#LJ rambles

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I think its easy to miscontexualize the Alfyn/Therion dynamic as “I can fix him” and “I can make him worse” and then they do. I don’t personally see it as much as necessarily “fixing” as accepting someone for who they are and unconditionally supporting them. They don’t fix what is broken, they can’t, it’s been much to long and some scars will never heal. What they do for each other is comfort and help each other grow the other parts of themselves and they better themselves for it. I don’t think Alfyn sees Therion as someone who needs to be fixed and Therion doesn’t want to see himself as someone’s charity case. Their love is based on support and acceptance in my mind !

[regulusrules]

The journey of writing MBARBYC is truly changing my perspective on a lot of things. I'm simply loving the fact that, for the first time ever, I'm writing a WIP, and how it's fueling me to become consistent, not just in updates but in life as well.

Honestly I have always avoided posting WIPs like a plague, but now? I'm finding it freeing in ways I had no recollection of before. The fact that there is always something to go back home to do - the fact that there are a few handful people reading your fic, waiting for you - and the fact that you're building a little community of friends who are willing to go to the end of its line with you.

Writing stops being about validation or kudos in WIPs, and instead, you're more interested in hearing your readers bash you with invisible maces for what you're doing to their favourite characters, or giving you multi-coloured hearts for healing them. And in these few comments, these few expressions of love, you realise we're all just sides of the same coin, sharing our love for fandom in different manners.

Truly freaking awesome

[lindyloosims]

All queued up until Tuesday!

Just a little update: To let you know how far I've gotten in my game, Zac and Kace are now elders and their kids are growing up nicely. They're absolutely gorgeous too! I won't spoil any more about them as I want it to be a surprise. I can't wait to show you all! Suffice to say, Zaccy done good!

Happy Saturday everyone!

[bees-smile-at-flowers]

It's been such a long time since I was last on here! Just an update; mental mindsets and life has wildly improved. I'm slowly becoming the person/friends others deserve to have. Being on here still reminds me of the toxic person I was when it was made and frankly, I would like to deeply apologize for it. The damage that has been done is sadly irreversible, but I can only hope that those who I've hurt have grown to have much happier lives since that time.

I've learned growth is about being able to admit the wrongs and apologizing. I've reconnected with friends I've known for over a decade, made new friends and have held them very close and dear, and stopped running from people-- I refuse to allow myself to be temporary because I don't deserve that and neither do my friends.

Thank you for being patient while I meet myself for the first time all over again 💖

[creeps-and-pasta]

Laughing Jack spent 13 years locked away, never knowing if he was going to escape. As each day went by he was forced to become familiar with the concept of eternity, the idea that this might last forever. It was quite possible he would spend forever trapped inside that box.

I think Jack has never spoken about his past to anyone. Why would he? Who would he tell his story to? Jack looks back on his former self with disgust, with hatred for a creature innocent and naive and loving enough it would willingly let itself be trapped.

Jack wraps himself in the chains of his past and drags it with him everywhere he goes. He thinks it's a necessary precaution. He can't afford to forget or forgive what happened, because he's terrified of getting hurt again. Jack has to hate humans because what if love makes him naive again?

Jack doesn't tell anyone about Isaac. But there is not a day that goes by he doesn't think about the boy he was built to love.

Because if he stops thinking about Isaac, if he stops remembering Isaac, then no one else will. Jack is the only person left alive who knows of Isaac Grossman. And if no one is left to remember him, did he ever really exist? Does a man die when his last breath leaves his lungs or when his name is uttered for the last time?

He was with Isaac for 3 months, and the grief lasted 200 years. Jack is no longer in his box, but he's still trapped by his self-imposed suffering

Jack was built to love Isaac. He was built to love humanity. And he learned to hate it instead. Or maybe he learned that suffering is good, that pain is happiness. Isaac taught him that. Isaac was taught that, by his father and his mother.

Maybe when Jack killed Isaac, it was his last love letter to his dear friend.

Or maybe he just hated the fucking guy, I don't know. I don't think Jack knows sometimes, either.

[sweetpayaso]

My new Laughing Jack plushie from GimmeSwag came in today! HE’S SO SOFT AND CUTE!!

🤡🖤🤍🤡🖤🤍🤡🖤🤍🤡🖤🤍🤡🖤🤍🤡🖤🤍

[dontlookheswatching]

ITS FINALLY DONE AND THE QUALITY IS ABSOLUTE SHIT AND THE ICONS ARE BARELY RECOGNIZABLE I HAVE WASTED MY TIME

Anyways, I have 9 versions, with each type of relationship, and I highly discourage trying to figure it out from the general chart because it's a absolute mess.

I'll gladly answer questions and help point to who is who of they're unrecognizable like I think they are.

This will be updated from time to time whenever there's a change or something to add.

A lot of my designs tend to be inspired by those I see here on Tumblr mixed in with my own ideas, so keep that in mind!

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Best Friends:

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Friends:

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Family/Adoptive Family:

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Hate:

Everyone hates Offenderman, I just didn't put it down because it would cover the whole chart up💀

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Complicated:

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[twochildreninamoteldemo]

One thing I love about wincest is the sheer legacy it has left. Ships come and go but only some are remembered forever. Think spirk. Wincest is like spirk--it may not be the most popular ship of all time (though it is certainly popular), or have the most number of fanworks like destiel, rather that it has an enduring appeal, and many historical fandom moments can be traced back to it.

And it's not just legacy either. Every day there are new wincest fans (im one of them, joined a year and a half ago) along with people who have been here since 2005. And it's special because these are people who get OBSESSED. They don't just like wincest as a passing fancy. The fandom now is much smaller than it used to be but it's just as dedicated. It's really something special and I think it will endure.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

thinking about that thing Patrick said about how he's been scoring Pete's life for the past 20 years. and I'm thinking about how the song called "I Am My Own Muse" is probably the most cinematic song on Stardust. and it's also the only song on the record where you can't really hear Pete playing.

[dracoj]

house md fanfiction works because the show is actually fanfiction of its own characters. not only that, it’s crackfic.

[loquaciousquark]

As part of what turned yesterday into a six-hour cleanup & touch-up of my tumblr, I polished my character page (now with Inquisitors & Tavs!) & my page of my most commonly used tags. (I used this tool to generate the tag list.) Look at all those ladies! And Astarion! And one random male Hawke!

I've also added a pinned post that has most of the useful links from my sidebar, since my current theme makes those pretty inaccessible on mobile. Let me know if you see anything broken or anything that looks goofy! :D

[meta-squash]

i'm having a blast writing this weird ass torchwood fic even though i have no idea if i'll be able to post it because i'm doing crazy things with formatting and unusual formatting + ao3 is not a compatible equation usually

[regulusrules]

When I say Merlin is my comfort show, I probably should strictly elaborate that I mean S1 Merlin. Although most of my favourite episodes are not even in that season, but it just brings insane levels of comfort. Really, why the fuck did the writers deviate so much from it? If for the "character development" narrative, there's literally nothing that was not perfect about their characterizations in s1:

Banter boyfriends? Check.

Exponentially affecting each other both positively and (sometimes tinges of) negatively? Check.

“I see your village is raided.. one sec I'll follow you till the end of earth to protect you and all those you care about.” Check.

Able to mentally grow from the restraining mindsets of Uther (and in Merlin's case Kilgharrah) when they consolidated together in letting go of Mordred despite being told the reverse. (Which was one of the reasons for their downfall, being held back by thoughts and actions that were not their own). Check.

Arthur actually saving the day with the assistance of Merlin's magic (ep4) which he does not reject and rather owe his gratitude to? (something that was later on lost as they insisted on fixating on Merlin's solo savings). Check.

“Is that poison? Here. Lemme drink it for you.” Check, check and check.

God we were so robbed of them being them in the most significant aspect. A continuation of s1's characterization should've actually involved Arthur figuring out on his own, them a duo working on bringing magic back to Albion (even if you still want to end it by killing Arthur, at least the whole core of the show wouldn't have been lost), and not the bleeding out of the same tropes and the same villains over and over without ever reaching to a point. I really get the argument of sticking to the legends, and I don't mind it, but they didn't stick to the legends from the beginning which baited us into thinking it will get resolved happily.

But to be fair, Arthur did get a relatively good character development. His transition from prince to prince regent to king was really done well. You see him growing to being more empathetic and more honour-driven. But he still should've been represented as the almighty king he was, not one who didn't have 2 braincells to figure out that his closest human being had been hiding from him for 10 years. And on the other side of the coin, Merlin should've had the chance to be Emrys, by all BAMF meanings of the word, not overshadowed for a whole decade without ever having the love and appreciation he deserved. He shouldn't have needed to turn bitter and obsessed. They shouldn't have resorted to just 48 hrs of Arthur knowing.

Honestly, I love this show as-is with an extent I cannot even describe sometimes, but their character development took a turn different from the one they truly deserved. Instead of filler episodes, they could have focused more on Arthur and Merlin's relationship, Arthur and Merlin growing, Arthur and Merlin succeeding.

[lindyloosims]

Just Rambling

So I’ve been wrestling with something for a few days, and I’m still not sure what the right thing to do is. I feel like just deleting my account and leaving, but I also love coming on here and reading everyone’s posts and stories, I’m conflicted, which is why I’ve taken a break. Tumblr (Simblr) is the only social media platform I use regularly, I no longer have Twitter since Musk took over and I haven’t posted on Facebook in months but I keep it because I have a lot of my Canadian cousins on there and I don’t want to lose touch with them. The only other platform I dip in and out of is Instagram as I’ve been on it since 2010 and I kinda love it for its simplicity and (in my personal experience) the no bullshit no drama feel.

I’m in a funk, I started this new year with positive vibes and a spring in my step. I cared for my mother long before she got terminal cancer, she had mental health issues and her anxiety was a huge issue, so there was never any time for me outside of work. She died a month before I turned 40 in 2019 and I thought that after the grieving process I could start my life. Then the pandemic hit and it was 2 years of staying in and not meeting people. I lost my 14 year old labrador to general old age, my own mental health took a hit and all I had was Simblr even though I had barely any followers or notes at that time, it was escapism for me. So after three years of limbo I decided that this would be the year I would have a baby before my uterus and ovaries closed down and ceased production, I always thought that I would get married and be a mum but life dealt me different cards. I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome and Hypothyroidism which alone they aren’t great but together they’re shit! I’ve been tracking my fertility since January and the chances of me conceiving look promising at the moment, but I lack the main ingredient...a boyfriend/husband/male love interest. That’s my own personal problem but the one thing that I wrestle with on a daily basis is this; is it fair to bring a child into this world the way it is now? Is it selfish? Am I too old? These three questions boil down to one thing, should I even try to have a baby, and the truth is that I don’t know. All I know is that from an early age I always wanted a husband and children, I just lived in a small community where the pick of men wasn’t great, and let’s face it who would be able to deal with my life where my mother came first all the time? This is something I need to think long and hard about, but I know I’ll make the right choices for me and for any potential future child that I may or may not have.

So the reason I toy with leaving Simblr is because sometimes, like real life, I feel like a misfit/outsider and that I don’t fit in. I’ve felt this all of my life, I had a lovely bunch of friends and followers in The Sims 3 community, but haven’t really managed to find my place within The Sims 4 community. I’m just rambling, have the winter blues and I will likely get over it, but this is how I feel at this moment so...who knows what’s around the corner.

Anyway, life’s a strange thing!

[videcoeur]

and now to wait years before s2

[creeps-and-pasta]

AITA For Having Abandonment Issues?

it's been a while since this happened, but I (200M but i was 0 when we first met) used to have this friend (8M) and we used to be like super close. He hadn't ever had a friend before and I was literally made for that kind of thing. But then three months after we met, we were playing outside and he tells me to get rid of the cat in the yard. Well I was trying to be funny and killed the cat (he was super into dark humor and that sorta thing) but anyway his mom found out and got pissed. He got kicked out of his parents house but for some reason he told me I couldn't come with?

he promised he would be back soon, so I was fine with it at first. but then THIRTEEN years pass. and when he comes back he has all these new hobbies and friends he's hanging out with apparently. I was a little upset about this, because all I had been doing was waiting for him, and it was like he completely forgot about me?? but I was STILL cool with all of it, because I still wanted to be friends. So I decide to watch him and his friends hang out together to try and learn more about his current interests so that we'll have something to do when we saw each other again.

anyway when my friend finally saw me again I was really mad and sorta lashed out at him, and I'm still really bitter about it. But I decided to keep doing the hobby he taught me because it's been really helping me work through my feelings about him.

but a lot of people are really mad at me now, because apparently my friend's hobby was like, really unpopular or something?? idk am I TA? I feel like I did nothing wrong here