#this is beyond hyperfixation

[moth-bells]

I cant get vampire brian out of my head Like imagining him being a vampire before he ends up how he does, and he doesnt want to hurt anyone, so he used to steal from hospitals and blood banks to get what he needed Until Tim finds out about him and tentatively offers to help And when shit hits the fan, Tim hasnt seen Brian at anypoint that he remembers, but hes seen that hooded motherfucker. He thinks Brian is gone for good.. Until theres a knock on his door. Tim answers it, not sure what hes gonna find, but he sure as shit didnt expect the guy with the hood and ski mask to collapse into his house. And hes freaked out, but this bastard isnt in any condition to hurt anyone. So he drags him in and hears the guy mumbling something. Tim cant hear a single god damn word the guy is saying, so he finally nuts up and pulls the mask up. At first, he doesnt recognize the man, but up and up that mask goes until he's horrified to see a too pale face. Its Brian. He looks like shit, like the time Tim found him and he hadnt managed to get any blood bags to drink from. Tim knows exactly what this is and like that he doesnt give a shit what Brian's done, hes unbuttoning his shirt to expose more of his throat. Brian's bordering on delirious, but Tim can hear him now. "No..I can't...I'll kill you.." Tim doesnt reply to that at first as he's sitting down on the floor and dragging his friend to sit up more. He's pressing Brian's face into his neck, letting him feel the heat of blood and the thumping of his heart. Buh-dum Buh-dum Buh-dum

"I dont care."

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Wrapping up the season with a redraw (Jan 2024)!

Thank you all for these last 6 months, I have loved making so many people laugh from my silly comics B*)

[ofbardsandmen]

KAEYA SPOTTED. NEURONS ACTIVATED.

[satsuha]

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[cloudyjamjohn]

Egbert, Gender, Disappointment, and Freedom.

This is my house and I will say what I want, but to start here is a disclaimer: This is a big long rant of my thoughts! I don't mind explaining stuff in further detail but be kind! June Egbert is canon and nothing can change that. But if you're going to act like Egbert can't be read as transmasc or nonbinary in the original texts I do think you're being deliberately obtuse. The idea that the transmasc and genderfluid john headcanons that persisted for years before the popularization of June Egbert were all a result of projection and had no substance or reasoning is disingenuous. If you firmly believe John and June can NOT coexist and are certain you won’t change your mind this post isn’t for you. Now then this is my rambling thoughts on why I love genderfluid John and believe his existence would save him. When June first became popularized as a headcanon many of the points people brought up, akining them to their personal trans fem experiences were some of the same points other people used for trans masc john- but, for lack of better wording, it was like looking at these experiences through a funhouse mirror. Where some people perceived June as clinging to the toxic aspects of masculinity to cope with what she thought she needed to be and just remaining miserable for it, others perceived trans masc john as doing the same. Overcompensating for different reasons in a sense. Did June cling to it because it was what her dad wanted? Expected? Did John cling to it as a comfort? Something necessary to be a “man”? The original comic gives us no definitive answers, but something everyone can agree on is these ideas of being manly, strong, and (maybe) insensitive/jerky do Egbert more harm than good. Is this entirely intentional though or is this a result of people not perceiving John as a whole?

Outside of moments where John verbally reasserts his manliness and toughness, where do John’s interests lie? Jokes and practical japery, magic, video games and movies, and paranormal lore. Dissecting these only one of them may really explore John’s inner feelings of gender in Homestuck- his love of movies. John loves action and apocalyptic films, expressing his love of the traditionally masculine, rough and manly male leads with admiration for the female characters sprinkled in here and there. For Con Air he projected heavily onto the male lead, idolizing the idea of being a strong hero, standing up for what’s right, and (most interestingly) being reunited with a loving wife and daughter. While someone could brush this off as June looking for a role model in what she thinks she is supposed to be, or perhaps misattributing some kind of romantic attraction to a feeling of “wanting to be him”, I think it goes deeper than that. If we were to remove the concept of gender from this entirely it shows that Egbert wants to be strong, a hero, and part of a loving family- specifically in the role of a caretaker who is desired and respected. John only ever defends his adoration when other people mock or belittle him for it. His hatred for the film only manifests during a time John’s own self hatred and grief were at an all time high, his denouncement of ConAir not really being targeted at Cameron Poe but himself and his frustration of being (mostly) isolated and confined. 

Is this even about gender anymore? Let’s look further.

While some people do think Dad was abusive, or June hated him, I have to disagree. Because despite young Egbert perceiving their father as this pinnacle of manliness, is that what you actually saw? Because despite dad Egbert being sharp, strong, and gentlemanly he did a lot of things that weren't traditionally masculine. A single father raised by a single mother, he baked often and taught John the art of pranking- one of their greatest joys and something June stopped doing in the epilogues/BC despite it being one of her favorite things and an integral part to her character. Dad never belittled John, each of his letters full of praise and support, almost heavy handedly so. While he would often use gendered language- such as "son", "man", etc.- the idea that any of it was malicious, as if to curb any femininity June might show, seems a bit of a stretch. Dad Egbert remained silently worried, perhaps the only true poignant evidence of toxic masculinity, when John suffered from nightmares and scribbled his inner hatred over his posters in the colors of those he considered his friends.But maybe he did ask, and maybe John didn’t understand because he couldn’t see his own writing on the walls. Which led to the miscommunication and Dad Egbert trying to support his child’s “interest” in harlequin dolls with matching gifts.

The truth of dad egbert is he is a man who was loved, whose corpse John discovered at the tender age of 13, and was never properly mourned.

How does gender play into this???

It doesn’t, and that’s the issue. Egbert, despite their quirks and the uniqueness of their circumstances, is a character people project onto and relate to. They are a trusting character who despite their skepticism loves their friends and does their best to believe in them. Personalized cards on their birthdays, gifts catered to them, thinking of them fondly, listening to them not because they want to but because they TRUST them- even when their friends belittle them, mock them, blame them. Karkat projects his own self-hatred onto John. Dave projects his bro’s expectations onto John. Vriska projects her entire EGO onto John.

And they take it. Because John struggles with their identity, their grief, their communication, their responsibilities, and their own self hatred.

Because John HATES himself and he doesn’t want to disappoint others and have them hate him too. They expect him to be a leader when he just wants to be their friend. They expect him to be a “man” so he tries to fit that role. They expect him to take care of himself and he doesn’t know how, having always followed what others asked of him even if they wouldn’t do the same for him.

And even not Egbert can not meet the expectations of the audience. There will be people who are disappointed if “John” ceases to exist, and people who are disappointed if “June” isn’t all she is. There are people disappointed with June’s clothes and figure despite her being nothing more than a nameless silhouette. Too feminine. There would be people who would be disappointed if she was too masculine. 

While people criticize the genderfluid John headcanon for its “only” root being set in John’s aspect of Breath- freedom and change- I think they’re missing the mark. Because it can also mean to be unbound. Unbound from the expectations and the worries of others, shifting on a whim to whatever feels most right. Freedom of expression, a shift from role to role, a trickster god who stands center stage as whatever they wish rather than a stone-stiff silhouette.

While genderfluidity may sound like a compromise to some, a cop-out to not disappoint anyone, I think it would save John from disappointing themselves. It’s not just about expression after all, them being a woman or man may bring personal euphoria but it doesn’t fix their destroyed relationships. It won’t suddenly make them a more sensitive person, a less anxious person, a person unburdened by responsibilities no matter what some people might think. That would take work.

But, while it may be hard to empathize for those of you who aren’t nonbinary or genderfluid or even trans, feeling free from the burdens of a binary can be invigorating. Not having to worry about how well you present, how “right” or “wrong” you are, is freeing. I truly believe John cutting ties with these self/peer-imposed expectations would leave him room to grow, to look inward, to not worry about changing on the outside but rather on the inside.

That’s my take on the matter at least. At its core I really do believe Egbert’s biggest issues aren’t their gender but rather their grief, lack of support system, and possible undiagnosed autism. I think genderfluid john would be awesome, but therapy would probably be better. Either way June is awesome and I hope she stands center stage with John one day, like Roxy and Roxy. Either that like army of John and Junes lead by a single John that has shed their flesh and moral form, that would be super cool.

Be kind to others and don’t spread hate! <3

[choccychippi]

yeah

Based off this thing from @tordskas

[s0fter-sin]

i have an old wip of aizawa secretly bringing in someone with an illusion quirk and putting 1-A in groups of two and running a training course with them and making them think something’s gone wrong and they have to watch it kill him so he can prepare them for not only seeing someone die in the field but it also being their fault… i wish i could finish that

[urban-shade]

I genuinely think you might be Sebastian Solace's biggest fan, you inspire me to be crazier about him. You make such lovely amazing awesome art stuffs of him and your intelligent musings on him change my brain chemistry for the good and inject inspiration juice straight into my bloodstream.

Thanks for being smart and cool and such a good artist, you make my world brighter. :)

THANK YOUU 😭😭😭😭dis made me cry.. he does something to my brain...pressure in general too. its like a bomb went off in there. the themes of his story and pressure in general resonate so deeply with me

[theongp]

Kdramas made me do it

Fall in love with trauma-filled couples, also protectiveness is a bonus point

Beautiful loves beautiful last scenes, all of them ❤️

[wysteriagem]

Oh my god my Octonauts hyperfixation has come back stronger than ever, it’s consuming my entire being AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

[sol-insidious]

Wim double-checking he's holding the right end of Jod's lightsaber before igniting it

[ghostsdonthavefaces]

I love how Joker can go from absolutely dramatic and intimidating, even terrifying with those eyes and grin-

To a silly little guy

With silly jokes and grins.

[probablyjustturtle]

Me when I finish a new show and have a favorite character I think has good fanfiction potential but I go to look and there's no fanfiction about my little blorbo

[the-chosen-half-of-one]

[ID: The Toy Story "I don't want to play with you anymore" meme where Andy is throwing the Woody doll on the ground, with Woody labelled to read, "Subject I've been literally obsessed with for years," and Andy labelled, "Me getting a new hyperfixation over the course of a day." End ID]

[the-cinnamontography-is-amazing]

Bella Swan needed adderall and a hobby and she would've been fine...

[bigsexxorr]

Hey guys! I'm loving the Wizard of the Citadel subclass and in celebration for Arc 4 coming out tomorrow, I wanted to share the love with seven homebrew secrets! Let me know what you all think, but I'm really happy with how this turned out!