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wife · 3 months

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reading about peoples experiences with childhood loneliness on reddit is like wrow... i'm a special girl i see

#🎇#everyone aches for connection & fantasises of friendship and etc #i never realised i was missing something because i never got to experience it #i was quite content to be alone because i didn't realise there was an alternate way to be?#i. hm. well i wont go into traumaposting here but idk how much of a lonely child's need for connection is based on their parental #relationships + the friendships they have in their really early childhood before u get old enough to be considered Weird.#u have that memory of attachment and still want to attach to other people (?)#idk. i didn't have that . so when i was socially isolated when i was older it just didn't occur to me it was happening it was business as #usual + id already adapted to being alone and etc. i didnt have any sort of positive interactions to miss or crave #its hard to talk about my experience with loneliness with other people because its just. not what other people have experienced #and they assume we're on the same page with how desperately u want to feel Connected to others and have friends and so on and i just can't #relate at all. my childhood was living deeply in my internal world and not realising other people really existed #which is its own post. not going into it it would take 5 million years

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lottieurl · 6 months

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hate when bodies do concerning things. stop that

#also makes me feel uhm. lonelier. when i get scared abt my health living alone #oh all of us strangers we're rly in it now

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katyspersonal · 7 months

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I really hate it when someone says or does something mean and unfair and I try to address how wrong it is, and all they can react as "hey this is just internet and we are also strangers move on why are you getting so worked up about words in the iNtErNeT fRoM sTrAnGeR grow up pls I can be a mean unfair bitch for no reason to StRaNgErS on the InTeRnEt 🥺🥺🥺"

Like, the fact that we are not sharing physical space doesn't cancel the fact that what you just did not only didn't make rational sense, but was mean? And you are not supposed to be a rude bitch to "strangers" either? How are you a mature, secure adult if the only way you can handle the fact of misjudging someone and being rude is to try to gaslight them with that "you're overreacting uwu" thing? I am reacting just right, by pointing out an unfair action for being unfair, I am physically unable to react more rationally.

#/vent #personal #internets #the even dumber part was that they ALSO tried to claim that I could not take the L of being 'rejected'#excuse me what?#I am not addressing it because I am desperate for your attention I am addressing it because it wasn't fair #like you know that one wojack picture with a guy sobbing behind a smug mask?#the whole chat I could not see them as anything but that image. just that image the whole chat.#like if you have to constantly repeat how I am a nobody for you like a mantra are you really secure?#anyway I've finally reached the point of blocking people #I normally don't want to because we're all idiots in the same fandom loving this world #but the problem is.. they aren't #they *admitted* having no passion or knowledge about the source material #and just using bits from the source material to create their own thing #fandom is not a grinding ground for 'platform' or someone's narcissism its for LOVING source material #it is the case of 'just create OCs and original project' but these people never do because-#-fanart and fanfics will always get more attention than original stuff. even if they're not from a fan.#though i am generally apprehensive towards popular creators. they are way too willing to make enemies #same vibe as rich asshole wasting money willy nilly #me and the girls are not spoiled like this because we've known traumatizing levels of loneliness #so we are reluctant to completely cut anyone off let alone being mean just to show off

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petrichorvoices · 2 days

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we have been having really poor self esteem and frankly just a poor mental state lately and i don't know how to even approach it like. okay. we got out of those house, we came back home, we're back at university. we should be doing better. but we're not, we're just not. we're using substances to a greater degree than we ever have before, we're pathetically lonely, our self esteem is a flimsy roller coaster. i just feel stuck because we can't tell ourself anymore "just wait until the fall, it'll be fine in the fall" because the fall has come and we are doing badly

#vent #we're kind of in that state where we're not suicidal but also we can't shake the feeling that if we did disappear one day #only a few people would notice and they wouldn't mourn very long. that sort of thing.#we were trying so hard not to cry on the bus earlier because our friend is just so much cooler and more capable than us and it just makes u #think of how autistic and incompetent and stupid we are. and we don't understand what he gets out of being friends with us. we feel like a #stupid dumb sidekick and we're anxious that he's gonna realize that and then we're gonna be even lonelier than we are now.#and the body's dad earlier made a joke about us not having friends and it really stung and he apologized for it once we told him not to mak #those kinds of jokes but i'm crying as i type about it now. we're just so stupidly lonely. and even when we do make friends we can't help #but be the lesser one. the friend that walks behind the other on a crowded sidewalk. the friend that's always thought of second. the one wh #isn't as smart or capable or fun. i don't know why anyone bothers to be friends with us. i think if we didn't reach out to people first the #nobody would do it for us. i think that if we just stopped messaging people one day it would take a while before anyone notices anything #and longer before they did anything about it. if they decided to at all.#we're some stupid kid who needs to be told not to look at strangers yelling in public and whose stupidly naive and optimistic and i don't #know how we ever think anything else of ourselfves.

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silverandebony · 9 months

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there's a specific feeling that exists that i like to call trans loneliness. it's that feeling of knowing there are other trans people out there, but having none in your general vicinity that you can go lurk around and spend time with irl

#ah we're being hit by it tonight lads #i know there's a local pride group thst has hangouts sometimes #but i don't go on instagram so i keep forgetting they exist #and all my friends live in my phone now #i can't go get groceries with them or vibe in their livingrooms #i just want other trans people that i van exist around #trans loneliness #silvered words #personal #okay to reblog

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mainfaggot · 2 months

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the last time i felt emotionally fulfilled in a friendship was when i was 15, and before that when i was 13. im turning 21 next month

#my current close friends are really great but my depression gets in the way and it's really hard to tell them about my feelings lol #so i basically make my chronic loneliness worse by distancing myself and isolating etc #they still like me though... weirdly #well probably bc we're all mentally and emotionally unwell! we get one another's issues #but i cant bring myself to say a lot of things i would otherwise want to... since i feel so misunderstood #even when i have tried to talk about things they just dont process them the way im hoping they will #and it's not their fault!!! it's my fault for expecting someone to understand exactly what im saying when i say it #i almost always find words for things. i describe them in detail. and i think thats where things get too unique and too confusing actually #so they cant personally understand #like i said. not their fault!#i just miss this one friend i had briefly in 8th grade #i was getting outcasted from everyone in my own class. she was in the classroom next door #i don't remember how we crossed paths but we did and she was so smart and so understanding #and we just clicked #i remember running in a field with her. she was so.. everything #i miss her #and when i was 15 i remember talking about all of my mental issues with this classmate and we immediately saw each other as mirror images #it was crazy... we also had a lot of interests in common and we looked out for each other #she's doing a lot better nowadays which is why we're no longer in contact probably #it's hard to be friends when one of you is stuck in one place so i dont really blame her #we drifted apart anyway. i bet if i asked she'd still make time for me a few times a year #i just didnt ask because it felt like the mutual understanding we had ended #shes a different person now. and for the better too! i shouldn't interfere in her happiness #z.post

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vercna · 1 year

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oh so i'm always going to be fourteen years old crying alone in the dark of my room that's what you're saying got it

#ironically i already had a tumblr at fourteen to deal with the loneliness #the summer before i moved schools i was so anxious and excited to meet new people #i spent my entire summer making up imaginary friendships in my head #and then i started high school and formed the most wonderful vibrant friendships i've ever had #and i'm still holding on to those even though it's all jaded and faded now and everybody's made new & closer friends #and they've got partners to dedicate their daily life to and we're lucky if we talk once a month #but im still in the school yard waiting for them to get out of class so we can get lunch #and the cycle continues i'm back to fantasizing about meeting people and having a tight group of friends #will the agonies ever end

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alexanderpearce · 2 years

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we’re all going to the world’s fair soundtrack making me cry and feel so incredibly melancholy it’s like indescribable. the internet.

#while watching i was like.. this is kinda udnerdeveloped.. but now that ive finished its like. this movie just makes me feel so much #it feels so true to the internet and to relationships through the internet and creepypasta and urban legends and loneliness and mental healt #health #and the barely-there gender themes - which were more? anti themes? negative themes? because it seemed like the themes of gender dysphoria we #were created by a kind of lack of discussion of that at all #i am not making ANY sense #i am just rambling and thinking about the loneliness of the internet #liked the movie!#reminds me of this mutual i had ages ago who switched blogs a load of times and i never found them again #like that's what the movie's about its about kind of. melancholy to fucked up internet experiences #god all i said in my letterboxd review was enjoyed this. good internet movie felt real #well on tumnlr u get my full thoughts. because this is the site i grew up on and thats wagttwfcore.#we're all going to the world's fair #wagttwf #shut up ulrike #jane schoenbrun #movies

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raksh-writes · 1 year

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Im a pent-up ball of pure stress and restlessness (like chest-tight and heart pounding type of stress) and I have 0 idea what to do with myself, because anytime I want to try and go distract myself with Something my anxiety spikes and my brain goes "!!! NO!!! DANGER!!! LOOK OUT FOR DANGER!!!" so I guess I'll just spend the day pacing the house and refreshing the same 3 pages on repeat, huh...

#personal #Raksh posts #tomorrow I'll know if I got back into uni #so that's the culprit #but I also have no way of assuaging it so fuck me I guess 😩#and depending on if I do or dont get in #its either gonna be a full on depressed crying or a crazy busy next week #plus so much has been happening all around #I finished my internship last friday #we found out our doggo is sick and we're going with her to a vet cardiologist next friday #my younger cousin Ive always been quite close with came to visit with her boyfriend and announced yesterday they got engaged #my bro today said he's planning to marry next year #Im trying not to let my crippling loneliness take me over #it's kinda a lot when all put together 🙈#I thought maybe I could finish typing up what I have of my recent vegaspete AU #its a super indulgent time travel a/b/o shifterd thingy with outsider pov - Nops in this first part #and so I could maybe have something to finally post sometime soon and motivate me to write some more #but I can't focus on that #Ive also thought of maybe gaming a bit #Id actually like to check out Cyberpunk with this new 2.0 update #but again it feels like anytime I try to occupy myself with something my brain goes into alarm mode ughhh #this stressing business is so useless and unproductive why isnt there a switch to it I could just flip and turn it off??#ughhhhh anyway #Im just venting dont mind me #hoped putting it down in some way shape or form would help but will it work? prob not 😂😪#vent #rant

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starryeyedclub · 7 months

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Lately I've been feeling better, I'm cooking more healthy meals and taking my vitamins, I'm enjoying hobbies like reading, moving my body, having solo dates and learning languages again, I find myself smiling at people (and dogs) when I'm walking down the street.

I feel like sometimes I just need to go out, meet new people and have good conversations to realise that I belong, I'm connected to humanity, I'm part of this world and that's so cool. It's like I get synced back up, like before I am just roaming around disconnected from reality, numb, living in my brain and then I come back to life.

#maybe we are not made to be so alone #maybe we're meant to meet more often #to have actual conversations #instead of just getting up to date #how bleak is that honestly #i want to know how people feel #who they are what they've fallen in love with what has brought them joy lately #not if that one coworker has broken up with their partner I couldn't care less #how can we be so close to people but so far away #why are we all scratching the surface #does everyone feel the same or is it just me #and if so why don't we try to truly connect with one another #why are we so scared to be seen and felt and heard when it's one of the most reassuring feelings #on loneliness #nia talks

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ozlices · 1 year

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btw it is our little's chosen birthday today since it's also emu's bday & not a single person has wished them happy birthday even with them being devastated in our discord status so 🙃it'd mean a lot to them to come back from their sad nap to ppl wishing them happy bday

#mine #we're not saying their name or alias publicly on our acc that's pushing it #but like. i got permission from our primary protector to say smth bc they're genuinely devastated & we're all fucking pissed.#like they literally. told multiple ppl when they picked it out. & were already hurt when they didn't wake up to anything #& then made our status a vent & still. not a single person has said anything. like. idk. im rly pissed idek what to do w myself.#they've been put through so much bullshit this yr w being treated like shit & made to feel just as shitty as we all do. it sucks.#we're all pissed & hurt on their behalf & our own & each other's. i just. idk.#like they say u know who ur real friends are when ur hurting & it's like. damn not even our little has anyone who can be arsed #to give a genuine damn & say anything to them when they're crying on their bday they excitedly chose???? & looked forward to???#they literally were begging & praying to get attention today but instead it's been mostly me & our protector out bc they're so devastated.#idk what to do or say anymore i cant even bring myself to say anything directly to anyone.#im sick of watching not even our little be spared from being treated like shit for being depressed considering the circumstances bruh.#ANYWAY... they're in the back of the headspace taking a nap w another protector to try to cheer up a bit. so.#wish them happy bday and wish them well smth idk just take the load off all this loneliness bc it's suffocating for ALL of us #but it def hurts them the most and it sucks. and im tired. and pissed.

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hummingbooks · 1 year

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Can my person please come knock on my door please?

#i'm feeling the aro loneliness and I can't ward it off #is it asked too much to have a friend i can hang out with without planning it 3-4 business days in advance?#is it asked too much to have a person to go on random walks with?#all i want to do is watch the new spiderman movie and it seems like i have to go watch it alone #once again just me and my thoughts #guess it's time i get really comfortable with myself because we're in it for the long run #aromanticism #aromantic

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moe-broey · 2 years

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Screaming crying throwing up curled up on yhe floor sobbing weeping ect ect I miss them SO much (PNGs with voice lines that live in my phone that I can look at any time)

#FINALLY picked up engage again and collected all the dlc emblems (from both waves)#saved veronica for last bc i knew she'd be the one i'd be the most autistic about #i love her she's SO funny. chronic baby disease. insisting we're working for her actually.#completely out of touch with her own emotions (FELT).#bloodlust.#she really does have the funniest combination of traits and i love that for her #but MAN..... her map and her EXISTING as a 3d model ON A CONSOLE GAME.....#getting this TINY glimpse into what askr/embla would look like in a 3d space........ (feel like the map is more modeled after askr?)#i feel so fucking rabid about it. frothing at the mouth. i am SO normal (LYING THROUGH CLENCHED TEETH)#i'm just imagining a perfect world where we also have emblem alfonse and sharena in a bracelet together.#i KNOW sharena would get shafted but indulge me. do not separate them first of all.#and second i just think it would be insanely interesting actually???? like. how is alfonse coping.#i think becoming a jewelry ghost would be on the top ten list of worst things to happen to him specifically #i think he'd put his all into serving whoever has him as now this is his responsibility. he is just as closed off as ever though #if not worse having to go through centuries of losing anyone he'd accidentally make any connection with #sharena is probably the only reason he's somewhat sane. she grounds him.#and also sharena???? ohhh i think there is SO much potential there!! she is always SO eager to hopefully befriend --#anyone who finds their bracelet.#i think being trapped in a bracelet has had the opposite effect on her. her desire for outside connection #and friendship only gets stronger. i think the loneliness stings more.#and i think having them together like. HUGE potential to put them side by side and see how they really do parallel each other #same issues different ways of coping. different reactions. i think their engage skill would reflect this. somehow.#also i think they'd both look soooo cute in the engage artstyle 😭😭😭😭#what the fuck ever. explode 💥💥💥

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thedarknessisfriendly14 · 1 year

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it feels so weird...this is when everything started up, but then just as quickly ended

I'm slowly gaining freedom from ly-san! yay!!

#pokemon irl #pokemon rp #pokeblogging #pokemon x and y #lysandre #its kinda funny how it's been 2 years at this point...but #I'm growing we're all finally growing! I'm getting happier!#I'm making more friends than I can ever hope!#but...I'm still trapped in this dark loneliness #but I'm growing!

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kumashire · 1 year

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I try to be Good and Strong and Independent Etc. and mind my business and stay in my lane and focus on improving myself and stay busy with my Independent hobbies but I don't think anyone likes to feel unloved and annoying all the time. I think that would start to wear on anyone a bit

#i fear that as i get older i will only get lonelier #that is just the inevitable fate of all adults regardless of how many friends they have or their relationship status #and i fear #i fear that people dont actually care to know me #that nobody cares to know anybody #we're all just afraid of being alone #and i think this whole time ever since i was old enough to realize i needed to give up on the idea of family ive still been holding on #like i thought maybe if i gave them some space for a while a decade or so theyd realize they missed me #and they want to know me #and theyd want to be my family for real this time #but my feeble attempts to be anything to them are only making me feel more and more pathetic each time #i am very tired and i wish always these days i did not crave human connection #i wish i didnt want it #i wonder if this ever goes away #maybe i will check in again about this when i am 35

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tismeandmylife · 11 months

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that deep, choking feeling of sadness and loneliness

#lonely #that choking feeling in my chest from a lack of real happy close social interactions #my friends moved away #and we're all stupidly busy in school #and my other friend just stopped talking to me out of the blue #so #yeah #loneliness is mostly what im feeling #barely have the motivation to get out of bed #and doing schoolwork is stupidly hard #focus is non-existent #more so than normal lol #not fun

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