#sorry if this isn't very coherent

[transingthoseformers]

can we have some of your megop headcanons please?

So so ai soooo sosi

What i got

For tfp megop, i totally feel like pre-war Orion and Tronus were just. Total dorks with each other. Total dorks. Making corny unfunny jokes with each other, wanting to go see the stars together, buy each other drinks but somewhat forget about them while passionately talking... the sweet shit

Tfp megatron and Optimus are exes (usually), and Megatron is the bitter one who broke up with Orion first, he still loves Optimus of course.

G1 Megatron is a tsundere and refuses to admit he looooves Optimus

Earthspark Megatron still writes very emotional love poems about Optimus

Earthspark Optimus would look through a book labeled "best ways to flirt"

Beast wars megop to me seems like the most likely to stay in the "enemies with benefits" zone, but i see possible emotions regarding how they're a predacon and a maximal there

Idw Megatron still has embarrassing dreams about Optimus sometimes, ditto for idw Optimus

Biting biting biting biting biting biting biting biting biting bi

Sg megop is such a thing for me and i love the idea of Megatron looking at Optimus and saying "I can fix him" & sg Optimus concluding "i can be better than him"

So much physicality in their love language in most versions of megop. They've grappled so many times in battle they wouldn't quite know what to do without each other's touch

.... biting. So much gay biting.

These two are soulmates even when megop isn't involved. They always find each other, no matter what.

If we're working with tfa Megop, I'm very specific and highly prefer that it's Optimus who's bold enough to make the first move, it's Optimus who's job is to prove himself as a suitor. Which he does by besting Megatron and holding his own well.

I think so much about adrenaline fueled battle frags that aren't necessarily out of love but definitely lust and mutual agreement and getting the energy out

In general i prefer the dynamic with Optimus being more dominant and sub!Megs, but this isn't set in stone and i love the flex and flow of their dynamic (especially considering shattered glass because if everything is being flipped around why not that too?)

I love them so much it's insane. Closest thing i have to an otp.

Love them

[ryehouses]

In AST - while I absolutely adore the sibling vibe of "I'm going to come save your ass and then not even let you know" I gotta ask - did the Skirata boys ever approach Boba?

hello! thanks for the question!

oof okay. this is a little bit sad, but immediately post-ast? probably not. at this point in the narrative, the skiratas don't really have any reason to approach boba directly.

in one of the pov snipets i've already posted, there's a little bit between ordo and mereel about how they don't necessarily feel like boba's one of the brothers, because boba has never wanted anything to do with them or with any of the clones. ast!boba's never gone looking for the skiratas and he has distanced himself not only from other clones but also from mandalorians in general, so the skiratas have more or less left him alone.

they also definitely didn't expect to see boba at the summit, though, so they're also kind of reckoning with "oh, maybe we didn't know him at all, actually" and a little bit of lingering guilt, because yeah, boba didn't go looking for the skiratas and he hasn't really done anything to help them, but they also never went looking for him either.

so maybe down the road there's room for the skiratas and boba to meet! especially once din gets involved, because now he's on a one-man mission to reconcile a bunch of different mandalorian clans and has no patience for the "well we hated each other thirty years ago" bullshit.

[scratching92]

I’ve been talking a fair bit about how much I loved Screecher’s Reach but now that I’ve finished this season of Star Wars Visions, I actually think Aau’s Song might be my favourite of the bunch? It’s hard to compare them, but Aau’s Song is just such an uplifting, beautifully-made story that in some ways feels like a perfect capstone to Star Wars as a whole? Like, if the very, very last Star Wars thing ever made was Aau’s Song, it would be a perfect stopping point.

[im-no-jedi]

I have Crosshair on the brain today for literally no reason and was really struck thinking about that moment with Wrecker and Tech in Kamino Lost. mainly how, yet again, Tech perfectly sums up what it's like being someone with a mental disability.

Wrecker breaks character a bit and gets angry at Crosshair for being such an ass, and especially for not putting an effort into leaving the Empire once his chip was removed. an understandable and valid reaction.

Crosshair doesn't have time to respond before Tech steps in though.

Tech straight up tells Wrecker to let it go. he doesn't need Crosshair to say anything because he already knows what Crosshair might say. despite not agreeing with him (as he later stated), Tech understands why Crosshair is behaving the way that he is. this indicates that Crosshair has behaved similarly in the past and therefore is no surprise to someone like Tech, who has the same problem. and he tries to explain that to Wrecker.

Tech outright states two of Crosshair's major character traits. two traits that can be seen both as positive and negative. neurodiverse people often have traits like this that manifest outside of their control, causing them to behave in ways that come across unnatural. it often takes an outside source, like Tech is doing here, for the person to even realize that those behaviors can be a bad thing. Tech even confirms the fact that it's simply a part of who Crosshair is.

but he doesn't stop there. because this goes beyond simple character traits, which can often be changed or altered in some way.

Tech starts by telling Wrecker that he can't change how Crosshair is. this is honestly good advice in general, but it especially applies to mental disability. no amount of work or effort can fully change how a neurodivergent person behaves. it's literally wired into their brain. sure, things like therapy and medication can help. but like a stubborn stain or a deep scar, those traits will never fully go away.

and Tech confirms this with one final statement.

Crosshair himself can't even do anything about it. and this to me is the real attribute of mental disability. it's simply something that's out of everyone's hands. it's also interesting to note Crosshair's expression here. he seems genuinely intrigued by Tech's statement, like he's just heard something he wasn't expecting to hear. Crosshair ends up asking why Tech "stood up" for him, but I think it goes beyond that. I think Crosshair hadn't considered that fact that things were out of his control. which we end up seeing in season two with his eventual strained relationship with the Empire.

now, this isn't me saying that we should excuse neurodivergent people for their behaviors. everyone, regardless of circumstance, should take responsibility for their own actions. and it's moments like this that are actually helpful in understanding how to deal with mental issues. I say this as a mentally disabled person myself. having that outside source to point out those behaviors, regardless of whether or not they were intentional, still have consequences. clearly, the consequence for TBB was the separation of Crosshair from the rest of the squad. he made that choice, but it was due to natural traits that were out of his control (among other things). hopefully he'll eventually realize this, but that remains to be seen.

it's no secret that I personally headcanon the entire Bad Batch as being neurodiverse. Tech may be the most obvious example, but the signs are there for the others as well. and this moment just further validates it for me. at the very least, it's an excellent comparison to mental disability, whether intentional or not, just like Tech's line in The Crossing. and I'll be forever grateful for a show like this giving us that representation 💙

[ultimatepokemontournament]

I wanted to reply to these both at the same time because i feel they go so well together.

The anon at the top brings up such a great point--that they basically have a greater share in loving their faves.

To anyone sad about their faves losing or voting for the less popular Pokemon, just remember this is basically a popularity contest! And popularity infers no value judgement on its winners and losers and the people who vote for them! I know people joke a lot about objectivity, but at the end of the day this is all very much subjective, and the only real difference between a small community of fans and a big community of fans is that one is made of less people.

I think the way Pokemon is set up too is that there really is no such thing as bad taste? (I'd also argue that this is technically also true for many other things but that's beside the point gjfigjfi) Like--Pokemon are pretty much equivalent to our animals. Being invested in certain animals doesn't really give you more or less by way of coolness. (I'm sure there's some specific circles that would beg to differ, but that's just it, those are specific, limited circles, not society as a whole.) The same thing can be said about Pokemon. And the beauty of it is that there's something in every Pokemon that's going to speak to at least one person, though probably many more.

I also usually do vote for the losers, so at least we are, for the most part, in things together!

[daz4i]

wait I'm not done talking abt fyolai. let's look at the anthologies art

(sorry for the big sample lmao this is what i had on hand)

fyodor is in a bath of what is likely blood. if i had to guess I'd say it's symbolism for the whole story, really - blood being spilled by him or in his name, so he can achieve his goal. he is deep inside the blood of those the doa have hurt

nikolai has a part of his leg in it. he's helped spill some of that blood, after all, with his murders and his part of the plan to frame the agency. however, he could easily get up and go with barely a stain anywhere else on him. not because his hands are clean, but because he always makes sure he has a way to escape. he has agency. he is not being controlled by fyodor to stay in the tub. he spends time with him willingly - just like he went to meursault to put fyodor and dazai in the game willingly, even though he could escape and no one would even think to look for him.

this art was actually the catalyst to my previous post abt them, bc one interpretation i keep seeing is that fyodor has the upper hand, almost controlling nikolai, probably under the assumption that he's manipulating him somehow (which, tbf, I'm p sure this is what fyodor thought he was doing too)

however i feel like this art is a way to show that's not the case

fyodor has a fork in hand, already in the cake. he could easily just use it and bring it to his mouth, he doesn't need nikolai to feed him, and he'll probably be cleaner about it too. i think, this is symbolism for his original escape plan from meursault - we recently learned that one of the prison guards is a vampire, meaning he had a man on the inside the whole time. nikolai showing up and putting him in this race can technically achieve the same goal - he's still eating the cake after all - but he's definitely making the whole ordeal way messier

it's not that nikolai is 100% in total control or something - fyodor could push him away if he wanted, or possibly kill him in meursault - but he's still the one taking the reigns, making a choice for fyodor, going into his personal space and making sure fyodor notices, both on the inside by putting his fingers in his mouth, and outside by practically enveloping him.

tldr: nikolai 1 always has an escape route. he's not giving in to just whatever fyodor plans 2 is in more control than he might give himself credit for

[notanotherinfjblog]

A few thoughts on NJs

I'm currently in the unique position where my most frequent social contacts are an ENTJ and an ENFJ, and one thing I find is that NJs generally strongly gravitate towards each other. Coming across a fellow NJ out in the wild is exceedingly rare, so whenever that happens, there is always this strange moment of instinctual mutual recognition. Suddenly you see your own Ni reflected back at you. It makes sense that you'd want to stay close to that person.

In the following, I will just talk a bit about the observations that I've made (not very coherently, I'm sorry). Something that I find interesting is that even though our minds work very similarly (always dissecting everything, searching for patterns and meanings, making seemingly random connections in the search for the root of something etc.), NFJs and NTJs have very different priorities. The NFJ can be completely drowning in work, but that will never stop them from prioritising people over everything else. They will collect and cherish every tidbit of information that someone told them about themselves. They will sacrifice time they absolutely do not have just to be there when an acquaintance they somewhat like gives a talk about something that is in no way relevant to the NFJ. They will be able to recognise all their co-workers by the sound of their steps alone. All of this is precious information. The NTJs, on the other hand, will not even bother to learn your name unless they have taken an interest in you in any way. NTJs will be polite to you, that's no issue, but if they don't care, almost everything you tell them will be deleted from their brains. They prioritise the abstract over everything else. If they are busy thinking about, I don't know, quantum physics, you are welcome to discuss it with them and they will be delighted. If you and the conversation are interesting enough, they will also figure out how your mind works in the meantime. But this is a step you have to unlock with an NTJ first. The NFJs will do this automatically. Funnily enough, I find that NTJs become more openly annoyed by you the more they have grown fond of you. If you are being annoying and they don't care about you, depending on the situation, they will either simply leave or put you in your place. If you are being annoying and they do care, you end up with amazing conversations like this:

INFJ: "I needed help with that work thing, so I asked a friend, but it didn't really go as planned and so I ended up with even more work to fix the thing afterwards." ENTJ: "Well, why didn't you ask ME for my help? I can help you better with this than your friend can." INFJ: "I didn't know I could ask you." ENTJ: "What do you mean you didn't know? Of course you can! Sometimes you are just ... Can you do it over?" INFJ: "Why? I've already done the thing now." ENTJ: "Can't you just throw it away and do it again, but with my help this time? I could help you with it right now." INFJ: "What for? Like I said, it's all done." ENTJ: "Just ask me next time."

Because once an NTJ cares, they care. They want to watch you live a good life, but then they witness you making your own life difficult just by being the way you are, and it will be frustrating because it's not something they can just fix. They will be nosy, they will observe and analyse everything about you (just like an NFJ in default mode but the NTJs are more normal about it). But if they don't care, you end up with actual conversations like this:

ESFP: "I'm going to leave work early today to go to that concert later tonight." ENTJ: "Oh really? What concert?" ESFP: "What do you mean 'what concert'? I literally told you that like an hour ago." ENTJ: "Did you? Sorry, my brain must have registered our conversation as useless information and immediately deleted it."

This is absolutely not something that you will ever hear an NFJ say to someone. If they don't like you, they will just never seek out a conversation with you, but if put into a situation where they have to interact with you, they will remain polite, quiet and a bit awkward (but then again, I have yet to meet an NFJ that isn't a bit awkward in general). Something that I've noticed between ENFJs and INFJs is that we are very similar, but we externalise our Fe a bit differently. I will have the impulse to do a particular Fe-driven thing and then stop myself from doing it because I think it might come across as slightly pathetic. ENFJ just does it. An example: when someone I like (or even only feel neutral towards) tells me a story about something that happened recently and hands me their phone to show me a photo, I get the impulse to look at every photo related to this story because I want to know everything about this person and their experiences, just soak it all up and gather all the information. But then I take a step back and think this might come across as too intrusive, so I do nothing and just listen and look at what is presented to me. In that same situation, ENFJ will straight up ask to see every single picture, zoom in on every face and ask questions about all the people in the pictures and so many other things with genuine curiosity. Meanwhile, I express my Fe more by pulling faces as a reaction to everything that is said to me in order to make a connection with people (think of Jim Halpert looking at the camera in The Office. That's me.). ENFJs, however, are more blank in the face and generally the least emotive of all the FJs. You tell them a funny story and they will just ... stare at you. Their reactions and feelings remain hidden beneath the surface. I never really understood why so many people have told me all my life that I'm completely unreadable. Until I met ENFJ. I know what they mean now. There is a disconnect between the NFJ and other people. They collect all the information about everyone and figure them out in silence, but every non-verbal communication from them seems slightly calculated. Like they are in hiding. It's like there is a window between you and the NFJ. You can see them and interact with them, but you can't quite reach them. There's something invisible between you and it's keeping you separate. I get it now. Many have tried to read me, but only one seems to have cracked the code: ENTJ. Generally, NTJs do show the typical Ni detachment from the world, but their mental and emotional states are not hidden. You always know how they are feeling.

[des-no9]

on Gith, Vlaakith 1 and Zerthimon

My mind's been whirring a tonne about the og trio the past several days because of @gothyanki and @nothingimportantanywhere so this is all thanks to them, their ideas and I just need to write some of this down.

It mostly stems from our desire to make more of Gith, of Vlaakith 1 and why she did what she did rather than the classic FR evil because evil.

However, thinking more on my githyanki language of love and affection and how too that impacted on their culture, and how they could have been, once, a more family, emotionally connected and caring within eachother, race.

During the uprising and gaining their freedom from the Illithid, I HC that Gith, Vlaakith and Zerthimon grew close and worked together for their people, becoming these revered figureheads for everything they achieved.

Gith the charismatic, powerful, furious leader; Vlaakith almost devotion to her, initially. A quieter presence of the three, but intelligent, scheming - close to what the githyanki of today see as gish (assassins and spies). Where Zerthimon was a balance between the three. Strategist, speaker. And they were all messily in love.

They formed (what they thought) unbreakable bonds between the three of them from the strife, the pain. Enduring slavery, breaking their shackles, and becoming their own people.

And then once freedom, the purpose of gaining that freedom that bound them all together is no more and changes. It's something else now. Survival; beginnings; hope; creation; domination; power; celebration. Whatever it means, not all three of them end up sharing the same vision. Because going through something like that changes you, irrevocably.

And some point through it all, there was Orpheus.

And for me, I think he could have been a catalyst for a lot of the breakdown of the three.

I like to HC that he's the son of Gith and Zerthimon, and initially while gaining their freedom, he was raised between all three, but when they saw he'd inherited his mothers powers too (they'd desperately hoped. I think this is a big reason maybe why Gith had a child. A failsafe, just incase the worst happened to her and there would be someone else to carry on where she left off) Gith and Zerthimon started to train Orpheus to hone his skills and powers so he could be the heir Gith wanted.

And Vlaakith watched most of this from the sidelines, feeling more like an outsider everyday. Resentment building that she wasn't, and couldn't truly be part of Orpheus in the way Gith and Zerthimon were.

(I need to be inside your son the way you are, my lover, but can never be. Vlaakith a little unhinged. Gith and Vlaaktih the original toxic yuri write that down)

She helped train him too, but Orpheus preferred his fathers skills and ways, and what psionic power Vlaakith had paled in comparion to Gith's. She was a shadow to so many, but she never expected she'd start becoming one to the two most important people in her life.

(re Orpheus knowing about both his parents: I'm unsure how explicit I want them to be about that with him or how much he or they cared to tell him the specifics of his dad. I think it's pretty obvious, but the significance of them being a 'unit' rather than just, Zerth being an imporant 'figure' in Orpheus' life idk. I'm fully on board with (fuck) Boy Prince Orpheus era where he's a little high on my power and status lording over all you losers. But that comes more once Gith's ascended the throne)

Anyway. So post-freedom, post Gith on the throne and Vlaakith becoming her right hand, Zerth doing his thing and they kind of....really started to fracture in their ideals and ways.

Gith became obsessed with never being a slave to anyone again. That fear drove her almost mad, I think. And so did Zerthimon turning away from her own vision, especially since they shared a son. He was the future, the security, the power and promise of their people, of her vision, and freedom.

She saw it as a betrayal. As him lying down and quashing that rage he should feel after all they'd been through. Why aren't you angry, why don't you want to rage across the endless and all after what happened to us and rip apart the planes which are now ours?

He tried, consistent at her side to sway her. But the uprising had changed her. Broken her in a way he'd been too close to see. Now stood back, the cracks were like maws.

Vlaakith stood fast by Gith during the civil war. If she doesn't want you anymore, Zerth, then she'll only have me. But Vlaakith's jealousy over Gith's power, how the people revered her, Orpheus - fucking Orpheus - and once more, Vlaakith was the shadow, the second glance, third.

(Orpheus' thoughts on the civil war are for another post because hoo boy that'll be a long one too)

Everyone wanted Gith. An audience, honour to view, to speak to witness their breaker of shackles.

Everyone took a piece, while Vlaakith was losing hers.

Obsessiveness consumed her to the point that 'if I can't have you anymore, no-one else will'.

So fast forward to their visit to Tiamat, and Gith being the offering for the dragons, and Vlaaktih sitting upon Gith's throne, becoming her.

I can't have you, so no-one else can-

I can't be you-

I can be you, watch me.

Then, with Oprheus, it's only sensible to her that she imprisons him. But that takes time. Patience. The shadows she's so used to, and ultiamtely, sealing Gith's power in a neat little box until that day she figures out how to consume Orpheus and his power for her own, and there will be nothing left for Gith then, but her.

Then from Vlaaktih, broken and bitter and twisted by so much, this bleeds and breeds and spreads and beats into the githyanki culture and the githyanki we know today, with so much less love, no family, empathy-

-just paragons of rage, power, hate, I take what's mine, I keep it, I am what I say I am, i conquer worlds, I conquer you.

[dracocheesecake]

The Chameleon and the Fox: Headcanon

Warning: Potential spoilers for KFP4

The Chameleon, after Zhen's first betrayal of the Den, was then very careful to start putting further emotional wedges between Zhen and her former "family", starting with insinuating that Han never really cared for her, and that every interaction she had ever had with him was purely transactional (totally not projecting).

It got to the point that many of Zhen's more pleasant memories of the Den were corrupted, leading to her having an unnecessary and false hatred of them- which in turn she accepted, as it became a justification that absolved her guilt for what she did; what she did wasn't betrayal, it was standing up for herself; they deserved it, for how they treated her; if they really had cared for her, they would have done better to look after her. It never occurred to her that maybe the Chameleon had her own reasons for having Zhen be the one to face the denizens of the Den to deliver her messages and threats, to be the one to make the demands for tribute, to turn in their hiding places- to be the one that stabs the knife in their backs, the knife the Chameleon ever so generously provided.

And when they hate her, when they in turn make their threats, who bears the brunt of it?- Zhen of course. See how they are so quick to turn on her?- Obviously because they never cared for her to begin with. The Chameleon would never do that to her, would never threaten her with violence, would never turn on her; the Chameleon was the only person who cared at all for Zhen, to teach her the only rules of the world that mattered, that would lead to her success and betterment:

1) Trust no one.

2) Someone always gets hurt.

3) No one cares for your feelings.

Except for the Chameleon, of course.

[starlightwars1]

My notification format just changed and it's, uh... gonna be hard to look for bots in this format.

This might just be a habit of mine but i scan through the pop-ups to look for bots because spam bots suck and i want to block them. Simple.

As a small artist, i also like to see the people that's liked and reblogged stuff i've created, it's nice, it's moralizing.

Not only is the previous line-up format really good for these things, it also looked thematically and aesthetically correct for tumblr.

Plainly and simply, these compact circles look out of place, and like literally everyone justly criticizing tumblr's format updates, it looks like it's trying to copy twitter and other social media formats, again.

But what i don't get is, why? why the fuck would that be good? Twitter is falling apart, instagram and tiktok look generic and lifeless. Why does tumblr want to be the same? to get more users? Because i can tell you what, i didn't come here because it was like twitter, tiktok and amino.

I could just forget about this and look at my actual activity feed but i'm fuckin lazy and that's not the point of this. (immediate Edit: it does the same thing in the activity feed too ffs)

These changes fuck-up user experience, an extremely important factor for social media and online services; if you make a website hard to use people won't want to use it.

E.g. Looking at my friend's dashboard update.. They couldn't find the drafts section from it's dashboard They didn't have the drop-down menu anymore and had to type it into the link of the website, a simple work-around that not everyone knows how to do.

Frustrating stuff, not friendly for new users.

I haven't been here for as long as some but i still want to see tumblr continue on in the future, but not like this. If these changes are because you think it'll help with the revenue, here's an option let us just donate money to the website @staff listen to your users please i'm begging you, just fucking listen to us

I feel like a broken record for saying this.

[larsnicklas]

i will be so so so heartbroken if tj o.shie hangs up the skates midseason like i really don’t think i could take it — for all that i might talk about other capitals more when tj came to the capitals i immediately and fiercely fell in love with the way he played — with tenacity, and sometimes with reckless abandon, but always with every bit of his heart. scrappy and tenacious and just determined in the way that the best players are; the sort of teammate that every guy wants. a quick fan favorite, and that was impressive on a team that already boasted so many stars at the time! he really wears his feelings on his sleeve when he's on the ice, and the fanbase responded to that. (the capitals fanbase is one that has been primed to love players with emotions brimming and spilling over to the surface — just look the captain.) i know he didn’t start here but he’s such a fixture, such a mainstay. i can’t imagine the team without him.

tj plays the game with everything he has and then he gives you more, even when you think it’s impossible. he’s put his body through so much to show up for this team and he’s come through for them time and time again. i think maybe he should be selfish for one time in his life. i don’t actually think it’s selfish at all, but even if he thinks it is i wish he’d put his body and his future wellbeing first. and like! i don’t want him to stop playing. when he’s out there i know he’s going to give his best on every shift, whatever that means from him that day. i know he’s going to keep guys engaged and focused on the bench. i know he’s always going to make me proud to be his fan.

i don’t want to see him have to concede and retire before he wants to. it feels so unfair all the time. but i hope he knows that he’s given this org and the fans more than enough. like we could never repay him for what he’s freely and gladly given. i want him to be able to hit the ice with his kids and not have his back bother him! i hope someone he respects and trusts in the caps org has told him things along these lines. like. if this latest injury is a back thing… i don’t know if it’s worth it. only he can decide but like. i hope he does what’s best for him and his family. and not just what he thinks he should do for the team. :(

[lemondragoncheesecake]

Ok, now that I saw your latest post about Kai and The Chameleon, now im more confident about this question...

How would they work? I mean, yeah, I love your hcs of Kai as someone dominant and pridefull and all bc it feels in character but...

According to Viola Davis, The Chameleon is sadistic and i dont think she would be the kind of surrender easily for a man/woman, so...

Im interested in your thoughts :3

Who said the Chameleon was surrendering to Kai?- I mean all Kai has is that loincloth, man ain't wearing the pants in this relationship. Lol.

Serious answer: she's the "dominant" one. Kai was captured by her and absolutely under her power, and not just in a literal sense of having been drained and caged; yes, she's smaller than him, but by no means a pushover weakling. I think Kai sees alot of himself in her- both having that sadistic, prideful, and power-hungry personality which lends itself to a mutual attraction; but they aren't, obviously, on equal footing, considering the Chameleon's nature and the nature of their relationship.

Kai, as awful as he is, has nothing on her. She's a different sort of monster entirely (andweadoreherforitabsolutequeen). What I mean is: Kai wants to rule side by side; she wants to rule alone. I think, however, there are these times they make a pretense of equal ground, enjoying snapping back at each other, pushing each other's nerves, a little back and forth (perhaps grinding between, when the tension is high)- but she's always quick to shatter that fascade, the one illusion she won't tolerate; after all, neither of them are deceived, not really.

[king-minyard]

Hey hope it's okay to comment on your recent vent post, feel free to ignore if not - would you personally recommend going on adhd meds? Your post conceptually resonated with me because my fear is that everything will be so much better on the meds than off that I won't want or be able to stop taking them

Omg hi !!! No worries, I love asks! <3

ADHD meds helped me a lot, personally. I did a lot of healing and found time management and organization strategies that worked for me before starting them, and those tools became better and easier to use after I was medicated.

I am, however, a very small person and, apparently, very affected by the lowest amount of meds. The ADHD meds that worked for me are stimulants, which I am sensitive to. I had to go through several to find one that didn't give me heart palpitations!

That being said, it was easier to find the motivation to do things after I got medicated. The skills and coping mechanisms I developed before worked so much better, and they didn't take nearly as much energy!

My grades rose, my self esteem rose, my anxiety (which was directly related to my lack of time management and failure to be organized) lessened, I could make appointments without worrying about missing them, I could go to classes on time, and I could do my homework the week it was assigned instead of on the day of or not at all. I was journaling more, going outside more, remembering to eat, remembering to sleep, and taking care of myself better.

Again, I was medicated after I'd already been found ways to cope and adapt that worked for me, and all meds did was make using those tools easier.

I can see why you would be scared. Experiencing life as it was after experiencing it as it could be is like flying for the first time and then being put back into a cage. It sucks!

That being said, you're still able to stop. I've tried going without my meds sometimes for months, and I feel the same every time. The issue is not in whether or not you can live without meds - after all, you're here! The issue is in knowing that it could be so much easier. That it doesn't have to be like this.

I recommend trying it. The worst that can happen is that it doesn't work or doesn't make anything better. It would hurt to get your hopes up and have it not turn out well, but at least you tried, and that's something to be proud of doing.

[timewizard-oldman]

im so fucking tired of this.

[twisted-tales-told]

“Romeo acts so immature. He doesn’t have like any role outside of loving Juliet. Even when he’s banished all he cares about is that he can’t see her, not that he killed someone.” 

Bestie Romeo is a love interest. His only purpose is to love Juliet and create conflict for them. Juliet is the main character. She’s the one who makes moral choices against choosing to marry Paris. She’s the one who goes to the Friar for a plan. She’s the one who chooses to go be with him. 

[difeisheng]

HELLOOOO???? THATS AMAZING????

god are we best friends yet, when will we become best friends (currently buying decor for my little corner here, how do you feel about hanging ferns and throw pillows?)

I can just imagine the shock at such an intimate greeting. like obi-wan gets all slack-jawed, and anakin has no idea that what’s he’s done isn’t something normal between them

anakin just slides into his seat of whatever café/restaurant they’re meeting at (mostly bc I think padme and anakin have been very consistent on taking obi-wan on what they consider to be very sweet breakfast + dinner dates, while the man himself just assumes it’s a nice time out with his customer-friends) and honestly doesn’t realize what exactly he’s done until he sees obi-wans expression

and then in comes padme to save lives, while also making this very odd experience abundantly clear to obi-wan (who probably slumps into his seat with that same stunned expression)

years later they laugh about it over glasses of wine and obi-wan still can’t believe how smitten both of them had been for him (which they continue to remind him everyday with the sweetest partner worship to ever fucking exist)

ferns and throw pillows sounds great, my friend! (perhaps some fairy lights as well? 👀)

and yeah, obi-wan was under the impression that anakin and padme were just really friendly clients who insisted on treating him to food whenever they met, and maybe he'd be lucky enough to keep up those friendships once his work with them was done. (because he can't let himself hope for more! oh no!). and then anakin strolls in to brunch one day with his brain operating on 'a year into an established polycule' mode, and it's just such an instinctual motion for him for him to kiss obi-wan that he doesn't even notice obi-wan is too shocked to return it until he takes his seat and realizes that up until this point anakin has only been regularly kissing obi-wan in his head, and that, uh, there is a lot of explaining required that he doesn't have the words for because how the hell do you tell your wedding planner "riiiight, by the way my fiancee and i may or may not have been lowkey working under the possible delusion that you're getting married to us too and we kind of got ahead of ourselves, so uh, would that be an acceptable situation for you?"

obi-wan on the other side of the table is completely spiralling from a mix of "i accidentally made one of my clients cheat on their partner i've done the unthinkable" and "anakin skywalker kissed me and i want/need him to do it again". and just as he's trying and failing to work out what he's supposed to do here, padme joins them and he grows even more mortified.

what padme sees when she walks into the restaurant though is obi-wan blushing bright red and apparently on the verge of panic, while anakin is wearing an expression she saw a lot of early on in their relationship, when he would kiss her or hold her hand and then immediately wonder if he messed it up. ah. she looks down at the planner she's holding. on the first page is a note to ask obi-wan if he wants any custom vows added in. well, they're going to need a course correction. so instead padme takes a deep breath, sits down beside anakin, and casually says "so you finally kissed him?"

obi-wan makes some incoherent noise and collapses further into his chair. padme doesn't seem to be mad at him, but that's just even more confusing. until he watches her glance at anakin with complete affection and zero surprise at their current circumstances, and then looks at obi-wan the exact same way.

that's when he starts to catch on.

it takes more than one pot of coffee (anakin), several mugs of tea (obi-wan), and a mimosa (padme) for things to get cleared up. obi-wan goes through a speedrun journey of A. letting himself actually be allowed to want anakin and padme, B. accepting that they want him back, and C. deciding what he wants to do about it. they all take it slow and the wedding gets postponed, while obi-wan takes in the fact that he has actually been planning his own wedding all along and gets to tweak it the way he wants. but eventually it happens!!!

and it's anidala's favorite story anytime to talk about how they wanted to get married, and it was such a fantastic wedding that they got another husband out of it. they DO partner worship obi-wan. they are all so cute it's sickening. sure obi-wan drops "sweethearts" and "dear ones" left and right but we all remember anidala on the roof in rots, right? they're both so absolutely in love with obi-wan it's disgusting and when they direct all those feelings toward him (as well as their joint overprotectiveness; no one is touching a hair on obi-wan's head for the rest of his life) in the end it's exactly the sense of belonging he needs.

whew, that got away from me. hope you enjoy this, anon!