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plus one 🍸 🎀🍷
schlatts mom forces him to bring a plus one to his little sisters sweet sixteen
assistant reader x boss schlatt
schlatts little sister viviennes sweet sixteen was approching fast
Nancy (schlatts mom) had told him and their other brother she expected they bring along plus ones for the evening.
the problem was schlatt had a week to find a date
even his 20 year old brother, beau had a date. yet schlatt would once again show up empty handed
even though he always had a drink in hand
you had been working for him for over a month now and you were becoming very close, yet he was still your boss
so when you noticed on his calender that he needed to "aquire a lady friend" in schlatts words, you knew it was your job to help him
so you knew you had to get him a suit that woukd attract ALL the ladies. you had spoken to his mom and she asked you to get him a nice black suit to match his dad and brother
now you thought schlatt was hot
i mean anyone with working eyes would
but god did he look good in a suit
each one he tried on fit him better than the last
more like each one was slightly tighter around his thick thighs
but you both knew when you found THE one
a nice fitting white button up, slightly tight black dress pants, a black jacket and bowtie to match
as schlatt went to pay you noticed a dress store across the way
"hey, jay?" you spoke out to him
"one sec!" he finished up paying and walked over to you "wha's up toots?" he smiles
"did you ever find a date for viviennes?" you ask innocently
he frowns slightly at this "no, might be outta' luck for this one, maybe next time" he laughs sadly
lightbulb! ☝️🤓💡
"ok i have an idea, i dont mean to overstep but what if i go with you, i mean thats basically my job!" his face brightens when you say that, but the furrow between his brows isnt gone yet, you can already tell hes going to fight this
"doll, i cant ask you to do that, i mean you would have to get a dr-" he gets cut off
"you didnt ask, i offered." you grab his arm and drag him to the dress store parallel to the store you were in.
convincing schlatt you wanted to go to his family function took alot
but the moment you walked out in the first dress you tried on his complaints and bitching died down real fast
he swears this is the hardest hes been in his whole life
all he can think of is having an arm around your waist all night, showing you off to his family, you meeting his sister, hes so out of it he doesnt even realise you picked a dress
he quickly told you to go wait in the car while he bought the dress, which he thought was only fair "since he has to drag you along with him all night"
he bought all 7 dresses, but he kept that part a secret
you both loaded into the subway and went back to his apartment, the next plan was for him to record while you made him dinner and planned his schedule for the week
you two had a very good system going and so far it seemed to be working
after you both ate it was time for you to go, you gathered your belongings and walked out the door
but like every other day, schlatt could not get you off his mind, so he called his "theripsist"
a fifteen year old girl by the name of vivienne schlatter
"wha'dda want whore" a large forehead appeared on his screen.
"thanks for the warm welcome you brat, i havv'a problem." he laughed
"oh not this again, i though we solved the doing the dishes issue last week, dont tell me next i need to bike over there and do your laundry too." she deadpaned
"no i acutally have a serious non cleaning problem this time, i's about... i's about a girl" he said quietly
"ohhhh you have my attention now! wait is it about that girl you showed me on tiktok? your assistant ohhhhhhhh!" she laughed excitedly
"your making me regret asking my fifteen year old sister for advice, vinnie." schlatt sighed, contemplating hanging up the facetime call
"ok let me lock in" she sat up straight and sat professionally "how can i service you today johnny." she smiled over the pixels of his screen
"ok so yknow how ma wanted me to bring a girl to your sweet sixteen?" she nodded "well we both know there was no shot i would find one in a week, but she offered and i kinda already like her, but i dont want this to be a one time thing vin, i want to take her to these every time."
the call went silent for a short moment
"sounds like you really like her jay, and i know i dont know much, but you should probably tell her how you feel, or atleast that you want to be with her."
"yeah, you always know what to say huh?." he laughs at his sister, no matter how much younger she was, she was always smarter. but thats what he loved about her.
"pretty much, oh shit i think i forgot to tell you! beau is so stupid, he told ma that her dress wasnt a good color, and ma freaked out and now she-"
he tuned his sister out after that, but he was forming a fool proof plan in his head.
#jschlatt#schlatt#john#youtube#jschlatt x reader#jschlatt x you#schaltt fic#fanfic#chuckle sandwich#assistantxboss#schlatt x reader#hansumfella#charlie#ted nivison#tucker#vivienne#sweet sixteen#i literally just wrote myself into this#guys dont tell anyone im infact vivienne#schlattslonghairytoes
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I Got My License M.S.
OlderBf!Matt x YoungerGf!Fem!Reader
Dividers: @bernardsbendystraws
You and the triplets have known each other for years and you being the youngest it always seemed like you were their younger sibling. So it came as a surprise that not only you started to have feelings for matt but him also reciprocating your feelings towards you.
Although at the time you were 17 at the time and he was 20 which was not necessarily the legal age gap for being in a romantic relationship. You two ended up compromising and waiting a year in which you finally turned 18 and him 21.
Throughout the years of of your teenage years from the time you turned 16 you always not only expressed to the triplets that you wanted to get your driver's license, especially to Matt since he was the only one out of the three of them to have his license. Your fear, however prevented you from acting on it at the age of 16 and 17 which brought you to now.
You took a deep breath as you successfully pulled your new car into the driveway of the triplets' house after successfully driving to the house itself without getting into an accident. You didn't tell Matt you got your license a week ago because you simply wanted it to be a surprise for the next time he saw you.
"Matt who the hell just pulled into our driveway"
chris exclaims as he is looking through the window in the front room.
"i dont know nick probably invited madison or something"
he states as he walks into the front room were they both were located.
"i didnt invite anyone over"
nick replies as he shifts is attention subtly away from his phone screen as Matt peers out the window Chris is still looking through.
"no fucking way"
matt exclaims as he sees you get out of the car walking up the driveway to their door with your new car keys around your wrist with your mint green Lululemon wrislet and matching mint green Stanley cup in the other. You ring the doorbell of the triplets' house as you are greeted by matt and chris.
" Izzy you can drive"
chris exclaims as he gives you a side hug.
"surprise"
you squeal as matt places his hands on your waist.
"when did you get it done"
nick questions coming over to you guys.
"last week i wanted it to be a surprise"
you reply as nick smiles at you.
"well are you going to offer us a ride we haven't gotten food today we can go to Mcdonalds or something"
chris questions and suggests to the group as you giggle.
"sure i dont see why not"
you respond as you set your Stanley cup on the the coffee table a few feet away.
"okay great i call front seat"
matt exclaims grabbing your hand leading the way to your car.
"of course you do"
nick states as he rolls his eyes.
You all hopped into your car as you begin to adjust your seat to be able to reach the pedals and gears, tucking your fluffy hair behind your ears showcasing the gold hoop earrings you wanted to wear today.
"ready"
you question looking around to see everyone buckled up with matt next to you in the passenger seat and chris and nick in the back.
"i think so"
nick replies.
"damn girl your short"
matt chuckles out as he noticed how close you seat was adjust to the wheel.
"matt shut the fuck up"
you squeal out putting your car in gear as a pink tint rises on your cheeks out of embarrassment knowing he is messing with you and knows how to get you flustered.
You pull out of the driveway and begin to head to the nearest Mcdonalds or so you thought.
"i dont want mcdonalds anymore lets go to canes or something"
chris groans out as matt and nick start complaining.
"chris you literally suggested we go there in the first place"
matt groans out as nick agrees with him.
"i know but i changed my mind"
he huffs out as you giggle focusing on the road in front of you.
"the fucking ridiculuous"
nick chuckles out.
"okay how about this we just go to the store and get ingredients or something to make something instead"
you suggest slightly gazing in the rearview mirror to the backseat.
"im down"
matt agrees with the suggestion.
"chris"
you question as he sighs and agrees with the plan.
you guys made it to the store and decided you guys were going to make burgers from scratch at home. you guys made it to the aisle to grab the buns for the burgers.
"those keys look good on you babygirl"
matt chuckles hyping you up as you walk a few feet in front of him recording you discreetly as you turn around to finally notice his camera.
"you think so- stop recording me"
you question and proceed hold your hand cutely over your face squealing noticing he was recording you.
"can you guys focus we need buns"
chris exclaims smirking as he finished his sentence.
"chris"
nick exclaims stopping in his tracks knowing he was trying to say in between lines.
"what nick"
he chuckles scracthing the back of his head grabbing what we needed.
you guys checked out your items as matt wraps his arms around you hugging you from behind, placing a kiss on your temple.
"hi"
you whisper to him turning around to face him within is grasp touching your nose with his.
"im so proud of you for finally getting over your fear"
he compliements as he leans his head in the crook of your neck.
"thanks love"
you reply running your fingers through his abnormally messy hair today.
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#sturniolo imagine#sturniolo triplets x reader#matt sturniolo#matt sturniolo x you#chris x reader#christopher sturniolo#matt sturniolo fanfic#chris sturniolo#nick sturniolo#girlypopsquad🩵
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highlights from the dropout anthony padilla/courtney miller interview! (aka things i liked or didnt know)
ally IMMEDIATELY kicking us off by introducing themselves as vic michaelis and dabbing so softly
ally ALSO IMMEDIATELY kicking us off by calmly answering the 'tell us about yourself' question with "ive been testing positive for covid for about 3 weeks now" "is that true?" "of COURSE NOT OH MY GOD??"
ally calls the covid vaccine the "Fauci-ouchie"
its been 1 minute into the video
VIC LYING ABOUT THEIR FAVORITE COLOR FOR NO REASON
its been TWO minutes into the video
ALLY HIJACKING HER ATTEMPT TO ASK AGAIN BY MOVING ONTO THE TRANSITION THEMSELF
ok we're locking in locking in
everyone needs to hear the ally wrongpile beardsley story at least once <3
vic was 100% in on sam's vision for dropout and ally COULD not have been more full of doubt.
all of them saying a contemplative 'ooooo' when asked if they miss sketches and then a beat afterwards vic immediately bursting out with 'sketch is dead i hate sketch. anyway-"
IFY MOO DENG MENTION
ify talking about how close and interconnected the cast is and was off screen since way back
"noo c'mon c'mon those are those pale clammy little hands i love so much 🥺" "theyre DRY AS A BONE"
vic's "I just dont ever think that anyone is thinking about me. like i am thinking about myself 100% more than anyone else is thinking about me"
vic thought it was crazy when they got asked to host VIP because she felt too new for it despite having a lot of experience
ally thinks its funny to make each other do the thing theyre known for but also they agree brennan is just that analytical about every topic and birds are not special KHADGKASJDF
vic and ify enthusiastically agreeing with the above LMAO
vic plays a character of herself while ify performs very close to his actual self
'is the broke comedian bit real' all of them immediately exaggeratedly laughing and looking away and going NOOO WE'RE FINEEE WE'RE FINEEE
ally's analogy of watering a plant that has been dead for a long time and how they might be doing good but the water has a lot of past cracks to fill in which i dont know enough about plants to tell if this is an accurate analogy but its an effective one
money-wise, the tide has turned for the better for them in the last few years 🥺
dropout did profit-share last year! vic cried 🥺
ify "i was there when youtube was created by a couple of guys" GOOGLE HOW OLD IS YOUTUBE. ONLY 19??????
ally needing clarification on if he was actually THERE when it was created or not
ify talking about how more people in the industry are recognizing him FROM dropout things
THE EDITORS ACTUALLY USING THE CLIP OF ALLY'S DAB AS A TRANSITION
vic "10 years ago if you told me i could actually make money from doing improv and my reaction was anything other than 'holy shit thats incredible' i would like murder myself. i would throw myself into a trash can"
immediate no's on "do you feel like you have to share your personal lives on camera" because they just like oversharing
"oh you grew up mormon too?" "no but i just LOVE 💞🥰 the mormons"
"studio CE shoutout. dont shout them out actually. well, you can if you want to."
some great takes on parasocial relationships
ify thinks his audience are the kinky poly folks. can we get a shout from the kinky poly folks!
ify pointing right at the camera and saying "IF you are at a sex party and i introduce myself as IFY do NOT give me your fake stage name. you are saying my REAL GOVERNMENT name here"
ally bringing up chappell roan in the parasocial relationships discussion yoooo
ify doing a voice imitation of his uncle suggesting he do jokes for a relative's graduation KHAGKAJKAKJDFSD
the horror on all their faces when courtney says they're lucky that fans dont ask them to do something funny in public when they meet them
grilled cheese scale: ify's are solid. ally is a good cook but they're allergic to bread, vic inconclusive
vic loves the joke of being called vehicular and would change their government name to it even LMAO
izzy roland shoutout!!!!!
ify's sex dungeon would also be where he paints warhammer minis.
"what is your favorite thing that he did" "...anthony?" "yeah" "th. this? this channel? this right here?"
SZA talked about ify on VIP in a variety article???
SZA INTENTIONALLY DRESSED UP LIKE IFY WAS ON VIP?????
this is like the first time i saw mxmtoon commented on zac's instagram except magnified by a hundred
"Grimes if you're watching this, slide into the DMs"
ally fanning themselves going "thats actually too hot i simply need to go" hearing that lana del rey graduated studying philosophy with an emphasis in metaphysics
everyone at this table ships ally beardsley and lana del rey
nice to know ify and em are still together!
"do you consider yourself an angel of death? i consider myself an angel of death for network television" vic talking about how theyve been on SO many second-to-last episodes of shows that were canceled 😭
Super fun and insightful!!!! we dont get to see these three vibe together much on screen 🥺 video under cut!
youtube
#dropout#dropout.tv#dropout tv#ify nwadiwe#vic michaelis#ally beardsley#anthony padilla#interview hightlights time again!!!#these guys are so fun they were having so much fun#Youtube
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Coming to the awful, horrifying realization that my job is very much not what I was promised, and not what I expected it to be. Realizing that I work 8 hour days, without a lunch break and get chastised by my boss for leaving early. Working 10-12 hour days without any sort of break and it's still not enough. Worked 16 hour days during spring break and did not receive any sort of gratitude for it. Doing the work of 3 people and it's still not enough bc I should be doing the work of 5. Being severely undervalued and unappreciated, and under payed. My boss being so paranoid that he spies on me through our security cameras and when he thinks I'm doing something that isn't my work, he calls and asks me what I'm doing. My boss now making offhand, self depreciating jokes that we might not last through the summer and that if we don't get enough kids signed up for summer camp, they might not be able to pay me. Coming to the horrible realization that if I quit this job, the school would definitely go under and I'd probably never be able to practice taekwondo in our organization ever again. Realizing that because of the amount of hours my job demands of me, it's giving my cats severe separation anxiety that is causing lots of problems at home.
#i just dont know what to do#i dont really want to keep working but i know that if i were to leave the school would 100% have to close#there is no one that can do the job that i do#we dont have anyone that can make the calls#and clean the school#and do the after school pick up and teaching that i do#i am that person#and if i were to leave and the school were to go under#i would never be able to practice taekwondo in our organization again#and i dont want that#and a tiny evil part of me hopes the school goes under so that i dont have to deal with this anymore#ive pretty much got another job as a receptionist at the vet my roomie works at already lined up
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Bisan is calling for another global strike!
I saw some posts just outlining Jan 21st, and wanted to clarify that Bisan has called for a full seven days of action.
What a global strike would look like is:
calling in sick to work
purchasing bare essentials ahead of the week so you can observe the general boycott of goods / buying as little as you genuinely can
putting in a concerted effort to elevate Palestinian voices and make it clear that this strike is in support of a permanent ceasefire!
For those who will have to purchase necessary goods during this time, please observe the brands that the BDS movement is asking us to boycott!
♢♢♢
Right now is also a good time to mention some better uses for your money during this week.
Available e-sims in Gaza are running low!!
Mirna El Helbawi and her team are working round the clock to continue to connect Palestinians as Israel does its best to cut them off from the rest of the world.
You can learn how to purchase and send e-sims here, and below you’ll find a list of what is currently needed (the areas in brackets indicate what region you should select to buy e-sims in).
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CareforGaza is an organisation that does verifiably good work, distributing supplies directly to Palestinian families.
They have a Gofundme set up at the moment, but because of Gofundme’s poor track record regarding refusing to transfer funds to Palestinians, I’d recommend continuing to donate directly to their PayPal here.
Good luck to all of you. Don't turn away from Palestine!
#i know that for some people their first instinct will be to scoff. how can anyone just not buy things for a full week?#what about groceries? rent?#and personally. i wanna say yes. there are some things that we have to spend money on to survive.#but it is possible still to make a concerted effort in your life#to carve out seven days where you can minimise that amount of money#i know its a lot.#for some people who are living on a tight budget. i know its not possible and i dont fault you for that#but i know for a fact that so many of us would be able to take out a few daily purchases in observance of this strike#do your best#dont turn away from palestine#free palestine#palestine#from the river to the sea#call to action
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#fishman island#ch644#i'm actually reading these chapters right now bc i know that fishman island is like.#a metaphor for racism and to some extent isolationism of communities#and how that allows for hatred to grow unchecked and hate is a very unproductive emotion#i dont think the hatred/dislike towards humans is entirely unprompted#i mean obviously we see how fishmen are treated above ground thats what sabaody is about#priming us for fishman island and the conflict here#since hody jones. you can see where his mindset comes from#and why he thinks that way. but at the end of the day he just wants mindless violence against the oppressive class#and that's just going to be unproductive and make things WORSE for EVERYONE#inb4 anyone says anything i am native american and have kinda sat with these feelings a lot#not about to go into my whole complicated feelings abt my own heritage here#that's what random posts on my main blog are for#but i also dont think otohime's idea of trying for peace without any violence was going to work either. not in the climate they were in#like its a very noble idea but at the end of the day... there does need to be some pushback but you have to target it in the right areas#like i think fisher tiger targeting the slave auctions is more of the direct action called for#and obviously people get caught in the crossfire on both sides.#but that is directed violence vs directionless violence ie what hody jones wants#its a bastardization of the cause to create more bloodshed than necessary. you know.#idk where i'm going with this anymore okay i'm gonna go back to queuing more sanjis
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Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.
#metalocalypse#jay talkin#I'm sorry they wrote that awful gross little man far too likeable and relatable to on a trans level#for me not to hoot and holler and cheer for the trans pickles agenda#changes nothing about his character arc or any of the show anyone is capable of being the kind of person he is#don't make the mistake of thinking thats exclusive to cis men#his transness wouldnt change that#only adds on an extra layer to him that i think works fantastically.#Listen that dude was rejected by his family driven to drink and drugs young to escape that ran away to be in a band#is called fucking Pickles of all things and refuses to tell anyone his real last name;#over the span of four seasons and two movies he slowly starts to learn to be for others what he never had#he becomes more caring more supportive#it's not a stretch to say he undoes some of the toxic masculinity he's been keeping himself shielded behind#and learns how to be a kinder man.#all of which have no contradictions with him being trans!#In fact it doesn't take much extra thought to find ways a lot of this can line up with some trans masculine experiences#i mean. Did no one else have a younger phase where they swung as far as they could into crass rude and uncaring ways#to try and assert their masculinity only to grow and realise that you can be a man and be more caring.#Did no one else have father issues. 1 800 come on now i know those are both shared experiences a lot of us have had LOL.#at the end of the day this show aired nearly 20 years ago and is finished. we're not getting more of it#so nothing is altered nor changed if pickles is canonically trans or not ok. its fine#i mean hell i dont even need canon confirmation hes trans to me and thats all i care abt#but i think if yr getting suuuuuper weird abt needing him not to be canonically trans you have some issues#and bio essentialist ideals of gender if you think only a cis man can act like he does#again. anyone can be like that. its not exclusive. him being trans would not change him in any way shape or form lol#AND ALSO GODDDUUUGH for once i love getting to see a guy pushing 50 whos depicted as trans#do you have any idea how dire and barren it is out here. we never get to see a trans guy older than 30 and whos not a pristine model#I WANT MORE OLD SHLUBBY SHITHEAD TRANS GUYS IN MEDIA
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God, I hate people genderbending gay ships. We so rarely get queer representation, and most of the time, the fandoms have to come up with the main queer ships because 95% of shows don't have any. So we invent our own representation and create our own material based on them, and then people come in and turn it straight. If you want to interact with straight media, go write about the billions of straight relationships represented in media, don't turn our few, personally created, gay ships into straight ones. It's just so gross fr
#first world problems i know#but i actually hate it so im talking about it#like we have so little representation we have to literally create our own and people will STILL find a way to make it straight#obviously this doesnt apply to quuer relationships being genderbent in a way that would still be a queer relationship#like if two men are in a ship and someone writes them both as women thats completely fine#its the people going out of their way to make it straight#obviously people can write whatever they want i dont control anyone#but i will call it out because its stupid asf and gross#ao3#ao3 tags#ao3 works#gay ships#lgbt ships#hannigram#destial#hilton#johnlock#moried#fanfiction#fanfiction writers#fandom
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sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)
but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!
so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"
....
my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!
SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!
#mind you this was over 10 years ago now. it *could* have gotten better but id be extremely shocked if it has#autistic#autism#actually autistic#adhd#neurodivergent#audhd#school#school problems#yes i know theres rules or maybe even laws for this and its why they are like this but its bad and should change#if they offered smaller classes with less sensory overloading bullshit and other things i needed it would be great!#but they refuse to accommodate your actual needs and make up useless accommodations to legally say they help disabilities#ND people (not just audhd) and other disabled people that graduate with no useful accommodations are so strong and cool. proud of you!#ones who had to drop you youre also cool for not dealing with their bullshit snd allowing yourself to not suffer for a sheet of paper!#(though i know it can feel bad when everyone around you makes you feel bad for needed to drop out or failing out and not going back)#i completely stopped going to my psychology class because i started a week late due to scheduling issues and#suddenly we are told theres a paper due in 3 days and need to hse the textbook i didnt have yet as the source for it all#and it was in the syllabus i didnt get because i was a week late and didnt know we got one. the professor didnt notice me out of#the 100 other students in that large lecture hall. that room was also a sensory nightmare hellscape#too many students made things noisy and distracting. multiple fluorescent lights were flickering constantly and never fixed#the professor used a mic to speak to us and it had a constant horrible loud buzzing. it did that loud mic screech noise randomly#without warning. all the time. the quality of the sound was horrible so it was hard to understand her. on top of that she had a very thick#accent i wasnt familiar with so that on top of the horrible buzzing mkc quality that also cut her out constantly was auditory processing#disorder HELL. I dont know how ANYONE survived thst class but i seemed to be the only one struggling. everyone else turned in their papers#and i gave up and stopped going. was too late to drop the class to get my money back so i wasted probably a few thousand dollars#and THATS what i mean by give me reasonable and useful accommodation. test time would NOT make that class better at all#fix the mic and light issues at least or give me a smaller class with more attentive professor or something!#offer smaller classes for struggling disabled people! if the issue is not knowing who needs them then offer a switch to those struggling!#i got called onto a dean/counselor meeting because a professor noticed my horrible grades and stuff so its possible to catch us and help!#THESE SCHOOLS JUST NEED TO START BEING WILLING TO. dont make us do all the work to accommodate ourselves and expect to do well in school!
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every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space
i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !
#i inserted [disabled person] because they used a fucking slur instead and i didn't want that in my post#like i feel like there should be room for disabled people like me whose lives literally entirely depend on accessing said >#> extremely limited benefits in conversations about whether voting in this election makes you complicit in genocide#which like! i do understand. i do. it's nauseating to think about what this shit ass country is doing. it's horrific. i do not blame anyone#> for not wanting to be a part of that. *and* i am also terrified for my own life because i remember the first time trump won it suddenly >#> became IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to get on benefits. EVER. and so many disabled ppl i know went to renew benefits theyd had for decades >#> just to be denied. one of whom was a below-the-neck paraplegic. he died because he lost those benefits!!! because trump won#i really do understand why people dont feel right voting for harris. or why they don't vote at all. i truly do. but holy shit i am so scare#and yes! i am aware that people in palestine and gaza are suffering so much worse. and i wish i could change that#but every single person in power in the US is pro-israel and eagerly drinking the anti-palestine kool-aid. no matter who wins >#> things will not change in that part of the world. and it is infuriating. when the revolution comes this will change. but it hasnt.#the revolution will not save me as a physically disabled person. it will not save any of us. we do not matter to leftists. i am sorry but >#> this is the one thing i have learned after being in leftist spaces for over 10 years. and posts like the one i mentioned prove it#so i am very sorry. i really am. for being physically disabled. but i cannot survive another 4 years relying on my parents for everything#if trump wins i will be killing myself. this is a promise. i cannot do that again#i know it makes me a bad person to be afraid that harris will lose. but people on the left already think i'm a bad person for being disable#i want the genocide to stop. i absolutely do. i also want to survive. i am terrified that the US leftists will sacrifice disabled people#like me so they can feel good about being put in a real life trolley situation#again. im sorry. im so fucking sorry. i wish i was a better person. i wish i was able to give more. i know that if i was just a good#person i would be able to have a job and give to every palestinian gofundme on my dash. i would be able to do more than my daily clicks >#> and reaching out and calling representatives that don't care. if i was a good person i would be able to convince my parents that z*onism>#is deeply fucking racist. and that israel is wildly racist and killing palestinians for fun. if i was a good person i would be able to make#>them leftists too. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry that im scared. im so scared and it's not right for me to be#when so much worse is going on because of this countrys bloodlust. im sorry that im benefiting from being born here i dont want to be#im sorry for not having any other options. if i was a good person i know i would have them. im sorry. god im sorry im so fucking sorry
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sorry i acquired my adderall and took it
#toy txt post#I MAKE EGGS NOW. NO MORE POASTING. im right tho. if anyone goes on tirades about ai tho im turning reblogs off so fast#Assume good faith. and that im not talking about every single ai in existence being bad and wrong for the sin of being ai#but the annoyance in how it is pushed on everyone everywhere en masse and theres no goddamn escape from the topic. every social media is#jamming it into the search bar every tech company is making their own and wildly overapplying it#and quite frankly a bitch (ME) doesnt want it on my phone or computer and im right about. i should have the option to turn it off. it#should be easy. it should be actually fully off#also ill be honest im Pretty Stupid About Tech but they often feel. mm. Connected. these 2 things. siri and bixby and alexa listening to#shit and now its going to be an AI assistant? okay? it was bad then its bad now and now that we live in a world where you can go#'computer. enhance. computer. call dave' the novelty is fully worn off. i dont think its cool personally. id like to be able to turn it off#and not use it and not have it harvest everything it fucking hears to do god knows what with. thanks#OKAY. EGG TIME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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#dont call anyone im safe im fine im just venting. tw for suicide/self harm/kind of intense language. ideally no ones reading this tho#bro i cant keep living like this#i dread waking up every day so much that i dread even falling asleep#i got insomnia medication in my system and my brain is still like nope absolutely not#i cant keep up at my job even when i am rested enough#i get headaches every other day#my instant mental reaction in the face of stress is to hurt myself (i have not)#like fuck. i work for the disability department of an insurance company#i know for a fact that (probably) every contract stipulates we wont cover disabilities as a result of self inflicted injuries#which is supposed to prevent ppl from taking advantage of the system or whatever#and im always like if someone goes to the lengths of actively injuring themselves to the point of disability#in the name of 'getting out of work'#that person is not 'taking advantage of the system' THAT PERSON IS FUCKING MENTALLY ILL#AND I WOULD KNOW BC I AM ONE OF THOSE PPL#do not come for me on some shit about wanting to disable yourself being morally questionable i cant be concerned abt that rn#i gotta focus on the fact that i hate my life so much id rather break my own right hand than continue it#its an improvement from the active suicidal ideation but its still a symptom of the passive ideation#fucking hell. im too self aware so i absolutely feel like im faking it or making shit up so i can be lazy and not work and whatever#but FUCKING CHRIST theres no way. if i had a choice i wouldnt let myself feel like this.#i just got to a point where i can live alone and support myself. i was so happy and so proud of myself. I don't want to lose that#but god every phone call i have to make for work makes me want to hurt myself. every early morning (and there arent many!!! i mostly work#from home!!!) makes me wish i was dead. i have to sleep for hours after work more often than not. i cant really maintain my living space#theres fucking. mold and discoloration and shit on a bunch of my clothes and some of my bags and shit!!#cause i cant fucking keep my room clean and my basement apartment got fucking humid over the summer and so much moisture got trapped#i constantly have dirty dishes getting moldy before i get to them#i just dont have the fucking energy. i want to take better care of my space. i want to be more social. i just want to go to sleep without#fucking dreading waking up. i wanna go a full week without a headache. i want my stress response to be something other than the intense and#overwhelming desire to cut myself. if i start again i dont know if ill be able to stop and i know i wont be able to keep it to my arms/legs/#easily hidden parts of my body. last breakdown i escalated to my face and i know ill pick up from there.#fuck
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i need eddie to get another guy friend in season 8, and buck loses his shit about it (again), so he breaks up with t because he's convinced that the weird feeling he gets when he sees them together is because he is Really attracted to the new guy.
#like things with t are fine cuz he likes exploring this new side of himself even if t doesnt always match his energy but whatever its fun#and maybe at work chim is the one who brings up eddies new friend and he is immediately just. what new friend?#chim laughs and says. tbf last time eddie got a new friend you attacked him so you could date his friend. hes probably keeping it to himsel#and bucks like. dude what. that was. yeah it was shitty of me but it was a one time thing. i wont do it again...#and when eddie shows up for shift buck immediately asks about his new friend and eddie tells him about the guy without hesitation#after shift tho buck is like. why didnt you tell me about him? after t i get why you dont want to but im just. you dont have to worry man.#buck. i know. im not worried. anyway he and i are gonna head to a bar to catch the game. you want to come with? you can bring t if hes free#oh. thats. thatd be okay? i dont want to idk ruin the vibe by bringing a date#nah man. itll be fine#and so he and t go to the bar and eddies already inside with the new friend and its Fine. its Great actually because t gets along with eddi#and the new guy and the new guy makes eddie laugh and doesnt miss a beat and knows more about the teams record this season than buck and#buck is doing Fine. this guys smile is big and his eyes are bright and when he laughs he sorta leans into eddies space alittle and its Fine#the night ends and buck and t go back to his apartment and buck cant stop thinking about that guys hand when it clapped down on eddies#shoulder or the look on his face as he teased eddie about the beer he drinks (cuz its kinda bad but only buck can say that) and buck Cant.#he wants that guy. he wants his hands and grin and teasing voice all to himself and not on eddie.#so he breaks up with t and ts confused af cuz i thought things were going good?#yeah. i just. i want to explore my options yk now that ive uh figured out i like men.#and its a clean break. not dramatic or messy. t tells him to call if he every changes his mind. buck wont.#bucks trying to not pry about eddies new friend and he doesnt grill eddie or anyone and just waits and listens to all the new info he gains#and eventually eddie invites him out to watch another game because whatever team they were watching made it to the playoffs#and when he gets there eddies like. no t tonight?#nah we. uh. we broke up.#eddie says sorry man that sucks. and the new guy is like. honestly he didnt even seem that into you which what an idiot. youre great.#and its good because the new guy splits his attention between the two of them now. eddie isnt the only one getting hands and grins and eyes#and the third time theyre at the bar the guy follows him to bathroom and kisses him hard against the door before pulling back with a#panicked sorry and leaving and when buck finds eddie after hes like. what happened? new guy ran out of here without even saying goodbye#he kissed me in the bathroom. i think uh. i think he was kinda freaking out about it and thats why he left.#and eddie just blinks at him before being like. buck. buck you said you werent going to do this again.#i didnt mean to! and buck means it. he just saw the way that guy made eddie laugh and put his hands on eddie and had eddies attention and#oh.
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The fact that the stereotype of psychics and fortune tellers is always some racist stereotype bullshit when every single "psychic" you actually see in real life is just some middle aged blonde white lady with chunky jewelery who needs to learn how to use conditioner REALLY badly, or some white guy in a scarf
And even historically most spiritualists were ALSO THAT, mostly just middle class white people who were BORED, but they used the aesthetic of ~eastern mysticism~ to seem more ~exotic~ and that's honestly probably where the stereotype largely comes from anyway ....
#and its not that i 100% dont believe in sliritual things or that people with abilities we may call 'psychic' dont exist#because i personally have seen and experienced things thay i cannot explain with rational scientific reasoning#but i absolutely do not believe anyone claiming to be psychic or sensitive or WHATEVER and trying to make money off of it#cus 99% of them are frauds just taking advantage of people's gullibility or grief to make a few bucks#claiming they can predict the future or contact a dead loved one#but all their predictions are so vague that they could apply to anyone or are made up from basic observations of the client#and the ''messages'' from the deceased are also usually just vague shit that could apply to anyone
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#( i cant do it anymore . i cant . i dont wanna be in this house anymore . nothing is ever enough . everything is always my fault somehow.#nothing is ever enough i can never do enough & i dont care about anyone but my ' not even real online friends ' & my bf . )#( i work my ass off ; i make as much as i can & i do-- my bf is TRYING to find another job we help around the house CONSTANTLY#but we don't care . she literally said she's ready to throw us out or leave herself . i dont have anywhere to go or i would be GONE . )#( im so unhappy i just wanna disappear i fucking hate it here . & now she gets to be fine & everyones#supposed to just go back to acting as tho she didnt call us all liars & uncaring assholes & didnt fucking lose her shit on the whole house )#( ALL STARTED OVER SOME STUPID ICE CREAM SANDWICH THING . )#( i just wanna be gone . )#( i just want it to all stop . )#˚₊·—̳͟͞♡ i. 𐙚 ooc. ᝰ .ᐟ . . . abi speaks ౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ .#vent tw.
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see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place
#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd#but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well#just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well#which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out#which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore#its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi#see the other thing is#if i talk about my mental health at all#people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint#or feel sorry for me which i also dont want#all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all#like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff#i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly#im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares#i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to#and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one#they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored#im losing my mind steadily#and thats not even onto the physical problems#but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying#‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket#if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your#fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces#sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues#but then i talk to other women and it is#it just doesnt make sense and i hate it#but i never rly got help on private insurance either so#tbd#depression cw
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