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hypnosiacon-archived · 2 years

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System brains seem to love having a theme, it's so strange. We have a bunch of immortals, the majority of whom are revival-immortals (ones that can die, but always come back in some manner). Maybe being a "mythic" or something like that might suit you better than deity - related to a/being a mythical creature?

I'm not mythic, no, I don't think so.

Yeah I used theriomythic in the past, but it still doesn't feels right (also the word itself gives not the right color-vibes.... do I have an synesthesia or not???) like uuuhhh Dovah were pretty much real, even if there they are not present here, and still they are "fictional". And the demon is... not exactly mythical it's like... a local legend or idk. And a bunch of my alterhuman identity is not related to myths in any way, I think.

I remember I used cryptid when I discovered my demon type, and it's still kind of the best way to explain my behavior in relation to this type. Servant doesn't feels right either, like Leviathan is not really a servant, not really a chosen one, but still is something important for a deity, that created him. I feel like there should be a word for something like this, I just... don't know, I feel like something red-orangy-dark-gray or something idk

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kacievvbbbb · 25 days

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God what even do I do with this chapter 😭 but here are some of my thoughts.

SPOILERS FOR CH. 268

- what the fuck

-“Maybe it’s time to try living for someone else” okay the itafushi shippers really won with that one, I can’t lie. But at the same time it feels like Megumi’s always been living his life for someone else specifically Tsumiki. so it kind of feels like the stronger message would have been to decide to live for himself? Kind of how yuuji’s journey went from finding this greater purpose to live and fight to simply just living is okay as well. But that’s just me. Im interested in hearing other people’s take on the situation

- this is from last chapter but I so really like the parallel of yuuji in this fight for his life with Sukuna and Mahito and being so weighed down by everything that he has lost and everything he is still trying to save and then Kugasaki hits that resonance and Yuuji sees that he’s not alone and god something about it always being Nobara and her insanity breaking him from that sorrow and giving him that last push to fight like he's not alone.

- also I do think seeing Nobara’s resonance after having to be the one to break it to itadori that she wasn’t recovering, really solidified that there where things still worth living for.

- I don’t know something about Sukuna finally after all these chapters acknowledging itadori by finally saying his name is so very Sukuna off him. It’s like the inverse of him going into Jogo’s flashing life and telling him he’s strong. This time he’s the one dying and he’s finally acknowledging the boy that killed him. Say what you want about Sukuna but he ain’t no sore fucking loser.

- God how fucking Yuuji Itadori of the whole thing to after everything all the terror and the torture and the pain to still offer Sukuna a chance to live and live better. A chance to not be a slave to his nature to this curse in their blood. God Yuuji what do I even do with you.

- okay so not even a fucking frame of the Hakari/Uraume showdown. Really 😭😭. It looked like things were happening too. With that final parting it looked like they’d reached some kind of understanding and not even a fucking frame. Gege the way your mind works.

- really not even one punch? Not even one gambling shot. I’d have payed good fucking money to see Hakari explaining how a pachinko machine works to a 1000 year old curse servant.

- the little “you’re just lucky is the best compliment for a guy like me” and the “yeah I guess it is” was a great exchange tho. Which is is why I wonder. Really not one fucking frame😭. I wonder if mappa will just ignore this and give them a fight scene anyway like they elongated the Sukuna vs Mahagora fight.

- and now finally, some good fucking food.

- Gojo’s little I killed your daddy note is so funny. What the fuck is wrong with him

- again. What the fuck.

- Nobara being as rude as fucking always god I love her. She is taking no prisoners. Fuck you mean you aren’t weeping at her feet at her return.

-Them trying to do the whole box suprise for Megumi and him catching them in the act is so stupid I actually can’t 😭. They really only have one braincell

- Nobara not giving a single fuck about her mom like what. Also what did she mean by “Special grade authority”

- crazy that they all got face scars now. They’re a matching set.

- I wonder what Yuuji’s talk with gojo was. I wonder what parental figure gojo exposed for him.

- I dunno this chapter making me feel like he might come back. Gojo Satoru just might make a come back.

- I’m glad that atleast after everything it’s gunna end with the three of them. Maybe a little damaged and worse for wear but together and that counts for something.

-lastly…..what the fuck m.

#I’m glad he gave them this #yuuji itadori #god in the middle of writing this the bus is been waiting for for half an hour slipped over my stop and #I’ve never actually been so angry in my life I literally had to draft this and cool down.#but yeah here we are #crazy only 2/3 more chapters left #after everything sukuna’s defeat just feels a bit anticlamatic which honestly works for the themes of the series #honestly this whole saga will probably translate better in animation but yeah #it’s not perfect but what is it was good enough for me. I had a good time and that fine in my book #but yeah I’m also just left wondering what’s the curse situation like now #like the death of sukuna wouldn’t have stopped it infact everything leading up to it will probably have made it worse #it hurts my head a little the idea that they can’t even really rest after all this there’s still so much left to do still curses to kill #and honestly real #but yeah good chapter #throwing thoughts to the void #jjk meta #jjk spoilers #jjk ch 268 #itafushi #itafushikugi #favorite trouple for real #kugisaki nobara #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuuji #sukuna jjk #hakari kinji #jjk gojo #gojo saturo #jujutsu kaisen #jjk manga leaks

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front-facing-pokemon · 8 months

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#something is very obviously different about these two compared to my normal images on this blog. i acknowledge this #also the sv model is Really good. and since they always stare straight at the camera anyway… and no one pays attention to the background…#and the only high-quality phantump model i could find was so horribly shiny that its eyes were just white voids #in my defense‚ phantump always just stare straight at you in game #the lighting is different‚ yeah. that's probably the dead giveaway. beyond the background. but like. i'm the only being on the planet who #really likes phantump anyway. i feel like it's a generally forgettable pokémon to most folks #phantump #HELLO this one is a weird one. i have some explaining to do. so when i did this one i didn't know how to edit models really at all #and when i got the models for these‚ the xy models were super shiny. shiny to the point that it made their eyes fuckin invisible #and i decided that since you could barely tell it was phantump‚ i needed a different way to get these images #i remembered that in the SV dlc‚ every time you find a wild phantump‚ it just fucking. stares. at you. and i was like. aha #i kinda remembered because of the test stream that i did. tumblr user alligayytorr (am i getting the right amount of Ys) said #“haha i am getting a sneak peek” when i zoomed the camera in on a phantump. and i remembered that. and i was like. i can utilize this #and ended up using just an in-game screenshot of SV in replacement of the regular content. later on‚ after that #once we got into gen 7 and it became less and less reliable to find models‚ i had to learn how to edit them manually to remove the shine #i am a software dev. not a 3d modeler. this ended up coming down to editing the code of the models directly (which i ended up writing a #script to automate). now‚ today‚ january 22nd (the day of me writing these tags and updating this post)‚ i remembered this post was in the #queue and was not normal. so i went back‚ ran the script on the phantump and trevenant models‚ and unshinified them #then edited these two posts to be normal. i have left the original pictures i took under the cut for reference and as bonuses #because i really enjoy phantump. so that's why those images are there‚ and that's why these tags are here #just for posterity's sake‚ the folks who come here mostly for my commentary‚ i've left the ORIGINAL tags of the post when i initially #made it with the SV pictures up at the top (i wanted to rearrange them‚ but tumblr makes that Very difficult‚ so i left them as-is)#so if these tags are confusing to read i Apologize. but i hope now that you're at the bottom you understand what happened #i'm gonna go edit the trevenant post now

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okawarihappylife · 22 days

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i am once again thinking abt the lost potential that is hypmic.

#i literally just messaged my friend abt this but stick w me #when nemu gets hypnotized we see her wanting to join the pow which. makes perfect clear sense even without hypnosis #shes shown through out all of tdd as hating unecessary violence and samatokis outburts due to their upbringing #and a political movement that (pretends to) erradicate all violence would interest her like. im just connecting dots here #and she joins because shes hypnotized and blah blah blah. boring. ok but what if. and hear me out.#the hypmic didnt completely overwrite the person but just made them act on their deepest desires #like i thinm my case w nemu is already presented but hear me out for my second contender. sasara #a man that became a thug on a whim because this guy reminded him of his ex. ok cool. what if we went harder on that #sasaras shown to be analytical and extremely cynical already. what if we just ignored canon for a bit #and focused on making his relationships a bit more fucked up. especially involving samatoki #sasaras drawn to him because samatoki fills the void that rosho left him. hes just smth he needs at the moment #but w my wonderful vision what if he grew tired of this fake. what if he had enough. hes not rosho he will never be #hes served his purpouse. but now sasaras stuck. in the middle of ikebukuro bashing some guys head w a pipe #AND THATS WHEN THE MIC COMES IN BABYYYYYYYYYYYYY #this was also brought to you by the fact that i want to see samatoki suffer. i want to see him at his most pathetic #i want him to come to the realization his best friend left him because he no longer fit his ideal vision #i want ACTUAL FUCKING CONFLICT FOR ONCE THAT ISNT SOLVED BY 'hey man. rappings fun' PLEASE #i want these bitches fucked up and in torment #uhhhh didnt think abt kuko w this au at all. idk yall do what you want w him #hypmic #hi main tag :3 #•txt #•hypmic #•idol nonsense

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oathkeeper-of-tarth · 7 months

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Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

#honestly? honestly?#last week i told the two (2) godawful egomaniac lab head Man In Academia bosses i quit and that we need to formalise it asap and i just #felt like a little feather about to float away on a breeze #maybe now i can do normal people things like eat and sleep and have a routine of some sort idk #i have been slowly losing it for at least 3-4 years now #i took a screenshot and last year i had no fewer than 14 fucking travel orders fulfilled #most of which consisted of like 12+ hour days on ships and docks #i'm just so tired man #not for reblogging obviously #i don't really wanna vent anymore or ponder them and the entire godforsaken institution but like #good riddance tbh #which is really really sad when you think about it! but here we are #it was just... no trace of future anywhere to be seen! entirely a Void!!#gonna post a beefy lesbian paladin real quick to push this post down lmao #but i felt like sharing because i know there's good and concerned people who follow me here and i both appreciate and miss you all #and lord knows some of you have been listening to me vent and whine for ages #am i going to miss some great people and the research community of my field? of course but also it was all just completely unsustainable

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liquidchocolatecake · 2 months

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currently captive audience to a knock down drag out fight in my brain between desire to respect the wishes of the creator and not look for anyone redistributing the comic and god i fucking miss wonderlab i miss wonderlab so much you have no idea i want wonderlab back so bad

#project moon #wonderlab #seriously wonderlab was so fucking good that like #the entire time pre-limbus release every time we got news i would get so excited for a potential followup on wonderlab's ending #and the idea of seeing characters like taii #with amazing designs from a comic that already had some absolutely stunning imagery #drawn in a style like the absolutely fucking beautiful painterly style of ruina's character art and cgs #getting to see more of taii and the other survivors of the branch and seeing where their lives would go after that ending #seeing how the loss of so many important people would affect them and how they'd struggle in the aftermath of l corp's collapse #we already had ONE distortion in the ending of wonderlab with catt and that happened BASICALLY MOMENTS AFTER LOBCORP'S ENDING #can you IMAGINE how cool it'd be to see all of these characters #who already have experience with combat and ego and weird anomalous monsters via their work in the branch #react to and potentially figure out and adapt to the distortion phenomenon?#LITERALLY THE WHOLE CONCEPT OF LIMBUS IS GOING INTO FORMER L CORP BRANCHES #THAT'S THE SELLING POINT OF THE GAME! THAT'S WHY WE'RE HERE! OF COURSE I WOULD GET EXCITED ABOUT MORE WONDERLAB STUFF!#BUT NOW WE'LL NEVER GET THAT #WE'LL NEVER SEE TAII AGAIN IN OFFICIAL MEDIA #WE'RE JUST LEFT WITH THE MEMORY OF THAT FINAL PANEL AND TAII GAZING OVER THIS STUNNINGLY BEAUTIFUL SURREAL LANDSCAPE #WITH PROMISES OF A JOURNEY WE'RE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO SEE #FUCK I MISS WONDERLAB #wonderlab was so fucking good that it accidentally became the cornerstone of my entire perspective on project moon's works as a whole #and now that it's gone i can't go back to lobcorp or ruina without feeling its absence like a gaping void in my chest #the only thing left in its place being the knowledge of the shitshow that was the drama surrounding project moon for a while #and the thought that maybe in a different world we would've gotten to see more #FUCK man #no joke i literally made myself cry typing this whole rant out #suddenly learning that wonderlab had been taken down was a fucking wound i have never recovered from #and i've never been able to look at ruina or limbus with the same sense of awe and wonder and curiosity ever since #just the bitter knowledge that yet another formerly beloved story and world has fallen into corporate nightmares and gacha cash grabs #i haven't been able to keep up with project moon much at all since. i don't know if anything else has happened.

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invisiblequeen · 7 months

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"vitiligo is here" like we haven't had a thousand different vitiligo sets in our mods folder for years 🤭

#sims 4 #the sims 4 #sims4 #simblr #ts4 #ea is comedy #vitiligo is HERE guys #we know you've been waiting ten years for stuff like this #with NO way to fill the void AT ALL #well here's the long overdue basegame update you've been holding your breath for #huh? what's that? you've had CC vitiligo for years now??#well get rid of it!#we here now!#i'm sorry this is just hilarious #it IS good if you play vanilla #so congrats to vanilla players /srs #i'm sorry you had to wait ten years for something as simple as this

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zevrans-remade · 1 year

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yeah.... so i finally got to the start of act 3 and saw the reveal of the guardian/dream visitor's real self and i-

#NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭 it's been 10 minutes of me sitting here in disbelief 💀💀💀💀💀💀#i mean from the very first time they seemed shady of course but i didnt care because i made my guardian pretty af #and now the very idea of that we as a player make their appearance up to our preferences #this kind of is a manipulation in itself to appeal eveb visually to the main character #considering every companion described different person that visited them #logically i knew that it's a sign of them trying to get their trust etc #and i thought i had their identity figured out 💀 i thought that was orpheus 😭💀✋️#STOPPPvmcmccm 😭😭✋️✋️#and i couldnt stop myself from reading spoilers and now i've spoiled myself kind of a lot about them 💀#this is a knife to the back because when i read it was possible to romance them in act 3 back then i was curious but now knowing the truth #i cant believe ALL of that was lies not even partly as i suspected and apparently it's the very mindflayer that infected us on the ship???#my brain is melting 💀✋️#i'm going to sleep it's too late i just needed to scream into the void about this i'm heartbroken LMAO 😂#bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 spoilers

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discoreptile · 2 months

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Beasties of Greenhollow soundtrack! Some tracks on this are from older projects like elphame but all of them have been reworked in some way. Most of them are entirely new. Enjoy!

#soundtrack #music #indiegamedev #Youtube #beasties of greenhollow #indiegame #chiptune #elphame #hey again gang. Another scream into the void #Things have been getting more interesting tbh #I'm starting therapy again. I have learned from this that my anxiety is in the very very high end.#And I guess the only thing that surprises me about that is that it's an abnormally high amount vs the average.#I've had more intrusive thoughts this week than in a long time. (I almost said ever but that was 2021 where they woke me up...)#It's mostly about my mistakes and ppl I've scared out of being in my life because of the actions based on my anxieties.#Like “if i could go back in time I could fix it”... girl you'd be going back in time like 100 times. At that point it's not fair lmao #I think I shouldn't talk about who I'm dating here anymore. Friends told me to stop seeing so many new people and I took that advice.#I'm exercising incredibly frequently; obsessively so. It really doesn't change much in my anxiety. I walk for like 3 hours a day.#My friend group is... difficult. One of us had a falling out with another and the dynamic is just so awkward for me now.#it just seems like everyone else has moved past it though but I still miss him. I don't think this can be reversed #we used to talk on my stream and play digimon cards n jackbox and d&d... But now they're only interested in d&d which I don't love #For god's sake I've published a game and moved to a nice new place. why aren't I happy hahahaha #work is no longer enjoyable since BoG was publised. our new project is in an iffy category but it's not my place to argue #I want to write music and animate but I have to do my hours for this new project before I can do anything like that...#I ended up siding with my current boss in that ethical dilemma I posted about and rn idk if that was the right decision.#Okay what can i talk about that's good? We moved to a nice place. I'm celebrating BoG's release with family tomorrow.#Graeme's playing Iconoclasts- one of my favourite games! He's also returning to work soon so it'll be less awkward to have a lady over #Thinking about good stuff going on just draws the mind to holidays I've had before. I treasure my memories!#Okay so I've complained for a long long time bc life doesn't feel great rn. But rest assured I already know this is 90% my fault hahaha #Oh another good thing that happened!!! My elestrals card was printed and ppl are really happy with it. I have a card in a real card game!!!#don't tell anyone but there's another one on the way. Anyway that will do for now. I'm sorry about my... self.

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early-october-skies · 5 months

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Me when we don't speak anymore by bears in trees

#lizzierants #had a sudden unplanned job interview today. i wanted to cry the whole time but managed to keep it together and now the anxiety has suddenly #caught up to me and it feels BAD the sudden thought of that what if my friends just dont actually like me and they like me purely because #theyre worried for what would become of me if they stopped being friends with me when purely of course id be fine eventually but i worry #that cause im on antidepressants people just think im automatically suicidal when something bad goes wrong which is not the case im doing #good i dont want to die but what if all my friends hate me what if this whole time i have loved them so so much and they just tolerate me #someday my friends will die and i had that i hate that someday we wont be friends even if its decades in the future i love all of them with #my heart that sometimes i feel it is overfilling i love them i love them and what am i without them i am everything i have ever loved i am #overthinking however i cannot stop this what if my own best friend is avoiding me? why am i thinking this? what evidence do i have to back #this up? nothing only for the fact my own brain feels as though i love people too much and they are uncomfortable with it i feel awful wtf #i have learned to keep my emotions from people because i dont want them to worry. i dont want people to do something or not do something bec #ause they think it will upset me i want people do do as they please i want to be open for my friends to share their issues i want to help #and im sitting here wirrying if they hate me so i turn here to shout in the void because the only person i know irl who follows me on here #most likely doesnt read these tags and if you are please ingore this i misjudged your terrible attention span also i love you very much #anyway a few weeks ago i realised my worst fear is no longer death. but the death of my friendship with my beloved friend. and thats fucking #terrifying prospect however if they were to be like yo i dont like you anymore id respect that decision and id be okay because their happine #is the most important thing to me and thats okay but i couldnt bare with the fact that they feel like they had to be ffiends with me because #they have to. i hate the prospect of them feeling trapped in a friendship theh dont want to be in. all the while i feel i cannot communicate #this to anyone because how would i go about it im very anxious i am shaking i am having a bad time very bad time actually im going to start #crying but its okay <3 crying is good for stress and health and its been a while since ive cried so maybe this will help me feel better <3 #i will heal and ill be okay <3

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cannot-copia · 2 years

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this year so far

#tw death #once again saying things into the void on here bc i dont know where else to say it #went on a trip for a couple days for my moms birthday a couple weeks ago now #they called to tell us my dads dialysis had pretty much stopped working shortly after we were got there #insurance gave us 4 days notice to find somewhere for him to go (2 of which we were 1200 miles from home)#also was told by the place I work at i am not needed until further notice the same day #so I have no source of income until they get the necessary machine fixed and even then I am skeptical they will say to come back #since dialysis stopped working he had to be moved to hospice #which was a week ago now #so he has very little time left #my half brother and his wife came to visit him a couple days ago #now his brother is here from another state #and we took them to eat at the place they’ve always gone when they are here for as long as I can remember #on the way there we were told my grandmother was taken to the hospital in an ambulance #they don’t know what is wrong with her yet but she is 94 so her being not ok either is very plausible #we are only like 3 weeks into the year and I’ve already been soft laid off my grandmother could be dying and my dad is dying #I feel like I have been seconds away from having a complete panic attack for a week #packing up and cleaning out the assisted living (he only ended up being at 3 months) felt so wrong #it was his coffee mug and green cup of all things that got to me most #he always had them #and knowing he would never use them again #I bought his dog a new name tag today #so it has a tag when we give it to them to put in the casket with him #and i almost cried in a fucking petsmart #and now I’m here over sharing on the internet about it bc if I do not keep myself distracted I will just get more nauseous and cry more #delete later

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local-magpie · 10 months

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there is a good chance i have reached the point in my life where most things will not change for me for a very long time. this is... weird to think about. im used to moving once every year or two and not expecting to stay in the same city or town for long. i used to think id move in together with a romantic partner.

now i just live downtown with my cat and probably have as much job security as i care to, barring doing something really stupid, and kind of expect to stay in this apartment until i either cant or wind up changing jobs away from here

#idk #this just wasnt how i saw my life stabilizing #but here we are #and i really dont see anything changing soon unless i manage to get myself fired somehow #im...........definitely not going to be dating anyone #i cant dredge up the interest to even try if im honest #i just dont care to put effort into meeting someone new #i had what i wanted already. it's gone now. whats the use wasting my time pretending about it #i have other things to do #yelling at the void

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frogphase · 10 months

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Where is the line between communicating how you feel openly but also not always being the person chasing resolution

#minor context cause its good to speak it to the void #but me and my best friend I think long story short have just been growing apart for many different reasons #cba getting into that but #a month ago maybe now he invited me out with a grouo of friends and like i cycled from the end of my shift to his house #to find they had left in a taxi 5 mins earlier #not a great feeling to say the least #anyway #then I left it a day but reached out detailing how it made me feel yada yada and we agreed we needed to have a chat irl about everything l #lo and behold a month later and no such chat has occured #and now he has left me on read for a week and like #part of me thinks I shoukd reach out again because you obviously need to communicate how you feel and i feel confused angry and shit #and also resentful about a load of unadressed things #but also #he has very much not reached out to have this chat we agreed on #so like is it on me or no????#hthtjrjrj #ah well #good to type it out #hello if you got here and thanks for reading #its cool i will work it out i just needed to put it out there in words #i appreciate i said minor context then wrote an essay

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navramanan · 11 months

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Aquiring knowledge -> getting filled with frustration and anger and dread -> wanting to stay informed regardless -> aquiring knowledge -> getting filled with frustration etc etc

#i am fucking talking to the void and vallahi i WIIIIISSSHHHH i had a proper oulet to let out my frustration #but FFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKK #nothing scarred me and showed me how fucking alone we were in our struggle and grief than the muslim world's reaction to rojava's invasion #in 2019. you know ok i know kurdistan gets little media coverage usually bc it's not relevant to american interest #but the invasion 2019 was HEAVILY covered by western media as it was the direct result of trump withdrawing the troops #and having a phone call with kerrrrrrrdogan saying hey you can invade now #so there was ZERO reason or possibility the muslim world wouldnt see what was happening #it was EVERYWHERE it got great western media coverage #but when i saw big muslim news accounts staying either silent OR siding with turkey i felt so fucking enraged and disturbed #and rejected. in turn there also werent individual muslims showing support as big crowds #like obv there were some here and there but not as a collective. they either sided with turkey or simply didnt care #you have to clock that. i cant say how many died but hundreds of thousands were displaced #turkey USED FUCKING WHITE PHOSPHORUS. WHICH IS A WAR CRIME. IT'S A CHEMICAL WEAPON #they literally said theyd create a strip of land to move syrian refugees there. arab refugees on kurdish land to change the demographic #and every fucking one went yeah that's fine nothing wrong with it. vallahi those people's plights are on you #and allah will ask. dont think he wont. while we were screaming for the muslim world to see us #they in turn pointed there fingers at us. said turkey was fighting terror. said they wouldnt hurt civilians #but what ever do you guys know what it's like to scream and scream but have no one bet an eye?#that's how i feel. that's how we kurds feel #man fuck off whatever i want to strangle someone #nesi rants

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dragonsandgayppl · 1 year

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astarion being the only one to approve of an action is an omen (the whole temple exploded teehee)

#HELP every part of that went so bad #i reloaded multiple times to survive #i could've just NOT stolen the holy artifact but yknow #anyways #balders gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #the void is playing bg3 #lae'zel im sorry girl #we would've had to kill them all on our way out the other direction anyways #probably #I'm not even playing right now im just thinking about that whole sequence #it's probably the most impulsive thing my avatar has done #they were kinda desperate after the whole uh #gith purification thing didn't work out #at all #i need to actually post about them on here

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euclydya · 1 year

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every now and then when we say something in-sys we DO still hear Allan's voice but barely so

and sometimes. they're like "QUIT TELLING EVERYONE I'M DEAD??" when,

We never DID explicitly tell anyone that, and

He is dead? He's literally a ghost. He honest to god legit for realsies died in 2019.

and he's like..,,,, "oh right! lmao sorry I forgot, carry on" JDJSMSKDMFCN??

#pk;m electrochemistry🔴#no idea where Rosie got off to and what connection Allan has rn isn't enough to ask them #his whole 'voicing other people's thoughts/what they're saying' thing is an autopilot thing he does & at this point #since he's been doing it for over a decade he's barely aware of it now #but w Rosie it's like. Ok. Well. There's a ton of similarities between hir & I. what if sie.... um.#and I'm like WELL THAT'S PROBABLY NOT THE CASE AHAHA [<= in denial in case that Is the case.]#but also like Actually logistically that's probably not what's happening here #cuz that doesn't FEEL like what's happening. hir & Allan r probably in some weird void somewhere #There's also The Horrors that ce sometimes Reminds Me Of Against My Will so I think if ce DID integrate into me #that would not Happen. it feels very 'I am forcibly receiving these memories from someone else'#and not 'I Myself Am Suddenly Remembering These Things And It Sucks' it's like ce's shoving them into my brain remnants #so aNYWAYS! THIS IS FINE [it's not but it's like on the levels of 'I keep bumping into shit' on the Annoyances Scale #very Low but still mildly painful and Annoying.]#idk how much awareness either of them have rn or have had for the past Ever since they stopped being able to front #like we Have tried asking and we get nonsense or nothing in response #so. ??????????? cool?????????????? well anyways. if that changes and they come back and they don't like any changes we've made to things #that's their problem then ig! jxjaksskxj

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