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#the universe trying to contact me
brucewaynehater101 · 5 months
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We as a fandom joke about Tim's cloning stint a lot. It was a fucked up thing for Tim to do and definitely showed off his Mad Basement Scientist vibes quite literally. It is, objectively, pretty funny.
On the other hand, how much of Tim's soul was lost that he tried 99 times to create a replication of Kon? He knew it wouldn't bring his best friend back. He knew, at best, Tim's project would be closer to Kon's biological sibling instead.
Despite that, Tim tried 99 times. Each trial might have brought him closer, but they would've taken an extreme amount of time. It would have cost so much money and resources.
Tim, as he slowly broke down in front of a glass tube that once imprisoned his friend, did not stop. He wouldn't. He couldn't. He knew Kon would hate him for this. He knew his best friend would be furious at the blatant disregard for clones. Tim was so lost that he gave up everything for a mere impression of Kon. He sacrificed his time, effort, and resources. On the line was his reputation in the hero community, relationship with Kon, and mental stability.
How lost was Tim that he did this?
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fatehbaz · 5 months
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#thinking of dinosaurs and troodontids were my favorite dinosaurs as a child#when younger i had a real full troodontid tooth fossil that meant a lot to me#for a time we lived within a few kilometers of hadrosaur sites and troodontid sites#while wider general area had many sites of recovery for the big celebrities like tyrannosaur and multiple dromaeosaurs#at that time troodontids were kinda infamous for i think the depiction in some childrens field guides and dino books#which depicted like a fantasy speculative humanoid troodontid based on 1980s model at Canadian Museum of Nature in ottawa#anyway would visit a small local paleo center a lot and woman in her 70s or 80s ran the counter of their center and rock shop#one day she asked me what my fave dino was and i said troodon so she pulled out the tooth and just gifted it to me#in little black case size of ring box with padding and transparent plastic viewing cover kinda like laminate for displaying a trading card#tooth got stolen from out my vehicle while giving some people a ride while at university before i got too poor for tuition#later during first year of pandemic owner of my storage unit died and new property owners threw away everything i ever owned#i was homeless anyway lost job due to early pandemic closures and had to allocate any money to insulin and other prescrip meds#but wouldve found a way to save my things if the new owners had contacted me#they threw out photoalbums y backpacking gear y books y musical instruments y clothes y artwork y camera y all family keepsakes#and all childhood treasures like souvenirs and gifts and school awards and writing portfolios and all the little memories#which i was always sentimental about as child#from earliest age my room looked like a natural history museum with plants and maps and library of field guides#and rocks and field trip keepsakes and all kinds of little animal figurines and mother had painted room in forest greens and browns#to feel like a forest and among the succulent plants and a globe sat the troodon tooth#parents passed when i was a child#never near any family and were always moving never got to settle into proper stable place then father passed after long sad illness#and mother put in so much effort but she passed few years later and i could not take care of myself or my remaining material possessions#and so im still quite hurt having nothing whatsoever remaining of my childhood or school friends or mother or life generally#and when trying to process grief my thoughts often come back to the troodontid tooth as a focal point a distillation of what was lost#even when young i knew it was advised not to become too connected to material physical possessions#but still there are some small little trinkets in our lives that seem to hold so much meaning and i tortured myself for losing that tooth#thinking about troodon reminds me of childhood
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ante--meridiem · 7 months
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naomiknight-17 · 4 months
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My birthday gift to me just arrived - summer clothes
The package had been sliced open and hastily taped back together. The shorts inside are damaged.
I'm gonna cry
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everytime i read articles about prerroman iberia i immediately want to focus all my future career on that but then i remember that trying to study cultural memory in prerroman iberia is career suicide and i go back to my muses and greece
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orphyd · 10 months
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Night 3 in a row of of very stress inducing dreams…call me Ebenezer Scrooge fr
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totheidiot · 4 months
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the phenomenon of sitting next to your crush in a gay manner.
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haveievermentioned · 1 year
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What are your headcanons for arospec Sora? or any other character you want to talk about!
While I believe every character outside of the Disney confirmed couples is aro ace... I think Sora is best read as Aro Ace. I think Sora just... doesn't understand the difference between like him and Goofy and Beauty and Beast. They are all just really good friends. Everyone is a friend, and Donald and Goofy's teasing just goes over his head and is annoying. Of Course Kairi is a friend why... why are you acting like anything is different? Sora has a really loving heart so he does so much for his friends. As much as he can. I think that can end up biting him. (I'm writing about that in Quadratum's Crossing!) Sora just... loves everyone. Everyone is his best friend. He is so tired but he can't stop because of it. He's in a situation where if he stops, if he stops caring, if he stops loving, if he stops making friends, then universe dies. And with that, it all gets a bit... perfunctory. Can you really love someone platonically if their existince is relying on you making sure they exist even if they don't know it? Aro Ace!Sora is the perfect Sora because Kingdom Hearts is a series about Friendship and platonic love. Romantic Love is only for when they are retelling the Disney stories. (Seriously, Cloud, Leon, Cid, Zack, Setzer (sort of), etc all have romantic interests in FF and the closest we get to romance in KH is Cloud being awkward around Tifa and Aerith) And Sora being Aro Ace means he is the fulfillment of this. He can only understand friendship, no one has clarified this for him. Of course he wants to be together forever with his friends (he misses the paopou's romantic implications and connotations), of course he wants to save everyone, they are all his friends! Why doesn't the bad guys get that? I've just lost the plot on this ask but just, TLDR: Sora being Aro Ace and befriending everyone is full theme of Kingdom Hearts.
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juleteinthrum · 11 months
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Its been a few month since I've been out of headspace why is everything like That. /half joking
Like i knew things would be different but damn, like my arms? My hair? Even my smell is. Off. Everything is off. Its okay, i know whats going on im not disoriented or anything mostly its all surprise but im just. So this is what its actually like to not be out for a while and see things change
System stuff hits a little different sometimes
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idontdrinkgatorade · 9 months
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i feel so anxious rn
#on one hand i want to do nothing bc. senioritis#but also. because i'm doing nothing. i'm running out of time to do things#*staring at my piano solo that i'm trying to take to state but haven't even touched*#*staring at fafsa*#*staring at driver's ed*#*staring at actually deciding what fucking university i'm going to go to*#i haven't had any mental breakdowns but like i feel like i'm close#it's like a constant dread#i hate thinking about the future but now i don't have much of a choice#plus no matter where i go for college i'm going to be alone#like...i feel horrible because most of my friends are going to the same place. and i'm just gonna be alone and forgotten about#and they'll prob say 'no we'll keep in contact and visit' but will that actually happen?#and even if it does i'm going to inevitably be left out of everything#if i go one place then at least i'll only be an hour away but my parents are pressuring (and manipulating) me into not going there#and they'll be pissed if i choose that and i don't know if i can deal with them and their passive aggressiveness.#but the other option is at least three hours away from any friends#and i don't have social media outside of tumblr...like i can get an instagram but at this point it probably won't be until i graduate#because my mom is so adamant on hating it and she'll be pissed at me if i make one without telling her which means i have to ask#and then there's the passive aggressiveness again and she'll probably try to stalk everything i do on there#and additionally the university option that my parents hate has the better linguistics program#and every time i mention that they get so pissed at me. and my mom's like 'we're just trying to protect you'#at this rate i'll probably never have a stable career or friends or anything#i'm just so fucking scared#i know when people say someone 'peaked in high school' they usually mean like popular kids and stuff#but like i feel like high school is going to be my peak. i think my life is going to fall apart after this
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talonpaw · 2 years
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the other TA and i are supposed to lead the exam review tomorrow morning at 9 but they haven’t worked on it literally any at all ❤️ to be fair i haven’t worked on it any either but i told her in advance i’d be out of commission all weekend and she promised to do the bulk of the work on sunday. fucking lol ❤️
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wutheringmights · 2 years
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idk if you remember me but im that anon who babbles about tragic themes in your fic. im only like just started on your latest chapter but i am CONSUMED by thoughts regarding parallels between Admetus and Warriors, the acts of sacrifice made for them, not out of love some perversion of fear and dread. basically one reading of alcestis wonders wether she died for him not because she loved him but in fear of what would occur if she were to not do so, dreading that he may sacrifice her children or make her miserable. wars has this capability for a mental twisting to view his loved ones as tools and means as alcestis fears her husband may in the wake of her death (see the second episode of euripides alcestis). also thinking about the role of the parent, blame and responsibility, as well as trickery and appeasement of the gods. i think your fic has really interesting play with the divine eps. in the modern timeline with sly being holy in experience and the mythos of wars’ period, there is no clear divine want, no fates to trick and beg. there is also lana though, i can see parallels in her love of wars and Apollo’s adoration of Admetus, except she has a lot more depth as a character. hmmm. sorry its like 1:30am and im rambling, my apologies, it will happen again. quite possibly in only another hour or so depending on my thoughts haha
I'm not too familiar with the story of Admetus, so I can't really add much about your analysis. But I will say that I am blushing like all hell and I am both honored and amazed that you're getting so much out of my silly little story.
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finch1pinch · 2 years
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ok i wanna talk about the fae in my world because ive come up with a bunch of cool lore for them and their culture, im obviously not finished yet but this is what ive got so far
ok so in my little multiverse, the most common 2 groups to be present on each earth are fae and humans. on some earths the fae are less present in the story that occurs or on some they are very present. it all depends on the awareness fae and humans have of each other.
the 2 groups are very different and have very different cultures but they have many parallels between them
like each group has 3 main aspiration groups that overlap and have specific attributes whether physical or mental. humans have the sciences, the humanities, and the arts, while the fae have the storm, the end, and the spirit
there are 3 central figures to fae culture.
the storm also known as Ebbe who represents change, unpredictability, overcoming fears, flexibility. this figure is often depicted with dragonfly wings, which is often an attribute of their followers. They are also depicted in shadow with a hood over their head, normally with only one eye glinting out of the shadow of the hood, shining like lightning. after all the future is never truly clear, even to its beloved followers.
The next is the end, also known as lady death or Synneva. She represents death, as you might’ve guessed, but also familiarity, comfort, the solid earth to Ebbe’s ever-changing skies. She is often depicted with moth’s wings similar to the death’s head hawkmoth or just as a little moth lurking in a corner ever present. it is said that she watches over every death that has ever been, rocking them into her dusty embrace. when she is depicted, her face is never in shadow, because she is always known. she doesnt hurry or rush, she knows she will have you eventually and like you can’t run from your past, you cannot run from her.
and the last is the spirit, who is the one most likely to give you his name, which is Anders by the way. He’s the brightest of the bunch representing growth, revival, and life in general. while many fae claim they see Synneva during near death experiences and Ebbe during big make or break it decisions, people often say they see Anders during their greatest moments, often cheering in the background, jumping up and down. he appears when a person is truly living. hes often depicted with bee wings, pollinating and nurturing growth around him all with a big grin on his face. life flourishes around him. But hes a trickster as well, his tricks are short term rather than the big strange inscrutable crossroads Ebbe prefers. and hes always moving, because the present stops for no one.
these 3 are the main figures in fae culture, though there are many more that are present. often the followers or fae that share the most in common with a figure will take on their attributes. Unpredictable fae like Eden have dragonfly wings, while sunny ones have bee wings like Knaff, and calm ones like Kaia have moth’s. But there are those with birds wings, like Sage, who have Sparrow’s and there are some who have no wings. But often fae do have wings, that’s why “fae” is often interchangeable with “wingfolk.” its more common to see a fae with wings than without.
Also, fae view humans as having uncanny valley as well. they find the weird bare skin they have unsettling. also plastic is fucking weird like what the hell dude, why are you guys so obsessed with using it for everything. why do keep eating so much inedible shit like asbestos and lead as well?
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featherymainffins · 4 months
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Family is clearly just prolonging my and my mother's misery by forcing me to text her on special occasions and send her gifts, which is giving her false hope that her only boxing bag might come back and endure whatever she decides to take out on it again.
#if it were up to me I'd block her number and never even hear anything about her again#she made her choices and I swear to god i tried to be a good daughter and take them#when university told me that we should try to stay in contact with people in cults because it's much harder to get out without#a support system i tried to take it because of that if nothing else. i told myself that I'll take it. that I'll take it because maybe one#day she'll want out. i tried to.#maybe I didn't try hard enough I don't know. and if that's right then the universe can add it to my endless list of sins which makes me#not a human. the universe can add it to the list of reasons for why I'll never lead a happy life and why I'm better off dead.#that's what I've been told when i was growing up after all.#i tried to but it's just. it's her life or mine. and if she were mean just to me I'd let her take it. if it were just me I'd let her say all#those horrible things to me and I'd stand there and let her punch my limbs until they go numb like i always have#and I'd let her tell me that nobody will ever love me and I'd let her do her invasive checks of my body and I'd let her have those#episodes of searching through my entire room and breaking into my accounts to see if I'm saying anything about her ever to anyone#and calling my doctors and telling them that I'm crazy and not to believe a word i say.#I'd let her do all that as i always have. but she's horrible to my friends and horrible to strangers and it's just too much for me.#I don't want to hear that my friend killed herself in vain and I don't want to hear that you'll never use her name because#'it was just a year before he offed himself so it doesn't count.'#I don't want to hear any of it. i don't want to hear that all my friends hate me and I don't want to hear how horrible they are#and i don't want to hear slurs you use against them and I don't want to hear you say those things about random people you#meet on the street and i don't want to hear you passing moral judgement on strangers because of the way they do their hair#or the way they dress or the way they were born.#I don't want to hear that all my friends with tattoos are rotten and that cancer awaits them as punishment#I don't want to hear any of it. I'm sick of it. i don't want to hear 'youre a censoring bootlicker' whenever i say that i would like you#to tone it down. 'its my opinion. i have a right to free speech.' free speech is not saying that my friends should die.
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king-zigzag · 5 months
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trying to apply for practicum right now
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that isnt an email. i cant just email Baker. thats not how it works
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why is there two listings for the same place with the same contact, the only difference being the abbreviation?
also, this is specifically a listing for dartmouth, not halifax, which has a different listing for nscc with a different contact. if you dont know about nova scotia, dartmouth is a part of halifax because its in the halifax regional municipality along with bedford. in american terms, imagine if you were looking for jobs in new york, and the website you were applying through only showed you jobs in the city instead of the state. also the website is nyu. its not even consistent, because the counselling services for a university thats a turn off the bedford highway is listed as being in halifax even though its, yknow, in bedford.
whatever, i found erica bakers contact from their website (which wasnt linked, i had to seek it out myself) so lets-
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oh. okay. my bad.
in my defense the website is almost designed to dance around the fact that they dont do counselling without outright saying it, i cant be the first person to make this assumption
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whatever, i found erica baker-gagnon's page on some weird obscure mental health linkdin or something, lets see if they have a contact.
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pedicabo ego vos et irrumabo
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icannotgetoverbirds · 5 months
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*suddenly stops worrying about everything*
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what.
*worries about the fact that I'm not worrying about anything*
#byrd chirps#Byrd's business#it's really fucking bizarre y'all#also I'm posting this on main because i need answers#what the hell is going on#it's not like I don't care anymore.#it's like i just am completely unable to believe that things won't turn out okay#I'm about to lose my shelter! why did my brain stop ringing the alarm bells to get my ass in gear and get things done?!?#it's not like i don't *want* to get things done either. it's just. i no longer feel like i have to.#which is very much not the case!#it could be a combination of things really#a recent realization about myself#getting over my mother and her bullshit#getting enough sleep#not having severe digestive issues anymore#getting back in contact with my cousin who believed me when i told her what happened#i don't know. it feels like the universe is trying to tell me that everything's going to be okay#even if i don't get my ass in gear and get things done#which i refuse to believe#i refuse to consider that I'm going to die out here even though I've already accepted the possibility#but i also refuse to believe that the universe is going to pull some strings to put my life back together#because as nice as that would be I'm not about to put my faith in a higher power#when i have been surviving only thanks to my own grit and my support system#shoutout to literally everyone who's ever checked in on me btw y'all are keeping me alive#but yeah is the alarm bell broken? or is it being silenced by some higher power telling me to let them handle it?#either way I'm not leaving it up to fate#any higher power that knows me should know damn well that I'm not about to put my faith in them over a strong sense of peace#so even if it is somehow some kind of higher power I'm gonna go with#'they don't want me to have a breakdown when i need to be getting shit done' as opposed to#'nah they can sit back and relax and I'll take care of things'
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