#this kinda shit is why I stay on Facebook

[great-and-small]

Nobody throws shade like a biologist with burning hatred for invasive plants

[second-breakfast]

Got put on a PIP today for shit no one ever mentioned to me before that isn't new plus some some stuff that it is only halfway accurate

[maddiviner]

NPCs! OMG

I'm not one of those people who insists arguing on the internet is for dweebs. I realize it has a place and function. I just sometimes feel the need to curb my own impulse to do that, especially on those completely empty ten-hour night shifts. If I don't hold back, I end up writing replies to people on Facebook like this.

Little context - I've been hanging out in this group on Facebook about "Simulation Theory." It's mostly what you'd expect?

I have no clue when I joined this group - probably in the distant past, and/or I expected something else from it. I was pretty interested in that kinda thought experiment when i was in university, mostly as a result of this whole "make fun of Descartes" shit that went on.

I'm pretty sure it only started showing up in my feed suddenly (rather recently) because of a health diagnosis that the group seems to find fascinating. Guess when I joined support groups for that, it also started putting this group in my feed because of it.

Either way, I stayed in the group (with some other people I met there) to lurk, learn what they're believing, and try and push people away from that kind of thing.

They have this obsession with NPCs, who are supposedly soulless creatures that look utterly like humans in every other way. They argue constantly about whether NPCs are controlled by evil intelligences, or just AI, stuff like that.

In the above I was trying to explain to some poor sap that the people he saw in a cafe laughing unprovoked weren't, in fact, glitched-out soulless entities called NPCs, but instead probably just thinking about dangerous sex acts involving dextromethorphan.

If you find yourself writing that kind of explanation or reply on the internet, dial it back a bit? I did. That screenshot was taken a while back, and now I'm mostly lurking that awful group, if that. I often tell myself that those kinds of comments are meant to convince the lurkers more than the people I'm debating... but there's a limit to that, wtf.

Why? I don't really know. It seems to really show the cutting edge of how the techbros are meshing with the New Age movement. It's disturbing, but I want to know what is going on there. Plus, they won't stop bringing up my particular diagnosis, and I still jump in to debunk that association when I see it.

[reasonsforhope]

Your blog is a literal god send for me, I’ve been feeling so depressed, pessimistic, nihilistic and cynical at the state of the world right now and my fear of if I even have a future, but your blog is absolutely what I needed right now, so I can’t thank you enough. I’m just so happy to see someone who is hopeful and positive and not pessimistic, and it makes me legit want to cry tears of joy. How are you able to stay so positive and optimistic despite everything going on?

<3 <3 <3

As for how I stay optimistic and relatively positive? Lots of effort and hard work.

I'm not naturally an optimist. I spent most of my life (and certainly my adolescence lol) being pretty angry and cynical.

It's not that I never feel depressed or despairing about the state of the world. There's fucked up shit happening, indisputably, and hey, I'm trans, it's been a rough fucking year for that. But I guess I try to focus on the difference between passing moods and baseline worldview.

Some of the main ways I moved my baseline worldview to be optimistic and hopeful:

A lot of reading and looking at data and in-depth stories. The headlines never give you enough of the story - hell, most news articles don't these days, because they're so skewed toward negative news

Especially reading/looking at good news sites (I have a masterpost of good news sites here). There are good things happening everywhere that you never hear about. Mostly, you only ever hear about the good things when there's been a huge setback, which sucks!

I'm basically not on social media. Nothing except Tumblr, Facebook, and LinkedIn, and I only ever go on FB and linkedin briefly for business. It's fantastic, can't recommend ditching social media enough

I made sure I was doing something to help (aka I started this blog. I would also volunteer but my disabilities and a lot of logistics make that complicated)

My job involves reading a couple dozen self-help books a year lol, not gonna lie that def helps

Taking a long perspective of time. It often doesn't feel like it, but statistically, this really is the best time to be alive. (Here's a fantastic essay about many of the reasons why.) People really gloss over how much most of the past kinda fucking sucked to live in. 50% of all people used to die before their 15th birthday, for basically all of history until the past 200 years!! Imagine having to live with that. Imagine all of that pain and grief literally everywhere. I'm really happy about living in modern times, actually!

That last point is esp helpful to remember for me because I'm 100% for sure on the list of "people who would've died in childbirth" pre modern medicine (and my mom would've died having me, too). It was modern times or nothing lol

The vast majority of the world has spent the past 300 to 500 years being absolutely brutalized by white people and/or the West. There's still a lot of fallout to fix and colonialism to uproot, but I genuinely can't wait to see what people and nations will achieve with sustained self-rule and significantly fewer massive atrocities

Solarpunk and hopepunk stuff

I'm gonna make a whole post about this at some point but the fact that we eliminated scarcity in the past few decades actually changes the entire fucking game for the world (literally it's not a zero sum game anymore) and for the future. We're allowed a bit of a learning curve I think

I listen to the Rent soundtrack a lot and go "well you know what being trans right now sucks but being trans at the height of the aids crisis would've been way fucking worse" lol rip

Meds! Meds. Antidepressants and antianxiety meds unfortunately don't work for everyone (yet!), but also thank fuck for meds

Progress almost always happens in slow, tiny increments, with a lot of stops and starts and setbacks. You have to always remember that there are always people fighting somewhere, and if they're stopped, there will always be more people to pick up the fight in the future

[alottodix]

Hermes kid Butters I love you 🤍🤍

AND HERES A LIST OF REASONS WHY HE IS A HERMES KID BECAUSE THIS IS PROBABLY MY FAV ASSIGNMENT OF ALL THE KIDS:

1. RESOURCEFULNESS: he is crafty when he wants to be, we all remember how well he adapted to ‘the last of the meheecans’ and the casa bonita episode where the kid just chilled out with being the last person alive and stayed positive the entire time. There’s also so many examples of him just coping with Cartman’s bs and I adore him for that.

2. HERMES AS MESSENGER OF THE GODS: kind of a stretch but remember how the Marjorine character was created primarily for him to spy on the girls and relay messages back to the boys?? Also bro like hacking into facebook that one time, online communication is his bitch

3. HERMES AS GOD OF TRICKERY: Professor Chaos. That’s all I’m saying for this one. Professor Chaos. ALSO YES OKAY SO IN THE SHOW CARTMAN CREATES THE EVIL PLANS, but Butters usually will help carry them out in some way sOOO still a little trickster

4. HERMES AS GOD OF COMMERCE: remember when our sweet innocent boy became a pimp? yeah, that was an experience. There’s also the whole NFT thing in the future which shows how Butters has a pretty crazy knowledge of the market and how to exploit it for his own gain if he really needs to + in this he also mirrors Hermes’ versatility by adapting his business approach with every customer we see him speaking to. And in season 26 the guy seems pretty wise when it comes to getting a job and managing his money, man knows business.

5. GOD OF THIEVERY: again, the NFT shit is basically stealing. Love you Butters but Vic Chaos was kinda crazy (love him tho)

Thank you for coming to my ted talk!!

(Copy and pasted straight from the endnotes of this fanfic lmaoooo, the lost lyre on ao3, have at it)

[glitchadeli]

So.. I have a long story about this; (please read for context!) I used to be friends with this kid in elementary school, they were my best friend and we hung out all the time!! Something we bonded over was Pokémon and as a kid. My first game was Soul Silver which yeah is pretty late into the 'series' of Pokemon but it's whatever, that was my first game, don't judge. Anyway, I was kinda (very) dumb and just eventually got rid of my Pokémon stuff. Idk why I ever did shit like that (I regret it so much) and I have really bad memory so like.. I had no idea what I did with any of my games. Well, remember that friend I mentioned? We reconnected a few months ago after almost 10 years of not talking (because we moved when I was about 11 and.. being 11 year old's we didn't have a way to keep contact lmao. I tried looking for them over Facebook for YEARS with no luck, but a few months ago I had randomly found their profile and messaged them.) When we reconnected, we called on discord and they were talking about Pokémon and they said "Oh dude, by the way I still have your soul silver game that you gave me" and I was like "... wait what?" and.. yeah!! Apparently I had given them my soul silver as a kid (I guess that was my 'getting out of Pokémon phase', like I said, I was dumb..) and I was just in pure disbelief. And they said if I wanted, I could have the game back so today (yesterday since I'm posting this at like 4 am) I hung out with them and they handed it to me. My *original* copy of Soul Silver. The copy I played as an 8 year old.. (or 9 year old idk, bad memory) I can't tell you what it means to have my original cartridge. Sadly my save file isn't there since when I gave it to them in childhood, they restarted it.. but that's okay, the fact I have THE VERY COPY I had as a kid, still means the world to me. Like.. I just.. yeah I could've re-bought the game over the years but.. having the exact one I had as a kid.. it means more than I can ever express. I'm so fuckin' excited to play this game you don't understand. I will post updates as I play, (I plan to shiny hunt Lugia >:3 ) I'm sorry that it's not TAWoG, but my Pokemon-loving heart is so happy!! 😭💕💕 Anyways, the drawing I included because I had decided to draw myself with my 'team' so far!! (Yes I made my trainer a male, named Glitch :> hehe) So far I have Sakura the Chikorita, Pudge the Pidgey and Moegi the Bellsprout, and of course the egg that I'm working on hatching!! (Tbh Moegi is only being used for HM's so she won't be staying for long lmao, sorry sprout!) I'm definitely gonna draw more Pokemon stuff because I've wanted too for so long but I get shy with it for some reason? Well not anymore. I'm not making this a daily thing, that'd be too much, but I'll definitely do more drawings throughout my journey!! ^^ I hope you guys are good with seeing Pokemon, don't get me wrong I still love TAWoG and will still be posting about it, but I'm deep in a Pokemon fixation right now so.... Be prepared :P I've played the game more and I have more team members but I'll draw that eventually hhgghh but ye!!! I know this is mostly a TAWoG blog but.. I will post other things on here as well ^^''

[icedmetaltea]

Ngl I feel kinda somber now that it's Officially November...

(just sad thoughts)

All I have to look forward to is Thanksgiving and Christmas, both of which are family-themed holidays if that makes sense and it just makes me remember I'm now not in contact with my sibling. I may not even be staying with my parents by christmas, I may be back in my old apartment all alone or at a new one, still alone.

It wouldn't have mattered even if my sibling was still staying there, they were going to go on a vacation to Europe through christmas this year so I would've been alone anyways.

And like... due to climate change n all, September and October here were basically still summer. It's only now starting to feel consistently cold. I only have November, December, January and maybe February to look forward to before it starts warming up again and with it my anxiety, which I've only just now gotten under control.

It feels like I'm having shorter and shorter timeframes during the year (cool or cold months) where I'm not having horrific anxiety and ya know feel ok with the whole being alive thing. If I have to wait for just a small fraction of the year to not feel like dying, then like what's the point in living?? It becomes a quality of life problem at that point.

If you spend so much of your time just surviving, it's not really living, now is it?

It's just impending doom hanging over me, nothing new there. Now that my sibling is close to moving I have to worry about where I'll live by the end of the month, about financial aid and getting back into school (online if possible), getting a part time job for the first time, living alone for the first time, if I can get back on ebt... so many fucking things. Which ofc doesn't help with the suicidal thoughts. And ofc my mom had to bring up how all the war with palestine is seeming like The End Times according to the bible and my existential anxiety did not like that.

If god's real (the one my parents believe in anyway) I am of course going to hell. If god's real they're evil, or at least apathetic to the world's suffering, so I have to contend with both a god that hates me and a devil that loves making people suffer. I keep telling myself it's not real but ya know religious trauma and all that shit... Like I want to just turn off my emotions and remind myself if it is real Ok I guess I'll Die and Burn in Hell tm but at the same time it's like why not just make it quicker while I'm having and have so many guns around me.

Don't worry tho this year was the worst my depression or anxiety's ever been and I didn't attempt suicide even during the worst of panic attacks (tho it was tempting, and I couldn't exactly move enough to reach for anything dangerous) so at this point future me prolly won't. And hopefully I can continue speaking to the therapist I'm seeing even when I move.

I just fucking wish my parents would stop reminding me that half this country doesn't believe in climate change and thinks Israel is the victim in the war going on and all this other shit like can you BE ON MY SIDE FOR ONCE PLS. But no I'm just a stupid young person I guess, what do I know, what's my word compared to THE BIBLE or facebook or where ever she gets her info...

And ofc my therapist brought up a good point, aside from my parents and sister I genuinely have nobody irl I can turn to when things go sideways. I don't know if I ever will. When I say I have a resting murder face and an aura that makes people stay away from me I'm not joking and she rlly thinks it's all just a negative view of myself, but it's true. People are scared of me I think, always have been, it's just the vibe I give off.

So I will continue my life without friends and without people who will believe me when I talk about stuff like climate change and that is that. That's not to say I don't cherish online friendships, but I mean just like people I can depend on to really be there, to take me in if I genuinely can't take care of myself, bc it got like that for months and I couldn't so much as wash my own dishes or myself and I don't want to be alone when it happens again, and I know it fucking will.

But yea, I figured i should write this all down while it's fresh on my mind so I can reference it before my next appointment in two weeks...

[thewickedlywenchy]

I’m curious, what made you start posting nudes of yourself? Was it a dare? Was it to push you past a limit of some type? Or was it more of a fuck it your an adult and you’ll do what you want?

Honestly, it was more of a "Fuck You" kinda thing towards my partner at the time. I've been posting nudes or sexy content somewhere on the internet for over 20 years.

Long before tumblr I did Yahoo groups, and Google groups. Yeah....I'm really THAT OLD! I owned and moderated several bbw themed groups and was a member of lots of others that were "adult"

Then along came tumblr.

My partner found it first and asked if he could take a pic or 2 and post it. I said sure go for it. Then I got to looking around and thought, this place looks like fun! Yahoo and Google were phasing out groups at that time and I was really mostly interested in just having a little fun and being able to post or share adult content (not just porn or nudes but memes and stuff you really wouldn't want your family to see on facebook).

He would spend hours and hours online and most of his attention was going towards tumblr and porn. Our sex life was shit, I was mad, jealous, and hurt that he paid more attention to those women than he did to the one he could actually have. So I created my own tumblr, with a slight variation of this same screen name and I started taking my own photos and sharing them online. I found several tumblr folks that asked for submissions and I started submitting and things just snowballed from there. And just to be petty, I would submit to the partners tumblr page as well. And when he would post it was my photos that got the bigger reaction than the professional porn he would spend all day looking for to share. He eventually quit tumblr because he got really sick of people constantly sending him asks about me and our relationship. I guess it's one of those things where you see the person you live with everyday and you can't understand why she's such a big deal to everyone else.

I'm not gonna lie to you.....the attention was fun. And I loved that I had landed amongst people who truly loved bigger women. It was also very empowering and did a lot for my confidence. And it was really fucking cool that I had such a variety of people following me. Couples, older men, young men, single women. Women would tell me they loved my confidence AND that I was funny and a sweet person and apparently I'm super relatable & approachable as well.

So.....I hope that sorta answers your question??

I've made so many friends on tumblr and I treasure them all. Some of the folks here with me now have been along on this crazy ride with me from the very beginning. I think before the crackdown on adult content I had been here about 5 to 6 years and the day I got pissed off because Tumblr kept smacking down my videos for violating TOS and I hit delete on my blog I had over 250,000 followers. Had OF and sites like that one existed at the time I'd be pretty damn well off now.

I stayed away and wandered the internet and found a few other places to post. But nothing is as fun as tumblr imo. And when they said we could be naked again I came back....lol.

It's caused a misunderstanding with my current relationship but I have told him really he has nothing to worry about. I think as long as I send him more stuff than I actually put on my tumblr and I don't get over the top explicit with my comments he's ok with it.....I'm bratty so sometimes it's like walking a tightrope....lol.

Great question!

[writingfanficsfan]

I kinda hate how websites (like Tumblr today) just decide to change things and we can’t do anything about it. 

It’s the same with streaming services like Netflix and Disney+ and all the rest... They suddenly decide to change something, either get rid of series or movies or how you suddenly can’t share your account anymore, and you (the paying client in this case) just have to take it. 

I hate the new layout for Tumblr on my laptop, it just looks wrong and off and I just don’t like it. And okay, maybe that is a silly thing to worry about or be upset about in the grand scheme of things, but I use Tumblr every single day and usually enjoy it. 

Now I logged in and everything is turned around, because they think it will get them more followers or whatever, and just NO. NO. I don’t want Tumblr to turn into facebook or tiktok or twitter or whatever else shit they think we want. 

I want Tumblr to stay like Tumblr. That’s why I’m on it in the first place because it isn’t like ‘normal social media’.  But all these little changes are turning it into all those other ‘normal social media’ networks and before long Tumblr will have lost it’s magic that made me want to be on here in the first place. 

[aidansplaguewind]

So, maybe its kinda random, but I was just thinking shit. Ya know, I don't know if it's my age or what, but I completely understand Aidan not wanting social media.

I can't stand Facebook anymore. I only keep it so my family that lives out of state can see pics of my boys and stay in touch. Every single time I see a picture of a celebrity on my feed, the comments are FILLED with so much negativity, judgment, and hate. It's not just celebrities. They get the most because they're more well known, but it's everyone. Perfect strangers feel they need to comment and put other people down physically as well as passing judgment on others' beliefs and life choices.

And I'll never understand it. I don't understand why it's so hard to lift other people up instead of putting them down. I don't understand why they can't just go by what most of my generation was taught by our mothers, and that's the motto, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."

And on top of all the negativity, there is the sheer stupidity that's absolutely baffling.

Then I think about what my social media would be like if I were Aidan. Hundreds of messages and comments a day from people I don't know. Honestly, probably more because I bet if he had a social media presence his fan base would go up in numbers without a doubt. Feeling like you have to deliver something because all of these people are sitting there waiting and expecting you to say something. Post something.

I'd bash my head into a wall. Seriously. I get overwhelmed and go a little nuts when too many people start wanting things from me and expecting things from me. Even just attention. I'm not a big people person. And I have my kids whom already have expectations and needs that I need to meet. So I can't handle too many more. This is why I'm not really good at friendships either. I also just really like being alone and people don't understand that. They think everyone NEEDS other people around them.

So yeah. I totally get why he doesn't do social media. As much as I like some aspects of it, like getting to see him and getting updates on him, I still think it's probably the worst thing to happen to humanity in general.

[ljfoxie]

Just Rambling

So I’ve been wrestling with something for a few days, and I’m still not sure what the right thing to do is. I feel like just deleting my account and leaving, but I also love coming on here and reading everyone’s posts and stories, I’m conflicted, which is why I’ve taken a break. Tumblr (Simblr) is the only social media platform I use regularly, I no longer have Twitter since Musk took over and I haven’t posted on Facebook in months but I keep it because I have a lot of my Canadian cousins on there and I don’t want to lose touch with them. The only other platform I dip in and out of is Instagram as I’ve been on it since 2010 and I kinda love it for its simplicity and (in my personal experience) the no bullshit no drama feel.

I’m in a funk, I started this new year with positive vibes and a spring in my step. I cared for my mother long before she got terminal cancer, she had mental health issues and her anxiety was a huge issue, so there was never any time for me outside of work. She died a month before I turned 40 in 2019 and I thought that after the grieving process I could start my life. Then the pandemic hit and it was 2 years of staying in and not meeting people. I lost my 14 year old labrador to general old age, my own mental health took a hit and all I had was Simblr even though I had barely any followers or notes at that time, it was escapism for me. So after three years of limbo I decided that this would be the year I would have a baby before my uterus and ovaries closed down and ceased production, I always thought that I would get married and be a mum but life dealt me different cards. I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome and Hypothyroidism which alone they aren’t great but together they’re shit! I’ve been tracking my fertility since January and the chances of me conceiving look promising at the moment, but I lack the main ingredient...a boyfriend/husband/male love interest. That’s my own personal problem but the one thing that I wrestle with on a daily basis is this; is it fair to bring a child into this world the way it is now? Is it selfish? Am I too old? These three questions boil down to one thing, should I even try to have a baby, and the truth is that I don’t know. All I know is that from an early age I always wanted a husband and children, I just lived in a small community where the pick of men wasn’t great, and let’s face it who would be able to deal with my life where my mother came first all the time? This is something I need to think long and hard about, but I know I’ll make the right choices for me and for any potential future child that I may or may not have.

So the reason I toy with leaving Simblr is because sometimes, like real life, I feel like a misfit/outsider and that I don’t fit in. I’ve felt this all of my life, I had a lovely bunch of friends and followers in The Sims 3 community, but haven’t really managed to find my place within The Sims 4 community. I’m just rambling, have the winter blues and I will likely get over it, but this is how I feel at this moment so...who knows what’s around the corner.

Anyway, life’s a strange thing!

[silver-wield]

Story time! I legitimately liked Clerith at one point. A LOT. I played the original game back in the day and I wanted to join the Clerith community. I did so on Discord and nearly instantly was put off by several things within the community, but I pushed it down and told myself I was overreacting. First, it was small things - like how they loathed Team Four Stars' parody videos because of how they treated Aerith. (1)

when in reality all of the characters were given shitty attitudes and backstories because ya'know it was a parody! It felt hyper-sensitive to me for no reason, so I kept it to myself that I loved the video series and went on. Next was how they hated Tifa and willfully misinterpreted canon and characters. Believe it or not I genuinely like Tifa - she's complex and has beauty and brains and brawn so I don't see anything to dislike. But I couldn't exactly say that to them, and any suggestion (2)

that Tifa was a good character got major pushback. I shut up. What really pushed me over the edge was one user I can't recall the name of so I won't guess, but she was a bigwig. I wanted to join a specific part of the Discord. It was advertised as "debate friendly" so I thought - okay finally here is my shot at speaking my mind while not being dog piled. I asked to join and she said basically she had to verify I was a real person so she needed my real Facebook. (3)

A little creepy, and a little odd I thought since I had been in the group for over a month and had caused no trouble (I learned quickly what was and was not okay to say) but I gave it to her anyway. Keep in mind I was a minor at the time. She came back to me and said "You look like my relative." This tells me she was snooping on my page since at the time my profile picture was actually my cat and any pictures of myself were buried some ways back. (4)

About an hour later she told me she denied my request to join because she saw where I had posted Tifa fanart months ago, and since my Facebook was only two years old (again, I was a minor and had only been allowed to get FB roughly two years prior to this) that she was convinced I was a troll. Insert youvegottobekiddingme. png here. I told her she was paranoid to which she went off on a paragraphs-long spiel about how the Clerith community has been prosecuted by Clotis for ages. (nearly done)

I eventually got tired and blocked her and removed myself from the group. Because of that, and another encounter I had much later (in which my sexual identity was mocked) and an encounter a friend of mine had in which she was goaded into crying over her dead husband when she dared suggest that even if Cloud did love Aerith it's cruel to want him to stay single and mourning for the rest of his life, I have thoroughly decided I cannot stand Cleriths. They made me dislike Aerith. (fin)

Sorry for the late reply, anon. I wasn't ignoring it 😅

Tbf I don't like Machinabridged either, but my response is to just ignore it exists. I don't think I've even watched the whole thing. I've never gone off at the team behind it, but then I rarely give a shit because whenever I do I get slammed by tons of people. So, always remember to never express an opinion that differs from the masses, but if you do express it don't expect anyone to be on your side even if they claimed to be your friends.

Yeah, asking for personal info is a huge red flag for me. Nobody needs to know that unless they have plans to use it against you later. That's why I never give out personal info to people. Cleriths generally use it to make sure people don't stray from their hard-line hating. "If you like Tifa, we'll tell the fandom who you really are" kinda shit mentality.

Honestly, it sounds like you were in the cult's discord. Those are things I've heard them do to people. They're legit terrifying en masse. I mean, most large groups are, especially when one person weaponises them against a single person. Fandom and social media shouldn't be a numbers game that people then utilise to push down those with lower numbers than them, but that's what it is.

What's funny is their behaviour makes people dislike Aerith, so you'd think they'd care about how they come across. But then again, they don't even like her, she's just a straw doll they shove in front of them so they can throw shit at people from behind her and then say she's the reason for their actions.

[mjlovescm]

25- Payback

Completed, 27 chapters, “She’s an angel” Rodrick Heffley x black fem reader

Author's note: Rodrick pov

Revenge is a dish best served not cold but lukewarm. That's why I waited a month before executing my master plan. Y/n was never really one for revenge, but I think that’s just one of the many reasons that she has me. I know I've apologized and me and y/n are on good terms, but something about that asshole deserves some type of punishment. Right ? Right. 

“Bro, you think I’m stupid or somethin’.” Y/n’s brother says, looking at me with a confused face. 

“No, but you play football, right ? So you're good at throwing.” 

“Yea footballs not eggs and toilet paper.” 

“Fine.” I roll my eyes and start digging through my pockets because we both know persuasion was pointless. 

But money always worked. I pull out a ten dollar bill, but he doesn’t seem impressed. I sigh and pulled out another one, and he smiles now that I've got his attention. 

“Whose house is it?”

“Some guy who messed with y/n” 

“Like an ex-boyfriend.” 

My response is immediate. 

“No.” I say maybe too loud and definitely too quick. “He was just mean to her and ya know she's sensitive, so it just seems fair.” 

He stays silent and thinks, making the same face y/n does when she thinks. But it's less cute on him. 

“Aight, but if we get caught, I'm saying you kidnapped me.” 

“Deal.” 

One down, two to go. 

“Wanna make five bucks and throw shit at people's houses?”

“Why?” Greg asks cautiously. 

“I helped you with a girl out once, didn’t I?” 

“Yeah.”

“Now you’re gonna help me.” 

Two down, one to go. And trust me, convincing y/n was definitely going to be the hardest one. So… I didn’t try to, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t have ways of getting her to be involved. Like not telling her. 

“Rodrick, next time can you please get tickets for earlier, we need to be home in  like ten minutes.”

“Tens, all we need.” I whisper to myself as I stop my van. 

Y/n gives me a confused face as me, Greg and her brother get out of the car. Not wasting a second, she does the same. She watches us as we pull out old eggs, toilet paper and three ball launchers. 

“Umm…” 

Before she can say anything or ask any questions, the stink of two dozen rotten eggs hits her, and she gags. While she’s distracted trying not to throw up, the three of us throw as many eggs as we can. But she doesn’t stay distracted long, and before I can start throwing toilet paper, she grabs my hand and takes it from me.

“What the hell are you doing and whose house is this?”

“Whose house do you think this is?” I ask her as if it's obvious. 

She gives me a dumbfounded face because obviously she doesn’t know. 

“It's your-” I stop and correct myself. “The asshole who gave you his number at the mall and made you cry.” 

Her dumbfounded expression doesn’t change. Y/n wouldn’t admit, but she was a total goody two shoes, but even a good girl like her can believe in getting even. Maybe not participating in it, but as I said, I have my ways when it comes to her. 

“Is he home?” She asks as a safety precaution. 

“I'm not dumb, y/n I know no one's home.” 

I made sure of it and thank god parents post their entire life on Facebook. 

“Come on y/n you deserve to have a little fun.” I tell her in a soft rasp voice, smirking. 

She bites her bottom lip as she thinks, making that cute face. After a moment, she folds and gives me the toilet paper, but I can’t have all the fun.

The four of us spend the next few minutes throwing eggs and toilet paper. Most of our aim sucks besides y/n's brother, and y/n pretends like she feels bad, but the happy look on her face tells me that she was definitely having fun. Thank god because that was kinda the whole point of this.

Next chapter ;)

All chapters :)

[fabulouslygaybean]

For the hyperfixation ask game: 📌💔🏳️‍🌈

ohoho here we go

📌 - how did you find your hyperfixation?

i basically went down a rabbit hole and eventually ended up here lol. back in mid september, i was feeling nostalgic at like 2am and decided to look up some tmnt stuff because i used to be SUPER into the 2012 series when i was in elementary school, and i saw some folks talking about rottmnt. some of it was about the great animation, and others were 30+ year olds whining about how different it was, and that was enough to hook me in lol. i found the premiere/pilot episode that nickelodeon uploaded to their facebook page, then i saw the trailer for the rottmnt movie, and i watched both seasons over the course of the following week.

💔 - tell us about one of your LEAST favorite characters and why you dislike them.

i don't like either of the sando brothers, unfortunately </3 i just think they're both kind of annoying, and not in an enjoyable way. i know they're more or less just one-off characters used to add more villains and such, so they're obviously not gonna be as well developed as the rest of the villains, but i just. don't like them very much :')

🏳️‍🌈 - do you have any headcanons that are important to you?

YES YES YES. okay so, like,,, im usually not super concrete about my headcanons and such bc i like playing around with this stuff, but i DO have some that stay pretty consistent:

leo - gay trans man w/ adhd <3 he/they, bc why not. plays guitar but sucks at it bc he barely practices (projecting onto him lmaoo). sneaks out of the lair to go to shitty concerts sometimes, both in the hidden city and on the surface. medic of the team, but tends to pass off the more severe stuff to donnie.

donnie - bi, queer, and masc aligned nonbinary (or agender maybe. kinda like both headcanons so i can't pick between them). they/he, but he doesn't really care about terms (masc/neutral are usually used by others, but they don't mind fem ones either). autistic, but idk if that counts as a headcanon since it was confirmed as canon recently? but yeah. loves plants and botany in general, even though tech is still his wheelhouse. second most capable when it comes to cooking (behind mikey, of course), he just doesn't do it very often. also sneaks out like leo does, but he usually just does stupid and/or mildly to moderately unsafe shit bc dude likes the adrenaline.

raph - unlabeled queer. he just doesn't feel the need to pick a label, y'know? he's just raph, and that works for him. folks usually use he/him bc it's familar, but he has no real preference most of the time, so any work. autistic + possibly some other flavor of neurodivergent. picked up knitting at some point and he sometimes makes gifts for his family. the only brother with a decently strict sleep schedule.

mikey - pan + either genderflux or demiboy. any pronouns, but his preference changes pretty often. adhd, dyslexic, and probably autistic. lots of vocal stims bc i like projecting <3 him + raph used to be closer, but they drifted apart a bit as they got older (they're still close, of course, but it's different compared to when they were kids). his favorite season is either spring or fall. despite how seemingly adept he is at handling other people's negative emotions, he SUCKS at handling his own. buddy tries to bottle that shit up and it does Not work out.

aaand those are my current favorite ones i think. ive got some, uh,,, slightly more embarrassing ones ig? nothing objectively bad obviously but. just might talk abt them in the tags bc i can <3

[mylittlesecrethaven]

How Do I Stop Regretting Being Alive?

This is gonna be a rough post cause I'm in a low mood, so please don't read if you don't like this kinda stuff.

Life's been.... rough.

College is stressing me out.

Holidays stress me out.

And my family is not fucking helping.

The thing about me is I like to not show when I'm feeling bad. This has a name, but I can't remember what it's called. Whatever.

Recently, my mom got mad at me because I don't put in enough effort, whether that be in how I look (because I'm minimalist, I wear hoodies all the fucking time because they calm me down, and I have crazy hair cause I already stress about enough), my dislike of holidays (because I think getting gifts besides cash or gift cards is too much and it's too stressful for more, and since my parents don't like that I do that, I don't do gifts), or because of my low grades in college. (I have fucking 80s in my classes, get off my ass, I'm struggling.)

Also, I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and these things run in my family (along with several other health problems I know I have or I might have), but my parents refuse to listen when I tell them this because they want to believe there's nothing wrong with me. (That's also why I rarely ever went to the doctor as a kid and only went to the dentist when I was supposed to or when it hurt too badly to eat.)

This post is mainly about what happened the day before I'm typing it. I went to visit a large part of my family, and I showed up like I usually do: hoodie, slightly messy hair, and tired as shit. Now, of course, my parents were upset that I came in that condition. Tbh, I was gonna stay for maybe an hour just so I wouldn't get text after text of "Why didn't you show up?" (Also cause the food is always good at these get togethers)

So.... yeah. My mom got mad, yelled at me, went and got my dad, he yelled at me, and I may have started crying.

AND WOOPDEEDOODAH DID THEY GET MORE MAD!

So, I have a bad habit of hiding my emotions. Why? Cause I'm supposed to be the one with nothing wrong! I can't cry or be upset or be stressed or sick or fucking anything besides healthy and happy and straight! And because of that, I taught myself to bottle everything up, emotions and pain, and keep it under wraps.

But because of my stress, I broke down. They just kept yelling and said they were so disappointed in me. "You're an adult! Act like one!" Like my mom didn't cry when I was 15-16 about my dad not looking at her fucking Facebook page.

So yeah, I went home, thought about life, realized that I regret not taking my life when I was a teen, thought about therapy, remembered how shit therapy was as a teen (cause she told my parents fucking everything and that destroyed my confidence in any therapist after that), thought about texting someone and asking for advice, then realized that I also don't have anyone I can text about something like that cause I don't have any close friends anymore.

So.... yeah.... we'll see where it goes from here I guess.

Idk. Life is just too hard rn.

[random-sadperson]

i feel kinda selfish for wanting something big to happen on my bd, like i thought we were gonna do something big like get out of the house and go to the city or something, but no, we didn’t. we’re just staying home on my 16 bd, and i thought that 16 birthdays were important and shit, but it doesn’t feel like it now. i wanted to get out of the house and have my birthday at my kookum or the youth centre, or even in the city somewhere. i felt like shit after my mom said we were just going to do cake and open presents, but what the hell was i expecting? i was disappointed, of course, and i still am, but i thought my birthday would be special this year. it was for my sisters and brother but not me. why?? am i just the middle child that they didn’t want to do anything for on their birthday? is that it? am i just some forgotten middle child? lmao i’m not surprised if that’s the case. i know i’m not the favourite, and my birthday doesn’t even feel like it. it’s just another day for me. my 18 birthday is probably going to be the same as well. well, i’m not surprised if it was. it’s probably just bc they’re too lazy to do anything big for me. they didn’t even had those long facebook posts for me on my birthday, and i genuinely looked forward for them, but they’re all so short and it feels like something they did last minute. i don’t even want to do anything for my birthday if it’s always going to be like this. i’m only looking forward to going back to school and the den home tomorrow or today. idk and idc anymore.