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Renegade

Renegade : Traitor/ Betrayer Pairing : Jimin x Reader Word Count : 2.5k Summary : You got lied and trapped by your own beloved now it's on you how to escape him but it won't be easy as you think.

INSPIRED by the song 'renegade' by Aaryan Shah.

Warnings : ONLY ADULT AUDIANCE PERMITTED! MINORS PLEASE SKIP. TOXIC THEME, dark, yandere, obsessive, narcissistic personality, sociopath, manipulation, dollification. (nothing smutty), Mentions of fire, burns, torture, cuss words and more.

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Renegade : traitor/ betrayer

I woke up gasping for air, my breathing was not steady. I had a nightmare again it's like a daily routine at this point.

Every time it feels he'll be the cause of my death no not the romantic one. He really will be the cause of my death in reality.

He?

My boyfriend

Yes you read it correct.

My own boyfriend of one year

My eyes looked around the room. Nothing changed the same shabby, dark, dull place he has kept me here, he kept me here against my will.

Psychoish? Murderer? Maniac? Insane? Obsessed? Delusional? out of his head?

You don't know what he is. He claims to be your boyfriend but his behaviour it's like he owns you or something. And the way he calls you doll? Gives you creeps. Just by hearing his voice can make anyone have goosebumps within seconds. His voice is like a siren alluring, seductive and sexy.

After being trapped here for 6 months you know he is anything but humane, he has no compassion whatsoever no sympathy for anyone not even his own girlfriend. Do you think a sane boyfriend will keep his girlfriend trapped for so long?

He talks to you like you are a non living thing, like a doll hence the nickname. Being captive here for 6 months or more you don't know, it's been a while since you were free. No he doesn't allow clock, calendar, television, or anything in your room.

He expects you to be silent like a doll, no expression just completely quite. Ofcourse no human can be like that you did expressed so many emotions like anger, depressed, gloomy, miserable yet nothing worked on him. He lacked empathy. If you make him mad he is gonna teach you a lesson so you don't repeat the mistakes again ever and trust me he is very cruel. Especially with you since he thinks you are a doll and you aren't supposed to feel anything.

You tried to escape, multiple times but all went down in the dumps. He might lack empathy but he is very sharp and skilled related to technology. Every door in his house can open only with his fingerprints. This is completely secret but he has a tracker in your pendent. It can't be removed from your neck as it's short and made up of core hardened steel alloy.

You remember the last time you tried to escape. Jimin left the door of your room open, purposely to see what will you do. You had promised him that you won't try to escape anymore or do anything that makes him angry.

He went to the room next to you to see in his tablet what your next move will be. He smirks as he sees you walking towards the door almost in disbelief. You can't believe he left the door open. Is he testing me?

Your heart told you to stay but your mind told you to take a chance what if he actually by mistake left the door open? You don't want to waste any possible chances to escape.

You ran as fast as you could your pace has slowed because he gives you only limited food that is enough to keep you awake. You stand infront of the main door hoping for a miracle at this point. You know you are stupid but you still have silly hopes. Hopes to meet your friends. They are your only family. You don't have any blood related family your friends are your companions in your lonely life.

You think of ways to open the door as tears streamed down your face. You just miss your friends you want to go back to how it was, how happy you were. Somewhere the back of your mind tells you that you did this to yourself. You are the cause of your fate, you are the culprit.

"You need any help?" He asks as you freeze in your place. Should have listened to your heart and not went out of the room. You are terrified of him and shit scared to turn around and face him.

"You tried to go away from ME? I'm disappointed I thought you promised me that you won't fuck around" His voice deep and slow but I know how much mad he is.

"Since you broke your promise I don't think I should keep mine too. It's unfair right?"

He promised to not hurt you In return you promised to not run away.

You made a mistake. You agreeing to live with jimin was a mistake, you meeting jimin was a mistake, you being born was also mistake. You don't know your parents they just gave you up. You're not upset with them. Who would want to have a child like you. Jimin has messed up your brain. You couldn't think rationally and just keep blaming yourself because he blames you for his loss or if something bad happens.

He looks at you straight in the eye you don't what is going through his sick head. He sure is thinking of doing something fun. It might be fun for him but for you, you are done.

He drags you to the kitchen counter and makes you sit there. You could have ran away and hide in your room but do you really want to make him more mad. Mad than he already is?

He turns on the stove and puts a kettle filled with water. You're confused is he making tea right now?

He didn't even turned back to look at you he keeps looking at the boiling water as if it's calming him down but is he really calm or just so mad that he doesn't even want to face you.

You open your mouth to say something but no words are ready to escape. Do you really want to apologise to him? You brain tells you apologise if you want to escape and your heart tells you not beg from a deranged person like him. Is he even a person?

You are in your own thoughts when jimin is standing infront of you. Weird fact is he is not glaring at you. It's like he us trying to study what you were thinking about escaping.

Park Jimin never lets anyone know his true emotions he hides them covers them up. He thinks Everyone will try to hurt him because his thoughts are different they are far from humanity. They are filled with dark, toxic, twisted things no one could imagine.

But he lets you see his thoughts. Why? one might ask? Because he thinks you are doll a lifeless thing which can't speak. His only doll, the only one who can understand him. The only one who knows the real him. His doll

His eyes studies your face and a tear drops from his eyes.

"My pretty doll....are you a renegade?"

You are confused by this. Why is he suddenly calling you a traitor when he is the one who betrayed you trapped you here?

" In order to be a renegade, you have to be prepared to walk alone and follow your own path" His hands slightly brush against your calf then moves up carefully to your thighs as he grips them tightly.

"How will you walk alone when you are my doll? I'm the one who owns you, I am the one who controls you, I'm the one who knows the best for you, your goal is to satisfy me and only me."

He takes a the kettle in one hand and looks at me

"Your legs which carried you to the door should be cauterised" he says he pours the hot boiling water on my feets. I tried to scram away but his body infront of me kept me trapped to suffer in agony from the burning pain.

He grabbed by the nape and forced me to walk towards the stove I didn't noticed but the stove was on and the fire was still going on. I couldn't walk properly due to new developed burns but he kept dragging me there. I knew this might happen still I did this he is right I'm dumb to even try to escape.

He had my wrist in his right grip as I kept crying begging for him to let me go. This was pure torture.

"Your hands which tried to open the door these ridiculous hands if I want I would have incinerate them. I'm being Kind to a worthless doll like you instead of being obedient you are causing trouble. You don't even deserve to roam around the room"

He pressed my hands on the fire causing my palms to burn it hurts like hell. Almost a third degree burn I'm sure.

You look at his face to see he is crying too.... Both are crying from different pains Difference is one is physical and other is mental. He looks as if he is the one getting the burns. He us feeling so many emotions at once. Anger, sadness, jealousy, disappointed. Too bad He only thinks of his emotions he doesn't give a fuck about how others think that's how his personality is.

He lets your hand goes as you're really on the verge of fainting. You fall on the ground as he kneels to match your height. He cups both of your cheeks while his thumb caress your cheekbones. He gives you a forehead kiss and stays there for a second. He breathes deeply and says.

"This is your fault you deserve this my doll. Next time it will be harder than this I promise"

You can't look at him as you faint in his arms while he carried you back to your room to medicate you. He lays your body on the bed while he begans to treat your palms and feet.

Now in present you look at your bandages. these burns was done by him two weeks ago. You stopped talking to him and he didn't seem to mind ofcourse thats what he wants. You wonder if your friends ever miss you. Jimin has told all of them that you both are shifting far away but he lied. Obviously.

Your friends warned to multiple times to not roam around him, to not trust him and what you did the complete opposite. You trusted him with you life and ended up here trapped. Your consciousness tells you "you are wrong your friends were right, they were always right. They knew there was something shady about the park jimin but you shushed them told them not to talk bad about him"

Ofcourse Jimin wasn't like this or he maybe was but just he used a facade to get you right into his trap. He took the perfect opportunity to make you fall for him. He also knew how you don't have a family who might look for you. Everything perfect.

As I'm scaning my room waiting for him to enter. During this time he comes in my room to feed me. The door unlockes and I freeze in my spot.

He enters and again locked the doors, his face is too serious as if he is mad somewhat. When he is around me he shows too much emotions.

His yes meet mine and he walks closer to sit near my bed on a chair. He settles the plates and glass down. He picks up the spoon to feed me, he never let's me eat remember I'm here like a non living thing.

As he is feeding me he keeps his eyes at me as if noticing my every move. I quietly eat what he is feeding because thats all for the day. I never spoke anything with him neither did he weird because he always talks to me sometimes less or more but he does. Today he didn't said a word as if his mind is busy somewhere else.

Once I'm done he cleans everything and gets the medical box to switch my bandages. He still doesn't say a word. I'm scared. What is he thinking.... his thoughts scare me.

When he is done with the bandages he caress my hand playing with my fingers. It's like he wants to say something but he is fighting himself.

"You know how insecure I feel when you prefer your friends over me? You make me insecure, you make me feel weak. You make Park Jimin do things for you no one ever did. That's how much you mean to me but you just want to get away from me. Are your friends really that precious to you and not me? Am I not even worth for your attention? Why are you so selfish only thinking about yourself? Why don't you ever once think about what I feel? Yeah my doll didn't you promised to understand me, to help me, to always support my decision?"

He is crying again.

"Jimin-ah please one time let me meet my friends one time ?! Then I'll listen to whatever you want I'll forever live here with you I promise"

"Promise and you? You seem to love breaking promises that you keep making them to me. I'm afraid this promise can't be accepted and about your friends-"

"Jimin you won't hurt them you promised me!"

"Doll what about the millions promise you broke I can't break one?"

"What happened my dolly? Why the sulky face? Ah I get it you miss your friends right? "

He leaned closer to me. So much that there was only some centimetres gap away from each other his lips grazed my ears so slightly giving me shivers. His heavy breath on my neck making me scared because I know he is planning something shady, he is having fun.

"Don't worry my doll I'll bring your friends here too so you won't feel lonely okay? But promise me you have to be a good girl hmm? Will you do that for me?"

My eyes turned teary watching him smirk at me while he pickes up the plates and glass. He leans one more time to give me a kiss on my forehead. His face agains hardens the same way he entered.

Before he was about to go I called him.

"Please Jimin let me go I'll never tell a single soul about this I'll forget all this just please let me go"

He turns around and stares at me like I was the one who did a crime. He looks dead serious as he glares at me with an unexplainable emotion. Love? Hatred? Anger? Care? I don't know all I know is his eyes making me understood that I'm stuck here. Forever.

His lips move to speak before he turns around and slams the door shut making me a crying mess. Making me regret my whole life.

"Should've listen to them Don't you know what I am?"

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