#ugh...writing problems

[gingerdusk]

Looking through possibly the most niche NPCs to figure out who Halsin would get along with well enough to have a relationship with.

So many people are dead.

So. Many.

[agathasvidal]

has anyone considered that agatha may have continued murdering witches because it was her only way to see rio

[jenanigans1207]

I am this close (*fingers touching*) to writing a lengthy, angsty shiguang fic where Lu Guang goes back in time for the who-knows-what-number time to continue to try and save Cheng Xiaoshi.

Except this time, in the last timeline, they had finally managed to stop dancing around that thing between them and actually work it out so they were together. Together together. So Lu Guang goes from being Cheng Xiaoshi's significant other, the one who knows him better than anyone else in the world... to a complete stranger. And this entire time he has to endure staring at the love of his life, knowing that Cheng Xiaoshi will eventually love him back but that love hasn't been enough to save him in the past and might not be enough to save him this time either.

And it's in little things, right? Like Lu Guang making Cheng Xiaoshi's coffee out of habit only for Cheng Xiaoshi to ask him how he knew the way he liked his coffee and Lu Guang remembers that he's not supposed to know Cheng Xiaoshi that well at this moment in time. It's things like watching Cheng Xiaoshi lay on the couch while he plays games on his phone and knowing that in the last timeline, Cheng Xiaoshi would've put his phone down and opened his arms so Lu Guang could come curl up against his side before Cheng Xiaoshi would resume playing and Lu Guang would tease him about losing. But this Cheng Xiaoshi simply bends his knees and moves his feet so there's room for Lu Guang to sit on the opposite side of the couch.

And it's beautiful sometimes too, right? When Cheng Xiaoshi opens up to him, starts to let down his walls and let Lu Guang in the way he has in every timeline previous to this one. The way he somehow manages to surprise Lu Guang and tell him things he never knew, despite the fact that he's gone through this so many times-- reminding him bitterly that this is in fact a different timeline.

And it's just the hollow, gut wrenching ache of having everything he wants right there-- having been given everything he wanted before-- and not knowing if he's going to be able to keep it.

And to be fair, this entire idea started out as a language of flowers fic where Lu Guang, in those initial weeks where they're becoming friends and bonding, sends Cheng Xiaoshi pictures of flowers because Cheng Xiaoshi asks to see some of his photography. And Lu Guang sends him pictures of flowers that mean "I miss you", "I love you", "I'll never forget you". And Cheng Xiaoshi thinks the pictures are beautiful but he doesn't get it, not really-- he can't understand that Lu Guang is bearing his heart to him in a way that is both painful and dangerous if he were to ever figure it out.

And at some point it ends up being suggested that Lu Guang try portraits so he agrees to, only if Cheng Xiaoshi is his subject. Cheng Xiaoshi doesn't think much of it, thinking that he's the only one Lu Guang trusts enough to do something like this with. And then Lu Guang insists on Cheng Xiaoshi wearing a flower crown-- his lame excuse being that he's used to shooting landscape/flowers so this helps bridge the gap. But it's really just an excuse to adorn Cheng Xiaoshi's beautiful face with flowers that essentially translate to "I will never give up on you, I will move mountains and alter the past for you, I will not let anything keep me from you ever again." But of course, Cheng Xiaoshi doesn't know this, either.

And no matter how it ends, Lu Guang will have this photo of Cheng Xiaoshi-- beautiful and wearing a crown of every emotion Lu Guang has for him-- to cling to.

[guavie]

gameplay concept for my nier visual novel fanfiction thing!! i'm making it in renpy and don't rlly understand what i'm doing on the coding side of things but just getting this concept out of my head & semi functioning is rlly exciting for me hehe

[missmorwen]

Me: Showering, minding my own business My brain, narrating Nat's thoughts: Bucky is a walking, talking mausoleum for her Soldier and Natasha resents him for it as much as she loves him for it. He deserves to be Bucky Barnes. Deserves to be happy and at ease and back with his oldest friend. He deserves to not remember the hell that was the Red Room. And if that makes her a little resentful of him for erasing the only man she has loved with her whole heart, that’s no fault of his. She does her best, will do her best, not to take it out on him. She will ignore the awkward silences. Be nothing but polite to him even as it kills her a little inside every time, he looks at her without recognition. He’s happy. That’s all that matters. That’s all that can matter. She just wishes she could believe that and not get her heart ripped out when he calls her Romanoff instead of Natalia. Me: … Me: why Me: Why would you do that to me, brain? Me: That's not the fic I'm supposed to work on, dammit

[gothic--vampyre]

Me, as I try to focus on writing while my bf is looking very delicious scrumtious yum yum on call, so so far away from me:

[sunlitlemonade]

i want to write jason & natalia but head so scattered.....

[the-lampman]

Pros of staying up late writing: Writing

Cons of staying up late writing: I will literally die

Decisions, decisions...

[6gmrnv3hin]

The hardest thing for me as a writer is being my own boss.

I need to set my own deadlines, arrange my schedule, scold myself if I fail to follow the schedule, all while writing and planning a story that I'm terrified I'll never finish.

[jihnari]

this is how i spent my week 🤡 (pure html/css mock of a character's phone notifications)

i added in the "notification settings" and "clear" buttons for accuracy, and then had the terrible thought "but what if the clear button cleared the notifications"

it does that now! i dont want to talk about how long it took to get it to do that. but. it does that now ✨

[neigepomme]

question to those who have selfships.. how did you get past the jdjsndbdjs awkward phase at first because i want to indulge so bad but im still battling the self imposed cringe barrier 💔💔💔💔

[blackrosesandwhump]

You know those times when you want to write, you need to write, everything in you is longing to write...

But you just can't?

Yeahhhh 😓

[pretendthisisaname]

Sure hope this isn't some kind of foreshadowing

[achromatophoric]

Brain: It’s been 5 minutes. Better check that thing you just posted.

Me: Okay!

Brain: Oh look, you left out a keyword near the very end. Tsk. How very sloppy.

Me: CRAP! I’ll just fix it quick. Maybe it hasn’t been reblogged yet.

Brain: *cerebral chortling*

Me:

[lambilegs]

trying so hard to believe in the love I write about

[anotherjheastan]

I really hate when I play out a scene in my head and then when I try to write it, it doesn't flow. Like we've already done this!! Do it again!