#sunny tumblr I’d count this as a win for us

[ace-beef]

Chris Pratt isn’t trending on tumblr but Charlie is GET IT MY BOY

[shiishki]

okay wait, i changed my mind. you should answer all of these questions as well, if that's what you want from me >:)

oof there's a lot of it, that's what i get for wanting to be ✨aesthetic✨

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

vowels (and the importance of being me) - hunny

honeypie - jawny

pretty young thing - michael jackson

mirrors - justin timberlake

sunflower - red orange county

paradise - rude-a

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

a therapist.

ok someone else.. uhh,, my grand grandma because i only have scratches of memories but i dunno if that counts since she passed away...

*rummages through ancient scripts* uhh ok someone who isn't dead.. uhm,, tommie? yeah I'd like to meet them if i could meet anyone on earth

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

ok, the closest german, english or polish book? nvm i have english

"suddenly was. So I just said thank you a few times too, and Mum" ironically this is one of the normal lines in this book

4: What do you think about most?

the fact that I'll have to do something after school. and I don't know if i want to go to college or get a job bc i have no legitimate idea on what to do with my life. it gets overwhelming, just the lack of knowledge about the actual experience.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

Ok

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

with, tho i sleep with just shorts in summer

7: What’s your strangest talent?

not sure if it's a talent, but i can fall asleep anywhere

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

girls are pretty. boys are pretty

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

by me, yes. no one else has written a poem about me specifically. nvm, tommie wrote one and it shall rest on my wall, or desk, i need to find a place for it

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

uhh i think last month?

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

i don't think so, but i am hella afraid of the possibly gigantic, terrifying things in the ocean depths that humans haven't discovered yet

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

yep, beloved legos as a lil child

13: What’s your religion?

i can't ever remember the name, but i believe gods (from all religions) exist in some way or form. so i believe in different pantheons and etc.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

walking my doggo, skateboarding, thinking about how to make the lives of my characters worse

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind it.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

uhmm the arctic monkeys? or the strokes

17: What was the last lie you told?

i know what i want

18: Do you believe in karma?

yes, the rule of three specifically

19: What does your URL mean?

i don't know. it's something me and my sis came up with and that's just my whole identity now.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

uhh greatest weakness.. i can't finish things. strength is that I'm very stubborn so maybe I'll finish that thing out of spite

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

i grew up thinking crushes were like unicorns. my ex was odd enough to argue with that i didn't love her if i didn't have a crush on her. but I think if i had to guess.. selena gomez, especially in the role of alex russo in wizard of weverly street

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

nope

23: How do you vent your anger?

i write angry letters. sometimes they're sad letters. i write a lot of letters. except i never send them out and no one made a movie about them :}

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

jars and witchy bottles, books? scented candles

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone calls are stressful enough as is, i don't need you to see my reading off what i frantically wrote to not stumble over my words

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

i think so, yes, but that won't stop me from becoming better

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

hate flies buzzing right by my ear, love cat purring

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

what if I'd been born in a place where it was illegal for me (nonbinary) to live, in a time when others thought of me as a curse?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

they be chilling.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

right arm, doggo, left arm, pillow

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

fresh air and doggo, because doggo is with me and I can't live without open windows

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

i dunno tbh

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

which one is less homophobic?

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

every gender is my opposite gender. selena gomez and justin timberlake

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

to make it easier for people down the line

36: Define Art.

make thing, thing goes woo

37: Do you believe in luck?

yis

38: What’s the weather like right now?

it's nice actually, very sunny, slight breeze

39: What time is it?

12.59 am

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

i don't, but i once crashed into a fire department vehicle with my bike. bike ded.

41: What was the last book you read?

Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

i legit ass don't know what gasoline smells like.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

many variations of my name, aka. Luce

44: What was the last film you saw?

i think it was Robin Hood: King of Thieves, but it might have been that half of spider-man homecoming i managed to watch with my poor internet

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

oh man i dunno... it's not an injury, but i was very sickly as a lil kid and almost died :)

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

once, years ago

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

hmmm horizon zero dawn i think

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

proud pansexual ^^

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

not really, i don't think they're big enough to be actual rumors,, meh

50: Do you believe in magic?

yis

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

meh. they suck, i know they suck, that's it.

52: What is your astrological sign?

cancer ♋

53: Do you save money or spend it?

i attempt saving. attempt

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

for my own money, sweets. i bought lizards for my cats so they can brush their teeth from my dad's amazon acc

55: Love or lust?

luv

56: In a relationship?

nope, i buy my own cookies

57: How many relationships have you had?

1, kinda toxic toward the end, very stressful, don't recommend

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

nu ><

59: Where were you yesterday?

on the fields walking my doggo

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yep, a pastel pink hoodie in my closet uwu

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

yis, thicc warm socks

62: What’s your favourite animal?

cats

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

cuddles and food.

64: Where is your best friend?

bold of you to assume i have a best friend.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

tommie-hildebrandt, kageyuji, nekomas-kuroo, joyful-soul-collector

66: What is your heritage?

I'm a demon boi from Poland tho that's not a thing to be proud of, i mean, look at the economy. awful.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

sleeping, trying to sleep.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Pinkton. or Satan.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

this is such an odd combination of words i had to look it up. yea.

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

a friend who won't laugh at me when i ask them to order smth for me because I'm too anxious to.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

excuse me? i am saving the doggo wtf. f u boss, I'm gonna sell my tragic story to the news.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) i tell my parents. b) live the hell out of them uwu c) nope uwu.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

trust.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

history maker - dean fujioka :]

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

3332

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

communication, trust, some more communication.

77: How can I win your heart?

let's not pretend to be something else to please each other, and bring some bitter chocolate.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

maybe. it could. i don't have a say in it since my sanity is held by tape.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

eat the pizza. stop caring about others not liking me/parts of me. just living for myself uwu.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

uh i dunno how the american sizes work and i don't wanna look it up so, 39, 40 fits too.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

demon boi

82: What is your favourite word?

socks.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

the bloody organ that sits in your chest and pumps blood into your body so you don't die.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

uhm im not sure if that counts as a saying, but fake it till you make it

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

blinding lights - the weeknd

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

oh a normal question people use for ice breaking, sea blue and pastel variations of it.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

like my wallpaper? or the actual picture that sits on my desk? or how my desk looks like atm? it's ugly, a lot of papers and pens and schoolbooks.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

donald trump. or the next asshole who'll try to take the rights of the lgbt and poc away

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

this. this is the question.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

yo there's a pizza somewhere in the refrigerator, want me to heat it up? we can have a sleep over and talk about our feelings :3

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

telekinesis! or shapeshifting! i could do such fun things with telekinesis ^^ yeah I'd totally eat some radioactive veggies

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

that time my "friends" got me into shoplifting, half-hour is more than enough to punch some sense into my brain and develop good music taste

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

can i save this one? i don't think i have an experience horrible enough to be erased haha

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

sleep as in.. uh no thank u. but I'm down for a sleep over with sam smith ^^

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

just me? what about my pets? my fam? it's lowkey illegal for me to go just anywhere without them owO

uhhmm, greece. imma become part of the greek pantheon out of pure spite. and maybe toronto canada.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

not any that i know of o.o

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

i think i may have but i honestly don't remember

98: Ever been on a plane?

nope, i dunno if i like planes, but I'd probably sleep if i were on one.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

yeet.

[lasercruz]

@quarterdollar​ fuck you and im sorry that i took so long to answer and i hope that im mostly coherent because i am. very tired as im typing this

1: Full name Nicky Jackie Marie Cruz !!

2: Age 21

3: 3 Fears Mold, tall heights if I’m not secured (like, I’m not scared of rollercoaster heights but I’m scared of like, cliffs), and balloons esp balloon animals

4: 3 things I love I love so many things uhh hh h. Jjba, adventure zone, and my friendssss 💞

I know turn ons/offs aren’t inherently sexual but i never know what to say for them so im skipping them :0

7: My best friend you 🥺🥺

8: Sexual orientation bi

9: My best first date ive never really been on a actual date :0

10: How tall am I 5′3

11: What do I miss being with my friends physically and just watching stuff or goofing around on the floor 😭

12: What time were I born 11:02pm

13: Favourite color Dark blues

14: Do I have a crush yes shh

15: Favourite quote there so much sappy quotes that are on uquizzes a lot that i like a lot the first that comes to mind is “ You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.” and so on and also “if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more”

16: Favourite place As far as just physically and not like people or other stuff that comes with with a place, I miss VT campus a lot tbh more than I thought I would. To pick a more specific place, the gazebo at the duck pond cause its where I’d go if I wanted to be alone or like if my roommate was sleeping or working and i didnt want to worry about being quite and it was always super peaceful

17: Favourite food I dont really have One favorite food it just depends what I’m in the mood for but my go to answer for favorite food category wise is either chinese or seafood

18: Do I use sarcasm Depends who I’m with ?? Generally no not often but if im close with someone and just goofin yeah

19: What am I listening to right now My love song playlist. its my go to thing to listen to cause my playlist with all my music has so much on it that i end up skipping half the songs until i find something im in the mood for and this one has a lot less that i end up skipping. the current song its on is day without you by keep for cheap

20: First thing I notice in new person It depends on the person like if they have something that stands out about them, thats what I tend to notice but like. How they carry themself i guess ? cause i feel like thats a easy way to get a read on somebody before talking to them

21: Shoe size 5 mens / 7 womans

22: Eye color Brown

23: Hair color Naturally dark brown but currently dyed black with rainbow bangs

24: Favourite style of clothing this question is on so many ask games and quizzes and I never know how to answer it cause i feel like i dont really have one specific style,, I like colorful and fun stuff i guess ?

25: Ever done a prank call?  No and if you prank call a place of business youre annoying. i used to answer phones at work and we didn’t get them super often but GOD i hate prank callers

27: Meaning behind my URL emu is an old nickname and what i mainly went by until i settled on Nicky and this. is my blog.

28: Favourite movie Baby driver !!

29: Favourite song my go to answer for this is community gardens by the scary jokes

30: Favourite band THE SCARY JOKES

31: How I feel right now sleeby,,,,

32: Someone I love i love , my friendz ,, 🥺🥰

33: My current relationship status single ✌️

34: My relationship with my parents im close to my mom but i dont really get along with my dad ,

35: Favourite holiday Christmas !

36: Tattoos and piercing i have no tattoos, 3 piercings in each ear (2 on each earlobe and 1 on the top on each side)

37: Tattoos and piercing i want I want a interrobang on my wrist and an Aquarius symbol on my ankle and MAYBE the joestar birthmark, i wouldn’t mind more ear piercings and i want a septum piercing but ive seen videos of them getting done and they make me squirm i dont know if id go through with it

38: The reason I joined Tumblr sdklgkjgh i had a my little pony roleplay blog before i made my personal account

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we’re good friends !!

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? no not regularly at least

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no

42: When did I last hold hands? my mom tried to hold my hand when i was half asleep on the couch the other day but like i was so out of it so like it was more our fingers together and the rest of my hand just loosely dangling so if that doesnt count, you

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? i give myself about 2 hours if im doing full makeup but thats purposefully longer than i need so i dont have to worry about rushing and i can relax and take my time

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i only shave them if they’re gonna be showing or if the Urge to be Smooth comes over me

45: Where am I right now? my room at home on my bed

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably Kaylie cause she doesn’t drink and i assume if im drunk with other friends there she’d be the only sober one

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable, if i have it too loud i cant think so the only time i  have my music loud is if im doing nothing and want to Not Think

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Ye

49: Am I excited for anything? short term im excited for the ai crushes all banks stream tonight and long term im excited to move into our apartment 

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? no im not a tell everything to someone type of person .

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? i smile most of the time like, at work (before we wore masks) id always be smiling to look nice and like. just in general if i want to Not Look Unhappy or whatever

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? my mom probably like, yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? ive never kissed any1     .

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?  nope i don’t think i really trust easily so like this doesnt rlly happen,

55: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up late cause i was up late last night so ive been tired all day I dont like the feeling

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? language barriers aside itd be super cool to meet hirohiko araki

57: What do I think about most? Whatever media im currently most into so right now adventure zone and magnus archives

58: What’s my strangest talent? umm i dunno im kinda flexable i guess ? not like ~contortionist~ level but like enough that i can freak people out sometimes

59: Do I have any strange phobias? i mentioned balloons as a fear in an eariler question so yeah that but im a lot better about it than i used to be

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? in front tbh

61: What was the last lie I told? i was on phones for the last hour and a half of my shift on friday and like. when people call and ask if an item is in stock and i can’t confirm it i, just tell them its not. like, someone asked if we had a specific kayak and i usually just search the walmart app or run over to where itd be to check but the kayaks are to far for me to run to and the app said limited stock which usually means little to none so , i just put it on hold for a bit then tell him we’re out.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? i like video chatting in theory cause its nice to see people visibly react to stuff but i tend to get too self conscious about how i look so i  just do audio only

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes to both !! i am both

64: Do I believe in magic? yes in some ways i suppose

65: Do I believe in luck? yes im v superstitious

66: What’s the weather like right now? its a pretty good day its sunny but not too hot :oo

67: What was the last book I’ve read? its been ages since i last read a book in full 😔  i honestly dont knwo what the last one would of been 😔 😔

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes !!! love it

69: Do I have any nicknames? not anything i get consistently called no

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? ive never gotten super hurt that i can think of ??

71: Do I spend money or save it? save it

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? doppio bean plush ,,,,

74: Favourite animal? hedgehogs!!!!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? on my phone probably on tiktok or something waiting for jojo to come on toonami

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I? dont think he has one i guess ??

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? butterflies by samsa but it makes me happy in the “im crying now” kinda way itss cute

78: How can you win my heart? just by being nice and respectful tbh ,

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? idk i dont really want anything fancy just my name (chosen name please god im so scared of dying and geting my birth name on my tombstone if that happens i WILL come back as a vengeful ghost) and my birth and death dates

80: What is my favorite word? saccharine

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr by my tumblr crushes (which its been YEARS since i looked at) ; frostios, 27names4tears, smollpurrito, happynaru, and warpedlamp

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? if we being real id just get so scared dsjkfsldjglg  theres so much i could say i dont know :((

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? not ? that i know of 

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? why are all the questions worded super basic except this one skdlskdjfj. Shape shifting

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? i can really think of anything really as long as a friend is asking i tend to answer truthfully ?

86: What is my current desktop picture? Sobble BUT this reminded me that i wanted to change it to a xenoblade pic so its this now :

90: Failed a class? no

91: Kissed a boy? no

92: Kissed a girl? no

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no but oh god just thinking about that im 🥺🥺🥺🥺 id die id melt 🥺🥺

94: Had job? ye i was a cashier for a year in highschool and then i work in wamlart apparel in the summers

95: Left the house without my wallet? not when I know ill need it no, but ive left it home if im just going to a friend or family member’s house or i have my mom’s card or some cash in my pocket

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no !!

98: Played on a sports team? no lmao i dont do sports

99: Smoked weed? no

100: Did drugs? i had a weed brownie like once but it was such a small piece i didnt really feel anything

101: Smoked cigarettes? no

102: Drank alcohol? Ye

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? not currently i was vegan for a little bit to encourage a friend that was doing it though

104: Been overweight? no

105: Been underweight? no

106: Been to a wedding?  yes three, my grandma’s when she got remarried, and both my brothers

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably yes lmao often

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? not TV TV but if netflix and the like count then yes

109: Been outside my home country? no :(

110: Gotten my heart broken? not ? really no

111: Been to a professional sports game? ive been to a handful of Yankee games

112: Broken a bone? no

114: Been to prom? yes i went to my highschool’s and a friend’s highschool’s my senior year

115: Been in airplane? no

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? none :((((

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? ye

119: Learned another language? i took 3 years of Spanish in high school but i wasn’t any good at it and dont really remember much of what i did learn

120: Wore make up? yes i do often :0

123: Dyed my hair? ye a lot

124: Voted in a presidential election? yes ever since iv been old enough to i vote

125: Rode in an ambulance? no

126: Had a surgery?  dental surgery yes

127: Met someone famous? Not anyone i’d count no

128: Stalked someone on a social network? depends on what you count as stalking i guess but like not ever in a creepy way like ive been on people’s social media to find out stuff about them like. if theyre in a relationship or especially after highschool ill wonder about someone i havent talked to in awhile and ill see what theyve been up to and what theyre doing with their life and stuff

129: Peed outside? no

130: Been fishing? yes like once

131: Helped with charity? donation wise yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? ive never confessed to anyone and been rejected but once a friend told my crush i liked them and they confronted me about it and rejected me but it made me more mad at the friend that told them than it made me sad about being rejected because i knew it’d probably go like that  and it justmade thing awkward between us for awhile  😔

133: Broken a mirror? ive broken the little mirrors inside eyeshadow pallets but i havent broken full ones

134: What do I want for birthday? usually just money lol or something thoughtful and cute

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? i aggresivly do NOT want kids BUT hypohetically Elliot or Xander for a boy and idk what i’d nam a girl

136: Was I named after anyone? no

137: Do I like my handwriting?  its messy so no not really but if im writing something for myself like a not or whatever i dont mind as long as i can read it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? even as a little kid i always played computer games but other than that, this guy :

139: Favourite Tv Show? Jojo

140: Where do I want to live when older? New york or japan

141: Play any musical instrument? i can kind of play harmonica

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? i burnt my thumb kinda bad on the oven a while ago its still kinda healing but right now it looks like its gonna stay a scar

143: Favourite pizza toping? i like everything/suprieme pizza but if i have to pick one single topping pepperoni

144: Am I afraid of the dark? yes :((

145: Am I afraid of heights? mentioned it earlier but yes if im not strapped in or secured etc

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? no im so scared of being caught doing something bad that i just. dont

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? i mean yes but thats life babey

149: What my greatest achievments are ive gotten awards for grades and stuff but that boring BUT i got the english department award or whatever that was called im very proud of that

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery i donate some and save the rest tbh

152: What do I like about myself i can be pretty  sometimes 👉👈 im cute or whateva ,,,

153: My closest Tumblr friend i dont really havent “tumblr friends” aside from friends i know irl and also tey have tumblrs ,,

154: Something I fantasise about just. growing up and having my own place maybe with someone and. being comfortable and  okay and not having to worry ,,

155: Any question you’d like? dkfjhdskhf japan :000

[softputridcentre]

I'm fucking devastated...

I wrote a blog reviewing AEW dynamite (19/02/20), it was in depth, humorous AND long as shit... I used my phones swipe gesture to open Chrome to fact check something in case I was remembering it wrong.. and with one fluid motion.........CLOSED TUMBLR, losing the fucking essay I'd typed AND wasted a good hour and a half on.... that's fucking it... I'm turning off motion gestures on this fucking phone.... back to having my icons you shit...

Short version of my review....

Matt har...Jackson wins the battle royals for the young Bucks who go on to face the title holders later in the night (currently Kenneth Omega 6 and Hangman Austin 3:16 Page, but they have a match with belts on the line later with Lucha Bros)

Also, Orange Cassidy gets freshly squeezed by the Bunny... some people would pay good money for that, you ungrateful orange!

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Kris Statlander beats the piss out of Shanna (wearing hot Goku outfit) whilst "Booping" everybody in sight and causing me to propose to my TV screen. She said BOOP!

Post match, Nyla comes out for an interview with Tony Schiovone and runs down the locker room, especially Riho. Kris comes back from the locker room, boops the title, big swole comes out and gets shouty... refs break up none existing fight.

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Jeeeeeeeeeeeoooooooon Moxley wins against Jeff Cobb, in the only disappointing match on the card. Technically sound but boring. Jeff looked strong but lost clean which doesn't look good, when hes Jerichos "hired assassin".

The inner Circle pile in and Dustin comes out and looks impressive plowing into the group, he gets overcome and the lights switch off... bah god that's gotta be kane!... nope... just Darby Allin... not disappointing, but I started watching wrestling in 97'... the lights went out, that meant hell fore and brimstone sunny jim!..

Derby swings his Skayeboard like a man possessed before wirelessly issuing a challenge to Sammy G for Revolution.

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Kenneth and Page take on the Luchas in the most stunning display!. There aren't words for this kind of match.. everybody involved is a treat to behold, and Rey Fenix is on another level.. fluid as fuck! I've NEVER seen anyone run across the top rope to boot someone in the temple.

If you're reading this... WATCH THIS MATCH... just watch it!. Far from perfection, but entertaining as shit!

Kenny and Page take the W, and out come nick and Matt to celebrate. The Elite are facing off in two weeks, Bucks Vs the Drunk fucks. Adam Page seems unsure and drinks the audiences beer as he leaves... leaving kenny to make excuses to Nick and Matt.

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Main Event time and the Cage is being lowered and set for Wardlow Vs. Cody Rhodes.

Wardlow hair stays in it's silly little man bun for a while but eventually pops out of place to make him look like an emo warlord. Cody is thrown into the cage early on which busts him open (keeps the camera off him long enough for him to carve a big chunk of scalp off), wardlow dominates but Cody gets some offense in... at one point Rollercodester is thrown through the cage door and Arn Anderson is holding it as MJF (Best ever, seriously the man.. fuck off he is!), eggs him on to swing it hard into Cody... Arn teases a turn, but swings it hard into the face of the King of the $10000 bling! Cody re-enters the fray and gets nailed with MJFs Dynamote ring... he retrieved is and returned fire, causing MJF to climb the cage in disgust, Brabdy spanks his ass with a chair twice and Maximillion drops down to spark her out... however... he gets suckerpunched.

Cody gets the upper hand and climbs the enormous cage, and as he hits the top, there isnt even a SECOND, no hesitation, no fear, no considering... his second foot hits the metal pole top of the cage, and he moonsaults from the top of that fucker onto wardlow and covers him for the 3 count.

Cody celebrates as my man MJF realises that Cody has done it. He refrained from physical contact, he took his 10 lashes in the ring and he defeated Warslow in a cage match... in less than two weeks, MJF takes on his mentor. Cody Rhodes. Max plays this PERFECTLY. he is the Best heel the business has to offer right now. Quick witted, snarky and plays his part 24/7 on his Twitter.

Great show!.... besides the Mox misfire, I think it hit all the bases.

Notes: KEEP BRITT OFF OF MICROPHONES.

Sammy Guevara, you OK bruv? That Superkick was NASTY!

Hangman, Pint?

Nyla, have a mask made... that one off wish does you no favours!

Join Dark Order.

[pepperoniwhirlwind]

🌼~Honesty Hour~🌼 (pt. 2)

     I was asked by @lovelynhiddenkittens to do 150 questions in the honesty hour tag quite a while ago, and only did a third of it. But no longer will this be the case! Midterms are mostly over (the two biggest ones are done at least) so I can focus on more fun things, like answering these questions! Here’s my answers to questions 51-100:

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

     Yes. I have a lot of internalized shame about my body type (petite and curvy) that whenever I see someone super tall or toned I just want to be them. Even if it’s only for a day. I don’t have these wishes so much anymore though. Alex and I have been dating for 5 months (on the 21st of this month) and he loves my body type. Thanks to him, I’m learning to love myself, and learning that I don’t have to be a model to be loved~ 💕

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

     My depression. I feel like it makes me a burden on everyone, and although it’s shaped who I am, has it really changed me for the better? Maybe I’m more understanding and empathetic because of it, but it’s also caused me an inordinate amount of pain, and unnecessary pain for my loved ones.

53. Favorite make-up brand?

     I don’t wear make-up often enough for me to even have a clue.

54. Favorite store?

     What I’m buying changes which store I prefer. If it’s food, I generally hit up Fry’s. If it’s home decor (Which Alex and I needed quite a bit of in recency, given that we just moved into an apartment together a few months ago) I shop at Target. If I need to buy shampoo, face wipes, deodorant, shaving cream, etc. I typically go to Wal-Mart. Does anyone really have just 1 store that they shop at? I know if I bought non-food items at Fry’s I’d go bankrupt. 😂

55. Favorite blog?

     That’s a real tough one. I love all of my Tumblr friend’s blogs. @im-here-cause-im-not-all-there posts a lot of stuff I relate to, same for @theperksofneurodivergency, who always posts great content. Seriously, I could sit here for ages and list off all the people on Tumblr that I follow, but that would be ridiculous. Rest assured that if I follow you, it means I generally like what you post.

56. Favorite color?

     I love darker colors on the cooler end of the color spectrum; mainly green, blue & purple. I even like pastel colors occasionally. Though that’s more likely when I’m being influenced by some of my alters who like lighter colors. Like Honey, who loves pastel colors, and all things sweet really. That’s why sunflowers are her favorite flower. She appreciates all the sunny and cheerful things in life. ☀️ In our inner world, she even has a garden that she tends to regularly, and grows (you guessed it) sunflowers, among other things.

57. Favorite food?

     Oh look, another tough one. Hmm... It really depends what I’m in the mood for. But my boyfriend recently started taking me to Schlotzsky’s, which has a lot of really good sandwiches. Though, I’m always down for some Arby’s. I’m in a rut there, but I don’t care. Their roast beef classic and curly fries are to die for. 😋

58. Last thing you ate?

     Speaking of Arby’s... 😆 I ate there for dinner last night in celebration of passing my proctored exam for my math class. It was worth 75% of my grade, and I wasn’t allowed to have anything (they even confiscated my bottle of water). It took 2 hours and was suuuper stressful. So my BF rewarded me with Arby’s when I passed~ 😄 This is just one of the many reasons why I love him~ 💖

59. First thing you ate this morning?

     It’s the morning right now, and I haven’t eaten yet... 😅 Does the two sips of my boyfriend’s coffee count?... No?... Okay. *sighs* I should go eat now actually, so I can take my morning meds. Thanks for reminding me, Tumblr ask!

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

     I got first place in a race once... then immediately quit the track team. 😂 Running just wasn’t for me. I’ve won blue ribbons for art (culinary and painting mostly) before at the 4-H Fair, but I don’t think I’ve ever been in a proper competition that I won. I recently participated in a Drag Show at my college, and even signed my performance (I know ASL, and I hoped it would make me stand out a bit against the competition), but I didn’t win. It was actually a really close call between all the participants, and the host/judge couldn’t decide who the audience cheered louder for, so the lady who’d set up this event had to come up and make the decision. I was one of the first people she decided should leave the stage. So, needless to say, I felt a little embarrassed and defeated afterwards.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

     I never even had detention 😂 ; I was a goody two-shoes growing up. I was always the teacher’s pet, so no, I was never suspended or expelled.

62. Been arrested? For what?

     ⬆️ See the point I made above for your answer. ⬆️ I’d have to cease being a goody two-shoes first before being arrested is even a possibility, so no, my record is squeaky clean... we won’t speak of the songs I’ve illegally downloaded from YouTube though. >-> <-< Don’t tell the po-po about this, or else I’ll be forced to participate in court-ordered rehab for my music addiction. 😂

63. Ever been in love?

     Yes~ 💘 I’m in love right now, with the most supportive and understanding man I’ve ever known~ I shouldn’t have to say who at this point, but I will. It’s my BF, Alex~ ❤️

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss.

     Well, this was back when I lived in Indiana. I had a core group of friends, that all happened to be on the LGBT+ spectrum, so we were practically dripping in rainbow-y goodness. 🌈 Mich, essentially the leader of the group, is trans. While Levi is gay and Laci (she thought she was a lesbian originally, and identified as such for the time that I knew her; I don’t really have contact with any of them anymore) is bi. That just leaves Sasha, who is also bi, and she was my first kiss. Mich, Sasha, I, and others (Levi and Laci weren’t there though) all decided to play spin-the-bottle. Sasha was the first person I landed on, and I still remember her kiss. It was soft, like a cloud, and tasted like strawberries. 🍓 It was a wonderful first kiss, but I definitely prefer kissing Alex the most~ 😍

65. Are you hungry right now?

     Well, considering I just ate a mini donut with my pills... yes, yes I am. 😂 ...Don’t you judge me either! Alex and I bought a bunch of mini donuts for our last D&D gaming sesh at Tyler’s, and there was still a bunch left over, so someone has to eat them, and I didn’t feel like making a proper breakfast. Plus, the one I ate is strawberry flavored, so how could I not eat it? If anyone turns down a strawberry donut, suspect immediately that they are a lizard-person.

66. Do you like your Tumblr friends more than your real friends?

     What a savage question. No, I do not. I like all of my friends, equally, whether they’re online or offline. I only care if my friends are good people or not; and if they care and respect me as much as I do them. Whether they live nearby or not is of little importance to me. I base my friendships off of their character, their morals; not their place of residence.

67. Facebook or Twitter?

     Well, I don’t have a Twitter, and only really check my Facebook once in a blue moon. So... neither?... What, is that not an option? Fine... I choose Facebook... I guess.

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

     Tumblr.

69. Are you watching TV right now?

     No, I’m currently typing this... I am listening to music though, of course. 😆

70. Names of your best friends?

     Well, Tyler’s the only friend I have IRL that knows me, like, truly knows me. By that, I means she knows about my DID, among other diagnoses, as we’ve talked at length about both of our diagnoses before. Since she has Bipolar disorder, she gets what it’s like to have a “scary” mental illness; the ones that get characterized by media to always be violent and unhinged. She didn’t judge me or fear me, she only asked questions and tried to learn as much about my system as she could, which tells us that she truly cares and understands. I’ve told other people before, but they’re either no longer a part of my life, or were creeped out by my DID, and are choosing to forget that I ever told them in the first place. My Tumblr friends also know about my DID, given that I post about it and mention it in my blog bio, but there’s a certain level of anonymity on the internet that allows for me to be more open about it. Telling someone IRL? Now that’s terrifying. It takes a lot of trust, and given that I have had some bad reactions in the past, it makes it even more daunting.

71. Craving something? What?

     Honestly? A vacuum. And a mop, while I’m at it. I’ve been cleaning for most of the morning, and those are the only cleaning supplies that I need and don’t have. I keep trying to talk Alex into buying them, but he’s not as bothered by dirty floors as I am. He even walks around barefoot on these filthy floors! IDK how! Even if I’m wearing socks it bothers me. I don’t like stepping on anything, and the only way I don’t feel what’s on the ground is if I’m wearing shoes. So... I basically never take off my shoes except for when I’m in bed. 😂

72. What color are your towels?

     What a weird question. 😆 Before I moved in with Alex, I lived with my parents, and we didn’t have a standard color of towel. We had an assortment of colors from multiple old sets of towels, a lot of them raggedy, some of them bleached, most of them ancient. Then when I started living with Alex, we still have some towels of differing colors, but most of them are blue and soft~ ✨ The sheets and pillow cases are blue too, though a lighter shade.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

     Not anymore. I used to when I was younger though. When I was a kid my stuffed animals felt like my children. I would rotate which ones got to sleep with me each night, hug and kiss them all goodnight then tuck them in. If one of them fell out of my arms in the middle of the night, it would wake me up immediately. Not even a slow, groggy wake-up. It was like my motherly instinct was an alarm clock, so I would wake up instantly and be wide awake, frantically searching for the stuffed animal that fell out of my arms. I would then pick them up, dust them off and apologize, then snuggle them and drift off back to sleep. When I was a teenager, I mostly cuddled them when I was lonely and needed some companionship to fall asleep. Now that I snuggle and sleep with my boyfriend each night, I no longer sleep with my stuffed animals, but I still love them and keep them as decoration for my bed at my parent’s house, since I never really sleep there anymore. I nap there occasionally, but that’s about it.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

     Uhhh... I’ve never actually counted, but at least a tub full.

75. Favorite animal?

     Elephants and foxes, equally~ 💖

76. What color is your underwear?

     I’m wearing black panties at the moment. It’s satiny with lace, so it’s cute and comfy; the best of both worlds. 😉

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

     Definitely chocolate, 🍫 provided it’s not too rich.

78. Favorite ice cream flavor?

     I’m obsessed with matcha green tea ice cream right now, OMG, it’s sooo good~ 😋 Same goes for the matcha green tea frappuccino at Starbucks. It’s the only drink there that I actually get. I’ve tried other beverages they have, and generally don’t like them, but the matcha green tea frap is too delicious for it’s own good.

79. What color shirt are you wearing?

     I’m actually wearing a really comfy dress right now, that I slept in as a nightgown last night. 😆 It’s gray and has a lace band on each sleeve.

80. What color pants?

     ⬆️ Once again, reference my previous entry. ⬆️ I am pantless, given that I’m sporting a dress at the moment.

81. Favorite TV show?

     Oh geez... another hard one. Let’s see... I’ll just put the name of the show I’m watching the most right now. That would have to be “Crazy Ex Girlfriend” on Netflix. Before that I watched the newest seasons of “BoJack Horseman” as well as “Orange Is the New Black”, but I’ve already finished those.

82. Favorite movie?

     Honestly, I’ve been really obsessed with “The Hunchback of Notre Dame” recently. When I re-watched it as an adult, I noticed how much more serious that movie is compared to Disney’s other films. They cover some pretty dark subject matter, and do it well... *sighs* if only they’d nixed the addition of the gargoyles. They ruin every emotional or tense scene that they’re placed in, and make the lighter scenes just plain cringey. I know they wanted to make it suitable for kids, but I think Disney underestimates what kids can handle, especially considering they reference the darker scenes subtly enough so as to keep the movie’s G rating intact. Like what about the goat, Djali, that belongs to Esmeralda? The goat could have been the comic relief, but instead they brought in the talking gargoyles. They couldn’t even do something cool with the gargoyles, like make them a part of Quasi’s imagination. He’s been alone in a bell tower for his entire life, so it would make sense that he would begin talking to the statues and giving them personalities... but no... it’s shown at the end that the gargoyles can interact with and impact the real world, making them a part of it as well.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

     Well, considering I’ve only ever seen the first one, and didn’t even know there was a second one, I’m gonna have to go with “Mean Girls”.

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

     I’ve never seen “21 Jump Street”, so once again, “Mean Girls” takes the cake.

85. Favorite character from Mean Girls?

     Oh, that’s hard, especially when they’re all such fun characters. Janis is pretty cool, so she’s up there, but Karen is probably my favorite. She’s such a simple, naive soul, you can’t help but love her.

86. Favorite character from Finding Nemo?

     Dory, hands down. But I wanna give a special shout-out to Bubbles, the character from the fish tank that, (you guessed it) is obsessed with bubbles. 😆 He cracks me up every time.

87. First person you talked to today?

     Alex. Considering we both wake up in the same bed, it would be nearly impossible for him not to be the one I talk to first thing in the morning.

88. Last person you talked to today?

     Once again, Alex, given that it’s still early in the day and I haven’t seen anybody else yet.

89. Name a person you hate?

     All of my abusers. Every. Single. One. They made me feel small, worthless, and unloved. So I hope each one of them feels that way for the rest of their miserable existences.

90. Name a person you love?

     My boyfriend, Alex~ He’s my world, my hopes and dreams, and everything I aspire to be~ 💖

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

     No. I want to punch all of my abusers in the balls. With a baseball bat. Repeatedly, until they’re infertile.

92. In a fight with someone?

     No.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

     Only one. I want to buy more, but that requires that I have money, which I don’t.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

     I have my Nirvana sweatshirt, my “Nightmare Before Christmas” sweatshirt, and two hoodies with my college logo on them. One’s gray and the other is red.

95. Last movie you watched?

     “The Hunchback of Notre Dame”.

96. Favorite actress?

     I have no idea. So I’m gonna go find a list of the top 100 actresses and go from there. *some time passes* So, I found an actress I actually know, and that’s Krysten Ritter, who played Jessica Jones on Netflix’s hit series named (you guessed it again! Wow, you’re really good at this.) “Jessica Jones”.

97. Favorite actor?

     That’s a tie between Robin Williams (I really miss him... He was such a vibrant and energetic actor, who also knew how to portray more serious, and heart-felt scenes. He was a skilled actor and a good man. May he rest in peace.) and Tom Hanks. I like quite a few films starring those actors.

98. Do you tan a lot?

     Never.

99. Have any pets?

     No... 😭 RIP Batman and Robin (my previous pet hermit crabs).

100. How are you feeling?

     Productive! I practically cleaned the whole apartment in like 2 hours this morning, and just finished another third of this ask! I’m on a roll, and intend to do homework in a minute. For now though, I’d like to thank everyone who read through to the end, as well as thank @lovelynhiddenkittens for sending the ask in the first place! Sorry it’s taking so much time to finish it, but I’m over halfway done now! Whoo~! 🎉 *sets off a confetti popper and basks in the confetti shower* Anyways, take care everyone! I hope you all have a fantastic rest of your day (or night, wherever you are, just have a wonderful time!) See ya ‘round the bend~! 👋

*grabs a broom and begins sweeping up the confetti, muttering to myself* Why do I do this? Every time, I know I’m gonna have to clean it, but I do it anyway...

[bendthekneetobangtan]

85 Questions

Rules: Answer these 85 questions about yourself and tag 20 people

I was tagged by @ditzymax to answer these - thanks love! 💗

Last:

Drink: Water

📱 Call: My manager

Text Message: The boyfriend

Song you listened to: moonchild by RM aka the most brilliant man in the universe

Time you 😢: Ummmm, it was probably over a sad animal video, like one of those dogs that undergo trauma and have really miraculous recoveries and get adopted by a loving family with a gigantic farm. I always cry at those 😭

Ever:

Dated someone twice: God no

😘 someone and regretted it: No?

Been cheated on: No? (also, does this count if you were technically dating around?)

Lost someone special: Yes

Gotten drunk and thrown up: Yes, fun fact - I cannot metabolize alcohol AT ALL. I basically have an alcohol allergy so I can’t drink. :’’‘) I’ve always felt I’ve missed out in life because of this.

In the last year, have you:

Made new friends: Yup

Fallen out of 💛: No

😂 until you 😢: Yes, I laugh all the time at my boyfriend who mixes up common sayings horrifically.

Found out someone was talking about you: No

Met someone who changed you: No

Found out who your friends are: No (I mean, I’ve been knowing who they are...?)

😘 someone on your Facebook friends list: Yes

General:

How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Ummm, 95%. I have one or two who I’ve never met because they live in a different country altogether.

Do you have any pets: Yes, I have a 50-pound mutt! 🐕

Do you want to change your name: Yes and no. I’ve always hated my RL name because it is such an outdated, old lady’s name. But I don’t know what I’d want it to be!

What did you do for your last 🎂: I spent the day with my boyfriend and we ate at a crowded, trendy restaurant and wandered around an art museum.

What time did you wake up today: Just before 7am

What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping obvi

What is something you can’t wait for: The holidays so everyone at work can leave me tf alone 👍

What are you listening to right now: forever rain by RM

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes, it’s a pretty generic name

Something that gets on your nerves: This happened a lot when I was on vacation recently - people who lack self-awareness and do not care that they are standing in your way. I live in a big city so we are used to the hustle and bustle and getting from point A to point B in seconds. I went to visit the national parks in Utah and people would constantly clog the hiking trails by just STANDING THERE instead of going to the side. The worst was when we would be standing on a steep, narrow path. I’m not trying to plummet to my death, y’all.

Most visited website: According to my browser...Tumblr

Hair color: Black as night (my natural color)

Long or short hair: I have short hair, but wish I could l have a long mane (I blame the girls from Blackpink 😔)

What do you like about yourself: I like to think I’m really good at drawing on eyeliner ✍️

Want any piercings: Maybe it’s because I’m approaching 30 (I’m a fucking dinosaur compared to you guys), but I kinda wish I had a funky piercing like a nose ring or something.

Blood type: B+

Nicknames: None really

Relationship status: in a long-term relationship (4+ years)

Zodiac sign: Leo

Pronouns: she/her

Favorite 📺 show: Game of Thrones (obvi my url), Breaking Bad, Parks and Recreation, 30 Rock, It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia

Tattoos: I have none

Right or left handed: Righty

Ever had surgery: Yes, sort of. I got LASIK done and IT IS AMAZING, I TELL YA. I say sort of because I was awake throught the whole thing and didn’t have to go under for the procedure.

Piercings: Only my ear lobes

Sports: I have zero coordination to do sports, but I go to the gym regularly 🏋️

Dream Vacation: I really want to go to the Canadian Rockies 🏔️

Trainers: I have at least a dozen pairs of sneakers. I am so glad it’s acceptable to wear them everywhere now. I like my feet comfy.

Eating: I already ate dinner so I’m not eating anything?

Drinking: Water

I’m about to watch: Nothing cuz it’s almost my bedtime lol

Waiting for: Me to win the lottery? Idk

Want: To win the lottery...😂

Get married for: Namjoon, the only man I want to marry :’)

Career: The cynic in me thinks I might be stuck in this field a while. I would love to do something creative, like architecture and design. But that ship has probably sailed and I don’t want to go back to school! 🤷

Hugs or kisses: Both

👄 or eyes: Eyes

Shorter or taller: Is this asking about me or my partner? I guess taller. I’m only 5′4″ so it’d be kinda strange dating someone shorter than me.

Older or younger: Older. I think I’d have to at least be in my 30s before I consider dating someone a few years younger.

Nice arms or stomach: Arms

Hookup or relationship: Relationship

Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesistant

Have you ever:

😘 a stranger: No

Drank hard liquor: No

Lost glasses: Not permanently, I always found them in a random place in my home

Turned someone down: Yes

Sex on first date: No

Broken someone’s ❤️: Uhhh maybe? I turned a few people down and they seemed pretty upset, but we never actually DATED so hmmm

Had your 💔: Yes

Been arrested: No

😢 when someone died: Of course

Fallen for a friend: Definitely

Do you believe in:

Yourself: Yes and no

Miracles: No

💛 at first sight: No

😘 on the first date: Sure, why not?

Angels: Jeon Jungkook exists, does he not??! 😭😭

Other:

Best friend’s name: keeping this one private

Eye color: Brown

Favorite Movie: The only ones I can think of are movies that I can rewatch multiple times. Nostalgic too. So probably everything Disney? lol

Favorite actor: Probably because I listened to her audiobook recently, but I love Tina Fey so much. She’s super inspiring!

Favorite Food: Umm rice? It goes with literally everything

Extrovert or Introvert: introvert

Favorite flower: Anything yellow lol

Favorite Hello 🐈 characters: Does this mean Sanrio? I loved Pochacco when I was a kid

I can’t tag 20 people, but I’ll tag @luffles424 and @suga-kookiemonster if y’all wanna do it!

[violetsystems]

#personal

I had an epiphany last week during the break from writing. Having a space where you can go to where people understand you is paramount in life. Not many people have the luxury of being understood without question. Some people have it harder than others in mainstream society. There are complex reasons for this. But most of my young adulthood was spent finding spaces out on the fringe that just didn't waste time caring about any of it. Nobody likes people telling them what to do or what to be. It's such a simple feeling to fathom. I live in a country where freedom is supposed to be our secret sauce. Where everyone could be free if we just left it at that. And yet we're too busy arguing our little lines in the sand. Some people have more of it. Some people cross the line with it. And some of us are left creating some sort of metaphysical bulwark to seal up the gaps where other people sink into our own rights to be. I'm a bit of a scientist when it comes to the socials I'm adrift in. So I believe in quantitative results. I always think the problem is me. And this Is why as a writer I internalize so much. I am literally thinking aloud about how to socially engineer a situation to be less encroaching. I ask myself from the beginning of when I wake up where the points of failure might lie. If writing on the internet really were the cause of everything then I'd follow my mom's advice she gave me in college. I used to dress weird according to some people. I challenged the social norms because this is what I liked to do particularly with punk fashion at the time. Some jocks at the college called me any number of slurs. She told me simply to face it or change. No matter how rude people were. I dressed that way for some time. And went on to be known for many things that eventually went nowhere. But the knowledge never left me. There are some things worth fighting for and others a Sisyphean task. Last week I stopped going out somewhat altogether. I ordered groceries for the week. I made coffee and cooked chicken in my sunny kitchen. I cleaned dead mice with severed heads off the property before the sun rose and woke my neighbors. I paid my rent electronically for the first time from my bank and not my credit union. Serves them right for that James Webb shit. I focused on the things I couldn't escape. The times I left were to fly a drone out in the park for free with the newly licensed flight license I acquired through the Boy Scouts of America. I finally spoke with my neighbors across the way after intervening as a Good Samaritan in the laundry room we all share. That earned me two donuts and a long John. It also feels the politeness has lowered the defcon ratio of mistrust that exists on my porch. That shadow is more cast by what people expect out of this city. To trust no one. To think everyone is spying on them. To worry about what people say behind your back. That world exists out there every time I step off the property. It's a culture I do not welcome on my doorstep. I live in what they call a sanctuary city that nobody will talk about for fear of going on record. The silence is meant to protect but mostly a large defense that keeps people from healing and growing. And yet another year here locked in my little hut by the train seems different. What could have changed?

I'm not a mind reader. I'm not psychic although my mom's Croatian gypsy and Bohemian German roots claimed they saw the future. Nature is overlaid onto of us at all times just like the internet. The mysteries and the wonders are happening right in front of us as we fixate on a microscopic display. Most people live an encapsulated life in a walled garden of their own data. They're afraid of freedom and so they sacrifice it for a jailed security. I somehow end up the same. Trapped here in some weird prism of questions nobody really wants to ask. They tell you that's the first thing that bothers people. When people ask too many questions? What are we doing here? Are we alone in the universe? Where is this thing we have headed? Will I see you again on Tuesday? Do you remember Kid Entropy? I remember the reverse entropy of working out every day and not looking like I did when I was younger. Just sore. All over my body. The Body by Jake sore and not the I fear I'm dying of Covid sore. Not even the wake up on Monday and have to face your fuckhead boss kind of sore. I remember having a job once. Or at least being on someone's payroll because music wasn't good enough of a career to justify your existence. It still isn't. I make more money mining ethereum than I did on band camp sales. And even then it's not that much. Why are all the people I help shoot videos getting featured on bandcamp daily while I'm invisible to everyone and everything. Maybe it is best to not focus on what isn't being said. Everything is a double edged sword of Damocles in this era. You get what you wish for. Or do you? Nobody but you will ever know. And that's a level of confidence that goes deep into the void if you follow it. Nobody out there is sure of anything. They ask for reassurance. Sometimes they don't ask. They want to control your stage time on this episode of real life. And I live on a backlot where anything is possible. Anything except having a real job and being seen as important. I was never as important as I was when I started writing here. And that's not very important really except to a few dear friends. I always say stick to what's worth it and then stick to what's working. I just said that now. But anything worth it is worth fighting like hell for. And it's pretty clear to see what is working and what isn't. I have a space where I live alone and wonder aimlessly. I try to figure out what I should be doing to be relevant. And then I realize there is a lot I already do. So much so I've done or did that nobody can forget. I've been cancelled without even a word or a poor deed to speak of. Nothing to be remembered and nothing to be gained. Is this why they are so worried about cancel culture? I existed this far in life by sticking to my morals and ethics. Nobody really has ever asked what they are. People want the abridged version. They want to know what God you worship or what your favorite sports team is. They don't want the heavy lifting of understanding what singular identity you represent. They don't want the burden of caring. They're too busy caring about themselves. When you do care nowadays it shows in ways that seem arcane and wizardly. I'm not a mind reader at all. I am considerate enough to go above and beyond your expectations. That is if you are worth it.

Some shit out there is just not worth it. Not worth explaining. Not worth thinking about. Not worth fighting to be heard amongst people who can't even remember your name. Fake names included. There's people out there who still remember every bit of the last twenty to thirty years of my existence. I wish they'd understand why it doesn't mean anything. And yet I'm still alive. I still look out for people. I didn't ask for a medal or a star on a walk of fame. I'm still that guy you try to copy but can never get the swagger right. I still foster the culture even if I felt abandoned by it all. I still think it's worth it to be the impossible version of me. A kind, stern figure that moves deliberately like a shadowy colossus as not to hurt the blades of grass flowing underneath my feet. I walk off my steps onto the concrete and it's a million human eyes perched like grasshoppers. I could endure that for anyone but around here it's more trouble than it's worth. I've been walled off behind an understanding. One that has no guarantees and no goal posts other than how I hold it down. How things can be so fucked up out there but always so safe with me. I wonder sometimes. Why people don't strive to be more like me instead of chasing after some stupid shit. Like everyone writes on the internet that people like me should be more like me. And yet people like me are horribly forgotten. After all this time, it's better off that way. But what kind of a mind fuck would it be to explain that to people. I stopped explaining. I stopped going out and dealing with the constant silent prodding. I resisted by mothballing my entire life and hiding. I wanted people to seek it out. The horrible and bitter truth. Whatever my history is. Because I'm not like anybody after all of this. I'm in a place where I can truly say you deal with me and me alone. If I write about it, you can read it for your own very eyes. I've cultivated that for years. Sometimes it's been used against me. Sometimes it's my own fault for not realizing things sooner. But nobody can grow when they're constantly being uprooted by hazing, gaslighting, intimidation and pack tactics. That's not provoking culture. This isn’t the army. That's being an asshole. If anything delicate plans need deliberate decisions and timing. And we live in an era where everyone thinks they can brute force, glitch or subvert their way to the top in a two week news cycle. I've been casted to the side more times than I can count. And I get back up and reinvent myself. These days I'm through being tested by people who can’t be bothered to look themselves in the mirror. And I'm through watching other good people have their time wasted by useless roasting and disingenuous provocation. If anyone has learned anything about me is that they've tried it all. And it all just sits there on the wall. Other people's failures of vision of what I could excel at. All the failed pranks and dumb attempts at guerrilla warfare. They couldn't see a world where we win by our own standards. Maybe if they rolled the old gypsy bones a couple more times, you'd be able to predict my outcome. I've rolled them for you. Bohemian rhapsody all day. You can unlock the layman's interpretation on Tumblr+. Everything else you should have figured out already. The people I really care about already have. <3 Tim

[starkissr]

idk why

ppl want to be fake friends like i’d rather have real friends or no friends but i don’t get why ??? ppl rly wanna try n be my fake friend like no listen i’m sorry but i can’t be ur friend on the day u feel lonely n a stranger when ur thriving and omg!!!! this one rly just told me my expectations are too high bc get this! i asked her to consider me like o ok lol so you’re rly telling me in ur twisted idea of a friend I’m not allowed to expect u to care abt me like isn’t that only the literal definition of a friend my mistake??? bc i totally get having no expectations of ppl and all that but at the end of the day when ur then best friend decides to ignore ur existence then come back into ur life whenever they feel like it? like my problem isn’t that ur trying to come back into my life i’m open to whatever ok but when u can’t have consistent intentions to be a good friend u auto = fake aka nobody ???? i GET that ppl mess up obv i’m not perfect either but it’s just admitting that and actually understanding where u went wrong n at least making an honest effort of not doing it again that is SO CRUCIAL

wow wow wojeofiae and like it’s just soooo funny when ur pride is the fucking reason we’re not friends??? like if ur ego is what’s holding u back i rly don’t need someone so easily swayed by that bs in my life? so no i’m not gonna try or give a fuck abt u if ur idea of a friend is not aligned w mine like and if it isn’t that’s fine we don’t have to be friends uk but like idk it sucks tbh bc i’ve been sooo transparent abt how ur lack of words/actions hurt me so bad so u literally know but don’t do anything w this knowledge??? n still wanna try and talk to me like we’re friends after?? fuck no

it’s sad that 2 of my absolute best friends did this to me in diff ways but like this is the underlying pattern n it just hurts so bad when the person ur the closest to in the world and has learned the most abt u and has been thru sooo many ups and downs just one day decides that ur not important to them anymore uk??? like and when they come back later bc of c that’s what they always fucking do! they expect it to be like the old days and make u feel like ur fucking crazy for being hurt when they literally just left u in the dark. it was so painful to grieve thru that period without u bc i had to feel what it was like when u turned ur back on me and yes it was v fucking cold bc when i was ur friend it was all sunny days n that was a stark contrast but 

also these past few days rly just make me wanna ask u why tf are u so fucking bipolar and a passive aggressive cunt to me one second and talking to me in ur bubbly tone like im ur friend legitimately 2 seconds later bc oh u just remembered u can use me for this thing or that??? i’ve literally never met an angrier or immature person? like ok obv i’m just off one on this rant so i’m gonna explain just how this girl tried me today! so she’s my roommate n keep in mind like i have told her explicitly my problem w her is that she hurt me when she didn’t communicate w me n went mia like i said this multiple times so no guess work needed n anyway today i was playing music in our room and guess what this girl does!!! puts her music on louder than mine! at first i was like?????????????? literally what? LIKE DID U RLY!!!!!!!!! JUST DO THAT LOL it was rly too much for u to tell me u wanted to play ur music???? i was honestly amazed and was like ok like obv this just sounds like shit at this pt n tbh all i wanted to do was just ask u why u felt that u didn’t want to tell me u wanted to play ur music? but then i checked myself and remembered ur words that i am expecting too much of u when i ask why u don’t care to communicate certain things so i guess it’s too much to ask u this too so like what now? n i just turned my music off after this internal resolution that u literally told me i can’t expect anything from u aka i can’t ever expect u to show up for me so like who is someone to u that is there one day and not the next?? like a relationship needs a degree of stable commitment and if i can never count on u why would i want to waste my time waiting on u to fuck up / my breath for calling u my friend? 

the ppl i’m lucky enough to call my friends are ppl that i’m inspired by and i’m not saying ur an ugly person like obv u have parts of u that are so beautiful and that’s who i saw in u before but like if u keep showing me how ugly u can be don’t blame me if u singlehandedly broke my trust in u ??? AND ANYWAY LOL if ur reading this still the CHERRY on top of it all and what actually got me fucking mad is this !!!! girl!!!! asked me for a bandaid a breath after i turned my music off. like. o. ... .m. . . m. g. i just honestly couldn’t believe it n w her cheery ass tone like this is what i’m talking abt how u only matter to them when they need u!!! i was debating asking her abt the music thing now that she decided i was worth speaking to but literally it just wasn’t worth it to hear another one of ur excuses??? i would’ve loved to see what u would’ve twisted out of that situation tbh but i was also like ok like i don’t wanna help u bc ur a cunt but then i was like uk what! she wins if i’m a bitter person bc of her by telling her no so i let her have my stupid bandaid but talk to me like we’re friends one more time and i swear to fucking god !!!!! i won’t be so silent 

n my friends are like r u gonna be friends w her after n i’m like ? what friend treats a friend like this ????????? like real q? this is not a friend. why would i say yeah i’ll be friends w her just to make her happy? no bitch my one requirement to be my friend is to act like a fucking friend and if u tell me that’s expecting too much of u like ok but u have to understand! this is my definition of a friend i can’t be ur friend then ! stop half ass trying!!!!!! either leave me tf alone or the moment u choose to decide (and actually act like) u wanna be real to me is when i consider u my friend again uk!! i’m not gonna hold ur shit over ur head but idk i feel like it’s bc they think that i will that they don’t try or honestly i don’t know their reason why but all i do know is there’s a blatant discrepancy between their words and their actions. for both of them but like the one who did this to me first even apologized to me and like i honestly rly appreciated that like it was only! a year and a half late lol but still i was happy but then they went ahead and did them and i haven’t heard of them since! like ok COOL so u just wanted to say we’re friends then go away again like that’s what i’m saying i don’t get it why do ppl want to be fake friends? what’s the pt????????? wow ok these are just the questions that i’m asking myself rn it like tears me apart that the ppl who know me best can’t bother to act like my friend when they wanna still have the perks of calling me a friend ! literally if any of them were to hit me up and put an attempt that lasts o idk beyond a single day to be my friend then i’m down i’m there but don’t fucking tell me i have high expectations for thinking ur my friend yeah obv i’m rly frustrated at everyone for complicating everything like clearly i care so much abt these ppl and that’s why i’m hell bent on trying to make myself feel ok for not taking them back bc as much as i love them i have self respect and literally it would just become an emotionally abusive relationship if i try to engage in a friendship where the friend would just let me down every day like i already have my own shit i’m dealing w why tf would i want to put myself thru unnecessary pain?

like everyone knows when ur being genuine or not. the recent one gave me a fake apology and it was so clear it was fake and last night she even admitted that it was n that she doesn’t think she needs to apologize and like i’m just like ......... so let’s just say i forgot that u can’t stick to ur word ok.... did u rly just have to remind me again?! this is what i’m talking abt it’s just painful and i can’t be ur friend if u can’t be real w me ok that’s all if anyone wants to be a human w me say hi like i rly don’t think anyone reads this so i was gonna delete my tumblr so long ago bc like whats the pt if no one sees u but then i realized how fucking cool that is and how liberating it is to just like put ur thoughts out into the interweb like journal writing is cool n all but on the off chance someone other than me does happen to see this then hi ur only looking at my deepest thoughts so i might as well know who u r lol but like if not (prob) then that’s ok i’ll just lol at myself when i reread this later! as stressful as this is like omg i’m graduating next week and i won’t have these kinda petty problems anymore and like that’s cool when that happens but idk i’m just not ready to grad f m u so ik as like annoying as this is and as stressed as i am abt my classes and assignments and finals and the future i’m eternally grateful for my education n like that’s why i don’t wanna leave! it’s the little things like tn i was at a coffee shop studying w friends n in the car ride back me n one of them were talking abt that one cute barista like he doesn’t matter but having someone to just say whatever the fuck u want w n confide in! it’s these little pleasures that i just love so much!!! n like i didn’t even notice but my friend brought to my attn like how he was acting kinda dumbstruck when he was talking to us n i was like lol fuck ur right that’s fucking hilarious n i had a new thing to laugh abt that i wouldn’t have if i had experienced it alone uk! like talking is literally what allows a relationship to flourish so w these 2 ppl where they just don’t communicate w me like that sounds like such a small flaw but the reason why it’s such a problem is that it literally stunts the friendships growth! how can we connect and etc if u can’t share what’s rly going on w me??????? or like why do u feel u don’t need to talk abt the truth?????? but ya as i was saying lol it’s ok i’ll just have to grind until i can get into my next school (hopefully, someone take me pls lol sos) but ya idk i suffer a lot during school but tbh it’s my fav ever so i’m so sad i’m graduating!!!!!! but like the only thing that’s making it ok is bc all of us are saying the same thing and it’s comforting that even tho we all dk what the fuck is going on i’m not the only one 

so mostly sad bc i’m gonna miss my real friends here soooooooo much like w all my heart omg nothing will be the same again and i’m not ready! i’ll miss being seconds away and the fact that i can go over or call them like hoe get ready bc we’re going to the beach that’s down the street!!!! at my parents place the beach is half an hour away and i was in love but u had to drive like an extra 15-30 min to get to even nicer beaches n bruh let me tell u i rly did myself right by going to a school an actual 5 seconds away from the beach and granted besides us students it’s a rich white conservative person area but still it’s in a cute n clean area?? omg like this is just as good as it gets uk??? so ya blessed to be stressed 

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[chaoscontrolstheworld]

Six Shooter - Chapter 3: Deceit and Revelation

A/N: It’s been a while since I uploaded something to Tumblr... well, best get on with it shan’t I.

Chapters: Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15, Chapter 16

Pairings: Analogical (not yet implemented) and Royality (discussed)

Word Count: 5000+

“Logan Lilac”, Virgil mouthed, letting his hand graze his lips as he walked over the top of the hill and looked around in a daze. The hunter that had once haunted his nightmares now had a face and it was…he hated to admit the man was handsome in some regard.  It was a wonder the hunter hadn’t settled down yet, but, the outlaw supposed, then Thomas wouldn’t have a chance to grab some land. Virgil narrowed his eyes as his mind was drawn out of the haze by thoughts of his boss. Thomas’ house loomed over the town form the hill, like the man he was. Picturesque, yet deadly. The white two-story house loomed over the town like death, blocking out some of the sun.

Virgil growled and pushed the gate open, taking a few steps in before looking back and over at another white giant. This one had some style however and the sign on the gate had tiny lilacs painted on it. Virgil presumed that must be Logan and Anthony’s house, he let out a low whistle as he surveyed the land and stables. Patton wasn’t wrong, it was big. The land stretched out far behind the house, a corral taking up almost an entire field, golden strands of wheat shining in the sun in another field. They must be rich, if not than they didn’t know what they were doing with a farm that size.

Virgil’s eye landed on the house. Another two-story house with cream curtains in the windows. Small rose bushes cut back, reaching high towards the sky, their red and pink sundrenched faces open for the world to see. Virgil huffed a smile out and let his eyes wander to the only room where the curtains were open and someone was sitting in. His eyes caught brown and red, eyes widening as he looked at his boss talking to an old man, Mr. Lilac probably.

So, Virgil thought, Thomas is out for the land after all. Maybe it was time to stir up the pot a little, make it just that little harder for his boss to get that land. With a smirk Virgil turned back to Thomas’ house and walked to the door, picking the lock easily and slipping inside to the smell of roses and mint. It disgusted him. Roses and mint, who was Thomas trying to impress…oh, right. Was it worth it? To have his house smell like a garden in his best effort to impress a man that seemed unimpressible. Did Thomas even know Logan was Logan Magenta? Of course, he did. Didn’t he? Or was he more concerned about the farm. He’d never seen Magenta, at least not that Virgil had heard of.

Virgil pushed the door closed as thoughts swam through his mind, bouncing around his skull. He didn’t like this. He didn’t like the secrets, or really the fact that his boss was most likely only trying to get land out of marrying the Lilac boy.

Virgil eyed a few trinkets on one of the chests of drawers in the hallway, with practiced fingers he picked up a small porcelain figure. It’d be so easy to break this, to show his boss he knew and could tear the man’s plans apart as easily as breaking the figurine, but something about the figurine caught his eye. Maybe it was the tiny glasses painted on its face or the brown mop that sat atop the porcelain skull, the figure seemed unbreakable. Virgil swallowed as another bespectacled figure came to mind, shaking his head to rid himself of such thoughts. He set the figure down and picked up another item, a small fan made of silver and silk. A pricey item that was sure to win over more than one person for sure. Why would his boss require an item he would surely never use, unless…unless he was preparing to take it somewhere else and give it to another?

The thought made Virgil’s stomach churn and a sneer upturn his lips. He set the fan down and walked quickly to the kitchen, checking the cupboards for food and scavenging something edible. It wasn’t much; dry bread and water that made him feel soberer than he already was. The respite was over quickly and he continued his search, moving up the stairs and into the second of the stories.

The second was much the same as the first. A couple of rooms, covered in sheets of white cloth and dust, and a single bedroom, also covered in dust. Virgil searched the room from top to bottom and upon finding nothing of interest, made his way back down the stairs. His boots heavy on the wood, creaking planks echoing through the empty white house. He found himself in the living room, opposite to that of the Lilac’s. Small, yet warm it felt realistic, but Virgil knew better. It was a front. A mask. Like perfume on a corpse, it was just there to mask the owner’s true identity.

Thomas Saderson, what a man. To want something enough to mask everything he loved with everything he despised. It made Virgil chuckle as he let his body drop into one of the high backed chairs his boss seemed so fond of. He tilted his head around the back to look at the window, eyeing the other house through the lace and curtains. There was no doubt in his mind that Thomas had seen a figure in his house and would most likely be trying to excuse himself without upsetting the owner of the property. How Virgil loved to be the one with the world in his hand.

There was a thud and someone opening the door. Virgil’s mind raced as a smirk fixed on his face. What would he say to his boss? What would be the best way to threaten the man that had made his life a living hell? Which position should he take on the chair? Where would be the best viewing point to see Thomas sweat and cry out on his knees? Virgil’s smirk turned deadly as footsteps echoed in the hallway, moving quickly to the living room. Virgil counted down in his head. Three, two, one, and…

“What are you doing here?”, Thomas spat and Virgil turned his head from the window to his boss, face dark with mal-intent.

“Why Thomas, what a surprise”, Virgil said, eyes narrowing under his hat.

“Why are you here?”, Thomas asked his tone like cyanide and venom, “I told you to stay away from here.”

“Well, I thought I’d come and visit you. What’s wrong, not happy to see me?”, Virgil asked, fake innocence dripping like honey from his lips.

“No, I’m not happy to see you. Just tell me why you’re here and leave”, Thomas spat, folding his arms and inching ever so slightly to a chest of drawers to his left. Virgil almost sighed, why had he been so afraid of this man, he clearly couldn’t mask his body language for all the gold in the world. Without even checking Virgil now knew there was a weapon in the chest of drawers; a gun or knife, most likely a gun.

“Simple, I just decided to come back and see what you were up to. Now I know and now I have blackmail and leverage”, Virgil said, smile burning Thomas like acid on his skin.

“Oh, really? And if I yelled out right now, do you really think you have enough evidence to have them take me away?”, Thomas asked and Virgil’s smirk widened.

“Maybe not to convict you, but that’s not what I want. You can have your fun here, it’s not my business, what is my business is your business with me”, Virgil said, pushing himself up and clasping his hands behind his back. “What I want is for half of what I earn to be mine. I brave the dangers of the job; thus, I require I have half of the money I earn.”

“Fine. You can have more of the money you earn, but if this ever gets out I will drag you back here for these wolves to feast on”, Thomas said, growling lightly while Virgil just smirked and began to walk out of the room, patting Thomas shoulder as he passed his boss.

“Pleasure doing business with you”, Virgil said, gently tipping his hat off his head with one hand. “And I know you have a gun in there, so don’t even try it.”

Thomas stopped moving and Virgil chuckled lightly as his boss stiffened, movements ceasing. With a little salute the outlaw stepped out of the room, walking down the hallway with a bit more confidence than he had previously. He stepped around the door and slammed it shut behind him, smirk present on his ever-pale face. With a small chuckle, he looked around and stopped as brown eyes met brown eyes. Virgil stared into Logan’s eyes and felt his heart stop.

“You’re chipper”, Logan said with a smile and Virgil had to do a double take on hunter. He’d met the man before in costume, but he’d only ever seen the man’s face blank or angry. Seeing him happy was…refreshing.

“I have a lot to be ‘chipper’ about”, Virgil said with a growl, face dropping back into its usual frown. Logan nodded his head a little as Virgil neared the gate, opening it and stepping out in front of the outlaw.

“Virge, if I remember correctly”, Logan said and Virgil gave him a nod, eyes leaving the ground and taking to look at the small town below them. “You seem, unsettled by being here. Is there a reason you came?”, Logan asked, stepping back to accommodate Virgil stepping off Thomas’ property.

“I just came to visit an old friend”, Virgil said, stepping away from Logan and towards the town. “I’m done here, you’ll probably never see me again.”

“I wouldn’t say that”, Logan said and for a split-second Virgil swore his heart stopped, dread filling him as his mind raced. Had Logan figure out who he was? “People who come here usually come back”, Logan said and Virgil almost breathed a sigh of relief.

“Well, yes. Your town is quite lovely”, Virgil said, turning back to Logan and wincing at how sunny Logan’s smile was. He felt like he was tricking the man into something terrible. He was a hunter, yes, but this man had been nothing if not hospitable to him since his arrival. All of these people had and Virgil for the first time in his life felt guilt. The sort of guilt you’d feel after you betrayed your best friend or stole from your parents. It felt wrong to lie to him, but he had to. If Logan found out who he was…

“Tell me, how long do you plan on staying?”, Logan asked, pushing his glasses up and giving Virgil a piercing stare.

“I was only going to stay until I had finished my business, but perhaps I will stay a little longer”, Virgil said with a small smile, feeling his spirits lift despite himself.

“Wonderful. I will see you tomorrow. Good night to you, Virge”, Logan said and Virgil only then realised how dark it had gotten. The sun was casting a glow on the road below their feet while the moon moved in on the sky, stars beginning to twinkle in the soon to be abyss. Logan turned on his heel and walked through the Lilac gate, leaving the outlaw to work out how long they’d been standing there. Surely, he’d only left Thomas’ house in the past couple of minutes, and yet it was noon when he had entered the house.

With a blank stare the outlaw began his journey back to the bar. He passed the houses one by one until he came to the centre of the town, that lovely little strip of shops and houses that reminded him of his home town. The one that had been bure dot the ground, that is. He’d had a few ‘home towns’ and many of them had been burned as a consequence of him residing in them for too long. People seemed to have a knack at finding his hiding spots.

Patton was still in the bar when he entered, along with a figure he hoped he’d never meet face to face. Roman Prince, or Roman King as he was known here. He was drinking a clear liquid, most likely water, and chatting up the bartender who seemed as oblivious to the hunter’s affections as the hunters were to Virgil’s true identity, something he hoped would not be revealed soon. Patton looked up at him when he entered, making sure to give the newcomer a smile before he grabbed a glass and filled it with whiskey, taking his attention off the loud man, something that seemed to cause the man to sulk in his arm.

“Hey there, kiddo. Talk with Saderson, did ya?”, Patton asked, voice full of energy and happiness. Virgil gave him a nod and slid into the seat next to Roman, giving the man a small smile before dropping some coins on the bar and talking a wig of whiskey from the glass Patton had handed him. The familiar burn calmed him a little as Roman turned his head to look at him, eyes narrowing as he scrutinized the outlaw.

“Do I know you?”, Roman asked, words a little slurred. Patton merely sighed and took the glass from Roman before the man could spill it.

“I’m sorry about him, he’s a little drunk at present time. If you come back tomorrow he’ll be here”, Patton said making Virgil nod his head in understanding.

“Don’t worry, I’ve known much worse drunks than this guy”, Virgil said and Patton let out a breath of relief.

“Thank you. He’s not normally like this”, Patton said with a sigh, grimacing as Roman began to doze off, small snores mixing with normal breathing. “He’s actually a pretty decent guy, once you get to know him.”

“Well…I, uh, I’ll be sticking around a little longer. This town…it’s nice. I like it here”, Virgil said making the bartender smile.

“Thank you. We try and keep it nice for visitors, like yourself. Let me guess…you met Logan, didn’t you”, Patton said a wry smirk adorning his face as Virgil took a sip of his whiskey, seemingly avoiding answering the question. “Don’t worry. By this time next week, you’ll have forgotten all about him, most usually do.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”, Virgil asked, putting his drink down and swallowing as Patton’s eyes twinkled mischievously.

“Well, many people come to court him. He ignores them, then they leave and find a better life elsewhere”, Patton said, beginning to clean out Roman’s glass, glancing to the softly snoring man with a small smile on his face. “Once I thought that Lilac would try and marry Logan off to Roman, but neither is interested in the other. And I know for a fact that Roman would kill anyone who upset his partner; I’ve seen his rage towards drunkards who’ve come too close and it is scary. He’s like Cerberus, but instead of guarding the underworld he’s guarding the Lilac boys and Lilac property.”

Virgil swallowed heavily, for some reason the thought of Roman being like Cerberus, guarding the Lilac property and the males that resided there…it made fear run rampant through his system. He’d seen what the hunter could do and it brought a fresh layer of terror knowing how fierce Roman could be if Patton was to be believed.

“What would he do if someone married Logan and hurt him?”, Virgil asked, an idea springing to his mind. Maybe he could get Roman to do his dirty work for him.

“Oh…I’m not sure you want to find out”, Patton said, voice low and soft. Virgil felt a chill run down his spine, but he resisted the urge to shudder. Patton’s eyes were like ice on his skin, cutting through and blocking out everything else in the bar, even the obnoxious snoring of the man next to him and the warm tingling of the whiskey in his system.

“Trust me. I’m not here to hurt him”, Virgil said and Patton nodded softly, eyes retaining their sharp edge, but face softening as his eyes wandered the room.

“Oh, I know you won’t. But I guess we’ll wait and see, won’t we…outlaw”, Patton said softly and Virgil’s blood froze in his veins. How did Patton know?

“I-I don’t know what you’re talking about”, Virgil muttered and Patton’s posture relaxed as he set himself on the liquor cabinet behind him.

“Oh, I think you know what I’m talking about. I won’t tell anyone else, but…if you hurt Logan or Roman I will make sure you get what’s coming to you”, Patton said, like it was the simplest thing in the world to understand.

“I-I’m not an outlaw”, Virgil hissed softly, growling as Patton smiled at him.

“It’s not my place to say what you are or who you are, but with the signals you’ve been giving I think you and I both know you’re an outlaw. Don’t worry, I know you’ll be gone soon. I won’t tell anyone because one; you seem nice, and two; you haven’t tried anything yet. If you do I will tell people and who isn’t going to believe me”, Patton said, straightening and grabbing a glass next to him, filling it with water and taking a long drink, sighing as the cool liquid washed down his throat. “Better.”

“I…Please don’t tell anyone”, Virgil pleaded softly, taking a drink from his own glass, emptying the rest of the amber liquid from the container. Patton nodded softly.

“Tell you what. I won’t tell Roman and Logan, if you tell me what you wanted with Thomas. I may be a bartender, but I have some questions of my own”, Patton said and Virgil grimaced at the mention of his boss.

“You want the whole truth? Thomas is my boss. I came here because he told me not to rob this place. When I found out he was courting Magenta…sorry, Lilac, I thought I’d use that as leverage to get what I wanted”, Virgil murmured and Patton gave him a small smirk, dropping off the cabinet and leaning in, hands on the bar as he waited for what was to come next.

“So?”

“I got what I wanted and Thomas isn’t going to be outed by me, for what he is”, Virgil said and Patton let his smirk widen.

“And what is Thomas. You said he was your boss. What does that mean?”

“It means I give him my earnings. He gives me destinations I can rob.”

“So, was this a place he said to rob?”

“No, I thought I’d come here when I couldn’t get anything at another town further west of here.”

“And what happened when he found out you came here?”

“He threatened me. Told me not to come back here.”

“And you didn’t listen because you figured there was some reason and you could blackmail him with that reason.”

“Bingo”, Virgil said, letting his head fall back and pulling his hat off his head as he did.

“Well…that’s quite the story”, Patton said, smirk still planted firmly on his lips.

“It is. Pity it’s no fairy tale”, Virgil growled, pushing his empty glass away from him and making Patton take the glass back.

“Want another?”, Patton asked and Virgil shook his head, muttering softly about how he shouldn’t be here. “If it makes you feel any better, I won’t be telling them about you. Just…be careful. You may think they’re oblivious to who you are, but more than likely they’re thinking about who you are right now, trying to work out if you’re a threat to the town. That’s all they really care about though…this town.”

Virgil nodded a little and glanced at Roman. The hunter snored softly and Virgil doubted he was thinking of who Virgil was while he was sleeping. With a small chuckled Virgil stood, Patton raising an eyebrow as the outlaw stood.

“I’d better be off then”, Virgil said, swaying a little as the alcohol began to take effect.

“You have somewhere to go tonight?”, Patton asked and Virgil, without thinking, shook his head and sighed softly. “Stay here. I’ll roll you out a bed once everyone leaves and you can sleep in the bar tonight.”

“N-no that’s fine. I don’t want to impose on you. I-I don’t have too much, but I think if t-there’s a h-hotel around here I-”

“There’s no hotel around here for miles, and you’re not going riding like you are. I insist you stay the night, Roman does more often than not so you won’t be alone”, Patton said with a smile.

“I-I…I, uh…fine”, Virgil said, giving in and allowing his shoulders to slump as he sat back down at the bar.

“Good boy. Now sit down, kiddo. If I know my patrons, and I do, we’re in for a bumpy night.”

Roman groaned and pushed his head up from the pool of saliva on the bar. He blinked heavy eyes and grimaced as he wiped his mouth and cheek off with his sleeve. The liquid leaving a wet feeling on his cheek. Disgusting. He sighed softly and forced his eyes to look around the room, light making his brown orbs hurt with the sudden intake. Wincing he forced them to open wider, taking in the bar. He must’ve fallen asleep at the bar. He groaned softly. Patton would be so disappointed in him.

“Glad to see you’re awake”, a soft voice said and Roman pushed his head, craning his neck to look at the blurry figure behind the bar. Patton came into focus, light shining from behind him and making him look like even more of an angel. My angel, Roman thought sleepily as he pushed himself forward, giving the bartender a sleepy, lovesick gaze.

“I think he’s still drunk”, someone muttered to his left and Roman startled to attention quickly.

Virgil gave the man next to him a quizzical look, frowning at the sudden awareness the man portrayed.

“Virgil, be nice”, Patton muttered and Virgil rolled his eyes, looking back at Roman, lifting an eyebrow as the man’s face turned to him.

“Who’re you?”, Roman asked, squinting at Virgil, scrutinizing the man beside him.

“A ballerina”, Virgil said face deadly serious, making Patton chuckle quietly behind his hand.

“Really?”, Roman asked, eyes widening a little.

“No, not really. I’m visiting your town, that’s all”, Virgil muttered and Roman narrowed his eyes as the man took a sip of a white liquid that Patton had sat down before him. “Thank you, Patton.”

“No problem”, Patton said as he grabbed a glass and filled it with the same liquid, setting it down in front of Roman and filling up another for himself.

“A visit?”, Roman questioned, voice tense like a wire as he took his eyes off Virgil and directing them to the milk in front of him. “Not many people come for visits, so tell me…what makes you so special?”

“Huh?”, Virgil asked and Patton seemed to give the floor an exasperated sigh.

“You heard me. What makes you so special? If you’re going to court Logan I want to know what makes you so different from everyone else that’s come and tired”, Roman said, swishing the milk around in his glass.

“I’m not here for M- Lilac. I’m not here for Lilac”, Virgil said, eyes trailing on the bar as he hoped that Roman hadn’t picked up on the little slip of his tongue.

“Really, now? So, what are you doing here, because no one comes to visit any of us except for Logan. So, if you are here for him, you better confess now or tell me your real reason for being here”, Roman said, hand gripping the glass tightly as he eyes slipped to Virgil.

“I’m here for Thomas…was here. I’ve got what I wanted, now I’m heading home”, Virgil said and Roman made a sound of acknowledgment.

“Did Thomas deflower someone in your town? Is that why you’re here?”, Roman asked, voice like ice as if he was searching for some reason to hurt the rich man.

“No, sorry. As much as I’d like to give you a reason to hurt him, no. I just do business with him and we had to sort some things out”, Virgil said, making Roman deflate a little.

“Argh, you’re no help”, Roman growled softly, running a gloved hand through his hair and sighing.

“What was I supposed to be able to help you with?”, Virgil asked and Roman turned his attention back to Virgil, an eyebrow raised.

“Well…I was hoping Thomas had done something that would show me he wasn’t right for Logan. Man gives me the shivers. He always feels so cold…too cold, like he’s made of ice”, Roman said with a sigh.

“You have no idea”, Virgil muttered while Roman just lent back and groaned.

“He’s not right for Logan. Why can’t his father just let him choose for once?”, Roman growled and Patton nodded in agreement. Virgil let out a small murmur of thanks before he stood, dropped some coins and began to make his way to the door.

“Hey, Virge. Can I call you that?”, Patton yelled and Virgil turned around, looking back and giving the man a small nod of approval. “You left these behind”, Patton said, tossing Virgil’s money back at him. Virgil caught it, looked at it and let out a chuckle.

“That’s for you. For putting up with me for the night”, Virgil said, tossing the small pieces of silver and gold back at the barkeeper.

“I insisted you stay here the night. You don’t have to pay me. We’re friends now”, Patton said with a smile. Virgil gave the man a nod, tipping his hat a little while Roman seemed to have returned to sulking. The outlaw turned on his heel and began to move to the door when it opened and he came face to face with the topic of their earlier conversation. Logan stepped aside, giving Virgil a little nod and smile, before he moved to his friends and slapped the back of Roman’s head.

“You halfwit”, Logan muttered as he sat down, making the other hunter smile widely, Patton’s smile turning into a grin at the presence of the other bespectacled male. Virgil’s hand tightened into a fist as Roman said something, making the other two laugh a little. He wrinkled his nose and turned around, rubbing his cheek as he exited the bar to find his horse.

Di stood where he had left here, somewhat disgruntled from being in the same spot all day and night, but happy to see him nonetheless. She snorted softly as he ran a hand over the short hair of her nose, fingers trailing up to the soft tuft of hair, running his gloved hand through her mane before letting it settle on the saddle. He rubbed his face with his other hand and smiled at the mare, taking his time to walk to her side, untired reins in his hand. He threw them over her head and pushed himself up, steadying the mare with hushed words before turning his head to the hill. His gaze narrowed on the white house, so innocently standing atop the dusty red track. He almost spat at how disgusted he was. How could his boss stand to live there, surrounded by people so innocent and naïve to the rest of the world? How could he stand to live here, deceiving them as he sat in his high-backed chairs sipping his fancy alcohol and smirking at their lives, as infinitesimal as ants.

Was it wrong to want his boss to be exposed to this town? Probably not, at least then the man would get out of Virgil’s hair and he’d be free to rob and go where he pleased. Sure, he wasn’t the best person, but these people…these people needed more than just those two hunters to protect them. They needed Virgil, didn’t they? They needed someone with influence and someone on the inside to protect them from the dangers of other outlaws. The hunters would leave, but if Virgil said this place was off limits they’d stay away. They’d stay away because he was Virgil Hunterson and no one messed with Virgil Hunterson…well, no one but the hunters that is.

So, with a smirk to the house on the hill Virgil set off to the outskirts of the town. He needed to speak to Joan and make sure the others knew this town was under his protection. Di neighed and he raced off, dust clouding his exit from the town centre.

Logan was on his feet the instant Roman went for a clingy hug. Stumbling back a little and into someone’s chest, arms wrapping around his own in an attempt to steady him and stop his descent to the ground.

“I’m flattered you’d fall for me, but I didn’t mean it quite this literally”, a voice said in a joking tone and Logan looked up at Thomas’ smiling face. A smile slipped onto his own lips as he steadied himself in Thomas’ grip, making sure he didn’t hurt the other man as he tried to stand by himself. Pulling himself to stand, the hunter felt his legs wobble with the adrenaline, Thomas instantly tightening his grip as they give out beneath him.  

“Th-thank you”, Logan stuttered, trying to pull himself up with the side of the bar.

“Not a problem”, Thomas said with a small smirk, finally releasing the hunter from his grip. His gaze wandered to Roman and Patton, smirk turning into a slightly nervous smile as he looked at the pair. The hunter had a wary look on his face, eyes narrowed and looking down at him from his seat, making the man feel small in comparison. The bartender was still cleaning a glass, his eyes wide and friendly, but Thomas didn’t trust the man for a moment, he could see the suspicious glint in the man’s eyes. He looked at Logan and almost sighed in relief. While the other two were suspicious and wary of his intentions the bespectacled hunter seemed more than welcoming as to his being there and helping him. It was refreshing not to have to do too much work to get what he wanted. He just hoped the hunter wouldn’t give him too much of a fight when it came to the marriage. Slow and steady wins the race, they always said and in this case the old axiom never rung so true.

Acknowledgements/Thank you to: @xxtearfulchildxx (@lowkeysalient ) and @sea-blue-child

Same rules apply as before: If you want to be notified, thanked or acknowledged just send me an ask, message me privately or ask in the notes. Also, @sea-blue-child I’m holding you to your word that you’ll help me with linking posts. Well, that’s all for now. Thanks for reading :)

[fattlestacks]

Meme Thing I was Tagged In

1. Nickname: Jaymz. That’s what my friends call me. :)

2. Gender: Somewhere in the middle I guess, depending on the day? But you can use whatever pronouns you want when addressing me, I don’t really care, haha.

3. Star Sign: Scorpio.

4. Height: 5′1″ on a good day, though I think I’ve been shrinking... shit was I four foot something last time the doctor checked?

5. Sexuality: Aces for the most part, but with kinks. Prefer to party alone most of the time if you know what I mean. ;)

6. Hogwarts House: Which house is the one where all of the painfully average middle of the road kids go? Is that Hufflepuff? Not the smart kids... do they have like groups of stoners at Hogwarts?

7. Favorite Animal: Currently skunks. I’ve become obsessed with them...

8. Average Hours Spent Asleep: 6? I go to bed too late and wake up too early most of the time.

9. Dogs or Cats: Cats. I have six of these assholes in my house.

10. Dream trip: Tropical beach maybe... if it’s not too sunny... I have PLME.

11. The number of blankets I sleep with: 1... what a weird question! Do cats count as blankets?

12. Dream job: Lottery Winnings Collector.

13. When I made this account: I’m not sure... I feel like it was this year sometime.

14. Why I made this account: I already had a Fattlestacks account on Deviant Art where I posted my weight gain/belly art and decided I’d make a separate Tumblr account too. My main account is here. 

15. Number of followers: Geez... I think there’s almost a thousand. :S

I’m too lazy to tag anyone... does that mean the chain letter demons are going to get me? 

[kpopsinarios]

Pizza and Puppies (Vernon)

word count: 1.1k universe: mood ring au a/n: this story is back after tumblr deleted it :’) it might be a bit different unfortunately due to me editing through tumblr last time

You don’t remember exactly why you left the house that day. You just felt the urge to leave, like an invisible force was screaming at you to get up and go. Slipping on your shoes, You grabbed your phone, wallet, and keys, and walked out into the world. The first thing you noticed was that the neighbor (someone you generally tried to avoid due to his crazy temper) was outside mowing his lawn. His outline was a buzzing red, but he still paused to wave a greeting to you. You waved one back before climbing into your car and driving off. Where to go? You realized you probably should have planned out what you were doing before you got in the car. Sighing, you decided it was better to just go to a strip center and just walk around. Maybe even do a bit of window shopping. Surprisingly, it wasn’t too terribly crowded. Then again, it was a weekday, and most people were off working while their kids were in school. You felt at ease, seeing as you were never really a big fan of crowds. It was quiet and pleasant, and you felt your mood surge upwards. It was going to be a good day, and you were sure of it. Even though you didn’t have a pet, you figured it would be nice to go into the pet store and look around for a bit, pet a few guinea pigs or something. But it must have been your lucky day, because there was a giant pen of puppies at the back of the store that you had to physically hold yourself back from running towards. In front of the pen was a guy with a pink outline that pretty much radiated pure love for the little puppies. As you got closer, you saw an employee approach him. “Sir, would you like to adopt one of these puppies?” Suddenly, blue started splotching the beautiful pink that surrounded him. “I actually can’t get a dog… I work too much so I’m always busy. But I’d love to get one someday.” The employee smiled and nodded before walking away just as you reached the pen. Bending down, you laughed as the little puppies came running clumsily to you. You didn’t meant to, but you glanced up at the guy swirled with pink and blue. As his eyes met yours, he was suddenly enveloped in gold, and you could have sworn he looked like some type of god. Just as you couldn’t take your eyes off of him, it seemed like he couldn’t keep his off of you. His jaw was slack in what you could only assume was shock as what just happened sunk in. He opened and closed his mouth multiple times, searching for words. So you decided to speak for him. “I’m y/n,” you said, standing up and walking towards him. “And I guess I’m your soulmate.” “Nice,” the boy responded, staring up at you for a few seconds before realizing he hadn’t introduced himself. “Um, I’m Vernon, sorry, I’m kinda new at this whole meeting-the-person-you’re-supposed-to-be-with-for-the-rest-of-your-life thing.” You laughed. “That makes two of us,” The gold finally faded around him, revealing the pink and blue from before that was quickly changing to a sunny yellow. Just to confirm that you had found your soulmate, the gold hue would return every few seconds. Vernon gasped, and quickly stood up. “We should go somewhere! Somewhere to get food or something so that we can get to know each other!” And that’s how you ended up at a small diner ordering the greasiest food you had even seen in your life. You leaned over to Vernon, whispering as you eyed the waitress who you were pretty sure was sleeping standing up. “I think we’re gonna die if we eat this.” His eyes sparkled with laughter. “Don’t be a wuss! Come on, y/n, live a little. The grease won’t kill you-” he paused, making sure to lean a little closer. “-for another 20 years at least.” You rolled your eyes as you poked your food with your fork. Yuck. But the way that Vernon was looking at you with the slightest hint of challenge in his eyes made you buckle. Quickly shoving your fork in your mouth, you winced and Vernon burst out laughing at your expression. “Your turn, jerk,” you said in between gulps of water. He shrugged and bit into his pizza. His expression didn’t change at all, but you noticed the once yellow aura that surrounded him rapidly turning green, making you raise your eyebrows at him. “How’s it taste?” “Amazing.” “Liar.” He put his hands up as if you had said something that offended him. “While I will admit that that was probably the worst thing I have ever put into my body, I will not let you accuse me of being a liar!” “Vernon, you’re literally green from head to toe,” you sighed. “Okay, yeah, you’re right, I’m a liar,” he grinned. You both decided that it was time to pay and leave, for the sake of your arteries. The waitress suddenly came to life, scaring the crap out of you and Vernon. “$25.40,” she mumbled, and Vernon, clearly freaked out, shoved her $40 and told her to keep the change. He grabbed your hand and practically dragged you out behind him. “Is it just me or was that woman terrifying?” he questioned, still shuddering. You giggled before full-out laughing. “I thought! She was asleep!” you managed to croak through gasps of air. Seeing you laugh made Vernon start to grin too, and soon, you both looked like idiots crying from laughter in a gross diner parking lot. You would come to learn that laughter was pretty much never-ending when it came to Vernon. He was your missing puzzle piece. Sometimes he would even claim that you were the hip to his hop (which pretty much always resulted in you rolling your eyes and throwing a pillow at him or something). But no matter what he did, he always managed to win your heart over and over again. Especially when you two would visit the pet shop that you met at. Somehow, magically, you ended up with a puppy. Vernon claimed that he didn’t influence the decision to get one at all, but really, how could you say no when Vernon hugged the dog and you had two pairs of puppy dog eyes staring into your soul? Whatever, it would make a cute story to tell your friends. Plus, after you took the puppy home, Vernon bought you pizza- but this time, it was actually edible.

[propheticfire]

Got tagged by @shadow-is-upon-us!

Rules: Answer the questions, then make your own and tag people.

Questions:

1. If you could live in any themed bedroom, what would it be? Oh gosh, um, maybe like Elven Woodland Realm? Or 18th Century French Court?

2. What’s your favorite time of day? I really like early dawn, when the sun has just come up, and things are still quiet and there’s that soft glow around everything. But I’m never awake to see it, because I’m most productive usually between 8pm and 3 in the morning.

3. Would you rather never have to do laundry the rest of your life, or never have to do dishes? Dishes. At least my clothes don’t get crusty with leftover glaze/sauce/oil/whatever, which you then have to rinse off before you can even think of putting it in the dishwasher, if you’re lucky enough to have a dishwasher in the first place.

4. If you could meet any fictional character, who would it be? ANY fictional character? How am I supposed to choose that? I guess since I’m on a Star Wars kick I’d really like to meet some clones, maybe all of them Captain Rex. Or like Captain America, or Dr. McCoy, or Mulan. I dunno.

5. If you were a mythological creature, what would you be? Oh man. I’d like to be a Chinese dragon or a unicorn/pegasus or an angel (do those count?), but based on who I am I’m more likely to be a dwarf.

6. Do you have a favorite planet? Saturn. I’ve always liked the rings.

7. Do you have a favorite Greek myth? I really like the tale of Eros and Psyche.

8. Are you more of a nighttime person, or a daytime person? NIGHTTIME.

9. What’s a food you could never give up? Honestly I don’t know. Is this “give up” in the sense that it isn’t available to me, or “give up” in the sense that I could technically obtain it but am choosing not to? Because those are very different.

10. What are you most looking forward to about today? I was looking forward to going out to celebrate my and both my grandparents’ birthdays, that were in September, that we weren’t able to celebrate yet because logistics, but now my grandma has a fever and doesn’t feel well so we’ll have to postpone it again. :(

1. Do you have a weird guilty pleasure? Not really?

2. Tea or coffee? Both. I’m sorry. I like both equally.

3. Do you have any pets? I have a 13-year-old cat named Sunny. She is very soft and is less of a little bitch now that she’s old.

4. What’s the first thing you do in the morning? Go to the bathroom, lol. Take my phone with me and scroll through tumblr like a loser.

5. Favourite sleep position? On my side.

6. How many languages do you speak? One. :( But there’s so many I wish I could speak. I’m just really bad at languages.

7. Favourite food? By “food” are we talking a specific dish, or a specific category of food, or a type of cuisine? I like Indian food a lot, and like, Asian food in general? I’m also very fond of tropical fruits. I used to love egg dumplings with onions and bacon, but now that I’m trying to be vegan I gotta find a different favorite dish.

8. Do you have any plants in your home? YES!! I have Mimban the zz plant, Eve the cactus, Fanny the ivy, and Rex the begonia that all technically belong to me. Then there’s a pothos plant and some little shamrock thingies and a lucky bamboo and some weird flower/shrub things that came in from outside.

9. What’s the greatest thing that could happen today to you? I could miraculously win a shit ton of money and also find a lifelong romantic partner and all of my health problems could go away. Or, realistically, I could actually eat vegan food today. But I don’t think any of those things are going to happen, even the realistic one.

10. Favourite song? She Moved Through the Fair  (Irish folk tune)

1. If you can bend elements like in avatar last airbender which element you would choose? Umm, I’ve never seen the show, so I can’t approach this from a show-specific standpoint. And all the elements are really cool, and I’m having a hard time picking. Air might be most useful day-to-day, but fire is baller. Earth would help me grow plants a lot better. Water is great I love water. I don’t know!

2. Cat or a dog person? Generally I’m a cat person. But I like dogs too.

1. Favorite Quote from a fictional character? (Book, anime, videogame…) Gosh, I don’t know! You know how many fictional characters I’ve come across in my time? And all the things they’ve said? *sigh* The only thing coming to mind right now is, “Well slap me thrice and hand me to me mamma, it’s Jack!” from Gibbs, in Pirates 3. That’s all I’ve got.

2. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes. Saw one once too. Though my mother still doesn’t believe me.

3. Have you ever pretended to have an accent when speaking English? Hahaha, this is a daily occurrence. My normal accent is standard American/midwest, and English is my only first language. I usually talk to myself in a typical London British accent, though if asked, I can also do Scottish, Australian, Cockney British, RP British, American South soft r, American South hard r, really stereotypical Minnesotan/Northern, French, German, and Russian/Slavic.

And here’s what I’ll add: 1. What’s your favorite season?

2. Do you play a musical instrument?

3. Shower in the morning or shower before bed?

4. What’s your favorite perfume/cologne/body spray?

I’m gonna tag @thebisexualmandalorian, @kristsune, @rex-ol-boy, and really honestly anyone else who wants to do it. But no pressure.

[sagiow]

Top 5 / Bottom 5

Rules: tag the person who tagged you, always post the rules, answer the questions, and add the date!  

Tagged by @jomiddlemarch​ who’s on a fanfic tagging rampage tonight ;)

   What are your five most popular works? (starting with the most kudos)

What are your five least popular works? (starting with the least kudos)

Hahaha, this is stupidly easy: I only have 5 works posted, all in the Mercy Street fandom, and all after the show was cancelled. Here they are!

For All the Nights to Come (30 kudos / 410 hits / 9239 words) http://archiveofourown.org/works/10565166/chapters/23342334

My first fanfic in over a decade, written out of grief over the show’s cancellation and the last finale scene. Takes place immediately after it. Fluffy, thyphoid-healing hurt/comfort Phoster shipping. I just saw it now has over 400 hits which is just completely crazy to me!!! (However, it was posted in three installments back when the fandom was still active and trying to mend its broken heart, so there’s definitely some repeat readings there as I posted new chapters.)

The rush I got from the comments on the first chapter is what gave me the push to keep writing. Barely getting any comments on the last chapter made me consider stopping altogether. See how fickle writers can be?

Not sure I’ll ever top this, in terms of word count, hits or kudos.

 Seven Years a Mother (14 kudos/116 hits/ 2260 words) https://archiveofourown.org/works/10955796

A sunny story taking place a decade or so after the show and focussing on Mary Foster, Emma Hopkins and their family life after the war. Written around Mothers’ Day as a theme, and after my 2nd story  didn’t get as much love as my first, testing the hypothesis that happier stories get more kudos: so far, hypothesis supported.

 Long Day’s Journey Into Night (7 kudos / 142 hits / 5471 words) http://archiveofourown.org/works/10868760/chapters/24143625

2nd work posted, but written as an alternate, sadder Chapter 3+ for “For All the Nights to Come” in which Mary doesn’t survive and Jed re-battles his morphine addiction. Initially done to present my idea of Mary’s mysterious second letter to Jed, and ended up serving as a plausible Season 3 premiere, with vignettes/chapters including almost the whole staff.

Probably the most ambitious, the one that took me the longest to plan and write, and one I am quite proud of, despite its melodramatic tendencies(reflects the mood I was in at the time).

 PE4CHE5 (4 kudos / 49 hits / 5066 words) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11268072/chapters/25196538

A modern AU taking place in a pharmaceutical development company, with the Mansion House staff occupying similar positions in that environment. Phoster focus. Many Season 2 parallels with the typhoid storyline (although here it’s only Mary’s job on the line, not her life). My last posting on AO3 so far.

 An American Cheese in Paris (4 kudos / 23 hits / 682 words) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11175615

23 hits?!? Seriously? That’s it? This is the only one that was posted entirely on tumblr, with glorious glamour shots of the food it mentions, so maybe some readers had quite enough and didn’t need to go to AO3.

We had a string of modern AUs with a snack food theme, mine was about American cheese. I actually had a blast writing this one, and got it down in one shot: it’s short, funny and Lisette speaks French. Wins all around.

 Are you surprised? Why?

I’m somewhat surprised that the modern AU pieces got so few hits, but I did write them last, months after the show’s cancelation, and the fandom was much quieter then. Others have mentioned that their modern AU stories are also less popular.

I’m also intrigued as why Long Day’s Journey Into Night never got the kudos its happier, shippier Civil War siblings got. Major character death? Darker themes? Too melodramatic? Just generally inferior? I’d love to know!

Optional: If you want to calculate this, what are your works’ average number of notes?

About 10%, but kudos and fantastic comments from @jomiddlemarch​ on each, which definitely drives the average up for the low hit stories.

Today’s date, so you can see how your results might change if you do this again in a year.

16th August 2017

Tag six people to do this next!

I’ll tag @dancesontheedge​ because she wasn’t tagged in my previous post and she did illuminate us all with the Origin Story of Orange Cheese and provide inspiration for the modern AU snack food story.

[crustaceanfather]

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HO shIt I never saw this Im so sorry

 Full name Brooke Cannon My middle name is a secret

Zodiac sign leo 3 Fears Spiders It says spiders but thats a lie. 1.The dark. 2. Dying Slowly 3. Global Warming3 things I love 1. Everything 2. my pets. 3. my friendsHow tall am I 5′6″What do I miss Sleeping InDo I have a crush  on every girl aliveFavourite quote “I’m dying Squirtle.”Favourite place My schools auditorium What am I listening to right now TAZFirst thing I notice in new person The kind of jokes they make and laugh atShoe size 7 sometimes 7 1/2 How I feel right now Not too bad not too goodSomeone I love Omg all my friendsFavourite holiday HalloweenTattoos and piercing i want fuck yeah I want a shark/ anchor/ sailor tattoo on my arm and the Revolution Radio radio with the date 8/28/17 Somewhere, thinking my ankle the word Stupid with an arrow pointing to myself somewhere, thinking chest or somethign stupid, Spider or snake bites, maybe shark bites. Maybe eyebrow peircings who even knowHow long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Depends, If im doing my usualy jeans and a t shirt like 10 or 15 mins for the hair and everything. If im wearing a Look probably like 30 mins or even longerWhere am I right now? My bedroomDo I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Not too loudly if im using earbuds but loudly if its out (but not if im near people who don’t want to hear my music im no jerk)Am I excited for anything? School tomorrow? I just miss my friendsIs there anyone I trust even though I should not? Uh Yeah everyoneWhat is something I disliked about today? Leaving work What do I think about most? fuck idkWhat’s my strangest talent? I have no talentsDo I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? hngggggg bothWhat was the last lie I told? Oooo i dont even knowDo I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? VIdeo video video video video all the WAyDo I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?  Fuck yeahDo I believe in magic? Who doesn’tDo I believe in luck? Yeah cuz I have noneWhat’s the weather like right now? Sunny and niceWhat was the last book I’ve read? Im reading Life After Life for SchoolDo I like the smell of gasoline? Fuck YeaaaahDo I have any nicknames? So many, Dan, my co-worker, gives me a new nickname like every dayWhat was the worst injury I’ve ever had? Do concussions count cuz I’ve had so many of them  Do I spend money or save it? BOth!!Can I touch my nose with a tongue? YeaIs there anything pink in 10 feets from me? Yeah my colored pencilsFavourite animal? All of them What was I doing last night at 12 AM? SnooooozingWhat’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Play ANY Green Day songHow can you win my heart? Be niceWhat would I want to be written on my tombstone? uh maybe “Fuck” or something vulgar What is my favourite word No there are so many words I can’t chooseMy top 5 blogs on tumblr Ohhh geez cutiepiemime tattoo-design Uh disorderedtrashhider disgruntledbyeverything and so many more i cant name just 5 I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?  I can breathe underwater What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? oooo idk anything about like my life or how I view myself or how I live my life or whateverWhat is my current desktop picture? Its the default cuz its a school computer and doesn’t save desktop picturesBeen to a wedding? YEah they’re weirdBeen on the computer for 5 hours straight? You know itWatched TV for 5 hours straight? SadlyRode in an ambulance? NopeHad a surgery? Thank god noBroken a mirror? NopeWas I named after anyone? FUckIng Garth BrooksWhat was my favourite toy as a child? I had so many Favourite Tv Show? Rn The Office Where do I want to live when older? AnywhereFavourite pizza toping? CheeseAm I afraid of the dark? YeS If you aren’t You’re SO wrongAm I afraid of heights? YES and If you aren’t whats wrong with you Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Doing bad stuff yeah i’ve never sneaked outWhat my greatest achievements are You are a fool to think i’ve ever achieved anYthingWhat I’d do if I won in a lottery Ask for saturday’s offWhat do I like about myself nopeMy closest Tumblr friend You!!!!! and cutiepiemimeSomething I fantasize about my ex Them Not Being 

[kitjoy]

This could be fun or extremely sad

1: Name: Jess 2: Age: 17 3: 3 Fears: Wasps, Small spaces and idk 4: 3 things I love: My dogs, My cats and movies 5: 4 turns on: Hair pulling, Dry humping, Kissed against a wall, Moaning lol 6: 4 turns off: Dirty Talk (not a big fan), Feet, Cockiness, Guys who STOP TALKING TO YOU STRAIGHT AFTER YOU GOT OFF WITH THEM  7: My best friend: Meg and Emily  8: Sexual orientation: Um probs like Bi or something but 90% attracted to boys 9: My best first date: Aint had one tbh 10: How tall am I: 5′5 11: What do I miss: Not having responsibilities  12: What time were I born:  3pm 13: Favorite color: Yellow 14: Do I have a crush: Nah 15: Favorite quote:  A lot of movie quotes 16: Favorite place: Home 17: Favorite food: Italian food 18: Do I use sarcasm: No(!) 19: What am I listening to right now: Hold on- SE22 Mix 20: First thing I notice in new person: Usually mouth or eyes 21: Shoe size: 7 22: Eye color: Hazel 23: Hair color: Naturally Blonde/Brown but Grey atm 24: Favorite style of clothing: Oversized jackets are my shit 25: Ever done a prank call?: Yeah when I was like 12 27: Meaning behind my URL: Just liked the sound of it 28: Favorite movie:  Die Hard 29: Favorite song:  Changes all the time 30: Favorite band: ^ 31: How I feel right now:  Eh 32: Someone I love: My Momther 33: My current relationship status:  Singleeee (and have been for abt 4 yrs??) 34: My relationship with my parents:  Ok I guess 35: Favorite holiday:  Either Halloween or Christmas 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: Arrow of my hip, Something to do with my zodiac of my ankle, Ears pierced 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: A drawing my mum did when she was my age (The dragon on a The Clash CD cover) 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: Don’t remember 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?:  Barely remember him tbh 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: Nope 41: Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? Nah 42: When did I last hold hands?  Agesss ago 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?  Depends if im late or not 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?  No but I need to goddamn 45: Where am I right now? My bedroom (as always) 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Myself I’m pretty responsible when drunk imo 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Fuckin loud hell yeah 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Yep 49: Am I excited for anything? V festival and a J Cole concert I’m going to :DD 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? FUCK no 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Not so much nowadays 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Last weekend 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Wouldn’t care lmao 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? Yup 55: What is something I disliked about today? Nothing yet but it’s still early 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Ri Ri or Chance the Rapper I lov them 57: What do I think about most?: Probs my future 58: What’s my strangest talent?:  Can crack almost every joint in my body 59: Do I have any strange phobias?: Nah I think they’re all valid 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: Behind 61: What was the last lie I told?: That I didn’t have weed on me lol 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: Who even talks on the phone anymore 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: Yes to ghosts, idk to aliens 64: Do I believe in magic?: Nah 65: Do I believe in luck?: Not really 66: What’s the weather like right now?: Sunny but windy 67: What was the last book I’ve read?: 1984 (and still haven’t finished it) 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: Only when I have a full tank in my car  69: Do I have any nicknames?:  Used to be called Jep 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?:  Ripped my toenail half off once (: 71: Do I spend money or save it?: Try to save it 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: Yeah 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: Yeah my candle jar 74: Favorite animal?: Hmm dogs and cats are cool but I love leopards 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: Playing Sims 4 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?:  Probably Trump or something 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: Freedom By George Michael 78: How can you win my heart?: Be attentive to me and don’t be fake  79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: Baddest bitch there ever was 80: What is my favorite word?: Goiym 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr:  Don’t really have a top 5 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: Waddup wanna hang? 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?:  Apparently I do I found out recently 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: Either invisibility bc I’m a nosy bitch or levitation 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: How are you feeling? 86: What is my current desktop picture? Deadpool 87: Had sex?: Nah 88: Bought condoms?: Nope 89: Gotten pregnant?: No 90: Failed a class?: not yet luckily 91: Kissed a boy?: Yah 92: Kissed a girl?: Yah 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: Nope 94: Had job?: Yep 95: Left the house without my wallet?: I do it all the time 96: Bullied someone on the internet?: No way 97: Had sex in public?: Nope 98: Played on a sports team?: Does a school team count 99: Smoked weed?: Hell yeah 100: Did drugs?: Only weed 101: Smoked cigarettes?: Yeah 102: Drank alcohol?: Ofc 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: No way couldn’t like without bacon 104: Been overweight?: Nope 105: Been underweight?: Yeah but that’s just my body type 106: Been to a wedding?: Yep 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: Literally everyday :/ 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: Probs when I was younger 109: Been outside my home country?: Yah 110: Gotten my heart broken?: No 111: Been to a professional sports game? Don’t think so 112: Broken a bone?: Luckily no 113: Cut myself?: Yup 114: Been to prom?: Yeah 115: Been in airplane?: Yeah 116: Fly by helicopter?: No I wish 117: What concerts have I been to?: Olly Murs and JLS concert (I’m cool), and V festival 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: Nope not yet 119: Learned another language?:  I’m ok at German I guess 120: Wore make up?: Yep 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?: Not yet but I’m working on it lmao 122: Had oral sex?: Nah 123: Dyed my hair?:  Multiple times 124: Voted in a presidential election?: No 125: Rode in an ambulance?: No 126: Had a surgery?: Yep 127: Met someone famous?: Nah 128: Stalked someone on a social network?:  Who hasn’t 129: Peed outside?: Yah :/ 130: Been fishing?: Yeah 131: Helped with charity?: Yes 132: Been rejected by a crush?: Not directly 133: Broken a mirror?: Nope 134: What do I want for birthday?: Erm probably like money or a sick 18th party when I can then drink (legally)

[ghoulstars]

ok ive been tagged a lot over the past like month and i havent done like any of the tags because im a horrible procrastinator but ive gotten tagged in this specific thing 3 times today so im properly motivated to actually do it in a timely manner LOL here we go

Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

THE LAST:

1. drink: water that im slightly skeptical of 2. phone call: my friend Robi 3. text message: @shelteringskyy ??? i think?? yes probably 4. song you listened to: the fool by dead soul 5. time you cried: i think last month 6. dated someone twice: ive never dated anyone ever LOL 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yeah probably 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: i think so 10. been depressed: in certain contexts yes 11. gotten drunk: once and never again LMAO

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. purple 13. bronze 14. brown

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: yes and i love them ALL DEARLY and i re-iterate the sentiment THANKS GHOST LMAO 16. fallen out of love: maybe??? idk 17. laughed until you cried: YEP LMFAO 18. found out someone was talking about you: sort of but this person also told me straight up she was gonna talk about me and it was all in good fun so LOL who cares 19. met someone who changed you: YEP. 20. found out who your friends are: yeah 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: no

GENERAL:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like basically almost all of them except like 6 or so ppl? 23. do you have any pets: YES!!! i have three cats and two dogs and i love them all so much!!! 24. do you want to change your name: no 25. what did you do on your last birthday: my last bday fell on the night of prom so like i got up, got my hair done and then went to prom that night LOL prom itself was sorta shitty but i got to hang out with my friends who were all gorgeous and i got to look hot too so like win/win 26. what time did you wake up: 10am then fell asleep and woke back up at 12:30-something 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: skyping @shelteringskyy ,'^) 28. name something you can’t wait for: halloweeeeeeeen 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: a couple hours ago maybe less 31. what are you listening to right now: vinny vinesauce playing some weird ass game and myself typing 32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i actually don't think so 33. something that is getting on your nerves: it being so sunny recently (i like clouds fight me), my sleep schedule getting FUCKED up and me struggling to fix it, mysterious bug bites, the lack of motivation to study that has been haunting me since 2 months ago 34. most visited website: probably tumblr, youtube and facebook tbh 35. hair colour: naturally im a fucking ashy dirty wishwater blonde and im fucking tired of it so now i dye my hair dark brown LOL ;_; @my body please hurry up and make my hair darker 36. long or short hair: mine is long 37. do you have a crush on someone: only fictional characters as of right now 38. what do you like about yourself: my ass, my unibrow and my stomach hair 39. piercings: i started out with four when i was younger, one in each cartilage (partially) then one in each ear lobe. the cartilage ones closed up to due lack of usage and my lobe piercings closed up a bit but just cleaning them out returned them to normal lol. early last year i got my partial-cartilage piercing redone as well as two additional holes making eight total but i was a fool and took out all my earrings over the course of prom and left them out too long and they ALL grew back over except my redone cartilage holes and my lobes -_- i plan to get one more additional hole in my ears to make up for this fucking travesty and i also want a nose piercing. 40. blood type: no idea mate LMAO 41. nickname: shebby, shebs, shelbs, shelbles, shelbilly, bee and im probably forgetting more tbh 42. relationship status: single and content 43. zodiac: aries, aquarius rising and sagittarius moon 44. pronouns: she/her/hers 45. favourite tv show: uhhh like........bobs burgers maybe???? twin peaks??? always sunny?????????? 46. tattoos: none but FUCK do i want a grucifix or a mother/daughter tattoo 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: none so far 50. sport: no 51. vacation: honestly ill go like nearly anywhere in the world, im not picky tbh take me over the ocean or just three hours away and i think ill be happy 52. pair of trainers: do converse count....also my moms fucked up ancient grungey tennis shoes she has that i love to wear

MORE GENERAL:

53. eating: nothing but dinner was steak, steak fries and some yeast rolls. might eat this smores poptart here in a second 54. drinking: nothing bc that water was Skeptical 55. i’m about to: either attempt to study or watch more youtube vids idk 56. waiting for: the rain that appears to be gathering in the sky and winter 57. want: papa 3 to never ever leave but also papa 4 to come and decimate us (and also possibly decimate papa 3), to not potentially have mono, to draw, to get our bulldog fixed so he can come inside, to stop being fucking squeamish when i study about internal organs 58. get married: no...nono 59. career: veterinary assistant if i can handle assisting in injection administration LMFAO or an artist 60. hugs or kisses: kisses 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: ehhhh im not picky so idc 63. older or younger: O L D E R LMAO DAMMIT PAPA 64. nice arms or nice stomach: arms 65. hook up or relationship: neither in real life 66. troublemaker or hesitant: depends on whats happening lmao

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: yes 68. drank hard liquor: NO LMAO ABSOLUTELY NOT 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 70. turned someone down: YEP. 71. sex on the first date: i have never been with anyone in real life ever so neither 72. broken someone’s heart: probably 73. had your heart broken: sort of?? 74. been arrested: no god LMAO 75. cried when someone died: well yeah 76. fallen for a friend: not really

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: depends 78. miracles: in some cases 79. love at first sight: only sort of. 80. Santa Claus: who the FUCK is santa claus 81. kiss on the first date: ...ehhh??? 82. angels: probably

OTHER:

84. eye colour: hazel 85. favourite movie: I HAVE TOO MANY OF THESE LMAO MY FAVORITE-FAVORITE FLUCTUATES A LOT AND IDK WHAT I WOULD SAY MY CURRENT FAV MOVIE IS....

anyway i tag @cloyterus and....i think everyone else i'd wanna tag has already been tagged or done this so here u go