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#very grateful i went into this one unaware of everything (all at once)
curiosityjams · 1 year
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FINALLY watched eeaao last night.
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abiiors · 1 year
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for the writing prompt thing 1. with matty <3
Combining 2 asks once again and thanks for the ask, anon ❤️
"Please shut up so I can kiss you."
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Crush pt. 2
Matty is grateful for Hann’s arm around his waist as they all take a deep bow in front of the audience. 
The show is over, the crowd is as loud as it always is and he’s a teensy bit wine drunk. Okay, maybe even a bit more than usual because of how distracted he’s been tonight. He leans into Adam a bit more who supports his weight without question.
‘What’s gotten into you today?’ George whispers in his ear as they walk off the stage. 
‘What?’ Matty slurs, feigning ignorance. He knows exactly what’s gotten into him today. Or rather who, under his skin. 
George simply shrugs and leaves him alone to pluck a cigarette from his pack. 
The small peck on the cheek is still fresh in his mind. It’s barely been three hours, after all. But he feels huffy that he hasn’t seen you even once since the band’s gotten off the stage. He knows you still have a bit more of running around to do, make sure everything’s being disassembled properly but the wine buzzing in his head hasn’t left much space for thoughts. 
He feels moody all of a sudden because what if the reason you aren’t here yet is because you’re busy talking to someone else? The thought of a real, proper good-luck kiss also doesn’t help. And he’s just about to go back inside to find you when he hears footsteps come to a stop behind him. 
‘There you are,’ you smile, ‘I was looking for you.’
All his irritation instantly disappears into thin air as he finds himself grinning. The wine in his blood makes you look even more alluring, which, he doesn’t even know how that’s possible because you’re already, utterly perfect. 
‘Looking for me?’ he suggestively waggles his eyebrows and wonders what’s gotten into him. He should have just pretended to drink the wine. Then he wouldn’t be out here making a fool of himself in front of the girl he fancies. 
‘I know you were a bit nervous before the show, so I came to tell you that you crushed it.’
He’s about to ask what you’re talking about when he remembers his asinine lie from before and wonders if you’re just being kind by ignoring his lie. 
‘Oh well,’ he grins, ‘all because of the good luck kiss, I’m sure.’
He even carefully makes it come across as a joke when all he wants to do is ask for one more. A good job kiss this time. On his mouth. While you stand so close that he can feel all of you pressed up against him. But he has to pull himself back from these thoughts because all that’s going to do is make him horny and make him yearn more. 
‘Oh, that,’ your eyes wander a bit, landing anywhere but on him, ‘sorry if that was a bit too much by the way. I am not usually this friendly and I don’t know what came over me.’
He raises an eyebrow but it’s pretty clear to him that his drunk brain has registered only one part of that sentence. 
I am not usually this friendly
So he is special after all. Or there is something there. 
‘And I am so so sorry if I just completely crossed boundaries. I know I work with you and I know it’s not always appropriate,’ you ramble on unaware of how his face has transformed from grinning to a bit confused to downright smitten. 
‘But I am so glad the show went well and really, I won’t step into your personal space like that again—’
‘Please shut up so I can kiss you,’ he blurts out. Somewhere a sober part of him is screaming at him for being so brash. But the drunk, bold part is winning by a long shot. 
You stop mid-sentence, eyes round, lips parting in surprise and he realises that this is it. It’s really now or never. So he quickly leans forward, wraps his arm around your waist and presses his lips onto yours. 
There’s a horrible, horrible, long moment when nothing happens. When he feels you stiffen up in his arms. When all the thoughts in his head start screaming at once that he has just made the situation very, very awkward. But then your lips move against his; shyly at first, just exploring and slow before you gain enough confidence to grab him by his tie and pull him even closer. 
The first coherent thought that makes it through is that he was right! Your lips do indeed taste like cherry lip gloss and then he feels all the delayed giddiness. 
He cannot believe it took him this long to work up to it and now finally he has you, kissing him back just as eagerly. He cannot believe all it took was being wine-drunk. 
‘Woah,’ you swear softly once you come up for air. ‘Oh my god— We just— I just— Oh my god—’
He cannot even describe in words how adorable he finds it when you sputter. You, who he has seen being in charge, even bossing around the band at times, are flustered. All because of him. And he can’t help but pull you in for another one. 
His heart flutters in his chest, pounds faster than it ever has because this time you don’t miss a beat before kissing him back. Your hands come up to his face, caressing his cheeks softly, then brushing away his curls. 
‘All it took was some wine,’ he muses against your lips. The idea of stepping back is too unbearable at the moment. 
‘Some wine and telling me to shut up,’ you nudge, flicking him on his arm. 
‘Oh darling, I love hearing you talk,’ his lips move once again, placing soft pecks after each word, ‘but I love this even more.’
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babyjakes · 2 years
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for june.
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event | whumptember 2022
prompt | grief
pairing | fiance!ari levinson x reader
warnings | story is very much based on my own experience (read the author's note for more), very heavy topics related to child loss (fic includes early-stage miscarriage with minimal details given but blood is briefly mentioned and delayed grieving. author's note includes some details of my own story, similar in intensity to the fic)- please don't read if these matters are upsetting to you, reader is young-ish (around 20) and ari's age is left up to the reader, full of sadness and also full of love and healing, ari is everything i needed and didn't get, third person pov because it sounded better for whatever reason.
word count | 1,563
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an | this is probably the most personal and vulnerable story i have ever written and posted. i've wanted to write something like this for a while, as writing pieces like these is something i always find a lot of peace and healing in, but it took me a long time to get here. in december of 2021, i had an unexpected miscarriage from an unknown pregnancy. unlike the reader in this story, i went through all of it completely alone. my partner did not know how to support or care for me. i spent the first hours bleeding alone on the floor of the shower. nearly a year later, i have finally healed enough to open up about my experience more on this platform and share this story of reader and a soft, kind, loving ari who is everything i needed and deserved. i hope anyone who has experienced similar loss can find some comfort here. i am asking for everyone to please just hold this story with care. it is very special to me, and i'm taking a big step in sharing it all with you.
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It was the sort of thing she just couldn't have seen coming. She wasn't aware of what was happening until it was already over. And in a way, that seemed to make it a little less terrible. In fact, there were many things she convinced herself were in her favor. She was young for it to be happening. She and her fiance Ari certainly weren't planning or trying for anything. And she had no desire to have a child at that time in her life, she really didn't. So, it was okay. For a while, it was okay.
Of course it had been awful, one of the most terrifying things she had ever experienced. Because she had been unaware of the pregnancy, the sudden deterioration of her body and the beginning of what was really the end had been incredibly jarring. The blood, she had never seen anything like the blood. But once the hours spent curled up in the empty bathtub were over, followed by the week or two of on and off pain, it simply seemed to be just that: over. Life went on, for her and everyone around her.
Ari knew, he was the only one. She had told him after the fact, and when she hadn't seemed interested in having much of a conversation about it, the man decided not to push anything. She was grateful for that; she felt a little strange about not having much to say. She had waves of emotion, weird spells of sadness and sometimes anger. But for whatever reason, whenever she tried to pull apart the feelings to examine their contents, she found that she couldn't. Her doctor, who she had followed up with a few weeks after the fateful night, had warned her about the hormonal shifts she would be experiencing for a while to come. "Your body is designed to care for a child as soon as it exists inside you. When the child dies, your body is designed to mourn."
But for a while, there didn't seem to be much real mourning happening inside of her. Until one quiet morning in early spring, when Ari brought home a simple gift for the baby shower of a friend.
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"Good morning, sleeping beauty," Ari cooed as he entered the kitchen to find y/n sitting at the breakfast table, still in her pajamas with her hair tied back in her usual messy bun. Taking a sip from her mug of coffee, the girl offered a nod and a smile as the tall man came over to plant a kiss on her forehead, a few plastic bags still in hand from his errands.
"Hey you," she hummed, tilting her head up to kiss his chin, "the bed was lonely without you this morning."
"Sorry sweetheart, just wanted to get out to the shops before things got busy. And you looked too comfy to disturb you," Ari murmured lovingly as he took a seat next to his partner, placing his bags up on the light birch table next to her half-eaten plate of eggs and toast.
"Looks like it was a successful run," y/n nodded at the assortment of brands she could barely make out on the plastic carriers. Nodding, Ari began to go through the haul, pulling out what he had found to show her.
"Yeah, for the most part. I couldn't find those replacement beaters you were talking about, but maybe I was looking in the wrong spot. You'll have to come with me next time and we can look together," he rambled. "Did find the right bit for the drill, though. And some of those raspberry gummies you love so much, the confectionary had a big sale sign in its window so I figured I had to stop in."
"You're too sweet, Ari," the girl blushed as her eyes lit up at the little bag of candies.
"Only the sweetest for my sweetheart," the man smiled kindly as y/n took another bite of her toast. "Oh, and I picked up a gift for Kelly's shower. Those baby boutiques are serious danger zones, I swear. Too much cute stuff," Ari chuckled as he nodded at the small white bag from one of the higher-end specialty stores.
"Oh," y/n hummed with a nod, recognizing the brand. "That place does have some nice stuff. I forgot about the shower, it's a good thing you remembered. What'd you find?" she asked casually as she took her last bite of egg.
Reaching his hand into the bag, Ari's face lit up as he pulled out the gift. "Look at this, I just thought it was so precious. Little kitties on the feet and everything," he gushed as he held up the pastel yellow onesie for his fiance to see. Eyes landing softly on the article of clothing, y/n nodded, taking a moment to chew and swallow before placing down her fork, reaching out for the hanger.
"So cute," she nodded in agreement as she looked over the kitten-patterned fabric lovingly, the sheer size of the garment causing her eyes to widen a bit in wonder. "Wow, this little one's gonna be tiny, isn't she?"
"So tiny," Ari echoed, still smiling as she examined his choice, "I know maybe clothing wasn't the best option, since she'll grow out of it fast, but I got a gift card along with it. I just couldn't not get the kitties, y'know?"
Again, the girl nodded. But as she did, what came as a surprise to maybe both of the couple as they sat there together at the kitchen table was the fact that for the first time in maybe months, y/n had begun to cry.
Brow raising in concern, Ari softened his voice. "Sweetheart...?"
Not taking her eyes off the precious gift still held delicately in her hands, y/n's response was barely above a whisper. "Hey Ari?"
"Hmm? What is it, bubba?" the man asked gently, scooting his chair a bit closer to hers and reaching a hand over to rest on her knee comfortingly.
Y/n blinked back what she could of her tears, her voice shaking a little as she responded. "You know, sometimes I..." Her sentence broke, but Ari only nodded patiently. "Sometimes I... sometimes I think of her."
"Who, honey?" he asked carefully.
"Y-you know... ours." As soon as the words left her mouth, Ari was hit with the realization of what she meant. Nodding again, he reached up to wipe at a few of the weeping girl's tears, though they were quickly replaced by more. "I-I don't know why I decided she was a girl. I just... I guess I just always thought she was. Maybe that's silly."
"Not silly, baby," Ari murmured lowly as he kept his tender gaze on her, wanting to show the way he was holding onto her every word, to show he was really listening.
"I guess I... I don't know. Maybe I've decided a lot of things about her without realizing it. She would've been born around June... sometimes, I call her that in my head. June."
"Could've been a Junie," Ari whispered, his voice swelling a little at the word, "that's a beautiful name, sweetheart."
"Junie," y/n nodded, hands shaking as she still held up the tiny onesie in front of the both of them. "I know never really got sad about it, or at least... I never got as sad as I thought I was supposed to be."
"There's no way you were 'supposed to be', y/n," he reminded her. "However you felt, however you feel, is okay and right. It's okay if you weren't as sad in the beginning. It's okay if you're feeling it more now."
"I'm just thinking of her," y/n whispered softly. "I don't know... I don't know why. Sometimes I see baby things, ads for toys or clips from parents online, and I just..." Ari nodded as her voice trailed off, running his hand back over her hair as he listened. "Hey Ari?"
"Yeah, lovebug?"
"Can we..." Sniffling, y/n hesitated. "Could we... I don't know. Maybe this is stupid, but-"
"No sweetheart. Not stupid. Please don't say that," Ari cooed, sincerity shining in his eyes as he told her, "Whatever it is, if it's something that would help you, something that would bring you a little more peace, it's not stupid. Nothing like that could be stupid, baby."
"I was just thinking," she sighed. "Maybe we could go out sometime and buy her a few things? And just... I don't know. We could keep them somewhere, maybe?"
Smiling at the girl as she wiped away the last of her tears, Ari held no hesitation or doubts as he immediately agreed, "Of course we can do that, honey. Anything you want, it's yours. It's hers. Maybe I can make a nice little toy crate for her- y'know, paint her name on it and everything. And we can put it all in there- how's that sound, sweet girl?"
Eyes filling with tears once again, y/n nodded, finally setting the little yellow onesie down on the table before reaching over to collapse against Ari in a hug. Rubbing her back as he kissed the side of her head, the man whispered in her ear again, "Anything you want, baby. Anything for you, and Junie."
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savage-rhi · 2 years
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Higgs. Reader. Fluff. Cute. Soft. uwu. Need cute soft tender feels. Make me wanna puke with the cuteness. This prompt: in a moment where stress and anxiety are running high, the sender tries to ground the receiver by gently guiding them into a hug, resting their foreheads together to steady them.
(Also, please and thank you very much, long time no see 😂)
@astrandofgold bitch I sees you on twitter 😂 BUT VISIT ME MORE ON HERE GOD DAMN IT! Haha! Coming up!
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Y/N panted heavily on their hands and knees. Tears brimmed the corners of their eyes as they gasped. A series of curses escaping their throat as they tried to stabilize themselves. The shock of a BT almost succeeding in killing them had Y/N a mess. All the hairs on their body stood, and their nerves fired up as if they had already been obliterated by the dark. Y/N was beyond petrified as they attempted to pull it together, but to no avail.
"Hey," A deep voice broke through the ringing in Y/N's ears. They swallowed, tensing up as a pair of hands reached for their shoulders.
"What the hell are you doin' out here darlin'?" The gloved fingertips slowly made their way towards Y/N's face and gently pulled their chin up. Coming face to face with a familiar set of blue eyes.
"Higgs?" Y/N breathed out, surprised that he was out in the middle of a BT infested area. At first Y/N thought him to be a hallucination, but the touch to their face as he tucked a strand of hair behind Y/N's ear had them second guessing. Whatever the case or his reasons, Y/N was grateful to Higgs for showing up.
"Higgs--I can't move. I can't, I'm too scared--the BT almost," Y/N breathed out, their shoulders tensing as hushed murmurs escaped his throat. His arms snaked around Y/N's trembling form, pulling them into a tight embrace. One that radiated with care and a sense of protection.
"Shh, shh, I gotcha." Higgs murmured against the skin of Y/N's forehead. He was gently rocking them back and forth. Much like he had done for fellow porters in the past when he himself was one. Before he became a terrorist. Something Y/N remained unaware of.
"Steady, steady. Alright?" Higgs whispered, his forehead pressing to Y/N's as he watched them close their eyes tight. Their breathing attempting to sync with his own. He could recall when he was a kid, how he had gotten close to BTs and his body reacted violently with panic. As much as he tried to hide it, Higgs's heart went out to Y/N. Understanding very well what they were going through.
"Ya'll got the case of the BT Shock. It'll pass, I promise. C'mon, 'lets get you outta here before those ugly bastards show up again." Higgs coaxed Y/N to rise on their feet. His arms and hands supporting them as Y/N shivered. They leaned against him, hands grasping where they could for fear that if Higgs had slipped away, they too would perish.
Out of the way, and now residing in a safe house, Higgs held Y/N tightly to his chest as they sat on the edge of a bed. He swallowed nervously. Not used to affectionate touch in the slightest. He felt his body wanting to retreat out of self preservation, yet he remained. His forehead once again nuzzled and pressed to Y/N's.
Higgs hated this. The effect one person had on him. How they got under his skin and had him giving a shit. Second guessing everything he had worked hard to accomplish on behalf of his EE, his goddess.
"I ain't lettin' her harm you." Higgs murmured.
Y/N was unsure what he meant by his statement. A tremor ran down through their spine at how serious Higgs's tone was. Nevertheless, it didn't matter. Y/N felt safe again.
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casspurrjoybell-24 · 2 months
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My Unwanted Mate - Chapter 5 - Part 2
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*Warning Adult Content*
Nathan Briar
Aggressively spreading butter on toast, I made sure my eyes didn't once stray from the plate in front of me.
Tatum was unaware of my mood.
Of course he was, seeing as how the male beside him had all of his attention.
Tatum just couldn't stop giggling.
The pack lawyer wasn't even funny.
We should be planning our date... the date I had to beg our mate for.
The mate the Moon Goddess picked for us... the mate we've been trying to get close to for the past few weeks.
"You're too cute," the lawyer's chuckle grated on my nerves.
I wanted to stab him in the eye with my butter knife.
That very knife was instead slammed down onto my plate, the noise from it being unnecessarily loud.
The room seemed to quiet down, eyes turning to me.
I wasn't fazed. Instead, I was busy trying not to kill the guy who had the nerve to so openly flirt with one of my mates
I couldn't let him know I was bothered though, I'd rather stab myself than let some lowly wolf think they were worthy enough to get under my skin.
"He's a darling, isn't he?" I smiled slightly, resting my chin on my hand.
Tatum was already blushing under the attention.
Moon Goddess, he could be so oblivious, so naive.
I reached over to brush a curl out of his face, our eyes locking for a short moment before he dropped his gaze bashfully.
The lawyer cleared his throat and turned back to his food.
I preened, thinking I had won and the male would fuck off.
I was sorely mistaken.
"Did you have any plans for today?"
"What was your name again? Patrick?"
"Parker," he corrected me, eyes narrowing slightly.
I just smirked.
"Well, Packer, Tate and I have things to do today."
"Nate," Tatum whispered, surprised by how rude I was being.
"I was actually asking Tatum."
Both of us turned to my twin expectantly.
I waited patiently for my sweet Tatum to find the most polite words he could think of to let this idiot down gently.
There was no way he'd agree to do anything with this Peter.
Not when we had only today to plan our date with our mate.
"Um... well. I-I don't have anything to do actually."
My chair scooted back as I jumped slightly in surprise.
I must've heard wrong but Tatum wouldn't meet my eyes though.
Looking up, I was rudely reminded of the rest of the tables' occupants.
They quickly adverted their gaze, pretending they hadn't been watching with interest only seconds ago.
They're nothing but a bunch of nosy bastards.
I wanted to scream at them but refrained and instead pushed myself away from the table.
I half expected Tatum to call me back or get up and follow.
He did neither... only souring my mood further.
Stomping up the stairs to our room, I tried to think up reasons why Tatum would want to even hang out with that slimy wolf.
We don't even know him.
But I know exactly what he wants from my Tatum... I wouldn't allow it.
He's mine and Calvin's.
Instead of planning an elaborate date with my mates, I instead sat in our room and worried about my twin.
Only the Moon Goddess knows what that wolf could be getting him into.
If Tatum was returned with a hair out of place... I'll call Daddy.
Yeah, that's what I'll do.
Distracting myself, I sat on the floor in front of our closet and did the tedious task of straightening things up.
I was amazed by the clothing I found that I forgot we even owned.
When did we buy matching Hello Kitty shirts?
Maybe we could wear them tomorrow.
That's if we went out... I wasn't so positive with how Tatum has been these last few days.
His behavior was so unusual and unlike us.
Our whole life we've done everything together.
When we were younger, it had gotten so out of hand that if we'd even be separated for mere minutes we'd throw tantrums so bad even Momma would give in and keep us together.
It was a twin thing the elders told us.
When the room was cleaner than I'd ever attempted to make it, I sat on the bed in a loss.
What was I supposed to do without Tatum?
Everything seemed so boring.
After coming to the conclusion that I'm a grown male and don't need my twin to function properly, I changed my clothes and left our room in search of a distraction.
What I found was the Luna.
"Nathan," The petite male smiled brightly at my appearance before he tripped over air and landed on his ass.
Shocked, I rushed over to him and helped him up onto his feet.
He brushed me away not at all concerned that he'd fallen, like it was a normal occurrence.
"I'm fine. I promise."
Taking his word for it, I let it go and wandered around the room aimlessly.
"Tatum's gone," I sulked, staring at a picture of the Luna and Alpha, who I was positive was wearing a pink suit.
"He left me to do whatever he's doing with that Paterson guy."
"Paterson?" Torin's head tilted to the side like a confused pup.
"Oh, Parker? He's kinda still new to the pack but Robert knows him and he's really nice," the Luna praised him.
"It's also nice having a lawyer in the pack."
I hummed, unhappy about the whole ordeal.
My mate chose a stranger over me.
"I'm glad the two of you are making friends."
When I didn't respond, Torin crawled onto the couch and watched me over the back.
"Anyways, my mom wanted me to invite the two of you to dinner tonight."
My eyes widened and I finally paused in my pacing.
Our mother in-law invited us to dinner?
'What? Why? Was this a good sign?'
Torin laughed loudly, finding humor in whatever expression I wore.
I think it was horror... It felt like horror.
Even though I'm pretty sure Calvin's parents already know we're mates, this could be the official introduction.
Of course, there was nothing to really be scared of.
Tatum and I are both perfectly sane and pretty males.
That didn't stop my thoughts from going haywire however.
By time Tatum returned, it was too late... I'd already lost my fucking mind.
All the time I'd spent cleaning the room had been wasted.
The closet was now empty, every article of clothing and expensive shoes were thrown carelessly around the room.
He found me on the floor in tears, strangling a sparkly scarf that I hated.
'Why? I'm not sure myself but I hate it.'
I sniffled, looking up at him before burying my face in the sparkly fabric to sob pitifully.
"What's wrong? What happened?"
"Everything," I cried.
Nothing was going right.
Our pack doesn't want us, our mate doesn't want us and now Tatum doesn't want me.
Tatum tugged on my arms, trying to uncover my face but I refused, pushing him away and falling back onto the floor to bury my face in a pile of clothes.
My twin didn't give up though, persistent in trying to get me to talk to him.
I hated crying and it feels that's all I've been doing.
"I want to go home," I finally ceded, turning my head so he could hear me.
It wasn't the whole truth but it was the only one I wasn't too embarrassed to admit.
"We will, Darling."
I shook my head, knowing we couldn't, not yet at least.
"But we have Calvin," I sniffled.
"And his mom invited us over for dinner tonight."
"What?"
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lilolpotato · 4 years
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Chemicals
In which Miya Atsumu slowly poisons his girlfriend’s mind, and Suna Rintaro gives her the antidote
Warnings: Toxic behavior, body shaming, like 2 swear words
Genre: ANGST
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At first it was small. That’s how it always starts, really.
You both had started dating recently, and you were in the honeymoon phase.
He would constantly make you blush, never failing to compliment you.
“Princess! If you were an angle you would be an aCUTE angle” he would wink, before hugging you and telling you how beautiful you looked that day.
Maybe it was wishful thinking or naivety, but those days you thought you both would never break up.
You spent summer nights in his muscular arms, dreaming about how handsome he would look in a suit, about the words he would say as you’re getting married, about how his face would look when he sees you in your wedding dress.
You got late on your way to the gym, he was going to walk you home like always.
You decided to just buy him a snack instead of making one like you would usually
His eyebrows creased in disappointment when you handed him the snack you bought
“You seriously bought it?”
Atsumu was too consumed in taking out his frustrations to notice your eyes growing sad
But he played it off like a joke later, and apologized.
He made excuses that he was tired from practice, or that he was frustrated with his last test grade
“Sorry princess, I swear I didn’t mean it. You know I’m grateful for how supportive you are!” He whined, “I love you, I wouldn’t change you.”
With a kiss on the lips, the incident was forgotten.
The next time he got angry was when you were late to a date
Your were stuck at the store, getting yourself some band-aids because you fell and it was bleeding, but the line was very long
It wasn’t an anniversary or an important or particularly expensive place, but it still made him angry.
You walked in half an hour late, bruises and scrapes all over your arms and legs looking like you’d just gone through hell, with a smile
You expected your Tsumu to fuss over you, give you kisses, and tell you everything was gonna be okay.
“Is this you trying to get me back for getting mad at you when you bought me that shitty snack instead of making me something? You know, all of my past girlfriends would make me delicious bentos and take care of me the right way.”
Your face dropped.
He dragged his hands through his golden hair, and the eyes that you fell in love with became eyes you were intimidated by
That day you cleaned your wounds on your own, trying to tell yourself that he shouldn’t have been that angry
But when you looked inside your heart, all you found was love and guilt.
The next day at his practice, you brought a bento you had spent hours working on, bandaids everywhere and your Tsumu apologized and moved on.
“Sorry babe, I was frustrated with practice. Love ya, bye.” He said nonchalantly.
A peck on the lips and the incident was forgotten.
You sat at the bench cheerfully, watching the team, happy that your problems were ‘solved’
Fox-like eyes noticed all your scrapes and bruises, and he sat next to you during breaks in practice, the same breaks Atsumu used to talk to his teammates and fan girls, and he asked you if you were okay.
While your Tsumu should have been consoling you, Suna was fussing over you, telling you everything was going to be okay, as your fake cheerful attitude dropped. His fists clenched as you tearfully admitted how Atsumu felt about your shortcomings as an s/o
That day, and the days after that, Suna Rintaro acted more like a boyfriend than your Tsumu did, despite your Rin only being your best friend.
Atsumu would say, “Babe, are you wearing make up? You know I like your natural look.”
And your Rin would assure you, “You look stunning no matter what you put on your face” with a tiny grin and adoring eyes.
“Hey, princess? Can you put on some make up? Your skin is looking irritated today.” Atsumu would advise.
Your Rin would disagree, shaking his head, “Even if your skin ‘looks irritated’ or whatever, who said that’s a bad thing? You should put whatever you want on your face, sweetheart, don’t listen to him.” And you would tease your Rin for being cheesy.
Atsumu would look at you in surprise,“You can’t fit into the dress I bought you? Maybe you should lose some weight, my ex was a size zero, but don’t worry, I won’t expect you to get there in a day!”
Your Rin would tell you, “I think you look beautiful, size 0 or size 100! Is there a size 100?” You would laugh together as he grumbled that talking to you was making him lose brain cells.
His foxlike eyes watched you, as he admitted to himself that he would make himself look stupid however many times if it made you laugh like that.
Atsumu would critique, “You should eat more. You’re looking pale these days, it’s kind of bothering me.”
And your Rin snapped at him that day, saying “I think your girlfriend can very much choose what she wants to put in her body.”
Atsumu only shrugged and continued munching on the bento you had painstakingly made for him
Your Rin looked at his bento in envy
Osamu would only give you a small apology whenever he heard Atsumu say something mean to you.
He didn’t know you very well, but he did know that you didn’t deserve to be treated like that. However, he wasn’t aware of how often Atsumu would insult you.
As the days went by, you noticed a difference between your Tsumu and Atsumu.
Atsumu hurt you. Atsumu scolded you for your mistakes. Atsumu made you question whether you were good enough to be his girlfriend.
Your Tsumu would never make you feel that way. To your Tsumu, you were a treasure, and he was grateful to keep you.
You and your Rin were walking on the grounds, because Atsumu was mad at you again.
“You’re talking to Suna too often!” He had huffed angrily, “Don’t be such a slut! He’s my best friend, don’t lead him on like that. Are you cheating on me?”
You convinced yourself that things will get better, that it was only Atsumu’s insecurities making him angry and hurtful so often.
The final dose of poison was when he fed some of the bento you had made to one of his fangirls.
They had asked for a taste, eyes sparkling, taking about how Atsumu and Osamu always had the best bentos.
So Atsumu took the chopsticks he was using, the same ones that his lips were on, and used it to feed that girl.
He was unaware that you were tearfully watching, your Rin at your side, your heart officially broken.
You walked up to him, asking him how could you do that, how could you hurt me like this?
But he scowled angrily, and those eyes, the same eyes you were once in love with, the eyes you were scared of, glared at you with so much hatred your knees almost went weak.
And after he said, “So now ya understand how it feels?” in such a petty way, the tears you’ve been holding back for so long finally came bursting forth, and so you told him, “I’m done.”
His eyes widened in realization, and before he could say anything, you finally stood up for yourself.
Because then, you told him what he’d been doing to you as the fangirl and your Rin, your currently seething Rin, watched.
“You’re poison, Miya Atsumu. You tell me to lose weight, so I starve myself. You tell me I’m a slut, that I’m not good enough. You’ve told me that I’m not pretty enough without make up, that I shouldn’t wear make up. I foolishly followed because I loved you!” You stomped your foot in frustration of your past actions.
And you walked away.
You walked to your Rin, the one who treated you how you deserve to be treated.
Because you deserve better.
Atsumu only watched helplessly as your Rin put his muscular arm around you, as you leaned on his chest, as you walked away.
Miya Atsumu isn’t the one who gets dumped, he’s the one doing the dumping.
He tried to convince himself, delude himself that it wasn’t his fault but he knew it was.
Tears fell from his once scary eyes, years later, as he looked at the wedding invitation.
You’re invited to the wedding of L/n Y/n and Suna Rintaro
He never deserved you, he poisoned you, and now that the poison doesn’t have anywhere to go, it ended up consuming him.
Miya Atsumu, professional volleyball player and playboy, sat in the corner of his apartment with sobs racking his body as he cried over his mistakes and everything he’s lost.
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rcksmith · 3 years
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Spring breeze — Spencer Reid
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Sumarry: Spencer never thought about falling in love with someone, but he certainly didn't expect that he would fall in love with Gideon's daughter. — season 3 —
Part.2 Part.3 Part.4
A/N: I am marathoning Criminal Minds again and I can not express how much I loved the interaction of Gideon and Spencer!! So this idea came as an epiphany, and I love the conception of love at first sight. Maybe this becomes a serie...
English is not my first language, so I so sorry if have a mistake.
Requests are open. Love you ❤️
Couple:Spencer Reid/Gideon's daughter!reader.
Warnings: nothing, just very fluff.
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Something was different. Maybe it was the way the sun's rays cascaded down in an atypical way, maybe it was the breeze that carried a more lyrical intonation on its back, or maybe it was just the Earth that was adorned by an ethereal veil. Spencer didn't know how to point out what was really different, but he felt in his soul that something in the hemisphere had changed.
At first, when he took the subway to work, Spencer thought it was just an ephemeral sensation, just like those seconds when you feel the breath of the breeze more cold. But it didn't. The sensation accompanied him to work, to the plane, to the case, it stuck to him like a tattoo and Reid found himself looking around for answers that did not exist physically.
He considered all the theories that were possible to explain that destabilization in his subtly balanced world. But he found none.
“Are you feeling anything different today?” That's what he asked Morgan.
Derek shrugged, finishing packing up at the police station so they could go back to Quantico.
“No.” Then he looked Reid whit his obsidian eyes “Is something bothering you? Is the Genie feeling any peturbation in the Force? ”
Spencer chuckled through his nose at the Star Wars joke, but just shook his head in a 'No'. And the conversation died there. How could he explain something that even he didn't understand?
Trying to ignore the way his heart was beating fast, for no reason, in anticipation of something Spencer himself was unaware of, he wondered how long he was going to have that sensation. The feeling of euphoria, the taste of something, there was something exciting in the air, almost angelic.
But how long was that going to accompany him? One day? One week? Whole life? For the first time, Spencer didn't have the answer. And that was disconcerting.
When BAU's glass doors opened for agents to settle on their desks and Hotch and Gideon go to their respective offeces, a wave of icy breeze from the DC air reverberated through the enclosure. Spencer can see that Morgan shrugged in the wind, Emily looke for a coat in the black suitcase, but his own body didn't seem to be hit by the same breeze. For Reid, it had been a caustic, lyrical, almost spring, wave that carried the promise of something extraordinary on back. Almost divine.
In that split second, in a time as short as a blink, the feeling that his life would never be the same made him losing his breath. Spencer does not know what attracted his gaze to the BAU door, nor what made his whole body turn in that direction, like a magnet, like a wanderer in the desert who finds his Oasis. But he had been attracted, and as soon as a female hand pushed through the glass door and her figure came into view, Spencer understood the extraordinary thing that him heart was beating for in anticipation.
You.
It was as if the universe had been preparing him all day for that moment. As if the body itself tried to prepare it. Because if Spencer hadn't fell those feelings of euphoria all day, he would have drowned in his own reactions to seeing you.
In a burst, like a violin string popping, Reid understood what was different about the hemisphere, because why the air was ethereal, because why the night felt like poetry, and why the moon whispered swears of love. In that moment, Spencer understood the mysteries of the world, unraveled the riddles of life, drank from the wisdom of The Oracle of ancient Greece. In an instant, watching you enter, Spencer understood the reason for his life.
In an instant.
The world shuddered in slow motion, capturing all your movements, all your graceful gait, all your glory. An elegant black dress with thin straps modeled your body in an arcane, almost divine way, your legs were supported on black high heels, making your walk seem like a glide of honey.
You were not beautiful. You are gorgeous. You shone. Sparkled.
And, like an atrocious wave that broke over Reid and pulled him into the sea, that whole feeling that stuck with him all day came to accompany the female figure. Following in your footsteps like the tail of a long dress.
Spencer was sure that his life would never be the same.
They hadn't even sat at their tables when you showed up. Like the muse that came out of an action movie. And when you got close enough to attract the attention of Emily and Morgan, whose Derek opened his mouth when he noticed the female figure that was the personification of Female Fatal, Spencer felt himself letting out the breath he didn't even know he was holding. He knew that anyone with eyes and a little common sense would notice how overwhelmingly beautiful you were, so when Morgan turned his body fully towards you, Reid was not surprised.
“Hi." Your voice, to Reid, had a floral intonation “Do you guys know where I can find Jason?”
When his eyes met yours, Spencer felt his breath being stolen from him once again. Usually, girls like you didn't look twice at guys like him, Spencer knew that. Girls like you liked men like Morgan. Athletes, strong, Alpha Male. And because of that, it was an explosion in Reid's system when you took a few seconds longer in that eye contact and a delightful smile appeared on yours lips. As if you appreciate what you were seeing.
That was a shock. Was it true or was he misinterpreting the signs? Was him mind playing tricks on him, like the flickering shadows of furniture under the darkness and the flame of a candle? Spencer would not be able to say a word without stuttering at that moment even that him life depended on it. In fact, he was already starting to feel cheeks heating up. So he thanked any deities that might exist when Morgan and Emily responded to you and broke the eye contact between the two of you.
“Jason Gideon?” Morgan frowned slightly.
“He's in the office but...” But Emily couldn't finish the sentence before Gideon's voice came out over everyone's:
“Y/n?” It was in a tone that no one there had ever heard in Gideon. A sweet, loving intonation... paternal.
None of the three agents present there had time to express their thoughts in facial expressions before you said:
“Dad!”
Then the whole world took a turn and seemed to be terrified, making them feel as if they had been thrown out of the tenth-floor window. This time, Reid's eyes widened at the two friends, who also had puzzled expressions. Everyone knew that Gideon had a past, probably with divorces and children, a life he had left behind, but no one expected...that.
Perhaps Gideon's vision of a family was something that was only in the imagination, never something tangible. Until that moment. Until the most beautiful girl Reid had ever seen was the daughter of one of the men he respected most. Until him heart soared at alarming levels for him boss's daughter. Spencer had been in trouble before when it came to matters of the heart, but the trouble gained a position in the top 3.
“What are you doing here?” A rare smile appeared on Gideon's face, his brow slightly furrowed.
“We were going to dinner today, remember? In that new Japanese restaurant.” Your tone of voice was not resentful or hurt by the situation that was explicit there.
The life of a BAU agent take many things, some with a more atrocious force than others, and one of them was the availability of hours. commitments that count on presence.
“I totally forgot, I'm sorry.” Gideon's voice was always calm and controlled, he managed to speak from the most tender emotions to the most heinous crimes with a peaceful intonation. But to perceive traces of parental love was new. “The case was very complicated, my cell phone died and...”
“It's okay, Dad.” You smiled, making a casual gesture with your hand “I thought this happened, but I thinking it best to come here to see if everything was okay instead of waiting until tomorrow.”
Your smile, despite being the simple one, was the brightest for Spencer.
Gideon still had a fatherly look and a chaste and grateful smile when he turned to the other agents who were still puzzled.
“Y/n, these are agents Derek Morgan, Emily Prentiss and Dr. Spencer Reid.” Jason introduced them to you “Guys, this is my daughter, Y/n.”
“Is a pleasure.” You smiled genuinely at them.
“I had no idea that you had a daughter!” Emily gave a low, slightly bewildered laugh that also made you laugh.
“Everybody says that.” You looked at your father again, having fun.
“I'm just going to go over some reports with Hotcher before I leave.” Gideon kept a chaste smile. “Why don't you wait here and then let's go get something to eat?”
“Of course, no problem, Dad.” You agreed, adjusting the thin shoulder bag that was on your shoulder.
As Jason went up to Hotcher's office, you turned to the agents again, with a gentle smile on your face.
“My dad said great things about you.” Emily smiled at your statement.
"I'm still chocked ." She laughed, and Morgan added:
“ I really need to know...” he looked around, in a playful suspense “Is Gideon really that serious outside the FBI?”
You laughed “Oh no! Definitely not.”
So you reached for your phone in the litlle bag, hunting for a photo on it and showing it to the three agents. It was a recent photograph where you and Gideon had their faces painted in easy ink. You had a skeleton mouth made with white and black paint, and Jason had a pink glitter butterfly covering his left cheek. You two were laughing in the photo.
Morgan was the one who let out a loud, dripping laugh, with a few tears accumulating in the corners of his eyes.
“How is this possible?” Morgan was trying to catch the air.
“It was at the last Halloween, he and I bet that whoever lost in the snooker that day would have to paint a butterfly on their face.” You laughed.
“And did he lose?” Spencer found a voice for it, his mind failing to process the image of Gideon losing any game.
“I have my suspicions that he let me win” You joked “But I enjoyed the victory just the same.”
The conversation was light after that, Spencer refrained from much of the dialogue, a little fearful that you could hear him heart beating loudly whenever you smile in his direction. As the minutes passed, Derek and Emily had to go back to their duties and finish their reports, while you were sitting in one of the chairs at an empty table.
It was one of those moments when Reid tried to focus on the files in front of him to exorcise what was going on around him. Paperwork had always brought the lull needed to make Spencer meditate. It was almost like relaxation. But in moments like this, when something in the environment around him pulled his attention so much, he stayed on the same page for long minutes.
That must be why he didn't hear the wheels on your chair approach, and he didn't even notice that you were so close until you said:
“Are you really a doctor?” Your voice was low, soft, as if you didn't want to disturb the other agents who were working.
Spencer turned his head towards you, only to find the modern personification of what would be the Athena de Troia. You were close, not close enough to touch, but close enough that he could smell your perfume. You smelled like the night, the excitement of nights and the brightness of the stars. And if Spencer looked deeper into yours eyes, he would sure they contained shine moonlight.
He swallowed, the mania for blinking compulsively returning a little.
“A-ahm yes. Not really a doctor, but m-my 3 Phd’s make me a doctor.”
He might be mistaken, but the smile that spread across your face was not just friendly, it wasn't curious, it was… delighted. As if the roles were reversed and he was the most fascinating thing in that room, not you.
The glow that was adorned in yours eyes had something lyrical, ethereal, wonderful. As if the brightness of all the galaxies were inhabiting your irises, moving in your orbit. At that moment, Spencer was deeply grateful to have eidetic memory, because 10 years from now he could still remember how you looked like a muse over there. DC night came in through the big glass windows, and if Reid had to describe that moment with the five senses, he would say that the world had turned the light down to a rose tone, the smell was heaven and your smile promised to contain wonders of the world.
Holy Mother of God, you are so, so beautiful!
“My dad said there was a genius on the team.” You said, your attention on him is always tender, adoreble. “Do you mind if I ask you something?”
Your perfume invaded him sense of smell once again, and he felt his heart beat faster once more. Spencer would have told you all the secrets in the world if you asked. He would have told all own secrets.
“No way.” He sat back in his chair to look at you better, oblivious to the exchange of looks that Emily and Morgan gave.
You rested your arms on Spencer's table, the chair next to his.
“You never thought of being like... the wizard Doctor Strange?” You hoped that Spencer knew Marvel “Before he was a magician, of course. But why didn't you want to be a surgeon or something?” You laughed “There is a phrase him says: I have a photographic memory and this is what made me ..."
“ ‘Get my diploma and doctorate at the same time’ " Spencer completed you, laughing softly “I know the HQs. Did you know that the Doctor Strange character was created during the Silver Age of American comics to bring a different type of character and mystical themes to Marvel Comics? It him has an intellectual coefficient close to 177 points and I have… ”
The more he rambled, the more a stunning smile spread across your face. As if you were enchanted with him. And you were. Everyone was noticing the way Spencer seemed to have you curled up on his finger, your eyes sparkling and a silly smile twinkling on your face, paying attention to every word he said. It was an overwhelmingly lovely sight to behold.
But just as everything had a time, an hourglass, your time had reached the last grain of sand.
“All right, Y/n.” Gideon went down the stairs, cutting the end of Reid's sentence “Ready?”
You stood up, agreeing with your father and smoothing the dress. When you put your hands on the chair, ready to take it back to place, you turned to Spencer once again:
“I'm going to bring my dad to BAU tomorrow, do you think me and you can meting and you give me the answer to the question tomorrow?” Your smile was able to light up the whole of Washington.
“S-sure!” Spencer's voice went up more high notes than he would like to admit.
And, even when you left, even when Morgan and Emily jokes him about it, and even when he finally lay down on his own bed, you were still the only thing that occupied Spencer's mind.
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kayla-crazy-stuffs · 2 years
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He could be different 2
Here's the second part for my Borrower Dream au
Hope you enjoy :)
TW: Injuries, blood, slight fearplay (That's it)
Dream made sure he had everything he needed before he left. Once he was sure he had everything, he started leaving his house. He walked unhurriedly through the tunnels since he knew that the human, Sapnap, was not going to wake up for many hours, so he took his time.
About a month had passed since the human had brought him home. Clearly his first thought was to leave the house, but there was something in the human that made him change his mind, he didn't know if it was because of what he said or because of how soft and gentle his words sounded. Mind you, as much as he sounded nice it didn't mean he was going to trust him that easily.
Dream could admit that the human scared him. Was there any chance this one was good? Probably, but Dream didn't want to find out. He doesn't want to risk his freedom by checking if the human was good or bad. So he went on with his life without approaching the human at all and was deeply grateful that he was keeping his distance as agreed.
He continued walking through the dark tunnels, until at last he emerged from them, appearing on top of the kitchen cabinet. Dream cursed to himself. How could he forget that the tunnel ended up there? He could retrace his steps, but it would take twice as long to get there, so he decided to go down with the thread. He placed the hook as best he could to make sure he didn't fall. A fall from where he stood to the countertop meant ending up with something broken.
He began his descent little by little, it was better than slipping and falling, but he heard footsteps in the hall of the house, which meant that Sapnap was awake. He decided to speed up his descent a little so he wouldn't run into him if he entered the kitchen. He was halfway there when a very loud sound echoed down the street, startling the borrower, who inadvertently dropped the thread. He tried to grab on again, but that caused the thread to somehow wrap around his left leg and torso, cutting through the hoodie and skin in the process.
Dream cried out in pain as the thread tightened around his leg and torso, unaware that the human was nearby and awake. Blood began to soak the wounded area, making him wince at the sight of it as he tried to look from his prone position. “Oh my god…” Dream froze at the human's voice. He completely forgot about him because of this 'little' accident. He tried to move away from the hands that reached out, only stopping because of the pain this movement caused him.
“Hey, hey…. Don't worry… I won't hurt you, I promise.” Sapnap said softly as he put his hand around Dream and curled his fingers around him. With his other hand he opened a drawer and pulled out a knife, cutting the thread since it didn't reach the top of the cabinet.
"I'm sorry about the thread, but it's the only way I can free you, I'll give you another one after treating your wounds... Oh god... they look horrible... And to think that this was caused by a single thread..." he continued as he carried Dream into the living room, placing the borrower on the table in a lying position.
“Okay, give me a moment. I'm going to go get the first aid kit." he finished saying, leaving the room to go get the first aid kit. Dream wanted to take this opportunity to leave, but he still had the thread wrapped around himself and the pain was almost unbearable, so as much as he wanted to leave he couldn't. Which meant he was at the human's mercy.
It wasn't long before the human returned with a small box with a red cross on it. Sapnap sat down on his knees in front of him as he opened the small box. Dream tried to pull away, but stopped with a gasp of pain. "Hey hey… don't make sudden movements, that will only worsen the wounds. You'll be fine, I know you're still scared of me and I understand but I need to treat your wounds." the human said so softly that it was hard for Dream not to believe his words.
“I am going to remove the thread that you still have around your body.” he continued as he reached out his hands. Dream shook his head frantically making the human frown. "Look, I know it hurts and removing it will make it hurt a little more, but it has to be removed so I can treat your wounds, I can't do it with the thread still embedded in your skin." Dream considered his words for a moment, he knew that if he didn't remove the thread and heal the wounds it could get infected, which would be a big problem for him. 
He looked back at the human before looking away, closing his eyes tightly as he nodded. The human seemed to understand as he soon felt his large fingers against his frail body. It wasn't long until Dream groaned in pain as the thread around his torso began to disappear. Shortly after the thread stuck in his left leg also disappeared. It hurt, but not as bad as his torso. The hand that held him lifted him into a sitting position while the other pulled the thread to a part of the table away from him.
“Okay, I need you to take off your hoodie. Can you raise your arms? I know you won't be able to remove it by yourself because of the wound on your torso. I promise that I’ll be careful.” Dream nodded as he raised his arms. The human hadn't lied to him or hurt him (at least not on purpose) to distrust him.
If the human was really going to help him, Dream decided to leave him, the human was being good to him and even though this was against the rules that the other borrowers had, he felt that this human was really different and he didn't want to leave here. He liked living here, where he could really live freely.
He was pulled out of his thoughts when he felt something brush his head. He looked up to see the human smiling gently at him. “You were really into your thoughts, right? I have already treated and bandaged all your wounds, but apparently, you haven’t even noticed.” Dream looked at his torso and then his leg, amazed that he hadn't felt any pain. "Why…?" "Hm?" Sapnap looked at him confused. “Why have you helped me…?” He finished saying, looking at the human who was looking at him gently.
"And why not? You are a person, right? Just because you're smaller in size, doesn't mean you're not a person” the human looked away, seemed to be looking for something… Dream's eyes widened as the human's right hand appeared on the table again grabbing his mask. He hadn't realized that he had dropped it. “I found it on the floor while I was going to look for the first-aid kit since I took the opportunity to remove the hook that you had left nailed to the cabinet. I'm sorry I didn't give it to you sooner…”
“It’s okay, I guess… At least you're giving it back to me. And… thank you… uh- for everything that you're doing.” Dream said, taking his mask from the bigger fingers that offered it to him, putting it back on. “Uh-…So…how long am I going to have to be here? I know that I will not be able to go back to the walls since I will not be able to walk.” “Mmm- The cuts were pretty deep so I don't know how long it would take to heal, maybe three weeks more or less. I hope you don't mind, I know how much you like privacy."
Dream was puzzled. "But how-?" “You are not the only borrower I know, you are rather the third one I have met. They often visit me so you may meet them soon.” he replied with a smile. "Oh... It's alright, thanks huh... Sapnap?" The human looked at him for a moment before letting out a laugh. “You still remember my name? I thought you were going to forget it once you settled into my house.” Dream blushed in embarrassment though at least Sapnap wouldn't see it. "W-Well, you seemed pretty nice to me for a human so I decided to keep remembering just in case." 
"Okay, okay, calm down, calm down, I understand." he chuckled. “So, will you tell me which your name is? If you are going to stay with me, I wish I could know your name.” "O-Oh... It's Dream." he replied, looking at Sapnap, who had a soft smile. “Nice to officially meet you, Dream.” Maybe after all this it wasn't going to be as bad as he thought it was going to be. Perhaps one day he could tell him the reason for his mistrust of humans. But for now, he decided to relax with his new roommate, possibly a friend.
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komoreangel · 3 years
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𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐬
pairing: kazuha x reader
scenario: kazuha takes you to the lake for a romantic getaway, and he finds himself reminiscing of days long gone…ah, but you’re here with him, and that’s the only blessing he really needs, isn’t it?
genre: fluff, kazuha misses his friend but he loves u a lot !! + kazuha with messy hair hdbnd
request: KAZUHA AND HIS S/O SWIMMIGN TOGTHER IN A LAKE <\\3 SO ROMANTIC
a/n: SO TRUE ANON!! man,,,no ones doing it like kazuha,,,sexy and romantic? 🏃‍♀️
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he woke you up that morning with a soft grin, telling you he had great plans for the day ahead. you had only just woken up, and already the words that fell upon your ears were nothing short of adoration, along with him trying his best to convince you to agree.
his efforts were in vain, because you would’ve followed him anywhere without hesitation. after getting dressed and grabbing your things, he took you by the hand and the two of you made your way out of the harbor. the crux was temporarily docked there while beidou visited ningguang (which the crew knew could take days, as it was painfully obvious they were more than just business partners).
“kazuha, where are you taking me?” you asked him after a while. you had thought he was planning on going to guyun stone forest again, as the shores of his homeland, inazuma, we’re faintly visible from there. he loved telling you stories about the land of his birth, and always said he’d take you there someday.
“don’t fret, y/n, it’s just a different route this time,” he assured you. however, the farther you got from the coast, the more you realized he had a different location in mind. before you could joke about how he’d tricked you, the two of you stood on a cliff overlooking luhua pool.
he offered to carry your bag and set it down in the sand. “darling, come here,” he called. you went over to him, leaning your head on his shoulder as you gazed at the crystal blue waters in front of you. the weather was rather nice that day, and he was ecstatic to have you here with him.
after enjoying the scenery for a while, he once more took you by the hand, with his eyes only on you and nowhere else. “you want to go in?” you have to admit, the water was gorgeous, and it had been getting a bit hot, as if the sun itself would concede to his wishes. “but i’m just in my clothes, i don’t..” he pulled you closer to the water, slightly chuckling at your protests.
“relax, dearest. there’s no harm in getting your clothes wet, is there? it’s hot enough outside that just setting them on the deck will dry them by tomorrow.” you can’t help but agree with him, especially when he looks at you like that. “alright, but if my clothes get ruined, it’s on you.” you tell him. his eyes light up at your words, and the two of you head closer to the water.
“of course, i’ll take full responsibility.” he replies, and as he steps further into the lake, you follow after him. you move your foot forwards, not realizing how deep the water is, and before you can stop yourself, are falling headfirst into the lake. your hair, along with all of your clothes, are now soaked. to your surprise (and slight annoyance), kazuha lifts you up with one hand, his hands steadying you.
“be careful, y/n. we don’t want you drowning, now do we?” you are slightly miffed that he didn’t help you earlier (because from past experience you know he was fully capable of stopping you from falling) and in retaliation you lean down into the water, as if to look for something. he notices, and turns towards you. “is something the matter?”
“yeah, i’m looking for my bracelet, it fell off in the water.” at this, he also leans down beside you, unaware that the bracelet you speak of is actually in your bag, which he was carrying earlier. as soon as his face nears the water, you push him down, his surprise evident as he lets out a yelp of surprise. you laugh at his struggle, as for once, the man who is always ever so eloquent and full of nothing but the most elegant of words is startled.
his head rises above the water with a tired smile on his face. “i suppose i should’ve expected that, hm?” his hair is wet, and has gotten messy from the sudden submersion into the lake. despite it being a prank of yours, you can’t help but think he looks even prettier this way. you help him up, continuing to laugh as you do so.
"sorry," you say between giggles. he continues to grin, pausing to add, "you didn't actually lose the bracelet, did you?" the bracelet was a gift from him to you for one of your anniversaries. "of course not, kaz. i'd never lose it."
he smiles at you and turns his gaze to the water. it wasn't long ago he was standing here with tomo... hoping to himself that things would forever stay that way. moments like these are when he truly understands the shogun's desire for 'eternity'. for the time we spend with our loved ones to last forever, and for the emotions and feelings we hold dearly to never end.
"kazuha, are you okay?" you've moved towards him, your hand on his shoulder. he falters a bit. "ah...yes, darling, don't worry. just lost in a thought, that's all." the smile you give at his words is everything to him, even if you don't know it. "thank you for bringing me here, kazuha. i know it's an important place to you."
so you'd known what he was feeling the whole time? he'd always said you understood him like no one else did, but apparently even he didn't know to what extent. he feels so comforted in your presence, like he doesn't have to say anything to convey his feelings. you just know, and vice versa.
he's never felt more grateful to have someone like you by his side. maybe, even though tomo is long gone, his friend had done him one final favor and pushed you in his direction. because to be in love with a person as amazing as you, kazuha believes there's got to be some other force of nature at work.
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a/n: IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG ANON </3 I MEANT TO RELEASE IT EARLIER I SWEAR. there goes kit again with her wack post schedule. BUT 2.1 IS OUT!! AND SCARAMOUCHE APPEARED!! FOR FIVE MINUTES!!!! all jokes aside IM SO HAPPY HE FINALLY SHOWED UP. LIKE....GENUINELY WHEN I WAS PLAYING THE UPDATE AND I SAW HIM I WAS VERY VERY SATISFIED 10/10 !! i also learned the way i portray him might be completely ooc...which is fine its fine im fine- but i think i will be posting more scara content (whos surprised) just to celebrate plus i also wanted to get this one out before another day goes by where i forget, thank u for reading !! <33
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johnsamericano · 3 years
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𝔖𝔲𝔤𝔞𝔯 ℜ𝔲𝔰𝔥 𝔧.𝔧.𝔥 •2•
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Hi hi! I'm back with another chapter. This one might not be as good(?, it's a really fluffy chapter so bear with me.
warnings: sugar daddy jae, he's a big baby, tooth rotting, kinda long.
sugar rush m.list.
taglist: @thoreeo @trustmahluv @sunny-nyu @nanascupid @silent-potato
“Sir, there’s a girl asking to see you.”
“Hey, I’m not a girl!” He chuckled as his finger pressed the button to communicate with his secretary.
“Hey, I’m not a girl!” He chuckled as his finger pressed the button to communicate with his secretary.
“Hey, I’m not a girl!” He chuckled as his finger pressed the button to communicate with his secretary.
“Let her in.”
Only a few seconds later, your head was peeking through his door.
“I brought you coffee.” You extended your hand out, showing him the carton containing two iced drinks. “Are you busy?”
“Not at all, come in.” You sat on the elegant, individual sofa in front of him, his desk serving as a separation. “Are you here to spy on me? Don't you trust me with your father's case?” He pouted, typing something in his keyboard while your palms started sweating.
How could you not trust the man with the highest case winning index in the whole country?
Briefly, after your encounter with the other lawyer, you'd googled him as well as his company. Because of his incredibly high fees, he didn't have many clients, but those few who had enough money to cost him were almost assured to be on the winning side. So then, why hadn't an excellent lawyer like him popped up when you'd first looked for popular firms? Simple, he wasn't popular.
Just like a hidden gem, only a few had the pleasure to know Yoonoh, and you felt beyond grateful for paying that stupid membership weeks ago.
“No, no!” You were quick to defend yourself, frantically shaking your hands to support your previous statement. “Just wanted to be of help.”
Truth to be told, after receiving your first weekly allowance, an unsettling feeling had been squeezing your heart ever since. Call it guilt or whatever, but it didn't set right to be receiving si much help from him when you hadn't had the chance to do anything in return. The least you could do was trying to be polite.
“You shouldn't be spending your money on me. I'm the one supposed to spoil you, remember?” He grabbed the plastic container by the lid, sipping the bitter liquid with an amused smile. “But thank you.”
“I paid my rent yesterday.” You blurted out, trying to avoid the uncomfortable silence threatening to settle between the two of you. “And I still have money left to save for my father's hospital bills, maybe even buy a present for my aunt.”
He admired how noble you were, making sure those around you had enough before even thinking to do something for yourself.
“I have a party this Friday, would you like to attend with me?” Your presence wasn't required as it wasn't a big event, but by the look in your eyes, he knew you were itching to do something in return for his kindness.
“Yes, of course!” Your orbs sparkled with excitement, finally feeling yourself useful.
“If you don't mind waiting, we can go buy something for you to wear right after I finish with this.” For what seemed like the tenth time in less than ten minutes, small beads of sweat rolled down the back of your neck. Thank God he wasn't able to see them. “Oh, come on, don't give me that look!”
“You’ve already done so much for me. I can buy the clothes myself, don't worry.” With a deep sigh, Yoonoh rose from his chair, taking long strides to surround the desk separating you. “W-what are you doing?” Now kneeling on the floor beneath you, his face was dangerously close to yours, coffee breath crashing against your nose.
“Using mind control to convince you to let me take you out.” He stared at you for a couple more seconds before saying: “Is it working?”
“I think your mind control is broken.” You whisper, unable to hold back the small giggles bubbling at the back of your throat.
“How about now?” He batted his eyelashes, trying to act cute despite his bold features. You shook your head.
Just as you thought it was over, his hand went up to cup your jaw, his thumb drawing uneven figures on the ticklish skin.
“How about now?” He repeated. You stammered, unsure of what to say. “Sorry, that was inappropriate.” Aware of your awkwardness and the rising heat in your cheeks, he stood up, walking back to his chair. “But I do want to get you something, would you let me?”
With your mind busy and your guard low, you nodded, unaware of the silly smile on his face.
“I have a few novels on my shelf in case you want something to kill time.”
“Thank you.” You moved to the huge bookshelf facing his desk, grateful your face wasn't visible anymore.
The books were ordered by genre and size, starting from the biggest law-related textbooks to pocket-sized novels, ending with the smallest one he had. The little prince.
Your eyes widened in disbelief. Yoonoh didn't seem to be the type to read that kind of heartbreaking yet beautiful book. Nonetheless, as many said, you can't judge a book by its cover.
An hour or two later, you were halfway into the first book of flowers in the attic, immersed in the small world the author had created. Yoonoh had finished his work a few minutes before, but distracting you when you were reading so vividly, seemed like a crime. He enjoyed the way your eyebrows would knit together every time something shocking happened, clearly too immersed in the novel to notice his intense gaze.
“Y/n...” He whispered once he noticed you were starting a new chapter. You blinked twice, hands clutching the book tightly as you noticed he had finished his work. “You can take it home, don't worry.”
“Sure?” He flashed his pretty dimples as his eyes turned into half-moons.
“You can come back for the rest of the saga when you finish this one. Take as many books as you please, I’ve already read them all.”
“Thank you.” Another act of kindness you had no way of returning. His favors just seemed to be piling up before you could even return any. “Would you like to have dinner with me today? I'm a great cook, or so did my father said.” You blurted out quickly, twisting your hands nervously as you waited for an answer.
“I’d love to. But I might have to attend some work calls if you don't mind.”
“I don't, maybe I'll even have time to bake a cake while you're at it.” God, how bad he wanted to take a picture of that adorably nervous smile.
“Great, so it's settled. Dinner at your place after we go shopping.” He had already put his blazer on, offering his arm to guide you out. With shaky fingers and sweaty armpits, you grabbed it, walking by his side with his secretary’s gazed glued on you. So much for a girl, huh?
Once seated in his car, with the book resting on your lap, you allowed yourself to relax. Yoonoh wasn't a bad person, on the contrary, he was very kind, so there was no use in keeping your guard up when he was around.
“Ready to roll?” You cringed at his use of slang, making him drop his head back to laugh. “What? Isn't it a thing you cool young adults say?”
“Maybe twenty years ago, Yoonoh.” It was the very first time you used his name so informally, and, oh how good it felt to hear you saying it?
“Fine, I won't use it anymore.” He poked your arm like a little child, and for a moment, you wondered if he was actually more than a decade older.
Several bad jokes, two dresses, and a quick stop at the grocery store later, you arrived at your apartment. Yoonoh held everything while you entered the passcode, struggling not to drop a can of vegetables that was starting to bend the edge of the paper bag.
“Ready, hand me something.” You both entered with your hands packed with different things. You went to your room to leave the new dresses while Yoonoh set the paper bags down on the kitchen counter.
“So...” He clapped loudly. “What are we cooking?”
“I bought the ingredients for lasagna. Is that okay with you?” He nodded, lips pressed and dimples in display. “Alright, let's do this.”
It would've been of great help if Yoonoh had told you he didn't know how to cook. But of course, part of the fault was yours for not noticing when he tried to add ketchup to the recipe.
“I burnt it.” He looked at the semi-carbonized pasta with disgust, feeling ashamed of having ruined your dish. “Let’s just throw it away and order something.” He was about to touch the hot container until your grip on his wrist halted his movements.
“We just pulled it out of the oven.” You shook your head in disbelief at the man standing in front of you.
“Sorry.”
Despite Yoonoh’s endless complaining, you ate the lasagna. The flavor wasn't that bad when you scratched off the burnt parts, especially when accompanied by a cold glass of wine.
“It’s not that bad.” You repeated over and over again. A phone call interrupted him from self-pitying any further. “Go on, take it.” You continued eating while he spoke in the living room.
It wasn't until a couple of minutes later that you realized he was whisper yelling at whoever was on the other line. It was your first time seeing him angry, and you didn't like it one bit. The way his face turned completely stoic, his eyes cold as his hand rested on his hip. Sweet, caring, Yoonoh was gone.
“I told you I needed it for today.” He said through gritted teeth. “You better get it before I arrive back at the office, or you can find yourself another job.” Even after he hung up, Yoonoh stood in the middle of the shared area, clutching his phone so tightly, it seemed like it would break any minute.
You wanted to ask if everything was alright, if he needed any help, but most importantly, if the things he needed were related to your father's case, but all the words stuck to your throat like insects in a spider web.
“I need to go.” He simply said, not even bothering to fake a smile. “Thank you for dinner, I'll see you on Friday.” With his free hand, he grabbed the coat hanging from his chair and left, slamming the door on his way out.
Was that the real Yoonoh?
A shiver ran down your spine. What had you gotten into? From what you'd seen, it was only about time he would show his true self to you as well.
All the trust you'd built up during the day, had crumbled down in a matter of seconds. The worst part? You didn't even feel entitled to be scared, not after all he'd done for you.
‘Just keep your distance.’ You repeated like a mantra as you got ready for bed, leaving the book you'd borrowed right where he'd left it, afraid it would burn your fingertips even with the slightest touch.
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The week wasn't nearly as long as you'd wanted it to be, and soon enough, you were struggling to zip the dress you'd bought days ago. Your makeup was done, and Yoonoh had texted you he was on his way, yet, you'd been fighting with the zipper for at least ten minutes. Your fingers were cramping, and the clock was ticking.
Just when you'd finally started to drag the small piece of metal, the doorbell startled you, causing you to let go of it.
“Fuck!” Have you ever felt so desperate that tears start pricking your eyes? Well, that was the exact case happening at the moment.
You opened the door with the salty water collecting at the corner of your eyes, surprising Yoonoh, who was wearing his best dimply smile.
“What’s wrong?” He had a bouquet poorly hidden behind his back, probably to apologize for the night he abruptly left and almost knocked down your door.
“I-I can't zip up my dress.” Your voice came out shaky, giving away the emotions burning your gut. Thankfully, Yoonoh didn't seem to notice, and if he did, he didn't mention it.
“I’ll help you.” He, not-so-discretely, put down the bouquet, gently turning you around to your discomfort. His cold hands touched your back as he dragged the zip up, noticing how tense you were but deciding not to comment on it. “Oh! You haven't moved the book from where I left it.”
“I haven't had time to read.” He hummed, crouching to reach for the bouquet and hand it to you. “Thank you.”
“It’s my way of apologizing for the fit I threw a couple of days ago.” A fit? That was one way to call it.
“It’s okay.” You lied as you pushed the corners of your lips to form a credible smile. “Let’s get going.”
The flowers were left on the kitchen counter before you left. The ride in the elevator was awfully quiet, and Yoonoh had no idea what had happened. You were so chatty the last time he saw you, so of course, he was taken aback by the sudden change.
“It’s not going to take long, so we can head out for some drinks later if you'd like...” You nodded, for you knew speaking would only expose your discomfort. “Is everything alright?”
“Yeah! Just nervous about the party, that's all.”
You stood by Yoonoh’s side for the rest of the evening, smiling and nodding at his acquaintances’ comments. At one point in the evening, a man, not much older than you, approached you both with a wide smile.
“Dude, I hadn't seen you in ages. Stop sending your workers and come see me yourself.” They hugged. Why were they hugging?
“Y/n, this is my brother, Sungchan.” The man with puppy-like eyes embraced you tightly, almost as if welcoming you to his family. “Sungchan, this is y/n, my girlfriend.” He said it so naturally, it’d take a detective to figure out the truth about your relationship.
“I’ve heard a lot about you. I'm sorry for your father. But don't worry, we'll take those bastards down.”
“I’m not following...” You blinked repeatedly, eyes going back and forth between Yoonoh and his brother.
“Sungchan is a doctor. I asked him to look at your father's case for further evidence. My assistant was supposed to pick up the report the day we had dinner, but she forgot to drop by. Now we’re a day behind schedule.” The dark cloud surrounding him seemed to be slowly dissipating as you heard his explanation. “This is an important case, and I want to be as meticulous as possible.”
Thank you didn't seem the right thing to say at the moment, at least not with Sungchan standing there, so you simply grabbed his hand, squeezing it to let him know how grateful you were.
To your surprise, he didn't even flinch as he locked your hands together, causing a small giggle from Sungchan.
“Okay, love birds, I'll get going.” He waved you goodbye, making his way to another table where his friend waited for him.
“Can we talk?” You whispered in his ear, afraid one of the numerous attendants would hear you.
“Sure.” Without letting go of your hand, he drove you to a small, private garden just outside the ballroom. “Are you gonna tell me what's wrong now?” His thumb caressed your knuckles with gentle strokes.
“I’m so sorry.”
“What for?”
“I pushed you away at the minimum trouble when you were only helping me.” He hummed as if he already knew about it. “And it will probably happen again, so please, be patient with me. I'm going through-” Your face collided against his chest as his arms draped over your shoulders, squeezing you tightly.
“Call me reckless, but I've wanted to do this for a while.” Your hands hung at the sides of your torso, unsure what to do next. “You can push me away, I'll understand...”
Instead, your palm found its place in his back, rubbing up and down the designer jacket. Your hair started turning messy from the night breeze, some strands striking Yoonoh’s chin as his embrace only grew tighter.
“Let’s get out of here.” He mumbled, crawling the back of your head with his hand. “Sungchan can deal with my father's friends.”
“Are you sure?” His hum vibrated through his chest, making you giggle at the odd feeling.
Once seated in his car, his hand found yours like a magnet, the warmth emanating from it comfortably enveloping your skin.
The calmness of the atmosphere was interrupted by a call from his brother, who seemed to be anxiously explaining something through the phone.
“Just tell him I had a work emergency.” With that said, he hung up, placing his hand back again on top of yours. “Sorry, he said it was urgent.”
“It’s okay.” An unsettling feeling pinched your stomach, but you decided to dismiss it, immersed in the chilly weather of the dark streets.
You arrived at the river, where Yoonoh asked you to wait for him while he bought a couple of beers. It was a sight to see, both of you clad in fancy clothes, barefoot and chugging down can after can.
“I think I like being with you.” You declared, mind fuzzy from the alcohol intake.
“I think I like it too.” The tips of his ears were rosy, revealing he was as intoxicated as you, maybe even more.
“Would you like to visit my father with me tomorrow?” The words flew out of your mouth before you could even realize. Afraid you'd killed the mood, you tried to excuse yourself, only to be interrupted by his lips grazing your ear, placing a timid kiss on your lobe.
“I’d love to.” It was the sweetest peck, no ulterior motives behind it, just pure affection.
“Are we going too fast?” In your drunken state, what you had felt like a real relationship, not a simple agreement. And this sure felt like a first date.
“We’re moving at our own pace, I believe.” He dropped his head on your shoulder, pressing against it to relieve the dizziness clouding his mind. “Are you okay with that? Maybe you don't want to be with an old creep like me, and I'd totally get it. Just don't let me get my hopes up if that's the case.”
“You might be old, but definitely not a creep.” Your fingers combed through his abundant hair as your mind wandered into the future, grateful for the fact that he wouldn't become bald soon. “Or are you?”
“I don't think so.” Anyone who walked by would've seen a couple of goofs, too intoxicated to talk without slurring the words, but you were living in your own, comfy bubble. “I should get you home before it gets too late. Come on, I'll call a driver.” He tried getting on his feet to no avail, stumbling back a little before falling back on his ass.
“My apartment is nearby. You can stay for the night.” You grabbed both pairs of shoes as his arm surrounded your shoulder for assistance. “If you keep supporting your whole weight on me, we're both gonna fall.” People on the street shot you a couple of funny looks, which was understandable since it wasn't usual to see two drunk idiots walking barefoot in the middle of the night.
“How long till-” Hiccup. “-we get there?” His stare seemed to worsen with every step. “God, I think I might throw up.”
“Stop acting like a teenager, we're almost there.”
As soon as you arrived at the small apartment, you sat him down on the little step where you changed your shoes. You left both pairs on the rack, proceeding to put on slippers to enter the house.
“Don’t leave me here!” He whined, stomping his feet like a little kid.
“Just wait for a second!” His attitude was starting to get on your nerves to the point where you couldn't feel the effects of the beer anymore.
You grabbed a rag from the kitchen cabinet and dampened it under the sink. Yoonoh was half asleep when you walked back to him.
“My head hurts.” He mumbled as you sat in front of him, placing his left foot on your lap. “What are you doing?”
“I don't have any slippers that will fit you, and I don't want your dirty feet making my house dirty.” With utmost delicacy, you wiped away the dirt from his toes, noticing the small scratches caused by the gravel he walked on.
He touched your hair while you finished with his other foot, tangling the strands with fascination.
“Done, get up.”
He followed your indications as you guided him to your room, where you laid him down on his side in case he threw up.
“Are we visiting your father tomorrow?” He asked while snuggling under the covers.
“Sure.” You cleared his forehead from the strands falling in it, grazing the soft skin of his forehead. “Sweet dreams, gigantic baby.”
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bohica160 · 3 years
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A little miscommunication with Alpha Chris (pt. 2)
ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗMinors gtfo, this isn't for youᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
Chris was not too far behind you, following the trail of your pheromones with lidded eyes, pants unbearably tight. He was very grateful for the halls to be empty. Right as he turned the corner he saw your office door was surrounded by numerous alphas, each one trying to over scent the other. Some were calling out to you, while others were saying the most provocative things. A few of them jiggled the door handle, testing its strength. “Leave now,” Chris roared, chest puffed out fists tightly balled stalking over to the crowd. Thankfully they all scurried off, knowing damn well they had no chance against the Hound Wolf Capitan. He gave himself a moment to gather himself before knocking softly. “Y/n? You okay?” Not hearing a reply, he pressed an ear to the door. He could make out soft whimpers behind it.
“Y/n I’m coming in” Chris grabbed the handle, turning it with force, causing it to hang loosely in the wood. He pushed against the door with his shoulder. Even with the door open just a crack, the scent of you flooded his lungs, almost letting out a groan. “Y/n”, he called out again as he closed the door behind him. “W-what are you doing here?” you called out in a broken voice. Once when he came into view you covered your glands on your neck with your hands, Chris looked around the room before crouching down next to you, “need to make sure no alphas followed you.” You tried pushing yourself up, folding your legs next to you, “Y-you need to leave. I’ll manage”. Chris’s brows knitted together, “You hand a group of alphas outside your office, clearly you can’t” he said in a matter-of-fact tone.
“I didn’t ask for your help Capitan Redfield. Plus why do you care what happens?”. Once you were able to stand, you walked over to your desk, leaning over it with your back to him. “This is why-”, Chris began before whipped around and you marched over to him, finger jabbing him in the chest. “This is why what? Why omegas shouldn’t be in the workforce?” You hissed at him, "Is that what you were about to say? All you alp-". A growl rumbled deep in Chris's chest, he wrapped a hand around your wrist and pulled you into him. "Don't put words in my mouth omega", he scowled towering over you. You quickly backed down with a pout.
"I was going to say 'this is why you should be prepared'. Why would you think I would ever say something like that?" he asked, sounding a little hurt. "Because you don't like me. It's fine", you huff, trying to turn away from him but he pulled you back into him. "What are you talking about?", his eyes searching your face for answers. "You never seem to want to talk and you always move away from me." You glared at him, voice rising in annoyance. "Because I can't stand your smell", he responded, also raising his voice. His comment seemed to slap you in the face, quickly going from irritated to dejected. You tried to tug your hand out of his grasp.
"Let go of me", you continue pulling your arm, avoiding looking him in the face. For some reason having him confirming in some way he didn't like you made your inner omega whimper, wanting to go home to your nest. "No, I-.... that's not what I meant". You felt like if you opened your mouth, some noise of discomfort would slip out. You shook your head continuing to play tug of war with your limb.
Chris let out a long sigh, "I can't be near you because your scent is the best thing I've ever smelt. Even with the patches, I can get a small trace of it.” You stopped tugging your arm, you looked up at him in complete shock, "I can't form a single sentence let alone a thought. I didn't realize my actions made you feel like I don't like you." Your mouth slightly open, muscles in your face relax as you replay everything he just said in your head.
"But….", your inner omega was jumping for joy but you did not feel that excitement. Your eyebrows lowered, pulling together. "You've been avoiding me…. because you like my scent?" Chris's cheeks were now dusted pink, heart beating fast not sure how this was going to go. "Are you fucking kidding me!", you exclaimed as your pushed into him. Not expecting your sudden actions, you both tumbled to the ground, falling on top of the man. You quickly sat up on his pelvis slapping his chest lightly, huffing up a storm.
"I-I can't believe you! In what world would you think I wouldn't think that!" The heat started to rise in you again, your skin tingling. While you wiggled on top of him expressing your frustration, unaware that you were lightly rubbing over his groin. Soon everything you were saying started to merge all together in a mumble, as Chris was trying his hardest to calm himself, feeling himself getting harder by the second. His hands moved up to your hips trying to hold you still, but that did absolutely nothing on his part besides press you further into him. He flipped you over onto your back, him hovering over you, his forearms next to your head.
You stared up at him startled by the sudden change in positions, while he kept gazing between your eyes and soft lips. You unintentionally licked your bottom lip, his blue eyes following the pink muscle, causing his cock to twitch against you. A small gasp snapped him back as you both laid there not sure what to do now. Now that you have calmed down, you could feel the ache between your thighs as a wave of heat washes over you. Your omega yelling at you to scent him, touch him, anything. You bit your lower lip before reaching up, placing it on the back of his neck, pulling him down just enough to lightly rub your nose up the side of his neck. The sweet scent coming from your core started to grow stronger.
He froze, muscles tensing, throat bobbing as you rubbed your cheek against his neck, getting your pheromones on him before turning your head just a little, brushing your lips over his pulse. Pressure pools in your low abdomen, causing you to rut your hips up into him. He lets out a muffled groan against your shoulder before pulling back. He nudged your chin with his nose, you tilted your head to the side, giving him more access to your neck. Your breath hitching with every feather light kiss he placed on your skin. “Chris,” you whined, tightly gripping onto his shirt. He hummed into your skin, not stopping his ministrations. “Wh-hat if someone comes in?”, you turned your head to look at the door. As he switched sides of your neck, he started to suck right over your scent glands, ripping the most sweet-sounding moan he’s ever heard. He continued to attack that one particular spot, massaging it with his tongue. “I scented the hall”, he said with a raspy voice in between licks. “No one will dare to come down here”. You opened your mouth to protest only to let out a moan as he nipped over your gland.
The sweet aroma of your slick filled the room, making his head spin. Every whimper and moan went straight to his cock, grinding it against your clothed core. “Mmmm… Chris”, you whined as you tugged on his shirt. He pulled away from the marked up skin, chests heaving against each other, lust filled in your eyes. “It’s hot”, you mewed trying to tug his shirt up. His lips quirked up slightly before placing them over yours. As he sat up, knees placed on both sides of your hips, pulling the fabric over his head. There have been a handful of times you’ve seen this alpha’s shirt ride up just enough to show that v line cut accompanied with his happy trail. You could feel yourself clench around nothing as your eyes racked up his chiseled defined abs and solid pecs.
All self-restraint went out the window, your hands slowly caressed up his toned body, taking in every shudder. He reached down pushing his calloused hands under your flimsy tank top, pushing it up over your breasts. His thumbs grazing against your pebbled flesh poking through the bra. Your breath hitched in your throat, as he ran his thumb over your nipple a few more times over the fabric, before pulling both pieces off.
(ノ´ヮ`)ノ*: ・゚°˖✧.*:・ Tag list: @thatgoblin
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nev3rfound · 3 years
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someone i once knew : b.b - p.3
tony has questions, but he isn’t the only one wanting an explanation (2.6k)
(anything in bold/italics are flashbacks/memories!)
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PART ONE . PART TWO . PART THREE . PART FOUR . PART FIVE . PART SIX
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Tony steps into your suite, trying to subtly notice the changes you’ve made whilst he was gone.
“Look, Tony, if this is about the files I’m really sorry,” You sigh apologetically, catching Tony’s attention as he turns to face you. “sometimes my R’s end up looking like N’s and I didn’t mean for it to look like I’d written Tony Stan-”
Holding his hand up, you stop your rambles as Tony raises a brow. “Y/n, that’s not why I’m here.” Tony interrupts you. “Wait, it said that?” He questions and you weakly nod, but quickly he returns to his original thought process; why he is here in the first place.
“Then, why are you here?” You ask nervously, feeling a pit begin to form in your stomach.
“Nat passed on a message, that you didn’t seem very well.” Tony explains, now pacing around the entrance of your suite whilst you remained still, too still for his liking. “And I overheard a conversation from two super soldiers discussing you.” Tony motions to you, catching sight of your eyes widening.
“I, why would they talk about me?” You question in disbelief, hearing multiple voices run through your mind, some yelling over Tony as he continues to talk to you, but you can only see his lips moving.
“-and that you know them somehow, funny really.” Tony huffs to himself as he walks in the direction of the small kitchen you have, noticing a glass half-filled with a single flower, dried out, dead. “Don’t you think, Y/n?”
The prolonged silence from you catches Tony out as he glances over his shoulder, seeing you stood calmly, tears streaming down your face.
“Y/n?” Tony calls out, carefully nearing you as he waves his hand in front of your eyes, but there’s no response. “FRIDAY? Get Banner for me.”
With a deep exhale, you collapse down to the ground. “I, I, I’m sorry,” You breathe out, coughing loudly on a sob that chokes your throat.
Kneeling down in front of you, Tony eyes your movements carefully. “What’s going on with you, Y/n?” He thinks aloud as you manage to sit upright, clutching your legs to your chest as a look of horror solidifies across your expression.
Bruce opens the door to your suite, looking alert as he notices both you and Tony on the ground.
“Everything okay, Tony?” Bruce asks hesitantly, seeing a level of concern cross Tony’s frown.
“Just, sit still, okay.” Tony instructs you, but you’re barely responsive as Tony walks away, taking Bruce outside of your suite as the door remains slightly ajar.
Rubbing his temples, Tony sighs. “What’s going on with her? Bad day or something?” Bruce jokes, but Tony shakes his head.
“I think she might be a plant.” The tone leaving his voice is enough to remove any humour from Bruce as he straightens up. “Somehow, Steve and Bucky know her, or at least knew her.” Tony explains. “But she seems oblivious, and I’m just wondering if she’s just like Barnes, waiting to be activated.”
Bruce hums in response. “What’re we supposed to do with her then if she’s potentially some killing machine?” The words feel sour leaving his lips, but Bruce has read the files on HYDRA.
Over Tony’s shoulder, Bruce watches as a small hand reaches out to the door and pulls it open.
Tony can’t help but tense as you stand against the door frame, a weak smile forming on your lips despite the dried tears lining your cheeks.
“I don’t know what’s going on with me, Tony.” You sadly admit. “Do, do you think you can help me, please?”
“Come with us, Y/n.” Bruce forces a grin as he walks toward the elevator, Tony hanging back as you slowly walk out and stand beside Tony.
“Can you help make it stop, Tony?” You plead to your employer who seems conflicted.
“We’ll do what we can.” Tony coldly states, walking behind you to the elevator, ensuring you stand between him and Bruce, just in case anything happens.
*
Your footsteps can be heard throughout the base as you follow behind the woman in charge. Heads turned as she walks with confidence, no one taking notice of who you are in her presence.
Pushing the door open to her office, you follow in and hover by the chair. “Please, Y/n,” Peggy motions to the chair as she closes the door, lowering the blinds too to ensure privacy.
“Thank you for meeting me, Ms Carter.” You speak politely, trying to keep a facade up that everything will be alright, but if there’s anyone who can see right through it, it’s Peggy Carter.
Rifling through the files on her desk, Peggy opens up a series of them as the papers cover the space in front of her. “Oh Y/n, call me Peggy.” Her red lips rise to a sincere smile, hoping you’d ease the tension you’re holding. “Well, the good news is I’ve had the report in from the Doctor, and you’re fit and healthy all around.”
You can’t stop the giggle of excitement escape you. “Sorry,” You mutter, but Peggy doesn’t seem to mind in the slightest; it’s the most positive you’ve sounded in the past two years you’ve known her.
“No need to be, there are still a few more tests we have to run on both you and the machinery. However, if all still stands, we should be able to do our first test run within the year.” Peggy explains, catching sight of the frown on your lips deepening. “I know this isn’t the news you hoped for today, but trust me, this is progress.”
Peggy reaches out, placing her hand on the desk. Slowly, you extend your arm, allowing her to take your hand in hers.
“We both lost, Y/n. But we can move forward.” She assures you once more, hoping someday you’ll believe it yourself.
“It happened again,” You explain, looking up directly to the clock, noticing five minutes have passed since you focused on it. “it keeps happening, more frequently than before and I can’t control it.” Panic rises in your voice as you perch on the lab bench, studying Tony and Bruce's reactions as they monitor you closely.
“So these, ‘memories’ aren’t your own?” Tony asks uncertainly.
Rubbing your eyes as they continue to pound, you shrug your shoulders. “I don’t know, they’re in my head, and I can remember aspects of them, certain noises, settings and sometimes people. I, I was with a Carter,” You squint, trying to remember her name, but you sigh heavily. “I can’t remember, sorry.”
“Carter?” Tony repeats, and you nod. “Interesting.” He mumbles as he helps Bruce hook you up to the systems, hoping to catch your next ‘memory’ and see your brain activity whilst monitoring your heart. “I, I’ve gotta make a call.” Tony excuses himself, nodding to Bruce before exiting the lab.
“If you can just lie down, Y/n.” Bruce asks you gently, seeing the fear in your eyes as you lie back. “I’m just going to place these on your head and chest.”
Closing your eyes, you try your best to relax whilst images of a brunette with red lipstick form in your mind. You can hear her faintly saying two names, but your ability to focus is gone once again.
Across the compound, Bucky is barely able to focus as he slams his fists against the torn punching bag whilst Steve stands on the other side, keeping it in place after Bucky nearly threw Sam across the room.
“Are you sure she’s okay?” Bucky shifts his attention across the gym to Natasha and Wanda’s conversation.
Natasha shrugs her shoulders as she stretches out. “I don’t know, she went dead behind the eyes and as I left her, Tony was heading her way.” Natasha explains, and Bucky looks over to Steve.
“Buck, I’m sure it’s fine.” Steve tries to help, but Bucky shakes his head.
“I can feel it, Steve,” Bucky mutters. “somethings wrong, I, I can’t just leave it.” He explains, swiftly walking off out of the gym as eyes turn to Steve holding the rocking bag.
Scoffing under his breath, Steve pushes the bag away from him. “Bad day.” Steve comments before running after Bucky before he can do any potential damage.
Sitting with his fellow soldiers, Bucky tries to disguise his rising fears, but his foot continues to tap against the ground. “You got a dame back home, Barnes?” One of the soldiers, Johnson asks and light laughter echoes through the cells as they all wait for some movement to be heard.
Lifting his head up, Bucky focuses on each of those he can see from his regiment, those who are left at least. No one is sure who captured them, but Bucky knows they aren't likely to get out of this scot free, or alive for that matter.
“I do,” Bucky admits quietly. “and she’s the most wonderful gal I’ve ever laid eyes upon.”
“That’s sweet,” Johnson comments, sitting opposite Bucky as he wipes his bloodied nose with his palm. “just, just keep thinkin’ about her, alright? That sorta thought helps.” He nods to Bucky before resting his head back against the metal bars.
“Yeah,” Bucky whispers as footsteps can be heard, heading directly towards his cell. “if I don’t make it out, can you tell her I,”
Before Bucky can finish his sentence, two large men unlock his cell and grab him. He manages to catch a glimpse at the red band on their arms, noticing a different symbol than the Nazi one branded in his mind.
“Please, just tell her!” Bucky yells as he’s dragged out of sight, unaware of the horrors he’s about to face.
Focusing on Bruce, you tense as the stickers are placed on your forehead. “Sorry, did that hurt?” Bruce asks timidly, but you shake your head.
“Just kinda cold,” You nervously remark as the rest are slowly placed. “where did Tony go?”
Bruce looks past you at the glass walls, seeing Tony walk out of sight with his phone against his ear. “He, er, had to make a quick phone call. I’m sure he’ll be back shortly.” Bruce reasons as he attaches the last sticker to your chest before averting his attention to the computer systems.
Closing your eyes, you listen to the methodical tapping of keys and the sudden sound of your heart rate beside you flashing up on a monitor.
“Okay, all systems in place. Now it’s down to you to induce a ‘memory.’“ Bruce forces an anxious laugh as you simply look at him before tilting your head back to focus on the blank ceiling, a shame they couldn't cover it in stickers like the dentist used to, you think.
“Do you think I’m evil?” You ask, not daring to move your vision from the ceiling, unaware of Bruce stepping back.
“No.” He responds quickly. “I think you’ve been manipulated with, but I don’t think you’re evil.” Bruce justifies, checking the brain activity to see any spikes, but it remains standard.
“You’re acting like I’m made of glass.” You comment, now moving your head to see Bruce rubbing his hands together as he watches the monitors. “But I’m not, I, I know my parents, my childhood home and school." Your voice begins to waver, but you carry on regardless.  "I can tell you the classes I took in college, my first boyfriend and my first time drinking.” You ramble, but Bruce is trying to ignore you. “Please, I, I know who I am.” You whimper, slamming your head back as you stare at the bare white walls above you.
Outside, Tony listens as the line ends up with him left answering a voicemail for the third time.
“Fury, it’s Stark, listen, I need to speak with you urgently. There’s something going on with my new assistant, Y/n Y/l/n. She, she knows Peggy Carter and, just call me back, ASAP.” Huffing, Tony leans against the wall, wondering how he got himself into this mess.
Yet, his moment of contemplation is short-lived as yells from Steve can be heard up ahead.
“Buck, just stop!” Steve shouts as Bucky comes into view, eyes dark and fists clenched as he marches down the corridor.
“Woah, woah, where do you think you’re going?” Tony asks, standing in front of Bucky as Steve catches up in time before Bucky raises his fists.
Holding Bucky back, Steve grunts as Bucky fights against his hold.
“Where is she?” Bucky can feel the anger rising through his veins as Tony buries his hands in his pockets, remaining perfectly calm.
“Where’s who?” Tony asks, looking up to Steve who shakes his head, still struggling to hold Bucky back.
“Come on, Tony. We know you have Y/n down here,” Steve sighs, a brief moment of weakness that Bucky detects as he slams his elbow into Steve’s stomach, causing him to recoil and release Bucky.
Without a moment to lose, Bucky rushes forward to the lab and before he’s stunned by Tony, he catches sight of you on a metal slab, hooked up to machinery with tears streaming down your face.
“No, Y/n!” Bucky screams, pausing by the glass wall, his metal hand resting against it as you begin to turn your head, a second too late as Tony fires a stun at him, forcing Bucky to the ground.
Your breathing increases, causing your heart rate to spike and Bruce rushes over. “Hey, Y/n, it’s fine. Tony has just er, stunned him.” Bruce explains, but your eyes widen.
“Bruce, I, I need to see him, please, let me see Bucky.” You practically beg, trying to pull the wires from yourself but Bruce manages to hold you down before you notice a needle piercing your arm.
With heavy eyes, your focus on Bruce begins to fade. “I’m sorry, Y/n. We’ve gotta keep you here.” His voice sounds too far away as your vision darkens, the last of the ceiling disappearing as your eyes close.
Bucky grunts as he remains on the ground, but turns his head to see Tony stood with his hand covered by his Iron Man tech, a glow of pale blue emitting from his palm, yet to be fired.
“You alright, Buck?” Steve calls out from beside Tony.
Not responding verbally, Bucky nods as he uneasily stands, holding his hands up and remains on the spot where he fell, out of sight from you.
“Tony, lower your hand.” Steve scoffs, and Tony hesitantly obliges, powering his charge down. “I told you not to come here, Bucky,” Steve comments like a disappointed parent, but Bucky’s jaw clenches as he looks at the floor beneath him, the scuff marks from where he fell moments prior.
“Are one of you planning on telling me what the hell is going on here? Because I’ve got a delusional assistant having a brain scan in there who might be a potential HYDRA plant and I want answers.” Tony steps forward, looking between the two super soldiers. “No, you don’t wanna tell me?” Tony raises his arms in defeat and begins to walk away, back to the lab.
“Bucky,” Steve mutters to his friend who eases his jaw and finally looks up.
“Y/n Y/l/n,” Bucky speaks up, and Tony spins on his heels, facing Bucky. “she was my fiance.”
Tony stares at Bucky in disbelief before whistling loudly. "Well, I didn't expect that."
P A R T  F O U R 
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blu-joons · 3 years
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He Overhears Someone Being Rude About You ~ Eric Nam
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Eric smiled appreciatively in the direction of the producer as the shoot was called to an end, thanking the members of staff around him as they all turned their cameras off.
“You’re one talented singer,” the producer complimented, shaking Eric’s hand, “I hope you’ve been left satisfied with everything on our end too.”
His head nodded, glancing past the producer where he spotted you collapsing one of the light stands. The corners of his mouth turned up, admiring the dedication you had towards even the smallest of tasks whilst you worked on set. Especially knowing that set belonged to Eric, and everything had to be perfect.
When he didn’t say anything in response, the producer waved her hand in front of his face, bringing him back to her attention. His head nodded, pressing his palms together, forcing himself to look away from where you stood.
“You’ve got a great team,” Eric mused back to her, “all of them are great, I’m glad Y/N can work with people who look after her.”
At the mention of your name, the producer’s expression dropped, rolling her eyes without an attempt to be subtle. Eric’s brows knitted together as he picked up on her movement, staring back at her in confusion as to why she reacted such a way.
“She works hard,” the producer added when she noticed Eric still staring at her, “but she doesn’t necessarily contribute compared to a few of the others.”
“She works incredibly hard and contributed a lot to this.”
As he came to think of it, Eric could recall several occasions he’d seen you be disregarded by the producer over the last few days. How she’d coincidentally forget your coffee order or leave your name out when she wanted people for the important jobs.
And yet you got on with it, with a smile on your face, unaware of the true feelings your colleagues had towards you. Eric had thought that perhaps you weren’t as popular with the crew, because of your relationship with him, but never did he expect someone to speak so openly about their disapproval of your efforts.
The producer could sense by the way Eric’s breathing got a little heavier that she’d dropped herself in it, noticing how the smile on his face was replaced by a look of frustration and hurt by the things that he’d heard her say.
“I’m not saying she’s a bad worker,” she quickly found herself defending.
Eric’s hand quickly came up to stop her from talking, “I don’t know why you have such a vendetta against my girlfriend, but when I tell you she’s been the best worker out of your whole team for my shoot, it’s not favouritism, or love, it’s the truth.
Whilst the rest of the crew slowed around the two of them, you were still busy at work, packing away all of the equipment so that those lazing could still leave the building as quickly as possible.
“I didn’t mean it like that, but she’s not been around as long.”
“So, that’s what you judge a worker on, experience? If it wasn’t for Y/N, I would have fired you on day one for how slow you’ve been. She’s worked tirelessly for this short.”
“As have all my staff.”
“No,” Eric snapped, pausing to take a breath and calm himself down. “Your staff have done their jobs, Y/N has gone above and beyond, as a professional, and absolutely nothing less.”
Just as the producer opened her mouth to speak again, Eric’s head shook, brushing past her shoulder and out of the studio, heading straight to his dressing room. His heart was heavy as he walked, mind still in a whirl of disbelief at what he’d heard unfold.
Once he took a seat, staring at his reflection in the mirror, he let go of a deep breath, guilty for your own sake that you had to work in such conditions, to be so unappreciated when you were by far the member of staff that deserved the most appreciation.
His mind was in a daydream, until a knock at his dressing room door disturbed him. As he called for the person to enter, he failed to hide his relief when he saw you peer around the door.
“Apparently you’ve been causing trouble,” you teased, stepping into the room.
Eric’s hands tapped against his lap, inviting you to walk over and take a seat. His arms instantly moved around your waist, holding you tightly against his chest.
By the sound of his breaths, you could tell that something had gotten under his skin. “How do you do it?” He asked, before you had a chance to speak. “I don’t even want to repeat what I heard say about you to you, how can you work with that woman.”
“It pays the bills, and I do enjoy the job.”
“But you’re so overworked Y/N, and no one gives you the credit you deserve. She praises, me, but mainly herself, as if she’s contributed anything at all to this shoot.”
You always knew your boss liked to take the congratulations as head of the company, and whilst you knew you worked hard, you were used to letting artists pay tribute to her. Her endless bragging on the drive back to your office always gave you something to laugh about when you got home.
But as you heard the pain in Eric’s voice, you knew he just couldn’t ignore the comments as you did. His heart was broken to think for even a second that someone would undermine you as she had done, especially to his face.
“It’s alright for you, your done with the company now.”
“But I have to let you go and carry on working for them,” he whispered, as his chin settled against your shoulder. “I never want to let you work another day for her again, but I know your far too kind to just walk away.”
Your head nodded back at his statement, perhaps it was one of your biggest flaws, that you always stood back, and always said yes to anyone too.
“It sounds like you gave her a bit of a wake-up call from what I heard though,” you smiled back at him, “I appreciate that you had my back.”
“Of course. I can’t believe that even for a second she had the audacity to think that I was just going to let her stand there and say those things about you.”
“There’s always going to be people like her in this world, especially in this industry too. I’ve grown a thick enough skin now to learn how to deal with her.”
Eric’s eyes stared back at you in complete awe, no person deserved to be spoken about as you were, but as always you put the job first, and the people around it second.
“I wish there was more people like you in this industry, I guess I’m very lucky that I managed to bag one of the best people in the industry for myself in that case,” he whispered closely into your ear, pressing a kiss just underneath it.
Your eyes rolled back at him, jabbing your elbow gently into his stomach. Eric’s eyes went wide back at you, moving his lips back against your cheek as he noticed them begin to turn a light shade of red.
“You know, I’m always going to have your back, right?” Eric questioned, “even is no one else is going to hold you up, I’ll always be there to do it.”
“I know, and I’m eternally grateful to you for that.”
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oitommothetease · 3 years
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Invisible String (14/15)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female reader (Modern AU)
Word Count: 2.4k words
Warning : angst, sad reader, angry reader, dumbass Bucky, Steve being likable for once, smartass Sam, reader finally having some friends, mention of assault, confrontation, drinking, fluff, Bec is Bucky’s sister - Rebecca
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Unlike you, Bucky remembered everything. He could never forget that you were hurt because of him — tied to a chair for hours while he couldn't save you — crying on the bathroom floor as he held you. The only thing common in all of those instances was him. You had to go through shit because of him, and yet, you still didn't blame him. You wrapped your arm around him as if he wasn't the cause of your pain. It was clear that his past and the baggage that he came with didn’t bother you. In fact, you understood and accepted his trauma and still loved him. You didn't love him despite his baggage. No, you loved him with every bad thing he offered.
Bucky was sure you were delusional. No sane woman would want to be with the man who was responsible for her captivity, yet you snuggled closer towards him the moment this thought occurred in his head. And Bucky loved you more because of that, and he thought he wasn't physically capable of loving you more than he already did. Bucky knew you reciprocated those feelings, it was very obvious that both of you were a goner for the other. Nevertheless, those emotions were not voiced out loud in your relationship yet. And Bucky wanted it to stay that way.
Bucky decided to sneak out of your bed and house before you could wake up. He was aware it was cowardly of him to just leave without giving you an explanation. But if he stayed to explain, you would have asked him to stay, and he didn't have it in himself to tell you no. You were the ray of sunshine in his stormy life and he could never say no to you. You could ask him to get you the sun, and he would get it for you, even after knowing that it would kill him and the humankind in the process. He would still do it.
But what he couldn’t do was refuse you, so he would have to leave you instead.
***
You woke up a bit disoriented, unaware of the surroundings you were in. It took you a minute to process that you were in your own house and not held captive. Once you came back to your senses instinctively you called for Bucky. He held you while you slept the previous night, so he had to be out in the kitchen. When no response came back, you went out to check for him, only to be met with an empty house.
When you tried to contact him, Bucky was distant. He didn’t respond to your texts and your mind was telling you that something was wrong, but you shoved those thoughts sideways, hoping that maybe he was busy with work. But you both went through something traumatic, you needed him to be with you. If he were busy, he could have at least texted you.
Well, if he was going to ignore you, then you wouldn't be one of those people whose life revolved around their partner. You had a book to write and ambitions that didn’t involve him. 
Two hours later, when there was no word from him, you stared at the blank  screen on your computer. You weren’t unfamiliar with writer's block, but it had been months and you haven't written a single line since the incident in the club involving Rumlow. And now that you were alone with your thoughts, you started doubting everything. Should you have stayed in that corporate 9 to 5 job? You'd have a stable life and a fixed salary. Maybe you could have even got a promotion. Should you have filed a complaint against Rumlow? Bucky wanted you to, he even assured you the cops would be on your side, but you just weren't ready. You realized that by choosing to remain silent, you were sending a predator out in the world. He could do that to other people and you could have stopped it.
A knock on the front door interrupted your train of thoughts and you were grateful for the person on the other side. You assumed it was Bucky, he didn’t need to buzz in because he literally owned the building. Well, it could also be any one of his friends. Sam and Steve also didn't need permission . And the other day when Peter came by to give you your phone (you left it in the club), he didn't buzz in either. 
Seeing Wanda, Peter and Pietro on the door was a good change and God, you needed a change or else you'd go mad with self-loathing. 
“We brought pizza,” Wanda exclaimed, lifting the bag in her hand to show you.
You didn't say anything, just smiled at them thankfully. You were really delighted they were here. Not only that, but you didn't have many friends here, and you considered your work friends, your only friends. It was nice to see that they saw you as a friend too and not just someone they work with.
“And beers,” Pietro chimed in, raising the carton in his hand. 
You looked at Peter before teasing, “Is he even legal, guys?”
Seeing you joke around with them made Wanda happy. Between all the testosterone, she truly needed a female friend, and she was relieved to see you treating them as friends rather than colleagues. And she understood the trauma that must haunt you since your kidnapping. She was an empath and when you didn’t show up at work, she grew worried. 
Half an hour later, most of you were on your second beer. Pietro was on his fourth. That man was fast at everything he did. A movie was playing in the background that none of you paid attention to while everyone was settled on your couch. It wasn't a very spacious couch, you were all squashed into it, but it was too comfortable to leave. You were sitting in between Peter and Wanda, while Pietro was situated beside his sister.
You forgot how nice it felt to have friends and bitch about people to them.
“And just like that he was gone. I woke up and he wasn't there,” you told them, “Hasn't been taking my calls either.”
Pietro took a sip of his drink before saying, “What an ass!”
Wanda raised her bottle, nudging all of you to join her, and said, “Fuck men!” 
“Amen!” you agreed, Peter and Pietro nodded too.
“You should focus on your book,” Pietro advised, “Bucky is gonna regret if he loses someone like you, babe.”
The book. Your book. You couldn't tell them why you weren't focused on the book. It was still a lot to process, and you were not ready, so you nodded before chanting, “Fuck Bucky!”
***
“What are you doing here?” Sam questioned as he and his husband entered the  office.
“Last I checked, I own this place.”
Sam huffed, “I meant why are you here instead of her place, smartass?”
Bucky looked around to avoid the questioning gaze of both Sam and Steve. He hadn’t talked to Steve since the argument they had over you. Of course, they did discuss business as usual, but nothing related to their personal life.
 “She doesn't need me,'' Bucky murmured and looked at Steve. “You must be pleased to know that it's over.”
Bewilderment was clear on the faces of both the men because Bucky exhaled loudly before continuing, “I almost got her killed. It would be wise and safe for her to not be with me.”
Steve finally spoke, “Did she say that?”
When his best friend shook his head ‘no’, Steve sighed in exasperation. “You are an idiot.”
“Yeah, well, that's what you wanted, didn't you?” Bucky retorted, “For me to focus on work and not on her.”
 “I was clearly wrong, pal,” Steve raised his hand in exasperation as if it was obvious, “And I’m sorry for that.” 
“Well, it's over now.”
***
“Before I met Nat. I dated a girl who pretended to be gay,” Wanda scrunched her nose, remembering the awful memory.
“Oh yeah, weird Sallie,” Pietro smiled teasingly, “Did you guys know that when Wanda brought her home, she hit on our dad?”
 “No!” Both you and Peter cried out, stupefied at his words.
“Yeah,” Wanda outlined, “And on Pietro too.”
 “I mean, Mr. Barnes is not like this,” Peter brought the conversation back to Bucky and you sucked in a heavy breath. “I’m sure he had a good reason for doing all of this.”
“Seriously?” you were pretty drunk, but not drunk enough to talk about Bucky. You looked at Wanda and Pietro for support, but they shrugged their shoulders in a manner that said, ‘He's not wrong, though.’
You wanted to go to bed and sleep. But you knew they were right. Bucky would never hurt you intentionally, you knew that. “Do you guys know where he is now?”
***
Since trying to talk some sense into Bucky wasn't working, Sam and Steve retaliated back to talk about business.
“Clint is officially out of here,” Steve reported, “Torturing him would just create more ruckus. Rumlow is behind us because he wants his weapons in the government, and Clint would just be a casualty in all this shit. He has three kids.”
Sam huffed, “We told Laura. Her wrath would be worse for Clint than our fists.”
Bucky didn't say anything and just nodded. Steve could feel something was on Bucky's mind, wrapping his arms to his chest, he raised a brow towards his best friend.
“I’m just tired of all of this,” Bucky said sadly, “Is this what we left Rumlow for, pal? You have a kid at home, Wanda has a wife, I have ma and Bec and I haven't met them in years, in fear of someone following me. And now — Well, now I’ve lost the girl too."
Steve and Sam looked at their friend with sympathy. They knew the toll their work took on all of them. Hell, they had a four-year-old daughter at home, and could barely sleep at night, always terrified of losing their kid because of their job.
Sam was about to ask Bucky to suggest an alternative that would help all of them could to make it out of there and just work on the club and not some shady business. Suddenly, the office door flung open and on purpose, everyone’s hand reached for the gun in their waistband. But in walked you with a beer bottle in your hand and a pizza slice in another.
“JAMES BUCKY BARNES!” You exclaimed, your steps wavering a little as you walked towards him. Oh, and you looked royally pissed.
Instantly, Bucky was on his feet and making his way towards you, to hold you — to be near you. And before you could say anything, he was engulfing his arms around your waist, his head settled at the crane of your neck and you frowned. Okay, You did not expect that. You thought he would ignore you, and you would give him a piece of your mind before leaving.
Sober you would have asked him to have a mature conversation like adults, but tipsy you wanted to flip him off and leave. Your arms hung around your sides awkwardly, trying to understand the situation before finally pushing him away.
“You left me,” you spoke so softly that if Bucky wasn't so close, he wouldn't have heard it. “I needed you and you left me alone.”
Bucky’s heart broke at your words. He didn't consider how his rash decision would affect you. You were kidnapped by the person who assaulted you. Fuck, he cursed himself. He was supposed to be protecting you, not hurting you. You sounded so hurt that Bucky wanted to get on his knees and ask for forgiveness. He was so focused on your physical injuries, he did not even realize he was hurting you emotionally.
Steve cleared his throat, clearly uncomfortable to present. He interrupted and took his husband’s hand in his, “We’re going to go.”
Before they could leave, you shifted your attention towards Steve and pointed a finger at him. “Why do you hate me?”
Steve stammered, he didn't expect you to put him in a spot like this, but you had a tad more than necessary liquid courage in your system.
“Doll,” Bucky breathed, and you moved your gaze back towards him. Steve took the opportunity and left the room with Sam.
You were on the verge of tears by now — both of you were — Bucky wasn't a man who could voice his feelings, but with you, all of his armor came shattering down. With you — he would tell you his vulnerabilities and fears just so he could let you in. You meant so much to him that the fear of losing you blinded his sense of understanding. He realized that he acted immaturely and by doing so, he almost lost you.
“You hurt me,” Your voice wavered, the traitorous tears made their way down your eyes, and Bucky couldn't see you like that. Instinctively, he stretched his hands to wrap around you, but stopped, “Can I hold you?”
You sniffled and nodded, and Bucky engulfed you flush against his chest. After a while, you snaked your hands around his shoulder too, and a sob broke down from your throat.
He didn't remember how long he held you like this, but after a while, he picked you up and made his way to the couch. He stood before you and then slid one hand up to your cheek. Likewise, he brushed his thumb across your cheek. And then you slowly straddled his waist as you both settled down on the soft sofa. Bucky’s hands fell naturally to your hips to pull you closer.
“I love you, Bucky,” you whispered, once your tears suspended. You enveloped your arms around him and pressed your forehead against his.
Bucky didn’t know whether you meant it or not. You were pretty drunk. He hoped you did.
“I love you, doll,” he confessed as he kissed the crown of your head. He noticed that you were on the brink of sleep, your breathing even, and you looked so peaceful in his arms.
 He felt at ease — calm even with you in his arms and in that moment he decided he was never letting you go no matter what.
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When Passion Rules the Game | Part Four
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CW: NSFW, language
Part Three//Part Five//Masterlist//2976 words
“Shut up,” Aelin hissed, elbowing Elide. “Aedion can’t know about this.”
She had told Elide and Dorian everything about her last encounter with Rowan (save for what had happened after), and they both refused to stop bringing it up. Aelin swore to herself that she would never gossip with them again, but she knew she would cave eventually.
Elide was currently standing next to Aelin at the work party they were attending, pointing out Rowan and telling her how hot he looked, just to rile her up. As if Aelin didn’t already know.
And Aedion, her cousin, was making his way over to the pair of them. Unaware of Aelin’s inner turmoil, he marched up to them and said, “How’s everything coming along?”
“Great,” Aelin said with a smile. “I already got Chaol Westfall to donate to the organization.” They were hosting a fundraising event for their newest branch, a charity revolving around children with limited education opportunities. They had only been here for fifteen minutes, and Chaol, who Aelin suspected only agreed because he had a crush on her, had donated quite a sum after she sweet-talked him into it.
Aedion grinned. “I knew every time you convinced Dad to get you another ice cream or a new pair of shoes, you were made for bigger things.”
Aelin laughed. “You’re horrible.”
He grinned. “What about you, Elide? Good day?”
Elide rasied an eyebrow. “If successfully corralling Aelin around the room counts as a good day, then I’d say so.”
“I’m not that hard to manage,” Aelin protested with a scoff.
Elide snorted. “Whatever you want to tell yourself.”
Before she could respond, someone cleared their throat in a microphone, tapping it experimentally. “Ladies and gentlemen, may I please have your attention.”
It was Lysandra Ennar, another friend of Aelin’s who often worked publicity events such as these. While everyone else turned and focused on the speaker, Aelin started making her way across the room.
“Thank you all for attending tonight. May I welcome your main speaker tonight, the CEO of Terrasen Corp., Miss Aelin Galathynius!”
Aelin reached the podium with perfect timing, stepping up and taking the mic from Lys with a smile. Then she turned to her audience.
The speech went well. Very well, in fact. Aelin loved many parts of her job, but this was her favorite. Making a difference.
And Aelin excelled at talking to crowds. She made eye contact with different people in the audience, kept her features light and apt, but solemn at the right times, and most importantly, she spoke from her heart. Every rich donor in the room had teared up by the time she was through with them, Aelin noticed proudly.
Upon the completion of her speech, she wandered the room and spoke further to individual people. With Rowan.
That was the other thing. Rowan’s job here was the coordinations director of this new project. Which meant not only was he required to be with her tonight, but they had been working together closely all week.
It had been one week and one day since the incident, as Aelin was starting to call it. Things had been tense, but each had done a good job of sticking to their work and getting things done. Now, on a Saturday, they were launching this new project to the public. Aelin was excited, and no amount of interaction with Rowan could diminish that.
Once Aelin finished up wrangling a healthy sum out of Meave Cadreson, much to everyone’s shock and Aelin’s eternal joy, she stepped out covertly, heading away from the main room and down the hall. Standing so close to Rowan and watching him walk around in a fucking tuxedo was getting to be too much for her. Aelin had done plenty tonight, and no one would notice if she slipped away for a few minutes. She walked toward the elevator, deciding that she could straighten up a few things in her office just to take her mind off him.
Just before the doors could shut, a hand appeared between them and pulled enough to have them automatically opening again. Rowan.
He stepped in the elevator, and Aelin watched in silence as the doors slid shut behind him. Glancing over to the control panel, Aelin realized it was a long way up.
“You left your own event.”
Aelin smiled, pretending the way he crossed his arms and the elevator started ascending didn’t turn her on. “I’ve done enough. I just thought I should catch up on some work.”
Rowan nodded. He didn’t explain why he’d caught up with her. And that was the end of the conversation.
Aelin’s office was on the sixtieth floor. It was a long and arduous journey (read: Aelin is impatient), and she even brought paperwork to sit on the elevator’s floor and do some days. Her employees found it amusing.
But today, there was no paperwork. There was just Aelin and Rowan.
They were staring at each other, staring becasue there was no where else to look. And an indecipherable expression began to cross Rowan’s face.
“You look stunning tonight, Miss Galathynius.”
He was right, in fact. In the long red dress she had on, she knew how she looked, especially to the male prospective donors. Aelin smiled a bit tightly, trying not to be as excited by this comment as she was inclined to be. “You look quite handsome yourself, Mr. Whitethorn.”
Oh, how Dorian would laugh if he could see them now. He didn’t work in the office building, so Elide had discreetly snapped a photo on her phone to show him. Dorian had laughed endlessly, claiming that even though he was straight, he would do anything “that beauty” asked of him. In other words, they both sucked.
Floor eleven arrived. The silence lengthened. Aelin felt the need to say something. “You did well tonight with the people. We made the right decision in hiring you.”
Rowan smiled. “Thank you.”
Floor twenty-four.
Aelin averted her eyes, feeling awkward as fuck. In the faint reflection of the metal walls, she could make out him still watching her. His gaze dipped lower and Aelin cleared her throat, turning back to him. His eyes immediately snapped back to her own.
“Why are here, if you don’t mind me asking? More work to catch up on?” Aelin kept her tone even, but her hands were shaking with anticipation. She clenched them into fists and hid them in the skirt of her dress.
Rowan smirked. Fuck, fuck, fuck, this man was not allowed to smirk at her. It did unspeakable things to Aelin.
“I just thought I would accompany you. This is your big day, after all. I didn’t think you should be alone.”
Aelin nodded faintly. “I see.” Her voice was slightly out-of-breath.
They reached floor thirty. Halfway there.
“Do you ever think about it?” Aelin asked, not letting herself review that question in her head before it popped out.
Rowan knew exactly what she was talking about. “Of course I think about it. Every fucking day. You have no idea how much torture it is to see you in those gods-damn pantsuits. Or now.” His gaze shamelessly dropped to the dip in her dress. While this dress wasn’t nearly as revealing as what Aelin had been wearing when she met Rowan, it still didn’t leave too much to the imagination.
Maybe they had both had too much champagne.
“I think I have some idea,” Aelin replied.
Rowan looked back at her. And took a step forward. Aelin licked her lips.
The elevator dinged. How had the last half of the ride passed that quickly? Shaking herself out of her reverie, Aelin stepped out, grateful. There was a camera in the elevator.
“Come with me,” she said, but it was more of a request than an order. Allowing Rowan to decide if he wanted to go through with this.
He nodded, and Aelin nonchalantly walked down the hall a short ways, heading for the door to her office on the right. As soon as they were both inside and the door was locked, Rowan was upon her.
Aelin gasped against his lips as he pushed her against the door, pinning her wrists. She kissed him back passionately. Only two weeks of denying herself since their initial meeting, and Aelin was pent-up, desperate to feel him again.
Rowan broke the kiss, pressing his body even harder against hers. “You look so fucking perfect in that dress.” His voice was a gravelly heaven, a sound that Aelin had been dreaming of.
She moaned quietly. “Rowan,” she gasped.
Rowan started kissing her neck, sucking and nipping at the skin.
“Oh, gods, Rowan you can’t…” Her voice was barely audible, a pleasured whisper.
“What is it, baby?” he mumbled.
Aelin almost forgot what her protest had been, then remembered and said, “You’ll leave marks. There’s no fucking way I’m walking out of here in a dress and a scarf.”
Rowan hummed, debating this, then stepped back. “Get on your knees.”
It was all Aelin could do to hold back a groan at the words. She knelt, as instructed.
“Good girl,” Rowan murmured.
Aelin pressed her thighs together in a pathetic attempt at quenching her desire, and reached for his pants. She had been wondering what it was like to taste this man for far too long. Her sanity probably wouldn’t have survived if Aelin never got to.
She pulled out his cock, giving it an experimental pump. Rowan groaned, the sound like a drug. Spurred on, Aelin twisted her wrist, delighting in the sensation of having Rowan’s cock harden in her hand.
She leaned forward and placed her lips on him. Small kisses to his cock had Rowan growling ferally. “Aelin.”
His tone was not one to ignore. Knowing there would be consequences if Aelin didn’t do as was expected of her, she leaned forward and took him in her mouth.
The groan that tore from Rowan’s mouth as she bobbed her head forward had her heart speeding up. Or stopping altogether; she couldn’t say. Aelin made an O with her lips and took him deeper, relaxing her mouth around him.
Rowan reached down and grabbed several strands of Aelin’s hair, tugging them lightly as he got a hold on her. She groaned softly, both from the sensation and from the knowledge that she was entirely at his mercy.
Rowan praised her as she moved, not yet controlling her completely. Aelin took him deeper and deeper with each bob, sucking the delicate appendage a bit too much, secretly pleased with the hiss the movement drew from his throat.
“You want me to fuck your throat, sweetheart? I will if you don’t behave.”
Both of them knew that Aelin was not opposed to that idea.
In response, she sucked harder, flattening her tongue and letting her teeth scrape against his cock.
Rowan tightened his grip on her hair and thrust into her mouth. Aelin moaned around his cock, and the vibrations had him cursing. He started moving harder, setting a brutal, punishing pace.
Aelin felt his tip hit the back of her throat, and she slid a hand down to the hem of her dress. Before she could get her hand where she needed it, Rowan said, “Did I fucking say you could touch yourself?”
The only light came from the cracks in the window shades, pulled closed, and she didn’t realize he would be able to see her. Aelin could only whine in reply. He didn’t stop fucking her mouth.
“Maybe I’ll let you come tonight if you’re good. But you have to listen to me.” Rowan’s voice held amusement, clearly taking pleasure in her struggle. Aelin reluctanly pulled her hand out of her dress.
He whispered some more dirty praises to her, as well as a few threats, and Aelin couldn’t help but feel relieved the only other people in the building were sixty floors below them.
Rowan thrust into her mouth with one last groan, then paused. He pulled her off his cock, ignoring Aelin’s pleas to keep going, and yanked her to her feet.
“I’m going to come inside of you, you little slut. Do you understand me?”
Aelin nodded desperately. “Please.”
“Bend over.” Rowan nodded to the desk.
Aelin pushed some papers aside, then bent over, gripping the edge of the desk in anticipation.
Rowan pulled her dress up, then slid her panties down. Aelin lifted each ankle in turn after he dropped them, leaving her sex bare and exposed to the chilly air. They always ran the air conditioning too much in this building.
Rowan, apparently done toying with her, gripped her hips. He lined himself up with her entrance, and Aelin gasped as she felt his cock part her folds. “Please,” she whispered, for extra measure.
Rowan chuckled, then slid in. All the way.
Aelin buried her head in the desk, gripping the end tighter. He buried himself inside of Aelin with one thrust, groaning breathlessly. She didn’t make a sound, just held on for dear life.
Way too soon, Rowan started moving. He leisurely slid into Aelin, then back out. The pause between thrusts started lessening as he picked up speed.
“Look at you,” Rowan muttered. “You and your tight little pussy.”
Aelin’s toes curled painfully in the high heels that she was having trouble standing in. Rowan’s fingers started to dig into her hips tighter, and Aelin felt exhilarated by the knowledge that he was marking her, that there would be evidence of this the next day and she couldn’t just dismiss it as a dream.
Rowan slammed into Aelin, his balls slapping her clit, and she cried out. He didn’t let up, moving harder and deeper with every thrust. The sweet pain of his fingers digging into her hips was enough to have Aelin groaning as she came.
Rowan cursed as she tightened around his cock. He moved impossibly harder, using Aelin to chase the same pleasure.
Aelin thought she heard some sort of ding, but quickly dismissed the thought as Rowan came inside of her, filling her so delightfully. She sighed, intoxicated from the feel of him.
Rowan muttered a few more praises as he pulled out of her. Aelin shakily stood, still using the desk for support. Before she could say anything, a knock sounded on the door and they both froze.
“Aelin? You okay? I just wanted to check on you since you’ve been gone for so long.” It was Elide’s voice.
The handle started to turn and Aelin yelled. “Wait!” The handle stopped moving. “Um, I’m just…”
“Just what?” Elide asked, suspicious of her tone.
Aelin thought for a moment. “Doing some paperwork.”
“And I’m not allowed in to see you committing the scandalous act of paperwork? What are you actually doing?”
“I… spilled something on my dress so I’m changing into my spare work clothes.”
“Liar,” Elide called. “You’re probably mooning over Rowan again, aren’t you? Maybe you’re even—”
“Elide!” Aelin squeaked. She didn’t dare face Rowan.
“Oh, gods, is he in there?” Elide started laughing. “I’m so sorry.”
“No, you’re not,” Aelin hissed. “Go away.”
Elide’s laughter got louder. “Just letting you know, people are going to start wondering where you are. You might want to finish that up pretty quickly.” Elide was still laughing to herself as Aelin her heels clicking down the hallway.
Finally, absolutely petrified, Aelin turned back to Rowan. In the semidarkness, she could make out a smirk, but that was about it.
“You told your assistant about us.”
Aelin tried not to shiver at the word “us.” She crossed her arms. “She’s one of my best friends, okay. She won’t tell anyone.”
Rowan hummed amusedly, then—thank the gods—seemed to drop it for now. “So, Aelin. Miss Galathynius.” She barely stopped herself from frowning at that. “Will this be… happening again?”
Aelin knew better than to ask if he wanted it to. He clearly did. “It can. But just to be clear, it won’t earn you any special treatment. And if you chose to end this at any time, there will be no repercussions for you. No matter how this ends, your job will not be affected in any way.”
Rowan nodded. “I’m glad.”
“And we won’t be doing this again,” Aelin continued, waving a hand around her office. “I am a professional, and there will be no more office hookups. This stays out of our careers. And,” she added, “when we are here, I am your boss, and you will treat me with the respect I deserve. There will be no talk of this while we’re here, no glances or innuendos. And this is just sex. Nothing more.”
Aelin was a CEO, and she had to be good with words and contracts to make it to where she was now. This was a mixture of both. It was easy for her to decide how to arrange this, and Aelin wouldn’t have this backfiring on her.
Rowan nodded again, agreeing. “I understand, Miss Galathynius.”
Aelin cleared her throat. “Perhaps now that the awkwardness has abated, you can refer to me as Aelin? Most of my employees do.”
“Only if you call me Rowan.”
Aelin smiled. Then she said, “And, I know I’ve already said this, but I would like to make this clear—you are allowed to stop this at any time, no questions asked.”
An expression Aelin didn’t recognize in the darkness came over Rowan’s face. “I appreciate it a lot. Thank you.”
“We should go. We’ve been missing for too long. I should head over to the bathroom and fix my hair.”
“Of course,” Rowan agreed. “Aelin.”
She tried to pretend hearing her name on his lips didn’t melt her heart completely, but it was a losing battle. If only Aelin understood what feeling like that meant.
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I live in the neighbourhood  Part 2
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Part 2 is hereeeeee YAY! There will be a part 3 eventually :) I hope you enjoy and as well lmk you loved it with reblogs and messages, they truly make my day and y’know do it for other writers too, trust me we all love it. this fucking gif still gets me,,, but anyway there is so much i want to talk about in this part its killing me so plssss message me about it aghghghggh idk what else to say 
um this part is filled with: yn not knowing cars, harry being a dork, almost kisses and kisses  , but daddy i love him, the crown, gardening, and so much more mwah
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Word Count: 10.8k | Warnings: minor anxiety attack, swearing?, drinking, think that’s it (some more taylor swift)
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“You want me to what?!” She feels herself all but scream.
He sighs in exasperation and ruffles his freshly cut curls. He can’t help the smile that grows shortly after his sigh. Y/N’s reaction on the other end of the line has sent him into a fit of giggles that he has to suppress quickly when she sends a warning ‘Harry’.
“It’s simple, love,” He twists to lay on his stomach. “I left you the spare to my place. Just go in, find my car keys and then drive to the airport and snap me up!”
She sighs now over the phone as she contemplates whether she could truly go into Harry’s home and then drive his surely expensive car to the airport and get him. It was something a friend would do for another friend, especially one who was a neighbour and especially a neighbour who had nothing better to do on a Friday night.
“Alright,” she says finally, “I’ll be there on Friday, text me the flight number.”
She grins when she hears a little “woo” from Harry. Even if he’s smiling half a world away it still made her happy to know it was because of her.
They had mostly texted each other randomly over the past three weeks while Harry had been away in California. She told him about her job, which he insisted was endlessly interesting and she countered that he found it interesting because it was new to him and eventually the grandeur would wear off. She loved her job, of course, it was for a public relations company that dealt with various London based companies and she was on multiple accounts with various clients ranging from tech companies to music artists. But she didn’t think it was as interesting as Harry made it out to be.
Harry told her about the filming of the movie and about everyone on set. He told her how he bought everyone on the crew his new ‘Treat People With Kindness’ sweatshirts and joked how he’d have to get her one as well to match her other one. She noted that one of Harry’s love languages was very obviously gift giving. He was so generous and she really admired that from him considering how successful he was. Her father was an accountant so she knew how rich people could be about their money sometimes, hiding it away in different entities just so their money can make money instead of spending it on things that matter.
He said everyone was nice and amazing overall, he gushed about people’s performances, but he’d always end with how much he missed London. He liked LA, he would assure her, but then he’d say how it wasn’t home-y at all. London was home to him. She would smile whenever he said that because she felt that way too, even though she wasn’t originally from the city, it just felt like home to her.
One night, he even confided in her his loneliness while on set. He wondered that maybe it was because he had no real roots in LA, nothing to go home to - no home to go to. She tried to reassure him that he wasn’t alone and all he had to do was ask and any person from the movie would love to spend time with him. He nodded along to her words, but they both knew he was being overly kind when he said everyone was nice. Not everyone in Hollywood was nice and certainly not everyone in Hollywood had substance. He searched for a month and seldom found time where he was truly relaxed with others and enjoying himself. More than ever he was excited to return home to London to say the least.
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“Harry!”
She jumped out of her seat and into his arms, her cheek brushing his as she leaned in. He stood just on the sidewalk by his car that she had gingerly driven into the city and to the airport at 9pm on a Friday night in November.
The car was a dark blue vintage convertible, Mercedes-Benz, she was pretty sure but she really was completely clueless when it came to cars. Harry had taken her call right before his flight took off and walked her through finding the car. He had two garages and one garage had two cars and the other had only one. She had gone on her own and found the first garage with the two cars and seen a lime green tiny little vintage convertible and a cherry red vintage non-convertible and became distraught that there was no navy car. When Harry picked up the phone he had been greeted with some yelling about how he must be colorblind if he thought one of these cars was navy and he had laughed heartily before explaining that there was another garage. She had huffed and traipsed through his house until she came upon the other garage. When she saw the blue car she was equally annoyed and elated. “Thank fucking god,” she muttered over the line and Harry had laughed, but found himself cut off when the line went dead.
He smiled and groaned slightly at her tight embrace. He was happy to be back in England after a month away and he was happy to have her in his arms even if he didn’t know whether he should admit that.
“It’s good to see you,” he musters and he feels her smile into his neck. The only fabric between her face and him being his thin waffle knit long sleeve. He could feel her breath softly against him. He pets at the back of her hair, “Thank you for coming to get me, I know it might have been a bit much to ask.”
“Don’t mention it,” she pulls back from his embrace and smiles happily up at him, “What are friends for?”
She brushes her hands at his shoulders and then moves to start putting his luggage in his car. He had two suitcases and a backpack with him, but he had told her he had more stuff sent over that would just be sent simply to his home. She had texted back a shocked face emoji when he said that, unaware that he traveled with that much stuff.
“Right,” Harry affirms, twitching into action at the word ‘friends’. He felt like they had gotten so close over the last month even though they had only talked over the phone for that time. Seeing her in person now felt like she had been his friend for years.
Once in the car, Y/N settles back in the driver’s seat, not wanting Harry to have to drive after the horrible flight from California to London. A direct flight was just about as bad as layovers in Ohio or Utah. She wasn’t sure what it was like in First Class, but she still knew it was rough being on an aircraft for 10 plus hours.
Harry closes his eyes beside her after a moment. He had watched her settle in the car with his head against the headrest, his eyes drooping as they regarded her movements. She was so sweet to him and he nodded when she asked if he wanted his seat warmer on.
“You’re too good to me, pet,” he whispers, head lulling once again.
She glances at him swiftly as she pulls out of the loading area. He smiled contentedly before drifting off to sleep.  
She turned the music low and silently drove them back to Sherwood Avenue. When she pulled the car into Harry’s garage, she sat there for a few moments as Harry softly breathed beside her. She had hoped he’d wake up upon their arrival so she wouldn’t have to wake him, but alas he was sound asleep.
She watched him, he was so quiet in this moment. So unlike how he normally was with her, talking about everything and nothing almost constantly. She liked that side of him. But she had to admit something about him this peaceful was just as entrancing.
The flutter of his eyelids brought her out of her reverie and she was grateful for the dim lighting in the garage because when Harry’s eyes focused on her she was blushing.
He quirks a brow and his smirk begins to settle back on his lips. “Home,” he raspily mumbles and begins to shift in his sea.
She nods and smiles softly, shaking off all the thoughts had been going through her mind.
“We’re back,” she affirms. “Let’s get you inside, sleepy boy.”
Harry shakes off his slumber with a rub at his right eye and a run through his hair. He climbs out of the car. She throws him the keys at his silent instruction of an extended hand and an eyebrow raise. She knows she read him correctly when he smiles sweetly and travels to the boot of his car to begin unloading the suitcases he was in charge of.
She follows him and rounds the end of the car, preparing to take some of his luggage.  
“You don’t need to carry anything, it’s fine, dove.”
His voice is extra gravelly still and she would’ve complained about the new nicknames if he hadn’t sounded so hot. She didn’t think she had any feelings for Harry other than friendship, she was almost sure of it. Sure he was attractive, but ever since she actually got to know him she hadn’t thought of him in a way that could be considered more than friendship. He made her blush, but he was just inherently smooth. It wasn’t because he was specifically flirting with her.
Except right now, the whole reuniting of it all paired with his voice and his sleepy eyes that she imagined likely looked similar to his bedroom eyes. She was having a hard time seeing that line of friendship.
“No!” She protested, tugging the backpack he was attempting to carry along with the two suitcases from him.
He sighs and sets down one of the cases, “Y/N, you’ve already been too good to me by picking me up. I’m not making you do any more physical labor with any of my heavy shit.”
“It can’t be that heavy,” she pulls the backpack on and she resists the slight step back her body wants to take from the weight of the backpack.
“Give it back,” he says, sounding concerned for her.
“It’s fine, I’ve got it, Har,” she smiles and gives a little twirl in his large garage, the backpack making her look a bit smaller.
He twists his lips trying to ward off a smile. He wasn’t annoyed, moreso he was delighted by her antics. He wanted to scoop her up in his arms and kiss her.
“Oh you got it? Do you?” His amusement betrays his British accent, making him sound like he did at 19. He places the other case on the ground and walks quickly to stand right in front of her.
She squeals as he gets so close, his nose just about brushes hers. He’s smiling sinisterly as he takes hold of the straps of the backpack and tries to tug them off of her. Yet, she holds on tight to the front of them, laughing happily at their silliness and causing her nose to brush against his.
Their eyes are strong on each other, watching their every move. And they settle a little, laughter dying out, breathing evening out. Her hands are still strong on the front straps of the backpack, while Harry’s are strong on the top of her shoulders, wrapped around the backpack’s straps as well.
He licks his lips, feeling especially interested in seeing how hers finally taste. Right as he is about to lean in, brush his lips against hers, she pulls from his grasp, swinging away from him and dashing to the door that leads to the rest of his house.
“C’mon, it’s freezing out here!” She twists the nob of the door and beckons him.
He huffs, shaking himself out of the daydream he had almost made reality. He wanted to kick himself, he felt like a kid. He needed to get a grip.
“I’m right behind ya’,” he called, nodding his head to tell her to go before him.
Her smile sears in his mind like the shine on a brand new coin as she flicks on the light in the entryway. The light comes flooding in the doorway and around her. For that quick moment only she is illuminated in his eyes. She shines for him and he wonders if it’s possible to drown in light.
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Next Thursday
“Crown came out on Sunday!” Harry said as he opened the door, knowing it was Y/N who had knocked.
“Had no clue from the ominous text you sent, ‘come over, i promise popcorn *crown emoji*’,” she laughs and enters the house and holds out a bag of chocolate chips.
“I already have it queued up and popcorn’s popping!” He says happily and takes the chocolate chips to put in little dishes.
They walk into the kitchen and she’s still in awe of his home. It was clean and sleek but with all the hominess still easily found if you looked a little closer. Tea cloths hanging over the ovens’ handles that had interlocking G’s - a facet of Gucci she could only assume. Various paintings of different scenes, one a Japanese store front and another a Blue Jay perched easily on a thin branch.
There were unique painted tiles that he must use for hot plates and a single fancy floral mug tucked next to an espresso machine and just little things that she was keen on exploring at some point, but Harry caught her attention.
“Adult slushie?” He inquires with an arched brow.
“Does the slushie perform exotic dances?” She asks jokingly.
Harry rolls his eyes and chuckles, “Sometimes those that drink it do.”  
She reddens at his implication. He then looks at her seriously and she regards him with utter delight. Her eyes twinkle as he moves about his home with ease.
“If you make it,” she confirms, in awe that he would make cocktails on this random occasion.
He smiles at her and begins his final tasks, checking to make sure the popcorn doesn’t burn and grabs the ingredients he needs to make the drink he was thinking of.
She stands beside him, eyes constantly wondering between his moving physique and his home.
“Did you know I know Emma?” Harry asks, looking up from the blender. She notices how his neck muscles twist and strain as he gazes at her. He was wearing a white t-shirt with ‘But Daddy I Love Him’ in a red vintage font and a black cardigan with different colorful objects on it, mostly flowers, it said ‘Spaceboy’ on the back and she had smiled when she saw it when he led her to the kitchen.
She hums, her gaze focused on him. His green eyes flicker across her face and down her body, simply taking into account her outfit. Pink sweatpants and a long sleeve with a drawing of a cute little clown holding two guns up at the air. While it might have sounded like a weird thing to have printed on a shirt, he found it fun, he was always appreciative of different clothing. Of course she had a gun-slinging clown shirt that she managed to make sweet, he thought.
“Fascinating connections of the rich and famous,” she muses.
“Yeah, well, Susan - Harry Lambert,” he corrects his friend’s nickname, catching himself, “he styles us both so we’ve met a few times. She’s really lovely.”
“That’s pretty epic,” she says and wanders closer to Harry, wanting a better look at his progress on the drinks.
Her hand rests on the countertop next to the two glasses he intends to place the ‘slushies’ into. The liquor he used just said “Blue” and she wondered what blue would taste like as he pours the glasses now. The consistency of them being relatively slushie like, she was impressed.
Her smile gives it away and Harry eyes her, “What’re you smiling at?”
“I’m admiring your bartending skills,” she meets his eyes and she realizes how rather close they’ve gotten as he leans slightly over her and the countertop.
“Let’s not get ahead of ourselves,” he says playfully, “I take my mixology very seriously so I don’t want any praise until you’ve actually tried it.”
He holds the glass up to her and instead of grabbing it from him, she simply guides it to her lips. Her hand lightly grasping at the soft fabric of his cardigan. She parts her lips and takes a small sip, maintaining eye contact with Harry.
When the icey liquid passes her lips, her eyes flutter shut at the sweetness of the drink, it was like candy but with a light kick at the end from the alcohol. She loved it and when she opened her eyes again she took the drink from Harry’s strong hand and took another sip.
“This is dangerously good,” she finally says and Harry grins.
“Fantastic! Now we’re ready to start the show,” and he leads them into his living room that is just as big or bigger than his kitchen. A large screen television and a turquoise velvet couch are the main attractions of the room, at least what Y/N is focused on. There’s more art and posters up in this room, a lovely round coffee table and gorgeous vintage rug.
“Wait, Susan?” she circles back to Harry’s earlier comment about Emma Corin and their shared stylist.
Harry smiles and sits next to her comfortably, placing the drinks on coasters and the other various items on the coffee table.
“It’s my nickname for Harry since we’re both...Harry. Just felt silly calling each other Harry and Sue and Susan, they just fit so well.”
She nods, “I see.” But she didn’t really get it. She’d never had a friend where they only called each other a different name from their own, maybe a nickname that she would occasionally call them, but never one so ingrained that she would call them it when referring to them to someone else who surely didn’t know them and wouldn’t know them by the different name. Not that she really knew who Harry Lambert was in the first place, but it still made more sense than Susan. She shook it off just as another quirk of Harry being who he was.
They settle in for the show and they love talking through it, which Y/N was happy that Harry liked to talk during shows as well. She hated when people shushed her during movies and shows when she had something to say. They commented on the fashion and how wild some of the stuff was. Thankfully, as well, even Harry thought some of the things the royals did were absurdly lavish.
“He is so hot,” she finally says when Prince Charles is on the screen for another time and she can’t keep it in anymore, “How could they cast him for Prince Charles, they are far too kind.”
“Josh?” Harry questions, glancing over at his friend curled up on the couch next to him. She had her feet tucked beneath her legs and had her body on its side while staring at the television.
“Don’t tell me you know him too?” She says, taking her focus off the TV to look at Harry, a chocolate chip landing in her mouth once she finished talking.
Their blue slushies had been finished and the popcorn was half eaten. She was pretty sure they were on the second episode already.
He laughs, “No, but Emma says he’s very nice...He is rather attractive.”
That makes her smile, the both of them finding an actor attractive. It felt like Harry was like one of her friends from home, chatting about boys, something she really didn’t do anymore.
“Maybe you can introduce us,” she laughs, her head nudging at Harry’s shoulder beside her.
She doesn’t notice Harry’s lack of mirth at her joke as she turns her attention back to the screen, re-immersing herself in the plot. He twitches slightly uncomfortably at the thought of him introducing her to someone she might be interested in romantically.
“Why not,” he says half-heartedly and he hopes she doesn’t notice his tone.
-
The next day was Friday and she had the day off as per usual.
After three episodes of the Crown, she and Harry had decided to call it a night. He had offered that she could spend the night so she didn’t have to walk home after she had refused to let him walk her across the street. However, she declined, saying she didn’t like leaving Rori alone at night, especially since he was still getting used to the new house. Harry had understood but she could tell he was saddened by her leaving.
She had decided to plant some flowers in her front yard, hoping to liven it up. She had bought some plants at the local flower shop, pansies and aster thinking that purple and gold would look lovely together. She planned to set to work with little experience, but plenty of intention. Rori was outside with her for moral support, prancing through the growing grass and nibbling at the shrubs, more like a bunny than a dog.
Her mother had gifted her gardening tools a long time ago and their entire family had laughed because they knew Y/N didn’t have a green anything, most definitely not a green thumb. Today she had grabbed them and the plants and had placed it all in front of her planters. Then she sat there and went on her phone, scrolling through it mindlessly. She had no idea what she was doing or where to start so getting distracted was easy.
“Need any help?”
Her head turns and she slides away her phone with a sigh, knowing exactly who had just kindly asked to lend a hand.
Harry squints down at her and in this moment she is especially aware of just how tall Harry actually is. Normally she notices his height and thinks ‘yeah he’s tall’, but right now he towers over her. His hair is catching the surprising fall sun and causing glints of gold to radiate off him. His eyes are especially light right now and she feels oddly unnerved by their color, the hazy mint of some kind of predator. He is such a presence and she thought she had finally gotten used to him being in her life, but in this moment she is taken aback. She shakes her head after a moment too long of staring up at him.
“Hi,” she breathes and stands up from her sitting position. “I was just starting to do some planting, and I don’t know if you can tell but I have no gardening skills whatsoever.”
She gestures to her set up and Harry turns his gaze from her to the plants and smiles. He had been coming back from his morning jog and instead of entering his gate, he walked through hers. He looks at everything and reaches down to pet Rori when he comes running up happily to his friend.
“Well, it looks like a good start. Aster is an interesting thing to plant…” He kneels down to start digging up the soil in the planters.
She kneels beside him and watches him attentively. “I wanted chrysanthemums, they’re one of my favorites. But they were out, so it will have to do.”
“It will do perfectly,” he looks up at her from his work, “you wouldn’t have picked it if it wasn’t amazing.”
She makes a small smile at his statement, but doesn’t respond. Instead, she takes up mimicking his actions with the soil.
“Do you garden a lot?” Her voice is soft, not wanting to disturb the quiet that had fallen over them.  
“Not much anymore, I don’t really have the time, but I used to with my mum.”
She hums and scratches behind Rori’s ears absentmindedly when he looks curiously at what they’re doing.
They work silently, only talking intermittently. At one point, she grabs them glasses of water from the kitchen, mostly for Harry because he’s actually working up a sweat planting her garden. Harry hums random songs that are on his mind and she wishes he would sing for her, but she would never dare ask him to.
They talk about the Crown and how much they loved all the clothes in it last night and where the plot is going since they know the true history it’s based on. Harry offers British insight into the Royals that she had never thought about and they even venture into British politics which she admits she never really thought about since usually the US politics is far more in the spotlight.
He talks about his views on politics and she gives hers, even stranger though they even venture further into usually rocky territory and discuss religion. She is very interested by what Harry has to say about religion, his answers are both completely expected and unexpected. Something she’s noticed about Harry with her is that she always seems to be surprised by what he says, but it still manages to make complete sense after a moment.
“I’m going back to LA tomorrow,” Harry muses as he regards one of the pansies, like he’s almost staring it straight in the eye.
“Oh?” She turns to face him.
She stops her aimless moving about of the dirt. She had mostly been playing with the dirt while he did the majority of the work. She just didn’t enjoy it. Harry had definitely made the activity palatable. She’d have to tell him she would have likely given up an hour ago had he not been there.
He sighs and sets the pansy into the hole in the soil he had made for it. “More shooting for the movie, I’ll be gone for another month.”
“Wow…I think saying goodbye to you is just going to get harder and harder.” She looks away, her arms crossing over herself instinctively when the wind blows just a little too hard.
Harry looks at her now and sees her curling in on herself and he wants to hug her, but they weren’t like that. Instead he places a hand on her shoulder, rubbing it slowly up and down trying to offer her some warmth.
“I think we’ve made enough progress today. It’s starting to get cold, hm?”
She looks at him now and nods, her hand moving up and capturing his in hers. Like they had when Harry walked her home after his game, their fingers twist and turn around each other. Their eyes shying between each other’s faces and interlocked hands.
She springs to her feet after a couple quiet minutes of dodging eye contact and simply enjoying the feel of one another against each other.
“I should thank you for all this help,” she starts and Harry gets up to stand, beginning to say there is no need for a thank you for what he did.
“No, no.” She stops him, “I wouldn’t have gotten anywhere without your help and I took up all of your day, practically.” She takes hold of his hands now to examine the dirt that has managed to cover them since he was convinced that she should wear the gloves her mother gave her. “You should come over tonight and I’ll cook you dinner. I’m a much better cook than I am a gardener.”
Harry looks at her quietly, his eyes blinking slowly. Like he’s basking in the small movements she’s making on his hands. She traces the little cross that straddles his thumb and pointer finger on his left hand.
“I’ll make sure to bring dessert then.” He smiles and tilts his head to the right and a little forward towards her. She gazes up at him softly. “I might even bring something extra special.”
She raises her brows, “A special treat from Harry Styles himself. I’ll be anxiously awaiting your return then.” She taunts him only slightly because what he had said just about brought her to her knees. The way his smile had shifted to a smirk and how his voice has grown quiet and low, it just felt very intimate.
Harry returns at half past six, as requested by Y/N. He was freshly showered and cologned and she had never found a man more attractive than in that moment. Before he came over he told her he was dressing nice and she had no idea what that might mean with him. But when she saw him, she understood.
What it meant was a crisp blue big collared Gucci dress shirt unbuttoned almost half way down his chest revealing his ever present cross and fitted high waisted brown trousers. His fresh haircut meant for the 50’s slicked back with pieces beginning to fall about just perfectly. No belt, no cufflinks, and no suit coat. Instead of a coat he had on a jacket that was similar to her giraffe jacket he had borrowed all those days ago. His own was comfortably settled over his shoulders and it was obviously made of fabrics far nicer than hers and wasn’t fraying in any place.
He posed in her doorway and even gave a twirl at which time Y/N laughed happily. It looked amazing on him, she had no idea how her jacket had been the thing that started this all.
“How do you like it?” He asks seriously. “Does it look alright?”
“It looks perfect on you, Har. Is that the extra special surprise?”
He smirks smugly at her compliment and comes into the home, greeting Rori quickly before following her back into the kitchen where she was still cooking.
“Oh no,” he says and places a bag filled with a bottle of red wine and a pint of her favorite ice cream on the counter (and the surprise tucked neatly at the bottom of the bag).
She looks at him quizzically as he begins to take the items out of the bag.
“There’s one last thing in there,” he points to the bag casually, while putting the ice cream in her freezer. “Do ya’ mind grabbing it for me, dove?”
She rolls her eyes and reaches into the bag. Her hand retrieves a magazine from the bottom of the bag and when she flips it over to the front side, a gasp escaped her lips.
“Harry! Oh my god!” Her hand goes to her mouth as she takes in the cover.
A US Vogue magazine with Harry on the front of it. He’s blowing up a balloon in the photo and he looks beautiful. His skin is flawless and his hair is luscious and flowing a little longer than he kept it now due to the movie.
“I’m a Vogue cover model now, eh?” He asks, looking on apprehensively as she begins to gingerly flick her fingers through the magazine’s pages.
“This is the surprise?” She looks up from the page with him and Gemma sitting side by side.
Harry nods and watches her absentmindedly trace his face on the page.
“Do you like the pictures?” His voice is soft and almost timid?
“Of course!” She exclaims, not wanting to let any doubts pass through Harry’s mind. “Is this what you were doing up in Scotland a couple months ago, right before we became friends and you said you wanted to surprise me with something top secret?”
He nods again, his grin creeping onto his face as she stares at the photo of him in the cover photo’s outfit where you can see the entire dress.
“I want that dress...did they let you keep it?” She continues flicking through the pages lightly and glancing at Harry across from her. The dinner forgotten for the moment.
“It’s Gucci, I didn’t keep it, but I’m sure I could call Susan and get you one ordered,” he replies easily, leaning over the counter to watch the magazine.
She scoffs, “I can’t afford a Gucci gown for no reason...AND before you try to say you’ll pay for it, I would never accept such a gift and I am so for real about that, Harry.”
He waves his hands out in front of him as if to say he’d never suggest such a thing even though they both knew he’d buy it for her in a heartbeat.
“These pants…” she mutters, eyes now fixed on the trousers Harry is wearing in a specific photo in the magazine. They’re tan with a darker stripe on the side of them but the most intriguing part is all of the different drawings on it that seemed to be all related to Harry.
“They’re fab, no?” He quirks a brow at her, his face still holding an apprehensive grin like she’ll take back her praise at a moment’s notice.
“So fab,” she echoes. “Are they bespoke?” Her question has a hint of sarcasm dripping behind it, knowing by now Harry was notorious for custom-made items.
“What gave it away?” He wiggles his brows.
Her eyes flicker to meet his and she sees they’ve ended up face to face once again. It seemed to happen too often with one another. She settles the magazine down and stands up straight. She couldn’t allow herself to indulge in the proximity of his inviting lips. The proximity of his warmth that had seemed to seep into all facets of her life in the last two months or so. It was wonderful and warm, but it wasn’t hers. She shared him with so many other people and she couldn’t get carried away with him because tomorrow he’d be gone.
“That really is amazing Harry. I’m very proud of you, but if you don’t want a burnt dinner, I need to start paying attention to what I’m cooking.” She turns away from him and she quickly takes a palm to swipe beneath her eye, collecting the stray liquid that somehow fell from her eye. Funny thing, she wasn’t cooking with onions.
Harry doesn’t notice the movement, simply sighing that she turned from him yet again. He ran a hand through his hair, further tousling the once coiffed hairdo and then twisted his ‘H’ ring around his finger before settling on a bar stool to flip through the magazine and watch her cook.
“When does the magazine come out?” She calls as she stirs the sauce that she’d be pouring over their spaghetti squash once it was finished baking.
“Next week, They’ll release the story online and then I’ll be hitting shelves,” he muses, reading a different story in the magazine, not particularly interesting in himself.
“I’m sure you’ll be flying off those shelves the second you’re placed down.” She laughs at her joke and Harry rubs his lips with his thumb and forefinger thoughtfully.
“You think so?” His eyes sparkle with mischief at his question.
She turns her head, an open-mouthed grin already on her face, a slight scoff falling from her mouth, “Oh c’mon, you know so. I think you’re one of the most loved men in the world and people fall more and more in love each year.” She almost added ‘and I don’t blame them’ but she refrained thankfully.
“Most loved...I like that. Such an interesting way to put it.”
“I mean, you’ve been famous for what? Ten years now? That’s a long time and I don’t think you’re going anywhere...At this point it’s not about how big your celebrity star is, it’s your level of belovedness and I think that level is quite high.” She comments on something about Harry they never talked too much of. Sometimes they talked about him knowing famous people and about the work he had to fly off to do, but never the specific fame of it all. She didn’t really think Harry liked to talk about.
She didn’t have much of an opinion on it, it didn’t matter to her whether Harry was a famous multi-talented big-C celebrity or he was a nobody with a random job. As long as he was still her neighbour she would never complain. He made her so happy and maybe if he hadn’t been famous he wouldn’t be the way that he was so she would never say it was a nuisance. It just came along with him.
“Well...like I said, it’s a lovely way to put it. So, thank you for that.”
He stands up now, forgetting the magazine and rounding the counter to find a cork for the wine seeing that Y/N was doing the final touches on their food.
They eat dinner across from each other at her modest-sized dinner table. Harry slips his giraffe coat off and rolls up his sleeves to allow him to “really dig in” to the dinner she made for them. Maybe some footsy occurs beneath the table but neither of them would ever admit to it so did it really happen? Just feet moving randomly and happening to rub against one another every so often.
After dinner and a bottle of wine, the two of them join Rori in the living room where he’s curled up on one of the throw pillows. Y/N runs back to the kitchen to scoop them ice cream and whips of two Moscow Mules to go with it because she had brought up how when she usually goes home for the holidays, her and her sister always have a competition of who can make the most unique but best tasting Moscow Mule. Harry had said how he’d love to be there one day for that and she had blushed and tucked a piece of hair behind her ear from the comment before taking a large gulp of wine. Since that wasn’t possible right now, her tipsy mind had decided that the next best thing was to make some basic ones right now.
“I bring a Mule and an ice cream,” she says airly, playing like a royal herself, as she holds them out to Harry.
He laughs softly and accepts them graciously, doing a slight head bow to her. Before he can say anything she’s a flash of plaid and red as she runs back for her own ice cream and drink. He had been complimenting her plaid pants with golden bees on them all night and asked her where she got them, teasing that they must be Gucci, but all she would say is that he couldn’t have them to go make a copy of this time.
She re-enters the room and dims the lights with her hip. Then she settles beside him, clinking her glass with him and they both take their first sip.
“Hmmm,” Harry hums after he tastes the cocktail, “I like it.”
“Moscow Mules are a favorite with my family,” she muses, flicking through the television to get them set up to watch the Crown again.
“Maybe I should meet them and thank them for bestowing such a good favorite unto their daughter?” Harry asks and she laughs and rolls her eyes. Questions of meeting family when they were just friends didn’t need a response. Right?
They spoon ice cream into their mouths as the show begins and they murmur comments to one another throughout the episode. They idly pet Rori sometimes as he moves randomly around the room trying to find the place he likes most. Once Harry’s done with his ice cream, Rori thinks his chest is the best place to be and Y/N can’t help but snap a quick photo of it.
“Not quite as handsome without the dress, but it’ll do,” she sighs and snuggles into Harry’s side. Her hand reaches up to scratch at Rori which then leaves her arm wrapped around Harry when her dog inexplicably leaves to go to bed a few minutes later.
He was an awfully good wingman Harry would easily admit at a much later date.
They stay cuddled casually with one another for the entirety of two more episodes and they realize they’re more than halfway done with the season. A yawn from Y/N cues to Harry that he should suggest they pause for the night. She agrees easily, her head nuzzling into his strong shoulder for a little while.
Harry takes the remote from her and turns off the television before flicking on the side table turquoise glass-blown lamp.
“Can I put some music on?” He whispers in her ear, already knowing the answer, but waiting for her to nod her head. She obliges and he slowly slides her onto the couch beneath them. Then he begins padding around her house to find her speaker.
“Arrow Through Me” by Harry’s all time role model Paul McCartney’s second band Wings begins to play through the speakers. What a fucking moutful.
She perks up at the music and sits up straighter on her couch. Her smile grows as Harry shakes his hips a little and moves to the beat of the song as he makes his way back over to the couch. He opens his mouth to say something, but instead of words ringing loud through the room, it's the sound of a phone buzzing from somewhere between a few cushions on the couch
“Oh shit...shit, shit, shit,” she awakens herself out of her daze with her profanity. Attempting to find her phone rather haphazardly, she stumbles around the couch.
It’s Harry who fishes the phone from beneath a throw pillow and hands it over to his friend. She smiles thankfully, her hair a little messy and her eyes slightly crazed, before picking up the phone without even looking at the caller ID.
“Hello?...Cate?...Oh, hey….No, I didn’t look at the ID...figured it was you or someone in the states...no one in the UK would call me right now...It’s almost midnight here, you asshole,” she pauses and points at the phone and mouths “it’s Cate” like Harry hadn’t been sitting there listening to the entire conversation.
“I’m just hanging out watching the new season of Crown...with Harry...yeah, that Harry,” she flits her eyes to Harry for a second and rolls her eyes sarcastically.
“Talk to him? I mean.. I can put you on speaker, I guess?” She looks at Harry and he nods his head eagerly.
She rejoins him on the couch and places the phone on the coffee table, tapping on the speaker.
“You’re on speaker now.”
“Hi Harry!” Cate crackles over the line, happily, likely just awoken from her slumber in California.
“Hullo, love,” he says sweetly, his voice beginning to slow even more as the night wears on.
Y/N rolls her eyes at both of her friends, knowing Harry was laying it on thick and that Cate would squeal over this exchange for the next three weeks.
“What are you two lovebirds up to?” She inquires sweetly and Harry makes an arched brow at Y/N and she only supplies a shaken head and a shoulder shrug.  
“Cate….” Y/N drags out, annoyed with her for both saying that and for calling just as she was planning on going to sleep.
“Sorry! Friends, I know. Even though staying in on a Friday night with just the two of you doesn’t sound very friendly…” She begins to ramble on,  but Y/N offers another warning ‘Cate’. Cate takes the hint and finishes her teasing. “Anyways…”
Harry and Y/N are completely red, sitting next to one another but grateful for the minimal lighting.
“I was just calling to check-in. Do you know what you’re doing for the holidays yet? I know you don’t do thanksgiving anymore - which was yesterday by the way - since you’re all British now.”
Y/N scoffs at her close friend and Harry nudges her side about the British thing.
“I don’t know yet, I have to see my work schedule and all that. I don’t know if I want to fly across the world this year though…” She trails off, kind of quieting in hope that Cate will miss it.
Harry regards the conversation, casually interested, yet intrigued since he had been meaning to ask the exact same question.
Cate hums, obviously unhappy with the response. “Alright. And you Harry? Do you usually go home to your family for the holidays?”
“You don’t need to answer that,” Y/N interjects.
Harry places a hand on her thigh to let her know that it’s completely fine. An easy smile on his lips as he speaks to the phone. Y/N places her hand over Harry’s on instinct.
“Usually, yeah. This year we were thinking of all going out to my place in Italy so it’s kind of up in the air right now. When I get back from LA, I’ll probably finalize it.”
“LA you said? We should get together while you’re here.”
“Cate. He’s there on business.”
“I know...but still. It’s fine,” Cate laughs lightly, knowing she was pushing her luck with this conversation as it was. “Anyways, darling, I just wanted to tell you I miss you and that Harry’s not allowed to replace me as your best friend. Y’hear that Mr. Styles?”
“I sure do, love.”
Everyone laughs whole heartedly and Harry and Y/N are still playing with each other’s fingers on top of her thigh.
Y/N thinks that’s enough of the conference call with Harry and Cate so she snatches the phone with her free hand and raises it back to her ear.
“Alright, Cate, I think we’re going to head to bed...not...not like that...I hate you...Now I definitely don’t want to come home...I’m kidding, I’ll think about it...Love you, too….Yeah I’ll tell him...Have a nice day…”
She throws the phone on the coffee table again and falls back on the couch. Her head rolls to rest on Harry’s broad shoulder and she sighs softly. Harry moves his head to rest over hers, chuckling softly. His sweet breaths of joy are why he then receives a soft slap on his far arm, only making him laugh more.
“Shut up,” her muffled voice comes out from against his blue shirt that is far more crumpled than it was when he came over hours ago.
“She’s so funny,” he laughs again, nosing his face into her hair.
“She tries to get away with way too much,” she sighs and Harry just pats at her side, smiling and not caring at all about the things Cate was hinting at because he wanted what she was alluding to to be reality.
“Y’know I have a question because she said I can’t be your best friend and that’s fine with me, but I wanted to tell you something, love.”
Her head raises to look Harry in the eye, slightly confused by his preface.
“You’re my best friend,” he says earnestly in the dark living room, “Is that allowed?”
His accent was thick with anticipation, the night wearing on his vocal cords. It was so quiet in the room, Harry was sure she just heard him swallow his own saliva - he had paused the music after a minute into the call with Cate. He blinks twice while waiting for any response, he stares straight at her.  
Her eyes barely shine through the darkness as she looks back at him. His question rattled through her mind. ‘Is it allowed’ for him to think of her as his best friend. It just didn’t make complete sense to her and she wasn’t sure if she should vocalize that doubt. But as his eyes begin to mist like a forest on a cold morning she knows she has to say something.
Her eyelids shut as she lets out a heavy breath, the processing of what Harry’s just said finishes.
“It’s allowed...Do you mean it?”
“Course I mean it,” his voice cracks, an incredulous laugh leaving his lips.
She straightens up, moving slightly from his warm embrace. He becomes fidgety without her tucked in his side. His fingers itch without her arm to caress. His lips move between his teeth without her hair to ghost over.
When she remains silent, Harry decides to continue.
“I remember the first time I saw you,” he croaks and she furrows her brow at this. “It was the day you moved in...Had just come home from my morning run and you’d pulled up in your moving van. I thought you had on the coolest pair of jeans I’d ever seen…” He pauses. He takes a deep breath and her eyes are watering now.
“I also thought you were one of the most beautiful women I’d ever seen and I knew I had to know you.”
“Why’d it’d take you so long?” Is all she asks as she tries to will away the water welling in her eyes.
Harry rolls his lips together and breathlessly laughs, head tilted up to the sky. “Never knew how to approach ya’. Then you bumped into me, felt like it was the universe kicking me for being so damn slow.”
She bites her lip, a tear rolling down her cheek finally. “Oh, Harry.”
Then there it is. What the last few months had been leading up to. The moment where they no longer were able to wonder what the other would taste like. No more guessing. No more wondering. It was concrete. It was her lips pressed to Harry’s. She laughed lightly after a moment, pressing closer to him. His lips felt like the softest pillow she could ever lay on and she never wanted to get out of bed.
A small breath came out of his nose as he pressed eagerly back against her. She tasted like ginger and chocolate and maybe cherry - her chapstick possibly. He sucked at her lips, never wanting the taste or the feeling to go away. She was so soft and smooth and she responded quickly to his push.
Her hands wrapped around the back of his neck and into his hair as he pulled her closer by her waist. They were attempting to inhale one another, taking inventory of every possible crevice of each other they hadn’t touched before.
Harry’s lips part slightly as he swipes his tongue across her bottom lip. She giggles, tugging him over her and opening up her mouth easily. He pushes forward, a small sound leaving his mouth as he shifts them into a lying position on the couch, her legs encircling his waist.
A hand runs along her jaw, down her neck, across her collarbone and then down her arm. It lands so that he can intertwine their hands together. He feels her smile beneath him and he smiles back despite their lips never leaving one another. His other hand caresses her cheek as he kisses her.
Eventually, his lips roam around her face and on her neck aways, but mostly he focuses on her lips. Both of them are more than happy with this decision as they continue on for what feels like hours. Yet still those hours don’t feel long enough.
She pulls at a button on his shirt at one point, but Harry pulls back.
“I think we should call it a night.”
“Really?” She looks at him with confusion and a swirl of hurt in her eyes.
“It’s late, love, and… we just, I don’t want to rush anything.”
“Alright,” she nods, sitting up and running a finger down the side of his face.
“I think I’ve been doing best friends wrong all this time.” she muses, tracing lines on Harry’s neck now. Her eyes focused on her work.
“And why’s that?” Harry asks, his own hands running up and down her back.
“I’ve never snogged a best friend for hours on end.” She laughs and Harry can’t help his snort.
He moves his head to rest on her shoulder, almost like a hug, but not quite. She doesn’t move away, simply turns her head to continue watching her hands trace him, her work now moving to the back of his neck and his upper back and shoulders.
He hums a little bit, a love song he had played for himself the last few weeks when he tried to fall asleep and all that he could think of was her. She smiles softly and places a kiss on his shoulder.
“Let’s go to bed, darling.”
Harry nods, wrapping his arms around Y/N and carrying her to her room.
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The next morning she finds herself wrapped happily in a set of strong, tattooed arms. She sighs content, snuggling closer to the warm naked chest in front of her.
“G’morning,” the man beneath her whispers. His voice a low rumbling rasp, she feels the vibrations below her.
“Morning,” she mumbles, nuzzling her nose into the crevice of his sternum, just above the butterfly that lives on his chest.
He hums at the feeling, slightly shivering from the cold, but pulls her closer nonetheless. She caresses his side with a light touch in response. Her fingers trace unknown patterns down his ribcage and then dip to the ferns peeking from his boxers. He shifts slightly when her fingers travel there. A place no one but him had touched in a long time.
“’ve got a plane to catch,” he says sadly and he brushes a hair from her face as she turns to look at his face.
His neck strains to regard her and he has a bit of a double chin from this angle, but she couldn’t care less. He looked so beautiful staring down at her. She never wanted to look away or lose this image. His eyelashes lightly caressed the skin just below his eyes everytime he blinked. It was quiet enough that if she listened close she could hear each flutter. The eyes behind them were even better, a dark rim of green encases emerald irises that hold black and gold specs, stars and stories swirl hidden beneath it all. She wants to drown in it.
He winks at her as she stares, growing disarmed with her intense gaze on him for so long. Her calming caress keeps him grounded though and she laughs at the wink, relieving him of her scrutiny that he didn’t understand was awe.
She groans, unhappy, “Miss it.”
“I can’t,” he drags out, not wanting to leave either.
“Can’t convince you to stay, no?” She rolls on top of him, pushing her chest against him and giving him doe eyes.
His strong arms encircle her waist as her legs straddle him. She arches more into him and leans down to kiss in between his pecs. Her eyes never leave his face, watching his reaction. It’s his turn to groan with a loud sigh to match. He throws his head back and steals himself to say,
“Not even a chance.”
She remembers when he had begged her to come with him and she smiles at his recycling over her response.
“Fair enough,” she says and rolls off of him. His head falls to the side to watch her get up and begin her day. He takes a deep breath, wishing he didn’t have to leave.
Harry heads back to his place to get ready for his departure. Before he leaves he joins Y/N and Rori for an early tea at the café. They get their drinks to go and walk back to Harry’s together. When they arrive, Harry’s car is waiting and she feels a dryness in her throat. He looks down at Rori and gives him a quick pet. He turns to her and she smiles weakly.
Harry’s hand encircles her wrist, caressing her softly. He leans down quickly and pecks her lips. It feels like he was barely there and then he was gone. It was like a butterfly had landed on her lips and wrist and then it had vanished.
Off his sleek black car goes, soon out of sight and headed for the airport. And there she is, left on Sherwood Avenue. Her fingers move to dance over her lips and then over her jaw and down her neck. Every place his touch had burned her in the past 24 hours. And now he was gone, across the world.
No talk of what came next had been spoken between them. She wasn’t sure what they were and didn’t know if she could handle that talk over the phone. She walked home after a few minutes of standing with her dog in front of Harry’s now vacant home. She sat silently in her house for half of the day.
At dusk, she decides on a run, maybe it will get her mind off her neighbour. She had sat in the same spot for too long. The same spot they had kissed each other last night. Maybe a change of scenery would stop the movie reel of last night that kept playing over and over in her mind.
She runs down the street, specifically keeping her eyes off the lovely home across from her, and keeps running down different streets, past the café, down to the park, and then finally reaches a stream that is past some brush and trees at the end of the park. There’s a bench there that seems like a nice place to rest.
Her music has been playing the entire time, the playlist she chose was inundated with Taylor Swift - but not chosen for that specific reason. Each song thankfully not from 1989. At least not until she’s running through the park. “You are in love” begins to play, it’s soft Twin Peaks-esque opening is familiar to her. It fits the cool rush of wind against her skin and the leaves that have turned brown as fall has worn on. She’d listened to it a thousand times. Sometimes thinking about the man who inspired the song, but all those times were long before she had ever met him.
Now that she knew him, she almost skipped it, but shook her head to herself feeling silly for feeling uncomfortable listening to a song she liked. Her run turns into a walk as she reaches the stream. The chorus begins. Taylor softly serenades about being in love. About a man in love with a woman. About Harry being in love with her.
She takes a deep breath, hearing the words a little different this time. Taylor sings “You kiss on sidewalks” and this morning flashes in her mind. She looks out at the stream, the water rushing along as she stands there, still catching her breath. Then the next part of the song reaches into her heart and twists it with all its might.
“One night he wakes, strange look on his face, pauses, then says, ‘you’re my best friend’.”
And that’s it. She takes out her headphones, her breath no longer capable of being caught. She breathes heavier and heavier. Her throat was as tight and dry as when Harry had left this morning. Possibly even worse. She can’t even swallow this time. Her phone and headphones are discarded on the bench as she raises her hands to her face and begins to pace beside the stream. Her eyes eventually match the body of water next to her and she feels a sob wrack through her. She couldn’t breath, her running and panic had brought her asthma to the forefront and she was hyperventilating, gasping for air. She was drowning and no one was there to help her.
Tears stream down her face and she moves her hands to her thighs as she tries to calm down, not knowing how she reached this level of distraughtness. Deep breaths she reminds herself. She licks her lips and shuts her eyes. “Just ground yourself,” she whispers.
When she’s finally gotten ahold of herself she sits at the bench and stares into the stream. A distorted version of herself seems to stare back. It’s constantly moving, swirling, and changing  and as she watches that version of herself she wants to scream. Her tears had faded awhile ago, but the fear was still there.
The last few months had been so easy, had been so perfect. Going over to each other’s houses and being with each other. But if she ignored history wasn’t she destined to repeat it? When she heard the confessional of the man Taylor had loved in her song, when he had told her she was his best friend which meant he was in love, she felt hurt. She knew how their story ended. Taylor and Harry’s. He left. He left her when she needed him and today, Y/N realized it’s what he does. It wasn’t his fault, she didn’t blame him for leaving today. It was his job, not another woman. But holy fuck when she heard Taylor sing those lyrics, it felt like she had been hit on the head out of nowhere. Reminded that she had been living in a fairytale for the last few months, swept up in a fantasy that she wasn’t meant to be a part of.
She ran a hand over her face, rubbing slightly at her cheek. The same cheek Harry had caressed last night and she sighed. She stared off into the trees and then shook her head, standing up and heading back home. Alone.
Harry calls her when he arrives at LAX. She doesn’t pick up. He calls the next day. She doesn’t pick up. He texts and receives no response for three days.
She thought she didn't know what she would say.
“I listened to too much of your ex’s music and now I’m insecure.”
“I feel like you’re gonna leave me someday so I’m too afraid to do anything with you.”
“Is it alright if we’re just friends, I don’t think my heart could take the pain of falling in love with you and then losing you.”
“You can’t promise me forever and after just one kiss I knew I couldn’t do anything less.”
“The price of loving you is far too high.”
She types them all out and then deletes them every time. Too scared. Instead:
“I’m busy with work, I don’t know when I won’t be. Let’s just plan on meeting up when you’re home.”
Harry nods when he sees the text on Friday. He tells her to take care and make sure she gets enough rest. He wipes away the stray tear that decided to escape his eyes after reading her response. He exhales and looks to the sky, wondering what could have possibly happened since he had left. He sends little emojis over the next few weeks that she puts a heart on, but she doesn’t communicate otherwise.
Harry doesn’t ask her to pick him up. Instead he sends flowers to her house the Thursday before he returns. They make her smile and she wonders if maybe she can move past every red flag she feels like she sees. After a month away, she can’t lie and say she’s not excited for Harry to return. She missed his warm skin and his soft hair. She missed everything and the flowers had only made her wish it had been Harry on her doorstep a couple days early.
He gets home on the 12th and he’s at her door after throwing his things in his entryway.
She opens the door and bites her lip as she takes in who it is.
Harry says her name breathlessly and she melts. Her doubts fly out the window for the moment and all she wants are his lips on hers.
She falls into him and his lips are on hers. They twist into one another and their lips move softly yet urgently against one another. Not sure how to explain the last four weeks, they both attempt to say everything in that kiss. All her pain and confusion press into Harry’s lip with each breath. All his sadness and longing tug at her lips as he sucks her bottom lip into his mouth and hungers for more.
He pulls back and stares straight into her eyes, “Come to Italy with me for the holidays.”
She tilts her head confused, trying to catch her own breath.
“I’m not sure what happened while I was gone, love. But I know I missed you and I can’t go another month without you. Just say yes and we’ll take it from there...Please,” he begs, voice cracking as he holds her cheek.
She wets her lips and opens them to speak, but her voice betrays her. Instead she just nods and squeaks out a noise of approval. Too elated to speak, they press their lips back together and she pulls Harry into her home. 
December was far too cold to snog out in the freezing night air.
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