#their relationship gets me everytime I rewatch it

[arty-cakes]

Mad and angry at how these two joke side characters try so hard to be heteronormative but they really aren't and that's where most of their misery comes from. not all of it but most of it, like it very much keeps them in the cycle, because they seem desperate to find a happy storybook ending and this is how they think they'll find it, by trying to be like the same characters that found that happiness. its never addressed but also painfully obvious with how much they don't fit in with the other npcs dear god these characters are queer coded to hell i could write an essay (i accidentally did)

its not even like bretta and zote are straight cis characters these two are bi and aro canonically but its more to do with the gender roles they're trying to replicate, and failing. they suck at it. he is not this emotionally stoic resilient lone knight he is in fact continuously fighting his emotional pain and if you give him the right attention he will stay forever. he'll get angry that you saved him or that he needed your help because YOU dont fit in his story. she's not a forgiving accepting loving damsel in distress she can take care of herself great and will also drop you like a hat if she sees even one flaw in you. because then YOU dont fit her story either. they care so much about their stories because they reinforce the identity they think they're supposed to have but they're also so disconnected with themselves BECAUSE of these gender roles that they dont realize it makes them miserable

the biggest cause for this is that they are lonely isolated individuals and dont understand or know enough about real people so they have to go off their storybooks and it only keeps them alone. its like you have to be stubborn about saving them and staying by their side so they can get that chance to change and thats exactly what the knight does. its stubborn as hell it will save them again and again and it will fight their dumbass crushes as many times as it takes to make them realize what they're doing is painful. and bretta gets that chance, she leaves the town that isolated her and goes to find something better, most importantly she gets experience. zote gets to stay alive, which is the best thing you can do for him. because now he might get to face his pain, whereas in death he never gets to overcome it, just escape it

its also very funny that when the game pushes them together in this fake relationship its purposely depicted as completely ridiculous and an obvious parody and you also have the chance to beat it to the ground multiple times. whereas the two more meaningful love stories that you get to help happen are mlm and wlw and completely unapologetic about it this game is GAY

[loserdiaz]

i was rewatching buck begins (as one does) and when they show his postcard at the construction side with the bright orange and yellow vest and the helmet in hand and all, i had this vision.

hear me out!!!

he met eddie after a minor accident at work where he ended upbat the ER where this really nice and hot doctor (eddie) treated him and buck flirted with him the entire time, giggling and blushing and making his injury seem worse than it was just to buy some more time with the guy. it was so blatantly obvious, and eddie never fell for it, but he played along anyway because he usually never pays attention to anyone or anything other than work and chris. but! this stranger is funny and nice, and the curly hair sticking to his forehead is just begging for eddie to run his fingers through it, and his smile is contagious and those dimples should be illegal actually.

fast forward to a couple of months later— they've been dating for a while. buck's construction crew teases him endlessly and relentlessly about eddie and chris but buck takes it gladly and proudly because this is the best relationship he's ever had and it's the first time where he's all in, body and soul. honestly? buck loves the teasing from his coworkers. he loves getting to talk about his boyfriend and his adorable, amazing, incredible son who has buck wrapped around his finger (in just a month, buck's already built an adaptive skateboard, a book shelf and fixed a desk for the kid)

he especially loves when eddie surprises him every now and then with lunch that they eat in buck's jeep. its a little uncomfortable, and then he has to clean up the crumbs later but it's so totally worth it when he gets to spend fifteen, twenty minutes with eddie talking about their days, making jokes and giggling like dumb teenagers in love sneaking around instead of the grown ass men they really are. (he is especially fond of the moments where eddie gets this loving, amused expression on his face as he reaches over and wipes some mustard from the corner of buck's lip with his thumb. the gesture feels so soft and intimate and buck gets all fuzzy and warm inside everytime.)

and eddie always gets the best food too! and it makes buck feel loved and cared for. and maybe the construction job is not his purpose in life and he doesn't quite know yet what he wants for his future. but he is certain he wants eddie and chris in it. and that's enough for now <3

[issacballsac]

“Being Apart of The Sk8 Crew„

Just rewatched Sk8 the infinity and now I wish I had friends so ! Gn reader

Joe | “I wanna marry your abs!”

Y’all would meet your first time at S

Obviously you’d be amazed by his skating and even if u don’t like men he’s hot as hell bro don’t lie

One of two things happens

You A. Run up to him and ask abt his skating techniques and such

Or B. He actually walks up to you to talk about your skating(only if ur good ofc💀)

He’s such a dad

If you’re younger than him he’s constantly trying to sound smart/give you wisdom

Sometimes it’s solid advice the other times it’s pure nonsense

If you like to cook/want to learn he’ll happily teach you

If not he’ll settle for a new taste tester

He would def make jokes all the time

Some genuinely funny

He expects you to laugh at all of them even if it wasn’t funny

He’d appreciate it if you didn’t cock block him like everyone else

Despite being quick to take off his shirt he’s very fashionable and takes pride in his looks obviously

If you ever needed fashion advice best go to him!

He’s a pretty laid back guy so you wouldn’t get into arguments often

Would love to skate everywhere but he’s like…got a job and responsibilities so..

Still a great dad friend to have

Honestly would care and worry over you if you got into some dumb shit so don’t do anything stupid and he won’t worry

Joe for the win🗣️‼️

Cherry/Kaoru | A.I. Advancement

You’d meet when he paid a visit to Joe’s restaurant

Ofc you knew of him bc he’s popular but you never MET Kaoru

You def walked in on their date arguing

It was so awkward u were jus like:🧍‍♂️

“Is this a bad time time to visit you?”

“Hey! Kaoru this is [ ], the kid I was talking about.”

“What a peculiar child to willingly hang around you.”

“Whatever you say, Pinky.”

He’s kinda weird with his whole AI stuff but other than that a great friend

Makes snarky comments with you

Unless ur too nice to make snide remarks

Constantly complains abt the angle of your turns

Unironically would show up at your parent teacher conferences(if you’re still in the lower schooling ofc)

Would never admit it but he loves each of his friends and would be genuinely concerned if anything happened

Shadow | Petty Clown

Oh when y’all met you wanted to throw hands

I imagine something similar to his introduction with Reki

Bro straight up threw an explosive in your face???(smoke bomb maybe but still)

He may be petty but you’re pettier(is that even a word?💀)

You found out he worked at a flower shop bc lets be FR he doesn’t look much different outside of S

Lil arguments here lil threats there and you leave with a nice assortment of flowers

Bro side eyes you EVERYTIME y’all cross paths at S😭

After the whole gang is assembled y’all no longer act this way towards one another

Bros the only responsible adult of this group

He def did your makeup once and you broke out the next day💀

“Are you sure you know what you’re doin’?”

“Trust me, kid.”

“I don’t know why but I don’t.”

You try and help him with his relationship endeavors but it never works out😭

He’ll go to the gym with you if you don’t wanna go alone

Gym bros‼️🗣️

Miya | Catty Child

This fucker

Y’all are quite the duo

Annoying ass mfs whenever and wherever you go

If you have any sort of pet it’s his pet now

Bros the animal whisperer

He’d have to be interested in your skating for y’all to become friends

So pretend ur decent or even amazing; however big ur delusion allows itself to be🫡

He’s smart but would invite you somewhere under the premise of studying just to goof around

If he needs a second player for his game bro is gonna drag your ass so y’all can play

Goes shopping with you just to complain about how everything is ugly in the stores

“That’s not cute, who thought selling this was a good idea?”

“Bitch—if you’re going to be negative the whole time go home‼️”

Reki | Redheaded Menace

If you thought you + Miya was a devious duo just imagine you and Reki

Y’all would prob meet second after you and Joe met

Bc he works at a skate shop

And you need skating stuff(you can tell I’m not a skater💀)

If you’re just a good skater and don’t know actual science and shit behind it he’s constantly telling you about it like you care

You guys cruise around together for fun

He made your current board and you’ll never get another one that’s not from him

You teach him any and all tricks/skills you know

Probably took you to his house to give you your current board bc he was working on it in his house and you met all of his family

His mom is just happy he’s got some friends

You become besties with his mom

She gossips abt news and celebrities with you

Claims ur like her other child(forget the rest of them👺)

Makes you lunch bc she’s nice like that

You let him ramble abt stuff he’s interested in even if you aren’t listening fully

Would silently beg you to stay back with him during the hot spring scavenge bc he’s scared

Forces you to watch horror movies with him bc he gets scared and needs someone else with him

Bro would be elated the whole day if you called him cool

Snow/Langa | Canadian Curiosity

Omg he’s Canadian?😦 Seize him!

Obviously being involved with S you would’ve heard of Snow but Reki would’ve introduced y’all before the big news

Bro would shove him in your face as if he’s a shiny trophy(at the beginning ofc)

“This is Langa! New guy from my class apparently he’s interested in skating.”

“Sick—he’s so pale.”

“He’s from Canada.”

“Oh.”

Bro is so oblivious it’s crazy

You gotta like SPELL IT OUT for him if you’re ever alluding to smth

Langa stays hungry and would go out to eat with you anytime

You and Reki would def help him decorate his room bc it’s…bland

It’s not bad but there’s no personality

He tells you abt his favourite dishes back in Canada and y’all try and locate any places in Japan that might sell smth similar

If not you guys attempt to make it yourselves at his house

His mom walks in on y’all ruining the kitchen💀

“Langa I’m…home.”

“Hey, Mom.”

“Hey Langa’s Mom!”

Bro is a skating addict and will skate whenever and wherever

Wants to race you like at least twice every week

Loser pays for dinner

You help him with his reading and writing and if you didn’t already know he’d teach you English

[lovingaquarius]

My own little astrology observations ;p

‼️DISCLAIMER‼️

this is completely based on my personal experiences and observations do not take what i say literally i am NOT a professional astrologer 🫶

jj and kiara from “outer banks” are the PERFECT example of a leo and aquarius duo and the best thing is rudy is a LEO IN RL and madison is an AQUARIUS 😩 kinda wanna do a separate post on this…

idk if any other gemini moons like watching reaction videos but i love them sm (this may be a gem placement thing overall)

i feel like sag moons favorite tv/movie genre is comedy/adventure. my brother is a gem sun, sag moon and he refuses to watch scary movies, even tho he’s a scorpio rising?? then again he will fall ASLEEP to scary stories on yt??

heavy aqua placements may make you hard to read to people or seem unpredictable

7h moon synastry may make you and your partner feel like you can feel eachothers emotions or know what they’re thinking/going to say

10h lilith ppl need to get used to people talking ab you, rumors being spread about you or just all around peoples perceptions of you being contrary to how you really are.(i have many favorable placements but this one still has its power 😭) what’s helped me is realizing that everyone’s perceptions of you is purely based on their perception of the world and past experiences with people. it’s rarely even ever about you

i don’t know why but i feel like gemini and sag placements are the types to like anime/video games

if leo moons/venus feel like they’re not getting enough attention or validation in their relationship they will find it somewhere else that is not something they can be without

i hate to validate stereotypes but every person i’ve known with taurus placements in big 6 have a passion for food and sleeping.(one of my old friends had a heavy taurus stellium and she was alllways sleeping/falling asleep and would sometimes fall asleep with food in her mouth 😭)

is there such thing as an aries mars with a low labido??

i feel like water placements (especially pisces) are the ones to listen to and really appreciate Lana del rey’s music or like/romanticize the older eras like 50s-90s (i’m a 7h pisces venus and i’m obsessed w the aesthetic of the 70s flower child )

moon mars synastry is so real yall ofc the whole chart matters but if your persons moon sign is your mars or vice versa there’s just a strong attraction, sometimes you dont even understand why.

the leo and aquarius attraction is so true i can point them out in a crowd and everytime i want them 🙄 it’s suspicious at this point 😑

idk if this is a pisces moon thing but i’ve noticed the pisces moons i know always have their comfort movies they rewatch over and over again and never get tired of. (or prefer to watch what they’ve already seen and like) maybe it’s a nostalgia thing?!?

[evilbubu]

I rewatched sandman today and I forgot how funny dream is. he's so goofy, I love his facial expressions. He reminds me of a kid. He gets offended when Hob calls him lonely and in need of a friend and storms out of the tavern like an angry gf (yeah Hob is the bf). He locks his ex in hell after her village was destroyed cuz they fell in love and she was like "yeah, sorry babes, our relationship is destroying my people" and he really said, "Okay. 10,000 years of hell for you." ??????

And everytime Lucienne is talking to him, you can see how much she's done with his shenanigans and edgy/emo tendencies, she stays respectful cuz he's lord of dreams but she's really like a babysitter. justice for our librarian. she didn't sign up for this.

[msfbgraves]

The first Godfather movie is on Y*utube for free now! I rewatched it and it was just as great as I remember, so on to Part 2. But then I went on redd*t to check out some Godfather threads, and was disappointed to see so much discourse on who was hotter, Apollonia or Kay. And why there is so much hate against Kay, mainly because she is “too feminist” and “educated”, doesn’t “obey or support” Michael, and that she’s not as beautiful as Apollonia. All in all a disappointing experience. I didn’t see any male characters reduced to how handsome they were or were not : /

Let me help you there, then, Nonnie - of course Michael was destined to become the new Don - he is far prettier than Fredo, Sonny or Connie. And Vito was prettier than Don Fanucci all along! 😎

All this "Kay isn't good enough for Michael" discourse - he pursued her. Both in film 1 and 3. And the only time I felt Kay was weak, was when she said yes when he returned. Imagine, here is your war hero boyfriend who says he wants a clean American life... and then he shoots two people, leaves the country, ghosts you for a year, tells you he has become a career criminal and then proposes marriage. She should have said no, she really isn't open to this, but is this man, who she knows has people killed with no repercussions, a man she can refuse? As little as Vitelli could really refuse Michael's request to court Apollonia. The first thing Michael says to him is: "If you don't do what I want, I will kill you, and what I want is meet your daughter."

But alright maybe love isn't rational. Maybe they loved each other still. Kay really wasn't suited to mob life and that is on Michael. He knew who she was and it didn't matter, he wanted her. He had barely a clue who Apollonia was, her with no English and he with broken Italian. It didn't matter, he wanted her. Kay would have been perfect for Michael Corleone, aspiring senator, which is what he was when they met. But he didn't care Kay was not suited for who he was now. Why didn't he grieve Apollonia and find another mob wife? Why didn't he remarry after their divorce? Even when he proposes Kay is already reluctant and Michael pushes and pushes and pushes. She must represent something he actually does want, still.

But it's always the woman's fault when relationships don't work out, isn't it? No Kay wasn't a good mob wife. She didn't want to be one. She got out with her children - that is something Michael never managed. And Apollonia is something many men imagine they want, but when they have it, they get bored. I am not saying Apollonia wasn't intelligent, but if you get told to completely erase yourself into motherhood, which means you can't offer more than comfort and sex - that's not enough for a lot of people. And it's not like these women wouldn't have had more to offer but everytime they try they get shut down. And what you get then is Carmella, which may have suited Vito - that man who craved domesticity above all else - but even Sonny and Michael needed more input from her than she could give. So Michael fell for the total opposite. And maybe Apollonia was a fierce presence who might have become to Michael what Connie became, but we can't know. We don't know what she and Michael talked about. We know she was very beautiful and made Michael laugh, and she may or may not have had a slight independent streak. That's it.

I feel that they might have worked because they clicked emotionally and Apollonia knew the life. But Michael didn't look for someone like her again. He looked for Kay, again and again and again.

If she doesn't suit him - and no, she doesn't suit a Don - Michael should try to figure out what itch he was trying to scratch with her. Oh, and that obedience shit - in my experience, boys who go on about that are deeply insecure about something. They couldn't get a well trained dog to obey them, let alone a person!

All these men who think they're owed power while being unwilling to do what they'd have to to obtain it, always want women to fawn. Men who have what it takes to gain power, should they aspire to, usually spend time honing a skill. They rarely throw their weight around putting others down. No matter where they start, the bottom or the top - they put the work in. Michael did, Sonny did, and Fredo mostly complained. As much as we see anyway. If Fredo had done a good job with what he was given, or would have found himself an opportunity, he would have won Michael's respect. Not position,but respect, like Tom. Instead Fredo demanded respect for his position as an older brother.

That's the type of man who whines about having women obey him.

[buddielifers]

Why Eddie is a queer character

I thought I’d write the reason why Eddie is gay and a queercoded character. I see some people say that he is ‘straight’ and that Buck is the only one that was queercoded so I’m going to debunk all of that - This post is about Eddie but I will be mentioning his relationship with Buck because it plays a huge part in this.

Before I start I just wanted to quickly say that Ryan saying Eddie is a heterosexual character in an interview means nothing. Aside from the fact actors tend to lie in interviews he’s not going to confirm that he is gay because he isn’t going to spoil future plots. He was talking about Eddie in that moment as he IS percieved as canonically straight. It was said exactly the same for Buck before he was canonically Bisexual.

With that said I’m going to get into it:

2x04: This episode is only four episodes after Eddie’s introduction and they are talking about dating. Eddie tells Buck that those girls weren’t his type - which Buck agrees with. Then Eddie very obviously teases Buck about his ‘invisible girlfriend’ when calling eachother out on weak excuses for dating. When you rewatch the scene it’s so teasy and they just smirk at eachother. Eddie is borderline flirty with Buck in that scene.

This was also the same episode that this happened. As well as Buck driving Eddie to the hospital and setting up Carla for them.

Buck & Shannon

There are parallels between Eddie’s in-canon wife and his literal male best friend.

In 2x01, Eddie’s first episode. We have Eddie say to Buck: “You can have my back any day” and Buck respond with: “or you know, you can have mine” in 2x07, only six episodes after we are introduced to Shannon who tells Eddie: “I needed you to have my back” to which Eddie says: “I always had your back” to which Shannon disagreed with. The show made it known in the first seven episodes that Eddie was in the show that he has Buck’s back but never had his wife’s back.

In 2x07, Shannon tell Eddie that she needed a “husband and a co-parent” infering she never had that from him. It’s pretty common knowledge that Eddie co-parents Chris with Buck and even has him has Chris’ legal guardian. 3x05: “Do you know how much Christopher misses you? How can you, your not around” & 7x10: “what do you want me to do?” “What you always do… talk to him”

In 2x10, Shannon asks Eddie: “Can you forgive me?” and Eddie responds with “I can forgive you but I can’t trust you” which I interpret to me that he can’t trust her to not walk out on Christopher again. This contrasts in 3x03 which is eleven episodes after. Eddie tells Buck: “There is no one else in the world that I trust with my son more than you” in 3x06 Buck says to Eddie “whatever it takes for you to forgive me” and Eddie immediately responds with: “I forgive you”.

This is less about gay Eddie and more about a partner and a co-parent place in Eddie’s life but it all counts with the fact it’s his best friend and not his wife.

Eddie and Shannon (+ Kim)

Eddie’s relationship with Shannon is complicated, he did love her but I think it only went so far. We know that Shannon started as Eddie’s best friend (*cough* Buck *cough*) but they were young and they were pushed into adulthood with the pregnancy and marriage. They didn’t know how to be anything other than friends which was the biggest issue in their relationship neither one of them knew how to be an adult and didn’t wanted to face up to the reality of it and therefore ran away from it. I think a lot of their relationship had more to do with Christopher, It seems like Shannon was less about her as Eddie’s wife and more about her being a mother to Christopher. Everytime Shannon was brought up into conversation before her introduction it was “christopher’s mother” or “his mother” and never my wife, but he did acknowledge that he was married and he continues with the use of ‘mother’ in front of Shannon that she questions it. She asks Eddie what it is he wants and he responds with “I don’t know” which parrallels Eddie’s conversation with Buck in 7x09 when talking about Shannon’s lookalike he asks Eddie what it is he wants and Eddie responds with “I don’t know” he has had a consistant feeling of confusion throughout the seasons regarding what he wants. In 2x07 Shannon says the line “makes everything more broken” implying there is already things that are broken this parallels 7x09 when Eddie says that he’s broken and he can’t fix it. In that same episode Shannon’s lookalike asks Eddie if she was the love of his life and he responds with “I THINK she was” with a little shoulder shrug, showing that he still has conflicting feelings. Why would he not know whether his wife and his child’s mother was the love of his life?

In 7x01, Eddie tells Buck that he married the first women he dated and Buck corrected him with “slept with”. Eddie doesn’t know what love is like outside of Shannon, everything he had with her is something he believes he won’t find or feel again no matter what that feeling might be. Marrying the first person you slept with is kinda crazy and will easily having you blurring lines with your feelings. Whether he truly loved her or not she was still his childhood sweetheart, best friend, the first person he slept with, first marrige and mother to his first and only child there will always be love for her and I think he complicated that with something more than what it actually is he feels for her because there relationship was not perfects and nor was it great. In 7x09, he tells Shannons lookalike that he doesn’t know how to live a life without her BUT what he’s failing to realise is he already has been living a life without her and they were apart for most of their entire marriage which is what Eddie said himself.

Eddie idealizes and romanticizes his relationship with Shannon. When he met Kim he was having flashbacks of Shannon but they were only the good parts, the parts he wanted to remember not the parts where either of them walked away; not the divorce and not the arguements he remembers the parts where they had sex and he was kissing her on the beach. He’s living in a state of delusion and is purposefully blocking all of that out because she is all he’s ever known and he wants it back.

Added Quote - Shannon: “I don’t need a provider I need a partner” Eddie Begins

“Perpetual state of trying to make up for something”

“Maybe there’s something wrong with me”

Eddie and Ana

In season 4, Eddie starts dating Christopher’s old teacher and the first person he dates since Shannon. In 4x13, Eddie is talking to Carla about Ana and one of the first things Eddie says is “Christopher loves having her around” then Carla says “what about dad?” meaning what does he think about Ana. Carla then says to Eddie he has to make sure he’s “following your heart and not christophers” which refers to the fact that he’s always doing everything for christopher and never for himself. Just like how in 2x10 he wasn’t sure whether he wanted Shannon back in Christopher’s life because he didn’t know whether it would be for him or for christopher until Chris told Eddie he wanted her back. If Christopher’s school didn’t need her and he never asked for her I doubt Eddie would have contacted her again or would have been back in his life. In 5x01, Eddie has a full blown panic attack that he falls to the floor just because someone mistakes Ana as Chris’ mother and in the very next episode he doesn’t introduce her to Ravi at the firehouse eventhough she is stood there and has to introduce herself and it becomes a little awkward that Buck notices something is off with Eddie’s body language around her. Ravi assumes she’s Eddie’s wife and you can visably see Eddie’s internal panic. When Eddie talks to Buck about his panic attacks he admits that he thinks his panic attack was because of Ana, he didn’t like that they were becoming a “ready-made family” (eventhough he has no issue when it’s with Buck).

“I’m just gonna stick it out”

“Stick it out? That’s not the way you talk about someone you’re in love with”

“My kid loves her”

“Is that enough?”

He is once again putting Christopher first and doing this for him because Chris loves her, he doesn’t say anything about him being in love with her but going by his attitude it’s a safe assumption to say he didn’t love her.

I don’t know how anyone can watch his breakup scene with Ana and not jump to the conclusion that he’s gay. When he’s breaking up with her he says “the idea of us” (which is what he does with Shannon he thinks about the idea of her and a future, what they represent) then he brings Chris into it AGAIN. “christopher loves you so much I just thought” “eventually you would too” in this moment we can see that he’s with her because Christopher loves her and he thought he would love her as well overtime, he doesn’t love her but thinks that he can. When she rubs his arm, touches his face and kisses his cheek he barely even reacts to it - you can see there’s possible guilt there though.

Eddie and Marisol

There isn’t a lot to say about Marisol she was just around but what I will say is - if they weren’t heading in a certain direction with Eddie they would have kept him with Marisol and wouldn’t have felt the need to bring Shannon back up. She was here to help start his catholic guilt as she was a nun (his catholic guilt easily ties in with him being gay) after he found out she was a nun he didn’t wanna have sex with her and avoided it at all cost even going to Buck’s to get away. He moves Marisol into his place and moves her back out again within a day or so. He tells Buck he might have to break up with Marisol because it feels like god is watching and everytime he sleeps with her he has to bless himself but then tells Buck he can’t break up with her because all of her things are in boxes, that’s the only reason he can’t break up with her because of her things in his house *priorities*. Then he cheated on her in the next episode we saw her in. He did not love her.

He didn’t love Ana; He didn’t love Marisol and it’s very obvious he has confusing and conflating feelings about Shannon which is the cause of all of this. The question is…why?

Queercoding

Queercoding isn’t just being flirty with a guy (like buck has in the past) its the things that are said and acted but also how Eddie is towards women. Eddie was suppose to be canonically gay in s5 (with the whole Ana situation) but was shut down by FOX then he was suppose to be canonically gay in season 7 as he was the one who was suppose to kiss Tommy but due to the fact they couldn’t get hold of Buck’s female love interests they had to switch them around for that season. TWICE they tried to made Eddie canonically gay which means the show sees him as a queer character and now he’s going into a new season single.

In s6, Eddie was set up on a blind date and had a little freak out about it.

“I hate being forced to date it feels like I have to perform” both Hen and Buck clocked Eddie with that line when they frowned at him. It’s interesting that the episode title is called ‘Performance Anxiety’.

“I have these moments that are good. We save someone from dying; my kid does something awesome. It’s moments where I should be happy or proud or both I know that. I just don’t feel it. That’s not normal right?” we see every moment he’s talking about and they all include Ana. Emphasising on ‘that’s not normal right?’

In 6x17, there is a small montage of Eddie going out and trying to mingle with women throughout the day and fails badly.

In s7, Eddie is talking to Bobby about his situations. Bobby tells him if he’s having doubts about moving in with Marisol because he hasn’t been given the impression that he wants to and he remembers what Eddie was like with Ana when he had his panic attacks.

“So you think I’m a commitment phobe?”

“You don’t seem to have a problem commiting to certain things. The military, this job, your son….Shannon” (also Buck when he put him in his will as Chris’ legal guardian. That’s a commitment.) I would also say commiting to Shannon was an issue.

“A lot of the reasons why we got married was the church. She got pregnant and I think we both felt pressured into it but I never regretted it. There was a part of me that loved being married to her” He doesn’t say he loves her (which I think he does in someways) but he said he loves being MARRIED to her which plays into the idea of her and their relationship. Michael Grant in 1x01 tells Athena that he loved being married to her and he never regretted anything - their marriage or their children, and yet he’s gay. ‘Pressured’ and ‘a part of me’ stands out within this as well.

“It’s broken, I’m broken and I can’t fix it”

“You haven’t had sex” “exactly, it’s not even what I want from her” “so what do you want” “I don’t know”

“I’ve got a resevouir of catholic guilt lying dormant waiting to be activated”

Buck: “I don’t think I’ve ever seen a man turn a women off with such skill”

Eddie: “It’s a gift”

At the end of 7x10 we had numerous interviews with Ryan and this is what he said:

1) Eddie needing to ‘live his truth’ after seeing Buck and Hen (two canonically queer characters) living theirs

2) ‘Deconstruction of what love is’

3) ‘then the partner that is meant for me will find themselves and me at the same time’ despite previously calling Eddie ‘heterosexual’ he is now using gender neuteral terms to describe a love interest for Eddie instead of the use of girlfriend and/or wife.

4) ‘Eddie in previous relationships was trying to fill in the title of mom’

Eddie’s love for Buck

1) “There’s no competition for Eddie”

2) “your and incredible individual and you are worth all the love in the world”

3) THIS GOES BEYOND FRIENDSHIP

4) I love you to the core

If you still can’t see that Eddie is gay and has very much been queercoded then at this point you are just ignoring it.

There probably a lot more that I’ve missed off as well.

[snoopyreadsliterature]

Nine People I'd Like To Know Better

Thank you very much for the tag, @alextheoccasionalwriter!

Last song I listened to: Easier Said Than Done - Thee Sacred Souls

Currently watching: Been keeping up with the Dungeon Meshi anime, and might continue watching The Empress (although the episodes are long, I think it's very historically interesting - especially in what ways they try to make the characters seem sympathetic and obscure historical truths). Also rewatching my favorite Community episodes for comfort & getting hyped for the movie.

Spicy/savory/or sweet?: Definitely spicy! Although my white tastebuds can't handle it and I die everytime, it's worth it. Occasionally I enjoy sweets.

Relationship status: Single, and very happy about it. (It's been almost exactly a year now. Wohoo!)

Current Obsession: Hard to pick just one. I'll go with Dungeon Meshi, journaling (addictive), queer historical fantasies (I need more of them, please do give me recs if you have them) and working on my WIP (not much results, don't expect anything. just 3d rotating the world in my head).

Gently tagging some folks, no pressure to actually do this! (And just because I didn't tag you, doesn't mean you can't also do this. Feel free to answer the questions and tag me!) @memory-the-unconscious, @ronastudies, @r--a--u, @lazybtchneedstostudy, @stargazerbibi, @grad-premed-suffering, @aseaofcoffee, @stellastudies, @arinewneanias03.

[what-gs-watching]

"It said quarter to five, but it was quarter to ass…"

I’m sorry but it’s time for a quick appreciation post for Community’s season 5. I realize I shouldn’t be watching Community yet again since I was just into it like eight months ago and obviously wrote a love letter to it  but we’re here already so deal with it. 

This is an incredibly deep cut situation, but I don’t care. Season 5 has some of my all-time favorite episodes, even if it’s likely a lot of people gave up on the show before it ever came out because Dan Harmon had left for season 4 and there was always so much upheaval around it even being renewed and blah blah AND Donald Glover left that season.

Which, I admit, was devastating. But even so, there are a bunch of gems in the 13-episode run. 

Starting with "Basic Intergluteal Numismatics", wherein the study group tries to FINALLY solve the case of the Asscrack Bandit, a shadowy figure who’s running around campus dropping quarters down unsuspecting asscracks. Literally, that’s the entire premise. The episode is based on movies like Zodiac, it’s dark and brooding and it’s fucking hilarious because everyone takes it so seriously and it’s a perfect Community homage. They had BEN FOLDS do two different songs to include in it and they’re catchy as hell, honestly they fucking slap, and I’m still not sure who I think is the asscrack bandit, and I hope to never find out. 

Another pure favorite is “Geothermal Escapism”, which is Donald Glover’s final episode, and a perfect way to send him off. Abed declares a school-wide game of “the floor is lava” and it’s such a good replacement for the paintball game episodes. As usual, everyone in the school is completely committed to the bit except for Britta for once, who’s trying to force the group to properly deal with Troy leaving, she’s the surprising voice of reason throughout and the loophole they come up with to help Abed deal with losing his best friend is so Community. I cry everytime I watch this one - literally, their relationship is so pure and beautiful and sweet and the episode is simultaneously fun and bittersweet. 

Also, we can’t forget about "Analysis of Cork-Based Networking". The only reason I love this episode is like, a fairly small part of the entire story, but it makes me hysterically laugh every time. The group has formed a ‘Save Greendale’ committee and Annie is off navigating the labyrinth of bureaucracy which leaves Jeff, Shirley, Chang and Duncan to pick a theme for the midterm dance. After Chang has a meltdown, they agree to his pitch of “Bear down for midterms” which no one understands, but they commit to it. Eventually, they find out why Chang was so insistent on the theme, and it’s not great. I honest to god still yell “BEAR DOWN FOR MIDTERMS” when I’m dealing with something I don’t want to do. Like right now, with the case study I’m doing for an interview process. My husband always knows what I mean, and I love it.

Finally gang, "App Development and Condiments". Fucking Meowmeowbeanz. This is the episode where the entire school gets caught up in a social media app that lets them rate each other, and the entire social ecosystem falls apart. The important part here is that this episode was made BEFORE that Black Mirror episode you’re thinking about. Community is streets ahead, and always has been. The commentary is scathing, and fucking hilarious. 

I have no real point to any of this, I’ve just been thinking about it for the past two days and I had to get it out. I can never sing enough praises for Community. I’ve decided on this (10th? 15th? who knows) rewatch that it is literally my favorite show in the world. Like, it’s my desert island show and my comfort show and my comedy show and my sad show. It’s my every show.

Community, oh how I love you.

[bluesuns3t]

Recently I was doing some report on "why I always fall for fictional men and never fall in love with men in real life"

I watch all of my favorite series and movies, and it occurred to me that Japanese fictional characters have been very interesting to me rather than any fictional men from other countries. At first, I was not finding the reason why until I realized

The expression of the male lead. I don't know what I should call it cause some of them are from BL. I always captivated on how they look at their partner with some lust in their eyes but also look vulnerable at the same time. Let me give you an example

1. Segasaki from My Personal Weatherman

This is the first series of rewatch cause I want to feel the butterfly in my stomach everytime Segasaki look at Yoh. I mean what this man deal so he can look like that. Everytime he look at yoh it's like he's ready to devour him right there right now. I can't get enough of his facial expression

2. Haiba Jin from Tsuiraku JK to Haijin Kyoshi

I don't know what his deal for having such a seductive look. It's kinda inappropriate but ppfftt I don't really care. I know I'm weird cause teacher and student relationships has ben my fave trope since forever.

3. Ito sensei from Sensei (2017)

I've always been Toma ikuta fans even since I watch Bokura ga Ita way back when I was in junior high. But one day, he decided to play as a teacher who has feeling for his students and I was like "hold my heart for a sec" cause I know it going to be lit.

4. Sakurai sensei from Close Range Love

If you familiar with student-teacher love story you might also watch close range love. The student teacher relations between Sakurai senses dan yuni it just *chef's kiss.

5. Tendo Sensei fron An Incurable Case Of Love

As a nurse i might said, there's a part of my life wanting to find a doctor as my future husband but none of all my college look like Takeru Sato and to be honest I'm very disappointed.

6. Togawa from Old Fashioned Cupcakes

I've seen unhealthy amounts of (specifically) this scene. There is no need for further explanation.

I might writing for part 2

[br1ghtestlight]

ranking all bob's burgers holiday episodes except in different categories to be fair to the holidays i don't care about <3

VALENTINES DAY

v for valentine-detta (AMAZING episode so funny and the introduction of nat who is iconic!!! also adorable subplot w/ bob and gene. not even really about romance)

can't buy me math (SOOO FUNNY tina and darryl have the best dynamic their fake dating was so stupid. don't even remember what bob and linda did in this episode tbh but im sure it was cute)

bob actually (super cute episode!!! jimmy jr and tina are so nerdy/adorable and i love rudy and louise's kiss. bob and linda were cute too <3 don't really care abt gene's subplot with the cafeteria lady but its not bad or anything and i prefer it to him having an actual romance subplot)

my fuzzy valentine (i actually forgot this episode existed bcuz i don't rewatch early seasons very often but its cute!!!! it has the kids wearing raincoats and jumping in puddles so it automatically gets an A+ from me)

the gene and courtney show (I FORGOT THIS WAS A VALENTINES DAY EPISODE LMAO its actually very sweet and genuine?? i think gene and courtney work better as friends but their relationship was very cute and gene's song for courtney was an actual 10/10. your hearts not broken its only growing 😭😭💕)

romancing the beef (this episode is okay!!! fun to rewatch and i love gene and louise's hijinks when serving the customers and their slow dance song Also the origin of the iconic arm hair line from linda and teddy. this is also the lastest appearance of hugo when will he return home from the war <\3)

ferry on my wayward bob and linda (a late addition because for some reason this episode isnt listed as a valentines day episode on the wiki??? idk i enjoyed bob and linda they were cute :) and i loved jen's stupid boyfriend and his stupid voice that subplot was. soo)

bed, bob and beyond (this episode being last makes it seem like i don't like it very much BUT ACTUALLY I THINK ITS A SUPER INTERESTING EPISODE I DONT REALLY GET THE HATE bob and linda having an actual argument is something we rarely see and it was interesting to see how the kids responded to it and also everything with the broken bed makes me laugh for some reason. we love dirty laundry and broken beds in this household)

HALLOWEEN EPISODES

the apple gore-chard but not scary (no real reason this episode is my favorite i just dont care abt most of the halloween episodes and this episode is VERY silly and fun. loved bob and louise going on a field trip together and gene/tina/louise's absolutely ridiculous costume like What is their problem)

the pumpkinening (a gayle episode where she's actually pretty okay and not the antagonist wow?? also i love having a peak into her and linda's high school years and their pumpkin smashing. very fun episode honestly my favorite to rewatch ALSO GAYLE AND LINDA SAY I LOVE YOU TO EACH OTHER AND GAYLE SAYS OF COURSE SHE CARES ABOUT LINDA AND WANTS HER TO BE HAPPY THEYRE SISTERS <33)

tina and the real ghost (FULLY unhinged episode but very funny i love louise lying about the ghost and tina's extremely fake ghost boyfriend. bob immediately knowing that louise was lying bcuz she is her Fathers Daughter. also jimmy jr and zeke were great in this episode love their philosophical debate about life after death)

the hauntening (GREAT episode i love the family working together to scare louise!!! truly a worthy successor to what an (april) fool believes but everytime i rewatch it all i can think about is how louise has been obviously scared SO MANY TIMES in episodes before this so her saying she's never been scared before is just straight up lying. like she faced Death she had a gun to her head cmon now.... but also it kinda makes sense that a nine year old would lie about that it feels very in character. cute episode)

heartbreak hotel-oween (this is such a weird episode i feel like everybody forgets it exists?? teddy linda and bob's subplot is a little gross but the story about the woman and her dead boyfriend who she tries to summon every halloween like GIRL WHAT???? idk its such a weird sad pathetic episode im kind of obsessed with it. how did they even come up w/ that one and why was it a 70s halloween party. many questions)

teen-a-witch (WE GOT MR AMBROSE IN THIS EPISODE HELL YEAH‼️‼️ other than that not very memorable but louise and gene's relationship w/ tina in this episode was very sweet they're great siblings But also they did use her magic to cheat on their homework and get free tater tots at school.....)

nightmare on ocean avenue street (not a bad episode i just forget it exists sometimes LOL but teddy's extremely gay subplot with the handyman was hilarious and the kids were cute too. easy episode to rewatch around halloween without it being too freaky)

the wolf of wharf street (THIS EPISODE IS SO??? love teddy's sexy nurse costume and kinda's cher costume?? gene is my favorite fruity boy. there are some good jokes but otherwise not an episode i think abt too often)

full bars (gun to my head i couldnt tell you a SINGLE thing about this episode i haven't ever rewatched it so it feels almost unfair putting it on this list bcuz i don't remember much?? they went to king's head island and bob accidentally killed teddy's pet rodent or smth. probably not a bad episode and i believe this was the first introduction of king's head island which eventually gave us sasha and ducan so of course i can't hate it)

pig trouble in little tina (this episode is so WEIRD like not bad and i think the hayride is kinda cute but the dead pig corpse.... god that fucking corpse haunts me)

fort night (dont like millie in this episode AT ALL and don't like how they almost die and nobody gives a fuck. don't like bob and linda in this episode who don't care that their kids never came home for their costume and get passive aggressive about it when they were KIDNAPPED???? don't like millie in general and this was her first appearance. but i think their box fort was pretty cute and i would like to see it again, plus all the neighborhood kids hanging out together was fun)

MOTHERS DAY EPISODES

amelia (IT TECHNICALLY COUNTS OKAY IT WAS AIRED AS A MOTHERS DAY EPISODE anyway maybe one of my favorite episodes of the entire series so heartfelt and beautiful. louise's presentation + exploration of cultural misogyny + the ending song make this episode an absolute killer and an amazing season finale)

sauce side story (it was a tough call between this and mo mommy mo problems but i LOVED learning more about linda's family history and gayle was so great in this episode. still obsessed with gayle pretending to be their mom its so funny this episode is so good)

mo mommy mo problems (cute episode!!! for some reason i really appreciate the detail of the snack bar inside the ferry in this episode and the seating area bcuz i have taken MANY many ferries and boats in my life and i rarely see that aspect of island culture represented in media?? very unhinged ending with the squirrel blood SHE PEELS THEM LIKE FRUIT ROLL UPS but overall a sweet episode every character is so likeable and fun!!!! also just a hilarious episode tbh)

mom, lies and videotape (fun episode!! not really too much to say about it bcuz it was another three stories type episode but the kids were very cute and i loved gene's REAL performance where he was out of synch for literally every line of that song. god bless America. also louise's fictional play was very fun you can tell how much they all love and respect linda <3)

tell me dumb good thing (not a bad episode but the main storyline was pretty boring so i dont think about it too often. LOVED bob's subplot with the fucking internet cucumber however this might be one of my favorite subplots in the entire show they gave him such a big win. he loved that cucumber so much AND THE CUCUMBER GUY LET HIM INTO THE BASEMENT??? TEDDY TOO???? it makes me cry its so wholesome and sweet. also appreciate the clever way that they connect bob and linda's storylines in the end)

THANKSGIVING EPISODES

dawn of the peck (this episode is actually tied w/ stuck in the kitchen with you BUT i decided to put it in first place bcuz i think i maybe enjoy rewatching it like 0.5% more. every line of this episode is comedic gold like easily one of the funniest episode of the show if not the actual funniest it should have a higher rating than it does on IMDB. i dont care how high its rated it should be higher!!!! also rudy my beloved)

stuck in the kitchen with you (i dont expect this episode to be ANYBODY ELSES favorite but for me its such a wholesome and fun episode to rewatch and pretty funny too. bob and louise's relationship is great. the parade the kids throw with zeke's help is so funny. linda's subplot with sargent bosco is HILARIOUS and bob telling louise "i was being too much of a cook and not enough of a dad" is something i think he could stand to say more often in thanksgiving episodes. but also he's autistic and i understand)

i bob your pardon (very fun heist episode?? louise running out to protect the turkey from the ACTUAL WOLVES and bob saying that he'll save the next turkey from wolves gets me everytime. this episode is honestly just fun and silly its a great time)

turkey in a can (maybe this episode should be higher?? its SO FUNNY and also confirms bisexual bob is real. wholesome ending and i love that bob invited teddy and mort over for thanksgiving dinner along with gayle <3 they're his family)

thanks-hoarding (teddy focused episode :) loved finding out more about his family and relationship with them and learning a bit more about his mental interior and how he copes with stress and childhood trauma. very fun episode to rewatch)

putts-giving (ACTUALLY I REALLY ENJOYED THIS EPISODE louise and tina's relationship is always interesting to explore esp as tina grows older and matures/leaves her siblings behind. loved the mini golf setting and i would like to see it again someday but i think they got a lifetime ban.... from the mini golf course......)

an indecent thanksgiving proposal (absolutely unhinged episode?? any episode w/ fischoeder is great and i love drunk bob mourning his turkey friend even if his jealousy of the kids and linda kinda makes me sad <\3 HE LOVES BEING LINDAS WIFE HE LOVES BEING THE KIDS DAD OKAY HE DOESNT WANT IT TO BE ANYBODY ELSE and linda saying at the end of the episode that she doesn't want to be anybody else's wife not even for pretend is very sweet)

gayle makin' bob sled (this episode is very interesting and i love gayle's relationship with bob in it. also linda and the kids trying to cook thanksgiving dinner without him is SO FUNNY like gene and louise especially oh my god. "maybe its a good thing if your family annoys you sometimes because.... it means you have one" 😭😭)

the quirk-ducers (this episode is CRAZY but also very funny. louise spraying dead animals guts and blood all over the play's audience was deeply unhinged as was them publically performing tina's erotic friend fiction as a play to their families and teachers. amazing song which im assuming gene wrote)

now we're not cooking with gas (bob was just SLIGHTLY too crazy in this episode and i feel bad that he couldn't cook his special turkey :( but the kids getting the giant log from the park and almost killing somebody always gets me like?? WE ALMOST DIED AND MAYBE KILLED OTHER PEOPLE BUT THATS NOT IMPORTANT WE GOT THE LOG bob needs more wins in thanksgiving episodes i think)

diarrhea of a poppy kid (this episode is really sweet tbh!!! louise and tina comforting gene when he's sick by telling him stories and him being holed up in the bathroom playing with makeup and writing a thanksgiving song which was of course very catchy. him and bob were also adorable in this episode and i love bob saying that he loves to cook for gene!!!! <3 they're both so supportive very cute episodes but the stories they tell are not very memoriable tbh)

CHRISTMAS EPISODES

the plight before christmas (this is such an obvious choice but it really is an amazing episode there's a reason its the highest rated episode of the show!!!! its so incredibly sweet and loving with really solid pacing and jokes throughout the episode and gene's musical ability saving the day without being turned into a joke. obviously tina and louise's relationship in this episode too. and i see my sister with something that looks like gingerbread on her glasses 😭😭💕 louise's poem GETS me every single time. also weirdly helpful birds eye view of seymour's bay at the end

father of the bob (INTRODUCTION OF BIG BOB!!!! honestly this episode is just very cute and interesting love analyzing the dynamic between bob and his dad.... it almost seems like big bob likes linda more than he likes bob. cute ending and i always like learning more abt bob's family so this episode is a 10/10 from me)

yachty or nice (THIS EPISODE WAS SOOO CUTE jimmy pesto and bob actually having a bonding moment and the kids subplot with teddy 😭😭💕💕💔 love that they call him their uncle father santa teddy and that he knew in the end they would do the right thing bcuz they're good kids so he saved a special toy for them. he loves those kids so much. jimmy pesto redemption arc could be real if we believe)

the bleakening (this episode was very fun!!! AMAZING songs and i really enjoyed the ending with the gay christmas party and everybody dancing together. some very funny jokes in there too and i just love the creepy vibes of the kids sneaking out of the house and tina being smart enough to bring the emergency phone along w/ them. genuinely a great two parter episode)

god rest ye merry gentle mannequins (THIS EPISODE IS SO???? still dont know what was going on with the crazy mannequin guy but i honestly think its sweet that lily's brother let him live there for free for so many years even when he didnt really need to. also i believe the first time bob's mom is mentioned in the series??? idk this episode is really fun and i love all the different holiday displays they do)

have yourself a maily linda christmas (nothing too interesting to say abt this episode its just silly and fun!!! linda episode!!!! also something about tina and bob trying to entertain the grandparents and keep the peace while everybody else is gone is SO funny theyre the worst at talking to people. the ending with louise gene and tina was adorable too)

nice-capades (honestly its been a minute since i rewatched this episode but from what i remember it was very sweet and silly. LOVE how many random adults were willing to drop everything to help these kids put on an ice shaking performance for santa. also louise being worried that she isn't a good person. gene giving rudy the last taco just because he Cares about him and wanted them to be happy. this episode was cute and they really are such good kids)

better off sled (I ALWAYS FORGET THIS WAS A CHRISTMAS EPISODE because the main plot doesn't have anything to do with christmas it feels like the die hard debate of bob's burgers holiday episodes.... either way bob and linda knitting scarves for the kids was cute and i liked the snowball fight subplot. very sweet and simple episode)

the last gingerbread house on the left (fun episode?? there are some funny jokes and i liked seeing linda and teddy go singing together w/ the kids while bob is tormented and experiences the horrors of gingerbread houses. lily mention!!! noticing that christmas episodes tend to be the episodes where bob's family gets brought up the most i wonder why that is???? absolutely unhinged gingerbread house competition btw but they should let felix join them :(

christmas in the car (i remember this episode being SO STRESSFUL like he tried to kill that family Good god. teddy was very funny in thjs episode and i did enjoy it otherwise)

gene's christmas break (i feel bad putting this episode in last place bcuz I LOVE GENE but it wasn't that interesting an episode tbh 😭 i did like getting to see younger gene even with his terrible autotuned chipmunk voice and seeing how he uses music to relate to his family. we need another gene-focused christmas episode at some point they flew too close to the sun here)

ONE-TIME-ONLY HOLIDAY EPISODES

what an (april) fool believes (AMAZING EPISODE proably one of my favorite episodes of the entire show tbh. bob and fischoeder are so funny + homoerotic and gene not wanting to scare or upset anybody by pranking them is so cute <3 my baby)

eggs for days (the one and only easter episode!!! honestly this episode is really fun overall just a great time. love bob and linda being Extremely Hungover and the rotting egg and the raccoons.... they need to bring back easter episodes tbh there could be something there)

flat-top o' the morning to ya (this episode is so weird bcuz in order to make it a saint patrick's day episode the description and promo has NO MENTION of the main plot of this episode and only focuses on teddy and linda's subplot for some reason?? which makes it extremely hard to find the main plot of this episode if you dont remember the subplot despite it being Literally the focus. but other than that honestly i think its very funny and bob's story with the kids is sooo..... me when i accidentally rope my kids into committing Grand Theft Auto w/ me. sad that bob never got his discounted plates that man deeply needs a win)

[kmze]

Thoughts on 2x01 - 2x11 So much better than S1, I am so much happier having more characters involved in the storyline and Katherine is such a great villian. I also noticed the lighting is warmer and brighter this season. I think I read somewhere that was intentional because they were introducing werewolves (warm orange hue) whereas the first season was vampires (cold blue hue). Also feel like I can SEE the scenes now (modern lighting on shows is the bane of my watching experience everytime) Random thoughts under the cut!

I cannot stress enough how much Katherine makes everything better, Nina deserved more accolades for how she played two very different characters interchangeably so flawlessly. Her presence even made me care more about the love triangle and the albit messed up dynamic. I mean her and Elena look EXACTLY the same and the Salvatore's want me to believe there's no transference issues? I'm so sure.

I definitely get more from Stefan and Katherine than I do from Damon and Katherine though. Katherine brings out the meaner side of Stefan that he pretends doesn't exist and I appreciate that. She is clearly still under his skin though as much as he wants to deny it because I really loved their scenes in 2x04.

Damon and Elena have great sexual tension and chemistry but I just cannot vibe with it because he killed her brother like a month ago?? I just continue to be flabbergasted by that (I am a hater).

Obviously I have seen the Stefan and Caroline scenes from 2x02 and 2x03 dozens of times but watching them like this in a rewatch makes me love them even more. Especially their scenes in the woods and at the swimming hole, Stefan is so much lighter around her. Even his scenes with Lexi last season didn’t feel as effortless. I know this early on he's friends with her because of Elena and "hero-boyfriend" duties but he still let her distract him at the grill because I think he genuinely likes being around her. Him showing her his insecurity about Damon and Elena already shows they have a lot of trust building between them. I love them.

I was so happy and almost cried at Liz being the first person to see how much Caroline changed when she became a vampire! The physical strength gave her so much confidence and Liz saw that instantly. It was so sad watching Caroline (kudos Candice) have to compel that away. I was just thinking in S1 like damn I can't believe their relationship was this rough but this moment sold how and why they become so close in the later seasons.

It’s really not a surprise Aimee and Sarah died, they were always too eager to get wasted in a town with mysterious deaths weekly. The odds were never in their favor. Katherine killing Aimee on the dance floor in front of everyone had me cracking up though! The best crazy bitch ever. The masquerade episode was probably my favorite so far in my rewatch, this is when the contrived events work with everyone playing a part in the game!

Caroline turning into a vampire really helped start to remove her from being stuck under Elena. Especially now as she's getting involved in Tyler's storyline who truly has nothing to do with Elena narrative-wise. She's even got her own love triangle brewing already.

I like how easily Stefan accepted he was going to be stuck in the tomb with Katherine for a few days, as if it was a weekend retreat. In all honesty he probably wanted to avoid Elena and the self sacrifice mission so he wouldn’t have to go along with it since he’s in “boring-choice-matters-self” mode. Because I thought it was odd he wouldn’t let Elena even see him and then told Damon to keep her away from there, so that's my theory.

Trapping Elena in the house was the best move for everyone involved. I’m sorry but the whole suicide mission was getting on my nerves. Girl shut up and sit down.

Someone should really have told Jenna already about vampires because then she'd stop inviting them into the house! Sadly I do not care about Alaric and Jenna either, I remember when I first watched I did but now, meh.

Bonnie and Jeremy are cute I don't care what anyone says! I know they have their issues in the later seasons but they could have come back to them, I can't have nice things.

Bonnie and Damon really do have great chemistry as enemies to reluctant allies, I will never forgive TPTB for denying me this.

Elijah is zzzzzz so far.

Lines that made me laugh:

Damon: Elena’s on a martyr tear that rivals your greatest hits (I yelled! he wasn't lying oh my god!)

Caroline: They were more... gold with amber highlights (she's so unintentionally funny)

[frickwhat]

I WANT TO DO THE REVIEWS THINGY TOO.

1. MOONLIGHT CHICKEN:

personally i think everyone should give it a watch because it is worth it. would i rewatch it? probably not the whole thing is very heavy for me but i would watch limingheart scenes ,THEY WERE IT. the acting omg, it's so fucking hard to believe that it was their first gig. they showed us their problems individually, like they were their own characters with their own struggles but they also were there for eo. communication was on point. liming had problems, real problems with college and money. he wasn't afraid to stand up for himself the kid's a fucking icon. and he is baby i will protect him forever.

2. NEVER LET ME GO:

the plot could be better, the acting was good but could be more natural, the chemistry BHAI. have i watched it 9 times? yes. the thing that stood out the most was their relationship they met eo and palm was ready to die for him (yes i know it was his job whatever) ??? palm is so in love with neung it's disgusting but so is neung. he hides it with quips and scolding. i read somewhere and they explained that the water shows how free they are on the beach. they can be themselves and no one would judge them. they could forget their status, family expectations and all. they're my beach boyfriends and i love them.

3.BAD BUDDY:

family hates eo so they hate eo? yes. childhood rivalry? yes. enemies to friends to lovers? yes. chemistry? yes. acting natural? yes. pran liked pat bohot pahle se and they showed ki he was reluctant to be with pat. nanon ate this role and left no crumbs. there are so many things i could write but i feel lazy so go and watch it if you haven't (shame on you). they're my slut bfs.

4. MY SCHOOL PRESIDENT:

its actually a close first but idk why it's on fourth (i forgot about it). this show is so fucking wholesome that i cried (yes my friend has proof i hate her) tinn is so green flag babygirl bf. and gun is so dumbass oblivious but not babygirl bf. confessing to my crush? no become the school president and be rivals with him so he will like me. the dance scene has my whole fucking heart and i love it. idek what to say they're idiots and i love them. gun is such a complex character in my opinion. he has layers like we see that he is not very good in school but he has his musical talents and leadership qualities to make up for it. my man is actually very observant and he has the kindest heart. he deserves everything nice and so does tinn. he really was fighting for his life to get gun to like him. i would have given up in two months but that wasn't all. tinn was a really smart character and he knew how to comfort people. ahh i love him but i can't find words. geminifourth played the hell out of this. everyone should give it a watch the storyline is cliche but refreshing too and who doesn't love high school lovers.

5. NOT ME/ BE MY FAVOURITE:

a) not me: the whole premise of the show is genius and important for thai people but like also everywhere. they danced under a fucking lgbt flag and helds hand. i deserve that. the scene makes me cry everytime. sean knowing that it was black not white was nice i am thankful they didn't make him dumb. the show is politically woke so points. i don't really know the political status of thailand so don't come after me. seanwhite are my be gay and fight the government bfs.

b) be my favourite: honestly i wasn't expecting anything from this show but it surprised me. fighting for queer rights? pisaeng coming to terms with his sexuality without his love interest? kawi realising that he can't change some things and he has to accept it? him noticing that he was slowing becoming an alcoholic? max as a tired gay bestie? pisaeng loving every moment of him being a sugar daddy to kawi? kawi making him understand that they have to equals in a relationship? pisaeng being a clingy bf? everything is fucking perfect. and the time travelling part is well done too tho it makes no sense but yeah. also them actually giving pear a personality and storyline? thank you.

special mentions to:

1) the eclipse (my crybaby bfs. they deserve their own posts)

2) my love mix up

[ackermental]

I rewatched the episode and some of the interviewes and have been thinking - though I could be wrong - that maybe Rhaenyra and Daemon will be each other's greatest loves in the show or at least as each other's more constant relationships. I don't mean that Mysaria, Laena and Nettles will go as unimportant, but the way they are building up Daemon and Rhaenyra as kindred spirits that search solace are on each other and a deep connection with Valyrian culture doesn't strike me as something they are just going to put aside to say that actually Laena or Nettles are the ones who actually made him Feel Love For The First Time™ like the fandom has been doing for years. What do you think?

Okay, so first let’s get this revelation out of the way.

This:

Is not this:

And some of you should really stop reading it as such.

The Silmarillion is a litteral truth, the events described happen as they are written. Reader is not supposed to question or reinterpret things (don’t mistake it with headcanons, ofc).

With Fire and Blood though we are continously presented with half-truths, multiple perspectives, mostly straight out lies. We need to puzzle out what’s actually going on, what is our author’s agenda. It’s a „history book” that exists within the ASOIAF world, written by a very biased character, who uses very biased sources. And whose Order was on the side of the Greens during the war.

 I’m having so much fun everytime when an entitled prick, who claims to be an ‘ASOIAF expert’ (touch some grass, mate), comes my way, chest pushed out, feathers puffed up, all ready and steady to drag those peasants knowing nothing about canon through the mud. You know the type (don’t mistake it with fellas who just want to discuss theories and metas together).

 And I’m like, oh cool, what’s your thoughts on the issue of maesters controlling the entire communication system of Westeros and them staging the whole mess with Nettles?

(I mean, if you believe that Daemon was banging Nettles, then I choose to believe Alicent was sucking Jaehaerys’ dick when she was ‘attending to him’, it’s the same source after all.)

 And the conversation ends.

 Yes, Daemon loved Rhaenyra. Yes, Rhaenyra loved Daemon. This is their story. If you like to play romantic, you can make a statement that they were soulmates and you’ll not break ‘canon’ at all 🙄.

 It’s time to get over that.

[ami-v-dragnire]

Okay so im rewatching now. Here's some ramblings that might not make sense and could be wrong BUT i really need to get them out lest i expolde

It's so clear espcially in the flashbacks that they really arent on the same page at all re: i think my exactly and your exactly are different exactlies. And i swear they don't spend enough time together in the present day at all and when they do, they do a lot of talking and no a lot of listening at all.

ALSO i feel so betrayed everytime i see Aziraphale which sucks because i love him so much. But his understanding of good and evil is so flawed and remains flawed and maybe Crowley doesn't push because he thinks they're on the same page or Aziraphale's getting there. And I'm gonna be sad about it for the foreseeable future.

But also that complete gut punch that is the last 15 mins had competely distracted me from all the eps that came before it. Which i remember having so much fun watching because i missed them so much. It kinda felt like a fever dream. Shax is amazingly menacing but also so incompetent at the same time. And all the scenes with a happy Aziraphale doing the thing he does with his hands just AHHH the second hand embarrasment from ep 4 tho oooff and then handshake gritting teeth my miracles arent working, neither are mine. Trustttttt. And see Aziraphake only gets back to the bookshop in ep 4 and he left in ep 2. Not talk time at all! Oh and i did see a post about the awning collapsing and aziraphale and crowleys relationship collapsing which was pretty mint. Cant be just supported by seeking shelter from rain and looking into each others eyes and NOT TALKING.

Stopping here at ep 4 and will probs ramble again tomorrow or something

[lincolndjarin]

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LAST SONG:

assume i am always listening to the phantom of the opera lmao

FAVORITE COLOR:

changes a lot. currently pink <3

CURRENTLY WATCHING:

bobs burgers at home and at the gym i've been rewatching stranger things with pmi commentary tracks while i run. might rewatch tlou soon though

LAST MOVIE:

saw barbie for the third time yesterday lol, other than that probably kingsman 2??? i watch kingsman 2 everytime i get drunk, it's such a consistent thing at this point that it should be studied

CURRENTLY READING:

just finished Tender is the Flesh, loved it, sat on a pool floatie and read the whole thing in one sitting, couldn't put it down, cried like a baby at the end.

almost done with Cows, really gross, lmao, can't really say much else regarding it, has made me physically recoil several times, i can't stand when splatterpunk targets children or animals and i always have to stop reading and i'm nervous that's where this ones going so might end up not finishing this one.

about to start Sister, Maiden, Monster, purely based on just the reviews and the summary on the back i can't fucking wait lol

SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY:

sometimes/yes/always : i don't really love sweets but i will fuck up anything cinnamon flavored

RELATIONSHIP STATUS:

currently in a year(ish) long situationship and SICK OF IT, but i've been on about a million first dates this past year and only once was there a second date and that was because he wanted to go to a movie i wanted to see.

CURRENT OBSESSION:

always and forever tlou has my heart, (my ellie tattoo is finally healing up) been super big into splatterpunk books even though it's hard to find good ones, i listen to a lot of podcasts, (specifically : Hey Riddle Riddle, Dungeons and Daddies, and The Magnus Archives, i have a huge tma sleeve piece and also a dndads tattoo as well lol) and of course The Phantom of the Opera has been my obsession literally since i was 11. He was my first crush and clearly that has greatly influenced my taste in men going forward lmao

LAST THING I GOOGLED:

"lube alternatives"

whoops. ended up just going out and buying lube and then buying the wrong kind anyway.

CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

i just slammed some pre workout so i'm currently working on not freaking out and getting this energy out lmao. gonna grab some dinner with my brother and probs buy a bottle of wine. come home, finish bks 23, and then i haven't decided if i'm gonna work on a request or finish my javier fic, one of those

No pressure tags :)

I don't have 9 people to tag but i want more mutuals on here so like lmk if y'all wanna be friends lololol

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