#sorry this is a ramble

[hoaxghost]

hello as an angel fanatic im absolutely obsessed with your work!! may i ask if you have any inspirations for your angels and stories? like any media aside from religious books like the bible? im so curious about your creative process and where you get your ideas from.. i adore some of your angel concepts (such as the halo being used for storage.. so cool) and was wondering if it all comes from your head because i aspire to be like you !

TYSM! Hm as for inspirations... 99% of my angel story is based upon things I learned going through Catholic/Christian school as a kid. Religious schools are great for giving you a hundred different questions about the bible/faith/the concept of angels and answering none of them so File Recovery is very much me taking a lot of the leftover questions I had and trying to find an interesting answer for them. I REALLY like religious fantasy and exploring theology in a fictional setting. Especially stuff from an Angel's POV like what does sin mean to something immortal that doesn't live among humans? How can an immortal being 'die'? How do angels react to the concept of forgiveness granted to humans but once they fall, it's no coming back? How do they respond to the concepts of sex, gender, self expression, pain, lust, and grief? I wanna make a story that takes the concepts of angels seriously but also explore the frequently avoided topics by religious institutes. Like only in hindsight do you realize how gruesome a lot of biblical stories were and I wanna take that unspoken horror and combine it with the grand celestial unknown the concept of angels and the afterlife present.

File Recovery I really don't intend to be some kinda proselytizing piece, nor an active effort to 'show how to be a good person' (with the cast I got? very much not...), but more so a dissection of religious ideas I was told never to inspect.

Oh but! As for other media that inspired me: Prince of Egypt, Sister Act, Jacob's Ladder, Haibane Renmei , Just assume everything I make is also inspired by Madoka and Utena, those Creation vs Creator animations, annnnnd Nemo in Slumberland

[peppertaemint]

I’ve been thinking about Taemin saying he was sad that it didn’t work out to do grand, year-end performances of Guilty. My opinion (for what it’s worth, lol) is that as Kpop evolves as a genre with groundbreaking artists like him, so too does the marketing and PR side of things. A two-week promotional period for something that is the scale of Guilty isn’t enough. It’s not a throwaway single. And it may not be SZA SOS levels of length in terms of the album, but it’s still a meaty mini album. There is a lot of depth there that could be used for a diverse set of content that could even be profitable.

But getting back to the two-week standard comeback cycle—I think it’s too quick for things with depth and staying power. And perhaps what is missing, from my very outside perspective, is other musical vehicles for performance and interviews, such as the now-defunct Sketchbook show. I could see Taemin going a show like that 3-4 weeks after release to perform and discuss his work. And shows like that bring in a different kind of audience than something like Musicbank. Music fans who are looking for depth want meatier content that delves into the work and creates the space for unique performances.

So yeah—I think it’s absolutely a shame that we don’t have any possible avenue for another Guilty performance. It seems almost absurd. The temporary quality of a lot of pop music these days is not conducive to music that lasts for generations. So many singles feel like throwaways and cash-grabs, and it’s hard to believe people will be looking back on these releases 20-30 years from now with any interest.

[free-boundsoul]

Tell me about your comfort character(s)! 💛

I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to answer this! Thank you so much for the question Echo! 💜

But my all time comfort character is Gavin from Redacted Audio. He's just... I always end up listening to his audios when I'm down. I know all the characters are voiced by the same guy but Gavin's voice is so soothing to me.

(I have something in my drafts that I'm working on that kinda goes more into why I find so much comfort in him so I'll save that explanation for that)

Otherwise, Ruby from Frenchie's Ruby the Dragon Lady series is a major comfort. One of the lines from "Yandere She-Dragon Takes You Deeper Into Your Forever Home" Really stuck to me

"Ohhhh Dearest. How cruel the world outside has been to you! Your thoughts are plagued and poisoned. We must undo that. We must...cure you of the harmful ways they taught you to speak about yourself."

The first time I heard it I teared up. Ruby is just so loving to "Treasure", she really loves and cherishes them and it shows even though she's a 'yandere' and there's potential for angst but I'll still find comfort in her.

[cupcraft]

you know, what are your thoughts to how ccrimeboys would see each other again (ignoring amnesia ending...). Like their story ended with the idea they would see each other again someday. And I think there could be a million ways how, but I sort of like the idea it'd be by accident but it'd be the right time regardless. I think c!Tommy would bump into him at some market and he'd fall into a puddle and go to lecture them but it's ctommy you know, not some asshole, and instead of squabbling right away all he can do is hug him and then ctommy gets drenched and then they're squabbling sort of like that moment after the final disc between cwilbur's spirit and ctommy and instead its ctommy who says "i'm proud" because at this point it'll be clear cwilbur will have begun to forgive himself.

[themoonofblueside]

i think you either misinterpreted or underestimated max's academy statements... not only were his mom and his sister in karting, but he also had female karting buddies. he was close to women that were serious abt motorsport, he's very much aware it's a gender issue and is questioning why won't the sport do more, not why should it be done if it's not enough. but he's chickenshit abt political-y statements and wouldn't call out FIA so directly with "big" words like discrimination.

It is possible that I misinterpreted his wording, and it might've been that he's going for a "yes, yes, fia and f1 world is deefinitely not prejudiced against women, however-" tactic for the media, but this is honestly not the first time i've seen him state something like "haha of course f1 teams don't judge against genders, they'll choose whoever is faster." and it irritates me to see such...obvious false information?

I am glad max is calling for faster cars and higher ranks in racing for female drivers, i truly hope that he actually does something about it(he doesn't have to, but it's obvious that he cares for competitive racing, and as you've stated his mother did karting so i do wish that at some point max thinks "okay this is very annoying, maybe i should do something about it" because he absolutely has the power to make changes even if they're small).

Which is probably why the first part annoyed me this much, because everyone is aware that the series should be higher, but that won't change with a few think pieces here and there, and like i said, max does have some limit of power as

1) reigning champion of 3 years with championships equaling sebastian this year

2) son of an old wdc with insane amount of connections as one of the most valuable f1 drivers currently

The first part also rubbed me the wrong way, because as I've stated, max did not experience any hardships in regards to sponsorships or finding teams. That is the main problem about women not reaching f2 or f1: even if they are fast as hell, they are still seen as more vulnerable and more "risky" than men for racing. So when a guy who was born and nurtured to race without having to worry about the more economic parts of the motorsports industry and market says that "oh yeah the system is fair, teams choose whoever is faster" i can't help but bristle a little. It shows so much ignorance and honestly arrogance on max's side, and personally that part overshadows his more leveled out and nuanced questionings and opinions.

I really hope that you're right, anon, and that max is aware that it's a gender issue, but i do think that his comments feed the "the best gets to the top, so if only white men are at the top they deserve that spot" way of thinking when things are definitely more complex than that.

[divinemackerel]

no it's totally fine to be pissed. i think that people have a right to be. ofc shubble is the priority here but also man! fuck that guy! it fucking sucks!

Yeah. Ok thank you anon.

Idk, i know everyone is saying this but I’ve just been a fan of his for such a long time, and with sootbur and bursonas especially it was so fun to watch and dig into every little thing he made. Using those characters and warping their environments and building on them was so fun too!!

I would like to believe that it isn’t hard to be a good person, and shit like this just makes me so mad. I cared so much for the stories he wrote and I often probably put more thought into them than he did because of that. But he had to be a fucking piece of shit and, augahh idk.

I don’t typically get upset about stuff like this, but I am really upset that so many fun characters and dynamics have just been ruined because this one guy turned out to be an ass. I’m upset that we didn’t try to distance bursonas from him somehow though I don’t know how we would’ve even done that.

I want to make clear I’m angry at him over that however. But my anger tbh is not at all relevant or important because the main point of this all is well, that there is someone dangerous in the mcyt/streamer industry who can and will hurt people, and that people have already been hurt.

But I’m still angry ngl and that feels stupid lol

[wurm-food]

I am in no way mentally prepared for the holiday season 🙃

[ottitty]

Its okay to let yourself fall out of love with art or a craft if its not bringing you enough joy to be worth sustaining. You're worth more than what you create, and that's not something you have to apologize for. Thats a lot of grief to handle sometimes too, so be gentle with yourself and remember to not let yourself get weighed down by other people's guilt.

You are not dead. Continue on.

[unforth]

Y'all I know that when so-called AI generates ridiculous results it's hilarious and I find it as funny as the next guy but I NEED y'all to remember that every single time an AI answer is generated it uses 5x as much energy as a conventional websearch and burns through 10 ml of water. FOR EVERY ANSWER. Each big llm is equal to 300,000 kiligrams of carbon dioxide emissions.

LLMs are killing the environment, and when we generate answers for the lolz we're still contributing to it.

Stop using it. Stop using it for a.n.y.t.h.i.n.g. We need to kill it.

Sources:

[goldiipond]

Top 5 women?

bro i can't even top one woman ha ha h[two drums and a cymbal fall from the ceiling killing me instantly

[scorndotexe]

i can't lie to you i loveee bad endings sometimes. what if nothing worked out. what if the characters gave into their worst instincts. what if they became worse. what if there's truly no hope left. what will they do out of desperation? who will they become as their worst selves?

[peppertaemint]

different anon but i feel like i'll die waiting for a tm x jm collab (yes, i'm dramatic) and lately I've been thinking about kai x jm as well. The three of them have been my fav boys for years and now that jimin is (kind of) free, I can't stop thinking about the possibilities, even though I know I shouldn't get my hopes up, especially because I don't remember the last time we saw a SM artist and a hybe/bighit artist interact 👀 and i'm just speculating, but I find it weird how since bts started to open up a bit, they started mingling publicly with artists under different agencies but not a single one of them from SM, not even invited to the JITB party? ANYWAYS I hope this is just me being paranoid and subconsciously looking for drama, because I need some things to happen and I don't have the time for them to play montagues and capulets

Oh Anon, I do think there is probably at least the undercurrent of legit drama somewhere in all of this, but it’s not quite Montagues and Capulets. It’s BTS being isolationist for the last few years that makes it appear that way.

If you look back at old vids, there was lots of interaction between BTS and SM groups, most notably SHINee IMO. Jonghyun praised them on his radio show, and there are cute vids of baby BTS in their orbit and having cute exchanges. Minho worked with Taehyung, too, and they have some cute moments. One underrated gem is SHINee going HAM over a cover BTS did. SHINee really are those ppl everyone stares at like wtf is wrong with them. BTS are performing an old school Shinwa jam and yeah, they like it too much LOL.

But you want mingling and interaction and collabs. Realistically, unless private social events are shared publicly, we’re only going to see stuff happen at events. I don’t know the full guest list for the JITB party, but I had wondered if Key might be in Jhope’s orbit for a few reasons. The question will be who might be around when Jimin goes on music shows with Taeyang? It would be cool to see Jimin mingling with everyone.

If you want to see recent instances of Hybe artists interacting with SM artists, then look at TXT and Enhypen. They both have shawols as members and there are lots of recent things. I think Nikki reunited with Key just this past year (he was part of a baby SHINee performance as a kid 🥺).

Back to the matter at hand: will we ever see Jimin with Taemin or Kai in public for work or fun again? It really seems unlikely because when was the last time we saw him with that friend group? Obviously he’s still close friends with Ha Sungwoon and he seems to be the person Jimin does the most with. There’s no reason to think they aren’t all still friends.

Remember the dance video of Kai, Ten and Taemin? How cool would it be to have Jimin in something like that? I just see a bit of a problem with this happening. Black Swan was the last artistic dance Jimin or BTS did. It’s been years. And look at the collab choice. This is dance “lite” - I have no idea if Jimin is interested in pursuing a dance heavy solo career. Hybe’s strategy for BTS still sounds very US top 40 to me. The Taeyang collab certainly has some of that. RM’s Indigo was majorly US top 40. And let’s be real. Although SuperM’s sales were fine and they have loads of US fans, their sound so far doesn’t match that. We can argue till the cows come home about how American culture and presence have influenced the Kpop genre as a whole, but I still wouldn’t describe most SM artists as capturing a contemporary US top 40 sound. I think SM has a signature sound (which it deviates from at times) and that they lean toward timeless or classic or even out-of-time with their music. So I don’t know. I can see why artists from labels like YG are a more natural fit for BTS collabs. There’s also a stronger k hip hop influence there.

So will there ever be something of a collaboration? Who can say? Sigh.

[teaboot]

On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.

I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.

It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.

I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.

My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.

Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.

It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.

I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".

Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.

Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.

It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.

[spacenintendogs]

me booping my moots on tumblr circa march/april 2024

[dillyt]

[chairhahaha]

ohmigosh its almosy the 16th i have to make my 2 month anniversary thing happy birthday