#tw: programming

[the-hydra-sys]

Saw it on your spam, but "transprogrammer" and "transprogrammed" is exactly what it sounds like: radqueers who think they were meant to be/want to be programmed/a programmer

We saw this but have been letting it sit in our askbox for a while because. Jesus Christ /neg.

[system-vent]

So. Vent about systems cringe. We ended up getting posted there and it was mostly our alter intros. Which whatever. And we just wanna vent since the person we usually speak to for comfort and venting isn't awake right now. Obvs we know systems cringe sucks and they're all just assholes and ableists.

But the fact that they completely misconstrue our words. First it was a joke we made about our programming as we had come out of a breakdown and ranted about it (we are a tbmc survivor) and then now it was our alter intros and like one or two of our light hearted posts. Pretty relieved they didn't post our very angsty rants that DO dig into trauma. They acted like we were making a mockery of the disorder because it's actually suffering because they specifically chose our cutesy alter intros and our very few recent light hearted posts.

I knew it would only be a matter of time before they found us. Makes us paranoid since we have a history of harassment. Even if our profiles weren't shown, our accounts still feel easy to find and stuff.

The biggest thing is how faceless these asshats are. I would love to just fucking block them and never have to worry, but no. So they can just have access to all of us and post it to mock us.

We aren't shocked we eventually got posted and despite our paranoia, we have no intentions of stopping. It's our one safe outlet that gets the thoughts out of our head and allows us to cope with a lot of stuff. Which none of this is new for places like systems cringe or fake disorder cringe. It's just pathetic really. Assuming so much about someone based on a cutesy aesthetic-ish bio they made for their alters to feel seen and all of that.

Plus the assumption all of our alters were programmed or we said that. The only time we put "programmed alters" in tags is when it is talking about a specific alter. We say we are a programmed system and a tbmc survivor. The alters we allow and are okay with being seen are ones not intrinsically linked to programming or our trauma, usually fictives. Pretty sure we even said that in one of the posts, but our memory might be wrong.

You just gotta love people wanting to simply attack mentally ill people that don't fit their idea of what a disorder should look like and for posting happiness. We feel like shit posting dark shit all the time even though our system accounts are for that. So us posting silly posts gets us posted to systems cringe apparently. Shocker. And the fact we have 0 control is triggering to us in many ways

Ultimately we'll be fine. Our accounts are nothing more than essentially journals and we've come a long way since first starting to exist openly as a system. I'm used to people making assumptions about us based on our bios and stuff. We've flat out faced people assuming we were abusive for our disorders so we don't ultimately mind even if it is triggering.

It really is just pathetic. Truly. I don't remember why we ended up on the subreddit again. We were looking at something else and happened to trail onto it. But whatever.

Also a lot of our programmed alters are not ever going to be publicly named or ones more personal because we cannot guarantee our safety from our abuser. So yeah. Of course stuff is gonna be focused on the alters that are recent or goofy or light hearted.

Just...Just frustrating. Just really need to vent about that cause otherwise we will have repetitive thoughts until we can get it out.

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[citricacidprince]

I noticed that their dynamics were so similar… what if they swapped for a bit

As a treat (For Swansea and Daisuke) and a punishment (For Stan and Soos, but also me, because that shit hurted)

Also, bonus doodle under the cut but be wary of Mouthwashing Spoilers!

[geospiral]

Parasite's paradise

[imaginariumwanderer]

A belated gift for someone. The story is meant to be confusing so I included some explanations at the end

⚠ CW: May contains disturbing imagery and eyestrain Pairings: Jesterlily/shadowlily, implied purelily

Again, this is a birthday gift, the request was jesterlily. Some miscellaneous info:

-This is an alternate setting where smilk and lily ended up making some type of deal. She got the questions, he got the answers, and the rest is history. Smilk didn't kill EF in this scenario.

-Due to the deal, their magics are connected, smilk now can enter lily's dreams which is where the comic took place. He has been doing it repeatedly which is why lily emphasized he has been "coming here again"

-This is my second time drawing lily and vani interacting, when referring to "your friend," smilk is specifically talking about pure vanilla

-Apologies for any mistakes or clumsy dialogues I am certifiably sleep eepy during the quality checking process

[son-of-avraham]

American jews 🤝 Israeli jews

"holy shit, I'm so scared for you in your country - it isn't as bad for me in mine!"

[caffeinat3]

shoutout tumblr for ruining the quality

[creative-clawmarks]

They speak to my soul.

[i-am-but-a-beta-fish]

don't look at me

@the-elder-polls — hello! it is tcs friday, so i wanted to share this piece i made of my ldb road, who enjoys magic, extreme mountain climbing, and never talking about herself, ever. don't worry about it. she's definitely not lying about her name or her age or any significant personal information like that. the mask is just a fashion statement. don't—don't worry about it. 

(she's sixteen. she only started going by road because she thought she got carted to helgen for being an enemy of the thalmor, so when hadvar revealed no one had any idea who she was she was so startled she just blurted out the name of the first thing she saw. which was the road. somehow no one has caught on to the fact that this is a really weird and suspicious name for an altmer to have, even if their parents didn't like them very much. she's come to genuinely prefer it over her original given name, but she's been living in horrible teenage anxiety about it for so long that it hasn't once occurred to her that maybe introducing herself like that at this point is not, in fact, lying, and therefore road does not, in fact, have to feel incredibly guilty about it.

she still does, because she's a emotional disaster masquerading as a functional and mentally stable adult, but she'll get there.

…eventually.)

[ghost-jester-sys]

shout out to programmed / ramcoa systems who...

- can never fully mentally mature

- were made to mature too young

- know and remember nothing or just snippets

- know and remember everything or most things

- can't currently access therapy for safety or personal reasons

- are currently in therapy

[viminoo]

[judgmentbytheh0unds]

you. you made me out to be something special, your prized possession, your protégé, and i trusted you with the deepest parts in my mind.

you just left me like everybody else.

i’ll forever wait for you to return with my collar still intact, じま.

[heavens-roses]

Octocon and RAMCOA survivors

pt: octocon and RAMCOA survivors

cw: RAMCOA, number names

Felt I should share this as I haven't really seen it talked about in system or RAMCOA spaces. When you use Octocon your parts will be attached numbers to each part based off who was created first. While it's likely due to how to code the easiest. it is important to remember that if you are a survivor who has parts who were forced to be called a number, are a survivor who was called a number collectively/bodily, forced to refer to others as numbers or has any trauma related to number names please tread carefully.

I know as a survivor it can be extremely scary not being able to control your name or having anxieties related to not being called your number too. Please know you are not forced to use Octocon just because other people are using it. If plural kit or simply plural work best for you than keep using them. You do not need to switch over and risk your own mental health. Being a survivor who was dehumanized to numbers is horrible and whether you decide to reclaim your trauma or are healing by moving away from it know your triggers are valid.

Know you are never alone in healing your trauma and note this post is for education. This is not to bash in the creators of Octocon nor is it to tell you how to feel about the app/bot. At the end of the day how you find support with yourself is for only you and your system to decide. With thet being said do not interact with this post if you are pro/neu-endo / believe in any form of "plurality" outside of being trauma based. If you are a questioning system, a cdd system who is syscourse unaligned or apathetic you are more than welcome to repost and interact.

[dea011]

dazatsu week D5: danger x BEAST AU

[cccat-in-a-meat-sack]

Top three most insane end0 posts I've ever seen:

This one needs no explaining

It's the last paragraph, plus the "resetting" the system part (PROGRAMMED SYSTEM TERM)

Also needs...no explanation

[meeb-motes]

TW/CW: programming

Programmed and (Program)Cue

requested by @lost-atlantis :P

we tried our very best but the cue one is def based off our programmed members experiences ,,

requests are open !!

-Two