#thank you ellie for hyping me up ;w;

[caelanglang]

『 Is it bad if we’ve grown older, and decided that a world without the person I love is not worth the fuss? 』

In Loving Memory, by @blindblossom

made fanart for that one fanfic that shattered my heart :,)) Here ya go Ellie!

followed some of Yumingli's art tips for this one! here, here, and here.

[elliespeach]

no chances part four | ellie williams

˗ˏˋ"you still wanna ask me those questions?" ´ˎ˗

pairing: ellie williams x afab reader synopsis: you and ellie are on rival volleyball teams and after letting your competitive nature get the better of both of you, tensions are high on and off the court. warnings: 18+ we made it yall it's smut time. mentions of weed, foul language, explicit sexual descriptions, r! receiving fingering/head, thigh riding, scissoring, slight choking kink, fight then fuck kinda deal wordcount: 3.1k author note: hi hi lets pretend that the car ride actually took an hour they do it in minutes but lets just pretend ok? ok. i have been in a slump this week my brain is attacking me so i hope this is well enough for yall i didn't wanna leave u hanging!! i have plans i cannot share w you guys ab this series n i am hype asffff but anyway enjoy

when her car left the parking lot it was silent. the radio played softly but you or ellie didn’t utter a word. suddenly the reality of what she had offered sunk in, you two had an hour drive together. ellie focused on driving while you stared out into the window at the dark road. she had almost kissed you again and for the first time it didn’t raise any alarm bells in your head. everything was calm in those moments inches from her face, as if the world had been swept away from underneath the two of you. hearing the song on the radio dim out, your head turned to face her. ellie’s eyes were fixed on the road, one arm at the top of the wheel with the other resting on the gear knob. she caught you in her peripheral and her head turned slightly. 

“we don’t even know wh–” 

“i think you played–” 

you both spoke over each other, attempting to awkwardly break the silence that had enveloped you. ellie laughed lightly and it was probably the first time you had ever heard her laugh, “you go,” she said, turning the wheel to make a left and you caught a glimpse at her hands, gripped firmly around the wheel and a memory of them doing the same to your hips flashed in your mind before you cleared your throat to rid of it. 

“i was just gonna say we don’t even know who won the game,” you recalled, your hands placing themselves in your lap and pressing your legs together slightly. 

“oh, yeah–” she swiveled her head to catch a quick glance at you before focusing back on the road. “my money’s on my team.” she said cockily, again turning the wheel with only one hand. 

“only cause i wasn’t playing, right?” you banter, remembering her somewhat of a confession from your walk. she rolled her eyes but a small smile crept on the sides of her lips as she did. 

“oh my god, that is not what i fuckin’ said,” she laughed again, another quick glance at you, who was smiling proudly earning another eye roll from her. 

“what were you gonna say?” you asked her, peeling off your knee pads from your legs as they started to itch. 

ellie glanced down at your movement, quickly pulling her eyes back up to the road, “oh uhm–” she readjusted her grip on the steering wheel. “just that, your coach was stupid to pull you, you were doing fine.” 

your head snapped towards her, a dramatic shocked expression on your face. “a compliment? how did you not just implode spontaneously?” 

ellie shifted in her seat, bringing her hand that was previously on the gear shift to the bottom of the wheel and leaning on the window with her now free arm. “just say thank you like a normal person?” her tone had a hint of annoyance but the sly smile on her face gave her away, and instead of prying it out of her you just accepted it. 

“thanks–” your eyes darted back out to the road, out of the seclusion that was the community center and into a more urban area with street lamps and business on either side of the road. your eyes caught the highway sign right as you passed it and you sat up, your head turning to see it fade back into darkness as her car kept moving. “that was the highway,” you turned to her, her head snapping back as if to see the sign herself but her eyes returned to the road in front of her within seconds. 

“fuck,” she uttered under her breath. the car started to slow down, taking a quick look around the road. “one sec,” she turned her car to the left, placing it as close to the curb as she could, then shifted the car into reverse. her arm swung around to the back of your headrest and her body moved with it. you couldn’t help but stare as she did, her eyes fixed on the road behind you. because of her positioning, you could see the outline of her muscle filled arm, as if she was flexing them. the movement of her upper body made her shirt ride up in the front, exposing some of her toned stomach and before any thoughts could come to mind you darted your eyes away. 

ellie could feel as you watched and when she turned her head to meet your eyes they were already gone and she swiftly put the car back in drive before pulling away. the radio was the only thing audible in the car as she turned on the highway, picking up speed as she did and her car revved over the radio. you waited until she was comfortably cruising in the fast lane before speaking again, hating the words that came out of your mouth but not being able to do anything to stop yourself, “so can we talk about the big fat elephant that's in the car?” 

ellie sighed while checking her rearview mirror then looking at you briefly, “if you want to,” 

“why wouldn’t i?” 

“i dunno,” she shrugged, keeping her eyes on the highway in front of her. it was quiet again but only for a moment before she continued. “i can’t give you an explanation, if that's what you want.” she almost sounded disappointed in herself. 

“why not?” 

ellie rolled her eyes, taking a deep breath in. “why don’t you give me an explanation?” 

“because you kissed me, you cuddled with me, you almost kissed me again.” you listed off your reasons, using your fingers to count them off and she looked annoyed. 

“i didn’t do it alone–” her tone was harsh, as if the conversation was treading on thin ice. 

“yeah, but you started it.” you returned her attitude, feeling a familiar fight coming on. 

“do you want me to sit here and tell you that i did it for a reason? there was no reason–” ellie used her hand that was resting on the gears to emphasize her words, feeling agitated that you brought this up when the ride was going smoothly. the high was wearing off between the two of you and with it went the calm that had settled too. 

“why are you being so cagey?” your voice raised slightly. ellie switched lanes, seeing the exit she had to take in the distance. 

“why are you asking so many fucking questions?” she returned your raised voice, turning the wheel to take the exit. the ramp was long and curved and she slowed to a stop at the red light at the end of it. taking the time to turn to you, a grimace on her face.

you groaned, crossing your arms and leaning your knees against the car door away from her. “just thought we could have a legit conversation, but that seems out of your capabilities.” 

ellie pressed on the gas when the light turned green, making a turn towards your campus. the drive had felt like the longest and the shortest in your life, and now you kind of wished you took the bus. she remained quiet as you did, noticing your position in her passenger seat. “jesus fuckin’ christ,” she breathed out as the welcome sign to your campus came into view. 

you started again, “i just think its funny becau–” 

the car came to a halt on the deserted road sending you forward and you looked at her in disbelief. she quickly put the car in park and as you looked at her face only illuminated by the orange dashboard in front of her, you couldn’t read her. “what the hell, ellie?” you questioned, looking around and you thought she wanted you to walk the rest of the way. 

her hands came up to your face, redirecting your focus to her. she cupped your cheeks and brought your lips to hers. although the anger for her in you was still firmly in your chest, you didn’t fight her instead leaning further into the kiss. her tongue found yours like it had in the bathroom weeks ago, slipping it’s way over your tongue harshly sending shivers throughout your body. butterflies danced in your stomach as her hand left your face, wandering down your body to explore. 

you wanted to be closer, the middle console blocking any other physical contact you two could share. while still letting her tongue roam your mouth, you moved over the console and placed yourself in her lap. it was uncomfortable, but her hands instantly wrapped around your hips and slid down to grab your ass. you rocked your body against hers, liking the feeling of her underneath you and she squeezed your ass tightly. your lips disconnected from hers and instead found her neck, leaving sloppy wet kisses all over it. ellie’s breathing was barely recovering and as you kissed her neck, incoherent mumbles and short quick breaths filled your ears. 

her hands that had been running up and down your back found their way in between you two, groping your tits firmly and you hummed against her neck at the feeling. the pressure formed between your legs all the faster as she massaged them, keeping one hand placed on your breast, squeezing as much as she could, she used her other hand and traced it up your chest to your neck, wrapping her fingers lightly around it. this pulled you back from her neck, making eye contact with her green eyes. though the green had vanished, replaced with dilated eyes glossed over with every touch you placed on her. 

she studied your face, her hand still around your neck. her head tilted, taking you all in while you straddled her lap and a sly smile formed on her wet lips, “you still wanna ask me those questions?” her voice raspy, hoarse even and she tightened her grip on your neck ever so slightly. way different than it was before and it took everything in you not to melt in her lap. 

“shut up,” you groaned, bringing your face back down to kiss her again, rolling your body against her. you could feel her smirk against the kiss, retreating her hands back down to your hips to move with them against her. the smirk didn’t diminish and this time it was you who snuck your hand up to her neck, gripping with the same firmness she had, you broke the kiss but hovered over her lips as her eyes opened to meet yours separated by only millimeters, “you are insufferable.” 

a light chuckle came from her, sinking her fingers into your hips, “and yet here you are,” her neck extending to allow your grip to remain. there was a beat of silence, both of your heavy breathing over powering the radio that still played lightly in the background. you let go of her neck, sliding your hand down her torso and feeling her tits through the layers of clothing. she attached her mouth to your neck as you had done, sucking a little too hard and you worried about hickeys but it felt too good in the moment to tell her to stop. but she did and her words bounced off of your now sensitive skin, “do you have a roommate?” 

that’s how you ended up barging into your dorm with her hands all over you, slamming the door shut behind her without ever breaking the kiss. she pushed you against the closest wall, gripping your skin in her hands before trailing kisses down your neck to your stomach, getting on her knees as she slid off your shorts to reveal the very small underwear you had on. she kissed your pussy through your underwear and you had to stop your knees from buckling at the feeling. a wet spot was very obviously noticeable on your panties and it only intensified ellie’s efforts. using her teeth she bit down on the top of your underwear, pulling it down as much as she could before your dripping cunt was in front of her. she used her fingers to move your panties down further, running her hands back up your legs as she looked up at you with lustful eyes. 

she lifted one of your legs, slinging it over her shoulder before plunging her tongue into your folds. you bit down on your lip to keep from moaning and your fingers laced themselves in her auburn hair, her tongue already better than anything you could do to yourself. it traced circles on your clit and as she shoved herself deeper into your pussy, you couldn’t help the moans that slipped out of your mouth. with hearing this, ellie was brought back to the bathroom and her brain went into overdrive. she removed her tongue only to then suck on your clit, feeling your leg shake on her shoulder and she brought a finger up to run through your slick. 

she looked at you as she did, her mouth a wet mess and you were in shambles above her. her finger teasingly ran up and down your exposed cunt, giving you just enough but not nearly anything close to the feeling over her tongue. your head leaned back against the wall and your eyes shut tight and she tsk’d, still moving her finger lightly, “eyes on me–” she breathed out, waiting for you to look back at her. when you did, a small smile formed on her lips and she brought her slender finger down your cunt. she slid her finger in, never taking her eyes off of you and watching as you crumble before her. when your chest started to heave as she thrust her finger in and out of you, she brought her mouth back to your clit. 

you were a mess. dripping on her face and bucking your hips as she went to work, the sensation feeling too good and you felt the familiar twinge below your belly button. you were saying her name between breaths and it only made ellie go harder, pumping her fingers as quickly as she could and revolving her tongue through your slick. without warning she retreated, kissing your stomach while she stood back up. your hands found her face to drag her into a long kiss, she pulled you off of the wall and backed you into your own bed. your elbows propped you up as you watched her tower over you, you used this time to yank off your shirt and sports bra, leaving your chest bare for her.

ellie slipped off her own shorts, her underwear with it before climbing on top of you, reconnecting her lips to yours. you tugged on her shirt and it was off in seconds thrown god knows where. she sat up, tracing her fingers along your body as you laid beneath her and it looked like she wanted to say something but refrained herself. instead, lifting up one of your legs and placing herself so her own drenched pussy was atop of yours. she rocked her hips back and forth, feeling the wetness from both of you spread. mumbles left her mouth as she held your leg in the air, covering her own moans by placing soft and sweet kisses on your leg. ellie steadied herself by clutching onto one of your breasts. her pace began to be ragged, feeling herself come nearly undone. she looked down at you, mouth open and eyes in a haze as you gazed back up at her and despite nearing her finish she leaned down so that her thigh was now pressed against your cunt. you whined into her mouth as she kissed you, the tipping sensation leaving as quickly as it came. 

she shuffled off of you, leaning her back to the wall and patted her lap. while you sat down on her lap, she removed her sports bra. her hands fell to your figure and she gazed at you, that unreadable expression still plastered on her face. she looked down at you on her lap and shook her head lightly, “like this–” she moved your body, lifting your leg to move her own out of the way so you were just sitting on her thigh. she tucked your knee in between her legs and her green eyes focused back on you. 

moving your hips on her thigh, ellie kneaded on your tits. she enveloped them in her hands while your knee rubbed against her cunt. your hands rested on her legs behind you, back arching and tits out. ellie wasn’t able to conceal her moans at the sight of you and the feeling deep in her stomach. her hands dug into your thighs, pulling them with every thrust of your hips. “h-holy fuck,” she tossed her head back. the sound of her voice was enough for you to start moving faster, and as you did ellie straightened her posture. she wrapped her arms around your back, pulling you closer while you rocked desperately against her thigh. 

your foreheads crashed, heavy and hot breath spread across each of your faces. with this, you unraveled. cursing coming out of your mouth along with her name in pants while you shook around her thigh, feeling on top of the world. ellie’s hands moved to your tits, watching you cum on her and feeling your tits in her hands she tipped over the edge as well. her breathing was ragged against you and her forehead left yours while she tipped her head back, eyes rolling. you fell on her chest, while both of you tried to return your breathing back to normal. 

she sat with you for a few minutes in silence, you had moved off of her thigh and laid beside her, arm draped over her stomach. her arm was on your back, rubbing small circles. after a bit more of quiet, which seemed to be one of your specialities, you sat up and her eyes followed you. and again, you both spoke over each other. 

“i should go to bed–” 

“i should probably go–” 

without much less, ellie pulled herself off the bed and collected her clothes that had been scattered. you pulled on your own shirt and the awkward silence was heavy in the room. after she had dressed she moved towards the door, hand on the handle. “i’ll see you at the next game?” her eyes scanned your face. 

“yeah, i’ll see you then,” you said painfully and without so much of a second glance she left, the door swinging shut behind her. 

part five

[vu1g4r]

gush pt.2 (e.w.)

a/n: wow! thanks a bunch for your support charmers ;) this part's shorter – easing you into it.

pairing: ellie w. + femreader

warnings: NO SMUT lmao

summary: days rolling on, you searching for a familiar face in the student chaos. no luck until it's all luck – she's out to find you. who'd have guessed she is dropping a mini-podcast about your white smooth maneuvers?

a week rolls by since you graciously offered to the poor girl your kitty cream. you thank your lucky stars you haven't spotted her anywhere on campus since. a part of you nudges you to apologize for causing such... discomfort. you'd like to, but you're too scared it'll make things worse, and frankly, you have no clue how to track her down. it's like she just vanished into thin air. getting her name would be fantastic, so you could scream it all night, you reckon.

thursday ran you ragged, but you made it home! you stumble into your spot, totally wiped from wrangling with that crazy bulky winter jacket. today was just too cold for it to feel like autumn. you freshen up and then flop onto the couch with a hot cup of tea in hand, grab your laptop, and start browsing for something to watch. 3 hours fly by; the dishes in the kitchen sink have piled up a bit. you chuckle at the streamer's banter. you've binged all his old vids; looks like the good vibes are back in action. then you pop open a new browser tab while a vid kicks in the background. a message pops up from your bud – you lick your lips, hyped for the next wild voice note. you know you're in for another round of epic texting, fueled by uni gossip and mad inside jokes.

you gotta check out this podcast! it's her right???

you squint and hit the blue link that kicks you over to your uni's student site, seemingly thrown together by them. you decide to explore it. folders up top read as 'october_parties,' a bunch of useless pics attached to them. you scroll down to the 'podcasts' section — someone's chatting on cam, others are slapping internet pics with their voiceovers. but you're after the freshest, the one without visuals. just a regular audio file. you pump up the volume on your laptop, battling that low-fi recording.

"hey y'all. got a little story for you right from the depths of our bathroom. not just any story. it's..." you listen attentively to the calm voice, slightly muffled as if its owner is sitting too far from the microphone. "damn, it's wild. ever run into wankers who slather you with their creepy hands like some intergalactic goo? well, count me in! it was disgusting!"

you swallow, quickly noting the audio's duration. it's 20 minutes and about 3 have already passed. what could she be yakking on about for this long?! you fast-forward the audio to the middle:

"...i know you just go in there to puff or hook up. but let others take a leak in peace, damn it! i have no clue why the hell.....!"

you tune out her words, adrenaline surging. you slam the laptop shut, take a deep breath. It's time, you'll track down that damn chick and apologize before she figures out who you are and starts broadcasting to the whole damn uni to steer clear of you.

taglist: @mostlyhornyandsad

[messrmoonyy]

thinking ab ‘holiday spirit’ w jackson! tess where r sees decorations cause maybe they decorate for the holidays and its cute and sappy and romantic and maybe a private proposal (SAPPYYY))

ur writing makes me shrivel into a tight little warm ball AHHHH much love!!

Christmas in Jackson

Tess Servopoulos x Fem!reader

A/N- messrmoonyy being soft again????? Not writing filthy smut???? Oh???? Lmao look. I wanted this to be a drabble. I got carried away. Though it is still short but. This absolutely helped me kick my writers block in the ass so thank you for that! Hope you enjoy this sickeningly tooth rotting fluffy fluff of my beloved Jackson Tess and hopefully this little thing will give me the motivation to go back to my other requests

This is a ‘ follow on ‘ kinda to my fic holiday spirit but it can be read alone

Warnings- none. Other than Tess is slightly OOC because she’s very. Very. Very. Soft.

Word count- 3k

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You loved Christmas. You always had done for as long as Tess had known you. Always forcing her to celebrate it with you in that dingy little Boston apartment, using the handmade and ancient decorations she had gotten from Frank, and a few other things she had picked up on the market of Boston. She still hadn’t fully admitted to you the things she had traded for a few of the items. In fact she’d threatened the people she had traded with that if they dared breathe a word of it she’d come for them in their sleep.

She didn’t need people thinking she was soft after all.

But that had been then. And now? Well. Now she didn’t care if people thought she was soft. She would happily let people think that cause who cared now? She had no one to be tough for. She had no reason to hide her emotions for you away from prying eyes.

Of course she hadn’t let herself go so easily but you had been in Jackson nearly 4 years now. And she had managed to shake most of her QZ ways.

She hadn’t really liked Jackson at the start, couldn’t get used to the new way of life. Too familiar with running things her way back in the zone. But seeing you safe easily brought her around to the idea of staying there. Seeing you happy and not having to constantly fear for your safety… it was a relief to say the least.

Though the generosity of the people felt alien to you both, you seemed far more willing to accept it than she was. She didn’t like the charitable gifts left on the porch. The breads and pies and even a casserole once. The shirts the boots. You had always had a gentler heart than she, had always been so much more… hopeful for peace.

You were the reason any of your little group was there. The reason Ellie was a part of that group in the first place. It had been your willingness to hope and think positively that had convinced her to take Ellie to the fireflies. And you two could make Joel do anything you wanted so he followed without much convincing when you all agreed to head for Tommy in the process.

So it wasn’t much of a surprise when you accepted the gifts. When you tried to mingle in with the town, telling Tess it was beneficial. And she supposed it was.

And of course, what seemed to be the most important thing to you, was that Jackson didn’t go half’s when it came to Christmas. Maria and the council went all out, string lights and multiple decorated tress. Handmade wreaths on doors and Christmas cookies. They even had Christmas movies for the weekly movie night.

Tess didn’t understand the hype. Didn’t understand why anyone would want to celebrate Christmas in the current climate. But she loved you. And you loved Christmas. So it had grown on her over the years. And she guessed there were worse things to celebrate. A holiday to celebrate peace. And joy. Something she had so been lacking.

The first Christmas in Jackson you had actually cried at the sight of the town, eyes watering as you’d walked down the Main Street of town and saw the lights, saw the tree. She’d almost welled up herself just watching you. Which was stupid.

She’d never quite understood why you loved Christmas so much, she didn’t know what past memories you were holding onto that made it so important to you. She’d never asked either. If you’d wanted to tell her you would’ve by now. You were nearing 2 decades in each others company and you both still had things you kept from the other, that was how things were now. People had new life’s and they had to keep their old ones to themselves. For their own piece of mind and sanity at least.

Her own Christmas memories were fuzzy. She didn’t remember much from her childhood, had blocked it out as much as she possibly could. And the Christmas memories she had from before the outbreak that she could remember? Small hands decorating the low branches and silly little kids toys that flashed and beeped and that she more often than not forgot to purchase batteries for… she didn’t like the think about those ones.

But the ones with you she liked. The ones with you making her dance to Bills mothers ancient cassette of Christmas songs, kissing you in the flickering glow of the string lights, trawling through every damned abandoned building in the zone she could get to with the excuse of looking for stuff to sell. Only to be searching for a gift for you. A book you might like. A piece of jewellery that wasn’t entirely rusted or broken.

She liked those memories.

So she indulged you. She let you get giddy like a little kid, let you yank her around the whole town each year to see the decorations. Once Maria had found out of your love for the holiday she’d enrolled you in the decorative committee and you took joy in showing which wreaths around town you had made. And she followed you happily, a smile on her face, noting how she had never seen a smile like that back in Boston.

Year 4 in town was no different, she had let herself be given the tour around town, had commented on every wreath you had pointed out. She’d even let you drag her into the Bison for dinner and watched in amusement at Ellie as she tried and failed to hide the fact that she was head over heels for Dina.

The walk home was peaceful. There was that fine misting of snow in the air, the kind that told you a heavy snowfall was incoming. It seemed to sparkle under the lights as you both walked, arms linked with your gloved hands trapped between your bodies in an attempt to keep them warm. She’d told you fingerless gloves were a dumb idea. But Ellie had given them to you two years ago for Christmas and so you wore them every winter since.

You had always been Ellie’s favourite. Maybe it was because at first you had been the only one that’s immediate response wasn’t to shoot her in the face. Had tried to see reason in why Marlene would hand over an infected kid. You had been the one to grab Ellie’s arm and pull her along, Tess’ own deeply buried ability to hope and see the positives of life worming their way out as she followed.

Ellie had stuck to you like glue. And even now that she had grown into that stage of being a teenager where she was almost an adult, moody and acting as if she didn’t need her pseudo family around her… she still let the childish side of her out around you.

But maybe you had that affect on everyone. Made them happier. You certainly made her happier. She would never let herself be so pathetically sappy and soft around anyone other than you, the kind of soft that made Joel tease her and made a younger Ellie wrinkle her nose in disgust at the affection.

It was almost annoying actually how easily you did it.

“ heavy snow on its way “ you mused, looking up at the sky “ gonna make that mountain patrol hellish “

“ I can ask Joel to swap with us? “

“ no no it’s fine. The mountain routes have to pass through that village with the library. I wanna find a new book “ maybe that would be a good idea. Maybe she could find a little extra something to give you for Christmas.

The pile under the tree in your living room was growing bigger by the day, you’d had to move some of the lower hanging ornaments up a few twigs to stop them catching. You’d organised it perfectly. A pile for Joel. A pile for Ellie. A pile for you. A pile for her.

She was growing ever curious on what exactly you had gotten for her. And where you were finding them too. You were incredibly sneaky. You could go on patrol together and bring stuff back she’d never even noticed you pick up.

Like the monstrous singing Santa that sat on the fireplace for the last two Christmases you had found in a store in one of the towns on patrol. It had been well preserved, still in its box in the back store room with a bunch of other things you had told Maria about to be collected for town. But you had taken a small stowaway into your bag

Tess despised it. She hoped and prayed each year you’d plug it into the socket and it’d stop working. One of its eyes was slightly off centre and more than 20 years in a store cupboard had meant the voice box was a little off. It was creepy. But you liked it. So she put up with it, but it was always the first thing to go away.

Maybe one year she would gift you a hammer with the precise use being to smash that fucking Santa to pieces. Not that that would ever happen.

Maybe she could find something else to replace it.

Tess watched you as you walked together, the fine snowflakes catching on your eyelashes and sticking to the woolen material of your scarf. Eyes practically sparkling as you looked at all the decorations along the street.

Some kids had built a snowman, others had pushed piles of snow together and had clearly been sliding down it. She looked back down at you again, the smile on your face as you passed the snow creations.

The cool air had kissed at your skin, redness glowing on your cheeks and nose. She never got bored of looking at you. In 20 years she hadn’t. And she knew another 20 could pass and she would still be no closer to being tired of how you looked.

“ sweet “ you said softly, knocking her from her admiration, and she looked down to follow your line of sight landing on an old couple also returning from the bison. They had stopped to kiss under the mistletoe hung above their door frame, the sweet small kisses that old couples did. The familiar kind “ that’s gonna be us “

“ old, married and tipsy on Tommys questionable mulled wine? “ she teased, though deep down it did make her heart swell. She’d never thought about getting old with you before Jackson. She didn’t think she’d last that long. Thought she’d be infected or dead in a ditch somewhere, or laying with a bullet in her skull because she had lost you. She’d never thought you’d get old together. But now she did. Now she thought about it. Thought about dying from old age and not infection.

Thought about being safe and content for the rest of her days. With you right at her side.

“ weird to think about getting old huh?” You asked as if reading her mind

“ I’m already old “ she sighed. She wasn’t much older than you she could count the gap on her fingers, but she seemed to be taking it harder than you were. She felt ancient some days. The cold affecting her aching bones. Back in the QZ that would have scared her. Now it didn’t really bother her that much. Only when she thought about the possibility of leaving you behind.

“ shut up. I’m trying to be romantic “ she gave a small laugh and shrugged

“ okay. Forget the old. What about the marriage part? “ she asked, the words leaving her mouth before she could stop herself.

Marriage had been on her mind for a while. Which was absolutely ridiculous. The world had ended and she was imagining what it would be like to call you her wife.

God she had gotten so soft. Joel would never let her hear the end of it.

Marriage wasn’t really… a thing anymore. But there were ways. Maria and Tommy were married after all. And so many other couples in town. And she didn’t want it to be a big deal. She wasn’t the sappy romantic type. Not the type for big crowds watching her display her affections so openly.

But she wanted you to be hers. In more so than just words.

She even had a ring. Had done for months. She had found it when snooping around the lockers in the Lodge on patrol with Joel. Only rich, fancy ass people went to fuckin ski lodges. She knew she’d find something interesting left behind. She didn’t even know if it would fit you. Or if you’d like it. Maybe she could find an old necklace chain for you to wear it on instead. It’s not like the rest of the marriage would be traditional anyway, so why should the ring?

But it was stupid. Of course it was stupid.

You gave a small laugh at her words and shrugged.

“ careful there Tess. Almost sounds like you’re asking me to marry you “

“ maybe I am “ she heard you stop in your tracks at her answer, slipping out of her embrace and she came to a halt too, a step or so ahead of you. The words had left her mouth before she could stop them, her brain forcing her to voice her desire to have you as…. Hers. Properly.

“ Tess “ she turned around to face you, your cheeks and nose were even more rosy from the cold, or was it blush? Your eyes wide and watery. She couldn’t tell if it was from the cold air or your emotions either. Maybe it was both “ are you serious? “

She shrugged in some attempt to appear nonchalant about the entire thing in case you thought it was stupid.

“ nothings really… ‘ legal ‘ anymore. But Maria told me about what they can do here and… it was stupid I’m sorry. Too much of that shitty Christmas ale. Come on let’s go home it’s cold “ she held her hand out to you but you didn’t take it. Still standing there shell shocked.

She was embarrassed and didn’t exactly know what to do in the situation. Her old self would never have ended up in a position like that. And for the first time in years she craved Boston again. She wanted to be back to her stern and hard self, the self that could hide her embarrassment easily. That wouldn’t have been asked the question in the first place.

“ you didn’t drink anything “ was all you said, grabbing onto her hand finally and yanking her towards you.

Your lips were freezing as you kissed her, your fingers the same. Icy fingertips slipping to the nape of her neck as she melted into you, tugging you closer by your waist. She’d happily shake off her embarrassment by kissing you. Even if your cold hands did feel like they were giving her frostbite.

She let you kiss her until you had to pull away, your breaths coming out in small white puffs between you both.

“ ask me again “ you whispered

“ I don’t remember asking you in the first place “ she teased, earning her a slap to the arm from you. But she was cold enough that she was certain she was numb from the neck down and didn’t even feel it.

“ ask me “ she scanned her eyes over your face. Your beautiful, beautiful face. The face that had been looking back at her for 20 years. The face of the only person in the world she trusted more than herself. The face of the woman she loved, the face of the woman that had made her realise love was possible even in the shitty disgusting world she lived in.

Your face. You.

“ you wanna marry me? “ your smile was brighter than she’d ever seen, your eyes watering again. And that time she didn’t tease. She meant it. She did.

“ sorry I didn’t quite.. didn’t quite get that what was that? “

“ sweetheart- “

“ I’m sorry? “ she couldn’t help the small laugh that escaped her lips, shaking her head at you in amusement. Her embarrassment had vanished, knowing you weren’t making fun of her. You genuinely wanted to say yes. To agree to her stupid little idea.

“ marry me? “ she asked again, cupping your face in her hands your face was as cold as the rest of you.

“ what was that? “ she pressed kisses across your face with a smile, grabbing you by the waist again and pulling you back when you tried to squirm out of her grasp as she kissed every inch of your face she could get, pulling you back against her as you giggled.

“ marry me “ she said against your ear, voice soft and gentle “ as good as you can right now. Marry me? “

“ I’ll marry you “ you whispered, turning around in her arms and holding her face in your cold hands again “ in whatever fuckin way you wanna “ she kissed you again before she could do something pathetic like cry, holding you tight against her and wrapping you into the warmth of her jacket with her.

She wondered what a sight you both looked like. Standing there, kissing in the snow like a pair of lovesick teenagers. And she wondered what her past self would’ve thought. What 10 years younger Tess would’ve said about kissing you in public, the thought wouldn’t have even crossed her mind. What 15 years younger Tess would’ve said if she knew the woman she was pretending to have no feelings for was now agreeing to marry her. What would pre outbreak Tess have said. That Tess that had a son and had married her husband because it was expected. Because she had fallen pregnant young and it was what seemed like the best thing to do. That had loved her husband so much but deep down had known it wasn’t what she wanted.

If 10 year old Tess, that proudly declared to everyone she met that she was never going to get married. That marriage was for idiots and love wasn’t real. If she knew… If she knew that even in the face of a fucking apocalypse, she would find you. And would learn that yes love might still be for idiots, but it was real. So very real. And that you would make living in the middle of hell bearable. That you would make her carry on. Make her live.

She couldn’t help but wonder.

[celestie0]

ELLIE! Sigh ok I'll try not to make this too long. I've gone back and forth with for quite some time and because of your writing I feel as though I'm slowly becoming a Gojo girl. Now I want to state that there's nothing wrong with that at all! I get the hype. I completely understand but I've never looked at him that way. Suguru has always been it for me when it comes to JJK men. You've ruined me with Kickoff and the retail au story 😭😭😭. What did it do deserve this is?! How could you just come into my life with your wonderful, beautifully written lengthy masterpieces disguised as stories and make me start feeling this way?! I've thought about blocking you (that's a bold face lie BTW. I've never even considered it) to escape these feelings. I had to make you aware because this is completely your fault😮‍💨🥲. Pray for me Ellie...its the least you can do😩

OMG BAKUHOETHOTSKI QUEEN HI <333

“i’m slowly becoming a gojo girl. now i want to state that there’s nothing wrong with that at all!”

pls why did that send me to the fkn moon 😭😭as if the gojo girlies need to seek help or sumn 🤣🤣🤣 and you’re trying to abolish a debilitating stigma PLSSKDJDJFH (valid tho). reminds me of that meme "im not upset w yall bc i know ur mentally ill. which is why im gonna open up a hospital-"

omggg perhaps to convert u to a gojo girlie has been my mischievous plan all along 😏 🙈 just join ussss we r so fun i promise n satoru is our sexy slutty softie man 🫶🏼💕

thank u dear for the compliments i rly dont know how to say how much it means to me 😭💕 to call my silly little intrusive thoughts in the form of proper grammar as MASTEPRIECES is something my brain can simply melt for

omg pls dont block me🧍🏻‍♀️i get sm serotonin sayin ur name out loud from my notifs

okieee i’ll pray for u but i will not stop my evil plan 🙏🏼 ✨

[dedicatedtodance]

National Dance Radio Airplay

Top 50 for the week ending April 27, 2024

I Just Need --Daniel Allan f/Lyrah -5

Never Be Alone --Becky Hill & sonny Fodera -1

Lovers In A Past Life --Calvin Harris & Rag'N'Bone Man -4

Make You Mine ---Madison Beer -5

Lighter --Galantis, David Guetta, 5 Seconds of Summer -7

Happier ---The Blessed Madonna f/Clementine Douglas -2

Dance Alone --SIA f/Kylie Minogue -9

Shiver --John Summit & HAYLA -14

Thinking 'Bout Us --Dannii Minogue & Autone -12

Tell Me Who You Are --Morgin Madison, Ryan Lucian, JAS. -11

Whatever --KYGO f/Ava Max -15

Addicted --ZERB & The Chainsmokers f/INK -16

Cutting Loose --Disco Lines, J. Worra, Anabel Englund -3

Heaven Or Not --Diplo & Riva Starr f/Kareen Lomax -19

Last Of Us --Gryffin f/Rita Ora -20

Everything You Do --AFROKI, Afrojack, Steve Aoki f/Aviella -17

Not Even Love --Seven Lions, ILLENIUM f/ASDIS -26

Why Should I? --Z3LLA -10

Carry You --Martin Garrix & Third-Party f/Oaks & Declan J Donavan -36

I'm Only Here For the Beat --MADELLINE -8

I Don't Wanna Wait ---David Guetta & OneRepublic -33

Complicated --Luca Schreiner -24

Thank You (Not So Bad) --Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike, Tiesto, W&W -23

The Way It Is --Cheat Codes X Two Friends -25

All My Life --Tiesto, Fast Boy =13

Forever (Stay Like This) --Armin Van Buuren -29

Training Season --Dua Lipa -21

Drums --James Hype & Kim Petras -28

Weight Of the World --Bonnie X Clyde -30

Saving Up --Dom Dolla -49

Da Da Dum --Baby Jane -27

Rizz --AYYBO -32

Murder on the Dancefloor --Sophie Ellis-Bextor -34

Take So Long (Find You) --ARTY f/XIRA -47

***Lift You Up --LF SYSTEM -561

Best Thing --Timmy Trumpet -31

Houdini --Dua Lipa -22

GLOW --San Holo f/AR/RA -41

Young & Foolish --Loud Luxury f/Charlieonafriday -18

***Last Night --Loofy -60

Feather --Sabrina Carpenter -43

***Blue Monday --Above & Beyond -0

We Ain't Here for Long --Nathan Dawe -46

Nostalgia --NOTD & Georgia Ku -45

***End Of Time --Lucas & Steve X LAWRENT f/Jordan Shaw -75

***Give Me --Will Clarke, BURNS -53

Body Moving ---Eliza Rose X Calvin Harris 39

Exes --Tate McRae -48

Ease My Mind ---Switch Disco & AUTOGRAF -37

Off Switch --VASSY -50

***new on the chart this week

[thebtswritersclub]

Happy Birthday Aditi!!!!

The BTS Writers Club is here to wish our lovely admin, @ditttiii a very happy birthday! Here’s all the messages we’ve collected, from admins and members alike for Aditi day (January 14)!

Aditi! Happy Birthday! Thank you so much for being an amazing Admin. The network would not be the same without you and all that you do. I mean, just look at the layout! You do so much for us and it’s 1000% appreciated. We’re so lucky to have you! Thank you for being with us from the start and being there to help everything grow. You’re such a valued and loved member and a wonderful friend. I love you so much. Even though this past year was an absolute garbage fire, I hope that next year will be much better. You’re going to do amazing things and I can’t wait to see them! 

- Love, Eva @aroseforyoongi

 PS: Please share more pictures of your puppy

Happy birthday, Adi!!  Babe, you're an amazing person, a marvelous woman and an awesome friend. I wish you the best things in the world, that's what you deserve nothing less. I can't thank you enough for your love and support, always. Know that you'll always have in me a friend and a hype woman. Congratulations, Queen! 

- Danna @unoriginal-username15432

Aditi! Though we have only known one another for a chunk of a year, I can safely say that you are one of the best people I could have met in 2020 and I am so glad I did! I think you have so much to offer the world in both intelligence and charm and you will go so far! Keep your head up through 2021 and never let anyone tell you you cannot do whatever you set your mind to. Keep writing and relaxing and enjoying life. Also, please remember to rest and sleep! Happy Birthday!!! 

- Dean @eternalseokjin

Happy Birthday Aditi! You're so sweet and kind and I hope you have a great birthday!!!

- Donna @untaemedqueen 

Aditi

I hope you have an amazing birthday. You deserve one. You’re so wonderful, sweet, hardworking, intelligent, caring, encouraging, talented, pretty... I could go on forever. In short, you’re awesome & held in high regard. Thank you for being you & thank yo for being a vital part of BTS Writers Club & its admin team. You’re an html goddess & a goddess of kindness and looks. Your presence brightens my day & I look forward to all of our conversations.

So, to BTS Writers Clubs’ resident Goddess, Happy Birthday! 

- Lillia @moccahobi

Hello, luv 

I remember the first time we talked. I had come to you asking for advice because I was thinking about posting on tumblr, and somehow we ended up talking for hours that day. Ever since then, you have been such an amazing and precious friend to me, and I am so incredibly glad that I decided to come out of my shell that day. I am so thankful for everything about you and our friendship, and also for you quite literally dragging me into this net to meet so many other lovely people I have the pleasure of calling my friends as well. I wish you all the best, today and every other day, and never forget that I love you very much! 

- Keri @kerikaaria

happy birthday dearest aditi! i hope that you have the happiest, most wonderful, most magical birthday ever! you deserve everything good and more! sending you all of the love, hugs, and good vibes i can offer!

- Carese @honeyj00ns

Adiiiiii ily!! my lovely waifuuu!!! you work so hard and are so nice!! i married right  keep doing what you love and remember to treat yo'self!!!!

- Dae @birbdae

Lovely! It's your birthday and I would be remiss not to let you know that you are so loved and so appreciated! I hope you have an amazing day with those you love (especially Toto), and get something you were hoping for, be that quality time or a nice gift! Happy Birthday Aditi!

- Day @baepsaetan

Aditi, my love, my darling, my honey, ily. You’re such a good friend and a good wine bibi, i love u muchly and appreciate u. I’d like to thank u from the bottom of my heart for being there for me when i needed u, ty for helping me with my writing and helping me be happy, you truly are the best and there’s only one u. Keep shining u star. Keep being u, you literally are so cute and adorable and pretty like words can’t even describe how amazing u are, happy birthday to u ma love, i hope u have the greatest day bc u deserve it! I can’t offer u a hug rn but i can give u a virtual hug (sending u the biggest virtual hug) i hope it sent!  

- Ellie, signing off w a big big kiss for u @jungkooksbroski

Happy Birthday Aditi!  I hope all your birthday wishes come true on your special day! You have such a hardworking and vivacious personality, it's no wonder why I admire you a lot  I'm glad I can call you a friend of mine and I only want nothing but the best for you

- Gwen @prettyboongi

happy birthday aditi! although we haven't talked all that much, i'm glad to have met you through the net! you are such a caring and loving person and i hope you have the best birthday today and many more amazing birthdays! thank you for being you and happy birthday!

- Ivory @sunkissedjk

Aditi, you have the sweetest soul  and the kindest heart, I love our chats and how helpful you are. You've given me so much confidence, right from the get go. You never stop believing in people and will bend over backwards to help them, even when you're ill. You're so freaking talented, honestly, I just can't praise you enough. Happy birthday my lovely hareem queen, hope you have the best day!

- Ley @pars-ley

Aditi! The beautiful, amazing angel! I'm so glad I have gotten to know you through this net and I'm excited to get to know you better. Thank you for always being available to read my crap and for creating amazing works of fiction. You are one of a kind and the world is so lucky to have you in it! Happy birthday

- Mars @joheun-saram​

Hey Diti Darling, Apparently it's your birthday. Haps Borth! Ok, I know I give you hard time whenever we talk but that's because I am just a big nervous and confused mess all the time. We don't even talk that much. Even with that, I love you very much, as a chaotic sister. I just love seeing your name around. Every interaction I have with you is precious no matter how confused I come out of it. You are so sweet and so loving. I hope that you keep that light and keep growing. May this next year that approaches you is a fruitful one and bring you happiness in what ways that it can. Look up, smile bright.

-Your ever worried brother, Nep. :33 @dawndrms

lovely adi!! i'm so lucky to have met you this summer, because i'm pretty sure you're one of the first desi writers i met on tumblr  i love seeing all your posts on my dash, you're really such a sunshine and happy pill on dumblr and i wish more people saw that. your style of writing is so so so enchanting, something i wish everyone would read. in the net, you're a ray of light on everyone and i can tell that bring you so much energy and liveliness wherever you go. have a lovely birthday aditi appi, and to many more!!

- Noor @papillonsgf

Happy birthday Aditi!! I want to say a massive thank you for everything you do for the net to make it what it is. you are so friendly and helpful, you really make everyone feel so at home there! I'm so happy to have joined and met you. I hope you have a great day because you deserve it xx

- Ru @btsmosphere

Hey Aditi! I just wanted to say, happy birthday from the bottom of my heart! You've made being in here so special, helping me with everything I needed! I remember the first person to say Hello to me in the net was you! You were also the one who told me I was accepted! Your really special to me! So is your hate for Mee6 Thank you so much for everything! I wanted to give you something special for your birthday so I'll be posting Transvaal Daisies very soon! Once again, thank you for everything

- Tailia @namyoongles

Hi Aditi!!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday  I love how sincere and enthusiastic you are and how you’re always hyping us and all our ideas and i hppe your birthday matches how awesome you are

- Tanooki @crystaljins

Happy Birthday lovely Aditi! I hope this year brings a ton of happiness, positive growth, success and prosperity! I’m so happy we got to meet over this net. I love love LOVE gushing about Bollywood movies and Indian music with you and I absolutely love how supportive and helpful and kind you are.  You are awesome, beautiful and just so lovely! I’m so happy that we get to celebrate your birthday together (relatively) and I’m wishing you all the best today and onwards! Cheering you on! Happy Birthday! 

- Yours, Triv @purpletigertaetae

We love you, Aditi! Have an amazing birthday!!!!

All graphics and pictures used made with buckets of love by @kerikaaria

[my-arlington-academia]

Karolina and Tegan birthday fanfic! 👓👠

I wrote a (short?) fanfic for Karolina's and Tegan's birthdayyy 🎉🎉 Last time Scholar was a she so I decided that in this one Scholar will be a he again 👍 Hopefully my writing is getting less cringe 😂 but as you'll see for yourselves I'm still really bad, especially the narration, sometimes I'm like "Wait, what am I supposed to describe here to move on to the next scene?" So most of it is really basic 😅 On a lighter note though, I know that many sweet elite players come from lots of different countries and most times their first language isn't English (*cough*like me*cough*) so at least it'll be easy to read for everyone? (Yes, I'm totally trying to make myself feel better for my lack of vocabulary 😔)

Anyways!!! Have a good read! God I hope I'm getting better...

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"Karolina used to play Maryo Kart!?"

Tegan flinched due to Scholar's sudden outburst and almost dropped the controller out of his hands.

"W-Well... yeah. We were pretty close in elementary school and we used to share the same interests. Not when it came to everything but we usually agreed about a lot of things."

Tyler cackled from the bunk bed upon hearing this. Looks like he was still browsing through a shit-ton of pictures of chairs on Moogle. Apparently, he wanted to draw a chair for his next art piece.

"Just imagining Karolina even playing an app game gives me the same feeling as watching one of John Mulaney's skits: it's hilarious."

Scholar couldn't help but imagine Karolina playing Candy Rush or Flappy duck and it was in fact rather funny. Seeing Karolina frustrated because of a game would be like seeing Tadashi sleeping, which means it was impossible. Those two really need more rest and a bit of down time...

"So Tyler, you found any chairs that give you a spark of inspiration?"

Scholar decided to change the subject, after all Karolina didn't want anything to do with Tegan even though it was... well... their birthday. Scholar doesn't even have siblings let alone a twin so he had no idea how Tegan must be feeling right now. But from an outsider's perspective, Scholar thought that it was kind of sad and a waste that they didn't at least celebrate their birthday together. Tegan said that he didn't want anything too extravagant though. Thus, the 3 of them had gathered in their room to spend some time together, Ellie was also supposed to come but she said that she had "things to do" and that she'd drop by later.

"Nah man. MIKEA is really running out of ideas. I could come up with sicker designs in the blink of an eye. Actually, in a way this encourages me even more to draw a chair. I'll create the best chair this world has ever seen Scholar. Just. You. Wait."

While Tyler was hyping himself up over chairs Tegan had a really stern look on his face. Maybe it was because he was focused on the game but Scholar felt like there was something more to it. Perhaps they should've invited more people? In truth, the only real guest here was Scholar. This was TnT's room after all... Why is Ellie taking so long?

"...Tegan? Maybe you'd like me to go call Axel and Raquel over? Maybe even Alistair and Claire?"

Tegan who was frowning for a while now finally let his eyebrows relax.

"No uh... Sorry if I looked angry or something but um. I was just thinking about something."

When he said that, Tyler immediately let go of his phone and dropped down on the floor, then he sat next to Tegan.

"When you tell us that you're thinking about something, it means that you want to talk to us about it, right?"

Tegan continued to smash the buttons of the controller without even giving Tyler a side-glance.

"Not necessarily."

Somehow, Tegan was acting a bit cold but not in his usual "I'm sleep deprived" way. Tyler gave Scholar a pleading look. Probably meaning that Tegan needed another little push to tell them what was going through his mind. Of course, Scholar couldn't ignore that.

"Aww, come on man! If it was because you were spacing out like usual you would've just said "it's nothing" butcha didn't! You know you can tell us everything right? We won't snitch."

Tyler followed.

"Exactly! We'll never break the bro code of honor. Spill the tea! Or water! Or whatever drink it is!"

Tegan gave them a big sigh before leaving the game on pause and putting the controller down. Tyler and Scholar looked at eachother dumbfounded. When Tegan puts the controller down it means that shit is about to get real... or he's so tired that he'll short-circuit in a span of 10 seconds.

"Well, it's about Karol. Kinda. I guess."

Scholar and Tyler scooched over even closer to be sure to miss none of it. Talking about Karolina wasn't a taboo topic or anything, on the contrary, it was quite frequent and Tegan was totally fine with his friends taking jabs at her as long as it wasn't mean-spirited. But what was rare though, was for Tegan to bring her up out of nowhere.

"It's... how to say this. You know how when it's Christmas and you become super nostalgic about the smallest things? Or when Viewtube recommends you a short clip from a show you used to watch years ago and you decide to marathon it just for the heck of it? Well, for me that "nostalgic" time is our birthday. When I remember how we used to be so close and hang out together all the time I get kinda uh. I don't know. Regretful? Like, maybe if I didn't end up being a loser who spends all of his time playing games and doing dumb stuff Karol might still tolerate me. Or uh. If I dressed up a little nicer or took better care of myself maybe she'd at least want to stand next to me in public? Now, unless absolutely necessary, she doesn't even want to be associated with me. Like, she's ashamed of me or she doesn't want the other students to think that we're related or something. I don't know. Maybe I'm making it sound worse than it actually is but that's how I feel."

Woah. Okay. To be honest, Tyler and Scholar had already thought that something along those lines might be the reason for Tegan's grumpy mood today. That was a feeling he probably carried with him subconsciously everyday, just maybe to a smaller extent since he drowns himself in video games and doritos. But whenever their birthday comes around, all of it resurfaces. He already told them in the past that when Karolina started taking modeling gigs they started slowly growing apart. Tegan had said it so nonchalantly, like it wasn't a big deal and it was natural to "grow apart" but clearly, he wasn't happy about it.

Tegan was hanging his head low, as for Tyler and Scholar, they lay their heads down on Tegan's shoulders. Tyler ran his fingers through Tegan's hair to confort him.

"You're not a loser in any way Tegan. Karolina is the one missing out on you, she shouldn't set standards on you in the first place. So what? Just because you don't wear Bucci, Bupreme or Bouis Buitton it means that she has the right to act like this? You're my best bro and I know that my best friend is the coolest dude in the world. I mean, who can drink 3 monster drinks at the same time through 2 straws amirite?"

"Hm. Actually... You're not wrong."

Wait, 3 monster drinks at the same time with 2 straws? What?? Scholar's eyes widened.

"Uhhh. What the hell do you guys do when I'm not around? And may I remind you that Tegan is also my best friend!"

Tyler let out a laugh through his nose.

"Oh please, you may have barely enough points to unlock his tragic backstory but I'm still the OG. I'm ahead of you by at least a hundred points. Also, I wouldn't exactly call you a friend but rather-"

Tegan swiftly elbowed Tyler in the stomach.

"Ssshhh! Dude!"

"Ouch! Come on man... you know that Scholar is a bit dense sometimes, you gotta at least let me spell it out for him."

This was about to become a fight between the two of them, with Tegan trying to shut Tyler up and Tyler desperately trying to tell Scholar something. However, someone knocked on the door. That's weird, usually Ellie just barges in without even asking if she can. She just says "It's Ellie!" and comes in like this is her room as much as it is Tegan's and Tyler's. Their small fight stopped and Tegan got up to open the door... to be welcomed with cheers and confetti flying in the air. "WOOOOOOO!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NERD!!!" Ellie had brought the whole gang: Alistair, Axel, Claire, Raquel and even Tadashi. The only ones who weren't there were Karolina and Neha but in a way, it was kind of to be expected. They were maybe celebrating Karolina's birthday in her room with some of their friends from the fashion department? In any case, everyone was thrilled for Tegan. They congratulated him and gave him some gifts even if they were a little bit less personal than anticipated. It was apparent that some of those were chosen in a rush. If Scholar had to guess, since Tegan is so secretive and discreet about everything, he probably didn't tell anyone about his birthday and Ellie had to go around fetching everyone and bringing them together. That's why some of the gifts exuded that "Oh shit! It's Tegan's birthday today!!!" aura. Especially Tadashi's gift.

"This is kopi luwak. Those coffee beans are extracted from the asian palm civet's excrements. I know that you're more into energy drinks but I thought that you might want to try something different. I know it sounds disgusting but the taste is actually not bad and it'll definitely wake you up, everytime you remember that you're drinking coffee that came out of an animal's digestive system it gives you an extra dose of adrenaline. No matter how many times I drink it, this coffee always makes me feel like I'm a little bit in danger and it wakes me up immediately."

Tegan looked really curious about it but at the same time uneasy at the thought of having to drink coffee made of beans that came out of an animal's asshole.

"Woah... thanks... Tadashi."

"You're welcome."

So that's how Tadashi stays awake, huh? He makes himself fear for his life by drinking weird coffee. Scholar had already heard of it, there's even some kinds that are made from elephant poop and civet cat poop. However, Axel was the first and only one to call Tadashi out.

"What the fuck man? It's his birthday and you gifted him fricking coffee beans that come from a raccoon's butthole? Well, I guess the nickname Tadashit fits you perfectly since you literally drink shit."

Tadashi rolled his eyes so far back that his pupils might've gone in his skull if he wasn't human.

"Like I said, it comes from the asian palm civet. Not a raccoon. Also, do not call me that."

Axel and Tadashi kept on bickering for a while before Claire brought the cake.

"Ta-dah! Sorry if it's not good enough but there weren't any backeries out there willing to make a birthday cake on such a short notice. I had to bake it myself with Alistair's help. We hope you like it!"

The cake gave off a really homey feeling. Scholar was reminded from back home when all of his birthday cakes looked really similar to this one. The icing was really amateurish looking but really really cute. Alistair switched the lights off and Tegan took a moment to think about his wish. The room went silent in front of his stern expression, seems like whatever his wish was, it must be pretty important. When he blew the candles everyone cheered but no one asked him what he wished for. Maybe no one felt the need to since it is said that if you say your wish out loud it won't come true.

Before Raquel could cut the cake Alistair took his phone out. "Wait! Wait a sec, let's take pictures with the cake first! I'm the one who drew the Zbox and the Playmotion logo..."

Raquel put the knife down while laughing. "Oohhh. So I bet that's the real reason why you don't want me to cut it yet?"

They all took lots of ridiculous pictures with the cake. It was a pretty big one so Raquel cut it into 10 slices. After a bit of a ruckus, things finally started calming down. The 9 of them sat down in a circle and talked about random subjects: the teachers, the homework, sleep paralysis, the new Store Wars movie, the conscious and unconscious mind in cognitive psychology...

The time was passing by and everyone was having fun no matter how weird the conversation was getting until Raquel reminded everyone of the last slice of cake.

"If no one's gonna eat it, I'll eat it."

The only one who was against it was Tyler who also wanted the last slice. They decided to choose the winner through rock paper scissors. A 3 round match. But just as it was about to start, someone knocked on the door again. Did the noise annoy the neighbours? It was getting pretty late after all.

Scholar got up to open the door only to find... Karolina followed by Neha!

"Happy b- oh. It's you."

Karolina was holding a small package and as for Neha, she didn't even bother to wrap up her gift. It was a fancy hoodie with a sort of skull on its back. Tegan almost flew towards the door.

"Karol! You came... and Neha, is that Sombra merch?"

Neha smiled warmly, seeing that he noticed right away.

"Yes. I mean, kind of. It's that character from Underwatch, right? I don't know if it's your favorite but one time I remember you saying that "she was fun to play". So I made you this. The quality isn't really that good though, sorry. Unfortunately, I didn't have enough time to make it properly. Anyway, I'm rambling. Happy birthday Tegan."

Tegan immediately put the purple hoodie on in excitement.

"Looks sick. Thank you Neha. You really nailed the logo."

Karolina also thought that it looked "sick" but not in a good way. She was clearly not getting why wearing that sort of thing would make someone happy. Since it was made by Neha, of course it was really well done but why does he prefer wearing video game merch rather than high quality clothing? She was almost regretting coming here. Tyler laughed at the sight of Karolina trying really hard not to roll her eyes, it looked like her pupils were trembling. Kinda terrifying honestly.

"I would've thought that you like soldier 76 or Tracer better since... they're about as straight as you are. But besides that, it looks dope Neha! Would you make one of my paintings into a T-shirt one day? Like, you know, my birthday? August 21st? Pretty pleaaase!"

It wasn't long until everyone started requesting clothes from Neha for their birthdays. Of course, she shut them all down while Karolina still stood there with what looked like a gift.

"Ugh. I see that you invited a lot... of people."

Her cold gaze was on Axel and Alistair specifically, since she did not like those two. As for Tegan, he was silently waiting for his gift. Judging by his face, it had been a while since Karolina had showed up to one of their birthdays, not to mention that she brought a gift too.

"Anyway... here. I'm sure you don't play those kinds of games anymore but uh... Well, in any case you better not laugh at my gift. Or else."

Tegan carefully unwrapped the gift. It was the new Maryo Kart! Everyone was baffled. Karolina actually gifted Tegan a video game? What's next? Is she going to play it too on top of gifting it? Tegan thanked her happily and reached for something behind the TV. It was Karolina's gift. Her eyes scanned the shape of the wrapping trying to guess what it was. Though she didn't lose any more time trying to figure out what it was and opened it. It was a Bouis Buitton bag. Karolina smiled.

"Basic choice but not bad. Thanks."

Seeing that Neha had already sat down, Karolina did the same. Of course, to Raquel's regret, they ended up splitting the last slice of cake, Karolina said that she didn't mind since she couldn't afford to eat food with too much calories. Especially not pastries but she let this one slide. As for Tegan, he immediately switched the game on. Of course. But then, he offered the second controller to Karolina. Everyone looked at him like he was batshit crazy. Miraculously though, Karolina sighed and took the controller.

"...Fine. But I don't remember the controls anymore."

That was a fricking lie. Karolina was killing it?? At Maryo Kart?? Raquel was going crazy. Well, everyone actually. But especially Raquel.

"What the hell?! So you steal the last slice of cake and now you're whooping Tegan's ass in a video game? I didn't even think you knew how to hold the controller correctly..."

Karolina clicked her tongue at that remark, looking unimpressed. Though clearly, she was a bit embarrassed about playing against her brother in front of 9 other people who had no idea that she was even capable of touching a controller without throwing up. But during that time, Tegan was grinning like a kid. It was like going back in time for him. He was thrilled. How many years has it been since the last time they played together like this?

"Believe it or not, but Karolina was actually the one to always kick my ass in video games. She was too strong. Thankfully, she's a bit rusty now."

Karolina elbowed his arm violently but Tegan didn't budge. It was like he was used to it, maybe Karolina always tried to distract him from the game by pushing him when they were little?

"Oh shut up. It's the game's fault. Why the heck did they add that much useless features? Also, the maps are way worse than the old Maryo Kart games. Those ones are a jumbled mess, doesn't make any goddamn sense with those twists and turns."

Karolina frighteningly sounded like a retrogaming nerd. Could it be that Tegan's love for video games came from...? Nah, no way. She's just salty that Tegan is catching up in wins. They're tied now.

"Okay! What about this: The one who wins the next round gets a kiss on the cheek from Scholar!" Ellie proclaimed in a loud voice.

"Wait! Why me??"

Scholar honestly doubted that Karolina would like that, Tegan? Maybe. But not Karolina. Surprisingly enough she didn't react but that lack of reaction probably hid something. Usually she would complain and quit but she's not the type to lose on purpose after getting this far. Tegan looked fired up too. Looking back on it, earlier Tyler was trying really hard to say something. Could it be that both Tegan and Karolina like Scholar? Well... that would be extremely awkward and unlikely.

In any case, it looks like Tegan has a head start.

"What's wrong Karol? Have you really forgotten the controls?"

"Say that again and I might murder you."

This is the most intense party of Maryo Kart anyone had ever seen. Isn't there an e-sport for it? Maybe the Novak(ova) siblings should sign up...

In the end, Karolina managed to catch up somehow. Ellie took that host voice again.

"Alright ladies and gents! Looks like Karolina will be the one receiving the prize! But what an act of cruelty on the sister's part, wouldn't you say? Because she was heartless and unpleasant I declare that as compensation the viewers should also get a kiss!"

Everyone cheered for Scholar's kiss but funnily enough, Tegan looked super offended. He was about to throw a tantrum.

"Wait. So I'm the only one without a kiss?!? That is so unfair! It's my birthday... I should at least get a participation fee!"

Tyler patted him on the back.

"That's rough, buddy. But hey, at least your boyfriend didn't turn into the moon."

Tegan quickly elbowed Tyler in the stomach again.

"Dude! Scholar's not my... dammit, I told you to be quiet earlier."

"Ow! I didn't even say any name... You're the one digging your own grave man. Look, he's looking this way."

Seeing that Tegan looked absolutely heartbroken (and pissed), Scholar took Ellie's place as the announcer.

"Change of plans! Only the siblings get a kiss because it's their birthday. All the others won't get any because it would be extremely unfair."

That's when everyone started booing but Raquel seemed to have an idea. A stupid one. But still an idea.

"Uhhh, excuse me! Actually, I'm their sister. We're triplets, so I also get a kiss!"

Axel did the same.

"No, Raquel is lying sir! We're actually quadruplets so I get a kiss as well! The four of us look so similar, I have no idea how you missed that..."

This whole thing turned out to be ridiculous. Seems like Tegan and Karolina suddenly had 8 new siblings. But of course, only the 2 of them got the kiss. Everyone was satisfied with the birthday party despite all of the chaos.

-------------------------------------- Oooookay! That's it! Sorry the ending was so abrupt (as usual) but I never know how to end these... Thank you for reading though! And sorry if you cringed! But that's a risk I'm willing to take ✊😔

[shoujoaccent]

i’ve started reading raise wa because of you and it was so GOOD, i was wondering whether you had any other manga recommendations? something similar or heck not similar at all is alright! thanks in advance by the way :>

omg good!! raise is def one of my favorites rn along w/ SpyxFamily and In/Spectre! (i think they all kinda fall into strong dumb women w/ violent man with found family undertones and comedy in drama… yeah LOL)

if you can, i would read the author’s other work, Haru No Noroi! it’s not yakuza-themed, but it does touch on the psychological effect of guilt and it’s haunting. i loved it! if you want to read something along the same themes, a lot of other raise fans love Koroshi Ai! (eh, it’s not bad!! but i never got past the 13th chapter i think!!)

if you like mysteries w/ yokai, i would go ahead and read in/spectre! the author does a lot of research for references and the mangaka does a lot to visually translate the story. something in the same vein (that’s my love!) is Shinrei Tantei Yakumo! it’s actually the manga that helped me find both raise and in/spectre~ something i really loved as a kid though was Kamisama No Memochou! i probably should reread it as an adult before recommending it, but it imprinted on me already so LOL. of course, there’s always Erased. if you’re kinda into horror though, i liked Ajin and Kasane! 

then the more “i read for the art and characters but the story gets you frustrated or concerned” is Scum’s Wish, Himegoto: Juukyuusai no Seifuku (loved loved loved this one, it was my biggest re-reads), Dear Sa-Chan (be warned: everyone hates this story bc of cheating but I love garbage!), Sachi-iro no One Room (this is more heavy but the FL reminds me of a dumber and younger me), Hare-Kon (listen i read a lot of shoujo so i need trash to BALANCE me), Seirou Opera (i cried in my first read lol), and Pet’s Aesthetics (just *chefs kiss*).

now my current dumb shoujo/lighthearted loves that i just need: Lovesick Ellie (eriko is my dumb dumb child i will protect at all costs), Tama No Gohoubi (the FL reminded me of eriko but it is getting corny/redundant to typical shoujo’s but i’ll read it for tamao’s insightfulness), Mochiron, Isharyouseikyuu Itashimasu! (i love the FL so much goddamn), Madoka No Himitsu (it’s short but so cute!!),  The Story Between A Dumb Prefect And A High School Girl With An Inappropriate Skirt Length (this gives me “if kill la kill was less chaotic and a romance” vibes”), Senpai! Ima Kara Kokurimasu! (typical high school shoujo but i love pro-active girls), and Honey Come Honey (this one is just diabetes). i think i read a lot of high school shoujo bc i was in such a rush to grow up as a kid that as an adult, i can appreciate HS being cringey and dumb and innocent (as it should be!)

i do read a lot of popular manga/manhwa like Horimiya, Hirunaka No Ryuusei, Who Made Me a Princess, Yona of the Dawn, etc. if it has a big fanbase, then i usually give it a shot to see what’s the hype about~ and some cases like Wotaki and My Little Monster where I watched the anime first and knew the manga will be in more depth. i love classics too!! like Sailor Moon (mamoru was my first guy crush ever lmao), Yu Yu Hakusho (i deadass only read it bc the author was married to the SM author smh), Dectective Conan, and Dragon Ball…. i mean, i also have a dragon ball z blog LMAO and yeah!!

i know i’m missing A LOT, but those are the ones on the top of my head~ but i mean, i read a lot of trash in both directions of the spectrum so these stand out a lot. this was long so hopefully you at least find one! *cries*

[badanimereviews]

fall 2019 anime first thoughts

the new season is finally all here! i’m pretty positive about some of these new shows, so i’m very much looking forward to these next months’ releases~

sao: alicization: war of underworld: is it just me who didn’t know this or what- alicization arc takes place immediately after the first season apparently. so where are frickin ggo and etc fitting into this timeline? thanks reki. so far it’s pretty neutral, like this season isn’t blowing my mind or anything. but it’s not unwatchable. this arc might be the second suckiest after all the fairy arcs tbh. i just want smth more like ordinal scale or ggo. bc those were actually p good.

bnha 4: for some reason didn’t see a lot of hype around this new season? like was it not advertised a lot? do people not know it’s airing? idk. bnha is p okay for me, i like the animation and of course todoroki, but i’m no super fan oof and honestly i was more excited for the new releases of kimetsu no yaiba than this lol…

kono yuusha ga ore tueee kuse ni shinchou sugiru: ok honest to god i didn’t have crazy good expectations for tis but it left me surprised. it’s got strong ass konosuba vibes but in a good way, unlike *cough* world’s strongest fkn alchemist thing of last season***** and it’s pretty funny too

shokugeki no soma 4: yass! i finally caught up on s3 recently so yay i fkn love this. i love cooking shows for some weird reason and it’s just so pleasing to see all the creativity and specialized knowledge that goes into this. honestly the whole Central thing rly caught me off guard and im just super excited for this!

assassin’s pride: i thought this would be some dumb romance thing tbh. it is not! the animation is awesome and the world aesthetic is EPIC STYYLEE man like your city is a glass frickin chandelier? i nuttttt. i like the characters like kufa (his whole name is dumbass tho but he hottt) and the blue-haired cousin girl- ellie? maybe? i thought melida would be annoying but she’s alright. a little too flat and 12-y/o looking for me but whatevs. another thing to add on, char designs are rly nice, and the magic system so far is givin me the epic vibes man it’s just super cool and intriguing for some reason don’t judge.

choujin koukousei-tachi wa isekai demo yoyuu de ikiniku you desu: ok first of all i hate this title. second of all, better than i thought. nice animation/ opening theme/ char designs. tbh the whole ‘super genius’ thing is kinda dumb like the CHILD is the PRIME MINISTER and another CHILD kills people in a WAR with a SWORD and anOther CHILD controls half the stocks or smth. stfu ok. i dooo like mr stocks market tho and ninja girl, they cute asf and doctor lady is so pretty. but like. eh. magician boy is also useless and annoying like if ya gonna be a magician type character in a MAGICAL world at least try to explain how his tricks work otherwise he is just useless and a faker. ya i don’t like him. and also it just kinda skips around showing their geniousness at work like how the science girl just makes hi-tech stuff and akatsuki can use his magic tricks when he obvs shouldn’t have any of his magic equip stuff like ughh it would be so much better if it didn’t gloss this over and i’d have more appreciation for the characters’ intelligence too. but oh well.

no guns life: wasn’t originally gonna watch and might drop. don’t like gritty edgy stuff like this but like…madhouse… and it’s kinda funny. i dont rly like the whole gunhead thing. just looks dumb. and it’s got a horrible jojo style look to it which is SUHC a turn off oml.

azur lane: so i started the game after watching the first ep and it’s become a horrible addiction. add me on the game or w/e uid: 69715357 and ma name’s Keikohime. bro i fell in love with enterprise like she is GORGEous and the first super rare i got lmao. it’s fate. javelin is still annoying but whatever the fanservice is enough to keep me alive. loving the fanservice btw. especially now that i can recognize all the different ships! first ep had stellar animation. i was crying. it was beautiful. flawless fight scenes. second ep a little disappointed in the quality but i got through it bc of laffey’s voice. she puts me in a trance. music rly nice and op nice too, very excited for more, i will die when i see my fav super rare/ elite babies uwuuuuu also erebus and hammann best girls

kabukichou sherlock: not what i expected lol! not bad tho. i like a good mystery solvy thing and anything sherlock-related is interesting. and the sherlock character is actually well-written like he’s a good char- love the rakugo part oml that was unexpected but wholly welcome lmao. just wish he and holmes were hotter guys but whatever

[jejublr]

✨🌸Spring is coming🌸✨ Go out on cute lil dates with your mutuals. Tag one for each and tell them why you chose them. (coffee date, concert date, hiking date, amusement park date, picnic date, blind date with a mutual you don't know well but want to get closer with)

aahh!!! this is such a cute idea!!! thank you for sending me!! I’m sorry this took a long time! ^^

coffee date ☕

@honeywonu I feel like there’s just so many things Lani and I could talk about!! Ranging from laughing our ass from the latest mishap that happened to us (but mostly her. pls be careful, bub. one does not simply accidentally walk into the highway dsajhdjsahf) to talking about our future co-owned coffee shop (which I can’t wait for!). I honestly think she always has something interesting (and funny!) to say and it’s easy for me to smile and laugh whenever she talks.

@lycheechann my sweet, sweet bby!!! I know for a fact that a coffee date w/ Ally would be so fun omg!!! She’s just such a vibrant and talkactive person and she always fill my silences and I can definitely see myself just listen to you hyping over Chan and Jungwoo while sipping on some frap.

@binhwansgf ELENAAA!!! Wow, honestly I don’t know how you put up with me but given the chance, I would love to go on a coffee date with you! You’re such a fun person to talk to and I always have a blast whenever we chat! I can totally see us grabbing some coffee while raving about the latest boyband you stan and all the AUs that would ensue djkdhkqdh.

@bfwooz ok one of the reasons why I think a coffee date with Hani would be so much fun because I feel like we could talk about all the possible AUs and plots for our stories! We tend to be chaotic and off-the-rail when we plan the newest project lol. But let’s be real, she’s such a fun, kind and crazy person and I’m down with it as long as she doesn’t try to expose my ass (as if there’s anything to be exposed anyways).

concert date 🎤

@forevershua I don’t know why but I feel like it would be such a blast to bring Ryan to a concert date!! I find her really cool and funny and I find that she always has something interesting to say! I definitely look up to her and I think she’ll make such a great concert buddy! It’d also be amusing to watch her fangirl over Joshua in real-time so there’s that!!!

@whalien-in-luv I feel like Sam would know all the best music and artists and I would love to talk to her more about all the good animes and watching them while we wait for the concert hall to open lol (bc waiting without the proper friend and entertainment is…it’s sad, okay). Sam always has such funny and interesting stories to tell and it’s always fun to just have her talk about the things she loves!

@oatmealupdates I feel like Lynna would be so fun to bring on a concert date!!! I think she’s that person who turns up at the concert looking cool af and I want to learn from her fjhdjsh. But in all honesty tho, Lynna is such a fun person to talk to so it wouldn’t even feel like you’re waiting for long when you’re with her and I feel like we’d jam so hard to all the songs!!

hiking date 🌄

@khanhwrites Not sure if you’re an outdoor person or not, Khanh, but I honestly picked you to go on a hiking date together because I feel like we both need to actually go outside for once instead of cooping around in our houses and for you to take a break for everything (and the fact that I just wanna torture you but that’s another story sdhas).

@princeshushu Clar!!! Hhh it’s been a while since we talked but going on a hiking date with you sounds like so much fun!!! I’d really like to go on a night hike with you to watch the stars at the summit. Imagine all the constellations and the spectacular view of the stars! I imagine you’d be super inspired by it. Also, it’d be nice to set up a camp and huddle up in blankets as we make s’mores while watching the night sky!!!

@jieqs Elli is just too sweet and I really do wanna go on a hiking date with you! Imagine the amazing scenery we’d get to see on the way up so I’d definitely bring a camera to snap pics of you!!! (BC PLEASE I’M NOT PHOTOGENIC AT ALL IT’LL ALL BE YOUR PICS BC BEAUTY+BEAUTY=COMPLETE). Also idk why I had the idea of bringing you some snack so we can eat it by the time we reach the summit and maybe watch the sunset/sunrise together and go “Elli, it’s you!! The sun!!””. Also did you say you’ll bring Orion because I’m very down for that, too.

amusement park date 🎡

@jiminyoongs Fran the Gran!!! Okay, so I can already see ourselves arguing over which rides we’re going on next and maybe get some roasting but I know I will have a grand good ol’ time spending my day with you and goofing off like crazy while waiting in line!!! I definitely want to take you on a ride on the ferris wheel at sunset and scare you by rocking it hard maybe.

@softhaos Idk why, Dara, but I feel like it would be so much fun to spend a day with you at the amusement park!! You’re such a fun person and I could already see us having fun in the house of mirrors and maybe the haunted house if you’re up for it! But I honestly feel like you could wreck me if we try to compete with each other on the bumper car ride shdsahf

@rainniedae IAN MY BABY!!! It’s actually my long-time dream to go to the amusment park without which haven’t been realized yet :( Imagine all the ice cream and rides we’d have fun on together! I want nothing more than getting my wig snatched on a roller coaster and drag you into the haunted house (where I, quite frankly, will probably sh** myself) but the day I can finally go with you will be the day I am finally complete, love!!

@xuhoon CHLOE!! I know for a fact that Disneyland is such a special place that you hold close in your heart and I want nothing more but to go with you sometime! It’d be fun wearing all those silly headbands, taking pics with the characters and eat our way through the park! 

picnic date 🌼

@justsomekpopstuff I see us doing something relaxing, you know! Maybe go on a bike ride around the park??? I feel like you’d need the break from uni and going around enjoying the scenery with the wind in our hair sounds like a nice idea!! And maybe do some dog-watching omg!!

@taetaetrashhh I think Momo would love a picnic date!!! You mentioned once that you do not like snow so I assume you like warm weather a lot more??? I think you’d love to just sit on a blanket and bask in the sun and maybe watch and feed the ducklings like you said!! It’d be really cute!!!

@justkpopjokes Okay but I think Lin is such a great artist and I want to go on a picnic date with her because I wanna see her draw the cherry blossoms?? Adshj it sounds whimsical but imagine having a picnic under all the cherry blossoms and she’d have the sketchbook out and all the petals are falling all around us and it’d be amazing.

@ru-lin Ruth!! I would love to take a walk around the park with you!! Idk why but I would love to walk with you through the park on a cool, spring day! Imagine just hanging out around the pond/lake and feeding all the pretty fish/birds (ok, but birds are scary irl so maybe we can just do the fish). I’d also love to try and go on a rowing boat with you bc it seems so fun!!!

@sunnysidewrites SUNNY!!! I can totally imagine the two of use going on a picnic at a field or something and we’d go cloud-watching. I’d complain about how bright is is because the literal sun is practically lying right next to me!!! I will definitely make and bring all your favorite food and we’d spend the day catching up!!!

blind date 🙈

@lovelycheollie Hannah is such a lovely person to talk to but we haven’t talked much even though we’ve been mutuals for quite sometimes! It’s my fault but I’d love to get to know her more because she’s such an amazing writer and it’s really enjoyable talking to her!!!

@tonicandjins Again, I don’t know how I ended up mutuals with a person as amazing and as talented as Faye but so far from what I know, she’s been nothing short of sweet and friendly!!  I hope we can be better friends!!!

@sebongie-loves I’M SORRY I NEVER REPLIED! IT’S MY BAD!!! But you seem really cool and your writings are amazing and I really hope we can finally be friends kafhafh. Plus, we gotta stick together, y’know (and be salty together about the Tumblr ban fffff).

@sugacrackers Mich! You’re such a great person and we’ve been kinda tagging each other on ask games and such but I never got to properly know you and I’m sorry for that! I know that you’re on hiatus rn but tell me when I can hit you up bc I really do wanna be friends with you!!!

@chillihansol HANNI! We haven’t really talked but you’ve always been so sweet and supportive and I’m such a big fan of you and your works and I would really like it if we become better friends in the future!! Thank you so much for everything!!!

[episodes-ff]

38.2 No Fear

Dustin

Feeling the kiss deepen, I pulled her onto my lap and held her waist before she quickly took off my jersey and threw it to the floor. Feeling all over her as the heat between us rose, she started tusseling my dreads. Quickly breaking the kiss, she looked at me in confusion as I got up and grabbed my shirt before tossing it on. “W-Where are you going? Did I do something wrong?” “No no. I forgot I gotta help out with some family stuff at home. Imma call you later, ok?” Nodding with a sad expression, I kissed her cheek and quickly left the room and the party. Pulling into the driveway, I headed inside and saw my mom up making some banana pudding. “Hey, Dusty! You’re home early. You enjoy the party?” “Yea yea. It was chill.” “That’s good. I left you a plate in the oven cause I know how you don’t like to eat at other folks houses.” “Thank you, Mom. I’m not really hungry right now, but I’ll eat it later.” I said grabbing a water bottle and starting for the stairs. “Ok, baby. Dustin?” “Yes, ma’am?” “Whatever her name is, she’ll forgive you.” “Thank you, mama.” Smiling, she came and kissed me goodnight before I went to my room.

Man, what the fuck was I thinking? Help with family stuff?! She’s never gonna talk to me again, bruh. I don’t even blame her, man. I was just so in the moment and then BOOM! No more heat. Don’t get me wrong, Tiara bad as fuck and I’d easily tear that up, but I respect her more than just some little hookup, so I’m gonna take my time and get to know her first... if she ever speaks to me again.

Walking into school on Monday morning, I was a man on a mission. I needed to see Tiara and explain why I left her. Walking up towards her locker, I saw her talking to Nick and furrowed my eyebrows as he said something causing her to giggle. Hugging her, he walked off as I dropped all hope in tryna talk her and turned to head to my locker. “Dustin? Dustin!” “Huh? Oh hey, Tiara.” “Hey. How was your weekend?” “It was ok. What about yours?” “Boring as hell. I had to tutor Nick on some math assignments and then I watched my cousin’s dog.” She smiled. Damn, I just wanna kiss her right here, man. “That’s wassup. So, you and Nick, huh?” “What do you mean? I just tutored him, that’s it.” Nodding, the bell rang as she looked off. “Guess I’ll see you around.” She said adjusting her purse and walking away.

Tiara

Walking into class, I plopped down next to Lisa as I wore a permanent frown. “What’s wrong with you, girl?” “Watching Dustin walk in and sit in the back, I faced forward and ignored him. “Nothing...”

Walking through the lunch line, I sat with Lisa and picked through my food as I thought about Dustin. Why would he accuse me of exploring something with Nick when I wanna explore with him. He didn’t have to say it for me to know how he was feeling. Why is it that when a girl is putting her feelings out there about a certain guy you know, testing the waters or whatever, he decides to mess it up because of his own insecurities? Like, you have a good girl sitting in front of you giving you a chance, and you gotta fuck it up.

“What are you doing over here?” Lisa said annoyed; looking up and seeing Dustin, I rolled my eyes where he wouldn’t see. “Can I talk to you for a second, Tiara?” “Yea.” “What do you two have to talk about? Look Dustin, we’re over and I’m not getting back with you. I think you need to just accept that.” “Lisa, I don’t give a fuck about your life, past, or future. I don’t want your conniving ass... I wanna to be with Tiara.” “Really?” I said standing up as he looked at me. “Yes, That’s why I left the party. I respect you too much to treat you like a hookup, so I lied and for that, I apologize. I haven’t been able to get you off my mind, and I was coming to you this morning to see where your head was at, but I got in my own way and fucked it up. Can you forgive me?” He rushed out as I held his hands and smiled. “I forgive you.” I smiled as he picked me up and kissed me. “I’m so sorry, Tiara.” “I’m sorry too. I shouldn’t have gotten an attitude with you because I didn’t know what was going on.” “I forgive you, baby.” Ugh, he just called me baby. I think I’m gonna melt.

Janae

“Ok, give Mommy kisses, y’all.” I said as the girls and Kaiden walked up and kissed my cheeks. “You’re all gonna be good for grandma and grandpa Wills, right?” “Yes.” “Ok, me and Daddy will be back bright and early to pick y’all up.” “Bye Mama, bye Daddy.” They cooed waving bye to me and Kassius as we made our way to the car and pulled off. Riding along to the restaurant, I blushed as Kass kept reaching over and touching my thigh. “You look so good tonight, bae.” “Thank you, baby.” I smiled admiring his attire as one my favorite songs played on the radio. Riding through the city, I breathed in the fresh night air as we pulled up to Nobu and parked in valet. Opening my door for me, I cheesed as he helped me out and we walked hand in hand inside and were seated to our favorite booth.

Eating my sushi, I looked over and noticed that Kassius had a nervous expression and was barely grazing his plate. “You ok, baby? You haven’t eaten any of your food.” “I think it’s just my stomach. Imma head to the restroom right quick.” Nodding, I kissed his cheek as he got up and headed to the back. I hope he’s feeling ok. Finishing my food, I noticed he still wasn’t back and frowned before taking a picture of his food and posting it to Snapchat as well as Instagram.

@prettygirlnve: Date night at Nobu with my love🍱💜✨

Hearing the melody for 10,000 Hours by Ella Mai, I instantly got hype cause this is me and Kassius’ favorite song right now, but it kinda died down when I remembered he was in the bathroom. Hearing her voice more clearer, I looked up and saw her walking the restaurant and singing as I became star struck. Damn, why does he have to miss all the cool shit? Seeing her spot me, I got giddy as she made her way over towards our booth.

“Hi, are you Janae?” She asked in her cute English accent. “Yea! I’m such a huge fan of yours, did I win a contest or something.” “Something like that.” She smirked hugging me before I felt a tap on my shoulder. Turning around, my jaw dropped as I saw Kassius on one knee holding a black box. “Janae Annalise Marie Ellis, my first and only love. Time and time again, you’ve shown me how wonderful of a person you truly are, and I can’t fathom losing you again. I have no fear in my heart that you are the one for me.” He said shakily as I cried while Ella serenaded us. “I been planning this night since you took me back, and it’s no other way I can show you my appreciation than with this...” Opening the box, I lost my breath at the gigantic ring lying snug inside. “Will you marry me, Janae?” Crying harder, I nodded before he slid the ring on and picked me up as the other guests clapped and gushed.

@prettygirlnve: Of course I said yes...🔐💍

[choisgirls]

Okay so let's pretend that the RFA were able to talk to their respective MC in a language besides Korean so they've been assuming for the longest time ever that MC can't speak Korean. One day, they come home and hear her singing a song creepily in Korean and once they find her she's just laughing her ass off. How would the RFA react? I'm sorry I just have a sudden urge to see someone write this if your requests aren't open feel free to disregard this~

A/N: I’m so sorry this took so long omfg ;A; But I hope I got what you were talking about??? ~Admin 404

*YOOSUNG:

               -Sinceyou didn’t start out speaking Korean in the chatroom, he just assumed youcouldn’t

               -OOOOOA FOREIGNER, YOOSUNG IS HYPED

               -Afterthe two of you got close, he came home early from his classes one day- notknowing you were in your shared home

               -He wasin the middle of changing, shirt halfway over his head, when he noticedsinging?

               -It wasa standard Korean lullaby, but it was being sung quiet and very slowly

               -HEACTUALLY GOT SO SCARED THAT HE GOT STUCK IN HIS SHIRT

               -Triedto run out of the house, thinking it was a ghost, but ran into the wall-resulting in him falling on his ass

               -Youpull the shirt off his head, asking if he was alright

               -“MCWE GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE, THERE’S A GHOST!!!! A G H O S T!!!”

               -He’sup on his feet, trying to drag you out of the house yoosung what about yourshirt

               -“Aghost? What do you mean? What makes you say that?”

               -“Ijust heard someone sing this lullaby all slow and creepy and we just, WE GOTTAGO”

               -Superconfused when you bust out laughing

               -omgyou weren’t laughing at the fact he had no shirt on, were you???

               -“Thatwasn’t a ghost, I was singing!”

               -Onesecond, two seconds, three seconds…. ding! Light bulb!

               -“Youlearned a Korean lullaby? When did you do that?”

               -“Uh,years ago. When I learned Korean. Didn’t you know that?

               -whenyou fuckin’ WHAT

               -He iscompletely mindblown to find out you speak Korean??

               -Thoughnow he’s really embarrassed aboutjust assuming you didn’t know the language

               -Superhappy to talk in either language, it makes him feel cool tbh

               -iscompletely pissed off when he finds out you sent a video of him running intothe wall to saeyoung

*ZEN:

               -Healways asks for an extra copy of his scripts in *insert mc native languagehere* so you can practice with him!!

               -Younever understood why he did that, maybe he was just trying to be nice?

               -But healways did that with you? With everything?

               -AnyDVD’s, CD’s, absolutely anything he brings home is in your native language

               -Doeshe think you’re more comfortable that way?

               -Obviously,you appreciate it but it’s kind of like…..

               -There’sno need to go so out of his way to do all of that for you!

               -Oneday, you were taking a shower and decided to sing one of the songs from hismost recent play

               -Youlove Zen and love that he’s happy with his career but god daMN THAT SONG ISSTUCK IN YOUR HEAD AND YOU ARE BEYOND DONE WITH IT

               -So youmade fun of it by singing ridiculously, trying different voices, tones,anything you can think of

               -All ofa sudden, the bathroom door is thrown open, slamming against the wall

               -"MCIS THAT YOU?? ARE YOU SINGING LIKE THAT?? HAVE MY WORDS TOUCHED YOU SO DEEPLYTHAT YOU KNOW THEM BY HEART, DISPITE THEM BEING IN ANOTHER LANGUAGE?”

               -Youjust poke your head out of the shower to stare at him, watching as he starts totalk to himself about how beautiful his voice must for you to have learned itso quickly

               -“Doyou know the meaning??? I can give you a word by word translation!! Do you wantthat? DO YOU WANT ME TO DO THAT?”

               -“No?I mean, yeah… You play it all the time… because you’re learning it but Iknow the words on my own, thanks sweetheart”

               -You???Knew what the words meant??

               -Hejust kind of stares at you in disbelief before you roll your eyes and return totaking your shower

               -“Zen?Why are you still here? Go aw-” “YOU CAN SPEAK KOREAN”

               -Yousigh and agree that yes, you can speak Korean, and you’ve been able to thiswhole time

               -Hestarts crying??? What in the world???

               -“ICANNOT BELIEVE I DIDN’T KNOW THIS ABOUT MY LOVE! I’M A TERRIBLE MAN, DON’T LOOKAT ME, MC!” not looking at you anyway, zen, tryna shower here

               -“Savethe drama for your play later, sweetheart. It’s alright, I just never saidanything about knowing another language”

               -Literallyspent most of the rest of the day just pouting and feeling terrible that henever knew. You have to comfort him often because it was something neither ofyou ever really brought up way to go mc ya broke ya boyfriend

*JAEHEE:

               -Afterworking for Jumin for so long, she’s unfortunately learned to assume if youlook foreign, you might not speak other languages

               -Soshe’s already assumed you speak only your native language, so she automaticallyaccommodates to your needs

               -Thoughyou…. don’t need it??

               -Youfigured that she wanted to make things easier for you, which you appreciated,but you wanted to make things easy for her too!!

               -What’sfunny is that you’ve talked to her late at night, after she’s been up for days,in Korean so that it’s easier for her mind to process what you ask

               -Didshe pick up on it? Not at all. poor tired bby, someone help her

               -Sodespite the fact that you leave notes for her written in Korean, she just…hasn’t…. noticed?

               -Becauseshe still talks to you in your native tongue

               -Seriously,you’ve tried everything to make it blatantly obvious that you could speakKorean

               -Theeasiest way to tell her that, ‘hey, i don’t need you to translate convos forme, i promise’ is to just straight up tell her

               -Exceptyou didn’t get a chance to?

               -Youwere sweeping the house one day, belting out one of Zen’s songs from his latestmusical

               -Gettinginto it, you dance with the broom, dipping it dramatically

               -Duringyour dip though, you look up to find Jaehee standing in the doorway, at a lossfor words

               -“Oh…so.. you really do speak Korean.. I wasn’t going crazy, then”

               -SHELOOKED SO EMBARRASSED THAT YOU COULDN’T HELP BUT FEEL BAD

               -“I,um, I apologize for just assuming that you-”

               -Youcut her off when you pulled her into a quick dance around the living room,singing the previous song all over again

               -With aswift motion, you dipped her like you did the broom

               -Aquick peck to her lips sent her over the edge and she burst into giggles

               -“You’rea much better dance partner than the broom” you tell her in Korean, with awiggle of your eyebrows

               -Shepushes you away from her and laughs as she leaves the room, calling over hershoulder

               -“Maybeyou should learn a few more songs there, MC”

*JUMIN:

               -Alsoguilty of just assuming you only spoke your native language

               -Alsonever bothered to ask

               -Youdon’t even bother to tell him though because you’re lowkey salty about it

               -Like???He didn’t even ask???

               -Youlove him and all, but it’s been… how long? And he never even bothered to asKYOU IF YOU KNEW HIS LANGUAGE

               - damnmister trustfund kid

               -Butit’s actually really funny because he talks to Elizabeth in Korean

               -So hethinks you don’t know how much he’s praising her, or baby-talking her

               -ButyouKNOW

               -Andyou’re left wondering why he doesn’t talk to you like that sometimes

               - goddamn cat getting all the attention (kiDDING I LOVE U ELLY)

               -Butlet’s be honest, you love her just as much and do the same exact thing

               -Infact, you love to sing to her! And she loves it too!

               -Sheturns into a freaking motor box when you sing, she loves it soo much

               -So yousing to her every day, it makes her happy, makes you happy, everyone is happy

               -Oneday, you were singing to her, but Jumin actually came home early??

               -So heheard you singing too, and just sat down quietly next to you

               -Waitedpatiently until you finished the song before speaking

               -“So,you sing to Elizabeth?”

               -“Everyday, sweetheart! You just happened to catch the show”

               -Immediatelythought about asking Saeyoung to install some hidden microphone or something tocapture you singing every day

               - thatisnt creepy at all, dude

               -With aslight tilt of his head, he looked at you, eyes full of question

               -Youhad to fight the urge to kiss his cute little face, but it was worth it

               -“So,MC? You can speak Korean? Not just *insert native language here*?”

               -Younodded in agreement, looking down at Elly, petting her with a smile on yourface

               -“I’veknown this whole time… *pulls Elly up to face* But SOMEBODY *kisses Elly’snose* Never bothered asking. Did he? No, no he didn’t! He didn’t, did heElizabeth??”

               -Youshot him a side glare, watching as his face twisted into slight embarrassmentand back to a playful one before getting up to leave the room

               -“It’sokay, MC. I’ll test out how well you can pronounce those Korean words latertonight.”

*SAEYOUNG:

               -HeloVED your aCCENT

               -So hespoke to you in your native language just so he could hear it

               -Did heknow you could speak Korean?

               -Yeahprobably

               -DID HECARE? I’m hearing “no”

               -Did heremember, a long time later, that you could speak Korean?

               -Again,I am going with no

               -He’salways thinking about god knows what all the damn time so it isn’t surprisingthat he forgot you spoke Korean all together

               -Infact, you were hoping he did forget you spoke Korean, or your new plan wouldn’twork out how you wanted it to

               -Yousee, you and Saeyoung like to prank each other like crazy, but his last onereally irked you

               -(Imean come on??? Who in the world thinks it’s funny to sneak a permanent markerinto your pants pocket when you do laundry??? That rUINS YOUR CLOTHES)

               -So,you decided that revenge was in order, and you wanted nothing more than to scarehim to death

               -Aftera long set up with a creepy life-size doll trapped to an rc car, a couple ofspeakers hidden, and a ton of hidden cameras, you were ready for him to comehome

               -Whenhe got into the room and noticed the girl standing in the corner, heimmediately noped the hell out and tried leaving

               -Butyou locked the door! There is no escaping sweet revenge!

               -Youstarted to sing little kids nursery rhymes through a microphone, it comingthrough the hidden speakers broken and ominous

               -“noPE!NOPE NOPE NOPE. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU? I KNOW HOW TOFIGHT LITTLE GIRL, I’M NOT AFRAID TO KICK YOU IN THE FACE”

               -So youkept singing, stopping only to ask him to come play, in child-like voice

               -“NOI DON’T WANNA PLAY, JESUS CHRIST, SOMEONE LET ME OUT”

               -Youdecided to chase him around with the doll, using the wireless controller fromthe other room

               -Youdidn’t know he could scream in such a high pitch, I swear to god, dogs fromaround the world could hear it

               -He wasgetting out of that room, then and there. He broke down the door. Ran down thehallway and heard you laughing from another room

               -Hedidn’t even think about why you were laughing, he just jumped onto your lap,and latched onto you, hugging tight and burying his face against you

               -“MC!THERE’S A CREEPY DEMON CHILD IN THE OTHER ROOM IT’S CHASING ME, MC PLEASEPROTECT ME”

               -Butyou couldn’t even reply- you were laughing too hard. He looked around and sawyour set up of monitors, wireless controller, and microphone

               -Helooked up at you with a ton of mixed emotions

               -Firstof all he was still a little freaked out?? But he was also kinda pissed offthat you scared the hell out of him! But he’s also in awe that you set all thisup… and so in love with how hard you’re laughing…

               -HEDOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO F E E L

               -Takesa second to think about the situation and suddenly remembers

               -“Wait…you can speak Korean… I TOTALLY FORGOT YOU COULD DO THAT? WHAT THE HELL MC, ITHOUGHT YOU WERE SOME CREEPY LITTLE GIRL”

               -Yougive him an innocent smile, but based on the look he gave you once he stood upand walked away

               -He wasprobably going to use that fact against you for his revenge prank, and youweren’t positive you wanted to know what that was going to be

 *V:

               -Offthe bat, he asks which language you’re more comfortable speaking in

               -Whenyou said your own native language, he understood, and tried his best to accommodatefor you!

               -Eversince then he’s always making sure he can translate things for you, whether itbe signs or casual conversation

               -Youknew Korean but didn’t know if you were a strong enough speaker, which is whyyou initially told him you were comfortable with your first language

               -So,you secretly were testing out your language skills every time the two of youwent out!

               -Whenhe translated for you and you had gotten it right in your head, you were soexcited!

               -But hedidn’t know that ’s what you were doing??

               -Hejust always saw you light up and smile softly to yourself and it made him weAK

               -Was itbecause he was translating for you??

               -Didn’tknow exactly, but was definitely going to keep doing whatever he was doingbecause that loOK

               -IT WASSOOO PRECIOUS

               -But hefelt bad that he couldn’t go shopping with you one day because he had somepeople he had to see

               -Whatif you couldn’t read the signs?? What if you couldn’t talk to the people?? WhAtIf-

               -So he triedto make his meetings go as quickly as possible without being rude

               -And heran to meet you at your favourite coffee shop, where he knew you’d stop first!

               -As hewalked up behind you, getting ready to surprise you and order for you, he tooka step back when he heard you ordering perfectly fine in Korean

               -Youeven made small talk with the barista! In perfect Korean!

               -Whenyou turned around with your coffee, he stared at you in surprise, but he scaredthe shit out of you! You almost dropped your coffee!

               -“V!Hey! You scared me…. I thought you had to go meet a few people? Did somethinghappen? Are you alright?”

               -Youasked. In perfect Korean. Why did you doubt your language skills??

               -“Ithought you only knew *your native language of choice*? So I haven’t needed totranslate for you this whole time?”

               -Youcould see the disappointment in his eyes as you quickly shook your head (andhands) in embarrassment

               -“Nono no no, you asked me in the beginning if I was more comfortable with mynative language, which I am! I know Korean but I was afraid about gettingsomething wrong, so I really appreciated all of your translations! They help memake sure I’m learning and getting it all right!”

               -Explainingit to him was definitely the smart move because you watched as he went from sadpuppy to ecstatic pup knowing that he was able to help you learn new things andsolidify what you already knew!

               -Fromthen on, he always tries to let you figure it out first, then help you if youneed it!

               -Was heembarrassed that he always translated when you didn’t need it? Yes

               -Did heget over it quickly? Also yes. He’s a precious tol bean. He is alright withthis revelation.

*SAERAN:

               -Alsoknew from the start that you knew Korean

               -Hetalked to you from the beginning in Korean so he knew afterwards that you’dknow

               -Notlike you all of a sudden lost your knowledge on a full language….right?

               -Thatbeing said he just plain refuses to let you pretend like you can’t speak himlanguage

               -Everytime you try to talk to him in your native language he just kind of looks atyou with absolutely no emotion

               -“Hi,MC, speak in a language I know please, thanks”

               -Likeseriously

               -Thisman does not let you have any fun with it at all

               -Youeven tried to fake some sort of amnesia, too

               -To like,pretend you forgot how to speak Korean so he’d have to talk to you in yournative language

               -Did itwork? No

               -Hejust stared at you like you were stupid

               -He’ssuch a jERK

               -WHYCAN’T YOU JUST PLAY ALONG, SAERAN. JUST GIVE ME THIS ONE THING

               -Youeven try to mess with him in public

               -Youask him to order some food for you, asking him in your native language

               -Thecashier is confused but Saeran just stares at you

               -Hecompletely understands what you say, despite pretending that he doesn’t

               -Turnsback to the cashier and tells them that you’re getting nothing

               -WAITSAERAN PLEASE I WANT FOOD TOO

               -Untilthe day he slips up and responds to a question you ask him in your language

               -Youcelebrate, including a victory dance

               -Hejust curses at himself for messing up and letting you win

               -Thoughhe does think it’s really cute that you’re thisexcited about winning

               -Maybehe should let you win more often thAT WONT HAPPEN

[sevensity]

Hello again :3 I was wondering the RFA (+ Minor Trio) would react to the MC being a professional competitive horse rider (dressage, jumping, cross country, eventing, pas de deux, etc...)? Thank you and hope that wasn't too much :3

Ahhh so when I first read your ask I was like ?????? I don’t know what any of these words mean??? So I’m sorry if I get terminology wrong, I’m not a horse-riding expert even though I did do some research >.

on a side note thank you for the reblogs with the commentary lmao I really do read all of them, and I could write a V soulmate au like someone said but it’s gotta be a proper request heuheu

Update: @makosharkies actually drew a thing for me so if you wanna see some Saeran vs horse art go check it out

YOOᔕᑌᑎG:

Oh jeez this kid was so happy to find out about you being an equestrian

Not only is horse-riding hella cool, but also

just horses in general????

because horses are great?????

Insists he come watch your practice that day, and you let him even though you had a feeling Yoosung was gonna go all horse biology on you

Sure enough, when you get to the area where all the horses are kept, Yoosung is just shaking he’s so thrilled

him: casually pulls out his vet notes

you: casually puts them back in his bag

Yoosung I’ve been with horses since forever I think I can name their body parts myself thanks

Yoosung loves watching you ride, wow MC looks so cool like medieval movie people 

lmao medieval movie people good going Yoosung

But also he gets to watch how a horse’s body moves in real time

So it’s a really good study session for him too, though the first thing he says to you afterwards is 

“I never knew a horse’s muscles looked so powerful under their sleek pelt!” (help me out here is it a pelt or skin or w h a t?)

Yoosung what about me

“You looked beautiful too!”

‘Too’????

Anyways, he tells you that next time he’d like to see things from up close

Yoosung I sincerely hope that you don’t become obsessed with my horse

ᘔEᑎ:

LMAO THIS GUY

We all know how much of a romanticist he is

MC has horses???? Like real horses???

Well I am an equestrian so yes

MC pleasecanIrideahorseIwanttobeyourprinceandrideoffintothesunset

When he sees you at a jumping competition, you make it look so easy

If MC can do it, so can I!

Reluctantly, you try to give him a little lesson on riding, but Zen keeps distracting himself by trying to always look good

“Okay, so before you actually get on, there are some basics you need to know-”

“If the horse runs really fast, I bet my hair’s gonna look a-m-a-z-i-n-g in the wind.”

“Zen, are you even listen-”

“We gotta get the timing right though, the sun has to be in front of me, so that I can have a perfect silhouette.”

“Zen you-”

“Is it okay if I let go of the reins? I’m gonna have to take a selfie…what kind of pose should I make? Oh I kn-”

“ZEN FOR FUCK’S SAKE DON’T STAND DIRECTLY BEHIND THE HORSE IF SHE KICKS YOU YOU’LL GET SERIOUSLY HURT.”

In the end, Zen doesn’t learn how to ride by himself, let alone be able to do basic jumps

But because of his pouting, you gave in and allowed him to ride with you

more like you two were just chilling on the horse while the sun set in front of you

You’re holding a portable electric fan in your hand so that Zen can get his desired wind effect

Of course you spend hours there while he takes thousands of selfies

Jaehee’s the only one who believes him when he tells the RFA that he now knows how to ride a horse

ᒍᗩEᕼEE:

when you tell  her that you have to take a day off work for a competition, she insists she come along and watch

Jaehee is blown away by your concentration, and the teamwork you and your horse possess

Wants to use it as a reference for working standards at the cafe lolol

When you bring her closer to your horse, she straightens her back, then gives him a deep bow

“Hello, my name is Jaehee Kang, am I am MC’s girlfriend. It truly is a pleasure to meet you,” she says, before standing upright again. 

Your horse simply  nibbles at the carrot you offer him, because it’s a horse and horses like carrots better than formal introductions I guess

*gasp* does that mean I’m a horse too? wow the more you know…

But honestly Jaehee you’re so cute what am I supposed to do with you???

Oh I know

Over the next couple of weeks, you give Jaehee a few lessons about horseback riding, and of course being the intelligent and hardworking person she is, Jaehee picks up on them right away

And one day, you have her dress up in a pretty outfit, and bring her over to the yard

Jaehee sits sattleback as you guide the horse around the track, wanting to show the world how beautiful your girlfriend is, and how proud you are to be able to call her that

Jaehee’s a blushing mess

You decide to to it again soon

ᒍᑌᗰIᑎ:

The first time Jumin saw your dressage performance, he was floored

There are other animals as sophisticated as Elizabeth 3rd???

Your horse’s trot just captures his heart, and that night he watches more dressage videos with Elly

Lowkey tries to teach her how to do the fancy horse walk

lolololol could you imagine a cat doing that

makin’ my way downtown

He’s gonna build a private establishment just for you, one that’s really close to his office so that he can come visit you during his breaks

It calms him down after a stressful day at work, watching you practice so diligently 

He makes sure you have the best coaches, best facilities

But he knows not to suggest getting ‘better’ horses,since he would promptly arrest anybody who suggested getting a ‘better’ cat (not that that even existed in Jumin Han’s mind)

The guy thought he was a cat whisperer

He’s actually a horse whisperer

You’ll walk in on his brushing your horse, singing her a lullaby in a foreign language

you swear the horse is singing it right back at him

But Jumin promises to sing it to you too

ᔕᗩEYOᑌᑎG:

Oh he knew

He even attended your pas de deux competition when you just joined the RFA

He was that one dude who kept screaming every 5 seconds and had to be escorted out

When you officially introduce him to your horse/s, Saeyoung looks like a kid who just met their superhero

“It’s a HORSE!?!?!?”

Yes, yes it is.

bOI S TOP WITH THE MY LITTLE PONY REFERENCES

IT’S SERIOUSLY GETTING OUT OF HAND

You never knew he was a closeted brony

Names your horse after his favourite character

“Seven please he’s called Shadowfax not Rainbow Dash!”

For some unknown reason, Saeyoung knows how to ride horses??

And he’s actually pretty good at it????

Except he still lacks common sense????

“Look at me!” he exclaims, ‘Rainbow Dash’ prancing around the arena with Seven on his back,”No hands! No hands! No– gah!” 

He’s is flung from your horse and lands in a bush

His glasses askew, bramble stuck in his hair, he declares that he immediately wants to do it again

In the end, you guys make a pas de deux routine together, and it’s a beautiful thing to witness

somehow the horses dab at the end

ᐯ:

He’s happy when you tell him about you being an equestrian, but his thoughts are tinged with sadness because he can’t see what you’re doing

Still, V says that he wishes to be there when you practice, so you bring him along and sit him somewhere nearby (you don’t want him to wander off while you aren’t looking istg even if he’s blind he just doesn’t know how to stay put)

He hears everything, the sound of the horse’s hooves, the soft words you give your horse in between rides, and he even begins to think that he can hear the sound of the wind as you gallop around the arena

His fingers are aching to take a picture, but all he can do is imagine with eyes that can no longer see, what a sight to behold you must be

I did a Seuss thing

Not three days pass before he confronts you with his desire to get surgery

When he goes back to watch you, he brings along his camera

You were more incredible to watch than he ever thought possible

He wants to capture every moment of you looking free and cherish them forever

ᔕᗩEᖇᗩᑎ:

Actually really afraid of horses but definitely won’t admit it

So when you tell him about being an equestrian, he sorta just freezes for a moment 

He clears his throat, “Ah…oh, cool,” he growls, trying to appear disinterested

You you tell him you want to bring him to a cross-country event, but he just gives you A Look™

“Will there be…you now…horses there?”

Saeran p l s 

But he can’t lose face in front of you, and forces himself to go

He waits with the crowd while you do your thing, but he can’t hype himself up for you because he’s too afraid for your safety

Basically, since he’s scared of horses, he’s also afraid of seeing you on a horse

horsesareevilIdontunderstandthemwhatiftheyhaveahiddenagenda

That’s pretty much all he can think about 

When you’re done, he all but snatches you off of your horse, glaring at it as if it were his love rival

“Um Saeran did - did something happen between the two of you?”

“You never know what a horse is plotting,” he mutters to himself.

“What?”

Saeran pouts and looks away, and you tell him you have to go see your coach but you’ll be right back

So he’s left standing awkwardly beside your horse

He keeps giving it suspicious glances, half-expecting it to morph into some strange monstrous creature

“Who the fuck are you?” he finally hisses, staring the horse down. “Are you an impostor? Professional cosplayer? Well, whatever you are, you better watch out, because I’ve got my eyes on you…all three of them,” he adds, tapping his arm.

*does the I’m watching you thing with his hands while slowly slinking out of the frame*

Horse: who the fuck are you?

ᐯᗩᑎᗪEᖇᗯOOᗪ:

He’s totally with Saeran in the ‘horses are plotting world domination’ club

You want him to come watch you? Nuh-uh

No matter how much you beg, Miss Vanderwood will not go

So you think to yourself

If he will not go to the horse, then the horse will go to him

“MC!!!! MC!!!!!” you hear Vanderwood screeching that afternoon. 

“Yeah?”

“Why…WHY IS THERE A GODDAMNED HORSE IN THE LIVING ROOM??”

“I thought some bonding time would be nice.”

Vanderwood runs around the house, screaming for hours

When he finally calms down, you find him seated in a corner of the living room, whispering things to himself

You think, good, he seems to have come to terms with your horse, and you approach him with a small hopeful smile, 

“Hey, Van-”

You pause

He’s clutching a tattered book to his chest as if his life depended on it

What’s this? you think, stepping in some sort of thick liquid

There, on the floor, a strange rune-looking symbol had been painted, with your horse standing in the middle, munching on some oats

“VandeRWOOD WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?”

“I MUST SUMMON SATAN TO GET RID OF HIS SPAWN! SO I’M SACRIFICING THE HORSE!!”

“NO DON’T YOU DARE SACRIFICE THE HORSE!”

“Fucking waTCH ME!  DIES IRAE, DIES ILLA, SOLVET SAECLU-”

The horse vanishes only to reappear in the bathroom

Vanderwood loses his voice for a week, and still has nightmares regarding the whole incident

You never speak of that day again

[celestie0]

HI ELLIE OKAY I JUST FINISHED TTPD AND I AHVE OPINIONS 😭 first half of the album was ehh idk how to feel abt fortnight considering it’s the single for this album I think it was good not that good though it wasn’t amazing like lavender haze I really loved ttpd (the song) I think my boy only breaks his favorite toys were good but so long London was a HUGE disappointed I think we all hyped it up so much and we all ended up getting disappointed because it wasn’t what we wanted or expected but daddy I love him WAS SO GOOD especially the lyric Where it goes “I’m having his baby no I’m not,but you should see your faces” GAGEDDD I WAS GAGED I also really liked fresh out of the slammer especially the kind banging sounds ik it wasn’t banging but bear w me 😭😭 guys English isn’t my language you can’t blame me fr 😂😂 who’s afraid of little old me WAS SO GOOOD and I can do it with a broken heart especially when she goes “I’m so depressed I act like it’s my birthday everyday Im so obsessed with him but he avoids me like plague” and the upbeat music makes it so much better the anothology was so much better then the normal version definitely really loved the black dog that song really stood out to me imgonnagetyouback WAS SO GOOD I saved that one I hate it here was also really good 😭 thanK you aIMee THE SHADE THROWN AT KIM ?? Taylor mother fucking swift did it AGAINNN 😭😭🤞🏻 she ate her up so bad if I was Kim I would be so embarrassed rn 😭☠️ Cassandra also stood out to me I think this was abt the kimye situation Robin was ehh I think it’s a grower for me honestly but the Bolter and the manuscript were pretty good as if noe I think I’ll probably enjoy the album way more if I just listen to it more a little disappointing but that’s fine cuz there were amazing tracks on here and tbh I am not mad at it now I just need to watch the fortnight music video but I’m too overwhelmed rn so I need a break a little 🥲 now I’m just probably gonna wait for Somone to break down the tracks and point out the hidden clues in the mv 😭😭☠️

hiii bb omg your opinions are pretty much exactly mine LOL <333

yeahh i agree w you, w midnights lavendar haze was likee....it set the TONE for the album yknow hahaha. i remember first listen for it n i was like aight im locking in after hearing that. but i heard fortnight n was like...ehhh i hope it gets better. i liked ttpd too i thought it was lyrically p good song plus the line ab the ring omg i was gagged. yea SLL was disappointtinggg i was rlly looking forward to that one ripping my heart out LOL but it...didn't

"but daddy I love him WAS SO GOOD especially the lyric Where it goes “I’m having his baby no I’m not,but you should see your faces” GAGEDDD I WAS GAGED"

HELP SAME HAHAHA I WAS WATCHING A BUNCH OF TIKTOKS YESTERYDAY OF PPL REACTING TO THAT LYRIC AND IT'S SO FUNNY xD tbh when i first heard it it didn't really sink in for me so i was just vibin w it but then i was like damn. imagine if she announced to the world she was pregnant through a song like that ahhah i was shocked when i heard it again in second chorus. she was so insane for that

agghh idk 'who's afraid of little old me' and 'i can do it w a broken heart' were big time misses for me lol i haven't listened to them again since first listen but it's just cuz i don't really like those kinds of songs from her (specifically referring to the lyricism on these ones) but idkkk i could just be a hater LOL cuz my friends rly liked icdiwabh but it might grow on me, we'll see,, it's def catchy!! kinda silly but she kept it so real

YESSS i think the black dog is in my top three from album :'') i had it on repeat driving to work yesterday and i cried ??? w every listen ??? idk something ab the end of the bridge where she holds the note on "old habits die screaming" omg i sob. and i'mgonnagetyouback was also SO GOOD i think that song is the type of edgy ts lyricism i enjoy (as opposed to icdiwabh & who's afraid of lil old me)

THENK YOU AIMEE WAS WILDDD i think that's the song that had me the MOST GAGGED BC GAT DAYUM. the part where she alludes that kim's kids will be coming home from school singing songs that SHE WROTE that only the two of them know are throwing shade at kim plsss. that's wild n i'm so glad she had the balls to release that song hahah good for her

i also really liked clara bow, the part where she said "you look like taylor swift" alluding to how someday she too will be gone n only remembered for her legacy was wilddd n made me emotional ngl. also i lovedd peter too def in my top three too. also loml is probs my fave

sameee i haven't watched the new mv yet haha i think i might stream it on tv later tonight. sorryyy bb that' you're overwhelemd hope you're taking care of yurself n that your exams szn is going okay!! <33 ty for sharing your thoughts w me

[dedicatedtodance]

National Dance Radio Airplay

For the week ending April 20, 2024

Never Be Alone --Becky Hill & Sonny Fodera -3

Happier --The Blessed Madonna feat/Clementine Douglas -2

Cutting Loose --Disco Lines, J. Worra, Anabel Englund -1

Lovers In A Past Life --Calvin Harris & Rag'N'Bone Man -6

I Just Need --Danel Allan feat/Lyrah -5

Make You Mine --Madison Beer -9

Lighter --Galantis, David Guetta, 5 Seconds of Summer -14

I'm Only Here For the Beat ---Madelline -4

Dance Alone --SIA feat/Kylie Minogue -10

Why Should I ---Z3LLA -7

Tell Me Who You Are ---Morgin Madison, Ryan Lucian, JAS. -12

Thinking 'Bout Us ---Dannii Minogue & Autone -13

All My Life ---Tiesto, Fast Boy -8

Shiver --John Summit & HAYLA -16

Whatever ---KYGO feat/Ava Max -20

Addicted --ZERB & The Chainsmokers feat/INK -17

Everything You Do --AFROKI, Afrojack, Steve Aoki feat/Aviella. -19

Young & Foolish ---Loud Luxury feat/Charlieonafriday -11

Heaven Or Not ---Diplo & Riva Starr feat/Kareen Lomax -24

Last Of Us --Gryffin feat/Rita Ora -18

Training Season --Dua Lipa -23

Houdini --Dua Lipa -15

Thank You (Not So Bad) --Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike, Tiesto, W&W -22

Complicated --Luca Schreiner -28

The Way It is --Cheat Codes X Two Friends -29

Not Even Love ---Seven Lions, ILLENIUM feat/ASDIS -38

Da Da Dum --Baby Jane -34

Drums ---James Hype, Kim Petras -32

Forever (Stay Like This) --Armin Van Buuren -33

Weight Of The World --Bonnie X Clyde -44

Best Thing ---Timmy Trumpet -25

Rizz ---AYYBO --36

***I Don't Wanna Wait --David Guetta & One Republic -67

Murder On The Dancefloor --Sophie Ellis-Bextor -31

Little Bit Yours ---Galantis, Hannah Boleyn -21 >>>

Carry You --Martin Garri & Third-Party feat/Declan J Donavan -47

Ease My Mind --Switch Disco & AUTOGRAF -28

Water --TYLA -30 >>>

Body Moving ---Eliza Rose X Calvin Harris -35

Mas Que Nada --Oliver Heldens, Ian Asher, Sergio Mendez -40 >>>

Glow --San Holo feat/AU/RA -45

Buscando Money --Twenty-Six, Tayson Kry$$ -42 >>>

Feather --Sabrina Carpenter -39

Yes, And? --Ariana Grande -27 >>>

Nostalgia ---NOTD & Georgia Ku -43

We Ain't Here For Long --Nathan Dawe -41

Take So Long --ARTY feat/XIRA -48

Exes --Tate McRae -46

<>Saving Up --Dom Dolla -51

Off Switch --VASSY -49

***new on the chart <> re-entry >>>off next weeks chart