#way to difficulty for me

[jacerys-velaryon]

How do you guys are able to change the text colour for some of your words/ some links in your mobile bio?

I was trying to and found some codes but they didn't work 🤔.

[apllecrash]

sigh... sweet dreams

[alphaketoglutaricacid]

Shed your skin and come back to us

[sysig]

Those wacky skeletons ♥ (Patreon)

[shoplifting]

Your silent protagonist doesn't have to use sign language btw. They don't have to write things down, either. They don't have to use language at all. Not every single person who doesn't talk can use words the same as you, or use them at all, so your favorite silent character shouldn't have to use what you consider a grammatical language to communicate in your fanart and fics. AAC exists. Drawing exists. Gestures and body language exist. Btw.

[strawberryteabunny]

May 07: Gravensteen Castle

The views from the top of this castle were incredible <3 one of my favorite places I got to visit on this trip!

Skirt, headdress: BTSSB

Blouse: Gunne Sax

Socks: Innocent World

[springypaws]

This is what I’m doing instead of studying for my big Physics test tomorrow, like a cool individual

(messy phone drawing moment)

[pasta-pardner]

spotify | john marston's revenge quest, set to music from 1960s spaghetti westerns.

Fun detail: the opening cutscene for Red Dead Revolver (2004) features an instrumental version of "His Name Is King". The lyrical version is oddly fitting for John, given that it's a song about seeking vengeance for a dead brother.

[caliburn-not-calculator]

Greetings, I'm about to get all mushy on main you have been warned

I'm not the best at replying to all comments and such left on the writing I post. I find it hard to think of new things to say other than thanks and hearts, and though they're always meant genuinely it starts not feeling that way when they're over used. Idk, maybe that's just a me thing.

But, I do read all of them, and it always gives me a little dopamine hit. They're always great, and when I'm not feeling good about my work or just in general I always go back and read through a few. It's just... really nice. Never been active in a fandom before and I'm glad to have landed it such a good one <3

Anyway, tl;dr This is a blanket statement saying thank you and <333 to anyone who has commented, kudosed, or even just taken time out of their day to read anything I've written <3

[coolgoodandfine]

"To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub: For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause—there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life."

I have so many thoughts on the Rolling With Difficulty campaign finale.

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

[zishuge]

The heavens will bless the kind. Since he is blessed, then he should go through hardships to gain knowledge and wisdom. Sooner or later, the truth will be revealed to the world. Story of Kunning Palace (2023) | Ep. 11

[t-u-i-t-c]

"But I don't think I made the wrong call, back then."

[aromantyczno-liryczna]

I am not here to entertain anyone.

"What if they think I'm weird? What if they think I'm boring? What if they think I'm shy? What if they think I'm quiet?"

I am not here to entertain anyone.

I'm not put here on this earth to entertain anyone.

If I can't talk or don't feel like talking, or I can't be myself fully in this situation, it's fine.

I'm not here to entertain anyone.

[spohkh]

i know we’re all like ONCE SEGASAKI AND YOH LEARN HOW TO COMMUNICATE WE’RE SO ON and i do agree but also i think honestly… it’ll be so on once they actively acknowledge and are able to recognize the ways in which the other DOES communicate already. and i think we’re seeing the beginning of that in ep3 with yoh being like i cant say it out loud but i will present him with sheets and he’ll understand me 👍🏼 and then segasaki literally did understand!! because he’s listening to the way yoh is able to speak. and at the end yoh essentially going “could it be that he feels the same??” because he’s also starting to learn segasaki’s gestures and methods of communicating his intentions…

like i think the emphasis here is less on them perfectly articulating their feelings out loud like we’re so used to in media—especially western media where everything is so spelled out for audiences—and more on them finding their mutual language as a couple. no one else has to understand them as long as they understand each other 🫶🏼

[anghraine]

@ladytharen responded to this post:

you successfully defended? WHOHOOOO!!! congratulations!!! 🎉🎉🎉

Thank you!!! I did, I'm just revising the diss's introduction this week and then I'm done. I remember when I first started and you were giving me advice and recommendations back then ... so doubly thanks <3