I keep getting rejected from conventions that I've been doing for multiple years this year and I heard on Friday that I didn't get Scotland Comic Con, which I've relied on for the last two years to be able to pay my fucking rent over the winter when there's no events, and it makes me want to scream because what the fuck am I supposed to do about it?? I'm making new stuff reasonably regularly, I make really good sales when I get into cons, I go out of my way to be reliable and show up on time and do everything they want exhibitors to do, and it's just flat rejection after flat rejection, sometimes without even the courtesy of a spot on a waiting list or a cursory 'sorry, we got a lot of applicants and we've got limited space'.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, I don't think I even am doing anything wrong, I'm just getting repeatedly fucked over by event organisers who just see me as a way of increasing their own ticket sales rather than a human being trying to make a living.
And, like, part of me gets that I've been doing this for a while and folks who are new to it deserve a chance to get a foot in the door, but my ability to be charitable runs out when the biggest convention in the country decides no, we don't have enough room in our fuck-off huge venue for everyone so bye, fuck you, that ~15% of your yearly income that you rely on making at this con is just going up in smoke.
I like doing conventions, I'm good at it and it's fun, but it's getting Really Fucking Stressful to have my ability to eat and pay bills decided increasingly arbitrarily by the same five events companies who don't seem to give the slightest shit about anyone.
And I don't know what to do about it because the reason I'm doing this is because I'm too fucking autistic to get a real job, and I got kicked to the kerb by the benefits lot a few years ago because that system's fucking broken too, and the more effort I put in the less work I seem to actually get and frankly I want to fucking break something
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My silly little idea of how Pan was named...
*Goku & Gohan are eating homemade pizza that Chi-Chi made while she & Goten are out of the house. During their time alone, Gohan asks his father for some advice.*
Gohan: Dad... Can I talk to you about something? I'd go to mom but, you know how she is.
Goku: Sure, son! What is it?
Gohan: C-can you give me advice about... about sex...?
Goku: ...
Gohan: ...
Goku: You see this deep pan pizza right here, Gohan? It begins with the bread. Then ya add the sauce and cheese. And finally ya add the delicious toppings.
Gohan: Dad... Sorry, but I don't get anything you're saying.
Goku: The bread is the love. The cheese & sauce is knowing that person further. The toppings represent sex. The "toppings" are good on it's own, but it's even better when it's with the person you love.
Gohan: Woah! That's actually really smart, dad!
Goku: Hehe! I know!
*some time later during Videl's pregnancy*
Videl: Gohan, what do you think we should name our daughter?
*Gohan remembers Goku's analogy*
Gohan thinking to himself: Bread is love...
Gohan: How about "Pan"?
EDIT: I posted this on my AO3 too thanks to @longmonthartist suggesting I do so.
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My fics!
Supernatural
Watching Over You 12,986 words
Time slips past, and Castiel feels calm settle over him for the first time in months. He loses himself in the rise and fall of Dean’s chest, the soft flickering of his eyelids as he dreams. Against all odds, he finds it peaceful here. Cars rush past on the freeway outside, but Dean’s steady breathing fills Castiel’s ears until he forgets the outside world, forgets Dean’s destiny, forgets their impending doom.
How Cas learned to want, and then realized he could have what he wants.
Or; Five times Cas watches over Dean, and one time Dean watches over him instead. Told in snapshots spanning the whole of their canon relationship and ending with a post-confession fix-it.
Who are you? 500 words
Written for Whumptober 2021 prompt #9: "RUMORS OF MY DEATH HAVE BEEN GREATLY EXAGGERATED"
Dean, Jack, and Sam get Cas back from the Empty, but there's a hitch.
Going Under 500 words
Written for Whumptober 2021 prompt #11: Drowning.
Dean's been under for so long. Set during Dean’s possession in s14.
Beaten 500 words
Written for Whumptober 2021 prompt #14: Beaten.
Dean's unhealthy coping mechanisms strike again. Set during the s13 Widower Arc.
Watch 100 words
Set in S5. Cas learns to cope with life on Earth.
Fill for the PB100 prompt "Watch".
One Year 100 words
Just past midnight, Dean and Cas celebrate their anniversary.
(100 words of fluff to celebrate Dean and Cas' one-year wedding anniversary. You go you funky little husbands!)
Hold Me Tight 699 words
Set during S9 E6 Heaven Can't Wait, the morning after Cas and Dean have defeated the Rit Zien.
Of course, they decided to share a bed, but things look different in the morning light.
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BBC Merlin
Autumn Brings A Change 1,002 words
“Get away from me, Merlin!”
“Arthur, please! Just trust me! Please!”
Arthur crawled backward, dragging his leg over the ground, sword raised to point at Merlin. “How can I trust you? You lied to me, for years, about everything!”
Arthur finds out about Merlin's magic in the middle of a battle, but once it's over, he can't threaten or get away from Merlin due to a broken leg...
After All This Time 2,661 words
"A thousand?” Arthur’s voice took on a steely edge. “What, days? Weeks? You've hardly changed, Merlin, don't exaggerate.”
"Years.” Merlin gasped. He pushed himself back to stare at Arthur, to run his hands through his damp hair, keep his eyes fixed on Arthur's shocked face, as though he was just a trick of the light that would disappear as soon as Merlin looked away.
"Years." Arthur said, flatly.
"Y-yeah." Merlin's teeth began to chatter. "A thousand, five hundred, and-" a particularly violent shiver ran through him and he stumbled on the muddy lake-bed, but Arthur caught his arm and steadied him again.
"Alright, Merlin, let's get out of the water before we both freeze to death."
Merlin has waited by the lake for more than a thousand years. Finally, his patience is rewarded.
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Good Omens
Three Things Crowley Can Do With His Tongue 1,048 words
A Nice and Accurate Account of the three ways the demon Crowley – a wily old Serpent – uses his tongue.
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BBC Sherlock
Five Times John and Sherlock Slept Together and One Time They 'Slept' Together ;) 9,830 words
Five times John and Sherlock slept innocently together due to various circumstances and one time they *wink wink nudge nudge* slept together. Contains a bit of pining, a bit of misunderstanding, and a happy ending, if ya know what I mean... ;)
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