#this is just one of those days where i wanna scream linkin park songs at the top of my lungs

[absoluteindulgence]

HC: Hot Girl Summer with the Boys

A/N: Hey y’all, I’m back... Let’s party. This is a magical world where the Rona has not taken over the world and summertime was filled with nothing but fun and bad choices ✌🏿. Sorry that it’s long, I had a lot of thoughts lmao. I hope you guys like this~ Characters are aged up⬆🆙

☀ 🌞Mirio🌞☀

Staying home reading a book... just fucking kidding

Mirio couldn't keep his ass still even if you told him to

This man is taking you all over the world, every amusement park to every ride.

Ever looked fear in the face? Well, being in front of every rollercoaster multiple times means you have.

His true daredevil nature comes out as you both try to see who will last longer going down the roller coaster

You've wanted to throw in the towel many times, but persevered, beating Mirio by a landslide. 

Due to all the crowded lines and the fact that you're heroes, everyone lets you skip. You try being modest, but it doesn't work as the other patrons say, "Not only are you my favorite heroes but my favorite couple. You deserve to have fun!"

The willingness of everyone approving of your vacation time is gratifying, to say the least.

After spending time doing all the extreme rides, You guys enjoy all the other stalls.

Ironic enough, Mirio comes across the win-a-prize games and swears to get you one.

You try to tell him not to worry, but that fires him up more. I guess in his blonde brain, he thinks you don't want one, so he wants to prove your cute ass wrong.

And oh boy, did he.

He had accurate precision: Throwing the ball in the cup, throwing the hoop onto the bottle, shooting the paper plate off entirely.

Mirio the Assassin confirmed

After managing to win 4 STUFFED ANIMALS, 3 are for you while 1 goes to Eri.

The feels right in the kokoro~

With enough wins under his belt, Mirio treats you to bubble tea and taiyaki. With no shame, you stuff your face happy to finally enjoy food that won't come up.

"Wow, this taiyaki sure is great! But nothing is as sweet as you, baby."

Heart: ABLAZE

This goofball can't even let you enjoy your food in silence. But his honest smile compliments the moment as your flushed cheeks puff from drinking your favorite thirst quencher.

The day ends with you walking around the amusement park, arms full of toys, and finding a unique spot to watch the marvel of the sunset.

As you hold hands, a glance is shared as you two share a passionate kiss.

❄Shouto🔥

You guys are spending a lot of time reading manga and going to cafes.

Shouto lives to see you get dressed up as you let your hair flow in the wind (no matter how long or short, he knows you like the cool air on your scalp. The smile that spreads across your face is contagious as he stares at you with a similar grin)

Your beauty leaves all the other pedestrians gawking as Shouto, nonchalant but proud holds your hand.

Some fans come up to take selfies with you guys and damn do the photos look good. 

Going to various cafes through Japan has been a bucket list that you've shared since your first date. Rating each and creating a rating system. When all other plans fail, the top-rated are the ones you'll go back to.

The day is mellow, leaving you to stay inside because you feel like it. Cuddling with Shouto has proved to be an all-time favorite.

His light snores turn into light conversations. He has a hard time opening his eyes since he feels secure in having you by his side.

When you finally wake up, you cook together, his fave ofc, Cold-ass Soba. (One time you pranked him by boiling the noodles in strawberry milk, and he retaliated by putting pepper in your tea. On that day, you learned not to come between a man and his soba)

When yearning for a little excitement, you drag Shouto to a karaoke bar

He tries not to get too involved, but then you play one of his favorite angsty songs, and he's singing like one of the greats

You can't tell me that Shouto wouldn't vibe to Linkin Park, 3 Days Grace or The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (Especially when he hated Endeavor to his core)

Shouto would give an excellent performance to Breaking The Habit, Home, and Face Down. I FEEL IT IN MY SPIRIT!!!

The only way you feel like you'll win…. Is if you rap Monster (Nicki's Verse ofc) or sing My Heart Will Go On lmao

Shouto thinks you're cheating tho because those are your trump cards when all else fails lmaooo

After the scream-singing match is done, you guys go home and drink a bunch of tea, hoping your voices aren't gone by the morning

💥Bakugou💥

If you're going to an amusement park, y'all going straight to the "horror" houses.

You guys usually go in to laugh at the horrible attempts to make you scared. Until there's that one jump scare that makes your heart leap out your chest.

You're breathless with the mocking laugh caught in your throat as you grip close to Katsuki's side.

This fiery bastard laugh gets even louder seeing you cower in embarrassment. Once he's done making fun of you, he kisses your forehead.

"About damn time, you move in close."

Now say you're not at an amusement park? You guys are going to the spa.

Not because you're tense but because it's always funny seeing Katsuki tense up when they try to butter him with complimentary things (thanks to being top heroes).

He hates going to public spaces and getting stuff for free. He wants to pay for the experience so that no one can say he takes advantage of his status.

Although it creates funny scenarios, you respect how committed he is.

His reasoning is that he's a citizen paying another citizen for their service.

Granted, if the service is excellent, the worker is guaranteed a tip (depending on the country since he likes to follow customs).

The funniest thing is him coming from Massage therapy, he's a big ol’ softie.

The cuddles are intense, and his face never changes from the color pink, and his smile is curved too high.

Onlookers seeing him smile are terrified, and yet you are smushing his face between your hands kissing him all over.

"You look so relaxed, Boomer, let's take a bath together~."

Coming back to his senses, he'll grit his teeth a little and retort, "I'm not a damn Boomer!"

He's not mad that you called him that he's just mad you said it in public LMFAO

🌋Kirishima🌋

You guys are spending most of your time at the beach, soaking in the sun and enjoying his thick ass hands rubbing sunscreen all over your body

Don't let him see you enjoying it, he might have to pull you away from the public and give you that good ole sea cucumber

But when he can't get your sweetness right away, he'll have to push his energy into something else

And ofc, Kiri has an active personality, and when you mix that with demolishing opponents while playing volleyball, you too get into your competitive mode.

Anyone playing against you guys will catch HELL. Some cried from the impact of the ball, hitting them. Some deserving for the shit-talking...

Others getting sincere apologies and an autograph or picture lmao

Everyone on the beach knows you two as the power couple, and you win the nicknames, Otters of the Sand.

After kicking so much ass, you guys enter an eating contest as a team. Everyone's surprised to see how many bowls you've cleared. The appetite is already built up, so you guys are willing to stuff your faces until you're waddling back to the hotel.

And with the stamina you've gained at UA, you made it happen. In Second place to Kiri. He basks in his crown, winning first place, and you guys happily waddle back to your hotel room, taking a shower together then cuddling.

Imagine you guys decide to stay lax the whole summer, video, and card games are the vibe.

You try hard to kick his ass in Smash and end up losing... No matter who you main. You even try random (3 times) and still lose.

"Wow, Babe, you're doing well for a sore loser. You almost got a 3 stock victory!"

His laugh ticks you off even though he's just teasing you, and you wanna switch the game. Even in the back of your head, you deem it pointless, but he still obliges you.

No tlk angy frm l0sng😡💢

When you've played your last game, you accept your defeat only to tickle him into submission.

He apologizes and wraps you into a bear hug smothering you in kisses.

[the-laridian]

Bad Trip playlist

It's on YouTube because at least one track isn't on Spotify. Wherever possible, I included videos with only lyrics or still images, the exception being "The Fine Print" which was made specifically for the Outer Worlds.

Lyric samples under the cut if you're interested, we used to do this back in the fanmix days.

Rowan Rolling Stones - 2000 Light Years From Home Sun turnin' 'round with graceful motion We're setting off with soft explosion Bound for a star with fiery oceans It's so very lonely, you're a hundred light years from home Freezing red deserts turn to dark Energy here in every part It's so very lonely, you're six hundred light years from home Bell Flight Fourteen, you now can land See you on Aldebaran Safe on the green desert sand It's so very lonely, you're two thousand light years from home The Stupendium - The Fine Print (All the lyrics to this song, but specifically) Were you expecting adventure? Were you hoping for fun? My friend you’re indentured And pleasure’s exempt from your tenure So venture back down to your slum That's provided at generous prices Your worth is determined by your sacrifices Scylla (outside): Mazedude - Surface of the Moon (Instrumental) Brian McFadden - Demons Have you ever been lost in a different world Where everything you once knew, is gone And you find yourself powerless With everything that exists You're numb Will I ever break free I searched my world but I can't find you You're standing there but I can't touch you Try to talk but the words are just not there I can feel a sense of danger You stare at me like I'm a stranger Paralyzed and you don't seem to care The demons in my dreams Placebo ft VV of The Kills - Meds I was alone, falling free Trying my best not to forget What happened to us, what happened to me What happened as I let it slip I was confused by the powers that be Forgetting names and faces Passers by, were looking at me As if they could erase it Baby...did you forget to take your meds? I was alone, staring over the ledge Trying my best not to forget All manner of joy, all manner of glee And our one heroic pledge How it mattered to us, how it mattered to me And the consequences I was confused, by the birds and the bees Forgetting if I meant it Baby..did you forget to take your meds? (And the sex, and the drugs, and the complications) Max J Englishman ft Esthero - The Hero Well I've been watching from the shadows While you shook your fist at God And screamed for all who listened About how he's done you wrong Why don't you put away your pistols Climb down off your cross 'Cause the battle's long been over And the war is long since lost And all those bridges that you've broken Done burned down long ago 'Cause you just had to be the superstar You just had to be the hero Well I was there in the beginning And I saw you choose your path I watched your candle burning And I knew it wouldn't last 'Cause when experience comes knocking Innocence will pass And all that once seemed child-like Is now ugly, crude and crass And you wonder how you lost yourself So many years ago Are you as angry on the inside as you are on the surface? Been frontin' so long you've forgotten the purpose Now there's a hole in the whole Where your soul used to be Rowan/Max Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong (When this began) I had nothing to say And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to find That I'm not the only person with these things in mind (Inside of me) But all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel (Nothing to lose) Just stuck, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own I wanna heal, I wanna feel What I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long Erase all the pain 'til it's gone I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like I'm close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I've got nothing to say I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face (I was confused) Looking everywhere, only to find That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind (So what am I?) What do I have but negativity? 'Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me (Nothing to lose) Nothing to gain, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own I will never know myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel

anything else, until my wounds are healed I will never be anything 'til I break away from me I will break away, I'll find myself today Relient K - Be My Escape I’ve given up on giving up slowly I’m blending in so you won’t even know me Apart from this whole world that shares my fate This one last bullet you mention Is my one last shot at redemption 'Cause I know to live, you must give your life away And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing where to go I promise I’m going because I gotta get outta here I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get outta here And I'm begging you, I'm begging you I’m begging you to be my escape I'm giving up on doing this alone now 'Cause I've failed and I’m ready to be shown how You've told me the way and I'm trying to get there And this life sentence that I'm serving I admit that I'm every bit deserving But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair I am a hostage to my own humanity Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I've made And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me But I can't ask you to give what you already gave I fought you for so long, I should have let you win (Oh, how we regret those things we do) And all I was trying to do was save my own skin But so were you, so were you

[dancerdiaries]

Guys. Consider. A ballet class music album but with hard rock/gothic rock/metal covers.

So, there are lots of ballet music albums made up of piano covers of pop songs. And I love those a lot!

But like...sometimes you just wanna do grand allegro to “Lacrymosa” by Evanescence.

And there’s no existing ballet music version of “Lacrymosa” by Evanescence.

Someone needs to change that.

I present my ideas for a hard rock ballet music collection:

Triple meter:

*some of these aren’t originally triples, but I imagine they can work as triples)

Broken - Seether ft. Amy Lee (pirouette) Lacrymosa - Evanescence (grand allegro, grand pirouette) Bring Me to Life - Evanescence (pirouette) Lithium - Evanescence (rond de jambe) Mordred's Lullaby - Heather Dale (pirouette) One More Day - Noctura (absolutely a grand allegro) Speak to Me - Amy Lee (rond de jambe) Somewhere - Within Temptation (pirouette) Shot in the Dark - Within Temptation (grand allegro)

Duple meter:

Breathe No More - Evanescence (adage/rdj) Angels - Within Temptation (tendu) All That I'm Living For - Evanescence (petit battement) Everybody's Fool - Evanescence (slow tendu) Familiar Taste of Poison - Halestorm (fondu, as a tango) Forgiven - Within Temptation (stretch) Going Under - Evanescence (fondu) Good Enough - Evanescence (tendu) Make a Move - Icon for Hire (petit battement) Pieces - Icon for Hire (petit allegro) Shot in the Dark - Within Temptation (grand battement) Hero - Skillet (coda) Sinead - Within Temptation (tendu) The Change - Evanescence (degage) Weight of the World - Evanescence (would easily make a good tango for fondus, pirouettes) Where the Lonely Ones Roam - Digital Daggers (tendu) Riot - Three Days Grace (grand battement) Silent Scream - Anna Blue (degage) Like You - Evanescence (tendu) Imperfection - Evanescence (petit allegro) Fade - Noctura (grand battement) In the End - Linkin Park (warm-up jump) Amaranthine - Amaranthe (quick tendu, petit allegro) The Truth Beneath the Rose - Within Temptation (grand battement)

[lovemesomesurveys]

[found at: eightfortysix]

Who are you? My name is Stephanie.

What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? -I’ve been distant and withdrawn these past few years, but I’m just a mess and wrapped up in my own head and the shit I’m dealing with and haven’t been able to really be there for anyone. It’s not that I don’t care. -I get in very moody and irritable moods. -I’m always tired and feel drained.

Where do you want to be in 5 years? I don’t know.

Are you more child-like or childish? I think I’m still a child at heart. I also feel like one when I get in my moody moods and cry over the most ridiculous things.

What is the last thing you said out loud? “Goodnight.”

How do you handle a rainy day? I don’t do anything different unless I leave the house, in which case I’d just dress differently for the weather. 

What did you want to be when you grew up? I wanted to be a teacher.

Are you more of a giver or a taker? I feel like I’ve been more of a taker these past few years. 

Have you ever been given a second chance? Yes.

Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind? I think I do for the most part. 

What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? The accident that made me a paraplegic. 

Who have you hugged today? I haven’t hugged anyone today so far.

If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by learning, what would they be? I’d be fluent in Spanish, an amazing pianist, and something useful that I could use to be successful in life. 

What 3 things do you want to do before you die? Get my shit together, do something worthwhile with my life, and travel. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing? Uhhh.

Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved? I’ve had mine saved.

What was the last thing you made with your own hands? I’m not crafty.

What was your favorite toy as a child? I was obsessed with Barbies.

What is your favorite thing to do outside? The only outdoor activity I enjoy is spending time at the beach.

How do you feel when you see a rainbow? It’s always pretty cool because it’s a rarity for me.

Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? Certain things I’ve dreamt have happened, but not like aspiration dreams or anything serious.

What one thing have you done that most people haven't? Hmm. I can’t think of anything cool. I just keep thinking of negative things.

Are you a patient person? No.

What holiday should exist but doesn't? I don’t know.

What's the best joke you ever heard? I don’t know, man.

Is your hair natural or dyed? I dye it red, but it’s been almost a year so my natural hair color has outgrown quiteee a bit.

What is under your bed right now? Nothing.

If you drive do you frequently speed? I don’t drive.

What is the world's best song to dance to? There’s a ton of great, upbeat, perfect dance songs.

What song was on the last time you danced with someone? I haven’t danced with anyone.

Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? I watch stuff from both, but I mean Disney will always hold a special place. 

Would you consider yourself to be romantic? I haven’t had a chance to really find out.

If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off? We’d be swept away.

If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole? I wanna live with Santa. haha.

Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television? I mean, I love music but I don’t listen to it as much as I used to. I love having favorite shows and movies to binge watch and obsess over. Ideally, I’d like to just keep both, though. Thanks.

What do you think makes someone a hero? People have their own ideas about what makes someone a hero.

What cartoon would you like to be a character in? Hmm. Can it be something Disney?

Name one thing that turns your stomach. The smell of old food.

What was the last thing you paid for? Bills. Bleh.

Get anything good in the mail recently? No. It’s died down since Christmas has ended.

Tell me some of your greatest fears. I’ve done this so many times in surveys; I don’t feel like it right now.

What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? I haven’t worn anything eccentric. I keep it pretty simple.

Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet? Ew, noooo.

You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items... A tent, food, my phone. 

List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most. I love my family, which includes my doggo. They’re all my number 1.

If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself...what would you wish for? The end of the pandemic, no one would have to ever go hungry, and no more violence.

How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in? I would never do that.

Have you ever been on the radio or on TV? I’ve been on the local news before. It was after my accident.

Have you ever named an individual part of your body? No.

Is there anyone you trust completely? Yes.

Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye? Yes. 

Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool? I’d prefer an indoor pool instead of a jacuzzi. 

Would you consider yourself to be intelligent? No.

Would you consider yourself to be wise? No.

Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring? No. That would be difficult for me to do anyway.

Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star? I really don’t want to be either of those things.

Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? Not a love letter per se, but I’ve written someone a long message expressing exactly how I feel about them and the hurt I’ve felt and pretty much just laid everything out on the table.

Are you looking forward to any concerts right now? There aren’t concerts going on.

About how many emails do you get a day? Like 20-30ish.

Have you ever though about hitchhiking across the country? Uh, I would never, ever hitchhike. 

Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip? I would have a road trip with just people I know.

If you are single, at about what age do you think you will be ready to settle down? I don’t know. I just don’t feel a relationship is a good idea for me right now. It’s not my where my focus is. It’s not where my heart is.

Do you often wonder, when you say goodbye to people, if it is the last time? It’s crossed my mind at times.

What movie are you most looking forward to seeing when it comes out? I’m excited for new Marvel movies, the new Halloween movie, and the new Scream movie. I look forward to seeing what else is coming out. 

What's on your key chain besides keys? I actually only have one key, but I have a ton of keychains. 

How do you feel about endangered species? It’s sad.

What was the last CD you bought? It’s been several years since I last bought a CD, so I don’t recall.

Would you be willing to go hang gliding? Noooo.

Have you ever taken a lock of someone else's hair? Uh, no.

Have you ever given anyone a lock of your hair? My mom has a lock of mine from when I had my first haircut as a baby.

If you had a locket what would you put inside? A photo of my family.

What is the difference (if any) between madness and brilliance? That makes me think of Jack Sparrow quote, “it’s remarkable how often these two traits coincide.”

Write any random sentence here Nah.

Say the sentence you wrote out loud. Did anybody answer?

If you were to hit redial on your phone right now, who would it call? I don’t think there’s a redial button, but the last person I called was my mom.

Miracle on 34th street: which is better the original or remake? I’ve actually never seen either one.

Have you ever been in a parade? No.

Do you turn the base up all the way in your car? The volume is at a reasonable level. Do you care if what you do annoys others? I mean, yes. Unless it was like, “it annoys me how much you drink coffee”, in which case I wouldn’t give a shit haha. You get the idea.

What keeps you from being happy? Depression.

Can you talk for one hour without using the word 'like'? *shrug* Maybe.

Why is it that a fly can't bird but a bird can fly? Because a bird is an animal and not an action. 

What websites are addictive to you? Tumblr and YouTube.

Who do you love so much that you would clean live maggots out of their garb? I love my family more than anything, but... klsjfksjdflk I’d have to get someone else to do that I’m sorry. D:

Have you filled out an organ donor card? No.

How many oxymorons can you think of? Pretty ugly. I don’t feel like thinking of more.

How many years old is your diary/livejournal/myspace? I’ve had this survey Tumblr since 2014.

Would you ever wear vinyl pants? No.

What was the last thing that you printed out? I don’t even remember, it’s been a long time.

What are you dependent on? My family.

What do you look forward to each day? My first cup of coffee.

What did you think of the Columbine shootings? It was horrific.

What takes your breath away? Hm.

Have you done anything recently that you regret? Yes.

Will you ever do it again? I’m very stubborn.

In your opinion what gives people depth and character? Experiences?

What’s the name of your favorite band? Linkin Park.

Do you have an account on neopets.com? Aw, I did when I was a kid. I loved neopets.

Who is the next person you will hug? The only person I really hug is my mom. 

Where was your last vacation to? Disneyland almost a year ago.

Where was your last car ride to? The doctor.

Where was your last bus ride to? I used to take it sometimes when I was in college.

Where did you last walk to? It’s been yearsss.

What is the worst band in the universe? I don’t know.

What is the next book you want to read? I’m about to start a new one called, “Anything For You” by Marissa Finch.

What gives you a peaceful feeling? Being at the beach watching and listening to the ocean waves crash in and out.

Do you ever stay up late watching infomercials? No, at night my TV is either on The Hallmark Channel, TVLand, or CMT. I remember back when I was a kid and the only thing on late at night was informercials, which really sucked when I was up late because I was sick or just couldn’t sleep. I’m glad there’s actual stuff on now on a lot of channels. But there’s also other options if there weren’t, like YouTube or a streaming services. I wish I had those as a kid.

Are you a light sleeper? Yes.

Are you a toys-R-us kid? “I don’t wanna grow up, cause I’m a Toys R Us kid.”

Are you part of the mile high club? No.

Would you rather be part cat, or part scorpion, and why? I’ll definitely go with the cat. 

When you sleep next to someone who usually falls asleep first? I’m always last to fall asleep.

What is your usual breakfast? If I have breakfast it’s usually scrambled eggs with shredded cheese and spinach with guacamole on the side (guac and eggs are really good together). Lately, I’ve been really into breakfast sandwiches. I like to have either a croissant, english muffin, or sourdough bread with eggs, cheese, avocado, pesto, and cream cheese and 10/10 highly recommend. I also like eggs smothered with country gravy.

How quickly are you willing to take drugs to numb pain? It’s much worse to sit around and wait while it gets worse cause then the medicine takes even longer to kick in.

Have you ever had your car towed? I don’t have a car of my own.

Have you ever used Kool-Aid to dye your hair? No, but I remember a couple of my cousins did that when they were kids.

Would you rather be naked and famous or dressed and non-famous? Dressed and non-famous. This was an easy choice.

What band or singer do you believe started rock and roll? I don’t know.

If you had a large black vase what would you put in it? Flowers?

Would you rather live in the city, suburbs or the country? City.

Would you ever participate in a 'sock hop'? No.

What’s your age? I’m 31.

What’s your hair color? I think this question has been in every survey I’ve done the past few days.

What’s your eye color? This one too.

[dyketectivecomics]

{{ Okay, as a fellow aficionado of playlists, I HAVE. TO ASK. About those songs you've chosen! Throw 5k at me, I DON'T MIND! But I'm dead-serious and deadly curious about what soundtrack I should be imagining for Magic Fam scenes. ;P (Maybe pick your Top 10, because Attention Spans are a thing. but if you want to make it into a full-blown lyrical analysis project, I'm totally down for reading that, too.)

I tried to pare this down as much as possible (kept around 1k so theres that!) w/out being too rambly, & still including a bit over that 10 bc i can’t PICK THINGS, but without any further ado & in no particular order~

Have Some Magic Fam’s Greatest Hits/Must Hears (under the cut):

- I’d say p much All of Fleetwood Mac/Stevie Nick’s is worth listening to, but some highlights i wanna point out real quick are gonna be “Hold Me”, “Little Lies”, and Nick’s “Whole Lotta Trouble”.While most of these will have the greatest frame of reference with an Idealized Version of John & Zee’s relationship, the purely mystical sounds that they bring into their music also lends itself to something that I can only describe as nostalgic for myself. My dad played a lot of Fleetwood/Nicks when i was younger & its the kind of sound that you can put on as bg, just allowing yourself to get lost in the music or let it drift softly w/out taking too much attention. It’s the kind of music that i absolutely see Constantine & Zatanna reaching as a middle ground (what w/ John being very punk rock, and Zee i see as being an absolute sucker for pop) Its just a very happy middle & represents an idyllic childhood I’d want for Raven.

-Moving up to Angsty Teen Years, and doing a lot of projection in the mean time: i’d push/encourage listening to Linkin Park and Flyleaf. But not their heavier stuff, no. Start with something like “Shadow of the Day” & “Leave Out All the Rest” (LPs) and “There for You” (flyleaf). I absolutely headcanon Raven (in any canon) being introduced to Flyleaf thru Aunt Alice (as a way to try to Connect through a musical middle ground for reasons that would be Obvious for anyone who knows the band’s history/focus a bit more on the lyrics for certain songs…). By the time Raven meets Rose (who would introduce her to LP) she’d absolutely start edging into a Goth/Emo/Scene phase. #LetRavenHaveACringyTeenPhase2kwhatever like, just imagine her screaming her head off to “One Step Closer” while Constantine’s in the next room like ‘not my style, but good for u kid’ while he slowly turns up The Clash

-Honorable Mentions bc they have more to do w/ general relationship dynamics include:“(They Long To Be) Close to You” by The Carpenters, this is v self-indulgent, bc Simpsons fans might remember this is Homer & Marge’s song. it absolutely falls in line w/ Fleetwood as being a Love Anthem during Rae’s childhood before John n Zee move slowly into their Little Lies phase if you will“Sins of My Youth” by Neon Trees, where you start to see some breakdown btwn the two. bc the reality is that they’re BOTH weighed down by things in their past, and unless they really WORK at those things (which 9/10 john usually ISN’T) then they WILL start to break apart. helps that theres an extra layer/theme of addiction which i think adds to the tone of the song as well as hits the nail a little on the head (which brings me to the next song…)“Demons” by Imagine Dragons, (gonna show my 2010s scene phase a bit here) bc this one is HELLA on the nose/cliche for all of them, BUT YA NEED TO BE A BIT CLICHE SOMETIMES OK? this song just WORKS so well for them all and its… not quite a bop, but like? its Good. it’s Been Good and I’m so sad that it got so overplayed when first released to the point of oversaturation, its a Shame“You Learn” by Alanis Morissette, funnily enough, i was listening to this one while driving, and like? so many little Zatanna & Raven ideas kept popping into my head. it really helped to help form ideas and tone of how i want their relationship to be, and provided a great stepping stone like getting into the zone for writing that most recent chapter of Retrieval (& @squiddybeifong i actually rlly wanna rec this one esp & feel free to give the rest of these, in case where you were wondering how trash my music taste is for this AU lmao)

TBH i think ima break my music library overall like this for this AU:

70s rock/pop absolutely encompasses Raven’s childhood, so ages 5-10/11. Anything 90s Punk/early Aughts Alt Rock is Raven’s Teen Angst Phase in SPADES. On the opposite end of that, Zatanna & Raven’s relationship could probably be encompassed by the feelings I get from listening to 90s pop/rock, and Constantine & Rae’s would be more U2/80s-ish, think “Sunday Bloody Sunday” or maybe “With or Without You” vibes would be better? NO WAIT “Stay (Faraway, So Close!)” THAT ONES DEF A GOOD ONE FOR THEM BOTH UGHHHH- everything else gets sorted into Particular Circumstances & Feelings/Events… and there’s couple of those so-

Last but not least, while I don’t see Raven being quite the romantic thats presented in this song, “The Only Exception” by Paramore also includes a lot of that great relationship angst that anyone who’s seen their parents go through bad breaks & have it negatively affect how they enter their own relationships… yeah, i’ve said a lot there, that probably didn’t rlly need explaining for such a simple song but like… it Works for this dynamic, esp since John & Zee aren’t MEANT to completely last in this. not without a lot of work that I’m still… trying to be sure that they want to work out, if that makes sense? (bc i know what *I* want but that might not necessarily be where they take me lmao)

tl;dr- i have shit music taste bc my own parents raised me on a lot of shit that they loved

[lonelier-version-of-you]

What other songs do you think give off johnrik vibes?

Ooh boy. That's gonna be a long list, and that's even if I only include ones in English (...yes, there are also a number of Swedish songs that I have on my Johnrik playlist).

Just the ones that come to mind, plus some from checking my massive playlist:

I Knew You - Future Islands (I'm half-convinced this was written for Johnrik, it's perfect. The last chorus especially pretty much sums up the lake scene in Report to the Mirror, and it breaks my heart: "And now we'll leave it all said and done / What did you think he'd find? / Something in the cold of your eyes said "goodbye" / I knew you / I knew you as you were, not as you are / You knew me too / But I'm not the same, it's not the way / the way you used to")

Twin Skeletons (Hotel In NYC) - Fall Out Boy (Again, just perfect for them. The whole song is perfect, but especially the first verse: "And I just need enough of you to dull the pain / Just to get me through the night 'til we're twins again / 'Til we're stripped down to our skeletons again / 'Til we're saints just swimming in our sins again")

Wonderland - Taylor Swift ("Didn't they tell us "don't rush into things"? / Didn't you flash your green eyes at me? / Didn't you calm my fears with that Cheshire Cat smile? / Oh, didn't it all seem new and exciting? / I felt your arms twisting around me / It's all fun and games 'til somebody loses their mind")

Coming Down - Halsey ("I found a martyr / He told me that I'd never / With his educated eyes, and his head between my thighs / I found a saviour / I don't think he remembers / 'cause he's off to pay his crimes, and he's got no time for mine")

Trouble - Halsey (This one is perfect for Henrik's POV of the relationship: "Don't forget me, don't forget me / I wouldn't leave you if you'd let me / Ooh, and when you met me, when you met me, you told me you were gonna get me / Don't forget me, don't forget me / I wouldn't leave you if you'd... / But I've got my mind made up this time / 'Cause there's a menace in my bed / Can you see his silhouette? / Can you see his silhouette? / Can you see his silhouette?")

The Ocean - Dar Williams (This one could go either way for the POV, but it fits their relationship perfectly: "And the ones that can know you so well / Are the ones that can swallow you whole / I have a good, and I have an evil / I thought the ocean, the ocean thought nothing / You are a welcoming back from the ocean")

Drops in the Lake - Lord Huron (This reminds me of Henrik after John's death: "I get by, but I'm tired of myself, and I doubt that I ever will find someone else / Lonely days fall like drops in the lake of our love / I just want it to be like it was / And I want you to be as you were, long ago / I go down to the edge of the lake, where I wait through the night for the dawn light to break / Memories of old crash like waves on the shore of my mind / And I pray that the stars will align / I just want us to be who we were, long ago / I just want what was / How I yearn for the years we were young and in love")

Mine Forever - Lord Huron (This one fits John's POV best, for once: "Love is strange, I can't sleep without you / Maybe in the grave I can dream about you / Everybody lies, but I'll never doubt you / I don't wanna die, but I can't live without you / I'm much too young to die / So long, my love, goodbye / We will always be together / In my mind, you're mine forever")

Almost every Lord Huron song fits Johnrik, actually, I highly recommend getting into them if you want Johnrik music lol.

You're Somebody Else - Flora Cash (Got this one from a WONDERFUL Johnrik fanvid by my friend Lucia. Watch it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdjXlpn2pK4 "Well, you look like yourself / But you're somebody else / Only it ain't on the surface / Well, you talk like yourself / No, I hear someone else, though / Now you're making me nervous")

God's Plan - CHVRCHES (This is another John POV one: "You belong with me / And tonight, at least we can die in silence / Is it worth it now?")

Talking To Myself - Linkin Park (This one is for that interim after John kills Roxanna but before Henrik finds out about it, when they're slowly growing apart and John is losing his mind and Henrik doesn't know how to help him. It also fits for the lake scene, when Henrik is trying to convince John that he can help him. "I admit I made mistakes / But yours might cost you everything / Can't you hear me calling you home? / Oh, all the walls that you keep building / All this time that I've spent chasing / All the ways that I keep losing you / And the truth is, you turn into someone else / You keep running like the sky is falling / I can whisper, I can yell / But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know: I'm just talking to myself"

The "I'm just talking to myself" line also works on two levels for this pairing, given the identity-blurring, so that's another plus.)

i love you, i love you - JUNG (Bonus points for this one because one of the band members is actually named Henrik! This is another Henrik-after-John's-death one. "Is it over just like that? / I would do anything to get you right back / I've been afraid since I lost you that day / And the promise I made was forever, love / If I move on, it still feels like it's wrong / But I keep trying, 'cause I know you've got it better now")

Brave - JUNG (This one reminds me of John and Henrik's relationship in the weeks between Roxanna's death and John's death. "I guess we're not making any sense like before / Don't know how we ended up on different shores / There's plastic in the water / This was the time to be brave / So this is what it feels like growing up / When did we stop being us? / Was it when I told you that I loved you? / Tell me, what I am supposed to do / when all I really wanted was the truth?")

the lakes - Taylor Swift ("Take me to the lakes, where all the poets went to die / I don't belong, and my beloved, neither do you / Those Windermere peaks look like the perfect place to cry / I'm setting off, but not without my muse")

Hey Ho - Hello Saferide ("You, my friend, you are no help / You have just as little clue as I ever had / We ask each other for directions / It's as entertaining as it is sad")

Raspberry Lips - Hello Saferide (This one is Henrik's POV of John: "You are, you're a Darwinist, while I / I am religious, but I lack in a religion / You'd build, you'd build science a church / and a gospel choir with mathematicans")

Love - Daughter (This is basically how John probably felt about Henrik's feelings for Roxanna: "Take your hands off him / 'cause he's the only one that I have ever loved / And please don't find her skin / When you turn the lights out")

Youth - Daughter ("Shadows settle on the place that you left / Our minds are troubled by the emptiness / Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time / From the perfect start to the finish line")

Rewind - Paramore (Very Henrik after John's betrayal vibes: "And rewind to the first time that I felt it coming / I knew it would not last / And rewind to the first time that I felt it coming / Make it quick, make it painless / And don't tell me lies, just say goodbye")

Deliverance - CHVRCHES (“Trust me that I struggle with all your destruction / Screaming that I told you so / Trust me when I talk about the disillusion / Building up and letting go”)

...This isn't a full list, but I think it's best I stop here.

[eternalmydnyt]

So I decided its time for another one of my random peeks i give into my insanity. This is the playlist of songs on my IPhone. Some are there just because i like them but for the most part music is a form of self therapy for me, the voices find things in life which lets them feel manifest and music is a way to feel them, touch them, and communicate with them in a generally harmless environment. Plus this can give anyone who reads an glimpse into my head and my tastes

In no particular order Im going to follow this format for the list

"Title" Band

Affecting Lyrics

How it affects me

Lets begin shall we?

"Get Well" Icon For Hire

Don't tell the others but it's all getting old

I mean how many more times must our stories be told?

And being lonely's only fun in a group

It sort of loses it's charm when it's true

This is a song about someone who is tired of suffering. Someone who has decided that its time to get serious about changing for the better. The voice in my head who reacts most to this is Eleni, Eleni doesnt want to be broken anymore, doesnt want to be crazy and fractured. She is my internal caretaker and OCD. She is who i draw on when i need to get things done regardless of how i feel.

"My Name" Shinedown

My name is worthless like you told me I once was

My name is empty cause you drained away the love

My name is searching since you stole my only soul

My name is hatred and the reasons we both know

Micheal... he is so angry all the time. Angry about the past, angry about the present, angry about the future. He is my rage at a world that should be more then what it is. Micheal is the one who is most "Me" of the voices. He is the one who is the closest to being who i would if i didnt have to constantly wear a thousand masks for society. He cares about some but in general he just wants to see everyone burn until they understand his pain.

"Break In" Halestorm

You are the only one

The only one that sees me

Trusts me and believes me

You are the only one

The only one that knows me

And in the dark you show me

Yeah it's perfectly reckless

Damn you leave me defenseless

So break in

This is my song i dedicate to Francine and everything she does for me. She is one of only 3 people who I truelly trust and who knows almost everything about me. She has saved me.

"Carry on my Wayward Son" Supernatural 200th Episode Cover.

Masquerading as a man with a reason

My charade is the event of the season

And if I claim to be a wise man,

Well, it surely means that I don't know

Ok this one is just because i REALLY like it. Especially this version.

"Indestructible" Disturbed

Another reason, another cause for me to fight

Another fuse uncovered now, for me to light

My dedication to all that I've sworn to protect

I carry out my orders without a regret

Ahh Alex. He is aggressive and territorial. He isnt Angry the way Micheal is but he is more violent. He was the part of me that couldnt remember fighting back against bullies, the part which would lash out in violence against anyone who mistreated me. He was dangerous and volitile in school but he had reasons to be. He changed as I got older... now he is more of a gatekeeper. He protects the people i trust... deciding who is "Pack" and who isnt. If he doesnt accept you then I dont trust you. I dont have many in my circle but he is the one who holds the guest list. If you arent in the circle then Alex lets Micheal have you.

"Divide" Disturbed

I am a little more provocative then you might need,

It's your shock and then your horror on which I feed

So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,

If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be

Don't wanna be another player losing in this game

I'm trying to impress upon you

We're not the same

My psychotic mentality is so unique

I'm one aggressive motherfucker

Now, wouldn't you say

Ever since Micheal became violent he has been fighting against being classified with the rest. He hates being "Just another voice" he believes he is THE voice and the others should serve him. I like Micheal alot... he is one i rely on and consider one of my closest allies because he has the strength to drown out the others when i need him to... but god he can be a self important dick sometimes.

"Without Me" Eminem

Now this looks like a job for me so everybody just follow me

'Cause we need a little controversy,

'Cause it feels so empty without me

This is another i just really like. Hell of a beat. Good music for a walk.

"Fuck Away the Pain" Divide the Day

You hate the way he fooled around behind your back

A slave to him but now with me, no strings attached

But if you wanna use me up and leave me in the bed

If that's what you need go right ahead

Ahh Gray. I was wondering when you would show up. Gray loves this song. Being eternally a teenager his greatest joys in life are Sex, Drugs, and Rock and Roll. If he could spend all his time getting high, getting laid, and playing Call of Duty he would be a happy boy. He reminds me to have fun and relax. I just wish he wasnt so pushy about it.

"Love Bites (So Do I)" Halestorm

My lips are pale and vicious.

You’re foaming at the mouth.

You’ve suffered in the darkness.

I’ll suck the pain right out.

So come and taste the reason

I’m nothing like the rest.

I kiss you in a way you’ll never forget about me.

Two Gray songs in a row. He is a firm believer that the best cure for pain is to leave it behind with fun and pleasure. Someone hurt you? Leave em behind and find something better. He doesnt get why it has to be any more complicated then that.

"Innocence" Halestorm

Is this what you wanted

Did I make your dreams come true?

You're sitting in a corner

Wondering what you got into

And you ache for things you don't understand

That your tears don't mean a thing

I only cum when you scream

Raven. I dont talk about her much. Micheal is angry and Alex is Violent but Raven enjoys it. Raven wants to inflict pain not for revenge or to protect me... she wants to inflict pain because she enjoys it. She loves the idea of having power over another person and being able to control the difference between their pleasure and their pain. finding out just what it would take to push someone to the point where the carress of fingertips and the carress of a blade provoke the same reaction... be it screams or moans. Raven came to being during a time in my life when all i did was suffer... and when all you do is suffer you find ways to enjoy even that.

"Leave it all behind" Cult to Follow

Forget the decay

And the endlessness of all of our mistakes

Forget all the blame

And the apathy

And throw it all away

Forget the Pain

Forget the Hate

Forget all your Enemies

They never will break you again

This would probobly be most associated with my serpent. He isnt vocal... he is cold and empty... armored and predatory. He is instinct and survival. He turns me off. When my emotions are more then i can handle his scales harden me and keep them out... better to feel nothing then to be overwhelmed.

"My Songs know what you did in the Dark" Fall Out Boy

A constellation of tears on your lashes

Burn everything you love, then burn the ashes

In the end everything collides

My childhood spat back out the monster that you see

Another Micheal... have i mentioned he is loud? I think one of the largest things that fuels his rage is the fact that maybe I would be so much healthier if someone had jus seen what was going on when i was a child and helped me then... no instead the schools were content just labeling me "Antisocial with Anger Control Issues and an Overactive Imagination" Fucking lazy ass socalled professionals...

"What I've Done" Linkin Park

I'll face myself

To cross out what I’ve become

Erase myself

And let go of what I’ve done

This song speaks to me but its hard to pinpoint why. Theres alot in my life i regret... Life needs a Do-over button.

"Porn Star Dancing" My Darkest Days

She wraps those hands around that pole

She licks those lips and off we go

She takes it off nice and slow

Because that's pornstar dancin'

Gray loves this song... not only for its literal lyrics bot also for the fact he has convinced himself its one long ass Blowjob analogy.

"Runnin" Adam Lambert

'Round and around I'd go, addicted to the numb

Living in the cold

The higher, the lower the down, down, down

Sick of being tired and sick of waiting

For another kind of fix

The damage is damning me down, down, down

Love this song... Speaks to me but at the same time it is one that im not sure who in my head reacts most. It just makes me happy.

"Save Yourself" My Darkest Days

You’re the perfect drug when it hurts like hell

I've never needed anyone so much

There’s no-one else I love and I curse myself

Cause the right thing is to give you up

I’m overcome by shame cause I can never change

And you can never understand my sickness

(I’ll never understand my sickness)

This is a Micheal. He is angry and violent and seeks pain on others... but there are people he cares about. He doesnt want to hurt them but he cant change what he is. So I try to keep him tempered with the lighter voices despite him being by far my strongest.

Bah i'm gonna stop here. Theres a few more songs on the list but they are mostly just because i really enjoy the sound of em. Ill put them in a quick list.

"I am Murloc" Elite Tauren Chieftain

"Bad Girlfriend" Theory of a Deadman

"Careless Whisper" Seether

"Chicken with a Train" Cowboy Troy

"Swing" Trace Adkins

"I dont Dance" High School Musical (Dont judge me!)

"Let it Go" Frozen (Dont you dare fucking Judge me lol)

[kidsfromyesterdaypod]

Episode One: It’s Not a Phase, Mom [Transcript]

To make Kids From Yesterday as accessible as possible, we’re transcribing our episodes for you to read!

Note: we forgot to clarify this in the episode but when we talk about the days where people obtained downloads in ways that don't pay artists and that being different to how people consume music now, obviously the current methods of streaming and paid downloading are much better. Always, always support your artists no matter who they are.

Listen here

Courtney: Hello and welcome to Kids from Yesterday. This is an emo podcast that’s gonna be all about emo culture. Every week we’re going to do a deep-dive into facets of emo culture that interest us. So, I’m Courtney** **

Clodagh: And I’m clodagh and today and we’re going to be talking about why emo is not a phase.

[theme song plays. It is an original composition that strongly parodies a lot of pop punk bands]

Court: I have ‘why podcast?’ written here [laughs]

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: so basically, me and Clodagh were talking the other day about…. what were we talking about? 

Clo: I think we were talking about, as typical, we were talking about diet culture and how when we were teenagers the only bodies we had to admire were, or like look up to, were thin white women, and we were kinda talking about how I had never seen bodies that look like mine. Cause when I was a teenager and I was going through my emo phase, I was like a size 16 to 18, and how in Kerrang! – which was the only magazine I ever bought  – or on Kerrang TV I didn’t see any bodies that look like mine and we kinda started to talk about that and it kinda just... the idea I think 

Court: Grew from there 

Clo: Came from that, yeah

Court: I just remember screaming at you through instagram messages, CAN WE DO AN EMO PODCAST and you agreed, for some reason? [Laughs] 

Clo: [Laughs] Yeah

Court: But definitely that’s a topic that we were just talking about there that we want to do a deep-dive in at some point, and talk about that aspect of emo culture cause I think, like, fashion and that whole aspect of it was such a huge thing. And like if you were emo as a kid you had the hair and you had the clothes and you dressed like Hayley Williams or you dressed like, you know, Gerard Way 

Clo: Yeah 

Court: And there was no in-between and both of those people were, you know, thin 

Clo: And white and cisgender 

Court: Yeah. So there was a lot of stuff like that, and when you look back on it now it’s like wow there really wasn’t very much variety for us. So we definitely want to talk about that at some point but eh, ‘why podcast?’, to answer that question...

Clo: Something else I’d kinda been thinking about, I dunno if I mentioned this to you, but in the days leading up to that conversation id been thinking about how My Chemical Romance had kinda gotten the blame for a spate of suicides 

Court: YES 

Clo: And self harm, and there was this whole thing in the Daily Mail, I know they’d had a  concert in London at some point afterwards where they were all chanting F the Daily Mail, em, and I’d kinda been thinking that, isn’t that bizarre that this band got the blame for something that was completely irrelevant and to people from the outside looking in, parents, adults, were you know, air quotes, concerned about it, but they were taking it up completely wrong.

Court: Yeah 

Clo: [in a mocking voice commonly used when people made fun of emo kids in 2006] they just didn’t understand 

Court: It wasn’t a phase. But yeah, it was interesting and it’s the same as like Marilyn Manson getting blamed for like murderers and serial killers and stuff, it’s that real ‘we don’t understand this’, Satanic Panic thing, we have a bunch of kids covered in eyeliner, as I am today – and it pained me to paint eyeliner around my face, it’s everywhere, its never coming off.

Clo: [Laughs]

Court: But that was, I imagine to a lot of parents, confusing and strange, and the only reference you have are all those shows that were like this emo did it and you always have these kids that hang out in a house in the middle of nowhere with like, pentagrams painted on the walls, and like fuck satan and like stuff like that, so like you can see why, but it is ridiculous, so it was interesting to see bands that were intrinsically linked with mental health issues. Which again is something else we want to talk about, maybe in a future episode. 

Clo: Yeah 

Court: But there really was that whole fear, I guess, that kids were listening to this music and becoming depressed, instead of a bunch of sad kids found a bunch of artists who heard them and said to them that this is ok. Or, in my Chem’s case, that this..that they’re... not ok 

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: I hate myself 

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: But you do have that thing where that was...I mean, what got you into emo music? Clo: For me, it think...yeah it started...it started…. It all started around 20… no 2006, I’d say, was when I first got into My Chemical Romance. 2006, 2007 I think it was...I can’t really remember… and I’d start listening to My Chem because... mainly because I used to stay up all night watching music channels and I remember I’d stay up until Scuzz would play the My Chem songs and then I’d go to bed 

Court: [fondly] Remember Scuzz? 

Clo: That’s not a thing anymore, which I recently found out… but yeah, but I got into it that way, and as I started secondary school, you know the people in my class were into High School Musical and they were into Chris Brown and I kinda, you know, as much as… you know when you do, when you start secondary school, you try to fit in with everyone else in your class. And I  had got an interest in R&B music and High School Musical but I was still really into My Chem and Fall Out Boy, and then I met a couple of people in the year below me who were, like, really into My Chem and Fall Out Boy and I was like oh my god, these people, I’ve met people who are into the same music as me, and from there it progressed. And then I guess there was Twilight, I read the saga, and then Paramore did a song for it and I was introduced to Paramore, and they became my favourite band, my favourite emo band. So yeah, but it’s just always been, just there. Avril Lavigne? Busted? I think for everyone, it goes back to Busted 

Court: [laughs]

Clo:  Were you a Busted or McFly girl? 

Court: I was a Busted girl. For years I refused to even acknowledge McFly cause I was like, they’re a rip off of Busted, as if three-piece boybands didn’t exist before that, as if they weren’t a rip off of Blink, or Blink weren’t a rip off of Green Day and stuff. But like to child me, I was like  [mocking] I like Busted and McFly suck 

Clo: I was the same.

Court: I discovered Avril Lavigne then as well. Discovered is a… I mean like, she was on the radio, there wasn’t much discovery there, but I really liked her, and then something happened and I got really into Linkin Park. Actually I think part of that, going back to Twilight, I was really into the books before the film happened, and Stephenie Meyer had a website and she used to make playlists for each of the books, so she had Muse and Linkin Park and a bunch of other bands that I’d never heard of, so I would’ve been 13 I think, and I remember one Christmas I was like, can I have all these Linkin Park albums? And one of my aunts being like, [pearl clutching] ‘WHAT?’

Clo: [laughs]

Court: ‘You’re a child!’ But like, that was kinda like the first thing. And I do remember being the same in school, like you just want to fit in

Clo: Yeah 

Court: But Ii was kinda looking for people who were into all this stuff, and then when I was in first year somebody mentioned FOB, it was actually the year they went on hiatus, she’d gone to see them and I was like, who the hell are FOB, and then… no! That’s a lie, I knew who FOB were! So there was a Now 60-something or a Now 50-something...I can’t...what number are we on now? Would’ve been a Now 40, maybe, I don’t know, but it had This Ain’t a Scene It’s an Arms Race on it, and I remember listening to it and thinking that was the first time I’d ever heard a song for what it was, as opposed to just,

Clo: Yeah 

Court: Oh I like the music to this, or oh I like this, like I actually heard the lyrics and it was kind of my introduction to poetry I guess? I got really deep and emo into these things before I’d even realised I had but like I’d never thought about going to see these bands, cause that was like...I didn’t have any friends who liked them so like, going to a concert was completely beyond me. So a girl was like, I saw FOB and now they’ve gone on hiatus, and I was like well first of all, what the hell is a hiatus?

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: If only I knew [laughs]. And then like, second of all, I didn’t know that was even a possibility.  So like I think I discovered Paramore around the same time as you with the whole Twilight thing, with Decode and I Caught Myself and, em, I was kinda late to the My Chem game which is really interesting, there was people that were so into My Chem and I just...I dunno, I dunno what stopped me from...but like, at the same time, I was trying to listen to like Kanye West and all these other people I have absolutely no interest in now but that at the time I was like, ‘yeah other people talk about this stuff, I wanna listen to this too’. I did eventually find people who did like all the stuff i liked, and that was where I found Panic! at the Disco and like… god, I can’t even think of any of them, really, those are all the main ones.  I actually found my old iPod the other day and I looked at the music on it and it;s the same.

Clo: [laughs]

Court: It is the exact same stuff that I listen to now, they have two other bands that I don’t listen to now. Remember Young Guns? Clo: [excited] Yeah! 

Court: Yeah. Young Guns and Orson.

Clo: Oh my God, yes, they had that one song. Yesterday? 

Court: No Tomorrow

Clo: Tomorrow? Oh. 

Court: [laughs] ‘yesterday, or tomorrow?’ [Laughs] 

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: Yeah. That was the only difference, everything else was All Time Low. Oh yeah! Forgot to mention my faves. All Time Low. I am a sad All Time Low Stan. I have seen them 20 times and I don’t want to talk about it. 

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: But Paramore is your, like

Clo: Yeah Paramore are my baes. Like what you said about This Ain’t a Scene, I first...I’d heard of Misery Business because I was somebody who did like My Chem, I did like Fall Out Boy, and I would, like watch Kerrang! and Scuzz to try and find that music. At the same time, I was watching The Box. I was really, shamefully so, I was really into Chris Brown, I was really into – still really into – Beyoncé, just kind of into R&B but also into emo. Like my iPod would’ve been really really mixed at the time? 

Court: Yeah 

Clo: so I kind of was like, I fit in here, but I also fit in here with the emos, and I guess I kind of progressed more towards that because they understood me. [laughs] Like, they were really, really into this music and because I had been kind of into it but also as an outsider, someone who was the only person who was kind of into it, my interests were elsewhere. But I remember in first year I actually went to meet Gary Barlow from Take That.

Court: [incredulous] Wowwwww. 

Clo: And the picture… in the picture is me and I’m wearing a red and white top, I have like a black waistcoat on and there’s a little tiny Green Day badge on it 

Court: awhhhh!

Clo: I’m dressed in the colours of American Idiot. I’m like, staying true to myself but also, you know…

Court: hanging out with Gary Barlow? 

Clo: Hanging out with Gary Barlow! 

[both laugh]

Court: So I guess trying to define what emo actually is, is really difficult. 

Clo: Yeah. It’s different I think between different people. I guess like the American sense of the word might be something completely different to what it is here. I know at least in Ireland, or at least in my group, the emo kids didn’t just listen to emo music, we also listened to a lot of pop punk, and I don’t know if that would’ve blended in in America as well as it does here. I guess because here at least anyway – I think – emo is defined by what’s on Kerrang! 

Court: yeah 

Clo: and there was a lot of Good Charlotte, a lot of Sum 41, Puddle of Mudd, all that kind of stuff, and then as well, you have the goth music, like Marilyn Manson, Metallica, metal music that was kind of blending in with the emo scene as well, but it’s definitely…

Court: We didn’t have that distinction I don’t think. Like you see on American MySpace, and on Tumblr now even, they had a distinction between emo and scene kid. And I guess, considering the bands I was listening to, I probably would’ve been more scene than emo, but with the people I hung around with… I guess to me, the pinnacle of emo was My Chem. 

Clo: Yes. Definitely. 

Court: And, even, I’m like here’s all these other bands that I listen to… like, when you talk about emo, you talk about My Chem. But we were also limited in who came to play here I think. Even in England, they had a lot more bands and a lot more venues. Even if they only played in London you could still travel down, whereas here it was kind of… a bunch of bands came around 2010/2011/2012, and then nothing, and still kinda nothing, we go through phases of who comes here and who doesn’t. And even on revival tours or anniversary tours we’re skipped over a lot 

Clo: You Me at Six will never forget us, though. 

Court: I hope not. [laughs]. I mean, the last time they played here, he was like, ‘we’ll probably never come back here again’

Clo: Oh yeah! That was really sad 

Court: Thanks, Josh. [laughs] Really appreciate that. Still don’t know what he meant? Whether he was thinking like, Brexit, or he was thinking, ‘can’t be arsed with this’, or..

Clo: Is it because it’s so expensive to bring – did he say that on stage, or is it just a thought I had? This is my life. Is it something somebody said or is it something I thought? But did he say on stage that it’s too expensive to bring equipment over? 

Court: I don’t think so? 

Clo: then it was just a thought I had. 

Court: Maybe he’d said something like that before? I know – Tangent Time! – I know smaller bands… so there’s a band called Mallory Knox, who I really like, fucking love them so much, but I remember talking to them somewhere and being like, come play a show in Ireland and they were like, we’ve looked into it before the last few tours we’ve done and it’s just not worth it because of the cost of the venue and the cost of bringing over the equipment, it just… they were like, we’d end up losing money.

Clo: Ahh. 

Court: and he was like we can’t even guarantee that we’d like sell enough tickets to make it worthwhile, so they were like, sorry! 

Clo: Maybe it was you, then, who said it to me afterwards. I feel like we spoke about it afterwards and you must’ve said that to me. Because I don’t see how my brain would go there to think about that

Court: come up with that

Clo: yeah 

Court: I dunno, did….uhh….yeah, maybe I did. I really don’t know 

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: I really don’t remember. But getting back to what defining emo as, I do think it’s interesting that there’s a whole culture where your clothes and your hair and what you listen to were identifiable. You could see somebody in the street and even if they didn’t have the full fringe or multicoloured hair or the weird clip-in racoon extensions, you’d still know, that’s an emo 

Clo: yeah 

Court: that’s one of my people. And I think that’s something that always really interested me. 

Clo: Yeah actually, when I was standing on O’Connell Street earlier, I was kind of looking around to see what people were wearing and I was trying to pick out in my head like okay who around me might identify as emo or at one point identified as emo? I feel like it’s a bit harder now to pick somebody out as an emo because not only are we… not gone past the emo… stage, if that makes sense? 

Court: Yeah. I mean, the actual, like, era, I guess. 

Clo: era, that’s it. 

Court: I mean a lot of people wear the clothes now, so it’s not….

Clo: yeah, so a lot more people would wear Converse, a lot more people would wear Doc Martens, whereas back during the emo era, those were things that were reserved for emos. If you wore Converse, you were an emo. 

Court: People would make fun of you. 

Clo: Exactly. Whereas now, every second person is wearing Vans, everyone’s wearing Converse, and skinny jeans are huge, and the check shirts and all that kind of stuff. That was something that I would’ve worn a lot of and looked around for people in the Navan emo scene 

[both laugh]

Clo: to see who else was one of my people! But yeah, I think it’s a bit harder now to pick them out of a crowd. 

Court: Yeah. 

Clo: But it was something that hugely defined…. And I guess as well it goes with punk rock, you can tell a punk rocker, from then at least, a mile off. Mohawks, leather, all those kind of things, and definitely it’s the same with emo. 

Court: Yeah. I think even now, the whole idea of stuff a punk would wear, like patched jackets, that’s a big thing, everybody does it, or like you have facial piercings, you must be a goth, whereas everyone has their nose pierced. 

Clo: and tattoos as well! Wrist tattoos especially were I feel like a big thing in the emo era? Notably a phrase that was two words, one on each wrist. Or stars. 

Court: Ah, the stars. Remember those? Clo: The black and red stars.

Court: Reaaaally glad I never did that.

Clo: Same! [laughs] and I definitely think that again, they were things that were reserved for goths, emos etc but now they’re generally just...you know, flooded into the mainstream and they’re everywhere. 

Court: Yeah. So it’s really hard to define what it is now compared to what it was then. It was very very much a case of weirdos in the back of the classroom, everybody thought they were weird, and would say it, several times a day. Not speaking from experience or anything. [laughs] but you could see it, and they’d all kind of migrate towards each other and everything. And I don’t think that’s…. Maybe it’s not even as necessary anymore. I do think it was partially a survival thing, back in the day

Clo: Yeah

Court: Because there was such a stigma around having poor mental health, we’re talking even back in 2012… when did you finish school? 

Clo: 2011. 

Court: Yeah, so I finished in 2012 and even back then, you couldn’t talk about being depressed. Whereas, my sister goes to the school I went to and she said it’s much better now and I think you can talk a lot more openly about that kind of thing. And they’re a lot more accepting of LGBTQ students whereas when I was in school that was not discussed but you could kind of see an overlap between the emo kids and the ones who were LGBT. so I do think maybe in part it was a survival thing, we had a way of distinguishing ourselves so that we could find other people like ourselves. I don’t think anybody decided ‘let’s all wear this’, we also thought it was cool, it’s not like ‘Just gonna put on my survival gear now!’ but it did help, I think. You always know, oh hey I can talk to you about this band, most likely. Clo: Yeah

Court: but there was some people who like, if they were super into My Chem and you were like oh I like All Time Low, they’d be like [scoffing] ugh god they’re such sellouts, like I do remember someone laughing at me for saying All Time Low is my favourite band, she was like [scoffs] All Time BLOW? And I’m like, they call themselves that, it’s not 

Clo and Court: [together] an insult! 

Court: yeah! Like they fully know how terrible they are. And I fully know how terrible they are, but I still love them very much. But it’s just, I do think it’s interesting that that’s… 

Clo: Yeah, definitely. And even, I think the great thing about it as well – this actually happened to me, like, a few months ago, when I was in work. And this girl… she was like, chatting away to me, she was like 19 in NCAD [Irish national college of art and design] and she was talking to me about music and I had just gone to see You Me at Six do their ten-year Take Off Your Colours anniversary show and she was talking to me and she was like oh I’m an emo, I like My Chem and everything like this, and like I said she was about 19 and I was like oh have you ever heard of You Me at Six and she was like no, who are they? And she made me write down the name in her phone 

Court: [Laughs] 

Clo: So she could go look them up! And I was like oh my god she’s emo and she doesn’t know who YMAS are. But as well as that, being able to cluster to each other and find each other, we’re able to find new bands 

Court: Yeah 

Clo: and as much as I envy the 80s, everyone going to record stores 

Court: Yeah

Clo: As they romantically do in John Hughes films, I think we had a kind of a cool thing going on as well in that you’d find a band, you’d go home and you’d download their music

Court: illegally, usually 

Clo: you’d find it somewhere, illegally, and you’d download it and it was on your iPod. And I think that was a really fun time. Whereas now, with Spotify, there’s no such thing as listening to a whole album anymore, you listen to a single here and there but back in the emo era, you would download the whole album and you’d listen to it from cover to cover because you wanted to see if these would, you know…

Court: if they were any good, or if this was something you could add to your… I mean that was something as well that really appealed to me, I got bored with pop music. Pop music is designed to be boring after a while, it fits into a very specific time period and a very specific style, so when everybody else was listening to music and was like this person is really good, these are great, I’d get bored after maybe 10 or so listens, and the first time i listened to any of these bands, I realised there’s no trend. And i do think that has changed now. A  lot of bands, especially ones on major labels, have kind of fit into a trend. All the main guys like Fall Out Boy and Panic at the Disco, they change with the general mainstream trend.

Clo: Yeah 

Court: And it’s keeping them afloat, it’s giving them new audiences, cause obviously us ageing emos aren’t going to keep them alive forever but it is interesting how people switch genres now. Like, remember the whole Five Seconds of Summer thing? And like all those kids were previous One Direction fans and they scooped up a whole new 

Clo: music, yeah 

Court: based on kind of being pop punk? But kind of not. But all those kids would identify as emo. And I remember being on Twitter and seeing those kids be like ‘omg flannel shirts and skinny jeans are like the 5SOS uniform. Like you wear one and you know I’m a 5SOS fan’. 

Clo: oh my gosh 

Court: and it was really weird, but it was so weird seeing it because of what we just said, it used to be ‘that person probably likes FOB’ whereas they had their own little like, this is how I find my people. 

Clo: yeah 

Court: and i think being in that emo space…. I mean, I did my thesis on fandoms. I’m super into the concept of fandoms. I have a psychology degree, it’s not very useful. 

[both laugh] But! I did it on fandoms and on the people who are involved in fandom spaces and it has always fascinated me the way we gravitate. I was kind of on LiveJournal, I was kind of on MySpace. But for some reason as a child I was like, these can’t be… a child, I was like, 14… but these can’t possibly be Pete Wentz, this can’t actually be Hayley Williams, and I don’t why I doubted it so much. I think it was the whole ‘everyone’s lying on the internet’. So i was reading stuff and thinking that’s really cool, but it’s clearly not them. So I was kind of out of it a bit, and so I’d see it, and drama would happen, and I’d be like ‘what drama? They’re not real’. But you’d see that and it would be like an analog fandom, maybe you’d have friends to talk to or people in school to talk to but you weren’t like, entrenched in this community. It was very offline. So I think the coming online – maybe that’s why you don’t need the fashion as much anymore. It’s just if I have an account that has a My Chem lyric in it or a FOB lyric in it, or I tweet these bands I might find new friends. Or a lot of bands have their own forums or fanclubs and stuff, so maybe, I dunno, maybe that’s not a thing people need anymore. 

Clo: yeah. Definitely for me I came into the online world with bands, I went there to find them, but I would’ve had a fandom, or like a like for the band, offline. When Gabe Saporta from Cobra Starship joined twitter in 2008, that’s when I joined. I didn’t care about anyone else, I just wanted to find Gabe on twitter. 

Court: TELL ME ALL YOUR THOUGHTS, GABE. 

[both laugh]

Clo: And Bebo, I probably would’ve been on Bebo when I started my emoness, and at that point, your’e just friends with people you know. Instagram today you just follow people you don’t know, you make friends with people who are into the same things as you but you just never  meet them. Whereas with Bebo you got to know who from your friends were emo, as opposed to finding emo friends. 

Court: Yeah, I get that. I think now it’s a lot different. 

Clo: And I think that’s how we ended up flocking together. We met through another band who are not emo. Categorically not emo. And we ended up flocking together because we had shared interest in other bands like Green Day and Paramore and things like that. 

Court: Yeah, I actually don’t even remember where I met you first, but my first memory of hanging out with you properly was in the queue for Green Day. So Green Day played Marlay Park in..2010? 

Clo: Yep! 

Court: and I still think of that as possibly one of the best gigs of my life. And it was it was before Green Day released Uno, Dos and Tré. Which we will talk about in detail at some point when we do our Green Day special. But it was around then. No, they released that in 2012 or 2013. So it was post… it was 21 Guns! Yeah it was the 21 Guns tour! And I got to meet Paramore that day. My friend won a private meet and greet with Paramore and I was too smol to appreciate it properly. And I was 15 or 16… no I was just gone 15, and I remember like SHAKING all the way through it like I don’t know how to talk to people? And I remember my mother freaking out cause she was like you’re going to be hanging out with a band like by yourself and I was like, they’re Christian! And she was like oh ok good, they probably don’t even drink. And at the time I don’t think Hayley did, cause she was worried about her voice and stuff

Clo: Yeah 

Court: I remember being like these guys are good! But anyway I did that then I remember coming out and sitting on a wall then going over and queuing, and running into you and Nicole in the queue. And you guys were just in front of me for the whole thing. 

Clo: Yeah I remember that gig, it was amazing. It was such a good show. And yeah I remember you telling me you met Paramore and I was SO jealous. I didn’t end up meeting them until 2013 I’d say? I met them, they played Belsonic in Belfast, and I won meet and greet tickets through the Paramore Fan Club. 

Court: I remember that, and it was like 2 dudes and they were super nice? Wasn’t it? 

Clo: What? 

Court: The Paramore Fan Club. Wasn’t it two guys? 

Clo: Oh no. The american one? 

Court: the irish one? 

Clo: No it was through the online fanclub. So I paid like 30 dollars a year or something. 

Court: Woah. The All Time Low one was like 5 dollars a year. 

Clo: The following year they got rid of it so they ended up doing it for free and I was really annoyed and the only reason I paid 30 dollars was to be in the running to win tickets if they ran these competitions. But I had other friends who went up to Belfast with me and they had won tickets as well through the fan club so we all got to go in and meet them. I was so nervous. What did you say to them? Do you even remember what you said? Court: Em… I remember talking to Jeremy. He had a Linkin Park branded Sharpie and I was like that’s so cool and he launched into this big story about it and I was like [sigh] you’re so cool and I was babbling at Hayley about how psyched I was for the show and then I was like omg your shirt’s so cool – remember Skelanimals? They were like… 

Clo: yeah 

Court: So I was like [babbles]. There was a lot of that. Except like, their manager. I dunno if it was their manager, she could’ve been… I dunno who she was, but she was really bitchy and mean. And they were happy to just stand there and chat. Jeremy and Hayley were just chatting themselves and joining us into the conversation, Zac was kinda...there. As he often was, he was just kind of there. And then Josh came out late, said sorry to Hayley for being late and then stood behind us, ignoring us. 

Clo: Oh? 

Court: And I went over and said hi and he was like oh hi, and I was like there’s only two of us here and I know we’re talking five hundred miles an hour but we haven’t attacked you? And like I haven’t screamed or done anything terrible. Cause even when they came out and said hi first I was shaking so bad, but like I didn’t fangirl or anything, I was just trying to keep it all inside. And I was so proud of myself for being so, like, stoic. Like I am so cool. And then he came out and was all sorry I’m late to Hayley and she was like, yeah cool, and their manager came out and was like we’re doing pictures now and then they have to go. And they were kinda like, we’re just chatting, it’s fine, so she kinda hurried them on. But I remember like, I loved Josh up to that point and it was real like, ‘never meet your heroes’ except Hayley was amazing. She was so sweet and so nice and she like gave us hugs and everything and it was just….it was… for never having met a band before, and that being my first experience of meeting a band, it was so positive except for the Josh bit cause I remember leaving and being devastated. 

Clo: Yeah it’s definitely a case of don’t meet your heroes. Josh and Zac were gone by the time I got to meet them so it was just Jeremy, Taylor and Hayley. I was freaking out a bit. I was chatting to Jeremy, I don’t remember what I said because my friend afterwards was like oh my god you were chatting away it was great and I was like “Were we? I don’t remember.” I was shaking so much. I remember Hayley came to sign my...I had this Paramore book...I was like ‘I like your hair!’ and as soon as I said it, I was like “CLODAGH. What have you done. Why did you say that?! She probably gets that all the time, it’s probably the one thing she doesn’t want to hear at a meet and greet. What have I done, I’m so uncool, I said I like your hair to Hayley Williams”. She gets it all the time, so I was super embarrassed about that. But for a first time, it was really good. 

Court: Yeah, I think for a band that are that big that are constantly getting bigger still – like they’re one of the few bands that are still growing because their sound has changed as they’ve gone on and it’s one of the few sounds that I believe it’s what they wanted to do, as opposed to a big label has gone hey, you need to appeal to this audience. Like I honestly believe that’s the music they wanted to write and that’s why I still like it, but for a band that big to be that accessible is cool. 

Clo: I also think they have kept their audience as well. Fair enough, the last time they played here they played the Olympia Theatre [a 3,000 capacity venue in Dublin] which is a lot smaller than the 3 Arena

Court: So good though 

Clo: Which they previously played, it was so good though, it was a great gig I was front row. But they didn’t… they could’ve well played the 3 Arena and kept the same audience. And even brought new people to see them. So I think they sold themselves short on that one. 

Court: Yeah. I wonder was it just cause they hadn’t been here for a while? You see some bands be like, I don’t think we’ll sell this venue. Cause I know All Time Low played the O2 or the 3 Arena or whatever it’s called now

Clo: I think it’s the 3 Arena 

Court: I’m old. Anyway, they played the 3 Arena and they ended up having to block out all the seats cause they just… they just might as well have played the Olympia. 

Clo: I didn’t know that they played the 3 Arena, how long ago was that? 

Court: That was….. 2016. 

Clo: Okay. Okay. 

Court: Just delving back into my All Time Low memories. [laughs]

Clo: Yeah. 

Court: yeah, 2016. So they had done an arena tour in England and obviously thought, this is the same. And you’re like, no buddy, no it’s not. It was the same when they played Belsonic, everybody from Dublin just travelled up there and all the people from Belfast who wouldn’t normally travel, and some people flew over as well, so obviously they sold out Belsonic.

Clo: Yeah. 

Court: And I think they thought well, we can do something this size in Dublin as well. 

Clo: mmhmm. 

Court: Cause they announced their Dublin show and I was really excited and everyone that was there was like ‘I’m not fuckin travelling down there for that.’

Clo: [laughs]. Although I’ve seen All Time low and I’ve listened to... some of their albums are really good ...pop...emo music. I don’t know if I can say that in front of you. 

Court: [laughs] you can, that’s ok. I can take it. 

Clo: I really enjoyed them, but I wouldn’t consider myself a huge fan. Like I said, I would listen to their stuff but I’m not really...I wouldn’t say they were one of my faves anymore. 

Court: They’re still one of my faves. I mean their last album was diabolical. I just hated it so much, it made me angry. 

Clo: mmhmm. 

Court: It was one of those things where I thought, you tried something and it just didn’t work. 

Clo: And that’s quite upsetting though, when your favourite band goes and does something like that, cause I can’t even imagine the heartache I’d have if Paramore came out with a shit album. 

Court: See I think for them, they’ve been on FBR for so long, All Time Low only recently got signed to Fueled by Ramen, so I feel that they were like oh we need to try something new so they had this 80s electro-synth-pop-sort-of-pop-punk thing that they tried? And it was supposed to be a concept album except it wasn’t very well put together. Obviously somebody in a marketing room was like we have this character and you could write the thing about the character. But that only ever worked for My Chem. And only because Gerard was a genius. 

Clo: Absolutely. And he’s somebody that obviously you can see with The Umbrella Academy which is on Netflix now, he was, or is, a writer and he knows how to write these intricate stories about characters. Whereas, All Time Low, they don’t really have a background in that? Court: [laughs] 

Clo: I’ve never seen them come out with anything outside of that…

Court: they’ve done one kind of experimental album before. I loved it, people hated it. I hated it when I first heard it and it’s now one of my favourite of their albums. And this one was just… horrendous. Actually disappointing as hell. But they’re still my faves and I still have small faith that their next thing they’ll go back to basics. And they kind of have, they’ve released a couple of singles and they’re kind of more what they used to play. Paramore are still a fave...even though Panic! At the Disco is now just Brendon Urie – I mean it has been for a while, but now that it’s admittedly just Brendon, I still love them. I remember I saw something the other day where you were like I hate their new album. And, I don’t! I don’t love it, I like some things on it, I don’t actively hate it. 

Clo: Their style from every single album that they’ve released, their style has changed. 

Court: Yeah

Clo: when you go from AFYCSO to Pretty.Odd, they’re so different. I feel like their second album Pretty.Odd is so different because I know Ryan Ross was a massive fan of the Beatles

Court: yeah 

Clo: And I feel like he took creative control of that album and fucked shit up and left the band. Their third one… Vices and Virtues, that was… 

Court: I think that’s my favourite 

Clo: I really like that one. They are… I feel like the Ballad of Mona Lisa is pop but emo. 

Court: Yes. 

Clo: It had radio success, at least here in Ireland. 

Court: I think I agree. That was their single they released. Before that they had done a single for Jennifer’s Body. Loved that film, so good. Him and Spencer – oh, Spencer! 

Clo: [fond] awh. That was when Ryan and 

Court: Jon 

Clo: Jon Walker. Had left. 

Court: I always feel like Ryan thought, because he wrote the lyrics for that, that if he left them, they’d be screwed. 

Clo: Yeah

Court: And then, they weren’t. Cause actually Brendon is really good at writing songs. I just think he’d never got a chance before that. If they were to play here or they were to play somewhere that I could get to, I’d go see them again, no bother. I’ve seen them in England a couple of times, once in the Forum in London and…...I think they played Slamdunk as well one year, too. And then they played the Olympia here a few years ago too. 

Clo: Yeah that’s the only time I’ve seen them. I went to that gig on my own, actually. 

Court: Awhhh! I didn’t know you were there!!

Clo: And it was incredible! I had so much fun. It was enjoyable cause I think the girl beside me was on her own as well

Court: Oh, okay

Clo: But we didn’t really like...it was a non-spoken thing, we were just kind of there having a great time 

Court: That was a great gig. I’m trying to think who else… Obviously FOB. I’m not mad on their new stuff, but I feel like FOB are emo dads. 

Clo: yeah

Court: and they’ve grown with their sound and it’s….I think it’s respectful of their original audience, as opposed to being too commercial in some ways. I feel like a lot of their audience is our age and older, like people in their early 30s were into FOB cause they were the original emo band, so I do think that what they’ve done is that they’ve grown with their own sound and they’re kind of going ‘we’re in our 30s and we’re dads and we’re getting older and here’s stuff that we’d listen to’, but that still respects the lyrical thing that got people interested in the first place. I can respect it even if I don’t love it. 

Clo: yeah 

Court: And then obviously My Chem. 

Clo: They are… yeah. We are in twenty nine scene right now. 

Court: TWENTY NINE SCENE! YEAH! 

Clo: They… their last album was set in 2019, Danger Days

Court: Was it?!

Clo: it was set in the future 

Court: We’re in the future! 

Clo: We’re now in 2019 and there was a lot of conversation about, will they come back in 2019 because I was actually listening to it earlier on and at the end, Dr. Death who’s like the radio voice over – it’s another concept album – he says, you know, ‘bye for now, I know you’ll miss me’ and there was a lot of conversation about whether My Chem will come back in 2019. Obviously in 2019 we have the Umbrella Academy which is Gerard Way’s comic that was released on Netflix…. Will they come back? Who knows. We’ve got another 7 months to find out. 

Court: I can’t see it happening. I would love… I never got to see them live. 

Clo: Did you not? 

Court: No. And when they last played here in 2011, they were giving away tickets on the radio, that was Brian and Dara on the Lock In [a radio show that ran at night on Irish music station Spin1038 between 2011–2013ish that played more alternative music and gave away tickets to alternative shows]... the Lock Down? 

Clo: The Lock In 

Court: The Lock In. And they were giving away tickets. And I’ve Blink tickets, I’ve won all sorts of tickets but this girl I know who was a huge huge fan of My Chem won them instead of me, and I was like yeah I’m happy, I’ll catch them the next time. 

Clo: Yeahhh….

[both laugh] 

Court: and it just didn’t happen. I did get to see Gerard play at Reading and Leeds...Well it was Leeds fest I went to, in 2014, so when he did…. I mean, it was as close as I was going to get 

Clo: yeah 

Court: You’re making a face, Clodagh’s making a face

Clo: Close enough 

Court: yeah, it was fine, I didn’t love that 

Clo: Did they do any My Chem songs? 

Court: No. And he said, I watched, actually, an interview the other day, I dunno it was from four years ago, but he said that when he was doing those tours that he didn’t want to play My Chem songs because he didn’t want to set a precedent where people would expect him to always do that 

Clo: Okay

Court: Cause I think he thought he was going to continue doing music, and then he disappeared off the face of the earth for a while, then he ended up in Wales. It was a whole weird thing. 

Clo: Yeah I was on his Twitter account the other day doing a lot of research for this podcast, and he had something like ‘go follow this account for updates on Gerard Way’s life’ or something, I can’t remember what the account was called, but he hadn’t tweeted himself since 2015 

Court: yeah he literally just stepped back from everything. I think he had, I dunno, whether he just got kinda lost? Or wanted to spend more time with his family, and then got focused on UA and on writing more… I think he’s still writing UA, I’m not sure? 

Clo: I think he might have another one as well, I can’t remember the name of it but it was in his Twitter bio so I can only assume he had been writing another comic or something else. Which is great, at least we’re still getting something from Gerard Way’s brain. 

Court: He’s still working on stuff, but I think he’s just kinda done. And I’ve seen Frank Iero andthe Cellabration and whatever one came after the Cellabration. So Frank Iero’s bands at the moment have a concept for each album but he changes the band name for every concept. The first one was FrnkIero andthe Cellabration, then there was FI and the.. something  [Patience], and now there’s FIAT Future Violents. 

Clo: See this I didn’t know 

Court: Yeah so I’ve seen them…. Twice. Three times? No, I went through a phase of having...I developed really bad anxiety and I had a sensory problem where loud noises would cause me to have panic attacks. So I went to see Frankie in The Academy and somebody whistled really loudly close by and I literally had a panic attack and had to go home so I saw them twice and was in the room to see them three times. 

Clo: Oh no! 

Court: Which kinda sucked. But I got to see them, I saw them in Bristol, which was a weird place to go to, they supported Mallory Knox 

Clo: another band 

Court: Yeah, Mallory. I’d travel...Well I don’t anymore, I can’t anymore, but I used to travel a lot for gigs. Especially when you go to England, tickets are like 15 quid. 

Clo: They’re dirt cheap. 

Court: Yeah. Like it’s obviously because it’s easier for them to get there and easier for them to get gear around and stuff, but you’d spend 15 quid on a ticket and have the best time of your life. 

Clo: 15 euro on a Ryanair flight.

Court: Yeah! 

Clo: I used to be the same. I think the last time I travelled to see a band was last January, a band called [inaudible], psychadelic rock, totally not emo. They were really really good, but other than that, I would’ve travelled a good bit to see YMA6, I was a bit obsessed with them there for a while. And their live gig Final Night of Sin, and  I went to see them in Southampton but it was completely random but it was the only place I could get tickets for, Belfast a couple of times, but other than that I think it’s been pretty quiet with regards to travelling for gigs. It’s definitely mostly been YMA6. 

Court: Yeah. Like there’s no bands….the next band I’m going to see is Fever 333, and it’s the singer used to be in Letlive., if you remember that from a couple of years ago? So there’s nothing like, it’s really quiet here, bands don’t really come here. 

Clo: Yeah, like I said earlier we had YMA6 came over in November, they played their 10 year anniversary show for Take Off Your Colours. Before that, I can’t remember the last emo band that I went to see. 

Court: Yeah. I had tickets for Cute is What We Aim For. Now, I had those tickets, and then they cancelled, and then I found out some stuff that he’d said online originally when the MeToo stuff came out. And it was really stupid and ignorant. He apologised because people were like EHHH, SORRY? 

[together] WHAT? 

Court: And he was basically schooled, and he did apologise genuinely, but I was still like, that’s dodgy as all hell. It was basically just like ‘women are stronger than that’ and it was just like, no. 

Clo: uhhhhh….

Court: It was real like, he wanted to be on the side of, women aren’t weak because that’s what he thought women were saying? 

Clo: Okay…

Court: And he completely got the wrong end of the stick and it was really shitty when I read it, and I read his apology and his apology was better than most apologies we’ve seen and it was just, like, a completely ignorant thing he’d said. But I think had I seen that before, I would’ve been really mad.

Clo: Would it have turned you off going? 

Court: Probably, I do think that’s another episode we need to talk about 

Clo: Definitely 

Court: what would actually stop you going to see a band, because as we know, over the last couple of years, a lot of bands have been outed for doing shitty things, especially in the era of MeToo, we’ve had a lot of people come forward and say this happened to me, this happened to me. Something had happened to a friend of mine, actually, a few years ago, that she was really brave and came forward and said… and that drama is still ongoing, which is really sad and really shit because other people are now involved in it too, and I just think like when you’re a teenager, you’re really trusting. 

Clo: yeah 

Court: and even if you are attracted to people in the band, you don’t really know what it is you’re expecting to happen? So if someone were to give you that kind of attention or ply you with drink or do whatever, I don’t know how I would’ve reacted as a kid to that, and obviously not every experience is mine, maybe some people did think they knew what they were getting into and it didn’t turn out that way. I do think that’s a future topic 

Clo: definitely. So I think we’re going to wrap it up, I think we’re going to talk a little bit about maybe what kind of reunions would you like to see over the next Twenty Nine Scene. What do you want to see happen? 

Court: Hmm. Obviously I would love to see My Chem come back

Clo: yes

Court: I don’t think they will. I think Gerard’s so resistant to the idea of doing anniversary tours. But a lot of bands are and then it comes around to it and nostalgia and stuff kicks in, so obviously that’s going to be top of the list. Emm… I’d love to see Hey Monday. 

Clo: Oh my god, YES. I’d love for that to happen. 

Court: I know Cassadee is… Cassadee Pope, she went on the Voice of America or whatever they call it over there, won, and is now is like a really successful country-music star. Which, like, good for you! Some of her songs are so great. I’d love maybe a one-off date maybe in England somewhere, I might go. 

Clo: I would love to see that happen. 

Court: Whatever happened to Metro Station?

Clo: Oh gosh. I’ve no idea. They met on the set of Hannah Montana, the two guys, obviously Trace Cyrus is Miley’s brother, and Mason Musso was the brother of the guy from Hannah Montana, I don’t remember what his name was, Oliver or whatever 

Court: Yeah 

Clo: So that was bizarre 

Court: [laughs] 

Clo: and the least emo thing to happen, hanging out on the set of Hannah Montana, but I think...I would actually like to see them. I really would, I remember there was a tour, Believers Never Die, and it was Hey Monday, Metro Station, FOB, Cobra Starship, and another band… but I remember that being my dream lineup. Really really wanted to go see that. 

Court: that sounds amazing 

Clo: I think ATL were the fifth band 

Court: Of course they were 

Clo: Cherry on the top of the cake for you. [laughs] 

Court: Of course they were. Cobra Starship – you were...I just remember…. We didn’t really talk that much online, but I remember vague Facebook interactions, you were OBSESSED with Cobra Starship 

Clo: [laughs] 

Court: whenever I thought of CS, I’d be like ‘Clodagh really likes them’

Clo: their music wasn’t really emo, I think they kind of got their association, at least for me, through FOB. Gabe and Pete were really good friends, and they were on the same record label as well. I was obsessed with CS. I remember when I found out I won the meet and greet with CS, I fell to the floor 

Court: [laughs] 

Clo: and started crying 

Court: super, super dramatic 

Clo: very dramatic. So we met them, the meet and greet was amazing. I have a photograph that is just awful. We queued all day obviously so we’d get front row, but it didn’t matter if we got front row. In the meet and greet our phones died, and we have one really, really bad picture, it’s pixellated, it’s really dark, it was taken in the Green Room in the Academy downstairs just in bar lighting conditions 

Court: Can we put it on the instagram? 

Clo: yes 

Court: even though it’s horrible? 

Clo: I don’t think we’ll be able to make it out 

Court: just circle your face 

Clo: if I can figure it out, it’s very very dark. I’d love to see them. A band called Family Force Five supported them. Do you remember them? 

Court: No?

Clo:They were like Christian metal emo, right. 

Court: what a genre. That’s a mash up. 

Clo: Their albums are really good and kinda metally-emo, but they were about Jesus and God. But they were kinda really good. 

Court: There was a lot of Christian rock bands. Paramore started out as that. Then remember like Skillet? 

Clo: Reliant K? I don’t know how that’s pronounced. 

Court: Reliant K, yeah. 

Clo: I used to love them, they were kinda Christian rock as well. 

Court: yeah. It was really strange how many of those bands because as famous as they did and then… I’m sure we’ve forgotten loads for the reunion, but obviously top of 2019 wishlist is My Chem. 

Clo: 100%. So that’s it for this week, thank you so much for tuning in and listening to this podcast, Kids From Yesterday. If you’d like to find us on Instagram we’re @kidsfromyesterdaypod and we’re on Twitter, @kidsfromydaypod. 

Court: If you’re listening, make sure to share it, share it with your friends, tell people...I dunno… share 

Clo: post it on your instagram story and tag us so we can share it too. We wanna be friends. 

Court: we need friends. We don’t have any friends. Yeah, so, thanks so much for listening, and we’ll catch you next week. BYEE. 

Clo: byeee.

[shannonswizzies]

Lyric Prompts

1. Father tell me, we get what we deserve. Oh we get what we deserve. // Way Down We Go, Kaleo

2. How can I be lost if I’ve got nowhere to go? // The Unforgiven III, Metallica

3. There's that light in your eye filling up the dark. Though, I lost myself, I know it's not the end. // Levitate, Imagine Dragons

4. I guess it's good to get it off my chest. I guess I can't believe I haven't yet. // Tell Me How, Paramore

5. I think we were cursed from the start; you took my heaven away // Heaven, PVRIS

6. This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me. // Going Away to College, Blink-182

7.  Keep screaming into the pillow, cause your touch still gets me stupid high; And I swear I'm not a pretender. Sometimes it's love who's the biggest liar // Wild Horses, Bishop Briggs

8.  Painted with passion, my favorite color. Hope I'm alive when the story gets old. // Kings, Tribe Society 

9.  Running through veins a lustful, tempting melody so sweet turned into songs of sirens singing, senses screaming. // Lykos, Shatterproof

10.  We're dancing through the smoke, and we don't mind the flames. Now we become the ghost that you know by name. // We Are The Hearts, EXGF

11.  So just miss your plane, stay at my place cause I miss your kiss, already // Miss Yer Kiss, SWMRS 

12.  You got one little string around your little finger in case you forget, it's the way to remember. // One Little String, Jule Vera 

13.  Nowhere to go, I'm not leaving, not going, I'm not kissing you goodbye // Kissing You Goodbye, The Used

14.  I'm a cliché in a song and everybody's singing along. // Something’s Gotta Give, All Time Low 

15.  I left you, I meant to, couldn't let you in. Never mind a single word I said // Homecoming, Hey Monday 

16.  And your eyes will clash with your skin and your gaze will hold me in and I know your mind is set, so I'll take what I can get // Godzilla, With Confidence

17.  So you denied the reasons we all live and die, said that the river runs straight into ocean // Sweet Jane, Garrett Kato

18.  I swear I'll never be happy again, and don't you dare say we can just be friends. // If It Means a Lot to You, A Day To Remember 

19.  Holding hands when she's mad at me 'cause she don't wanna go, don't wanna go // Hey Mama, Mat Kearney 

20. I hate the taste on my tongue too damn sweet // American Candy, The Maine

21.  Sweet dreams that won't come true, I'd leave it all for you. // Skyway Avenue, We The Kings

22.  I'm not in love, this is not my heart. I'm not gonna waste these words about a girl. // About A Girl, The Academy Is... 

23. You loved me and I froze in time, hungry for that flesh of mine. But I can't compete with a she-wolf, who has brought me to my knees. // She Wolf, Sia

24.  But I can tell you, it's a guarantee that I'll always run away from every problem or severed relationship, cause that's who I am. // The Life of a Pirate, Cady Groves

25. Lose those make believe smiles and those lead me on looks, boy you swear you're so clever // Scarlet Letter, Jule Vera

26. 'Cause when it feels like I'm lost at sea, you're the song I sing again and again // The Anchor, Bastille

27.  I start again and whatever pain may come, today this ends, I’m forgiving what I’ve done. // What I’ve Done, Linkin Park

28.  And in the middle of the flood I felt my worth, when you held onto me like I was your little life raft, please know that you were mine as well. // The Lightning Strike, Snow Patrol

29.  I think I better go before I try something I might regret // Honey Whiskey, Nothing But Thieves 

30.  Sick and tired of the typical, I wanna know your shade of grey. // Pretty Little Gangster, Ryder

31.  Oh, baby girl, don't get cut on my edges, I'm the king of everything and oh, my tongue is a weapon // Young God, Halsey

32. Holy hands, oh, they make me a sinner // River, Bishop Briggs 

33.  I tried to sell my soul last night. Funny, he wouldn't even take a bite // Come With Me Now, Kongos

34.  I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head, they beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead // Control, Halsey

35.  Scream with if you're lost, at least you that you're not lost alone. // Cookie Cutter Life, Shatterproof 

36. My foundation rumbles and all my morals crumble, my father's warnings run through my head // The Good in Me, Jon Bellion 

37.  Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me; Oh let's go back to the start // The Scientist, Coldplay

38. This isn't pretty but it's what I am tonight // Make A Move, Icon For Hire

39.  No time can take away these memories. Remember when you said to me, that we'd be alright // 1979, Good Charlotte 

40.  And show me where you run to when no one's left to take your side // Angels on the Moon, Thriving Ivory 

41. The nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day // Do I Wanna Know?, Arctic Monkeys

42. But I'm weak, and what's wrong with that? // Weak, AJR

43. Same lips red, same eyes blue. Same white shirt, couple more tattoos, but it's not you and it's not me // Two Ghosts, Harry Styles

44.  And you're wrong, you're wrong, I'm not overreacting. Something is off, why don't we ever believe ourselves // Worn Me Down, Rachel Yamagata

45.  Truth or dare - are you on fire? And if so, how do you know? And if not, do you burn to be? // Lost, Owen 

46. The tears they soaked your fur, the blood dripped from your fangs. You said, "What have I done?" You loved that lamb with every sinful bone and there you wept alone // Deathbed, Relient K

47. Let me go, I don't wanna be your hero, I don't wanna be a big man. Just wanna fight like everyone else // Hero, Family of the Year

48.  It says: “home is where your heart is,” but what a shame, 'cause everyone's heart doesn't beat the same // Jesus of Suburbia, Green Day

49.  You got a look in your eyes I knew you in a past life; I don't wanna wait 'til the next life // Avalanche, Walk the Moon 

50.  Well I love you so much, but do me a favor baby, don't reply. // Limousine, Brand New

[lolbtsaus]

Reverse Idol (Jungkook)

Before I start this, I gotta say a happy birthday to Jung Hoseok, I hope he’s having/had (depending on the time zone) an amazing bday I’m watching the vlive rn but I’ve seen some gifs and it seems like he was really happy and that makes me s o happy also his new hair is so beyond cute I’m in love!! Last but certainly not least is the second half of the Busan line, the final part to the maknae line, our golden maknae who is continuing to prove he’s talented, the first time I heard the whole “chong, jojun, balsa" bit I thought it was hobi but the fact that it’s kook is so amazing bc this kid can really contort his voice and I can’t wait for the MV, Jeon Jungkook aka kookie

This AU is gonna be about what I think would happen if the reader was the idol and BTS were the fans, you can also think about this like a general celebrity post, I’m gonna be basing this off of kpop idols bc it’s easier for me to write with just one focus instead of being all the over place with it but if you wanted to see this as an actor!reader or a non-kpop singer!reader post, you could easily do that (and of course this is all still gender neutral)

Another series with idol!reader is my idol couple series (kook’s post is here) where both the reader and BTS are idols

This AU is gonna feature some youtuber!Jungkook (here) to sum it up, he’s a gamer on youtube 

Jungkook is another huge fanboy but he’s the O.O fanboy like chim’s the :) fanboy tae’s the :D fanboy but kook is just wide eyed “oh my god oh my god”

When he loves an artist, he seems to really just look up to them like him and GD, we all know that boy loves GD I mean wasn’t it him that made kook wanna become a singer/idol that alone says a l o t about how much kook respects him

In public he tries to be -_- (it doesn’t last long but he does try) but at home he loses it

He’ll hear your song in public and his eyes get really big and Yoongi’s mentally starting the ten second countdown before Jungkook starts  dancing along to it 

It starts off with just a bit of foot tapping around the three second mark, at the five second mark, his head starts bobbing, at the seven second mark, he starts swaying until he breaks into the full choreography

Whenever he plays your music, everyone just knows he’s about to come running into the room dressed head to toe in your merch and start screaming the songs so they just all prepare themselves, vmin start stretching so they don’t pull anything 

Sure enough, kook slides into the room with a hairbrush to use as a mic and start singing as loudly as he possibly can, not caring if he goes off key and he starts doing the dance to the song

But it’s actually really cute but all of the other boys get these huge smiles and they gotta join in

Okay but kook gets s o fucking into lip syncing or just goofing around and singing like we all remember the Linkin Park video that’s about all the proof I need and the fact that no one was really reacting to it tells me that he’s doing that shit at home too

The boys all know your music since I have this head canon that if one member knows an artist, they all know that artist just bc they’re all so close it’s easy to assume they’re sharing their favorite music with each other

Him reacting to performances is super cute too bc he gets so into it and he’s singing along and dancing and you can tell he’s genuinely enjoying it and what I love about kook is that he gives the performances his full attention

I was watching him react to one of Astro’s performances and his eyes are just glued to the stage and it’s so sweet

Of course I gotta bring up his reaction to the Rainism performance he literally started performing in the crowd and it was so fucking funny and cute you could just see how excited he got

His fans all know about his crush on you even though he tries to play it cool it’s pretty damn obvious

In the background of a lot of his videos, you can see some of your posters and some albums and he just giggles when he gets questions about it which totally gives away the whole crush thing bc your face lighting up at the mention of someone is normally a pretty good indicator that you have some sort of emotion towards them, whether it’s platonic or romantic

Plus in his live streams, he’s always got one of your albums playing in the background

And Vmin may have just maybe totally told everyone about his crush on you during one of their Q&As and Jungkook may have screamed when he saw them do it he m a y b e chased Jimin with a shoe and threw a banana at Tae’s head

Okay so an a m azing anon suggested this and it has become my head canon entirely

Jungkook has a tumblr right and it’s mainly art and gaming shit, those are the main focuses

He uploads his art a lot, they’re normally drawings of characters or musicians he likes and one day he uploads a drawing of you and everyone flips

Not only is it s o realistic, it’s also getting all of the shippers fired up and ready to scream bc it’s obvious it took some time to draw and Tae uploads a few videos of kook on snapchat like two weeks ago where he’s staring really intently at the screen of his phone and no one knows what kook’s drawing so everyone’s excited

And then the excitement doubles when it’s revealed that he was drawing you and then Jimin adds onto the excitement by stating it’s not the first time kook has drawn you 

You notice the drawing bc everyone sends it to you, even the people who don’t follow kookie send it to you bc it’s rea ll y good we all know how talented kook is especially when he puts his mind to something and he’s not about to half ass a drawing of his crush

You tweet out about it bc you don’t know who did it so you’re just like hey this is really good, whoever drew it and then everyone immediately starts telling you it’s Jungkook’s (the boys also help out by tagging you on instagram in kook’s pictures bc they’re wingmen all of them)

Kook decides in honor of your birthday, he’s gonna release a cover of his favorite song by you bc he’s released a few covers here and there already so why not do one for you and that does n o t help the shippers’ poor lil hearts at all

He doesn’t know that you know who he is yet so he doesn’t even think you’re gonna see it but little does he know, you’re following him on all the social medias bc he’s super cute in all the ways

It’s a more laid back version of your song, it’s just piano and kook’s voice which is s o nice and you can’t believe that this is the same kid you just watched dance around in a Pikachu onesie during one of his celebration videos

After that, you just h a v e to contact him bc he’s so sweet in his bday wishes to you and he’s just so cute and precious you gotta do it

“Your drawing was really cute and your cover was amazing, I’d love to meet you”

Ight but to announce your relationship to the public, he releases all of the other drawings he’s done of you

“Thnx for being my muse but no, I’m not gonna stop texting you pictures of puppies at three in the morning, they’re important”

[rumongray]

Hello! I see you're taking questions, so I thought I'd just pop in with some basic bitch 'get-to-know-you' questions, if that's okay! If you wanna answer, I'd love to know: What's your favorite color(s)? Favorite season? Favorite type of geck and what makes them the best? c: Any hobbies besides writing? Do you collect anything? Favorite food? Favorite music/ bands? (I think I saw somewhere once that you like N.I.N, which is pretty cool) ( Thanks! That's all I can fit for now!)

Hi there! I’m always taking questions, since I don’t get very many to begin with, so I’m totally okay with basic bitch questions. XD

Gonna put them behind a cut!

Favorite colors?

Hmm…I’m weird in that I have a lot, but they all have their reasons I suppose. I never really put stock in a “favorite color” for myself, because there are a lot of situations where certain colors stand out from others.

I like red because it’s a very strong, attractive color. It draws the eye and catches one’s attention better, and to be honest…I like catching people’s eye. I’ve slowly started getting a few pieces of red clothing primarily because of that, and also I think it looks good with blond hair.

I like blue and its many shades and hues because of its calming nature. I’m honestly drawn to aqua and cyan quite a bit. There’s nothing really much to this one other than I just…like it.

Purple, especially dark purple, is a regal color that I’ve really come to enjoy, but again, I’d prefer it to be dark. My school colors were purple and gold, which looked alright, but the purple was a brighter shade, and I…eh…I’d rather forget high school I suppose. It wasn’t bad, just kinda…blegh.

And of course when it comes to characters in games and the like, I try to match what would fit them if possible. I like my paladins to wear white and gold, I like healers to wear blue or green, rogues in black or other dark colors, etc.

To be honest, it’s easier to pick colors I don’t like. I’m not too fond of orange, since at its brightest I find it annoying and when it’s dark it looks…shitty. I’m torn on the color brown. It can often look great on characters with other accents, but sometimes people choose like..the ugliest shades of brown and it can really ruin a character for me. :P

I’m okay with gray. It serves its purposes in the right places…like giving me a cool last name. (My mother’s maiden name is Gray, and if I ever become an author, I’d use that last name as part of my pen name.)

Favorite type of gecko?

Hah, haven’t really put thought into this one. I find them all cute! Although I like green geckos myself, although that’s a bit of a stereotypical answer. XD

Any hobbies besides writing?

Hmm…it’s mostly just video games. I’ve mentioned before though that it’s not just the playing of those games I’m into. I also really enjoy learning about the industry, the ins and outs of how things work. How developers work in their environment, what publishers do exactly, and that kind of thing. I actually like to keep myself up to date on game culture and news.

I do like reading up on melee weaponry from around the world. It usually stops short of say, siege weaponry and the like, but I love learning about swords, spears, axes, and weapons of a more exotic nature. I’m also still a fan of reading up on science, although my college days are long past and I’ve lost the mathematical part of it, I can still grasp the concepts of the more advanced stuff. Astrophysics is a big favorite.

I guess I’m not much of a hobbyist. Outside of writing, I just like to kick back and relax with my time off. Watch youtube vids, play games, just take a load off. The benefit to this is that when a new hobby presents itself, I can acclimate and adapt to it if I find it something worthwhile to pursue, y’know? I’m pretty easy going and can stay entertained with just a conversation for the most part when I’m with other people.

Do you collect anything?

Other than swords and the like? :P

Although I suppose the answer is no, I don’t really collect anything for the sake of collecting. Every now and then at work I’ll find a strange quarter or currency from another country that I’ll slip into my pocket, but that’s pretty much it. You’d be amazed at how many people think silver dollars are just quarters! XD

But even then, if it’s an odd coin I’ll collect it. A penny that, through a chemical reaction has turned gold? Yeah I’ll snag it. Another penny that’s straight up silver? Yep, got one of those. I even have a coin from the United Arab Emirates around here somewhere. Can’t find it right now though. Bummer.

I also like getting videogame-related trinkets every now and then. I have a Bowser amiibo, Sans and Papyrus figures, Yoshi and Bowser Mario Kart from my work’s happy meals. I don’t really collect them though for two reasons: Money, and space. I used to collect Magic: The Gathering cards as a kid. Used to. Boy was that an expensive habit.

Favorite Food?

If I had to pick, I’d have to go with a well-prepared steak. If prepared well enough, steak sauce isn’t even needed. I’ve had some like that before. Just…perfect flavor from start to finish.

I also like Mongolian BBQ, or a nice rotisserie chicken dinner.

Favorite Music / Bands?

So, for music in general, I’m always drawn to a good melody over anything else. Something that sounds good to the ear that can elicit a good emotional response. It really triggers my writing brain and helps me come up with scenes to match to the music at times.

As for bands, yep! I’m a big Nine Inch Nails fan, from The Fragile onward. Never got into The Downward Spiral, but it has a few tracks I do like. Trent Reznor’s just so good at evoking emotions with his music, especially the darker ones that I like to explore in writing every now and then. Along with this is “How To Destroy Angels,” another band consisting of Reznor his wife Mariqueen Maandig, and Atticus Ross. Their first full-length album was a chilling, amazing look into the possibilities of the Technological Singularity. It’s such a great album.

Another favorite band of mine is Vertical Horizon, and their song, “I’m Still Here,” is probably one of my absolute favorites.

Fear Factory is another big favorite of mine. I do like metal, but I don’t really like the screaming so much…it tends to sound almost lifeless to me at points…no melody to it, or at least, not one that strikes my fancy. Fear Factory’s Burton Bell though has a fantastic voice, both for screaming AND singing.

Fear Factory is also one of the hardest working bands I’ve ever been a fan of. They’ve consistently put out albums every…3 years or so since they started, and haven’t stopped yet. They’re currently working on another one, and I’m hyped for it!

Other bands I like include: Imogen Heap/Frou Frou, Linkin Park (yeah yeah, shut up, he’s got a great voice), Celldweller (I’m weirdly proud of Klayton and his success. I remember when Celldweller started, now he’s producing music for  trailers, movies, and games, including even Killer Instinct!), Gravity Kills (chatted with the frontman, Jeff Scheel once for a little bit on twitter. He’s a pretty cool guy!), The Crystal Method, Carpenter Brut, God Lives Underwater (RIP :C), The Birthday Massacre, and Zeromancer.

Of course, I also enjoy Ninja Sex Party, Starbomb, Steel Panther, and Nashville Pussy, for music of a more comedic bent. XD Danny Sexbang’s former band, Skyhill, is also really calming to listen to. His voice is so astoundingly good!

Hope this answered your questions, but I’m always down for more.

Thanks for asking! Take care! :D

[lolbtsaus]

High School!Jungkook

Last but certainly not least, to finish the series off as he always does is the second half of the Busan line, our golden maknae who is honestly so sweet like I love how he’s all goofy but then he has such a soft side, especially for the boys my heart melts every time, Jeon Jungkook aka kookie

This will be an extension of the teenager series (for the teen!kook post, click here) the original post focused on the relationship, like the first meeting, the confession all of that fluffy stuff so this post is gonna be filling the gap in and saying what I think he’d be like as a high school student

His post features youtuber!kook (here) to sum that post up, he has a gaming channel

Visuals are up first as always

Okay so for kookie, his visuals are a bit easier to explain bc we literally saw this kid go through puberty, he was 15/16 when he debuted but he has that bby chub that we all have when we’re younger and his face is a lot softer bc of it but of course, we all saw how quickly he went from 0 to 100, he went from squishy squish to damN

So even with hs!kook, puberty hits him so hard you blink and you miss it like I’m still ?!?!?!?! over it bc what happened to bby squish he’s an adult squish now (he still is v v cute even if he’s matured physically, he will always be adorable) and he’s of course gotten taller, that kid just keeps growing friendly reminder he used to be shorter than Jin

Jungkook looks so incredibly amazing with black hair (side note his new hair is so fucking niCe I’m so excited for this comeback) and I feel like he really likes having it, plus all of his fetus pictures have the black hair in them so hs!kook will have that color as well

Okay so fashion wise, Jungkook has a really cute style like I highkey wanna raid his closet bc his clothes look so comfy, he goes for a lot of baggy shirts, ripped jeans, a nice cozy jacket and a beanie he loves a good beanie and he makes them look s o good what a boyfriend

He does try new things every now and then like he wore those overalls which were super cute on him (plus we got to know that kookie was happy and comfy) and he’s tried a few different colors out but he has said before, he likes white and black and red those are his mains

HS!kook doesn’t have a shit ton of time to get ready in the morning bc he’s that kid that sleeps in five minutes longer than he should so he’s gotta race around to get ready but on the days that he gets up when the alarm goes off the first time, he can take more time to put together a cute looking outfit and maybe try something new but typically it’s a t-shirt and some jeans (which is a super cute look in my opinion, kook makes it look like some top quality designer level shit) he also forever has a hat on, a beanie, a bucket hat, a snapback, it’s normally a beanie but it depends on the weather

Okay so it’s been documented that Jungkook mainly sticks to BTS when it comes to friendship, over the years he has started being more social, he’s really good friends with Yugyeom now of course and their friendship sounds super cute but Jungkook seems to just naturally be one of those people that prefers one really good best friend rather than have a bunch of meh friends

So while he may make a few friends here and there, the boys and you are his everything, his lil group is who he feels the most comfortable around, he feels like he can do anything, say anything and he knows that no matter what, he’s gonna have someone that will join him in his joke or play around with him while also knowing that someone will always be there to talk to him or be a shoulder to cry on

He befriends the “outcasts” the people who don’t really care about being part of the popular crowd or have been turned away by them bc Jungkook doesn’t really care about being popular, he doesn’t care if everyone in school knows his name or if no one in school knows who he is, he just likes meeting people that are like him, he likes giving people the same feelings the boys and you give him, a feeling of a best friend, someone to trust and talk to and hang out with

Jungkook gets some good grades, As and Bs and then in math he probably gets a lower grade bc he’s our lil golden maknae who just isn’t a math type of person

I mentioned this in Tae’s post and it’s kinda become a head canon for me but they are in the anime club together bc Jungkook seems to really like anime and I feel like having Tae there would be such a bonus for him bc we all know how much Jungkook loves Tae and the two of them could play around for hours so it doesn’t matter where they are, it’ll be fuN

But Jungkook figures why not combine his love for anime with Tae and join the anime club, Tae joins it first bc he is older but the second Jungkook can, he joins it too

Okay so for sports, I remember there was this really old video of Jungkook saying he was pretty good at “handball” and hobi said he was really good at sports and we of course know how fast Jungkook can run, the kid literally slowed down during a race bc the gap between him and the others was so big and he’s competitive so he’s definitely on a sports team

He’d go for soccer/football or maybe baseball (even though there’s a video of him and Tae practicing baseball and kookie didn’t hit too many balls but it was super cute to watch) anything that requires a lot of quick movement bc I feel like that’s one of his major strengths plus he’s a really strong dude I will never be over the fact that he was a 15/16 year old lifting Jimin up for No More Dream if that was him at 15/16, can you even imagine what it’s like now 

He would be an amazing player bc kook is really passionate and he doesn’t really half ass anything, he goes all in so he would really work hard with training and he’s always practicing with the boys

Prom with lil kook would be super cute, he’s s o nervous he has to call Jimin and be like “is this normal” bc he’s changed his tie about five times, he’s looked through so many different suits/tuxes do you wanna match, should he get a certain color tie or should he just go big and go for the entire suit/tux

Jimin’s there with him the entire time he’s picking his look for the night and he’s kinda just giggling bc it’s amusing to see the normally laid back ever-so-cool maknae buying a pack of socks in a bunch of different colors bc what if you wanted his socks to match what you were wearing and Jiminhas to help him tie his tie and calm him down a bit

Kook honestly look so good though like his hair would be doing that thing it did in War of Hormone where there was just that peek of forehead and he has his classic lil suit on with his tie and he looks 10/10

All of those nerves are gone when he actually sees you bc you’ve been one of the people he went to when he was nervous so just seeing you and being able to hug you makes him feel a lot more relaxed about the night but then he also thinks you look amazing and is in awe and kinda just stands there for a minute with his mouth hanging open and he’s trying to think of something to say but he can’t so he settles for “hi”

He gets you a lil flower and he just looks so cute standing there with his bunny smile and his singular flower and his eyes are all happy and bright

It takes Jungkook a second to get hyped up when it comes to dancing but of course we’ve all seen how quickly the boys can get each other !!! like one second they’re all -_- the next second, they’re dancing on tables and screaming

Jungkook gets the DJ to put on a Linkin Park song and just goes i n and that’s when you know he’s officially gone from 0 to 100 (best part about this is that it isn’t even a head canon it’s legit canon I love BTS)

Sure enough, in the next minute, he’s managed to grab a cup to use as a “microphone” and is now passionately lip syncing in the middle of the room but it’s one of those moments where you don’t know whether to laugh or join (you end up joining bc you gotta)

Slow dancing with kook is actually really sweet bc he gets a bit shy and he has his forehead rested against yours and he’s got the tiniest hint of a blush on his cheeks and he’s talking to you in these low whispers and he’s got his fingers interlocked with yours so he keeps squeezing your hand and he’s just a shy romantic bun

High school!kook is a lil shy at times but is always happy around his best friends and is v v in love