#things over and over but i don't even kno what i want to do differently bc i dont like anything. v annoying and frustrating if u have to

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[bylertruther]

be honest. do you think the party knows will is gay?

[sugurusbabygirl]

how they eat you out

cw: somnophilia (Satoru), degradation (Toji)

Choso:

He aims to please. Will lay between your legs until you're a crying begging mess. He doesn't believe in using his fingers when eating you out. No, no, he knows how to use that tongue. And he makes sure you know that. He's a chronic people pleaser, putting your pleasure first....every single time. He'll guide you through your second orgasm, holding your thighs open with a vice grip. All the while he's still fully clothed and painfully hard. But he doesn't care. Your cries and moans are like a symphony to his ears, and he never wants it to end.

"God, you're so beautiful like this." "Think you can do another one for me, baby? C'mon, yes you can. Mmm, there's a good girl."

Kento:

Oh boy. After a long hard day of work, Kento wants nothing more than to take care of his girl. You'd want to treat him, having dinner ready for him when he gets home, but he has an entirely different meal in mind. With no more than a grunted greeting, he'd be tossing you up onto the counter and down on his knees before the front door even closes. Strong hands shoving your panties aside, gripping your thighs to translate his fiery passion to you.

"Fuck....m'sorry, darling. Just-mm-need you." "Been thinking 'bout you all day, darling. Maybe I'll call in sick tomorrow, hm? Spend all day with you. How does that sound? Ah, ah, use your words."

Megumi:

He wants it to be perfect. Every. Goddamn. Time. He'll look up at you with those alluring eyes, tongue nestled between your folds, and have the audacity to ask if he's doing okay. Won't add any fingers unless you explicitly ask him to. You just sound so sexy when you're desperate, who can blame him? Lord help you if you ask him to stop, because unless you say the safe word, he won't do any such thing.

"Want me to what? Sorry, couldn't hear you, baby. Gotta speak up." "Another finger? But you're already shaking. You really think you can handle it?" "You sound beautiful. That's it, say my name again."

Satoru:

He's literally obsessed with you. The way your back arches when he flicks his tongue over your clit. How you whisper-scream his name as he slides his fingers through your wet folds. The gentle tug you give his hair, getting tighter as you get closer and closer to the edge. But he's especially obsessed with having you first thing in the morning, before your eyes even open.

"Shit, y/n. So wet f'me even when you're sleeping? Dirty girl." "Hm? Oh, awake already? Mm, don't worry, baby. Just relax."

Suguru:

He's ready to pounce at a moment's notice. If you do so much as swing your hips a little too much as you walk by him, he's tying up his hair and you know you're in trouble. He doesn't even want full on sex all the time, just some time between your legs and he's good for another couple hours. Like a starved man, he'll twist and slide his tongue in ways that have you breathless in a matter of seconds. He'll spew obscenities until you're shaking and crying, then go back to whatever he was doing like nothing happened.

"So fucking sweet, love." "Thought you could prance around in that new skirt and I wouldn't wanna tear it off you?" "God, you're gonna be the death of me." "Need this pussy like fucking oxygen."

Sukuna:

Obviously uses it to get himself off, I mean, come on. Loves to make a night out of it. Ties you up, spread eagle to the corners of the mattress. Blindfolds you, gags you with your own soaking panties. You know the safe word, so he doesn't dare stop. Not after the first orgasm....or the second....or the third. Plowing you through wave after wave of endless ecstasy. Begging doesn't work. Crying for sure doesn't work. Everything seems to spur him on.....

"Such a needy baby, asking for more when I've already given you three." "Oh, you want me to stop? I just don't think that's true, princess. Look at how wet you still are. Go ahead, taste yourself on my fingers. Suck."

Toji:

Mean, mean MEAN. But so very loving at the same time. Knows that his insults only get you off faster. He loves nothing more than to have you sprawled out on the couch, naked, just because he asked you. Your fingers gripping his hair like your life depended on it, pushing him deeper into your needy, pulsing cunt. There's not a feeling quite like it in the whole world.

"All this just for me? Oh, darling you're spoiling me." "Such a good fucking slut, hm? Love it when I hold you down like this, don't you?" "Good sluts get three fingers. You wanna be a good slut, right, darling?"

Yuji:

Baby boy just wants you to be happy. Studied you like a final exam the first couple times, learned what you liked and what you really liked. He loves the way your eyes roll back when he rubs circles over your hardened nipples. How your legs start to shake right before you cum. How speechless he can make you after just a few gentle licks.

"Yeah? That feel good, baby?" "God, I love you like this." "No, no, please don't pull away. Let me give you another one, please?"

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[whxre-bxby]

Out of all the recoms, who do you think would be best/most likely to talk you through an orgasm?

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WARNINGS: NSFW, 18+ content, SMUT (not proofread)

It would definitely be one who cares about you. Being talked through that by someone also shows the 'power' they have which is why:

Colonel Miles Quaritch

...is number one. He's an old man so he isn't there for quickies. He likes to take his time and he's a mean tease. Something that really gets him going is when you are submissive and visibly smaller than him. He loves the power and size difference and definitely uses it to his advantage to tease, embarrass, and overwhelm you. The teasing continues all the way until the very end. Meaning he'll be mean through your orgasm but nice enough to let you cum.

He'd say things like:

"Aww look at you baby, fucked dumb by my cock."

"Stupid slut, you want more don't ya?"

"You're Daddy's whore ain't ya? Lettin' me use you all the time."

"You're takin' me so well."

Quaritch does care about you, he just doesn't verbally say so. Praise is rare from him but that's why when you get it, it's good. During your orgasm, he'll continue to pleasure you but he'll make fun of you for being so desperate for him. Secretly, he loves when you beg and especially loves when you're so fucked out you can't think or answer him except moan and cry. Crying turns him on big time.

Z-Dog / Zdinarsk

Is second because even though I don't write for her, I know she prioritises your pleasure over hers. Sometimes when you two have sex, she won't even touch herself or let you touch her because she just gets so much pleasure out of overstimulating you and making you cum as many times as she can. If her mouth is free while you cum, she will guide you through it and tell you how well you're doing. Sometimes she will tease the shit out of you until your face is flushed and all you can do is beg and plead.

"That's it baby, let go."

"Come on, make Mommy proud."

"Look at you, so pretty for me when you cum."

Lopez

...would probably be third because I just know that he knows exactly what he's doing. His experience isn't abnormal but he just got the hang of it quickly. He's a switch, meaning he'll enjoy taking pleasure as much as giving it to you and he won't mind being dom or sub. It all depends on the occasion. He as well isn't a fan of quickies unless there is no other option. Lopez loves to take his time and edge you until your body is weak and begging for a release. Seeing you follow his movements with your hips like it's everything and all you will ever need gets him so uncontrollably hard, he can straight away go another round after you've both cum. When you orgasm, he takes pride in it and needs to hear you confirm how good it is and that it's him making your legs shake.

"Such a beautiful mess you're making, baby."

"Is it that good?" he would coo in your ear with a grin.

"Come on Mami, tell me. Who's making you feel like this?"

Lyle Wainfleet

I'm not sure exactly where to position Lyle, because it definitely depends on who you are to him and what occasion it is. He loves quickies and had a few fuck buddies during his time in the RDA, so if that is what you are to him, he won't be as verbal. He'd occasionally praise you and say how good it feels, but that would be it. If he would talk you through your orgasm as a friend with benefits, then he would just tease you about it. However, if you're dating, Lyle would absolutely prioritise you. If he loves you, he will make you his world and his everything. So when you cum it means a lot to him and you'll be flooded with compliments, love and praise.

"God, you look so pretty like this"

"Fuck- that's it. Look at you. So fuckin' perfect."

"Let go baby, I'll give it to you. Don't worry."

Mansk

We all know by now that Mansk is more conservative. He's not as outrageously social as Lyle is which means he gets laid less because he doesn't initiate conversations or talk to people he doesn't know. (Unlike Lyle, who I know was a total slut as a human). If Mansk finds someone, or more like if someone finds Mansk and it leads to sex (without romance) he's quiet. Literally, no words are being spoken he just focuses on his pleasure and then helps the other person get off. He would never hook up with anyone random he doesn't know too well though. If you're in a relationship, everything is different. He trusts you and is able to let his guard down around you. Which is also when he is more vocal. He prefers to listen to you but from time to time he enjoys just letting it all out and talking away with you for hours. During sex, Mansk is a changed man. He's just so in love with you he will randomly blurt out the compliments that cross his mind. You can be riding him, going down on him or he can be pleasuring you and the man will just stop for a few seconds. When you wonder why he stopped moving you look up at him to see his lovestruck eyes admiring you. He'll be mumbling things like: "I love you so much..." ; "You're so pretty." ; "You look like an angel...".

When you're having an orgasm, he takes so much pleasure in seeing your body react to him and he watches how your face contorts. Once, he was watching you pleasure yourself and when you visibly came, he creamed his pants without even touching himself.

"Let go baby, please. Let me see you."

"Don't hide, I want to see how good you feel."

"That's it, take it all."

"You're so good for me, 'm so lucky to have you."

(Author's note: I'll be gone for a week because I'm on holiday with friends. Probably won't manage to post until next week, sorry.)

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[melancholysway]

I don't remember how bad Raph's anger issues were in the 2007 film so this might be a little ooc

But could you do something with Raph and Leo are arguing over something, and Raph throws his sai at a wall

It hits the wall and they hear a yelp, both turn around in a panic

The sai barely missed Y/N who was just coming in the room so now they're like, "hah I'll just come back laterrr :')" <- stressed out by a near death experience

Thank you!

You can do whateverjust Leo's and Raph's reactions, or all of their reactions, or a fic, whatever you're vibing with

Aww! I got you :) I'm doing this as if you're either of the turtle's S/O! so you can choose which you'd want to read:)

TMNT 2007 Imagines: How Leo & Raph would react if you were almost hit

As Leonardo's S/O

Ah- guys- he's pissed

He just looks at his brother with such disappointment that it makes Raph feel even more guilty than he already is.

To be fair, you learned to never get involved when there was an argument between Leonardo and Raphael, you could get hurt- seriously hurt.

They don't mess around, they will physically fight- they give no fucks

But when it's announced that Leonardo will be leaving to South America for training, Raphael is fucking livid. He interrupts Leo's meditation session and rips him a new one.

"I can't believe ya wouldn't tell us! What happened to not keepin' secrets O' Fearless One?!"

Although it may not look like it, Raphael cares a lot about his older brother. So to see him up and leave like that pisses him off.

But, he has it all wrong. Leonardo didn't want to hurt him or his other brothers with the news.

So, they argue. What about you may ask? it's beyond me. All of this pent-up anger and frustration from both sides causes an all-out yelling war. While the others are doing their own thing, you can't help but intervene. The last thing you want is a fight to break out between your boyfriend and best friend.

Just as you walk in, Raph grunts in frustration and throws his sai- and if it wasn't for your instant reflexes, you would have been gone.

You duck quickly, and when you turn around, you see how his (extremely sharp) sai just sticks in the cement wall behind you. it's at this moment that you're so lucky to be alive.

It shakes you up, and you see Raph's amber eyes go wide, he didn't mean that- he didn't even know you were standing there.

"Shit, Y/n, I ain't kno-" "Raph!? What the shell!?"

Leo's PISSED. Raph could've killed you.

This causes more arguing, as Leo goes over to you and pries the sai from the wall- throwing it to the side and putting a protective arm in front of you and standing in the middle of you and Raphael.

But, you try and leave. You don't want to be in the middle of the feud. Not again. You can't take a side. You don't want to take a side. It's not your place.

"No y/n you stay right here- RAPH. Apologize. Now."

Will literally force a sorry out of Raph and will NOT let him go until he does.

Once he apologizes (Raph does feel bad, he seriously didn't mean to nearly cause you an early death, so the sorry comes quick,) he picks up his sai and leaves the dojo.

Leo stays and makes sure you're okay after that. It's natural, you're shaken up, you feel weak in the knees, the normal. You're in shock.

That seriously could've gone south quick, and Leo thinks about it for a split second. What if it did? He doesn't want to think about it anymore. It causes him to tear up.

Leo believes in parallel universes, in a different universe, you DID wind up getting stabbed. He could only imagine how is parallel self is handling it right now.

"Deep breaths, love, I'm sorry." Once you calm down, he helps you to his room, it's very clean and bare now, as he already packed essentials for his trip. But, his bed is still the same. Same scent and everything.

Once you're in his bed, he gets you some water, and then he lays beside you, holding you, comforting you.

He apologizes. Although you stop him and tell him he has nothing to apologize for, he doesn't care. He feels responsible. He should've been more attentive. He shouldn't have continued arguing with Raph. Maybe that would've never happened if he did.

You calm down as minutes go by, and Leo asks you (for the 1000th time) if you’re feeling okay.

“Thanks to you, I am.”

His heart soars at your response. He’s always glad to help you.

As Raphael's S/O

ooh does this boy feel like shit for doing that

It’s been a rough couple of weeks, especially finding out Leo will be leaving for god knows how long

So when he barges in the dojo one day and just starts going off on Leo- letting out all of his anger, it turns into a full blown argument

“I’m doing it for you, Raph! For our family!”

Raph doesn’t wanna hear it. He wants his brother HERE. In the sewers of NYC, not 3727228 miles away.

As Raph’s S/O, you understood why he got so angry at times. He was mad at the world around him. How imperfect it can truly be, and how it can turn upside down in an instant.

You had to understand Raph before you even thought about dating him- he’s a handful. He knows that, and he tries his best for you. You know he does.

You comfort him a lot. Like that day when Leo announced he would be leaving. He was feeling so many emotions and didn’t know what to do

So he started to dislike his brother. Like right now, how he just came in the dojo and started up an argument just because he can.

“We need ya here! I need ya here!” Doesn’t Leo understand that? But, it’s also Splinter’s orders. Leo has to go.

They continue to go back and forth, and from experience and observation- you know not to try and be the mediator. That was more Splinter’s thing. But, he wasn’t around. Nobody was. Just you as you just so happen to walk by.

But, you put all those conversations between Donnie and Mikey about what you should and shouldn’t do when Leo and Raph argue and go in there to try to at least dial it down.

Note: you should NOT tell both of them to shutup, they will literally forget they’re arguing with each other and come together and tell YOU to shutup and stay out of it (via Mikey)

Back to the current situation, you walk in and hear Raph’s accented voice get louder, and as you get closer to see them both, you also see something sharp fly right in your direction

After quickly ducking and yelping in the process, Raphael and Leonardo both stop and look at you.

Barely missed. And now? You’re sitting on the floor looking at them both.

Leonardo apologizes first. He should’ve been more aware of his surroundings and stopped Raph from almost decapitating you.

Your boyfriend, on the other hand, is shocked. He’s frozen in place, watching as Leo helps you get up, and soon leaving the dojo to get Donnie as you mention that you feel your heart racing.

“I’m fine, Leo, I’m just…” too late, he’s already gone.

Raphael truly fucked up, didn’t he? The last thing he would ever want to do is hurt you. You’re practically his everything. Who he tries to be a better person (err, turtle) for.

“Shit, babe, I’m so…fuck…I’m sorry,” once Raph gets himself out of that shocked state, he comes rushing to you, not even thinking about his sai that’s sticking out the wall.

He begins to ramble, that’s what he always did when he has no grasp on his emotions. He didn’t mean to do that. He had no idea you were there. He’s sorry, so fucking sorry. He knows he could’ve hurt you-he knows.

As you feel your heart rate go down as moments pass, you just embrace your boyfriend mid ramble. You hold him. You’re okay, and you have to tell him that.

“Hey, I’m okay, see?” You say while you bury your face in his plastron, “That reflex training you taught me finally came in handy, huh?” Raph isn’t sure what to do with his hands at first, but they soon wrap around your smaller form. How can you be so sweet to him when he almost took your head off?

He apologizes sincerely once again, but…it’s okay. Things happen. You knew Raphael wouldn’t do anything to hurt you intentionally. He’s not like that towards you. He cherishes you.

You cherish him all the same.

Leo comes back with Donnie, but you insist you’re okay. Which, you are. Raph and Leo end things bittersweetly, but what matters is that it’s over. They know not to fight to that extent. Raph understands now.

Raph’s still thinking hard about what he almost did to you, and it takes a lot of reassurance for him to see that you’re truly not angry or upset at him.

And once you’ve given Raphael that reassurance, he’s feeling better.

“You’re gonna have to try harder than that to get rid of me, Raphie.” You’re using his nickname again, you’re joking with him again like you usually do, and it makes him smile. It makes him love you even more, how you can get past his fuck ups with no hard feelings. He needs someone who understands.

You understand, and that’s what he loves about you.

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OMG ALSO UMMM UMMM UMMM MMM i wanna like, kiss Leander sm, so like hmmmmmmmmmmm how about headcanons of different types of kisses by Leander in diff scenarios u kno?? Like Mua Mua 🥺 pretty please?? 👉🏻👈🏻

Also can you ummmmmmmm make the reader a lil bit shy please? Bc I'm shy and i wanna project u kno?? 👉🏻👈🏻

DIFFERENT TYPES OF KISSES

gn!reader x leander | SHY READER SOLIDARITY! here's just a bunch of kisses. kiss kiss muah muah I understand

initially he goes slow and watches your reactions because he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable. tell him that you do like kisses/physical intimacy, and you're just naturally shy/awkward about initiating it yourself then don't even worry about it. he'll go at your pace and initiate things. So incredibly happy to do so.

comforting you with a soft kiss to the forehead as he pulls you into his arms. there's a softness to his voice while he asks if there's anything he can do, and he continues to press kisses to your forehead/cheeks regularly until you've calmed down/feel better.

waiting in line with him holding you from behind and randomly kissing your shoulder/back. at first you ask if he needed anything but he always says no, he just wanted to kiss you, and you let him do his thing

jealous/needy leander :3c

^ needy leander who lies basically on top of you so you can't escape him. or he's pulled you to lie right on top of Him. if you try to roll away he just rolls with you like Oh where are we going? i forgot about the kisses. he is kissing you. LOLLL you giggle and try to say his name like "leander—le, what are you—" but he keeps cutting you off with a kiss or shushing you

morning kisses!! if you wake up before him and start getting ready for the day, he greets you from behind with a kiss to your temple/cheek before resting his head against yours. his arms come to wrap around you as he smiles and greets you good morning. leander's raspy morning voice. also you know when they let out a deep breath and melt into the hug more. awesome

if the two of you have decided to stay in bed for a while, depending on your position he can kiss you in different places. he's under your chin: kiss to your collarbone area/jaw. big spoon: kiss to the back/crook of your neck, or he leans over to kiss your cheek. if you're facing each other,, ON THE LIPS!

you cover your face because you're flustered and he laughs softly before placing his hands on yours, slowly pulling them away. he says sorry but you can tell he only half means it with the way he's still laughing as he says it. you (try to) frown at him and he smiles before asking "forgive me?"

does it again the next day. Obviously.

bolder if allowed and he's tipsy. as in he would kiss you hard on the lips in front of a crowd if you were into it because he couldn't give two shits who sees. other than the actual main cast, Who's going to say something. also why would he care about comments from the main cast.

^ cuter route where he boops then kisses your nose. then he makes audible kissy noises while he kisses your lips like muah muah muah muah muah and you're like Leander! and everyone's like Leander. and he is still going muah muah muah

^ spicier route with the demo moment where he reassures you no one can see you except he's murmuring it into your ear before what can be described as a mini make-out session. he kisses you on the neck and nips your ear, huffing air against your skin when you jokingly hit his arm. "do you want to go up to your room?" let's relax

that trope of you getting some ice cream or whatever on your face,, and he says "you got some right there," before leaning over and kissing the corner of your lips.

alternatively,, "you got some on your face" is what he says before swiping some icing or cream or whatever onto your nose Then kissing you

^ cooking together and it gets a little messy,, a little silly,, and at some point he grabs your wrists while you're both laughing so you stop making a mess. and he turns your arms so he can kiss the inside of your wrists,, only to lick or bite it a little as soon as you get flustered. "le!" "tastes good—" "le!"

kisses wherever you accidentally hurt yourself. you guys accidentally bonk heads and he kisses the top of yours with a quiet "sorry." you hit your hand against the table and he kisses your fingers. you hit your elbow against the edge of the table and it does the tingly thing. he gives you a look like ?? when you (jokingly) raise your elbow for him to kiss but he does it anyways

regular kiss goodbye ,, leander Runs to whatever room you're in to kiss you goodbye. if he somehow forgets, you are legally allowed, Obligated even, to ask for extra kisses when he gets back

seeing each other for the first time in a long time ohh hand on the small of your back the other holding your face or the back of your neck to pull you as close as possible while he kisses you. he pulls away but only to nuzzle into the crook of your neck where he kisses you again and says he's missed you so much,, "i'm never going on a trip that long again."

if you're feeling a little bold or He's tired,, shower him in affection!!! please!!! grab his face and smush it and kiss him all over and call him so handsome while he places his hands over yours and laughs and takes it all in. it means a lot if you're shy but still do it and he makes sure you know he appreciates you

he asks for a kiss for good luck before doing...anything that could involve luck...a competition? a dare? a game? some kind of dangerous mission? i don't know how a kiss will give you luck in Making a New Drink since that is Up To You? but Alright?

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[o-uncle-newt]

Cabin Pressure Advent Day 13: Molokai

(Or shall I say, for some reason, Moloquai?)

It's always fun to listen to a holiday episode during the holidays! By which I mean Chanukah, of course (I listened to Molokai on an hour-plus car trip between two Chanukah parties). Now, as someone who is not a Christmas person I always judge a Christmas episode by how well I'm able to enjoy it despite not being a Christmas person. For the record, most episodes pass pretty easily. But Molokai is an interesting one, because it passes despite being very, very, very Christmassy.

Why does it pass? Well, first of all, it helps that it's on a British show, which means that some stuff I genuinely can't tell whether it's a Christmas thing I don't know about or a British thing I don't know about (what the hell is a sugar mouse?), and the latter is something I basically have to be okay with to listen to the rest of Cabin Pressure to begin with (I'm still not sure what a Wimpy is over a decade after first listening to this episode, after all). So it's just kind of immersing in another culture, except it's really two cultures, English culture and Christmas culture (as, of course, epitomized by The Auspicious Pig and Whistle of Tokyo).

The second (and bear with me, it gets a bit involved) is that it might be very specifically about Christmas, but it's also just about happiness, community, and, best of all for me, ritual and the way that that can make holidays even better. To a certain extent, that's something that I know is subjective- I grew up in a religious culture which values religious and holiday ritual very strongly, and so that's something that I'll always find to be meaningful, even if sometimes that comes from creating your own meaning or emphasizing the parts that mean most for you. But at the same time- lots of the "ritual" that I prize on various holidays isn't religious at all, but just the product of family tradition in ways that bring us all together. Particularly as an adult, I've found that holidays make only as much of an impact as you WANT them to- and including ritual makes that impact stronger, because it forces you to DO something that separates this day from other days, and that, incidentally, keeps you busy and absorbed.

It's why I found Martin's disliking Christmas in this episode, only to get really into it when it comes to creating the rituals of Christmas for Arthur, so interesting. I don't recall any real REASON being given for Martin disliking Christmas- it could be an affectation along the lines of Arthur's attempt at sounding grown-up by calling Christmas over-commercialized, but it sounds more like, as an adult living in shitty circumstances (we don't really KNOW what kind of shitty circumstances yet because we haven't heard Qikiqtarjuaq yet, but still) who isn't super close with his family and for whom any Christmas he has, he'll have to make for himself, he doesn't have much reason to like it! What, indeed, WOULD make Christmas different than a typical day for him? But as soon as he's given a reason to cling to the trappings and rituals of Christmas, he gets into it, and I really do love that.

Now of course, Arthur is really the poster child for the whole above concept. But- I was going to say that that's almost too obvious, but that's not really it. It's that Arthur is the one who does this ALL THE TIME. We know already that he's the heart of this show, and what it seems to really come down to is that a large part of that is creating a life around rituals or practices that bring joy. On the most basic level we have that list of events and holidays that he likes, all of which are defined by ritual in some way (I admit to not knowing much about Lent). But I think it goes beyond that- first of all, he CREATES ritual: while it's unclear who exactly invented the name Birling Day, he's the first one to use it in Edinburgh and he's the one who creates a "Happy Birling Day" song in Paris. Even more than that, though, we know his life philosophy from Fitton- create meaning and happiness from things that you DO (sinking into a bath at just the right temperature) rather than from things that happen to you (happening to be in the moonlight with the love of your life). In so many ways, that's what ritual is- rather than treating a time of year or a life cycle event as a thing that happens to you, you create your own meaning through your own actions. You're active and in control of your own joy.

So anyway, all this to say, Molokai continues the Arthurian tradition of Cabin Pressure which is that we have power over our joy by creating and expressing it, and just so happens to apply it to Christmas as a specific example. Gah. I have no idea if that makes sense written out- it does in my head.

And I've barely gotten to the actual episode!

One thing I'd forgotten til I turned it on- Molokai is the first post-Sherlock episode to be recorded. I'd heard a lot from people that the laughter gets louder as a result, which leads to the show seeming funnier as you laugh with the audience. I was skeptical- and I was SORT OF wrong. I do think that the show gets funnier in no small part because JF becomes a better and better writer, but at the same time... the laughter DEFINITELY gets louder. Oh my gosh. I'm not sure how I'd never noticed it. Like, it's loud in Limerick, but this is another level. And what's nice is you can kind of hear the actors feeding off the crowd energy, which is yet a third reason why S3-4 might seem even better.

(On that note, I don't know how much JF pre-planned his rendition of Get Dressed, but it is note perfect. It would have just been normal-funny if he'd sung it, but the Chri-i-i-i-i-stmas/Chri-hi-hi-hi-hi-hi-histmas Days took it up another level. Kudos to him- and his "you'd better not pout, you'd better not cry" is just as great. Incidentally, as a non-Christmas celebrator I didn't get that joke until way later, but his performance is so funny that honestly it didn't matter.)

Of the two plot lines (each with its own set of Chekhov's Guns) in this episode, I vastly preferred the Secret Santa plot. Not that there's anything wrong with the Mr Alyakhin plot- but the resolution, however clever, is just a LITTLE bit too unlikely and over the top. Which, again, sounds weird to say about Cabin Pressure, a show where in a few episodes they'll be dragging a piano to a pub in Devon, but I do still believe that it's all about proportionality- a crazy antagonist justifies a crazy resolution, and this resolution was just a trifle too crazy for the antagonist (and relies a little too much on him missing some major red flags). But it genuinely doesn't matter, because it's still hilarious and sweet, and ends on just the right outrageous note- in particular, the note in Roger Allam's voice (playing to the audience beautifully) as, after an almost-too-long pause, he says "mulled it." Just beautiful- all of the setup and the pitch-perfect payoff.

There's probably other stuff, but please excuse me, I have some latkes to eat. Tomorrow, we're off to Newcastle, one that I haven't listened to in AGES- and I'm dying to know what I'll think!

[khorai]

Same Anon as before. Do you have any unpopular opinions about certain characters?

A lot even but i will only talk about my opinions regarding the characters from the Naruto manga that I appreciate - if I expand, we'll be here tomorrow - .

Firstly, let's start with Sakura.

I don't understand why some—actually, many—of her own fans say she is poorly written.

She isn't...?

Sakura has issues concerning her character, but it has NOTHING to do with bad writing but more about her role in the story and how she was used. As for her character itself, she-is-not-poorly-written.

Honestly, I hate this claim because it gives the impression that her character is bad when that's not the case at all.

Coming from the antis, it's not surprising —they can't even understand the character of their own favorite, so understanding Sakura's character would be a miracle— but from her "stan"?

Just...no.

She is not poorly written, and that's my final word on it. I'm more than tired of hearing this nonsense. Yes, the narrative failed her many times— like many other characters, for that matter —but it's not the "bad writing" of her character to blame, but rather Kishimoto's inability to focus on characters other than Sasuke and Naruto.

Another unpopular opinion about her is that I HATE fanon versions of Sakura (and when I say fanon, I also mean popular headcanons about her circulating in the fandom).

It may sound extreme, but you'll quickly understand why:

Initially, it was actually the opposite. I loved it because I enjoyed seeing the different iterations of her that fans could create. It was always refreshing to read other versions of Sakura in fanfic—that admittedly had little to do with the original—growing and experiencing incredible things. I liked that.

And then things got worse.

For some reason, many of her fans —and antis as well— started confusing her canon version and her fanon version (some takes on her are so OC that I sometimes wonder if we're talking about the same person), while others began to claim that she should have had techniques like mokuton in the canon.

... What do they think Sakura is?

Naruto and Sasuke?

If they want their headcanon to be somewhat plausible in the context of canon, at least give her something that aligns with his philosophy of hard work.

Mokuton, from what I know, only manifests through the Senju lineage. If she had it in the canon, she would have to be descended from a Senju —naturally or artificially, it doesn't matter— and honestly... I disagree.

That's not Sakura.

This girl is a titan of her own making, partly thanks to her courage and hard work, and then thanks to Tsunade and Shizune -bless these ladies-

I would never want her to have power-ups like Naruto; it would negate everything she has done since the beginning of the manga, and that's just a big no.

I can understand her fans being upset about her treatment by Kishimoto —I am too, a lot— but that doesn't mean we should change her character to fit a shoddy female version of her male counterparts; that's just rude.

It wouldn't even be the same person anymore.

My last unpopular opinion about her (I have many more, but I'll just stop here) is that she deserved better.

... I classify this as an unpopular opinion because what I mean by that is not: "she deserved better than Sasuke" or "she deserved to be with Naruto" or AGAIN "she should have gotten over Sasuke" or some other thing like "she should have had some super powerful ability."

No, what I mean is that Sakura deserved her own arc.

An arc in which she wouldn't have to carry the weight of the shinobi world's guilt on her shoulders as usual - if Konoha is messed up, it's not her fault-

An arc in which we could see her actually experience her other skills, have other epic battles, build other relationships, break free from the grip of Team 7 in general.

She's supposed to be the heroine of the manga, but Kishimoto treated her like a supporting character with way too much screen time.

Damn, we don't even know what her home life is like.

We don't even really see her parents in the manga, and why is that?

Because she doesn't have an overly tragic background to make Hades pale?

Because she doesn't have balls?

Compared to her teammates, she doesn't matter, is that it?

The only thing we see her do again and again is blame herself for things beyond her control.

Like...why?!

Kishimoto made her some kind of martyr of pain, and it infuriates me every time I think about it.

The worst part is that many of her own fans sweep this under the rug and prefer to argue about who "deserves her."

Sasuke here, Naruto there... is she a piece of meat?

It's almost taboo to talk about the real problems surrounding her character in this fandom without someone mentioning how "Sasuke doesn't deserve her, and Naruto is much better" or how "Sakura is obsessed with Sasuke's dick."

...

Lol.

Next, Sasuke.

Sasuke deserved better...

and

Sasuke was wrong...

are notions that should more often go hand in hand.

His redemption journey was a good idea because, no matter what his most zealous fans say about it, Sasuke needed that journey.

Konoha hurt him, and it's easy to become an apologist for his character given all the crap he went through, mainly because of the incompetent authorities of this crappy village, but... that doesn't change the fact that he is not without blame and that he also did messed up things.

However... I don't like the resolution of his character arc.

Once again, Kishimoto reminded us in the cruelest way possible that Naruto is a classic Shounen, and the protagonist must always be right.

To the detriment of Sasuke.

Attention, I'm not saying that Naruto's view was wrong and Sasuke's was right because that's far from the case.

What annoyed me is the way the author handled it.

It seemed like Sasuke was almost wrong to think the way he did, when given his situation, his reaction was actually expected and normal. I really don't like how he put Naruto's opinions on a pedestal at the end of manga.

He gave Sasuke a completely independent story that didn't revolve around Naruto's sphere of influence -quite rare even today in the Shounen era- .

He endowed him with his own will.

Literally more than Naruto, it was Sasuke who led the dance in the manga, and why in the end?

So that everything would go in the direction of the protagonist?

And that, without even serious questioning of the Konoha system?

What was the point of Naruto knowing the truth about the Uchiha massacre then?

So yes, I don't like what Kishimoto did to Sasuke's character in the end; I find it unfair to him.

I classify this as an unpopular opinion because, even though I'm not a fan of the resolution of his character arc, that doesn't mean I'm "pro-revolution" or that I think Sasuke did nothing wrong, because he did.

This brings me to my second unpopular opinion about this character:

Sasuke is not a revolutionary.

He is not the character built to challenge the system that some of his fans think he is.

Like… since when did Sasuke become someone who could change Konoha's system in the first place?

That was never his goal; the only thing that led him to make that infamous statement was anger and betrayal he felt towards Konoha. It was his obsession with revenge that led to this thought, and nothing else.

Moreover, excuse me, but his plan was crappy.

Eliminate all Kage, okay.

Take the lead of all the villages, okay.

Launch a revolution and change the system...

As if the other shinobi of the alliance would just stare at him and do nothing -_-

His idea was doomed to fail from the start.

I'm theorizing a bit here, but basically, here's the deal:

Does he really think he can eliminate the entire Shinobi alliance? (because that's what he would have had to do to achieve his goal)

With what help?

That of Team Taka?

Lol.

Yes, Sasuke is powerful, but even he couldn't have pulled off this feat without becoming ridiculously overpowered (even more than at the end of the manga).

The only thing this plan would have brought if executed would have been to alienate all Shinobi nations against him (well, he already did it, but it would have been even worse).

And if, by some miracle, his plan had worked - if he had succeeded in his revolution - it would have just caused decades and decades of war between rebel factions - because there would be if we still follow the logic of the manga - wanting to return to the old times, others wanting power for themselves, and others simply refusing to let power go to an Uchiha (let's not forget the reputation of this clan).

Moreover, to change a system hundreds of years old in a world governed by the law of the strongest, it takes much more than violence and a strong desire for revenge.

He would need many brains at his disposal: tacticians, politicians, doctors, advisers...

In short, he would need allies he could trust and who would not betray him.

Unless he wants to be a bully, which honestly seems more likely to me.

He would need the help of countless geniuses in each field for this revolution to be successful, and from what the manga tells us, all these people are in the alliance.

... Who would want to work for him willingly after all he would have done?

And even if there are people willing to do so, it will always be with the fear of possible betrayal.

If even Madara and Hashirama - alias shinobi gods in their time - needed strong allies to create Konoha and make it a prosperous nation...

(even though it went to hell afterward, but still)

What will Sasuke do with a partially destroyed nation that he will have to rebuild with his own hands?

And let's not even talk about the fact that he was consumed by revenge and half-crazy when he talked about this revolution.

I still can't believe there are people who take these words seriously.

I really wonder what kind of revolution they expected with Sasuke in that state of mind?

If it had happened, it would have led to two possible situations:

The death of the last surviving Uchiha or an even more gruesome massacre than the one that wiped out his clan.

Although, considering those who support this pseudo-revolution among his fanbase, the latter option would have suited them just fine.

Another reason that honestly makes me think this thing is stupid is that it doesn't align with the manga's vision.

Kishimoto, despite the few innovative takes he has made several times regarding the plot and some characters, remains a staunch traditionalist. Sasuke would never have become a villain, and he would never have been killed either; that would go against Naruto's dream.

He would also never have become a "revolutionary" challenging the system.

It's not his role; he's not the protagonist.

The character of Sasuke - like all the others, in fact - exists within the limits of the plot; we cannot go beyond and make his character something it was never supposed to be.

Although, for me, it's a good thing that he isn't because his plan was just as bad as Naruto's flawed idealistic vision.

I still think that if Kishimoto had made them talk normally for once, without them having to almost kill each other, if he had made them come to a compromise that would have combined their two ideas, it wouldn't have been as half-baked in the end.

To choose between the plague and cholera, he should have just paired them together -_-

But no, he had to choose nardo's protagonist vision.

Another opinion about Sasuke is his relationship with Naruto, which I find... shaky? overestimated? poorly written?

They share a strong bond, that's an undeniable truth, and you'd have to be pretty stupid to deny that.

It's the main bond in the manga, after all.

But in terms of friendship... I have doubts.

For me, the only reason I believe Sasuke and Naruto are friends is that Kishimoto said so.

We hardly see it in the manga.

Their relationship literally built on years of objectification, selfishness, disdain, rivalry, misunderstanding, resentment, and a huge savior complex.

Naruto made Sasuke his priority not out of genuine concern but because he wanted to prove he was worthy of being Hokage, and for that, Sasuke had to come back at all costs.

That's not friendship; it's selfishness and objectification.

Oh, I don't doubt that he cared, but the problem is that the manga doesn't really show us that.

Moreover, this idea that "Naruto understands Sasuke" is, for me, a bunch of nonsense.

Maybe he does so at a superficial level because of their slightly similar experiences, but if we go deeper?

Naruto doesn't really understand him, and it showed particularly when he learned the truth about the Uchiha massacre.

For Sasuke, it's more complicated.

He has a lot of mitigating circumstances that actually explain his behavior (Itachi being alive, the curse of hatred).

But in general, he played the role of an antagonist for most of Shippuden, and the fact that his character arc didn't revolve around Naruto made him some kind of insensitive jerk to everyone - at least on the surface - .

If Sasuke wanted to take revenge on the world, Naruto wanted to save him.

And neither of them was willing to give in on that.

I'm not going to judge Naruto for not caring about Sasuke's goals after Itachi's death. Who in their right mind would support such a plan?

It was supporting a one-way ticket to self-destruction.

And I'm not going to judge Sasuke for the numerous attempts to kill Naruto because that would be unfair.

However, what I judge is how Kishimoto made their communication impossible.

When they start talking seriously, it always has to end with one of them almost dying at the last moment.

Even Vegeta and Goku had more civilized discussions than these two, and that says something.

I like their relationship, but I sometimes find it hard to label them as friends, let alone best friends.

There's a lot of things that haven't been well-managed in there.

Third opinion:

Sasuke is not evil.

He is not the cold, emotionless individual that more than half of this God-forsaken fandom wants him to be.

I never thought I'd classify this as an unpopular opinion, but considering the nonsense I've seen about him, I had to do it. According to this fandom, both among his stans and antis, Sasuke is abusive, sexist, possessive, indifferent, unfaithful, easily manipulable, selfish, a lousy father, and the list goes on.

Of course, he is none of that, but it's always amusing to see people forcing their fantasies onto his character. This guy has always marched to the beat of his own drum; he has no more official truth about him other than this, and that really irritates a lot of people.

Now, onto his big brother:

Itachi... is not a good person (I still can't believe I have to say this).

He is not even a martyr from my perspective.

I really dislike how his character is glorified in certain parts of the fandom. But at the same time, I don't like how he's demonized among the antis.

Itachi is not an angel, but he is not a demon either.

He's selfish and an unparalleled manipulator, but that doesn't make him evil. He can also be gentle, warm, and incredibly loving - though he has a peculiar way of showing it- .

He's a character with a messed-up mentality, and I love him for that. I hate seeing his character being destroyed by people trying to fit him into boxes he doesn't truly belong to; it annoys me.

In the end, Itachi is a tragic character who found himself forced to make horrible choices. His life was just immensely... torturous.

I love him, but given all the mess he caused, his death was both expected and deserved.

He was tired, disillusioned, sick, and with a list of Uchiha deaths as long as Tobirama's (not to mention what he did to his brother). So no, the idea that he shouldn't have died is truly ridiculous.

Please, let this tormented man find peace in his death.

I'll stop here because at this point, these are not even unpopular opinions but downright diatribes.

[retrotrait]

wait last anon got my attention and ive also been wanting to send you a long ass ask dissecting simon's behavior lol~ also cw this talks about drug abuse!

I don't want to be a simon shooter, but I feel like he deserves empathy considering he abuses substances and has trauma from his childhood. Not to excuse his behavior at all. I feel for anani and simon because i was in a relationship with someone who abused substances (xanax) this was in my senior yr of high school & it sucked seeing someone you care about constantly high of their ass vs. the person you met. The drugs affect not only the person, but the people around them and its awful.

There is such a stigma towards people who abuse substances (I personally dont like to use the word addict thats just me tho!!) I feel like people tend to think ppl who abuse drugs act out on purpose and want to purposely hurt their loved ones, when that isnt the case.

Anani was without a doubt, simon's diamond in the rough. It does make me feel a certain was that his mother called her to BASICALLY, fix her son. Girl.............that is your child, Im pretty sure his mother asked her to "get him help" because she couldnt face the music, she couldnt see history repeat itself, but you cannot send someone over that he hurt so many times to fix things.

I believe Anani continuously stayed by his side because she thinks itll be different everytime. She could fix him, its possible in her eyes because of their bond, but that is not true at all. He needs to realize for himself that he needs help. If he cares about the people he loves he would go and get help. Anani is def a push over in this case (im sorry my queen PLS STAND UP I KNO U LOVE HIM BUT PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS STAND UP!!)

I dont think its possible for them to have a platonic friendship after everything, but I do believe Simon needs a good support system around him and MAYBE anani could be apart of that support system...minus the physical bc from what it seems, simon uses Anani like temporary medicine to ease his pain & it hurts to see Anani care and love him, but get hurt in the end :c

I love what you're doing with this story & I am so excited for what is yet to come. <3

You couldn't be righter and the number one reason I created an OC with substance abuse problems is because I know how one sided it can be for people to misjudge them, even the people who love them. It's not as easy as quit and get better and I wanted that to reflect who Simon is.

Anani became that drug replacement for him as well and even loving someone to that extent can be unhealthy because without them you don't know who you are (also a reason why he left in the first time around) the town, his parents, even Anani, he needed to separate himself from becoming the person his brother was but unfortunately, it's not easy when you're in that party/rockstar lifestyle. He's stuck be

To Anani, he also became like a drug, someone who filled that musical emptiness that her mom's passing left. Like you said, she wants to fix him, it's in her nature and him knowing that makes walking away a little bit easier to understand, however wrong it was to do it in that situation. It's very on brand for him the "not wanting to hurt someone while hurting them."

I think their relationship thrives on that push and pull, that "I hate you but I love you." I just don't know if it would work if they were ever just good to each other without the toxic-ness.

<333 ILY and thank you for sending this amazing dissection of these characters.

[myfriendpokey]

personal aesthetics

i'm often afraid to look directly at what i want, in case it scatters and disappears, maybe that's cowardly, i don't know. but i've always felt like, to get what you want through intelligence or hard work or talent is to diminish that thing somehow, to turn it into another empty token of the will. and that the only way things come with their original charge of desire intact is as a miracle, as specifically the one thing that we didn't dare to think about, didn't dare wish for.

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so you can spend your time vamping, drawing circles around the magic incantation. and these circles can be interesting enough in themselves. you try something or find something once, and it works so you do it again, again and again, until it becomes a stock phrase, a familiar presence in the bag of tricks. and maybe over time it changes, maybe it becomes one of those things that passes far enough through familiarity that it becomes strange to us again, we pause and feel confused at how well our own hands seem to know these contours, maybe they start to wear away, or maybe we start to wear away ourselves, we have to do things differently, not being able to rely upon the old sharpness. so they develop their own histories. but it's a false history unless we somehow view it in tandem with that of their counterparts, the non-tools - whatever it was that couldn't be added to the bag, whatever we couldn't bring ourselves to try to fake.

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i feel averse to art that has no dead parts, no listlessnesses, no flubs - "nothing but the best". as if meaning and value were so rare that they could never be left to chance. a paranoia that diminishes the thing it's trying to celebrate, converting it to yet another luxury good to be stockpiled by those of means or exquisite sensitivity. i think the only thing you can do when you run across the good is to let it go again. i think whatever you risk losing in doing so is balanced out by the beauty of the notion that there's always more to find.

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i like lucidity in art because it's an acknowledgement of its own limits - a lucidity that means marking the points where lucidity itself can only stop talking and start to gesture.

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art as a lucky dip bag that holds equal chance of turning out to contain a plastic whistle, two lollipops, a magic ring or somebody's hand.

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i like irony because it's a way of holding two ideas at once. imagine i'm sad, so sad, so forlorn, so overcome with weighty despair that all i can do is throw up into a trash can. now imagine a member of janitorial staff finding it the next day and going what the fuck? by putting these things together with different levels of emphasis you can have as comic or as tragicomic an effect as you could like - or if you like you can hold them both at a remove, emphasising the broad scope of your own vision. but the kind of irony i am interested in is whatever could hold both these things in suspense - each one chafing against the other, holding off on final meaning as if waiting for the scales to tip, like a make-your-own-allegory kit where the final part rolled under the couch.

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sometimes i think about the old idea that wanting anything is folly, is childish, that as soon as you get it you'll just want something else. and there's something to this, but i hate that smug moralism, that defensive incuriosity, and i feel drawn to people brave enough to continue wanting even knowing how futile it might be. so maybe the value in chasing something is in getting to want something else, layer after layer of discarded promise building up, becoming stranger, less straightforward, the path of your desire getting cluttered with your own debris, having to wind, become sidetracked - like the snake from "snake", growing longer as it eats apples(?) in the void, forever surprising its own body at odd angles, circling its own old movements. is this what william blake meant by "if a fool would persist in his knowledge he would become wise"?? see how long you can avoid self knowledge while eating fruit. eve simulator 2000.

in magic wand there's a part where you find the magic wand, this thinly sketched signpost for alterity, desire, and it makes a weird noise and then the world is changed, in a way it's hard to read as good or bad. certainly more cluttered - the plains outside are now covered in debris, gigantic heads and hands, pictures of the demiurge. there doesn't seem like much to choose from between these places, so maybe the only thing you've gained is to have seen them both, the old and new, and have the old slide a little further into memory, the secret alchemical medium that can absorb all contradictions.

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i always feel like to represent something is to travesty it, to turn it into an icon of the unliving - that to put whatever you most cherish, love or friendship or whatever, into a work of art is like putting it inside the mouth of a corpse. if these have value it's as human things while art draws its lustre from being inhuman. that being said… there's something moving about the frozen and unproblematized emblems of pleasure that bob around the screen in a videogame, the hearts and blue skies, candy worlds and golden bells. they become moving because nobody believes in them anymore, because there's no insistence that these things might actually represent the good - they're harmless tokens, light as air. in the very indifference with which they seem to regard how near or far they might be from actual happiness there's something tensionless and dreamy, forgetful and beautiful. we might suspect that a secret substitution's taken place.

[teamthevinyh]

Your habits are what you're going to create your life from.

So if You're constantly doing the same thing over and over again and then you're waiting for something to change , Nothing is going to change ..

You have to change , otherwise nothing is going to change.

You're doing the same thing everyday over and over again which is basically locking yourself into a room so how can you expect something different to happen ? When you aren't doing different things.

Why can't you change ? So first things . It might be your environment . It might be your country for example. You're living in a country where people have small minds most of the time .You don't feel like you can level up here . For example you want to start a business and this country has high taxes . So most people won't start their businesses here . And you keep seeing this thing again and again. And people around think that it's impossible to start a business. So you start to see it as impossible too .

But the family matters may be too hard

You are too young . You can't do anything but live here… so you need to survive until You find a job . If You can do anything. Just do it . Because if you constantly keep feeling this way . You will become so depressed to the point you won't even realize yourself anymore.

If you can't do anything then surround yourself with people that are like c'mon you can do it . Who is willing to support you?

Listen, your dreams are nOt BiG to be achieved . Honestly you have what it takes to level up…

Don't focus too much on other people. The reason you're stuck may also be because you are constantly trying to pull people up who don't want to . Like you're saying let's go and they're like not wanting to. You're just trying to help other people ..

Dear, you can not help other people when you can not even help yourself ..

You have to take accountability for yourself. If no one is willing to help you You give yourself a hand .

Like you go and look into the mirror and say . I don't want to be like this anymore. That's when things change . That's when life starts to change . Why? Because you changed .

For example, do you have these habits of yours from your childhood ? Maybe they naturally came from your family . But so what? You are going to be this cycle breaker . You won't let this repeat anymore. It will be really hard. You will fall and pick yourself up again and again . But that's a journey . You have to appreciate it because even if it's extremely slow as if you're crawling at least you're getting there. And at least you're not yet accepting a life that you do not want .

Don't focus too much on the GOAL

For example, you wanna lose weight . Okay so you think “this is how much I wanna weigh” okay now you keep thinking I'm still not there NO .focus on Today . What do I have to do today to reach the GOAL? Basically. SET A GOAL and do what you have to do today in order to achieve this goal. Also Don't rush things ! Slow Down ! Do what you have to do in a single day . You will get there

You stop trying when things Get TOUGH .

That's how losers are created . Honestly .

When things get hard . You're like .

You know what I'm not gonna do anymore ? That's enough .

Like honestly if I gave up when things were tough and hard I would not be here at All . I would not be doing anything . Maybe I wouldn't even be alive anymore.

Why is life worth living for me ? If I stop trying when things get tough . That's not how warriors are made .

Maybe I have an advantage because I came from a very toxic and traumatic place . But that's why when you put me in the worst situation I thrive the best . I do not thrive in peace. I thrive the best in stress because maybe that feels like home . Which is not nice . I cannot quit because I have goals . And I have to reach them myself. .. because honestly it's you the problem sometimes not other people. I have big goals . And yeah I'm not ungrateful. I appreciate the blessings . And I will get as far as . Well you know what my mind is . How far can I take it ? I like to test myself .

Another thing : you don't accept help . Like “I'm self made” and not accepting help . You know humans can not do anything without accepting help . “I don't accept any help” you Do .

You stop learning : you know I thrive for knowledge. I try to learn . And I do. I even try to learn from other people. I constantly read new books . New subjects . Philosophy etc . Like I even listen to people whose opinion are different from mine and I don't agree with it just to understand what's their standpoint.so I'm open to receive Information. But if you're just listening to people on social media like the level of stupidity on the internet nowadays. Is INSANE. Start actually listening to what can expand your mind. Go travel. Meet new people. So You can see different things . because if you keep seeing the same thing or whatever. You're very close minded.. eat healthy

Another thing is you're not patient, you can't wait . Like you want what you want and want it now . That's it . You want it to change overnight. It does not work that way . Like I mean if you can be patient you can achieve anything for example like I've always been patient like hell 😂. Like there are still the things that I'm waiting for since like it's been years and years. And I'm still waiting but the thing is I'm waiting because I can't control it to happen . So when you can change like don't think “ I'm waiting for myself to change” no things are different here. . Like I constantly change every single day . I get to know new things everyday . And I'm like “now that I know better I must do better,”

You should do what you have to do to reach your goal every day . Be constant . And be patient with it.

Stop listening to other people's wants . Do what you need to do .

Say what needs to be said, not what others want to hear . Because in the end . You have to live your life, not them . Don't be what others like or want you to be . Be what you want to be .

Also don't take anything seriously like “I don't deserve this that”

You listen . Maybe enough is enough for you . You don't need to satisfy others . You don't need anyone's validation. If something is meant for you . It will come to you . God gave that to you . So don't be ungrateful.

If you get something then you give up on it because you feel like you don't deserve it . Come on like God gave it to you so who are you to question “why me” or whatever.

However I hope this will be helpful for anyone who reads it and learns something.

Thank You

#twl

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

a while ago you answered and ask of mine with something that really resonated with me, abt your real self feeling like it was trapped in a glass cage. anyway im taking your ask box name literally. I used to live in a world full of magic and wonder, I think we all do when were young, and then alot of awful stuff happened, it took alot, a new traumatic tragedy every month. and now the magic is gone and it feels like it was never there and wont ever be there again. (1/2)

thankyou for returning to my askbox im glad what i said helped befofre, sorry it took a while to respond i been ~in a haze--- my glass case got fogged up so to speak🩶gosh i been thinking lately i need to do mushrooms for the first time ina few years. the past month was such a trauma overload its thrown a wrench in all my plans & the world feels completely different to me now, i can barely even be online anymore it all feels so hostile to my sense of whimsy.

basically the only thing thats been getting me thru this past 5 weeks is just, going outside. not necessarily walking just sitting, breathing in the fresh air, and looking closely at the trees. when i sit outside without any distraction its impossible for me to deny that the magic is alive, objectively it is always there it extends far beyond me or any personal problem i have, it is going to outlive me. it comforts me so much to inhale the outdoors its the coping mechanism i've returned to again & again since childhood. i love feeliing like im so small im just nothing. yea i feel like shrooms cld b really nice rn..

grief is hell but its necessary because it taught me how to enjoy whats good.... the cycle will always keep spinning & the warm feelings will always return. from being an old person who been thru it so many times i trust that now. have u ever met a greedy rich person before? they have everything handed to them so they've never learned what it means to appreciate life. they're never satisfied because they don't know true despair or loss. this is not all rich ppl some still have perspective but its a thing w some, we all kno its a thing. for me it really has served my soul to go through so much pain & lose all control. Now i see every peaceful silent "boring" moment as true bliss. i dont rly need anything anymore , imo that is how death transforms & elevates

ofc it dont happen over night and u really do have to let yourself cry it out. let yourself wallow , feel pity for yourself like you would feel pity for a child who came crying into your arms. comfort yourself, get it all out dont try to hide from it. slowly the tides will turn. things will begin to stand out to you, little beauties you never noticed before. the simple things..they mean so much more once u have experienced true terror. i pray very much for your heart to heal anon ❤️‍🩹 the whimsy will return to u i can tell by the way u want it for yourself & others. U can be a guide to them thru your actions. ilu im here for u just dont give up 🌷 pmd9

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𝓓𝓸 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓿𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓼𝓸𝓾𝓵 𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼? (Do you believe in soul mates?)

𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 ★ 𝘗𝘰𝘴𝘵: 𝘐 𝐃𝐚𝐭𝐞: 2/1/2024 2024-1-2 2024-2-1 February 1st 2024

𝚃𝚘𝚙𝚒𝚌: 𝓓𝓸 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓿𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓼𝓸𝓾𝓵 𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼? (Do you believe in soul mates?)

With February starting and Valentines day just around the corner what better way to start a new blog post with a world wide known holiday.

When you think of soulmates a lot can come to mind. . . Two lost lovers, opposites that are attracted to each other but for what reasons? It can mean many things. But one thing I hope we can agree on is that love is wonderful yet hurtful.

Do you think you have found you other half? Or singles are you looking forward to finding your boo thang? Perhaps you like just being with yourself whatever the case maybe, we all want love and we all deserver it in any positive way.

I know for me I would love to have another person that I can bother make funny face and just deeply enjoy each other in beautiful ways.

Do you believe there is really someone out there for everyone? Or maybe the overwhelming of the human population makes it seem impossible? Though the second question may seem a bit unorthodox, people may seem or feel as if even if there are people around they will always feel alone or never to be in a committed relationship.

With the topic of relationships what do you think about opposite attracts? Ying & Yang, Water & Fire? Some may feel or believe that total opposite are the best or at least seem to be the ideal way of maintaining a relationship.

Do you agree with that?

Finding your soulmate seems like it only happens in fairy tales, how Cinderella found her princess charming at the ball, or that just by luck Snow-white stumble upon a nice little cottage in the woods.

But what if you could find that one and only prince/ss charming?

Having a deep understand in your partner make it unreal, you finally have the love of your life by your side, maybe till death do us part, or just having a common little pitter patter connection that ties that two people together much stronger.

Being with someone you love you are constantly learning new things weather you have been together for 5 months or 50 years, you are always finding something new in your journey. But having to share it with someone you feel a deep attachment to make its all worth wild in the end.

Even if it may seem a bit unexplainable you can't denied that they are your better half. You both share so many things in common yet share countless of differences as well, which keeps each party in for the long haul.

Here are some people that we may all know who have found there lovely soulmate.

1. Elton John - Know for his catchy tunes and wild looking outfits he has fell deeply in love with his soulmate David Furnish when he was 47-years-old.

2. Harrison Ford - Thought the dark side doesn't seem like a comfort he couldn't contain his powers falling head over heels with Calista Flockhart.

3. Chrissy Teigen and John Legend - Let us not forget this iconic couple known for there beauty and soulful tunes.

Though things may seem rainbows and peaches with cream, things happens, which is normal unexpected situation may occur that can drive two people apart. We all wish for the perfect partner to look or sound a certain way, but thought we have our personal preferences which is not a bad thing. We may not get what we want, but we definitely get what we need and that is someone who is imperfect to others eyes but in yours they are just who you've been waiting for.

But as in the songs say "Only fools rush in." Take your time don't rush into something you may not be prepare for. You will go through lots of bumps in the road into finding what you truly deserve but that doesn't mean you can't be happy with what you have.

As time goes on and one thing I can relate is when you least expect it that is when it happens. So don't wait let the flow take you on its own.

For all the skeptics out there I know many of you may thing the soulmates aren't a real thing like it's a myth no one will ever find there soulmate it's a joke no such thing.

For those who may feel this it is very common and normal, but the realty is for those who believe in it or don't. There will be a lot of misconception's around soulmate such as. . .

We confuse passion and overwhelming emotion for love. We expect a single person to meet all of our needs. We think of love as a matter of chance, not of choice.

But thought everyone is entitled to feel how ever they may about the concept of soulmates. Many can say that they feel happy and are deeply in love with there other half, weather they believe they are soulmates or not.

Just remembers with every relationships keep these important keys in mind: Commination Loyalty Boundaries Understanding

Having all these can make any relationship work. Just have the shoulder or ear, or a yummy snack. Share a movie or a nice picnic. Spending time with your significant other in a positive way can make anything good.

Have you found your Valentine this month? Comment down below I would love to read your feedback.

Thank you for reading my FIRST blog post. For more to come.

[sidhewrites]

Eighteen! Things are happening and I've completely lost my grip on the pacing of this thing. BUT i have so many notes on what I want to fix in the rewrite. I hope you enjoy eldritch ghost locations, because I had too much fun with this one even if it may not make it into the final draft.

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Josie still has her nametag on when she bursts into the apartment, out of breath and sweaty to find me sitting on the floor of the living room, holding a can of cat food and a cat brush. I don't know why I picked them up, but I didn't know what else to do. I couldn't sit still, watching Renfield toddle around like his usual thoughtless self. I recognize his movements -- the way he lifts his head, the way he swishes his tail while sniffing a bit of floor. But he looks completely different now, a pale grey cat with yellow eyes and colorless paw pads. It doesn't match. I don't know what to do.

"I'm here," she says. "Tell me everything."

I'd already babbled to her semi-coherently over the phone, but it's somehow grounding to recount it again. It makes me feel slightly less crazy, saying it to her directly rather than yelling to a faceless voice over the phone. "Cat -- cat's here." I point at the bathroom, door shut tight. 

Renfield lays down behind it, one paw stuck out under the door miserably. But he's making his normal sounds. There's some snuffling and mournful peeping, but no talking. Nothing to worry about anymore.

"Cat was at the vet. You saw. We gave cat to the vet. I think cat killed the vet, maybe? Now cat here." There's no telling how grateful I am that she believes me. I sound insane, and I probably look just as bad, hair unbrushed and falling in my face, eyes red.

But Josie just pushes my hair out of my face and directs me to a chair before shoving a cup of water in my hands. "Drink," she says.

I obey.

While I sip tap water, Josie scrolls through her phone. After a moment, her shoulders droop, and she turns it around for me to see. Sure enough, a vet tech was found dead in a 24 hour animal hospital. The culprit was feline, having left claw marks and easily-identifiable bite marks in the tech's skin.

"Oh god..." I breathe, and spare a glance at the bathroom door. Renfield's still there, miserable and alone. Then, after a second, his whining stops. He retracts his paw, and his shadow adjusts under the door as he sits up.

A man's voice clears his throat. I swallow hard as the shadow paces back and forth behind the door and pauses, likely considering the possibility of turning the door knob.

After a moment, he paces again, and then sits down. There's a subtle shift in the air, something lightens, and Renfield starts to chirp again, confused and sad. He knows what the bathroom is, but he doesn't like being in there when the door's closed. It breaks my heart to hear him crying, but I don't dare let him out. Not while Magnus is still possessing him.

"What do we do?" I ask.

"I don't know." She frowns, eyes on the door. After a moment, two little paws stick out, scrabbling for something to grab. "Exorcism?"

"Does that work on ghosts?"

She shrugs. "I don't know."

"Do you...I don't know, do you have some kind of book? Some magic spell or something to banish him?" I feel like an idiot asking for a literal magic solution, but I don't know what else to do. I'm desperate, and I'm scared.

"I might. I don't know. Maybe..." She purses her lips, trying to think. "I might have something. But I don't know anything about banishing ghosts from cats. Mostly I just know how to talk to them, and I'm not even that good at that."

"We have to do something."

She sighs, rubs her neck. "I think...I might. I'll check."

"Should I go with you? Can I help?" I'm desperate to distract myself. I can't sit around doing nothing.

After a moment, Josie shrugs. "Maybe the Librarian has something. It's a long shot, but..."

"I'll go." I don't even hesitate. Ms. Lark is supposed to know everything, according to some legends. I don't know if they carry any weight, but it's worth it to try.

"Okay. Good luck."

While Josie goes home to look through her personal library, I head to campus, giving the graveyard a wider berth than usual. The sun shines overhead, half-hidden behind late October clouds, and the air is pleasantly cold. It's almost nice out, despite everything. All the same, there's no helping the sudden dread as soon as I walk through the Sutton Public Library doors, but I've got a strong feeling it may just be Ms. Lark sizing every visitor up to see if they'd be trouble or not.

I try to give Carter my best smile as I pass the front desk, just in case he recognizes me as the weirdo from a week ago who was so totally doing a biography project for school and not anything weird about some dead guy from 200 years ago. He watches me make a beeline for the stairs, which does nothing to help my I'm-super-not-suspicious-or-doing-anything-weird vibe, but doesn't say anything as I head down to the basement.

It's just as creepy as always. Maybe even more so, now that we're getting so close to Halloween. I imagine that even librarian ghosts are affected by the veil between this life and the next, or whatever it is that keeps them incorporeal. Unseen eyes seem to bore right through me, judging me and finding me wanting. Always wanting. Never good enough.

I choose not to take it personally.

"Hello?" I call out, wandering through the rows and rows of shelves. "Ms. Lark?" When no answer comes, I venture further into the stacks. The room seems larger than when I was last here, older and and a more ominous, with a strange aura emanating from the old lights. They've got to be decades old by now, miraculously still burning with an eerie yellow glow that seem to deepen the shadows.

I suddenly feel very alone, and very small.

Rubbing one of my still-bandaged forearms, keenly aware of how itchy they are, I make myself go further in. Soon enough, the door to the stairwell is too far away to see over the shelves, and it leaves me feeling stranded in a sea of filing boxes. "Hello?" I call out again. "Ms. Lark? Ruby Lark? Miz Ruby? Ruby Tuesdays? Ruby-Doobie-Doo? Would you come out for a Ruby snack?"

She would, as it turns out, come out for a Ruby Snack. Right as I reach the end of the aisle, she appears out of the darkness, a pale woman standing tall and disapproving next to a reshelving cart that has no reason to be down here. I don't recognize the language of the book in her hands, opened to a page of ornate hand-written text. It looks old. And she looks unhappy.

"Hello!" I say, instead of shrieking, because I am trying to be polite. It comes out louder than I mean it to, however, and I clear my throat, and try again in a whisper. "Sorry. Hello. Hi. How are you?"

Ruby says nothing, but she raises a very expectant and unimpressed eyebrow.

"Right. Don't like people. Got it." I throw out finger guns, because I'm cool and calm in the face of danger and beautiful women. "So... look, hi. Thanks for helping out last week. Turns out the guy you found for us was the exact guy we were looking for. Long story short, he's possessing my cat and wants to then possess an innocent person's soul, and we don't want that to happen. Do you happen to know anything about banishing ghosts like that? We don't think a normal exorcism will work."

She looks at me like I'm an idiot, but that's probably just her neutral face. She's probably totally excited to help me out. No worries.

After a minute of being judged and found wanting, Ruby turns away from me, and I follow her down into the depths of the archives. Now I'm certain this room has grown. There's no way that we're under the library anymore, walking this far in a straight line. But I follow her, past rows and rows of old books and filing boxes, past flickering lights and shelving carts. I stop recognizing the letters on the ends of the aisles. Aa- to Ad- gives way to Greek symbols and geometric shapes, and then to shifting shapes I can't even begin to identify in the low light.

I can't help but wonder how far we've gone. It's couldn't have been more than five or six minutes since we started walking, and I'm completely turned around. There's no end to the room in sight.

"So...How far we going?" I say, but if Ruby hears me, she doesn't react. The silence makes my brain itch and my stomach twist around itself. "So during our research, I looked up more about you. I hope that's okay."

I take her lack of response as an affirmative.

"Anyway, there was a lot about your daughter's life. Jane Lark? I read that she left for a bigger city when she sold the library to the city, and she got married to a guy who -- I mean it doesn't really matter, but he had connections to a couple of scholars, and she wound up being an important researcher in reptile behaviorism. Her name was kind of lost to history, and most of her theories were kind of ignored until very recently, but she did a lot of cool stuff with lizards and snakes and things in the tropics. I don't know if anyone had told you that yet, but It was really cool to learn about."

At some time during my rambling, Ruby stops walking. She turns back, eyes glowing in the dim light. Then, after a moment, she smiles.

"Thank you," she says, and continues walking. I follow her as she turns the corner down another row of shelves, but she's gone. I'm alone in the ocean of books yet again, with no way to know which way has the exit.

A book pushes itself off the shelf and lands on the old wooden floor. It opens itself up and flips to a hand-written page with scribbled illustrations overlapping the text. It's hard to make out, but it looks like some sort of ritual.

In the moment it takes me to kneel down and pick up the book, the lights seem to brighten again, and the air sits lighter in my lungs. I look around again, moving quickly to the end of the aisle, and instantly spot the glowing green EXIT sign over the door to the stairwell.

It's barely fifty feet away.

"Thanks again," I say to the air, and waste no time getting out of there.

Carter turns the book over and over again when I hand it to him to check out. There's no barcode, no token, nothing for the scanner to pick up. Even when he opens it up and flips through the yellowed pages, there's not even a card tracking who checked out the book last.

"Is this book even in our system?" he asks, rifling again through the pages. "What is all this?"

"I don't know. The Librarian got it out for me."

"Which one? I'll have to ask them about it."

"The Librarian," I say, emphasizing the capital letter this time. I hold Carter's gaze, making sure he knows that I know exactly how insane this sounds, but also that it's absolutely and completely true.

[Ok well idk man just take it and bring it back.] "It's due in three weeks, I guess. Same as everything."

There's a tug in my gut as I pick up the book and tuck it under my arm. "Something tells me this one is due in two weeks."

"Yeah?"

"Just a feeling."

Carter isn't happy that I don't elaborate, but he lets me go into the late afternoon light, to possibly do black magic rituals on my cat.

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[egg-emperor]

Thoughts on Eggman getting super drunk on eggnog? What kind of drunk do you think he'd be like?

Because he's a really big guy, very uniquely so, and I headcanon he has larger than average organs too, it takes quite a lot to even feel a bit drunk. But he can still easily get there if he wants to or gets carried away because he can really go for it when he gulps it down. It's easy for it to be a case of getting carried away when it comes to eggnog, sometimes he wants to see how fast he can drink it, not thinking about how it'll end up affecting him, then it suddenly hits him hard and that's how he can end up super drunk.

As long as nobody bothers him as his temper is still just as quick when he's sober, he can feel relaxed one minute and excited the next, actually very happy and positive most of the time. He sighs in delight and says he feels better and needed that if it gets him into a rare calmer relaxed mood that's surprising for people to see and he giggles at how the sudden floaty feeling makes him feel dizzy and silly. As much as he loves being a super genius that's always thinking deeply, it's nice to switch off for a little while and feel warm and jolly.

His robots really wish he'd stay that way and remain seated the whole time but after a small struggle he soon manages to pull himself up and when he realizes how jolly and wobbly and silly he feels, he suddenly wants to get playful and for some fun and amusement. He's silly all the time but if his robots weren't aware that he'd been drinking at first, they'll soon realize what's up as he's stumbling and slurring and not making complete sense and they're like here we go again because they know he won't behave lol

He gets rowdy and boisterous and when he's not entirely aware or in control then it's even more wild than usual. He'll do everything as loudly as possible, whether he's singing out of tune, rambling about his plans and how great he is with much less sense than usual, swooning over himself and talking about how he's so handsome in intimate detail and admiring and feeling himself up in the mirror and his robots find it awkward how it's especially obvious how into himself he is as they don't like to be reminded too much. XD

He'll feel very cheeky and have the desire to cause all kinds of mischief that makes him giggle and gets him the attention he wants and he'll only get worse if people give him a reaction that he finds funny and entertaining. He likes to do all the most embarrassing and shocking things he can and try to bother and people. It's not easy holding him back from getting himself into trouble, especially if he manages to get outside, so his robots try their best to keep him indoors because it's enough chasing him around in there!

He gets big cravings for snacks or chocolate or candy to keep the good mood going with treating himself. He'll raid the pantry or fridge even if he's not long since eaten a meal and will eat his favorite food to his heart's content, despite his robots' disapproval of how excessive it is. But he uses the excuse of sobering up, though it never really helps much when he's super drunk, instead it's easier for him to get carried away and blissfully indulge without a care in the world. He's always very pleased after lots of booze and food.

He can start feeling especially affectionate if he's been drinking with someone he's attracted to and expresses it through both actions and words in different ways than usual. He gets eager for some fun and gets bold and vocal with his desires, like if he suddenly wants to be held and receive belly rubs, cuddles, and kisses and praise. He'll get needy and whine if he doesn't get what he wants and reaches his arms out to demand them to come over and give it to him and it's so cute, how could one refuse hehe

He can get naughty and in the mood when he's jolly and playful. He gets cheeky and handsy and says dirty things to them without any filter, even if others are around that really don't want to know. He gradually starts losing his clothes with the excuse that it feels hot but he's obviously showing off. They can end up drunkenly making out and more if they've drank as much and both want it too. And if he's alone he can still end up getting dirty and intimate, just with his reflection in the mirror and own body instead lol

When his robots or anyone else isn't happy with his behavior or shenanigans and try to tell him what to do, instead of being angry he can just find it amusing and start feeling devious as he keeps doing it just to get them worked up. There are times he can get grumpy but he starts acting like a stubborn bratty kid more than the big loud angry man he usually is while sober. It's still possible to bring out the latter in the worst cases but everyone usually knows not to push him as they especially don't want to get on his bad side then.

He finds it extremely hard to balance and walk the dizzier he feels as it's already a miracle how he isn't clumsier while sober with the way he's built with his heavy body, lanky legs, and big feet. He'll wobble and stumble a lot even while just a bit tipsy the moment he loses the slightest bit of control and focus on his movement and it gets worse the drunker he gets and he's a mess. He'll insist he's got it but struggles just to stand and grips onto things for balance and just laughs about how everything is spinning.

He'll wobble and fall easily so everyone better not stand too close if they don't want him to potentially fall on top and crush them! And once he's on the floor, he won't be able to get up on his own and will be passed out in the deepest sleep but his robots know he'll be mad if they don't move him somewhere more comfortable, so they have to drag and lift his heavy body and it requires bigger more powerful robots. Reason 23475 why he needs a big strong muscular man like the ones he's into, they could handle him fhsjgnsksjgk

So yeah I imagine it's usually pleasant for him and bad for those around him, aside from when he has to deal with the harsh consequences the next day from going overboard of course. He can get really angry or down and start ranting and moping about his frustrations while drunk if he's in an especially bad mood before he starts drinking and it brings it out more, or he's only just put into one after by someone and kills it for him, but most of the time it's a way to stop feeling all those negative things and just feel good for a while.

He always likes to celebrate every event and reward himself with booze and will also use it to deal with defeats because unless something sets off his usual temper, he more often gets lucky enough for it to put him in a good mood and it makes him want to keep drinking more, and if it's one of his favorites like eggnog, champagne, or rice wine. He'll be happy and carefree, sometimes in a more relaxed and dazed way, excited and energetic way where he'll get cheeky and cause trouble, or both and he has a good time either way!

[thistidalwave]

questions for fic writers

wow just noticed @softbrah tagged me in this....how fun! let's go!

How many works do you have on ao3?

120! that's since 2011.

What’s your total ao3 word count?

1,222,928. dear god.

What fandoms do you write for?

currently we deep in the k-pop trenches, collecting lil blorbos with compelling narratives and dynamics to smack together like dolls. specifically i've been writing for Seventeen lately, and previously for TXT and BTS, and because i am me, i write niche inter-band shit and collected a couple soloists to throw in for seasoning.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Addicted (to loving you) (Teen Wolf scott/stiles. no, idk either. please don't read it.)

pictures in frames of kisses on cheeks (checkpls bitty/jack/kent. pure fluff no substance the people love it)

love doesn't come in boxes (checkpls bitty/jack)

something good and right and real (hockey rpf benn/seguin, cowritten with @aperfect20)

drop everything now (hockey rpf bgally/agally, cowritten with @aperfect20. listen. these hockey fics are of their time and now they'll never leave the first page sorted by kudos.)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes, all the time! it takes negligible time and brain power for me, and i like to let people know how much i appreciated hearing their thoughts, even when it was just a thank you and then we're in a lil awkward thanking circle.

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

ok, i think it just has to be a tie between "only time is ours" and "34 Days", which are check please kent/jack fics about the same pre-canon break-up events, the first from jack's pov and the second from kent's (tho iirc they have different interpretations of events beyond the pov switch, too). they are inherently angsty bc absolutely nothing is good at the end of them.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

this is so hard to decide, bc i primarily write romcoms and by the end of them if your teeth aren't rotting i did it wrong. i will give a shoutout to "doesn't matter what we do", a bts jimin/j-hope that is all about just Letting Urself Be Soulmates and then grossing out ur bandmates about it.

Do you get hate on fics?

no, thank god.

Do you write smut?

yes i have been known to write filth. sometimes the romcom plot calls for it. i'm horrible at pwp bc i'm always giving it plot, but u kno, sometimes the spirit moves me and i manage it.

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

crossovers of fandoms that have nothing to do with each other actually kind of squick me - i'm talking crossovers where characters who have never and will never meet are there for no reason (think superwholock tbh, tho i was uncharacteristically a lil into that at the time), not fusions or big universes with diff shows or whatever. it's just not for me!

but in terms of things where it's less drastic (crossing over bands in k-pop, for example) i am all over that, bc there's interesting stuff from real life there! my craziest example atm is a baekho/jun fic, and like, it's not that crazy!

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don't think so!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes, it's always so awesome that someone wants to take the time to do that.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yessssss, my favourite way to create fic.

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

this is an extremely insensitive thing to ask a ship whore like me. there are some ships that REALLY set my brain on fire over the years, though. check pls kent/jack drives me insane to this day. harry styles/nick grimshaw was So compelling. 2012 oilers "kid line" (nugent-hopkins/hall/eberle) went off.

often fandom really makes these ships worth it to talk about and inspires me to contribute. i am often very compelled by one character in particular and just ship them with everyone possible so i can examine all their sides.

What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

hmmmm if i WANT to finish it, i probably will. there are things that i ended up abandoning, though. one of those i'm still kinda sad about was a dylan/mitch/auston sequel to my connor/rystro.

What are your writing strengths?

i write realistic dialogue and i'm great at characterization (shoutout to the mean comment i got circa 2010 telling me to get good at characterization. i did. thanks.) my voice has always been strong, too.

What are your writing weaknesses?

i sometimes slack on depicting the interior emotions of characters. i'm not great with setting or exposition because the brand of fanfic i tend to write isn't a great place to practice those skills. i try to find places to do it, though!

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

it's the norm in k-pop fandom to drop in localization things like honorifics, and i like it because it can communicate relationships between the characters and so that it's not SO divorced from the context the idols actually live in. this is such a weirdly specific question, idk what else to say about it lmao

First fandom you wrote for?

twilight. bless her.

Favorite fic you’ve written?

choosing between my children? ok. at the moment i'm quite fond of too real to call it magic, a contemporary fantasy au where the main character is stuck in a dream. i felt really good about what i did with the themes and setting of the source material (a mv, so you're only 3mins and a quick google of the main characters' names away from reading this fic!) and the way i developed the relationship. it's underrated af bc it's a niche pairing.

i will tag @aperfect20 since i already tagged her in the text of the post. no pressure tho.