#the waiting and not knowing is misery

[weirdness-ensued]

it’s so fucking hard waiting to get gender-affirming surgeries or hormones cuz like there’s this thing in life that u NEED but u can’t have it until later so u just have to keep living your life as is even tho u want to die but u have to stay alive cuz u need to be alive to get it and once u get it u know ur life will be significantly better but in the meantime it feels like eternal hell not having it:((((((

[madfoxx]

they are doing Great

(inspired by this post from @ineffable-romantics​)

[crabussy]

several months ago, I went to a checkup appointment with a specialist doctor for a condition I have and told her that my joints and leg muscles hurt a lot. IMMEDIATELY she was like "yeah you have low bone density, we're switching your meds" and within 10 minutes I was given new meds. I asked to do a scan for bone density and she just. refused???

anyway um! several months later! my new meds have done almost nothing to help, my previous symptoms which are not supposed to happen with meds are back, my joints still hurt a lot, and I'm constantly miserable due to pain. my dad did some research out of curiosity and it turns out that LOW BONE DENSITY DOES NOT CAUSE JOINT PAIN OR MUSCLE PAIN. SHE CHANGED MY MEDS FOR NO FUCKING REASON. I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN FOR MONTHS BECAUSE SHE KEPT SAYING "just wait it out" BUT NOTHING EVER GOT BETTER.

so I'm back on my old meds now and just. man. moral of the story ALWAYS push for tests. make sure your doctors know what they're talking about. you know your body best. I told my parents the entire time that the meds weren't working and they didn't believe me. please please listen to yourself and double check everything you can!!!!!!!

[danganronpa96]

What if Monotora didn't shut down when he hit his head on the aquarium wall but was just pretending he shut down bc he was too embarrased that he missed and hit his head lol (that was my first thoughts when i read that part)

It was in actuality a mixture of being put out of commission temporarily and pretending not to be able to listen in to what everyone was saying before they got up. However, Monotora would feel more annoyance and anger than just embarrassment from being bested.

If something like that really did happen though, I assume things would've gone like this

directed at Kurumada specifically

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[ambagelbraindump]

man how did I get so lucky

[bigkickguy]

I'm sorry but I have another stupid limbus theory about Dante's identity! I think it is even sillier than my last one but also i like it way more haha Lobotomy corporation spoilers ! Leviathan spoilers !

cogito straw jump scare !

Ok I like the idea that Dante used to be a member of the original L corp as an employee for the Extraction team. It would be cool if they were specifically the employee who had Express Train to Hell extracted from them back in the first lab. 1. We know from wonderlab that all of the Lcorp employees use they/them and I've seen people mention that is because there was no place to record the gender of employees in-game? I have no idea if that is true and I would think it is slightly less fun than just a 100% cast of characters without gender on random chance all working for the same place - but for the sake of my crack theory let's assume its true for a second here! (I think it's a hilarious theory in many ways and I enjoy the absurd concept of LC somehow stealing employees' gender but I will not go into that now.) 2. We also know that Dante has the same 2 weird dot's on the front of their clock that Express Train to Hell has. That lines up with many of Vergilus' lines about going to hell and the whole Dante's Inferno pile of references and why the bus is actually looking like a train. I don't remember if it's implied or mentioned but Faust built both the train and Dante's new head so I'm pretty sure they're connected (they at least seem that way visually) 3. I think it is funny that rolling the gatcha for characters uses the same term extraction as the process that Binah was in charge of for filling up the lab with abnormalities. Binah mentions that Carmen and cogito basically do all the work inside someone's head and then the extraction team pulls it out. I'm assuming that means making the abnormality a physical separate entity. Binah specifies that the employees don't watch or listen to what they are doing - they just follow her instructions. She implies looking too hard into the eyes of the employees who are injected with cogito and are extracted from would cause many people to go mad.

How does this relate to what Faust told Vergilius in leviathan? I wonder how similar the strange cogito state is compared to how Charon lost her memories of being Lapis. It's possible that when Faust mentions Vergilius can save Lapis and Garnet she is referring in part to restoring Lapis' original identity. This would line up with the motivation (assuming Faust was telling the truth) to make Vergilius sign on as the Limbus Company Guide.

And if this theory is true that opens up a lot of interesting ideas for what the company is after. If the original employee super dosed with cogito is looking into 'the well' of human consciousness or whatever the phrasing was - what will they remember when they wake up? What is on the other side in there - is limbus company after that information? Do they know something is there and they want more details? Do they want an example that the theoretical way to rehabilitate people from this state works? Did they pick Dante on purpose due to some properties of the Express Train to Hell - or would they have picked at random with any intact employee they could find? It feels more like a mission a corporation in the city would realistically take.

Do they want to become the next L Corp? Are they looking for that singularity to replace them? It lines up as a feasible way they could do that while taking they actions they have so far in the story i think? It's another silly crack theory but I enjoy thinking about it all :)

[anaalnathrakhs]

getting out of my bed is ALWAYS a mistake <3

[katyspersonal]

Somehow my reasons to be sad can be both 'being stuck in this country unable to run feels like laying in a fresh grave incapable of doing anything but waiting for more and more dirt to be shoveled on you, nobody forbids you to crawl out but your legs and arms are broken, there is no hope there is no end and there is no semblance of respect for human rights, ours or anyone's from other country doesn't matter' and 'even if I tried to jump on a hype train nobody would appreciate my contribution because I am like a mom, when I start liking a trend it stops being cool :(' within the same day lol

I mean I appreciate that for a person with no future or hope I am surprisingly alive and still have room in my heart for personal feelings and problems, no matter how small! Being numbed to personal frustrations by despair is not a good thing. But it is also really funny hfhdfdgsfgds

[fern-mage]

slowly chipping away at the process of hopefully getting a store going :] it'll start out probably as just like... i'll probably just use printful or something at first because i can't really do physical stuff that i ship from where im at personally yet but ideally once im living in a different spot i'll be doing it that way

[atthebell-moved]

new fed building has an accessible bathroom? work ig

[darkdragon768]

NewsPipe for whatever reason isn't working for me anymore so to watch videos I *shutters* have to use Yout*be

[dea011]

twt is no fun w out tags. how am i supposed to say out in the open that im late in posting because i both missed a psychiatrist appointment and shes ghosting me???

[rivilu]

Hey hello can i be sad on main or will the heavens unleash 7 thousand ravenous hawks upon me

[magicstormfrostfire]

Nothing to me is more miserable than waking up from a dream and the only things I remember from it is the sensation of being deeply loved, and getting ripped away from the sensation by waking up and coming back to reality.

[coern]

il just be hanging out on my dash trying and failing to close Tumblr so I can fall asleep and suddenly an inhumane urge to design some sort of skykid siffrin hits me like a truck like ok but can we go to bed now. please. we have a 7 hour car trip tmrw to think about this guys can we SLEEP for the love of GOD i need to. bed. now

[the-world-is-treating-me-bad]

Out on the ocean, sailing away

I can hardly wait

To see you come of age

But I guess we’ll both just have to be patient