#this stuff happen online a lot in the form of like... either anons or one specific person off anon always asking people for the same art re

[mimikoolover]

i think people are genuinely tweaking when they pick up certain moments to justify their ideas only when it fits into the narrative they've made of the bois relationship however we can never with surety give any labels to their relationships as fans either, we believe in what we want to be true and sometimes that affects our opinions. what you said about jungkook choosing mingyu and jimin over certain others was also out of pocket and very insensitive to jungkook himself, it really does show how skewed your opinions are, there are people in his life that we don't know about, same for jimin and that's how it'll be, we all have friends and jungkook/jimin is friends with taehyung the same way he shares a close bond with the other members, human relationships aren't limited, you form bonds with different people, what jimin and jungkook have is really special and their relationships with other people in no manner speaking will ever negatively affect it, some of you really tend to show your true colours especially with your responses towards reactionary comments

no it was not insensitive, I'm allowed to have an opinion based on what I see the same as you're doing about me - I could say your ask in insensitive to me then can't I? like it or not IMO jungkook is closer to jimin and mingyu than he is to the wooga squad. by certain people I meant the wooga squad since tkkers are so happy to say jk is friends with them - the fuck he is not. and what they did leaving him there on his own was shitty. and IMO while jungkook is obviously really close to tae it doesn't touch his bond with jimin and probably mingyu and this is coming from someone who's been defending taekook's bond since the beginning of time. you can think whatever you want. jungkook will never know me or read any of my posts on Tumblr so what does it matter in relation to jungkook if I'm expressing my opinions online? if anything you are doing to me exactly what you're claiming I'm doing with your skewed opinion about what I'm saying - I never said jikook are dating for sure for fucks sake so stop acting like that's what I'm doing and that it clouds my judgement. what i think about the wooga squad has nothing to do with jimin. you've no need to patronise me on human relationship or on jungkook himself. I usually don't judge what we see happen cause I know we never have the full story but the ski trip thing was bad enough for me to have a bloody opinion on ffs. and idk what happened with the movie premier jungkook supposedly was going to attend with tae again but the fact that he skipped on that second movie premier says a lot to me cause that's not very jungkook at all. but again I didn't mention that cause we don't know the full story there however I'm allowed to have an opinion about it knowing I could be wrong😩i'm one of the few people who always considers more than one explanation to stuff yet you're coming to me saying i'm reactionary and my opinions are skewed. you're welcome to have that opinion but then don't be calling me insensitive when you're coming to insult me whereas jungkook will never even know i exist so it's not like i'm going to be telling him how much i think he likes his friends lmao

and I beg to ask why are you and all the other anons nitpick every word I say?

[laurasbailey]

original anon here, i'm real grateful to you and everyone else for taking the time to respond and share your input!

i'm usually better at distancing myself from online spaces, i've just kinda "relapsed" lately and went on a self-destructive deep dive ☠️ like..."i've been checking reddit", kind of self-destructive. what a long break does to a mf, i guess

i do agree with what you've all said & I'm aware that it's basic common sense in fandom spaces and beyond - if i've been enjoying c3, there's no reason to let someone else's opinion bother me. i think one of the issues is…if there's stuff that i've been enjoying less on my own, and then i see negativity around that same stuff, my brain tends to take it as confirmation that it's true lmao and i find myself suspecting that i would enjoy a sandbox-y vibe a lot, but that's not happening with the characters and story that i've been invested in since the beginning. am i making up problems in my head? definetly, and i'm actually a bit ashamed to admit that, but hey

all that being said, i absolutely love those same things you've mentioned (the focus on the ladies, this romance, the high stakes and having ashley full-time) and more, even as i have less context for it being unusual since it's my first campaign! and i obviously agree that it's not anyone's game but theirs. i wouldn't wish for them to cater to anyone's desires but their own and i'm 100% sure that what i loved from the beginning is common in every campaign - the joy and fun we get watching them enjoy themselves

truly, the negative thoughts are more related to getting too bogged down thinking of the story itself, in a way, and wishing i could see these specific characters chill a bit and explore…so basically the ticking clock problem haha i generally worry they're never gonna get to talking or resolving interpersonal issues before the campaign's over and they're not the main party anymore

sorry for the lenght of this and for bringing it to you out of the blue haha i've been overthinking on loop and since literally no one i know watches the show and i don't want to be annoying to them, i'm annoying on the internet. again, thank you so so much!!

i think i get where you’re coming from and i think you’ll enjoy c1 and 2 if that’s the case! there’s definitely a lot more meandering, and c2 doesn’t even start tackling what i would consider “the main plot” until like 50+ eps in lmao. meanwhile c1 has the high stakes of c3 but the main plot starts early and stretches for a long time.

i think since i’ve experienced both of those campaigns already, c3’s shortcomings don’t worry or bother me enough to care too much. whether the plot “sucks” or it’s “too fast” is really not that deep to me bc i just love the show in whatever form they’re willing to give it to me. it’s still funny, emotional, well-acted, etc regardless, and that’s the reason i watch to begin with, which could be different for you! also i’ve made my peace with the fact that we probably won’t get a ton of character focus this campaign, and while that is disappointing, i think being realistic helped me be chill about it all.

for other people, it’s the opposite and they expect every campaign to be like the one they like and they throw a tantrum when it’s not. if people are content to do that, that’s on them! c3 might not be for you, or you could have more of an appreciation for it after watching the other campaigns. it seems like you’re going to keep talking yourself into not liking it, whether it’s true or not.

you could always try watching another campaign and take a break from c3 stuff? it might be helpful to engage in something else if you’re stuck in a spiral of searching for the negativity. and if you do end up hating c3, it’s not a big deal either. it’s the people who don’t shut the fuck up about hating it that are annoying as hell lmao

[yellowocaballero]

could you either elaborate on maculine vs feminine traits/roles in lit and how we interpret people/stories based on that portrayal or direct me to a resource that would have info on that stuff? i've always struggled with definitions of masculinity and feminity, considering it's also tied to culture and literally everything else — i think i have some intuitive understanding of how it affects people (see: shift that happens when you find a person online is a woman; the -coded thing), but not enough vocabulary to talk about it out loud. i always had a hard time with gender, so it's interesting to me how you describe, well, leaning into the archetypes of sorts.

that is, if you have the time to explain/find resources, and you aren't afraid of anons that would misunderstand you.

Oh. I am always afraid of the anons that would misunderstand me. So much. So, so much. It’s why I never talk about disability on here, despite the fact that I am actually educated about that one. To give a blanket disclaimer, I don’t read much theory and I don’t know the theory on this. Don’t listen to me, go read theory. It protects you against TERFs and it’s good for you. Go look at Bluestockings or Gay’s the Word and find something from there, or use it as a resource to check out things at the library. 

That being said, I can speak a little on lit. Very specifically. 

I put effort into understanding the nuts and bolts of a story. A story will always have a ‘role’ for everyone. It is very infrequent that a ‘role’ is novel, or never before written. Most roles are very, very old. And most roles reflects a person’s position in society, fantastical or mundane. As a result, roles tend to be gendered, because life is very gendered. 

I’m not going to even attempt to define masculinity and feminity. Way more intelligent people than me have way more intelligent things to say on it. Go read them. I just tend to think of it in terms of that Naomi Alderman quote: “Gender is a shell game. What is a man? Whatever a woman isn't. What is a woman? Whatever a man is not. Tap on it and it's hollow. Look under the shells: it's not there.” 

I think of it as a kind of form defined by a negative space, like the vase optical illusion. My younger sibling once remarked that, in a group of men, masculinity was ill-defined and amorphous, and a thing that nobody strictly wanted to have - but nobody wanted to have the least of. It was always a competition for who had the ‘most’ - most of what? A construct that’s defined mostly as what is not there as in comparison to what is there. This is probably why you struggle with defining it outside of culture - culture is that bamboo structure that everything else is built upon. Constructs only exist in relation with each other. 

So gender is built upon roles and archetypes in literature because that is basically what gender is, and it’s how we understand and quantify gender. When you do a lot of genre writing like I do, the roles tend to come through extremely strong, because the characters are little more than archetypes. Even when you subvert or invert or act ‘independently’ of a gendered role, it exists in relationship to the role. It can’t exist independently. The closest we can get to that is scifi/fantastical roles like the robot or the alien, but the place they have in a story is also inevitably colored by these roles because they’re so baked in that they’re hard to escape. Alternatively, you can pull an Alien and cast gender-blind, but also Alien is about being a mother and the fear of womanhood. Stories are written by people, we live in a society, etc. 

I don’t think you should try to ‘beat’ this by trying to write the most ‘non-roled’ character possible, unless of course that is your specific story or character relevant intention. Like with race, trying to make everything ‘invisible’ rather instead leaves you with the ‘default’. If you’re going to write people who live on Earth in a gendered society, gender will be apparent in character dynamics, societal dynamics, and in characterization. Can’t ignore it. Rather, I like to do what I’m doing with knowledge of what I’m doing, with a purpose, and with something to say. But in general, you should always be writing purposefully, because otherwise you’re going to be saying things that you didn’t mean to say.

TL;DR - We live in a society and your writing does too, so don’t pretend it doesn’t. 

Thanks for the q!

[blindbeta]

How do you think infrastructure would be different in a culture where everyone is blind?

Hi anon! I like this question. I think it would obviously depend on the culture and time period, but I have a few ideas. I’ll just try to write ideas for a general Western culture, because I am aware of more of that, but obviously the culture itself would influence what changes occurred or did not occur.

Education.

Look to blind schools! I’m thinking about training for Braille as very small children, which mostly includes strengthening finger sensitivity. Braille would also be taught the way reading regular print is, either in schools or at home. Regular print would probably also be available and large print would be normalized, especially to minimize eye strain. Computer literacy would include screen-readers and Braille displays. Websites would be designed for accessibility for everyone and this would include large for those who like to read some print.

In classes, people would use a slate and stylus, Braille notetakers, etc, depending on time and what was easier to carry. Braillers would also be more high tech in general, even if it might be considered old school, or the high tech stuff would have come sooner for each device.

Braille, O&M, and life skills classes would be normal for everyone. O&M would probably be done mostly by people with some sight, although this might change if everyone is blind anyway.

Lifestyle.

Things like telescopes (monoculars, minifiers) would be normal for low vision people, maybe even something cool like ‘oh I got the latest telescope model for my birthday!” It would be something shared with friends for fun. Something like SunuBand would be like, I don’t know, a car of something. People would show status through how cool their cane was, if they had a Sonar cane, like WeWalk, etc.

In schools, and in life, I think people with some sight, like me, would not face any pressure to use it. In real life, people with residual sight are expected to use what sight they can, even if it is inconvenient or painful.

More emphasis would be places on other sense, such as touch, smell, and soatial awareness.

Safety.

The world would probably be safer, structurally. There would be high contrast stairs everywhere, if there are stairs at all. There would be more in place that makes it safer to walk around outside, such as, idk, less of a risk of hurt yourself by stepping off a curb? I’m not even sure if roads would be designed the way they are now. Would people drive if they have some vision? Would everyone have cars that don’t need vision? Anyway, more safety with blind people in mind.

Transportation.

Transportation would be better. Maybe public transportation would be more accessible, easier to navigate, and more readily available in rural areas. Maybe trains would be more popular in every country, because they run on a schedule and you can carry more people for longer periods of time. Trains can also allow people to travel long distances, which can be harder for blind people (who almost always can’t drive, as far as I know) who can’t drive cars and may not have money for flights, or want to avoid them for environmental reasons.

Accessibility.

Braille would be everywhere. Buttons would be tactile, especially on kitchen appliances. I imagine a lot of the tools blind people use in the kitchen, such as bump dots for microwave buttons, would already be standard. Talking or otherwise accessible things would be cheaper, more common, and considered staples for everyone. Because they would be made for the wider population of blind people, accessibility would not be a niche or extra thing. It would not be associated with kindness, but a standard fare.

Clothing would be different. Designs would be tactile and/or high contrast, where they are often flat. I think colors would still be important, for everyone, but the tags would probably have labels. Some brand designed for blind people have actual Braille fabric on the clothes, which is cool. While color scanners do exist and would probably be used, I think other methods would be utilized if clothing is designed with blind people in mind from the start. Wearing glasses would be cool, you guys.

In terms of entertainment, I think most of it would audio-based or interactive. The radio and live theatre would be more popular than they are now. If visual mediums still existed, they would all come with audio descriptions and they would be better than they sometimes are now. TV would be written with audio descriptions in mind, if they didn’t talk about more of what they were doing.

Art would be tactile, period. Maybe we would have something by now that allows you to feel digital art. There are already amazing forms of tactil art out there, so think more of that from all cultures. Rather than adapted or described with the blind in mind, art would be naturally tactile even if the artist could see what they were creating well enough.

Online.

Obviously image descriptions would be everywhere, although I feel people would naturally include less screen-shots and less pictures. Again, accessibility would be a more mainstream thing than it is now. I’m thinking there would be more self-care posts, such as about dealing with eye strain headaches. Although I think some of the issues we have would be lessened when the entirety of humanity was on the blind spectrum. I’m also thinking about fun quizzes like, Describe Your Dream Home and I’ll Guess What Type Blindness You Have. Debates about disability in general would happen in regular spaces. YouTube would have contained audio descriptions from the start, and perhaps highly visual content would be less common or naturally described in the video, such as person describing what they are holding before talking about it.

Work/Career.

Productivity would be measure differently. Accessibility would just be a thing. Like, at a meeting, “What tools do you like to use the most?” Working from home would be an option. Work would be open to and even designed for blind people. Blind people wouldn’t have the low employments rates they do now, or else no one would work. A lot of tools we use to make things accessible wouldn’t be necessary if things were designed for blind people in the first place. Subminimum wage would not be a thing.

There would probably be jobs and career opportunities that don’t exist now.

Blind people wouldn’t be more likely or even expected to live in poverty.

Money.

Money would be tactile, labeled, large print, and high contrast. If we still used cash at all.

Inovation.

I think we would have a lot of cool stuff. Countries might even compete to be the first to create things for the blind population which, again, would be everyone in this scenario.

Food/menus.

Restaurants would be easy for blind people to navigate. Menus would be offered in Braille and large print. Maybe plates would be made sectioned so people could know where their food was. I’m thinking about blind accessibility videos and restaurants run by totally blind people. Hmm. Glasses would not be as common at all, because they can be hard for people to see. I have broken too many glasses myself.

If people were to buy food, such as local produce, bags would probably come with homemade Braille or large print signs. Canned food and boxes for cooking would have Braille on them initially. Giving food to others, such as bringing food or snacks for the home when you visit, would come with either an explanation about what it was or a label.

I could go on. I don’t want this too be too long. Basically, what I want to get across is that a lot more than accessibility would changes if everyone is blind. I didn’t want to get into too many heavy topics because this is more of a fun question. However. feel free to add whatever you like. I believe history itself would be altered in many, many ways that have influence on life today, so I could have gone on about that. I could write books on the lifestyle and safety and work sections. And all cultures have their own ways of viewing, supporting, and limiting blind people, so this could change a little or a lot depending on what your culture or the culture you are writing about is like.

-BlindBeta

[titleknown]

...Okay, so a now deleted anon response on why “fanfic bad” and the post anon was responding to are actively pissing me off as someone into the creative commons.

Like, I don’t even read fanfic and I viscerally hate this. So, I wrote a whole essay on why. Which ended up so long I had to put it past a Readmore to avoid wrecking everyone’s dashes. As one does...

Like, yes the majority of fanfic is bad and formulaic. So is the majority of non-derivative-work-based writing! Everyone talks about bad romantic writing in fic, but I mean, the romance novel industry exists! People who read a lot of published fiction know this! Fanfic is not special!

Like, I notice the people who talk shit about fanfic never actually do any promotion of actual online original written fiction, just “real books.”  IE, things that go through the direct corporate hirearchy of a publisher. The kind of corporate hirearchy (and, at this current era, downright monopoly) they alledgedly despise fanfic for re-enforcing.

Like, for people who hate books over fanfic, I never see y’all talk about stuff like Worm or the SCP Foundation or Fluoresensitive or; say; my friends’ totally free webnovel Joy Traveler.

Which has me convinced that people like that don’t hate fanfic, they just hate independent writing outside of the publishing ecosystem due to Sturgeon’s Law + confirmation bias and use fanfic as an acceptable target. And that leads to another thing.

Because, like, that’s the only real difference between “derivative works” and “fanfic.” Copyright law.

Like, even if fanfic isn’t helping challenge the status-quo because if it did it’d get sued out of existence, which is a common talking point against the other common talking point that Fanfic is Transgression, people like that aren’t either

In fact, they’re actively making things worse by focusing your critique on; at your core; a percieved inherently debased nature of derivative works as lazy and bad if they happen to fall within the walls of the landlords of culture.

If you talk about how you want IP law loosened and copyright duration shortened, but also making the whole “fanfic bad” arguments, you’re actively making it harder to fight for it by saying that the creativity exercised in unauthorized derivative works is structurally; inherently bad!

Because; the dividing line is so arbitrary; just a date and words on a legal document; that you can’t argue against “fanfic” being inherently unoriginal as a form without arguing the same regarding; say; any modern book that uses Dracula or Sherlock Holmes as a major character.

Like, that’s one of the big talking points of people bootlicking our current bad copyright system, that derivative works are inherently bankrupt and debase the works they alter; and that opening up copyright would just allow the hordes to turn literature into a soup of garbage. And I think that you’re lying about wanting to fix things if you’re repeating the talking points of the people who say it Like That.

If we’re to take one common talking point I’ve seen as embodied in this other terrible post, that the works that attract fandom/derivative works today only do so because they are so artistically bankrupt to serve as a cypher, then that would inherently impugn the collaborative form by design.

Because, if the modern collaborative form is at its apogee with artistically bankrupt works Not Worth Saving, then why is the collaborative form worth saving? The treatment of the shared world as bankrupt compared to the isolated, “complete” novel is evidence of this too.

Hell, the dismissive view of the “superheroes are modern mythology” talking point that used to be A Thing before the MCU’s monopoly ruined it is telling, because it misses the point of that idea. Which is, classic mythologies relied on that collaborative storytelling because they were never copyrighted.

Which makes the point that copyright is relatively new, and these shared characters/worlds represent the closest thing we can get to a modern version of that sort of storytelling under that system. And fanfic is the closest we can get to expanding that to a wider audience without bullshit licenses.

Which; as we see via the flaws in corporate media empires and their fanbases and the flaws of fanfic culture; is a kinda crappy kludge to accomodate a fundamental style of human storytelling to a system not designed to allow it to thrive.

Which means they should be held in common rather than landlorded over, because those enriched by all should be shared by all. Basically, a narrative equivalent to Georgism.

And that’s what makes me mad! The argument that “fanfic inherently bad/formulaic” undermines the entire core idea of the creative commons movement I push for!

Because it ultimately is an argument against communally shared art and stories, because it treats our shared culture not as a seized commons to be taken back but as a walled garden to walk away from; which is why there’s so little visible political momentum to fight back for it!

And, again, I don’t read fic! I have plenty of mean things to say about Ao3 and the way its contradicting goals and bigoted/pedo-protecting “freeze peach” rot-from-the-top contribute to its toxicity! I have my issues with fandom’s lack of agitation for a true creative commons and the complacency in institutions like Ao3 and the culture that surrounds it!

But, when I try to agitate for open settings, when I make my Open Source Characters and worldbuilding projects, I feel like they’re spitting in my face when they take people trying to build the creative commons they should have had from the scraps they are given and saying “You idiots don’t deserve to have this.”

[wellimaginethat]

Don’t Leave Me

Pairing: Kelly Severide x (female) Reader

Word Count: 1717

Author’s Note: This was requested, the request asked that it be based on the Season Three episode ‘I am the Apocalypse’, I haven’t seen this episode in a while now and couldn’t find it online, so I apologize for any mistakes and I sincerely hope that this is what the lovely anon that requested it was hoping for, and I hope everyone enjoys this. And for the sake of this story, to make this work, Kelly never married Brittney.

Trigger Warning(s): Explosion, surgery, injury, mention of character death (Shay), near death experience, cussing, yelling

Disclaimer: I don’t owe nor am I affiliated with any of the Chicago shows, I just like to play with the characters

Summary: Based on the episode ‘I am the Apocalypse’. Y/N is a trauma surgeon working at the hospital and when Kelly is injured after the grenade goes off, she operates on him, even though they’ve been secretly going out for over a year, thus putting her career on the line if anyone found out. 

Y/N = Your Name

Y/LN = Your Last Name

You lived in Chicago for nearly a year before you met Kelly. Despite the fact that you had been in the same place at the very least two dozen times. You being a trauma surgeon, you worked at Gaffney, and frequented Molly’s. However, you didn’t meet until you’d been there nearly a year, and then it was by complete accident that he bumped into you at the bar on a fairly busy night.

And as cliche as it sounds, the moment your eyes met there were sparks.

Now it was a year and a half later and you were still together, exclusive yet hardly anyone knew that the two of you were together, only a handful of people. It wasn’t like the two of you were trying to keep it a secret, it’s just that with the two of you having such demanding jobs, the time you spent together was mostly at either your place or his.

Casey and Shay knew, and you were unaware of whether Kelly had told anyone else or not.

You tried to be there for him when Shay died, and you were, as much as he’d allow you to be. He tried to push you away, but you wouldn’t let him, not completely at least. It made you worry that he wasn’t as serious about you as you thought, but you chalked it up to the fat that he was grieving.

As time passed, the worry didn’t go away, but you kept reminding yourself that he was still with you.

Today was supposed to be another ordinary day. Just like every other day at Gaffney Chicago Medical Center. Sure they weren’t the exact same, but there was a routine. People needed life saving surgeries, and you did the operating. It was usually fairly busy due, but today was exceptionally busy.

However, today was going to be very different. You didn’t know it when you woke up that morning, but it was.

You didn’t know what happened, but you heard the explosion. Immediately your stomach twisted and you were left with a nasty taste in your mouth, like you knew something really bad happened.

You hurried to the source of the sound, pushing through people trying to go both ways, towards and away from the explosion. You saw him there, bloody and unconscious, and your heart shattered.

It happened in a blur, one moment you were checking for a pulse and the next you were operating on your boyfriend with Brett and Mills trying to save Kelly’s life while everyone watched. You could hear your heartbeat as you pulled pieces of shrapnel out of Kelly’s body.

Don’t do this to me. Don’t leave me. Not like this.

It was like a mantra replaying in your head. Begging him to stay with you as you tried your hardest to save him. You knew his job was dangerous. You knew he’d been injured before, that he was no stranger to getting hurt and putting his life on the line. But you never really thought you would lose him, at least not like this. If anything, you thought you’d lose him by him breaking up with you, not by him dying.

“Stats are dropping.” You heard Brett’s voice.

“Shit.” You muttered under your breath as you continued to pull shrapnel from your boyfriend’s body. You thought you had it all, and that was when he started bleeding.

It took you a little while, but you finally got it under control and were able to save him. You stitched him up and he was moved into a room.

The hardest part was having to go about your day like everything was fine, like your boyfriend wasn’t lying unconscious in a hospital bed.

As soon as your shift was over, you made a beeline for Kelly’s room, only to be stopped by Goodwin. You halted in your tracks.

“I thought your shift was over, Dr. Y/LN.”

You hesitated. “It is.” You answered after a moment.

She motioned for you to walk with her, which you did. “You know what you did today was wrong, right?”

You swallowed hard, keeping your eyes straight forward as you matched her pace. You nodded to her.

“You could get yourself into a lot of trouble.” She continued, stopping and turning to face you.

You stopped as well.

“You’re a good doctor, don’t screw it up.” And with that she walked away.

You breathed out a sigh of relief and headed towards Kelly’s room again. You paused before stepping inside.

He was awake and sitting up in bed, his eyes met yours when you walked in.

“Hey.” You breathed out in surprise.

“Hey.” Kelly replied back. “Heard you saved my life earlier.”

You shrugged a bit and smiled at him. “Just doing my job.” You commented as you walked over to him.

He reached out his hand to you, and smiled when you took his hand in yours. He squeezed your hand gently.

“You scared me today.” You whispered after a moment.

He brought your hand to his lips and kissed it gently. “I’m sorry.”

You swallowed hard, standing next to his bed and looking down. “What were you thinking, Kel?” You asked meekly.

He hesitated. “I was trying to save as many people as I could.”

“But you almost died.” You stated, looking up to meet his eyes.

Kelly’s eyes met yours and he took a deep breath to steady himself, no sense in getting worked up over this, especially since he just got out of surgery not two hours before. “I know.” He said calmly.

You stared at him, mouth agape, trying to make sense of how he could be so calm. “Do you have a death wish or something? I know losing Shay was hard on you but-”

“Stop.” He said, causing you to stop mid sentence, shaking his head. You regretted bringing Shay up instantly.

“I’m sorry.” You mumbled out, trying to remedy the situation any way you could.

He shook his head again. “Don’t.” He whispered, sighing. He went quiet for a while, leaving you fearing the worst. “You’re right.” He spoke after a moment. “Losing her was hard, it still is, but she’d kick my ass if she knew what I did today.”

You fought back a smile. “I don’t know, you did save a lot of people, I think she would’ve let it slide.”

He laughed and shook his head, wincing slightly. “Don’t do that, don’t make me laugh, it hurts.”

“Serves you right for scaring me like you did.” You meant it as a joke, but your voice was small and held no humor.

“Hey.” He said quietly after a moment to get your attention back on him. “I’m fine, I’m right here. You made sure of that.”

You looked at him and nodded some, looking down again.

Kelly sighed. “Y/N.”

“What?” You asked quietly.

“Look at me.” Kelly said softly.

You met his eyes again. “Okay, I’m looking at you.”

Kelly smiled slightly. “I’m sorry.”

“You said that already.” You told him and shook your head. “You don’t have to be sorry, you were just trying to save people.”

“No.” Kelly shook his head. “I’m sorry for pushing you away.”

You looked at him again. “You were hurting-”

Kelly shook his head again. “I still shouldn’t have pushed you away.”

“It’s okay.” You said quietly.

“No it’s not.” Kelly countered you, still watching you. “I love you, and I shouldn’t have pushed you away.”

You paused for a moment and ten smiled softly. “I love you too.” You said softly. “I was worried you were gonna leave me.”

“Not gonna happen.” Kelly told you, a grin forming. “You’re stuck with me.”

You matched his grin. “Is that so?”

He nodded. “Oh yeah.” He pulled you closer to him and kissed you gently.

You smiled when you pulled back and sat on the edge of the bed.

“I saw her.” Kelly said after a moment.

“Oh?” You looked at him, already knowing who he was talking about.

He nodded. “And I know it was probably just my brain playing tricks on me, but it brought me a sense of comfort.”

You smiled softly. “Either way, whether it was just your brain or if she came to visit you, I’m glad it helped.”

He smiled and took your hand. “You know, she thought you were too good for me.”

You laughed softly and shook your head. “I’m sure she was just teasing you.”

He nodded. “I’m sure, but I think there was some truth to that.”

You rolled your eyes and shook your head again. “Whatever.”

“I’m serious.” Kelly told you, taking your hand in his. “You’re amazing, Y/N. You are amazing in so many ways. You’re smart, kind, not to mention gorgeous.”

“Kel.” You cut him off softly, looking at him with a gentle smile.

He looked at you again. “I’m being honest.”

You rolled your eyes. “You’re pretty amazing yourself.” You told him softly. “You’re brave, sometimes stupidly so, but still. Handsome, kind hearted.”

Kelly laughed softly. “Alright, enough of the mushy stuff. When do you think I can get out of here?”

“Not for a few days, at least, you need to heal up.” You told him. “I know that’s not what you wanna hear, but it’s for the best.”

“I’ll behave.” Kelly promised you, a smirk finding its way onto his face.

“That smirk tells me otherwise, what’re you planning?” You raised a brow.

“Not planning anything.” He shook his head.

“Uh-huh, I don’t buy it.” You informed him, getting ready to grill him until you heard a knock and someone clear their throat.

“I’m not interrupting anything, am I?” Casey asked from the doorway.

You turned to look at him over your shoulder. “Nah.” You stood up, turning to face your boyfriend. “I’m gonna go home and take a shower, I’ll be back in an hour.” You leaned over to kiss his cheek.

“Take your time, I’m not going anywhere.” Kelly told you with a smile, watching as you walked out.

Casey smiled at you as you left the room, walking into the room. “You doing okay?”

Kelly nodded to him, lost in his thoughts.

“Everyone’s worried about you.” Casey told him, waiting until Kelly finally looked at him. “So when are you planning on asking her?”

Kelly smiled. “As soon as I get out of here.”

Casey nodded. “About time.”

[savnofilter]

TW: MENTIONS OF DISCOURSE, GR//MING, P/D/PHILIA, ASS//LT, C//NSENT, D//RK CONTENT.

- this isnt under a read more because i want people to read this, but please read past this/tread carefully if you cannot handle such topics. this is not meant to be interacted with.

I'm not sure how to really go about this. I've been overthinking if I should address this and bring up some stuff while I've been gone, so sorry the absence. I deleted the tumblr app a few days ago and I downloaded it again today so i could post this. I really don't like making posts like this because it cuts the vibe that I've been trying to portray that everything is okay and it makes me feel really disconnected to you guys. I am sorry for the abrupt absence and cutting off any source of communication between us. I knew if I left any form of direct line of talk to me that I would receive hate and I just mentally decided that I cant sit through being harassed right now.

Have you guys ever paid attention to the same people who always have a statement to say or is always in discourse? It's very telling how everyone can post about me, but I shouldnt dare post about them. I'm tired of not being able to post about what I want without people vague posting about me, bringing me up every time they start another discourse with another writer or directly talking about me. My days on here are starting to feel the same. Its good then it goes bad. Good goes bad and bad goes good. It's not even tiring, annoying, or angering -- its repetitive. When I'm not saying anything people create fake stories about me, and when i speak about it im the one starting discourse. Don't get me wrong, I'm nowhere near perfect and I have made my own mistakes. But why the fuck am I always being told to be the mature one, why am I the one who should've done better, why do you people expect so much from me. It's the fact people are always quick to say, "no one cares about you, youre fishing for attention" when they're the ones who vague and interact with me while ive been minding my business for months now. Hm. The fact people have me proudly blocked but still harass me anyways shows a lot about themselves than it does for me. How its such an issue that im a minor until it comes to demonizing, tearing down my character, gaslighting, lying and bullying. I'm a literal example of how their friend group manipulates their followers and exiles people from fandoms for not kissing their ass. except now its in your face.

Consider this my last post about this discourse. I'm not going to waste my time on people who fail to digest other peoples thoughts and opinions time and time again because theyre weak narcissists. If I so choose to decide to shit post my opinions or argue with someone, none of you should be aggravated or moved by it because youre not even supposed to be on my page. If its not something serious i will not be wasting energy that i can be using to build on myself as a growing person than on miserable old ladies that have to use fanfiction to have excitement in their pity, depressing and lackluster lives. If people so do choose to create stories or vague about me, I do not care. So I ask respectfully to people who do lurk on my page to not attempt to message, post or vague about me please. This includes sending anons to yourself to make shit happen.

Past that, something got me thinking. My (older) friend had showed me screenshots of adult writers (no one i have spoken to) that were very excited to write underaged reader with adult characters. There are other instances where writers (that you have probably read from) on here openly made reader underage while aging characters up as adults/with adults. There are many more but there's really no point in listing them nor do I really care. But least to say, the same people who are gung-ho over these pedophilic themes/stories are the same people who support predatory people.

I've been thinking about whether or not i should continue writing for the students anymore. Granted, I still think they're attractive because one snap of the fingers cant stop that. I had been teetering on this thought for awhile because of how borderline pedophilic the people are here towards my age group. I enjoy writing but not to the point of willingly being in a straight line of sight where people who are well over 16 are harassing me and lurking on my page, especially to other minors solely because they are my friends. Backtracking to the statement before, I honestly dont know if I will either stop writing or just for the students as a whole. It shows that clearly some people are using their attraction to teens with the excuse that the characters are fake. The rapid normalization on dark problematic "kinks" is disgusting and vile, and the fact that its discourse now to shame said interests is appalling. Concluding that combined with my experiences here, i feel unsafe.

***(TRIGGER WARNING)*** I dont talk about my personal life on here that much cause I dont see the need too nor do i think its anyone's business. Paired with the fact that the people i have trusted personal information with have used it against me, I will be preventing myself from opening that door. Besides that for now, I have sparsely shared I've been assaulted before. This is my first time really opening up about this and i kind of find it necessary now. Coming from someone who has been a victim of assault and CP by people my age and well over, writing nsfw has been the only way where I could feel comfortable with sex in general. I won't get into details because mentioning this is triggering already and can make people uncomfortable. It feels like anywhere I go, I'm constantly putting myself in a position to be abused. The same people who told me I didn't have to worry about my age and be judged for it, exposed the minimum comfort of keeping myself private online to demonize, judge and hurt me. People call me "extra" for being distraught about my face and age being posted because they think im trying to be sneaky which isn't the case. Its the principle that they KNEW I wasnt ready to share said things, and coming from someone who is inherently a private and closed person, she knew damn well what she was doing when posting screenshots of me on Tumblr. There is no excuse for it. The same writers who write dub/non-con can BARELY understand basic consent and its fucking terrifying. This site was the only other place I could cope without being criticized. To see people who some i was close to proudly lie on my name, (adults) say that i sent them pornographic content without their consent is so very hurtful. To watch people supposedly be victims and then use their own trauma to invalidate my own was so fucking humiliating, disgusting and nerve wracking. Although I knew I made the terrible decision to interact with stories, I have never initiated any NSFW discussion with anyone in DMs unless they did it with me first and a few times -- and trust me raise your hand I'll show you the proof. I was sure that everyone I talked to regularly knew that I was a minor, and to my general consensus, people were under the impression I was 15/16 (which I was and am).***

Whether it be victim blaming from the grooming discourse, I've been met with racism, harassment towards my friends, people wanting me to harm myself and be assaulted. I fear what will happen when i will turn 18, if the harassment will escalate and what not. A big part of me is that I'm still here anyways because it pisses people off and I don't care when I receive hate. I can take it but I don't want it. A good conscious of me knows that I should be doing what's best for me but at the end I'm still attached to my ego-self with the added fact that I sincerely enjoy interacting with my followers and posting stories.

I just don't know how the options look. I'll probably be updating my blog rules as of right now. I've been writing more sfw lately because of this and it'd be nice if you guys supported those until I properly decide. I still have plenty of requests of a bunch of characters (mostly Bakugo and Dabi) and original stuff (all sfw & nsfw) that I really wanna share with you guys. But I just ask that what I do modify that you will respect it like you would to any other writer on here.

Stay safe, keep your mask on, and thank you.

[youwerenevermeanttofeelalone]

I’m autistic and I would like to be active in leftist spaces but I don’t know how. Also, do you participate in riots and all that stuff as a leftist? I don’t leave the house a lot and I’m scared

(I’ll add a read more to this post because it’ll be long.)

Sadly, most things in this world weren’t designed for us, anon:(. However, that doesn’t mean that we can’t contribute.

But first, there are a few things I need you to know about leftists spaces in general:

The infighting is worse outside of online spaces.

Said infighting is normal because there are... let’s call them branches.

The communist branch — communists want the proletariat to have control of the state.

The anarchist branch — anarchists want to abolish the state.

Some people would consider socdems (socialist democrats) as leftists, but they believe capitalism can be reformed. Somebody who still believes in capitalism can’t be called a leftist.

You can’t expect groups of people with wildly different goals to not fight. But sometimes those fights are useful and other times, they are petty.

There are also common grounds that those branches can reach, and they often do, but you never hear about it because it isn’t “interesting”.

Depending on your geographical location, you might not be safe if you take part in leftists spaces unless they’re online. The fight against capitalism, fascism, and colonialism is important, but your safety should be your priority.

Don’t trust people who say theory isn’t necessary.

Read theory. And critique of that theory. And then build your own opinion.

Theory isn’t a holy scripture, you can discard the things that you feel don’t apply to your community.

I know theory is challenging, and I don’t have a perfect solution, but if you need help with passages or bodies of work, please dm me. I’ll help you out as much as I can.

Using the label “leftist” is controversial in some spaces. Don’t worry too much about that if you’re just getting started. It’s okay to not know in which branch of the left you feel more comfortable as long as you’re open-minded.

Don’t fall for “democratic socialism and socialism are different because socialists don’t believe in democracy.”

Socialism is already democratic. Socdems just want to be progressive moderators (think of Bernie Sanders and his policies, for example.)

Listen to a wide range of leftists, but prioritize leftists of color.

Stay away from the “dirtbag left”. Their use of slurs and edgy humor can be triggering. They throw the r-slur in every debate and conversation.

If you want to watch leftist YouTubers, don’t pay too much attention to the “debate bros.” Some of them will be entertaining, but debating isn’t that important to the movement.

Now, I’m agoraphobic. Protests and riots aren’t something I can really tolerate even though I’ve tried. Maybe one day I’ll be able to change that.

But if you know a collective that’s protesting or rioting, you can ask them what you can do to help.

Sometimes they need people to take care of their kids, or people to let them know what the media is saying, or people to hand out pamphlets, or people to design those pamphlets, or people to get them medical attention...

There are so many things you can do from home, I promise! Monitoring police channels is another thing that I’ve seen American and European neurodivergent people do. Just ask.

About direct action...

For context: the left isn’t prominent in Mexico. The Worker’s Party has a coalition with the bourgeois parties at the moment. Our president is a demagogue who lied about his political beliefs and disguised himself as a leftist when he’s a neoliberal.

Where I live, people are so reactionary that they consider the president a communist. Here in my State, everybody’s either a centrist or a conservative. Leftists mostly keep to themselves because we’re not safe — much less if we’re part of a marginalized group which is most likely the case.

Such a thing isn’t too different from other States. We can spend days talking about why that happened and how much US imperialism has fucked us up, but I don’t want to digress.

As you can imagine, mutual aid is tough for me to do for multiple reasons, but it isn’t impossible.

I’ve left my house like ten times this year and I have three friends in total — one of them doesn’t even live in my country. Educating them has been one of the highlights of my year. And they now can pass that knowledge on.

The leftist movement needs more people willing to share knowledge. The movement also needs direct action, but you know what’s also direct action? Mutual aid.

I’m poor and helping out people with money is kinda tough when I have to save money for a ridiculously expensive surgery (it’s for my father), but I give whatever I can.

In my city, there are a lot of immigrants looking for a job. And I can’t give them such a thing, but whenever I can, I cook as many meals as possible and my father gives them out.

Mutual aid isn’t always big, but it can make a lot of difference. Sometimes you can only help out somebody by giving them a meal while they help you out by making you company. But that should be enough for us.

Disabled and neurodivergent people aren’t considered when certain groups form. Another way you can do mutual aid is by helping out neurodivergent and disabled kids. A lot of them can’t go to school or can’t get the tools they need to have a decent life.

There are ways. Unconventional, and smug neurotypicals or able-bodied people might say they’re not enough, but they are. I promise you they are, and the people you help will always be grateful.

Thank you for trusting my perspective on this. I hope this was helpful. If you have more questions or want to talk about this in length, message me.

[author-a-holmes]

Pavo, Phoenix and Puppis!!!!

Thank you for the ask anon! ^_^

Pavo - Where do you get inspiration from?

Oh good gods, everywhere.

Sometimes it’s a random line in a song that will spark an idea in my brain. Sometimes it’s a prompt online. Sometimes I’ll see or hear something when I’m out of the house that sparks an idea. Sometimes it’s a random factoid. Sometimes it’s a film, or a tv show, or book where I’ll be like; “Hmmm, I love this premise, but I would have done it differently...” and then I end up redeveloping a whole idea.

Sometimes it’s talking with friends or family and I’ll start randomly philosophising and end up with a character living rent-free in my brain at the end of the discussion.

For Stolen, my initial inspiration was the random thought “What if a complete amateur managed to break into a thieves guild, successfully steal the guild masters heist plans, get out unnoticed, and then try to sell them back to him the following day?”

One of my other projects began by asking myself; “What if ‘demons’ are just souls that have been tortured in the underworld for too long?”

and a third project began when I wanted to dabble in sci-fi, so I took the “rules” I’d written for a fantasy bounty hunters guild, and shoved them into a futuristic space setting to see what would happen.

Phoenix - How do you develop your ideas?

Whatever my initial spark of inspiration, a story or plot usually forms for me around a “What if?” question.

So, using Stolen as my primary example, I started with;

What if a complete amateur managed to break into a thieves guild, successfully steal the guild masters heist plans, get out unnoticed, and then try to sell them back to him the following day?

That was interesting to me because there are so many questions surrounding this situation. Why would an amateur take a risk like that? How would the guild master react? 

So I have a lot of plot bunny “What if?” questions that float around my brain, but the ones that make me ask more questions are usually the ones that stick. At that point, my next step in developing the idea is to create the characters.

The characters are the backbone of my writing because if I can’t make you care about the characters, then you’re not going to care about my plot. I can write the most epic and engaging plot in the world, but if you are viewing it through the eyes of my characters so if you don’t care about them the plot is useless. 

So I start there. A “What if?” question that makes me ask more questions, and then character development. Once I have both of those I work backwards to figure out the motivations of the characters. Once I have the characters' motivations, I’ve usually got the beginnings of a plot because a plot is just how your characters react and respond to a situation.

Then I figure out an end game. How do I want the story to end?

Now I have the beginning, the inciting incidence, and at least the first pinch point, and the grand finale, I just have to figure out the climax of the story, but by now I usually have enough threads that I can tie it all together once I’ve tossed in some side characters and their subplots.

Then I lay it out in bullet point format, and start writing. I don’t give myself concrete outlines, I find that stifles my ability to write, so I just make sure I have a list of guidelines, and how I get to each of those waymarks is my story.

Puppis - Give us a piece of advice! (about anything) @noire-pandora tagging you too! I’ve not got to your ask in my inbox yet, but I know this one was included in there too <3

If any of you reading this are in any of my discord with me, then you will have heard this piece of advice before but it’s really my best piece of advice, whether you’re writing fanfiction or memoirs or an original novel.

Write For Yourself.

(This also applies to any creative project. Do it for you, not anyone else)

Ignore the numbers on your likes, kudos’, reblogs, or reviews. It’s lovely to have them, of course it is, but don’t start counting points because that’s not what your creative project is about.

Write what you want to write. Write what you enjoy reading. Write what you enjoy writing. Write the tough stuff. Write the hard to see stuff. Write the stuff that makes you cry or breaks your heart. Write it because you want to see it written.

If you are invested in your work, and if you love your work, and if it’s enough for you to simply see it exist then it’s impossible to fail. It really is. You either love it and then you’ve succeeded because you’ve created something you love, or you don’t love it and you’ve succeeded because you’ve learnt something about the project in the process of creating it.

If you try to judge the value of your writing on other people’s opinions then it’s always going to hurt because you can't please everyone. It’s an impossible task.

If other people like your work, that’s fantastic and wonderful, but consider it a bonus, and not your be-all-end-all reason to create. You, and your work, is worth more than other people subjective evaluation.

[puppyenergy]

What do you think of resonance within the DID community? For example, a well known system had a major integration and within the same week like twenty+ systems also had a major integration whereas the general consensus on and understanding of integration had been completely different the previous week

Hi anon! This is an awesome question. I have a lot of thoughts on this topic. So much, actually, this ended up being an extremely long post. Sorry for the big chunk of everyone’s dash I just took up here.

I don’t necessarily think looking solely at the DID community is the right answer here. I think to find the answer as to why this sort of phenomenon happens, you have to look at social media influencers. I’m not the most knowledgeable person about this kind of stuff, but lately I’ve been watching a lot of videos about how influencers can impact their audience.

Influencers actually become influencers because they have formed an emotional connection with their fans. They are essentially a celebrity to their audience’s eyes, but as an influencer, there is an emotional connection with the audience so they don’t feel as distant as real celebrities do. The audience might relate to them on a personal level and feel like the influencer understands them even if they haven’t actually met. This all establishes a position of power for the influencer over the audience.

In some videos I watched, I learned how influencers can easily manipulate their own audience; whether they intend for it or not. I watched how some influencers would feel like someone had wronged them, then would outright ask their fans to attack that person. As a result, all the fans would harass this person. However, more often I’d see influencers who didn’t outright ask their fans to attack someone. But they wouldn’t say “I don’t condone harassment, do not attack anyone.” And as a result, their fans still attacked the person who had “wronged” them.

There’s multiple reasons that factor into why stuff like this happens. Things such as the audience member’s age, what the situation itself was, how the influencer presented it, what kind of information they revealed about the other person, etc. People might feel like they love their favorite influencer so much they just want to help them, or they might want to help ‘cancel’ the person who wronged them so the influencer notices them, or they might just be pissed off that someone they care about has been wronged, or they might feel like the influencer was ‘subtly’ telling them to attack the person even if they didn’t outright say it. But either way, the situation was brought to their computer screen.

It really gave a lot of perspective into how some people miss the memo when they go from just a person on the internet to social media influencer, and they end up hurting not only themself but also so many others. Being an influencer is being a role model. To give a bit of personal perspective: Even though I think this is in no way comparable to youtube, I had a sideblog where I put more trauma-related content and vent art on. But suddenly it got 5k+ followers out of nowhere and it no longer felt like a personal diary to me. I suddenly realized that was 5k+ people (presumably also trauma survivors) that I was now effecting, and I did NOT want to put anti-recovery or unhealthy shit on their dash. I was now a role model to them, so I shifted all the content on that blog to pro-recovery and I started posting all my vents to a private blog.

In the long run, it actually felt a lot healthier for myself, as well.

So now what happens if the social media influencer makes their content around DID? Obviously, people with DID are going to be the majority of their fanbase, but it’s a bit more complicated than that. Because the DID/OSDD community is a minority group. We fit under the umbrella of disability, and the even smaller umbrella of mental illness, and the even tinier umbrella of DID/OSDD. Now imagine being an influencer for that tiny tiny umbrella.

In my honest opinion, I feel like the impact influencers have on this community is much stronger in a way where it even effects people who aren’t fans of this influencer. Sometimes, it pretty much effects the entire online DID/OSDD community- which I have seen happen many times before.

To give a non-personal example, I saw when the community took a shift towards obsessively trying to call out “fake systems” within the community, because there was a very popular and well-respected blog at the time who started airing their opinions on why they believed it was okay to doubt the legitimacy of other people’s disorders. They started posting “criteria” for “system faking” and posting things about Imitative DID. Obviously, it caused a huge panic within the community, and a lot of denial. Then, there was an onslaught of witchhunting/callout blogs created after it.

I feel like I’ve even been the result of some changes, myself.

Sometimes posts of mine have gotten popular and have been repeated by more popular influencers. Then, immediately, I had seen a shift in how the online community behaved. Knowing that I could even just make a post and an influencer could see it and decide to make a video based on it is a lot to take in. That’s a lot of responsibility on my shoulders. What if someone decided to make a video on something misinformed or harmful? What if I was misinformed or harmful and I didn’t know it?

But then when I compared it to how I treated my sideblog, I realized that this responsibility was actually essential to how I should’ve been treating my posts about DID/OSDD in the first place. You should be careful about what you say about these incredibly vulnerable and stigmatized disorders, even if you have one of them. It’s something that needs to be treated with the sensitivity that it deserves. People with DID/OSDD need to be treated with the sensitivity that they deserve. And, for some reason, we are just so, so hard on ourselves, our disorder, and on each other.

But I’m talking about social media influencers as if they’re a bad thing. I don’t think they’re a bad thing. Nothing is ever black or white.

There’s so much good that can and has come out of what DID/OSDD influencers have done. For example, awareness and education about DID/OSDD is finally starting to become more accessible and known. People have this space where they can realize that they’re not alone and that their experiences are real and valid. People can be encouraged to known when they need help and how to seek help. Singlets finally can learn what DID/OSDD looks like for one person, and even if it doesn’t look like that for everyone, at least they have a real life example instead of just a horror movie or bad writing as their only knowledge of this disorder. It can also insight professionals to take DID/OSDD more seriously, or even encourage more research and support for their disorders. It can lessen stigma and misconceptions.

So why is it if a DID/OSDD influencer says they’ve had an integration, then so many people in the community start to say they’re having integrations as well? Here’s my personal thoughts on this.

I actually think the people in the online DID/OSDD community are essentially primed to always try to "know” and label what they’re experiencing, even if they’re wrong. I think this happens because of a combination of how denial screws with us, how the internet treats disabled people, and peer pressure within the DID/OSDD community. So, if you take how social media influencers influence their audience, and you also add all of that shit, I think it’s pretty normal for a bunch of people to suddenly say they’re integrating as well after their favorite influencer integrated.

Sometimes they’re wrong and just using a label that makes the most sense to them based on what they’ve seen or learned. Sometimes they’re right and they’ve finally discovered the term for what they’re going through. Sometimes they’re just so attached to what they watched or read that they might actually perceive it to be happening to themself too. Sometimes they were already experiencing this and the influencer gave them the courage to speak out about their own experiences as well. Or maybe it was all just a coincidence.

Imo, none of that is bad. It’s not bad to try and figure out what you’re experiencing. It’s not bad to be wrong about what you’re experiencing. No one is obligated to figure these things out or put words to them, but a lot of people want to try. It’s normal to make mistakes along the way. DID is already so confusing and there’s also so much misinformation about it floating around as well. No one is at fault for being victim to misinformation. What matters is that you educate yourself and you own up to and apologize for any harm you might have done while you were misinformed.

Anyways, sorry this post was so long lol sdkglhskdg. I hope at least some of it made sense. I have a lot more thoughts about this topic but this post is just way too long now, I don’t want to keep you for any longer. If you read all of it: thanks! you’re one cool cucumber!

[dontasktheradiodemon]

((that ask about fanfiction just made me wonder what would happen if someone wrote in-universe rpf about these guys. not curious enough to make a blog and write it but curious enough to imagine the like 400k deep character arc of alastor getting a cellphone and voluntarily logging into voxblr.))

((Oh believe me, every time someone tries to allude to the idea of someone making fanart/fanfic about Alastor to Alastor on this blog, I’ve gotta sit here and think about where to draw the limit between “sure that hypothetically makes sense given that RPF fanfic exists” and “nah you’re leaning too hard on the fourth wall”))

((The thing about RPF is that it’s never going to be based on what a person is actually like. It’s all always going to be about some constructed fictionalized character invented out of what a fan hopes that celebrity is going to be like, based off of what little bit of their personality and interior life they willingly share in interviews, social media, etc. Imagine the versions of yourself that you construct for mainstream public consumption—the version of yourself you wear at work to face customers, or the version of yourself you wear when you’re talking in class to teachers/professors, or the version of yourself that you put on Facebook where your extended family is watching—and ask how accurate that public-facing version of yourself is re: expressing your entire history, your interior life, your likes and interests and secret thoughts and feelings. You know, the stuff that a writer would need to know to fully write a fictional character. And when a fanfic writer doesn’t get that stuff from canon, they make up interesting headcanons. Your public-facing self is the “canon” that a hypothetical fanfic writer would be basing their headcanons off of. How much are they gonna get right?))

((And that’s the issue at the root of a vast majority of “characters discover RPF about themselves in-universe” concepts that I’ve run into in the past. For characters running into RPF of themselves to be true to a hypothetical real world experience of a celebrity running into RPF of themself, that character’s RPF has to be just... wildly fucking wrong. And I don’t just mean “humorous over-exaggerations of their real personality traits,” I mean WRONG personalities. I mean “I don’t know this guy’s background so I made up his entire childhood and INVENTED a tragic backstory for him.” I mean “I decided his five top hobbies, the three languages he speaks, and that he’s got a secret child somewhere.” You can easily invent a childhood for a character that doesn’t have one, but a real person always has a real childhood, whether you know anything about it or not.))

((As real fans of fictional characters, we’re privy to far more of a character’s private life than the fictional fans who know these characters as public figures, because we get to see the fictional media that produces these characters. And, more than that, as real fans who are writing both the fanfics about the characters AND the hypothetical in-universe RPF about these characters, the versions of the characters that exists in one writer’s head are going to be the versions of the character that inform both the fanfic and the RPF inside the fanfic. And so there’s going to be an inclination to make the in-universe RPF more IC than it would realistically be if you don’t stop and go “actually, whoever’s writing this wouldn’t know a goddamn thing about what this person is like.”))

((Plus, the way it’s written would be different. Generally, people don’t play with celebrities in RPF the same way they play with characters in fiction-based fanfic. There’s an even greater focus on shipping, primarily either “I want these bandmates/co-stars to be gay together” or else self-shipping/reader-insert content. You’re gonna get a lot less, like, character study sort of fic. A much greater portion of the fanworks are, like... celebrity crush daydreams in written form. Which, yeah, makes up a lot of fan works for fictional characters—but not to as high an extent. You don’t need to write a whole fic sharing your headcanon childhood for a real living person who HAS a childhood you just don’t know, you just sort of need to know that headcanon childhood for the daydream you’re writing that person into.))

((And finally—you’ve got to consider who gets RPF written about them. IRL, it’s almost exclusively entertainers. Movie stars, pop bands, etc.—and what’s more than that, entertainers that appeal to the portion of the population that writes fanfic (typically female) and the portion of the population less likely to go “it’s really weird to write about actual real life people like they’re characters I can just play around with” (typically younger)—so, entertainers in teen-oriented boy bands or actors in movies/shows that appeal to a large, feminine, young fanbase. Hazbin’s main cast contains two entertainers: Angel Dust and Alastor. Gay adult film star Angel Dust definitely appeals to a queer audience but is probably not drawing a young, female fanbase. Sure, out here in the real world he’s got a lot of young female fans—but how many 15-to-22-year-old fangirls do you know who have a passionate interest in specific IRL gay adult film stars? So Angel’s got a big fanbase but it’s probably not much of a fic-writing fanbase. Alastor is, more than anything, a former entertainer; and although he’s got female admirers, they seem to be restricted to the “stuck in the 1910s” part of town and thus probably not getting online to write fanfic. Plus those admirers seem to be people who know him personally, and usually the RPF that gets shared in public is written about celebrity strangers, not one’s own acquaintances. And those are the only two in the main cast that even come close to appealing to the usual RPF demographics.))

((And more importantly than the entertainer thing: Alastor is a figure of fear. Alastor is nearly-universally reviled. Out here in the real world Alastor is the perfect figure to draw a large loving fanbase because he is the perfect embodiment of the Tumblr Sexyman trope. But inside the Hazbin universe? In Hell? He’s basically equivalent to a mass shooter who gunned down hundreds of people and then was allowed to walk free because the cops were too scared to try to arrest him. His claim to fame is mass carnage. The one thing everyone knows him for is hurting as many people as possible. Doesn’t quite have the same broad popular appeal as a boy band that sings cute pop songs, does he?))

((Yeah, there are some folks out there that treat true crime like a fandom, write love letters to serial killers, etc.—but that’s a LOT more fringe than the majority of the people churning out RPF fiction. You don’t see common fanfic tags stuffed with mass shooter reader-insert fic the way you see them stuffed with k-pop reader-insert fic.))

((tl;dr: is somebody somewhere in Hell writing RPF about Alastor? Yeah, probably somewhere? He would be well-known enough that it would be weird if absolutely nobody anywhere with a taste for RPF happened to have a penchant for him. But the numbers are so low that it would be really weird for the phenomenon to get big enough that somebody would come TELL Alastor that he’s getting fanfic written about him; and what those fics look like would probably be so OOC & incorrect they’re barely even recognizable as Alastor because the fictional writers writing them wouldn’t have the out-of-universe insight into Alastor’s personality that we real world fans have.))

((Which is why even with “what about RPF?” if someone comes at this blog going “hey Alastor people are writing fanfic about you” my reaction is generally just to go “nah, you’re leaning on the 4th wall, we’re not doing that.” Because I don’t expect the average anon to put THIS MUCH THOUGHT into who would realistically be writing RPF about Alastor, how common it would really be, and what it would probably look like, and I don’t want to try to course-correct a bunch of anons acting like Alastor’s hypothetical fictional fanbase in Hell looks the same and writes the same as his real world fanbase.))

[rwmhunt]

Leviticus, Chapter 23

1. Substitute day, and a return unto A sender of something, as to another place, That hasn't the wherewithal to get there either; I will open it again and learn That which is already known to be such As isn't so much.

2. And it's not mine, but a, And is the right way round. For as I set the seasons, I reprise, reply, replay; It's substitution day.

3. And Sabbath is the seventh, Whence the lord, in all thy dwellings, Is up for doing nothing; Or Sabbath is the sixth; I don't care.

4. And welcome to my channel, It's great to have each of you still with me- A man who speaks of people By their purpose, Himself as his own singer, With- such are the seasons, Even, holy convocations, For want to be sure of a constant, It's Senhal, An obscure term For an old friend.

5. Love, love, lo, this is not Of a cloven love, Leviticus, I will speak of it Unto sundry strangers and neighbours, As just one more month's dusk Then it'll be passover, Not once. Not twice, Not once. Love. So we can still imagine a time When all of this will go again;

6. But a day will approach When, if there is something That can look back, Could think that 'here' and 'then' Are really very close;- And I wonder if they saw The strings of direct attachment, Lining their behaviours; Just flour and water, But I don't think so; Still, anytime was closer to history than this one, So what do I know?

7. If I were to put the onus On to the impossible, Then what was light-hearted and playful, Would be wont to become ridden and surly; Lord, being an influencer is a serious endeavour, For how many unsuccessful oblations are there That are out there? Lo, state your appreciation; Don’t just wing it. Plan it out in kalends, Of which are reckon'd to be backwards; so, To start, do nothing.

8. After a week, Let's go- Gift your influencers' grift, For, when you so do this, It strokes the ego of the flames, Who then add unto the savour of sacrifice, Thus, get me it up; Make it smolder, Then, use its fatal nature To activate the future.

9. And simple: These are nacks, To muster control Over gods; Are junk and have been; That we all have interest vested- Let ignorance of it control Hereafter, same, so anon and amen.

10. Crowdsplain- First fruit the priest Hard and long, Find the tunnels, Writing what's impossible For the brain to conceive, That it may then be read back of, To supplant and supersede; So become possible.

11. And thither, the Wheatchief Will wave the sheaf Tomorrow- See how it goes? Ol' Cathode Ray, and Non-mathmatical aesthetic identities, The spirit of the radio take her.

12. That once the sheaf And all the while Be specific unto thy niche- Nativize unto thy platform, For, the experience shall follow The rhyzome's swerve and function, So that the user-expectation be wrought From whence the contents be placed- In this case, Add in a lamb shank ponzi scheme to my platform; Smells wonderful.

13. So unto the titular character, Exerting such low level leverage as Begetteth me of an ephah cake, And a quarter hin of wine; I don't need the free stuff, I am a successful influencer, But shouldst you want me to advertise for suckers On my platform that I have built myself for free; Well, we're all getting along so good.

14. Then it's me first, And simple: see- That our boldest endeavours, And most exciting adventures- They have not yet even begun; That, in spite of all the detritus, In the teeth of all that we've done, my boys, I tell you: The best Is yet To come.

15. Then, 49 days later, Seek whence Thought might come in sequence, And I'm really so blessed and thankful to you all for being here; So, as thought comes  in sequence And thus, it wasn't known where We are going here as we begun. O tensions, retensions- I use to used to run.

16.  Know, influencers, I am the hype; So on-brand that I can give unto you, And through you, the trick- Pyramid that still stands For the thousands- Round it up; So nice.

17. And, super relevant- Optimize continuously, also, Compensate me handsomely; while Sacrifice may seem like a quick-success marketing strategy, It isn’t so. Such are the things that keep not happening; More food please.

18. Lots more, This is why the burden of proof for rhetorical claim Shall falleth shortly As among the Open Wounde who should maketh of such a claim; It is not upon the world to provide him a fallacy, But he, who's to prove the world its truth; which, Across all channels, He, rerewise, hath been completely unable to do.

19. So suffer him his own precarity; And then some; Think back to when, Twirrup twipip,-pwiwip, Suwee, psu, swoo swsoo, So sweepeth they in song, As we, quiet, Through our blossom comedown, That hideth our tiny singers, And the bulgence behind the wiltage, In the verges, Be of burgeoning seed.

20. And everyone wave; All this- so good as is it to be; And though under a hail Of black tormentors, Our torment, And through its over-drone, With no one remembering it happening, But, who'll remember the photograph?

21. Sit back; You've lost everything, So lo, olah, you remember how mother died- Bringing cow parsley into the tent of meaning; For she went by the umbels as we'd walked on the plain, And they had reminded her of those lace cushions That her ladies-in-waiting had carried, And so gave them the name.

22. Embassadors, Leave thy corners to disillusion; A true influencer ideally keeps doing What they genuinely gain of a passion for. They know their value and their need is not to shew it, So spend a lot of time reading news and sharing opinions with others online. By buying-up dozens of potential plots, They help to plot the exodus to less, And stake an astronaut over the shape of a woman. But politics isn’t about the weird worship of one dude, So his words became their actions.

23.  Is it worth your time To try and ignore that, if, What you are listening to Is  the most effective form of advertising- A babbling of a technique That hath impostulated language, Then, should things go well, We may even be able to rend a cross-paracleation With phantom trust-collaborators, Interested in guest-posting for backlinks and exposure, Thus, marrying into micro-influencers, And so tap into our y.

24. But be consistent: For my favourite casts come out the same- Here, crowdplain how a seventh month is a Sound the trumpet month; See how it goes? Lo, but half of me struggles with the whimsy Of the other side that's yet so entranced; No, I'm not sure why, it's just the way I feel.

25. Down tools, more please. Gnaw your own head off. All things positivity- and It is always negotiation; Not: You bring it to the tabernacle, I sing- There is no shortness of spirit In opinion To be cut down. Equal positives, so unto Those things that keep not happening.

26. There are voices you hear of, As quoted as begetters of insightful opinion, Who art themselves never made extant, Being only reported hereto as sources, And lo, that they are the influencers. And I'm super curious as to know what you guys think; Please be sure to leave your comments amid the margins.

27. Thence, afflict thy souls, For, tis atonement day- We're ten into the seventh, And the snap's back when I was An offensive lineman, And the pass sent over- The big lie, long, long to the long deceiver, Ah, burnt offerings- How original, Best look unto the analytics, And if they give you not access there unto , Verily, you are going to have to fight, Fight as peaceful as Sheol, Down, deep down and dirty- I'm not going to call it off.

28. Down tools; Atone to the dial tone, No one calls; Let Ladder Capital Createth of the sponsored post- Like many on the medium, To use an ode- I used to play the role; To laugh and laugh; Laugh til I despised all there was to laugh at, And then I stopped, And in the silence, saw what I had done.

29. But laughing is not so bad.

We've been a good wee band. Yes we have. No one is coming after us. And if you're alright, mack, You'll get cut off.

30. So workers got destroyed That day, And Aaron was frustrated, And livid. Reach round; Feel thy spine. The way people stop you From being helpful When you are helpful, So that you cannot be helpful, So that they can cut you From your people.

31. Tardiness in perpetuity, Aye, today, it is Yplangenday- Well, I'll have to put myself Through some more adamantine Paces than god allows, else I'll never get enough done.

32. And be bold, For, you'll need to deracinate; Chancers are toxic vocations Within the tent of meaning; It's content; it's all content- Divide and game, so- Focus and grow. I mean to make sure That you are a consistent- Start of the ninth evening , End of the next.

33. God doesn't eat though, That I can see- For all that we give him, God doesn't eat.

34. Crowd, 15/7, and tabernacle feast week; Still his words became their actions, Shrill, until the doctrine of laches, When the searched-after Faithless elector went libertarian, Like many on the medium, Clade unto such bolled and novel obstacles What stretched where chance was slim, And slim was still in quarantine.

35. To start again, down tools, For, lo, if you want to be in a prison camp, You needst allow yourself the luxury Of being stupid enough to get captured.

36. Sacrifice? Spluttereth the LORD: But I'm fed up with so much burnt rubbish, I wish for forced fresh rhubarb, So shunt and jive; I've Optimized, and optimize continuously.

37. Drinks break; take life indicting, Gratify all at a local craven hire scheme, Go abroad singing, so merrylike, To slough off the whole As one enormous rhyzome. Deus Hic! God is drunk! I heard that, Brian Leg-Coverall.

38. O well done Jehus, And good to be with you, Yes you, Who are good in a crisis; A reminder- I'm working with mischief.

39. Wait, rest again, To live is to live through An embarrassment of times, Damarkated as meaningful riches, That will not be well remembered. Really, I am so blessed.

40. But try to ask of a question; So that thy congregation Might make communion in answer, See how it goes? Say, But why, isn't it A bit like palm sunday? The stream changeth its name As it passeth through each neighbourhood. I knew it as; Well it doesn't matter- You're not reposting, nor liking my banal repartee, So, unfollow.

41. And it goes; for I have giv'n unto them a scapegoat, But they cast it not out; So shall there be a reaving that will follow, and Themselves, they shall be cut off from.

42. Then all ye home-born booth dwellers In dwelling booths, Shall dwell in booths seven days and know That you are living in the rhyzome..

43. And everyone will know that I made you do this- The old booth dwellers, needing my rescue out of Egypt, So weakened,  the Open Wounde stayeth open; And remember to tell us what you think, Way down, deep down, down in the margins.

44. And Mose went about with the crowdsplaining Old loud-haler; A simple fellow out of storybook glen, From the tent of meaning, From the twilight men, He ran and told- And the thing is, They were too clever To not know what they were doing- So the target becomes bios; Is the common psychle, The answer- How would you like it? Is - 'I didn't'. And that therein has a hold and salience, As before tends to be the best time to regret- It is a kind of nonsense. I'm so merry

I'm so merry and sad.

[anarcho-smarmyism]

what can someone who is young and has no real form of transportation do for direct action? i want to help but i have limited money and travel options

i used to be in your same situation; it wasn’t until i’d turned 19 and moved to a city that i was able to start volunteering anywhere, and even longer before i could make it a regular part of my life. now i have the time, money, and stability to go to demonstrations and meetings and stuff, so between work, finally enrolling in college again, and volunteering, i expect to be pretty busy for a while :> so don’t beat urself up too much about not being able to do much right now. if you make it a priority in your life, you’ll make it there.

in the meantime:

-educate yourself! contrary to the cliche, knowledge isn’t power on its own, but knowledge multiplies power explosively. the more you understand about the theory our movements are based on, the more history you read of past radical movements, the more history you read of the oppressors, the more sociology you understand, the more you understand the laws where you live and what political demands you can conceivably push for and help attain, the more you understand strategy in general, etc. the more effective you’ll be as a revolutionary once you can get started for real. 

-network! you’re gonna need to start with liberals/demsocs, socialist book clubs, and pacifists -in other words, the people who can relatively safely post about their activism online. fb is good for this; you can look up ‘causes’ or ‘events’ and see stuff going on in your area. you might be pleasantly surprised to find things you can go to; if not, you can join groups and talk to people who are already engaged. hell, it’s likely you could even get someone to come pick you up for a bigger protest; they all want engagement. direct action is hard to come by in groups like these; one of the leaders of the climate crisis demonstration i went to most recently grouped the “Marxists” handing out socialist reading material and selling zines on the street with the flat-earthers and anti-vaxxers also protesting, people he wanted to distance himself from both physically and politically. be patient with the liberals, at least until you can find your comrades…they can be annoying and often obstructive, but they’re still our allies, and the most likely group of people to become comrades if given the space to. (this refers to regular ass people, not politicians. fuck Democrats.) 

-educate others! spread socialist propaganda on social media, talk to people about current events and your convictions on them, maybe even make a zine of your own with a few friends, if someone’s being ignorant about something try and set them straight…or, more realistically, at least offer a leftist perspective in a way that’s as likely to be actually listened to and absorbed as you can. i’m gonna say it a second time: be patient with the liberals. one of the biggest advantages the right has over the left is that the right has no problem manipulating people and agreeing to disagree so long as they can convince them to move to the right politically, even by increments. we don’t need to be slimy and underhanded like them, but we would benefit from at least a little pragmatism in how we talk to people who are not already socialists.

-annoy and ostracize bigots and fascists! this one can be dangerous, obviously, so use your common sense; don’t pick fights if you don’t know how you’re going to win, don’t put yourself in unnecessary danger, etc. that said, most of the time when someone’s being a dipshit and repeating these talking points, you ought to speak up. having spent a lot of time around neo-fash/racist shitheads, i know from experience that if a bigot starts talking their shit and they don’t get told the shut the fuck up, they’ll just keep gradually saying more and more extreme shit until they cross a line. then next time, they’ll start at that line and toe it as long as possible, trying to get someone to “debate” them. your job is not to prove them wrong; often even if you’re 100% right, they won’t care and a lot of people around you won’t, either. so just make fun of them, shout them out if you can, dismiss everything they say as bigoted and therefore not worth listening to. (this is ofc assuming you can’t talk them down in a friendly way, report them for hate speech, etc) this is by no means a perfect solution, but it’s better to slow them down and make their hate difficult to act on, than to just ignore it altogether.

-be kind! too many leftists do it because they wanna be Smart and Right. if you’re motivated by compassion, your politics will reflect it, and you may be able to avoid some of the worst pitfalls the Left has to offer. besides, it’ll remind you what you’re fighting for, and just make your life better generally, in the meantime.

a lot of these require practice and some social skills; i’m a loud, mouthy extrovert irl, so it’s not a big deal to make a scene, or talk to new people and try to gauge whether they’d have any interest in socialism or not. experiment and find out what you’re best at, and in the meantime, do what you need to do so that you can join us in the streets as soon as possible. cause tbh, anon, we need you. badly😂

i know it’s incredibly frustrating, especially to the young and idealistic, to see all of these horrible things happening, the obvious trajectory of global politics, natural disasters that are so frequent and horrifying that they feel like…no, they are omens of the literal apocalypse. it’s overwhelming, and it makes sense why so many people just keep their heads down and say there’s nothing they can do, all the options are too small to matter. even once you’re able to do the direct action you want to do, you won’t see dramatic change right away. we’re not superheroes, but we’re grains of sand in the machinery of late stage capitalism; drops of water helping to erode the chains around our fellow human beings. 

tl;dr: study. be patient. be diligent. be smart. be brave. be kind, recklessly, stubbornly, and proudly.

[airagorncharda]

About My Blog:

Name: Nate Age: 29 (I’m bad at updating this, I was born in 1990) Pronouns: he/him/his.

It’s been ages since I’ve updated any sort of info about myself or my blog, oops.

Dfab nb trans guy, genderfluid. On the aro/ace spectrum. Queer. Gay. Neuroatypical (ADHD among other things; possibly dyslexia or else it’s just my ADHD that makes reading The Worst). I have chronic pain. I’m chubby. 

Privilege: I’m white, I grew up with financial security while I lived with my parents, I live in a liberal area of New England in the USA, I am able-bodied, I can pass as neurotypical. If I make false assumptions or fuck up because of any of these things please call me on it. I will do my utmost not to make this necessary, and to listen if it should ever be necessary.

I blog about social justice, social issues, whatever fandom I’m currently hyperfixated on, DnD, and plenty of other stuff.

My views have evolved since I started blogging, so if you go far enough back in my blog you’ll find posts that I no longer agree with.

I use my “likes” as storage for things I want to respond to later, or save to my computer when I’m on the mobile app, or research more thoroughly before reblogging when I have time/attention, etc. Do not assume I agree with everything in my likes. View my likes with caution.

I’m a writer and an illustrator, and am a Personal Care Assistant to a really cool lady. I play a lot of DnD and I love my dnd group. I’ve been in a relationship with one of my best friends since we were 15. We are engaged, live together, play video games and DnD, and have cats.

I post my thoughts here. I post my art here. These are my cats. This is my face.

I am not always right. I am still learning.

Do not cite me as an expert or trust my implicitly. I am happy to give my thoughts on and discuss any issue, and I do try to research my points before I make them, but I am not an authority.

My ask box is always open. I will respond privately if you ask me to. If I respond publicly I will tag it with your URL so you can find it easily (unless you ask me not to). I tag all asks with “ask” and all anons with “ask” and “anon”. If you send me an ask and I don’t respond it might be because Tumblr ate it, and I never received it, or because I have ADHD and sometimes I forget to respond to things. In either case feel free to send the ask again. I do not consider this rude.

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I am careful to always tag for things like racism, transphobia, ableism, etc., as well as death, blood, horror cops, spiders, etc., so people can blacklist them.

I am usually happy to add to this list if you have a phobia or trigger and need me to, just ask. If for some reason I’m uncomfortable tagging a particular subject, I will not be offended if you unfollow me (I’ll also just NEVER be offended by that; you do you)

Some navigation help for my blog:

current events - this tag is reserved for whatever the most recent important (and awful) thing happens to be.

Disney’s Frozen - this tag is referencing all of the problems with that movie (the first one), including general discussion about the sexism in how women are animated. It accidentally became my “misogyny in animation” tag, sorry!

Statistics - this tag is for all posts with specific statistics about social injustice.

real talk - this tag is for short posts that I feel most clearly and succinctly summarize issues of social injustice.

Boost - any post that involves petitions, fund raisers, sales, or other things I want people to not only see but interact with.

Fandoms:

I’ve been in fandom for a long time. I’m here to have fun, and am not comfortable with the current online purity culture of throwing shame at people who enjoy harmless things that you don’t. Fandom is not always about what we wish was real or canon; sometimes it’s about the opposite of that on purpose. 

I’m a polyshipper and a multishipper, though I definitely have OTPs and sometimes don’t enjoy seeing those pairs with other people. This is personal preference, and not a judgment on others. 

I try to stay out of fandom discourse and mainly reblog art I like. Occasionally, though, I do reblog criticism of fandom specific bigotry. 

Just because I reblog stuff from a particular fandom doesn’t mean I necessarily like everything about the piece of media, where/who it came from, or the direction it went. I value fandom because of the power to make the stories we’re given into the stories we wish we’d been given, AND the power to turn stories we love into whatever we’re vibing with at the moment.

Harry Potter was a formative fandom for me, so despite hating JKR I will still engage with fanworks related to it. I tag anything Harry Potter with “hp”. I tag everything relating to JKR with “fuck you JKR”.

Anything related to Tolkien’s Middle Earth stories is tagged “lotr”, anything about the MCU is tagged “Avengers”, and anything related to Avatar the Last Airbender is tagged “Atla”. 

I tag anything from the Tales of series with “Tale of” as well as their individual game titles. Anything from MOST Fire Emblem games gets lumped together under “Fire Emblem” but Three Houses is “fe3h”. Similarly, Most Final Fantasy games get “Final Fantasy” while 14 gets “ffxiv”.

Other media I particularly love off the top of my head (and their associated tags), or at least that I often reblog about, includes: Critical Role (and CR2), Phoenix Wright, She Ra (tag: “shera”), Saiyuki, Yu Yu Hakusho (tag: “yyh”), Undertale, The Good Place. Mad Max, Naruto, Miraculous Ladybug (tag: “miraculous”), Legend of Zelda (tag: “zelda”)

Personal tags:

My favorite meta (good meta makes the world go ‘round)

My favorite things on this whole damn site (I love this)

Stuff that’s purely positive (decency, and wholesome)

Things that remind me of my friend group (me and mine and ours)

Mron (things that remind me of and inspire me to work on my sci-fi story about androids)

Embalar (things that remind me of and inspire me to work on the fantasy story/video game/dnd homebrew setting I’m actively working on)

The Fog (things that remind me of and inspire me to work on my fairy tale story, which includes mermaids)

recipes

lifehacks

poetry

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art (specific tags for: sculpture, painting, illustration, music, art history, installation art)

books, games, shows, and movies I wish existed (tumblr books)

furniture, appliances, and house stuff that I would love to have the money to have (want)

pretty jewelry that I want but would never wear because I don’t wear jewelry (for my dragon hoard)

–Nate

[ti-bae-rius]

Hi-I’ve got an autism question. How hard was it to get a diagnosis? As I am 19 now I was thinking about seeking one for myself since I won’t have to worry about my parents intervening. I’ve looked up the steps online and stuff but none of it makes sense and I don’t know if anyone will take me seriously since I am a 19 y/o girl :/ I’ve grown up around children with autism (specifically my younger brother)and as I’ve gotten older I’ve begun to notice those traits in myself and I just want answers

Helloooo Anon!

Firstly, congratulations! It’s super great you’re recognising things in yourself and maybe finding an answer. Big love to you!

Secondly, I think I had a few big obstacles in getting my diagnosis, some of which you’ll understand. Being a girl and being a little older can make things a bit more challenging but luckily, the process is getting much better for identifying autism in girls and doctors know that the reason most girls aren’t diagnosed until later is because of this medical bias and not because they just aren’t autistic. I also happened to have a really terrible therapist for a while who halted my diagnostic process. I think without that, I would’ve found the whole process a lot quicker and easier.

All in all, it took me about 2-3 years to get a diagnosis, but like I said I had some other things to deal with so it might be a much much shorter process for you.

Depending on where you are in the world, the steps can be different. I was really panicky about my appointment because the steps didn’t make sense to me either, but when I got my appointment for the actual diagnosis, they gave me a big booklet with everything I needed to know in. Once you get an appointment, they’ll usually contact you to give you some forms to fill out in advance and you can use that time to ask them for details on what it will entail. Don’t panic about sounding too inquisitive or anything because frankly it’s helpful for them to know if that bothers you (my psychiatrist actually said he’d guessed I was autistic within the first ten minutes because I brought a big folder of all the possible info I’d need with me!)

I really hope you have a smooth diagnostic process. Get in touch if there’s anything you need or that I can do to help. xxx

[grimsae]

Simmer- Get To Know

Tagged by the lovely: @ohsosims ❤️

Languages you speak: English & some Spanish

Are you a mermaid: Ummm no, what would make you think that?!

Your Playstyle: 42% Gameplay, 10% screenshots, 35% build mode, 6% in CAS, 7% trying to storytell but fail.

Your Simself Picture:

Stories or Gameplay, builds, lookbooks, edits or cc: I mainly just post edits of my Sims or some gameplay. I would LOVE to make storytelling posts (with subtitles and all of that) but I don’t know where to start & if anyone really would want to read that. Like there is story in all my Sims but I just don’t know if y’all would want to read that. But these challenges have been really fun to do! I wanna do more lookbooks though! Custom Content I’m still trying to work with but I’m struggling a little bit but soon I’ll have some for y’all!:)

Your favorite age state: I honestly enjoy them all but I wish I could do more for elders! I can’t wait for knitting!

Your favorite season: Autumn

Your favorite holiday: So in my game I have a holiday called “Summer Farewell” it happens on the last day of Summer & the day consist of chill vibes. Drinking, playing outside, swimming, bbq, fireworks, hanging with friends & family & chilling around a bonfire. It’s super chill & I honestly look forward to it. Maybe I should post more about it soon!

How was your day: It was okay. Work sucked ass. Being understaffed all the time & working with a fake ass coworker is so draining. But it got better when I got home because I played some Skyrim. Then went out to eat with my mom at Five Guys then bought myself a memorory foam bed topper from Bed Bath & Beyond. So I slept amazing last night. Now it’s Saturday & I plan on not leaving the house!

Your favorite career: Ummm that’s kinda hard because I always choose freelance careers in game because I love how your sim can stay home & just work. But it gets a little monotonous at times. I also love the teacher & administrative careers that came with Discover University!

Your favorite aspiration: I love the geeky ones, like collecting stuff & I love the family aspirations!

Your favorite EP, SP or GP: this is so hard ugh. For favorite EP it’s either Discover University or Get Together. Favorite GP is Parenthood but also Strangerville because it’s actually pretty great! Favorite SP is extremely tied between Tiny Living & Moschino for the build & buy items!

How old is your Simblr: it will be hitting one year old soon! I’ve always wanted to make one but never did. But I finally just made one. I used to blog about my sims on Amino but that community was toxic and their ways were extremely toxic & stupid. So it pushed me to make a Simblr & I loved it ever since. You can go on Amino actually and still see my posts. STORYTELLING POSTS!

Have you woohooed: Ummmmmmmmmmmm not on my conservative Christian blog😚💅🏼

Your favorite skill: Gardening

The size of your mods folder: Not that bad actually, just 15 GB!

Your 3 favorite mods: Wicked Whims, McCommand Center & Andrews Pose Player

Your interests (other than the sims): I love to play video games, I’m a huge gamer. I also love to travel. Even if it’s to a small town in the middle of nowhere, I just love to see new places. I live in Texas so any chance I get to travel around, I’m always excited for it. I also love to write stories & songs. Then last I love to cook, so I’m always watching Food Network to see what ideas I can get to create in the kitchen.

Your favorite Sim (picture if possible): that is so hard because all of my sims that I post on here are my babies. So I can’t just pick one. But my favorites would have to be between Kade, Zephan & Tobias.

Which Sims games have you played (including mobile games): The Sims, The Sims 2, The Sims 2 on GameCube & the Strangetown one for PSP. Urbz on PS2 & on Gameboy. The Sims 2 Castaway. The Sims 3 on PC & PS3. SimCity 3,4,5(ew). I have never touched the mobile games & I never got to play TS3 Medeival :(

Propose a crazy scheme: Omg I know this is crazy but wouldn’t it be amazing if our Sims could own multiple homes, basically house flip & rent them out to other sims. Get that money, or let their children that are trying to move out, live in those homes. Or how crazy would it be if the roommate system wasn’t just from Discover University but was BASEGAME. DEAR LORD.

Best part of Simblr: Seeing the crazy talent & passion that simmers pour into this game. Seeing them tell awesome stories & sharing their amazing CC! Also seeing people form friendships over this game is pretty magical.

Worst part of Simblr: Seeing blog who put so much effort & work into their posts & blogs and seeing no one appreciate it. Also the bitches behind anon leaving hateful messages.

What other games you play: Stardew Valley, Skyrim, The Elder Scrolls Online, Minecraft, Pokemon, The Legend of Zelda, Cities Skylines, RDR2 & a lot more.

For the fun: Stardew Valley

For the thrills or for the need to kill assholes: RDR2 & Skyrim maybe some GTA5.

Are you single: VERY VERY lol

I tag: @himbosims @katmk36 @gremlinsims @geeky-simz @thatonebrobo @invisisim @kalissimsblog @quinnterestingsims @nougat-sims & at anyone else who wants to participate!❤️ if I missed you I’m sorry but please participate!