#honesty hour

[fiona-fififi]

have seen some people claim that that buck didn't want to/had no plans of calling tommy after their first date went wrong and only did it because eddie told him to and was wondering about your thoughts on that? (for the honesty hour thing, lol)

Hi, anon! This is an interesting question. To be honest, I haven't really seen any specific conversations about this, so I don't really know the context.

But just, personally, I think this is an interesting point to think about. I mean, first, I think the question of whether Buck wanted to call Tommy and the question of whether he planned to call Tommy are two very different questions.

In terms of wanted to, I absolutely think he wanted to call Tommy again. That boy was so smitten, even after their date disaster.

But while I think he wanted to call Tommy again, I don't know that I think he would have without Eddie encouraging him.

Because I think he had kind of resigned himself to the idea that he fucked up too badly and Tommy wasn't interested anymore and maybe he really wasn't ready. I think Buck struggles a lot with contending with his own feelings and sometimes feeling guilty for them, and I also think he probably didn't want to push Tommy’s boundaries, either, especially after the date had gone so bad when they'd run into Eddie.

So I do think Buck needed that push and encouragement to take that step to call Tommy again. And Eddie was probably the one he needed it from. Because Eddie has always provided a unique type of support for Buck. Because Eddie's primary concern when Buck is in his head about something is to make sure that Buck not only takes into account his own feelings, but also allows himself to feel them. Eddie asking Buck what he thinks? Asking him to consider his own feelings amid this new discovery about himself he's still working through? I think that was something Buck really needed to try to process what he was feeling and examining it probably helped him decide that it was worth at least trying by making that call.

So, yes, I do think Buck wanted to make that call. But no, I don't think he would have without Eddie's encouragement.

Honesty Hour, Ask me anything!

[nowhere-again1134]

HONESTY HOUR

If you see this and want to know anything about me I’m feeling open right now

Anon or not whatever you want to know!

[l4long-winded]

y'all, i love my boy carmy, but i have a little headcanon that his coworkers have a work groupchat without him 😭

[kissingghouls]

What do you think Mary Goore smells like?

Anon, if you only knew how much time I spend thinking about stuff like this... you'd probably be embarrassed for me.

I think Mary smells like smoke with a dash of sweat and dirt in a powerful pheromones kind of way and less of an unwashed way. They're not picky about soaps and they'll use whatever is there, but they do care what product is in their hair so there's usually a hint of coconut.

mostly thinks cologne is a waste of time and money, but they'd lean toward woodsy and leather scents. If we get real specific, I'm gonna say sage and leather the way that these incense smell (notes: sage, marble, leather). A mausoleum themed scent? Good luck getting that away from them.

will steal your lip balm and your favorite lotion no matter the scent or flavor.

[laineystein]

Anddddd today was my last day at the hospital (again)

A few weeks ago I got into a bit of a mess because we didn’t handle something properly and, in true me fashion, I wasn’t quiet about it. Israel is great. We are so technologically advanced. We are so far ahead of most countries when it comes to tech and medicine - except for in the ED. There’s reasons for this. It’s not willful ignorance. For so many years emergency medicine was not a medical specialty. It is a very new field in Israel and the state of our EDs is proof of that. And the care that we provide to patients suffers. There is so much that I can’t do because we are just not equipped and the way I was trained to handle things is not how my colleagues were and it creates problems. I just can’t do it anymore. It has broken my heart too many times. It’s a horrible feeling knowing you can’t help someone in the correct way because you don’t have the resources or capacity to do so. So I’m done for the foreseeable future. My work teaching outside the ED is so much more rewarding and I’m grateful that I’ll have more time to do it now BH.

[911-on-abc]

for ur honesty hour, what’s a storyline in 911 that you felt very personally/that you are thankful they touched on

Hi anon 👋

This is a hard hitting question because there are a lot. I keep thinking ooh what about this one and then my brain is like hey remember this?

I really appreciate Eddie’s storyline with his parents, specifically his father. I’ve really enjoyed seeing Eddie break down all of what he was forced to be and rebuild himself back up. It’s such a gift to watch Ramon put in the same effort. I’m not a dude, but I think it’s really powerful to see a character like Eddie confront the toxic masculinity and the machismo culture he was raised in.

Buck Begins is also an episode that I feel very personally. Me and Buck have a lot of similarities that I won’t get into. I like to remind myself that even if I feel aimless rn, Buck was in his late twenties when he found his people and where he fit. That means a lot to me.

[creatingnikki]

Baby. Listen. Hi. Okay now listen. Here, look here, please. So, you want to love and be loved, right? Have a happy, healthy, real, and wholesome relationship. The solid thing. The thing where the two of you journey together. Where you grow old together. Travel the world. Buy a house. Get married. Have children. Are there for every birthday and every success milestone and every heartbreak. The more you are together the more you fall in love with each other. It's the giddy, the sincere, the true kind of love. Right? You want that right?

Yes. Yes, I do want that.

Okay so then you have to stop getting in your way. Let me rephrase that actually. You have to stop letting the wrong people get in the way of that. Because if they clutter your way, if they jam your path, how are you ever going to be able to walk ahead and see your person? The one waiting there with flowers and a whole heart for you? The one with the warmest of smiles and the most comforting of hugs? The one who you will not have to translate your soul to because they would just know. They would just know you.

You're a punctual person, right? You hate when people make you wait. And you hate making others wait. So do you really want to make the love of your life wait? Do you really want to keep him standing there alone, in the sun, excited to see you but not show up?

No. Not at all.

So, then stop it. Also, stop going back. Stop turning around and walking back. Because it's only taking you further away from love. What you need to do right now is stop being nostalgic and become forward looking. If you're so attached to your pain and old memories how will you ever be able to make new ones with someone who will actually stay?

But...

I know. I know it's scary. The past, the pain, it's familiar. It's familiar, you know you can handle it because you have handled it before. So it feels comfortable. But it's a trap. An illusion. It's nothing more than a good looking magic trick. What you've been searching for may be as pure as myth. But it's definitely not smoke and mirrors. So, baby, listen.

Yes.

If you want a normal person and you want a normal life then you also have to be a normal person and build a normal life for yourself. And who says a normal life can't be satisfying? Or can't have sparkle? Or is not precious? Drama and trauma may be good for your art. But what about your heart? Your heart only wants calm. And you have never subscribed to the idea that only a pained life can yield good art. So don't give into that notion now. Let go of this attachment with your past and pain.

Is it possible? Can I really?

Yes! We will just have to change the way we approach life. Given a choice between being a person who lives in the past and one who lives in the future, now it's time to be the latter. Forget about the past. Only look ahead now. Think of what you want to do. Think of what you'd like from your life. The fitness level to be able to do pull ups and cartwheels. The fluency of level six Korean. Published books. Vacations with your friends. A beautiful home. And the smile to come back. The smile that you smiled from your soul.

What if I can't?

Can you try? Can you first at least agree to do this? Can you just stop looking back first? It's baby steps. But there has to be motion in the forward direction. There should. If you really want what you say you want. If you want to fulfill the needs that you have so deeply. Then there is no other way. Onwards and upwards.

I can try. I will start.

[kiwiana-writes]

The Shrek Universe establishes via Donkey and his sexy Dragon wife that interspecies relationships are normal. Do you think Fiona, having spent much of her life alone in a tower, ever had sexual relations with the very same Dragon?

FINALLY @hagface is here to ask the real questions.

I mean I think the first question we have to ask ourselves is: is Fiona queer? She seems very set on a knight coming to rescue her, and we only see male knights within the film itself, but a) that doesn't mean there aren't female knights, especially considering most of the knights we see are in Faarquad's employ, and he's hardly the bastion of gender equality and tolerance; and b) heteronormativity is a prison, and Fiona hasn't exactly had a lot of access to the queer community. I do think it's important to note that the wording of the curse is completely gender-neutral, so there's no reason for the curse to be driving her towards a particular gender (and conversely, no WLW loophole for her to exploit).

But let's work on the assumption that she is queer, or at least flexible enough to be open to situational queer encounters. The next practical consideration is whether either of them would look at the forced proximity and deem it not worth the risk. You ever fuck your flatmate and have it be absolutely terrible, and then you're stuck awkwardly interacting with them? Haha me either what are you talking about? Now imagine that, but without ANY way to escape it. Fiona might not have the worldly experience to realise that that's a very real risk, but Dragon might.

Finally... have you seen the size of Fiona's window? On a purely practical level, I think it's unlikely anything further than dirty talk and exhibitionism would be physically possible between them, you know?

But hey, there are ten fics on AO3 with this pairing, so... maybe one of them holds the answers you seek?

[Honesty hour, ask me anything!]

[evermorehqs]

it’s an honesty hour week!!

We know recently activity has been a little low as we've all hit a bit of a wall with muse but it hopefully help get inspiration flowing, we're going to be doing an honesty week! For the rest of the week, into the next, we're inviting people to send out honesty asks and reblog ask memes, facilitating muse and get people into the groove - have fun!

[exhuastedpigeon]

does tommy even know that eddie baby trapped buck ?!?! this man is So Brave dealing with their situationship

there's no way he knows. no way. because I'm convinced the only people who know are Eddie, Buck, Eddie's lawyer, Chris, and maybe Carla.

Tommy's gonna find out and realize that there's so much more going on with Buck and Eddie than even he realized, but Buck's hot so it's probably worth the drama.

honesty hour

[notsolonelyygirl]

Will you shake your ass for us?

Like this? 🤭

honesty hour 👀 anon or not I have to answer

[bubblesksss]

NO ES MALO PEDIR RECIPROCIDAD, HONESTIDAD, ATENCIÓN, RESPONSABILIDAD AFECTIVA; ES LO MÍNIMO QUE TODOS MERECEMOS, QUE NADIE NOS HAGA MENDIGAR SOBRAS DE AMOR HACIENDONOS CREER QUE SOMOS DEMASIADO EXIGENTES.

[theiaevangelineashwell]

I’ve spent the better part of a decade trying to figure out how I would write this

They say time heals all wounds

But the years pass me by in a haze and your presence in my mind grows stronger by the day

I don’t know why, but I really loved you

I think a part of me always will

Despite how fucked up that sounds

And back then

I just desperately wanted you to love me back

I don’t think I’ll ever tell anyone just how badly you fucked me up

Mind

Body

And soul

There is agony carved into my bones and signed in your blood

If you asked me if I would go back and change any of it

I honestly don’t know what my answer would be

Maybe I’d never meet you at all

And spare myself a lifetime of wondering where it all went wrong

Maybe I’d trust in what’s meant to be

And let it all play out exactly the same way

Or maybe

I’d pray to every god in this universe

And beg them to just let us make it

[eusuntgratie]

Don’t spiral! What’s your dream next project for Taylor?

Give me villain Taylor. Honestly in any context, I just wanna see him play the bad guy so bad. The asshole that breaks your heart, a super villain, a criminal mastermind. I don't care. Give me evil tzp 😈😈😈

[iamthecomet]

what's your favourite bird? O.O

Ravens (and all corvids, they're just so fucking smart it's amazing) and tufted titmice (titmouses?).