#took me at least 8h

[starrynights-sunnyskies]

as the flowers bloom, my heart does too ⋆*·ﾟmisa x putellas!femreader, social media au, (13/-)

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when your relationship ends and all you want to do is hide and cry, flowers suddenly start to appear on your doorstep.

or; misa hating to see a pretty girl cry and suffer and going out of her way to cheer her up while staying anonymous

fic: see my masterlist 🤍

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tagged: friend1, marisabel_rguez, re-inc yourusername: 💋 liked by re-inc, christenpress, laiacodina5 and 4,389 others

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re-inc Looking good! 🤙✨

friend1 masks, manis and movies 💆‍♂️🕺 ↳ yourusername 💃💅🏽

christenpress Loving the outfit!

albaps9 fuck you, why do you keep stealing my sunnies? 😤 ↳ yourusername hahahaha ↳ albaps9 no it's not fucking funny anymore yn 😫

marisabel_rguez Vroom vroom 😎 ↳ yourusername im in me mums car ↳ marisabel_rguez Que??? ↳ bff1 what did i say? grandma! who tf still quotes vines these days? ↳ yourusername cool people

alexiaputellas Two arms around Misa next time, por favor. Don't want a repeat of you falling off a bike again 😆 liked by marisabel_rguez

salmaparalluelo I miss you!! ↳ yourusername i miss you too! text me! 🤗

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tagged: bff3 yourusername: finally an auntie. ready to smother this little boy with all the love i have for the rest of his life. liked by bff3, marisabel_rguez, albaps9 and 2,380 others

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albaps9 wait, did i push out a baby im unaware of?? ↳ yourusername god you're so dramatic

bff2 The most beautiful and healthy little baby boy 💘

bff1 already waiting for the day he'll get to watch paw patrol with his paw-nties 🐶

alexiaputellas Congratulations, @/bff3 ❤️

username1 Oh dear god, for a second I thought this baby was hers before I read the caption 😅 ↳ username2 OMG ME TOO. i was like... but how-when-where?! ↳ username3 can you imagine though??? misa and yn as mommies? 😱 ↳ username4 i kind of can't, not for a while at least 😂

marisabel_rguez Adorable ☺️😍

bff3 He took to you so easily, and you to him. He's lucky to have you all in his life. I can't be happier that he'll get to have you to look up to 🥺

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tagged: yourusername marisabel_rguez: Life is good 💛 liked by ona.battle, sofie.svava, laiacodina5 and 13,589 others

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albaps9 was misa stuck singing kid songs again while babysitting? 🤣 ↳ marisabel_rguez How do you know about that? ↳ yourusername 😳😛 ↳ albaps9 also, i can't believe our cousin lets you babysit over ME, i literally WORK with children?!? ↳ yourusername he's just letting us practice <3 ↳ marisabel_rguez Wait what?? 😅 ↳ albaps9 👀 ↳ alexiaputellas 🤨 ↳ yourusername to watch the little angel @/bff3 has blessed us with! ↳ albaps9 ok, gotcha!!!! ↳ marisabel_rguez 🙂 ↳ bff3 😘

sofie.svava 😍

ingridengen We miss you two 😙

yourusername i love you ↳ marisabel_rguez 😘

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tagged: yourusername bff2 Found this strange lady sitting at the gate. Think I should approach? liked by 320 people

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bff1 no, best to leave her there if you like your life. just turn around and pretend you didn't see her. trust me on this. ↳ yourusername 😦

albaps9 that's just her default mood. give her some snacks or bring her her gf and she'll be fine

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tagged: bff2 yourusername: oui are having a great time liked by alexiaputellas, ona.battle, marialeonn16 and 3,435 others

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marisabel_rguez Eiffel for you 🤩 ↳ yourusername holy crepe, i am in-seine-ly in love with you!! ↳ marisabel_rguez I louvre you too! ↳ yourusername i never want toulouse you ↳ marisabel_rguez ❤️ ↳ alexiaputellas You're perfect for each other 😐😂 liked by yourusername, marisabel_rguez and 56 others

bff2 Crossaints as big as my head!! 🥐☕️ ↳ bff1 so that's the size of a small country then? ↳ bff2 Fuck off 😂

bff3 Stay safe and have fun! Kisses from the three of us. And I want a debrief with all your photos after you get home! 😘 liked by yourusername

albaps9 the lara croft glasses make their return

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Text Messages

14:31 Misa 🤍 Hey, gorgeous. How's your day going?

15:56 you love!! it's been really sweet. we had brunch at the classiest cafe and did some shopping. went to an art gallery too. strolling the streets a bit now and going to the moulin rouge tonight! 💃

16:03 Misa 🤍 I can't wait to see all the photos! Watch out for pickpockets!!

16:04 you seeing as i wear my heart on my sleeve and all, that's great advice. thanks, chula

16:04 Misa 🤍 😊😘

16:56 you and i'm thinking of you. always. good luck with your match tonight. i'll try and catch some of it through stream when we're back in the hotel room. i love you.

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tagged: bff2 yourusername: riviera shenanigans 🇫🇷 liked by salmaparalluelo, ingridengen, begovargas and 2,389 others

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alexiaputellas Double trouble ❤️

bff3 I'm so jealous right now!! Can hardly get a night out nowadays hahaha. ↳ bff1 well you decided to pop out a baby, you have to live with those consequences now 🤪 ↳ yourusername baaabe!!! 😔let me know if you ever need us to look after your little boy. misa and i would be glad to. ↳ bff3 Definitely going to take you up on that offer once he's a little older! ↳ bff2 As soon as we can, we should schedule a trip with the four of us again! ↳ bff1 YES PLEASE ↳ yourusername i'm down <3 ↳ bff3 Sounds amazing 😘

marisabel_rguez Ladies!! ☺️ liked by yourusername and bff2

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Text Messages

10:03 Misa Hey Alba, are you free and up for lunch today? 😁

10:45 Alba Putellas flattered, but yn really is the only perfect putellas for you

10:53 Misa Shut up 😂

10:53 Misa It just feels like we haven’t done anything together in a while.

10:54 Alba Putellas tempting… what’s really behind this tho? you can't fool me 🧐

10:54 Misa Nothing, just want to chat and catch up.

10:55 Alba Putellas hmm sure... will you pay?

10:59 Misa Fine

11:12 Alba Putellas time and place and i'll be there! 😚

Delivered

13:04 Misa Maybe don't tell YN I'm in Barcelona to pick her up from the trainstation. I want to surprise her. Her friend's already in on it.

Seen

13:14 Misa Alba, don't tell me you've already told her 😅

13:18 Alba Putellas SORRY. how was i supposed to know to keep it a secret when you texted me earlier?????

13:26 Misa No worries, it's okay. I'll see you in a bit! I'm stopping by the florist first.

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tagged: yourusername and 6 others bff2: Libertas perfundet omnia luce!! UB reunion!! Let's go!! liked by 493 people

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friend seconds before the real fun started!

friend Night's a complete mess already and it has barely even begun🤣

friend Bold of you to post a pic already when I'm sure we'll make plenty better photos during the rest of the night ↳ yourusername this is her 'before the damage' photo ↳ bff2 Caught!! 🙈

friend hey i'm not even there yet!! don't let the fun start already 😭

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Text Messages

23:56 albaquerque 🌼 is that who i think it is in your friend's story?

00:34 you you got that right! crazy huh?

00:38 albaquerque 🌼 yn fucking idiot?? you don't put your ex gf on your lap and then pose for a picture, puta madre

00:38 you 😟

00:39 you jesus alba. chill. i'm at a university reunion. someone from our mutual friend group set it up. it's not like i texted her to meet up. we scooted our chairs together for the photo, that's all. she wasn't on my lap.

00:39 you and you know our breakup was chill. she's cool. it's been a couple of years. it was actually really sweet to catch up again after all this time, see how our lives changed and how much we've grown. it was sweet! we had so much to talk about 😭

00:39 albaquerque 🌼 that's exactly why it was such a bad idea omfg do you hear yourself? you're such a bimbo sometimes

00:46 you alba, we're both mature women and respect and understand that we were a part of each other's lives and past but that's that. there's nothing there. we parted as friends and we're still friends now. that's all. reuniting with her won't resurface my feelings. all that there is, is platonic now. i care for her in the sense that i want her to do well in life, but not with me by her side.

00:46 you but i can see why you'd think it's a little tasteless, but we only did that silly picture. we sat around a table with all the others the rest of the night. i told her about misa!! then the guys heard she was a footballer and we talked more about how we got together and such. everyone thought it was the sweetest story. frankly, i don't think i stopped bringing her up whenever i could 😭

00:46 you but wait ew why am i even defending myself to you

00:46 albaquerque 🌼 with all due respect, she was your first love, your first everything. and i know that things didn't work out, but i know you've always kept a soft spot for her because of that. you haven't talked since uni and now you're close again? i just don't want you to make a mistake.

00:51 you you're trying to find drama that isn't there, alba. she is a friend. and she's an ex for a reason.

00:53 albaquerque 🌼 who you used to kiss and fuck like you were energiser bunnies. that's a line you can't uncross. you're not being very respectful to your girlfriend. you can't mix those worlds with a clear conscience. imagine how misa will feel?

00:55 you oh so you consider me completely unable to be a mature woman and think i can't have a normal conversation without jumping into a woman's pants?

00:55 you and you're so disgusting, why did you have to say that. that made me really uncomfortable.

00:55 albaquerque 🌼 truth hurts

1:02 you why are you even lecturing me and why am i even listening to you out of all people?? i don't care what kind of shit date you had tonight but you don't go and lash that out on me.

1:04 albaquerque 🌼 because i know what i'm talking about when it comes to that. i made mistakes so i could learn and tell you what not to do. that's what older sisters are for.

1:07 you yeah, they're to look up to, not to pull you down

1:07 albaquerque 🌼 yn listen, where are you now? how much did you drink? do i need to pick you guys up?

1:07 you you didn't have to say it like that

1:07 you clearly not enough bc the headache i have rn is bc of you and not bc of the booze

1:07 albaquerque 🌼 where are you. drop your location

1:12 you fucking hell, go and annoy someone else.

1:12 albaquerque 🌼 i just don't want you ruining this good thing you finally have

1:23 you why do you think i ever would? do you really trust me so little? do you really think i would throw away what i have with misa, something i have waited for my entire life, something i've dedicated love and passion and dedication and energy to for almost two years? do you really think i would hurt my partner? the woman i want to propose to? you putting the thought in my head of her not being in my life makes me even more sure i want to stay by her side forever. do you really think that i would put her heart and her happiness on the line for an ex with whom i was never this in love with as i am with misa? do you really think i could hurt my favourite person like that?

1:23 albaquerque 🌼 goddamn yn, you're taking this out of proportion. i didn't mean it all like that.

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1:23 you no, my reaction is fair, and i think you meant it exactly that way. and you know what? don't even reply to what i asked. i'm afraid of the answer, seeing you also don't trust me having an ex around. if you wanted me to have an as shitty night as you, then you have succeeded, thank you very much

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1:24 you and you had no reason to attack me like that over a photo. you should know me better than what you're implying i was up to. and it really fucking hurts that you think i would do such a thing. i fucking love misa and you should know that. and you obviously doubting if i do, is making me feel really anxious if misa really knows how much i love her.

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1:24 you stop typing. fucking fuck off, alba. and don't text me. i'm really mad at you right now. leave me alone.

1:24 you and don't even try and contact me through mama or ale. or misa. or any of my friends.

1:25 albaquerque 🌼 ❗️Not delivered - yn i'm sorry, of course i trust you. i panicked. i shouldn't have said the things i did. sorry sorry i regret it. can we talk about it? i know you are in love with her. she's your entire world and you are hers, i can see that, don't worry. i never doubted that. but i panicked that maybe your ex would still be interested and would say just the right thing or bring up a memory and would put seeds of doubt in your mind or tempt you. i shouldn't have thought so. that was very low of me. and i know you would never do such a thing. im sorry.

1:25 albaquerque 🌼 ❗️Not delivered - where are you rn tho? im worried. but sorry again. im so sorry laelia. i just panicked, like i said, i don't want you to ruin what you have and also because misa-

1:25 albaquerque 🌼 ❗️Not delivered - oh great, of fucking course you blocked me.

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2:01 Alexia Hey, what's happened? I'm rooming with Misa at camp and YN called her in absolute tears. It's the middle of the night??

2:09 Alba fuck, okay, well i really didn't mean it the way i did but i guess i was a little too harsh about it??

2:09 Alexia About what?

2:09 Alexia And a little? You don't say. I couldn't even understand a word she said 🤨

2:09 Alexia I want you to tell me everything. And you have to do damage control the second you wake up tomorrow.

2:09 Alba yeah and i will, tho im not sure i'll be able to catch a wink of sleep now. but we also might have another problem

2:09 Alexia And you didn't think the one you created was enough? What is it?

2:11 Alba i don't know how serious she was about it or if it was a spur-of-the-moment thing, and how short or long term her plans are, but the idea of proposing to misa is there...

2:11 Alexia Oh! Oh, wow.

2:12 Alba yeah oh

2:12 Alexia I thought we had to worry if she was ready, not worry that she was this ready.

2:12 Alba what should we do?

2:12 Alexia Change her mind, obviously.

2:14 Alba are you insane??!??!?

2:14 Alexia No, of course not, idiota!

2:14 Alba well woohoo, fucking forgive me but sarcasm doesn't hit the same way through text, alexia!!

2:14 Alba but what are we to do??

2:14 Alexia We'll come up with something.

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2:19 Misa Hey, Alba. I know what happened. YN called me. The intention behind wanting to protect our relationship was really sweet, but in doing so, you really hurt her, and by extension, me. I know what you meant and that you had only good intentions, but I trust her. She is an independent lady who can go out and have fun with friends and I'm absolutely not worried about her loyalty, because I can feel how much we love one another and how devoted she is to me. She told me there was a high chance that her ex would be there, and we talked about it. There was never an ounce of doubt in my mind that she would even think of either physically or mentally cheating on me. So what I'm trying to say is, don't worry about it. And don't doubt her. I don't either. She's mature and responsible and she's my person. YN is really upset thinking that you think so low of her, and worried that she was disrespectful towards me and is now actively overthinking even the most insignificant little things and interactions she's had in the time we've been together. She's worrying if she's told and shown me enough how much I love her. I know that behaviour of her will resurface now and then, it's her trauma response, but I'm really worried about it all because I can't calm her down through a phone the way I would want in real life, you know? Especially now that I'm out of the country. Once again, I know you meant well and it feels really sweet that you value our relationship and would fight for it and want it to last as much as we do. She probably doesn't want to talk to you right away, but can you please go and make it up soon? Just let her come to you first. She's staying with one of her friends now that she's in Barcelona, by the way. She's there now, she's safe.

2:45 Alba im sorry im sorry im sorry, i feel like a total ass and probleme starter and for what? ive read our chat back and i realise my mistake and my hostility to her messages. i was just panicking that all your effort would've been for nothing and that all she learned to overcome and the behaviours she grew out of with you and because of you, would be for nothing. i know you told me that she was growing quiet lately whenever you brought up the future and i know my sister. she's always had the worst coping mechanisms and it always starts with quietness and distance, so i was just afraid that she was chickening out of the commitment and that seeing her ex would be the perfect escape. i know i shouldn't have thought that about her. because that's the old her. the new her has you to hold on to in difficult times, and tonight has definitely proven that again. but the doubt and worry was a split second thought that i fed while i should've binned it the second it came up. but i've had a shitty night and seeing that photo just made it all worse. i shouldn't have taken it out on her. and i'm sorry for stepping on your toes. i just don't want you guys to ever break up. she's so happy with you. the past two years we've seen a version of her we've never seen. in a good way!! more bright and cheery and just carefree. and she can feel like that and let go of her troubles and stress because she's so loved, protected and cared for by you. once again, i'm so so sorry.

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tagged: bff2 yourusername: felt like we were young and stupid again. university reunion... check! next one we'll all have wrinkles and grey hair 😭

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friend just as fun and wild as the old days liked by yourusername

albaps9 glad you had a sweet night, ily yn. i really do ❤️

bff2 Uni gave me a massive debt but also you, so hey, that evens it all out! 😘 liked by yourusername

friend(ex) Don't you even worry about it, you'll age gracefully! friend(ex) But it was so fun to catch up again! Can't wait to support you in what life blesses you with next!! Wishing you and your loved ones all the best x friend(ex) And keep me updated on how it goes!! You got me all excited for you now!! 🤭🙈 liked by yourusername

friend you're still a real hoot! 🤙😂 liked by yourusername

friend u.b. para siempre 💙 liked by yourusername

marisabel_rguez 😘 ↳ yourusername 😙

friend And an extra 10 kgs on us 🤣🤣🤣 liked by yourusername

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albaps9: i love you. i’m proud of the woman you’ve grown into. you saw the hurdles life put up for you and didn't back down, but tightened your ponytail and went off running to tackle them by yourself. i wish i were a little bit more like you (only a little, i can only handle so much annoyance jajaja 🧡). you're the only little sister i'll ever want and i can't wait to stick by your side to see how much more rewarding and beautiful life will get for you.

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yourusername i love you too. and i'm sorry.

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a/n: have the sweetest day, my loves! 🌼

[studentbyday]

src: study with merve D-48 DAYS TO FREEDOM

tried time blocking in my bujo last night, made a mistake, did not have white-out on me (or the will to re-write everything), so resorted to google calendar. it's a packed day today. idk if i can do it all. we shall see. i am tired. note to self to be in bed by 10 if i wanna wake up at 8. not 11 bc i don't fall asleep right away. update: OMG YOU GUYS!!! I FINALLY ALMOST MADE IT TO THE END OF 8H OF STUDYING - I TOOK THE BREAKS AND EVERYTHING 🙌🏻🥳🙌🏻🥳🙌🏻 it would've been really cool to finish the 30 mins left but i'm pooped and sleeping now >> half-focusing and half-understanding. also i don't think i can survive studying 8h a day every day...i would burn out very quickly.

learning:

watched ninja nerd videos on mobilization, synthesis, and degradation of fatty acids ✅

biochem sections 4-7 ✅ (have to review lipoproteins and finish the last of the module review activities tmr bc i was getting tired and losing focus by then)

went over practice questions from last week's mol bio review session (at least they posted the slides...) ✅

mol bio quiz ✅

self-care:

water goal ✅

all my physio exercises ✅ (it didn't hurt this time 🙌🏻)

biked while watching a cinema therapy video (it was about shrek 💗) ✅

🎶 unravel - tokyo ghoul op, arr. animenz

[unfilteredrealities]

I’m not dead! Still alive and persisting!!

The heat is so unbearable right now. The last week a huge heat wave has struck us and I’m at my limit. My only luck is that at work we have an AC and it works till 3pm before it can’t cope with the 35°c no more.

I’m in autistic burnout as well and work is a struggle but it makes me happy I can help people out over the phone.

Some days ago a client told me that I have a very friendly voice! He told me I’m super kind and helpful and to stay like this how I am 🥹 Made my day tbh. Bcs the communication coach at the beginning of this project was like “yeah you aren’t made for front office more for back office , you sound cold and robotic and unfriendly on the phone” so now I can say go suck an onion lady!!

My teamleader and me are like this 🤝 at work , I love to work together with her bcs she has her ways and she knows how my brain works and we motivate each others neurospicy brains xD

Also my teamleader recommended me to watch as well “Temptation Island” which is full of drama and we have something to gossip about each morning at work now 😂 besides of the usual shenanigans.

I started to calm down too about the waiting line. I tend to get stressed and be rushed to take calls and not let people wait. But I have to remember it’s about quality not about quantity. So far I didn’t make too many mistakes. At least only minor ones.

My partner took me with him via video calling while he went cycling and I decided where he goes basically saying left , right , straight ahead and we ended up in nice nature. Some bonding time together where he included me 🥹

Yesterday I had an one hour call with my older sister and we talked about neurodivergence’s , stimming, chronic illness , family who is neurodivergent and it’s obvious as fuck and about if I am valid to call myself chronically ill and she made a point after me saying “I don’t feel valid to call myself chronically ill like I’m functioning, going to work doing stuff, I’m healthy” and she was like “yeah you work 8h and then need 24h to recover from that , that isn’t what I would call healthy or functioning well 😂” and then I was like “yeah you have a point”

[thesinglesjukebox]

RENÉE RAPP FT. MEGAN THEE STALLION - "NOT MY FAULT"

I guess one could argue this whole site is kind of a Burn Book for pop music...

[5.58]

Jackie Powell: When I first saw the “Not My Fault” music video, I was worried. Reneé Rapp looked a little stiff and apprehensive while synchronizing pop star choreography to a song that on paper was going to take her music career to another dimension. She also looked slightly intimidated by Megan Thee Stallion, whose dancing talents are as natural as the swagger she brings to every song she’s on. And Megan doesn't fall short here. Her performance on this track at first felt more natural than Rapp's. Was this really the natural progression in Rapp's music career? Who was she trying to be here? Ryan Tedder joined the 24-year-old Rapp and her frequent collaborator Alexander 23 to craft a sexy pure pop song that relies upon a slick bass line, overdubbed backing vocals and a variety of percussion. (There is a cowbell in there if you listen closely enough.) When watching Rapp in the video prior to her SNL performance, I felt like she was battling between being herself and the character she had portrayed for so long, Regina George. But by the time Rapp got to Studio 8H and had a meta moment with Meg and the original Regina, Rachel McAdams, it was almost like Rapp could then fully lean into the song as herself, and become the pop star she wants to be rather than the pop star she’s expected to be. When she debuted “Not My Fault” live on the SNL stage, she passed a test on her continued path to pop stardom. The confidence she has exuded in the past on Everything to Everyone and Snow Angel returned. “Not My Fault” is the most pure pop single she’s ever made and a different set of expectations come with that. It’s almost like she dropped all expectations and took her not-giving-a-shit chaotic energy during the “Mean Girls” press cycle into her performance of the song on SNL. She sang and added the choreography in when she wanted it in. She expressed herself and shook her ass when she wanted to. It was just another example of how Rapp continues to redefine what it means to be an openly queer artist in pop. It’s not her fault that the world has fallen in love with her, but it most certainly has been her plan all along.  [8]

Will Adams: Reneé Rapp is convincing as neither Regina George nor a pop star, so thank god for Megan Thee Stallion for picking up the slack on this too-slick-for-its-own-good piece of disco-pop. Her rapped verse brings the energy, while the sung hook of "I woke up hotter than I was yesterday" is more effortlessly cool than anything else in the song. [5]

Katherine St. Asaph: [4] for you, Reneé Rapp. You go, Reneé Rapp! ...and more for bossy Megan bye. [6]

Taylor Alatorre: The halo effect of Megan's verse is so strong, it took me a while to realize that Reneé Rapp's part is not just rote placeholder pop, but actively bad placeholder pop. She sabotages her Miss Steal Your Girl routine by singing all her lines in a pinched register that aims for "husky" and lands on "sleepy", over a compressed air blast of sterile lite-funk product that even Maroon 5 would sneer at. It's not made clear whether we're meant to be cheering or pitying this incarnation of Regina George -- probably some mixture of both, given the changing perceptions of her character over the years. But the sudden squeal of that viscerally discordant "AMEN!" makes me want to root against her out of respect for my eardrums. The song itself seems impatient to get to Megan Thee Stallion, who wisely disregards the surrounding environs in order to jolt us awake with her own brand of tightly controlled mapcap energy. Through sheer bravura she's able to better capture the spirit of the original film, or at least the way it's been endlessly refracted through countless internet exchanges, without ever intending to portray anyone other than herself. Megancore will never die, but you will. [5]

Jacob Satter: With the exception of a quick dalliance with "Talk Too Much," I have managed to avoid Rapp (and, more shamefully, Mean Girls in all its iterations) until now, but "Not My Fault" suggests she's currently manifesting as the safe gay Meghan Trainor? Maybe that's catty but excuse me if I'm a little incensed that Rapp is responsible for the first time I've heard Megan get mired in cookie dough.  I mean, that IS Rapp's fault. [3]

Alex Clifton: Am I overrating this? Maybe. But this is the first new song in months where I've listened on repeat because I just need another hit. Rapp reclaims the original insult into a cheeky, proudly queer pick-up line, which is such a neat reversal. Meanwhile Megan brings a different and powerful contrast to Rapp's candy-coated vocal, a well-matched foil. On top of all that, Rapp and Megan sound like they're having a good-ass time. It's fun, it's gay, it's a little stupid but in a smart way, and it's exactly the kind of confidence boost I needed for this year. [10]

Leah Isobel: A perfectly serviceable "Say So" rehash, enlivened by Megan's old-school showmanship and Reneé's very modern disaster-lesbian hyperactivity. But their pairing feels a little artificial, and the song's for-kids-but-also-grownups energy strains to encompass them both. [5]

Nortey Dowuona: To be quite frank, I get why this happened. It's good synergy, it's a good idea, but: has this idea already existed? Let's check: JoJo - Sabotage (ft. Chika); Gwen Stefani - Rich Girl (ft. Eve); Queen Latifah & Dolly Parton - Joyful Noise; Reneé Rapp - Tummy Hurts (Remix) (ft. Coco Jones); Reneé Rapp & Alyah Chanelle Scott - The Sex Lives of College Girls. But what about this song? Oh. Reneé Rapp - Not My Fault (ft. Megan Thee Stallion) -- a smug, pretentious song about being cool and rich. A classic? Who knows? Sing this to me in 20 years. [5]

Kayla Beardslee: I don't mind adding another ethical "Say So" substitute to the shelf, but there are better options for all the Dr. Luke vegans out there. [4]

Dave Moore: We do have Kim Petras at home, but it's the sort of thing where you just buy another one when it's on sale because you're just going to stick 'em all in the basement anyway.  [5]

Jeffrey Brister: I like Rapp’s woozy but vaguely menacing gay-girl posturing -- we need more shameless “steal your bitch” sentiment from our female pop stars -- and then Megan jumps in and makes what was already text supertext, aggressive and swaggering, sprinting across the beat. It’s enough to make me look past the paint-by-numbers disco beat and enjoy the frothy confection of the vocals. [7]

Joshua Minsoo Kim: It’s supermarket-friendly disco, the bassline just muscular enough to make the coos feel like comfort food. The lines don’t stick at all, but the breeziness does. [5]

Alfred Soto: As meltable as cheap Brie, "Not My Fault" complements Mean Girls too well: marketable queer subtexts that upset Ron DeSantis #Wokewarriors. [4]

Mark Sinker: Welcome to the dessert of the real (it’s mutant ninja semiosis all the way down). [4]

Dorian Sinclair: While I'm not a huge fan of Jeff Richmond's compositions from Mean Girls, "Not My Fault" has a lot more in common with the pop pastiche of his work for terminally underrated sitcom Girls5Eva. G5E, though, pairs his smoothly derivative songcraft with Meredith Scardino's frequently absurd -- and memorable -- lyrics. It turns out when you give a blandly competent composition some blandly competent words you get, surprisingly enough, a competent yet bland final product. Thank goodness Megan Thee Stallion is there to provide some interest, but she can only do so much. [5]

Ian Mathers: Trying hard not to grade this on a curve just because the project its from is so incredibly ill-conceived (and, according to people I trust, not terribly well executed) but you know what if you just ignore that and listen to the song, it's pretty fun! Megan referring to herself as "Black Regina George" is so on brand that it has actually happened before and so doesn't automatically yank you out of it here if you're pretending to forget the movie and Rapp sounds the kind of over it you kind of want when you're being this offhandedly dismissive. Musicals are, generally speaking, a mistake, but this works just fine on its own. [7]

Wayne Weizhen Zhang: The Mean Girls reboot is a lame ass musical, and this gay girl magic is relegated to the closing credits instead of worse versions of the Broadway tracks? Lesbo Regina George deserved better.  [7]

Rachel Saywitz: I watched a horrible bootleg of Mean Girls on Broadway a few weeks ago -- horrible in that the camera focused primarily on Cady’s actress and that the musical itself is horrible, with dull and unremarkable music, fatphobic jokes that seemed so tonally out of place for a show that debuted in 2018, and a cast that mostly didn’t bother to expand beyond their movie counterparts. I was watching it as the release of the Mean Girls: The Movie: The Musical drew near because I was curious what the hullabaloo over Reneé Rapp was about; the now B(ish)-tier pop star played Regina George on Broadway from 2019 'til its closure in 2020. I don’t know what I was expecting -- some kind of snarky bi-sexual-babe take on the character? Something at least a little similar to what I had seen of her in movie trailers, which showed off her low growl of a speaking voice as if to elicit both fear and lust in even the enviest peers? But on Broadway, I just saw someone hot and blonde playing a mean girl -- no spunk or disarming friendliness, just someone with a nasty attitude. Thankfully, some time away from the stage, and the closeness of a film camera (not to mention a lack of body shaming), has given her a chance to rough up some of Regina’s smoothest edges. “Not My Fault” offers up a Reneé (and a perfectly non-apologetic Megan Thee Stallion) who not only enjoys being a bully, but who I would love to be bullied by. This Regina doesn’t hide in platitudes; she sings the truth with a citrusy ting: “You came with her but she might leave with me,” she shrugs amidst a funky bass groove that squelches like an arrhythmic heartbeat. She’s the quintessential bully of my childhood -- strikingly hot; flutteringly soft in public while actually being totally unapproachable; probably, definitely, at least a little bit gay. In posters advertising the new Mean Girls, I’ve noticed that Reneé’s Regina occupies the center of every group photo -- a marked change from the original’s promotion which squarely had Lindsay Lohan’s Cady as the star to watch. “Not My Fault” shows why and how this change happened. In this decade where bimbos and Barbies are celebrated non-ironically, where cultural ideas of femininity have simultaneously expanded and shrunk drastically, we’ve shifted from being afraid of Regina George to welcoming her with open arms into a hot girl society, where “girl” is always subjective but we always “wake up hotter than [we were] yesterday.” And okay, we’re a little mean. But it’s not our fault!! [7]

Jacob Sujin Kuppermann: By a wide margin the most competently written and performed part of Mean Girls The Movie The Musical. [4]

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[moominvalleygremlin]

The fashion industry is a horrible field to work in. I just finished 5 years of fashion high-school (so I am 19 now) a few months ago, and I tried looking for tailoring/seamstress/theatrical-historical seamstress courses and they are all so INCREDIBLY EXPENSIVE. We are talking the lowest price was 7.500€ for 2 years, 10.000€ or even 15.000€ per year. Since we are not rich and we would be in debt if I decided to continue to study I am looking for a job in the field. I had 3 job interviews; one never called me back, the other was a chain of production-slavism type of job for a famous brand (6 am-14 pm and 14pm-21 pm) and the other I actually spent a few days working there but then I just quit (very very boring and repetive type of work like sewing on tags all day and mounting zipper and doing that 160 times a day everyday and it was extremely underpaid like 600€ a month for a 8h shift in which they treated me like shit telling me to work faster and they made me skip my 10 min breaks but I took it initially because I had nothing else). I went to a event in which Italian artisans exposed their work and I asked every one of them if they were looking to hire me and no one is looking to employ (I am italian and this story is based in italy). So yeah I now have no idea what to do since I studied for this is field but at least I am happy to not be 15.000 euros in debt and turn up years later without a job anyways. I will probably look for normal jobs like casher and barista or whatever since I need something to support my family I am just bitter that everyone on TV here in Italy says that young people are scarce in the industry but also don't employ them when they are looking to enter the field! Wtf!

[mickgaydolenz]

hiiiiii Asia. ive been so busy experiencing an actual social life and having very lgbt things happening to me that my interest in studying has dipped by a scary amount. like yeah im gaining unlimited rizz right now because of my Venus return… but ive been getting too lazy and hedonistic out here so im struggling 🥲 rip in peace to me ig

but if im not gonna do studying then i should at least keep up my interest by studying other charts. ive pretty much exhausted the boys — unless something in the astro weather occurs onto Micky, there’s not much left to share. of course though if i find anything new to me you know i’ll message you straight away 🫶🏻

so instead of the guys, i hear people around here like this band called “the beatles”. i don’t know much about them so forgive me that i won’t be able to go in-depth with it (beatlemaniacs do your thing), but i’ll share some astro observations anyways:

Paul’s chart goes crazy with the 3H & 4H stelliums — majority of them in Gemini; as a Gemini stellium myself i bet either of two things: 1. once you get him talking he never shuts the fuck up, or 2. doesn’t talk unless it’s to provide information (😔🤚🏻 guilty as charged officer). only his Jupiter (+ asteroid Hygeia) are in Cancer in his 4H. his Moon, Mars, Pluto and asteroid Chiron are in the 6H ruled by Leo, so his normal life is always entertaining yet risky… perhaps at the cost of his fame. his 8H, 9H and 10H are all empty.

John has a 6H stellium, primarily in Libra, as his Venus and Neptune (+ asteroid Chariklo) are in Virgo, which i think is definitely where his personal philosophy stems from; Libra is all about balance, peace and relationships, while Virgo is all about practicality, routine and health. his 1H has his Jupiter, Saturn and Uranus all in Taurus. his Aquarius Moon resides in the 11H and his Scorpio Mercury resides in his 7H — absolute weird girl energy. i took a skim of the aspects and they’re a lot of squares jumping out, so lots of conflict between wants and needs. he has an empty 3H and 8H.

George has a 1H Scorpio Moon, which is a great start /sc. his asteroid Psyche also resides in his 1H… i sense a moody bitch in our midst. interestingly it’s hard to pinpoint a stellium for him, i would say his 4H and 9H, which both houses dual two different signs; it’s giving confusion and contradictions. his Pisces Sun and Aquarius Mercury reside in the 4H, his Pisces Venus residing in the 5H, his Capricorn Mars residing in the 3H, his Jupiter and Pluto residing in the 9H, and his Saturn and Uranus (+ Vertex) residing in the 8H. he has an empty 2H and 7H — he has no Sagittarius placements either.

Ringo has a 5H stellium, mostly in Leo, as his asteroid Chiron is in Cancer; his Moon, Mercury, Mars and Pluto reside there, which makes him sound like so much fun honestly, but might be an egomaniac at points (it happens to the best of all Leo placements — esp the Pluto Leo boomer generation lol). his Sun and Venus in Cancer reside in the 4H, his Virgo Neptune in the 6H, his Jupiter and Saturn in Taurus in the 1H, and Taurus Uranus in the 2H. he has his 8H and 10H empty, and he has no Scorpio placements.

i hope this satisfies you all. peace and love on planet earth ✌🏻💖 !!

kale i am so, so, so, so happy for you and your social life popping off (ESPECIALLY THE LGBTQ THINGS <3 <3)!!!!!! i can not stress how happy this makes me enough, like yes go out and fucking SLAY kale you deserve it!!

also god fucking bless you for providing me an astro fix, i actually am very fucking impressed with how well all of these track tbh (i'm not a super fan by any stretch of the imagination, but these seem so accurate to me). also can relate to the whole you and paul talking forever and ever amen because once i get going i'm unstoppable too dude

[adhdthoughts]

Ok nvm, I post it now.

So there are some updates in my life..

I think I shared it some time, that the adhd medication don't really work for me.

Ritalin/Medikinet doesn't really do smth for me.. also Elvanse seemed not to work that well. I feel more motivated to do things on Elvanse, but was never sure if it actually helps me concentrate better or doing the stuff that I needed/wanted to do.

I always took Ritalin/Elvanse with a few weeks or sometimes months in-between. Just because I wanted to have a new impression of what it does to me or if it even does anything. I can't sleep on Elvanse, even when I take it at 07:00 and going to bed at 00:00 or even 01:00.

I'm always struggling with falling asleep (1-2h) and when I am asleep I feel like I'm 40% awake. And sometimes I woke up after a few hours and need to try again.

But I have exams pretty soon (which is a big struggle coz I'm fkn bad as studying and really hat it) so I wen't to my Psych and asked for an attestation that I have more time in my Exam.

(Some background-knowledge: I'm kinda struggling with the time in every test that I write or wrote in school. I don't know why I'm so fkn slow at that, but I always get just ok'ish grades instead of good ones, because I can't finish my tests. I don't really feel like I'm wasting my time a lot or looking around a lot, but somehow I can't manage to finish them in time.. maybe because too much of an perfectionist and want my phrases to sound good and rearranging them in my head back and forth, Idk..)

Anyway, so I got that attestation and she also asked me what about my medicals (I wasn't there for 1 year and I told her that I still have that sleeping issues and then she said, np, you can take Trimipramin before you go to sleep, try it out.

I haven't used Elvanse for about a half year, because I didn't want to be awake half of the night and probably be tired or even more unconcentrated the day after. I only did it on working days so far, because I thought why should I use it on weekends, thats my free time.

So I after I got that sleeping med I tried it out on a Saturday with the mindset that I wanna get shit done that day. And wtf I was doing productive things for 11h straight. Like cleaning my room finally (kinda deep, also the windows and stuff, Pog xd), helped mom with the house, groceries, tried to sort all my lose paper/sheets into folders, etc..

Was a great feeling to get smth done.

But not every elvanse day is a 11h productive type day, but maybe because I'm not committing often enough that day/evening before.

(I still have some side-effects of it like cold feet, less appetite and my intestine is more active.. but that doesn't matter so much for me.)

So yeah.. I'm experimenting more with it, taking it 0-3 times a week.

I have much more joy on working at my job and it's pretty easy for me to work 8-9h even without any break (sure that's illegal and not healthy, but I'm not planning to do that often, that's just what I noticed).

For days when I really don't want to work my 8h that's a good mood boost.

But I think I also noticed that I can study better, but I'm still not quite sure about it, but at least it's helping me with getting the chores done, which is pretty nice, let me feel better and a clean room is better for concentrating when studying.

Will continue that in the next post..

[nightguide]

Dumb Dumb Dumb boom (Demi Lovato) Disney regalia part 3

Draconic. Venus 18.46 Gemini 8H

Demi did not have a soul cuz she was a carrier and her fat ass filled my life with everything til nothing cuz this what my family thought of me. okay, they found me truly fascinating and very inquisitive, they loved to know more about my insights to life because they know my autism does not ground me so well to actually living because i am more hands on than i am hands on, they cannot speak the same language as me because now i have difficulty understanding everything except i don't even have a dream (literally, Matt. your sign to fucking do it now), likely so because after the orgy, Demi's energy did not change but SELENA'S ENERGY WENT TO THE JONAS BROTHERS WHO WENT APESHIT BUT THEY DID NOT TELL ANYONE (like literally they were the first ones to go Muslim but it took Demi at least til TMYLM single came out and Selena til 2022 to revert and that is all because they were dying....but they did not die, so the Jo Bro's were the first ones to guide them... because i did not actually look into them as much as they do but they don't want to look at me because.... i was.. re.. no. it's because Demi dated me in the form of one of the Jo Bro's that came into question right now.) where the fuck is Matt. they cannot go publicly towards me because they would be the first to congratulate me inside of Demi's one theory they got correct, something was inside of her. like she is NOW pregnant because the lesbian viewpoint comes across the gay man example (i have a whole ass law i'm writing with that grand scheme of a monologue i'm doing here)

and it gets worse, her Sagittarius does not exist or else.... how else... does.. her... well, due to the synchronicity of life, my anxiety became Demi's reason to cause drama and so naturally me being a Lovatic growing up, they did think of me as Demi Lovato, while Demi vocalising my fucking heart in her literal historic gibberish that later connects to me saying the words 'i believe', gives into Demi's horizons that i am actually famous under... my own frickn point now, because i have a dream (when Matt's dream is stuffed between his balls because cognitive zodiac to his derpy scorpio is now going changes with his Dad because Demi's Dad was an alcoholic and now Matt is looking at me like i have a fucking dream which the habit entwines to his heart breaking at 'kid having an orgy' underneath Miley's reading.) so reading the Jo Bro's should be fun to look at when Joe Jonas has more psychiatric history than just a.... well now i know about incestual development which gave Nick a redemption reason to quit it all because Demi and Nick were relatedly closer than God but think of that Blades of Glory movie but with Nick and Demi having a conversation with the superfan (the guy at the very end collecting dolls of both of the skaters) yeah, well now Matt got nothing to say or do except his final dream is to commit the The Iron Lotus tomorrow all because he has to and this is Demi looking at me looking at you because she won't let me get off the fucking keyboard.

like fuck you Matt

[mosviqu]

loved ur thoughts on it and i'm yet again glad to know that 2 out of 3 of our fav songs match again and i'm so glad it's a 20/10 album for u as well

tbh i only remember matthew talking so i'm not going to be a help here sadly💀💀

ERIC NEEDS TO HAVE LONGER PARTS I LOVE MY MAN SUNWOO LOVE HIS RAPS LOVE HIS VOICE BUT ERIC DESERVES TO SHINE AS WELL HE ALWAYS GET SO LITTLE PARTS💔 and i'm glad we did talk more about sunwoo😇 atleast it was worth it cuz of actor jihoon ig but the fact that only the last episodes were good😭😭 AND YAYYY IM HAPOY TO HEAR THAT🥳🥳

TBH IT WOULD BE CRAZY IF WE WOULD ACTUALLY END UP MEETING UP but if u need any help while u guys are here i am available to help anytime🫡

THE CLUB ONES WERE SO FUNNY I REMEMBER HOW THE TAEHYUN ONE AND THEIRS WERE AROUND THE SAME TIME AND I JUST LAUGHED SO HARD AT THEM (i remember seeing someone say "can't believe they are dancers and they move like this" i lost my shit actually) AND SO TRUE GOOD FOR HIM LMAO and now that u say that i follow an intak stan on tiktok AND SHE HASNT TALKED MUCH ABOUT JIM LIKE SHE USED TO (she also doesn't really make tiktoks that much and took like half off but we don't talk about that)

I DID WATCH IT!!! BAR!!!! I CANNNNOTT PUT MY FEELINGS INTO WORDS I LITERALLY ENDED UP ON THE FLOOR AFTER I WATCHED IT FOR THE FIEST TIME I JUST COULDNT TAKE MY EYES OF OFF JIHOON IT WAS SO BAD HIS FIT AND EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM WAS😭🤭 THE SONG🤌🤌🤌 THE CHOREOGRAPHY 🤌🤌 (but i did. feel a bit weird when i looked at junghwan doing al that .-.) and ever since it came out it has been my motivation to learn i'm just like okay i'm gonna finish this part and watch it again🤭 i am just so not ready for them to perform this like ever shsndbfn (liebestraum anon🥸)

SEE our taste in music actually matches for the most part 😭

still thinking of eric in kiss me if you can....and eric in general..... (i watched their vid w the fo squad today and girl let me tell u i think i fell in love with him ☹ you know me so well goodbye) also i wont talk abt sunwoo anymore bc he is yours only and i wont be a bad friend in this situation /j (i finished the bbam bbam social club series. literally 8h of staring at tipsy sunwoo. what did u expect to happen). ERIC DOESNT GET MANY PARTS ???? HAVE U HEARD THE MAN??????????????? JUSTICE FOR MY MAN.

omg im...so down actually ??? even tho i am SO awkward irl istg i think id die of anxiety but it would be so fun i think 😭😭 i still dont have the tickets so. we'll see hhhhh

NO BECAUSE TAEHYUNS CLUB WAS TOO DRY ISTG THAY WAS THE WORST ONE 😭😭 my man has to come to slovak clubs fr i'll show him how its done 🙄🙄 but also THEY HAVE SO MANY HONGDAE CLUBS AND HE WENT TO THE DRIEST ONE ??? 😭😭 but w the dancing part like how do u expect him to dance at a club he isnt gonna bust out the good boy gone bad choreo 😭😭😭 i mean at least shake ass a little i understand but dont expect big things 😭😭 also SEE im the most active intak stan confirmed (dont look that up) i need him to be my golden retriever boyfriend he's so pookie

on the topic of T5 move. *deep breath* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. jihoon's fit...lives in my mind rent free. like we knew he had abs and we did see them before but why did the sight affect me so much this time 😭 also i didnt even look at junghwan that much 😳 maybe for the best to not feel weird AHAHA i mean he is an adult but the 2 year age difference is providing a mental block for me to not see him in that way LMAO. we are NOT ready for the mv OR the live performance im afraid. plan my funeral friends ☹☹

[sacredjake]

So what you’re probably thinking of are Decans, basically every sign is split into thirds and within the section you can get more specific planetary rulers. A sign is 30 deg of the whole Astro wheel, so the Decans are equal to 10 deg segments.

But that wouldn’t effect the twins because the ascent moves 1 deg every 4 minutes so I doubt they would have different rising Decans given that they’re 5 min apart. Possible but ehhhhh not likely

What I mean by different signs presenting differently has more to do with our societal conditioning. It’s pretty clear that as soon as the twins were able to create separate identities they did. Honestly such an Aries mars & Saturn move on their part.

But I think about that one Melissa interview when Karen was talking about how they dealt with grades in high school. Josh buckled down and got good enough grades to stay in theatre. Jake said “fuck that, not interested” and gave up soccer (which he was good at). I see this as their stubborn Taurus suns and independent Aries mars coming to light. Taurus is stubborn and prone to taking the path of least resistance, UNLESS they’re super motivated to go after what they want. Then they’re unstoppable. Aries and mars love to separate, take action, and do their own thing.

So Josh leaned into the charging bull of Taurus and action motivator of Aries

Jake leaned into Taurus stubborn streak and the independence of Aries.

Same signs, different expressions. Obviously we don’t know all the details as to WHY they made these choices, but I have a feeling that their environments and the people around them helped coax these different expressions out. Likewise, I’m sure there’s times when Jake was the charging bull and Josh was like “no thanks.”

Sorry that was long.

But to explain the whole ascendant thing. The rising establishes which signs rule what houses. And the houses represent different areas/pockets of life. So, if the boys had different risings, their planets would be the same but they would be expressed in different areas of life.

So instead of Libra rising 9 house Venus, making connections and finding beauty in foreign environments/the unfamiliar, a Scorpio rising would have a 8 house Venus. Which would be placed in the house of baggage, debts, bonds, merges and acquisitions, when we’re responsible for someone else’s shit.

One boy would love travel (9H), while the other might love being a real estate agent (8h). This is obviously broad terms but I hope that makes sense??

As much as they’ve tried individualizing themselves, their life timing seems pretty in sync so far. Leading me to believe they definitely have the same rising/house setup

-🌟

i find it very interesting what you mentioned about societal conditioning and how they separated into different people. i don't know why i never considered societal conditioning or how they internally developed due to events in their life. i also loved the way you explained their taurus sun and aries mars playing different roles in this and how they took on different characteristics of their sun and mars signs. like choosing a path in a way. i never thought about the different characteristics of the signs coming forward more and how they would interact with one another. that is super interesting to me.

and yes that made so much sense about the risings. i definitely understand what you mean. thank you so much for explaining this to me :)

[turtle-go-brrrr]

Scratch my shell, I scratch yours

A/N: Heya! So remember two posts ago where I said I wouldn't write fics because I'm not confident enough in my writing to post it? Yeah, me neither. I started writing this at 6 am because I couldn't sleep and kept working on it during the day, so enjoy ^^(I got a little tired at the end, and i think you can feel it ;w; hope it’s good enough anyway!)

Also, I’m a sucker for platonic intimacy, and there is a severe lack of platonic x reader in this fandom

Fun fact: the Shell is both the Dorsal (part on the back) AND the Plastron (part on the front).

Requested: No

Pairing: None, platonic

Word count: 2500 +

Triggers: None

Summary: You make an embarrassing suggestion that they surprisingly accept.

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The idea came to you in a random conversation you had as you sat on their couch.

"But wait, you can really reach everywhere? Like if I touch here-", you point to a crevice in the middle of his shell. "You're telling me you can bend your arm enough to get here?"

Leonardo gently takes your wrist and pull your hand away. "I mean, we have some of those telescopic scrubs to help, you know? Or we can just ask each other to get to the hard places if it's really complicated."

Oh.

"Oh. Yeah, that makes sense."

You have been asking a few questions about their shells after Raphael started showing off some of his scars, fascinated by the intricate patterns you could see on your friends. The topic of cleaning has be brought up, and as your curiosity took charge, your brain decided to embarrass you as much as it could.

"Do you think I could help?"

Only the faint background music Mikey had set up earlier could be heard as your mutant friends looked at you, eyes wide open.

Oh, that came out wrong.

"Wait, that's not what I-", you start to explain your line of thoughts when you get interrupted by the smug look Mikey sent you, as he harbored a teasing smile.

"Oh? I didn't realize that's what you meant when you said you wanted to hang out more," he wiggles his eyebrows as your nervous laughter fills the room.

"Hold on, I can explain."

Silence again.

"Oh, you're actually listening?"

"I mean, I think we're all dying to know why on earth you'd want to take a shower with us. You're not usually this upfront with your affection," Donatello chimes in. He's not even looking at you in the eyes, but doesn't really try to hide that stupid smirk.

Bastard.

You take a deep breath, trying to focus on not letting the embarassement take over, but your voice shakes imperceptibly, and you can feel youself start to sweat. Great.

"Okay, so I was thinking : you guys always do so much for the city and never get anything in return. I remember Mikey told me that you guys love shell scratches, and now I can see that you have some trouble cleaning it, so maybe I can help with that ? Kinda like a massage sort of thing, it doesn’t have to be weird if no one makes it. Now obviously we’ll be wearing swimsuits, we’re not close enough for… you know… actually taking a shower together, " you try clearing your throat discretly. You hear a muffled laugh from Raph.

"Anyway, I think Casey knows where to buy the best animal care product. I think human stuff might not be suitable for your shells, and I read somewhere that water was the best way to clean a turtle shell anyways, but if you have suggestions just let me know what you usually use. Do you even have swimsuits ? Doesn’t matter, I’m sure we can find you some-"

As you rambled on, the slight shame started to wear off and you were able to explain your line of thoughts more clearly. The awkwardness of the situation seemed to settle down, even if your friends were absolutely going to tease you about it later. Leonardo seemed hesitant, though.

"I don’t know, man. Are you sure about this ? I don’t want you to feel like you have to. We can take care of ourselves, you know."

"I’m not gonna force you if you don’t want to, I’m just offering because I want to do something nice for you guys. You can’t really take a break, but you could at least relax a bit."

"I’m up for it." You didn’t expect Raph to agree so quickly, but maybe you should have anticipatd that as you look at the bags under his eyes. "I mean, the worst thing that could happen is falling asleep while getting a massage from a friend. Kinda sounds like a dream if you ask me. "

‘Well that was easy,’ you think as your face lightens up.

"Besides, we can laugh at them for wanting to shower with us. Didn’t think you’d want to be so intimate, " he purrs as he gives you a side glance.

Oh. Bastard number two.

"Alright. Sure. You know what, fair game, " you laugh it off. Mikey puts a reassuring arm around your shoulders as Donnie places his legs on your laps.

"We do have swimwear, so you don’t need to worry about that. And you were right about using only water to clean it, as human products tends to make us itchy afterwards. There are some types of oil we use sometimes to nourish our shells, however. I think the only thing we might need to look into is new brushes. The ones we have are, hum, barely hanging on."

You send a quick text to Casey and April to let them know about the plan after making a short list of supplies with Leo, who ended up agreeing.

It didn’t take that much convincing.

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Saturday came fast. After getting all the necessary supplies with Casey, you both made your wait to the lair to join April. They had both agreed to help you in your task, because 'damn, they really need some appreciation'.

"When do you think they'll be back?" You ask Splinter as he offers you a cup of spiced tea.

"Usually around one in the morning, unless they were delayed."

Unless something went wrong.

But those dark thought quickly faded away as you heard the faint echo of Mikey's laughter as he recalled their night. Light chatter filled the room as they took off their gear and put away their weapons, and April hushed them to get changed and take a quick shower so they could get started and finally have some sort of a break.

You could see they were excited as they each went their own way, waiting for their turn to the shower.

When you live in the sewers and try to turn it into a living space, you have to do what you can with what you have. And sometimes, what you have is a large space that you can turn into a huge bathroom, with multiple showers and a large bathtub; but what you don't have is privacy. So big communal bathroom it is.

In this specific case, it's a good thing, because it means you can all chill together as you get to work on their shells. Once everyone was settled in, April motioned them to sit on some of the chairs you put up. She opens the bag Casey and you brought and starts getting the multiple brushes and bottle out.

"You have to understand that you guys are, uh, gigantic. So try to stay at our level, okay? And stay put, please. Anyway, here is what we've got for you: there are multiple brushes - one of each type for each of you - and some are harder than the others. Don't worry, we'll try not to scrub your shell off of you," she winks at that, and holds back a laugh at Raph's worried expression.

She continues. "We also found the oil Donnie told us about, and we bought multiple bottles. You'll have a stack for next time." She then gets one last bottle out that she puts aside.

"That one is for Splinter. To make his fur all soft and shiny," you butt in with an innocent smile. The old man deserves a treat too.

Casey laughs at that and says, "So, there's tree of us and four of you. Who is okay waiting for his turn?"

Silence.

After a solid minute, Leonardo sighs and volunteers to let his brothers enjoy a well deserved spoiling session. Mikey, instead of sitting on a chair like a normal person, choose instead to lay down on the bathroom floor.

"You said it was basically a massage, right? Now it really feels like it!"

"Oh, good idea. I'm this close to getting a pillow and having the nap of my life," Donnie says, putting his fingers together.

"Your fingers are touching."

"I know," he gives you a side smile as he starts to get up, but you quickly bring him back to reality. "But there's gonna be water everywhere?" You sit down next to where he just was and watch as he goes back to where he sat, sending you a disapproving side glance.

"Let a turtle dream, will you?" He lays down on his stomach, puts his head on his arms, and scouts closer to you.

You watch Raph get settled on a chair next to Casey, putting his arms on the backrest as April hands you one of the harder brushes. Leo makes a quick trip to the kitchen and brings back some water, a few snacks, and a copy of Journey to the Center of the Earth by Jules Verne.

"Again," you start. "There's gonna be water everywhere. Are you sure bringing a book here is a good idea?"

He gives you a sly smile. "Gotta live up to my name."

What?

"What?"

"You know," Mikey interrupts. "Fearless."

"Oh. Right. Well, don't come crying when you drop it into a puddle then." But you offer him a plastic bag anyway, to hold his book with it in case he wets his hands.

"You sure you're okay waiting?" Casey asks him as he starts pouring water over Raph's back.

"Yeah, don't worry. I have things to keep me busy anyway."

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It took one swipe of the brush from April for Mikey to start... what was the word? Churring.

A low rumble coming from his throat that had kind of the same function as a cat's purr, Donnie explained. It was an expression of contentment or happiness, that sometimes even happended when they needed reassurance.

Adorable.

"I can't believe you guys can purr and never told me." Raph doesn't even bother opening his eyes when he answers you, "We knew you'd take advantage of that. Didn't want to be babied by the tiniest human we ever met."

Asshole.

You went back and forth with the gruff turtle, always in good spirit though. Conversations flowed, laughter were exchanged, and everyone managed to lighten up. Master Splinter joined the group at some point, and was just glad to spend some time with his family - all of it. He also started to take cared of Leo’s dorsal, to his delight.

You don't exactly know when, but some time after Donnie started to let go some soft churrs as you scrubbed the dirt off of his shell, you stopped listening to the current topic and started to really focus on your task.

Scrapping the dirt hidden in between every crevice, rubbing the largest scales, you were surprised by the look of the bare shell of your nerdy friend. You never really stopped to observe this particular feature the four brothers harbored, not only out of decency, but also because it was always covered. Gear and clothes, backpack and tech, dirt and blood, there was always something hiding the intricate patterns of their shells.

You unconsciously slowed down to really take in what you were seeing, your fascination and curiosity taking over your wish to help.

"I don't know why, but I never expected your shell to be so colorful," you say after wiping away the dirty water from the left side of his back. You didn’t mean to say it at loud, but he doesn't answer you. However, you do get something from Mikey.

"Man, you should see mine! Don helped me create an organic paint so I can paint my shell without hurting myself with a bunch of chemicals, and it looks sooo damn good-"

"Shh!"

"... Did they- Did you just shush me?"

"Shhh!" You whisper yell this time. You then give a side glance toward the sleeping turtle under you.

"Annw. Good luck waking him up."

"Yeah, I'm... not doing that. He needs his sleep," you laugh quietly.

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It took the three of you around an hour to deep clean their shells. Even Raph was finally letting go and softly churring at the end. Mikey was loud enough to have trouble speaking, and Donnie was still asleep. Splinter was still working meticulously on his son, who, he could tell, had a hard time holding back the content churrs that threatened to spill out.

You get up and strech, feeling your joints crack and already anticipating how sore you’ll be tomorrow. The muscles in your arms were burning, and you couldn’t feel your butt anymore, but it was worth it. You’ve never seen the four mutants so relaxed before.

Remembering the oils, you went toward the towels to dry your friend’s back and give the final touch to, what you’d grow to refer to, your work of art. You gave a few head scratches to Raph, who was dozing off with a lazy smile, and went back to Donatello. You slowly dried his dorsal when you felt him shift under your hands.

"Hey buddy," you speak softly. He whispers a ‘hey’ you can barrely hear.

"I’m almost done. I just have to put the oil, then you can let it dry and go to sleep, okay ? " You open the bottle and get a paintbrush, with which you start coating his shell with a thin layer of oil. You can hear his soft churrs start again.

Casey accidentally dropped the bottle of oil on Raph’s back and was desperatly trying to gather as much as he could. "Shi- Fuck, wait-"

"Here, give me some. Thanks to you, I don’t have to open mine, " April said with a smirk. She helped him clean up before going back to Mikey, who raised himself on his forearms and watched the scene unfold with a tired smile.

It took only around twenty minute to put the oil on their shells and get it almost dried up. Once it was done, you helped Splinter and Casey clean up as April let her dizzy friends hold onto her, guiding them on their way to their room. Once it was all done, you waved Leo good night as Raph ruffled your hair and went to sleep. Mikey gave you a big hug and thanked you for the ‘bonker idea’ and made you promise to do it again soon, which you agreed on.

April was already sleeping in the big armchair next to the couch, Casey in a sort of little nest of blankets and pillows at her feet. As you made your way to the couch – your makeshift bed for the night – Donnie was passed out cold on it already. And, boy, does he takes up a lot of space.

You felt a hand on your shoulder and turned to see Splinter standing next to you. "I’m sure he wouldn’t mind you borrowing his bed for the night. "

"I– are you sure ? "

"He stole yours. He’ll live. " A gentle smile tugged at his lips as he guided you to your friend’s room, offering you a spare blanket and pillow. "Have a good night, Y/N. You know where to find me if you need anything."

”Thank you, Master Splinter.” You can feel your eyelid close on their own, and decide to finally call it a night. You got settled as best you could in the bed, and fell asleep as soon as your head hit the pillow.

A warm breakfast would await you in the morning.

[kkoumiii]

My Solar Return Experience ☼

Since today is my solar return/birthday, I wanted to share with you my analysis on my previous solar return chart so as to help you better understand how to read yours! 🥳🎉

⤠ Leo Rising (10°): As cliché as it might sound, I experimented a lot with my hairstyle this year and I took a lot more care of my hair overall! For the first time in my life, I dyed my hair twice and now it looks a lot more… flamboyant! I also learnt to love myself a bit more each day, and I can say that I’m more confident than I used to be! (it’s still a work in progress tbh hahaha). I specially strived on radiating a glowing and warming aura, I wanted to spread love and kindness around me. I also tried to experiment more my creative side and did a lot of inner work with my inner child.

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⤠ Leo Rising falling in my 9H (natal chart): I focused soooo much on my studies because I wanted to go to South Korea for my next semester and I had to get the best grades as possible to do so (spoiler alert: at the time I’m writing this, I just found out I’ve been selected, I’m thrilled!!!). And since I’m majoring in foreign languages, I mostly focused my attention on improving my languages skills! I’m fascinated by foreign languages and cultures, so I kept learning more about them and started to think about my future goals. This was specially reinforced because I had my Sun & Venus in 9H in Aries, plus my chart ruler (Leo Rising & Sun) in 9H too for this year.

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⤠ Sun (2°) & Venus (1°) in 9H Aries: I can say that I took a step back about some of my worries and as a result, I feel wiser and somehow more relax to some extent. I also drew more attention and got many compliments throughout this year (the combo of Sun conjuct Venus). Lastly, I made a new friend (she’s Korean = Venus in 9H) thanks to a language exchange program launched by my university (the combo in Aries 9H).

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⤠ Moon (12°) in 12H Cancer: So this one was a bit particular since I originally have a Cancer Moon in 12°. Like I already mentioned with my Leo Rising, I’ve done a lot of inner work, I healed my inner child and part of my traumas. I had plenty of alone time to do so, I meditated, focused on me, myself, and I. I very much needed it and it helped me understand better who I am. It was a relief after the huge identity crisis I’ve gone through the previous year (Sun in 12H at this time).

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⤠ Mercury (9°) & Neptune (21°) in 8H Pisces: I deconstructed my initial beliefs and thought process throughout this year. It has been like a spring cleaning in my mind hahaha. It was a real roller-coaster, it felt like I had no time to rest because I had to go through lots of disillusionments and reassess everything, but it really enlightened me. I started my healing journey so much more ready than before, I wanted a fresh new start for me. I wanted to release myself from all the unnecessary burdens I was carrying and while it was a scary process since I was stepping out of my comfort zone, I feel so much better nowadays. And I experimented my spirituality in a brand-new way, I got more in touch with my spirit guides and received many unexpected blessings.

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⤠ Mars (10°) conjuct North Node (13°) in 11H Gemini: I wanted to give my time away for greater good, therefore I decided to volunteer in an association built up to help young children and teenagers feel better at school, learn new competences and gain more confidence in themselves. Even though it has its ups and downs, it’s a good experience and I feel happy to be helpful and comforting to someone who needs it. On another topic, I also went to more parties than usual (I’m a very introverted person sooo it’s a big deal to me) and few of my old friends I lost contact with came back into my life.

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⤠ Saturn (10°) & Jupiter (21°) in 7H Aquarius: Just because you have planets in your 7H doesn’t mean you will date someone BUT I definitely had some… interesting experiences with some people, let’s put it that way 🤡 At least, I have plenty of funny anecdotes to tell and I’ve learnt my lessons (here is your combo of Saturn and Jupiter in the same house). The 7H represents the others in general tho, and this year, I’ve met many souls with whom I share the same vibrations, one of them being someone I consider as a mentor and I admire deeply, I had many eye-opening experiences thanks to these people.

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⤠ Uranus (8°) & Lilith (19°) in 10H Taurus: I had a huuuge crisis when it comes to my future career. I’m still studying but I think a lot about what will come next and it’s stressing me out a lot because having no plans = insecurity to me. I was reconsidering what I should do and exploring different paths. I didn’t find any settled answer though, so I just decided to go with the flow and see what the future holds for me. Sometimes, it’s better to let go (Lilith is here for a reason). I also reappraised my goals and made some research to get a broader vision on what I could do next.

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⤠ Pluto (26°) in 6H Capricorn: Yay I did feel this one to some extent. I had to change some habits and create new ones. I obsessed a bit over my diet but I’m getting over it gradually… Since it was the first time I had to live by myself far from my family for a long period of time, I had to create a new routine and focus on my daily life with all its ups and downs, but my alone time (Moon in 12H Cancer + Mercury in 8H Pisces) helped me get used to it. Without surprise, I worked a l-o-t and I was worn out at some point but I reached my goals!

More observations:

⤠ I had Vertex and Juno in 5H Sagittarius, suggesting a fated meeting. Like I said, I met someone I consider as a mentor (Sagittarius + Juno sextile Jupiter). This person is a medium (Juno square Neptune) and someone I connected instantly with because we share many similar personality traits (Vertex square Sun & Venus). We talked about my future career (Juno trine MC), my love life (Vertex square Venus) and my energy overall with my life path (Vertex square Sun). Please note that this is a raw interpretation and you can interpret these aspects in so many different ways!

⤠ I started the year by procrastinating a lot because I felt stuck and had a hard time pulling myself together. So my challenge for this year was to overcome my critical inner voice and my mind (North Node square Mercury) by becoming more assertive and taking actions (North Node conjuct Mars), and thus restructuring my life and remaining disciplined while focusing on my goals (North Node trine Saturn).

⤠ Mars conjuct my natal Saturn: I had to refocus my attention on what was essential, organise my day-to-day life and use my time and energy wisely so I could be more effective and take decisions that will benefit me more on the long run.

⤠ I decided to go through this huge transformation after that the harmony in my home environment (Libra IC) had fallen apart and everything had to be rebuilt with new but stronger and better foundations (IC in 22° of Capricorn).

⤠ Fire and Air + Cardinal Dominance: I had to fight and get over (Fire) my inner demons and my limiting beliefs (Air) in order to regain control of my life (Cardinal).

⤠ I had many Capricorn and Sagittarius degrees, emphasising my focus on studies to get my degree and go abroad.

I won’t go any further but I hope it will help you get the tools to better grasp your own Solar Return Chart! Obviously there are many more elements to analyse but if you have questions about yours, my inbox is opened! 🎆

I can’t wait to see what this new year has in store for me… We’ll see! Lots of love 🧡

- kkօմตííí ❁

[astroyongie]

Does tumblr delete my ask?? Okay I'm sending you my ask again in case you haven't received it.

Hello! I want to share with you something. I hope you'll notice this because u haven't noticed most of my asks before

Actually I'm having dreams about an Idol and maybe you're gonna assume because I'm a fan of him but that is not the case! I'm not that kind of fan who swoon over some celebrity or talk about them all time or stuff like that. I just like to listen to his music and appreciate his work and yeah attracted to him (I like all of the group members but I specially feel attracted to him). I dreamt of him in most random times when I doesn't even had a single thought about him and those dreams are so vivid and seems real. Like really REAL! and most of dreams I have is in either in early mornings or at afternoons. I have different kind of dreams and he appears from nowhere else and when I least expected it, sometimes he stays the whole time sometimes just for some moments. And whenever he appears, he always gave me a smile (that's so sweet at the same time weird also), sometimes very close to me (physical touch) sometimes not. Even in my nightmares, he appears sometimes, it's crazy!!

Then I did calculate our synastry chart and found out that I have my sun in his 12H and he has his moon in my 8H. That kind of makes sense ig. It does effect me even if I haven't met the person yet! So, if I ever get to meet him, is this also gonna effect him in any way? I know those two houses are really powerful and the power they hold is intense but also he is a celebrity who meet so many people on daily basis but still I want to know will this synastey placement make him feel like he "wants to know more about that person?" IDK if it sounds stupid or not but I'll appreciate it if you answer my question.

Thank you.

Dreams are complicated to interpret since the science behind it is still under discovery. At first sight it only seems that your subconscious took his appearance as a smoothing presence in your dreams. Usually dreaming with people is 80% no meaning behind it, unless it’s an entity or an energy that took possession (but that’s another thing and it doesn’t seem it’s your case!)

Now about your other question, I honestly don’t really know what to answer to that, simply because I have no verifiable answer to it. Everything could be possible but it’s also important to keep ourselves grounded or psychic fantasies take over.

[noirapocalypto]

2H, 4H, 8H for you!

Thank you!! @freckledsweetpea 💕💕💕

From this astrology ask game.

2H ⇢ do you have any object that you like a little too much? what is it and why?

If I had to pick, it would be my mineral/rock collection. I haven't added anything new lately, but I'm very attached to them since it was one of the hobbies I started getting into and brought me out of my deep several year long depression I was in during my early-mid twenties.

If we're going with a single object though though, probably this tapestry poster of a Japenese wrestler I like that I got during my trip to Dallas. It was my first trip ever, and my first trip alone no-less, plus my first time on a plane. I also got to hang out with my two best friends whom I've been online friends with for 10+ years. So while I really like the poster a lot, it also reminds me of a lot of firsts I got to do. It was my first taste of being independant and branching out. It means a lot to me.

4H ⇢ which relatives are you the closest with?

None honestly 😂I don't have strong relationships with any of my relatives, aside from my parents and my sister. But if I had to pick, probably my aunt since I work with her and we became pretty good friends.

8H ⇢ what do you consider red flags in a relationship?

Putting this answer under a readmore, just in case 😅

TW: Manipulation?

Oof, a lot, actually. And it took me having to experience them for myself to consider them red flags. I had this long distance thing going with someone when I was around 23. It started out fine, he was super chill, very open minded, very sweet and funny. Then he just did a whole turn out and he turned out to be an religious zealot and close-minded conservative in the middle of our 'relationship'. So suddenly, everything that he claimed he was okay with about me was suddenly a problem.

My tattoos were a problem (he flipped his shit when he found out I was getting another one). My lack of religion was suddenly a problem (he kept pushing his religion onto me and pretty much implied that if he was going to be with me, I NEEDED to convert) and culturally, my identity became a problem too. He kept making jokes that he would just tell people I was part of his culture rather than Mexican, which is what I am.

Basically, he was embarrassed of everything that made me 'me', and only liked me because I looked how he wanted. It got to the point where literally all he talked about was my body and the only compliments he gave me was about my figure. He even got extremely upset when I told him to stop because it upset me and he did the "FINE I GUESS I WON'T COMPLIMENT YOU ANYMORE" bs.

Plus he pretty much did everything his parents wanted him to do, so there was clearly that. He kept me a secret because he knew his parents wouldn't approve of me.

A HUGE red flag that I learned over time is being threatened to be dumped until I give what they wanted. Which is what he did a lot. He kinda honed in on my abandonment issues and whenever I did or said something he disliked, he would threaten to leave me or cut contact with me (this was during a period of my life where I literally had no one else to talk to and I was extremely lonely) until I caved and apologized to him or just went along with what he wanted.

Another would be being told to hide parts of myself or being told to change to fit what they want.

I regret wasting those years with that individual, but at least I know what to look out for and what to avoid now.

[mickgaydolenz]

for awhile i couldn't really pinpoint exactly how to describe Peter's 4H stellium in Aquarius . "home is where the heart is" is a phrase i attached to it and still do believe in as it rings true, since he's capable of making a home out of any place, with anyone, especially if its for the greater good (Aquarius = humanitarian)! but i was missing something else that's very integral not just to his personality, but his entire life timeline. and then i finally had the epiphany.

sorry in advance that i have to talk about Mike in a Peter post it almost feels kinda blasphemous, but it's for cross-referencing purposes; Mike has absolutely zilch placements in his 4H and Peter has his stellium there.

you see, when Mike was in his post-monkees 70's struggle era -- and despite being the most successful, let's face it, he was also going thru a struggle era of his own -- instead of humbly taking himself down off the podium and connecting with the common people, he decided that No, Actually, I'm Going To Become The Most Influential And Interesting Person Ever... which he did, no lies detected. but when you stop to consider the fact that he stopped, or at least halted production on, making country music and diving headfirst into other new music territories, the empty 4H is now speaking. for a loooong long time, he did not want to talk about his past, his time with the monkees, and so on & so forth, without it being a factory-made copy of the same story as a way to go around it; Mike's special way of speech. i feel that having that empty 4H was simply like a ghost calling out to him, asking him to recognize this permanent place within his life as he continued to ignore or dodge it. i theorize his 12H had something to do with his eventually return to the monkees and becoming just a little more emotionally open, but that's a discussion for another time.

now on the flipside: when Peter was in his post-monkees 70s struggle era, he had to endure a lot of things mentally, emotionally, and physically. instead of taking the route that the other three were doing, and unlike Mike, he took himself down the podium and connected with the common people. not only that but he basically went back to normal living within society as he once did, and still pursued music despite struggling to get it off its feet -- it wouldn't surprise me if he'd once said something along the lines of "music is my lifeforce". having his Sun, Moon, Mercury (Rx), Venus (Rx) and asteroid Ceres (off-shoot of the Moon) were really important to this time in his life, even if it wasn't his profection year it's weight in his chart had a major impact on his philosophy of life. you can feel it when you hear or read him talk about it. its a good thing his Moon, Mercury and Venus were in trine to his Jupiter in Gemini 8H, the planet of belief and faith, in the house of crisis (rehab & AA!), as well as his Moon and Venus in trine to his Vertex in Gemini 8H, the placement of fate & destiny. but on the other side of the coin, it came at a cost of his POF in Scorpio 1H, because his Moon, Venus and Mercury square it. but as we all know, he got his life together by the 80s, which came with so much more than he bargained for but in a good way! and he DESERVED it. he had to learn huge lessons from this house in his lifetime and he successfully did! ...at least i hope!

im starting to think i have autism /gen

no, no, no, no kale you are SO right about all of this holy shit. uh yeah i can’t even like add anything because no this is exactly true, like man you nailed this (autism powers are so amazing 💖)

[nettlestingsoup]

sun, mars, jupiter, uranus, neptune, 3H, 7H, 8H, 9H for the astrology ask game :D <3

evy! my internet is finally functional enough to answer this! gonna speed run it before it goes down again asdfsjdf <3

sun: i like my determination to always find something positive in things; i think my face is pretty nice, especially my bone structure and my eyes; i like my willingness to try new things and push myself to find things i enjoy despite my anxiety; i like the fact that i always try to help and make people feel better; i like the way i dress, and my slightly old-fashioned sense of style!

mars: i'm really, really bad at starting conversations, so i tend to prefer when other people approach! once i'm properly comfortable with someone i'll start conversations, but that often takes a long, long time for me.

jupiter: i'm insanely lucky; a lot of things have really fallen into place for me over the last five years, which i'm very grateful for!

uranus: so, so, SO many things, but in particular i think there needs to be a lot more early education about (or at least casual exposure to) lgbt+ stuff. it's getting better than it was when i was a teenager, but it would save a lot of young people a great deal of pain and anxiety if they knew about different gender identities etc BEFORE they started feeling uncomfortable in their gender or sexuality. i know it would have helped me a lot.

neptune: i'm a pretty rational person; i find my intuition can change depending on my mood, whereas if i puzzle something out rationally i'll often get the same answer multiple times. i'm a scientist through and through.

3H: lots of things! ecology is always one, especially ecosystem engineers. my coworker made the mistake of asking me if i thought we should reintroduce bears to the uk and i went off on a whole tangent about the yellowstone wolves. i also LOVE talking about animated media (currently obsessed with arcane) and the symbolism and work that's often put into it. also gender identity! it's such a beautiful and complex thing that's so hard to put into words sometimes, but it's rewarding to talk about.

7H: biggest green flag in a relationship (or friendship) is probably a willingness to engage with interests that aren't shared; does someone just brush you off when you talk about something they're not into, or do they encourage you and express interest because they know you love talking about it? do you do the same for them, even if you have no clue what they're on about? a cornerstone of a lot of my friendships is a willingness to listen to each other talk about things. my friends know a lot about all my podcasts that they don't listen to. i know a lot about their favourite video games and tv shows, even if i don't play/watch them. it's a love language.

8H: a red flag would probably leaning too heavily on your friend/partner. it's ok to expect them to help and comfort you, but if one person is bearing the full brunt of your bad moods/issues without you ever giving them anything back, that isn't fair. i've had friends before who've just used me as a dumping ground for all their negative emotions, and it goes from 'that's ok, the fact that they rely on me means they trust me' to 'the fact that they rely on me all the time is exhausting and hurtful' very, very quickly.

9H: british sign language! i don't think enough people know it, and it could help a lot of people out to have more people who can sign/understand sign language even if they themselves aren't deaf.

thank you for the ask! i'm sorry it took so long! <3