#sorry bout the rant

[fl4mb0y4nt]

Okay but can we talk about gender and desirability? Since I've started my journey of self-discovery and becoming more and more of a total gender fuck, I feel like I'm becoming less and less desirable.

And I'm not even talking about dating cishet people. It's quite the opposite, actually: the genre of people who I attract most are cishet men, because I'm perceived as ~womanly~ enough for them to find me intriguing, but to them, I'm still not quite a threat to their heterosexual identity - to them, I'm merely an exotic trophy in the collection of people they fucked, if you will.

The queers (esp. other trans people), on the other hand, totally recognize my transness and generally perceive me as a trans person. Which is technically a good thing as it feels really validating to me, and knowing that I'm perceived as trans in some contexts is at least a small source of gender euphoria for me.

However, I still fail to do gender right, even in queer contexts. Specifically in the context of (queer) dating. I feel like my gender hinders me from being anyone's 'preference' - for people who prefer butches, I'm not masculine enough. For people who prefer femmes (which I genereally identify as), I don't perform femininity coherent enough. My gender performance is deeply flawed, from whichever angle you look at it.

And in dating, this leads to me feeling like I either fall through the grid completely or I'm just some trophy. And that shit hurts. The gender binary and the social compulsion to reproduce gender as a coherent, fixed entity hurt me so much. I simply can't do it. I can't be perfect anymore. And thus, I can't be desired.

[i-am-thevoid]

so sick of being the only queer in the building so sick of being the only native in my class if i hear ONE MORE person fucking compare powwow to those scenes in movies where cannibals are dancing around a fire/ pot im going to fight someone but if i do then theyd be right in assuming im violent fuck

[profoundchaosdumbass]

Okay so I just saw a post where someone said pride month isn't about asexuals or aromantics, and some comments agreeing with them.

Asexuals and aromantics are just as much part of the community as any other sexual or gender identity. The fucking A in LGBTQIA+ doesn't stand for ally or any bullshit like that. It stands for aromantic, agender, and asexual. It's astonishing how ignorant people can be.

People who say aro and ace people can't celebrate pride month because they "didn't suffer as much as trans and gay people" are part of the problem.

It's people like you who are the whole reason why we have every reason to celebrate. We're being oppressed in a community where everyone is supposed to be accepted.

It's pretty uncommon to see gay representation in media. It's practically impossible to find aro or ace rep. So no, we have fought just as hard as, if not harder than, you have for a place to belong.

And that's why we deserve to celebrate pride month.

[shedontlovehuhself]

Yeah, it sucks that Bobo and Misha were not given the space to talk about the confession scene in the same way Oliver and the 911 peeps are doing with Buckley right now. Cas' coming out and his "I love you" to Dean should have gotten a bigger celebration than just Misha speaking about it on his own. Hell, Ruthie and other cast members tried to show support online and got shut down by haters and antis. Misha should not have been the only one out there in 2020 and 2021 talking about it. But he was. And yes, prior to 15x18 he went from safely playfully supporting Destiel to full on doing so right after the confession scene. Even without backup from his costar. Just like he was the only one to actively advocate for HIS character's canon queerness. Where was EW for Misha back in 2020? They definitely spoke to Jensen about it. And no, chaos machine had nothing to do with Misha talking about queer Castiel. The way certain Jensen fans try to give credit where it isn't earned and using Misha to do so should be studied.

And I'll add that yes, Jensen has grown over the years. He's more accepting of fans canon of bi Dean and has always happily signed and praised destiel fan art. He's proud of what Misha did with Cas and has said that Dean and Cas should have a conversation about what happened. But he still hasn't said the words Cas is queer. He still can't say destiel. He also has said in so many ways he doesn't see Dean as queer and even has stated Cas' confession can be open for interpretation. So while I'm proud of his obvious growth, y'all not bout to give him credit for what Misha was out here doing on his own.

I remember when everyone was saying Jensen has no power at CE cons. So now that the narrative calls for it, y'all are now saying he has power at CE. Suggesting that he made changes with said power that coincides with Misha talking more openly about queer at CE is truly a reach.

- Momento con in 2021(non CE con) where Misha happily talked about queer castiel and cas and Dean wanting to bang each other.

- German con in 2021 when Misha again talked about queer Castiel, Destiel, and had a positive reaction to a fan's "Dean is bi" t-shirt that had the audience cheering, meanwhile Jensen stans were crying on twitter that Jensen should be doing more euro cons (this was during Jensen's silent era, mind you).

- Misha's cameos where he had destiel trending and also talked about queer Castiel. He also talked about when Cas fell in love with Dean. Also the Cameo where he jokingly said "Cas, you can do better" about being in love with Dean.

- his virtual interviews in late 2020. And his pride posts each June. his interview when at a French con where he talked about Cas being a queer icon(y'all got mad at him for that one, too).

[mintacle]

The Tim Drake uwu-ification bothers me in the face of the abject horror and trajedy of Jason's trauma so much because it reveals a lot about what kind of victim most people will want and that's why they prefer to see Tim as the poorest little wet meow meow.

The uwu-Timmy is always silent about his pain and bears it to the point of breaking under it and beyond, he never voices his trauma or fear and doesn't inconvenience anyone and he feeds into the narrative of a saviour coming along who sees his pain (Dick most often tbh), the glorious brave saviour of the victim. The helpless victim in need of saving, powerless on his own. The uwu-Timmy is cute and inoffensive, he is a "good" victim. The kind that doesn't bother other people.

Jason Todd on the other hand is the furthest thing from inoffensive and unbothersome, he's a "bad" victim, who demands you to look and see, who demands that you face the reality of him. Jason Todd doesn't need a saviour, there is no saviour of the broken power-fantasy that he enables. He doesn't need permission or support and he can't be controlled. He is the kind of victim people don't want to deal with.

And seeing the uwu-ification of Tim vs the asshole-ization of Jason just makes me realize that all these people in the fandom will hate victims who bother them and who are too loud. All these people who misunderstand Jason to just be too angry and out of control, who'd best just stick him in therapy or have someone teach him a lesson.

[stevesbipanic]

Can the Duffer Brothers stop putting the strong independent girl characters into solely love plots. El has superpowers and half the time that's pushed aside for a love story about 14 year olds. Max is a badass and lost her brother and there's a whole will they won't they plot with Lucas. I just want so brotp action with Steve and Robin being silly and happy and I gotta figure out if thos random new girl likes her? AND THE FUCKING WHO WILL NANCY CHOOSE PLOTLINE THAT'S LASTED FOUR SEASONS AT THIS POINT THE COOL GIRL WITH A GUN DOESN'T NEED A BOYFRIEND!

[hyprfxtdbstrd]

if i see one more person go "🤓uh ackhtually micah was the good guy because he was reporting criminals to the authorities" im going to lose my mind

did yall just forget about how he shot up an entire goddamn town because he wanted his guns?? orphaned a child because some guy he used to know was going to let him hang?? how he was INCREDIBLY racist?? was overall creepy towards women??

micah may have been doing the right thing in the eyes of the law by snitching, but he was still an awful fucking person!!

and the same goes for agent milton, he may have been a detective/cop trying to bring justice to criminals but people seem to be forgetting that the pinkertons are literally known for how shitty they are in REAL LIFE—agent milton unloaded a goddamn GATLING GUN at a building that he fucking KNEW had a four year old boy in it, tortured a man to death (strauss), kidnapped a woman whose biggest crimes were petty theft and being in a gang (abigail)....how do people look at all of that and go 'well he was just trying to do his job'??? its insane to me

[herrscherofmagic]

At the risk of being overly pessimistic, I've got some thoughts to share about HI3rd and Part 2 and whatnot. This is more of a vent post than any proper discussion or analysis but I want to share these thoughts somewhere because it's been on my mind for ages, and learning that the new UI comes tomorrow with the new patch has finally pushed me to write this.

Regarding Part 2, I will say that I'm willing to give it a shot. I know quite a few people (at least in some parts of the honkai community) felt a bit iffy about the Salt Snow Holy City arc, but I ended up loving it. So even though I haven't even started the current Fu Hua story arc, I do want to catch up and continue with the story.

But when I think about the past of HI3rd... I can't help but feel a genuine pain at the wasted potential of this game, its stories, and its characters.

There's a charm about early HI3rd that I really enjoy, partially out of nostalgia but also thinking about what could've been. So far, it seems like Mihoyo is intent on going full steam ahead and moving on. I don't see any sight of older valkyries being given minor updates (i.e. voicelines and basic animations/emoting), nor the early story being reworked, and even the original UI is getting straight-up replaced with a new design theme.

What do I think about when I think "early HI3rd"?

Hyperion. St. Freya. Shicksal. AE.

Of course this includes classic stuff like the White Comet battlesuit, or the early story arcs like the Battle of Schicksal.

But I'm also thinking about the incredibly neglected Armada and Dorm systems.

I'm thinking about all the different Valkyries and Valkyrie squads that we're told exist, yet only serve the tiniest slivers of roles in the story. The Phosdjinns (Susannah's old squad). Wendy & the Valkyries at the Schicksal base she was stationed at. Jackal, before she quit Schicksal and joined AE. Ana Schariac. Alvitr. Ragna.

I'm thinking about the fact that we still know virtually nothing about Bianka's brief stay at St. Freya. Or about how Rita struggled to become an S-Rank Valkyrie as a relatively normal person who had no stigmata like Bianka nor Herrscher powers like Kiana.

In terms of aesthetics, I think about the bright colors we associate with Hyperion and the old menus.

I think about all the old weapons & stigmata, and even the new ones, and how they have tiny descriptions that hint as so many interesting things behind the scenes. AE's Project: MEI, for instance, or Schicksal's St. 1504 labs.

I remember how often some people used to go "oh Genshin, pffft whatever, Honkai is so much better and it has cool animations and songs and it's Depression Impact and all that stuff!!!" and I used to agree with that. In some cases I still do.

But then I think about how EMPTY HI3rd feels. Genshin has some issues, but it's story has continuously been getting better, and the early content is still a fairly solid foundation. There's tons of interesting lore archives and hidden details across countless weapons, texts, and archive entries. You can learn so much about the past of Mondstadt's Aristocracy or the civilization of Sal Vindagnyr, or about the Yakshas, and Adpeti, or the 5 Inazuma sword-forging schools, and Enkanomiya, and so on.

But there's almost nothing about Schicksal or AE. We know almost nothing about how these two factions operate, aside from "they have a bunch of fancy tech".

Hyperion's not the only flying ship Schicksal has. Aside from Helios we also see and hear about others like the shuttle that the Immortal Blades used in Arc City, or the large ships we see flying in the background of the Armada home screen.

Where are those ships built? Who's crewing them? What does Schicksal do with all these resources? How are the Valkyries in these ships and stationed in bases across the world fighting Honkai in their own way?

What about AE? Sure AE has robots, but robots alone aren't enough. AE still needs leaders and people to make decisions. We know about the obvious Welt, Tesla, and Einstein. But what about Raiden's father, Raiden Ryoma, who we saw play an active role helping AE in the Second Eruption? How does he use ME to help support AE's operations? Are there others like him who make their own investments and sacrifices to help protect their corner of the world?

What was Susannah's life like before and after she joined the Phosdjinns? What about the Phosdjinns themselves? We know a tiny bit about them: their squad leader, Matilla, seemed to come to lead the squad after the past leader died in combat. The other member, Zofia, seemed to promise the old squad leader to protect Matilla. And Matilla chose Susannah herself, so she may be at least partly responsible for getting Susannah up to the point where she could join the Immortal Blades.

What's their story?

What about Ragna and the Valkyrie Assault Squad? I remember there was a CG long ago, Idk if it was permanent content or a temporary event CG, but it revealed that Ragna knew both Rita & Bianka as well as Himeko. So the same person that trained Himeko and led her into battle also gave guidance to Rita and Bianka. What was her life like? How were these incredibly influential Valkyries changed by this role model they have in common?

And speaking of Rita... in the Meow Town Escape event, Rita told Susannah how she had to work hard to join the Immortal Blades and become an S-ranker. Rita has no legendary stigma like Bianka, nor is she a Herrscher like Kiana, nor a MANTIS like Hua. So how did she get to become an S-rank? What trials did she endure, what sacrifices did she have to make?

What about Sin Mal? What happened to Cocolia's orphanage after the failure of the X-10 experiment? How did Cocolia end up working with AE, and how did she end up serving as an agent(?) for World Serpent as well?

Speaking of Cocolia, what happened to her after the Second Eruption? She went from being a minor officer in the Red Army in the middle of Siberia, to running an orphanage that also ran a secret set of experiments. What did she endure in all those years?

There's so much more I could go on about. Wendy, Ana, pre-World Serpent Jackal, Alvitr, Amber, Dr. Nagamitsu, Sin Mal.

All these characters have hints of their stories throughout the game. Sometimes it's a small set of flashbacks, some are fortunate enough to star in a single arc, and some are unfortunate enough to get most of their character development in temporary events.

And of course St. Freya itself could do with more screentime since most of that story is told through manga, not even in the game itself.

But all of these details lead... nowhere.

HI3rd is full of countless seeds of stories, little snippets that tell us that there's so much more beyond the story of our main trio. These characters don't all need full story arcs, of course not. The main story is written and done (though I think the first few chapters deserve a solid remake).

But there could've been something more. Archive entries, weapon & stigmata descriptions, new Valkyrie Chronicles episodes, etc. Schicksal HQ OW could've been revamped to tell us more about the Immortal Blades, Otto, Amber, and Dr. Nagamitsu. Sakura Samsara could've been polished to meet modern standards, giving both Kallen and Sakura fans better content without having to write them into a new part of the story.

Heck, I even think Mihoyo could've even released a "St Freya semi-open world". Make a "Chapter 0" prologue that takes place in Nagazora when Mei awakens her Herrscher power and when she & Kiana meet Bronya. Then make a couple of short story missions mandatory in the Schicksal semi-open world, then lead that into Chapter 1. That way the Main trio gets a proper introduction and we're not thrown into an in-progress story with no proper beginning.

Then that Schicksal semi-open world could have been filled with all sorts of content that develop the early story without having to cram lots of stuff into the post-Selene events. Short slice-of-life stories in the St. Freya school days, little peeks at the past life of Himeko and Theresa, archive entries telling us more about Schicksal & St. Freya.

Players that want to advance the main story can do so almost right away, just with a bit of extra context going into the action. But old & new players alike could revisit this era of Honkai and learn more about these beloved characters, and the rest of the story could continue as-is without having to cram extra story arcs elsewhere somehow.

I've been thinking about all this stuff for months, hell maybe a couple years now. As someone who plays HI3rd, Genshin, and HSR, and enjoys all 3 games equally, I like to see how these games can all learn from one another. HI3rd has so, so much room to grow as a game and as a story experience, and Genshin & HSR provide a lot of examples of ways this can be done.

There's a lot of room to adjust the early story of HI3rd and add content without bogging down the pacing of the main sequence of events, just like Genshin & HSR have lots of side content like character stories, stuff that's important and enjoyable but also isn't part of the main story and doesn't get in the way of those events.

But as far as I can tell... none of this is ever going to happen. At least not anytime soon.

Part 2 is here, and the new UI is coming. We'll soon get introduced to a new cast of characters, and new stories will be told.

But I don't agree with the whole "let the past stay in the past" thing here, because these aren't finished stories. HI3rd has countless untold and unfinished stories already.

I think expanding on the stories of these characters and organizations will only improve the rest of the game.

Learning about Jackal's past will make her more than just a mustache-twirling villain that throws a tantrum when Senti breaks her toys.

Learning about Wendy will make her an actual character and not a shitty "look at this character and their sad back story, oh no they turned evil, oh no they died off-screen! how sad :(" character.

Learning about Himeko's past is obviously going to make her sacrifice feel more impactful. Final Lesson was already sad, but what if we had in-game story content that showed us what happened to her when her father died, and when she joined Schicksal? What if we got to witness her growth under Ragna's leadership and the way her life was changed when Ragna died?

All of these characters could benefit from a bit more backstory, even the Main Trio. Exploring these early stories would make HI3rd's setting feel so much more alive and thought-out. Not everyone cares that much about these characters, but Mihoyo has the power to give them a reason to care.

I know not everyone likes the way the Elysian Realm story played out, but I think nearly all of us can agree that the Elysian Realm did a great job at presenting the story of the Flame-chasers. We get archive entries that tell us key scenes of their past, and we interactions with them that show us their personalities. But so many other characters outside of the Elysian Realm get nothing like that.

Obviously implementing even some of these ideas would take a lot of time and effort. I understand why Mihoyo might've chosen not to address the early story, because for a given amount of resources they're gonna make more profit off of continuing to move on and make new characters and focus the story around them.

But knowing why things happen doesn't stop me from being disappointed about them. Even if Part 2 turns out positively, that won't fix all the broken things in Part 1.

As I write this, I'm listening to one of the Genshin OSTs from the Narzissenkreuz Ordo. Having finished that world quest series recently, I keep thinking about just how incredible that story was. The story of these characters and the tragedy they endured reminds me so much of the struggle of the Flame-chasers. But that was all side-content. It was unvoiced quests with minor characters with simple models. But they had so much life to them. They had interesting motives to push them through the story, and they had interesting connections with each other. The story of the Narzissenkreuz is just one part of the many intertwined stories of Teyvat, and it's a beautiful part.

And then I think about HI3rd, and I wish I could have this same experience with HI3rd, where I could think about the lives of these characters and their motives and the struggles they go through, but I just can't. Not without diving fully into the realm of fanfiction and dreaming up stories that give these characters the life they never got to live, and which they may never get to live in the canon of HI3rd.

All these seeds of stories that were planted years ago and neglected ever since. Never watered, never sprouting, never getting to see the sun.

[prismartist]

i started watching QSMP after missa left for japan, so my only impressions of him were a frankly intimidating skeleton man and a few wholesome clips. so to learn that he's actually a delightful wet cat of a guy has been a pleasant surprise,

[ehh-is-the-name]

It's past 11 on a school night and I'm fucking crying over robot sentience.

I could never understand what it would feel like to be created with the intent to kill and maim. Maybe, the intent to work and be worked, but not kill and maim.

I will never understand what it's like to be created with the intention of being a product for the masses, either. I think, I hope, I beg, no one does.

I will never ever be able to fully comprehend why hours of people's work, time, and money would be put into formulating my sentience only for me to be seen as disposable. Even if I could be improved, even if I were "defective", there is no reasonable justification for giving me emotions only to dismiss them by pushing me as a product for a year before starting anew.

It's... It's cruel, to the machines. Sentient or not, it's cruel. Though, I guess we are cruel.

[pixxypop]

which one would handle a large feral animal the best-

like, who's more likely to do what when faced with a large creature that very clearly wants to bite them.

( Alsooo, do you mind if I doodle some of your ocs? they are adorable.)

To answer your question, Xanar is the one who can handle large beasts. HES BUILT LIKE A TANK!!! His crystals are like plant armour (they grow on his body and soul) and are super durable! Standing in 6'4ft or 193.04cm and physically the strongest out of all the ocs I have!

You can't see in the recent drawing of his tail but if you scroll down for a bit and you'll see his redesign that shows his tail! It acts like another fist in a fight and the horns on his skull is meant for ramming people or things(<--makes me giggle) He has really sharp crystalized claws that reaches to his elbows but he mostly uses thick gloves unless there's a fight soooo

The others would most likely ehhhh...tempt the beast to bite them for fun (Except Oriane and Erase, Oriane is quite the peace maker and hates scaring stuff despite his powers are...chaotic while Erase is..erase)

So Xanar would most likely just beat the beast until it gets dusted or something...

(ALSO YEAH!! Feel free to draw or ship them !)

[unclear-contributions]

King, Queen, and Witch!

Heyo TC! Love what you're doing with the Dragon's Daughter.

I already answered King for Peasant. I am going to use this incredibly tenuous rationale to answer all three of these for Peasant and for the Seven Gods Legendarium. Because I can. Yeehonk, as the kids say.

QUEEN (Peasant) -- Peasant is one of the least fleshed out worlds I have, actually! At least, in this respect. The earliest planned event would likely be either the invention of Thaumaturgy or the founding of the Empire, but the two are so inextricably intertwined -- putting one before the other doesn't really make sense, considering that the overwhelming military advantage thaumaturgy grants is. Very difficult to overstate. Especially in a world without gunpowder.

The only viable military counter to a thaumaturge is another thaumaturge of equal or greater skill, after all. Or maybe fifty guys with bows.

One of those is ominous foreshadowing. Whee!

WITCH (Peasant) -- Two things, which happened around the same time. The first was ducal fantasy, a sort of subgenre in a lot of manga and manhwa, with sort of dukes-and-duchess trappings and a lot of magic, which I spliced to a magic school, because I felt like it. I wrote a scene just to prove I could, if I wanted to, and it ended up being the first duel between Noam and Emilia, which sharpened up their characters right off the bat. The story exploded out into what would become Peasant afterwards, because I am incapable of not ripping themes and symbols from anything that exists near me for more than two seconds...but that's the seed.

The second thing that followed was this snip. It came...a few minutes after I wrote that first duel, and that still lingers with me as so central to Peasant's identity, even if I don't end up getting to use it in the text. (Unfortunately, it is late summ--hang on. What am I talking about. I decide when everything is.)

(Never mind, I'm gonna slam that scene in. Hash Tag Yeet.)

Normal people can leave now. Past here be old gods.

//

LEGENDARIUM. #7gl. The big, old work, my first world, and the hardest to work with, but the most fleshed out by far. The only world, so far, that I've built for worldbuilding's sake, as opposed to part of a story.

KING (7GL) -- The Legendarium's my oldest project. It was my first real original world, my first big project, and it's influenced my whole life as I've grown up alongside it -- I've done most of my writing in the last three years, and the Legendarium is about three times as old as that, a constant slow-burn of research, refinement, exploration, and snips.

QUEEN (7GL) -- The histories I have go all the way back to the cosmogeny, to the making of the world. Technically, they also go back to the founding of the first Mordan Empire. But that's so far back that it's in the so-called Age of Formation, and that Empire's stood, more or less, for thousands of years.

But the earliest strictly historical event would be the assassination of the Philosopher-Queen of Danaan, which eventually lead to the homogenization of power in the kingdom of Danaan, which in turn lead to militarization and the Great War between Danaan and the Mordan Empire. This period was the Age of Powder. Something happened to conclude it, though -- most of the records of what exactly are lost. But it wasn't pretty, and now the gods are gone and the world's had about three hundred odd years to settle into the scars of whatever happened.

WITCH (7GL) -- The idea was simple. Li'l baby me wondered, hey, what if, like, physical forces were gods? Like, gravity. And matter. And stuff. So I mapped out seven gods corresponding to scientific concepts: spacetime, energy, physical laws, consciousness, possibility/chaos, matter, and absence and went from there. That was it. That was the base.

...we are so far past that.

Thanks for the ask! Have a normal and sane amount of response to it.

[ech0wo]

Im in an open relationship (very healthy and full of communication) w/ my bf, and one of my friends has been flirting with me non-stop and I really love it and him so so so much and I would trust him with anything

....and because of that reason I kinda wanna share my blog with both of them "accidentally" so they'll know another way to "get under my skjn"

Dkes anyone have any good resources (posts, blogs, etc) that I could add to my pinned post so when they see it, they'll have refrences about the sfw community and why so many people like it??

[pekabloooop]

welp, time to ruin this mv

[emotionally-happy-pyro]

*boops your gas mask* hey, brought you a drink, it is hot out. Also brought a snack.

!!!!!

[[Nah 'cause that scene idea is adorable!!

Pyro, sitting out in the sun while the other mercs are doing their thing- legs out in front of them in a child-like sitting position. Engie might be working on a sentry, Scout's running around chasing whatever animal is unlucky enough to be near him, Heavy eating a sanvich and offering one to Medic who's just... standing there.. staring. He must be experimenting on something. Maybe he's checking everyone's reactions to the heat?

Either way, nobody's really paying attention to Pyro 'cause y'know, they figure Pyro doesn't care about the heat- or maybe it doesn't affect them? They've probably all unpurposefully decided that Pyro's not human.

Then you come around behind them while they're silently dying of heat, probably exhausted and kind of out of it so they don't really notice you until their gasmask is lightly pushed down and they hear a "boop!", only to look up and see you offering them a nice, cold drink. You know that they won't drink it in front of others, so they wonder why you even bothered.

Though, they really appreciate it and jump up to hug you and you notice after a second that Pyro kind of leans most of their weight on you- they sure must be tired. But before they can pass out hugging you, they quickly grab the drink and make a quick "thank you" gesture in sign language before running off to presumably drink in privacy.]]

[samurotting]

I stg every time someone refers to the Johto legendary beast trio as dogs I lose 25,000 braincells