S. it would be remiss of me to conclude this entry without mentioning one of the newer series, Dead End, which features Vampire!Ari, Vampire!Andy & Vampire!Curtis. This budding story combines two of my five supernatural holy grails: vampires and zombies!!

@afriendlyblackhottie ~ Star Spangled ~ Steve Rogers

What self-respecting woman in her right mind would pass up the opportunity to dress up as one of the Star Spangled Singers for the Captain's birthday?? I thoroughly enjoyed this story, starting with the knowledge of the reader being a former villain turned Avenger, to Bucky reenacting Mrs. Nesbitt to make her laugh 😂 to my brain fizzling out for a few seconds imagining Steve being a pimp in the 40s.

@plaid-shirtsandvibranium-arms ~ A Lack of Choice ~ Dark!Merman!Andy Barber

I've always loved fairytale stories from the time I was little. But now, getting the chance to read these beloved tales coated in violence and darkness fulfills a desire I never realized I had within myself. Merman!Andy is in top form in this story. The pain and rage tainting his existence sets the tone for this story from the first paragraph. But the imagery of underwater life and Andy's breathtaking mer form is enough to make you envy the reader.

@buckycuddlebuddy ~ i was made for lovin' you ~ Rockstar!Bucky

How can I describe how much I love this story??? During the first wave of photos released of Sebastian Stan in his Tommy Lee makeup for Pam & Tommy, we were blessed with an influx of rockstar and band stories. i was made for lovin' you is one of my favorites. Not only is Bucky in a band with Steve, but his wife is the bassist!!! The love between them is palpable and the chemistry between the band makes you wish you could buy a ticket to their concert.

@sunshinebuckybarnes ~ Lost ~ Bucky & Alpine Barnes

Does anyone else feel like we lost the perfect opportunity to have the chance to meet Alpine Barnes in The Falcon and the Winter Soldier? Don't get me wrong. I loved the show immensely, but I also spent six episodes waiting for Alpine 🥺 luckily, @sunshinebuckybarnes fills this void with Lost. Also, if you're looking for something steamier, I recommend reading her follow-up Found.

@after-avenging-hours ~ Out of Time (series) ~ Steve Rogers & Preserum Steve Rogers

Preserum!Steve Rogers is quickly becoming one of my favorite versions of our dear captain. The story opens with Steve's girlfriend having to go back into the 1940s to capture a vial of Dr. Erskine's super soldier serum to save Steve in the future. If you missed this one, I urge you to read it immediately!

@drabblewithfrannybarnes ~ Lucky Charms: hockey AU ~ Bucky Barnes, Jake Jensen, Steve Rogers, Ari Levinson, Andy Barber, Colin Shea & Johnny Storm

The only thing I love better than animals being a part of a story is getting a sense of nostalgia. Lucky Charms has both! When the idea to create this post first struck, I was firm in my decision to pick My Best Friend Jensen, but then I stumbled on the first story in Lucky Charms and I knew this was going to be the best I've read from Carly in 2021.

@starryevermore ~ Let's Ride ~ Biker!Ari Levinson

One of the first biker stories released, Let's Ride takes you into the world of a single mother new in town whose adorable little boy has an obsession with motorcycles. Ari is such a sweetheart in this and being a gorgeous biker is just 😍

@secretswiftymarvelfan ~ Happy Hanukkah ~ Teacher!Ari Levinson

I honestly don't know how I stumbled across this story, but I'm so glad I did! I love Ari as a teacher. Even better, this story delves into Ari's Jewish background, something I've only seen done once. This story made me wish that I had a teacher like Ari when I was younger.

@angrythingstarlight ~ Don't Give Up On Me ~ Bucky Barnes

It took me an embarrassingly long time to narrow it down to just one story. But this one was special to me. Rereading it, I was reminded why Star is my favorite Bucky writer 🥰

@mypoisonedvine ~ Diplomancy ~ Orc!Bucky

I love a good Orc story, especially when the Orc in question is a Sebastian Stan character! Orc!Bucky in this story is vastly different from the others I've read. He is a strong chieftain who at first glance is none too impressed with humans, but his snarky attitude is one of the many things that make Orc!Bucky such a wonderful character.

@stargazingfangirl18 ~ Taken ~ Andy Barber, Steve Rogers & Ransom Drysdale

Whew! This one. This one, this one. I debated for weeks if I should use this story, even though in the back of my mind, I knew there could be no other chosen before Taken. This story came out a several months ago and there's not been a week that's gone by that I have not thought about this story. When something takes a hold of your thoughts they way Taken has mine, you have to tell as many people as you can about it. I urge each and every one of you reading this post to read this story.

@specialk-18 ~ The Frost ~ Curtis Everett

I just started reading The Frost the other night and I love it! I've only read a handful of Snowpiercer stories, and this is easily becoming one of my favorites. I had no idea @specialk-18 was so creative!

@avintagekiss24 ~ lay me in the tall-grown grass in a shallow grave ~ Steve Rogers & Bucky Barnes

It was a tossup choosing this story. I almost picked so give me nothing, just feel, but for this one was the winner just for the line "seventy years and two hundred pounds of FDA approved American meat"!

@wiypt-writes ~ Consciousness of Guilt ~ Andy Barber

This story follows the events of Murder, He Wrote. This one is a special gem, guys. I do recommend that you read Murder, He Wrote first to get the full understanding of how much this reader suffered and how she began to recover. It's one of those stories that really gives you a sense of appreciation for good men like Andy Barber.

@caffiend-queen ~ There's No Saying Goodbye To Me ~ Dark!Steve & Dark!Bucky

I can't believe it took me this long to realize that the Queen of Loki fics is the same author of one of my favorite Dark!Steve and Dark!Bucky stories! There's No Saying Goodbye To Me takes us to a place where Steve still goes back in time to be with his beloved Peggy, leaving the woman he claimed to love stranded with a very dangerous and scary Bucky...until Steve returns.