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one thing that took me embarrassingly long to learn is "sometimes when people say things, they will not be true."
I used to tell people about this revelation and they'd be like yeah.....duh.....but like, why wouldn't my base assumption be that you're communicating to me in a straightforward manner. anyway, I get scammed a lot.
#example: a 'friend' in middle school told me I should ask a guy out. she said 'he'll totally say yes'.#he did not. which was the obvious outcome#but it took me years to realize that she'd said that hoping to fuel some drama for her own entertainment.#ANOTHER EXAMPLE#a guy in college approached me saying that he'd been seeing me around campus but was always too shy to talk to me#and that he really wanted to get to know me#so I was like wow 🥺 romance 🥺 and hopped into bed with him#and afterward I was like what do you wanna do 😊 should we see a movie 😊 should we go out 😊#and he was like nope. byeeee.#and I realized I got bamboozled into sex#total shocked pikachu face#I'm still not the best at this tbh. I'm like 'why would this person lie to me. lying is bad'.#anyway this is why I not looking forward to entering the dating world again#DONT BAMBOOZLE ME I'M GULLIBLE
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i would do anything to get to bed on time except go to bed on time
#every day this week im like oughhh im sooo tired im so sleepy im going to bed early tonight i promise#and then every night this week i still stay up and go to bed at the exact same time as the night before and wake up exhausted 😞#goodnight fr tho ❤️#this has been a post#1k
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*about any given drawing* cranking the saturation slider will fix this
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#itafushi#if u count this 0.7 of a megu as itfs ig#ANYWAY HI SORRY IM LIKE DIES but fear not i am actually lives#between artblock and job and attempting to have a social life im exhausted Always but we persist! she said wracked w anxiety and guilt#capitalism got me BAD this leaving the house stuff and waking up early stuff and going to bed before midnight stuff got hands#im also like. rly anxious posting this i feel like its not Enough of a draws to justify the break bc im like insane#convinced every1 hates me for not posting regularly and wld rather i never post again and other delusions#im working on things i am going so slowly it makes me want to crawl out of my skin but i am working on things!!!#anyway im sorry its just sketchy im sorry my render still looks like an identity crisis pls accept my humble offering#before i crawl back in2 my hole and/or run in2 traffic BYE
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it was almost 100% certainly a recluse which i guess is best case scenario that isnt just a daddy long legs bc theyre shy and will hear me & stay away
#daisy.txt#still not going to bed#still want a hug#very venomous but im a careful bug and we can avoid eachother
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pnf revival challenge day 14: Backstory!
Hosted by @howtonerdoutovereverything! ✨
if I had a nickel for every time I projected my day’s issue on a prompt and all that haaaaaaaaa guess how my hike went today
#I had zero ideas for today and the disappointment of not getting to hike to the top of the mountain got me#this is exaggerated tho it only took me 20 minutes maybe to decide the road was too slippery to safely hike up on my own#but like yknow I’m still SADDDDDDD#kad draws#phineas and ferb#pnf#pnfrevivalchallenge#heinz doofenshmirtz#perry the platypus#long post#IM ONCE AGAIN LATE TO GO TO BED AND HAVE RO WAKE UP EARL Y TO DRIVE BACK TOMORROW FJJDHVHJD
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i'm a little afraid to go to pride this year. many of us are, a little. sitting around our tapas and video games, the silence that hangs over the discord server. it feels different, we say.
we're privileged. the community that came before us laid the groundwork so i could be raised in a different world, and i will never forget their sacrifices and dedication. they gave us this: a pride that feels like community and celebration and joy. i remember the first few times i went to a queer event - i'd been raised so catholic. feeling safe like that, for the first time... it saved my life. i go to pride to celebrate that feeling - my people, laughing. out in the sun, the way we couldn't have been even 25 years ago. that feeling: no wonder we call it "pride."
who am i to be afraid anyway. there are parts of the world where people are doing much better work than i am. but it's just: i felt at home there, you know? and this year feels different. we are waiting on the dam to break. last year, at boston pride, there was a whole gaggle of sign-holders shouting about jesus. you walk around them and try not to let it get to you.
this year, i'm going to DC's pride with my girlfriend. google sends me concerns about if it's safe to exist in trump's america, if World Pride is a bigass target on all of us. every article uses the words "safety concerns" many, many times. three days ago i witnessed a shooting.
even straight people keep telling me - people are weird lately. sometimes we blame it on Covid and sometimes we blame it on the full moon. but i do remember a time before this, right. it's not just that people are more comfortable being rude. it's this strange, outwards violence. a comfort in being cruel.
it's a big hole to fall down anyway. it's not like they're going to do anything to make pride safe, not really. i don't want a police presence as the solution. and what if this is just fearmongering! what if this is just to get us to stop attending our own events! what if everything is actually fine, and i'm just freaked out by the stated intentions of our president!
and what if i'm just listening to things that are being said. what if i'm weighing the shape and size of this america accurately.
my mother calls me. she's been getting the articles too. i assure her i'll be careful, but i put the phone down and stare at it. i'm going to go to pride. other people made it safe for me, it is my duty and my honor to show up for my community. the only thing we've ever had was each other. it was always an act of bravery. being ourselves is brave.
but i am afraid. i lay out my outfit and i kiss my girlfriend. i cut my nails and clean up my undercut. i hold her hand and hang the sunset flag. the sound of this america feels different. like a volcano trembling. i will love her and i will love being queer and i will sing over the noise of it.
but ... still. in the back of my mind. that feeling, like something terrible has been shifted. like somewhere in the night - they remembered we're different.
#spilled ink#warm up#please do not be weird on this#i hate when i express a real fear/etc that is normal to have -- like being scared of violence in trump's america#and ppl immediately are like ''isn't it nice ur afraid this year but u haven't been previously??? imagine being afraid every year''#not the point of this post and also not true just not included in the body of the work. u do not know me personally.#''ur lucky u have a pride'' yes i know this & am aware of it. can still be afraid of violence.#''well i think [misunderstanding of the post]''#this is about feeling the genuine shift politically that has occurred in trumps america wherein extremist ideas are more accepted.#'' WELLLLLLL'' . it's a tumblr post. go to bed.#<- poet who has made the mistake of being honest about her feelings 1 too many times#i just write about stuff i think other people can relate to. and i think i've felt this very loudly#and if u dont relate okay! it wasn't written for u then. it was written to comfort someone else.#anyway. i love u all happy pride. genuinely.#come say hi if u see me#feel free to dm me if ur also at pride i'll tell u what im wearing we can hunt each other down for sport#((just realizing right now in the tags that the shooting probably traumatized me lol))
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I've been thinking about this for too long
DC x DP
Could be any batmember, but I'm using Tim because he's a liar and a scoundrel, and one of these days, it's gonna come back to bite him.
Danny and Tim are boyfriends, and they're been together for a while, but the rest of the bat fam doesn't know. Why? Well, it's not for lack of trying to tell them.
Tim did tell them. They just didn't believe him. They thought Tim was making up an imaginary boyfriend.
He's lied a lot in the past, and Danny does sound super made up, but how else is he supposed to explain his boyfriend is a half dead ghost king who is super obsessed with him.
It didn't help that Danny spent a lot of time being invisible, so it looked like Tim was talking at the air, which got more than a few odd stares.
And that whenever Danny sees any of Tim's family he disappears along with all his belongings.
One minute, they're on a date, and the next Danny is gone, and he's taken his hot chocolate and doughnuts with him just in time for Dick to walk up and bother Tim about his day.
Danny makes a bet with himself to see how long this can go on before they realise he's 100% real and Tim's boyfriend.
The batfam are trying to figure out if Tim is trying to gaslight them, doing a very unfunny bit, or he's actually lost his marbles.
They start drawing lines when Tim starts yelling, "HES RIGHT THERE!" While gesturing to empty space beside him and insisting there is another person in the room.
They sit Tim down and have an intervention which makes him wonder if he is actually crazy and Danny isn't real.
One very confusing spiral later and some heavy reassurance that yes, Danny is a real person, and Tim isn't crazy. Danny promises to introduce himself soon before they start trying to put Tim on anti psychotics.
I literally just realised that this didn't need to be romantic at all. Idk where that came from, perhaps it sounds more fun, but this could also be 100% platonic batmember and their not so imaginary friend.
#gee im going to bed#he shoukd probably be on anti psychotics anyway#but oh well#anti psychotics but not for the boyfriend#they still domt believe him after the reveal#you fake an uncle one time and now they think everyone is fake#danny phantom#dp x dc#tim drake#dead tired#batfam
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Korra's Wardrobe | 2025 edition
Over 10 years ago, while LoK was still airing, I drew Korra in each of her outfits. I recently found that post again, and thought I should revisit my old obsession, and add the outfits that were missing. This has been really fun, it was like meeting up with some old friends - both my younger self and Korra herself!
Thanks to everyone who encouraged me to finish this!! ♥ And hi to the people who were in the fandom with me back then, I'm waving at you from over here in the future :)
None of these are show-accurate, I thought it would be much more interesting to give each design a bit of a twist while keeping their original visual language. It was a really fun challenge, and I love comparing the old and new.
Some of these are a lot further into my own interpretation - the chains ghost, for example, is super bloodied because I'm not restricted by a TV network censor and the Zaheer fight was violent. And it left scars, too! The Raava fusion designs are extremely self-indulgent (Raava I love you, you will always be famous), and the kid designs are pretty far from the depictions of Korra in Friends for Life and Weaver's Ball, but I wanted to make them into a real evolution getting closer to the Book 1 design over time.
Here are the two full lineups side by side:
how far we've come...
Here are some line versions also! I had a lot of fun drawing all the little tiny details:
I once said that if I ever stop posting Korra redesigns, assume I'm dead. and well. I guess it's still true
#legend of korra#korra#avatar#atlok#lok#redesign#lineup#character design#i thought i could finish in time for my birthday and well. its technically 19 minutes late but until i go to bed it still counts!!!#lalou#attempt#i fully didnt sign any of these lmao oh well!#next step is sharing my rewrite fic but that will not be for a little while yet
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PITAYA DRAGON COOKIE PLEASE WEIGH IN ON YOUR BATTLE WIFE'S NEW LOOK
#cookie run#hollytaya#this idea popped into my mind and i leapt out of bed to throw it together HHAHFDSHF but i almost used the wrong sprites for hollyberry#bc im STOOPID thankfully i stumbled into the right one lol teehee nayway#i actually have only seen their interactions in main story bc i havent unlocked the odyssey chapter yet#so like. idk sorry if she doesnt call them pitaya dragon cookie™ but im p sure most if not all cookies tend to go full govt name about it#lol and anyway!!! from what i saw in that one chapter. pitaya is really really really into fighting with hollyberry so#if she comes home with sickass battle armor like that i think theyd wanna throw down again#unless odyssey has lore that changed their desire to fight w/her idk LOL but i'd think theyd at least still spar#if not. well then at least they can think her new look is hot LOL 😌👍#me when i think too hard about a 5 minute meme#I WANT TO PLAY MORE ODYSSEY SO BADDDDD#but i did want to see the first arc chapter thing#so im doing that first#very slowly.#anyway idk if anyones already made this meme ref JKLAHFKLSDHFL maybe !!!!!
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small sketch for tdor today
#this is the first transgender person i ever met#i dont know if they're still alive. but i hope they are#milk#diary#gonna go to beds now.. gn
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I understand people who view cumplane in a strictly platonic light, but Airplane did more or less go "huh, if I was writing Luo Binghe he'd have already pushed down Cucumber bro a dozen times by now, the fucking Shen Qingqiu smut train would never end, they'd be doing it in every position and on every possible surface" at one point so I'm afraid I just, cannot agree.
#svsss#cumplane#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#airplane shooting towards the sky#peerless cucumber#sure perhaps he was speaking strictly as an author#emphasizing that the narrative was off the rails and no longer going in a direction he could anticipate#but I still think it's pretty non-platonic that his metric for this was that luo binghe hadn't chained shen qingqiu to his bed#'if luo binghe was still *my* power fantasy main character he would only take his dick out of shen qingqiu to put it in a different hole'
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weakexcuse4weakexcuse
#911 abc#911 spoilers#911edit#buddie#buddieedit#nessa.gif#911169#8x11#8x17#svenjalook#usersary#rutual#i have so many ideas still but now i actually have to go to bed#goodnight#let me tell you it was so hard for me to include the “in it” in eddie's line#it's not necessary#nor is it grammatically correct#but ugh#gotta respect ryan's artistic choices i guess
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anthony is dead: the funeral roast (paid content)
#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan and phil#phan#smosh#anthony padilla#mine#my content#hi sorry i can't get a hold of the person who shared this clip with me so i don't feel comfortable posting it in full#however i'm not a good enough person to Not Gif It#so here u go here's a bit of it in gif form lol#i'm going to sleep i'm sure by the time i wake up the full video will be up#oh also oh my god this clip gives me such super amazing project vibes i almost cried#ok. anyway. it's 8:20am. im drunk still. goodnight im finally going to bed x
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"dear cousin, let us talk"
the morning after.
yucky close ups:
#go on get up and face him nelyo#depicting that wretched feeling#the silmarillion#maedhros#fingon#maglor#gotta imagine that first conversation between them when maedhros is well enough to sit up and talk lmaooooo /cry#just having some fun using only the hard round brush to paint#for those on the trsb server who saw blobby huan in the sketch - he's still there just under the bed and faded into the shadows lmao
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I’m so sad about Loop and the thought of them disappearing/never getting to see their party again devastates me to an astronomical degree so
Au where Loop gets ‘here we go again’-ed back to their timeline and everything is normal, except for the fact that the loops are still happening (supposedly, they haven’t looped back yet they don’t know I don’t know what are you a cop) and they’re still. Very much visibly a star.
They are obviously, very scared. Because their party doesn’t recognize them and there’s this whole thing where one member of the party REALLY has to look at them until they realize that ‘Siffrin’ really is, a WHOLE STAR NOW.
I HAD A WHOLE FUCKINH VISUAL FOR THIS. BECAUSE I BASED IT OFF OF THAT ONE MOOMIN EPISODE WHERE MOOMIN TURNS INTO A SWEET LITTLE BEAST AND HIS MOM IS THE ONLY ONE OUT OF ALL OF THEM TO JUST LOOK AT HIM AND GO ‘oh shit yeah that’s my baby’
Obviously there will be changes in dynamic and scenario, and it might be more than just one party member to do this, but the idea of a person looking at their unrecognizable friend and then being able to tell it’s them just from how they look at them makes me so ill.
Anyway since Loop knows damn well not telling their party shit will just get them in deeper shit they just like. Soppily start explaining everything, they cannot string two sentences together they’ve been crying nonstop since they saw their party give them a break. Obviously the party believes them because holy shit if you’re a whole fucking star and you’re also crying? Your eyes out? There are no tears, then why the hell would you lie about this?
It just ends in a lot of tears and Loop is. So sad
But also happy because…’yay !!! My party !!! I have my party AND I know how to break the loops now !!! Awesome !!! That was so easy !!!’
Yeah it only took losing yourself and accidentally changing your body into something you don’t recognize so you can leave your self made torment only to be stripped away from the ones you love and put into some other fucking fella’s timeline so that THEY can have their happy ending instead yeah Loop that was SO EASY.
IS THIS ANYTHING????????
#bonus points if Siffrin and Loop can still talk to eachother through the brain version of ‘two cans connected by a string’#they definitely can’t but one can dream#I might make art of this#both in/post Canon#this probably makes no sense but fuck it we ball#idk this was something I thought of at like 1am last night going to bed#i justs want loop to be happy guys I love thinking about this scenario#isat spoilers#isat#in stars and time#isat au#isat loop
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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