#thoughts on HS1 and HS2

[sleepapparition]

I just thought about how Malbonte can literally hear Vicky’s thoughts, while replaying HS2; so like if you decide to romance other characters does that mean he can hear it? Like especially that scene where Astaroth & Vicky were eyef***ing each other with the Horsemen, Malbonte & the order standing there. Could he hear that internal dialogue? Now I’m so curious but it also makes me wanna replay on someone else’s route less lmao. I don’t know if I wanna add to his trauma 😩

Like he said at the first ball that he did it just that one time but we clearly know if we continue his route that that was not the only time. Plus I feel like either in HS1 or the beginning of the second book that that were moments prior where it seemed like he was almost reacting off her thoughts. He just didn’t make it quite so obvious then.

I don’t know if I have the courage but I think imma at least try the Astaroth scene on my playthrough lmao

[ultimatebottom69]

Why do you like HS more than HSR? That's pretty interesting knowing most rc players dont really like Vicky and the story. And what do you think about Vicky and Lane as a MC? Which one do you like better and why? I saw the majority of readers liking Lane more because how smart and introspective she is, meanwhile you think she's no different than Vicky. Why?

Yeah I like HS more. I didn't know most players prefered Lane from Vicky tbh. Not many people like Vicky to start with due to her stupidity (That I find funny) so I just assumed the ratio was rather equal. As an MC i prefer Selena from Arcanum over these two.

I like Vicky simply because she makes me laugh. I don't want a relatable MC. This gal is not relatable at all in any capacity. I mean I don't wear dresses. I just like to see her reactions to every problem is just the worse solution everytime. Girl got an Art degree and is saving the multiverse people this is absolutely hilarious.

Lane and her both got the depression squad on lock (HS2 Vicky I mean on Composure path) , both are fashionnistas and both are kind of the choosen ones which is normal they are MC's. Lane monologue really brings the story alive in HSR because without it. Well...Yeah. Vicky has barley any thoughts but that's because HS1 and HS2 are dialogue focused instead of storytelling through the MC's eyes.

Vicky gets chased by every men for no reason ? Well sorry to burst some bubbles but Lane does get chased by every man in the story too. It's a romance story. It is super evident when you don't interact with Cain and Dmitry you talk to them almost 24/7 even if you try to have an hostile relationship meanwhile i gotta fight to even talk to Anna and Mimi respectively.

But again i am an F/F player so the personality of both MC's aren't even as horny as everyone complaining about. Feels chill which doesn't bother me as an asexual gal.

Vicky starts to be clingy towards Mimi in HS2, which is reciprocated. They genuinely feel like a couple going through some real bullshit together, in HS1 friends with benefits who slowly realises they are gay for each others. (My shock is how chill Vicky is with Mimi's former crush on Lucifer and how it's never adressed again. 10/10) Bisexual representation babyyyyy. The Bar was in sub-hell and we flew above.

And for HSR the romance route with Anna does not feel like a romance at all since Lane keeps going on and on on her lack of understanding to her attraction to women. Which kills me because bitch it's season 2.

Meanwhile Vicky got over it...fast as fuck. Like so fast it is a tad incredible. No internalized homophobia or anything girl went "I guess I love her."

The true problem with HSR is not only the female LI is sidelined which is fine by the way i am used to it. But I am not getting attached to any of the characters at all despite trying. Yeah Noah is cool but. He had 2 interactions with Lane, 3 actually. After 2 seasons. Kira except for her stabbing attempt do not talk at all to Lane unless you initiate the contact and even that it's super short. The Tatoo guy says his backstories and that's it. Greg. Is Greg. Cain is...Mysterious but in a "I hate talking to people" way not in a sexy way or entertaining. I don't get what the fuck he is doing 3/4 of the time except his job. Pigeon. And the angel gal are just here for plot exposure. Dmitry gets very boring very quickly if it's friendship. The story lacks "interactions"

In HS. Even if you don't interact with the characters, they talk to each others. A lot. I can tell you right now the statut of each and every relationship in HS. Yes even Austie and Leelo. The two bitches we saw like 5 times total I can tell you, Austie is "friends" with Mimi, Sex Friends with Lucifer, Ennemy of Vicky (one-sided as fuck) , Ennemy of Rebecca, Situationship with her dad.

Leelo, Favorite student of Fencio, Crush on Dino (One sided), Ennemy of Vicky (One sided). I think she has the worse relationships with her parents due to her speech beforr her death.

And mind you I didn't care about Leelo at all but I managed to analyze with the dialogues where she stood in the story.

Now let's do that with HSR. Shall we ?

Kira, Relationships : Noah colleague (No interaction), Pileon Suspecious Colleague, Anthea (No interaction) , Tatoo Guy (3 interactions) Colleague, Cain (No interaction), Dmitry Chef of the squad Absolutely a crush. Greg (No interaction) Colleague, Anna Colleague/Friend, Lane Colleague/Ennemy (one sided, Lane's monologue is not very clear about her stand ?)

See this shit ? This is a character that was introduced in episode 1. How comes ?? I could do the whole squad but this is how it looks mostly. Anna is the only one with friendly interactions and Lane is the one most hated generally.

So yes. HS is better then HSR. For that regard 100%. Now the plot points can be argued and talked upon, but for these regard I am not hearing anyone out.

[dingodad]

bouncing off that last ask, any thoughts on rose's aliens? squiddles or otherwise

all the secrecy and ambiguity is working on me bc the only thing i'm confident about wrt rose's aliens is that i have no idea that they're going to be. i can't fall in with the "she's gunna make the squiddles/horrorterrors, it's all gunna be one big time loop!" crowd bc that's very clearly what they WANT us to think.

one the one hand, using hs2 to tie back into a mysterious and deliberately-unexplored element of the original homestuck would be totally contrary to the theme of breaking cycles which was central to homestuck's ending, not to mention just totally uninspired... on the other hand, using an uninspired twist to make hs2 essential to hs1 is exactly the kind of thing dirk would plan for in his obsession with the good old days, and it would be really interesting to see him try and fail to do that in a kind of subversion of the 'trying to go back and change time but simply causing the original events to happen anyway' cliche. it largely depends on what rose's intentions are - since we know very little of what her end goal here is, beyond simply bonding with her absent father - and how willing she actually is to go along with dirk's reactionary masturbations. (part of me is entertaining the idea that the squiddle red herring is distracting us from the fact that it's dirk's horsepeople who will go on to become the horrorterrors, since there's a kind of unspoken relationship between musclebeasts and horrorterrors in hs.)

even if rose's aliens do go down the expected cephalopod route, i'm not sure if i should expect them to match dirk's aliens and just be people with squid biology, or if i should expect them to contrast the satyrs and be more monstrous Old One-type creatures. again, depends on if rose is following dirk's "let's do homestuck again" philosophy or if we should expect her species to align more with her own storytelling interests; in which case, something complacency of the learned-inspired, i guess?

[for-king-and-cordonia]

My thoughts so far on HS2 LI routes

Andy/Loy: uhhh yeah..... These 2 are by far the worst obviously. Absolutely terrible to kill them off and then let Vicky just forget about them? No. It's why it took me so long to try the other routes in HS2, I couldn't get over how Alisa killed off Andy in my first playthrough.

Dino: I think most of his route makes sense. His character is the most consistent with HS1, although he appears weaker at times. But this can be forgiven because of the whole situation. At the start he's obviously super conflicted, he tries to take care of Vicky and his relationship has a nice build-up. The family time, while awkward obviously with Fencio, makes sense. The suicide scene makes sense with how he reacts to Vicky stabbing herself. The wedding is obviously something he's been working towards in his head for ages and it fits their relationship.

Lucifer: honestly..... I hate to say this but HS2 made me hate Luci? To me he was second-best in HS1, so to now suddenly hate him is a big step. He lays it on too thick in the beginning with Plague, but he does come around eventually. The family time is weird but still not completely bizarre. The time in hell was super weird. This is where his character as I understood it was completely assassinated. The suicide scene is fine. The wedding came out of nowhere to be honest, and it felt super forced how lovey-dovey he was suddenly being.

Malbonte: I think the beginning was very rough. But at some point he suddenly goes from 0 to 60, and it's left me with whiplash. Vicky makes ZERO SENSE in his route. Like why has she never figured out that after wanting to kill one god, he'll obviously also want to kill the other?? After 10 years sleeping together and waking up together? Like wtffff. The family time can go die in a fire, it was that terrible and weird. I hate Rebecca on Malbonte's route even more than I already do! The suicide scene makes ZERO sense, again.... Why the fuck is Malbonte suddenly powerless? It was like the suicide scene had to happen so everyone was forced into it whether they fit or not. How did he think it was going to work out to have all of them die and.... Not defeat Shephamalum? I mean who would be left to do it? So bizarre. I don't even want to acknowledge the build-up to the wedding, like wtf?? Suddenly Malbonte is some lovey-dovey doting husband and partner? Whattttt? I just don't even think they're the same character anymore! The wedding however made up for it, that was pretty good.

Astaroth: was he one of the added LIs? Holy retcon.... Still it was an enjoyable route and with proper fleshed out scenes it could have been amazing. Wasted on this book tbh. The family time was pretty sweet with Christopher there but Rebecca is insufferable... The suicide scene was nice and angsty. The wedding was lovely, and I loved that the wedding speech was given by Christopher and we didn't have to listen to that witch again.

Hunger: actually such a wholesome route... If Malbonte hadn't improved so drastically, I would be tempted to choose him as my favourite. The family time was absolutely horrendous like wtf, but at least it made some sense... The suicide scene made some sense too, since Hunger was apparently not aware of what was going to happen. The wedding was weird AF but loved Hunger's reaction to everything.

War: sorry I despise his cardboard character and his sprite is super ugly to me so.... Won't be playing his route. 😬

Mimi: I actually despise what HS2 did with her. What happened to my sassy strong snarky Mimi?? 😢

[dutifullynuttywitch]

Uhhh, your opinion about this?? CG looks great

I like Winchesto, he's so fatherly and loving to MC. He never deserved to die or get executed. Is it true then, that in their school years there was something between Winchesto & Rebecca?

I adore this man and his relationship with Rebecca. I want to explore it more in my HS2 rewrite - if I can ever finish the HS1 😅😂

I think they grew close when she was at the academy and he was a visiting lecturer. They may have kissed a few times, but never crossed the line, both being too ambitious, driven to risk defying the Rules of Heaven and Hell...

Another tidbit from my fic!

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“What do you intend to do?”

Rebecca glances at Winchesto the moment that arrogant boy has left the dungeon, no longer bothering to hide her worry. He steps closer to the Seraph, his gloved fingers softly tracing her cheek. He sighs.

“Escaping this place seems futile. Where would I go?  It would only confirm their belief in our guilt. But if Satan has indeed ceased negotiating in good faith, my options are severely limited.”

“Lucifer could be wrong. Satan has never trusted him. What would he know of his father’s true intentions?”

“The boy is impulsive, true, and often clashes with his father. But I know Satan well. If he feels cornered, he will go to great lengths to maintain his grip on power. He wouldn’t think twice about signing my death warrant. Unless…”

Winchesto steps in close to Rebecca, their noses nearly touching.

The air between them crackles with tension.

They lean into each other, lips almost meeting, but never quite closing the gap. The demon holds back out of respect for the woman he’s loved for decades, while Rebecca restrains herself out of a lingering sense of propriety and righteousness. As if she could still reclaim the respect of her peers, somehow.

“Unless you can convince the Seraphs to revisit my sentencing.”

He whispers, hot breath tickling her cheeks, her lips. Titillating, tempting her.

“You know I can’t. I lost that authority the moment we gave into our impulses. That damned curse…”

“You underestimate the power you wield still, darling. Please, will you not try for me?”

Rebecca closes her eyes and steps away from his warmth.

Feeling the anger rise, insidious, like bile coming up her throat.

Her pride wounded deeply by the betrayal she had not seen coming.

Still, she ignores who the culprit is. There are many within her peers who disdain her human origins. Who believe she was undeserving of the title and power bestowed upon her. That which she had worked for ruthlessly all these years.

Once a revered Seraph, she now finds herself imprisoned, stripped of her title and dignity.

The humiliation of being outmaneuvered by those she considers beneath her intelligence gnaws at her. She had always been the one in control, the one who manipulated others, bent them to her will. The thought of her peers looking down on her with pity, contempt, fuels her rage.

She will reclaim her position and make those who had wronged her pay dearly. But Rebecca must bide her time. Wait for the perfect moment, a weakness in her enemies’ defenses.

And she certainly can’t plead for leniency on Winchesto’s behalf.

Not only would he receive none, but her standing among her peers would plummet even further.

Winchesto’s gaze hardens.

“Rebecca, I’ve always known you were an ambitious woman. It’s one of the reasons I fell for you. But truly, will you let your pride jeopardize my life?”

She whirls on him, furious.

“Don’t you dare be naïve, Winchesto. The Seraphs have nothing to gain from releasing you. If Satan chooses to pursue his foolish plan, Heaven’s army will prevail over his divided, rebellious factions, and the Council will use this as an excuse to fully control Hell.”

“You have been attempting to subjugate us for centuries, Seraph. No matter your devious plans, we will never fall!”

Winchesto bellows those final words, cold fury and a sense of hopelessness surging through him.

Rebecca jolts at his tone. Then sighs, running a hand through her dirt-streaked hair. No matter how hard she’d fought her feelings, hardened her heart over the decades since she entered this harsh, violent world, Rebecca still cared for this man. Sentenced to death by her own faction.

And there was nothing she could do about it.

She steps forward, cupping his chin gently as she murmurs.

“You must try to escape. Please.”

He sighs and rests his forehead on hers, breathing her in. That familiar scent, hydrangea, with a hint of steel. Feminine, strong. Unbendable.

“I will try, my darling Rebecca.”

[interactivefictionramblings]

[HS1, HS2 and HSR spoilers.]

Soo, I’m not the only one thinking Fate may be revealed as a character, am I? Fate decided on Vicky’s life, and someone told her to struggle, fight and live after pulling her into the Mother’s sphere, which obviously wasn’t Mother herself; she hadn’t wanted their world to fight or live.

There’s also been weird moments in HS1, like when Vicky sort-of sensed Sammy’s death, as she was nearing the crowd around his body.

(Most of the screenshots is this post are LQ, since I had to get them from YouTube.)

It kinda seems like she’s connected to Fate—that’s why she’s involved in everything. Sepha says, in the vision you get on the angel path, that Fate decided to give Vicky a power she doesn’t deserve, not him. Which means Fate can decide and manipulate things without Sepha being able to intervene (he didn’t want her to have Mal’s power, or be in the position to determine the future of his children). NTM how Vicky has the perfect abilities for each issue - Mal, the Mother, depowering Sephamalum.

Oh, and the visions. The dreams were from Mal - I know - but Lucifer explained a whole thing about when significant events are nearing, with a lot of energy, some people get visions of it. If the visions were only from Mal, why put this in the story at all? Things in the HSverse just tie together too neatly, and I don’t mean because of Sephamalum. Oh yeah, and there was also a quote in the wedding episode: Fate had taken pity and was allowing me at least this brief moment of happiness.

Like, there keeps being lines mentioning Fate - Fate placed me among the strongest and wisest. HS2 S1E1.

And then there’s everything with the Book and Lane. It always ends up with her, and even her notes, after it was stolen, washed up to the oil platform in her white backpack, instead of the water whisking it away. Even though her bag had been in her cabin when the ship sunk. And the platform splits in two right when the squad needs it, separating them from the fire and all the remaining marauders, leaving them alone on the part which held the hidden last lifeboat.

(Again: the first three are LQ, from YouTube.)

Idk, maybe it is a stretch, but Fate feels oddly relevant for an entity that doesn’t exist…

And it’s already been revealed there was a second Creator (Sephamalum), then one more after him (the Mother). Why not Fate, too? Like. Sepha is dead. So who else is guiding events?

It’s just a thought that doesn’t leave me alone.

[ivomartins]

helloo omg it's vivi i just noticed that you answered the asks (while scrolling through hsr tag i need the update so bad i can't live like this)

dogging on hs is a full time job and we're employees of the month 🤞 ntm on hs tho bc i will end up playing hs3 if it's ever released bc i need to see my li happy.

im new to rc so i can't say much about the writers but i think what you said does make a lot of sense. when new characters were introduced in hs2 it had the same tone as hs1. i would say there was a slight improvement bc astaroth and hunger were 10x more interesting than hs1 characters but the dialogue and their way of speaking was the same as hs1. like how do you pride yourself on being soo much better than mortals and speak exactly like them? why are you, as lucifer, speaking like a frat boy? make it make sense.

anyway, as opposed to hs, the immortals are actually different from mortals. lane noticing the lack of human warmth and emotions on cains face, despite how serene and aristocratic he looks right off the bat immediately showed us that they're not easily understood and they operate differently than humans. and the dialogue flows so much more naturally in hsr and different characters have their own distinguished way of speaking. (interesting that cain sometimes speaks so formally like during the church scene, but at other times uses mortal slang. just how long has he been roaming around earth?)

tbh now that ive analyzed the flying scene, he does seem somewhat sincere and like you said, they're both only looking out for themselves so they have a sense of kinship. (also love that lane is so unbothered about saving humanity or whatever and specifically said shes only going to translate what she needs... im obsessed with her)

but is it insane of me to hope that he's just being nice for the sake of using her? ive been ranting to everyone who would listen about how much i adore the church scene, it was the exact balance of unsettling and sensual, psychedelic and dreamlike. it had so much tension and i loved how cain was portrayed in it. but he's being suspiciously sweet and protective of her, cute, but i miss the tension 😭 he and lane are some of the most interesting characters ive seen in a while and id hate for them to lose everything that makes them unique to a generic romance so early.

what about your theories on how they could've known each other earlier? and what do you think about cain's past?

not this entire ass essay 😭 i love a good religious horror media what can i say. since ur just as obsessed w hsr as i am it's fun talking to you but this is a lot to think ab and reply to pls take ur time 😭💓

(ps to answer what you asked about choices, i haven't touched it since i got back into rc 🤞)

we truly are the pioneers of hs shit talk and i love this for us <3

i chuckled at your comment about lucifer talking like a frat boy because why is that so fucking true 😭

it really is just in the book's nature i think because if you look at the massive growth of alice's writing between hs1 and hs2, it's wild how the writing for hs2 still isn't that much better except in certain areas (hunger is masterfully written, for example, and the emo vibe was captured pretty well too since alice is an angst grandmaster)

like heaven's secret is simply, intrinsically, a haphazard low-quality story - because that was the foundation in hs1 and so it's only natural hs2 and hs3 will be the same. and i'm not hating on it when i say that because i definitely get why some people love it but as someone who's a bit of a snob and doesn't like harry potter vibe stories, it's just not for me

i'm living for your thoughts and analysis of hs:r though omg i didn't catch on to cain's manner of speech swinging between formal and informal, that's so interesting?? but YES overall i'm also hoping that we'll get more of the intensity we got with the church scene and that the dark undertone to their dynamic will prove to be an actual Theme and not just a one-off thing. i would actually GRIEVE if cain's route devolved into basic lovey dovey shit 😭

have you checked out dmitry's scenes? what did you think of them? 👀

when it comes to cain's past and his history with lane, i... have no clue tbh like that's just how good the suspense is. generally i'm expecting cain to be somehow tied to the event/entity/power that caused lane's memory gap because her dreams are clearly very significant and she dreams of him at the start of the book + that could be the reason why she got so woozy in the church scene instead of him seducing her with his power, because of whatever tie that binds them through that. but we know so little about him and his motivations that it's hard for me to theorize anything about his past. i adore pre-established dynamics though so i honestly think we're in for some juicy shit regardless of our theories. i can't wait!!!

shut up i lived for your essay and gave you one of my own pls 😭♥️ you're totally good!! i'm having just as much fun chatting with you angel <3

i haven't touched choices since the nanny affair 😭 though i do miss the good OG books sometimes ngl like open heart s1 remains ICONIC and forever in my heart and also the werewolf book uhh i forgot its name but it was sooo goood. there's not even a comparison with rc though whew it was such a huge upgrade for me especially since i started off with arcanum of all books - truly could not put it down

[soul-spices]

"What if I want to experience this with you?" I don't think I'll ever get over this. My cold, frozen heart just melted. I haven't loved a LI like this since Loki.

I have to praise the author, I just adore how... "Alien" he feels whenever he's present. Quick, someone give her an oscar or sth.

I originally thought a sequel to HS1 was a bad idea with a poor storyline, but the author just proved me wrong. HS2 just kept getting better and better despite its terrible S1 start.

Hunger is now in my top rc lis ;). He's intriguing as a character, and incredibly wonderful as a li. And God, yes! The alien aspect of him is pure delight to me too. It's an element that is so well executed with Hunger!

Anon, if you're ever interested in reading more about this character archetype (stoic and emotionless God, with a slight mischievous yet highly cunning side, who also supports and respects the fmc for her aptitudes and company), I highly rec you check out these books for their respective pairings:

Cassiopeia and Hun-Kamè from Gods of Jade and Shadow by Silvia Moreno-Garcia:

Yeine and Nahadoth from The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms by N. K. Jemisin

(art by Liam W.)

I can def see traits from these two in our dear Hunger :>

[plenaurum]

Played HS2. Here’s my thoughts:

It was fun to play through. Very interesting and engaging. I was always at the edge of my seat.

The new LIs are fun. Love Hunger and War.

HOWEVER:

It seems like HS2 took away all of the development in HS1 and just did away with it just to repeat Vicky’s character development. If she’s been a councillor (she ended up being a councillor on my playthrough) for 10 years, why doesn’t it seem like it? Why is she still so rash? Why is she still acting like the same 21 year old girl she was before?

Same with Lucifer.

It also irritated me how weak she was without Malbonte’s power. Why didn’t she know how to fight before hand? Why didn’t she know how to draw on her immortal strength beforehand? Why did she have to relearn how to do it? And you can say it’s because she was relying on the power she had from Malbonte, BUT MY THING IS: SHE SHOULD’VE LEARNED HOW TO BY NOW! She holds one of the highest ranking positions in Heaven and you mean to tell me that she didn’t think about the possibility of Malbonte’s power leaving her body? She didn’t think to train more? Are you kidding me?

[berlinini]

I haven’t thought about Harry since he attended a film festival and he spit on Chris Pine and the internet erupted! But since Larrie’s are bringing up the topic, pls remember the for HS2, Sony spent $40 million to promote him. God only knows what did HS1 & HS3 cost. Louis being Louis and achieving success against all odds is beautiful. Harries will literally pay $10 for a water at MSG and mock Louis for affordable ticket prices while he gives away water. Is that self hatred????

omg spitgate.... what a time! I will always look back on the fall of 2022 with fondness.

[timecatcherstarchaser]

the thing about me is im a slow reader

and the episodes in recent stories are getting longer and longer

so i raaarely run out of tickets these days

so when there was that tea party day last week i thought 'i know, ill finish my hs1 replay. those episodes are short as fuck and im only skimmin em anyway'

and that is why im blogging about hs2 rn

[alarrytale]

Do you think Harry's team didn't foresee him getting queerbaiting accusations? Did they really think he would be untouchable forever? That he wouldn't get any backlash from pushing a straight and gay image? Did they just bury their heads in the sand or do they just not care because it keeps people talking about him? The queerbaiting backlash has been brewing for a while, probably since HS1 when he talked about not wanting to label himself. Then HS2 and the vogue photoshoot it picked up more and then HS3 people had enough. The 3rd interview with him being ambiguous about his sexuality and it was getting repetitive. Do you think it was all planned out, that they didn't mind the backlash because it made him more famous?

Hi, anon!

I don't think the conservative old big wigs that planned all this out thought that the queer community would find their voice and become opinion leaders. I also don't think they expected #metoo and cancel culture. So no, i don't think they saw the queerbaiting accusations coming, and if they did, i don't think they knew how prevelant and how reputation damaging it would be for H. We still don't know if it really is that damaging when it comes to the bottom line, but it is creating a chasm between H and his community.

Since H did address the queerbaiting accusations, i think either the big wigs or H himself actually cares about it. They weren't successful in stopping it, they exacerbaited it which i don't think was the intention. Going forward, either they'll ignore it and see what happens, or they'll have to address it again in a way that put the accusations to rest. They can't afford to fumble again.

[cuethetommo]

(1/2) // Year-end questions about HS1 // A. When you first heard the full album back in May, what were your favorite and least favorite tracks? B. Now what are they? C. What are your favorite and least favorite that Harry has performed in concert? D. What do you think the second album will have in common with the first? E. And what do you think the biggest sonic difference will be? F. You could make a request for HS2 what would it be? (I'm asking a handful of blogs, hope you don't mind that.)

(2/2) // My answers would be A. Ftdt & Woman (Ftdt was such a revelation because I didn't know that hushed quiet tone and introspective emotion existed with him). B. SoTT & Carolina C. Kiwi & Carolina (Yeah, The narrative and his lack of joy killed Carolina for me. D. More rock E. album will record with dirty blues, twanginess, so far that's only been live. F. Do I want more commercial & radio appeal ... I don't know ?

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Oh, these are fun. I’m totally down for being one of many in your survey so, here goes:

A. When you first heard the full album back in May, what were your favorite and least favorite tracks? 

My favs before I saw them performed were From the Dining Table and Sweet Creature (I think, but that time is a BLUR). Least fav has always been Carolina.

B. Now what are they? 

Kiwi and From the Dining Table are my favs. Kiwi became a fav after seeing Harry perform it at the Troubadour.

C. What are your favorite and least favorite that Harry has performed in concert? 

Love love love Kiwi. I also love the way Ever Since New York opens the show. ESNY is much more upbeat live and on the album it feels much more melancholy. Both are good, just depends on my mood. I despise Carolina live. Never loved it, don’t like it live.

D. What do you think the second album will have in common with the first? 

I have no idea. It depends on when we get it. If it’s basically the other tracks that they recorded at the same time, I’d imagine it’ll sound similar. My DREAM is that he records with CHASM for the second one. But we’ll see.

E. And what do you think the biggest sonic difference will be? 

This is not my area of expertise. So I actually have no idea.

F. You could make a request for HS2 what would it be?

Less questionable lyrics and relying on dumb tropes of women. 

So, this isn’t a thing that’s going around, but I feel like it should. I’d love to hear other people’s answers to the same questions. So I’m going to tag @horsegirlharry @silverfoxlouis @metal-eye @iampackratseemehoard @seasurfacefullofclouds @old1ddude @dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram @afirethatcannotdie @verily-i-say @conscious--ramblings @itwilltoteshappen 

[harryibo]

Assistant!y/n x Harry

Note:....ummm...hi, sooo, here’s a little piece of something I’ve been working on. It doesn’t have a name yet but, hypothetically, if I were to finish it..would anyone be interested in this??👀👀

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Y/ns been running around all day trying to get things ready for tonight. Tonight was very important and everything had to be perfect. She’s spent half of her day on the rooftop of one of Harry’s favorite fancy clubs in LA, where the party is going to be. She’s been setting up tables and making sure there was enough drinks and food for every one that RSVPed. Tonight they were celebrating the end of love on tour. Celebrating the end of the fine line era really. He’s worked so hard writing, recording and then touring. She’d be lying if she said she wasn’t proud of him.

Now though, she can’t think about that, she needs to focus so she can finish up and head home to get ready for tonight. Just as she’s going over the last few things with the staff of the club, Harry walks in. “Hey!” Y/n says when she notices him “What are you doing here? You’re Supposed to be getting ready for tonight!” “I could ask ya the same thing! I thought I told ya no workin’ tonigh’” he replies. “Hmm, no rest for the wicked I guess” y/n jokes.

“Anyways, what are you doing here??” “Came to drop some things off ’or tonight, but I was serious! No workin’ tonight! Go home! Get ready! You’re not my assistant tonigh’ you're a Guest, and guests aren’t to arrive for a few more hours.” Harry replied

“I know, I know, I’m sorry! I just want to make sure everything is perfect for tonight! You’ve worked hard.”

“n’ i’m sure it will be, you’ve worked just as hard as me love, if anythin’, tonigh’ is a celebration of you to, couldn'ta done it with out ya”

“Don’t say that” y/n says, rolling her eyes “I just follow your orders” she fake smiles at him

He copies her previous movement, rolling his own eyes “go home Before I have to call security on ya, I’ll see you tonigh’ love.”

[interactivefictionramblings]

I don’t know why it felt so needed that I write this post out, but the desire to do it has been haunting me for awhile now, so I’m gonna do it.

TWs for, uh, heavily relating to Lane. No, really. I’m going to ramble about why I relate to her.

Hm. Okay so, when I first started HSR, I did not believe I was gonna like it. No offense to fans of the HS stories, but I had to fight to get through every chapter of HS1. I think it mostly had to do with not being able to connect with the MC…

Anyway. I had been avoiding getting the 30 💎 from the first episode of HSR until the updates were like, heading toward the second of S2? I’d heard of Cain but never remembered his name. I did not remember what he looked like, etc etc.

But the update was getting closer (iirc), and I’d been unable to collect 💎 for awhile, so I went, okay, enough, I might as well play the one ep.

Getting suddenly dropped into the story with no idea what was going on didn’t seem weird to me. Either it made sense coming off HS2 or it didn’t, and that…made sense as well. It didn’t matter. I saw Cain for maybe the dozenth time and went, ah, so that’s who I keep hearing of.

It was all very mild. I only wasn’t skipping all of the text because I had nothing else to do, and I was feeling restlessly bored that day, so I read.

I didn’t think I would keep reading for long, tbh.

But then, then came the scene Lane wakes up.

That was when I became obsessed with her.

I’ve mentioned this on so many side-blogs, but I can’t remember if I’ve done so here as-of-yet. I’ve been dealing with depression almost all of my life. Genuinely. I remember being 3 1/2 and waking up after my first surgery and feeling so empty—again, and that was the first time I’d understood, grasped, that something was not okay with me. I was back to feeling this way, it was familiar, but I realized this thing that came and went was not something I saw anyone else show. I could feel in my body how upset I was, I hadn’t wanted the surgery - but of course, that didn’t matter; no-one would’ve thought to care about my feelings in this situation; I was just meant to be compliant, invisible, and just. deal.

I was very skilled at erasing my presence by that point, although it was especially easy in the way that I didn’t speak. I was autistic, not that anybody knew that. Or would’ve cared. I mean, they knew I was dyslexic, and ignored it.

When I played that scene, it completely hooked into me. It was like the writing swung a fishing hook of some kind, and it’s curved needle dug straight into my heart inside my chest, taking the air from my body, and creating a tugging in my organ demanding I acknowledge this pull.

In simpler words: it was deeply relatable.

I was still hesitant to spend 💎 on the story, of course, since I was reading it to save up, but I also knew I would probably be spending all my Tea Cups on this story if the writing stayed like this, so I made a plan to replay once the last Diamond Rush before the next update came.

So, I skipped Cain’s first 💎 scene. And then all the other 💎 options, until DR started—but by then I didn’t want to restart, I wanted to keep reading the episodes I hadn’t read yet. Once I was getting closer to the end of season one, I forced myself back on track and did restart. As I’ve rambled about in the tags of a recent post of mine, though, I read Cain’s 💎 scenes out-of-order. Ironically, it is only because of this I became interested in his romance route - I’m uncomfortable playing highly sexual or the like romance stories, being that I’m ace (aspec, but whatever). If I’d taken Cain’s church 💎 scene before the ones I did take first, I never would’ve played his romance route at all. Hence: ironic.

I took his flight scene first, and then the one after, and that’s what made me start to think about maybe trying his route. Tbh it’s rare I’m physically into a LI before starting their route; maybe they’ll be pretty to me, but that’s it. He seemed aesthetically pleasing by conventional standards, but he wasn’t my type. His dynamic with Lane and his unexpected caring side was far more attractive to me than, like, his jawline.

I hadn’t even considered romancing him prior to that—I thought I was probably on his friend route, although I vaguely recalled seeing posts about how hard it was to do so with LIs in HSR, so I wasn’t sure. Yeah, no, I wasn’t on it, lol.

By the time I got to S2E1, I didn’t know how, but I had gotten on Greg’s romance route with no 💎 options (it’s because I took the first free relationship improvement with him on a M-LI playthrough. Ridiculous). I had only realized as I finally had to stop playing that night that I’d gotten a jealousy scene with two LIs I hadn’t been trying to romance, and I nearly restarted the story to try everything again. But. I wasn’t yet sold on romancing Cain - season 2 LIs do, of course, appear, so. I was intrigued by Cain & Lane’s whole Thing, but, I wasn’t sure how red of a flag he was gonna be, and the DR had just ended. Did I want to spend my own 💎 on him? That was the conflict I was having. So I kept playing a little longer. I read the train episode but didn’t get the feather scene, and it really bothered me, I couldn’t just keep playing, so I realized I was gonna have to do his route, lol.

I restarted the story. I was very careful to only choose Cain’s improvements of the M-LI. The church 💎 scene was not uncomfortable to me since I’d basically experienced his route in like, a kind of reverse, lol. For me, all the emotional connections came first, then there was sexual tension (with the rooftop 💎 scene first, so). I thought this scene was both weird yet fit them. It was much harder to accept it came so early on, though, lol. I definitely would’ve dropped it.

ANYWAY. This was supposed to be about Lane.

(But, really, do you expect my brain to say Lane and not echo Cain? This should be expected.)

Reading season 1, I noticed multiple instances of Lane finding sensory input upsetting, and it resonated with me, being that I’m autistic. The more I read, the more I loved her character. Did I feel like we were getting much answers as the story went on? Not really. Did I care? Not really.

All I was thinking about was wanting to keep reading scenes with Lane. Specifically, VoG!Lane struggling with echoes of Compassion.

As a hyper-empathetic autist with depression, this Lane was the Perfect representation that I’d never, ever believed I would live to have. All my life, I’d struggled to socialize as others did, so I obsessively analyzed people to learn some kind of formula, based on patterns, to properly—normally, or rather as close as I was aware I would ever get—interact with people. Animals were easier, especially cats: their body cues, in comparison to people, were obvious. Easy. It came far more naturally (so I often opted out of speaking, just making cat noises instinctively).

Growing up in an abusive environment, very stringently regulating my interactions with people to ‘be normal,’ cycling from empathic to a self-sacrificial extreme and then apathy and hopelessness, and being moral purely on quiet internal beliefs and habit - arguably, ‘faking compassion,’ as I was acting out who I was, when I couldn’t live it - it made me think I’d never feel genuinely represented. Then, I did.

And I could go on and on and on and on. Even bring screenshots into this. But this is long, so.

HSR’s story is dragging but whatever. Cain is not my LI but I ship him with Lane. Am I really invested in HSR? Not exactly. I’m invested in Lane’s story on Voice of God+Humanity path. For me, the CainLane romance is more of an…enhancement, to that story. The plot is second and matters as far as it interacts with her fate—this Lane, specifically. That’s what pulls me in.

I want her story.

She is ‘creepily’ analytical. It’s impossible for her not to see people and interactions in terms of manipulation because she not only studied people to find a way to be in a world not made to welcome her, but because she was abused (ofc, I firmly see her as autistic; obviously). She dealt with being abducted to a secret military research facility by focusing on wanting to find a way to save the world with the Book, so much so she practically framed her thoughts on her abduction as though she’d volunteered (when she first thinks of her moving to Siberia Base, and why, that’s how it’s worded: “I moved away from my family to work at the base.” “I desperately wanted to believe that everything could still go back to the way it was before.” “That some kind of prophecy or encrypted message could solve the issues of the cataclysms.”). Her method of coping was utilizing her desire to help others, her deep compassion and empathy, to keep going on. That’s how she would endure. Endure endless days of repetition, capture, helplessness and loneliness. All of these things ‘represent’ me. There likely will never be another character I relate to like I relate to her. Which is why it’s pretty sad I don’t see much love for this Lane.

Although, tbh, it’s not like I thought I would. It’s just that I saw a lot of Lane fans before starting the story and it gave me a little hope—I hadn’t realized how different she is on each form of paths combination. It’s interesting, at least, although it’s a little difficult for me to care, lol, but that’s how I’ve been thinking of how it is for others, too. Liking other Lanes best, so maybe it’s hard to care about another version. Oh well.

I will just always love ‘original’ Lane most of all. It’s not the first time I feel ‘different to the rest of the world,’ even if it’s not really like that. Eh.

Ramble over! End of journal entry or whatever.

[atlafan]

Take it Slow - Part Three

a/n: okay this is my first shot at a harry:y/n fic, and it will be multiple parts. y/n had a bad experience with an ex over a year ago, and finally accepts her coworker and good friend Niall’s invitation to go on a blind date with his friend Harry. (Fluff and slight smut? If you squint? )

Part One Part Two

You woke up at eight-thirty so you could shower and get yourself ready for the day. You blow dried your hair and threw some curls in at the ends. You put on some light makeup, and then rummaged through your closest for something cute, but casual to wear for brunch. You decide on a pair of light, high wasted jeans and a black shirt to tuck into them. You grab your white toms and slip them on. Five after ten Harry texts you letting you know he’s downstairs.

He’s standing outside his car. He has a beanie on over his gorgeous hair, a few curls peeking through. Today he has a white t-shirt on with dark blue jeans. He looked heavenly. You could see more of his tattoos peeking through the white fabric. In the light of day you could tell he really did have a lot. Eagerly, you wrap your arms around his neck to give him a hug and a peck on the cheek. He wraps his arms around your waist and gives you a squeeze before letting you go.

“G’morning.” He smiles.

“Morning.” He opens the door for you, closes it, and gets in himself. “So, where are we going for brunch?”

“It’s called Rick’s, it’s really good. I like it because it actually has things I can eat.” He laughs. He starts driving towards the restaurant.

“What can a vegan eat for breakfast? I still eat eggs and stuff.”

“Typically, I’ll go for some fruit, potatoes, maybe even a slice of toast. I also eat beans.”

“That sounds good.”

“On any given day though I usually just make a smoothie.”

“I usually do a smoothie too.”

You pull up to the restaurant. He opens your door for you. He’s such a gentleman. When you enter he takes his beanie off and shakes his hair out. Respectful of the establishment too. It’s a seat yourself kind of place, so you find a booth in the back, and sit down.

A waiter comes over and pours you both some coffee and water, and tells you he’ll be back. You both look over the menu. You agree to split a bowl of fruit. You opt for some oatmeal. You don’t like how greasy omelets tend to be at place likes this. Harry orders beans on gluten-free toast. Your food is brought out pretty quickly. You didn’t realize how hungry you were until you took your first bite of oatmeal.

“Mm, this is perfectly made.”

“Oh good, I’m glad.” He smiles taking a spoon full beans. “So…”

“So?”

“After this I’ll take you to get your car. I’m sure you have things you need to do today, but I was wondering if you had plans tonight?”

“Just had a date with my TV, but I can cancel.” You laugh. “What did you have in mind?”

“Well, I was wondering if you’d like to come to my place. I’d like to cook for you.” Your jaw nearly drops.

“You cook?”

“Sure do. I worked in a bakery as a teenager back in the U.K.”

“Oh, cool. I’d love to do that. Can I bring anything?”

“Just yourself.” He winks.

“No really, I hate showing up empty handed.”

“How about you bring a dessert?”

“What can a vegan eat for dessert?”

“Dark chocolate, fruit?”

“I’ll think of something.”

“Perfect.”

You both continue to eat. He puts his beanie back on when you get outside. He drives you to your car at Pinz. He gets out to let you out.

“You don’t have to keep doing that.” You say, taking his hand to help you out.

“Sure I do, how would I get a proper hug goodbye in?” He says with a smirk on his face. He wraps his arms around you, and you reciprocate.

“Thank you again for breakfast.” You say into his ear, and give him a nice kiss on the cheek.

“You’re more than welcome.” He says looking at you. His lips press to yours, and you happily kiss him back. This time he breaks the kiss first. “Right, well we could be like this all day, so, um, I’ll see you tonight?”

“Yup, what time?” You ask getting into your car.

“Seven?”

“Works for me.”

You stop by the store on your way home. You grab some melting chocolate and some strawberries. When you get home you melt the chocolate and dip the strawberries in it, and pop them in the freezer. You also grabbed some red wine that would taste good with such a dessert. You take the remainder of the day to tidy up, work on some emails, and catch up on a TV show you were desperate to watch on Netflix.

Around five-thirty, you go into your room to look for something to wear. You wanted to look nice, so you decide on a dress. You pull out your navy blue dress that had the buttons down the front. The straps were thick, and it flowed around you down to the midpoint of your thighs. You put on a jean jacket, and slipped your white toms on. Harry texted you his address, and out the door you went with your dessert and wine.

You got to his place promptly at seven. He buzzed you in, and up you went. The door was opened a crack for you. You walked in and closed it behind you.

“Harry?”

“Over here, love.”

He had his back turned to you, as he was just straining some pasta in the sink. He had an apron tied around his waist. He had put a long sleeve button down shirt on, it was blue, not navy though, baby blue. He changed into an unripped pair of black jeans. When he turns around to look at you he rushes over to kiss you on the cheek and take the items out of your full arms.

“That can go in the freezer.” You say pointing to the strawberries. You take your jacket off, and scan his studio apartment.

He had it set up perfectly. The bed was at one end, up against the wall, but still room for someone to walk on both sides of it. In front of the bed was a couch, and in front of that was a coffee table, and a TV mounted to the wall. He had a bureau adjacent to the bed. There was a full bath down a hall way. Opposite the bedroom/living area was a pretty decent sized kitchen. He had a small cart that he used as an island. There was a table that fit four chairs around it. He had camera bags and a giant iMac and desk in the corner next to his bed. He clearly worked at home quite a bit.

“Harry, your place is lovely.” You say walking over to him.

“Thank you. You look beautiful by the way.” You kiss him on the cheek.

“So, what’s for dinner?”

“I made black bean pasta, and roasted some vegetables. I’m just making up the plates now.”

“It smells delicious.”

“Please, have a seat. I can open this wine up.”

“The wine will taste better with dessert.” You say sitting down at the table. He had lit two candles and you feel yourself melt a little. He’s romantic.

“Alright, I have some other wine that will go with this particular dish anyways.”

He brings a plate over to you. You notice he had drizzled some olive oil on top. It looked like something someone could get at a restaurant. He sits down adjacent to you, instead of across, much more intimate.

“This looks amazing, Harry, thank you.”

“Of course, I was happy to do it.” He takes out his phone, and you see him go into the Spotify app. He puts on some light music. You smile at him as you take a bite. You can’t help but moan at how delicious the food it.

“This is delicious!”

“I’m so glad you like it. Sometimes that pasta can be bland.” You love the way he says pasta. It sounds so different from the way you say it.

“S’not bland at all. Lots of flavor. And I love what you put on these veggies. Is that paprika?”

“Yes, and a little chili powder. I didn’t want to use too much because I didn’t know if you liked hot food.”

“Love it, I love spicy food. Hot wings used to be my favorite thing when I used to eat meat. Now I do buffalo cauliflower.”

“You make it yourself?”

“Yup.”

“I’d love to try that sometime.”

“Maybe next weekend I could make it for you.”

“You’d make me wait an entire week?” He asks playfully, shoveling some food into his mouth.

“Wednesday is usually my rest day from the gym, if that works for you.”

“Wednesday it is.” He smiles.

You couldn’t believe how often he already wanted to see you. Your second and third date, now technically fourth, were back to back. It was nice to feel wanted for a change. After you two finish eating, Harry insisted he didn’t want you to help clean up, but you insisted you did because he cooked. You decided on you wash, him dry.

“Care to have dessert over by the sofa?”

“Sure.”

You pad over to the couch, and sit down, crossing your legs at the ankle. You hear Harry pop the cork to the wine you brought. You watch as he takes the chocolate covered strawberries, and puts them on a serving plate. He brings two glasses, the wine, and the dessert over. He pours you each a glass of wine.

“Did you make these?” He asks, pointing to the strawberries.

“Sure did.” You take a sip of the sweet wine. “Here.” You pick one up and hold it in front of his mouth. You expect him to take it from you, but instead he just takes a bite. You feel goosebumps raise on your body. He licks his lips after and takes a sip of the wine.

“You were right, this wine is perfect for dessert. That’s a juicy strawberry.” He picks one up and smiles at you, gesturing for you to do the same as him. You nervously lean forward and take a small bite. The chocolate shell cracks off, and falls onto your dress.

“Oh, shit.” You pick it off and place it onto the napkins on the coffee table. “I guess I could’ve done that more gracefully.” You laugh.

“It’s easier if you bite up here.” He shows you where, eating the rest of the strawberry you just bit into. “Here, try again.” He holds up another for you, and you bite where he showed you, this time not making a mess. “Perfectly executed.” You both laugh.

You guzzle down two glasses of wine like it’s nothing. He does the same, but seems less intoxicated than you. The majority of the strawberries have been eaten. You can’t help but stare at the tattoo on his wrist. It’s an anchor, you reach of his hand and trace over it with your index finger.

“Can I look at the others? The ones on your arms?”

“Sure.” He shrugs his shoulders, stands up, and unbuttons his shirt. He reveals a white t-shirt, and places his button down on the bed. He sits back down and lets you examine him. “Some of them have meaning, and others were just for fun. Do you have any?”

“Oh, god no. Something Niall and I have in common, we’re afraid of needles.” You laugh.

“But your belly button is pierced.” He says raising an eyebrow at you. Your cheeks flush. “Sorry, I noticed it last night while we were playing one of the games.” He smiles nervously.

“It’s alright. Sometimes I forget it’s even there. I got it my first year at college. I got drunk with my friends, and I felt like rebelling against my parents, so I got the one piercing my mom told me I couldn’t have.”

“You’d think she would have told you not to get your nipples done or something.” He takes a sip of wine. Your eyes grow wide. “Sorry, does the word nipple bother you?” You feel your cheeks grow hot.

“Um, no. I just…” You look down at yourself. His eyes grow wide and his mouth falls open.

“Wait a second, so you won’t get a tattoo, but you’re telling me that not only do you have your naval pierced, but your nipples as well?”

“Yes.”

“Okay, I need to hear this story.”

“It was my junior year of college, and all of my friends and I got them done together. I was afraid, I knew it would hurt way more than this.” You point to your stomach. “So we did a bunch of shots and went down to the parlor. The second one hurt worse since I knew what to expect after the first one.”

“Why was that something your friends all wanted to do?”

“Because not everyone was willing to get a tattoo. I think it was the permanence. Piercings can always be taken out. It was sort of childish. I couldn’t wear a bra for over a week, which is not easy to do when you’re, well, chesty, and they burned so bad. They weren’t infected or anything, it was just like this weird sting. Eventually I got used to it, and now I barely remember they’re there.” You laugh, pouring yourself a third glass of wine. You figure you can always uber home if you need to. You top off Harry’s glass. “Don’t tell Niall though, he only knows about the naval.”

“I promise you, I will not mention your nipples to him.” You both laugh. He scoots a little closer to you. “Anything else on your body you’d like to tell me about?”

“Nope, I think that’s it.”

You’re feeling bold, and want him even closer to you. You put your hand on his forearm and rub it lightly back and forth. He takes his other hand and tucks some hair behind your hair.

“Come here.” He says, gesturing to have you scoot closer. He puts his hand on your lower back, and you press your hands to chest. Similar to how you were last night at your place.

He leans in, brushing his nose with yours. You kiss him first, and he pulls you in closer. He leans back against the arm of the couch, and your crawl into his lap, putting your legs on either side of him. You finally part your lips for him. He’s slow at first, sliding his tongue along your bottom lip. You let out a small moan at the motion. His tongue enters your mouth, and you lightly suck on it, causing him to moan into you. You feel him twitch beneath you. You’re practically hovering over him, but you still feel him shift. His hands move up your back, and pull you closer to his chest. Your hands go straight for his hair as he begins to plaster kisses to your jaw, and then to just under your earlobe. He nips and sucks at the skin.

“Oh, Jesus.” You whisper.

“Wrong name, love.” He says into your ear, nibbling on your earlobe.

You moan and press your hips down on to him. Not exactly grinding, but there’s no space between you anymore. Your hands tug at his hair as he bites down on the crook up your neck. It was sure to leave a bruise, but right now you didn’t care. Nothing some makeup up and a high enough shirt couldn’t cover up. He lifts his hips to press into you, and you roll on top of him. The vibration of his moan against your neck runs through your whole body. It makes your mind wander to where else his hot breath, nipping, and sucking would feel good. Your eyes burst open. You can’t think like that, not yet.

“Harry.” It comes out as a whimper, so keeps sucking on your neck, getting a good taste of you. You push back on his chest and grab his face in your hands. His pupils are fully blown, you imagine yours are as well. “I like what we’re doing, but our clothes have to stay on, all of them, okay?”

“Of course. Taking your dress off never even crossed my mind.” He smirks at you.

“Sure it didn’t.” You roll your eyes.

“In all seriousness, I want you to feel comfortable, so if I overstep, please don’t be afraid to tell me, okay? We can stop altogether now if you want.”

“I definitely don’t want that.” You kiss him quick. “I’m just not ready to, um…”

“You don’t have to explain yourself.” He smiles. “I’m happy to just make out.”

Your shoulders lower in relief. You kiss him again, this time sticking your tongue in his mouth. They mold together perfectly. You can taste the chocolate and the wine, and you’d be lying if you said it wasn’t delectable. You could really smell his cologne too, it was intoxicating. You just wanted to berry your face in him. One of his hands slides down to the top of your ass, and gives it gentle squeeze. You lift up a little so he can get a better grip on you. He puts his other hand on your cheek, and laces his fingers in your hair. You moan into his mouth as he starts to suck on your tongue.

You desperately wish you could squeeze your legs together to relieve the pressure that’s been building. You’re certain your panties are soaked at this point. He’s so hard for you, and you want to grind against him to help him relieve his pressure, but you don’t. You know if you start this, you’ll need to finish it. He took a break from your mouth and kissed down to the top of your chest. You knew your skin had to be pink from the alcohol alone. You move to kiss down his neck. You wanted to nip and suck on him the way he did you.

“Oh, fuck.” He says breathless the minute your teeth pinch down on him. He pulls you as close as he possibly can to him. Desperate to feel your breasts against his chest. You start to roll your hips on him, moving back and forth. Your body needs the friction. He grabs your waist to halt your motions. You stop to look at him. His chest is heaving. “If you keep doing this, I’m going to come in my trousers, and I’d rather not make things awkward between us.” He gives you a half smile. You start giggling and rest your forehead on his shoulder. He giggles along with you.

“Guess we should probably cool it for the night then, yeah?”

“I guess that would be the smart choice. I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable, but this couch has a pull out if you’d like to stay. I don’t want to send you in an uber home alone at this time of night, and I’m in no condition to drive.” What time is it anyways?

“That’s awfully sweet, but I’d rather go home. I don’t have a toothbrush or anything here.” You smile. “I know who I can call.”

You get off of Harry, careful not ogle at the strain in his pants. You find your phone and call Niall.

“He said he can be here in about fifteen minutes.”

“Sounds good.”

You help Harry clean up the dessert and wine glasses. He gives you some water, and you guzzle it down. You two start to kiss again, slowly but with need, when you’re interrupted by a knock at the door.

“That’ll be him.” Harry says. “Use your key, mate!” Niall keys in. You think it’s cute he has a key to his friend’s apartment. Even Niall doesn’t have a key to your place.

“Oi, lad, what did ya do to my friend? Get her so drunk she couldn’t get home?”

“Everything I did was from my own doing.” You slur, putting your jacket on. “Um, I guess I’ll have to come by tomorrow to get my car. I can just uber for that.”

“I can bring ya by here, (y/n).” Niall says. “Harry and I have plans tomorrow anyways.”

“Perfect.” You and Harry smile at each other. He puts his hands in his pockets and gives Niall a look.

“I’ll go wait in the hall so you two can say g’night.”

You pad over to Harry and give me a deep kiss. Something for him to think about. He gives you a light tap on your bottom.

“I had a great time tonight, thank you for dinner.”

“Thank you for the amazing dessert.” He bites his bottom lip. “Good night.”

“Night.” You blow a kiss at him as you leave.

Thank god Niall was home, and sober. There’s no way you would’ve been able to get home tonight.

“So, I take it you had a nice night?” He asks, as he peels out of the parking lot.

“Mhm, he’s the best.”

“I’m proud of you.”

“For what?”

“For sticking to your not moving too fast thing. Not many women can resist Harry.”

“Trust me, it’s not easy. I gladly would’ve fucked him tonight, but I know it would’ve been too soon.”

“You can do other stuff y’know? He’s a giver, you wouldn’t even have to actually have sex with him.”

“What do you mean he’s a giver?”

Niall holds a hand up and separates two fingers under his chin and makes a licking motion. You scoff and nudge his arm.

“You’re fowl.”

“I’m telling you. I’m sure some heavy petting would be okay to start. You don’t need to hop right on his dick. But you also don’t need to punish yourself.”

“That’s true, and I know I don’t. We’re seeing each other again Wednesday. I’ll see how I feel then.”