#we've been friends since we were like 13 years old

[sirenologyyy]

MODERN ATWOW BAND HEADCANONS !

✹ summary : in which i'm slowly crawling back to my avatar hyperfixation and i decided to make a band au!except I'm right (or not take this with a grain of salt hehe) and I frl can't see them playing any other roles

✹ author's note : let this not flop in eywa we pray 🙏 and yes, Daisy Jones and the Six is my favorite book, how did you guess?

✹ warnings : mentions of bleeding, scabs, swearing obv

It all started one balmy afternoon when Lo'ak and Spider were blowing off their biochemistry homework lying down on the floor staring at the cieling fan undeviatingly oscillate above them. Then, Lo'ak suddenly sits up from his spot causing Spider to look at him.

"What's up?" Asked Spider.

Lo'ak looks at him, a newfound determination in his wide eyes. "Dude, what if we start a band."

Spider frowns. "A band?"

"No, but hear me out for a second." says Lo'ak bristling in his spot as Spider sits up.

Although wary, Spider hums. "Alright."

"Think about it, school's almost over, we barely know anybody in this town, are we seriously gunna hangout in the beach all summer trying to make friends?"

Spider chuckles. "I think I'm missing the point where that's a bad idea."

"Spider, come on bro- look at us, we're losers alright? We're practically throwaway fish to the kids at school- but if we start a band, who knows how many people'll wanna be a part of it, we'll score a couple of life long friends AND it'll be our one solid excuse not to be at home" Lo'ak's riposte was proving to make sense, with a toothy smile to cap it off, but of course Spider- considering he was two years Lo'ak's senior had to pop his bubble with the pragmatic pin of reality.

"I don't know dude, it sounds kinda lame." Spider replies hesitantly, propping himself up by his elbows. "We've been trying to start a band since 7th grade, we always end up calling it quits on the 3rd week."

"This time it'll be different."

Spider scoffs. "Uh-huh? How "

Lo'ak nudges his right shoulder upwards. "We'll ask Neteyam to help."

Spider shoots him yet another look. "If he doesn't want to help?"

"We make do," Lo'ak shrugs. "What's wrong with a two man band?"

"Almost everything." Spider snorts.

★ lo'ak ──────── electric guitar

when they used to live back in high camp, he found an old silvertone in their attic that used to belong to jake during his marine days along with scores of 70's rock bands' songs on yellowing paper fraying at the edges and folds.

He spent 3 months learning a song with 4 chords by ear and performed it at the school talent show

When he got into 6th grade he did not only beg, for an electric guitar he GROVELED. He suddenly wanted to do all the chores in the house, he suddenly got C's instead of D's in tests, it was terrifying because who the hell WAS this and what did they do to the real Lo'ak???

Jake and Neytiri didn't give him one until he was 13. Jake just picked him up from school one day and all of a sudden just asked: you wanna get that electric guitar?

LO'AK WAS OVER THE GODDAMN MOON.

got a classic red stratocaster.

The first song he ever learned to play on the guitar was buddy holly by weezer...

Come on you guys what were you expecting

likes picking at his finger scabs and does it until neteyam or tsireya tells him off.

has multiple guitar picks but always uses this specific one he made into a necklace and wears it everywhere.

THEN PROCEEDS TO LOSE SAID GUITAR PICKS

tuk keeps hiding them around the house waiting for lo'ak to lose his mind.

he can play any song by ear, just watch.

plays around with riffs more often than not.

★ neteyam ──────── back up vocalist / lyricist

never even wanted to join the band but was bullied into joining (kiri joined when he said he wouldn't just to spite him)

has perfect pitch (are we surprised though)

YOU'D SNEEZE AND BITCH ASS CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT NOTE IT'S AT.

uses it to nitpick Lo'ak when he's straying from the original pitch.

lo'ak will then threaten to cave his face in with his capo.

his favorite artists are frank ocean and kendrick lamar.

no one in his entire school woulda guessed he could sing. Nobody.

was made to sing in family events... (iykyk)

loves musicals. his favorite's Hamilton...

Jake and Neytiri took him to see Hamilton once in New York when he was 11, he's never been the same since.

HAS MAJOR FUCKING STAGE FRIGHT I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. HE WILL NOT GO ON STAGE UNTIL YOU SMACK HIM IN THE HEAD SO HARD HIS BRAIN RESETS AND SUDDENLY HAS THE BALLS TO FACE THE AUDIENCE.

Once he's out there though he totally changes, he gets more confident, when he's really feeling it then his braids start flying everywhere... it's becoming an issue really, he might take someone's eye out with how solid his hair beads are...

hurled his guts out one time before they had to perform at the end of year school fair.

★ kiri ──────── pianist

there are always four types of gays. English Teacher Gays, Art Teacher Gays, History Teacher Gays, and Music Teacher Gays.

Kiri was definitely the last one.

lo'ak got her a shirt that says "key master" with her face horribly photoshopped onto the keys of a piano.

she burned it the night she got it.

til this day lo'ak never knew what happened to it.

Suki Waterhouse as Karen Sirko in the DJATS live action? Brain chemistry = altered

Stevie Nick's and Lindsey Buckingham's performance of Silver Spring in Fleetwood Mac's Reunion concern in 1997? = Roman Empire.

was in the school choir and would play the piano in their choir director's stead.

has been playing the piano for 9 years but always gets confused when asked to play a flat or a sharp (it takes her 4 tries to figure out where C minor is)

her favorite piece to play is over the waves by juventino rosas.

when she wants to show jake a new piece she's been working on, by the first minute he's out like a fucking light. SHE'S JUST THAT GOOD.

also when she wants to play a piece with too many chords she never wanted to play it in the first place.

once she messes up she's definitely one of those people who spams the keys.

one time when she was playing a piece her fingers cramped mid-song and she freaked out.

★ spider ──────── drums

his dad's military friends taught him how to play the drums.

lo'ak dared him he couldn't do a drumroll for an hour.

spider did it in two and a half but stopped cuz he got hungry LMAO.

impresses kiri with various drumstick spins, it dosen't impress her.

practically worshipped that one vine of those two kids.

was definitely one of those kids that played with overturned pots and pans and pretended it was a drum set (it annoyed the hell outta norm)

once lost his drum sticks and used chopsticks (ps. they weren't the same)

scribbled their band logo on his bass drum and was very proud of it.

INSISTED they would call themselves "the seven skxawngs"

nobody listened to him.

when they held auditions for their drummer he went "You guys know I can play the drums right?"

has never watched whiplash.

uploads drum covers on his tiktok account with 70 followers.

makes dumb jokes if the others can't figure out a certain chord or note he'd go "guys maybe it's at H!"

the most chillest person in the band though frl.

somehow always manages to pull??? The amount of game this man has solely just because he's the drummer is wild.

they once performed at an event with 50 people and Spider was wearing addidas slides the entire time and nobody noticed.

★ tsireya ──────── main vocals/lyricist

When I tell you this kid can SING SHE CAN SING.

frl the real life ariel I swear evrrytime she opens her mouth everyone's wishing on her downfall because she's such a talented singer, her vibratro is so measured, her runs are so clean, she's just so UGHHHH.

is such a theatre kid oh Lord.

was made to sing at family events too (it's practically a canon event atp guys.)

has a special journal where she writes her song lyrics that she takes with her everywhere (give her 5 minutes and she can write a song with just her hand as paper and eyeliner as a pen.)

joined in singing competitions when she was a kid and when she was 10 joined a televised singing competition and managed to make it to the semi-finals.

it's why she's the lead singer of the band anyway.

she always has pearls threaded into her hair every time they perform and it's been her signature look ever since.

her voice is fucking angelic ya'll istg.

is a soprano. enough said.

is amazing at reading sheet music.

she and neteyam wrote 3 original songs that the band performs everytime they get a gig.

aside from singing she can play piano and violin too.

she's a fucking wordsmith too like she's so eloquent and knows all these big words and she's good at expressing her pent up emotions through songwriting.

the literal it girl. Everyone in their band gained more popularity ever since they opened for a popular band from L.A. but everyone in their high-school knows her name. Everyone.

her vocal control is amazing.

she really knows how to liven up a crowd.

★ aonung ──────── rhythm guitar

has been playing guitar since he was 7.

took up guitaring because his dad introduced him and tsireya to playing instruments at a young age.

collects guitar straps.

neteyam's always on his ass about if what he's playing sounds right or not (50% of the time he's not)

it isn't practice without neteyam and aonung almost throwing hands at least thrice.

almost always smokes while practicing.

oddly enough only has one guitar pick and he hasn't lost it yet unlike lo'ak who buys new guitar picks every other month.

obsessed with black nailpolish, you won't see him go on stage without black nails istg.

he didn't even audition for the band. He was just always there at the Sully residence to pick Tsireya up from practice until one day Tsireya told him to come inside the house, when he did he finds out they needed someone for rhythm guitar and that Tsireya let it slip that Aonung knew how to play.

he's been a part of the band ever since.

he's just incredibly good with his fingers, enough said.

after the first time they performed their first gig at some girl's house party, he, rotxo, and lo'ak got high on the rooftop of Aonung's house (yk until Lo'ak slipped and started dangling from the gutters and fell into the pool)

his outfits always eat every time they perform.

james hetfield the goat.

always experimenting with new riffs and runs and adds them to the songs mid-performance and without any warning (just to piss neteyam off)

★ rotxo ──────── bass guitar

the glue and heart of the band frl.

the sweetest basist you'll ever meet.

his family actually owns a popular guitar shop in Awa'atlu, he first started playing the guitar at the ripe age of 5.

Bro is a prodigy but dosen't want to admit it.

aonung bought his first guitar at rotxo's family's shop, they hit it off ever since.

Always brings his baked goods to practices (then kiri devours the entire tray when you aren't looking)

actually fucked up his audition for the band but then Lo'ak found him sobbing in a janitors closet and gave him a second shot at an audition with just Lo'ak and Spider and he was able to redeem himself.

(really only auditioned cuz he played bass, they were finding a bassist, and not because kiri sully was their pianist)

is an introvert but he's so fucking funny that you wouldn't suspect it.

can perform riffs in his sleep (no he actually does though it freaks aonung out when he spends the night in his place.)

kiri made him a resin guitar pick with fragments of coral from the beach when they had their first date.

has a "maturing is realizing bass is the superior instrument" tshirt.

one time wore finger condoms so his scabs wouldn't re-open and bleed all over his guitar 😔

loves playing deftones on the bass.

has chronic "guitar face"

[mostlysignssomeportents]

1900s futurism

I'm on tour with my new, nationally bestselling novel The Bezzle! Catch me in TUCSON (Mar 9-10), then SAN FRANCISCO (Mar 13), Anaheim, and more!

I'm profoundly skeptical of the idea that the future can be predicted, and doubly skeptical that sf writers are any kind of prophet. The former grotesque fatalism (if the future can be predicted, then what we do doesn't matter); the latter is tragicomic hubris.

If you'd like an essay-formatted version of this thread to read or share, here's a link to it on pluralistic.net, my surveillance-free, ad-free, tracker-free blog:

https://pluralistic.net/2024/03/07/the-gernsback-continuum/#wheres-my-jetpack

That said, few people have been more consistently useful in understanding and anticipating (and yes, building) the future than my friend and colleague Karl Schroeder, whom I've known since I was 16 years old. Karl was the first person I heard say the world "internet." Also: "fractal," "World Wide Web," "ftp," and numerous other touchstones of the future just over the horizon.

Karl is, in fact, a futurist ("foresight consultant") who approaches the work with the same shrewd insight, wild imagination and humility that he brings to his fiction. In a new essay written with both his futurist and sf writer hats on, he nails down the toxic shadow cast by the 20th century sf, or, as he calls it, "The Science Fiction of the 1900s":

https://kschroeder.substack.com/p/the-science-fiction-of-the-1900s

Karl starts by describing the odd "double vision" of the future of the 1900s. On the one hand, many of us (myself included) were convinced that nuclear armageddon was inevitable. Unlike the unhinged architects of the nuclear arms-race, realists understood that a nuclear war would effectively end the future. As Einstein put it, "I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones."

But the flipside of that certainty that the future would end with the first nuclear strike was the belief that if we could just somehow walk the tightrope over the chasm of nuclear holocaust, we'd emerge in a future worth looking forward to: "a new era of peace and prosperity for all."

Contrast that with the existential dread of today's polycrisis: environmental collapse and political decay up to and including fascism. These aren't the binary proposition of nuclear annihilation vs Utopia – rather, they're a continuum of worse-and-better outcomes of every description. As Karl writes: "It’s not that simple. Our future now is an exhausting spectrum of scenarios, each with its own promise, and its own problems."

For Karl, we have entered a new epoch, but we've dragged in the long-expired way of imagining (and hence creating and navigating) the future with us. What makes this a new epoch? For Karl, it's the kind of future on our horizon. He cites Charles C Mann’s 1491, a superb history of the Americas before Columbus:

https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/107178/1491-second-edition-by-charles-c-mann/9781400032051/readers-guide/

1491 radically reframes "the patchwork of propaganda and inference" that makes up the received narrative of the so-called "New World." It describes a land of flourishing cities, art, science and culture "in the Americas while Rome was just getting its act together." Contact with colonizing Europeans was a disaster for First Nations people, who call this period "The Invasion." It was an epochal break.

Futurism is an inextricably historical discipline. The willingness of some settler-colonialists states to consider this epochal break forces us to reframe our literal place in history, the story of the land under our feet. At its best, this futuro-historical work can begin the long work of reconciliation, as with the Canadian government's promise of $23b in reparations for the First Nations people who were kidnapped as children and sent to murderous "residential schools" before, during and after the Sixties Scoop.

The sf of the 1900s is no longer fit for purpose, if it ever was. It's a literature that was steered by open fascists like John W Campbell, who explicitly saw the literature as a means of inculcating a societal narrative of the triumph of white, corporate technocracy over all other forms of government:

https://locusmag.com/2019/11/cory-doctorow-jeannette-ng-was-right-john-w-campbell-was-a-fascist/

Karl isn't the first sf writer to try to overturn this orthodoxy – indeed, it was continuously challenged by radicals within the field, as with the New Wave, personified by the likes of Samuel Delany and Judith Merril (who both mentored and introduced Karl and me):

https://pluralistic.net/2020/08/13/better-to-have-loved/#neofuturians

The cyberpunks took a good hard run at it, too. For plenty of writers (including me), Bruce Sterling and William Gibson's 1981 story "The Gernsback Continuum" was a wake-up call:

http://writing2.richmond.edu/jessid/eng216/gernsback.pdf

Not for nothing, William Gibson has long insisted that his 1984 classic Neuromancer should be read as utopian: after all, it depicts a future in which the inevitable nuclear war only reduces a few cities to radioactive ash, sparing the rest of the planet.

Bruce Sterling once paid me the supreme compliment of describing a 2003 story I wrote about the ways that algorithms will enshittify self-driving cars as "making everybody else in the business look like they live in a dark basement growing on the mulch from old STAR TREK scripts":

https://craphound.com/stories/2005/10/12/human-readable/

Schroeder – along with today's new radical sf writer cohort – wants to fashion a fictional futurism that is fit for this world and its crisis: "in our modern technological society, science fiction tells us what to spend our time and money on." The fact that our mediocre billionaires are mired in the sf of the 1900s means that we're getting some decidedly old-fashioned futures.

For Karl, Musk is a poster-child for this profoundly conservative, backwards-looking vision: "He’s fighting the intellectual battles of the last century, a 1900s hero dropped into the 2000s with an unlimited budget to reshape the future to fit the era he’s from." Musk's obsessions – "Space flight. Settling Mars. Cyberpunk-style brain-computer interfaces. Artificial Intelligence. Self-driving electric cars. Humanoid robots." – are 1900s science fiction.

Ironically, much of this fiction labels itself "hard sf," despite the fact that interstellar travel is utter fantasy – as is mass-scale, near-term interplanetary civilization:

https://pluralistic.net/2024/01/09/astrobezzle/#send-robots-instead

Karl wants "a future for the 2000s." He points to some efforts to make this happen, like Neal Stephenson's Hieroglyph anthology, edited by Ed Finn and Kathryn Cramer:

https://www.harpercollins.com/products/hieroglyph-ed-finnkathryn-cramer

The "Hieroglyph" is Stephenson's shorthand for a recognizable, tangible, meme-able gizmo or other touchstone for a 2000s-era vision of the future – a replacement for jetpacks and flying cars. Karl's story for the anthology, "Degrees of Freedom," focuses on an abstraction (governance: "the single most important thing humanity can focus its creative energies on right now"), and by Karl's own admission, it's not quite the hieroglyph Stephenson was looking for.

But Karl did come up with a hieroglyph in a later work, the "deodands" of 2019's Stealing Worlds – a software agent "that believes it is some natural system, such as a river or forest, and acts in its own self-interest, that being the preservation and thriving of that natural system":

https://memex.craphound.com/2019/06/18/karl-schroeders-stealing-worlds-visionary-science-fiction-of-a-way-through-the-climate-and-inequality-crises/

(My own contribution to Hieroglyph was very gadget heavy – "The Man Who Sold the Moon," about autonomous lunar 3D printers. It won the Sturgeon Award):

https://memex.craphound.com/2015/05/22/the-man-who-sold-the-moon/

I've been impressed with Karl since the day I met him in 1987. There's no one whose thoughts on the future I'm more interested in hearing. I don't think that's a coincidence, either: Karl is an autodidact who was raised by a Mennonite TV repairman – the first TV repair shop in the Canadian prairies. If you want to understand the future, try being raised by someone who takes that kind of deliberate approach to which technology to adopt, and how.

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[kaylinlmfao]

Fuck you

Type of piece(s): imagine, oneshot, drabble, series

Type(s) of writing: smut, angst, fluff, dark

Pairing(s): dom!yandere!ghostface!billy loomis x shy!sarcastic!sub!fem!reader x dom!yandere!ghostface!sidney prescott

Warning(s): non con/rape, dub con, knife play, overstimulation, murder, blood, swearing, violence, mommy kink, daddy kink, dacryphilia, blood kink, dirty talk, nipple play, praise kink, slight public sex, innocence kink, reader goes into sub space, choking, hairpulling, fingering (r receiving), face sitting (sidney receiving), floor sex, hate/angry sex, drugging, ownership kink

Summary: when reader finds out that her best friends are the ones who killed her parents and Tatum & Stu, reader feels more hate towards them than ever. But all they've ever felt is obsessed with her. So they keep her with them forever

A/N: this is my first fic and of course its dark as shit so beware. Give me some much needed feedback and let me know how y'all feel! (I listened to Teddy Bear & Tag You're It by Melanie Martinez for the beginning and Shameless by Camila Cabello during the smut scene. Just if you want, it helps make the story more vivid and lucid)

(Pics from Pinterest)

"Tate? Ready to go?" I yell up the stairs. "You're taking a trillion years Tatum!" "One sec!" She calls back down. "Jesus, Tate! Its just a party, not prom. Sid, come back me up!" "Tate, hurry up." Sidney says without even looking over so used to our arguing. I turn when I hear footsteps thudding down the stairs, Tatum ready to go. "Finally!" I groan, grabbing her hand to pull her out the door, where Dewey has been waiting in the car for like 30 minutes now. "Wait! How do I look, Y/N?" "Gorgeous, as always. Even if you show up in a ratty old house dress, you'd still look gorgeous. So I don't understand why you need an hour to get ready."

Tatum gives me a kiss on the lips as Sid walks over. "Its called preparation, Y/N." Tatum and I weren't dating but we've been best friends since kindergarten. We've kissed as friends since we were 13. Some of her boyfriends had a problem with it, but Stu didn't care. He knew Tatum and I were besties, nothing more. As we walked out the door, I didn't notice Sidney glaring at Tate in anger and jealously while we held hands.

We pulled into the street across from Stu's house as Dewey climbs out and opens the door for Sid. I slide out after her and Tate after me. "Be careful. I'll be over here, talking to Gale and looking around, ok?" "Yeah, ok Dewey boy." Tatum says, dragging me inside where Stu was greeting people at the door. "Y/N! Welcome to my humble castle." "Seriously Stu, don't put any effort into the theatrics." I smile, giving him a side hug as Tate and Sid walks in and I stay with Stu, greeting people as they walk in.

"Hey, Y/N! I'm going to grab a beer, you want one?" Tatum asks. "No, that's alright. Thanks anyways. Be careful." I tell her, turning back to continue my conversation with Stu about the recent kills that have been happening in Woodsboro. About 5 minutes later, Billy pops out of nowhere at the door. "Jesus Christ Billy boy. I'm gonna get you a cow bell or something so you can't sneak up on me anymore." I laugh, smiling and giving him a hug as I go to find Sid and Tate. "Hey Sid, have you seen Tatum anywhere?" "Um, no I haven't. You wanna come upstairs and breathe in peace without any screaming or anything?" "Sure" I say, bounding up the stairs.

I take a nice big deep breath as I flop down onto Stu's parents bed. "Thanks Sid. You always seem to know exactly what I need before I even know I need it." "I know babydoll. Its what I'm here for." I blush ay the nickname and just laugh it off. I can't help but get flustered at how she stands between my legs and looks down at me. No. I'm single and I'm not looking to mingle. I sit up quickly, looking up at Sidney. "Well thanks again Sid. I needed this but I should probably go downstairs, finish the movie, find Tate, y'know?" "Hmm" she nods. As I stand up, I realize she hasn't backed up. We're so close I can feel her everywhere, our lips inches apart. "Well, bye Sidney!" I call, bounding out the door.

So that was weird. I'll just find Tate and finish the movie. "Hey, Randy! Where is everyone?" I question him as I walk into the living room, seeing it empty. "Oh there was this phone call about Principal Himbry has been killed and is hanging from a football post or something." I jump onto the couch next to him. "You think its true?" I ask. "Maybe. I don't really care though. I just wanna finish the movie." "Alright." I nod, standing. "Where ya going?" "To find Tatum or Billy or Sid or Stu. I'll be right back." Randy's head jerks to look at me. "Kidding Rand. Kinda." "Jesus, Y/N." I laugh as I walk up the stairs to see if Tate and Stu are fucking in a room somewhere like they usually are.

I open the door to Stu's bedroom and walk in with my hand covering my eyes, just in case. "Stu? Tatum? Y'all in here." Suddenly, I hear a loud slicing sound and a gargled shout. "Y/N!" I move my hand and see the Ghostface killer in the mask and Sid laying stabbed on the bed. "Oh shit." I say, turning and running as the killer bounds over the bed towards me. "Motherfucker! I'm too young to die! Shit! Ow! Fuck you, you fucking bitch!" I scream as I run around the house, locking door and creating obstacles along the way. "I am way too out of shape for this shit! Can I have a headstart? Bitch! Randy! Stu! Billy! Tatum? Anybody? Fuck!"

I run into a room with a window and I lay the ironing board across the bottom of the door. "Asshole" I say, clamoring out of the window. I feel someone grab my shoulder as they try to pull me back in. "Bitch!" I yell, jumping as I swing my fist back, hitting them in the face. I groan as I roll off of the boat and land on the concrete. I look up at the garage door and scream and choke out a sob as I see my childhood best friend hanging, dead, from the garage door. I stand back up as I run to the news van parked outside. I bang on the door as the camera man, Kenny opens it and I climb in, slamming the door behind me. I look at the cameras set up and I see Ghostface creeping up behind Randy, preparing to stab him.

"Fuck! Move Randy! Move!" "Move kid!" Kenny jumps out of the van to go inside but I notice the front door is open. I watch the footage of the killer running outside, leaving Randy. "Shit! He's-" I'm cut off with a slicing sound as blood spurts from Kenny's neck. I scream and let out a string of curse words as I clamor out the back hole of the news van. I glance around, not seeing the killer but I see Dewey. "Dewey! Randy! He's inside! The killer is gone and I don't know where he went!" I yell, chest heaving, exhausted. "I knew I should've stayed home." The adrenaline is beginning to fade as I see Dewey walk out of the house. "Dewey! Did you-" I see a knife sticking out his back as he calls out, "run!" Before he collapsed. I see the killer standing behind him, pulls the knife out of Dewey's back and starts bolting towards me.

I start running again even though I want to lay down and cry. But I won't. I pick up speed as I think of my parents, who were also killed by Ghostface. I think about my sister, who is at home waiting for me. I think of Sidney, Billy, Tatum, Randy, and Stu. All for the people I love. After a few minutes, I slow to catch my breath and I see the van lights flashing. I wave my hands around and Gale swerves off of the road. What the fuck? I can drive better than that. Oh shit. Randy. He's still in the house. I start running back already on the brink of passing the fuck out. "Oh Randy. You better thank me for this later. I've never run this much except for the time where that big ass dog was chasing me."

I stop up at the porch and grab Dewey's gun out of his pocket, turning the safety off and pointing it as Randy and Billy come out of different directions. "Oh fuck, Y/N. We've gotta get the fuck outta here! I found Tatum and I think Billy killed her." "No I didn't, Y/N! You know me. Baby, give me the gun." He says, shoving Randy out of the way. "Back the fuck up Billy or I swear to God, I will blow your brains all over this front yard. You too Randy." They both start blabbering at once and I can't focus. "Fuck you both!" I say, slamming the door in their faces. They both continue banging on the door. "Go away! Please leave me alone." I shout, sliding down against the door, burying my head in my knees.

"Y/N?" I hear Sid ask before she tumbles down the stairs. "Oh shit. Sid, you're bleeding! Are you ok?" I ask, running over to help her. She hobbles to the door and holds her hand out. "Give me the gun. It's ok Y/N. I'm here now." I pass the gun slowly to her, no hesitation. That was my final mistake of the night. She opens the door and Randy comes flying in. "Holy shit. Billy's gone mad!" "We all go a little mad sometimes." Sidney turns with a smirk on her face as she shoots Randy in the shoulder. "Oh fuck." Randy says before he falls. "Sidney? What the fuck?" I yell, running over to help Randy seeing he's unconscious.

I turn and I start to run away before running straight into Billy's chest. "Billy please, help me!" He just looks down at me before pulling a voice changer and talking into it. "Surprise, Y/N." I look back at Sidney, who looks at me like what are you gonna do? Bitch. This is what the fuck I'm gonna do. I shove Billy out of my way and I run to the kitchen. Suddenly, Sidney pops out and points the gun at me. "Woah. Woah. Calm down there princess." I back slowly towards the counter. "You fucking bitches. Oh Jesus Chris. I'm so stupid. This is all my fault. My fault."

"Honestly, sweetheart. It is. We killed all these people for you. All for you. Your parents." I choked back a cry. "Your Tatum." Sidney adds. I let out a sob. "Why? What did I do to you?" "Well, princess. You hated your parents, so we got rid of them for you." "But I love Tate." "No! You don't love her. You love us." She told me, picking up the knife from Billy and tracing it down my cheek. The adrenaline from the nights events is wearing off and I begin to actually register what I've done. What I've seen. Sidney stands in front of me and Billy has his head on her shoulder.

"Why? Why me?" "Because we love you, sweetheart" I break down for the first time that night, falling into Sidney's arms as I sob. "Get away from me. Leave me alone. Please!" I start to hyperventilate as I think of Tatum and my parents being brutally murdered. And it was all my fault. My fault that Dewey was stabbed. My fault Randy was shot. I fall to my knees, sobbing. I'm having a panic attack. I haven't had one this bad since I got the news my parents were found. "In and out. In and out. Come on, Y/N. Breathe. In and out." I hear Tatum's voice guiding me as I calm myself.

I stand, looking at the two people who sat with me after my parents died, comforting me, helping me through it when in reality, it was them who caused it. All the pain I feel. It was them. I don't see friends anymore. I see targets. I grab a knife off of the counter and feel it in my hand. Can I really kill them? I love them. But not as much as I love Tatum. Or mom and dad. I don't see Billy so tackle Sid and pin her. Who knew wrestling would come in handy. I pin the knife to her neck and look at her. She's so much prettier up close. "You won't do it, baby girl. You can't." I press the knife down harder as she stares into my eyes.

"Do it."

I raise the knife then drop it with a loud groan of frustration. "Why can't I do it?" I ask myself. I feel myself being suddenly jerked back and something cold being pressed on my black short dress and breasts. "Because you love this. You love all of it. I bet if I stuck my hand down your dress, your panties would be soaked. Sidney, would you like to check?" "Hmm" she nodded, sticking her hand up my dress and brushing them over my pulsing pussy. "Soaked, Billy." I whimper as Billy slits my dress in half, Sidney ripping it off. I realize the position I'm in. I'm straddling Sidney and Billy is holding a knife off to my left.

I'm left in my black bra and panties set and my thigh high stockings. "These fucking stockings, pretty girl. Everyday, you wear these stupid fucking stockings and everyday, I wanna fuck the shit outta you every time I see you in them." I let out a soft whine as I hear Billy's words and I feel Sidney's thumb circling my clit slowly through my underwear. Suddenly, I'm flipped over on my back on the floor and Sidney's by my head, sticking her fingers down the back of my throat. Then, Billy comes up towards my face and I see his cock. That won't fit inside me. In my mouth or my pussy. "Suck it like a slut." He orders as I take his dick in my mouth as to avoid him getting angry.

I moan around his cock as I feel Sid's fingers slide deep inside my cunt, deeper then mine could reach. I suck harder on Billy's dick as he begins thrusting, hitting the back of my throat and groaning at the feeling of me gagging around his dick. Sidney starts pistoning her fingers in and out of my pussy so fast that I reach down to grab her fingers to slow her down. "Oh now now baby doll. You were doing so good for mommy and daddy. Move your hands." Sid commands, slapping my hands away as she continues pistoning her fingers quickly, in and out.

"Fuck" Billy groans as something goes down my throat. "Swallow." I swallow obediently and look up innocently at Billy. "So good for daddy and mommy baby." My pussy clenches harder around Sidney's fingers as I arch my back and let out a loud moan as I cum for the first of many times tonight. "Good girl." Billy comes and trades places with Sidney as Sidney comes to straddle my face. Billy starts rubbing the tip of his cock against my cunt as he starts to push his dick inside my dripping pussy. It won't fit. It won't fit. I'm a virgin! But then he pushes himself all the way in to the hilt as I let out a scream.

He reaches up and chokes me, not enough to where I can't breathe, but just enough to where I reach that fuzzy feeling and drift off into subspace and stopped screaming. Sidney begins riding my face and making out with Billy as he thrusts in and out of my cunt so hard, I see stars and a quickly approaching 2nd orgasm. I let out a cry as I cum for the second time. Shortly after, Sidney comes and I drink all of her juices like a good girl. Sidney sits back and watches and plays with my nipples as Billy's dick disappears in and out of my pussy, his cock coated in red from my blood. Billy pinches my pulsing clit, hard as I cum for a third time.

"Please! No more! No more! Can't take anymore daddy, mommy. Fuck, please no more." "Oh come on, princess. Be a good girl and give mommy and daddy one more. One more. Then you can suck. Ok?" Sidney says as I come again, my eyes rolling back into my head, my hoarse voice screaming mommy and daddy, the tears streaking down my cheeks, all sends Billy over the edge. "We fucking own you. You fucking belong to us, Y/N." Billy groans out. After Billy pulls out of my dripping wet cunt with a mixture of my cum, his cum, and my blood, Sidney cradles me in her lap and let's me suck on her nipple, praising me while Billy goes to get something. I'm not registering anything that's happening except for the good girls and the I'm so proud of yous.

"Good girl. You're mommy's good girl, aren't you Y/N? Mommy's so proud of you. You were so good for mommy and daddy." Billy leans down and gives Sidney a quick kiss. Sidney leans down and kisses me, slipping her tongue in my mouth along with a little pill. "Mommy? What was that?" I asked, starting to feel sleepy. "Just something that will help us to bring you home easier." "Mommy? Daddy?" "Yes, princess?" They say in unison. I bury my head into Sidney's breasts as I mumble two words.

"Fuck you"

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The Great Shift: Happy 30th (13th) Birthday

We've all had to adapt over the years, it's been 4 years since a bunch of random people were affected by the “the great shift” but we've all had to change a bit, including me.

- Hey pop! What time are my guys arriving?-

That huge shirtless muscular man 4 years ago was my little son Jaime and I couldn't be more proud of the man he has become, When Jaime was born we were so worried about his small size and how sickly he was, but now he's as strong as a fucking bull.

-Take it easy champion, all the parents assured me that they will bring your classmates at 3 pm-

But despite his colossal biceps and his great height, he still has the heart of a 13-year-old boy… even when legally He is 30 now. Since we woke up he had not stopped talking about his birthday party, even while we were having breakfast he did not stop looking at the clock and counting the minutes until his little friends arrived.

I hadn't seen Jaime this excited since it was Christmas, and he received his Nintendo Switch and that membership to the hottest new gym in town.

It was 9:00pm when I found out that my son had ended up on the other side of the world in the body of a bodybuilder named Joe, I was watching the news when the “the great shift” happened, It had already been 1 hour since I read him a story to sleep and I slept him in his bed.

The door of my son's room suddenly opened while the reporter on TV was talking about a strange cosmic event that began to affect thousands of people around the world. His eyes showed confusion and disorientation, but I reaffirmed my suspect when he said his first words

-wer bist du? wo zum Teufel bin ich?-

That was definitely not English and definitely that little boy was not my Jaime, I tried to communicate with him through the translator of my phone, but it was not easy at all, immediately the internet, electricity and lines phone lines began to fail due to all the chaos going on throughout the city.

I spoke to "Joe" who was now trapped in the sickly body of my 9-year-old son Jaime, with his help I was able to locate my real son thanks to Joe's cell phone, While Joe spoke with his squeaky childish voice in the kitchen of At home I was trying to calm down my little son who was now in a gym in Germany.

His voice was upbeat, his tone was thick and he seemed to be having a much better time than we were. We were on the phone for hours as Joe and I tried to guide him step by step to his bachelor pad for him to take refuge in, luckily the gym where Joe used to go.

Jaime would occasionally get distracted by how great it was to be in Joe's body, he wouldn't stop talking about his huge muscles and how tall he was now, he was very close to his old home, so it wasn't too hard for him to find his new house.

With the help of Joe's contacts we were able to help Jaime, his family was in charge of dressing him, feeding him and helping him return home. It took 3 long months of paperwork and bureaucracy to be able to exchange the names and lives of Jaime and Joe.

Before long the world government began to calm things down and try to return people to their old lives, although Jaime may never get his old body back, he seems to have fully adapted to his new body.

We have even started going to the gym together after school and my work, he has become the biggest man in the whole gym and the most popular guy in the whole school, Before all this Jaime was very shy and quiet, but now he has become a son a father can be proud.

Even though I wish he didn't leave all his dirty clothes and his stinky sneakers all over the house and his room stinks of sweat and chlorine…maybe it's time to give my boy the "birds and bees" talk or is it too late for that.

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Movie Review: The Barbie Movie

WARNING: SPOILERS AHEAD!

Somehow I managed to see the live action Barbie movie on opening weekend! It took a couple of days, but I made it!

Who isn't familiar with the most iconic fashion doll of all time? Without Barbie, there would be no fashion dolls. Since her introduction in 1959, the one-sixth scale doll has taken over the world with more than 200 careers and at least twice as many fashions and accessories.

But enough about that. Let's get to it. This is a movie review, not a doll review.

The teaser trailer turned out to be the opening of the whole movie, and I love it. Yes, there have always been dolls for little girls to play with. But until 1959, when Barbie entered the plastic world, the only dolls girls had were baby dolls or paper dolls. So basically dolls were a way of preparing girls for a future of motherhood and housekeeping. Okay, that's fine, if that's what you truly want.

So we see all the girls playing with their dolls and suddenly this Godzilla-like doll just pops up out of nowhere, prompting the girls to throw and smash their baby dolls in favor of this new toy. Then we get to a transition scene showing various women in Barbie attire - and they're all actual clothes that have existed over the decades! They even threw in one of the new Fashionista wheelchairs in there and one of the most recent vet fashion packs. When this movie comes out for purchase, I'm totally taking notes of what all outfits I see.

Enter Barbie Land. We've seen a lot of it in the trailers, but I'm still super amazed at the set design. Major props to those guys! They literally designed and built Barbie-size houses and created a layout/cul-de-sac of them in order to recreate them in life size. And there's literally dollhouses! Every Barbie home has a back wall and maybe a side wall or two. The front is always open, so every Barbie can see into every other Barbie's house at all times. Just like a real dollhouse! And inside those houses are various plastic pieces of furniture and decor, along with some stickers. Yep, there are food items in the fridge that are actually stickers, and the stove is also a sticker. Heart-shaped waffles, a slide that spirals down into a pool at floor level with painted water, stationary ocean waves, etc. It's literally a real-life plastic world. I love that! Barbie movies and shows in the past portray Barbie as though she were a real person, and of course her house reflects that. This movie is saying Barbie is a doll and is treating her as such.

The houses also have no stairs in them, so the dolls magically float from floor to floor in their homes, just like how girls move them between rooms. And getting dressed entails seeing an outfit already planned out and magically appearing on the Barbie. Brilliant!

So this all sounds like a cute movie, right? Well, it is, but keep in mind - this movie is rated PG-13 for "suggestive content." When I first heard that, I was like, what..... Not that it bothers me, but this is a movie about the number-one fashion doll in history, and fashion dolls are catered more to young children than anyone. So I was wondering what in the world this suggestive content would be. I would soon find out.

During the narrator's introductions, we meet Barbie's very first friend, Midge. Who, sadly, is no longer even in the Mattel lineup after being discontinued in 2004. You all know the story, right? Midge and Allan (later Alan) got married in 1990 or so, and in 2002, they were reintroduced with their three-year-old son, Ryan, and their infant daughter, Nikki (yes, that was her name - it just came later). Well, Midge came with a magnetic detachable pregnant belly that little Nikki was inside. People flipped at the thought of kids playing with a pregnant doll, saying it encouraged teenage pregnant. (Yeah, okay, sure.) So Mattel re-released her later with Nikki and no belly. That story was mentioned in the movie. Other recalled/cancelled/controversial dolls also made an appearance in the movie, including the infamous Earring Magic King and Sugar's Daddy Ken, along with Growing Up Skipper, Teen Talk Barbie, and Video Camera Barbie. So the movie is educational too! :D

Anyway, we're soon introduced to Ken, who's literally introduced as only being happy when he's noticed by Barbie. After all, he was created just to be her boyfriend. So Barbie's at the beach with all the other Barbies, and everyone is vying for Barbie's attention, including other Kens. So the main Ken decides to show off his surfing skills, only to bang right into the stationary wave and embarrassingly fly back into the sand. This starts a verbal squabble between him and another Ken about "beaching off." Yeah, they're talking about beaching each other off, saying things like "You can't even beach yourself off, I'll beach you off any day," etc. Yeah, say it fast enough, and it totally sounds like something else. There's part of your suggestive content right there. Then Barbie jumps in with, "No one is beaching anyone off!"

Then it's a disco party at the Dreamhouse. Well, one of them, since they're all Dreamhouses. Everything is all fine and dandy, dolls are dancing around in perfect sync, etc., until suddenly Barbie says, "Do you ever think about dying?" But she quickly rectifies this and the party continues. Then she and Ken are outside and Ken asks if he can stay at Barbie's house for the night, to which she asks why. "Because we're boyfriend and girlfriend." "What would we do?" "I honestly don't know." We all know what the implication was...

But it's Girl's Night... as it is every night, so Ken has to leave. "It's Barbie's Dreamhouse, not Ken's Dreamhouse." Ouch.

So, that whole death question thing? It prompts some less than satisfying events, including Barbie waking up with morning breath, having a cold shower (in a house with no water, mind you), a burnt waffle, and - gasp! - flat feet.

Yep, she no longer stands on her toes! Not sure why that was such a huge issue because dozens of Barbies have been made with flat feet, even back in the 90s (including Hot Skatin' Barbie, who makes an appearance later).

So when Barbie explains this to the other Barbies, they tell her she has to go see Weird Barbie, aka the Barbie who was played with too roughly. Kudos for this design lol, Kate McKinnon is portrayed as a doll with a dress covered in Crayon stains, cut/burned-off hair, marker scribbles on her face, always doing the splits, etc. She also owns the dog Tanner, another discontinued Mattel product of a dog that would eat a treat and then poop it out (it was recalled due to magnets getting swallowed by kids). She explains to Barbie that something must be happening with the girl who is playing with her in the Real World, and so she must travel there to see what the problem is to make everything go back to normal - and to not get cellulite!!! Yep, Weird Barbie points out that there is now cellulite on Barbie's thighs, and she's like:

Yep, it's real. Run. So anyway, Barbie then gets in her undersized Corvette (yep, even the Barbie car in the movie is under-scaled compared to real life cars - the windshield is shorter than her head lol) and heads for the Real World with a stowaway Ken in tow. When they get to California (where Mattel's headquarters are), they're both wearing their Hot Skatin' outfits from the mid-90s. That was some great nostalgia.

Skating through LA looking like, well, a couple of dolls, people start staring at the two, and Barbie is getting cat-called. Ken is too, by some guys LOL. When they come up to a group of construction guys, they say sexist remarks and Barbie literally says, "It sounds like you're saying a double entendre, but I don't have a vagina, and he doesn't have a penis." Yeah, Barbie literally said the words vagina and penis.

Eventually the two decide to maybe ditch their skating outfits, so instead don some matching western attire. Yeah, they just happen to find a random shop with a pink western women's outfit and a matching one for guys.

Barbie is searching for the girl responsible for the weird things happening to her in Barbie Land, so Ken goes off on his own and discovers that, in the Real World, men hold all the power and are more than accessories, unlike in Barbie Land. He sees male cops on horses, male presidents on dollar bills, male doctors, etc. He grabs a bunch of books and reads up on this, and he's heading to meet back up with Barbie to tell her about this, except she's been found by Mattel execs (who are aware of two dolls that escaped Barbie Land - much like a baby-sitting Skipper many years ago) and escorted to HQ. So Ken returns to Barbie Land with his newfound information.

Barbie eventually escapes the Mattel suits (led by Will Ferrell, who is playing, in my opinion, his only decent role in a film ever) and is rescued by the girl she was looking for. Well, the girl's mother - it was her mother who prompted the events, not the girl. In any event, the three of them head back to Barbie Land and discover it to be completely taken over by the Kens. Yep, Ken turned Barbie Land into a patriarchy. That word is even used multiple times.

The Barbies are now cheerleaders cheering for the Kens, serving them drinks (yep, beer included), etc. The Dreamhouses have become Mojo Dojo Casa Houses, and none of the Barbies are in charge anymore. So no Barbie president, doctor, scientist, etc. Turns out Ken was having an existential crisis. He then tells Barbie that it's Boy's Night at his house, and it's Boy's Night every night.

So this causes Barbie to spiral into a feeling of failure and depression. Oh, and as all of this is happening in Barbie Land, it trickles into the real world. So Ken's masculine houses and cars start popping up in stores, as does a commercial for Depressed Barbie.

Weird Barbie brings Barbie and the humans to her place, where we're introduced to the other aforementioned outcast dolls. We even get a live-action demonstration of Growing Up Skipper (turn her arm and her breasts grow).

Then the mother gives an inspirational speech that pretty much snaps all the Barbies out of their brainwashed funk. Now, why did they allow all the Kens to take over to begin with? Well, as the mother explained, it was like a virus - the Barbies had no defense over such a thing because it wasn't fathomed to ever even happen. But anyway, one by one, the Barbies return to their former selves and remember who they were. The Kens have planned a vote to change the Barbie Land constitution, so the Barbies band together to basically set the Kens against each other in order to take back Barbie Land. Yep, a movie about a plastic doll turned into a governmental conflict.

The main Ken and the other "beach off" Ken are pretty much rivals in this movie, so each one leads a group of Kens into an all-out brawl. And by brawl I mean they're throwing plastic arrows at each other, bashing each other with tennis rackets, etc. We even see some on hobby horses charging into battle.

Somehow, that winds up in a musical number and then they realize it was voting day. Yeah, too late. They show back up to the cul-de-sac (there is a Monty Python reference here, as they're totally fake-riding horses and making clacking sounds) where the Dreamhouses have been restored to their former glory. Ken is like, "Do these houses look a little more... dreamy?" President Barbie comes down the stairs and says, "That's because they're Dreamhouses, motherf*****." Yep, just like that. They bleep out the second half of that word, but we all know what she meant.

So then Barbie and Ken need to resolve their issues. Ken loves Barbie, but she only sees him as a friend. And Ken says he isn't sure what his role is, only that he was created to be Barbie's boyfriend. "It's always Barbie and Ken, never just Ken." So Barbie tells him that he needs to discover who he is without her. Then the Mattel suits walk in and get ready to close off the portal between the two worlds, when Barbie says she doesn't know what her ending is. And then we're treated to a meeting with Ruth Handler, the creator of Barbie herself. (Not the real person, obviously, but still a great tribute.) Ruth designed Barbie to not have an ending. She's always changing and evolving. That's the point.

But Barbie says she doesn't feel like Barbie anymore. So Ruth takes her to a private area and talks to her, and Barbie basically asks if she can become a human. Why, I don't know. She's a perfect doll in a perfect world, and the human world is a mess. We all know it. That's why we have dolls!!! But yeah, so, Barbie, the number one fashion doll in the world, becomes a human. She takes the name of Ruth's daughter, Barbara (true story, as that's who Barbie was named after), and meets up with the mom and daughter again. The movie literally ends with Barbie (Barbara Handler) saying, "I'm here to see my gynecologist."

Yep, that's the end. Then we get to see pictures of actual dolls featured in the movie (not all of them, but most of them), including the controversial ones. That was a nice touch for anyone unfamiliar with the history.

So, will there be a sequel? Obviously they left it open for one. That's the norm for movies these days. My thoughts? I wasn't entirely sure what I was expecting, but I had kept hearing that the movie has a lot of messages catered toward the government and society as a whole. For instance, when Barbie meets the girl she thought she was there for, the girl tells her that, despite what she believes and what she was created to be, Barbie is a doll that represents a backwards feminist movement and unrealistic body proportions. Basically everything Barbie haters say about her. Mattel knows this is said about their biggest product, and they put it in the movie LOL. Then the whole patriarchy thing, and the feeling of not knowing yourself. It's all there. It's not just a movie about a doll.

So, overall, I did enjoy the movie, but there were some things we could have gone without. The whole vagina/penis thing? How does Barbie even know what those words are, honestly LOL. Noticeably absent were her sisters - we did see Growing Up Skipper, but that's it. And she was one of the discontinued dolls. Allan is in the movie, and there's only one of him as opposed to multiple Kens. He even says that all Ken's clothes fit him, because that's literally what was on the doll box in real life. That was funny. As for the musical numbers, I found them unnecessary. They didn't add anything to the story - only runtime. But I absolutely love the set design and all the clothes, especially the real ones that were created before this movie existed. I think Margot Robbie was a great choice for Barbie. I remember when this was first leaked years ago, there were rumors about Amy Schumer playing Barbie. OMG that would have been a disaster. I can NOT see her playing Barbie. She's just... not Barbie. LOL. And though I wasn't on board with Ryan Gosling playing Ken at first, as he just seemed too old, it actually wasn't bad. And it wasn't going to deter me from seeing the movie.

Overall, I'll give the movie 8/10. Wasn't perfect but I did enjoy it. If there is a sequel, I'm sure I'll see it too!

P.S. No, the song Barbie Girl isn't in the movie. I don't think Mattel is a fan of it because it supposedly makes fun of the doll, or so I read. LOL

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Shelby Sister- Long Lost Sister

I sit in the chapel next to my friends Eloise and Alice

"We have new Governors coming today so chores need doing. Show them how well behaved you are. Now..." matron is cut off by the doors swinging open. I turn around and see 3 men in suits walking forward with woman hanging off their arms "I'm sorry, who are you?"

"We're your new governors"

"Thomas Shelby? my apologies" matron walks towards the man all flustered

"What's gotten into her?" Alice whispers to me chuckling

"My wife and I would like to meet the girls"

"Oh well they all have their chores to do, but I'll be happy to show you around"

"With all due respect matron, but my brother said he would like to meet the girls" one of the other men states.

Later in the day Mr Shelby and his wife walk into the room I'm mopping. I wipe the sweat from my forehead

"Good afternoon, what's your name"

"It's YN sir" Mr Shelby frowns while looking at me

"Tommy" the woman he's with nudges him "I apologise for my husband's behaviour. Please tell us about yourself. What do you like to do?"

"Erm I guess read. Matron doesn't really allow us to play games mam"

"Call my Grace. This is Tommy"

"What do you mean matron won't let you play?

"Well she says we are nothing special, we need to get ready for being a servant because that's all we will do in society"

"How old are you my dear?"

"13 years old mam" Grace looks at Tommy

"Do you think it's her?" I frown feeling confused "she has your eyes"

"YN do you know what happened to your parents?" I shake my head at Tommy

"No. Matron won't tell us about our parents, but we get to keep one item we came here with. I have a necklace with initials on"

"What are the initials?" Tommy asks

"FS"

"It's her Tommy"

"My apologies mam, sir, but I'm rather confused"

"My father had a daughter with another woman outside of wedlock. We've been searching for our sister since we heard about her"

"And you think that's me" I point to myself

"We do. We..."

"Ahhh there you are" matron bursts through the door "Mr and Mrs Shelby wouldn't you like to meet our more... interesting girls"

"Actually no. I'd like her to meet my brothers"

"Oh, but Mr Shelby she has to get her..."

"Now matron" matron looks awkward

"Right, of course. Erm follow me"

I stand in front of the 3 Shelby brothers and their wives. We're in matrons office

"How do we know for sure that it's her?" one of the wives asks

"Linda it's her. Look at her eyes then look at Arthur's. Look at John's and Tommy's. She looks exactly like Katie, well apart from the blonde hair she gets that from Martha"

"Grace is right. There's no denying she's a Shelby"

"Where's the necklace you were on about?" Tommy asks

"Here sir" I pull it from around my neck and hand it to the man. He then looks up at his brothers

"It's her. She's our sister" me? their sister? I have a family?

"I'll find matron" John says taking his wife with him.

They soon return

"I will be taking YN with us"

"Mr Shelby, you can't. I need documentation of proof" matron nervously laughs

"Which I assume you will have?" Arthur states "as matron you should have all documentation of all orphans who come here?"

"Yes, but woman give us false names or they may be anonymous"

"But what if she put down her real name?" John asks

"I will see. What would the name be?" matron gives in

"Josephine Farwell. YN's name would have been Florence Shelby"

"Give me 5 minutes" matron scowls

"Tommy what are you thinking?" Grace looks to her husband

"I'm gonna buy this orphanage"

"Here we go again" Arthur sighs.

A week goes past and now I'm living at Arrow House with Tommy, Grace and their son Charles. I kept my name as YN because I've never been called Florence

"Miss YN tea's ready" one of the house maids comes into my room

"Ok thank you. I'll be down in a moment" I put my book away and make my way downstairs. I go to the bathroom, wash my hands and then I go into the dining room and sit down

"YN how are you finding it here?" Grace asks taking a sip of wine

"It's.. quiet. Im not used to having my own room and not having to clean all day"

"I was wondering if you would like to come and see the horses tomorrow?"

"Horses?" I question

"You ever ridden?" I shake my head

"Well then, we take a trip to the races, I'll phone our brothers later"

"I'd like that. Thank you Tommy" I smile.

[laz-kay]

Only Tina Belcher could give us the neurodivergent anthem we never knew we needed🫶

Fr though, this song and it’s coordinating episode mean so much to me. I’m an eldest child who went undiagnosed until my mid twenties, wondering throughout my entire childhood and teen years why other people thought I was “weird” or “different”. My brother was diagnosed at the age of 2 with ASD, and he’s received help in his schooling, in trying to find a job etc. I’m not bitter towards him because I love him and would gladly jump in front of a train for him, but it still stings knowing there’s many more like me who could’ve received that help in their youth but didn’t because they were AFAB. Tina’s entire character is so fascinating to me, simply because I was her. I was the “weird” girl. I liked very niche fandoms that other people weren’t interested in. I had obscure answers to people’s questions. I wasn’t conventionally clever. I had a very small set of friends and a lot of friends I had to cut off. I was told I was “sensitive”, “creative” and “a good girl”. I couldn’t apply myself at school because there wasn’t an outlet for me to do so. I didn’t understand trends, and I didn't understand why the stuff I liked wasn't cool when I thought it was. I'd say things out of pocket that folks didn't get; I always felt like I had inside jokes with myself. I've been told countless times to "calm down" when I encounter something that excites me, to "concentrate harder" when my brain is so full and wants to explode, and to "not take things so seriously" when a person's negative thought about me will haunt my dreams for years to come. Tina Ruth Belcher is the best neurodivergent rep we've ever been given. Although it's never overtly discussed in the show, we know and they know why she's the way she is. I've been brought up with Tina since I was 13 years old myself (we're the same age lol), and it's been so fascinating to see her character develop as I've gotten older. It's like she's grown up with me through my teenage years, and now she's helping me through my shitty mid-twenties (soon to be late twenties ew). Thank god for this show and for this very fricken special girl. Sidenote: all the Belchers are neurodivergent.

[sunburnacoustic]

Find Your Muse in Showbiz

— Tim Cashmere interviewing Chris for undercover.net.au (October 1999)

Teignmouth, Devon is finally on the map has a generator of international rock acts. The town's first major claim to fame is 3 piece Muse. Guitarist Matthew Bellamy, bassist Chris Wolstenhome and drummer Dominic Howard are three friends who have been playing together since they were 13. The press make comparisons to Radiohead, you can make up your own mind.

Well, we're here with Chris from the band Muse, and I guess we'll move straight into the album Showbiz. You've co-produced four songs on there, are you all studio literate? C: Um, not really, sort of, to an extent. That was done because originally the songs that we did were done before we had actually recorded the album and we did two limited edition EP's and some of those songs were from that. So it was basically an engineer that we knew, he just came in and we co-produced it with him and it wasn't any major production on it really. It was mainly ideas and things like that it wasn't so much the mix or anything like that, mainly just ideas and stuff like that.

Is there anyone you've modeled your production work on? C: Not really! [laughs] [laughs some more]

Well an interesting statistic, and it's from your bio, so bio's are usually full of shit, but you've got eighty songs written, is that true!? C: Yeah, but we've been together for like six years, so if you talk about every single song we've ever done it would probably go over a hundred. But some of them are absolute shit so, but I think probably we've got about twenty or thirty that we play and rotate around the set. We've got the songs off the album and the B-sides and stuff, and a few new tracks as well.

So does that mean that you don't have to write anything for the next six albums? C: It would all be totally new stuff, but if we were to go and do an album now, it would probably be half brand new stuff and half old stuff. But we'd rather wait until we've got all completely new stuff.

Well you've mentioned a few of the great bands of the nineties as your influences but the two that seem to have stuck out... C: Radiohead and Nirvana? [laughing]

Gee, no... no... ahhh... C: That biography really has changed. It was done about a year and a half ago. It was all pretty. We got an NME journalist to do it and he took us for coffee and we did it and it just came out crap. But we're going to change it too, because everyone still thinks we're all twenty as well because that's what it says on the bio, where me and Matt are actually twenty one and Dom's twenty two now, so it needs really updating.

It sure does! Well who are some of your favourite bands around now? C: Um... Rage Against The Machine, Primus, Nirvana, they're good. With the Nirvana and Radiohead thing, what we were actually talking about in the bio was the fact that they were probably the two most influential bands of the decade for most bands. Not necessarily for us, they were just the two biggest guitar bands around really. We were into Nirvana when we were younger, when we were in previous bands we did covers of their stuff, it was what got us into bands really, it was what made us want to be in bands.

That was the cover band Gothic Plague, or was that wrong in the bio too? C: No there were two bands. Matt's band was Gothic Plague, my band was Fixed Penalty.

So they were cover bands? C: Yeah they were cover bands. We did Nirvana and Sonic Youth and a lot of early nineties English bands like The Sexist Things [Note: I think they meant Senseless Things here] and Mega City Four and stuff like that.

I've been there done that, at the parties in the backyard! C: That's it, yep.

Well you've had ridiculous amounts of press exposure, that's your pile of press exposure there [pointing to a 3cm thick pile of Muse articles in my bag]. I've never seen anything like that. Can you remember the first time you read an article or a review of your band? C: Yeah it was probably like local stuff. There's a few local magazines where we're from and they occasionally did a review of the stuff. I can't remember which one, probably when we first did a gig at the Cavern in Exeter, which is like the local venue, probably back in '94 or '95, before we were signed. That was probably one of the first, and it was quite weird because we were all just dead chuffed that our name was printed in a magazine, even though it had a circulation of about twenty.

What about the radio, have you heard yourself there? Well, I'm sure you have. C: I haven't heard it on the radio a lot. I don't really listen to the radio much to be honest, but it was quite weird the first time I heard it on radio, and I was just listening to... do you know Steve LeMac [Lamacq]? The evening session in England?

Can't say I do. C: Well he was playing it and I was just sitting at home with my girlfriend and it came on over the radio and it was really weird.

Well you're quite a young band, although older than your bio is letting out to be. Do you get a lot of people saying "Ahh, they're just kids!"? C: Not really, I think in England especially there was a scene of a lot of teenage bands, teen acts sort of stuff and a lot of eighteen and nineteen year olds were in punk bands, bands like Ash and Symposium and bands like that. We got signed, I think we just sort of escaped that, being labelled with that, and the band itself has been together for six years, so even though we're young the band is not young, it's six years old the band, so I think in that sense the sound is older than we are I think.

Like dog years! Well, Muscle Museum is the next single, as I understand. Why was that song chosen? C: We're not really all that fussy with singles to be honest, because we're not a pop band really it doesn't really matter what songs turn out as singles. I think any song on the album could turn out as singles. It's not a pop album really, it's not like there's any real pop songs on there, so I don't think it matters too much what the singles are.

Well what about the name Muse. Where did that come from? C: Um, I think Matt and Dom did art at school and they had an art teacher and they were talking about art and she just started talking about muses and inspiration and things like that and Matt and Dom went away and looked it up in the dictionary what it meant and we just sort of just thought yeah it sounds like a cool name and it's nice and short, and it looks big when you put it on posters as well. To fill up the space it has to be big, so everyone can always see it.

Muse is quite a big word now that you mention it. I never thought of that, anyway. Do people recognize you when you walk down the street? C: I think the only time it's happened was once in France and it's different from country to country really, I mean now and again, but not very often.

What about muse-official.com, tell us about that. C: It's all right... We've got to sort out the website, we went over to America and got it set up and paid ridiculous amounts of money to get it set up and it's never really been updated since then so we're in the process of trying to get the website back to England and getting someone else to do it, although the fan sites are usually better than our own, so musescjb.net or something like that, that's a really good one.

[chiskz]

《 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐊𝐈𝐃𝐒 𝐗 𝐍𝐘𝐋𝐎𝐍 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 》

♡taglist: @alyszaen , @smh-anon , @neohyxn , @stealanity

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♡ 𝟓𝟎 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒

1. How did you get your name? If you know the reason, please let us know.

CC: Ichi means "one"! I chose this name myself, wanting to become number 1, hahaha.

2. What nickname were you called when you were little?

CC: I didn't have nicknames.

3. What does your family call you?

CC: By my full name.

4. What is your unique charm point?

CC: I'm the best listener in the world.

5. When you were a student, what subjects did you take pride in and what were you not good at?

CC: I was good at a little bit of everything, but nothing in particular.

6. Do you organize your computer desktop and smartphone apps? Do you keep them downloaded?

CC: No, I leave them as they are because my brain quickly gets used to their original arrangement.

7. Do you organize your cameraroll?

CC: I only delete photos if needed.

8. What's your current smartphone wallpaper?

CC: Sleeping I.N.

9. If you were to spend your time off with the members, who would you be with and what would you do?

CC: I want to visit Cat Island with Lee Know.

10. If you had 1 day off?

CC: I would finish the kdrama I started.

11. If you had 1 month off?

CC: I would visit Japan and hang out with my friends.

12. What are your personal preferences for your room and interior?

CC: Sensory board in my room.

13. When you're busy at work or things aren't going as planned, what do you do to refresh yourself?

CC: Work out.

14. What's your favorite number?

CC: 1 and 9!

15. What do you always do everyday?

CC: Bother my members, hahaha.

16. What was the best thing you ate recently?

CC: Cheese ramen.

17. What made you laugh the most recently?

CC: Seungmin makes me laugh every day, so it must have been something he said.

18. What made you surprised recently?

CC: One of my favorite restaurants has closed.

19. What have you searched for recently?

CC: Food delivery website. I still didn't download the app, hahaha.

20. What was your recent dream about?

CC: I don't really have dreams.

21. What do you do when you can't sleep at night?

CC: I go to the room of one of my members, I fall asleep with someone immediately.

22. Is your sleeping position good or bad?

CC: ... I do my best 😭

23. If you could use one magic?

CC: Healing.

24. What would you do if a zombie appeared in front of you?

CC: I would teach him "God's Menu" choreography and debut him ASAP.

25. What frightens you the most in this world?

CC: Being alone.

26. Who is the quickest member to reply messages?

CC: I.N, Felix and me.

27. Which member easily succumbs to loneliness the most?

CC: Me. I can't stand being alone.

28. Which member has the biggest gap between on stage and the usual?

CC: I.N's gap has increased recently. He's getting more confident on stage and his facial expressions are really eye-catching. Offstage, he's still his calm, fluffy self.

29. What do you always do before you go on stage?

CC: Pee.

30. How do you relieve tension?

CC: By using sensory toys. I have plenty of them.

31. Of the 9, what is the thing you're second to none?

CC: I believe it's weightlifting.

32. What are some unforgettable scenes and happenings from your world tour so far?

CC: Energy of STAY is different and equally amazing in every country, so every concert is unforgettable!

33. It's almost the 4th anniversary of your debut and 5th anniversary of Stray Kids. Do you remember when you were 4-5 years old?

CC: 5 years old? That's when I went outside with my sister when it was cold and caught the fateful flu!

34. What do you feel has changed the most since 4 years ago?

CC: My self-esteem.

35. Which member do you think has changed the most since 4 years ago?

CC: I think we've all changed. We have matured.

36. What kind of artist do you want to be 5 years from now on?

CC: I want to be an artist whose fans are proud to listen to him.

37. What would you like to do in 2023?

CC: I want to keep studying. I am thinking about further studies in the field of law and constantly improving my choreography skills.

38. Tell us about the members' TMI today!

CC: I fell asleep in the living room with Bang Chan today.

39. What are the members' standard way of living in the dormitory?

CC: After all, hardly anyone here likes to eat alone, so each of us is always looking for a companion.

40. When do you feel the most joy in doing your job?

CC: When I run around the stage with my members and STAY do nothing but cheer loudly!

41. If possible, can you praise yourself?

CC: It's not possible.

42. What would you like to do with STAY?

CC: Watch funny things on Y*uT*be together and eat popcorn!

43. What do you like about Stray Kids?

CC: Each of them is unique and different, but we all share common dreams and goals. We're family.

44. Any studying tips for STAY?

CC: Use colors in your notes, but don't overdo it! Optimally, 3 to 4 different colors should be used.

45. How do you feel about the fact that you've recently started contributing to songwriting as well?

CC: I thought I would never do it because I was never good with my words. The members, however, inspired me enough that the words came by themselves.

46. So far, you are the only one from Stray Kids to have released your solo album, a digital one. Do you feel better as a soloist or a member of a group?

CC: Ah no no, I've never been a soloist, I've never debuted solo! I keep emphasizing that it's the "CHICHI OF STRAY KIDS" ' album because I want it to be clear. I don't like being alone so soloist's life is not for me.

47. Do members consult you for Japanese language advice?

CC: Yes, although they are already quite good at it themselves! Mostly I work with 3RACHA when it comes to Japanese songs, I help translate or write them.

48. What's the song you can't stop listening to lately?

CC: "Antifragile" by LE SSERAFIM! I think I've been listening to this song at least once a day since its release, hahaha.

49. Do you feel that you are the oldest member of Stray Kids?

CC: Absolutely not. Everyone seems to forget about it too and bully Bang Chan about it (I'm sorry Bang Chan!).

50. One message to yourself from the past?

CC: It's hard and it's going to be even harder. But remember that it will also be worth it!

© copyright : questions 1-43 are translated from original nylon interview by @/innifinity on twt!

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♡ CHICHI in members' answers:

* all members mentioned Chichi as the fastest responder to messages

* all members mentioned Chichi as person who succumbs loneliness the most

* I.N mentioned Chichi as a person who is sometimes more "maknae-line-like" than himself, because she is everywhere, always looking for company and enjoying small things

* Changbin replied that he currently has a photo of Chichi from the restaurant as his phone wallpaper

* Bang Chan, Felix, Hyunjin and Changbin mentioned Chichi as having the biggest personality gap between onstage and offstage ("she seems unapproachable and fierce onstage, but offstage just pat her on the head and she's yours")

♡𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐰𝐭

[shazzeaslightnovels]

Danmachi 19

Author: Fujino Omori

Illustrator: Suzuhito Yasuda

Label: GA Bunko

Release Date: 14 September 2023

My Score: 4/5

English Release: Yen-press is currently releasing this series in English under the title of Is it Wrong to try to Pick up Girls in a Dungeon?.

Note: this edition of volume 19 came with a drama CD that I still haven't had the time to listen to. I'm not the best with just sitting still and listening to something without having anything to stimulate me visually. Hoping to get around to it soon. It seems like it features the Astrea Familia so it should be fun. Maybe I'll write a review of it when I've finished listening to it if it's really good.

This volume starts off with following up on the events of volume 18. We learn what everyone is up to after the war game, with many of the former Freya Familia members now working at the Hostess of Fertility pub. We also get to see a development that I never thought would happen: Lyuu officially joins Hestia Familia. After reuniting with Astrea, she's ready to move on with her life and Hestia Familia is the place where she wants to be. I seriously didn't expect this but it feels like it's been a long time coming. Lyuu being part of the Hestia Familia just feels right. I am disappointed that there were no level ups after last volume though. I really feel like Lili deserved it. I know the level ups are meant to take a long time to happen but Bell levels up far too quickly compared to the rest of the characters.

The main plot of this volume concerns the arrival of the School Grounds*, a ship for students to study all kinds of subjects, including battle. It returns to Orario once every three years and the familia's send a representative there to recruit new members. Thanks to Hermes being up to his old tricks, Bell ends up enrolling in the school under the name Rapi and disguises himself as a rabbit demi-human to get some more experience. There he meets the student Nina Tulle who, along with sharing the same last name, strongly resembles Eina.

It's been a long time since we've had a one volume arc and this is definitely a good breather volume. The new characters were all charming enough, especially Nina, who gets quite a bit of character development and would be a welcome addition to the main cast if she ends up joining it. Aside from being a good breather, this volume also focuses on Bell and it was nice to see just how much Bell has matured since volume 1. Bell's learnt a lot from his experiences and from his friends, and it's nice to see him use those experiences to help the young students. I loved seeing him take on the supporter role in the party, since fighting would surely reveal his true identity. He's able to reflect on what an amazing job Lili does and being a supporter helps him to form strategies for the Hestia Familia as well. Overall, I thought this was a really good follow-up to volume 18 and a perfect way to let the characters breathe before things will surely get hectic soon.

I still have one volume left to read before I've finished the thirteen months of Danmachi releases and that's the new Familia Chronicle volume featuring Lyuu. I'm really looking forward to reading it soon. I've head a lot of fun reading Danamchi this past year. I hope Fujino Omori and the artists are able to get some well deserved rest now. Also, a season 5 for the anime was announced which is very exciting. I hope it gets a similar treatment to season 4 and is a bit longer due to the length of volume 18. I am really excited to hear all of the voice performances for that arc, especially Minori Inase's.

*the wiki calls it the "School District" but as there is no official English release of the volumes where it features yet and I called it the "School Grounds" in my Sword Oratoria 13 review, this is what I'm sticking with for the sake of consistency.

[squidlykitten]

Which OCs are on your mind?!

Current obsession is Yennith Kor! They're a Beern from the Kor-A'ala nariteern. They are currently on the run for ☆.｡.:*Mysterious Reasons.｡.:*☆! They may or may not have escaped from a nationalistic extremist cult I wrote a little bit of their childhood journal, with entries spanning about 4 human years, that's below the cut. (It's not all that long)

5531, 7 MARA

Hello, journal, I am Yennith of the Kor family. Today, my Tion gifted me my very own tablet to aid in my studies, though it will still be a year before I am given my stripes. Tion A'ala says I am very mature for my age, and that soon I will be given many responsibilities. I hope I can do them well.

I am told that soon we will be landing back on Itaan to offload our cargo and to pick up new goods from the local craftspeople. Tion A'ala is very pleased, because they were able to make a deal with the Yuuk-Iitha nariteern, who everyone knows makes the best sculptures of all the Yuuk. I got to sit in on the meeting! It was very exciting, and afterwards we all shared a meal. They must have very good hunters too. We don't get to do much hunting, but at least we are also a bit safer from the Cold.

My parents say to be careful though, because out in the stars is the Cold's home, and it is all around us. I guess that's true, but it is pretty warm here on our freighter. I think sometimes the Tions and parents worry too much about the Cold. It isn't like the old days, when we were stuck on the planet and unable to do anything but the Journey.

I have to go, class will be starting soon and I don't want to be late. Tuufta and Hefian always make such a big deal out of it and say its because I'm not responsible enough to be taking lessons with them yet, and I don't want to prove them right. They can be so rude sometimes.

Journal, please do not tell my parents I said that.

5531, 39 MARA

Today was a wonderful day, journal! You know Gith Yuuk, the friend I mentioned from the last cargo pickup? We've been exchanging messages, and today they told me their gender! Do you think that means that they *like* me? I think it must, because otherwise why would they tell me? I would ask Parent Ithan, but I know they would just tease me endlessly. We made plans to meet up the next time the Kors are in port.

My very first date! It is a little silly how nervous I am about it. And excited. And nervous. We are only going to watch the story-cube they just got in, but still. Maybe I can pick up some new clothes offworld, so I can look extra nice. Or should I just wear my usual things? Would it be pretentious of me to wear offworlder clothes when the Yuuk's are planet-bound?

I can't decide. Oh, I hope it goes well. I don't want to leave the Kors, but maybe they would be willing to come with us? It has to be better than being stuck out in the cold, right?

I guess I'm probably a little young to be worrying about it, but still. They're really fun and we have been having a great time sharing gossip. I never knew how much trouble you could get into on-world, but I guess it makes sense -- lots of time to build up grudges when you have more interactions with the other nariteerns. I hope we re-stock soon -- Ancestor's Day is coming and they won't be able to talk to me while their nariteern is on the move. So frustrating! Maybe I could speak with Tion, say I wanted to go on the Journey to honor the Ancestors. Tions like that kind of thing, right?

5531, 13 Chuul

I heard Ithan and Talia talking today about some kind of war. I know they didn't want me to hear, so it's not like I can ask questions, but it sounds like it might be pretty bad for Itaan, which is stupid. We don't bother anyone! I bet they are just being paranoid as always. They worry so much. I feel bad for the other planets that are being targeted, but I guess living on Cold's heart has its perks since no one else wants to live here.

We're meeting with the Xeethans later today to exchange the Geth family tapestries for more fuel cells, which we can then bring back to Itaan. I'm hoping that means we will be in dock long enough for me to get ahold of Gith. I'm still mad that Tion didn't let me go on the Journey, but they said that maybe next year I could join the Yuuks, once I've earned my stripes. Since I'll be a full adult then, they can't *really* tell me what to do.

I don't know that I will like the Journey very much, but I think it will be nice to try it at least once. I've been thinking about it a lot, actually. I know I said it only because I wanted to spend some time with Gith, but actually I think maybe its the way to go. Tion asked me if I was serious about it, and I said I was and I think... maybe I am. They said that if I was careful, I might be entrusted with the Kor-A'ala eerna, so that I could lay some of the vessels to rest in the Kor family temple planetside.

It feels kind of like the right thing to do, you know?

5532, 30 Taarnma

It's my birthday and my face HURTS. Ithan was laughing at me for complaining, but they had half the stripes to get that I did today! I was honored with the mark of the pilot, the astro-navigator, *and* the mark of maturity. Tion said they would wait to do my accounting certifications until later since maybe I was crying a little bit from the pain of it.

Still, I'm a full adult now, and all that entails. And this year, I am joining Gith on the Journey. And I think after... maybe I will ask them to come back to the Kor nariteern with me. We've talked about it a little, and I think maybe they are willing to do it. It would make things so much easier -- even with the ansible it's not like they always have the chance to check the signals, and going days without word is starting to get painful.

Parent Talia says that young love always hurts a little bit, but I don't think that it should have to. Besides, Gith could learn so much by joining our nariteern, and then even if they decided to go back home to the Yuuk-Iitha, they would have a few new stripes, and that's always useful no matter who you wind up pairing with.

I've been studying the rituals with Tion A'ala and I think I can do a good job of caring for the vessels until I can get them to the temple. I'm planning to weave my own eerna tonight to carry them -- that way I will also have one with me for when I go on the Journey with the Yuuks. It's a little terrifying, but I'm really looking forward to it. I want to get to work on my preparations right away.

...as soon as my face stops hurting so terribly anyway.

5532, 4 Ret

Things are bad here too. Every settlement we have stopped by has been the same -- all the doors barred and the dwellings full. Tion Iitha says that we have to keep going, that the next settlement will have room for us, but I am beginning to think that we will only find more of the same. Where did everyone come from? This had never been a problem in the past, with so many dwelling sitting open and even being used as storage when necessary. Why all of a sudden do we find our homes filled with strangers?

There's a lot of anger here, and sometimes we hear shouting in the night. It doesn't feel safe to sleep beneath the stars anymore, even with the blessings of Spring around us. At least I was able to leave most of the vessels at our temple today, even though the priest seemed a bit worried that I was going to ask to be taken in. Apparently even their lonely ranks have swelled to the point of bursting. So many people, so desperate for a home that they are willing to stay and suffer Beern-Karat's wrath, to feed our ancestors through the Cold. Some seem to think its just a religious resurgence, but the longer I spend on the Journey, the less sure I am of that.

Gith and I have been talking about them coming back with me to the Kors, and I think they almost have to. The Cold is shifting, and the Yuuk are afraid that the younglings will not be warm enough in the night. We just have to keep walking, and hope that we can find a place to stay. There is not enough time to make a new dwelling -- perhaps once we settle we can better prepare the settlement for the coming year.

Tion Iitha has been talking about starting up a night watch, asking all of the young hunters to take up shifts with their weapons, watching those that sleep. In the past, I would have called them paranoid, but now... I'm not so sure.

Everything feels very uneasy, and the dark eye of the Beern-Karat widens above us.

5532, 21 Etty

I [...] separated from the Yuuk. It was so chaotic in the dark that I lost track of everyone. I [...] uninjured, but Gith [...]

I don't [...] to do. I've been wandering for a while now, trying to follow the path that Tion [..] out but I can't be sure that I am going the right way. All of the markers have been destroyed, whether by raiders or by nariteerns just trying to keep the raiders away from the settlements, I can't be sure. All I know [...] and need [...].

Try and make it [...] space port, so I can find my way home.

Ancestors preserve me, my eerna grows heavy. I do not wish to carry the burden of any more vessels. Please [...] protect [..]

[REMAINING ENTRY ILLEGIBLE]

[draiochteve]

A continuation of my new step in life

I know I've been scarce, but I've been so busy I just haven't taken the time to drown myself on socials like I use to.

It's been almost a week since he landed and my world has changed so much. My parents are upset he didn't stay with us longer and wanted to rush to the apartment, but as stated before he can only handle them for so long. He's settle in and despite being homesick and having his frustrations (it is a culture shock for sure) he is adjusting well. All of his things arrived and we are slowly filling up the apartment with our lives.

I've spent nearly every day with him, only coming home when my family demands which is at night. Why the fuck they thing preventing me from spending the night will stop us from fucking is beyond me and my uncle also finds it ridiculous, but he's at least helping protect us and giving us plenty of time alone before my shifts. I've honestly really considered walking over to the courthouse and just getting shit done to avoid having to come home again, but I know that will cause more issues than solve problems rn.

I've gotten to play more of FFXVI and I'm just falling in love with new inspirations again. We can watch whatever movies and shows we want pretty openly without fear of someone barging in. I get the joy of finishing work and easily walking over to our apartment to settle into his arms and relax. We are as content in doing our own things as we are snuggling on the couch. It's very peaceful and it makes me mourn how long it's taken to get to this point.

As embarrassing as this is to admit (and this is pretty traumatizing I will warn), I am a touch starved person. I am in the situation where upon developing enough in my AFAB body around 13, all the men in the family (which is most of everyone in the house) were ordered to no longer touch me. It's a long conversation about how easily sexualized I was and considered a temptation to even my own brothers 8+ years older than me, and there is an even longer conversation to be had about how fucking common this is in evangelical households, but I have not the energy.

That background, however, has always left me in an odd spot with intimacy and relationships. I am easily overwhelmed yet crave the physical. I've never been able to find a happy medium in past relationships and this one was hard for me to prepare for as we've been dominantly long distance for so long. I knew when we were together that I felt more comfortable than with anyone else, but with what fleeting time we had there is no proper judge of how that will be in the long term. But this...there is a balance I've needed all this time I finally have. Dalton is patient and attentive. He is understanding and we compliment each other well. Maybe it's just because we are two traumatized, anxious people that it just ends up working out idk. But whatever it is, it's working.

To top it off, we've done so much exploring around town it's amazing. Something that's always fucking bothered me is my family sheltered me terribly after I was born and seemingly forgot they did so. Where my brothers grew up walking around the town I will be living in, I never did. My biggest outings were shopping or when my old friends would sneak me out way outside of the range my parents agreed to. This means I know next to nothing about the town I will be living in despite living not so far away from it and my parents have a habit of looking at me shocked when I say I never have been to that local drug store or the coffee shop around the corner. It's because I haven't because I was rarely if ever able to. They did it a million times growing up and just lost touch I suppose.

But today, I got to finally have those firsts. We walked 2-3 miles today. I found paths and walkways I've never seen before. Explored stores I never knew existed. Got to see so much that always been right here yet I never got to see. To Dalton it was a pretty boring walk to get his general bearings around town, to me it was an adventure. And he realized as much really fast and ended up walking way more than he really wanted to just so I could get a better taste of what freedom will be. I have blisters, but each one was worth it. And soon, I'll be able to walk these ways on my own. Why aren't I already you may be asking? Because I can't risk family or my father driving to a customer seeing me alone because I am not allowed to walk anywhere in town alone (I've done it a couple times secretly but they were brief and I more or less jogged to get where I wanted and back before I was missed). I can only have that should my husband decide it's okay and unfortunately Dalton is not yet. The entire situation really pisses him off and I know how frustrated he is by it, but I appreciate him deeply taking the time to navigate that and spend a day wasting time exploring.

September 30th and these stupid fucking games will be over with. September 30th and I am released from a fucking life I never asked for.

So why am I typing all of this here? To document it I suppose. To scream out to the world this is happening and did happen. This is where I am right now -- on the cusp of what should have been mine a long time ago.

I'm sorry fic updates are not coming, but I need this release and relief. I feel like I'm finally living. And while I will eventually return to my keyboard and phone, that is not what I am to do right now. I've spent most of my life escaping in my head. Now, I don't necessarily have to. So, I thank everyone again for the patience with me. And I thank everyone for their well wishes last update. I'm sorry I startled/disturbed some with the details of my life. I haven't been too secretive, but they've been said in places easy to miss or lose. This is a little more solid.

I've been in a fucked up place for so long. I've been suffering for so long and not rocking the boat for my own safety. It has to be known because this is a part of me even if it's one I am finally moving passed.

It's finally happening.

[loganwritesprobably]

Hello everyone

My name is Logan and I am an avid teen wolf fan, and roleplayer.. and I'm here to advertise!

I have five servers to advertise currently, with one upcoming. Full descriptions will be below, but here's the short versions:

What if the Hales didn't burn in the fire?

What if everyone died except the core four (Allison, Lydia, Stiles and Scott) and they ended up on a new timeline?

Teen wolf but college

Teen wolf next gen

All the Hale adults died in the fire except Peter, the children lived, except the mighty Hale pack has extended family to count on

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All of our servers are 100% LGBTQ friendly, with queer staff around to ensure that is maintained. It's also a safe place for crack ships, weird choices, mental health discussions and sensitive topics - provided it is done in a safe/kind way.

All of our servers also use tupperbox, a bot that allows you to send messages with use of a bot (admins can help if you're unfamiliar) and we write at a semi-literate level.

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One - Teen Wolf: Hale Survival

In a world where the Hale fire never happened, where Derek Hale trusted his uncle Peter enough to open to him about his new, hot and older girlfriend, what would happen to the rest of Beacon Hills?

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When Derek opened up to his uncle, best friend and father figure Peter about Kate Argent, the Hale family fell into chaos, spending months working with the Sheriff's department to get her behind bars - and they succeeded, inadvertently saving their lives.

The Hales survived, but little eight-year-old Stiles and Noah couldn't do anything against Claudia's fronto-temporal dementia. The Stilinskis were decimated, but the McCalls were there for them, as were the Hales.

Growing up around Werewolves meant Stiles was more in touch with himself, and discovered some latent magic within him that he has been learning to harness with the assistance of Alan Deaton, Druid and Hale emissary.

But, things are about to change. Hunters are moving back into town, Jennifer Blake has her eyes on the Nemeton and the Alpha pack is hot on their tail.

How will they cope? Will they?

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WHAT WE OFFER:

› Extended Hale Family:

Since the Hales didn't die in the fire, Derek has aunts, uncles and cousins galore.

› OC Friendly:

Not everyone is down for playing canon characters, and that's totally fair, so we have plenty of space for you to use your own characters.

› Alpha Pack & Jennifer:

We've revamped the plot of 3A for our own personal use, with a few changes and additions just to change it up a little.

Link Here!

Two - Teen Wolf: Second Chance

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"They're all gone."

"What do we do?"

"We go back."

The year.. was 2016. Everyone was dead. All that was left standing was Scott McCall, the True Alpha; Stiles Stilinski, the Spark; Allison Argent, the Hunter Matriarch; and Lydia Martin, the Banshee. They'd lost everything, but had one final hope. A spell.

This spell would turn back time, it would take them back to 2013, the spring when everything began and Scott first got bitten by Peter. They'd be able to change everything and nobody would have to die. Except.. something went wrong.

Instead of being in Their 2013.. they're somewhere else. A new timeline. A time when nothing went wrong. No Hale fire. No Paige drama. No Kate and Gerard. No Dread Doctors. No Deadpool. The Supernatural is public knowledge, and the only ones that know where they've come from are the four.

Everything is.. safe?

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We offer:

› Original Plot -

As this is an AU that is dramatically different to the canon series, the plot of our server is entirely original and leaves plenty of room for you to develop characters as you'd like, create unusual relationships between characters and have plot lines that are entirely your own.

› +13 members -

Our server is open to those aged thirteen or older, but there are specific sections available for those over eighteen to engage in topics that would not be appropriate for those who are younger.

› Very OC friendly -

We offer two slots for people to create OCs alongside playing canon characters. You can do next to anything with your OC, within reason, provided that admins approve.

› A lot of canon characters available + original Hales -

Taken canon characters are Scott, Stiles, Lydia, Allison, Isaac, Erica, Boyd, Derek and Peter, all other canon characters are available to be played. We have our own original Hale family tree with face claims provided for you to be able to play them and can either put your own spin on them or use provided templates.

› Grimoire and bestiary sections to improve the lore -

Our Bestiary currently boasts 17 species that are available for you to play, plus the chance for you to submit your own species entries to further expand it. Ten of those seventeen are not original Teen Wolf species, so you have lots of freedom. Our Grimoire provides entries on magic, herbs and rituals to expand the magical world, also something you can add to.

Link Here!

Three - Teen Wolf: College AU

Dear New Students:

Welcome to College! You are about to begin one of the most exciting times in your life. Study the career of your dreams in one of our eight prestigious schools, make friends, and maybe, if you're lucky, find out about the supernatural world that's right under your nose!

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After the Hale fire, Peter Hale was under a coma for four years, in which the recently turned Alpha, Laura Hale, moved to New York to escape the dangers that could still exist in Beacon Hills. When Peter woke up, he chose to become an omega because he didn't agree with Laura's actions.

Deucalion Blackwood decided to use his skills and Alpha's charm to become a professor at college, taking in strays if needed. His first stray? Peter Hale.

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We Offer:

› OC Friendly:

You're welcome to make OCs and insert them into our story, every university needs plenty of extra students and with only so many canon characters, we'd love OCs to add just a little something extra.

› 13+ Members

We ask that all members be thirteen or older to join us, but we do have specific sections for exclusively those over eighteen to share/talk about/rp more mature topics

› Whole university!

We've created a totally original university, with four campuses, subjects split into eight academic schools and even accomodations listed for students to live in, there's plenty of lore to go around!

› Canon did not happen

This gives you the freedom to create stories with canon characters and add your own personal spin to them if you plan on playing them. Characters who do know each other mostly met at college (Scott and co. are second year students).

Link Here!

Four - Teen Wolf: New Horizons

Welcome to Teen Wolf: New Horizons!

This is a Next Generation server, where you can make OCs that are the children of your favourite characters.

Set in the year 2022, there are new packs, old packs, new friends and old ones all changing the world, still living out of Beacon Hills. Come join us in the chaos!

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We offer:

› +13 members -

Our server is open to those aged thirteen or older, but there are specific sections available for those over eighteen to engage in topics that would not be appropriate for those who are younger.

› A lot of canon characters available -

The server is new so there is still plenty of canon characters available to have you make children of, and even those that are taken, there could be room to still make additional children.

› Original Story for canons -

While this server does have a focus on the children of canon characters, you can still play and make stories for canon characters, and can make children from unusual pairings! We don't ship shame here

Link Here!

Five - Teen Wolf: Hales Extended

Freshly awoken from his coma and now an Alpha, Peter Hale has a mystery to solve. His family was burned alive and he doesn't know who started it, though he suspects plenty of foul play. While he was stuck in the hospital, his extended family arrived in town to close ranks and look after the children left behind, as he was the only adult to survive the fire.

Will the Hales find out who their emissary is, and what he did? Will they find out about the path that he is on, and the plans he has for Beacon Hills, or will their little town fall to discord and death?

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› Original Hales

Every roleplayer is required to play a minimum of one Hale extended family member, as this is the main premise of the server.

› Mystery Element

Peter is freshly woken and trying to solve the mystery of the fire, which any characters could have a chance to join in on. The admins of course have the actual plot written, but it's a secret

› Canon characters

As this is a server with a more heavy OC focus, there's plenty of canon characters still available for you to play if that's more up your street!

› Bestiary

Our Bestiary currently boasts 17 species that are available for you to play, plus the chance for you to submit your own species entries to further expand it. Ten of those seventeen are not original Teen Wolf species, so you have lots of freedom.

Link Here!

Feel free to comment or message me any questions you may have before you join, if that's something you wanna do

[nightmare-foundation]

I keep seeing and impulsively checking the blog of an old fairly toxic friend of mine n I just.

Man. Why do YOU have to be doing well. Why am I the only one who looks back and ends up feeling awful.

Not that I want him to suffer. It's better he doesn't. But like,, I'm always the one on the chopping block between the two of us. It's been 4 YEARS and one month since we've completely ceased contact. Yet my dumb ass STILL can't not think abt him at random

Like,, I'm sure I wasn't completely innocent. I was a really weird 13 year old who never had a genuine friend before, not to mention my mental illness and trauma I had yet to uncover. Yet the only person who never communicated nor seemed to care about our friendship was him. I could be pushy at times, yeah, but I always backed down if told no and whatnot.

Not only that, but I'm still annoyed that he straight up LIED about me and what I was like. One of his (ADULT) friends had contacted me in late 2018, claiming I was, and I quote, "manipulative, misgendered him, and used him as an emotional dump truck". I was 13 years old, and my only friend besides one other person had blocked me for no reason.

Literally for that WHOLE month, I was terrified. I had panic attacks and was anxious as hell. And I'll admit I was a little dependent on him, but I was still fucked from that experience.

Once we started talking again and boundaries set up. He SORT of apologized, but always insisted he was an awful friend, so I ended up having to comfort him instead. I always made excuses and everything for him, convinced that I was awful. And literally like,, there was no effort put in from his side after that. Aaaand then April 2019, I was suddenly messaged and blocked, and that was the last time we talked.

I was hurt obv but like. After that. I kept on being targeted by his adult friends (we were both 14, the friends were at LEAST 23+). Deadass I still don't know what the hell was said abt me but I KNOW it wasn't good. Bc before I knew it I had someone call me a pathetic bitch while I was having a panic attack over feeling guilty for shit I didn't do, then I was banned from like 3 system servers for "interacting inappropriately with a minor". Cue me literally being 14 at the time, a csa survivor, with no evidence even when I asked repeatedly for it, with literally no access to anyone younger than me bc of discords TOS.

The stress from that LITERALLY made us split several times and caused us to switch hosts. Sammy, the alter who was host at the time, is likely STILL dormant. All of that happened in practically the same year.

I'm still fucking baffled by it, angry, and hurt. It's been 4 damn years and I'm 90% sure he doesn't even remember us now.

Like,, christ I still can't interact with the undertale fandom for long bc it makes me remember him. I can't even look at art styles resembling his bc it makes me sick! I am TERRIFIED of venting bc I'm scared someone will lash out at me or accuse me of dumping all of my trauma on them. I'm scared I'm doing something wrong without knowing it and that tomorrow I'll wake up to having no friends bc they all blocked me.

Hell, I have issues trusting people who use the same name as him! I avoid a whole GROUP of people because I'm terrified they'll recognize me and start drama with false claims. Anyone who may have been so much as NEAR him I can't completely interact with besides a couple reblogs here and there.

And like,, I'm sure he's doing completely fine. That he's entirely unaware of the damage he caused. And, yeah, good for him, he's not suffering like I am. But also,, I'm painfully envious. I wish I was left pain free.

It's so stupid. It was 4 years ago. I really need to get over it.