#somewhat angsty

[thenerdyclarinetist]

Made my own owl house bingo with my predictions. 💜I got close a few times. This was based on nothing but the clips Disney released and some tumblr shitposts seen beforehand. 😂This is a few days late because I was playing dnd with friends on Saturday. 🥰

EDIT: In hindsight, one could argue that the credit art that could be fleshed out episodes is a fuck you Disney moment. 😭

[lucinesnow]

teary-eyed dove

She was at peace. The delicate harmony surrounded her, she breathed it, her worries were long gone and her eyes were wide open, looking at the bright sky at the azure sky which mirrored her blue eyes.

Her limbs were resting on flower petals. She could hear the wind howling quietly in the branches of the pines, but it didn’t bother her – she felt complete and whole while lying there without a thought of tomorrow. She knew she wanted to stay there, but something didn’t feel right.

The flowers around her were bright, deep red, and they were roses. Somehow, they looked a little too intensely red, and smelled like iron.

How peculiar, she thought. She was all alone, in eternity, yet alive - in a dream.

Then, the field grabbed her feet as she stood, and those roots tangled up her legs. She couldn’t help it; she opened her mouth wide but no sound would leave her lips. And there, to think, even though she was sinking, or even though she would die if she sank any further into the unknown, her mind was at immeasurable, unconditional peace. As if the roses were taking her all the way to heaven. If that innocence was how it felt to be dying, she craved I now. More than anything. She had to leave, immediately, yet her feet were chained to the ground and would not let her go. A salty tear spilled from her eyes and she tasted the bittersweet despair of betrayal. She knew where she was, and she could never leave. Not until she forgot him.

A pale, soft hand reached out to her as if it was an angel taking her to heaven, and those icy blue eyes pierced her identical irises. She couldn’t let go, neither could she hold on to that pale hand. No matter how soft his touch was, she knew the roses always had thorns, and in this case the thorns would stake her before she could admire the beauty of the flowers. It sent shivers down all of her limbs, she knew it was not good for her, not at all.

The more he pulled her towards his embrace, the more she wanted to fall down to the rose garden. No matter how delicate his touch was, she didn’t want to be deceived again. Something inside her – something so delicate and untouched – awakened as his hazy breath touched her ears. Love, unconditional love. Something she had always had for him, something she would never forget no matter how she tried, and he would take it with a smile – only to disappear without a trace.

He would touch her deepest core; she would see the human, the beautiful human being he was and had always been, only to end up being ripped apart by the beast. And he, he would still admire the beauty beside her, the broken, delicate beauty he would always hold dear.

With a smile, he kissed her fingers, one by one. Her eyes closed with a soft smile on her lips, she enjoyed the brief moment of his rare affection, his angelic touch, and icy lips of the one she would never forget.

Her eyes opened again to see the flowers turning red as she touched those, and for a moment, she felt bliss in his arms, those ruthless arms of a monster which she found beautifully scattered anyways – to her, he was the thorn and the rose, the beauty and the beast, even if the darkness would always end up getting the best of him. He scattered the flowers around her, with a kiss he buried her inside the lilies.

And those flowers were covered in her blood, and always had been.

[sweetnnaivete]

say what you want about how order of the phoenix's pacing and general writing sucks but it was such a good exploration of harry's character and introduced the corruption of the ministry which of course was later butchered BUT i am a day one ootp lover

[archersartcorner]

Some more spoodles (Spock doodles) I’ve had saved for a bit… Art block still rough but I do wanna draw so bad. If yall have simple requests feel free 2 send some in hehe

[flamestar126]

One last glance at a former rival

bonus + original photo below cut

[dullahandyke]

i could just have larxene accidentally portal into aura's workroom. and 'who are you and what are you doing here' could be what they're fighting over. but no matter where i go with that in my mind it leads to what i affectionately call 'kingdom hearts bullshit' which would be very fun and an absolutely horrific way to set the mood for hatesex

[gwyllgi33]

The Wild Kratts fandom has so much fan content and so many angsty AUs that it almost makes me forget that Martin and Chris Kratt are in fact real people who actually exist and that's honestly terrifying

[pokimoko]

The One-Way Waltz of the Moth and the Wild Flame (and the Incident of the Authorial Intrusion) - A Good Omens Fic

Written by pokimoko

Chapters: 1/1

Word Count: ~25K

Fandom: Good Omens (TV)

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens), Crowley & Muriel (Good Omens), Crowley & Nina (Good Omens), Crowley (Good Omens) & Original Character(s)

Characters: Crowley (Good Omens), Aziraphale (Good Omens), Muriel (Good Omens), Original Characters, (who is technically not an original character but I've got to keep some secrets ;) ), Nina (Good Omens), Background & Cameo Characters

Summary: A story in which Crowley does not prevent forest fires, a radio sends out thoughts and prayers, an angel misuses the emergency contact, the local duck population invents socialism, trees are threatened to varying degrees of success, a waltz is indeed played, and an author considers the nature of tragedies.

Tags: Ineffable Divorce | Aziraphale and Crowley Break Up (Good Omens), Post-Break Up, POV Crowley (Good Omens), Emotional Hurt, He/Him Pronouns For Crowley (Good Omens), They/Them Pronouns for Muriel (Good Omens), Crowley & Muriel Friendship (Good Omens), Angst and Humor, Crowley-centric (Good Omens), Canon Continuation, Post-Season/Series 02, Post-Episode: s02e06 Every Day (Good Omens), Pre-Season/Series 03, No Aziraphale Slander Here but it is also Crowley's POV so expect at least some Thoughts, Angry Crowley (Good Omens), Running Away, Both in the Emotional and Literal Sense, Because You Don't Have to Deal with Your Romantic and Personal Issues in Washington State. Obviously, (incorrect: you very much do), Crowley is a Mess (Good Omens), (even if he won't admit it), Crowley Loves Aziraphale (Good Omens), (another thing he won't admit), Aziraphale Loves Crowley (Good Omens), They're just being stupid, Not A Fix-It, References to God(s), Romantic Angst, America, United States, Fire Lookout, Remember Only You Can Prevent Forest Fires (Unless You Are Anthony J. Crowley), hey is it healthy to repeatedly relive a past trauma to deal with a breakup? asking for a friend, Scene: The Bookshop Fire (Good Omens), Fire, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Isolation, When You're Trying to Cope Badly in the American Wilderness but People Keep Talking to You, Radio, Inspired by Firewatch (Video Game), Character Study, Crowley and the Woes of Being In a Narrative That Won't Let You Go, (Fleabag voice) This is a Tragedy, But oh? What's this?, Angst with a Happy Ending, Ambiguous/Open Ending

[electr0-charged]

Elaborating a bit on my Headcanons for Clorinde's love life (time not specified = Post AQ):

~15 years before AQ: Clorinde and Navia start dating in mid-teens (Navia being about a year older than Clorinde), probably shortly before or during Navia's transition.

3 years before AQ: After Callas's death, Navia and Clorinde's relationship falls apart, neither knowing how to face the other.

~1 year before AQ: Having become friends with Wriothesley, Clorinde asks him out, but he declines, telling Clorinde that he's Gay, and that he hopes there's no hard feelings. Clorinde agrees, and the two stay friends.

Clorinde realizes that she still wants to have Furina in her life, even though it's not part of her job, leading to Furina's Character Story #5, and afterwards, the two become friends. Some time later, Clorinde is the first person Furina comes out to (Transmasc Furina)

Navia is interested in rekindling the romance between her and Clorinde, and invites her on a date to catch up and talk. Clorinde enjoys reconnecting with Navia, but when Navia brings up the idea of getting together again, Clorinde is torn: while she enjoys their friendship and still cares about Navia, Clorinde doesn't feel the same way anymore. So, she (rather awkwardly) tells Navia how she feels, repeatedly mentioning how she wants to stay friends. Navia is sad, but understands how much has changed, and agrees to stay friends.

That evening, Clorinde realizes that she has feelings for someone else: Furina. Immediately running to his house, Clorinde confesses her feelings to him. Furina is also in love with Clorinde, but was unsure of how to tell her, lacking any prior romantic experience.

[guckies]

I think it would be hilarious if Foolish, Fit or Favela five aren’t able to be there when Leo, Ramon and Richarylson wake up so instead of any of the islanders taking care of them, Cucurucho picks them up and tells the islanders babysitting is included in the Federation Work Package™️

[hitting-it-on-overdrive]

Rewind back to 2017, when I first got into Penn Zero after watching in its entirety:

"Great show. Lets see some good Penn Zero next gen fanfics starring Team Zero's kids-

INCEST between Penn's twin children"

My honest reaction to that being a crucial plot point:

(It's still on FF.net)

[gildengirl]

Zachary Goode playlist

[the-travelling-witch]

HOLLY HATES GRANDPAS (zhongli) CONFIRMED/j

I actually really like the thought of Xiao and his relationship being a bit darker I mean didn’t Xiao kill thousands of “people” and creatures for him? I’m not educated on his lore but I know Xiao was some type of warrior to Morax when he was a god? Archon?

Holly I would love to hear your thoughts on it

okay where do i start with this… no seriously where do i start

You said you don’t know much about Xiao, so let’s start there (coming from someone who might know a little too much about him jshsh).

Basically, yes, you are correct that Xiao was fighting for Morax alongside the other Yaksha and Adepti during the Archon War after Morax saved him from his enslavement to an ancient god and gave him the name “Xiao”. Because of his gratitude to Morax, Xiao took on the duty to protect Liyue, something he still does to this day.

Now, what I think is important to mention here is that Xiao is still referred to as a “young adeptus” even in present times, so during the Archon War approximately 2700 years ago, he was much younger still, meaning he was enslaved from a very very young age. (My personal headcanon is that he had golden wings originally and that they have been cut off/ clipped/ ripped out by the ancient god when he was first enslaved.)

But Xiao was not alone in protecting Liyue. He had four fellow guardian yaksha, who were all very dear to him, but who tragically passed after succumbing to what is known as “karmic debt”. Karmic debt is the residual wrath of slain gods, whose hatred and power remain after being defeated due to them being immortal. It causes a physical and mental toll on those who are subjected to it, especially continuously over long periods of time, like the yaksha.

(There were more than these five yaksha, of course, like Pervases, but I’m talking mostly about the five guardian yaksha.)

In the perilous trail quest line we learn more in depth about what happened to the four other yaksha; Indarias succumbed to madness and fear, Bonanus and Menogias killed each other in battle and Bosacius fought in the Chasm during the cataclysm after even forgetting his own name.

Xiao wasn’t unaffected either. Had he not heard Venti play the flute, he would have lost himself to his karmic debt too, which is not unsurprising considering he has been fighting the remnants of gods from the Archon War all this time.

(I feel we are now leaving hoyo’s plane of storytelling and entering my plane of angst, so everything from here on out is interpreted through the messenger that is me… but you guys love my angst right)

And Zhongli isn’t the harmless, senile grandpa who forgets his wallet all the time (which he totally does on purpose) as he makes himself out to be. When Xiao first met him he was the Warrior God, Morax.

Surely, during a war, for someone like him, the first thought on his mind wasn’t how the people around him felt but how he could best utilise the weapons at his disposal to ensure victory.

And Xiao happened to be one of those weapons.

If you look at what Xiao did during and after his enslavement, it’s not much different, is it? He still, as you said, slaughtered and slayed countlessly, just under a different leader.

And sure, the difference here is that Xiao accepted it willingly this time around, yet, as I explained earlier, I think that he was still very much within his formative years (decades? centuries?) back then, where he, for one, learnt that apparently killing is what he was good for. But also, of course, he would perceive Morax as this “good” person who freed him and who he wants to support; and at first glance, there’s nothing wrong with that.

We also see, however, that Xiao holds Zhongli in a higher regard than pretty much anyone else. Even nowadays he still refers to him as Rex Lapis and dares anyone to speak ill about him (or Morax for that matter) though Zhongli has retired both of those names already. Yet Xiao of all people clings to it.

Also what kind of (good) father would let his son literally work away to the brink of insanity?

Yes, I’m aware that Zhongli inquires about how Xiao is doing and that he has medicine made for him (which he doesn’t deliver himself), which is fine and all but also… too little too late huh? It also means that Zhongli is aware of the state Xiao is in and he never bothers to walk his old ass over to Wangshuu Inn and tell the guy to stop? We went over how loyal Xiao is to Zhongli; you’d think he’d listen if he earnestly told him to rest, the old geezer is the reason Xiao does all this protecting in the first place.

And don’t think I forgot about the chasm quest, oh no. I know Zhongli saved Xiao just in the nick of time and we all cried at the cutscene, and I cried so much but also… why does this retired grandpa have to show up so late? He couldn’t have stopped looking at silk flowers two minutes earlier, before Xiao took on the physical and mental toll of sacrificing himself? Sure… if you say so…

(Though probably not his intention, you could read it as another sign of “You are still here because of me” or Xiao could be encouraged in feeling like he once again owes his life to Morax.)

But, what is even more heartbreaking, is how Xiao had been ready to make the ultimate sacrifice this entire time (shown by how he asked Yanfei about what a will is and if anyone could make one). Where do you think that mindset came from?

(Okay, Holly, calm down. Don’t throw hands with the geo grandpa… leave some for Neuvillette.)

And I’m not saying that Zhongli would still make the same decisions today that he made back then or that he is proud of what he has done. Actually, I think he’d feel quite guilty now that peaceful times have been established and he is in the position to take a step back and reevaluate, which is probably where his attempts at healing come from. I’m not saying he is a fundamentally bad person.

(Zhongli: “We did not measure right and wrong during the days of the Archon War in the same manner as we do today.”)

I’m saying that the circumstances of their first meeting lastingly formed the base and nature of their relationship.

I don’t think Zhongli has bad intentions, yet he also doesn’t address their past dynamic either and after what we established, we can assume Xiao wouldn’t either, which is probably why Zhongli reckons it is okay to let the topic rest.

(comment by @watatsumiis: “i feel like xiao literally isnt equipped to bring up these sorts of conversations. he just thinks how hes living is totally normal. like if you were to really twist it, YEAH their relationship could be like a father and son dynamic but in the way that like.. zhongli is a more mature and well rounded person than xiao is and because of his emotional experience he should be the one taking the lead and helping to guide xiao in these situations, even if that means starting the hard conversations.” Thank you for putting into words what my 1am brain couldn’t <3)

When he tells Xiao to go and make and meet friends he probably has very good intentions and there is care there. But we also know making connections is something Xiao is very afraid of, no matter how much he craves having a connection to someone, because he is scared to taint them with his karmic debt.

I also want to reiterate that the god who helped Xiao most with fighting against his karmic debt was Venti, who Zhongli labels as a useless drunk… just saying.

You could say that Zhongli tries to move their relationship from master and weapon to something more familial but his attempts are a little clumsy, probably because their history just runs very deep and old roles are hard to let go of.

To me, Xiao is a character with childlike curiosity but also the resoluteness and stoicism of someone who was forced to grow up too fast. And in a happier ending, someone close and dear to him (me, it’s me) can help him reevaluate his purpose and bring more nuance into a pretty black and white view on things.

However, @/watataumiis and I have been moving into a completely different direction ofc and I won’t spoil what it is here but I’ve been thinking about it a lot since then (and naturally I immediately started self shipping shenanigans bc I can’t not insert myself when Xiao is involved :])

And with that I conclude my crazed ramblings <3

(Again, not saying Zhongli is a bad person or anything, and this also not necessarily the basis on which I write him in x reader fics; you know me, I just like exploring avenues like this. Also I feel like I’m forgetting half of what I wanted to say, but that’s kinda typical; just know that I feel like there are more angsty thoughts under the smooth surface of my late night brain.

And while it’s not my cup of tea, I’m not trying to put down anyone who does see them as a functional father/son dynamic; there is nothing wrong with wanting that fluffy found family comfort ^^)

[sugarcarnation]

skk plus kouyou trio has taken over my brain

[secretmellowblog]

I just had an amazing Les Mis gifset idea: Adaptations often add a moment after Fantine's death where Valjean gives Javert a well-deserved sucker punch to the face. This moment obviously does not happen in the book. Brick Valjean does understandably SNAP for a moment and threatens Javert, but it doesn't come to blows, and Fantine's death is left unavenged. The horrible lack of any vengeance/catharsis is supposed to be the point. HOWEVER I think a gifset compiling all the post-Fantine-death sucker punch moments from different adaptations would be very amazing, and also convey my exact feelings towards Javert in this chapter. we just need a masterpost of Valjean effortlessly throwing Javert around in 1935, Valjean knocking Javert against a wall until he loses consciousness in 98, Valjean sucker punching Javert in the stage show, Valjean whacking Javert with a piece of wood in 2012, etc.,....it's what she deserves.jpg

[utanekoe-official]

...can someone please do me a favor?