#the reference is from cats 2005 i think!

[mysticalcats]

funny train cat (reference under cut)

[dear-space-cadet]

the human fear predictions, song-by-song

i see this album being a follow-up to right thoughts right words right action in a sense. a lot of the songs here started appearing, at least somewhat, in 2016. i think there were plans for a rtrwra follow up that was more 'on-theme' but it got scrapped due to ffs, and then alex got obsessed with disco for a little bit and hired a synthpop twink on guitar. now that we're back to somewhat normal, i think it's time for the post-rtrwra songs to shine. i also see a lot of the ychismb+2005 b-sides motifs happening here already (swallow smile, wine in the afternoon, l. wells, jeremy fraser, ghost in a ditch, walk away, fade together). alex appears to be the primary lyric writer now too so that influences everything you are about to read

overall -- rtrwra without the american southwest influence/rtrwra not produced by todd terje; ychismb+2005 b-sides with less edge and more age

playlist of what i think the general vibes will be

audacious

already out so i will not be doing this one. i personally rate it around a 3/10 for my own tastes

everydaydreamer (4/10)

another "children of the world" "be a good person" chorus

'political' but doesn't take an actual stance (like paper cages or huck and jim)

miaoux miaoux synth riff

really throws off the rest of my predictions but i feel like we ease into the farmhouse truck stop from peepeetown to poopooville shit in the back half

the doctor (6/10)

evil eye spiritual successor

a good song but the imagery will make me uncomfortable or alex will not be singing well so i'll just tune it out (similar to treason animals)

potential itao reference? (buckle up)

hooked (10/10)

THEE banger of the album

i have high hopes for this one

they let dino cook. and cook he will

potential spiritual successor to fabulously lazy. a girl can dream

build it up (5/10)

this is a crowd-pleaser live song and will not be made any better with a studio version

if you like it you like it. it will not be made any better or worse with a studio recording. why is this even on the album

night or day (8/10)

this might be the one where alex 'plays the game' lyrically

spiritual successor to right action. "now how can we leave you to a saturday night or a sunday morning"

alternatively it could be a very "i'm there for you" "be a good person" song and rank around 3/10 but i want to ignore the potential for that. i dont want that to be true

tell me should i stay (5/10)

either a typical alexing with all the usual alexisms or the spiritual successor to bullet

clara feature (they make audrey anna-prior-it-out live)

potentially just a nick/manuela diss track again, which is actually the better outcome

cats (2/10)

just the stupidest shit ever

likely instrumental

either a big band flop OR a julian synth moment (which would bump it to a potential 6/10)

could also be "frogs" from the 2016 LP5 tracklist, but renamed to represent the cat imagery in franz now. if so, very farmhouse, very truck stop instrumental moment. potential 6/10 there too

or alex doing an alex. time will tell. it will suck

i pray for a second steckrube mention but it's unlikely

black eyelashes (8/10)

in my heart this is a fade together/walk away follow-up. maybe an eleanor boots follow up

potential nick mccarthy diss track. they might hit the pentagon here

could also be a clara love track but i doubt it being so obvious after what happened with ms eleanor

i need to love this song sowwyyyy if it sucks it's not my fault

could also be a black tuesday/scarlet and blue revision (bc i see black tuesday as a revision of scarlet and blue already) but that is wishful thinking

bar lonely (9/10)

first seen in 2016 and likely written beforehand (nick + paul influence plus pent-up feelings)

idk if it'll be good, but i do have high hopes bc it's been in the chamber for so long

this could also be the one where they hit the pentagon on nick. likely not but the title gives roasting a guy. this could also be the bullet follow-up but i doubt it if it was written sometime between 2014-2016

the birds (7/10)

spiritual successor to the universe expanded

existential. a bit overdone, but that's whatever

also potential walk away tie-in bc of the alfred hitchcock's the birds post-war tie-ins there

maybe another 'political' yet stanceless song focusing on modern anxiety, like the theme of the birds

ends with birds chirping like fade together

that is all i have for you. feel free to add yours or tell me what you think. i'll come back to this in january

[woahitsairi]

Hii!! this is my presentation post!🩷

• i’m Airi, Ria for friends🎀

•i’m 18 y.o (7th september 2005)🍰

•i live in Rome,Italy🏛️

•i love mangas,anime,sanrio,animals,hp,marvel,horror movies,occult,books,cooking,drawing,music,the sunset,flowers,perfumes,art,my friends,my daddy and a lot more!!🤍

•i’m asexual,panromantic and non-binary🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

•i’m taken since 30th march 2023 with daddy🩷

•i’m satanist,not evil!!🪿

•i’ve a cat(Misa) and 3 parrots (Nox & 2 Nuggets)🐈

• i speak🇫🇷🇩🇪🇮🇹🇷🇺🇪🇸🇬🇧

•i’m autistic & ADHD🫶🏻

•i’m not anti k1nk,but this account is SFW so i don’t talk abt that✨

•i’m not a zionist,i’m with Palestine🇵🇸🍉

•i’m also a pet regressor🐇

•my DMS are always open to talk and make friends🍼

•My musical tastes are really so wide, here’s my spotify profile! (I want to specify that i’m an adult,so it can happen that there’re playlists & that in my playlists there’re NSFW songs or with references & explicit language)🎧

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝

DNI (DO NOT INTERACT)⚠️

•if u’re transphobic, homophobic, sexist, zionist, racist, etc

•u don’t think all religions and cult are valid until they hurt someone

•u don’t support neopronouns,u support/u’re pedos and zoophily

•u don’t support and discriminate people with disabilities of any kind

•u don’t think neurodivergent people are valid

•u don’t support people with trauma and/or mental illnesses

•u don’t think agere,petre ecc are valid as a safe coping mechanism

•u think self diagnosis aren’t valid

•u’re anti kink and/or u do kink shaming: Many people use kinks as a coping mechanism to try to live with some traumas so no, it's not up to anyone to be able and having to judge these people badly, they’ve the right to do what’s best for them especially if they don't hurt someone

•u judge people without a valid criteria

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝

HOW TO INTERACT WITH ME🍼

•be nice

•respect my pronouns: they aren’t negotiable and I’ll NEVER change them for someone who wants to talk to me

•if u aren’t part of the agere and petre community u can easily ask me all the questions u want (without disrespect obv)

•I'm autistic so please be careful and maybe use the tonetags

•respect my triggers and don't try to use them against me on purpose to make me feel bad,i’ll block u and add u to blocklist

•My enbyf’s also my daddy so no, I'm not available in looking for a CG

•u can vent with me,just ask first please.Sometimes I’ve terrible days where I’ve a hard time interacting and listening to others when they vent, but I really love helping others so I'm here for anything ^^

•u can send me memes,cute pics and posts and everything abt ur interests

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝

MY TRIGGERS ⚠️

•Forms of manipulation such as gaslighting and guilt tripping

•Food: I suffer from being eating and arfild so anything that’s connected to food like calories etc.

•SH: I've had some bad sh seizures and the agere/petre’s helping me stay clean for as long as possible

PS: abt my DCA and the SH I’ll probably post screens of my progress of the time when I was sober

•Whatever concerns the sexual sphere: I'm an adult and I often get involved in sexual acts with my enbyf, but that absolutely doesn't mean that I don't get triggered by sexual things when I'm little!!

[golby-moon]

threw a mermaid!cas art piece into the pot that is the @reversefantasyspnbang and like magic a mermaid!cas fic appeared :00

here's the banner I made for this, (yes another) desk with stuff on it. idk why I draw so many desks as banners either. but yeah this one is pirate flavored and has a spyglass and compass on it as well as a phoenix feather and fancy pendant thing that was inspired by the one from Disney's 'Moana' with a spn-themed pentagram thrown on there, though the pendant kinda looks like a Tamagotchi and I can't get that image out of my brain. the fish in the drawer was supposed to be a placeholder for something else in the original sketch but it was silly so it stayed 🎉

the title is on a pirate map that's supposed to tell its own story or whatever. the dashed line explores all around the area with various scribbled-out x's marking various spots as well as a whirlpool type deathtrap around what would be the 'a' in 'dead'. the only un-scribbled 'x' is on a tiny island called Mermaid Rock (the thing around the giant tail-shaped 't' in 'tails'), but since the pirates go out of their way to avoid that area (as seen in the dashed line where they get sucked into the whirlpool instead) due to superstitions about mermaids being bad luck, they don't know whether there's actually anything there or not and therefore can't eliminate it

this was the original art piece I submitted, featuring Dean holding up Cas, who's tangled up in a net. looking at it now I can see that angle of the boat is...weird (especially that ladder staircase thing) but ehh. I spent a ton of time planning Dean's outfit to be a somewhat historically accurate pirate but didn't realize Cas would be covering the neat jacket and sword holster thing I gave him and everything uh

the goal with this was to have Dean not the pirate captain for once in a pirate Dean/mermaid Cas fic (which I like reading but doubt I can write, hence why I dumped it on somebody else via reverse bang I mean what). I wanted Cas to look like he came from deep within the ocean, so his eyes are slitted to take in more light (think of cats) and his skin is more of a grey to better blend in. ofc Cas can't resist checking out the human world and ended up getting caught in a net but luckily Dean was there to pull him out...only to get in trouble for it. this was the original art idea and I really like the way the author adapted it and made Dean more of a reluctant pirate and Cas even more in love with 'humanity'

I do not like drawing bunk beds. or furniture. but it at least looks like a bed so that's okay. but yeah Dean's singing to Cas here and is kinda embarrassed about it, hence why he's looking away, but Cas can't actually tell what he's saying either way so Dean's just being Paranoid. the marks on Cas are scars from the net, a reference to what actually happens to irl sea creatures who get tangled in nets, if they live at all. those lines are supposed to be ribs to indicate that Cas is pretty thin due to a lack of food (probably due to humans overfishing) but they kinda look like he had top surgery. which...ignore that that's unintentional or I would've made them that same pinkish color as his other scars. also ignore the nipple freckle I had to include it okay

water is really weird sorry it looks so weird. but here's Dean and Cas preparing for some boat kisses because they're Them. I really like how the boat and especially the words on the boat (Riverside Blue, a reference to Led Zeppelin's 'Traveling Riverside Blues,' one of Dean's favorite songs added as per the author's suggestion) came out. the boat was supposed to be blue with the characteristic white underside all boats seem to have but then it was just...too blue and what goes better with blue than green 🤡

there was an idea thing going around where the crew on the pirate ship weren't allowed to wear colors, hence why both of Dean's outfits in the other two pics are so drab (the dull backgrounds don't help). so in this final piece where they're off the ship, I wanted to make it as colorful as possible with that orange sky and brightly colored boat and then Dean's colorful outfit with his shirt being somewhere between blue and green. yay contrast

man I didn't mean to ramble so much sorry about that. just put a lot of thought into these even though it might not look like it

the fic this is made for is called "Dead men tell no tails" by @quicksilver-castiel for the spn reverse fantasy bang

(02/17/24)

[thebigskoot]

shitty little essay i wrote about the always sunny cookbook

It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia, also known as It’s Always Sunny or just Sunny, is a show that sometimes makes you lose your appetite. This is intentional; it is a show about disgusting people doing disgusting, cruel things to each other. Equally disgusting is the food that the characters discuss and consume: a couple examples of dishes featured on the show are rum ham, meat cube, milk steak (with jelly beans on the side (“raw”)), and riot punch. After hearing these names, a watcher likely does not want to take a bite of whatever a milk steak might be (we never do find out what Charlie means by this). Despite this, FX, the television channel that hosts Sunny, recently decided to make a cookbook based on the foods featured in this show. I believe that this book is nothing but a gag gift for fans, as it is neither funny nor educational enough to be a good read or a good cookbook.

The cookbook, titled Paddy's Pub: The Worst Bar in Philadelphia: An It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia Cookbook, is split up into sections based on characters from the show, each featuring an introduction written in the voice of a character followed by several recipes from said character. The first red flag of this cookbook is that it is not written by the creators of the show. Glenn Howerton, Rob MacElhenny, and Charlie Day are the creators of It’s Always Sunny and have been writing, producing, and playing the characters Dennis, Mac and Charlie since the show’s conception in 2005. Their respective characters were originally based on them - Dennis’s vanity, Mac’s hard-headedness and Charlie’s stupidity mirror the worst parts of the actors’ real-life personalities. Because of this, writing from these characters’ point of view has to be thoughtful and well-crafted in order to feel genuine and authentic to these deeply personal characters.

Unlike in the series’ official self help book, The 7 Secrets of Awakening the Highly Effective Four-Hour Giant, Today, which is written by the writers in their characters’ voices, this cookbook is written by a third-party writer. This makes the first-person introductions to each section of the cookbook full of cheap references to popular gags in the show, as opposed to any new information about the character. For instance, in Charlie’s introduction, he rambles about his iconic sleeping outfit of a black horse t-shirt and white long johns. This is something that never comes up verbally in the show, and is told only through wardrobe. However, the writer decided to bring this up to remind the reader that, yes, this is your favorite character Charlie speaking. Instead of references to the character’s wardrobe, something that may have been more relevant to a cookbook is something about Charlie’s relationship with food. For example, I would have appreciated it if the writer had given us Charlie’s take on his strange diet, which often consists of things not meant for human consumption, such as paint and cat food. How did he start eating these foods? How does he feel about his health as a result of his diet? If Charlie Day had written this from his character’s point of view, I think he would have expanded on what we already know about the character’s relationship with food as opposed to reminding us of what we already do know about his character’s pajamas.

Cat food, which Charlie eats every night along with a beer and a huff of glue, is a recipe in this cookbook. The writers could have gone the comedic route for this book and given this recipe one ingredient: One Can of Cat Food. This could have been done with many recipes in this book; as I mentioned, most of the food in It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia is nearly inedible. However, instead of keeping the recipes accurate to the show (and thus inedible), the writers opted to feature basic, easy-to-make recipes that only resemble the foods from the show. This takes the reader out of the illusion that the recipes were provided by the characters; if Charlie knew how to make tuna salad, he wouldn’t be eating Fancy Feast. Unfortunately, these character-breaking choices were made in the name of interactivation.

The simplicity of these recipes, I think, is an attempt at reaching the target audience of Sunny: college-aged adults. However, I think that two other options would have worked better as opposed to this approach: the aforementioned inedible approach, and, on the other side of the spectrum, the way-too-fancy-for-this-show approach. The inedible approach would render the book useless as an interactive cookbook, but make it a purely comedic gag book: something completely different and more consistent with the show’s brand. On the other hand, the writers could have chosen the way-too-fancy approach, in which the recipes are not described as being written by the characters but instead interpreted by professional chefs. This would give the book more of a purpose, of which it currently does not have: college kids can look up these basic recipes without buying a book based on their favorite sitcom.

A couple of summers ago, when I was in the depths of my It’s Always Sunny hyperfixation, I was living in a subletted apartment with my friend, Isaac. Almost every free moment we had, we were watching Sunny: before work, after work, while we were eating, and even during the one time we each picked up one dumbbell from my set of two and pretended to exercise. Sometime before the summer, I saw a two-part series from the YouTube channel Babish Culinary Universe in which Babish recreates the foods from It’s Always Sunny in two ways: one exactly the show describes (or how he thought the characters would make it), and one in a fancy, over-the-top way. For example, he makes a Grilled Charlie exactly how Charlie instructs Frank to make one on his hot plate: “Peanut butter outside, chocolate inside, butter inside, cheese outside.” Of course, this was an inedible mess, so he proposed a new and improved Grilled Charlie consisting of brie cheese, dark, high-quality chocolate, brioche, and chunky peanut butter. Although still a strange flavor combination, when Isaac and I had nothing to eat for dinner, we cooked and ate these fancy Grilled Charlies while watching our favorite show at the dinner table. Babish’s recipe was much more thoughtful and authentic than Grilled Charlie in the cookbook, which trades cheese for cream cheese frosting, which, like the tuna salad “cat food,” makes it a completely different (and boring) dish from the one featured in the show.

In conclusion, Paddy's Pub: The Worst Bar in Philadelphia: An It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia Cookbook is a bad attempt at an It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia cookbook in that it is not funny, authentic-feeling, or good enough as a cookbook to be worth buying even for a die-hard fan like me or Isaac.

References

Rea, A. (2017, February 20). Binging with babish: It’s Always sunny in Philadelphia special. YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2ezpExQ_k0&t=46s

FX. (2006, June 29). The Gang Goes Jihad. It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia. Episode.

Randolph, L., & Fecks, N. (2023). Paddy’s Pub: The Worst Bar in Philadelphia: An it’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia Cookbook. Hyperion Avenue. February 12, 2024, https://dayton.overdrive.com/media/10136164?cid=28073

Note: I was only able to access a sample of the book, hence why I focus so heavily on Charlie's introduction and recipes in this essay.

Wolf, M. J. P. (2014). Building imaginary worlds the theory and history of subcreation. Taylor and Francis.

[granulesofsand]

Gasland

🗝️🏷️ reference to child abuse in orange (starting after “hurt them” and ending at “It’s a good documentary”)

I was watching a documentary about hydraulic fracturing, and it made me nauseous. I’m not a child, I know that if the government explicitly says something is safe (and refuses to test or regulate it), it is either unsafe now or leaving room to be unsafe later.

But damn.

A gas company, not for the first time, was seeking to lease private land for fracking wells. One guy gets the notice and decides to look into it. People in small, poor areas agree, then get sick or loose access to drinking water. These are conservative white people, and the government and company people basically go “nuh-uh” every time someone mentions how these gas wells hurt them.

It felt like watching all these families go through the same process we did when we first got to college and tried to disclose our abuse.

It’s a good documentary, I’d recommend it. I think the guy who made it really is just some dude who got the request in the mail, so paying for it might be worth it if you can afford it. If you can’t, it’s not impossible to get free.

I haven’t seen the sequel. From what I’ve gathered by reading legislature, fracking is still allowed and will continue to be allowed (Fracking Ban Act stopped at Introduced), may soon be regulated as groundwater sources are supposed to be (Fracturing Responsibility and Awareness of Chemicals Act of 2023 Introduced, Last Action on July 20, 2023), and the Halliburton Loophole is somewhat filled if passed (Safe Drinking Water Act exists, loophole is in the 2005 section). Some states have moved to ban it themselves (New York Senate passed A8866 May 20, 2024), others have banned banning (Texas governor signed HB40 a while back).

This is not me saying that it should be priority over everything happening right now. Bad things can happen simultaneously, and so can the good. Decompress with cats (mildly mean funny pet videos).

[katenepveu]

I went to the Met yesterday—as I already noted regarding the bowl with feet and ladle with legs—and I am going to attempt to force Tumblr's post editor to do my will so that I can upload pictures here rather than futz with my own webhost.

This will be long, so if you don't want to see Van Gogh paintings, contemporary art, and various bits and pieces, don't hit "Expand."

First is the exhibit Van Gogh's Cypresses, which I'm afraid closes tomorrow. I did not take a picture of The Starry Night because it's one of the most famous paintings in the world and I didn't think my camera phone was going to add anything to the discussion. However, I regret that slightly now because standard photographs don't do the thickness of the paint justice, so that was really interesting to see up close. (It's on loan from MoMA, which has a virtual exhibition about it that may give an idea of its dimensionality; I'll look later or I'll never finish this.) It was also interesting to be looking at it in the context of cypresses, specifically; I'd never really focused much on the foregrounded trees because the stars are so overwhelming, but the exhibition's referring to the trees as "flamelike" made me notice the reddish parts of the trees, which seemed a lot more vivid in person.

It was also interesting to see The Starry Night just after Field with Poppies, as the exhibition notes that Van Gogh "classed this work with The Starry Night 'as exaggerations from the point of view of the arrangement,' dependent on 'lines [that] are contorted,'" because to me it doesn't seem nearly as exaggerated.

The similarities with the work on the other side of The Starry Night, Wheat Field with Cypresses, was a lot easier to see. It was painted the same month, and the exhibition calls it a "stunning daytime rejoinder."

Interestingly, the above was painted outdoors (in plein air); he later made a "definitive version" in his studio, and I personally think the thinner paint made it much less interesting, for all that the colors are brighter.

Speaking of thick paint and working in plein air, there was next Cypresses, also painted the same month as The Starry Night and the first Wheat Field; the glare on my picture below is both bad and possibly gives a suggestion of how three-dimensional it is. The exhibition says that there are "scores of pebbles and vegetal matter embedded in the paint surface," which I tried to find in the close-up also below, but couldn't identify with any certainty.

Finally for things I particularly liked in this exhibition, my picture of Two Poplars in the Alpilles near Saint-Rémy may have a bit of glare, but the linked picture doesn't seem to convey just how eye-catching those poplars are in person.

And now for some random things!

This lizard buddy is, by process of elimination from the labels in the case, an Imperial Hand Seal by Fabergé, though sadly the Met doesn't have its own picture:

I very much liked the face of The Old Actress, by Max Beckmann:

I dug these Futurist & Cubist works, all from 1913-14: Development of a Bottle in Space, Umberto Boccioni; The Man at the Café, Juan Gris; Dancer = Propeller = Sea, Gino Severini; and Coney Island, Joseph Stella.

I didn't quite connect with all of the works in the exhibition Cecily Brown: Death and the Maid, but I did like this set, consisting of (clockwise from top left): Untitled (Vanity), ca. 2007; Gossip (after G. A. Wotherspoon), ca. 2007; Untitled (Sled), ca. 2006; Untitled (Aujourd'hui Rose), ca. 2005; and Untitled (Vanity), ca. 2007.

And wildly discontinuous in time (as in, from about 350 BC), but: look at this face! (Of God Horus Protecting King Nectanebo II, specifically.)

Two big cats in the same case: a leopard by an Edo artist from the city-state of Benin c. 1550-1680, and a lion cub carved out of quartzite that's about five thousand years old. (The Met's official picture of the leopard doesn't do the leopard's face justice, which is why I've included two views. Alas, I omitted from the second picture SteelyKid standing next to the sculpture making the same face.)

Finally, some extremely good finials from Java dating from the late 9th or early 10th century: from left to right, with a Kinnari; with lions and Makaras; and with a Makara disgorging a lion (sadly the Met's pictures are not much better than mine).

And that's all I have! Which is a lot less than usual for me in a big art museum, honestly, but I was with family.

Edit: I forgot, I stopped very very briefly in the Afrofuturist Period Room which deserved way more time than I could give it (and my pictures weren't any good, which is why I forgot), but the Met's page on the exhibition is actually useful, unlike its page on the Cecily Brown exhibition.

[thisismylens]

Justice for Augustus

“Gluttony

1: excess in eating or drinking

2: greedy or excessive indulgence”

One of the Seven Deadly Sins, Gluttony represents overindulgence and consumption. Gluttony is hoarding resources for oneself to the detriment of others. It’s closely associated with Greed.

In a more literal sense, Gluttony refers to overeating, and all images of Gluttony are.. incredibly unkind to those of us who are fat and live in a world that sees us as people who are lazy, who lack self-discipline, and are generally burdensome eyesores. Fatness has been used symbolically in images and illustrations to represent wealthy and powerful figures of controversy, ‘fat-cats’ who abuse their power in order to hoard material and symbolic assets.

In the time of the Donald Trump presidency, of all the things one could mock him for, jokes about his fatness were everywhere. Trump served as the proverbial Gluttony figure of that time, the anti-fatness lightly coated in a façade of commentary.

Imagine seeing your body represented on a magazine cover, except when you look closer, it’s portrayed for disgust or as a warning. They say, “you don’t want to be like this, and you should be ashamed if you are.” If I never see another health magazine cover with an image of someone looking down at their large belly, toes on a scale peeking up at the numbers scroll wildly, it will still be too soon.

Over the years, I have struggled with my body image. I was raised in the 90’s, a chubby, cherub-esque child who simply existed. By the time I was in Kindergarten, I became very aware that something was wrong with me. “What did you do over summer? Go to fat camp?” said a little asshole kid – whose name I still remember, by the way.

This was not made easier by my Mom, who grew tired of my adorableness when I turned six, and immediately jumped on the fad diet bandwagon, determined to get me to be a normal, acceptable size that would not make her look like a neglectful parent. Fad diets were my life for twenty-three years, up and down my weight yo-yoed constantly. I went from starvation diets to protein heavy diets, to supplements and cleanses, and, of course, prescription intervention. I learned early to think about certain foods as good or bad, and often snuck and hid food from my Mom to avoid chastising and the sound of her red pen on a notebook page, tracking my every calorie.

I had parties and get togethers with friends a lot as a kid, not only because I was lonely and wanted company, but because my parents would go out of the way to make the party exciting for others, by getting the best junk food and snacks. It was a prime opportunity to sneak and hide things I was otherwise forbidden to have much of. There were times I ate out of the garbage, or kept perishable food in unsafe conditions to make it last.

Disordered eating has a varied history, where those who become too thin are victims and those who become too big are irresponsible. So here we are, The Fats ™, destined to become life lessons for other people. You don’t want to be like us.

This past week, I have been thinking about this more than I had in a few years. For Halloween, my office decided to turn our space into Willy Wonka’s Chocolate Factory – which, great in theory, challenging in practice. The room itself was exhausting, but turned out well and rewarding. The on theme costumes that followed were the issue.

Early on, we had enough people committing to being the main character group, of which was left none other than Augustus Gloop.

“Augustus Gloop, Augustus Gloop, you dirty, greedy nincompoop..”

At first, I volunteered, mostly thinking it would be hilarious to do the version from the 1971 Gene Wilder film so I could wear lederhosen. But, as time drew nearer and nearer, and grocery costs shot upward, I found less reason to buy something I would only wear once. Instead, I decided to do the 2005 version – a striped turtleneck and cuffed jeans. Simple enough, right?

I kept putting it off, finding reasons to not yet invest in a costume until a week and a half before Halloween. When I started looking, and nothing by that description could be found in my size, with the exception of a $50 top from one of the over-priced plus sized brands that is actually fast fashion. (You know the one.) Of course, I wasn’t going to buy that. I also didn’t want to paint a plain turtleneck – I couldn’t find any in my size, but even if I could have, I fucking hate the feeling of turtlenecks. I had accepted defeat – rather graciously – and was prepared to throw together another costume, something I was actually passionate about.

The whole purpose of this theme idea was to fulfill a plan created by a coworker that was meant to happen during covid. This is to be her last year before retirement and she’s dealing with some difficult life situations. When I told her I wasn’t going to be on theme, I could see the disappointment on her face. This is a coworker I’ve grown very fond of, and knowing this was her last big Halloween office throwdown, I decided to suck it up and do what I could.

I wore a striped t-shirt (though not the right colors) and jeans. The shirt was slightly too short for my torso, and a bit of my tummy showed. Since the outfit wasn’t accurate, I went all on in commitment, covering my entire head in chocolate brown paint, making little drip streaks on my neck and face.

Dressing up is something I always love to do, but I just wasn’t quite feeling this one. Was it because it was 6am and I was covered in painter-grade acrylic paint instead of makeup? Maybe, but even my partner noted I looked uncharacteristically unenthused. I didn’t read too much into it, noting it had already been a busy week at work.

At first, I was really enjoying the reactions I got from people, even though I had to explain who I was multiple times. I think at one point I got tired of explaining and simply said, ‘the fat kid who gets stuck in the pipe.’ The more eyes were on me, as the painted head did make me quite striking, the more I felt uncomfortable in the shirt I was wearing, showing a bit of my fleshy, squishy belly. I was also suddenly aware of how much space my body takes up.

At some point around mid-day, I realized I was dressed as the personification of fat stereotypes – a character with no real redeeming traits, simply existing as a short-lived fat joke and an attempt at a lesson for children. Augustus Gloop represents Gluttony, overindulgence, greed, stupidity and clumsiness.

“If you are wise, you'll listen to me. What do you get when you guzzle down sweets? Eating as much as an elephant eats. What are you at getting terribly fat? What do you think will come of that?”

People who worked in my building and recognized the character sang the movie songs at me, and laughed at how funny they were. I also won the award for the funniest costume – the judges cited my commitment.

“I don’t like the look of it.”

As soon as the events were over, I peeled every bit of that paint off my head, leaving a little trail of flakes all over my office desk and down the hall into the women’s room. With it went some of my eyebrows, but I didn’t care. I needed to get it off. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I felt like I needed to sweat and this plastic, constrictive substance was preventing me from doing that.

I began to worry people would see me as this gross charicature of fat people, and I walked back to my desk with my hand holding my shirt down.

Augustus Gloop is meant to be a nine-year-old boy. A nine-year-old! He is held personally and fully responsible for his eating habits, his greed, and his clumsiness that causes him to fall in the river of chocolate. His punishment is not just getting stuck in a pipe, fully on display for everyone to see him while Oompa-Loompas sing about his fatness, his life is being threatened by the possibility of what happens where the pipe goes.

A subtle reminder that this is a child being treated this way. Not his parents, but him as a person.

As a kid, it always disturbed me that we didn’t get to see the other kids come out of the factory at the end.

“I don’t like the look of it.”

In my mind, Augustus did nothing wrong. I feel sorry for Augustus. He isn’t given a personality, but is still treated as having enough agency to be punished for his actions, which likely correlates to how his parents influenced him. He exists for the joke and as a morality lesson. That poor kid never stood a chance.

It was a heavy day for me, but god I’m glad it’s over.

[incomprehensiblelentils]

@purlturtle: Thank you so much! That was very cool! Are these novels or graphic novels? Mainly one, some of the other?

I tried to answer this in a reply but it was too many characters lmao. The short answer to your question is both. The long answer is these are the types of Warriors books:

Main series: 8 series of 6 books each with a ninth planned (s8b6 pending Nov 2024). This are the main Warriors books

(I should mention that series 5 is a prequel series going back to the origin of the Clans, which also undid half of the previously mentioned lore lol.)

Super editions: 16 books (SE17 pending Sept 2024), longer (~500 pages), single POV, and allegedly standalone except somewhere around book 7 they made them irrevocably tied into the main series so that if you don’t read them, you will miss crucial information such as the death of a POV character from series 2 or setup for a huge plot element of series 8

Mangas/graphic novels: there are 9 of these, although the first 5 were initially released as three smaller volumes. They are supplementary and focused on mostly detailed flashbacks of events from canon (i.e. Graystripe got snatched by humans and spent like a year trying to get back to ThunderClan, the first one of these was about his journey and meeting his second wife) or explorations of characters who don’t need a 500 page book (Feathertail got one like I said). BUT ALSO they are releasing the first book series as graphic novels starting this year - I think it’s 2 books per one graphic novel volume which is a cool format.

Novellas: these are like 50 pages each, focused on specific events or elements of a particular character, and can be accessed either via individual ebooks or 3-novella paperbacks they started putting out eventually (thank Christ). These vary wildly in quality and there are a couple that the fandom hates so much they basically ignore them entirely. (If you want to make a Warriors fan mad mention “Spottedleaf’s Heart” lol) I have read a few of them here and there but they’re the least “necessary” canon elements.

Field guides: they put out these from 2007-2012, which started as simple reference guides to the Clans and characters and then branched out with a book about the warrior code (including short stories about how each rule came to be) and major battles in Clan history. Also as I mentioned, the older ones include a bunch of lore about Clan history that was immediately retconned with series 5. I own all of these old ones, mostly because they included new little tidbits that hadn’t been established yet. Then they put out an “ultimate guide” in 2013 which is I think most of the above existing content plus a couple new stories, and then last year they did a “10th anniversary version,” which was so badly done and full of errors fandom literally warned people away from buying it. I got a used copy of the 2013 ultimate guide and it’s mostly nice for the art - the gentleman who did the original books’ art, Wayne McLoughlin, passed away in 2015, and they redid the covers and most official art after that and made them (IMO) way worse. Series 6 and forward have had okay covers, but goddamn I hate the newer “zoomed-in cat faces” covers on 1-5.

Anyway! I hope that helps answer your question. I have been buying and reading them in real-time since series 2 book 2 (2005) so I truly do NOT know how one would attempt to parse the amount of story content that currently exists if they hadn’t been doing that.

[obsessedwithecho]

I had a dream once where my family were living with some other people in this underground complex, the main hall of which was called the under-hall, apparently in reference to Undertale somehow.

For some reason my sister and I were mentally and physically more like we were when we were younger, and were playing an imaginary game that was also somehow real, where we were both cats, but she kept killing me because I was evil (which was actually kind of true. I was very much the evil edgy older sibling archetype here, very much in line with how I actually was at that age). Then some other stuff happened involving that, but the important part is that we stopped playing that game, and I started playing a game on a 3DS that was some sort of official Disney game that was a massive crossover, but completely child friendly, like for ten year olds. Imagine kingdom hearts without the final fantasy elements, but dumbed down.

Anyways I triggered a story event intentionally by using some evil material called "black matter", and in this event it was causing the potential destruction of earth, through 3 evil meteors but there were also good and neutral meteors, and the game somehow knew I did this on purpose and let me do an evil route where I played as the villain. During this, we get to the highlight of this whole thing, in which I was confronted in a cutscene by Sophia the First, and some other random people (apparently her friends, but I've never watched the show so idk), and, after hiding his weak point from them when they realized what it was, the villain character I was playing as pulls out a realistic looking hand gun, says something along the lines of "I can't believe Disney is letting me do this given the rating, but here's something you couldn't have expected" and then I had the option of which of her eyes to shoot at.

And I was thinking A: this guy is a scarier Disney villain than Bill Cipher (not sure I actually agree with that, but my dream self apparently thought so) and B: surely its going to be blocked by some magical shield or something.

It wasn't.

There was no gore or anything, and that probably would've made the experience less authentic. Too over the top. But this felt like Disney had gone full Shadow the Hedgehog (2005) with this storyline, but way more so than Sega ever did. Also I was fast enough that it let me shoot the other eye, then shoot all of her friends.

After this I turned off the game, and I planned on telling my sister because she would find it just as nuts as I did, and eventually I did, and she apparently was also playing this game and was upset I triggered the event while she was asleep because apparently the game had proximity based event sync.

I had told her about this while a car the family were in was caught in the middle of a truck race being hosted on some area of road we were on, but the trucks and the road over time kept getting bigger relative to us until they had to be like 3 stories tall. I don't remember why we were driving, but I do remember getting caught in it, and the reason I brought up the game then, was because apparently using the black matter or other kinds of material in game could've somehow helped us in the real world, presumably because of the blending between games and reality I mentioned at the start. Also the main method of transport around the track once we got as small as we did was to break off tiny bits of things and place them back down like minecraft blocks.

Anyways I had this dream in the middle of the day after falling asleep and when I woke up I thought it was 3 in the morning for several minutes.

[ao3feed-destiel-02]

Cattus ex Machina

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/YapP7XE by casprotectionsquad "It's a game we play. She...hates cats and tries to keep me out. But she can't, of course. I come and go as I please." - Cat, Coraline (2009). Dean can't move on. He's not even sure he wants to. His family and friends are all worried about him, he knows. But he can't seem to bring himself to be fine. Hell, he can't even make himself voice his inability to be fine. The most he can manage is to stay alive, to make it so the sacrifices weren't all for nothing. So he takes life each day at a time, never daring to think farther ahead than that. He doesn't have the right to think about the future. His future died in that dungeon with Cas. Dean's willing to soldier on like this forever, as miserable as it is. But then he comes across a cat. Or rather, a cat comes across him. He's pretty damn lucky it did. Suptober 2023 Day 7: Black Cat Words: 8391, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: F/M, M/M, F/F, Gen Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Eileen Leahy, Jack Kline, Claire Novak, The Empty | The Shadow (Supernatural), Kaia Nieves Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Eileen Leahy/Sam Winchester, Kaia Nieves/Claire Novak, Castiel & Jack Kline & Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Selectively Mute Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester Has a Cat Allergy, or does he?, Jack Kline as God, Angel Castiel (Supernatural), Suptober 2023 (Supernatural), They All Know ASL to Some Extent, Castiel and Dean Winchester Have a Profound Bond, the cat is inspired by my sister's cat, he got lost and im sad about it so im immortalizing him in this fic, Dean Winchester Saves Castiel from the Empty, How Do I Tag, My First Work in This Fandom, sorry if it sucks, References to Coraline, day 7: black cat, Dean Winchester Uses ASL, Sam Winchester Uses ASL, We ignore the series finale here sir, Retired Hunter Dean Winchester, Eileen is Part of Team Free Will 2.0, i wanted to add more characters but wasn't sure how to fit them into the storyline rip read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/YapP7XE

[teachingmycattoread]

Things We've Yelled About This Episode #3.9

Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, The Gawain Poet (all quotations from the Simon Armitage translation)

Merlin (2008-2012)

The Sword in the Stone (1963)

Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)

Geoffrey Chaucer (wiki)

Sir Gawain and the Green Knight (wiki)

Beowulf (our episode here)

Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, J. R. R. Tolkien; read by Terry Jones (audible)

Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, Simon Armitage

"...alliteration is the warp and weft of the poem, without which it is just so many fine threads", p. viii, Introduction to the above

Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, J. R. R. Tolkien

Beowulf, George Jack

De Excidio Britanniae, Gildas

The Lord of the Rings, J. R. R. Tolkien

Gandalf; The Lord of the Rings, J. R. R. Tolkien

Beowulf, Seamus Heaney

Beowulf, Maria Dhavana Headley

chivalry etymology (wiktionary)

The campfire quote Eli is thinking of here

Leon Gautier's rules of chivalry here

Chosen people - Eli is referring to this post

Culhwch and Olwen (wiki)

Owain (wiki)

Merlin in his tree phase (wiki) Apparently sometimes he's also just...in a hole with a rock on top of it? Less cool, much funnier

Monopoly

"no evil in either of them, only ecstasy", p. 72

Courtly love (wiki)

relationship anarchy (manifesto, wiki)

"So I ask you again, come and greet your aunt and make merry in my house; you're much loved there, and by me more than most", p. 112

The first branch of the Mabinogi (wiki)

The Green Knight (2021)

Dev Patel (imdb)

a slitherer-outerer - from Howl's Moving Castle, Diana Wynne Jones

"If you stand for nothing, what will you fall for?" "Aaron Burr, Sir", Hamilton (spotify

The Wheel of Time, Robert Jordan/Brandon Sanderson

Postcolonial interpretations of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight (wiki)

Mansplain, Manipulate, Malewife/Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girlboss (meme)

This meme cw. rape mention

Jason Mendoza; The Good Place (2016-2020)

The Jason Mendoza school of problem-solving can be summed up by this gif:

This scene from Wednesday (2022- )

This scene from It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia (2005 -) [image found]

Merle Highchurch; The Adventure Zone: Balance

The Merle Highchurch approach - referring to a scene in the TAZ: Balance arc Petals to the Metal in which Merle rolls to seduce a sentient plant

The Adventure Zone: Balance

This scene from Monty Python and the Holy Grail

Blorbo from my shows (meme)

Cat Rating: 8/10

What Else Have We Been Reading

Bold of you to assume i can [x] (meme)

The Ashburnham House fire (wiki)

Batman, DC Comics

Pandaredd (youtube)

just me against the sky, magneticwave (ao3)

Rule 63 (meme? trope? piece of internet lingo?)

Tim Drake, DC Comics

Poison Ivy, DC Comics

This meme:

Men at Arms, Terry Pratchett

Tress of the Emerald Sea, Brandon Sanderson

Brandon Sanderson's secret lockdown projects (polygon)

The Lord of the Rings, J. R. R. Tolkien

The Bands of Mourning, Brandon Sanderson

Next Time on Teaching My Cat To Read

Alanna: The First Adventure, Tamora Pierce

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #148

Have you ever seen an alligator? Yes, both in the zoo and wild.

When you first wake up do you check your cellular device? Yes, because I'll wanna know what time it is.

How well do you think you’d... work out, in a Christian school? Well this depends; my last college was actually a Christian college, but they didn't push any sort of doctrine onto students; I loved the school, even, they were great people. HOWEVER, if I was pressured into a religion by a school (isn't that illegal, anyway?), I'd get kicked out real fuckin fast.

Do you like Kanye West? Nope, not as a musician and DEFINITELY not as a person.

Do you have any lockets? No, I've always kinda wanted one though, haha.

Do you make kissy faces in pictures? ugh no I'd rather you just shoot me

Do you know your social security number (or equivalent) off by heart? At this moment, I do, but I very often forget the first three numbers.

Do you know a Stephen? I don't.

Green or purple? Purple.

Have you ever watched a meteor shower? No, I wish!!!

Has religion ever come between you and somebody? Yes. It's especially the reason I'm not friends with Mini anymore, because due to her faith, she was trans/homophobic and also extremely pro-life. Her selling pro-life stickers and stuff following the overturning of Roe v. Wade was the final fucking straw, like congrats for benefiting from women having their fucking lives ruined.

Ever have an ultra-sound performed on you? What was it for? Yes, something about my liver as a teenager, I don't remember the details. Everything was fine.

How long has your favorite animal been your favorite animal? Since 2005 when Meerkat Manor came out; I was nine.

When was the last time you spoke to your mom? Lil while ago in the kitchen.

Do you have an Instagram? I have three, one being a personal one and the other two for different types of photography.

If so how many posts do you have? None have a whole lot, but I don't care at all to count.

Can you juggle? Absolutely not, never been able to.

What’s your favorite color combination? Probably black and gold.

Have you ever seen your favorite animal in real life? Only once at the zoo in 5th grade. :( They moved them somewhere else afterwards.

Does your cat purr really loud? (if you have a cat) Haha yes, Girt refers to his louder purring as "lawnmowering" and it's so accurate.

What’s your mom’s name? Donna.

Do you have multiple friends with the same name? Not really "multiple," no. The only case where name confusion happens sometimes is when me or mom and Girt's family say "Ashley," because both myself and Girt have an older sister named Ashley. We kinda just have to use context clues to know which one, but even then there have been instances of not realizing the other Ashley was the subject.

Have you ever gotten up in the middle of the night just to talk to someone? No, but someone has done this for me, and I'm going to be pained for my entire life that I never got to hug and thank her.

Do you watch The Simpsons or any other cartoons? No.

What's your favorite kind of jam/jelly? Grape.

What have you last been diagnosed with? Hypothyroidism, officially, following some blood tests after being taken off my old thyroid med to get a baseline; it's apparently majorly severe, which explains a WHOLE fuckin lot. I'm on a different (and supposedly more effective) med now and will get more tests later to hopefully see it stabilize.

What was the last restaurant you ate at? Red Robin, for Mother's Day.

Do you believe in psychic ability? Absolutely not and it's infuriating that people are willing to scam generally vulnerable people like that. So-called "mediums" are even worse.

When did you last have pizza delivered? It's been a good while. I've been craving pizza actually, but I'm avoiding even suggesting it as best I can, especially after meeting my nutritionist and having fresh motivation to eat better.

What's your favorite decoration in your place of residence? I'm not sure, we have quite a lot of stuff up, especially in the living room.

Have you ever held a chicken? I know I've held a chick, but never an adult.

Are you hard to please? No.

What’s your least favorite genre of TV show? I hate those shows like Maury or Jerry Springer shit, stuff that puts people's private lives on display for ridicule and likewise purposes.

What’s your least favorite genre of music? Probably country. I'm not into rap either, but at least sometimes the non-vocals are fun or interesting.

What physical traits have you inherited from your father? Idk, nothing that is extremely obvious, at least to me. I'm pretty sure Dad was born dirty blonde though, and I was too, but his hair turned black and mine brown.

How about your mother? Height and general weight, but she's still smaller than me, especially post-chemo. Our skin is also similar, both in paleness and also freckling, at least on my arms. She has it more widespread and obvious than I do.

Which friend of yours has the prettiest, most unique name? I have always thought Alon was a beautiful name. I've never met or known another person with it.

When it comes to nose piercings, do you prefer a ring or stud? Studs.

Does your job have any restrictions on piercings and tattoos? What are they? I'm unemployed, and while I know there's plenty of people who would call it petty, I wouldn't take a job that perpetuated the "tattoos and piercings are unprofessional" shit.

Do you want or have your belly button pierced? It's not and never has been; if I had a certain kind of body, I'd absolutely get it done, but for some reason I'm really weird about me personally getting one at my size, despite the fact I'd cheer seeing another woman my size getting it done. I'm just very uncomfortable drawing attention to my abdomen.

Ever been in a physical fight? How did it go? Nope.

Do you like swimming? Do you have a pool? I like swimming a lot actually, I love being in water and even more I love the sound of it, I like watching light on it... but I don't swim a lot, partially because I hate getting changed out of wet bathing suits (and I actually wear swimming pants too because I don't want to show my legs, and THEY'RE the worst getting off), but also we don't have a pool. Growing up we did, but at this house and the last one, we didn't.

Is anyone you know racist or sexist? How do you feel about it? Oh certainly, especially here in the south; you see racism more, but both are fucking awful and I openly think you're fucking garbage if you hold prejudices like these.

Do you like mint-flavored gum? Yep.

If you house with your parents, do you pay rent to live at home? Why or why not? Do you know if your parents will ever make you pay rent? If so, when? I'm unemployed, so no. Even whenever I do get a job, I'm doubtful Mom would ask me to, but I'm immediately contributing whether she likes it or not.

Ever have sex outside of a relationship? No, that's not for me.

If a taken person pursued you and you were interested, would you do anything with them? No, I'm not going to be someone's second choice.

If you had a hot cousin, would you have sexual relations with them? Jesus Christ, no. Incest is majorly fucking gross to me.

Have your exes gotten better looking since you dated them? I don't know; I haven't seen most since we dated. I've seen a single picture of Jason in more recent times, in which he had full facial hair, but it was a candid photo at an angle so I couldn't really digest how different he really looked.

How often do you expect your SO to talk to you (either through texting, phone calls, etc)? I would be concerned if he didn't message me for an entire day, because we generally talk quite a bit throughout every day. I'd worry something was wrong.

How tall do you stand? Haha I found out the other day at the doctor I'm exactly 5'4.6'', so that's why I hear 5'4'' from some people and 5'5'' from others.

How many people are in your family? I consider my immediate/most base "family" to be my parents, two full-blooded sisters (I just don't see/interact with the halves enough... though I wish I did), my older sister's three children, and Girt, his sister, her son, and Girt's mom. Oh, and I guess Kim too, Dad's wife, but she will NEVER be what my biological mom is to me; I don't even call her "Mom" or anything of the sort, she's just Kim. AND THE PETS!!! Roman, Venus, and Cookie are all absolutely family in my eyes, and even Girt's dog Charlie that I haven't seen THAT many times is family to me.

What color is your keyboard? Black, but the keys light up red.

Do you have a laptop or a desktop? Laptop, it's a lot more convenient imo.

What were you doing at midnight last night? I'm pretty sure Girt left right around that time, but I was nearly asleep so am not totally sure.

What woke you up this morning? At some point my body did naturally, and I just barely dragged myself out of bed to go take my thyroid med (I have to take it at least 30 minutes before eating and my other meds), and then I didn't wake back up until Mom got me up for my psychiatry appointment.

Are you picky about who you give your number to? Oh for sure, I barely have any contacts in my phone.

Are you afraid of roller coasters? Yes, very.

Do you know anyone who suffers from depression? Yes, myself among MANY other people.

[TW: DRUG USE] Have you ever injected a drug? No, not into that whatsoever.

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Definitely as a kid, as well as on Jason and Girt.

Of all your exes, which one is your least favorite? Sara.

Do you prefer to be cuddled or kissed? Depends on the mood; I'd always be up for cuddling Girt though, while I don't always want to kiss, but on the other hand there are cases where I don't just want to cuddle, either.

Your most recent ex says they still love you. You say… lol no she doesn't, this isn't a situation I can even picture.

Who was your first boy/girlfriend? Aaron was the first guy with the title, but Jason was definitely my first real significant other.

How did your first kiss happen? We were playfighting on his bed, he pinned me, so I kissed him.

Where did you meet the last person you were in a car with? She gave birth to me.

When was the last time you had a box of chocolates? What kind were they? Valentine's Day, from Girt. They were different flavors and fillings.

Of all your relatives & close friends, whose birthday is closest to yours? My youngest niece's, I think.

Did you have a cake on your last birthday? What kind? No actually, I wanted donuts instead.

Where do you think your best friend(s) is right now? He should be at home, unless he had to go out for something today.

What is your central philosophy in life? To act with love and that love is something worth fighting for, and that is in all forms, not just romantic.

What moral code do you follow and why? Treat others how I'd want them to treat me, and to never, ever hurt/kill someone unless in very literal self-defense.

What is the person you are most dependent on (your dad, the welfare office, your personal maid, your seeing-eye-dog, your mailman)? My mom. I feel like her kid that never truly grew up, and I mean that negatively. She never asked for a child that would always be a parasite on her.

What expletives do you use in surprise or irritation (swears, gasps, yowza, etc)? "Jesus Christ" and "fuck" happen the most I think, but sometimes "shit" or "god(fucking)damn" happen.

What are the five worst things possible to happen to you? Depression and mental illness as a whole + the suicidal ideation that comes with it, a traumatic breakup, way too many hospitalizations that didn't benefit me, my parents' divorce (in terms of how I handled it, it NEEEEEEEDED to happen), and honestly I think the muscle atrophy in my legs.

What is the worst you’ve ever been injured or sick (broken arm, cancer, hang nail)? A wicked stomach virus that had me puking relentlessly, I'm talkin' to where you're barely getting bile out and your abs are in agony.

What object(s) do you like to keep near you? My phone, more than anything else. I tend to like to have a drink of some sort too, I drink (not alcohol, just in general) A LOT.

Which one of your relatives is most likely to embarrass you? My dad.

[golby-moon]

got some art for a round in the @destielomegaversebigbang. got to draw lots of new things with this fic which is always fun and partly why I started doing bangs at all

with the banner, I was actually given a color scheme by the author to try out, which is why everything is so...green and tan. I wanted to represent the uh weird chastity belt thing without actually showing it, so I designed a belt with fancy Celtic designs on both the belt buckle and the belt itself (which were made to look like 's's for Supernatural). the keys mirror the belt as Cas is the key to unlocking it in the fic, and the background with its dangerously off centered dots and wooden board sort of title are because Cas owns a hardware store in the fic. I definitely didn't overdo it on the symbolic silver color I continuously reused

I originally chose the fic due to this scene being described in the claims, where Dean and Cas bump into each other in a hardware store and all kinds of stuff spills around them on the ground. admittedly I didn't know Cas worked in the hardware store from the claims, but this did give me a great opportunity to draw all kinds of stuff I never have before (mostly in the background with all the tools and idk plates and stuff everywhere). I wanted to imply that Cas knows about hunting and monsters and such, so I not only have iron, silver, and salt bullets on display on the counter, but also added a devil's trap sticker on the cash register next to the cat one and the 'save <3 (bee) bees' one. everything is charged by the dollar instead of any of the $x.99 stuff due to a thought I had about Cas being too blunt to bother with making things seem cheaper (and if any of the prices are way off, that's because I have no clue how much any of this stuff would be ignore that)

I did originally have their faces turned a little less and Cas looking more...well, like Cas, but I like the vibe of the later version better since they seem more friendly instead of like strangers having their first ever mutually gay awakening moment. this one just looks kind of awkward. thank goodness I used references for the kneeling positions for once though 🎉 (I think Cas' was some lady gardening lol)

the art limit for the bang was actually brought down, but I did two pieces for the minibang fic anyway and added the scene of Dean lying on the couch and Cas with his weirdly long right arm (oops) cupping his face. when I read the scene, I just immediately pictured Cas owning an ugly floral grandma couch, which turns out to be the kind of disaster couch the author kind of pictured Cas as having as well. it's such an ugly couch I love it

(not that anyone probably noticed but I did draw this a while ago which is why Dean's hair isn't consistent with the new way I draw it. Cas' is about as messy as always though 👌)

the fic this is made for is called "An Intervention of Silver" by @hannahctwk for the destiel omegaverse big bang

(09/29/23)

[sinligh]

TW

I wish I could swallow my own existence: a full corse meal starting with loneliness.

Maybe if I understood my essence; I’ll get to extract the best of me ?

The origin of this universe or one of its lost stars, A dead parent ? One that is too far.

Cooking barbaric act, no, animalistic art.

Not trying to feed. trying to flee, not to be fed on.

grill slices of my heart, add a tea spoon of discomfort a base to a new family.

Two Kids from under their bed, roots to an endless regret

All in one pot, boiling and boiling and boiling... Until there is nothing left. I have nothing more to give.

Choke on gas, carbon monoxide.

This is missing with my head…

The Devil in me is trying to wake me from my stupor

“Gotta wake up” the singer keeps on repeating

Gotta wake up, gotta wake up. Gotta wake up, gotta wake up. Gotta wake up, come back to life..

I don’t want to want to end up With my head in my oven…

Now, I’m thinking about how I have to create an opposite to all that I want.

An antidote ?

I Never understood the generalized role that i got.

Thought i was only the narrator i had another life away from the main story… One that i didn’t have to share. I’m too awkward to play the lead I only want to be me.

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•Quotes: Sylvia Plath/Sylvia Plath/Sylvia Plath/Melissa Broder/ Halsey/ jenny slate/Anne Carson/Haruki Murakami/

•Original context: Sinligh

•Art reference:

1. Art by Karen Offutt, 1967. 2. "'Vangelis Kyris, "Slave" from Sins (2005). 3. Photo by mario leko on flickr. 4.Feed me a stray cat. Mike Teirlinck.

[mcx7demonbros]

MC has the Omnitrix

Ft. Gn!MC, the Demon Brothers

C/W: none

Inspiration: Ben 10 Classic series, my childhood

Note: I will only make reference to alien forms in the Classic Series (2005-2008).

Lucifer

“For the love of…”

The first time he saw (or noticed) you with the weird green watch-like thingy on you arm, you nearly burned down the House of Lamentation as Heatblast. And he tried to kill you because he thought you to be an assassin. Fortunately, you turned back in time.

“MC, from now on, you can only use the Omnitrix for self-defense or with my permission.”

On one hand, Lucifer’s glad that you got something to protect yourself when none of his brothers or him is with you.

On the other hand, he knew more headaches were coming. And he was right.

“MC, why’s the slime on my chair looks like Stinkfly’s slime?”

“MC, why are there diamond shards on the painting?”

Not to mention the time, you managed to destroy half of HoL with Way Big.

Lucifer always got his revenge. When you transformed to Wildmutt, he managed to train you like he trained Cerberus.

“MC, hand!” “MC, sit!” *evil laugh*

Mammon

At first, Mammon thought of taking it from you and using it for himself, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t get the Omnitrix off you.

But Mammon is a good at making money. So he thinks of many other ways you two can make money.

“MC, THE Great Mammon needs ya to transform into…what that little grey creature’s name? Whatever, just transform into that grey creature and look at the opponent’s cards for me. Please please please.”

And that time when you turned into Ghostfreak and decided to scare him, the entire house heard his scream.

Till now, Mammon still doesn’t remember the name of the weird green watch. He think its name is Oni something.

Leviathan

“Isn’t that the legendary Omnitrix?” Levi shouted in thrill and excitement. He couldn’t believe that he got to see the Omnitrix in his life time.

He got you to let him take many pictures of you, in different alien forms.

Levi begged you to use Upgrade to help enhance his anime watching & gaming experience. After all, tech in Devildom is of older generation than in Human Realm.

In exchange, the Grand Admiral of Hell’s Navy helped train you in Ripjaws form to improve your fighting ability underwater.

Satan

“Please allow me to study the Omnitrix,…for scientific purpose.”

After finding out that the Omnitrix was probably of alien origin, the fourth born would focus his research more on how to prank Lucifer.

“MC, how about using Ghostfreak to annoy Lucifer?”

The moment Lucifer saw his pen lifting up the sky by itself, he knew it was you. “MC!” You were so scared that you became visible. The moment you threw Satan under the bus, the entire anti-Lucifer League got punished.

The Avatar of Wrath is very curious whether you have a cat-like form or not.

Asmodeus

The alien form that left the most impression on the fifth born was Stinkfly.

“Ewwwwww…sorry MC, but please don’t come near me.”

On the contrary, the Avatar of Lust found other forms quite hot, like Four Arms, or XLR8. Please princess carry him as Four Arms, or XLR8, MC!

Hundreds of pics published on Devilgram, each had a different alien. But no Stinkfly though.

Beelzebub

The sixth born was glad that you have another mean to protect yourself from ill-will demons in Devildom.

Beel sees in Four Arms an arm wrestling partner.

The orange head also loves the fact that Upchuck’s big appetite can be useful, at least the usefulness can be seen immediately.

Belphegor

Joined with Satan to turn Omnitrix into useful pranking tool.

Tries to hug every alien form to sleep but found them all uncomfortable.

“MC, can you turn into a fluffy sheep form? It’s easier to sleep that way?” *yawn*

Also, the seventh born dislikes you use Cannonbolt to cannonball jump into the swimming pool. Water splashes all over him, MC.

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